997 thoughts on “Learning to Find Me and Live My Life”

1. This is a discovery we all make, ‘My first purple books are littered with post-it notes and my own hand-written annotations where I have sought confirmations and substantiations; but more than anything, as I became familiar with Serge’s words, I began to realise that they made utter sense. They felt right.’ Everything that Serge Benhayon says in relation to life makes sense. There is not an ounce of ownership in what he is saying, no haughtiness or superiority, but instead an absolute humbleness of knowing that he lives in a way that has immediate access to a grandness of intelligence beyond this planet. We have allowed ourselves to become so ignorant of the universe we live in, but Serge Benhayon lives from the universe back to Earth and that is why he is able to impart the truth of who we are. Then it is our choice to believe what is said or not. But there is a deep knowing within us all that cannot be denied and it is that deep knowing that resonates with the presentations of Serge Benhayon so that we know that what is presented is the truth and then comes the realisation that if what is imparted is the truth then humanity has been lied to on so many levels and we can see this so clearly with what is occurring in our lives today. The level of deceit and corruption is so great we cannot fail but to see it all.

2. WOW WOW WOW! Maggie you show everyone that no matter what has happened in life through self-love, true healing and different movements and choices it can be completely turned around ‘A lovely warm inner glow has replaced the former emptiness.’ Definitely something to celebrate. Your honest blog is a read for EVERYONE.

3. The simplicity that the level of Love that you are sharing Maggie, is life changing in the most glorious ways, and as we re-learn to appreciate our essences, inner-most or Soul-full connection, which are all one in the same, and thus once reconnected life becomes so Joy-full and harmonious.

4. I love your openness to share how you have lived your life and the steps you took to change your relationship with yourself first which naturally impacts on others. Learning to find ourselves again underneath all the ideals, beliefs and pictures we have willing absorbed from others in an effort to please and to be seen and recognised by them and the world is a huge trap that we fall into because it actually stops us from ever discovering a sense of who we are.

5. Maggie for many of us we can and do get lost in life and there is a point I feel that we get to, when we come to the conclusion that nothing makes sense, that we have been sold a bag of bones. From this some people despair and give up all together and seriously check out on life, and there are some who just cannot give up just yet. Many people have come across Serge Benhayon and have felt that what he says makes sense; this starts a process of re-evaluation of ourselves by picking apart all those negative thoughts we have had and asks the question where do they come from? This can then allow a deeper access to that part that we have disconnected from, and it is this disconnection that gives us the feelings of despair, depression and loneliness. Reconnect and all those negative feeling just seem to evaporate.

   1. Absolutely, what Serge Benhayon shares makes sense.

6. It’s such a shame we lose ourselves, as much as our parents intend well and often do their best, we are in a system of life that doesn’t value and treasure the inner being, and have been for generations. We know something is missing and most of us search outside of ourselves, but the ache or emptiness doesn’t leave, and all along it’s simply us that’s missing, the gorgeous, simple, true essence of ourselves. I know the feeling Maggie, it’s truly amazing coming home to myself and realising that the simple person I am is more than enough.

   1. Melinda I agree we cannot blame our parents that is now far too obvious we can spend our entire lifetime blaming something for our misfortunes. If we bring it back to how we are living that would make more sense. A customer was talking to me recently and they describe their life as being caught in a tornado that is spinning so fast, they want to get to the centre of the eye where the air is calm but if they do that then they feel they would be letting their family down as they are the main provider for them. But they so hate the speed of life where they don’t feel settled with themselves. How many of us feel this? We may not express it in quite the same way but I know so many people feel overwhelmed by life and want to get off the spinning wheel but stay on for the sake of security. It’s the security of having a job earning enough money to put food on the table that keeps us all in the spin of life, but this is not living this is existing.

   2. We search outside ourselves, and know something is missing, when all along it is us we are missing, our essence, our innermost.

7. On reading this I reflected how many people in the world feel or think they are not important? I am sure the figures are shocking. It is awesome you let this lie go and are now starting to live all that you are ✨

   1. It is shocking the lies we are fed, like, ‘“I’m not important!” .

8. Your sharing is very honest and generous Maggie. The moment when you sat with your dog and made the choice to walk in your own touched me deeply and inspired me, because for so long I’ve been waiting for a partner to receive attention and to be liked. Now I’m realizing how fooled I was but sometimes the belief about I’m not worthy enough being single arises. It’s time to deepen in connecting with my heart and even though there is sadness coming up I feel joy for confronting this lie and to embrace the beautiful woman I am. Thanks for sharing with so much love and understanding.

   1. Dear Inma, go for it! With love and with 360′ understanding because behind every sadness there is a truth waiting to be re-born.

      The shattering of a lie, un-truth, false expectation, self-imposition, self-restraint…

      The more we tear down, the more we re-build our true selves, the more sensitive and delicate and fragile we become.

      Less is most definitely more as we cast off the “what is not” revealing so much more of the “what is”.

      Pure love.

      1. Dear Maggie,

         Thank you for your words. Reading you brings me to appreciate the healing process in which we are in. The more I let go the protection and control, the more joy, beauty, empowerment and vitality I can feel within my body.

         I can feel the endless support from Universal Medicine and my felow students. Being open to the beholding love we have within and share with each other is so exquiste and confirming about the purpose of this life.

         Realizing how beautiful actually is being alive and in a constant learning, because we open up to grow and to return to the natural joy inside us.

         That’s something worth to be celebrated.

         Much love

      2. Shattering is a great word to use because we do have to shatter all the illusions we have been brought up to believe from every angle is true when its the total opposite. Life is a complete lie such a set up that we get moulded into from young so that we think we do not know any different and some people want to stay in the not knowing and that is fine, but for those people who have woken up to feel that there must be more to life than the drudgery they are experiencing then let them find out the truth. One of the greatest evils in the world is that the truth has always been hunted down and squashed by the controlling few, humanity has no idea just how controlled we are.

9. Thank you for sharing, it is amazing how easily we can ‘lose’ ourselves in life, in relationships, in work in pretty much anything. It is not about saying no to them, rather staying true to what we know and feel and bringing our all to them, and then it is amazing how they all change without even trying.

   1. James, I agree. Learning to be truthful is paramount, for without that honesty our true feelings are dis-empowered by our emotions.

      1. They are, and the more we express what we feel, the more clear what we feel becomes. So initially we may not know why we feel a certain way, but then after a while we get to see and then put the pieces together and it all makes sense. First thing though is expressing and staying true to what we know and feel.

   2. I agree James and how much do we accept and tolerate abuse in our lives and not say anything allowing it to be the norm. This should never be the way (and certainly is not the way!). The moment we up the self love it is impossible to allow it any longer.

      1. I am now appreciating that our Livingness, self-care, self-love, etc., etc. develops incrementally.

         Nothing just stops or goes away that simply.

         The more we deepen our Livingness, our self-love, our self-care, etc., the deeper we surrender our sensitivities and vulnerabilities to abuse.

         But abuse itself is many-layered; and whilst we become aware of certain levels of abuse within our own lives; it is only with our indefinitely deepening our surrendering of the protections we have used to deny the abuse previously that we “discover” even deeper levels of abuse, sometimes more subtle and insidious than previously.

         It is only by remaining true to ourselves, deepening and accepting our newer levels of sensitivity and by feeling and accepting more levels of our abuse in our lives that we can finally break free of it all and declare our bodies and surrounding atma as areas of zero tolerance to abuse.

         We must always be willing to “go-there”, to accept that there is more and more to eradicate before we are utterly free of it.

         None of us can afford to compromise and accept lower levels of abuse just to fit in with family units and relationships.

         To be utterly totally free of abuse can take many years of courage, self-love, determination and discipline.

      2. It is great to look back and see what we used to accept as normal and now see it as anything but normal. We so often accept mere decency and respect as love but it is only the building blocks. It is not beating ourselves up either just being real about what is and what is not love.

      3. Abuse can be as simple as not honouring what our body says, ‘I started with the little things, like responding to my body’s needs immediately rather than putting them off until they were convenient, such as: making a drink when I felt thirsty, rather than delaying for another hour or so’.

   3. ‘It is not about saying no to them, rather staying true’ Absolutely. Saying YES to truth and love and then of course this naturally ripples out to all our relationships.

      1. Yes to love and truth, and keep saying yes to love and truth…

10. Ironic how when you don’t live up to the imposing and unrealistic expectations of others they can be both disappointed and disrespectful.

    1. Yes Suse, but also my own disappointment and disrespectfulness to myself when I have failed to meet up to my own unrealistic expectations.

       It is at this point that my own complete honesty is required.

       To “go-there” and to learn or accept that this is a well-worn pattern of behaviours by me, learned from others to keep me feeling small. I slip up, I get carried away with emotional baggage sometimes, but these days I am realising this more frequently and sooner.

       And; most importantly, I am beginning to be much kinder and gentler to myself and with myself.

       I love my life now. Yes, it still has many ups and downs, but most days I will learn, or recognise something more about myself.

       Today, I am finally beginning to appreciate all that I have done, purely for myself, since those early days in 2005 by that pond when I realised for the first time that there had been no me in my life.

       1. Your reply caught my attention
          “To “go-there” and to learn or accept that this is a well-worn pattern of behaviour by me, learned from others to keep me feeling small. I slip up, I get carried away with emotional baggage sometimes, but these days I am realising this more frequently and sooner.”
          I feel this is a necessary process we all go through as we rediscover and reclaim more of ourselves, catching those well worn patterns of behaviour is a great start.

       2. “I feel this is a necessary process we all go through as we rediscover and reclaim more of ourselves, catching those well worn patterns of behaviour is a great start.”

          Absolutely Mary, in fact this is one of our main tools, or keys; and the more we recognise and practise this, the more practiced and incorporated into our daily lives, this becomes.

11. “I still remember the warm glow within as my inner heart opened and I started to connect to me.” When we feel such a warm glow as this, there is no mistaking that what we are feeling is undeniable. I was talking to someone recently who had the same experience having only just discovered these amazing books and felt clearly that they wanted to know more because of the strong connection they felt with what was held in those pages.

12. I deeply appreciate how we are offered ‘stop and reflect’ moments in our life when we are so caught up in our dramas that we can’t see ‘the wood for the trees’. Just to be offered the opportunity to question what’s going on is so powerful. It creates space and the opportunity to see beyond the often self-destructive path we have been on.

    1. Fiona I agree when we are given stop and reflect moments they can be very powerful if we can get past the rage of the spirit that has been caught out and exposed in all its trickery to keep us all stupid and small so that it can continue getting it’s own way over us.

13. “I still remember the warm glow within as my inner heart opened and I started to connect to me.” Every time we reconnect to our inner being we feel the love of who we are.

14. Like you Maggie “I know that my journey is not a solitary one for we are all returning home” and at this time we may not know where home is, but if we stop and be with ourselves long enough we can get a sense that, yes, we are. And what is so beautiful about rediscovering the amazing beings that we are, is that this discovery is not just for us, but for humanity.

15. “To be free — To be me!” – to actually be free we need to know who we truly are, otherwise who we are is not free of what we are not.

    1. Wise words indeed Alex.

16. ‘To be free – to be me’ – absolutely. Life may try telling us otherwise, but true freedom is to be and live all that we are in our essence unapologetically until we find that the ‘me’ is because of ‘us’.

    1. I love theses wise words, thank you Alex and Fumiyo.

17. Thank you Maggie, it is always touching reading your story, an honest account of a woman finding her way back to herself. I thank God for Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine because I could not live the unbearable existence I was in, nor could I find a way to heal myself from the many experiences that had deeply hurt me. I’m now a continuing blossoming flower – like yourself. All the best to you Maggie and I hope you will write another blog and/or an update.

    1. Thank you Melinda; I agree with you totally. I remember well my worst day and realising then that there was only one way to go. I used all my courage then, floundered many times, but never questioned where and why, just the how… and then the purple books came to me. Such a gift! My tool box is now far better equipped as I am learning that it’s all about me and my reactions or rather responses to the dramas in my life.

       As for blogs: several are in the pipeline!

       1. Dear Maggie, I am very much looking forward to reading more from you!

    2. There are many of us who thank Serge Benhayon, and Universal Medicine for all they bring for ourselves, and the rest of humanity.

18. Many millions of people live the way you did, moving from one difficulty to another. Do more than very few ever come out of it?

    1. I feel that we all have our triggers, that ‘bottom of the barrel’ scenario, or life-changing event at some point in our lifetimes. We could pass many on the streets who, but for too many hurried-reactions, would be walking with us now. The time will come for us all, uniquely when we are all ready. Our life-stories and therefore our momentums are different and individual.

       To complete what we start, we must first be solid in our choices Christoph.

       Should we not all aim to be truthful, loving and supportive role models for all those teetering on the edge of dipping their toes in the water? Are we not offering them our ‘tool boxes’…?

19. Beautifully said. We can find ‘me’ in the self-care, self-love and nurturing, only to find that it is not just ‘me’, and that we are part of the ‘all’.

    1. I agree and it is something to remember as it can be easy to make life all about ‘me’ and ‘I’ when life is so much richer when we make it about ‘all of us’.

       1. Yes James we are living on the surface of life like those little creatures called Pond Skaters, that do not break the surface tension of the water as they move. We cannot fathom that there is so much more to discover underneath life as we know it.

20. “Giving up coffee showed me how much my body had been suffering from stress” Amazing Maggie, I love this example as it shows how we use substances to cover up, pep up or drown out what’s really going on for us on an emotional and/or physiological level.

    1. Being able to give up coffee, i.e. having a choice whether to drink coffee or not, is an amazing achievement and beyond most of us.

       1. Wow, thank you Christoph! To me then, it was a no-brainer. My body was feeling overrun with ‘something’; but it was only after giving up the coffee and experiencing all the pain which it had been masking that I understood that the ‘something’ was anxiety! I am still living with anxiety, but it is far, far less than it was back then. Suffering with the aches and pains as the anxiety surfaced in my body gave me the courage to ask my managers to work from home twice a week; which is what I did until I left. I was in a no-win situation at work; so I ended the drama.

21. In many ways it is a miracle you are still alive but our Soul calls the shots on that one and thus, there is obviously more to reclaim, redress and more to write, please.

    1. Point taken; thank you for your reminder Gabriele. x

22. The expectations placed on us from our parents can be as heavy as stone, but it’s up to us to choose to carry that stone or not even engage with it. When we feel the freedom of living our own lives, breathing our own breaths, the demands of the outside world become somewhat irrelevant.

    1. The hardest thing of all is to recognise those expectations and to realise that they are not ours; and never can be. Only then can we choose to disengage.

       1. I don’t think it’s the hardest part, in fact realising this brings a lightness and a freedom for us to move in whatever way we like. Perhaps if it is hard it is because the expectations actually come from us, and it is something we have laced on ourselves in the illusion that it was casted upon us.

23. ‘I started with the little things, like responding to my body’s needs immediately rather than putting them off until they were convenient,’ This is a great reminder Maggie, as the small things we do that are nurturing or caring all build towards a very solid foundation of love in our body.

    1. …and it’s those little things which somehow repeat over and over which are taking us deeper and deeper as we peel off layers of our unwanted behaviours, getting us closer to who we really are.

    2. Keep making small nurturing and self-caring changes supports our deepening love of self.

24. It is interesting how the new age spirituality that is offered these days seems to readily promise ‘finding yourself’, but time and time again I hear people talk about how they could never really find themselves there in these pursuits, and are left with a continual search and an ever deepening desire for truth. In my view, the reason these pursuits do not deliver the truth we are all searching for is nothing to do with the people who attend or present there, it is merely because the one whole and complete truth that is so ultimately fulfilling is found deep within our inner-most hearts, which is the doorway to the soul, where true truth is only just the beginning and as this cannot be found in any outer source. Nothing can deliver this unto us, it is a journey of discovery for ourselves – thus, we are our own salvation, with the deepest love.

    1. Absolutely Shami, but the trick is to become aware of this. The world is geared-up to us to look externally of ourselves as introspection is seen as self-indulgent nonsense. Sharing our lives with Serge is the greatest of blessings, but without being introduced to his books I may not have found him. But that in itself is another avenue!

25. There is something about Serge Benhayon, his presentations and workshops that ring true and like you Maggie, my life has become very focused and purposeful, not as it used to be which was rudderless being tossed around by the vagaries of life. As we discover the hidden aspects of ourselves and heal the hurts that we have accumulated since we were young, there is a discovery to be made that we are actually the most amazing human-beings. I have discovered it is the being that makes us so amazing, our being has a foot as it were in the Universe and knows all there is to know. This is our true intelligence not what we learn by rote from books and people who have read these books before us it is all regurgitated information. And have we learnt anything from this regurgitated information the answer has to be NO we haven’t.

    1. All has to be lived Mary; I quite agree; and yes, we are all our own salvation when we are ready to ‘go there’.

26. We tend to judge ourselves because of how we used to be in the world, with others and self. It may appear that we did not do much for us. Yet, if this is what we say we miss a point: the not appearing to do much for us was hard work around the clock to avoid evolution. This is what we did for us. Yet, if this is true, what did we really offer others?

    1. Yes, we possibly are, or were, addicted to tension in all its many guises because it kept us busy and away from looking, let alone questioning what it was that we were avoiding in the first place!

27. “Throughout my life I have been many things to anyone and everyone; and until recently, nothing to myself” – if one ever really truly wants to change their life, seeing how life is and importantly the part we’ve played in our own life i.e. are we present or absent in it, provides the greatest healing where we can take charge. I still remember well a few years ago the realisation that I had been choosing to live life and seeing it metaphorically as washing “my delicates” on someone else’s “90 degree washing machine spin cycle” – that visual representation was enough to see how misshapen i’d allowed myself to become over time and what was therefore needing to occur going forward.

    1. I have realised Zofia that any metaphor or analagy will do; and it’s that when we start asking these vital questions of ourselves, just how many vital, or pertinent phrases we hear which bring us to stop moments. It is true that the more we help ourselves, the more assistance we are offered. It is our choice whether or not we listen.

    2. Great analogy.. when we live life according to someone else’s/the world’s cycle – or spin – then it’s not at all surprising that we end up feeling out of sorts, totally disconnected to our own true rhythm. We do know what our true rhythm and way of living is, and naturally live that when we start to ditch the pictures of what we think that looks like, or what/how we think we need to be for others (but essentially for ourselves, to ‘fit in’), and listen to what our bodies are saying.

28. Gosh how awful and abusive that all these people wanted you to be something and someone you are not which is impossible and then were disappointed. How awful and abusive that we so often do that to ourselves. How ridiculous when who we truly are is magnificent and glorious beyond words. What a wonderful world it will be when we all eventually live and enjoy the truth of who all we already are at essence.

    1. Our temporal lives are surrounded by empty people struggling to cope and make sense of the card hand they have been dealt in life. The world is made up of those of us who are asking the pertinent questions about Life; seeking the Truth; and those who aren’t because they are not yet ready to glimpse at the Truth. The more of us who can reflect back how truly loving the Truth really is; how supportive; and how we are learning to master our own livingness, the more curious and tempted they will become. Love, genuine truthful love, WILL conquer all Nicola; and as you say, “…what a wonderful world it will be…”.

    2. I welcome the day when we all live our magnificence, ‘when who we truly are is magnificent and glorious beyond words’.

29. What an amazing life to live the deep worth and love that you innately are. Very inspiring.

30. Your sharing of telling someone “I’m not important” reminded me of how often people say “it’s just me” as if they are not important. Even the word “just” often reflects that we are justifying ourselves – but everyone is equally priceless and gorgeous!

    1. You made me smile reading this Nicola! My late-husband’s grandmother would phone us and by means of introduction would say, “It’s only me dear!”. I look back at her memory now and can’t equate all that she was with the word “only”!

       1. Yes isn’t it awful how we do that rather than it’s ME!…. HELLO ❤

31. I truly love reading The Way of Initiation book by Serge Benhayon, it’s genuinely enriching and really helps you connect with a deeper aspect of yourself and understand how you are in life and the impact this has on not only ourselves but everyone else as well, it is very beautiful.

32. ‘to find me and to be free.’ – the one call from within we are all receiving, patiently waiting for us to listen and respond to, the one eternal pull that never gives up on us, knowing that one day we will return home.

    1. ❤

33. Lovely sharing, ‘A lovely warm inner glow has replaced the former emptiness.’ what an awesome feeling – I know myself that nothing outside of me, no matter how tantalising can ever, or will ever match up to the sense of love I feel within when I surrender to the warm inner glow – it is such an all embracing beholding energy – it makes me question why I do not choose it 24/7!

    1. One day we will all live it 24/7 James! ❤

       1. We sure will, although of course being in a human body, it will always be without perfection.

       2. Indeed James! Perfection is many things to different people: some feel that life would be boring if we were all perfect; and others feel that it would be absolute bliss with so much freedom to enjoy life and celebrate with one another.

34. ‘I started with the little things, like responding to my body’s needs immediately rather than putting them off until they were convenient,’ I love this, because we so often override our body’s requests and the more we honour it, the more consistent the communication between us and our body becomes and we begin to engage in a more natural flow.

35. ‘And so my life continued trying to please people for fear of disappointing them and taking the blame for being a failure.’ This is a round-a-bout designed to keep us on the back foot and constantly in the search to ‘please’ others ( because we never truly can) and away from our true power.

    1. Trying to please others is impossible long term, just like trying to help others is as well. Ultimately the best help I can be for others and the best way to please them, is to simply live the love that I am and then naturally as I look after myself, they too will be looked after but not in a ‘you need help way’, rather ‘you are love so live it way’. Otherwise without realising it we are putting others down thinking they need help, when really no one needs help, we just often need a reminder of the love that we are.

    2. …and yet Jenny, my mother used to tell me, or on reflection possibly warn me that if we’re pleasing everyone else, we are never pleasing ourselves! The word ‘selfish’ is an over-used word.

36. I’ve not experienced the violence that you and many women have, but I still gave my power away to everyone else and completely lost myself in my first marriage, trying to get it right as a mother, wife and a Personal Development Coach. I was presenting talks but not living what I presented. Like you I didn’t know who the true me was and it’s only since meeting Serge Benhayon in 2005 that I have begun to allow myself to feel what is going on in my body and to connect with my inner heart.

    1. Yes, it’s a real ‘coming home’-feeling ❤ Rather than having a two-week pain around my head, neck and shoulders when I gave up caffeine all those years ago; I am now experiencing exactly the same pain, but now I am letting go of all my controlling: it’s dropping away! I love the way our bodies deepen our awareness just when we’re ready Carmel.

37. Reading this article today has been a direct gift from heaven, it has awoken a knowing from inside of me and triggered a choice to begin to unravel the many ways of living and being that I choose, ways I know that hold back the clarity and true loving presence that I am. Our world needs the fullness of our presence, not a watered down version that will fit in. I can feel a deeper commitment to my life and the reasons to care deeply for my body are no longer for personal gain, but are becoming more and more about the responsibility I have to share my full presence with everyone I meet.

    1. It is amazing Leigh how, over 3 years ago when I first draughted this; it is now still the ‘little things’, but that they’re deeper.

       Today I realise just how much I can berate myself for not achieving all that I could have in a day: I am putting myself at odds with my body!

       My body wants to slow down, to be gentle and respectful, supportive of me; and this I allow.

       But later, I find that I am chastising myself because I could have accomplished more.

       I acknowledge now that I am no longer that person who exhausted herself to please others, to achieve my own goals; to gain some form of unqualified success, respect or expectation from an unknown audience, which I now realise is actually me.

       I have been trying to live upto my own false expectations and berating myself for failing.

       Now I am beginning to accept that I am not that person; I am me and I am very different.

       The more that I become more of me, the more responsibility I feel about my words and actions, for it is not just about my choices; but my gracefulness behind, or what is motivating those choices.

       That in each moment I can either deliver harmfulness or healing: love.

38. You have been dating you, what a wonderful commitment to make. If we don’t know who we are, how can we be in relationship with another? That is a big question, and one I remind myself of as often as I can.

39. The Way of Initiation by Serge Benhayon is an incredible book – even though I’ve read it through before whenever I go back to it and re-read there is another level of understanding that I get in relation to how I’m currently living. It really is priceless.

40. There can often be a stop moment in our lives where we begin to look for something more, and at this point the search can turn within. Universal Medicine has offered me untold benefits and understanding by connecting to the being I am within, that is my soul.

41. “To be free — To be me!” Reconnecting to our inner-heart is to reconnect to the love of who we are.

42. This was such a beautifully open and raw account of a real transformation for Maggie in so many ways. The way in which she wrote this with such honesty and transparency shows just how far she has come in accepting herself as a super important woman who has rediscovered her Divine self.

43. I loved reading this account of your life. Although many women do not experience such extremes, I feel that most women lose themselves in order to become whatever their family, partner, kids or colleagues want them to be. We play a role that leaves us feeling like an empty 2D cut out. These roles have some ‘rewards’ but they are nothing like the warm inner contentment that being with ourselves can bring.

    1. Fiona you make the comment
       “that most women lose themselves in order to become whatever their family, partner, kids or colleagues want them to be.”
       This is encouraged from young, especially for girls, it was expected in the family that I grew up in that the females looked after others before looking after themselves. Maybe this was a generational ideal and belief that females were considered to be 2nd class citizens.

44. We are all being communicated and shown the way back to our hearts all the time, but are we listening to the inner wisdom of the inner-heart and recognising life’s reflection in our everyday events?

45. When we confirm and appreciate our movements we begin to see how truly precious we are and that we are indeed important and our unique expression of a one unified quality of love is needed to be shared and enjoyed by others to see how we all work as one in this world today.

46. Thank you for sharing Maggie. Goes to show what can happen when you follow your heart, and feel the difference between those pesky thoughts that try and keep us away from knowing who we truly are, and true impulse.

    1. Jenny James, those thoughts you mention are despicable, when we are in the grip of them it is very hard to comprehend that they are not our thoughts but are coming through us from a consciousness that we are for now not willing to be aware of. While we are not willing to be aware of the unseen energy that controls everything in this life we will be the puppets to its whims.

47. Being in the process of buying a new car is showing me so much about me and my relationship to myself. What features are important to me, how much I am willing to pay. What I am willing to compromise – or not. How much do I give my power away and to whom? I can see how my own self worth is inextricably linked to the choices I make. That inner warm glow is also a great barometer and confirms for me that I am on the right track.

48. When we let go of the needs and or identifications that we think we are we begin to see and feel the true essence of who we are and it is from this movement we begin to adore the fine detail of how we move, nourish and support ourselves and how in effect from this movement we are actually also supporting the all also. This shows that the quality in which we care for self plays a larger role and responsibility for how we are with everyone else too, which is a great point to ponder.

49. You are an inspiration for us all Maggie! Finding ourselves is something we all need to do.

50. Your story is so relatable Maggie, whilst some of the details may differ essentially so many of us get lost in the roles we choose to play in life and it is only when we make the choice to find ourselves underneath all the self imposed roles that we can start to truly live our lives. This has been unfolding for me for several years and in so many unpredictable ways but with the support of Universal Medicine I am falling in love with myself and deeply appreciating what I bring.

51. When we consider how we have been living and honestly review it all, there is great opportunity for new learning and new growth. We deserve to live a life that is true, but it is up to every one of us to claim it for ourselves.

52. “A lovely warm inner glow has replaced the former emptiness.” This is a modern day miracle.

53. Maggie your words encapsulate the joy and exploration of life as we live it and how our choices can build a solid foundation for which we can continue to learn, understand and appreciate our return in our own time. Thank you.

54. Reading this I found myself pondering on Serge Benhayon’s ability to offer to the world the teachings of the Ageless Wisdom. What very clearly stood out for me tonight was that in Serge we have the most ordinary man living an extraordinary life, not because he is better than any one, but because he choose to connect deeply with himself and allows himself to live from the truth of his essence. This is there for each of us to choose, any time we like. With no picture or perception of how our life will be, but an unwavering acceptance of what our life needs to be for humanity.

55. Maggie thankyou again for your blog, it’s been a joy to read it again today and feel the journey of one woman returning to herself. I could relate to not knowing your own likes and dislikes, I have had a habit of going along with what is around me, instead of truly feeling what is right for me and what I would like to do. In reconnecting to the body there is so much to learn, the body is so incredibly honest and clear in its communication.

56. It can be so easy to dismiss ourselves as not being important, making others seem more so. How beautiful is it then that you are claiming yourself back Maggie, feeling your worth and what you bring.

57. What an amazing turnaround Maggie, your story is a beautiful testimony to the power of love and how it allows us to truly heal.

58. Beautiful to read and have shared your journey to reconnect to yourself. A journey that is in me too. A true joy has returned – Serge Benhayon is the man to thank for my reconnection.

59. We are never alone on the true path of return as we are all held and always returning and aided by time as we circle the sun round after round.

60. We can tune into the little things and then we find that the bigger picture starts to unfold… and the universe starts to constellate with extraordinary grace.

    1. That is so beautiful Chris, thank you ❤

       1. Yes, there is a beauty in this isn’t there… It was one of the really big leaps has opened up so much in life for me… Deal with the details, and be amazed what happens to the bigger picture.

