by Kim Olsen, Warwick, Australia
My path to make contact with the esoteric and Universal Medicine was kicked off by an incident. I fell and badly broke my left hip. Up to this point I had been doing what the world expected of me (to me now, that felt like going through the motions of living). I had been suffering hay fever and sinus problems for more than 20 years.
Previously, as a teenager I had needed to have my tonsils removed. I was overweight and showing early signs of a heart attack-in-waiting… I am sure I was heading for cancer as well – if the heart attack did not kill me first.
So when I was 36 I had this fall which left me immobile for 3 months. My hip was fractured, I had scarring on my lung and bruising on my heart. While I was reflecting on this in hospital, I realised that I had not been listening to my body and the messages it was trying to give me. I resolved to do so from now on.
From a temporal point of view, this resolve (alignment to my soul) set me off on a disastrous path. I lost 3 good relationships and much of my assets (worldly). However, I have through this journey found who I am, and to me now that is all that really matters. Looking back, I realised I would lose relationships if I did not express as me in them. I had taken on an adage to be what I thought others wanted me to be.
Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are? It is so lovely to be confidently expressing now as me.
I was now seeing much of the world and the way I was, as it was. At one stage my spectacle prescription improved back 5 years as I started seeing in-truth how my relationship was. The optometrist agreed that my sight had improved, but did not have an understanding of what I was proposing. I realised that our world was full of paradoxes about how things are. All our worldly truths I could see as part truths hiding the real truth.
Then in 2004 I did a Heart Chakra 1 with Serge and Universal Medicine. It felt so good and familiar. I then kept doing what I was doing until 2009 when I came back to Universal Medicine.
You may wonder why I did not continue then, however looking back, I needed to see more things I wasn’t, which ultimately help define what and who I am. So in 2009 I returned to the esoteric associations and Universal Medicine with a knowing that most of the difficulties we face in this world would be lessened or removed if we felt empowered. I have personally found that empowerment… initially coming as a realisation that I can be me anywhere, anytime and with anyone. Then I found the keys within as to how to manifest this. It is a simple, very fulfilling way to live, to let go of the shackles of doing, and be.
Over the years I gave up dairy, alcohol, sugar and gluten as I saw how these substances dulled my body and my sensitivity. I can see that my sensitivity was compromised by these substances in a way that made it impossible to be aware of their influence, which adds to the arrogance of knowing that what we are doing is right. I now at 58 feel the best I have done health-wise since about age 16, and wellbeing-wise since I was about 5. I no longer get hay fever or sinus conditions. My circulation problem, highlighted after the broken hip, and the swelling in my legs is gone. My propensity for sunspots on my skin has diminished and I have watched areas heal one at a time. I sleep well every night. I never get caught up in reactions to events and what people say and do. The list goes on and on.
So to say Serge and Universal Medicine have done it for me would be wrong. What I have found from being an esoteric student is a rebuilding of my confidence in my feelings, to be now at a point where I trust them and my feeling of the energies, implicitly. Also I have gained a confidence in my feelings and their messages.
167 thoughts on “My Journey Home”
It seems to be so ‘101’ doesn’t it Kim, that we can honour the knowing that we have within – listen to, and build a relationship with what we feel, as a foundation-stone for life. And yet, we are not as a rule raised in confirmation of this – instead offered a plethora of others’ knowledge, how-to’s, and ways of living that we are meant to live by, keep up with even…
What you’ve shared here, in your own relationship with yourself, is therefore gold, for it is within all of us to rebuild our inner knowing that we may live in the fullness – and not diminishment – of all that we innately and naturally are.
“I can see that my sensitivity was compromised by these substances in a way that made it impossible to be aware of their influence, which adds to the arrogance of knowing that what we are doing is right.” Wise words and exact truth. Choosing to act in a way that is not true will cover up the way of seeing truth. Great to note and a simple fact.
