Who or What is God?

For a long time God was in my life, but only ever after the words ‘Oh’ and ‘My.’ Beyond that I had no interest whatsoever in having anything to do with him. God was dead to me and me to him, and that was that, or so I thought.

Having been brought up as a church-going Christian, and never really believing in the sandal and robe-wearing figure in the clouds in the first place, by the time I got to my twenties God was definitely not someone I wanted hanging around, judging me for all of my choices. And anyway, God for most people either didn’t exist, or was for people I’d judged as weirdos or oddballs who were religious, or for people of other faiths that I had no relationship with. Definitely not mainstream, definitely not cool, definitely not my thing.

As a child I prayed to God, hoping that he would save me from a long list of scary things in the world that I perceived might happen to me. I prayed that neither of my parents would get cancer and then when my Dad got cancer, I prayed desperately that he wouldn’t die. When he died I gave up, decided that believing in God was pointless, that God was a waste of time, and chucked my relationship with him on the bonfire.

While I felt like I didn’t have any relationship with God whatsoever, if I’d been really honest I would have felt how actually I resented and blamed God for everything that had gone wrong in the world, and for my Dad dying. If God was so benevolent, so all-knowing and caring, how could he allow such ills to happen? Could he not see that the world was a mess? Either God definitely didn’t exist, or he just didn’t care enough to bother sorting anything out.

Enter Universal Medicine in 2011. By this time I was getting a bit more real about my own choices, and own life, and feeling that there had to be more. None of the spiritual pursuits I’d dedicated myself to over the past few years had worked. I had a brilliant life from the outside – a great job, active social life, friends and relationships – and yet I was still in the same patterns, with the same feelings of “there has to be more to life than this.”

When I first realised that Universal Medicine presented a religion called The Way of The Livingness, my heart sank a bit. Here was this amazing organisation, with healing modalities that were really supporting me to finally let go of some old patterns, delivered by practitioners with an incredible amount of integrity and total dedication to living what they talked about. But religion –– really??

I was prepared to give healing a go, but decided to stay well clear of the religious bits. I still saw it as something a bit stale and weird, something cultish that I definitely didn’t want to be involved in. I was a respectable, responsible person, highly cautious and although I pretended for a while to be wild, I never really fooled anyone: I was the most risk-averse person I knew.

But I was intrigued: why did even the word ‘God’ cause such a strong reaction in me and why was I so anti-religion (apart from Buddhism which I’d deemed as cool and open enough to be legitimate)? I’d associated religion with being told what to do, being judged and constantly feeling guilty for doing something wrong. Yet there was I, judging religion and anyone who had anything to do with it.

When I came to understand the word ‘religion’ as having a relationship with myself, things started to shift. If the word ‘religion’ means to re-bind, to re-establish a relationship with the inner part of one’s self – the Soul, that quiet voice that always knows how we are to live and the choices that are in our best interests but that we so often override – then why would I not want a relationship with that one thing that knows me inside out, and knows how to live truly and honestly? How to live more of me, to be more comfortable in my own skin, more open and less constricted by all the ways of being that I know are not me – are we not all wanting this?

Slowly I saw that my perceptions of religion and God were based on pictures and perceptions that were totally false and so far away from what religion and God are actually about. I came to understand that The Way of The Livingness is not anyone else’s way, but mine. It’s not a dictation from Universal Medicine or anyone else about what to do or how to do it. It’s not even about using the phrase ‘The Way of The Livingness.’ It’s simply a phrase used to describe how and why you live your life that is so personal to you. It’s like following your own bespoke path that has everything you need on it to evolve and grow, at the precise timing. You do your thing, and I’ll do mine, and together we learn and grow.

It’s through our living way, i.e. how we do life, that we access God. Now that’s a big statement. To have gone from perceiving God as some bearded, sandal and robe clad figure in the sky, probably with a clipboard and pen, taking notes of all of my perceived failings for the record card and judgment day when I die, to actually feeling that maybe, that’s not it, has been a process. But through connecting more to my body instead of from my head, I’ve felt that there is something more to life than the lives most of us are living and how we’ve been taught what life is.

We are all so naturally connected to one another, to nature and the entire universe. I started to feel that how I live has an effect on others – even the simplest of movements are felt by others around me, near and far. When I’m off in my head, I’m temporarily oblivious to anything beyond myself, but when I’m connected to what I can feel in my body, there’s a solidity, and a space, and an absolute knowing that I’m part of something much bigger than myself. Call it God, the Universe or the stars: we’re all part of a multi-dimensional life, even if we don’t realise it or want to be.