61. The world offers us many solutions to the perils of life often requiring us to compromise that which is our true nature in order to fit in, but it is only through our connection to self that we can rediscover our strength from within when we live honouring that which is from our soul.

62. ”My life has become a focused path and I know that my journey is not a solitary one for we are all returning home” – I really like this. We are indeed all returning home no matter how different it may all appear and even when we didn’t know we were, and it makes such sense that when it becomes a focused path, life starts to flow and all the complexities start to fall off.

63. Fitting in is part of the art of reducing ourselves and reducing life to what is truly unimportant while living the illusion that it is relevant.

    1. So true, what we choose to not grasp though, is in reducing ourselves we are also reducing another. This completely ‘shakes up’ our seemingly inconsequential belief that we only affect ourselves and puts responsibility into effect like we have not before considered it.

64. Being everything to everyone, and being nothing to ourselves, is an all too familiar way of being. It is never taught that we should know ourselves first before trying to be whatever someone else wants us to be, or what we imagine they want us to be.

65. ” I am learning what my body likes and does not like and more importantly, acknowledging this and doing something about it.” Beautiful Maggie, as so many may notice their body reactions to something, but don’t make the necessary changes and repeatedly suffer the ill consequences. Looking after our body, as it is the only one we have this lifetime, is really a no-brainer!

66. Once we find ourselves and connect to this fiery essence we then begin to unravel all of the beliefs, images, relationships etc, that are not us and return to a way of living that breathes life back into our lungs and love into our hearts and that is pure inspiration. Thank you Maggie.

67. This is an incredible story Maggie, what a turn around you chose to make, so inspiring and so worth sharing. The path back to love is the path back to God.

68. The process of learning, returning to love and deepening is very beautiful, it cannot be made sense through the head, and I find that I do that when I go into self-doubt, and want to grasp onto making sense, but when I simply allow my body to lead the way, everything is known and every small step is guided.

    1. YES! That pesky 10% of our body that tries to dominate and explain everything! The body knows and is either at-ease or ill-at-ease. That is now part and parcel of my intelligence.

69. Extraordinary blog, as you shared there must of been a reason you were spared! I know the feeling well of living well attuned to the needs of others, sacrificing my self care and nurturing and trying to be a good person for others, to not cause any hardship – the amazing thing I have learned since become more self caring and loving is that to truly love another the self love must be practised first and when this is mastered it can’t actually be accessed just for self – it must be lived and appreciated for what it brings to all.

70. Thank you Maggie for a beautiful sharing of coming back to find the true you. I can so relate to not having a me, feeling unimportant, and not knowing what i liked or disliked but going along with others and what they wanted, I even actually didn’t want to voice an opinion as this may create waves and upset. There was no me. Slowly through what Serge teaches I am finding me and my voice, within the beauty I feel that is me. Lately Michael Benhayon’s song Be you and Live your Way has been playing within me calling me to be more of the me that is there to be lived and shared.

71. You are amazing, you have put yourself out there for everyone to see and you do it in a way that invites us all to appreciate ourselves and you while we are reading. I love how you approached Serge’s books, with post it notes and research, it was super cute. I also really like how the simple self loving changes you made had a huge impact. Thank you for being so generous and brave, this will go down in history and will not be forgotten by me.

72. It’s all the little, loving, caring, nurturing, honouring choices we make in every moment that build the delicious inner warmth and glow into a fire – a fire that can emanate out and shares the same qualities with everyone and emptiness doesn’t have a chance .

73. When we feel a settlement in the body that we have not felt before we know that this is a coming home.

74. Thank you Maggie, indeed the true investments we can make in life got nothing to do with any financial worth, as they are those that allow us to live our true essence for ourselves and the good of all.

75. So many of us live with the fear of disappointing another and place that above how we feel about ourselves. We are not here to live our lives pleasing others, we are here to evolve which requires living all of who we truly are. This is what inspires people rather than us holding back to please them.

    1. You have exposed the reason why we hold back on truly living every bit of beauty and wisdom we hold. Pleasing others, we think is about them, but in my experience, it is about protecting me, keeping the status quo. In affect it has become a self imposed prison that stops the grace of my presence from simply being lived, enjoyed and shared in my life.
       Thank you Elizabeth for this comment

76. Thank you Elizabeth ❤

77. Maggie it is beautiful to read how life has unfolded for you from that inner calling and warmth and glow within your heart.
    Before coming to the Universal Medicine work, I had nominated in a work career planning guide a simple vision or goal for myself: ‘Be me’. I had not reflected back on this until reading your article, and that whilst at the time I did not know what this truly meant and that I was told that a vision statement or goal needed to include more than 2-3 words I did not back down on it and see now that making this call has initiated what has unfolded since then.
    In a counselling session yesterday I was asked about my goals in life for the next 5 years, and I responded with what I felt was needed – a list of all the actions and activities I thought I should be achieving in that time frame to do a ‘good job’. I walked away from that feeling like I had all these expectations resting on my shoulders that I now needed to live up to them to be successful. Reading your article I can feel that it is not what I achieve with my work, study etc in the next 5 years that I want to measure myself by, but the quality I choose to be in and live by and express myself from. Thank you.

    1. Dear Susan, it is so very easy, is it not; to get caught up in emotional success and to live a drama which just holds us by the hand and leads us further astray?

       It is all ‘work-in-progress’; and the devil REALLY is in the detail. We don’t need the detail, but many times I still want the detail because on the OUTSIDE it gives me confidence; and I don’t even realise it immediately. Sometimes it can be months or even years before I realise what I have been doing. But this is my momentum: I have so very much to learn and some of my lessons are easier to learn than others. Keeping me at the heart of all I do is paramount; learning to question rather than impulsively doing. More and more I am listening to my body and am letting that lead me by the hand instead. ❤

78. Although we can lose ourselves in the outside world around us so easily in this day and age, with true love and care we can always find ourselves again – after all what we think is lost actually lies within.

    1. I never knew that I knew that until I chose to discover that knowledge again for myself Suse. Now there’s a beautiful unfolding for me when I chose; whereas before it was a barren wilderness.

79. Maggie reading this has touched me deeply, how we always know that there is a depth to us and an ever loving essence that is there untarnished waiting patiently to be re-connected to and allowed to express through our body and out to the world. Simply divine.

80. What a miraculous transformation Maggie, thank you for sharing so openly and honestly. You are living testimony that we can heal from anything, that the inner heart, which is where we find our own salvation, is always a choice and a breath away.

81. To be free to be me’ Our body always speaks to us. Deep down it knows what is needed, but often we fail to hear or understand its wisdom. And sometimes we need the support of others to help us to see more clearly. True brothers have a responsibility to observe what is going on and not enjoin with those who seek to dis-empower themselves. With understanding and integrity we lovingly support them to re-connect to their own wisdom and express from deep within themselves.

    1. We all have it within ourselves to know what is needed and how we want to live, but so often we can override this by a picture or wanting to fast-track ourselves to somewhere better or improved, instead of accepting and loving where we are right now. Great point Kehinde that service is about reflecting who we truly are so that others can know who they are, too.

82. First find ‘me’ and then we find God.

83. ‘I realised that there was no ‘me’. I didn’t know what I liked or disliked, let alone who I was. I had always fitted in with others, liking what they liked, disliking what they disliked’ Many will relate to this Maggie and by inspired by your journey back to you and healing.

84. Maggie, a beautiful honest sharing of the turmoil we can put ourselves through. Your re-discovered way of caring and loving yourself is a gift to all you encounter, and beyond.

85. On re reading this article, I find myself in awe of the love and support that is always present in our lives, forever impulsing from within, giving us nudges and holding us as we wander through the many travails, traumas and complications that we make our lives to become. Yet the constant, steady truth is never far from us, always there waiting for us to begin to let go of the complications and again surrender to the simplicity, that which we do know, and which we again begin to trust.

86. I love the dedication you have had to discovering who you are, the small steps that lay foundations for the bigger steps.

    1. I agree Lucy, we often set ourselves up when we try to take big steps, there is a lot of power when we begin with the small steps and it confirms us along the way so the bigger steps happen more naturally as the foundation is already built.

87. This is so inspiring. I love the fact that you knew the inner warmth that was available to you and you were only going to accept something that helped you connect you to it. We do know love and truth deep down. We just need to get ourselves out of the way and be willing to go there.

88. When I hit upon something true in life I have the experience of my whole body and my whole being coming into alignment in the expression of a resounding ‘yes’. This is what my being tells me about Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine – a resounding yes, this is truth.

89. I really connect with what is shared in this article. I know what it feels like to live, not knowing who I am and what I actually like and dislike. I feel so sure that many others too know this, and also feel the desolation of such a life. So much so that what is shared here and the words “To be free – To be me” are a major shift in consciousness and what we thought we had to live by, freeing us all to explore them in our life. When we do, the world opens, we discover so much about ourselves and a natural adjunct of this reality is that we open to others and discover equally as much about them. A beginning of a living brotherhood that sees all in the light of grace.

90. It is when I feel myself firmly in my body that I feel I am far more than the physical. And like you, every day, every moment, I may wobble, but there is a way to come back and the choice is mine. It’s just so awesome.

91. And Maggie, I also felt to mention that most of my life I too have been one to mould myself to what is needed or wanted around me – I learned fast to be a chameleon and part of this was so that I would not be picked on, so I would not be singled out and noticed and so that I would be ‘safe’ and hence I played the game that many others do too. I was very sensitive about others and how they were feeling – and so I would sense if they were angry and would tread carefully to not aggravate them further, or I would sense if someone was upset and I would sympathise with them to make them feel better. I also recall buying music that people told me was ‘cool’ and though I did not like it I wanted to fit in so I purchased them to have on my self to show I was ‘cool’ too! … these are all ways that I played into things all the time abandoning myself easily, as I had not really established who I was in the first place anyways. Once I began reading Serge’s Blue Books then things began to change and I began to strengthen my connection with self, build and understand who I am and how I am here to play a very important role, just like we all are. And I got to feel the warmth and the glow that we all hold within and can choose to connect to and let out. Thank you for this wonderful reminder Maggie – it is great to appreciate how far we have come, but also wonderful to realise that there is more and more to come in deepening our relationship with self and hence all others – and that it is about the qualities that we bring as an individual that evolves us all rather than us needing to be like another and copy others as a chameleon.

    1. Oh Henrietta, I smiled so broadly, warmly, deeply when I read your word, “I also recall buying music that people told me was ‘cool’ and though I did not like it I wanted to fit in so I purchased them to have on my self to show I was ‘cool’ too!”. I even went so far as to give away some of my albums to gain favour, which was always short-lived. At the time I considered how ungrateful they were in order to mask my own disappointment. Little did I realise then the depth of my own investment!

       1. …and these words Henrietta, “I was very sensitive about others and how they were feeling – and so I would sense if they were angry and would tread carefully to not aggravate them further, or I would sense if someone was upset and I would sympathise with them to make them feel better.” I lived my life in complete apprehension back then, becoming as timid as a mouse, because I could not honestly read the situation and so could not bring my understanding to the situation. I merely contributed to the well of emotion that made me feel even more uncomfortable and apprehensive. I was definitely my own personal pilot of flight back then! I still allow that to happen every now and then, particularly when I am feeling out of sorts with myself! And. I must also start acknowledging how well I am doing. Self-appreciation is not easy for me as I have spent the majority of my life playing small. Thank you for your words of encouragement Henrietta.

92. Maggie this is absolutely heart warming to feel how you have re-discovered yourself and found that you are indeed one of the greatest gifts to yourself and also to everyone else. It is in our true self discovery that our life of service really begins. I discovered Serge Benhayons work in my mid thirty’s and it feels like that was when I began to make sense of life. Before then it was all a mess and confusion of seeking answers and finding half truths that always lead me to dead ends and more spiritual experiences. But then with what Serge presented in his first books, though I found them at times disruptive to my narrowed way of thinking at the time, they allowed me to see things in a different way to what I was used to, and they were a large instigator or the amazing changes that I have now implemented in my life. What a blessing.

93. I think we are all plagued at some point by the question, “who truly am I then” or at least I was. It’s usually at the end of something we have found was not ‘it’. There were many things I was plagued with besides this, things like, “is this what life is about?”, “what am I doing here?”, “what was that for?”, “why me?” and the list of thoughts go on. I was plagued with this because I have grown to understand life on a different level; not different from others but more different from the way I view it. Universal Medicine sparked a clarity in me that began to answer the questions I was asking and what’s more, I was the one answering my own questions. The questions still come but in place of fighting them or being frustrated or feeling like I am at the end of a road, I use them as a point to reflect on, to look deeper at what is truly being asked or said. My life is free from the burden of these questions that were in my head because of the choice I have made to look at myself differently. When life returns us to a point that sounds or seems the same it’s a chance or a choice for us to have another go. Not to do it better but more to become more aware of why the cycle has returned and to walk that awareness ever deeper into the next part.

    1. I love what you have shared here Ray, and similarly to you, I have found that the work of Serge Benhayon helped me view things in a completely different way that freed me from the paradigms I was literally imprisoned in for such a long time. Serge’s work never delivers an answer for you to hold in your head as knowledge, it delivers and models for you a way of living and being that when embraced allows you to live the answer for yourself should you choose it. It is never a script or a given dictation – it is a very loving acceptance of the fact that the answers lie within ourselves and hence it is about the connection to Self that truly matters most. And we do get offered time and time again the opportunity to really grasp it, and each time that little bit deeper in awareness – what a blessing!

94. Being everything to anyone and everyone is a way of being with oneself (or a movement) that guarantees living without going into surrender. It is a deep choice of how to live.

95. To live with the sense of not being important is devasting, although we might manage to live with that belief to the point that it is considered as normal or without it ever questioned or even recognised. In the end it is our choice to adopt such belief and also to let go of it as you beautifully describe in your blog, nevertheless, it is our all responsibility to not make anyone feel like not being seen and cherished for who they are simply by meeting another with at least a willingness to see them, if not with a deep sense of respect, appreciation and acceptance. Being met with such qualities makes one´s day every time and nurtures one’s preciousness and value.

96. Life offers us a lot but merely anything offers us the confirmation of who we are or the permission to be who are. No wonder that we confuse who we are with what we have adopted to be in order to fit in, being liked and recognised in whatever way we have chosen and works best for us. Everyone has their own version of adjusting to life and people, expectations and it is this adjustment we have to identify as not being who we actually are, it is not the real me. Hence we have to undo these behaviours and patterns to set free what lies underneath waiting to be reawakened. It is a very personal journey done by one´s own free choice to come back to what we once left behind.

    1. So beautiful; thank you Alex. ❤

97. Gentle Breath Meditation, taking a few moments a day to experiment with this changed my life, I became reacquainted with a stillness that without doubt is my true way.

    1. I agree Samantha for the gentle breath meditation gives you time to stop and begin again.

98. There’s nothing more precious than getting to know ourselves from our core, it makes everything worthwhile.

99. Maggie what an inspiring story. I love how it demonstrates that we all have an inner voice of truth which is who we are within. We may take many years or lives to take heed of what it says, but the beauty of it is it never stops communicate with us.

100. For years I would do whatever others wanted of me or acted in a way I thought pleased others – even parenting I thought others had all of the answers and that I just wasn’t in the know about these things, but all of that meant I just did not know myself, and I never really gave it any thought until I started to attend courses with Universal Medicine. Then one day as clear as day I asked myself the question ‘What do I like?’ and realised that there was so much that I did not know about myself. At first it felt as though I was breaking the rules by asking myself these questions and it felt uncomfortable, and that maybe I would get things wrong but eventually got to a place where I could trust myself, and if I did get it wrong that was ok also.

101. Learning what I like and what I dislike, it feels like I could do with more of this in my life. Because when I do acknowledge something I like it brings me a yummy, cared for feeling – like not having one but two pairs of socks on or having an organised knife drawer. And accepting what I dislike there’s less pressure and tension for me to like it to fit in.

102. Yes Brendan, I often feel these days that you are disappointing someone, but then again I can be equally surprised when what I say is accepted. Of note, it seems to be those who are closer to me who invest more in my responses despite knowing me better. It’s like I receive more respect from those who know me less…

103. Scotland is a very special place.

     1. It most certainly is, though it’s ages since I’ve visited ❤

104. You know what I didn’t realise this of myself, I really thought I honoured myself but I don’t, as I realised I run about filling everyone else’s needs first. This is exhausting and no fun or joy can be felt or has been in this, nor evolution for that matter for anyone. It can come from rushing dinner to be somewhere else, answering emails before going to the loo, when I really need, thinking I need to reply to someone straight away. Answering a call in the middle of cooking dinner, engaging in a conversation longer than I feel too, or holding back in case it rocks the boat so to speak, basically to keep other people happy and liking me. This serves no one. I don’t always do this and am learning, for example yesterday I said no to something I felt instead of keeping other people happy. This didn’t go down to well, but I honoured my feelings about a situation and this empowered me. It also gave other people the opportunity to feel what was going on.

     1. Yes Gyl, saying No can be a very hard thing to do, but by holding back we are also denying the other person the opportunity to explore what’s just happened too. It also works the other way: I can ask something of someone and be disappointed in their response. This relays back to me my ownership or investment in the outcome when I hadn’t realised that it actually mattered to me!

        1. Or how much need we have in them – be it a lack of self love in ourselves.

105. I very much enjoyed reading about your life and how you overcame personal challenges and started on a path of healing. It’s very inspiring Maggie.

     1. Thank you Debra. I feel that everyone reaches their limit when we start asking Why? From there it’s just a matter of the choices we make ❤

106. Maggie you should write a book, the way you write is so warm and engaging and I felt like I was intimately on your journey with you. I love the amount of detail you have put into this blog, change is not an overnight thing it takes real effort and dedication and it’s not all plain sailing but all that dedication is totally worth it when you start to feel free to be yourself again.

     1. Thank you Meg; I write loads – it seems to help me sort out so much. Many draft blogs that aren’t in a fit state to submit yet 😉 My life is a rollercoaster of learning at the moment!

107. You share with us very honestly, warmly and without an inch of being a victim (and given your life circumstances that is quite a feat). When you wrote – “a lovely warm inner glow has replaced the former emptiness” – I got such a sense of when we fill that emptiness with ourselves, our whole lives change because we make decisions from the warmth (love) and not the cold empty space and of trying to fill ourselves up. We are already filled to the brim, we have just forgotten to live it.

     1. Thank you Sarah. I feel that our lives are, and always have been, punctuated by our connectedness; but that for such a long time we haven’t realised that beautiful quality within us.

108. I love how commitment brings a confirmation of who we are and that every fine detail of our days can be a beautiful moment of love and support for not only ourselves but others too. Very inspiring Maggie thank you.

109. How very beautiful that a loving warm glow has replaced the emptiness and that you feel free to be yourself. Thank you Maggie for sharing your story, your insights and your wisdom.

110. You are not the only one who strayed onto the meandering many paths of the so-called New Age and felt more lost afterwards than when they entered upon them. The New Age abounds with half-truths and nearly-truths, all borrowed, adjusted, plagiarised and sensationalised in one way or another and utterly bereft of the true truth, albeit close enough to keep tantalising and seducing those who are longing to have their needs met and haven’t yet learned that there are two sources of energy in this world, two consciousnesses. I didn’t consciously know it either, back then.

     1. …and you, beautiful Gabriele are an inspiration to us all; particularly me as you persistently offer me opportunities to deepen my understanding and connection! ❤

111. Lovely sharing of your life and what has gone on for you Maggie. I think many of us can relate to that realisation that we don’t know what it is we like, because for so long we just choose what allows us to fit in or not be troublesome. I really appreciated reading how you developed more meaningful relationships through caring for your self more, that is a fascinating link.

     1. Thank you Stephen

112. “the Gentle Breath Meditation™, which is my key to Me!” It is a key to the magic wonderland of oneself and God.

     1. It certainly is Jonathan ❤

113. Thank you for sharing. Without you being you we all lose out. You also illustrate how easy it is, from that place of not knowing yourself or valuing yourself, how easy it is to accept or not notice abuse. Our key ‘step one’ job is to know and value ourselves so we can know and value another equally, accepting no less.

114. I wholeheartedly agree Brendan. I frequently suggest to friends and acquaintances that we hold the driving licences to our own lives; and that moment is so magical as I see their revelations dawn.

115. Thank you Maggie for so honestly sharing, I can relate to the none of me, I did not want a me, I too felt I was not important and so like you I gave myself away, until it was time to come home “to find me and be free” and know that “A lovely warm inner glow has replaced the former emptiness.”

116. Thank you Maggie. Sometimes I feel sorry for myself when life seems difficult and today was one of those days until I read this blog! Wow what a life and what a stunning commitment to begin exactly where you are and build a life of love.

117. It seems to me that the hardest thing is not to find truth but to let go of what is not true in our lives, then the truth will most naturally arise.

     1. I watched a documentary by Professor Brian Cox the other day in which he stated that our eyes were all-seeing and that our brains filter the information so that we can make sense of what is in front of them. Our mind conditions our brains, so that quite literally we see what we expect to see. We are conditioned by blindly following years of habits and routines based on ideals and beliefs which we did not witness or create. As you say Matts, “to let go of what is not true in our lives” is so very poignant, yet incredibly hard to do! Every small step is a loosening of that which deceitfully binds each and every one of us to our pasts.

        1. So true. It is not ‘Seeing is believing’ but ‘Believing is seeing’ that is correct.

        2. Beautifully expressed Jonathan

118. All things to all people with scant regard for oneself, such a common tale especially for women. What a beautiful story of finding you Maggie so that you can bring you, in all your fullness, to everything you do. Thank you for sharing your experiences and your wisdom.

119. It does feel amazing to appreciate that when things do get rocky, if we do have a way of life that supports us to honour what we are feeling, we have our own backs as it were to overcome the unstable parts. What I am learning is that while facing and feeling my previous choices is the work I am required to put in, with this connection to my body I find that connecting to others to support me just comes. Healing and being ourselves doesn’t mean being a one-person-island. I feel more ‘me’ when connected to others which completely goes against everything we are taught and told ‘being me’ means.

     1. “I feel more ‘me’ when connected to others which completely goes against everything we are taught and told ‘being me’ means.”

        I just love these words Leigh; they are so appropriate for me right now! Thank you ❤

     2. Many years ago Leigh, before I had attended any of Serge’s presentations in Frome, I was travelling home one December evening after seeing my mother’s body in the morgue, feeling anger and frustration through my tears; and I looked up at the moon. It was so beautifully bright and cheerful and it just helped me realise that I wasn’t on my own – millions of people would also be looking up at the moon with me and that we were just sharing a special moment. We all KNOW that we are not alone; the key is to realise it and that evening I did.❤

120. Maggie, there is something very profound in this blog: the way you are making the journey back to you and know that it is not a path walked in isolation, that we are all here with you, walking too, in our own ways and each with our own challenges – but returning all the same.

121. “To be free — To be me!” So true Maggie, the greatest freedom is to reconnect to who we truly are.

122. “I realised that there was no ‘me’. I didn’t know what I liked or disliked, let alone who I was. I had always fitted in with others, liking what they liked, disliking what they disliked.” This is how I too lived. I am still exploring what I like and learning who I actually am.

     1. Yes Leigh, I feel that once this realisation dawns for us, we continuously explore our learned behaviours and expectations, revealing deeper truths about who we are. Yes; we always have the choice to stop exploring if we find the going hard, but there is also so much joy in freeing ourselves from the drudgery of who we are not and never truly were. The feeling that for me I have trod this path so many times before is sufficient for me to continue choosing to explore further, to deepen my knowing of myself, to one day be truly free to live my own life. For me!

123. I can relate to this the feeling of emptiness, they are not always there, but when I let go of myself and let what I see outside of me and other peoples chaos and mess inside my own body. Which shows my lack of self love.

     1. There are markers showing our lack of self-worth appearing on a very frequent basis, which is good otherwise we would become complacent. These markers are not failures nor are they reasons to be despondent, but reminders of the complex charades we have been playing over many lifetimes.

        And some markers are revelations to us; small victories as another layer of protection peels away to reveal more of who we truly are.

124. Maggie this feels deeply honouring and very inspiring. I felt a similar warm glow as I read how your loving relationship with you has developed.

     1. Thanks Jane, it is also really supportive for me re-reading my blog because now I am beginning to appreciate the huge improvements that I have made to my life. I used to be terrified of the word love, but now I can openly embrace love and truly appreciate all the loving choices that I am making in my life, whilst also accepting that some of my choices are dollops of tough love for those around me. I enjoy good days and some not-so-good days but I can truly say now that I love my life. ❤

125. When we walk through life being a mirror rather than a reflection and being what others expect us to be for them, life can become one of those amusement park house of mirrors, and it is easy to lose our way back to who we are!

126. Thank you Maggie for being so down to earth and open about your experiences. It does appear to be a common issue this trying to be like someone else in order to get another’s approval, but at the same time not being true to ourselves.

     1. I feel that we are just so frightened of our own vulnerability. We do not realise just how precious it really is because we have always responded from a point of weakness (fear of hurts) rather than from a point of strength (love and knowing).

127. Maggie, this is really incredible, I am stunned at how open you are and with how much commitment you share this with us and live your life. It is so beautiful that you have come to you after such horror and hurt.. And that you now are free, simply because you are you again! This totally rocks out the victimhood we can join or the commitment to love we can start.. One that always starts in the heart, not the mind.

     1. There was a period in my life Danna when I would lie without consideration in order to protect me and my girls. It was ‘second nature’. I have found countering that level of dishonesty very easy; and as my journey unfolds I am faced with new deeper levels of honesty. I am now more honest than I have knowingly been in my life previously; but I feel very strongly that I am not on my own when I say that I am still living lies today, only at this moment I do not realise that they are lies.

128. I am sure many can relate to having no real sense of who they are and what being true to themselves looks like – I know even now after several years of being inspired by Serge Benhayon and his teachings to connect with me, I am still and will forever be deepening that relationship and can occasionally hit points where I feel like I am unsure of what it means to be more of me.

129. “It was remarkable and I still remember the warm glow within as my inner heart opened and I started to connect to me.” Maggie, these words could have been written by me after my first workshop with Serge Benhayon. After wandering around in a daze for most of my life and having no idea who I really was, to take a seat in that room and to begin to listen to this most humble and seemingly ordinary man answering many of the questions that I had been asking forever, was like finding an oasis in the middle of the desert; and I haven’t stop ‘drinking’ in the wisdom and the common sense he shares with the world in every living moment.

130. It is interesting how easily we can fall into a pattern of not being enough – not listening to ourselves and not loving ourselves. And we use experiences from others to confirm that we are not enough. So it becomes a very tricky cycle to get out of. But wow what a turn around to think you now know what it is to value yourself – for how can we value others or even inspire them to value themselves if we do not carry this quality first and foremost.

     1. Great point HM. When we refuse to bring love to ourselves and honour what we feel we bring disregard to everyone else too.

131. Thank you Maggie, your blog is amazing. Very inspiring, beautifully written and deeply powerful. What you have experienced is incredible and your transformation is extraordinary thanks to the loving choices you’ve made through learning to listen and honour your body. It shows no matter how off track we may get in our journey back to home, our return path to love and truth, to who we are, is always available ready and waiting for us to choose.

132. “A lovely warm inner glow has replaced the former emptiness” Simply expressed and essence of true self healing.

133. Maggie, you found light at the end of a long dark tunnel, connected to it and made it your own. Truly inspiring .

134. There is nothing more glorious to be able to find and connect to who we truly are, as it is only then we can break away from the illusion and impositions of the world and build a true relationship with ourselves and the others around us.

135. A very powerful read expressing beautifully there is no greater freedom than, “To be free — To be me!” and what that means.

136. Beautifully expressed Maggie, your journey in finding your true self and committing to your life is very inspiring and healing to read. That’s what I love about Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon, everything they present simply works and offers the body the space to truly heal.

137. In truth pleasing others does not make any favour to anyone (neither you nor another one). It is a movement that promotes an illusion of togetherness.

138. Thank you Maggie, that was a very touching read with many observation that I am sure many people will relate to. You wrote: “My friends and colleagues began to respond to the gentleness I brought with me every day and these relationships changed and became more meaningful.” – I too have noticed that the more I care for and respect myself the more others do too. The more my relationship deepens with myself, the more it does with others.

139. This an inspiring journey of your return to you Maggie. How many of us have looked for answers, love and recognition outside of us, and all the while we simply had to reconnect and develop that relationship within. Beautiful sharing “A lovely warm inner glow has replaced the former emptiness” .

140. It is the simple things that when walked step by step that bring us home and build us a foundation that is strong and reliable.

141. ‘I regularly listen to Serge Benhayon’s presentations and each time I hear something different; something I hadn’t heard or grasped properly before, or possibly his words talk to a deeper level and become more meaningful.’ I often get this to I might be listening to an audio and the next day I hear something so profound I can’t believe I missed it the first time round, and now I understand that the more I am with me the more aware I become to all that is around us.

