Universal Medicine and Me: From Cancer at 19 to True Health at 40

by Nicole Serafin

At the age of 19, I was diagnosed with CIN3 (also called carcinoma in situ or stage 0 cervical cancer), the highest level of cell changes that can occur before there is invasion into deeper tissues. As such it was imperative to have it treated before it progressed further and became invasive.

I had no symptoms that I knew of, and had been for a regular check-up at my local doctor when she asked if I had ever had a pap smear. Being 19, I thought that was something that older people had. She explained to me that it was not an age thing, so I decided to have one. I did not think anything of it at the time, not expecting to hear another word about it.

I soon received a call from the surgery telling me I had to come straight in. My test results were positive and my doctor had made an appointment for me to go and see a specialist that morning. I went on to have numerous laser operations to remove the advanced precancerous cells on my cervix, as well as having three laparoscopies.

At the age of 25, I was told that I would not be able to have children due to the amount of scarring on my cervix and the cells that continued to regrow. The doctor suggested that if I wanted children, to try straight away and to have at least one as the chances of me conceiving let alone being able to carry to full term were slim.

At that time, my partner and I were not in a great place. I had my own business, I worked six days a week and did not feel that my life at the time was the sort of life I wanted to bring a child into.

Then again at age 28 I required more surgery for multiple ovarian cysts that had ruptured. The doctors wanted to give me a hysterectomy due to the presence of all the cysts combined with my previous history.

It was a shock and the surgery was something I did not want. So I got on a plane to Sydney to see my specialist who was still treating me, so that he could go in one more time and see what could be done.

My specialist listened to what I felt and promised to only look during that surgery, as I was scared they would just go ahead with the hysterectomy if they found too much going on. After the operation, he came to me to explain that the doctors who had treated me for my cysts at home were correct, and I should consider going further with the operation. I asked him to give me three months to make some changes in my life and see what happened.

My family was not happy with the choice I made. They told me it was in my genes – my grandmother had had a hysterectomy, as had my aunty, and my mother had a lot of problems in her reproductive area as well. However, I knew if there was the slightest possibility I could change things, then I had to give it a go. I had been living my life under an enormous amount of pressure. I was in a dysfunctional relationship and was constantly pushing myself and my body, past the point that it could cope with. I knew that my illness was a result of the choices that I had been making and that I had to start looking at those choices and begin to make some changes.

A client had given me a card of a practitioner they felt would be able to support me in what was going on. At first I was sceptical, but after my first visit with Serge Benhayon I walked out knowing that my life as it was, was not it, and that it all had to change. Not because of what he told me to do, but through what I could feel in me… a knowingness of my own.

I had finally been met in full for who I truly was. There was no expectation for me to be anything other than me, and from that there was no going back. I could no longer ignore the way I was living. The denial had been huge, I just had not ever realised how much I had been living in the avoidance of self.

From there I had more sessions with Serge and went along to the workshops and courses Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine were presenting. These courses, workshops and sessions helped me to be able to feel the lovelessness and disregard I had been living in all my life.

Not only did it help me to feel this, but it also allowed me to connect to the awesomeness that I am. My inner heart had been yearning for me to reconnect to myself and allow myself to live from my inner self: to live from a love that is known and felt by all; for me to just be me, without all the ideals and expectations I had taken on throughout my life. It was time for me to take responsibility for my actions and choices and to stop blaming everyone and everything else for why my life was the way that it was.

I came to realise and understand that there was no way that my body would be able to continue to live in such a way without something happening. My illness was a way of my body saying, “Hey, I can’t do this anymore and my subtle hints are not working so here, have this”. I began to change, not only my diet, but also my relationship, my work ethics and my sleep patterns, going to bed before 9pm and taking the time to nurture myself whenever I could.

