by Kim Olsen, Warwick, Australia
My path to make contact with the esoteric and Universal Medicine was kicked off by an incident. I fell and badly broke my left hip. Up to this point I had been doing what the world expected of me (to me now, that felt like going through the motions of living). I had been suffering hay fever and sinus problems for more than 20 years.
Previously, as a teenager I had needed to have my tonsils removed. I was overweight and showing early signs of a heart attack-in-waiting… I am sure I was heading for cancer as well – if the heart attack did not kill me first.
So when I was 36 I had this fall which left me immobile for 3 months. My hip was fractured, I had scarring on my lung and bruising on my heart. While I was reflecting on this in hospital, I realised that I had not been listening to my body and the messages it was trying to give me. I resolved to do so from now on.
From a temporal point of view, this resolve (alignment to my soul) set me off on a disastrous path. I lost 3 good relationships and much of my assets (worldly). However, I have through this journey found who I am, and to me now that is all that really matters. Looking back, I realised I would lose relationships if I did not express as me in them. I had taken on an adage to be what I thought others wanted me to be.
Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are? It is so lovely to be confidently expressing now as me.
I was now seeing much of the world and the way I was, as it was. At one stage my spectacle prescription improved back 5 years as I started seeing in-truth how my relationship was. The optometrist agreed that my sight had improved, but did not have an understanding of what I was proposing. I realised that our world was full of paradoxes about how things are. All our worldly truths I could see as part truths hiding the real truth.
Then in 2004 I did a Heart Chakra 1 with Serge and Universal Medicine. It felt so good and familiar. I then kept doing what I was doing until 2009 when I came back to Universal Medicine.
You may wonder why I did not continue then, however looking back, I needed to see more things I wasn’t, which ultimately help define what and who I am. So in 2009 I returned to the esoteric associations and Universal Medicine with a knowing that most of the difficulties we face in this world would be lessened or removed if we felt empowered. I have personally found that empowerment… initially coming as a realisation that I can be me anywhere, anytime and with anyone. Then I found the keys within as to how to manifest this. It is a simple, very fulfilling way to live, to let go of the shackles of doing, and be.
Over the years I gave up dairy, alcohol, sugar and gluten as I saw how these substances dulled my body and my sensitivity. I can see that my sensitivity was compromised by these substances in a way that made it impossible to be aware of their influence, which adds to the arrogance of knowing that what we are doing is right. I now at 58 feel the best I have done health-wise since about age 16, and wellbeing-wise since I was about 5. I no longer get hay fever or sinus conditions. My circulation problem, highlighted after the broken hip, and the swelling in my legs is gone. My propensity for sunspots on my skin has diminished and I have watched areas heal one at a time. I sleep well every night. I never get caught up in reactions to events and what people say and do. The list goes on and on.
So to say Serge and Universal Medicine have done it for me would be wrong. What I have found from being an esoteric student is a rebuilding of my confidence in my feelings, to be now at a point where I trust them and my feeling of the energies, implicitly. Also I have gained a confidence in my feelings and their messages.
167 thoughts on “My Journey Home”
Learning to listen to your body is to know you have a true and loving friend who always tells the truth.
“I have personally found that empowerment… initially coming as a realisation that I can be me anywhere, anytime and with anyone.” How freeing to just be yourself. How strange our world is that from an early age we get taught and shown how to be, as if we are nothing within and need to be formed and constructed. And what a disservice this is, when the beauty within is buried beneath the falsities we become.
Wow Kim, you have been through the mill. Your body was signalling all along and eventually, it gave in.
I loved how you have turned it around and it just happens to be the ‘contact with esoteric and Universal Medicine’, when it could easily have been someone else. And it doesn’t matter who it was, because at the end of the day, you took the responsibility and realised that the way you were living was not truly supporting your body. What a testimonial.