142. There is so much packed and imposed on us when we are indoctrinated into conforming. The simple innate naturalness of knowing ourselves can be well hidden but only for as long as we allow it. The wonderful works of Serge Benhayon invite us to know ourselves in our essence, appreciate our amazing qualities and re-connect with unique expression both through body and voice. In this we know our likes and dislikes, with this we can choose our own yes or no, by this we live our own lives in full, and through this we know we are truly and divinely blessed.

     1. Absolutely hitting the nail on the head Sandra! Beautifully expressed ❤

143. What is the problem of being everything to others and nothing to us?
     The main problem is that it is a way of moving that lacks foundations and is not able to help others to build foundations either.

144. I couldn’t agree more Linda; and our bodies assist us by becoming our markers. It’s a progression that leads to a beautiful partnership! ❤

145. Truly inspiring blog for all, the beauty and simplicity that is there all of the time just waiting for us to connect to and lived to the fullest. Thank you Maggie.

146. In the world today how often do we take into account what our body does and doesn’t like? Or are we so preoccupied on pleasing or living up to expectations and demands that at one point may have came from another but after that moment we choose to carry and live by and in the past. Reading this again it makes me wonder how much more could I learn about how my body feels to be in life rather than what I have or are told to be and feel. Thank you Maggie.

     1. Leigh, I feel that the more observant I become of my body, the more it communicates with me. Of course this isn’t quite true: I am desensitising myself to my body’s responses! I am learning to break away from my voyages of distraction when what I would be doing would override anything else! Of course these voyages are engrained in my psyche; they are ‘second nature’ I have been practicing them for aeons; and so I still lose myself in distractions, but my awareness is growing and becoming stronger and more consistent.

        1. I would completely relate to that as well, checking out from my body was at one point considered normal and unquestionable. Even today I am finding and questioning why I haven’t listened to the messages sooner. But the fact that this is even being considered as not normal (to live in ones head) is a great start considering how we live as a humanity solely from the head as if it were the place to be when actually, what if it isn’t?

147. ‘I realised that there was no ‘me’. I didn’t know what I liked or disliked, let alone who I was. I had always fitted in with others, liking what they liked, disliking what they disliked.’ I can relate to this realisation but I have to be honest, in truth I did know what I liked or disliked and I knew who I was; yet I chose to hold it back, to not connect to my inner knowing or better to say, I dismissed what I knew to be true. This was the cause of terrible frustration leading to years of headaches and migraines. Starting the Gentle Breath Meditation and making very practical self loving choices has been the beginning of a forever deepening relationship with myself and my body.

148. ‘…I know that my journey is not a solitary one for we are all returning home.’ It’s beautiful to connect with this truth and feel we are all in this together whatever the level of awareness of this fact we each have.

149. Thank you for sharing your experiences so openly, it is a joy to read of how different choices can be made at any moment of life “A lovely warm inner glow has replaced the former emptiness.” It is never too late to return to that feeling. I know also because I thought I was missing that feeling, learning that it is something that I can connect to has been absolutely life changing, and it is within everyone of us, there to be reignited.

150. I love rereading this – for it maps out the path that many take and get lost on when they start to realise the emptiness that underpins so much of what we hold onto as being life – all the things we think will satisfy us that invariably never do. A very powerful blog – thankyou Maggie.

151. It seems Maggie that you have gone from one extreme to the other, and many would probably say that it isn’t possible for our lives to change so drastically, but you are living proof. How great is it to know that we can go from what seems like no support to all the support you could possibly need by getting to know yourself and making more self loving choices.

152. ‘A lovely warm inner glow has replaced the former emptiness’. This is priceless Maggie. You have shared a very personal journey, but one many will relate to. To rest in our inner glow is a true blessing

153. “A lovely warm inner glow has replaced the former emptiness.” This is a feeling I now know too Maggie and for me is the most precious in my life. That inner connection, felt as an inner warmth, is remembering that I am tender and loving, the essence of my soul that is unwavering and there to support me everywhere I go in life.

154. I love what you have shared Maggie and it brings it back to having the space to be really honest with ourselves and what feels loving and supportive for our health and wellbeing through the movements we make.

155. It is huge to learn how much we have contributed to the inequality of the world by choosing to be lesser that who and what we are, voluntarily giving away our power and allowing abuse from others.. If we each stand firm in true equality then there is no room for bullying, supremacy and domination to gain a foothold.

156. This I found also, the spiritual New Age books promised much but delivered nothing, or worse, half-truths to make one feel like there may be something in it, but as it could never fully deliver truth, it was a distracting sidepath to keep one away from the actual truth. But the presentations of Universal Medicine made sense of everything, delivering the whole truth and allowing us the freedom to choose for ourselves.

157. I also had my share of exploration through the spiritual ‘new age’ Maggie. There was much I became immersed in, but I can say today with absoluteness, that none of it offered any true healing or a consistent and joyful connection with myself or those around me either Maggie. From my experience, everything always asked me to connect to and ‘draw upon’ energies OUTSIDE of myself – a dependency upon this was actually taught and encouraged. It suited the part of me that wanted to escape from life, rather than commit to it deeply with all that I actually am.
     Nothing ever pointed to the richness that actually resides within, as Serge Benhayon has ceaselessly delivered in his teachings, and how our reconnection to this is the key to true change and healing.

158. What an amazing and deeply honest sharing, of your process of rediscovering yourself Maggie (if I may put it so plainly)…

     To recognise so acutely, where you did not value nor appreciate ‘you’ and the ensuing hardships this led to, is deeply empowering. As is your clearly active dedication to building a relationship with yourself that sets up a whole new foundation entirely for your life – one based upon cherishing yourself to the bone.

     Go for it dear lady.

     Thank-you so much for sharing in this public forum – and I so look forward to hearing more…

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160. Being many things to anyone and everyone as a way to give meaning to life and to fill it up, works only if evolution is not part of our living agenda. Otherwise, it gets to a point where it cannot be sustained any longer.

161. Maggie, I love what you share here, it’s utter realness and how you supported yourself in it, by not just tagging along but actually taking the time to find your own way, to feel each and every step for you. The line ‘learning to give my body preference over what I was doing’ reminded me that it’s those simple things we can do which truly honour us and that life is about those little choices which impact us and those around us in big ways.

162. Thank you Maggie for this honest account of your life and of the changes you have made since finding Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon. This is another testimony that the Spiritual New Age modalities promise a lot but deliver very little of true worth, and it is only a matter of time before the truth of how the presenters are living becomes evident, whereas with Serge Benhayon and the Universal Medicine practitioners there is a consistency and a commitment to evolve which is evident every time you see them.

163. Beautiful and honest account of finding self and the many distractions we can get caught up along the way which might look like they are the right thing but when we discern there is absolutely no substance to them only the imposition on our being. As you have mentioned Maggie, Universal Medicine books and presentations can be a bit daunting for some as they are always asking us in a very loving an unimposed way to be who we truly are, and that is healing. Thank you.

164. It definitely feels like a homecoming to ourselves when we realise the necessity of putting our self in the equation of life for ourselves. Even though this is of benefit to everyone as they get to see and feel the truth of who we all are.

165. Oh yes, we can ALL be likened to puppets on strings being pulled all over the place at the behest of a consciousness that binds us and feeds more control to come through another, until we begin to see the roles that we set ourselves up to play are not the truth of who we are. As you share so beautifully Maggie – re-connecting and re-claiming yourself is the only way to true self-salvation and the cutting the ties of these diminishing roles is necessary to free us from our self-imposed deep separation from the love we are in essence.

166. How gorgeous you are Maggie! Your story is so inspiring, as is the beautifully sweet woman that I can feel in every word. Your story is why I love Universal Medicine and their therapies so much, they truly support people to heal on every level and begin living from love. No matter the past trauma, there is a way back to harmony, truth and love, and it’s not an intellectual concept but something that can be lived.

167. An extraordinary and honest sharing of your journey back to you. I love that it was surrounded and supported by the beauty of nature that you connected to the oneness within and opened yourself to the truth of what you once heard to end up where you are today.

168. The books by Serge Benhayon unfold a deeper and greater magic with each reading… And I have noticed that the more connected and aware I am, the more is revealed within their pages.

169. Re-claiming who we are is one of the most amazing things we can do. It stops all the dysfunctional behaviours like giving our power away or trying to be all things to all people. All that is needed is for us to be true to ourselves.

170. Thank you Maggie, your story is awe inspiring.

171. The Gentle Breath Meditation is a key, for our true breath is the bridge back home to the love within our hearts.

     1. So very true Liane! ❤

172. What you have shared Maggie, is very inspiring. Most of us either drift through life aimlessly or we charge through it with our head down and bottom up. Either way, we do not pause to truly feel who holds the reins. Like actors we take on many parts in a constant struggle to achieve some form of recognition be it negative or positive it does not seem to matter so long as we are identified. And this we seek for we have forsaken who we truly are and so we rely on another to ‘see’ us on our behalf, albeit an untrue version of ourselves. When all this complexity and misery gets too much, we begin to know what we suspected all along – that there is more to this existence then we are currently living and that the ‘answer’ is actually so very simple. By reacquainting ourselves with our true selves we are able to drop the guard, remove the costumes and just move through life as we are. For the simple truth is that we are love and as such there is a way to move that honours this, and a way to move that does not.

     1. I agree Liane, but for me during these formative years, playing on stage or engaging with the beautiful me is like walking on a precipice. I will ‘wake up’ to find myself stumbling on the stage again and then gather myself together to reconnect back to me.

        For now it is an ongoing lesson, but I do find that I am waking up sooner as my awareness increases.

     2. Thank you Liane. You show me that this story is universal and we all choose to shut down to the truth we know until the consequences of this choice lead us back to who we are.

     3. Beautiful Liane! Our strength is in staying connected to who we are, living the love that emanates from within and life becomes simply, joyous and full of divine beauty from every angle.

173. Serge Benhayon is a true teacher. His teachings are all about movement. They help anyone willing to give truth a go, to free the way you move from the hurts that governed you till then and feel the difference. It is this, and not anything else, that confirms something very deep in us and that also confirms us very deeply. That confirmation opens the door to a journey that has no end where we deepen and get confirmed by our own (freed) way of moving.

174. “The spiritual new age route” confirms/deepens a way of moving of someone whose movements led there? or does it create a new way of moving?

175. When we try to be what we are not to please another one we are full on riding in the impossible world of images.

176. When parents have expectations of us following their steps, the expectation is really about moving in life in the same way they did and do.

177. Very inspiring Maggie! It’s interesting to read how you ‘heard’ phrases that at the time you could not comprehend; this too was true for me … one was ‘Abide in thee’ it came to me when I saw a sleeping angel ornament – a child-angel deeply resting in a clam. I was weary from searching for solutions to fix my problems and always on hyper alert at the time. I too came across the presentations by Serge Benhayon through a friend’s recommendation, and from that day forward living my life in a way that reconnects me to me is what it is about. I can lose me at times, and get caught up with the needs of others, but this does not last long because I immediately feel what it does to my body, how well I live my day, and my ability to connect to others.

178. Very powerful blog indeed Maggie! Thank you for sharing your experiences with us all. “To be free – To be Me!” Highlights to me just how evil and imposing our ideals and beliefs are. They are more imprisoning than that the confines of a conventional prison because at least in these you know what you are bound by.

     1. That’s very true Joshua; I hadn’t considered that before. Thank you ❤

179. Lovely to come back to this blog this morning and still feel the freshness and the inspiration to ever deepen my own connection and allow that fiery warmth to fill the emptiness that would otherwise be there.

180. It is great to re-visit this blog Maggie. Blame is a very potent weapon to wield against another. Thank goodness for the wake up call to self responsibility that you have responded to and changed your life so amazingly. This is the new-normal way for us all to live if we want to bring deep and lasting change into our daily lives.

181. There is so much that the spiritual new-age route has to offer anyone who might be seeking something. It is very tantalising, and it can feel like you are genuinely making a difference in the world. However, from my experience and from the many experiences I have bee told, the spiritual new-age route it not always able to live up to its promises, with the search never ending and instead we can experience a constant need to keep looking outside of ourselves for what we miss. This is why The Way of The Livingness is here, so that we may all know and experience the wealth of what lives inside each and every one of us, with no need what so ever for any outer source to satisfy a longing or desire.

182. It’s interesting that most live in an illusionary image, a picture to conform to that we either choose or is imposed on us… when in fact we crave the most obvious and natural relationship … With ourselves.

183. Such an honest and relatable account Maggie, I also had to spend time getting to know me, still am really, as the messages we get constantly are, ‘its selfish to consider our own needs first’, or ‘she’s a tireless worker’ … like it’s a good thing. Those behaviours are rewarded without considering the consequences to our own livingness. It been gorgeous to reconnect to me and deepen my love and appreciation”, to find me and be free

184. I remember my first purple book written by Serge Benhayon. It was ‘The Way It Is.’ It too sat on my bookshelf for over a year. Each time I tried to read it, none of it made sense, until one fine day I was ready and it all made perfect sense.

185. I love it Maggie, ‘To be free — To be me!’ is such a simple message but has a great depth to it.

186. Thank you Katie. Yes, the Gentle Breath Meditation is life-transforming!

187. A very honest, down to earth sharing that is very relatable. Thanks Maggie!

188. The journey into re-discovering who we are is a very beautiful one, not always easy, but always worth it. I love reading stories such as yours Maggie, so real and a reminder that what is on offer is there for us all.

189. It is crazy that we need to be given permission to self love. That is itself is an inditement on the way the world is.

     1. I remember struggling over this Adam; and after a Chakra-puncture session with my practitioner, she returned to me having just realised that I needed to give myself permission to connect to myself. Judy was correct: her inspiration opened up a new world for me! Thanks Judy.

        1. I was so used to asking permission to do anything; it was my up-bringing: a learned behaviour! I never questioned why I should ask – I had to be seen to be polite, but no one ever taught me that I only ever needed permission for some things and not everything. Even now I can catch myself pondering…

190. Reconnecting to who we are, connects us to the all and it is here that we can embrace the warmth and joy of inspiration available to us always. Thank you Maggie a truly inspiring sharing.

191. When we try to please or pander to others we are already standing on a platform or a starting point that who we truly are isn’t enough and our bodies suffer as a result. What if pleasing was seen or discussed as a disease in the world? Not only that but if we approach someone with this foundation that we are not good enough then we bring that lacking of us to them – the very thing we all crave the most is being withheld. But when we come back to the fact that we are enough already then life changes without us putting in any effort into the outside world. When we focus on the inside the outside follows suit.

192. A few simple steps that can bring us back to our awareness and we realise how much we knew as a child and how clearly we could see and feel things back then. If we begin to honour what we feel, then so much more starts to open up to our awareness.

193. I like that you shared with the little things in life, sometimes just picking a place to start, is all that is needed to create a huge change. It can be the simple things that create a new movement and flow.

     1. Hi Nicole, thank you. I felt that my blog’s purpose was to encourage awareness of self and to offer a means of support as awareness develops. When we’re first starting out on self-discovery, or inner scrutiny we feel a little vulnerable, full of self-doubt and uncertainty… One of my first realisations was that my ‘physical’ memory was better than my ‘mental’ memory. For instance, if I couldn’t remember if I had taken my supplements I would return to the shelf where I kept them and go to repeat the exercise. In so doing, my body remembered the physical movement I was now repeating. That’s awesome!

        1. So true that when we start out on self discovery, we can feel a little vulnerable. The realisation that we may be off track or not where we know we could be can be uncomfortable. To make a change means we do need to stop and consciously choose something else.

194. What is interesting to me Maggie is how throughout your blog you reference the amazing choices you have made to support yourself and begin to nurture yourself, particularly given the rocky past, and at the end you reference yourself as a “Housewife”. This interests me as you also refer to your true mothering and nurturing capacity in what you feel you bring to the world, and with that I feel through your self-discovery you also bring light to where you are able to truly support all of humanity. Not just in your amazing sharing which will support countless others for years to come, but in living that mothering, nurturing, housewife energy for all to share in and enjoy. A true commitment to bringing that to amazing self to all will surely support more than we can imagine.

     1. Thank you Phill ❤

195. When we try to please others we set ourselves up in false relationships based on patterns and dynamics we have chosen to not see or let go of. When these dynamics do get exposed, up comes the frustration and resentment of knowing this all along and making the choice to ignore it.

196. Beautiful to re-discover this blog again and feeling the joy in you reconnecting back with you Maggie.

197. Absolutely Maggie, ‘The main investment turns out to be the loving choices that I make for me. Each small step counts, as does the Gentle Breath Meditation’, yes a powerful lovely meditation, https://www.universalmedicine.co.uk/services/free-audio-library/gentle-breath-meditation
     or http://www.unimedliving.com/meditation/gentle-breath-meditation/what-is-gentle-breath-meditation.html

198. Maggie, I loved reading your very honest, humble story, thank you for sharing this, it is very beautiful to read how you are ‘learning what my body likes and does not like and more importantly, acknowledging this and doing something about it.’ I spent many years not listening to what my body likes and does not like, this has changed recently as I claim more and more what feels true for me, what I do and don’t want to do, I’m learning to be more gentle and loving with my body and not push my body like i used to.

     1. There are photos on Facebook of me splitting great lengths of low concrete walls with nothing more than a chisel drill and from the blocks I had made, building a retaining wall around where I was having a new coal bunker sited! It was back-breaking work, achieved within a deadline; and I was so very proud of myself for pushing myself to finish it Rebecca! It was all my own endeavour because I couldn’t get a builder to do it; and as I refused to ‘waste’ this concrete I gave myself a mammoth task.

        My body paid for that HARD LABOUR over the next 2-3 years; and it was even longer before I felt like doing much manual work in my garden again. How utterly foolish was I to do that?

        Of course, back then, I didn’t know what I do now; and although I still have the same drive to do such work, I allow my body to regulate the amount I do; and I am realising that by doing manual graft in ‘bite-size’ chunks my endeavours are more fulfilling, enduring and enjoyable!

        I am learning that while I can apply my mind to anything, my body cannot; and I can now respect that and lovingly support my body; even though to begin with it was a case of just appreciating that I had ‘driven’ my body too far. I would have conversations with it: a little niggle would be felt, so I would adjust my stance and so the niggle would become a mild ache and I would adjust again, until I realised that my body had ‘had enough’ and I would collapse on the sofa with a warm soothing drink of green tea! I would be so tired that I would end up falling asleep and being unable to rest properly in bed later because of all my aches and pains.

        My body taught me to recognise how it was feeling and over the last year or so I have been appreciating and understanding this more and more; even though it will sometimes give me a kick if I overstep the mark! It’s tolerance is becoming less as I become more attuned to how it feels, which now means that I don’t over-tire myself and I certainly don’t exhaust myself! It’s a great partnership that I now value very much. ❤

199. There is nothing more beautiful than honouring our body. What may seem like the smallest and simplest loving choice, leads to more loving choices and a deeper connection to ourselves and the feeling of God in our body.

200. There are times I think I don’t know who I am, the truth is I am never more than a breath away from the real me.

201. ‘And so my life continued trying to please people’, reading this line, I realise how much I have done this my entire life, to try and keep the peace. Always trying to make relationship with other people okay, be it family, friends or work colleagues, and leaving my relationship with me, my body and my truth in the process. It’s a deeply harming way to live and be, for you give your truth, your power and your energy away to everything and anybody. It’s an incredible draining and exhausting way to live, and can also result in pent up frustration, sadness and anger being stored in the body. Hence creating illness and disease, I guess you could also say it’s quite imposing needing everyone to be a certain way.

     1. You are so right Gyl, it is enormously imposing and a belittling way to be. We try to please our families, our bosses, our friends, partners and in so doing we don’t give them the true us but a reduced and measured copy that is full of empty spaces….

202. ‘There were no true answers’ these words ring true to my ears and whole body. Looking back at the new age work I chose to be involved in there were never any true answers, nothing was absolute or complete, everything was intentionally feeding you to stay on the merry go round and to become more lost, and separate you further from your Soul.

     1. Oh Gyl, how we invested our all into the spiritual new age!!!! We all KNEW that there was more to life than what we had, though none of us could put our fingers on ‘it’; and so we all searched and dabbled in this and that.

        There came a time when I opened the next new book that somehow it was going to be the same disappointment as the previous one, but I was fed images that ‘this would be the one’… And of course it wasn’t.

        It was the summation of all those failures; the feeling of utter disappointment that dispelled the images and woke me up to me: that somehow I had to do it, though in those early days, I didn’t know quite how!

203. Gorgeous Maggie, to know that the warm glow within we seek is simply a return to who we are, connecting to ourselves in the most loving way and knowing this can be achieved when we begin to breathe our own breath as in the gentle breath meditation. Love how you are now connecting back to you. There is no greater freedom or love than that.

204. The most important thing that I take out of your sharing Maggie, is the glow what you felt deep inside and which guided you lovingly until you found back to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, and in aligning you were supported to find the way back to yourself. Be you, be free. How beautiful.

205. Maggie it’s great that you never gave up on yourself, and kept coming back to call within, knowing there is more than what meets the eye. Trusting your call and picking up Serge Benhayon’s book which is full of Ageless Wisdom and is a blessing in itself. Your journey is a great reflection for others, not to give up.

206. Reading your story Maggie even though there have been many devastatingly awful and loveless experiences, there has always been something calling you home… whether it is a feeling, a message, meeting someone or been given a book. It was then up to you with what you did with that call… and it is beautiful to read that you followed it all the way back to you. A very inspiring account that needs to be shared far and wide.

     1. Thank you Aimee ❤

207. What an amazing transformation Maggie, how wonderful to find yourself and be free. I loved how you took responsibility to change your life, very inspiring.
     Thank you for sharing your story, your courage and self determination is evident and deeply appreciated.

     1. Shirl, courage I feel, is the polar opposite to stubbornness; and there are times when I allow this to be reversed… I am learning more and more to acknowledge my stubborn behaviours and yet I never acknowledge my own courage! Thank you ❤

     2. With each day Shirl, I feel Responsibility more and more. With responsibility comes a burden if it’s allowed; but I feel that it is very much about owning and discharging ‘personal’ responsibility which leaves no burden.

208. Re-reading your blog Maggie has been a reflection of the road map I have followed. Being what others thought I should be and become. The different hats I have had to wear over the years that went by. But most of all I regret the losing the essence of me. I know where I would be if I had not meet Serge Benhayon and his example of how we all can live, is just a choice away.

     1. Steve, your beautiful essence was always with you; you were just too distracted to feel it. ❤

209. Giving ourself the space to connect reveals far more than we can imagine.

     1. And I feel that developing the Gentle Breath is the first vital step, Deborah, on our inner voyage of self-discovery. ❤

        1. Breathing our own breath is the key to the Kingdom within without a doubt.

210. I can relate to the purple books written by Serge Benhayon. I was drawn to pick up ‘The Way It Is’ on many occasions – I held it and put it down before leaving the store. On the day i purchased the book, I had made a very conscious choice to know the Truth and therein a needed self-loving step back to me – i walked into the shop with the express purpose of returning to what i had left behind. I Thank God and Serge Benhayon for the books he has written and for every divine expression and quality reflected by Serge and others who have lived the Truth, to call us home.

     1. I wholeheartedly endorse all that you say here Deborah ❤

211. A deeply inspiring blog Maggie – i love and appreciate your honesty for this will support many others and your willingness to follow your heart and inner knowing…this has served you well.

212. Maggie having just read your article for the second time I once again experienced the feeling of having my fire stoked. Thank you for sharing your warm inner glow.

     1. Yes love the warm inner glow and how we all need to feel and share this with each other in a world where there is too little true inner glow.

213. Maggie I read today what you shared about ‘never earning get your father’s respect’ and I could feel the pressure that you and so many other children feel when they feel that they need to do something to earn respect or approval from a parent. It sets up a feeling of not being good enough and a striving towards a point of recognition. A vastly different experience to the one where a child is told from day one that they are abundantly enough, so much so that the parent is cautious not to do anything that takes away from the child’s completeness.

214. Pleasing others is fruitless. You can never get it right. The odd thing is is that when you stop trying and start to be more yourself than others feel confirmed in a far greater way just by your honesty and integrity.

     1. Absolutely pleasing others is not the way, How so many of us have got caught in this, to then realise from our inner connection, how we have been making our own selves ill and miserable. Thanks to the support of Universal Medicine, so many of us have found the way of the Livingness.

215. Maggie, all your near-death experiences do make one take a broader view of life. Could it be that such experiences are there to wake us up to the fact that there is a greater plan that we are here to fulfill instead of just living a life for self? By living our lives for others we are still living a selfish life and it is not until we deeply honour and care for our bodies that we get out of our way enough to be vehicles through which the plan can unfold on earth.

216. “Somewhere in my life I had lost me!” Realising this, Maggie is an important step because it is not possible to find something if we don’t know we have lost it and yet, the funny thing is, once we do find it we realize that we never did lose it. It’s just a matter of changing our focus from being everything for others to being ourselves, and then we can contribute from our fullness, instead of from the emptiness that wants something for itself and keeps digging a deeper void so that it can feel more of itself.

217. Maggie, it’s great that you remembered the missing ingredient – loving Me, and were able to let go of “trying to please people” by always fitting in with them. Of course we can never please everyone so if we guauge our worth by that we will end up feeling a failure. It’s only by loving ourselves that we can bring love to our relationships.

     1. Sandra, your words, “Of course we can never please everyone so if we gauge our worth by that we will end up feeling a failure.” are so very profound and should reach out to all of Humanity! Thank you ❤

218. An inspiring sharing Maggie! Many will be able to turn their lives around through your sharing the journey to where you are now with us. The teachings of Serge Benhayon of the Ancient Wisdom bring us back to the way we were meant to live our lives, in love, joy and harmony. For most of us this is a work in progress.

     1. Yes Roslyn, definitely ‘a work in progress’! I love this phrase: life is about our journey and the lessons we learn; and like eager scholars, the more we learn, the more challenges face us: asking us to dig deeper still; and our ‘rewards’ will be stupendous.

219. I am just myself exploring more and more the gentle breath meditation, I wasn’t someone who from the get go when I first learned of this, took it on and used it a lot. I am sure I was just fighting myself to actually sit and be still, but I am doing it more and more, ensuring that it is all about my connection. That when I feel off, I come back to my breath, this I am finding very helpful.

     1. Hi Raegan, it is wonderful that you are developing your awareness of the gentle breath meditation. It is definitely a matter of choice and the more we choose to compose ourselves to practise, the easier and quicker our rhythm develops.

        For me it is still a conscious choice and developing my awareness to choose it when I need the space to achieve some form of clarity.

220. Wow Maggie, your story is amazing, I love what you have shared here, ‘I have been inspired by Serge Benhayon and the Universal Medicine presentations and workshops I have attended in my journey to find Me and to Live My Life in truth and love.’ This is so gorgeous, I also have made my life about love and truth after living with self doubt, a lack of commitment to life and being very judgemental and critical of people – what a turnaround, the presentations of Universal Medicine are indeed life changing.

221. Dear Maggie, what an incredibly inspiring and honest account of your life. It shows to me that we know our truth and the way to live with ourselves and that beautiful warm glow you speak of – even amongst some devastating experiences – we can choose ourselves and choose to kindle that warm glow you speak of. And yes, Serge Benhayon makes great sense of the world. Thank you for taking the time to share your story with us.

222. Hello Maggie and your story is true testament to a number of things including and most importantly to you. Thank you for your open account of the twists and turns of your life and now how you have found your warm inner glow through the work of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine. It is our choice as is with everything to do with our life whatever we choose but as your story shows there is a quality of ‘you’ that if missing or disagreed can be horrific to us. Why go through all we do to come out the other side to see that it need not be that way and that all the answers were with you the whole time, we just hadn’t connected to this fact.

223. Hi Maggie, I was deeply touched by your story and could relate to much of it as if it were my own. I also had little or no sense of myself being whatever anyone wanted me to be . . . until I was so frustrated with myself after 44 years being like that that I began to suffer from constant head aches and looking for a solution I made an appointment with a healer, Serge Benhayon, who I had heard was the real deal but had thought I needed to have an ailment in order to see him! Best appointment I ever made. . . . Like you through the presentations of Universal Medicine I have dedicated my life to making the changes I needed to in order to be and know more of who I am. I am now 60 and know and love myself and live more of me I am than I could have ever previously imagined in this life! Serge Benhayon is a true inspiration as he walks his talk.

224. I feel we do not have any true idea of who we are unless we re-connect to a truly loving way of life. If we are living anything but true love then our perception of who we are will not be based on love

     1. You have, I feel, hit the nail on the head Joshua! Unfortunately, to accept this, we really do need to be re-connecting; which is a ‘beingness’ that some can’t, at the moment, grasp. I wish that it were different…

225. When we love and accept ourselves, it opens up the world in oh so many beautiful ways. We become more connected with people and the world just seems so much more alive. Our hearts open up pathways of connection like no other and being able to explore who we are and appreciate ourselves in this way is truly amazing.