The behaviour of doing to gain love is a big one to master. It can creep in sometimes without me realising it when I’m on my own and when I’m in the company of others but I am beginning to become aware of when I do fall into this trap especially when I’m with another who is evidently reflecting this way of being.
We are taught in school to just be confident, stand tall and be confident, but I never knew what that meant or even what that was. I also saw that once I had confidence I would be okay, I would speak up, I would not let people treat me badly and I would be able to make decisions with ease and do whatever I pleased. But that wasn’t it either, and just kept me in constant anxiety, because I wasn’t ticking any of these things. A confidence for me now comes with me honouring what I feel to do and following it through, listening to my body and staying with my body.
Discovering my confidence levels were directly related to the way I treated and honoured my body was ground-breaking for me, the more I took care of my body and claimed and expressed the truth, the more and more confident I felt. Who says confidence is something you’re either born with or without?
Or grows as we get older? I feel I was confident when I was born, quiet but confident but from the age of five my confidence began to slowly diminish as I began to give up on life. I became extremely introvert and shy and would blush every time someone would speak to me. My confidence is growing and I have seen a big change over the past 18 months as I express more and more what I feel to say.
Yeah great point, if anything our confidence diminishes as we grow up and lose more and more connection with our body. But not to say this cannot be rebuilt at any time we choose.
I love your explanation of rebuilding confidence in your own feelings. The turnaround in your health and quality of life is a confirmation that you are on track.
Realising that we will ‘loose’ a relationship if we start to express what we’re truly feeling or sensing we could say isn’t really a loss at all – because we’re letting go of a falseness, and if someone doesn’t want us in our truth then it’s more their loss than ours…
I agree losing something that isn’t true isn’t actually a loss, no matter how much we may consider it a temporal physical loss at the time. And absolutely – if someone doesn’t want us in our truth then it’s only our loss if we hold back.
Meg and Fiona what you have said here really resonated with me
“if someone doesn’t want us in our truth then it’s only our loss if we hold back.”
When we hold back the love we know to be true then we are saying to the world it is okay to stay as you are, and it is not okay because the world is in such a mess and we are blind to the mess we are in. It is the blind leading the blind. We need people with eyes wide open to lead the blind from the mess that has been made by all of us. That is why we cannot hold back what we know to be true.
I completely agree Mary – if you really love someone then be the change that is needed in the world. It’s a matter of seeing the long term picture and what is possible if we take those first steps forward, rather than continually trying to balance the status quo.
Yes isn’t it strange how we can make things complicated when they can be so very simple. Great for us all to see that it’s possible to go the easy way, thanks Kim.
I loved what you have shared Kim, I can so relate to these words ” I have personally found that empowerment… initially coming as a realisation that I can be me anywhere, anytime and with anyone. ” that we are ok in claiming the love that we are and just be.
‘Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are?’ I can totally relate Kim as this is how I lived until I began to shed all the layers that were not me and to embrace and live who I truly was.
Serge Benahyon simply reflects and presents the way he lives and the rest is up to us. No pressure, no demands, no expectations. We can take it or leave it. For me, his reflection is inspirational and has support me to make many very loving changes in my life and continues to be so.
There is no greater treasure than to unearth who we truly are. No riches can compare to this light and this loveliness. It was there on the day we were born but gradually masked by all we have come to live in its place. Peeling off these false layers is a very liberating experience, for in it we give permission to ourselves to stop acting our way through life and just be who we were born to be, in all our true majesty.
Yes Kim, Serge and Universal Medicine do not ‘do it for’ anyone. It is very much the responsibility of each and every one of us to choose and be it for ourselves and it cannot be any other way.
‘Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are?’ I do Kim, for I used to live a life of fitting in with everyone simply because I did not know who I was … I loved reading your story of how you restored your confidence in your own feelings again.
Regaining our confidence in what we feel and expressing what we feel is such an important part of life – that’s super cool you have rebuilt your feeling abilities 🙂
This comment is key for me Kim “Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are?”
