There is so much in life that I have chased in the hope it would be the magical ‘thing’ that would bring all my heart desired, but time and time again, life proved to me that this was never going to be the case. It wasn’t the home I bought, the overseas holiday, the job of my dreams – it was a moment where I felt that Brotherhood, in the true sense, would be lived here on Earth.
I knew in my heart brotherhood existed, but too many years of being tumbled around in life, settling for less in relationships, and then less again, weakened this knowing and soon I didn’t believe that I would ever find what this void in relationships was about, so I gave up. I gave up hoping, I gave up knowing, I gave up on humanity and I gave up on me.
I accepted my despondency about life – that people could be truly supportive and caring to each other. When I wasn’t hiding away from people to avoid having to feel the emptiness in myself and in my relationships, I would liven life up with a holiday or project or seek complication to invest myself in and flutter the time away. Coming to Universal Medicine certainly changed my life. I learned, once again, about love, something that I too had given up on. Without love for myself, I wasn’t able to truly love another. It is now clear to me, that without allowing love, this feeling of true Brotherhood would have always been beyond my grasp.
Recently though I experienced an amazing moment that has turned all this on its head. I was messaging with a friend on the other side of the world. We did not know each other well and had spent little time together one-on-one. He had posed a question to a group and as I started to answer, he popped on and we began to chat. The to-ing and fro-ing was so lovely, the wisdom in the conversation so inspiring, and in that, I felt something I had been searching for my whole life – true Brotherhood.
What I experienced was a moment where I felt that we were both the student and the teacher. The sharing between us felt amazing; a feeling so powerful, an equality that asked me to be more.
Similarly, I had felt the loveliness of this feeling of equality and connectedness with another in a conversation with Serge Benhayon a couple of months prior. Expressing from a grand pool of wisdom, hearing the words flow from my mouth and the steadiness that I felt in my body, allowed me to see that there was much more to me and to life, and that people could connect on a much deeper level than what I had resorted to in everyday life. I knew then that if I could feel like this once, it was attainable again, and it was here for us all.
In both situations I did not play less and was not treated as less. In my life I have often felt a strange feeling come into conversations, like dominance, control, power-plays and off-loading of emotion, but not in these two situations. Here I was treated as an equal and my heart opened wide. The love that I felt inside myself was monumental, so much that it brought tears to my eyes.
I realised that much of my ‘given up-ness’ was really that I had given up on myself and humanity being able to interrelate with this particular quality. I had felt so much rot and abrasiveness in society, and the relationships I chose did not allow the quality or depth that I knew could be there. I wanted so much to feel the quality of Brotherhood in its true essence in my daily life. Not feeling this created an inner disturbance or disharmony that could outplay with frustration.
Until now, I did not realize how important Brotherhood was to me and just how much I really love people. And neither did I know in absoluteness that here on Earth we could have the quality of love in relationship with each other that is available, or more rightly, a quality that is so expansive that it feels like heaven here on earth.
These moments of true Brotherhood have changed the game for me, as I am able to see both the love and the love-less-ness in the world with clarity and a steadiness.
By feeling the essence of Brotherhood, I now know that it is here for us all and that one day we will live each day from this quality of love, equality, and tenderness, exploring life where we are student and teacher all rolled into one.
Thank you Serge Benhayon for showing me the essence of Brotherhood that I knew to be true in my heart.
By Maree Savins, Australia