226. ‘It was remarkable and I still remember the warm glow within as my inner heart opened and I started to connect to me.’This is an amazing turn around from having no sense of who you were Maggie.

227. A powerful and honest account of how we can start to resurrect ourselves from the abuse, dismay and emptiness in our lives – a journey of return well worth it.

228. ‘A lovely warm inner glow has replaced the former emptiness.’ and, ‘This developing love within is inspiring..’,
     It is great to hear how you are building this inner flame, your love, very inspiring Maggie.

229. Wow Maggie, how freeing is it to be exactly who we are in full, without fear or hesitation. Listening and supporting our bodies and what they share is a true commitment to living life and taking responsibility and care in deepening our own relationship with self and all others equally. Absolutely awesome.

230. This is beautiful Maggie ‘The main investment turns out to be the loving choices that I make for me.’ and so very true for us all. In fact this investment actually supports one and all.

231. I enjoyed reading about your journey Maggie, it highlighted the harm of giving power away and the fundamental importance of self care and appreciation

232. I can recall very clearly at the age of 5 that life was not true and was not making any sense to me so I became utterly confused. The giving up, uneasiness and tension stayed with me choosing an enormous amount of effort to cover up these feelings and doing a successful job at it but not enough to sustain the constant feeling that there had to be more to life than what I was seeing. This tension in my body led me to Universal Medicine and from that moment I have not looked back. I knew I had found absolute truth.

233. To find me and to be free – these are such powerful words that confirm the divine essence of who you are, as well as the fact that there is a path back to you that has to be walked, lived and worked at – that this path does not simply happen by chance, it is a choice to re-learn and walk that path again back to you.

234. Hello Maggie and while your story is different the ending is similar, Serge Benhayon, purple books, Gentle Breath Meditation and now I look at the world through different eyes. The world hasn’t changed but I’ve made a change. As you say these aren’t huge changes, “Just easy little things, but they made such a difference, learning to give my body preference over what I was doing; my functionality. Giving up coffee showed me how much my body had been suffering from stress. I am learning what my body likes and does not like and more importantly, acknowledging this and doing something about it.” These ‘little things’ have supported the big things and so it goes on.

     1. So very true Ray

235. “A lovely warm inner glow has replaced the former emptiness.” Beautiful Maggie. Every time I read the purple books by Serge Benhayon I too get something new – a deeper level of meaning.

     1. The same also applies when I re-listen to any of the presentations Sue!

236. ‘I regularly listen to Serge Benhayon’s presentations and each time I hear something different; something I hadn’t heard or grasped properly before, or possibly his words talk to a deeper level and become more meaningful.’ I too have found that I hear Serge Benhayon on a different level than I did before, or that something I had struggled to grasp previously suddenly drops in to place during an aha moment, and I wonder why I had difficulty getting it in the first place, and then acknowledge how I had fought myself not to understand what was being shared.

237. It’s a powerful realisation that we are the ones who put the shackles on ourselves in the first place and are the only ones who can take them off. Things may appear to stand in our way but dissolve instantly the moment we choose to see through the illusion.

238. Well said Marika, we all can relate in some way or another, but I love how you bring it back to equality, because we all have stop moments big or small. How much focus we want to give that stop moment determines if it happens again or not. So when you find yourself there is a good chance the forced stopped moments reduce.

239. Hi Maggie, I relate to your story “Learning to Find Me and Live My Life”. I have been a student of Universal Medicine for just over ten years and I am still learning, the forever student, to find (more of) me and know when it is me and then live that which is true for me for my life. My connection is my scared instrument to having this quality in my life because when I am disconnected from me it is the same stuff that actually bothers me. This is a great realisation and great marker to actually know what is you and what is not you and act on both, either confirming more of you, or continually acting in the way that is needed to re-connect.

240. ‘Giving up coffee showed me how much my body had been suffering from stress’ – I think this is a really important point Maggie, as it shows that our bodies may be suffering more than we think if we are constantly stimulating the mind, and distracting it away from feeling the true quality of the rest of us. This is damaging because when we choose to come off these stimulants – such as coffee and caffeine – we feel the real state that we’re in, even though we have actually been living in that quality for many years but we haven’t clocked it.

241. I agree with you Maggie what Serge Benhayon says just makes so much sense, and up until the point of meeting him nothing from anyone or anything else completely added up, there was always a ‘well that doesn’t feel or sound right.

242. Thanks for your openness Maggie and sharing your story or a journey back to soul. I know the spiritual path very well and the fortified smile that comes from thinking I had it worked out, only to find I was more lost than ever before. Like you, there was an undeniable difference in the approach taken by Universal Medicine and I am grateful that I was willing to acknowledge this.

     1. Isn’t it wonderful Joel, how we can now smile with our hearts!

243. ‘Just easy little things, but they made such a difference, learning to give my body preference over what I was doing; my functionality’ – A great line Maggie, this is an amazing tip on how we can begin to take care of ourselves and develop a better relationship with our bodies… Take it step by step, and in each moment pay attention to the movements we’re making rather than just trying to get things done as quickly/efficiently as possible.

     1. Thanks Susie, I love life when I am connected; everything just flows beautifully and with no effort! I imagine that it’s like swimming in a good current, being swept along trusting; rather than struggling against a current which tires and stresses you, leading you away from where you wish to be and the more you fight it the more tired, anxious and further away from your perceived target you become.

244. We don’t realise how many steps we actually take away from ourselves, from God and from the rest of humanity on a daily basis, because this is what everyone else around us is doing. I’m so glad there are now hundreds of people taking the steps back, to show another way.

245. This line that you wrote made me realise the effect current mainstream religions have on many people when they come across books by Serge Benhayon that talks about God in a way that simply makes sense. This is true: “I had noticed in horror the word ‘God’ and balked at the assumed religious dogma.”

246. I have also had my share of why have I been spared and there must be something important I have not done yet! I only stumbled into the Spiritual New Age genre when I moved to England from the US 20 years ago. In the US where anything other than mainstream beliefs was just considered to be fringe. There was a draw to what the different courses were presenting but never quite hit the mark for the magic ‘Ahh’ moment till I attended a Serge Benhayon’s one day workshop that crossed the t’s and dotted the i’s. I was home and found what I had been looking for, and it was Me.

247. I love the simplicity and practicality of your sharing here which is so supportive to the reader to also connect to themselves.

248. “A lovely warm inner glow has replaced the former emptiness”. This blog has reminded me and made me deeply appreciate the gigantic differences that I have made to my life through the teachings of Serge Benhayon. This morning, I am contemplating this not through the amazing, great, sparks-flying stuff…but through the less good moments. I have bad days. When I feel uncommitted, unappreciative and lacking in purpose. But never, ever, ever do I get anywhere close to the feelings that used to awash me and to which you refer to in this blog; whereby the emptiness was so encompassing that I would do any and everything I could to run from it, numb myself from it, deny it. I’ve never really done this before, but if I consider my life as being a space between two bars – the ‘good day’ bar and the ‘bad day’ bar, it is just as amazing and apprecation-inspiring to consider how massively the ‘bad day’ bar has risen. A foundation that I never had before I met Serge Benhayon.

     1. Yes Otto, I agree; it is quite amazing how our perspectives change! I would remember one day in over a year or so; and then the good day frequencies started to increase, but as you say; the quality of my good days are also improving… And those bad days are exponentially more severe than those I experience now! We are all very fortunate to be born in this era and to know Serge Benhayon.

249. I agree Shirley-Ann, Serge Benhayon is an absolute gem! ❤

250. Thank you Shirley-Ann. I am enjoying my life far more now than when we first met; when you showed me the substance of Serge Benhayon’s books! Some days are more challenging than others, but at least now I am on my way! 😊❤

251. Thank you for your story Maggie. You are obviously a very big bright soul and your life was set up to squash you or the opportunity to re- claim your power. Great to hear you are blossoming being you.

     1. Thank you Concetta ❤

252. This blog describes so very much relatable the fact that returning home is not a goal or the final state we have to achieve, but is the knowing of being the forever student who is evolving within an universal order chipping off the layers we have put around us.

253. The more I read accounts such as this the more I become aware that even in our darkest moments there is a call to know and choose the light within us. If we are not deterred by the pain of our hurts and instead look deeply at what our hurt is revealing even this can be an opening to a greater truth.

254. There is no doubt that we all know when things truly make sense in life. This truth can be felt in our bodies and like you Maggie, I get this feeling when I read or hear the Wisdom Serge Benhayon presents. Thank you for what you share here.

255. Maybe when we finally unravel our own lives, we recognise the responsibility we hold in offering to humanity even just the smallest of opportunities to make that inaugural choice to consider their own lives…?

256. A great testimony to the depth of change that can take place once we begin to take true responsibility for all our choices, big and small.

257. Maggie’s sharing is a testimony how living ideals and beliefs is not loving and cap our grandness to come out and be lived.

258. Our parents are the first people with whom we identify and they become our symbols of comfort and security. Our benchmark. They are warm, affectionate and snuggly; they are all we know and we learn to trust them. As they trusted their parents before them…

259. Thank you Maggie… You are right… Serge Benhayon And Universal Medicine are offering to humanity such freedom that is beyond the understanding of most people because they have never encountered clarity and wisdom on this level, and yet is a simple connection to the inner heart that lies in wait for all of us and within this we can find out who we truly are.

     1. Beautifully expressed; thank you cjames2012; I agree whole-heartedly. How wonderful would it be should all the purple books be included in all the national curricula!

     2. I absolutely love your description of Serge Benhayon … a “wonderful, all-knowing, content family man, who quite simply, just made sense” … very well said, I wholeheartedly agree.

260. A relationship can bring so much to our life, We first need to know that we deserve nothing less than love,

     1. Anything less than love is abuse ….. that’s a pretty hard pill to swallow at times.

261. It is indeed a prison to be living less that who we are and so the sense of freedom that comes from living true to ourselves as guided by our bodies is immense.

     1. I agree Andrew, and we each have the key to let ourselves out of that prison – Universal Medicine has helped so many people to remember this, supporting true freedom to become a lived reality.

     2. Yes, prisoned is the accurate word for not living who you truly are and freedom is the appropriate word for not holding back and being true to ourselves.

262. Thank you Maggie for your powerful blog. I can relate to the emptiness and loneliness that comes from continually trying to contort ourselves into something or someone that everyone else wants other than just being ourselves. I used to do that a lot too and still catch myself doing it sometimes. These days however I know how to connect to me and how to love that and when I do that I never feel empty or lonely.

     1. Isn’t it so very beautiful Andrew; that we now KNOW how to reconnect to ourselves so simply! ❤

263. So many women live with relationships of abuse because they fear the alternative of being on their own even more – subjected as they are to the horrible societal imposition that a woman must be in relationship. And yes, a relationship can bring wonder to our life, but only if we know first the wonder within, in order so that it can then be shared, rather than taken from another under the false pretence of love.

     1. Adam, many, many women (including myself) stay in abusive relationships even though we identify them as prisons. Somehow we feel more secure in this insanely controlled environment because we utterly FEAR what should happen if we escape and are caught. We never consider being successful and making that break completely because we are so used to being the victim; and so negativity is the default to daily life! For 2 or more years I lived like this until I saw reason: I had a glimpse of how life should be for me.

        It was 25 years later that I sat in the flower meadow on the sunny day and felt for the first time my “warm inner glow”.

        Now my life has changed for the better; and I experience joy most days. ❤

        1. thankyou for sharing Maggie – it is amazing what we will put up with in our lives as a dim reflection of that which we truly miss.

264. The Gentle Breath Meditation is really a great tool, to connect back to me, to my body and ultimately to all other people and the world. Once we are connected to ourselves, life starts to blossom and our body will start to make the choices, not the mind alone any more.

265. “Somewhere in my life I had lost me!” I can relate to this very well. My feeling is, that I was 4 years old, when I decided, not to be part of this world any more. I lived in my own world without really committing to life. And because I was not connected to me, everything I did felt terrible. Since I started to connect to myself again, I can feel the big difference – if I’m connected or not. It is just wonderful, that we can deepen our relationship to us and to our body every day, there is no end.

     1. Alexander, I feel that your earlier life experiences mirror those of a teenage girl whom I know rather well … I wonder whether one day she will choose to rekindle her own flame?

266. How magical Maggie that you have found you once again – even though you had never really gone anywhere, just covered over by all that is not you. I loved and appreciated reading your blog – thank you.

     1. Thank you Roberta; writing my blog, reading and responding to all these beautiful comments is turning out to be a most glorious experience! Day-in, day-out, I feel healing in someway small way; it’s just so very beautiful to experience. ❤

        1. I agree, Roberta, I loved reading how you have re-discovered your beautiful self, Maggie, after so many years of dismissal and putting everyone else first. In doing so, they only got a ‘watered down version’ of gorgeous you, now the world gets to be with the fullness of you, how lucky we are.

267. Love it Linda, one loving step at a time…

268. It is deeply inspiring to read of people not choosing to remain a victim of life, taking control of their lives and in doing so healing what came before. A stunning read.

269. Our love is a burning flame within us and depending how we live, this will either be a smouldering ember we do not even know is lit, or, a roaring fire that warms all within its glow. Thus, our work here is to tend to the inner flame that is our love so that such fire can not only be sustained, but also spread far and wide. In this way, we as a humanity will arise out of the darkness we have chosen to live in for so long and the warmth we are from, will once more be felt, by all as the “warm inner glow” that it is.

     1. Beautiful Liane, thank you. To know that “warm inner glow” and to tend to it gives us a marker from which to be truly free of hindering and undermining ideals and beliefs and to live who we truly are, something that can only benefit everyone.

        1. So poignantly put Liane and Fiona- ” to know and feel that “warm inner glow” within our body is our foundation of love to build on. In our true movements we can dissolve the images of life that come in, built on ideals and beliefs which stop us from reconnecting deeper to our inner eternal flame.

     2. Very beautiful Liane, the very nature of fire is to spread and expand so this makes so much sense.

     3. Liane what I love about your sharing here is that it brings an absolute equality to every single person on this planet, the fact that we all have a burning flame within, it’s how we’ve tended to it that varies. No one has to find that in life as it is in us all.

     4. Liane, your words invite surrender, stoke the inner fire, awash through the body and are a call to make each day about love in every way – ‘Thus, our work here is to tend to the inner flame that is our love……’

     5. Liane, your comment about our roaring fire inside has just subjectified my love for my own solid fuel stove; and now I understand why! It ran my central heating and rather than it being a burden raking out the ashes and collecting fresh coal from my bunker; I enjoyed it. There was something special about reading the weather, understanding the challenges of keeping it sleeping quietly overnight and cajoling it into a full roaring blaze the next morning. I simply loved my fire; it kept Henry and I warm and cosy; and my house beautifully aired! It was a labour of love ❤; quite a metaphor for how we tend to our own. Thank you.

     6. What you have captured here Liane is so beautiful, powerful and oh so wise. It is each persons responsibility to nurture the “roaring fire” so that all will feel the warmth within it’s glow.
        I love reading and feeling your expression.

     7. Beautiful Liane, yes in the beginning it is about rediscovering the fire within and building that fire up for ourselves but then there comes a point where that fire is to big to keep just to ourselves and wants to be shared with everyone else.

270. When we free ourselves from the shackles that have bound us and prevented us from seeing the depth of who we truly are, we finally meet our true selves and in this moment realise, with a giggle, that everyone else is and has always been, here with us. Glory be.

     1. I agree Ariana; I just love the giggle! 😉

     2. Yes its a giggle moment all right! Silly, ludicrous and a bit crazy that we have been bound by the shackles of an illusion, a big, humungous massive lie, when the truth is all we sought in the first place

271. Thankyou Maggie for this gorgeous peer into your life; your devastation and dehydration on the path that you have walked that has led you to the well from which you now drink. These paths can be long and undulating with hairpin bends and twists and turns we seemingly never foresee at the time but, if we are honest with ourselves, we know are always there for we have designed the road upon which we travel. They say ‘all roads lead to God’, I say this is a convenient excuse to take the long way around when the simple and well lit path is always there in plain view, should we choose to open our eyes and see it. Why choose a detour when the short cut is available? Perhaps because we are not ready for such a direct route to our own magnificence, for on it we will have to see and feel all that we have lived that has not matched this beauty. It is never too late to re-choose the steps that we walk nor the road upon which we travel and your words Maggie, are a glowing testimony to this.

     1. Liane, I simply love your expression here; your analogy to our roads and pathways and all the obstacles that appear enroute. So very simply expressed and profound. Thank you.

272. Thank you for writing such a gorgeously honest personal journey back to finding you, to living that and then sharing it with the world. I am forever in awe of the incredible healing power of aligning and committing to living the principles of Universal Medicine and embracing the lessons and development that then beautifully unfold.

273. Thank you Maggie for your powerful sharing. The journey to return to ourselves is very personal and yet the way to get there is the same for all. Reconnecting to our body, acknowledging how and what we feel and honouring that. The simplicity is as grand as it’s effectiveness.

     1. Today I was given a moment to sit and receive the communication from my body. I can’t believe how much our bodies communicate with us. We can learn so much more about ourselves and each other when we read body language.

        1. I can only agree Abby, it is all there for us and we hold the choice to connect to it or not.

274. No matter what our circumstances in life, it is possible to build a loving way, from our inner fire.

275. I can relate to the not knowing what I liked or disliked, always fitting in, never claiming my truth in the open, which gradually eroded my self-confidence to a point that I didn’t know my own truth anymore constantly doubting myself. But what it also shows is that there is a ‘me’ that there is an inner truth and that it is just a matter of claiming it back or more so letting go of all the behaviours that we have adapted instead.

     1. I can relate to this as well Esther, and the constant looking outside of myself for approval, recognition and confirmation that came from it made me move further and further away from what had always been there inside. The ‘me’ we often look for outside of us is a far cry from the ‘me’ we can find inside – a me that is free from identification but full of warmth and divine love.

276. I love how you describe Serge Benhayon, a ‘wonderful, all-knowing, content family man, who quite simply, just made sense’, and the part about devouring everything Universal Medicine. This made me aware and deeply appreciate what all is there on offer from Universal Medicine and continuously growing.

277. These words are gold. Building a loving foundation with ourselves is key. Yet very few are taught this in our early years.

278. Beautiful to read Maggie; your transformation is quite an inspiration. I so admire and appreciate your level of responsibility and appreciation you now hold for yourself, thank you;
     “A lovely warm inner glow has replaced the former emptiness”. Keep on loving and nurturing that inner glow and wisdom Maggie.

279. It’s very powerful when we can move through a lifetime of hurts, to no longer have the effects of them still alive in our body and realise we are not empty at all and then go on to connect to the fact that are so much more.

280. A good point Brendan. When I first heard Serge Benhayon suggest that we put too much credence into our lived beliefs and dogmas, I could only think of Religion and the various rules and rituals…

     As my Livingness developed I started questioning my parents’ views on life and began to realise that some of mine were different. Since writing my blogs I am beginning to awaken and to take ownership of some of my own.

     At the moment I find it an uncomfortable process as I question their validity because they are familiar as I have known them for such a long time. I feel an internal wrangling as I consider the validity of each.

     Hoarding is definitely learned from my parents as they grew up during the second world war when everything apart from carnage and destruction was scarce. I am beginning to let go, but when I individualise items I find that I have a personal attachment to them which means I must feel deeper into them: learning more and more about myself.

281. It is beautiful to read about your ongoing committment to bringing more love into your life Maggie – “This developing love within is inspiring me to dig deeper into my past and is supporting me as I discover my hidden secrets and darkest nightmares, to confront my lies and to learn about honesty – truthfully feeling into what it is I like and that which I dislike.” You show very clearly that to choose love is a deliberate choice and also a commitment to self.

282. I agree Brendan. Having a belief such as “I don’t matter” can set our course way off track from our true potential. As I get older the more I see how the reality I create through beliefs, attracts that reality into my life. To be free of these beliefs would mean being free to be steered through life by the soul.

283. Oh my goodness, this is a show-stopping, life-changing article. Simply inspiring in showing me the transformative nature of honesty. Thank you.

284. Amazing thankyou Maggie. When we read the words of the ageless wisdom, we read something that is more than words – we read something that awakens something in us, and this might happen when we walk down the street and see someone in joy, or see someone inspirational who is simply doing their every day job. The ageless wisdom is within us and is just waiting for a re-kindle to let it burn.

     1. I remember how welcoming the words felt when I first read them. Reading about something remarkable and in Serge Benhayon’s words, so “out there” wasn’t challenging as we would have once expected, just real and instantly acceptable.

285. The warm inner glow is like a light house it is there to guide us back in but we have to choose the path carefully and consciously as there are many tricks and turns on the way.

     1. That is so true Nicole; and they can be so very well disguised too.

286. It is so lovely when science, art and religion can make so much sense. Serge Benhayon brings these together in a way that allows you to fall in Love all over again, or maybe for the first time in a while.

287. Wow Maggie what a journey you have been on and the beauty you now feel is simply wonderful “A lovely warm inner glow has replaced the former emptiness.” This says everything and shows us what is possible when we come back to who we are with the reflection and inspiration from Serge Benhayon and universal Medicine.

288. Awesome Maggie that you found Universal Medicine and were able to feel and know the truth of what you had found, many it appears, will dabble in any number of spiritual new age or other religious pursuits but when faced with the ancient wisdom they run a mile as it may push too many buttons.

289. What an inspiring story Maggie thank you for sharing. So many beautiful and important points that I take away.

290. Thank you Maggie for sharing your return back to you with us. Truly beautiful to feel and read. Well done to you.

     1. Thank you Laura ❤

291. This blog shows me that we do always have a choice, to either live in the very destructive patterns and momentums of our past which is actually a separation away from who we are, or to make a choice to stop and start again, this time returning to the unequivocal fact that you are an equal Son of God.

292. Maggie thank you so much for not holding back about how you have changed your life. It is amazing that you are now living your own life and not a life according to the principles of others. You are a living testimonial that it is possible to change and that is wonderful and inspiring.

     1. Yes to all of the above. I am still reeling totally inspired by the power of Maggie’s not holding back and her willingness to share.

        1. In discovering ME Matilda, I am learning more and more to appreciate my own truth; I felt that I was in wonderful company when I was writing my blog, which gave me courage to dig deeper and free more of my truths. Thank you ❤

293. Me too Linda. The Gentle Breath meditation has been a life changing tool … checking how my breath and body feels throughout the day is second nature now, and if I feel racy or anxious, it’s what I use to come back to myself.

294. I found the same Maggie, all the self-help, new-age, spiritual philosophies never rang fully true, although for a short time I would try to see if it could make-do, they were always discarded as there was always a discordant or jarring note, that I could not overcome. The first contact with Universal Medicine presented something that was of truth, was congruent and all-encompassing, and while I did not understand everything first up, it made sense from the very beginning.

     1. Absolutely Annie; there is a tangible truth in all Serge Benhayon’s books and presentations and while some of the content can be found to feel unpalatable, there’s a feint, niggling, irksome little something allowing us to feel, ‘hmm, well; maybe…’

     2. I agree Annie there was a truth that could be immediately connected with on first contact with Universal Medicine.

295. “The main investment turns out to be the loving choices that I make for me.” Beautiful Maggie, for it is our deepening connection to self and the loving choices we make that discern the truth thereafter.

     1. Well said Kelly, they provide a foundation that we live by which becomes our barometer of truth.

296. The trick for all is to recognise that fork in the road and whether to take it Steve; thank you. And as Victoria reminds us, we have all had a past.

     I feel few of us choose to be aware of the whole of our fully lived pasts, so we cannot remember all the harm we have caused to our self and others and the intensity of karma affecting ours and others’ lives. Nonetheless, harm we have caused; be it physical, psychological or emotional. With this point of reference I feel it is surely respectful if not obligatory; and most definitely loving, to ensure that everyone is met as equal no matter where or what they choose in life,; and with no judgement.

     We are all aware of the hardships and traumas being suffered around the world; and not just those making the headlines. It is sometimes not easy to whole-fully recognise that we are all equal and should all be treated and regarded as equals?.

297. ‘A lovely warm inner glow has replaced the former emptiness’ – once we have felt this within we know that it is true and that we are returning home. It was amazing to read your blog, Maggie and to realise that we all share so many experiences in life – when we have been offered perfection as a goal we feel alone, and when we realise that this is all an illusion we can learn to accept ourselves and embrace who we are.

298. Maggie it’s so supportive to have your re-connection to read. The awareness you share is a great reflection in this very moment, bringing attention to how I am sitting and by body’s very simple request for a slight re-positioning. Thanks for the invitation to come back to my body before I go on to the tasks.

     1. Sandra, to me it’s like being in a partnership: in the beginning we’re both learning about the other, offering tiny gestures, but over time as our confidences grow we become bolder with each other until we each reach a level of innate beingness.

299. How we fool ourselves, how we drift from who we truly are is painful. I am so very grateful for Serge Benhayon and the teachings of the Ageless Wisdom that have brought be back on my path of returning to my true self.

300. A very beautiful sharing of your return to discovering the truth of how glorious you are Maggie. It is a powerful message you share of how when we lose our connection to who we are, we lose our connection to our truth and so we doubt the wisdom that naturally flows through each and every one of our Souls that always calls us to be who we are. Instead, through our lack of connection we seek to follow the lead of what others do or think without considering if it feels true and as such we wander further away from knowing and being who we are. Yet all the while our Soul continues to call us to return to knowing the warm embrace of the Oneness of our Love, where we are naturally at home with ourselves and our innate wisdom.

301. A couple of weeks ago I planted some spring bulbs some of which were pretty old and had been sitting the the shed for few years. I was sure that they would not ‘spring forth’ but decided to plant them anyway. They were the one’s that looked least ‘important’ and likely to bloom! Here they are the first ones to shoot, bright green and full of life. Your sharing reminds me Maggie that no matter how unimportant we have been fooled in to believing that we are, as soon as we are immersed in the truth, we naturally bloom! Brilliant and such an inspiring blog. Thank you.

     1. I love the analogy with bulbs; little cassettes full of all the nourishment the plant needs to grow and develop; just like us! Thank you Bernadette. ❤

     2. This is beautiful Bernadette and shows that everything and everyone is important and deserving of tender loving care equally so.

302. ‘A lovely warm inner glow has replaced the former emptiness.’ How beautiful for the world to know that, even if we have experienced violence, that we can recover and discover our true way of being, and experience deep love and joy.

     1. Hear hear Carmel, this is a important for so many to know and understand.

     2. Yes Carmel beautifully said. The Love we are can never be ‘taken’ away or ‘go’ away as it is always remains absolute. It is only us that moves away from our Love and no matter have far we wander, it still remains awaiting for our return into its everlasting embrace.

     3. I walked down our hallway the other day on our way out shopping and my heart felt light and joyful Carmel. Back in those days of utter despondency I would never have dreamed of feeling like this now! 🙂 ❤

303. Truly transformational when we choose connection with ourselves and from there deepen our connection with everything. Without knowing ourselves first we cannot know anything in truth.

     1. Great Alex, connection is the foundation, without it we will never be sure of who we truly are.

     2. It is so simple isn’t it? All we have to do is connect to the essence of who we truly are and learn to live that without perfection. The simplicity and the responsibility that this process entails is confronting. And so we go on ‘the search’ far and wide outside of us for ‘the answer’ to the meaning of life until such time as we exhaust that search and realise that it holds no answers only diversions, and then we eventually come back to the simplicity of the fact that the buck stops with us so to speak and it is all about knowing and living ourselves.

        1. We might wonder what can be so confronting with simply living who we are and instead set forth on a journey that is nothing more than a detour back to where we left to only then start turning inwards to our essence. What is it that we choose drifting further away from the love and glory we pretend to seek but actually avoid at all costs? And as you say, Andrew, it is the simplicity that leaves no space for identification with what we are not and the responsibility of facing our waywardness that created all the ill we suffer and seek to escape in the first place by not living the simple truth of who we are.

304. Simply being ourselves is everything and as most of life is set up to do and be something else the greatest gift we can give ourselves is to reconnect to who we really are. This becomes a way of living and allows us to live express and be our natural expression as love . What a great blog Maggie and very inspiring I love it .

     1. Thank you Tricia. Every comment that I read encourages my livingness more and more!

305. When we receive a diet of belittlement as many of us do as children, we lose confidence. Actually, the same may happen when we are being ’empowered’ by receiving unjustified praise. We know what we are being told is not true and we lose confidence again and in neither case do we listen to our body.

     1. This is a very good point Christoph: Actually, the same may happen when we are being ’empowered’ by receiving unjustified praise. We know what we are being told is not true and we lose confidence again and in neither case do we listen to our body?

306. I can feel the steadiness and the knowing in your words Linda. It is obvious that this is what you know and what you live.

307. There is a great expectation in society to ‘be somebody’ when all we need to do is ‘be ourselves’.

     1. Very true Matthew. This is one fell for hook, line and sinker. Only to realise that ‘being somebody’ actually fell very far from the mark of delivering how I was meant to feel, as there always remained a sense that something was missing. I have now discovered that what was missing was me, my connection to my Soul, through which I know who I am, a Love that in essence is already everything.