Thank you Kim, adding to what you have shared about our sensitivities, as they can be opened up to a way of living that allows us to feel everything that is happening in life. This is a natural way of living that has been shut down through our ill-ways of living that have not supported a simple connection to our essences, inner-most or esoteric, which are all one and the same.
Relearning to feel our bodies again and to feel energy and to trust these feelings is one of the greatest forms of healing one can embark on.
It also feels very empowering.
At the presentations of Serge Benhayon there can be a lot of workshops in groups and this is where I learnt so much about myself and other people. This is where I learnt that basically we are all the same and we experienced more or less the same issues growing up, some more extreme than others. From this knowing we can then start to look at the patterns in our behaviour that were laid down as a foundation that then led us to our current way of living. It is so supportive to dissect behaviours, to pin point where they came from, which always seems to be from a hurt of some kind. Once the hurt as been exposed, then the healing can naturally take place as the hurt no longer colours our perceptions of life.
I agree Mary, at group work, we learn the most. I often find that, it only takes a word or a sentence, that is a game changer for a person. Or the fact that, another person’s sharing was something you had been feeling, and sparks another area that needs healing. We discover another depth of ourselves we didn’t know about.
Group work is essential, it brings us together.
Beautifully said Linda. Dedication to deepening this connection is also what is have found to be true and continually shines through as my true strength, which supports me time and time again to heal, let go of what is not true in order to live with power and confidence.
In developing a loving and honouring relationship with who we are in essence, we deepen our connection to truth and our inner-knowing from which all makes sense. Our natural confidence to live who we are is our true way of being and is simply lived as such when we are guided by the wisdom of our Soul, our inner-knowing, through honouring our connection to our body and being.
Like you, I have made many changes in my life and the way I live since my introduction to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine and the improvement in my health and well-being have been amazing, just like the changes in your life Kim. But as you have written so wisely, “to say Serge and Universal Medicine have done it for me would be wrong”, for the choice to make these changes have all been mine, made from the wisdom that I hold in my body; wisdom that I have finally reconnected to.
The choices we make are ours, we can be impulsed or inspired by how another is living, or moving, but ultimately it our choice what to action and what not to action.
You can only realize that you have not been listening to your body if you were aware that your body was speaking to you yet you ignored it. Otherwise, this would not come to you.
‘Letting go of the shackles of doing’ so we can step up and be free to focus on the quality of every step we take – love it Leone.
The only true discernment is Energetic discernment – once we begin to read energy nothing can fool us.
‘I can be me anywhere, anytime and with anyone.’ This is so liberating.. when there are no separate boxes in our life, we can feel the union inside out and everywhere.
And so live the one life.
Knowing who we are is a beautiful thing and a development that never ends. Expressing what feels true has been a big step for me in this, to say what I feel and what needs to be said.
“Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are?” Kim I do really love this question as it offers an honesty to realize where someone truly is at. With this honesty we can choose – perhaps for the first time in life – where to go.
Absolutely yes Mary ! It is as simple as that. Hence, we know that confidence is not the issue, but what is: that we don’t know who we are. So this blog reveals what we are capable of.
Nothing is more beautiful than recognizing the beauty and intelligence that you are — that is forever expanding and universal. No intellect is needed for that, hence the current intelligence doesnt do it for us, as it is knowlegde more than truth.
The word ‘incident’ comes from the Latin incidentem (nominative incidens), present participle of incidere “to find the way.” There are no incidents, but different ways to find The Way.
This is lovely Kim ” My journey home ” , just so simple re-trurning to expression of who you are.
“Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are?” What a truism this is and is the struggle of the vast majority of people, myself included. Discovering who I am is at times a painful and challenging time as one acknowledges the illusions one has been living in and the consequences of those choices. However, the reward of re-connecting to oneself is worth everything.
I have a feeling that if you presented this one question to most people it would be like a light bulb coming on, shining very brightly on the reason why they have been struggling to live in this world, a struggle which they have accepted as normal but one that is created by not knowing who they really are. I was definitely one who lived this struggle but once the ‘light’ was turned on I realised that I was being offered a choice to begin to change my life, and I said yes.
