Who or What is God?

For a long time God was in my life, but only ever after the words ‘Oh’ and ‘My.’ Beyond that I had no interest whatsoever in having anything to do with him. God was dead to me and me to him, and that was that, or so I thought.

Having been brought up as a church-going Christian, and never really believing in the sandal and robe-wearing figure in the clouds in the first place, by the time I got to my twenties God was definitely not someone I wanted hanging around, judging me for all of my choices. And anyway, God for most people either didn’t exist, or was for people I’d judged as weirdos or oddballs who were religious, or for people of other faiths that I had no relationship with. Definitely not mainstream, definitely not cool, definitely not my thing.

As a child I prayed to God, hoping that he would save me from a long list of scary things in the world that I perceived might happen to me. I prayed that neither of my parents would get cancer and then when my Dad got cancer, I prayed desperately that he wouldn’t die. When he died I gave up, decided that believing in God was pointless, that God was a waste of time, and chucked my relationship with him on the bonfire.

While I felt like I didn’t have any relationship with God whatsoever, if I’d been really honest I would have felt how actually I resented and blamed God for everything that had gone wrong in the world, and for my Dad dying. If God was so benevolent, so all-knowing and caring, how could he allow such ills to happen? Could he not see that the world was a mess? Either God definitely didn’t exist, or he just didn’t care enough to bother sorting anything out.

Enter Universal Medicine in 2011. By this time I was getting a bit more real about my own choices, and own life, and feeling that there had to be more. None of the spiritual pursuits I’d dedicated myself to over the past few years had worked. I had a brilliant life from the outside – a great job, active social life, friends and relationships – and yet I was still in the same patterns, with the same feelings of “there has to be more to life than this.”

When I first realised that Universal Medicine presented a religion called The Way of The Livingness, my heart sank a bit. Here was this amazing organisation, with healing modalities that were really supporting me to finally let go of some old patterns, delivered by practitioners with an incredible amount of integrity and total dedication to living what they talked about. But religion –– really??

I was prepared to give healing a go, but decided to stay well clear of the religious bits. I still saw it as something a bit stale and weird, something cultish that I definitely didn’t want to be involved in. I was a respectable, responsible person, highly cautious and although I pretended for a while to be wild, I never really fooled anyone: I was the most risk-averse person I knew.

But I was intrigued: why did even the word ‘God’ cause such a strong reaction in me and why was I so anti-religion (apart from Buddhism which I’d deemed as cool and open enough to be legitimate)? I’d associated religion with being told what to do, being judged and constantly feeling guilty for doing something wrong. Yet there was I, judging religion and anyone who had anything to do with it.

When I came to understand the word ‘religion’ as having a relationship with myself, things started to shift. If the word ‘religion’ means to re-bind, to re-establish a relationship with the inner part of one’s self – the Soul, that quiet voice that always knows how we are to live and the choices that are in our best interests but that we so often override – then why would I not want a relationship with that one thing that knows me inside out, and knows how to live truly and honestly? How to live more of me, to be more comfortable in my own skin, more open and less constricted by all the ways of being that I know are not me – are we not all wanting this?

Slowly I saw that my perceptions of religion and God were based on pictures and perceptions that were totally false and so far away from what religion and God are actually about. I came to understand that The Way of The Livingness is not anyone else’s way, but mine. It’s not a dictation from Universal Medicine or anyone else about what to do or how to do it. It’s not even about using the phrase ‘The Way of The Livingness.’ It’s simply a phrase used to describe how and why you live your life that is so personal to you. It’s like following your own bespoke path that has everything you need on it to evolve and grow, at the precise timing. You do your thing, and I’ll do mine, and together we learn and grow.

It’s through our living way, i.e. how we do life, that we access God. Now that’s a big statement. To have gone from perceiving God as some bearded, sandal and robe clad figure in the sky, probably with a clipboard and pen, taking notes of all of my perceived failings for the record card and judgment day when I die, to actually feeling that maybe, that’s not it, has been a process. But through connecting more to my body instead of from my head, I’ve felt that there is something more to life than the lives most of us are living and how we’ve been taught what life is.

We are all so naturally connected to one another, to nature and the entire universe. I started to feel that how I live has an effect on others – even the simplest of movements are felt by others around me, near and far. When I’m off in my head, I’m temporarily oblivious to anything beyond myself, but when I’m connected to what I can feel in my body, there’s a solidity, and a space, and an absolute knowing that I’m part of something much bigger than myself. Call it God, the Universe or the stars: we’re all part of a multi-dimensional life, even if we don’t realise it or want to be.

I’ve started to experience as a physical sensation how naturally connected we are to one another – how connecting with others is our natural way of being, and to not do this, to not allow ourselves to love ourselves and others, to open up and connect, takes a lot of energy and drains us.