        1. Been there, done that too Carola. There is a great emptiness in this search for ‘being someone’, it feels like it is a running race that never ends and is just so exhausting. When connection is introduced, the race ends and we can begin to breathe our own breath rather than the huff and puff of a tired and worn out body.

     2. Yes to ‘be somebody’ we seem to need to look outside of ourselves when the true Gold is in being who we truly are.

     3. Good point Matthew and we are continually bombarded with messages to ‘be somebody’ from very young and there is little support or understanding of what it means to ‘be ourselves’.

308. It is as though we are limping through life the way you describe the looking for reassurance from others. There must be a hope or expectation that others can deliver what we can’t give ourselves, but that makes us utterly dependent and very powerless. And all the while we have our own two legs to stand on but don’t manage (yet) to put one foot in front of another. Until something happens that wakes us up and proves beyond doubt that there is another way to live.

     1. We are walking examples Gabriele; and the further our loving expressions are spread, the more the choice opens up to more of the population.

309. That is the majority of people, when we take it to the awareness of honouring when to pee and drink most of us totally override our physical sensations and put everything before us, no wonder we are so ill, as a species we are out of touch with how to love and care for ourselves at the most basic levels.

     1. Very true Vanessa, we are very much out of touch with ourselves, even to the most basic of levels of how to take simple care of ourselves. Today it is considered selfish to take care of yourself. Amazing how far away from truth we can get.

     2. This is so true Vanessa, in most of my jobs I have even been encouraged and favoured for hardening my body and pushing through to get the job done. When I become overwhelmed with life I bring my focus back to the most simple commitment of drinking, going to the bathroom and keep myself warm throughout the day – this makes life feel simple even when I am very busy.

310. Wow Maggie to be feeling how you describe you are must be amazing after a lifetime lived in such pain. I love how you share your journey and how your soul was knocking long ago with that innate wisdom that lies within us all. I also love how practical you make the self loving practices. It is so simple.

     1. Maggie’s line, ‘The main investment turns out to be the loving choices that I make for me,’ sums up the power of taking care, practically so, and embracing responsibility. And yes, Vanessa, to the awesome supportive practicality of Maggie’s self-loving choices.

311. Linda I love this line you’ve shared today, our foundation comes from our relationship with ourselves first and foremost. Now this is something that is truly worth investing in.

     1. ‘Now this is something that is truly worth investing in’. This is a great way to put put it David. We invest in many other ventures that lead to no where land or should I say individual man. why not change our investments and see where they may lead.

     2. A foundation in self – I couldn’t agree more. But not just any foundation, one based on love and care for self and hence for the all.

312. Maggie, I love the title of this blog, ‘Learning to Find Me and Live My Life’, I can feel for so long that I did not know who I was and was not living a life that felt true, that has changed now since being inspired by Universal Medicine, I am now much more true to myself, moving in a way that feels true, being gentle which feels very natural to me, being confident in myself – all amazing changes.

313. Thank you for sharing this Maggie – it is deeply inspiring to feel your growing appreciation of yourself in your journey of rediscovery.

314. So true Linda, what ypu say here is what helps to eradicate the words, ” I’m not important!”

     1. Very true Irena that the way to silence that inner critic is through loving actions done in connection to our gentle natures.

315. Yes, Bendan we do create the perception, that we then choose to believe, that we are worthless or not equal to others. We then create a life around ourselves to confirm that this untruth is our truth.

     No matter what start we have had in life or what has happened to us it is the way in which we choose to perceive these events that will determine whether we are victims of life or whether we see all of life as an opportunity for our own evolution and development and to provide these opportunities to others by bringing ourselves to life in full.

316. I love how Maggie’s expression and journey supports me to deeply appreciate me and my unique expression in this world. Maggie’s natural confidence in herself is inspiring.

317. I am most inspired by reading this Maggie. What has inspired me the most is the sense that now it is YOU running the show; your confidence and honesty to be where you are in each moment and that that is okay. There is no sense of giving your power away to anyone, not to Serge Benhayon, Universal Medicine – but embracing all these offer by way of support for you to come back to being all of you. You are a developing and unfolding student, love, warts and all. Deeply supportive and inspiring for me to be all of me – thank you Maggie.

     1. It is only out of an inner emptiness that we give our power away and also, it takes two – one who bows to another, in whatever form that may be, and another who gets off on it, from their own unfulfilled emptiness. I wonder how many relationships are based on this unfortunate equation?

        1. Great point Gabriele! And it takes only one of the two to halt the process for the other to feel the emptiness even more and hence an opportunity to reclaim the self which may or may not happen. Eventually it will!

        2. Well said Gabrielle. Through our separation to our love we relinquish our connection to truth, our power and knowing our greatness and so are left with an emptiness we through which we so seek to find a sense of purpose or fulfilment outside of ourselves, through another without questioning how true or how natural it feels.

        3. The bully and the bullied; the abused and the abuser. All one and the same – as you have wonderfully captured here Gabriele.

318. I love how it was being in nature and the warmth of the sun that brought you back to yourself and to take the steps to discover who you are. Nature is forever reflecting to us our beauty.

     1. Yes and in a world that is configured to keep us from rediscovering that warm inner glow we are always supported to find what we need to rediscover it if we so choose.

        1. Exactly Kate, there is very little that supports our connection and mostly the design is to separate. There are now some amazing tools such as walking and the meditations by Serge Benhayon that constantly take us back to connecting and a beautiful reminder that that is the reason for being here, to live a connected life.

        2. Yes Kate, the support is endless, should we allow the space to feel it

     2. All my life Nature seems to have been the one constant in which I could totally trust… Now, I am working on trusting others, including myself Sandra.

     3. Warmth is such a simple yet healing thing that we all respond to. It makes my body soften and feel at ease. as though it is being gently hugged.

        1. I couldn’t agree more Fiona!

319. ‘A lovely warm inner glow has replaced the former emptiness’ Maggie this is what every living being deserves and you have beautifully shared how inspiring it is to choose love.

320. What a joy to read your sharing. The moment we become honest all the games we played in life are over and we can let go of all the false beliefs like “I’m not important”. In my life I played small for most of my life, hiding somewhere, didn’t show my light. I’m so glad, that this is changing now – it is really time to accept my glory more and more.

     1. I too was a ‘shrinking violet’ Alexander, always hiding from attention and lacking in confidence.

        Writing my blog was strangely easy (writing may be my form of expression), but the editing process was more challenging to begin with until I was able to accept good advice; and then I was able to dig deeper and find more truths and revelations; allowing assistance in… When I was told that it was going to be published, I thought all was complete.

        How wrong I was!

        Reading everyone’s beautiful words about their own experiences and journeys; and their loving appreciation of MY expression is awesome.

        With my new awareness I have felt the choice to shrink back from the attention like my violet of old; or glory in the light like a sunflower and feel my own light grow.

        I am choosing the latter and it feels amazing.

        My heart-felt thanks to each and everyone of you for your love and support.

        1. It was lovely to read your post-blog comment Maggie. I could feel real ease in your writing, as there was nothing to hide and a great level of acceptance. It is an amazing process writing and editing, then responding to comments. As you say at each stage there is the opportunity to shrink or withdraw or flourish. Awesome you are choosing the latter.

321. “A lovely warm inner glow has replaced the former emptiness” – this is a true testimony of the work of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine where people learn to re-connect with themselves which replaces the emptiness once felt to one of fullness and completion. True alchemy.

     1. It is a true testament. I have just been doing some research and having to look at some pretty horrendous images and film footage on the internet and people are so empty and so checked out they are willingly allowing themselves to abuse and be abused, this emptiness is an illusion fuelled by our desires to not be responsible for the simple fact we are the divine sons of god and are immensely powerful.The level of degradation we have once again allowed – think roman times – is cycle repeating itself whilst we chose to live in disconnection to our true nature.

     2. And the ingredients are there within us Elizabeth. Serge Behnayon has supported us to connect with what is there all along, our true nature. There could not be a less expensive and yet priceless gift – our own life’s purpose!

     3. Yes, true alchemy. Cold to warmth, darkness to light whoever, wherever we live.

     4. ‘True alchemy’ – indeed Elizabeth. As it is only through the power of loving oneself that builds the awareness of knowing oneself through which we can then live our true selves. A choice that is only ever ours to make.

     5. Agreed Elizabeth, in emptiness we are capable of great harm. In fullness we are capable of great love. Thank you to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine for reminding us all of this great truth.

322. I agree Susan… this line stood out for me too. It is a very powerful statement and I’m sure many can relate to this way of getting through life. It was certainly my way of living in the past, and clearly exposes the lack of self worth that can run our lives. But as you say, it is with this honesty and awareness that we can truly change.

     1. Yes Paula and Susan – lack of self-worth ran my life and still has a part to play today; it is taking years to detangle but more importantly to let go of the comfort of that identification. I love how Maggie supports me to be joyful about where I’m at; that I am developing and learning all the time. Reading her blog inspires me to let go of any pictures I may have of having to ditch all the self-worth now and how that should look. Instead I feel confident and inspired just how I am right now – whilst committing in each moment to continue to learn and unfold.

323. This just proves that our Soul never gives up… it gently and persistently continues to offer us opportunities to return to who we truly are. I recall feeling the words ‘this is me time now’ on my 40th birthday, but being so absorbed in the role of mother of a 5yr old, I took this to be selfish and not something I ‘should’ do. However a few years later, after attending Universal Medicine workshops and presentations by Serge Benhayon, I realised it was most certainly what I needed to be focusing on – for myself and for everyone.

     1. You have just awakened a similar old memory for me too; thank you Paula.

        During my mid-30s I was fortunate to be able to finish work at 3 o’clock to collect my daughters and friends from school; and on our drive home I began to submerge in the various demands being put on me: tasks I needed to complete that evening plus cooking our meal, listening to their stories of their day, of comments from teachers and friends, homework they needed to do, arguments over who was going to watch what on our one television; and who and what they would see and do later… These demands on my attention seemed insatiable; and so I instigated ‘Mummy’s time’ so that when we returned home my daughters would change out of their uniforms and play quietly amongst themselves while I would take a mug of tea upstairs and have 30 minutes to myself… Of course afterwards, I would then busily re-engage in my ‘doing’ that my moment of self care just became another routine, serving no purpose other than a ‘time-out’. Back then I was too invested in being needed.

     2. It’s a real aha moment when we realise the way we care for ourselves really does influence that which we give to others. If we think about it it makes sense, but it’s not until we begin to make it a living practice that we really get it.

        1. Yes Jennifer, only when we start to live what we are saying, then life will start to change.

324. An amazing read Maggie, and so very inspiring… its incredible how our bodies know and will keep calling us back to the truth of our choices and how we are living.

325. Too many of us live our life according to the principles of others, without taking time to understand which of those principles are actually founded in truth.

     1. That is what I have loved about Serge Benhayon, from the beginning he has always said go back to your body, check it out with yourself, question everything if it does not feel true.

        1. Yes, this is profound. I’d always wanted to agree with what someone said enough so I could then pass them my responsiblity for what is my responsibility: my quality of being and subsequent actions. Just like handing over my coat to the host of a party.

           To use this analogy, it is your coat you can either take good care of it, destroy it or even descard it but you always have the choice to care for it deeply.

           I’m starting to accept this is indeed my coat that actually I am choosing to and can look after.

           Serge Benhayon’s understanding and integrity for so patiently presenting we are to be discerning for our own awareness when I know I resist this, vehemently at times, is founded on such love. A love we all share and a love that is actually who we are!

        2. So true Vanessa. No other modality I have tried made it clear that we can know and be responsible for everything through our connection to our body – the great inbuilt lie detector.

        3. Yes, he does exactly this. True change can only come form our own lived truth, otherwise it just doesn’t work

        4. Yes, that is so true. Nobody needs a guru or a teacher. We all have the greatest teacher we can have in our body.

        5. Absolutely, Vanessa, we are masters at feeling energy, the truth of what is really going on and our bodies never lie, we just often choose not to listen. When we have so much innate wisdom at our fingertips, why do we assume that others know more than us?

     2. Looking back over my life Adam, as I am now free to do, I can recall familiar tensions in my body: small writhings of anguish when pleasing others… So desperate was I to please them to fit in that I ignored my body’s radar (internal warning system) repeatedly until I was numb to it; and so there followed a series of more uncomfortable situations, accidents and wake-up calls until I eventually chose to take heed.

     3. Well said Adam, and many of us never discover what it’s like to live according to our own principles, based on how we feel, what we observe and what is needed in our environments and to support others.

     4. I have lived much of my life according to how I perceive others expect me to be and different dependant on the person. So a good girlfriend- different guys, different me, a good worker – different bosses, different me, a good friend – yes same story. It was no wonder I felt lost – i’d lost me. Wonderful discovering a steadiness that I can know myself by that isn’t dependant on outside stimuli. And as I develop like this I’ll be like those around me who know and live who they truly are, reflecting the steadiness we can all claim.

        1. So many if us lose ourselves when we try to fit in and be what others expect us to be. Living who we truly are blows this out of the water, and we can reclaim our true loving beautiful selves – and thus be a reflection for others.

     5. Very true Adam, so much we accept as truth because those that come before us endorse it to be so, but do we ever question if it feels true for us. Imagine if we all didn’t just accept what is given and instead look within and ask ourselves? What a different world this would be. I remember seeing a mother say that her son was born to fight, to honour the death of his father. I remember looking at the little boys face and seeing that this was not his truth, however he was too afraid to say otherwise. I wonder where that boy is today and whether he now lives as if that was his truth.

        1. How wonderful life would be if we could teach the Livingness in primary schools! The day will come; I am sure of that.

     6. I agree Adam, so many of us live a life giving our power away towards others and never stopping to know our truth – the truth that lies within us all, I know for one I have done this and am coming out this place of abyss, for to not know your truth, or actually in truth, to know it but not live it, is a life crippler for all.

326. “It was remarkable and I still remember the warm glow within as my inner heart opened and I started to connect to me.” I remember this feeling after my first esoteric healing session. Looking back I wonder how I accepted life to be what it was when I knew inside something was missing. At the time it was about coping and getting through, pretending things were great in order to somehow hope they would be. The real truth with Universal Medicine is an incredible gift to choose for ourselves.

     1. I am pretty sure almost everyone can feel there is something missing in life. We tend to keep this to ourselves, as we think it’s just us that doesn’t fit with the way the world is. We do our best to fill in the gaps but its not until I discovered Esoteric Healing, that I found the thing I had been missing – me and my connection to all.

        1. I can share a very similar story Fiona, and I remember how painful that loneliness and emptiness was. I would go about my life seemingly happy on the outside and yet no amount of external goodies, be it a relationship, a partner, a beautiful house, holiday away could fill up that dark sad gap within that i would feel. It might have been temporarily filled, but the ‘filler’ could never be sustained. It was only when I discovered the Esoteric way of life as taught today by Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon that the warm inner glow that Maggie describes activated within me, and then there was no external ‘filler’ needed. Life is now very simple, but very full and always warm from within; I no longer need or seek something from he outside to make myself feel better or more than what I am. I know my own love is within, burning steadily and strong as I continue to deepen the one true way I now know there is to live.

        2. Wonderful expressed Fiona – life is not joyful at all, when we are not connected to us and the world. In this situaion we are looking for something in the outside world, always in the hope, it gets better – but there is nothing to find. Everything what we are and what we need is inside us.

        3. Yes, Fiona, without the connection to our glorious selves, we will be on a continuous search, until we choose to come home, to once again, feel our inner warmth.

        4. I used to think that I was a square peg trying to fit a round hole…

     2. So many of us I am sure can identify with you here David. My first esoteric healing session was most empowering as I began to realise that I was claiming back a small piece of me! I am so very grateful to Serge Benhayon for supporting us to find ourselves.

327. “A lovely warm inner glow has replaced the former emptiness.” How glorious.

328. Not doubting myself and my feelings is something I learned at the Universal Medicine courses and in sessions with Esoteric practitioners. To me it’s a miracle that this could happen one day. The thing is, I simply chose to not doubt me anymore after understanding that I am not the thinker, but the thoughts are given to me and I can choose amongst what is being offered. Ha! So why choosing self-doubt?

329. As many others here that have already expressed traveling down a similar path of life that you have walked but have still arrived at the same ultimate destination. There are so many others still waiting for that fork in the road to take the path less traveled that brings us back to who we truly are.

     1. We all originate from the one source and eventually we return, we are just under the illusion we can act separately, carving out our own paths when in truth there is only one path back to our true nature.

330. You have really laid yourself bare here Maggie which is a powerful healing in itself, being so open and honest and really looking at things in a no frills way.Cutting through all the old ways and returning to self through the gentle breath is pure magic.

     1. Yes I agree kevchardy, being this open and honest with ourselves without any guilt, shame. or regret is truly healing. We have all had a past and each moment we have a choice to change the way we move through life.

     2. Thank you Kev; I feel that I was supported all the way in writing my blog. I never once thought about all the old emotions that I had experienced; maybe because I was determined to not be ambushed and to be as honest as I could so that what I wrote was genuine; meaningful.

331. It’s so lovely to feel how you respect yourself now and the care and appreciation that you are giving yourself.

332. Wow Maggie, what a super, super post, inspiring read. Is so refreshing to hear your life, its hazards, and today its love… and with this the joy you now have from a rather destitute place, that, in many cases would seem quite ‘normal’, or perhaps not that unusual. I love the fact that you never gave up on finding you again in spite of everything, it shows the inner strength we have in regards the call back to love/truth, and God.

333. Such an inspiring blog Maggie. If every one of us realised the truth of our divineness and lived this loving connection with ourselves, abuse would no longer be an expression on this earth. Not toward ourselves or toward another.

     1. Yes Victoria I agree, because when we are truly connected, any kind of abuse (towards self or another) stands out and just doesn’t have a place to be.

     2. Great point Victoria, it is a lack of love for self that allows abuse first from ourselves and then from another.

     3. How wonderful that would be Victoria ❤

334. “A lovely warm inner glow has replaced the former emptiness’- Maggie- it was wonderful reading your account of your return back to you with the support of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine. I too have reconnected back to me with the help of the Gentle Breathe Meditation taught by Serge Benhayon. I have also been inspired to live a more loving, caring and nurturing way.

     1. It’s wonderful isn’t it Loretta; and as each day dawns we can appreciate the opportunity to try another avenue for being more loving, caring and nurturing.

335. I wonder how familiar this story is Maggie, not the individual episodes, but the realisation that there is a deep inner knowingness that is felt (and its gorgeous) from time to time in our lives. I know for me I had it from time to time, and would know this is it! But I had no means by which to live this consistently… Serge Benhayon and his teachings have provided me with the simplest road map imaginable, and one which brings the most treasured of results by simply investing in ourselves first, and then living all the love we are.

     1. I couldn’t agree with you more Simon!

336. True Susan. The realisation makes way for so much more when we start to crave a connection to ourselves.

337. Thank you for sharing Maggie. Coming back to who we are is an amazing and tremendous thing, which everyone is truely blessed by. I loved hearing about how you innately knew that all you needed was inside you- hense the ‘find me, be free’. Gorgeous how God gives us a helping hand.

     1. So true Emily; we are never alone!

338. Thanks for sharing your story and the changes that you have made since attending the presentations and courses by Serge Benhayon. I always love reading all the different paths and experiences from people who had before and after meeting Serge Benhayon.

339. Yes this is an awesome revelation and it is great to share it as I am sure many can relate to it.

340. Super important Susan, until we acknowledge and appreciate who we truly are nothing can change.

341. ‘To be free — To be me!’ Thank you Maggie! I so enjoyed reading your story, so real, beautifully written – and expressing things that many may have experienced. I could see a likeness of myself in some of your experiences of years gone past. The way I happily gave myself away, but was never satisfied , always hungering, knowing there was more.
     And I also have been – ‘inspired by Serge Benhayon and the Universal Medicine presentations and workshops I have attended in my journey to find Me and to Live My Life in truth and love.’

342. What a humble story about a gorgeous woman who is returning home. Thank you for sharing your journey with us and reflecting back to us that in the end, it is about self-care, self-love, love and humanity. And about all of humanity returning home.

343. Your honesty in sharing is very revealing of behaviour that many people can probably relate to having in their lives, and all it can take is one person being willing to open up and talk about their experiences, and in your case how you have come to change those behaviours and views of yourself to far more loving ones.

344. Such a magnificent read and an incredible story, I love that no matter what the backgrounds and the stories of the people are that come to study at Universal Medicine their stories have the same journey and realisation that they return home to themselves – I can never read enough of these stories.

     1. Yes nicolesjardin, no matter where we’ve strayed to, we can always come back to ourselves when we are ready to say yes to love and truth.

        1. It is there equally for everyone – I am forever grateful.

345. I love this paragraph, it speaks of someone who will never give up on themself ..” I still have lots to learn and feel for myself, the key is the doing for myself as the more I do, the more I feel – short steps become longer steps, as opportunities, lessons I learn for myself, or alternative ways, open up”. You are so inspiring Maggie.

     1. Thank you Irena ❤

346. History shows that following what another has said, written or claimed in any way leads to all kind of havoc. The beautiful thing about the books and presentations of Serge Benhayon is that they don’t inspire followers. They inspire to discern and observe and claim one’s own power. You are a living testimony, Maggie.

347. “I realised that there was no me.” What a powerful realisation this is and I wonder how many people are not willing to acknowledge this? However, when one does with the truth and honesty that you have, Maggie, and then take the necessary steps to rediscover the real you, it is truly inspirational. An inspiration that anyone can do if they are truthful and honest.

348. Maggie, your blog is very inspirational and an incredible testament to your commitment to yourself

     1. Thank you Mary Louise ❤

349. A beautiful story Maggie of the convoluted journeys we do in life, finding our way back to ourselves that we started with. What crazy circles and cycles we choose, but we get there in the end.

     1. Yes, we do Gill; just like moths to the light 🙂

350. Agree Marika those stop moments are a true blessing that offer us to feel our true grandness and they are a turning point we can embrace to choose differently and live ourselves in full.

351. Looking for answers ‘outside’ of us just leads to more and more unanswered questions. The search is never over until we realise it was us that we were missing, our inner connection to the all that we are.

     1. I love this Victoria “Looking for answers ‘outside’ of us just leads to more and more unanswered questions.”. This is actually exposing most of us in the sense that we’re craving answers and try to find them in books, workshops, diets and food, in changing jobs, separating from partners, etc. But it is all the manifestation of what is actually on the inside. A lot of intraquillity, projected on the outside world buying deep into the illusion that something or somebody in the outher world might bring us back what we’re so desperately seeking: ourselves.

        1. very true Floris, we often do not appreciate all that is available for us to access, that is until we reconnect to all that we are on the inside.

        2. What wonderful words Floris. It is so very easy when feeling out of sorts to seek solace from someone or something else because we’ve been repeating these comforting cycles for longer than we can remember. It does take a current and persistent awareness to steer ourselves inwardly and so we can sometimes stray a little before we become aware of our wandering ways and develop a greater awareness. With practise our straying becomes less and we build our new cycle of internal support.

        3. It would be lovely Victoria if we would have been raised like this. Imagine that there’s time for appreciating ourselves and each other in each classroom. Imagine everyday beginning with this. And how lovely is it to appreciate our children, our mums and dads, our friends, our neighbours, etc. From this exchange with you I’m actually realising – as I’m writing – that it’s got more to do with giving ourselves permission to re-learn verbally expressing Appreciation. Children do that very naturally in different kind of ways. With flowers that they find in nature, in little paintings, in a kiss, in a hug, in saying sweet things, etc. Personally I can sense that I need to really let in all that Appreciation.

        4. “With practise our straying becomes less and we build our new cycle of internal support.”. I can testify that this is for me the same. It’s about choosing to connect over and over again. In fact each time that we’ve chosen to disconnect. This remains forever the case, but will be a lot simpler once the pattern of connection has developed and established a foundation. Which is actually quite obvious, as we’ve chosen to deny ourselves for such a long time, that you can’t stop that unloving way of being with ourselves in one go.

        5. How much of this, Floris, is today due to our materialistic society and the huge advancement of IT enabling everyone to summon answers, without consideration, from Google?

        6. I would actually call the looking for ‘answers’ online, looking for (quick) solutions. As you’re sharing Maggie, without consideration. Without using our 6th sense we’re actually ‘lost’, beceause we rely on the outside world for answers rather than from the Knowingness inside. “Learning to find me and live my life” has everything to do with opening up and using our Divine given tool – our 6th sense, our clairsentience.

352. We live in a fantastic vessel that can somehow survive our most adamant choices to cause damage to it. Even with all of these failed attempts to erase who we truly are the real me it is like the black box of a plane it contains everything we are that will always be there waiting for us to return.

     1. Steve, I simply love the way you apply the Science of God to everyday life. You are a scientist and philosopher in one grand package who stands firmly on the ground on this planet earth bringing us the wisdom from the Halls of Heaven for everyone to understand.

     2. I love that – waiting for us to return. There is no reason why we should wait for anything. Everything is within us – we just have to connect and enjoy our own being.

353. Now I have Michael Benhayon’s song ‘Live Your Way’ playing in my head.

354. What an incredible story Maggie. I leaves me thinking about how with a few tweaks to the details this could essentially be any and every one’s story. To find a way back to you is a big deal in the way the world is set up to counter this in every way possible. Your commitment and courage are truly inspiring – for does not everyone want to be “me and be free”.

355. Thank you for your candid and honest account of your life Maggie. It must be satisfying to put it all down in review, seeing the shifts and choices made over time and which ones have led to true support in your life. We all have our own similar such story that has led us back home, through the work of Universal Medicine and I love that we are developing a rich and diverse catalogue of our stories to remain in the library of the work of the Ageless Wisdom here on Earth.

356. It is quite an incredible thing when we find that we can choose love in our lives rather than pain and mishap; that we can live in a way that feeds love back to us. It’s different from being in control because that feeds back contraction and suffering; but rather living in alignment with the love that we naturally are begins to reflect this back in every way, every interaction, every happening. We’re in the drivers seat, we’re fully responsible and responsive to the truth that is always presenting itself to us; all we need to do is listen and respond accordingly and life begins to flow, in more and more beautiful ways.

     1. Beautifully said Emma, it is quite an awakening to find out and accept that everything that happens in our life comes back to the choices we have made, so nothing is random and everything is chosen. It gives us back the power we hold over our own life that we have thought we had not and shows us the responsibility we have in our every move and word.

357. The inner warm glow once felt would be our constant guide back to the forever deepening return to love.

     1. Yes; it would be to many, the holy grail; for which no crusade is required, just the courage to look inside of ourselves Adele.

        1. What beautiful and wise words you both are bringing Adele and Maggie. There is no crusade needed just the courage to look inside ourselves and connect to the warmth and love that there resides and let it guide us back to the fullness we are from.

     2. Love that Adele – once we have a clear experience of what that warm inner glow feels like, then it is much easier to see when we do not have that, and as a guide back to it. Once found it’s harder to lose.

        1. I agree Simon and Adele; it’s our first and most important marker.

358. Thank you Maggie, I enjoyed every word of yours and am looking forward to reading more by you. I love your lightheartedness and ease with which you look back at your life.

     1. Agreed Esther , it is gorgeous and compelling reading.

     2. Same Esther, it doesn’t seem heavy or burdensome. Just free and light, with a lot of understanding mixed in.

     3. The lightheartedness is remarkable and testimony to the level of Maggie´s deep understanding and acceptance of herself. Very inspirational as to often we hold on to guilt, shame, regret or actually the lack of self-worth we try to overcome.

359. Maggie thank you for a very honest account of your life. Underneath it all I can feel a woman who has a Joy for life now and a very tender Love. This is, I sense, what you have come back to through your connection with Universal Medicine. It’s always so wonderful to hear of the transformation in people’s lives when they connect to themselves and then make simple and sustainable changes like listening to our body and honouring its signals.

360. Those few words that came to you Maggie – “To find me and to be free” say so much. Our only true freedom is knowing who we are.

     1. love that Sandra.

     2. Yes simple and profound truth.

     3. Beautifully said Sandra.

361. I agree Mary, our parents are our everything when we are younger and we listen to them. I particularly remember thinking how wise my father was and that what ever he said about the world had to be right. Now I know that he like the rest of us had been spoon fed ideals and beliefs from his parents, and run with those but with his own flavour.

362. The Soul’s words are written in our hearts, communication from the mind never reaches the heart, it just attempts to dizzy us with words going around and around in our head. How beautiful that the patient and loving part of us keeps a hold of our hand until we are ready to meet our true selves. Thank you for this great sharing Maggie.

363. What an amazing coming home journey Maggie. There are significant parallels in your and my life, and all though they were entirely different, we have both arrived at the same place finding the warmth, tenderness, and love that has always been within us all just waiting to be rediscovered.

     1. Yes how gorgeous we all eventually arrive at the same place no matter what our chosen paths, the place we all recognise as it is the truth of our oneness.