Yes, however, how many when posed the question turn the light on or leave it off? At present I feel more leave it off than on, though with time and with more light shining from those who turned it on, that will change.
Thank you for sharing your personal journey Kim, for through it you make many great and inspiring comments. The following particularly stands out, “I have personally found that empowerment… initially coming as a realisation that I can be me anywhere, anytime and with anyone. Then I found the keys within as to how to manifest this. It is a simple, very fulfilling way to live, to let go of the shackles of doing, and be.”
“Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are?” If we don’t know who we are true confidence is impossible. There is the not-true confidence that comes from a bolstering of oneself, but it’s not really confidence at all, it’s more of a front. When we do know who we are, there is a steadiness that comes from that. We walk knowing who we are.
Keeping up with the societal expectations amongst the frantic pace of today’s world is exhausting and often at the expense of our own health and wellbeing – as you so beautifully shared Kim it is really important to listen to the wisdom of our bodies.
Our body is like a wise best friend.
Amazing how our body actually stops us and gives us an opportunity to take stock, and take a good look at ourselves and the choices we have been making. Taking responsibility for ourselves and our choices, is the beginning of making change to our life and no longer accepting life as it is, but making different choices that start to make a huge difference to our wellbeing and how we feel about life too.
Our body is totally amazing, if only we stopped and listened to it’s wisdom we could become wise beings.
Hay fever is becoming more common and I definitely feel this can be easily cured by looking at what we are choosing to eat and how we are choosing to live (lifestyle choices). Your blog is a beautiful example of this and how we can transform our health from having potential high risk illness and disease to having great health. Thank you Kim.
What I find amazing Kim is that when I read that you were “overweight and showing early signs of a heart attack-in-waiting… I am sure I was heading for cancer as well” I was sure you must have been an ‘older’ gentleman. So, I got quite a surprise to see in the next line that you were only 36! But I am sure that you were not the only one of your age who was suffering with the same conditions. How wonderfully health-changing it was that you connected with Universal Medicine, and of course, life-changing as well. It’s amazing what can happen when you find your way ‘home’.
So many people seem to believe it is right to be what others want them to be, to please others, rather than be who we truly are. Where does this belief come from that we are ‘not ok’ just as we are and instead should twist and contort ourselves to be pleasers of others? Like Kim, I have found my way back to my true self and it is a blessing, both for me and for those around me. It reflects the same to them and gives them ‘permission’ – not that they need my permission – to be who they are too.
When we live true to who we are, when we live a nurturing, caring and loving way we reflect this to the world and inspire other people along the way.
“Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are? It is so lovely to be confidently expressing now as me.” A beautifully honest summation I too have felt and when you are playing a role or living up to a picture of who you think you are everything feels false and you never really relax because you are always playing a role or changing it depending on who you are with. When you re-connect to the essence of who you are within every movement, expression and word spoken is authentic and more confident because it is a full expression of who you are from within. That is pretty cool to feel and the quality felt from the expression is then pure gold. Thank you for sharing, as this blog is just that.
I agree Kelly, it is exquisite when we express from our essence but when we are not, then complication, misunderstanding and drama can easily erupt.
Kim you have beautifully summed up how it is ‘us’ that make the change, what we are offered through Universal Medicine is a living example of how we can choose to live if this change is taken.
If you aren’t yourself in a relationship, then you aren’t you, so the person you are with never gets to know you, and neither do you. What a travesty that is for both parties, for being who we are with one another is a great gift.
Kim to say you feel better now at 58 than when you were a child is a living miracle to me – that is the beauty and power of the Esoteric Modalities to bring true healing and a deeper understanding to the body and to the whole of life.