We’re all in this together, like it or not, and we all have the same equal access to our natural way of living and being. God is equal to us, within us and around us. God backs us all the way, and allows us to make all our own choices, with no judgment. We are so endlessly supported – we just have to allow ourselves the space to feel and know it, from within.

“If you do not make yourself equal to God, you cannot understand God.”

[Corpus Hermeticum 11:20 (1)]

By Bryony, UK

1. Unimed Living. (2018). Hermes | Unimed Living. [online] Available at: http://www.unimedliving.com/ageless-wisdom/the-lineage/hermes.html [Accessed 16 Aug. 2018].

Further Reading:
God’s Waiting Room
We cannot be without God and Religion
Space, God, Purpose and human existence


531 thoughts on “Who or What is God?

  1. I had a deep reverence for nature as a child and that was my interpretation of what God is. As I grew up, I felt there was something about religion that was important, but the religion that I saw around me made no sense.
    Now with support from Serge Benhayon, I understand my confusion. What I felt as a child was true.
    I am now taking a new look at what God and Religion means to me.

  2. To me the The Way of The Livingness is my personal relationship with God, my understanding of God is that we live within a purity of light which is harmonic wave length. To me we live in a way that is out of kilter to this wave length. As an example it would be like tuning into a radio program and getting that static noise that tells you that you haven’t quite tuned into the correct waveband. It’s a horrible noise to hear and by definition is a horrible life we live without the purity of light.

  3. “As a child I prayed to God, hoping that he would save me from a long list of scary things in the world that I perceived might happen to me”. We put a lot of pressure on God to perform, like he has to prove to us that he exists and will look after us. This is similar to how we have such huge expectations on each other and what we should do, especially in family. Instead of living very consciously and responsibly, we expect someone else to protect and save us.

  4. We are so used to being told what to do in one form or another that it is quite a bit to get used to, The Way of the Livingness, because it is your own way, made up of your own unique set of life (and lifetimes of) experiences. Yes there are a set of guiding principles, but it is your own living way that connects you to God.

  5. I am starting to feel that physical sensation you describe, Bryony, knowing we are all naturally connected to one another. We are experiencing a pull back to our origins and it feels like a huge flock of birds that can sometimes be observed in the sky, that move altogether back and forth a bit, but as one group with no leader but they feel the direction to go.

  6. I love his Bryony, and also have felt the deeper and universal beings that we are thanks to connecting to my body and feeling what it is communicating. Inspired by a The Way of The Livingness and the principles this is based on I have started to feel and know that I can live this connection in every moment… always a refining and deepening and sometimes coming back to and that’s the Livingness

  7. Thank you Bryony, it’s quite a journey moving from the beliefs that come from institutionalised religion (that are so prolific in society), to feeling what religion is for ourselves, something innate that is our own connection to our soul and to God. This quote surely emphasises the difference when true religion is reconnected to “If you do not make yourself equal to God, you cannot understand God.”

  8. I remembered praying to god in my university days to save me from the huge pressure of Life and school in a foreign country. What I’m asking to be saved from was taking responsibility for my life—there was a lot of responsibility to own up to, it felt completely overwhelming, but dealing with it step by step with lots of delay, has brought me to today in understanding responsibility much more with practice.

  9. Bryony what you have shared is so important. How we can shut something off because of our experience based on our beliefs. Who or what we think God is and what we think religion is…do we ever question what we think? I also felt very uncomfortable when Serge began discussing God and Religion and I could feel that there was many beliefs and perceptions that I had, that I needed to look at, because I could feel that this was stifling my own understanding of having a relationship with God and with Religion.

    1. I had a brief period of time when I isolated God and religion in my life and it was the worst time I have ever had in my life. Everything had a dark and ominous presence to it by my choosing.

  10. I don’t feel I appointed any blame towards God when my father died but there was a sense of void – as though a long trusted friend had deserted me – and yet there was a part of me that felt the loss. God slowly returned into my life simply as a possibility – and then grew from there into a reality. I now feel my relationship with God is forever unfolding and connects me to the deepest part of me.

  11. “we all have the same equal access to our natural way of living and being. God is equal to us, within us and around us. God backs us all the way, and allows us to make all our own choices, with no judgment. We are so endlessly supported – we just have to allow ourselves the space to feel and know it, from within” A very beautiful sharing and knowing of God.

  12. When I was younger I saw religious practice as a complete waste of time, going to church and to confession seemed arduous, I oberserved my friends being told that they had to go to church on Sunday mornings which in my mind took away from being at art club or out in nature which was important to me. Religion seemed controlling and inconvenient so it has taken time for me to learn to trust the connection that has always been there to understanding that this connection is the one connection that allows me to feel and be truly safe.

    1. It’s strange how we compartmentalise life, that we see religion as something to be done and not something that we live naturally. I consider that as a child I was very religious in the true sense of the word because I was connected to the essence of me, to nature, to the world, and felt God in all these things. Our connection to God is a natural and innate part of us, there is nothing to be done but everything to be.