     2. Yes, it’s quite beautiful Steve

     3. Rebecca, your words remind me of a stunning presentation by Natalie Benhayon a while ago in which she described the very different up-bringings of two very similar girls; and how this foundation formulated the basis of all their relationships. It was most profound to understand and to come to accept a greater level of responsibility than I had previously recognised in playing the parental role.

364. Wow, that you for sharing your experience so honestly Maggie – I was really struck when you said you where everything to everyone but nothing to yourself. How many people live in this kind of life, and struggle with the fact that they must put themselves aside. When did we get to a point that it was selfish to care for yourself, to know yourself and be free to be yourself.

     1. Yes me too Rebecca, that first line of yours, and also Maggie’s also struck me too: being “everything to everyone, nothing to myself” – so HUGE, and also hugely representative of so many of us…this simple line stops you immediately towards deep consideration, reflection, and also activation and doing something about it as it did with Maggie. How many of us live in the denial of who we truly are, thinking self-care is selfish as a simple example you draw Rebecca, is an indictment on humanity and its development.

        1. I agree, I was talking to a friend about how many girls play games in relationships and that it is a normal thing, and yet the possible underlying cause, the fact that they crave the attention because they don’t love themselves is not considered. What could be resolved simply by caring more for yourself.

365. Yes, the spiritual new age is very engaging. There is always something happening and there is alway hope but there is never any simple, lasting change for more harmony or love – those things are simply outside the new age sphere.

     1. …and it comes with lots of props too Christoph!

        In the fullness of our love, we don’t need props

        1. That is a great line, “In the fullness of our love, we don’t need props”.

        2. When you say ‘prop’, I immediately think of Rescue Remedy!

        3. Ha-ha Christoph; mine were crystals, particularly Apache tears…and while not laced with brandy, I was certainly hooked for a while!

     2. Well said Christoph – the spiritual new age is not about love and harmony. I’m so glad, that finally my search in the “spiritual world” is over – I know now, that everything what I need is inside me.

        1. Despite my many years on the spiritual new age ‘circuit’, I always knew the answers were inside of me…a few months before I came across Universal Medicine, I said to a friend ‘I know the answers are inside me, but I just don’t know how to access them’…bingo…my soul guided me beautifully to find Universal Medicine so I could truly find myself.

366. The main gist I have got from your blog Maggie, is that not one word was wasted. Every word of what you have written you have lived and not all joyfully or responsibly of course, but really lived and now have a foundation where every word, every moment counts. I appreciate the honesty and integrity this brings. It is the same sense that I get from those purple books of Serge Benhayon, that every word is lived and comes with an integrity that can be trusted and studied for its truth.

     1. A heart-felt thank you Simon V ❤

367. Like so many actors, we step onto life’s stage, and change so many costumes and say so many lines. And in a way this show is never-ending when you consider the possibility that we all return lifetime after lifetime to play it again, with a different name and stage set to fit. And yet underneath all these roles, what you show to us Maggie is there is a distinct flavour to us, that is our essence, our divine quality. The more we become familiar and in Love with this sense, the less we would ever want to wear someone else’s clothes and mannerisms. It’s this role were are cast here to play, in each and every movement and way.

     1. Yes, Joseph, we return again and again until we have fully embraced our natural role in the world, and live from our essence with every breath.

     2. Beautifully said Joseph – knowing and living who we truly are, the games and roles we play simply fall away.

     3. A superb analogy, thank you for sharing Joseph

     4. A great build Joseph – we play so many roles but none of which are truly as. That underneath there is always a quality, always a knowing. We are our essence before we are anything else – a woman, a mother, a friend, a business lady – I’ve often been asked ‘who am I’ and immediately go into what I’ve done or the roles I play. One of the most confronting things I’ve ever had to do, was to ask myself who I am without the roles. But to come to that, to see what is there underneath it all, is very raw and beautiful. And it has allowed me to appreciate the qualities of the sensitivity, wisdom, support and love that has always run through me.

368. Maggie, the way you shared how much of a difference it makes to start with little acts of caring and nurturing, is quite profound.

     I am still finding again and again how it’s really the little things (which aren’t so little at all!) that bring me back to me. Maggie, you are showing that it doesn’t have to be hard, and that, no matter what else has happened or is going on, it is possible to find yourself. That is Huge!

369. I love the honesty with which you share Maggie, thank you for sharing your remarkable story, it is inspiring.

370. The spiritual new age route is the ultimate playground of distraction and delay. With all the lights and colours to entice, It seems to dance around inklings of truth but never does it truly deliver. If we settle for the lure of creation or the spirits play we rob ourselves of the inner magnificence that awaits when we re-connect to our soulful nature. This is true freedom.

     1. Beautifully said Victoria. The spiritual new age path can have us hoodwinked because it can seem so close to truth using words used and concepts that seemingly have the answers yet lack energetic truth and therefore is empty.

371. Maggie, how powerful are the simple things that can turn a life around. “Just easy little things, but they made such a difference, learning to give my body preference over what I was doing; my functionality.” Re-connecting with that ‘inner glow’ the love we are steadily changes everything in our lives.

     1. Agreed Victoria; it is the simple things.Appreciating we are stupendous and anything which stops us feeling that is simply something we took on but can now give effort to eradicate and clear out of the way. Bit by bit, slowly but surely.

        1. Yes ginadunlop, it is the consistency of loving choices we make that supports us to remain connected and gradually builds a steady foundation.

372. When I first heard Serge Benhayon talk about Religion and God, I remember going ‘oh no’ to myself. I now know that was just a reaction to all the atrocities and hypocrisy I’d observed around religions, and I’d put up a huge wall between myself and the word ‘God’. Now I’m very comfortable with these 2 words because I know feel the truth of what God represents and what true religion is.

     1. Thank you Sandra. It was beautiful to have Universal Medicine bring truth back to the word, God and religion.

     2. Such a great point Sandra. I felt this too and still do at times – but then am so delighted through my whole body to feel the joy at being able to express speaking of God again and love without the sticky connotations that have bastardised and thwarted this expression.

        1. So many of us have been hurt by or have seen others hurt by people who practice the dogma of man-made religions, and it was this that turned me away from allowing myself to feel God. If the only way to know God was through the church (which is what I believed), then it wasn’t for me…and so when reintroduced to the notion of God through Universal Medicine, I had (and still have) some undoing of all the beliefs I had about religion and God. All the while though, even when I called myself an Atheist in my teens, I always felt/knew there was a higher being, always.

373. There is so much to appreciate in what you’ve chosen for yourself Maggie. Thank you for sharing.

374. “I realised that there was no me. I didn’t know what I liked or disliked, let alone who I was. I had always fitted in with others, liking what they liked, disliking what they disliked.” This is familiar to me, Maggie, the true person that I am disappeared for most of my life until I met Serge Benhayon. It is since I began living The Way of the Livingness, that I have come to realise my own responsibility in all that had happened up to that point. It was my wanting to keep the harmony by agreeing with everything others wanted that set the scene for a whole way of life for so long. It started well before my marriage which could have been so very different I now realise. In effect, I completely ‘disappeared myself’, to the point that people did not even notice me, it was as if I did not exist. And it was my own ‘doing’ in all that, I did it to myself. In the twelve years that I have been a widow, with the help of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine and some beautiful esoteric practitioners, I have turned my life around, and I have found me in the process.

375. What I love and am inspired by in your words Maggie, is your ability to know and choose more love for yourself; through making that next choice for you or returning to your own breath. This sounds so simple and yet it compounds and concretes, paving a newly built foundation for you and your life at every turn. Thank you for sharing.

     1. Beautiful, Cherise. When we have spent many years putting our body on the line, to finally bring a loving focus to the way we treat ourselves and move through life can be super simple yet super powerful.

        1. Yes Janet – self love is the key including understanding which helps me to be more lovingly with myself.

     2. Gorgeously said Cherise. Simple steps to start changing a life of disregard. Simple steps, but with an awesome effect.

        1. Self love is a great start Alexander then we need to learn to love and appreciate ourselves as well. This then confirms us in a strong foundation that we can live from and continue to deepen and develop.

     3. Beautifully expressed Cherise. So many in life are not yet even aware of what it means to ‘know and choose more love’ for ourselves.

376. A truly wonderful sharing, Maggie, thank you for your great honesty. I totally relate to what you say here, “There are days when I feel my connection to myself most of the time and days when it evaporates fairly quickly, when I lapse a little and my mind distracts my body from letting me know that it needs attention.” I have been following the Way of the Livingness now for some years, and I still find that I have days where I start off so beautifully connected, then become distracted by all the doing that I am carrying out during the day and suddenly hours later, realised that I had lost contact with myself. I am gradually learning to let go of the doing and letting things flow much more as it is meant to be, and when I am carrying out my tasks as impulsed by my body it feels so very beautiful. Working that way during the day becomes so effortless, compared to pushing myself into the doing. It is all a step by step process, and we become more skilled over time at living this natural way of being.

377. Your description of your days before re-connecting with yourself illustrate how life can be when self-worth is absent. It’s amazing what we can allow when we don’t value ourselves.

378. Thank you Maggie for your honesty in sharing your journey. This will be inspiring for many.

     1. Victoria, I feel I am naturally a mediator and nurturer and so my only validation was to only ever please and support people no matter how absurd it seemed. I have lied to save face and also my life. Being untrue to others was easy. I never considered that I was lying to myself.

        From the moment I realised that there was no Me in my life I knew that I had to recall dim and distant memories about a little girl whom I had forgotten. To begin with it was a frivolous foray into my past, but as I began to question my past; I realised that a certain level of honesty was required.

        Now, finding out more and more about myself is essential; and succeeding in this is totally dependent on my honesty and integrity.

379. This is such an inspiring article Maggie, thank you for sharing. It highlights how important it is to look at the big picture of life, but equally so appreciate the little things that happen during our days. Without asking yourself the big question about what your purpose was in life and why it is that you’ve survived these kinds of experiences then you wouldn’t be where you are today, but similarly your incredible transformation could only occur in a step by step process, and in order to consistently evolve and develop your relationship with yourself you had to appreciate all the amazing things about you and where you’d come from.

380. I can feel the light you bring Maggie – a beautiful reflection for all others claiming who they truly are. The Divine only works through us when we choose to re-connect, accept, appreciate and surrender to the way it truly is.

381. No matter what happens to us in life and what we choose, your words remind me Maggie that we all ‘hard wired’ to return to the love we are made of. A truly beautiful example of this truth.

     1. How true bernadetteglass, we will all inevitably return to the living love we are, no matter what has gone before.

     2. And that the self we look for, that stillness and loveliness, is always there just waiting, no matter what.

     3. Agree with you Bernadette, the call back to love is too great to be ignored in totality and its entirety, for it, love, is everything. Everything that we know at our deepest level of being.

        1. This is huge to comprehend on one level Zofia; that love ‘is everything’ and yet I know it to be true because if I am first not loving and true to myself, it affects everything. So simple this truth and this awareness must be built into every moment of my day.

382. “I woke up to the many years of loneliness in my second marriage, investing my love and happiness into caring for our pets,” This is massive and no doubt an ouch for many people, as so many people in this world dote on their pets as if they were children or a partner, as a way to not feel how un-full-filled they are.

383. ‘The main investment turns out to be the loving choices that I make for me.’ I love this simple and beautiful reminder Maggie, our loving choices are certainly the greatest investment we can make to ourselves and others.

384. Your honesty is inspiring Maggie and I now want to look more deeply again at my own level of honesty!

385. Maggie, on reading today I felt how what you share about functionality is so stark, when as you say it changes everything when we begin ‘learning to give my body preference over what I was doing’ – this feels obvious and mundane, yet most of us do not live in this way (we put functionality over the body,and are encouraged to do so) and so we have to re-learn this, putting the body at the centre of all we do; it’s something I learn more of each day and it’s revolutionary in its simplicity and something that we can do for us, no big expense or complex degrees needed.

     1. Hmm agree Monicag2, making it all about the body is the most simplest yet most profound piece of advice I learned (and continue to learn) from Universal Medicine Ageless Wisdom Teachings. Like a bottle of water, the bottle (body) holds what’s inside (being) – caring for both – body and being – keeps the contents clean, clear.. and refreshing to drink.

        1. Wow, I love your analogy Zofia. Clean and clear; how wonderful; thank you.

386. Thank you Susan. I enjoyed writing it; and the more I felt compelled to dig a little deeper, the more I felt that I was not alone. Connecting with all that love gave me the courage, but more importantly the freedom to release my expression. ❤

     1. It is beautiful Maggie and I have a feeling there is a lot more to come.

        1. Thank you Richard; yes, I do enjoy writing…!

387. I love all of your words Maggie. It is so full of honesty and I found it inspiring to read. I can still fall for sympathy and reading your words make me aware that everybody is making their own choices. And that in fact the sympathy in me are there to avoid feeling deeper within myself.

     The 2nd thing that I love is how you describe how you’ve been held all along. How amazing is that. I just can’t read and feel enough of the Majesty in all it’s forms how we are in fact held. If we but choose to see and feel it.

     Thank you dearly Maggie, may your words and stories inspire many, many other people in finding their way back to themselves.

388. Thanks for sharing your personal story Maggie, it was an awesome read

389. We all have similar stories of our journey to finding Universal Medicine, and many through the New Age . I agree that the New Age promised much but failed to deliver! An inspiring journey back to discovering you and your life again.

390. There is always a developing level to connect to ourselves.

391. It is true, we are all on our journey home and while most of us have similar stories to tell ,not all make it as you have. To be open to really looking for yourself and the truth, being honest in this and not blaming anyone else is truly admirable Maggie . An inspiring blog thank you.

392. Maggie, this is so interesting to read and ponder on, ‘Throughout my life I have been many things to anyone and everyone; and until recently, nothing to myself.’ I can feel in relationships how I have often given my power away to my partner and tried to be what they wanted me to be rather than staying true to who i am and what feels true for me.

     1. Its the story of most women, that we adapt to please and be loved. But it never fills the space until we realise what we were looking for all along was us.

        1. Yes, there is no true homecoming, while ever we are looking ‘outside’ of us to find our way.

393. “It was remarkable and I still remember the warm glow within as my inner heart opened and I started to connect to me.” Me too Maggie, I remember being intrigued at the glow and warmth in my chest, knowing it felt absolutely lovely but felt somewhat ‘shy’ of sharing this fact with others back then – like I almost didn’t want to admit it (!). It really highlighted how as I had grown up I began to keep this loveliness hidden and lock myself away. But despite not shouting it from the rooftops Universal Medicine and the teachings of The Ageless Wisdom reawakened the connection to myself and a developing, loving connection with others.

394. “I started with the little things, like responding to my body’s needs immediately rather than putting them off until they were convenient, such as: making a drink when I felt thirsty, rather than delaying for another hour or so whilst I double-checked columns of data; answering calls of nature rather than diverting my attention to my computer screen; and getting up from my desk to actually get my lunch when I felt hungry rather than when it was convenient.” It is these little things that are so easily missed and yet the honouring they bring is game changing.

395. A living, honest, day by day unearthing of you; Maggie, “truthfully feeling into what it is I like and that which I dislike.” Coming to know yourself again – truly inspiring.

396. “I could never please him: firstly I was to be his mother, then Petula Clarke and later Debbie Harry. My hairstyles would change at his whim, the way I walked, the clothes… I became his Sindy doll, but again, I was a disappointment to him.” A great reflection Maggie on the places we are prepared to go in order to feel loved & the empty cycle of disappointment this breeds.

397. Remarkable sharing Maggie. Thank you.

398. Again, I love this line “I then accepted that the next phase in my life would be about me and only me” not in a selfish way, but the fact and truth is so many of us can get caught up in relationship to avoid feeling our own emptiness and lack of self worth.

399. I know I have said this before, I love this “I realised that there was no me.” this is the road to true freedom.

400. I know this thought “I am not important”, I am once felt not worth enough to breath because maybe someone else needs this air….I found on my way out of this dramatic thinking that I am in fact try to deny my responsibility. In fact what I am, what I do, what I choose has an effect on the whole world, I count, like any single one of us does. But the moment I accept my worth, accept that what I choose does count – I have the responsibility for my way of living. And this is great! In the past I thought responsibility is something hard to carry, but found by experiences that it is the most lovely thing. It is to appreciate who I am and what I express. It is Love.

401. “My thoughts were terrifying and led me to consider all my near-death experiences: suffocation as a new-born; an emergency caesarean that almost killed both of us; an attempted drowning in the kitchen sink; being raped at knife-point, narrowly avoiding being stabbed in the back; waking up at the wheel of my car, just in time to avoid careering into a bridge stanchion when suffering with a virus:” It just goes to show there is much more to life than this, that every so called accident or incident ( in truth there is no such thing ) is in face a divine wake up call, calling us all back to be who we truly are. We are constantly being watched and supported to let go of everything and anything that does not support us to align with the truth that we are all stupendous divine Sons of God.

402. “And so my life continued trying to please people”. This is a debilitating and tiring way to live, no one grows from confinement. True joy only comes from the freedom of knowing God and expressing this in every movement and way we live.

403. This is a beautiful honest blog to share Maggie thank you .It feels there is something everyone can relate to for themselves and offers what we are really all looking for. ” A lovely warm inner glow has replaced the former emptiness” is what i too have found in myself thanks to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine. The purple books are amazing to read and brings an aliveness in my body as I read them as does listening to Serge Benhayon in person or on audio. How could one listen to anything else but the truth and integrity presented and known inside that resonates within us if we choose it. Changing our lies with the littlest details as you share really does make a difference.

404. Maggie, I love how you started with the little things, and step by step have turned your life around by re-developing that loving quality inside of you.

405. So many of us could look back on our lives and realise how much time we have wasted on others without a thought of what it is doing to us. We are so much more help to everyone if we are free being ourselves.

     1. That hurts Kevin, to realise the fact that by withholding myself from living my life in full, I wasted not only on myself but on all the people I am with on a daily basis. We human beings are so much more than what is being lived and in fact have no right whatsoever to not choose for love, but in fact we have done that collectively ignoring the utter consequences of this. It not only brought an abusive life to ourselves but also to our families, societies all of humanity.

     2. That is a killer Kev – that all the time we have invested in others, and other things is wasted when it lacks the quality of who we truly are. I know for me I have found myself selling out, and then sharing this with others.Encouraging them down a path that leads nowhere. I ask myself why, and the answer that comes back is because if they joined me then perhaps I might feel less lonely. How different the world will be as more and more people wake up to just being themselves, and that is what shines and inspires others to be free.

406. I’ve struggled at times and still do to describe why it is that Serge Benhayon’s purple books and audios just make sense, but they do, they explain things in a way that makes me say, well of course that is true. The philosophy makes me question why there are so many obvious “white elephants” that we ignore, such as the fact that as we get more University trained and so supposedly smarter, we as a society are also getting sicker, so what does that say of the intelligence we laud. Endless great questions have been asked that we really must sit up and take notice of.

407. Love your honesty here Maggie, trying to be something for somebody else I have found to my own detriment does not work and having spent many years trying, only resulted in me loosing myself more. After attending one of Serge Benhayons presentations and asking myself who am I, I realised that I had lost myself somewhere along the way. I am sure many will relate to this blog.

408. Maggie – you write as a woman who has claimed herself. What an amazing an relatable journey for so many of us who think life is tough. I was there. I was a victim. I saw what came at me as ‘just because’ and as you say – had no sense of myself because I gave everything to others in the hope I’d get something back. But like you, I knew there was always something there, a quality that people saw if they looked for it. Universal Medicine has also supported me to find that quality. Your practical changes make so much sense – in a nutshell – to listen to your body.This is a very beautiful blog.

409. l could have written all this, “ventured down the spiritual new age route… and I was successful. I happily followed the winding mystical paths of Reiki, crystals and self-styled psychics, gurus, seers and hungrily read promising books; then the doubts started to set in.” Amazing how similar our life experiences are and how similar humans are to each other. One would think that that naturally would have to give us more understanding and acceptance of each other.

     1. The spiritual path is a well-trodden one. What a great diversion it is!

        1. The spiritual path is a great diversion from being joyful and loving, but why on earth would you want that!

410. I feel forever blessed that those purple books line my shelves and that Universal Medicine is my life.

411. Wow what an inspirational and honest sharing, thank you. It really goes to show that no matter how far we venture from ourselves there is always a spark within that never leaves, a spark that knows the truth and will gravitate towards it when it reveals itself.

     1. You would think there was no spark to be heard of based on how I’ve treated myself, but there it was, just waiting to be connected to.

        1. Me too Heather, me too!

412. We have been fooled into accepting that to be loving, we have to keep others as comfortable as possible. This proves to be not the way forward for us or them as it stops all of us from growing and evolving. Self worth and self love are the keys as you have attested to Maggie. As we value ourselves, so we then value others equally and we allow all to take responsibility for our evolution.

413. When we reconnect with our bodies and start to truly honour and be gentle with ourselves, others cannot help but notice and respond. They feel the beauty of our inner connection and either consciously or unconsciously respond by aligning or reacting.

414. It is incredible how we can ‘pretzel’ ourselves to fit in to try and be something that we think that someone else wants us to be. We do this in order to be loved, however, pretzelling will always fall short of the true love that we are. This love can only be accessed when we dive deep within and be everything to ourselves and not to others.

     1. Beautiful Donna. The problem with being everything to everyone else and “pretzeling” ourselves is that we then lose ourselves. We don’t know who we are and then get trapped in being someone we are not. Hence Maggie’s beautiful line about finding me to be free.

415. ‘The main investment turns out to be the loving choices that I make for me’ and I would add that this is why many women are bankrupt!

416. Maggie I too ventured down the rabbit hole of the Spiritual New Age, devouring books that had been written by the Great Imposters of Me.

417. Maggie I simply have to repeat the line of pure power that you have shared.
     ‘To find me and to be free’

     1. Yes, Alexis, those words are really powerful. “To find me and to be free”. They are words that we all need to feel, we all need learn to connect to our true selves, connect deeply to our own bodies and the wisdom within. The divinity we find when we do that is mind-blowing, and completely life-changing, such utter freedom from the usual human bondage if we are willing to live this way.

     2. Its weird isn’t it? That this simple statement ‘to find me’ can be so powerful. What kind of world do we live in when pretty much everyone has lost themselves, and usually at an early age. When the configuration of parenting, schooling, our peers and those in power are all asking us to be something else? There is such a simplicity in being ourselves – it does not need us to be rich, powerful, clever or any of those other aspirations. We already are all we need to be, and just have to live it.

418. Gorgeous Doug, I’m letting the wisdom that you’ve expressed here consolidate in my body. We really do create the issues and the dramas while all along we are stupendous beyond human measure.

419. A gorgeous sharing Maggie. Your lightness of being, your playfulness and joy shines off the page. Thank you for expressing all that you have — and sharing you.

     1. Yes agree, Maggie brings a lightness of being but does not hold back on the rawness of lived experience, so real and inspirational. Thank you Maggie.

420. Maggie I can also relate to you in giving my power away to others and doing for them first.
     It was only since meeting Serge Benhayon and being introduced to the Gentle Breathe Meditation that I started to reconnect to me – how I feel, what my body is saying to be- which this has changed my life for ever.

421. Maggie thank you for your honesty, and how you have taken us on a personal journey with you, to self-discovery about truth, and the importance of listening to our body starting with the “little things”.

422. Thank you for sharing your amazing journey Maggie – it demonstrates so beautifully how the seed of truth is inside us all and just waiting patiently until we decide we are ready to plant it and begin to nourish it with love.

     1. So true Tamara, this seed does lie within us all waiting to be watered and nourished. It is so lovely to read reminders of this, thank you Maggie.

     2. It is truly incredible to hear people’s stories, and to know how difficult our day to day lives can be when we don’t have that connection with ourselves.

        1. Yes, when we lose ourselves our whole foundation becomes shaky.

423. Being ‘nothing’ is a result of constantly being fed thoughts to have us distracted, exhausted hurt and in overwhelm….. BUT ….. the trap is we don’t know we are constantly being manipulated to override our own innate knowing and feelings of our direct union with God.

424. So beautiful and inspiring to read Maggie, I can so relate to what you have said about there being no you.
     I have lived most of my life with the belief I am nothing, I am not important, I am here to be what everyone else wants, this way, I had thought as love, but have since found it to be abuse. My life too has changed, and little by little I am finding more of the loving and tender me. I too, am free to be me at last…and with that, I am ok.

     1. Reading your comment Jill I am struck by the realization that there are probably as many beliefs and ideals about what love is as there are people on the planet. As you say, the more we re-connect with our true essence the more we realize that what we once thought was love is in fact abuse. What an eye opener that is.

        1. Yes, Elizabeth, I can attest that what I once regarded as love is in fact abuse. I thought by fitting in with all that others said and wanted, I was being loving. But actually, I was abusing myself, and also abusing others, as I was not being the real me. I was not expressing truth in anything, I was just agreeing with others for the sake of harmony. This was not love. Yes, a big eye opener.

        2. So true Elizabeth and Jill, living in disconnection with the true source we all belong to, which is love, we actually abuse ourselves in all that we do. But only then, when we reconnect to that love, we are able to see it as such, while when we are in denial of this fact, that we are from love, we are in the belief that we are okay while our bodies show us the complete opposite through the illnesses and diseases it present us with. Ways of the body to discard all the disharmony that this abusive way of living puts on it.

     2. Like Elizabeth, I’m struck by how many ways we have learnt to not be ourselves, to misinterpret what love is, to head off down a path that leads away from what is right, and true. When I look down that path, which I have trodden for years, it seems so strange to have been lured away from the simplicity of being me.

425. Maggie I love this divine messages ” to find me and be free ” so simple and clear …. given only to be ignored, until such time as you were still and ready to hear these words, to clearly and simply return you to yourself and set you free of all the searching.
     It appears we don’t consider a few simple words and actions could change the direction in our life; we doubt and ignore and seek complicated methods. Your blog has illustrated this beautifully and life can be simply lived when we simply connect.

     1. I agree merrileepettinato. There is such grace, humbleness and beauty in what Maggie has shared here. The simplicity of a connection with ourself, and being impulsed from this connection allows a true freedom.

426. Maggie, your blog blew me away, your words ‘to be free to be me’ kept ringing through as I read and what I felt most of all was how you took ownership of those little steps, like going to the bathroom when you needed and how making those changes has supported a complete change in how you are – this is absolutely amazing. You remind and inspire me that it’s those simple steps and they’re for us to do, and as we do we learn how it feels to be us in our bodies. Thank you deeply.

     1. It is the way to start. For so many people, we are so far removed from self-care and self-loving ways that to think about self-care or self-love seems a long way away and too hard to find. This shows how to start, really easily and simply – need to go to the toilet, go. Need to rest, rest. Need a drink of water, go get one.

        1. It very much is the start Sarah, simple, no big things to do, it’s those little things and they lay the foundation for everything. And it’s amazing how we can get ourselves stuck in complexity and complication when it’s not needed, so great to be reminded, start with the basics – they’re super important.

     2. This is absolute gold monicag2. When I look back over my life and see where I have come from and where I am now, it is the attention to all of the little things that have supported me in developing a true and loving relationship with myself. At times when I am struggling, I focus on the quality of presence I have in each moment and how my body feels – this is so supportive of my connection to who I am.

     3. I used to see ‘being free’ as escaping and having no responsibilities, commitments or ‘burdens’ in life. From knowing Universal Medicine I have actually learnt that ‘being free’ is the complete opposite; it is actually ALL about committment to life and taking full responsibility of how we live … who would have thought!

        1. I love this Vicky. ‘Being free’ does have strong connotations of having no responsibilities, nothing to ‘worry about’ and no commitments, and many people look to achieve this through spirituality and travelling, but as you share true freedom occurs when we let go of ideals and beliefs, and EMBRACE our commitment to life without any burdening expectations.

        2. I love that Vicky, that realisation that being free is really about commitment of life and taking full responsibility for how we live – this is very beautiful and such a joy to feel. Thank you for capturing it so beautifully.

        3. Absolutely Vicky (and Susie), love what you share, ‘being free’ in the way you describe is what so many also believe so strongly to be the case too, though this is only abdication, and hence completely irresponsible. It is the furthest possible route away from true freedom – Freedom is choosing which energy rules your life, your body, your movements, your everything – fire and soul, or prana and spirit. Fire fires you up to honesty and truth, prana keeps you asleep in the comfort of illusionary whims of far away travels as you also comment Susie.

     4. Thank you Monica. Yours were the first arms I fell into during my first Livingness workshop. It was such an awesome feeling; thank you for being so welcoming ❤

427. Doug absolutely true, no matter how much we play at being less, it’s not who we are and despite on-going efforts to be less, we are still everything and it’s ready and there when we are ready to claim it again. We’re just delaying the inevitable.

     1. It doesn’t make any sense and yet we do it life after life, so true Doug. And eventually we all get to the point where we say enough, let’s stop this madness, and play with being who we are rather than who are not. We really have nothing to loose, except what has never been us in the first place.

428. Lovely to feel and read how you have returned to loving and living the real you Maggie and now inspiring so many to return to who they are as well.