To be what others wish one to be, or to be ‘oneself’ that is not really oneself are two traps that only lead nowhere and which stop us from going to the only place from which you can really walk forward in life.
This is what it is all about, “rebuilding” who we truly are and in fact have always been but have become lost many times over in the process. We have this belief to achieve or need to be something and yet all along everything is with us, within us and remains untapped while we chase glory. When we start to return there is that feeling of knowing, wondering how you could have possibly missed it and the confirmation that you do know everything that is needed. This return is an ongoing living unfoldment, to go back over old ground walked from when you couldn’t see; redoing or re-imprinting all areas you have walked without the knowledge of who you actually are. It may seem like hard work when in fact it’s the only work worth doing as it rebuilds further that confidence in what you are already feeling.
“Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are? It is so lovely to be confidently expressing now as me.” I can relate to this sentence Kim, I had no confidence because I did not know me, because of not feeling me, my way was in the doing the continual doing to be something,which was very exhausting and very empty, it is such a joy now to come to know me, connect to the love I feel within and express me from that loving space.
Absolutely, you cannot be confident if you do not know who you are. It is very beautiful to get to know and live the true you, and yes, this supports building confidence.
Hi Kim this is a true testimony to Universal Medicine for all we have to do as students of life is listen to our body and connect to our essence and the healing begins.
I met you many years ago Kym but after you become a student of UM and what this blog made me realise is that you never know what anyone has come from.Even if we only brought attention to the physical changes you have made and the way you approach life, that in itself is remarkable. The importance of never judging another is what comes strong here, for we all have such different and interesting lives that make up who we are and what people now see.
Never judging another, or ourselves, rather enriching all others, including ourselves.
The greatest life we can live is one where we are connected to our Soul, to who we are within, where we our lives are enriched beyond measure as we are guided the inner-light we know is true.
Kim, it is amazing to read about how you turned your life around and beautiful to read that ‘I have through this journey found who I am, and to me now that is all that really matters’, I can feel how this is the most important thing, knowing and living who we are; this allows us to feel content and confident and be able to enjoy life, ourselves and others.
“Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are? It is so lovely to be confidently expressing now as me.”
This line rings absolute truth within me, as I feel the purpose to life is to return to knowing the truth of who we are. Knowing that is the first step, seeing where we are at now and accepting it is the next, making choices to be more honest is the third, and all of that is just the responsibility of expressing as who we really are.
“Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are?” This is a very powerful truth and in reconnecting to who you are allows you to know the beauty of the essence of everyone.
I love how you call it your journey home, it takes such a great humbleness to see that life might not be all that we pretend it to be and that there may be a different way to live.
Accidents and illnesses although mighty uncomfortable can actually be a blessing as when we are laid up and unable to live how we normally do it can expose what we need to change in our daily lives so we can make more supportive and wise choices that are far more caring for ourselves.
“What I have found from being an esoteric student is a rebuilding of my confidence in my feelings” and honoring them! Honoring my feelings and my awareness – not deny, avoid or numb them. For me, it is a journey back to my worth. To claim it back. And even become authority in it. Ha! Grace is back in town.
“Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are?”
This is such a great point Kim. How many of us strive to ‘be confident’ and try to dig deep to find this seemingly elusive inner confidence, only to go to pieces when the façade we have invested in falls away? Could it be simply because we are not living true to who we are and by virtue of this we subscribe to a whole series of set ideals, beliefs and images about who we are and how that should look like and so what we end up presenting to the world is akin to a cardboard cut-out version of us that cannot withstand a small gust of wind, let alone weather a mighty storm? By reclaiming our true self – the Soul – we regain what we thought we had lost, the keys to a kingdom divine and the permission to express it in all that we do. True confidence comes from living true to our essence and not falling for a reinterpretation, and thus vastly reduced version, of this.
What you have so honestly shared Kim made it very clear that all we need to do is to look inside of us and have a deeper relationship with ourselves. To look outside of us is just something what nullify our true confidence.