  13. When we are connected with our bodies there is no doubt that God exists. It is only when we disconnect from ourselves that we doubt God.

  14. Religion is a word that is loaded with institutionalized meaning, so much so that it’s true meaning has been buried for so long that we have forgotten its core foundation and what it brings to us all as a blessing. True religion is a blessing for humanity.

  15. I can say I have always believed in God, knew there was something more in the world, because when I looked at the stars, it seemed so vast and not of the human or creation. What has changed is that was all on the outside, where now I know of God on the onside, from what I feel within my body.

  16. Imagine living in a house with all the windows boarded up – you could get to thinking darkness and dankness was how life was. But what if you discovered it was possible to open these shutters all up? God is like the sun light in this case – it’s always been there warming you, no matter how many barricades or obstacles you put up.

  17. Surrendering to the possibilities that we are endlessly supported, that God walks alongside us always and that we are all of the same essence on the inside, opens up the meaning and purpose of life to its true grandness.

  18. The word God has been completely bastardised so its no wonder that a lot of people don’t want anything to do with God. We need to heal the hurt caused by organized religion.

  19. Many of us have been brought up to believe that God was unattainable to us and that the only people who had the ear of God was some religious institution, for my family it was the Roman Catholic church. We were taught from an early age that we were sinners and that God was very judgmental, often angry and so it was a good idea to always be on your best behaviour. It also encouraged the congregation to give generously to the church, can you imagine how much money that has been given to the church so is it any wonder that it is one of the wealthiest organizations in the world and has become extremely influential to the point where it is seemingly above common law and what is far worse by giving our power away to the institution we allow this colossal scam to carry on. I personally feel we have been completely taken in and hoodwinked all in the name of religion.

  20. There is a lot of judgment around the ‘weirdos or oddballs’ who are religious. I have also felt this and had a nagging feeling that something wasn’t right. I now feel that this is because what ‘religious people’ are choosing doesn’t feel true for most of us and it seems like there is too much compromise of the truth. Whereas now that I know religion as something that lives in me and is my relationship with God that I feel in a very practical way through my body, none of that exists. I cannot deny what is simply known and felt.

  21. ‘It’s through our living way, i.e. how we do life, that we access God.’ So true Bryony and this puts the responsibility right back on us as to whether we want to connect with Him or not. As wel,l it cuts through the nonsense many of us were told the he is a ‘God almighty unreachable being’ that only the ‘holy of holy’ can have access to

  22. Isn’t it extraordinary how we grow up thinking God is something ‘out there’ and not that God is Love and present in all that is truly loving or made from his Love in and around us in our everyday lives.

    1. And also many grew up thinking that we were too lowly to be a part of God, instead of he truth that as souls we are born from God and very much a part of God, in fact, like it is with all creatures, we are born to become that which birthed us.

  23. ‘I was a respectable, responsible person, highly cautious and although I pretended for a while to be wild, I never really fooled anyone: I was the most risk-averse person I knew.’ – Well described, I can only imagine how many people would miss out on change in life because they deem themselves to be too respectable, responsible and cautious. Openness allows for true change, which your full sharing beautifully states too.

  24. “For a long time God was in my life, but only ever after the words ‘Oh’ and ‘My.’ ..” So true… This is quite a common statement I too have said in the past, and many people also say, without much thought to the word ‘God’..But since coming to understand that ‘Love’ & ‘God’ are synonymous with each other, and deepening my connection within myself, with Stillness within my body, the word ‘God’ and ‘religion’ have come to mean so much more than I ever knew previously, which has completely changed the use of this statement altogether.

  25. I’ve always believed that God was something outside of me that I had to look for, but… ‘It’s through our living way, i.e. how we do life, that we access God’. Yes, going deeper in my relationship with myself, I naturally have access to greater intimacy, self love and connection with my essence, which is God within me.

  26. “It’s through our living way, i.e. how we do life, that we access God.” – This statement changes everything, as it shows us that no one outside of us (no priest, guru, ‘expert’, rabbi, or mullah) can bring us a connection to God, but that we have in our power inside of us everything to do it for ourselves (a connection to our body and our inner heart), which is the most empowering thing I can imagine.

  27. ‘But religion –– really??’ I remember a sinking feeling when I first heard the word religion said by Serge Benhayon, and feeling that I did not want to be associated with a religion. – Now I live it and am deeply religious because I have let go of all the false and imposed ideas surrounding religion which are proliferated in society and culture across the world.

    1. It was exactly the same for me Michael, the word ‘religion’ made me cringe and want to turn off. Because I respected Serge so much and had experienced only great things from his previous presentations I was open to what he had to say, it took some time but it was like coming out of an imposing fog to reconnect to what religion truly means, which to me now is a deeply beautiful and sacred way to be in life, connected to myself as a soul and to God.

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