     1. Absolutely Jade. I love reading these stories it is so inspiring and they are shared with such honesty.

429. When you write about your hardship and traumatic experiences in life Maggie, there is no emotional attachment or victimised energy going on. This is quite amazing for someone who had t go through all you did through various stages of life. The huge and freeing key that stands out here is ‘accepting that after some 45 years of toil and hardship, in-truth self-imposed’ is you taking responsibility for your life. This is such a massive healing in itself and one that many would greatly benefit from if it was general knowledge that we are the creators of our experience.

     1. Absolutely, Rachael, taking responsibility for our own lives is key in healing ourselves from all the self-imposed hardships that we experience. For me, taking responsibility has been huge in a complete turnaround of my own life, I can attest to that. “We are the creators of our experience”, love that.

430. I love reading about how supported you were Maggie, those messages in your ear gently letting you know that there was more for you to feel. This life is geared for us to evolve, it constantly communicates that which we need to know yet it is up to us to listen and all that communication in.

431. Isn’t it wonderful to finally come to a place where you know what you like and dislike? I remember feeling like a scrape book, made out of a collage of other peoples like, dislikes, beliefs and ideals and it was confusing! My sense of self was so foreign as I desperately wanted to fit in. Now, it feels great to claim what I know and what I truly enjoy about life from my experience and not other peoples. I am caring less and less what other people think too, which is huge for me as my whole life was dictated on what I THOUGHT everyone else wanted of me.

432. What an amazing story Maggie! Thank you so much for sharing it with us, as it sounds as though only a short time a go you would never have dreamed of anybody caring or being interested in you or your life story. I can assure you, you can only inspire more people to make different choices from here on it.

     1. Elodie, that is so true; thank you ❤

433. It’s not often that we are given the gift of being shown into some ones life at such an honest level. What you offer Maggie to many is how forgiveness for self is possible, and how healing it is taking responsibility for where we have been, for then we know we are the ones responsible for where we are going.

434. Maggie I’m blown away by your sharing, and so inspired to feel how far one can come when the call to truth is answered.

435. How wonderful Maggie after all your past choices, by never giving up and by choosing to be free to be you, you have come back home to you, back to connect to your beautiful inner being. Truly inspiring.

436. Thank you Maggie, as I read about your life and particularly your near death experiences it struck me how little we know what goes on for people, and that it is so important to never make assumptions about anyone or anything. Each has his issues to deal with and has equally the means within to do so. I have been inspired too by Serge Benhayon to live a life (often imperfectly) of love and truth in the true meaning of those words.

     1. Yes true Jeanette, it just shows we can never make assumptions or judgements about anyone as we don’t know what has happened in their lives. I used to do it a lot, but I am so much more aware of it now that I can usually feel it in my body, it feels uncomfortable and I can feel the other person either withdraw or react.

437. It’s amazing how seemingly ‘little things’ that we do to care for our body actually stack up and can make a huge difference to our quality of life.

438. Honest, raw and so, so inspiring. Thank you Maggie.

439. Amazing to hear Maggie. One of the most powerful things we can do is be ourselves! Its such an amazing feeling to return to when we have chosen to not live with our essence filing our days with love.

440. Thank you, Maggie; I love how you show that learning to live from love is a development. The truth is we come from love, and so it is a journey back to what we already know. I also love how you were able to pick up one of Serge Benhayon’s purple books and allow yourself to resonate with the truth presented in it.

441. Yes Susan this is a beautiful line and it describes what love does, it is never for us but for all.

442. Awesome Maggie how you express so clear and honest about ‘to be free to be me’. The Gentle Breath Meditation has been my key to me too.

443. Thank you Maggie, I was touched by the realness and honest of your blog – super inspiring!

444. This blog feels very raw and very precious. Thank you so much for sharing this, for sharing yourself. Very inspiring.

     1. Yes Elaine – three beautifully descriptive words to sum up this piece by Maggie – Inspiring, raw and precious. It’s a gift to read.

445. Your sharing Maggie really got my full attention and what an inspiration you are. It feels once that ‘curiosity’ has been awakened within there is only one way to go. Gently taking those healing steps and to once again feel that warm inner glow which has replaced the former emptiness.

     1. Hi Marion, yes; once curiosity (I love this expression, thank you) is awakened, the knowing grows stronger which fuels the desire to continue. I love my life; and I would not have said that a few years ago!

     2. Marion I loved that line about the warm inner glow replacing the former emptiness, it feels very empowering and something that shows we have a choice in how we live and the warm inner glow can be there through our connection and healing.

     3. Great point Marion “once that ‘curiosity’ has been awakened within there is only one way to go” whatever the life choices, the spark remains sound; our return inevitable.

446. Very true Marika and beautifully said. True living is living our fullness knowing that we are complete and that there is nothing on the outside that we have to look for to achieve something, we are already everything. This also exposes that life how it is considered “normal” today is more an existence than a living.

     1. I agree Marika and Rachel – re-claiming more of living our fullness from within totally exposes how invested we (humanity) have become in what appears to be ‘normal’ – which is in fact accepting suffering, contraction and existing in a far lesser way than the truth of who we are. Its like decay in teeth – if one is left unattended, the decay spreads through the all of them.

447. Maggie, I love your writing I felt like sitting next to you and listening to you enjoying the realness, humor and lived experience you shared here with us. You are an amazing writer as you write straight from your body and what you have truly lived, so relatable for the reader and very beautiful to read. It was amazing to feel the simplicity you brought into your life and how you turned around choosing you. That is such a great testimonial of what Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine present and how it is lived then individually.

448. I never went down the New Age path, but filled my life with everything I could to avoid feeling what was truly going on, that was until my first presentation by Serge Benhayon where I totally realised that there was more to life than meets the eye, something I had always known but nothing before this point had made sense before that moment. It has been a long road since then but I never stop learning.

     1. Kev I was too busy being busy to get into the New Age to a great extent, dabbled but didn’t connect to any of it. I absolutely knew there was more to life than meets the eye but in my busy, distracted state I was given up on finding answers until life as I knew it came to a halt and I was ready to rediscover me, along came Universal Medicine and practitioners that broke the illusion of the life I had chosen to exist in. Life now is a joy, with every day opening up a deeper connection to the world I love living in and being an integral part of… No more just existing.

     2. I can relate kevmchardy and I did go down the new age route for a bit looking, looking, never finding what I was looking for. When I came across Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon the truth I had always known was staring right back at me — I knew the way home to me is an inward route, it can never be done with props from outside. It has been a glorious ticket home ever since.

449. Nice one Maggie it surely sounds like your on the right path after a few detours that a lot of us have been down also.

     1. Hi Kev, yes I used to wonder WHY I had chosen the tough, steep, high road! Maybe it is because I have met some wonderful wanderers along the way who may well be with me now…somewhere!

450. The main investment turns out to be the loving choices that I make for me. The beauty is, when our choices are loving, the investment it not for us, but for everybody.

     1. Sounds like a small investment for a loving return.💞

     2. Yes Mariette, so true! And how awesome is that, how grand is god’s love that says shine and be all that you are, let the world see the real you and then the world heals with you.

451. Beautifully expressed; thank you Brendan.

452. It is interesting how the image was set by the expectation to live up to your father’s scholarship to King’s College and how in seeing as failed in this, and seeing yourself as a big disappointment to him this was then highlighted like a theme through out your life, living up to other’s expectations, until you no longer knew the real you, your true value and preciousness as a woman in this life.

     1. Thank you Alison, that has resonated quite deeply for me; it has slipped by unnoticed until now! A learned behaviour that has fitted me like a glove for so many years has been comfortably worn and just taken for granted.

     2. I agree with you Alison, expectations of others are enough but then comes in the mix of us then allowing those expectations to rule our lives, and we then feel as though we are less because we could not meet them. What a mess – is it any wonder we don’t know ourselves.

     3. Absolutely Alison, the harm of attempting to live up to another’s expectations is incredible…. it is forever laced with swallowing a false belief system that we are a failure when expectations are not achieved… let alone done at the expense of living who we are.

453. I remember absorbing myself in all my boyfriends’ interests to the extent that I had no hobbies of my own, had no opinions of my own, and not until I was well into my 50s did I have the personal strength to stick to what colours, textiles, music, hairstyle etc that I liked. Since making the decision to be myself and listen to what I felt was true, I am a different woman, unrecognisable from the teenager I was 50 years ago.

     1. You forged a career in a male-dominated world back then when it was almost a prerequisite for women to use to excess their masculine energy. Now you have restored your balance; and look at you now Carmel: a truly beautiful woman ❤

454. It’s really significant that you say the little things can make such a difference, “learning to give my body preference over what I was doing; my functionality…. learning what my body likes and does not like and more importantly, acknowledging this and doing something about it.” I completely agree with you Maggie, that one small choice has a great impact on the next.

     1. If I hadn’t experienced the impact of the small changes myself Rosanna I think I would still be a skeptic, but I have been clearly shown if I care, love and support my body in full, it supports and directs me in my next move and thought in the most supportive loving way, which then opens to the magic of God to be my guiding light.

        1. What I absolutely love about this merrileepettinato is that you’ve explained the microcosmic choice and its macrocosmic effect…and from your own experience, not theory. Simply gorgeous.

455. Wow Maggie, it is amazing to read your story, I love this line, ‘To be free — To be me!’ How very beautiful.

456. It is very inspiring to read how you express yourself without any judgment of what happened in your life. It is what happened and you are now on the journey of return by healing yourself. Thank you for sharing so openly and lovingly.

     1. Yes Jonathan I felt the same. When we don’t identify with what happened to us, good or bad, we’re not owned by the dramas in life. They happen, we can be there but we can remain with ourselves and not think we are part of the turmoil.

     2. Thank you Jonathan, I remember my first night before Livingness 1: you offered me a torch and showed me the way to the lake so that I could enjoy an evening wander. You helped me feel that I ‘belonged’ and ‘mattered’ when I was feeling a little anxious. You have been an inspiration to me since: a heart-felt thank you to you!

457. Wow what a story. I love the candid nature of your writing. It is down to earth and real. It’s astounding how not knowing who we are can lead to so much misery and abuse. Your near death experiences are shocking. It is great to read of your unfolding as you discover more of who you are. Thank you Maggie.

     1. Those near death experiences certainly are beyond shocking and what’s more outrageous is the fact that this is by no means an isolated case. Amazing that Maggie has allowed herself the opportunity to come back to herself.

458. Yes, this is an amazing blog by Maggie, and yes to you too, with your comment..’ I love the fact that no matter what our circumstances are in life we always have a choice to come back to ourselves…”

     1. Things are presented to ‘invite’ us or wake us up to come back to ourselves. We get to choose if we want to see them in this light or not.

459. A beautiful blog, Maggie. I felt deeply held as I read it and re-read it. I feel you speak for all of us who have been lost. You describe so well your growing awareness of what you were looking for – a deep connection to self and others, our true home. I think you were feeling strongly, like me, the call to return. You show us all the way, as johann08smith has said here, for transforming our lives with the help of the Ageless Wisdom given to us by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, and the ‘loving choices’ we and all humanity can make to turn our lives around. A heartfelt “Thank you, Maggie” for sharing your journey with us.

     1. The call return is within us all, it is just how intently we choose to listen to it to whether that call will be adhered to.

        1. Yes. Kate, I have been feeling the call this lifetime since I was at primary school: I remember sitting in a field watching a cow feeding and feeling whole and full of myself and my place in the world. Then, as a young married woman with small children I remember feeling lost – I had everything but felt nothing. I watched a religious programme on tv and I stood there and willed with everything I had got for God /Jesus to come in to my life. It was so strong I expected a tap on my shoulder, but nothing happened. That was because they were there with me, part of me, already, but I never realised. It is still a mystery why I couldn’t see the truth. It has taken me thirty more years to find my way.

     2. Lovingly accepted Tina; thank you ❤

        I remember the anxiousness with which I awaited my first workshop in Frome and then as my resoluteness to attend prevailed; the knowing (absolute certainty) that I NEEDED to see Serge Benhayon. He was all that his purple books promised; and yet so very much more.

        Serge has gifted me my freedom by offering me the tools to claim back me; and around me now and each and everyone of us are the Benhayons, our esoteric practitioners, the whole of Universal Medicine and all our fellow students just there, ready for when any of us needs a helping hand.

        My blog could not have been written without this beautiful supporting cast. Thank you. ❤

460. I love the honesty this blog is written in and the sharing of the steps taken to come to where you are now. What also strikes me is how, where you are now, is not that you have reached somewhere (as is what we think is the case with spiritual new age stuff) but rather in returning to yourself you have the opportunity to develop and deepen this relationship. Beautiful and look forward to the next chapter..!

     1. Hear hear! I too look very forward to the next chapter.

461. ” No partners.” This really stood out for me. There comes a point in our life / my life where it is important to have no partner, and build a deeply loving, still and powerful relationship with myself. I have and many will be able to relate to this, from teenage years had a need to be with a partner and be in a relationship. This was to avoid feeling my own lack of self love and self worth, nothing which a relationship can fulfil or build unless a true relationship with yourself. That is not to shut down or say no to partner relationships, but know a relationship with self is being called for.

     1. It is a deeply loving choice to commit to being single for a little whilst to learn to appreciate and embrace the beauty and power in having a loving relationship with yourself, one that can then be taken to a partner without the need of them bringing you something you aren’t prepared to offer yourself first.

462. This is a beautifully honest sharing Maggie, it is great you are finding your way and who you are and what you like. I also find the Serge Benhayon purple books revelatory and like you understand life more deeply each time I read a passage. Sometimes all it takes is a few short sentences to read and take away and consider in my day.

463. “I realised that there was no me. I didn’t know what I liked or disliked, let alone who I was. I had always fitted in with others, liking what they liked, disliking what they disliked.” This is such an amazing point to come to and realise. It allows us to be free and ask who am I, and know the fact that we are not made up of the sum of parts of what’s out there, but in truth what is inside.

464. Agree Doug. And you can absolute feel the deep well of amazingness. It’s a stunning blog that needs to be read by everyone. It’s game-changing and there are millions out there searching for this kind of support and purpose.

     1. Sure beats the news of a celebrity marriage, a footballer punching someone or another politician being exposed as corrupt.

     2. News that actually supports Humanity – there’s a novel idea!

465. “There were no true answers ” in new age work. I agree, I spent many years deliberately avoiding the truth and sidetracking myself by playing games and dabbling in new age work – be it crystals, reiki, yoga, tarot cards readings, angels cards, silent retreats, Buddhism, none of them worked and none of them answered anything. To be honest when I look back at the people who taught these, with absolutely no offence, their lives and bodies were a mess, but this was something I was unwilling to see at the time – or overrode as I was so desperate. It also meant I would have had to take responsibility for myself and live the truth that all the answers we seek are within ourselves.

     1. I can relate to what you write Gyl about the ‘new age work’ in as much as the people I met were struggling with themselves and their lives also, but I wanted to believe that they had all the answers. Since meeting Serge Benhayon things have become a lot clearer and looking back I can now identify that the signs were there all along.

     2. Yes Gyl, the fact that those who are teaching new age work were struggling just like me with all kind of aspects of their lives made me go from one to the other but I fooled myself as I never was truly honest towards myself and did not want to feel that I did know. I gave my power away instead of listening to my inner knowing and take responsibility for my life and love.

466. This blog should be the headline story in every single national newspaper. It is staggering how you have turned your life around Maggie and you situation/story would resonate with so many thousands and thousands of people who are trapped in similar lives. Thank you so much for sharing. Amazing.

     1. I agree Otto, it takes immense courage and solid inspiration to make such significant changes and break cycles of abuse.

        1. Totally. And I have massive respect Maggie for the changes that she has instigated. Deeply inspiring

     2. I agree Otto. This story is headline worthy without doubt. A true ‘feel good’ story that does not play on the victim card, but is empowering and inspiring and accessible to everyone.

        1. Absolutely Elodie. That said, the commonly accepted understanding of the phrase ‘feel good’ massively undersells the true power and potential of this story. This doesn’t just a good feeling, this delivers a way of living that is utterly game-changing.

     3. ‘This blog should be the headline story in every single national newspaper’. Absolutely Otto, I totally agree. The healing and understanding on offer here through Maggie’s lived experience is so awesome, so many would learn and gain inspiration to get out of abusive situations with others and with themselves.

        1. Because I feel that for many it is simply a case of having their eyes opened “oh! wow…I had no idea…that sounds great…maybe, just maybe I could do the same.” Maggie’s blog is a mass of sparks of inspiration.

     4. Yes, It really goes to show that there is always a way out, or back I should say, for everyone regardless of circumstances.

     5. Thank you Otto, I whole-heartedly enjoyed writing it; and the editing process helped me to engage with deeper levels of my own knowing which freed a deeper level of truthfulness.

        All I needed was the courage to make the right choice in digging deeper. And when I engage or recognise the responsibility I now hold, my choices feel simpler.

        I have learned so much by writing about this. 😊

467. “Throughout my life I have been many things to anyone and everyone; and nothing to myself.” I can very much relate to this line – as I am sure many woman and men across the world will. I see this in young children every day at school. I gave my power away to everything and anything and did not value, take worth, care about or respect myself, my body or how I felt. This has changed and is forever changing due to be reintroduced to the teachings of the Ageless Wisdom thank to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine and making the choices to listen to, take care of, love and honour my body and my truth. The result being I feel much more solid, powerful, gentle, loving, joy-full and understanding of myself and other people.

     1. Great comment Gyl and I can totally relate to everything you have shared.

468. This is an incredibley power-full blog – Thank you Maggie.

     1. Thank you Gyl, I am really enjoying the whole experience.

469. Thanks Maggie. I love how you describe the Gentle Breath Meditation as “the key to Me”.

     1. Absolutely Janet!

470. From stars in magazines to latest fashion trends, there are so many fancy dress outfits to wear to cover up the fact, that we don’t know who we are. We feel intimately any critique from other people, yet as you show Maggie it’s those times we sell ourselves out with our own words, that actually hurt the most. Ultimately, its us who reject ourselves. So naturally the more we embrace and learn about the piece of the puzzle we have to bring, the greater this feeling of warmth and the more we will allow the world to see. Let’s bring it on.

     1. I agree Joseph, although we may feel rejected by our parents or by life, it is vitally important that we do not reject ourselves – to love ourselves is always our responsibility.

471. Maggie wow I am blown away by your blog and deeply personal sharing of everything that has gone on in your life, it’s presented with such simplicity and realness. Very inspiring and something that so many of us can relate to. Thank you for taking the time to write and share this.

     1. I agree David. Thank you Maggie for your generous and deeply touch sharing. There is certainly much in it that I can relate to and whilst some details may be different, in essence we all share the same journey of return.

472. It is very inspiring to read how you express yourself without any judgment of what happened in your life. It is what happened and you are now on the journey of return by healing yourself. Thank you for sharing so openly and lovingly

     1. I agree Jonathan – I could not feel an ounce of judgement coming from Maggie which is quite remarkable really.

473. Thank you for this honest and down to earth blog Maggie, I love the fact that no matter what our circumstances are in life we always have a choice to come back to ourselves, and the fact that the purple book found itself to your bookshelf is no accident.

     1. Thank you Julie. However long, or however many errant ways we experience, there will always be one one day that somehow resonates deep within us… My daughter unwittingly had an appointment with a physiotherapist who was also an esoteric practitioner; hence she bought The Way of Initiation and so began our new voyage of self-discovery.

     2. That is so true Julie, no matter what our circumstance we always have a choice to return to ourselves. Whenever we put out a true call, love and the truth always comes to us. It is always there and has always been there – it is just us that is not there at times.

        1. So true Nicola, love and truth are always there for us to re-connect to if we so choose.

     3. Yes, it’s absolutely true Julie. People have experienced the most horrific things in their lives and have still been able to make a choice, when they are ready to, to slowly re-learn to love themselves and know they are worth being here.

     4. That’s true Doug there are no such things as accidents or co-incidences, everything in life is designed for us to come back to ourselves and to return to a true way of living. We just have to make the choice to open our eyes and heart to truly see and feel what is going on.

     5. I agree Doug, coincidences are just unseen hands guiding us back to who we are.

474. Thank you for sharing your journey of reconnection to yourself so honestly. Whilst the details are different for all of us the recognitions are the same of how we have lost ourselves in doing and being for others. It is beautiful to feel the dedication you have to rediscovering you, no perfection just commitment to exploring what feels right and acting on it.

475. “Somewhere in my life I had lost me.” This resonated with me especially as i hadn’t realised what I had lost until I found it. Universal Medicine has opened me up to discovering the true beauty and purpose of who I am as I move gently back towards living the true Son of God that I know I am and we all are.

     1. This resonated with me too Mary and it was quite a rude shock when I finally allowed myself to feel this. I remember feeling quite lost and afraid of being lonely should I take the plunge and step out onto a seemingly unfamiliar and daunting path that lay ahead. As it turned out, this was the best move I ever made!

476. There is this image that to find ourselves we have to seek out whatever. We have to get to the whatever at whatever cost. The whatever we want to reach at whatever cost is always outside of us. The grip of that image over us makes very difficult to be open to the possibility of external reflections that can be life changing is we are willing to clock the unparalleled feeling of spaciousness inside us, to appreciate the beauty of it, to realise that it opens the possibility to connect with ourselves deeply in ways that are unknown to us yet totally known at the same time; in other words, to connect to something of such value and quality to which our particles tell us that surrendering to it is the only true way to go. This experience of halting motion and settling into repose also teaches you that our particles know much more about truth than our mind.

     1. Our particles are truth forever expanding. We borrowed particles to become physical – to become dense, to create, to be individual. We do not belong in the physical and until I fully realise this truth I give attention more to the creation of the mind than to the truth of all encompassing space!

477. Thank you for sharing Maggie, it is as different as night and day – the emptiness we live or rather exist in, struggling to understand and manage our place in the world, versus living from the fullness of our inner connection and learning to unfold and deepen that connection without end – this is truly living.

     1. Well expressed Annie C, you could feel this so acutely in what Maggie shared a path so many of us have walked one where we doubt self and feel empty feels a dark and lonely place, yet when we reconnect to self and the love we are it is like the light of day, the light of our inner self begins to emanate and once more we see the truth of who we are.

     2. Well said Annie C – this line was a pearler today ” A lovely warm inner glow has replaced the former emptiness.”. How many of us are living in the emptiness? I know I was for many years despite looking like I was living a full life….it is incredibly amazing to see so many students of The Way of the Livingness as presented by Universal Medicine get real and honest about life and start to take great care of themselves and re-connect to our own inner-glow.

        1. And the most wonderful and amazing thing is that we discover that the lovely warm inner glow was there all the time – we couldn’t see the forest for the trees so to speak!

     3. It is Annie agreed, what a stark difference it is when we finally come home to discover that all we have ever wanted lies within us. It exposes just how cold and dark our existence has been without it. Our inner warmth is forever waiting for us to re-connect to it and warm our breath and the Gentle Breath Meditation is the most accessible, simple way to achieve this connection and then to continually deepen our relationship with our fullness. It is truly living and when we make this choice it brings light, tenderness and warmth to all we do.

478. The “Spiritual New Age Route” is the ideal set up to perfect a way of moving that guarantees that going to nowhere and not finding ourselves is felt as if we were going somewhere and as if we we walk with ourselves. Moving in total disconnection, numbness and illusion is the way t nowhere sold as the way forward.

     1. True this route is not leading us anywhere but at the time I was on that route, it felt for a long time that I had found something but with every course, every book, every new technique I was disappointed and needed something else. It took me quite awhile to be honest and to get out of this illusion and to acknowledge it had made things worse, how far away I was from not only myself but also from living a normal life.

        1. I so agree Annalies, looking back I realise every time I went on a course or workshop or read another book in any of the spiritual new age modalities I indulged in, I would separate from myself even further and lose myself in what felt like fairy land. It was forever seeking, seeking, for something to affirm me in who I was even though I did not know who I was! It felt like freedom, and in fact it was the opposite, a prison of fantasies. What Serge Benhayon presents is down to earth, solid, real, and ultimately the truth about why we are here, who we are, how it is possible for us to live in loving relationship with each other, where we have come from and where we are going. In all this we are given the opportunity to re-connect with ourselves and know who we are, if we so choose.

     2. Hats off to you Eduardo for saying it like it is. It’s time to nail those critters!

     3. So true, Eduardo. What is so evil about it is that its illusion can be so strong that one can be completely seduced by it for a very long time. However, the illusion is only as strong as the hurt that one does not wish to face and address.

        1. I love your conclusion here Jonathan: “However, the illusion is only as strong as the hurt that one does not wish to face and address.” This is so poignant; thank you .

479. To me, no one arrives to a situation where we can say I am not important just by chance. It feels to be the result of a learned way of moving in life.

     1. Well said Eduardo, a learned way we have chosen to move.

     2. I agree Eduardo, i love what you are sharing. Our lives are the outcome of the choices we have made. Honesty and awareness in each moment is being asked of us, we can question ‘the results of the learned way of moving in life’ – we choose and we can change if that is what is needed. Knowing our choices to this depth also allows us to observe what is happening for others without getting involved or taking on what is not ours – understanding brings surrender, appreciation and space.

     3. At one point I would have found this hard to hear but I now agree Eduardo- this is the result of choosing to live in a way that does not honour who you are.

     4. Yes, if we would more look at how we move and get aware of it, we would discover many things which lead us into illness and disease.

     5. Absolutely Eduardo a momentum of dis-ease carried through our movements and altering the bodies natural alignments.

        1. Yes, we have the ability to change the energy we allow through us by choosing the quality or movement of energy in all we do.

     6. Absolutely Eduardo! I feel that I have been ‘here’ so many lifetimes; and it got to feeling like I was walking in deep, squelchy mud again and again!

        All I know is that this time around I felt an urge to stop.

     7. Maybe “an adopted way”…? It reminds me of a behavioural study many years ago involving monkeys:

        Over a week, each one which approached a group of bananas was sprayed with water. After the week one monkey was replaced at the end of each day until there were none of the originals left. None of these monkeys ever approached the bananas even though none of them had been sprayed with water. The originals witnessed the water and learned, but the new monkeys never saw the water, they just followed the other monkeys’ lead in not approaching the bananas.

        They adopted a witnessed behaviour without knowing why.

        Is it possible that over our lifetimes we have done the same: not understanding why, but doing it all the same…?

480. I felt the same Marika, and Maggie, I had done enough things in my life to be sure I would have taken myself out, but the ‘miraculous’ saves kept happening, there was no way I was leaving the planet any time soon… now I understand the purpose we all hold and can live in accord with or not, but that we are here to serve that purpose. and living by that purpose changes the quality of our life in every way.

481. Apparently, playing the ‘avoiding the disappointment game’ is all about meeting the other person’s expectations as much as we can. Yet, this is only half the real story. The other half is the also absolute expectation hold by the pleaser regarding the effects of the pleasing attitude. In this kind of relationships, expectations (hence images) is everything. Holding on to them is certainly an option; a very costly one.

     1. Absolutely agree Eduardo. I am bestowed a marvellous revelation in your words. Everything is derived from images. If we are trying to avoid disappointment, it means we have an image of success, and a result. It seems all of our images, no matter how good they look never play out how we want them to!

     2. Trying to fit in an image, to fulfill an expectation will always be this: a trying. Even it seams maybe one day we’ve got/reached what we imagined – the next wish/need does wait for us. It will never be enough, never really fulfill the connection we left in the first place and what we are truly longing for. What we are longing for is to be what we truly are and this is nothing to achieve but to surrender to.

        1. This ‘trying’ as you describe Sandra – while often deemed something to be proud of in society – can never take us to an end-point, because as soon as we think the end-point is reached, there is another one on the horizon. I’ve found the only true way to approach life is as a cycle, going round and round, with its only purpose – not to get ‘anywhere’ – but simply to return to who we truly are.

     3. True Eduardo, we are equal players in the game of illusion when we let images rule. To imagine our life, our world without held images or expectations may be difficult but in truth they have only ever lead us astray and further from ourselves.

482. Playing the acquiescing game out of fear of disappointing another one is the result of a learned pattern of moving in plain disconnection to ourselves. This way of moving helps to build a very sophisticated radar through which we can spot what is going on in the environment we are living and adjust to it. It is a way of using our vital energy that drains us totally.

     1. I agree Eduardo; our radars are incredibly efficient in keeping our egos shining and as you say, the energy we expend in maintaining this charade is great. My radar did a full 360′ job on me for a very long time, but now I am reclaiming my own self degree by degree. I love your analogy; thank you .

483. We are not returning home on a solitary path – this deeply connects to a truth, I feel as well, Maggie. Thank you for your beautiful expression. It supports me to let go of comparison, because it is so tangibly felt that we all walk the same path home. It is an illusion that we all have “our own” individual path.

484. What a blessing it is that Serge Benahyon is with us this life. As with you Maggie, I would not have found the ‘real me’ on my own, without the reflection Serge has brought to me, the reflection of the love that equally resides in me.

