Developing a Relationship – with my Essence

Developing a relationship with and connecting to and playfully exploring my essence, was something presented to me by Natalie Benhayon at the end of a revealing and amazing Esoteric ovary massage. Natalie has a depth of wisdom and is a true inspiration to me; the authority of her livingness is incontrovertible. She holds an unapologetic, unwavering solidness of love and an equal-ness for all others within her – especially from her eyes.

Natalie’s session was for me the last of a series of sessions with Universal Medicine practitioners. Each session stood on its own, whilst also being part of a whole unfolding package of myself.

I had an understanding that the underlying themes that came up in each session had their own revelations – a deepening of understanding Who I Truly Am. The integrity that each practitioner brought to their session through their own level of care and steadiness was very obvious. It was palpable and truly undeniable that I too have this deep level of love, sensitivity, stillness and solidness in me. However with this, I could also see the patterns, behaviours and choices I have been using to hold it all back. I can now see how:

  • Dealing with my hurts and being honest supports me to clearly feel and express from my essence.
  • I am love first. There is no need for judgment or critique.
  • I can give myself the space I need when a situation arises and allow myself to be sensitive, understanding what is going on before I respond.

This was easy to feel, listen to and speak honestly about during the sessions. The practitioners all shared in a way that came with understanding, allowing me to determine if what they said was true for me or not, and this was very empowering.

From my session with Natalie Benhayon, and the simple idea of playfully exploring my essence, I have been empowered to deepen my connection with myself every day.

I have been playing with and exploring my essence by creating space for moments to stop, connect and feel by:

  • Laying and surrendering for short spaces of time, closing my eyes and allowing myself to just be and connect to who I am – such as when I wake in the morning or before sleep at night I lay, allowing my body to surrender, allowing myself to just feel. In these moments I can feel a delicateness that feels like a precious, fine yet strong, gold chain.
  • Consciously keeping my thoughts with what my body is doing. Playfully feeling how my deep care and love is expressed in my movements in my simple daily actions – such as being attentive to the quality in which I make breakfast for everyone, how I lovingly get ready in the morning, the tenderness I set my class up in or registering how delicate my hand is as I write on the board.
  • Really claiming the purity of my essence, and what I know is me, the true me, and claiming that as normal. I feel the deep gorgeousness within me, no longer identifying the patterns, behaviours or ways of being that I have learnt growing up, as being me. I am what I feel deep in my heart and very much learning to live that love in my actions and words today.
  • Not identifying with the doubting thoughts, unsupportive ways or patterns as being me. Simply catching any thought or behaviours that feel false and that don’t belong with the loveliness I feel from my heart.

By lovingly supporting myself in this way I can feel:

  • My body, my mind and my being in connection as one,
  • A harmonious flow throughout my body,
  • An ancient knowing and an absoluteness that my essence is who I am – my connection to my Soul and God,
  • Understanding that when I choose to connect to my essence and express from there, that I am in fact directly expressing from my Soul and my connection to God through my physical body,
  • Inspired to confirm ME by supporting my body.

I am: Strong, Harmonious, Graceful, Still, Sacred, Truth, Delicate, Sweet, Tender, Divine, Loving, Silky, Beholding, Gathering, Beautiful, Unifying, Rhythmical, Flowing, Authoritative, Precious, Unwavering, Solid, Equal, Powerful and knowing that God is within me.

By choosing to live this connection every day, developing a relationship with and expressing the divinity of my essence, I am constantly with every choice I make, confirming Who I truly Am and Who We ALL are.

With great appreciation for the reflection and support of Serge Benhayon, Universal Medicine, all the Practitioners and the Student Body.

By Johanna Smith, Perth WA, Bachelor of Education

Further Reading:
Packaging and Opening Us Up
Returning to Our Essence

950 thoughts on “Developing a Relationship – with my Essence

  1. It is so fantastic that we have these people in our lives who live and so inspire us to live in a way that is true, in connection and impulsed from our soul.

  2. Understanding that we are love first and foremost, is, I feel something we all struggle with as we have been lacking this much needed reflection for a long time. I know that I have been holding onto my hurts as a form of protection, not realising that by doing so I am denying myself the one thing we all crave, and that is to be met in and with the purity of love. When someone sees past all the hurts, ideals and beliefs to the very core of our being and sees that we are innocent and unsullied and reflects that back, then it is possible to start the road back to feeling this love within us again, so that it can sustain us in a world that doesn’t want humanity to return or reconnect back to their true roots which is the love we all want, but do not realise is still there within us, just waiting to be reconnected to again.

  3. Developing a relationship with my essence is a work in progress. Whilst there are many things about my innate qualities that I know I bring, I find that I am discovering more and going deeper with the ones I have already claimed!

  4. Appreciation of our essences is what comes through in what you have shared Johanna, and to appreciate our divinity in this way will hold us in the glory of being in our essence.

  5. You need not spend hours, days & months to reconnect – there is an opportunity with every breath, every step & every move.

  6. What you share about Natalie here is so very true … she has ‘a depth of wisdom and is a true inspiration to me; the authority of her livingness is incontrovertible. She holds an unapologetic, unwavering solidness of love and an equal-ness for all others within her – especially from her eyes.’ The quality and depth of her livingness can clearly be felt. It is quite something showing all that is possible to live.

  7. To consider we are not encouraged to be tender, sensitive and aware of the energy that impulses us shows how easy the set up is for us not to value those things about ourselves; yet when you consider them to be part of our essence we learn to deny who we are at a very young age and then spend so much of our life trying to rediscover and reclaim that essence.

  8. When we surrender we can feel our true qualities, all of these you have mentioned in the paragraph above. They seem like they’re new because we have lived in disconnection, we have let them go. But underneath it all is a familiarity of an old way of being, walking and moving.

    1. It is so important to live in connection with our body, ‘Consciously keeping my thoughts with what my body is doing.’

  9. When anyone returns to their essence it’s very deeply beautiful. Great to read this “I am love first. There is no need for judgment or critique.” It offers a foundation to truly change our relationship with ourselves and others, knowing that when we are not able to be love then an energy is passing through us that is not who we truly are.

    1. We are love, first and foremost, and when we are not being love, then we are aligned with an energy that is taking us away from who we are in truth.

  10. “Developing a relationship with and connecting to and playfully exploring my essence,” with being playful as we reconnect to our essence stops it from being felt as heavy and serious but light and a joy to know who you are.

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