Most of us go through life with varying relationships with family members, friends, colleagues or neighbours. And most likely we all have, or had, at least one best friend, be it mother, father, a playmate, school friend or lover. With them we feel at ease; we trust them with our deepest thoughts and feelings; we reveal much more to them than to anybody else.
My first impression of Serge Benhayon has never changed since I met him about ten years ago. I felt the great love and care he had for me and everyone around him, equally so.
At that time, I was really struggling in life. I had almost given up on therapy – I’d tried Primal Scream Therapy, Cognitive Behavioural Therapy and general counselling. I remember a psychiatrist assessing me at one point and asking why was I being assessed: was it to determine if I was crazy or not? At one point I even had my own Community Psychiatric Nurse assigned to me. I didn’t know what other avenues to pursue to overcome a general feeling of daily depression and futility. Continue reading “My First Impression of Serge Benhayon”→
My first self-help book was titled ‘Feel the Fear and do it Anyway’ and it was the start of a path of self-development in trying to be a better person. I was not in any particular state of turmoil at the time I purchased the book, but I did not like how I felt about myself or about where I was at in life. So I found this book and hoped it would show me how I was meant to be so that I could feel better.
There is a beautifully written article on the Women in Livingness blog, by Kyla Plummer – (Sex, Drugs and Making Love). She is awesomely honest and open about her experiences of sex, drugs and making love (the only part left out was rock-n’-roll)!
In that written piece I came across a line that spoke back very strongly and clearly to me. I realised that I was, or rather that I still am at times, one of those many, to borrow Kyla’s words … “who have experienced similar things – craving love, touch, appreciation, connection – and not knowing my own self-worth”.
It was this ‘self-worth’ in particular that kept echoing through my head, heart and soul. Although the English Dictionary describes this double-barrelled word as a noun, I would say it is a verb too. Continue reading “Re-Learning to Self-Worth”→
For as long as I can remember, my life has been run by what I only now understand as my version of a ‘black hole’.
Just the other day I finally put together what this black hole has truly been like to live with. It is a place of busyness – so busy it leads to overwhelm and exhaustion. This is to avoid feeling what I believed was the alternative –a very dark place of isolation where I feel all alone. Continue reading “Exhaustion: Living in a Black Hole”→
by Joan Calder, Frome, Somerset, UK, my home is my work now
I have just experienced something that shows me how much, and in what way, Serge Benhayon’s presentations and the sessions I have had and courses I have attended with Universal Medicine, are helping me to change deep internal patterns I thought I was stuck in for life.
My first memories are fearful ones; I was terrified of the world and everything in it. I have spent a lot of my life in panic about the possibilities of harmful events occurring – phobias, threats and invasions that could happen to me – and I was always on alert and worried about any weird sensations I felt from inside my body. Continue reading “My Vulnerability was the Key”→