     1. That is true Doug, we still have that choice to shine our light we have re-ignited or to reduce it in fear of the reactions we might bring up in others. It is actually about taking the responsibility that comes with having the knowledge of who we truly are and of the purpose of us living our human lives here on earth. The purpose is that we human beings all have to return to our original state of being. We cannot do this on our own and we all have an equal responsibility in that. We can only go there if we all work collectively together and in that shine our light as one.

        1. And what strikes me Doug, is the fact that we all have a knowing of how we should live like this as we have lived it collectively before. At a certain point in our evolution we have decided to step away from living in this oneness and have chosen for an individual life instead. Probably not knowing what the repercussions of that choice would be to us as we are experiencing our lives to be in our present time. Illnesses and diseases are all around, the atrocities that people choose to live with on a daily basis continue to increase. How much worse does it have to become before we will collectively start to reconsider our original way of being and return to that oneness we come from?

        2. That is true Doug, I can feel that too. All my life I have felt that there was a pull or a call to live in a different way to that what was shown to me in the society I grew up in. But it was not before I met Serge Benhayon that I could clearly see how that way of living felt and looked like, I needed that reflection of someone who lived that way to reawaken that same in me. That is how we have to do it, not by preaching or imposing, but by living our lives in full so others, who are also looking for ways to live another way, can be inspired by the expression we give to our lives.

485. This blog is gold and should be published in magazines. I have to wonder how many millions of people feel this loss ness you describe. From seeing the look on people faces when travelling or going places I say it’s quite a lot. A poster of this blog on the train would be perfect.

     1. I agree Johanna, these kinds of experiences, and there are many, need to be out there for all to read. However as Maggie’s blog demonstrates with the support that is always around us others will come to the same unfoldings when it’s the right time.

486. Maggie you have beautifully encompassed all the support you were offered into your sharing and how it was supportive. Your story is real, relatable and with the joyful end of you reconnecting to all you are. An end that will continue to deepen. Thank God for Serge Benhayon and all he has brought through to offer humanity so we can each shine just as brightly.

487. Wow wow wow Maggie. What a journey with the most amazing ending – You.

488. Thank you Maggie, I really enjoyed your account of what life used to be like for you and how it has changed since first getting your hands on a book by Serge Benhayon, even if you couldn’t go near it for a while because you had spotted the ‘God’ word in it.

     1. The word ‘God’ was something I could not hear or read without having a reaction and this has changed over the years, truly something to appreciate myself and Serge Benhayon for this.

     2. Hi Gabriele; yes, the word God provoked a deep mistrust and hypocrisy within me. It had become nothing more than a Mission Statement for the various pedlars of religion. Now; although I can still feel a little uncomfortable with the word, Serge Benhayon has shared with me a truth, respect and trust so that when I am with me I feel love and confirmation of that love.

        1. The beauty of letting go of all those bastardized versions of God and the reactions that came with it was and still is the biggest joy I feel. To know that I am an equal Son of God and that God is the holding love in an Universal Order that unites us all by free will is very very powerful and confirming.

     3. I second all you say Doug; Gabriele is amazing! She helped me enormously with this ❤

489. Maggie, such an amazing story and journey. I spent many years in the ‘new age’ both disillusioned but convinced it was it because there was a problem with me that I had not solved. Turned out it was the New age that was the problem and that its essence was exactly about leaving people feeling not good enough or that they have solved something, that never really goes to any depth of stillness.

490. Maggie it is an absolute joy to feel so much of YOU through your writing. You are all over and all through what you have shared, simply glorious to feel.

     1. I agree Alexis, I don’t know know Maggie but I feel like I do! I get a sense that this is a great part of the reason why this blog has been so powerful to read, she shares herself with us. This site is a gem for getting a sense of the importance of this style of writing.

491. Maggie what an incredible story you have shared here. What I really love is that by choosing to be yourself, all of the loving support needed was there for you to keep building your connection. The truth felt from your body is the true power of your connection and that is greatly needed. Thank you.

492. Thank You Maggie for quiet an amazing story with much clarity on your personal journey back to you, a true unfoldment back to a beautiful place god and you walking together .

493. Thank you for your beautiful sharing, Maggie. I kept scrolling up and down, and it’s just amazing to feel the huge difference that you have brought into your life and the way you feel about yourself by just a series of very simple everyday choices. I am sure many of us have felt lost in life, wondering what the purpose of life was, looking for ourselves and being free, and that questioning itself could at times drive us even further away from the truth (it did for me), but now with the stories like yours paving the path for more to find their way.

494. Any ounce of trying to be something other than ourselves, leads to misery and devastation of the separation that we have allowed.

495. We all know truth and recognise it when it is presented to us. Serge Benhayon is a master of presenting truth whether it be via one of the purple books, in the Gentle Breath Meditation, at a workshop, presentation or via an audio. We resonate with what he shares, because we too have the same wisdom of knowing, Serge simply reminds us of what we already have deep within, perhaps we just haven’t accessed it as yet.

496. Maggie thank you for sharing your life so openly.. the way you write is elequoent, clear and captures thousands of pictures as I read through your experiences. To me this all reflects a steadiness and ease within yourself.It is beautiful to feel that you now have this in your life.

497. We are so supported in returning to know ourselves – we just have to choose, as you did, to take those first steps. Awesome, honest and heart-felt blog Maggie.

498. Dear Maggie, thankyou for sharing your life story, you have been through some extraordinary experiences. I really appreciated understanding the big picture of your life and the journey you’ve made to choose love for yourself. There is such an realness to your blog that I found I could not stop reading – in fact I cannot wait to re-read it. It’s a rarity for someone to share the whole of themselves like you have, which has allowed me to truly connect to another human being.

     1. I second that Melinda, Maggie’s deep openness and honesty brings a connection and understanding that so many will feel resonance with what she has shared, and can learn to understand something in themselves also. Truly beautiful

499. Thank you for your blog Maggie, your initial steps were described in a way that we could all walk with you, no one left behind. It reminds me of the importance of valuing the foundation and building it so that it can support us as life’s challenges pull us back to familiar patterns of anxiousness or overwhelm.

     1. I agree absolutely, building a steady foundation that supports us, and in valuing that, will it deepen and confirm that true foundation from which we will be able to walk the next steps in sureness through whatever life presents for us.

        1. I have worked on this today, really taking time to appreciate the value of the foundational steps. They can turn around a seemingly bad or messy day very quickly.

     2. Love the inclusivity of this blog and how the writer has shared herself and the steps she is taking to return to herself after various detours. This is inspiring and demonstrates so clearly that it is never too late and it is possible for all to make the same choices.

        1. Absolutely Helen, there is never such a thing as “too late”!

        2. Yes Helen it is so true. We have the choice to make different choices in any moment, without regret or judgement just a new way of looking at life and learning from our experiences. Awesome.

500. I too took a stop moment when I was reading about Maggie’s near death experiences. It allowed me to appreciate how precious we all are, and appreciate how Maggie was reflecting on her experiences and learning from them. Everything we experience has a message there for us to learn and grow from.

     1. Exactly, there are no random events and occurrences; everything is part of everything else and therefore, has a meaning and a message for us. And we have the free will to either sit up, ponder and pay attention or roll our eyes, hunch over and move on to the next instalment.

     2. Yes. These messages are true blessings. Perhaps at the time Maggie needed such a big wake up call, it certainly worked and began her journey for her. Now look at her and the amazing writing and truth she is sharing. It would have been a shame for us to all miss out on this unique wisdom she brings. It just shows the importance of us all learning to be all we are for without each one of us, the whole is not complete.

     3. True Chanly88, we are precious and it takes a stop moment to remind us of that.

501. Awesome sharing Maggie – I too found the gentle breath meditation and the books by Serge Benhayon to be life transforming. It is by far the greatest blessing in my life to have come across this work and to have embraced it in my life so fully. Without this, I too would be so lost and still looking for answers. But as it is, thanks to the reminder from Serge and Universal Medicine, I now know I have a purpose and a meaning in my life and I know that I play such an important part, that I am one of the important divine pieces of the puzzle that would be incomplete without me – and this is the case for each and every one of us, to be discovered when we are ready for it and the responsibility that this brings.

     1. It is a blessing to the world indeed Henrietta, that Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine is there, reflecting that other way we all innately know but have forgotten about. We have forgotten this by the choice we all have made, the choice for the physical life instead for the spiritual life we factually all come from and belong to.

        1. So true Nico that we are far more than just the physical body. And Nico, the beauty is that now we can sandwich the spirit between the physical body and the soul. The soul is our true heritage, and the physical body is the tool of the divine (or not, depending on what we choose to impulse it with). Life is far more than what we initially can perceive it to be, and the spiritual aspect is but a shadow of the grandness that we all are.

        2. That is true Henrietta, that our body can either be used by the divine or not and all our illnesses and diseases that we are faced with are a result of not living the divinity in our bodies. As our bodies are in fact aligned to the universe, which is divine, they cannot but than work in harmony with the divine. So if we are not living a divine life in our bodies then that causes a disharmony that has to be cleared through illness and disease. It would be a huge step forward for mankind if we would all come to understand this fact of our humanly lives here on earth.

        3. Ah, the amazing potential that we all carry! Now it is just about activating it! Love it Nico, thank you.

        4. Yes Henrietta, just activating it and show the world the truth about how we all are living. We have to return to that level of responsibility for our lives and with that for all of us human beings. When we choose that collectively we will even be capable to stop the endless wars that terrors all of our lives for as long as we have lived here as human beings on planet earth.

        5. And I understand that the wars and terrors that you talk about Nico, also include the domestic violence in homes, and the lack of connection with our own families, the poor communication we allow, and even the slightest disrespect or disregard towards self or another. You are so spot on with saying that when we collectively choose to live responsibly with much care and respect for self and others, then this is the ‘activation’ that is so ‘needed’. Thank you Nico – I love how we have unfolded this with our shared comments – one comment has allowed the next to express itself!

        6. Thank you too Henrietta, by doing so, by sharing and expand on each others comment, we appreciate and confirm one another and all that we know and are connected too, but we have lost the living connection with. By this sharing and expanding we reactivate that natural connection we have with the all, the ancient knowledge that is there for us all to reconnect and return to and live accordingly once again.

502. Maggie thank you for sharing your story so honestly and openly. Your journey to discovering the true you is beautiful to read and even though you have experienced much turmoil how you have healed these hurts and freed yourself from this abuse with the true support and care offered by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine presentations. Very inspiring to read how your loving choices have allowed you to feel now as you say ‘A lovely warm inner glow has replaced the former emptiness.’

503. I found reading this uncomfortable at times and other times with a huge smile on my face. And that is the life of becoming honest with yourself and connecting back to you. It can be a bit uncomfortable as we get real about how we have been living and the choices that we’ve made….but then also incredibly joyous as we make steps (however small) towards making self-caring choices and realise that the stuff we’ve been living in is not true and really us. Thank you for being so honest with us Maggie and sharing your story. I feel it may resonate with a few.

504. Thank you Maggie for sharing this powerful blog. It is a joy to read your journey and the amazing gems you share inspire us deeply. No matter where we are or what we are doing we can always choose to reconnect to ourselves and find true love from within. From reconnecting to true love we have the opportunity to share this with the world.

505. As I was reading your amazing story Maggie I felt truth tingles all through my, body, what a beautiful journey to end up where you are today. Your paragraph ‘I regularly listen to Serge Benhayon’s presentations and each time I hear something different; something I hadn’t heard or grasped properly before, or possibly his words talk to a deeper level and become more meaningful’ happens to me all the time. It is the little changes and the connection to ourselves that really matters.

506. Gentle and deeply loving Maggie – that you for your healing way – this blog is beautiful, honest, inspiring and breathes ‘Total Surrender’. Thank you for bringing this for us to share.

507. Maggie thank you for your sharing. What a journey to where you are now becoming the true you. There is only one thing I would question and that is the limitation you have put on yourself saying you are a Housewife?. I feel you are much, more than that! We are not defined by what we do or our labels. A lovely sharing and much to ponder on.

508. A powerful read Maggie. I imagine it must have been quite healing in itself just to write this, and your open honest sharing will be an inspiration to others.

     1. Hi Debra, thank you; and yes the essence of the blog came to me very easily, but it felt important to focus on the simple choices that I felt for myself and as I embraced the responsibility of recording my journal I felt to go deeper and as I dug and found more I felt my own love and support encouraging me despite the emotional pain that I sometimes felt. Writing about these experiences has been; and as I am reading everyone’s beautiful comments, and is continuing to be a huge healing for me.

        1. Maggie your healing is a healing for humanity and your expression is the expression of the all. You are an amazing writer and all your lived wisdom has to be shared…. it feels like there is an amazing book in the making!!

509. This piece needs to be in women’s magazines as it is a very important sharing that could support many women who feel they have lost a piece of themselves, like you describe. To support others to know that there are greater truths and wisdom that lies within them and that if what we have come to accept as our normal doesn’t serve us then it’s important to ask questions, go deeper and consider what does.

510. Maggie, thank you for sharing your deeply honest and inspiring story with us. There are so many parts of it I can relate to and can still remember the despair and feeling of helplessness of those moments. And like you I also had words that were like beacons that would light up at times to remind me not to give up, that there is another way to live. It took many years but one day those beacons of light began to blaze so brightly and that was the day Serge Benhayon came into my life, and as I re-discover the true me a little more each day they burn even brighter.

511. I know, amazing Marika. It stopped me to wonder at my own…how even at the time, they made me consider that there was a greater purpose to my life than the desperate round of misery I was living then.

     1. What a true antidote you have given Ariana to the lies of competition, outdoing, being the best…and their natural opposites of being useless, unworthy and a failure.
        Man made stories that keep us from our essential, innate and divine equalness and the fact that we are all utterly necessary to the whole. It cannot be whole without us.

512. I love the fact Maggie that one of the ‘purple books’ found its way to you. Like yourself a copy was left on my shelf and there it stayed for over a year – until I too felt ready to start the next chapter of my journey in this life time.

     1. On tracking back through our life it is impossible to ignore that there have always been constellations that have occurred to bring support to finding our ‘way home’ to our innermost essence, even if we chose not to be consciously aware of at them at the time. What if there is no such thing as coincidences and Love is there with us always, simply waiting for us to stop, take stock of our lives and follow the impulse of that invisible magnetic pull home to honour who we truly are.

513. Maggie, I loved your account of that moment of reappraisal of your life. The detachment in the writing is something special and allows reflection by the reader on their own past choices. You are not drawing on sympathy, which cloys and distracts from the point, the point being that when we lose ourselves our lives end up wreckages.
     You have given us all a blueprint, shown us that it is not frightening to explore the nightmares from our past that hold us captive until we are willing to set ourselves free, once again.

     1. “It is not frightening to explore the nightmares from our past that hold us captive until we are willing to set ourselves free, once again.” Absolutely agree Rachel, this blog is a great testimony of the beauty that awaits everybody when connecting to our true grandness, our divinity. Realizing that all the nightmares are just this little self-made prison cells that prevent us from being who we truly are sets us free from the belief that we are what we made of ourselves in human form and that we can live our true grandness as human beings always knowing that this is a path of return.

        1. I love this Rachel. We build bars around our heart to keep the world out…but this is a prison that keeps everything out, the love and wonder of life. It keeps the beauty of who we are locked in.
           What poison it becomes to block our true nature from expressing itself in this world.

514. Woo hoo Maggie! What an awesome blog this is to read, enjoy and be inspired by through your humour, honesty and the phenomenal changes you have made through making different choices to bring this gorgeous warmth and love out from inside you for all to see.
     “A lovely warm inner glow has replaced the former emptiness”.

     1. Agree Stephanie this is an absolutely inspiring blog with such a great humor and honesty. It’s an absolute joy to read!

     2. And this lovely warm inner glow is felt throughout the whole blog, it is very inspiring to read how you’ve made all these self loving choices and I don’t feel one ounce of beating yourself up for how you have been living, you are honest and have made your observations and you are going on to be you.

515. Beautiful Marika. This shows that this is within us all along. We are whole, complete, there is nothing that we need search externally to fix us or make us whole, we can connect to the fullness of who we are.

     1. Beautifully expressed Lee – we are already complete, already whole and already love – and this never ever changes regardless of our choices, or whether we have chosen to live in the knowing of this truth.

     2. So true Lee, and beautifully expressed. We are whole, we are complete – we simply choose to get distracted by the “search”, not trusting that we are already everything, all we need to do is make the choice to connect.

516. Thank you for sharing this Maggie. I love this blog and there are a number that are similar, what I note about these are that, while everyone’s experience is different, the feeling is always the same. The feeling is one of returning home, of rediscovering something that has always been there or always existed. The returning is a returning to self, to that which is within. I know for me that this put an end to the searching outside and looking for something to fix me or make me feel better. Connecting to that which is within is revolutionary.

     1. Yes the same for me too Lee. Very well said and I agree our choice to reconnect to ourselves from within is simply magical. This is something we have known all along but have just chosen to forget about for a long time until we are reminded of it again as in how simply it is to make this choice to reconnect when we are ready to do so.

     2. I love what you offer here, Lee, and I totally agree with you – that feeling of returning home for me took away all the illusions about what finding myself or knowing my life purpose would be like – there is no excitement or elation, it is just settling, drawing me to deeper within, it really is going back to the true ‘normal’ that has always been here with me.

     3. I fully agree with that Lee. Although it sounds so simple, and in a way it is, that where I have been looking for outside of me was already there, deep within, patiently waiting for me to return at any time to that way of living in full appreciation and honouring of who I truly am. I do feel blessed that I met Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine who reflected to me that way of living I was looking for all of my life. And by this reflection, that inner fire of that life within, has been reignited and is now burning firmly and intensifies still. Although I can testify that I have come from far and have improved my way of life greatly, I also feel that there still is that more to rediscover. But the beauty in that is that I do not have to look outside me for the answers, but instead just have to live my life in full, in appreciation to what it brings to me and to learn from that on a daily basis, being a student of life, my own life.

     4. Absolutely Lee everybody’s experience is different, but the essence is the same, as we are all equal and all returning to who we truly are, a oneness living in brotherhood knowing that the parts make the whole and that the whole is only the whole with its parts.

517. Maggie what I love about your blog is there is no emotion in it, you write it as it just is. There is a beautifull acceptance and I can feel as I read it gives me permission to accept myself more. Thank you. So much is said here and so much to discuss and share. When I read ‘There were no true answers – it was as though these people didn’t know anything about their own professed subjects, or that their experiences were not genuine. I began to feel cheated; teased or toyed-with.’ it brought back memories for me of many ‘spiritual’ groups, courses, books and sessions I had where I felt exactly the same, I wanted someone to lead me to the truth to explain what I knew deep within, to confirm what I knew was true and no one did …. that was, until I met Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine. Serge Benhayon is a sensible and practical gentle man that KNOWS, truly knows what he presents and teaches and lives in complete accordance with that, it is transparent there are no closed doors and like you I know we are all returning home but also that until that time much work is to be done.

518. It is amazing that even though you have experienced so many horrible things in your life you are able to now connect to yourself and heal. It shows really the power we all have in ourselves to heal what ever has happened to us in life.

     1. Absolutely Lieke, taking responsibility for our own healing is one of the greatest choices we can make in life.

     2. Sometimes what appears at the time to be the most horrible experiences can indeed be our greatest teacher if we should choose to see it this way.

     3. I agree Lieke. To be able to see a way out of where Maggie was at, is the greatest testimony to the power that we ALL of us have to turn our lives around. That is what Serge Benhayon shows us; and there are scores of people with similar back-stores of devastation and abuse, who have similarly changed their lives completely. What Serge Benhayon is presenting to the world is utterly game changing.

     4. Yes very true Doug. I found that even when issues in my life seemed too big to ever heal, simply the intention to look at it initiated the whole process of healing the issue without ‘hard work’. The only hard work at times was feeling and accepting my not so loving choices which was not always easy but never as unmanageable as I thought at the start. This truly shows how huge our power to heal is.

519. Maggie thank you for sharing such a precious awakening back to you. There is a familiar ring and similarities I know I can relate to and I’m sure women across the world can. Re-connecting to our own inner glow and warmth, responding to our rhythm and walking our steps with a loving gentleness and appreciation of who we are as we are. Simple, true and essential to live our lives fully.

     1. Yes I agree Sandra, I can totally relate to this blog. I too had similar feelings of emptiness and craving something I didn’t realised I was missing and that was me. The connection with myself, with people and with God.

520. What a story Maggie, one that I can relate to even though I didn’t receive such abuse. Abuse really is the fact that we allow abuse because we don’t place any or much value on our selves and hence our bodies pay the price. As you have ably shown when we take responsibility for all the choices we make our life can change from one of being ‘ many things to anyone and everyone’ to listening to your body’s feelings and ‘ acknowledging this and doing something about it’.

     1. This makes sense Susan – self doubt and unworthiness are common traits amongst women and this lack of truly valuing ourselves creates a breeding ground for abuse.
        “Abuse really is the fact that we allow abuse because we don’t place any or much value on our selves and hence our bodies pay the price”.

     2. Yes Susan, abuse creeps in without our awareness; and because I reached the point of experiencing very high levels of abuse, all lesser levels went unnoticed. Both Serge and Natalia Benhayon have helped me to RECOGNISE and so desensitise to these by calling them out for what they are, even if sometimes I feel the need to quietly express this to myself only. Now I am learning to lovingly reduce my tolerance level to abuse. As I do this I feel my own value, worth and love expand.

        1. Yes, and the more we value ourselves the more we value and recognise that equal preciousness in others. A person who loves themselves could never abuse another.

        2. If you love yourself, it makes no sense whatsoever to hurt or abuse another. You need to step away from the love first, tighten up and only then can do the deed.

        3. It is beautiful how when we start to love and honour ourselves and truly feel, what would have in the past seemed acceptable can now feel abusive. In our re-connection we expose all pockets of abuse.

521. Hi Maggie, love the clear statement ‘The main investment turns out to be the loving choices that I make for me’ because if each and every one of us chose to truly invest in ourselves then the deeply loving body we develop is what we share with others and they see it is possible to truly care for ourselves.

     1. Yes the reflection of our choices inspire others to see what is possible when we consistently chose to deeply care for ourselves.

     2. Hi Judy: I’ve had an excellent teacher; thank you ❤

522. Amazingly gorgeous blog! In life we are all seeking some kind of truth in one way or another, and life is a series of simple steps that lead to one truth and then a deeper one, but all impulsed by the one truth that is forever asking us to connect with what is inside us.

     1. Spot on Harry. The call from deep inside exists in everyone and is so powerful that even when we are living a so called ‘good life’ there is still something that tells us that it isn’t it – that there is something more and that it is something that holds true in every circumstance. So the searching continues but once we are on track we know it and although we may start with very tentative steps, they all count and build the pathways and bridges we need to re-discover ourselves.

     2. It is harryjwhite – and it is amazing to realise that in fact we are the truth we are seeking.

523. Thank you Maggie for sharing all this. What stood out to me is that “My friends and colleagues began to respond to the gentleness I brought with me every day and these relationships changed and became more meaningful.” Showing how the changes you have been making in your life not only support you but also the people around you.

     1. I feel the blog really shows so clearly either the harm or healing we can bring to others. In the first part of Maggie’s story there are those who openly abuse Maggie and we see the effects of that, and later the effects of the love offered by Serge Benhayon’s work, the esoteric practitioner, and as Maggie chooses gentleness and love, the healing she brings to those around her. For me this blog really shows how we live affecting everyone around us, and the choices we make that either harm or truly support humanity in brotherhood.

     2. Yes Fiona, I loved this simple statement too. Even though in life we are here to learn what love is, to love ourselves fully first, to hold all we are and to celebrate our amazingness – it is ultimately about all of us, it is all about brotherhood and this is what you have experienced Maggie. It is a beautiful work of art that God has put in place. Loving ourselves fully is loving all of Humanity – this is our responsibility in life. Simple and so truly perfect.

524. This is an incredible story Maggie. When I read your words I can feel how simple it is for anyone to connect to the truth if they are ready to take responsibility for their choices.

     1. That is what is so amazing about Maggie’s writing. From a life of such complication and devastation, she has found an expression of such divine simplicity. That is extremely special. Many would be so embedded in the victim mentality of their lives, that they would find it almost impossible to accept that the path to true joy is so stunningly simple.

        1. Agree Otto, Maggie’s writing is a true reflection of what Serge Benhayon offers. No recipes, techniques, have to do’s, etc. just our expression of divine simplicity and everything falls into its place as it has always meant to be.

525. I was brought up under the notion that I always had to put myself second to the needs of others, especially if they were not so well off as I was. What I can see now is that this is a complete giving away of my power, and a giving up on my truth and my love. Immediately when we do this we have an investment in the outer as we have substituted love for recognition.

     1. Well said – when we put others first we need them and what we do for them to live up to our expectations, an imagined outcome with often heroic undertones about our own role which must deliver recognition, a sense of self worth and acceptance back to us. What is really being put first here? The recipient or what we expect to get out of the interaction?

        1. Yes, I recognise this Joshua and Gabriele. Over time, putting the needs of others first continually overrides our body and it serves no-one – blame and resentment can flourish with this constant form of self abuse and de-valuing of ourselves, thus the victim consciousness is confirmed as the known way of life, breeding more in-sincere ‘nice and good’ attitudes. In turn this hammers our life force energy and sets us up for exhaustion, illness and disease. What a vicious cycle.

        2. Well said Gabriele.. it’s all for self if it’s not from love.

        3. Very amazing point Gabriele – exposed the truth behind being “selfless” ie. it’s not about others it’s really about fueling our own desperation for recognition….

        4. Yes, well said Gabriele Conrad. The apparently selfless is not quite so selfless as we thought is it. I have come to know the ‘heroic’ ideations that often come with these actions as my ‘saviour complex’.

     2. Great sharing Joshua putting ourselves second is a bastardization of love as when we love ourselves and put ourselves first others are loved and cared for automatically as we have an understanding of each other and can truly support to truly evolve.

        1. Absolutely rachelandras. This is in complete contrast to what we have been told it is like.

     3. Absolutely agree Joshua! Its considered wrong to put yourself first! The world doesn’t recognise us when we are amazing from our truth and love, but does so when we give our power away to it, so what a predicament!

        1. Great point Harry. It’s always going to be a predicament when we are not accepted as who we truly are. But in truth the predicament is within us. It really comes back to whether we can accept who we truly are ourselves first.

526. I love the open and honest way with which you have shared Maggie. Your journey is an inspiration to others and we all need reminding of the importance of “..the little things..” we can do each and every day to honour and nurture ourselves.

527. Maggie, thank you for sharing all of you with us in this blog. I can feel the journey you have been on and now the serenity of finally coming home to you.

528. I am sure many people can relate to that sense of confusion or void when asked what it is that they truly like and dislike. So used to following what we are to favour or reject from the outside world around us. What Universal Medicine has shared is that the body is constantly communicating with us what it does and doesn’t like and what is true or noy. It is never too late or inconvenient to listen no matter how many lies we place as greater priority or importance over our feelings and when we do listen life becomes simpler. Thank you Maggie.

529. Gorgeous Maggie, it is incredible to see how we actually know what is true, but first take a detour in discovering what is true.

     1. Yep I agree, I can really relate with what Maggie shares when she said she didn’t know herself, her likes her dislikes … I felt exactly the same growing up and really remember this around the age of 10 to 13 it was like I was just going through the motions of life even at that young age. I felt I had absolutely no connection to me and who I truly was at all and did not know how to change this, and of course foods like sugar, chocolate, milk, gluten etc that I was eating did not help this either it just added to the numbing.

530. It is amazing what we have to go through in life before we find ourselves and what life is truly about. What you share here Maggie shows that it is never too late, and the words that were offered to you, ‘to find me, to be free’ stayed with you until it was time to listen, and then the unfoldment started. Finding Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine is life saving, and a true coming home.

531. Hi Maggie, reading your honest blog I could feel the gentle inner warmth you describe so well. Thank you.

     1. Yes, we are blessed that when we are not true to ourselves things go wrong until we ask the question “what is going on”. It is not so good when we can do whatever we like and there are no consequences that we notice or care about or that we completely ignore or try to fix the symptoms of.

        1. What an excellent point Christoph. It is very true, we are actually blessed when things go what we call wrong. These so called wrong things and disasters are actually message of love to bring us back to ourselves and heal the disharmony we have created.

        2. Beautifully expressed Christoph; I found myself at the bottom of the old proverbial barrel weeping on my kitchen floor. Until that point I bathed in the notoriety of frequent disasters; inviting more by saying, “I wonder what will happen next?!” I was sad and lonely but I didn’t know it back then.

        3. Yes, it is amazing how much we are calling in disasters of all shapes and sizes when we have numbed ourselves sufficiently, even if it is just emotions we used to numb ourselves or even just thoughts.

     2. Yes with Maggie’s writing it becomes very tangible, very real, very relatable what Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine offer humanity.

        1. Yes, I agree Rachel. It also becomes very simple through the actual knowing on what is true and what is not.

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