How wonderful Kim that you chose to turn your life around from one of disregard to one of self-care and trust within yourself and by doing so connecting back to your essence of love – back home – back to you. So many of us have been inspired to take responsibility for our choices and to make self-loving changes in our lives through the teachings of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine benefiting not only ourselves but indeed everyone.
Coming back to this blog, and also reading through the comments, it is very obvious that your words: “Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are?” resonate strongly with many. So why is it that as adults we don’t have a clear sense of who we truly are, with that not knowing resulting in a raft of issues, including a lack of confidence, a lack of self worth, and possibly a seemingly endless search outside of us trying to find who we really are. This is where the presentations of Universal Medicine play such a huge role; offering insights into how there is another way to live, presenting simple tools to support us to reconnect to our true essence, and offering us such wonderful reflections of how life can be lived to its fullest.
‘Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are?’ Yes, Kim, I know this well. I spent a small fortune on self-help books and practitioners of all sorts of traditional and out-there therapies to fix that lack of confidence and to discover who I was. You could have knocked me down with a feather when Serge Benhayon shared upfront, you are all masters of life, you know it all. Well it is a work in progress but I now know that the more comfortable I am in my own skin, and the more I allow the real me to speak without fear or favour, the more confident I am to be more of me and the more stress free and flowing my life.
It’s true Kim, it’s very difficult to be confident when you don’t know yourself, for if you don’t know who you are, your potential has no foundations to blossom from.
There is nothing like a serious and significant health incident to awaken ourselves to the importance of listening to and appreciating the wisdom of our body and expose how we have been living that has not been so loving which in turn if the opportunity is embraced, blesses us with the opportunity for true change to be introduced into our daily lives.
What a great recipe for life these words you speak Kim: “to let go of the shackles of doing, and be”; and to be all that we are and bring that to the world is when change begins. Thank you for sharing your inspirational “journey home”.
I have come across several students of Universal Medicine recently who have had their eye sight improve due to the choices they are making to see and live the truth. I find these extraordinary medical miracles and yet they don’t stop just with sight… the healings that people have experienced from living the principles presented by UM are truly profound and a testimony to the true power of committing to a life where listening to your body is deeply honoured.
This really stood out for me Kim: “Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are?” We make the choice to leave ourselves at such a young age to fit in with what we think society expects of us – how can we then possibly know who we are? What Universal Medicine is showing is the way back to that connection to ourselves and to who we innately and divinely are.
“What I have found from being an esoteric student is a rebuilding of my confidence in my feelings, to be now at a point where I trust them and my feeling of the energies, implicitly. Also I have gained a confidence in my feelings and their messages.” I am moved by what you write here Kim in fact I have tears of joy in my eyes as I know for me too this has also been the case.
“I never get caught up in reactions…” – this is such a beautiful thing to claim. What a blessing for all around you. And that is the power I have, too. I can be that light for my family and friends, too. It’s worth to take those choices.
Very very beautiful Kim. I absolutely love what you share, especially the part about your ‘break’ from Universal Medicine. This shows that your choices have been all your own and you have rightly and beautifully claimed this in your article.
“Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are? It is so lovely to be confidently expressing now as me.” Thank you Kim, a lovely blog to read and be inspired by as I deepen my relationship with myself.
My journey home is an accurate assesment of what Universal Medicine is offering, modalities and livingness techniques that guide us back to our true essence
“Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are? It is so lovely to be confidently expressing now as me.” Beautiful Kim. Universal Medicine has supported so many of us to return to who we truly are.
“I have personally found that empowerment… initially coming as a realization that I can be me anywhere, anytime and with anyone” – what a powerful statement Kim! We ‘all’ have the opportunity to be ‘me’ – regardless of race, gender, age, professional etc. – and the best part is we don’t have to go anywhere outside of ourselves to find this… all we need to do is to connect to within.
“Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are? It is so lovely to be confidently expressing now as me.” Kim, this had me saying ‘yes, yes, yes’ but it wasn’t until I read it that I deeply appreciated why I used to be so lacking in confidence. Re-connecting to who I truly am I just have to be me wherever I am and anyone I am with.
Thank you Kim for sharing a great blog can relate to having no confidence and then realising that I can be me anywhere, any time, and with anyone, and that I am enough, not by the doing but by being me.
The journey continues.
Hallelujah, the coming home with Universal Medicine is a consistent experience that deepens and deepens and „home“ grows day to day.
It is indeed me that as a student of Universal Medicine have made that changes needed. And started to feel, and know that those feelings are true and something to work with, not just let them be but act on them.
“Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are? ” What an awesome line Kim. Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine have reminded me who I am. Since this reminder I have noticed that I have tried hard to deny the truth that has been presented to me. Your words remind me how important it is to stay present and remember who I am.
Kim what you share is very inspiring to read, this line stood out to me -‘ I now at 58 feel the best I have done health-wise since about age 16, and wellbeing-wise since I was about 5.’ – Wow this is not only amazing but proof that what Universal Medicine presents truly works and supports our health and wellbeing enormously.
I like your question / statement “Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are?” That is so true – life is very hard, when you have lost your connection to your inner being – then there is no reference point and we get lost in the world without knowing what is true and what is not true. I’m very grateful about Unimed and Serge Benhayon – their reflections showed me how to connect to myself.
“All our worldly truths I could see as part truths hiding the real truth.” this is profound and such a great explanation of the upside down life we have created. Often we are in so deep that we don’t even realise that the way we are living is not in fact the true and most supportive way. But not only do we not realise we are living lies but we defend them as the truth, as the illusion is so thick around us.
Kim I absolutely love that you have shared your journey home with us. Wow good on you to face what needed to be faced and come through emerging as your real self. It just shows we can all the temporal success we could want but nothing ever satisfies and truly evolves us if we do not have first connection with our soul.
It is interesting how we can all live with very different perceptions and understandings on life and basically not fully let ourselves understand another and where they are coming from. In essence the issues we have with understanding ourselves are no different to those we have with understanding others, the more we truly understand ourselves and our bodies the more we generally understand others and their ways of seeing and expressing in life.
This is a magic question: “Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are?”
I remember moments in time, not long ago, saying to myself: ‘it’s Ok, just be yourself’… and then not having a clue what that feels. It’s a hell of a lot more fun to yourself than anyone else!
These are the words that jumped out for me too Oliver. Trying to be “yourself” when you really have no idea who you are is a very lost and complicated place to be. And I have finally learned that now I have let go of the masks and the roles, simply being me takes no effort at all, and as you say; “it’s a lot more fun”!
Beautiful Kim, that you came to the work in your own way and in your own time. You did what felt right for you.
Deeply inspiring Kim, as it shows that we each have a choice in the life we lead, it is beautiful to feel how loving yourself and making choices that love and support you and your body has made such profound changes in your health and wellbeing. A true testament to you.
An inspiring article Kim. “…most of the difficulties we face this world would be lessened or removed if we felt empowered.” As you discovered, developing the confidence to trust what your body is telling you is very empowering.
Your story is deeply inspiring Kim, thank you for sharing your revelations and experiences. Love that your health has completely shifted to the point of your eye sight improving, this is so cool and proves that our bodies are really our best friends, if we choose to treat and honour what they have to say about how we are living.
‘I can see that my sensitivity was compromised by these substances in a way that made it impossible to be aware of their influence, which adds to the arrogance of knowing that what we are doing is right.’
This is a huge realisation Kim and one that helps me understand my choices in the past and to not judge others choices.
Thanks Kim for your sharing, starting to see the truth and having it reflected by improved vision, makes miracles a natural occurrence when we choose truth.
Thank you Kim for sharing your story. An awesome testimony of how Universal Medicine supported you to make different life choices and build a life full of vitality. Great sharing!