I’ve started to experience as a physical sensation how naturally connected we are to one another – how connecting with others is our natural way of being, and to not do this, to not allow ourselves to love ourselves and others, to open up and connect, takes a lot of energy and drains us.

We’re all in this together, like it or not, and we all have the same equal access to our natural way of living and being. God is equal to us, within us and around us. God backs us all the way, and allows us to make all our own choices, with no judgment. We are so endlessly supported – we just have to allow ourselves the space to feel and know it, from within.

“If you do not make yourself equal to God, you cannot understand God.”

[Corpus Hermeticum 11:20 (1)]

By Bryony, UK

1. Unimed Living. (2018). Hermes | Unimed Living. [online] Available at: http://www.unimedliving.com/ageless-wisdom/the-lineage/hermes.html [Accessed 16 Aug. 2018].

Further Reading:
God’s Waiting Room
We cannot be without God and Religion
Space, God, Purpose and human existence


639 thoughts on “Who or What is God?

  1. I love this blog Bryony, so beautifully written and saying just how it is. God is there for all of us whether we choose to live it or not, but why not go with the true flow of the universe and know him by the way we choose to live.

    1. God is not only there for all of us whether we choose to connect or not, but God is also within and around us all and everywhere. There is no escaping God thank God!

  2. If ever in doubt as to who or what God is, just ask a 5 year old. This from my daughter before: “God is in the air, everywhere. Every time you breathe that is God. He is in your mouth and even on your nose. You can eat him!”

    These words are not only cute, they are immensely wise because the truth is that God is space.

  3. I would like to take this opportunity to say “THANK GOD!” with all that I am for what he is and does for us all with his all inclusive beholding love.

  4. The other day I was in an expression workshop claiming out loud what I am here to bring to humanity with such Joy, and I playfully and meaningfully added the words “SO HELP ME GOD!” we fell about laughing but because of the power and absoluteness with which I meant it and mean it today which is much deeper than I have ever said it before.

  5. It’s interesting to note that many swear words are religion-based – often used by so-called non-religious people. Are we hard-wired to be with God? Is this where we come from?!

  6. ” I’d associated religion with being told what to do, being judged and constantly feeling guilty for doing something wrong. Yet there was I, judging religion and anyone who had anything to do with it.” It’s so interesting – the beliefs we hold about religion – whichever side of the arena we sit in. Childhood teachings about religion seem to hold sway for a long time until life either seems to confirm ones belief in God – or not – usually depending one one’s own life experiences – all very self orientated. The religion of the Way of the Livingness opened my eyes to the fact that there is another way and that I can have a very different relationship with God – that’s about understanding and love – not judgement and blame.

  7. How can people say they are not religious while from nature we all are because of that inner connect we all have with the God in us? However, I can understand this choice as when we take a look into real life we see that nobody actually is without a religion or a faith and when you say you are not you are put in the religion of non believers, people without a faith and that boxing. And this separation, that boxing, is at the core of all the suffering in the world. So I understand you do not want to be part of it but that is only form our daily experience in a situation where people do not live to the true religion they all carry in their hearts. That said, to me the way out of this mess we have created is to claim that inner religion by each individual human and start all over from there by undoing what is not true.

  8. The way human life is lived by the majority of people on this world is a setup that is waiting for us every incarnation into this dense three dimensional world to start believe in and make it our reality over and over again.

    1. I believe we are saturated in lies so much so we have made them our false reality, but just because we have made the lies our reality doesn’t mean that God doesn’t exist we all know he does, even through the saturation we can still feel him, he is the very air we breathe.

  9. I can allow and accept that God exists in my mind but it is not an absolute in my body – yet. Being willing to accept paves the way for me to feel God as I deepen my own inner connection.

    1. By allowing yourself to feel the God in your body reconnects you to your true nature and in consistently doing so the God in you will slowly takes its place and then becomes your normal way of being. But then not lived from the mind but instead from the body that naturally holds that connection with the divinity we are from.

  10. Amusing that even when we consider ourselves ‘not religious’ there are those moments of ernest desperation when you end up making exclamations as if there is a clear understanding of a powerful relationship. I have noticed this on many occasions in my own life. It shows how our denial is a position we have chosen to take, but when the moment comes for the arrogance to drop, a very different picture is revealed.