All of the changes that I was making in my life came naturally, as once I allowed myself to feel what was needed, the rest followed. The support of Serge Benhayon, and Kate Greenaway, a physiotherapist who had started working with Serge at the clinic, made it easier for me to keep being honest with myself about where I was at and what was needed. Never did they judge me for the choices I had made or was making, and sometimes the choices I made were not as supportive of myself as they could have been. They were only ever loving, offering a level of support I’d never before come across.

To cope with the stress of life, I had years before begun to smoke marijuana – it helped me to check out of what was going on around me. Every time things got too much, I would turn to a joint and hope it would all sort itself out and go away. I did not allow myself to eat properly, living on fresh juices and small amounts of solid foods, so my weight was extremely low.

I gave up smoking marijuana and began to eat solid foods. I started with six small meals a day as my digestive system was not used to it and at first it was a struggle. In a way, it was a blessing to re-introduce foods in this way because I could feel exactly how certain foods made me feel. I found that foods that contained gluten or wheat made me feel heavy, bloated and tired and that dairy would make me congested and that both of them together would give me extreme stomach cramps.

I gradually introduced foods into my diet that allowed me to feel what my body needed rather than eat just for the sake of eating. My diet was one of salads, vegetables, lamb, fresh fruit, nuts and grains. I could feel the change in my body, the clarity of my thoughts and the willingness to deal with whatever came my way.

I began to realise I had been living in such a way that my body felt very hard, and generally, I felt disconnected from myself and that there was no way that I could ever deal with anything. I had chosen to completely check out from life and my illness was showing me just that.

I was not living in gentleness and I certainly was not nurturing of myself, or my body.

I came to realise that I needed to let myself feel the consequences of the choices that I had made in my life and deal with what I had created. I had begun to feel, through being more aware of my ovaries and my breasts, that I was not living in the stillness of what being a woman was all about. Instead, I was living in a hardness that I used to get by in life and get things done – at any cost.

My body was showing me that I needed to be aware of the choices that I made and to deal with whatever came up. To be accepting of myself, and my body, and to love myself for who I was. Loving and accepting myself did not feel like it came naturally to me. I was very hard on myself, feeling that I was never enough and that I always had to do and be more. I always felt that I needed to prove myself, seeking acceptance from my family and those around me.

Connecting to myself, my breasts and my body allowed me to feel that I was enough, that it was OK for me to be gentle, to be vulnerable and to ask for help if I needed it. I was now able to make choices based on what I needed to support myself in that loveliness and to be the amazing woman I truly am. By allowing myself to connect to my body I could feel the yumminess I already had inside of me, that I didn’t need anyone else to confirm that I was great, I could confirm that for myself by just stopping and feeling me… and there was no better feeling than that yumminess within.

My doctor was sceptical when I said I wanted to try for a baby and warned me of the complications that could arise. I was prepared to give it a go and went ahead with my life, constantly being aware of what changes I needed to make to continue to support me, continuing with my sessions when I felt the need.

Just before we conceived our first child I went back to my specialist in Sydney for a check-up. He was amazed at the transformation. My cervix had no signs of any scarring from the surgeries that I had had in the past, and there were no longer the advanced precancerous changes in the cells. All he had to say was, “Whatever you are doing, keep doing it… I can’t see there being any problems from what has been occurring thus far.”

I went on to have a daughter, which was the most amazing experience – having an awesome, trouble-free pregnancy, birth and baby. She has been a true inspiration for what is possible if you just allow yourself the time to connect to who you are and what you are capable of. I am now pregnant with our second baby and so far the pregnancy has been the same. No cravings, no morning sickness, pains, bloating, excess weight gain or discomfort.

My body has now been clear for 11 years, no more cancerous changes in the cells of my cervix and I have had no further surgery or treatments apart from attending on-going courses, treatments and retreats through Universal Medicine. I have not had to go back to my specialist for over five years now, opting to have my regular pap smears through the local hospital, all of which have come back negative.

I am still aware that I need to treat my body in a way that will continue to support it in what is needed, and if that means it needs the support of mainstream medicine also, then so be it. For me it was a combination of both mainstream and Esoteric Medicine that lead me to the life that I am now able to embrace and live fully.

