Developing a Relationship – with my Essence

Developing a relationship with and connecting to and playfully exploring my essence, was something presented to me by Natalie Benhayon at the end of a revealing and amazing Esoteric ovary massage. Natalie has a depth of wisdom and is a true inspiration to me; the authority of her livingness is incontrovertible. She holds an unapologetic, unwavering solidness of love and an equal-ness for all others within her – especially from her eyes.

Natalie’s session was for me the last of a series of sessions with Universal Medicine practitioners. Each session stood on its own, whilst also being part of a whole unfolding package of myself.

I had an understanding that the underlying themes that came up in each session had their own revelations – a deepening of understanding Who I Truly Am. The integrity that each practitioner brought to their session through their own level of care and steadiness was very obvious. It was palpable and truly undeniable that I too have this deep level of love, sensitivity, stillness and solidness in me. However with this, I could also see the patterns, behaviours and choices I have been using to hold it all back. I can now see how:

  • Dealing with my hurts and being honest supports me to clearly feel and express from my essence.
  • I am love first. There is no need for judgment or critique.
  • I can give myself the space I need when a situation arises and allow myself to be sensitive, understanding what is going on before I respond.

This was easy to feel, listen to and speak honestly about during the sessions. The practitioners all shared in a way that came with understanding, allowing me to determine if what they said was true for me or not, and this was very empowering.

From my session with Natalie Benhayon, and the simple idea of playfully exploring my essence, I have been empowered to deepen my connection with myself every day.

I have been playing with and exploring my essence by creating space for moments to stop, connect and feel by:

  • Laying and surrendering for short spaces of time, closing my eyes and allowing myself to just be and connect to who I am – such as when I wake in the morning or before sleep at night I lay, allowing my body to surrender, allowing myself to just feel. In these moments I can feel a delicateness that feels like a precious, fine yet strong, gold chain.
  • Consciously keeping my thoughts with what my body is doing. Playfully feeling how my deep care and love is expressed in my movements in my simple daily actions – such as being attentive to the quality in which I make breakfast for everyone, how I lovingly get ready in the morning, the tenderness I set my class up in or registering how delicate my hand is as I write on the board.
  • Really claiming the purity of my essence, and what I know is me, the true me, and claiming that as normal. I feel the deep gorgeousness within me, no longer identifying the patterns, behaviours or ways of being that I have learnt growing up, as being me. I am what I feel deep in my heart and very much learning to live that love in my actions and words today.
  • Not identifying with the doubting thoughts, unsupportive ways or patterns as being me. Simply catching any thought or behaviours that feel false and that don’t belong with the loveliness I feel from my heart.

By lovingly supporting myself in this way I can feel:

  • My body, my mind and my being in connection as one,
  • A harmonious flow throughout my body,
  • An ancient knowing and an absoluteness that my essence is who I am – my connection to my Soul and God,
  • Understanding that when I choose to connect to my essence and express from there, that I am in fact directly expressing from my Soul and my connection to God through my physical body,
  • Inspired to confirm ME by supporting my body.

I am: Strong, Harmonious, Graceful, Still, Sacred, Truth, Delicate, Sweet, Tender, Divine, Loving, Silky, Beholding, Gathering, Beautiful, Unifying, Rhythmical, Flowing, Authoritative, Precious, Unwavering, Solid, Equal, Powerful and knowing that God is within me.

By choosing to live this connection every day, developing a relationship with and expressing the divinity of my essence, I am constantly with every choice I make, confirming Who I truly Am and Who We ALL are.

With great appreciation for the reflection and support of Serge Benhayon, Universal Medicine, all the Practitioners and the Student Body.

By Johanna Smith, Perth WA, Bachelor of Education

Further Reading:
Packaging and Opening Us Up
Returning to Our Essence

905 thoughts on “Developing a Relationship – with my Essence

  1. That is the power that is us – a relationship is divine. The more we connect to within us/ourselves, we become inspired to deepen and confirm that love that we are feeling – and we will know that a relationship with oneself and so with all others is divine.

  2. It is us, how we choose to live every moment in life that develops and anchors our connection with our essence, or not.

  3. And just to add to your sharing Johanna the most beautiful thing is that this essence resides in each and everyone of us equally so and all that is needed is for us to connect to it.

  4. The more we peel away ‘the onion rings’ we have encircled our being with, the more we connect to the fact that underneath them there is only an immense beauty; the beauty we all are equally.

  5. Thank you, Johanna, gorgeous blog on what essence is – that it is a connection in your heart and beyond that never tells you anything, only allows you to know everything that you are.

  6. Choosing stop moments in our day helps us to deepen our connection and awareness supporting us to return to our true foundation and steadiness from which to lovingly express and move with our essence and our true quality.

  7. Thank you Johanna, delightful to read this again. I recently wrote a list of all the qualities of my essence and I originally was not sure I could find 30, but I did, and the awareness of myself just kept flowing out and more qualities added beyond 30. I felt so beautiful after I wrote this and plan to read it regularly, it’s very confirming and feels so supportive to spend time dedicated to a true relationship to myself and to the essence of who I am.

  8. So many people complain that they are not in a “relationship” but this is not true as we are always in a relationship with ourselves and with others. The type of relationship we choose to be in is however a completely different matter as it can be a healthy loving relationship or a very abusive one.

  9. Not identifying with negative thoughts is a massive hurdle to knowing who we are. Our thoughts and our self doubts can slowly corrode our lives – but what if there’s no sense to them and we simply need to readjust our focus and step forward without them?

  10. ‘I could also see the patterns, behaviours and choices I have been using to hold it all back’ … that’s just it we have ways which keep us small and it’s about catching those ways and choosing differently and understanding that those ways while old and often comfortable are not us.

  11. Developing our relationship with our essence and experiencing how that feels in our movements is the greatest gift there is, as the more consistently we connect to that flow and way of being the more we can let go of unsupportive patterns that get in the way of being who we truly are.

  12. In developing a relationship with our essence we develop are relationship with our awareness, truth and love and as such we are guided to live in a way that represents who really are, in connection to all that we are. It is through embodying our essence that we come to freely live the richness of who we are.

  13. Natalie Benhayon has been such an inspiration and support for so many women to deepen the connection with our divine essence, this is very powerful and far reaching when we live this, as it confirms to other women through our movements to awaken to this same truth.

  14. The power of who we truly are. Not something we come across in an average day unfortunately. But when we are reminded, and especially by someone who is living it for themselves, we’re blown away with what is actually possible.

  15. This is such a beautiful line “It was palpable and truly undeniable that I too have this deep level of love, sensitivity, stillness and solidness in me.” The power of reflection, thank you Johanna, a joy to read this again.

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