    1. Yes, when the chips are down many non-religious people seem to turn to God – and I have a personal family experience of someone’s life being turned around by the response to the call.

  11. I am sure there are many people like yourself Bryony, that have been put off by how God has been depicted throughout history. I was certainly confused, so much didn’t make sense, especially with all the different religions, how could there be so many different Gods, and it didn’t feel right blaming God for all the bad things that happened in life. Knowing we are equal to God was quite hard to accept at first because of all the indoctrinations that say otherwise, but with the support of Universal Medicine and learning to live from my inner heart I now know it is absolutely possible.

  12. When I was growing up religion was something I deemed was to part-take in to have a relationship with God outside of yourself. Now it has become a relationship with God deep within myself and through that a relationship with Him outside of myself.

    1. Yes I saw religion as something I had to part take too, even though there was talk about God is within you, the livingness was that God was outside you and that it was only through prays that you could reach him.

  13. ‘It’s through our living way, i.e. how we do life, that we access God.’ I agree, Bryony, this does say it all. We are always held in God’s love, so it is up to us as to whether we connect to that or not.

  14. Depending on our previous experiences with institutionalized religion we can have many reactions or attractions to religion and God. It is interesting to ponder though, that we may eventually taste all the different flavours of religion from agnostic to fundamentalism, before we come back to our own knowing and wisdom that within we are also a spark of the all or God.

  15. What a huge question this has become ‘Who or What is God?’ but only because we have moved ourselves away from the simplicity of knowing and living with multidimentionality as part of our everyday lives.

    1. Yes, Rosanna, our relationship with God is the most natural thing in the world and yet we can make it something mysterious or inaccessible…go figure!

    2. Yes.. when we disconnect from what we can feel in our bodies, and the simplicity of that, because we don’t like what we’re feeling and don’t want to deal with it, we’re basically saying no to – and that we don’t want to know or feel – the bigger picture, the Universe, God, to the magic that is on offer and all around us, 24/7.

  16. There feels a very strong misinterpretation from the past about the word ‘religion’. Learning that it is how we do life, through our living way makes it real, tangible and makes God much more accessible to us all.

    1. In the past ‘religion’ was a way to control the masses, there were certain people in power and they had the command of life and death. We live in the 21 century but how much as really changed since the dark ages, have they ever gone away? Don’t be fooled by fast cars and aeroplanes they are just the props to make it look as though there are changes taking place when in fact we constantly repeat the same life, life after life.

  17. “God is equal to us, within us and around us. God backs us all the way, and allows us to make all our own choices, with no judgment. We are so endlessly supported – we just have to allow ourselves the space to feel and know it, from within.” This is beautiful, inspirational and life changing and is known inside us all if we allow it. It is through The Way of the Livingness, our sacredness and divine connection, we are part of the all..

  18. I had a deep reverence for nature as a child and that was my interpretation of what God is. As I grew up, I felt there was something about religion that was important, but the religion that I saw around me made no sense.
    Now with support from Serge Benhayon, I understand my confusion. What I felt as a child was true.
    I am now taking a new look at what God and Religion means to me.

  19. To me the The Way of The Livingness is my personal relationship with God, my understanding of God is that we live within a purity of light which is harmonic wave length. To me we live in a way that is out of kilter to this wave length. As an example it would be like tuning into a radio program and getting that static noise that tells you that you haven’t quite tuned into the correct waveband. It’s a horrible noise to hear and by definition is a horrible life we live without the purity of light.

  20. “As a child I prayed to God, hoping that he would save me from a long list of scary things in the world that I perceived might happen to me”. We put a lot of pressure on God to perform, like he has to prove to us that he exists and will look after us. This is similar to how we have such huge expectations on each other and what we should do, especially in family. Instead of living very consciously and responsibly, we expect someone else to protect and save us.

  21. We are so used to being told what to do in one form or another that it is quite a bit to get used to, The Way of the Livingness, because it is your own way, made up of your own unique set of life (and lifetimes of) experiences. Yes there are a set of guiding principles, but it is your own living way that connects you to God.