If it were not for the two working together, then I am certain my outcome and life would be a very different story.

My body needed the medical treatments it received in order to clear it on a physical level, and the Esoteric Medicine was necessary for me to be able to address issues on a deeper level, and take full responsibility for what was going on that lead me to get an illness in the first place.

My doctor was always very sceptical of whatever it was I was doing, but when he saw the results for himself, he couldn’t argue. He never fully understood what it was that was going on, but he never refused to treat me because of my choices. He only ever remained open to allowing me the time and space I asked for to do what I felt was needed.

I was also very strong in claiming what it was that I wanted to do. I never gave up on what it was that I felt I needed to do in order to get to the root cause of what was going on in my body.

Since I started with Serge Benhayon and then Kate Greenaway, Universal Medicine has offered even more modalities, such as Esoteric Breast Massage. This has enabled and supported me to connect to myself as a woman and to live that in every aspect of my life. I now also have Esoteric Ovary Massages with Natalie Benhayon – these provide me the support to feel how I have been living on a daily basis; Esoteric Massage (Curtis Benhayon) lets my body express and release what it is that I have taken on; and Esoteric Chakra-puncture with Michael Benhayon helps to support my body in the true vitality and love that I am.

All of these modalities have shared something different with me: they are the tools that have enabled me to make choices and changes in my life so I can live completely and honestly as who I am.

Now, at age 40, my life is not complete for what I have, but for who I am – and for the loveliness that I can connect to every day. I appreciate the opportunity to have been able to be shown that there is another way. If I hadn’t become ill, I would have never made the choice to live differently, to live with me in my awesomeness every day – and for that I am truly grateful.

109 thoughts on “Universal Medicine and Me: From Cancer at 19 to True Health at 40

  1. Wow, Nicole your blog is truly powerful and inspiring. You have shown us that we can change our life around by making loving choices. Our body is constantly communicating to us, reminding us of our choices. Your experience is amazing and the way you chose to deal with it is truly inspiring, Thank You.

  2. Wow Nicole. This is super truly incredible. Such a huge change and what a big difference it made to your bodies symptoms. To hear about the reduction in scarring was amazing… “Hey, I can’t do this anymore and my subtle hints are not working so here, have this”. It’s great when our body speaks and we listen- it works wonders.

  3. In a world where is it somehow deemed okay to have a double mastectomy when there is only a possibility of breast cancer it is truly extraordinary that you chose to not remove what could potentially be fatal and chose instead to make changes to deeply heal all that you are. Your story is truly incredible Nicole and a remarkable testimony to the power of taking responsibility for your life and making self-loving choices. Amazing.

  4. Nicole I am blown away with the commitment you made to your own healing. You are such an inspiring woman as it takes a deep willingness to embrace the teachings of Universal Medicine that truly does change how we live.

  5. Nicole Serafin – what a transformation. Thank you for writing this as it will let so many people see what’s possible. It definitely shows that illness and disease is NOT necessarily the enemy, but an opportunity for profound healing, if we grab it with both hands as you have done. Thank you!

  6. Nicole this is a deeply inspiring blog, it reflects how taking true responsibility for the choices we make and live has a massive effect on the quality of our health. Your transformation reflects the deep healing you have experienced by choosing to honour your body and truly nurture yourself. A truly amazing story.

  7. A very inspiring blog Nicole…it is a great example of how taking responsibility for our own health, staying true to what we feel is right for us, and the combination of western medicine and esoteric medicine working equally together can have such a positive effect on our health and our life – truly awesome!

  8. This sentence reminded me of the value of being open to feeling ‘raw’ and not trying to make things ‘better’ or more ‘comfortable’… “I came to realise that I needed to let myself feel the consequences of the choices that I had made in my life and deal with what I had created.” This is something that I have some times struggled with, feeling all there is to feel and staying with it however ‘ugly’ or ‘difficult’ it feels to do so. Interestingly when I am open to feeling what there is to feel, I am aware that I heal and let go of so much more. Being ‘raw’ is actually a gift and something that I am still learning to appreciate.

