For over 20 years I have wanted to be a training officer and until recently I thought it was going to remain just a dream. However, through learning about true self-care and self-love I have gone from being ‘down and out,’ on the dole, to landing my dream job in just over 3 years.
I come from a family whose members are all claiming disability benefits. They continually argue with their partners and think that is love. I have always known this wasn’t love but didn’t have anything else to compare it with. So I chose to withdraw from life, suffered with psychosis and depression and spent many years claiming Incapacity Benefit.
When I discovered Universal Medicine, my life was in tatters. I was so emotionally scarred, I truly felt I had nothing left to offer anybody, let alone an employer. I had lost my confidence and truly thought nobody would ever want to hire me again.
Then I was introduced to Sacred Esoteric Healing™ and it has completely changed my life. I started to face my hurts, talk about them and explain why that particular thing somebody had said or done had hurt me so much. A lot of my ‘stuff’ came from childhood issues, which was a little embarrassing to talk about sometimes, but I found that talking about it helped me to truly feel what was going on in my body and to let the hurt go – with the loving support of the practitioners of course. Once I let the hurt go I realised that there was no forgiveness attached to the hurt or the person who had caused the hurt. When you truly let go of a hurt and accept your part in it, there is no forgiveness needed as there is no judgement.
Learning Gentleness & Commitment to Life
One of my first lessons was learning gentleness and commitment to life. I learned through one of the Universal Medicine’s practitioners to stop before I said or did anything and to feel my gentleness and then proceed with that quality.
Within a few months of seriously committing to this program, my life started to change. I slowly cut down on my intake of alcohol: I stopped smoking and I started to cut out food that made me feel heavy and bloated. I got a job close to home and life started to feel really good for the first time in a long time. I followed these steps consistently every day – however I wasn’t perfect, I’m still not. Every time I feel I have left my body, I just focus on the quality of my movements and come straight back to me. Then gradually my lifestyle choices changed: I started to watch less TV, I introduced a gentle wind-down routine before bed, and went to bed before 9pm.
My commitment to myself and to life has grown tremendously in the last 3 years, and through the many Universal Medicine healing workshops and Esoteric therapy sessions I have had with many different practitioners, I have let go of many hurts and learned to choose more loving patterns of behaviour.
After working for the same company for 6 months I applied for a team leader role in another department and got it. After gaining experience in this area I felt I had to move on as I wasn’t being paid what I knew I was worth. This was huge for me as my lack of self-worth before Universal Medicine would have allowed me to just take what was on offer. I then applied for a role with a company 20 minutes’ walk from my house and they paid for me to go to college, twice a week for a year, to obtain my CIPD Diploma in Human Resource Practice, even though I wasn’t working in the HR Department. My colleagues were really shocked at this, as the company didn’t usually pay for courses unless they applied to the role you were in.
After qualifying it confirmed what I had already truly known, which was that Learning and Development was the area I needed to be working in.
I moved house and was commuting to London for my job, but started to look for a role close by. I originally started looking for an HR Administrator role as I thought this would be my way of getting on the career ladder in Learning and Development. However, after a few interviews, I realised that I was selling myself short and should just apply for training officer roles and see what happened – another thing to appreciate about how much my self-worth had gone up.
I have also learned through the many Expression and Presentation workshops that Serge Benhayon presents that I don’t need to prepare for and/or control every moment; I don’t need to know everything. The only thing that matters is connecting to my essence, the true me, the love that we all innately are, and bring that love forth in all that I say and do.
Learning to Bring All of Me
In Bringing All of Me to every interview I had, I was able to bring through all of my life’s experiences, which meant being able to answer any question that was thrown at me, calmly and concisely and in doing so, land my dream job. Now I focus on practising this in every moment and more and more changes are happening in my life all the time. I let go of alcohol, cigarettes and ‘recreational’ drugs a long time ago and recently seriously cut down on my sugar and caffeine intake as my body goes into hardness when I have it and I shut down and start arguing with my partner; also I feel racy and anxious in my body which affects my sleep BIG TIME. And without the stimulants I am much more committed to life in and outside of work. I visit my Dad regularly and either clean his flat for him and/or take him out to lunch, which I know he loves. I am also open to deepening my relationships with everyone around me, not just my nearest and dearest.
I have been in my new role for a few months now and it’s very different from any other role I’ve ever had. It needs a lot of hard work as there is a lot to learn, but I’m loving every minute of it. Although I’m working for a finance company and don’t have a financial background, I am learning fast and have started training clients after just a few short weeks. I focus on staying in my body, and as questions are asked I feel that I can connect to what’s needed and answer from my heart.
Life is so simple when we live this way.