    1. Sarah we are like sheep in that we tend to follow without questioning where we are going or what we are doing. To me, it feels as though we have given our power away over many life times so that we are more like robots; we have been programmed to obey. Or the Hamster in the Hamster wheel running until we drop, not once considering we can actually get off or stop the wheel. Where does this blind obedience come from?

  22. I am starting to feel that physical sensation you describe, Bryony, knowing we are all naturally connected to one another. We are experiencing a pull back to our origins and it feels like a huge flock of birds that can sometimes be observed in the sky, that move altogether back and forth a bit, but as one group with no leader but they feel the direction to go.

  23. I love his Bryony, and also have felt the deeper and universal beings that we are thanks to connecting to my body and feeling what it is communicating. Inspired by a The Way of The Livingness and the principles this is based on I have started to feel and know that I can live this connection in every moment… always a refining and deepening and sometimes coming back to and that’s the Livingness

  24. Thank you Bryony, it’s quite a journey moving from the beliefs that come from institutionalised religion (that are so prolific in society), to feeling what religion is for ourselves, something innate that is our own connection to our soul and to God. This quote surely emphasises the difference when true religion is reconnected to “If you do not make yourself equal to God, you cannot understand God.”

  25. I remembered praying to god in my university days to save me from the huge pressure of Life and school in a foreign country. What I’m asking to be saved from was taking responsibility for my life—there was a lot of responsibility to own up to, it felt completely overwhelming, but dealing with it step by step with lots of delay, has brought me to today in understanding responsibility much more with practice.

  26. Bryony what you have shared is so important. How we can shut something off because of our experience based on our beliefs. Who or what we think God is and what we think religion is…do we ever question what we think? I also felt very uncomfortable when Serge began discussing God and Religion and I could feel that there was many beliefs and perceptions that I had, that I needed to look at, because I could feel that this was stifling my own understanding of having a relationship with God and with Religion.

    1. I had a brief period of time when I isolated God and religion in my life and it was the worst time I have ever had in my life. Everything had a dark and ominous presence to it by my choosing.

  27. I don’t feel I appointed any blame towards God when my father died but there was a sense of void – as though a long trusted friend had deserted me – and yet there was a part of me that felt the loss. God slowly returned into my life simply as a possibility – and then grew from there into a reality. I now feel my relationship with God is forever unfolding and connects me to the deepest part of me.

  28. “we all have the same equal access to our natural way of living and being. God is equal to us, within us and around us. God backs us all the way, and allows us to make all our own choices, with no judgment. We are so endlessly supported – we just have to allow ourselves the space to feel and know it, from within” A very beautiful sharing and knowing of God.

  29. When I was younger I saw religious practice as a complete waste of time, going to church and to confession seemed arduous, I oberserved my friends being told that they had to go to church on Sunday mornings which in my mind took away from being at art club or out in nature which was important to me. Religion seemed controlling and inconvenient so it has taken time for me to learn to trust the connection that has always been there to understanding that this connection is the one connection that allows me to feel and be truly safe.

    1. It’s strange how we compartmentalise life, that we see religion as something to be done and not something that we live naturally. I consider that as a child I was very religious in the true sense of the word because I was connected to the essence of me, to nature, to the world, and felt God in all these things. Our connection to God is a natural and innate part of us, there is nothing to be done but everything to be.

  30. When we are connected with our bodies there is no doubt that God exists. It is only when we disconnect from ourselves that we doubt God.

  31. Religion is a word that is loaded with institutionalized meaning, so much so that it’s true meaning has been buried for so long that we have forgotten its core foundation and what it brings to us all as a blessing. True religion is a blessing for humanity.

    1. Henrietta I agree with you when you say
      “Religion is a word that is loaded with institutionalized meaning”
      this has been a deliberate plot to keep humanity from reconnecting back to God. The moment we all do this, the game is over for the Astral plane that started all this in the first place. When they are fully exposed all the walls will come crumbling down and our reality will be seen as unreal.

    1. We under estimate the power of our own body and the connection. Only if we stopped to accept that we are also God and within the body of God then we would truly begin to understand the power.

  32. I can say I have always believed in God, knew there was something more in the world, because when I looked at the stars, it seemed so vast and not of the human or creation. What has changed is that was all on the outside, where now I know of God on the onside, from what I feel within my body.

  33. Imagine living in a house with all the windows boarded up – you could get to thinking darkness and dankness was how life was. But what if you discovered it was possible to open these shutters all up? God is like the sun light in this case – it’s always been there warming you, no matter how many barricades or obstacles you put up.