    1. Beautiful point Samantha: being real, raw and allow ourselves to feel what is there to feel supports the healing and the letting go of. I have to be careful not to complicate the process by fighting what is there to feel and deny it by numbing myself.

    2. Thankyou Samantha and Monika, I find that if I judge what my body is showing me as an error I’ve made, I feel in any way I should not have made the choices I did, then I really want to shut down to what is being shown to me. Allowing myself space, understanding and the opportunity to learn is a much better approach but something I am still learning.

  9. Wow Nicole what an amazing journey from cancer at 19 to now having 3 beautiful children and living with true vitality in your life. What an inspiration and support you are to others dealing with similar conditions, you can certainly empower others to know that there is always a choice no matter what your medical condition is.

  10. Thank you for sharing your amazing life story, Nicole. It is clear that the way you have chosen to live became a medicine along side the conventional medical procedure and esoteric healing modalities. This is truly inspirational.

  11. I found myself nodding to so much of what you shared here Nicole. Conventional medicine can help us with the louder messages our body gives us and Esoteric Medicine addresses the underlying messages. Regardless of the volume all these messages are our bodies showing us our choices. Listening to and living by these messages is far more supportive of true-health than anything outside of ourselves. Thank you.

  12. The problem with getting a condition that is life-threatening is that we have to make radical decisions with no time to really feel into it, and with an ill body that is not our best platform to really sit with us and show us the way. If we add the natural desire of doctors to ‘save’ us, we find ourselves in situations that are very difficult to handle. How many people have succumbed to the pressure and simply followed the medical advise? How are they doing today? How if the quality of their lives? What about the people that connected to the Esoteric and went from there? How are they doing today? How if the quality of their lives? Judging by true testimonials, it appears very clearly that the Esoteric is a great help and makes a tremendous difference.

  13. A beautiful inspiring sharing – thankyou Nicole, “I appreciate the opportunity to have been able to be shown that there is another way. If I hadn’t become ill, I would have never made the choice to live differently, to live with me in my awesomeness every day – and for that I am truly grateful.” I too am grateful for the stop moment in my life that I have had recently and am truly appreciative of Serge Benhayon and all the Universal Medicine practitioners who show us – lovingly and without judgement – that there is a different way to live.

  14. The experiences you share are mind blowing Nicole. I feel so supported when I read your story as I have had ovarian cysts and currently have fibroids and have felt worried about what I have done to my body. Everything you share allows me to feel that none of this is ‘bad, in fact, these ‘problems’ are needed corrections. You also reinforce how important it is to receive the medical treatments we need to support our bodies as they bring things to our attention and I am inspired to book in for a pap smear pronto. Thank you Nicole.

  15. Incredible sharing Nicole, your personal responsibility to your health and wellbeing totally reversing diseases in your body – we are indeed powerful as your story shows when we honour ourselves with gentleness, true care and nurturing.

  16. A powerful and inspiring story Nicole of your experience in coming back to true health by embracing self-responsibility and self-love.

  17. The power of our choices and our willingness and commitment to be open and honest with ourselves can bring about true and lasting change to our health and well-being.

  18. Nicole you are a living miracle and remind us what is possible when we connect to who we truly are and making choices that are loving and true.

  19. I love that you have shared your story like you have for it is truly incredible to read. It is so deeply inspiring that you appreciate your illness as a gift in supporting you to no longer be able to ignore the way you were living and make the remarkable changes you have. The Way of Livingness and principles of Universal Medicine are clearly super powerful beyond current medical understanding shown by the healing you have experienced across all areas of your life.

  20. Everything has a root cause so there is far more to illness and disease than simply a diagnosis and treatment plan. We need to understand there has to be a cascade of events within the body that led to that particular illness occurring. So without doubt we must not only consider that how we have lived in our past and the choices we have made accumulates and lays the foundation for our quality of health and wellbeing today, but how we live and the choices we make today can indeed support us to heal.

    1. Brilliant comment Suse. It shows that illness and disease doesn’t just happen overnight, it is most likely an accumulation of unloving choices, continuously not listening to our body, living in a way that is harmful and in disregard. Therefore, I see that our illness and disease is a sign from our body showing us how disharmonious it is due to our choices, behaviours and way of life that hasn’t been true or in harmony with our natural rhythm and flow.

  21. Your story is truly incredible Nicole. The thing that stood out for me the most was how strong and steady you were from the outset. Asking your doctor to trust you, to give you space, so that you could begin to look at your life, how you were living and how this was affecting your body and health. And it wasn’t a stubbornness of looking for an alternative, for I can see you were open to medical treatment, but it was more so see what else you could be looking at. The esoteric modalities are perfect in that regard for not only can they work hand in hand with medical treatments but they support the person to connect deeply within and once we do we automatically know what is true for our body. They support us to be and live more of who we are. And when we do we cannot be anything other than vital.

  22. On re reading today, the true power we all have with in comes from the choice to be still, feel it and allow the stillness and graciousness to lead our life. Your sharing Nicole is a blessing for every woman.

  23. Thank you Nicole – to me, you ‘hit the nail on the head’ at the end of your blog when you say ‘my life is not complete for what I have, but for who I am’. This has made the greatest difference in my life too – when I see that life is about who I am first, before anything I do’.

  24. Stories such as yours Nicole are deeply inspiring to read and bring a smile to my face as it reminds me of the power of the Esoteric Modalities and the Ageless Wisdom to support us to truly heal any ill condition.

  25. Reading your blog again is deeply inspiring Nicole. Your transformation is incredible and all a credit to your loving choices and your willingness to embrace the healing modalities offered by your esoteric practitioners. To appreciate what your illness was showing you was amazing, not many people are open to appreciating any form of illness in this way. Yet you were able to gain a great level of learning and healing through your experience and you were willing to listen to what your body was ultimately showing you. Hugely inspiring for us all.

  26. Nicole, your blog beautifully highlights what a gift it is from our body when it produces an illness, to draw our attention to the fact that we are living a life of disharmony. When we choose to uncover the root cause of our symptoms and make the necessary changes to our lifestyle, true healing can occur as your story reveals so clearly.

  27. This is one of my favourite blogs to read, a very inspiring and real story, and an amazing outcome based on the support of Universal Medicine and self loving choices. The body responds amazingly well to love! In the bigger scheme of things with global illness and disease rates so high your story reflects the potential for all human beings to return to true health via self care and self loving choices that honour the body.

  28. Amazing! So many modern-day miracles in this – you are deeply inspiring Nicole. Just on a very physical level, the very fact that the scarring in your cervix disappeared is extraordinary as scarring is considered to be something we have for life due to the thickening of the layers of cells in that area. That you have reversed this thickening and hardening simply by being gentle and tender is profound.

  29. This is such a profoundly amazing story for all women and men to read Nicole. What I can’t help but connect with, is that our bodies reflect and indeed play out, so much of our use of ‘will’. If our will is to push ourselves, be more, slog it out, neglect ourselves and our bodies as women… then there we go, at some point it is our own body that pulls us up and shows us the disharmony in the way we are living – with ourselves.
    If our will is to respect ourselves in full, treasure and nurture our bodies – their delicateness, sensitivity, true capacity and the rest… then a very different outplay can be resultant in the body.
    This is not to say that ‘all can be healed’ in our physical form by such an approach – for clearly what is most significant here, is that it is our Will that re-aligns itself to that which we all, deep within, know to be true, but have held ourselves back from embracing and truly living. The true healing rests in the sphere of will.