  34. Surrendering to the possibilities that we are endlessly supported, that God walks alongside us always and that we are all of the same essence on the inside, opens up the meaning and purpose of life to its true grandness.

  35. The word God has been completely bastardised so its no wonder that a lot of people don’t want anything to do with God. We need to heal the hurt caused by organized religion.

  36. Many of us have been brought up to believe that God was unattainable to us and that the only people who had the ear of God was some religious institution, for my family it was the Roman Catholic church. We were taught from an early age that we were sinners and that God was very judgmental, often angry and so it was a good idea to always be on your best behaviour. It also encouraged the congregation to give generously to the church, can you imagine how much money that has been given to the church so is it any wonder that it is one of the wealthiest organizations in the world and has become extremely influential to the point where it is seemingly above common law and what is far worse by giving our power away to the institution we allow this colossal scam to carry on. I personally feel we have been completely taken in and hoodwinked all in the name of religion.

  37. There is a lot of judgment around the ‘weirdos or oddballs’ who are religious. I have also felt this and had a nagging feeling that something wasn’t right. I now feel that this is because what ‘religious people’ are choosing doesn’t feel true for most of us and it seems like there is too much compromise of the truth. Whereas now that I know religion as something that lives in me and is my relationship with God that I feel in a very practical way through my body, none of that exists. I cannot deny what is simply known and felt.

  38. ‘It’s through our living way, i.e. how we do life, that we access God.’ So true Bryony and this puts the responsibility right back on us as to whether we want to connect with Him or not. As wel,l it cuts through the nonsense many of us were told the he is a ‘God almighty unreachable being’ that only the ‘holy of holy’ can have access to

    1. Knowing that it is up to us to connect with God through our livingness that makes so much more sense, as we let go of any nonsense that God is outside of us and not reachable.

  39. Isn’t it extraordinary how we grow up thinking God is something ‘out there’ and not that God is Love and present in all that is truly loving or made from his Love in and around us in our everyday lives.

    1. And also many grew up thinking that we were too lowly to be a part of God, instead of he truth that as souls we are born from God and very much a part of God, in fact, like it is with all creatures, we are born to become that which birthed us.

  40. ‘I was a respectable, responsible person, highly cautious and although I pretended for a while to be wild, I never really fooled anyone: I was the most risk-averse person I knew.’ – Well described, I can only imagine how many people would miss out on change in life because they deem themselves to be too respectable, responsible and cautious. Openness allows for true change, which your full sharing beautifully states too.

  41. “For a long time God was in my life, but only ever after the words ‘Oh’ and ‘My.’ ..” So true… This is quite a common statement I too have said in the past, and many people also say, without much thought to the word ‘God’..But since coming to understand that ‘Love’ & ‘God’ are synonymous with each other, and deepening my connection within myself, with Stillness within my body, the word ‘God’ and ‘religion’ have come to mean so much more than I ever knew previously, which has completely changed the use of this statement altogether.

  42. I’ve always believed that God was something outside of me that I had to look for, but… ‘It’s through our living way, i.e. how we do life, that we access God’. Yes, going deeper in my relationship with myself, I naturally have access to greater intimacy, self love and connection with my essence, which is God within me.

    1. Beautiful it is through our own deepening that we have access to a greater intimacy, self love and connection with our own essence, which is the God within us.

  43. “It’s through our living way, i.e. how we do life, that we access God.” – This statement changes everything, as it shows us that no one outside of us (no priest, guru, ‘expert’, rabbi, or mullah) can bring us a connection to God, but that we have in our power inside of us everything to do it for ourselves (a connection to our body and our inner heart), which is the most empowering thing I can imagine.

  44. ‘But religion –– really??’ I remember a sinking feeling when I first heard the word religion said by Serge Benhayon, and feeling that I did not want to be associated with a religion. – Now I live it and am deeply religious because I have let go of all the false and imposed ideas surrounding religion which are proliferated in society and culture across the world.

    1. It was exactly the same for me Michael, the word ‘religion’ made me cringe and want to turn off. Because I respected Serge so much and had experienced only great things from his previous presentations I was open to what he had to say, it took some time but it was like coming out of an imposing fog to reconnect to what religion truly means, which to me now is a deeply beautiful and sacred way to be in life, connected to myself as a soul and to God.

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