  30. Thank you for sharing your story Nicole. Amazing and inspiring to hear how you turned your life around and healed your body by taking the time to deeply connect to it and listen to what it was telling you about the way that you were living your life. We so often push through, push on, don’t stop to listen – until our bodies force us to with some pretty loud messages. The more I read testimonials like this, and the more I choose to connect and actually feel what’s going on in my body, the more I’m seeing how hard I’ve pushed myself, how disrespectful I’ve been towards my own body. Not with any judgment, just with a knowing that the way I’m living is not harmonious and the obvious outplay of that in not feeling as well or as vital as I could do.

  31. Your blog is incredibly inspiring Nicole and you are a living testamomy of what’s possible when we make changes in our lives and the effect that can have on our health and well-being. I think often when we have health problems we can feel powerless and not claim the fact that every single choice we make has the power to make a positive change towards our health.

  32. Nicole I am sure I have read this before and perhaps commented before but this morning it has blown me away. Knowing a smidgen about the woman you are now, the fact you have been able to have children, is astounding considering all you went through from the age of 19. I am deeply inspired to deepen my connection with myself, knowing how much our bodies yearn to be held in that level of respect.

  33. We can view illness in many different ways but to me, it’s a way home, its not always a pretty path or one we expect, sometimes we might think we have it all going on too, we might feel like we are doing all the right things and illness will come, this does not make it any less of a gift. Other times we know deep down we have invited it in through our unloving ways. Sometimes it gives us a shove or a wake up call – there are times it gives us a stop, or it brings us back and occasionally it clears out something old. It never mean you are bad or that you have done something wrong but rather it is a communication of choices, old or new but at least with an illness you know that the body is releasing something, that it is not burring it or numbing it, there is an honesty and humbleness that is very valuable. So to me, the fact your body started talking at 19 is pretty impressive and shows that it knows the truth.

  34. A beautifully inspiring blog Nicole, showing how when we take responsibility for our lives by making self loving choices how our lives and our health issues can amazingly change.

  35. Wow what an amazing transformation this is – so much power in this writing and shows how listening to our bodies is pure healing.

  36. We can try hard to live a life that is not true. Yet, we have to know that if we go ahead with it, the body will go along up to a point with us and then has to start working hard to get rid of everything it took in because our trying hard to live the falseness we have set for.

  37. To be confirmed in our knowingness is incredibly supportive to our wellbeing. The confirmations come at exactly the right time when we’re ready to make the changes that we have been feeling for some time or to support us to claim something more deeply within the body. It’s not because of another eg. Serge Benhayon says it, but a confirmation of that which we already know yet have been delaying and resisting.

  38. The body speaks although we don’t tend to listen very well. What an absolute blessing for you Nicole to have your body speak so loudly and that you listened and responded to it…

  39. Illness and disease are not the enemy we think they are and the healing process that can unfold when we unite esoteric medicine alongside conventional medicine can be both profound and extremely supportive for our bodies.

  40. Reading this, I wonder if there’s a desire in us to be brought to a moment of much needed full stop. We say we don’t know, but I have a sense that we do, that the way we are living is not really true to us but actually abusive. Once we are in the pattern of abuse, the momentum is so grabbing and it is very hard to get out of it.

  41. Nicole I loved how your specialist honoured your request, to only assess the situation and not operate at the time and also give you three months to see if you could change things yourself, he was obviously very caring and a true listener too.

    1. It’s great the way the doctor honoured your request, which wouldn’t have been possible if you wouldn’t have honoured yourself and your inner impulses first.

  42. Beautiful to read the changes that you made to your life, the honesty you were able to come to, and the awareness that it brought to you too. It is amazing what we can change through making changes to the way that we live.

  43. I found it very inspiring how Nicole asked the doctors to wait a while for her to make some life changes before going for a major surgery. When faced with the possibility of dying via cancer, this took a lot of trust, courage, and honesty regarding her responsibility in creating this condition. It’s a miracle how her body responded when she reconnected with it this way.

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