God was never mentioned when I was growing up; not because my parents were anti-God, it’s just that they weren’t ‘believers.’ They were fairly unusual in that they got married in a registry office, again not because they could categorically say that there wasn’t a God but because they couldn’t categorically say that there was. I love the absolute integrity of my parents.
My experience with organised religion boiled down to one very boring couple of hours at Sunday school and joining in enthusiastically with the choruses of hymns at Christmas time. I remember Dad trying to ‘find God’ at one stage in his life, which constituted his going to bible classes and then promptly being asked to leave because he was asking too many probing questions. (God, I love my Dad).
But here’s the startling thing; even though I didn’t have any organised religion in my life, I can now see, looking back, that as a kid the way that I lived was truly religious. It didn’t matter that I never said His name, God was very known to me – very, very known indeed.
My intimacy with God continued until about the age of nine, at which time Dad got a promotion at work and so my family moved from our idyllic village in rural Yorkshire to what I felt was a monstrosity of a town just north of London. The move had a massive effect on me, the extent of which has only come to light in recent years. I never doubted that the move devastated me, but it’s only in the last couple of years that I have fully realised that the most significant effect that the move had on me was that I seemingly lost my connection to God.
I always knew that I missed the countryside and that the bullying at school was traumatic, but I never consciously realised that the greatest hurt by far was choosing to step away from my beloved God. But you see, because no one had ever spoken to me about what true connection to God was, I never consciously knew that God and I were one and the same and so consequently I didn’t realise that when I chose to step away from myself, I was also choosing to step away from God.
We’ve constructed so many false and misleading notions around what it is to be religious that I never considered that as a child I was deeply religious: in fact, I assumed that because my family never went to church and because I never prayed – that’s not strictly true, I do remember praying once, that if I was going to be murdered could God arrange it to happen after my cross country competition, because I really wanted to run in the race – that I wasn’t religious. How poisonous are our beliefs when they can get us to believe the exact opposite to the truth? And is that, in fact, the purpose of a belief – to deliberately steer us away from the truth?
It has taken my reunification with God to realise that as a child I knew Him intimately. If you asked me to explain who God is or how He feels, then I couldn’t, other than to say He feels like the deepest part of me.
What I can answer however, is how I have been able to get back to God, and that very simply has been to restore my body to the pristine condition that it was in as a child. Before the age of nine I lived life from my body and then when trauma hit, it changed the relationship that I had with my body. Rather than my body being the beautiful, sensitive, surrendered, interactive home that it was, my body became a means with which to protect myself from the potential attacks that I perceived were coming my way. I put up a physical barrier by hardening my body, never realising that I was also putting up a barrier to God.
God never ever walks away from any of us; it’s always us that choose to walk away from Him. Not that we can ever, in truth, walk away from Him, because God is threaded all the way through who we are, but the way that we choose to conduct ourselves ensures that we’re not able to feel His living breath deep within us.
And so my re-unification with God has been a gradual process but one that has been very physical – there has been nothing intellectual about it – it has very much taken place in my body. I have had to turf out everything that does not belong in my body: ideals about how things should be, beliefs (all of them because there is not one belief that is true), notions, ideas, images, imaginings, every thing that does not come from truth.
I have had to re-visit things that have hurt me in order to release the hold that they have had over my body. By restoring my body back to its original condition, it has enabled me to be able to feel God again and to realise that God is within us all of the time, He is never not there; it’s simply that life is set up in such a way so as to interfere with the medium through which we feel Him, and that is through our bodies.
By Alexis Stewart, a woman who at last feels that she is doing what it is that she is here to do, Sydney, Australia
Further Reading:
God’s Waiting Room
God. It’s a Science
We cannot be without God and Religion
The Truth about Universal Medicine 
beautiful, beautiful, beautiful. thank you for sharing, your testimony will reach so many others who are separated from God 💌✨
‘God never ever walks away from any of us; it’s always us that choose to walk away from Him.’ – that is one of the bitter pills we need to swallow one day after we have come to realize that all blaming, giving up, hoping and beseeching is nothing more but an attempt to not let go of one´s pride, returning into our father´s open arms and take the responsibility to be his living son here on earth for everyone to also restore their innate at-one-ment.
Now this is felt, it has profound meaning …’I never consciously realised that the greatest hurt by far was choosing to step away from my beloved God’. It takes the meaning of hurt to a much deeper level to explore all the others that followed that we also do not need to carry. Once we have nailed this deepest one, any others fall away.
That is such an amazing sharing that you realised that you and God were one and the same and when you stepped away from yourself that was when you also stepped away from God, because that is what we all do, life seems to be set up to steer us in that direction at some point if we lose our awareness.
I think it is really helpful to realise how we can associate or attach pictures to words, images that we consider to be their definition that hinder us from connecting with or appreciating and deepening our connection with their true meaning, such as with the word religion.
It is the ‘re’ in ‘re-united’ that tells us where we naturally come from and that we return rather than moving anywhere.
Exactly Alex, we’ve already arrived because in truth we never left, we’ve been here all along.
You can only re-unite when you have previously separated from someone. But God has never separated from us. His divine essence, ours, has remained inside us. So, we are talking of a human inner movement back to divinity. This is what we are re-uniting with.
Knowing my connection to God has changed the way I view life, there is so much that makes sense now and I feel so supported when I allow myself to feel the connection.
Powerful thank you shedding the truth on connection. When we leave it, we leave ourselves, humanity and God.
I dont remember having a relationship with God when I was young other than not understanding what I was being told about him. None of it made sense to me and in the sphere of people around me, no one seemed to be able to give me any answers that felt true. So disocvering the truth from Serge Benhayon was literlally like coming home, and the more I heard, the more everything slotted into place.
Reading this is asking me to consider my relationship with God as an adult and a child. I’m realising that I do know God and it’s lovely to realise there is a relationship that the more I deepen my awareness of it the more I reflect and know I also had it as a child but dismissed it because it didn’t fit what I was told was a relationship with God looked like. How lovely to stop assuming there wasn’t a relationship because if I ignore what’s there how does one build from it?
The knowing of God within us is deeply beautiful amazing and real and the believing in him out side up there somewhere that we are not worthy of,what a difference and something robed from us that is truly evil.
My experience of God since attending workshops with Universal Medicine has become very personal, in that I feel God within me, and this knowing of God has taken away the ideals (and desire to not know God) that I grew up with. God is not something I experience in a place like a church, but rather a knowing the walks beside me in every step through life.
So many of us are willing to acknowledge that God exists but prefer to believe we can keep him at arms length like an estranged ex wife. God is us, it’s just down to us to wake up and realise.
God is all about people hence the direct knowing of God is for us being with people in a way that God would be with people if he were to be a physical person. We get to know our own divinity with and through people and thus know God.
So well said Alex.
Love this Alex.
‘How poisonous are our beliefs when they can get us to believe the exact opposite to the truth?’ – Yes, beliefs are carefully designed to keep us controlled and by that, unable to discern truth.
We are never not able to discern truth, we just choose to ignore it.
I feel that as children we all have a propensity to do this
“Rather than my body being the beautiful, sensitive, surrendered, interactive home that it was, my body became a means with which to protect myself from the potential attacks that I perceived were coming my way. I put up a physical barrier by hardening my body, never realising that I was also putting up a barrier to God.”
We have not been taught about energy and the affects it has on our bodies. It was not until 1999 that the world started to hear about energy and the crippling affect the astral energy has on our bodies. Bringing back to life the teachings of the Ageless Wisdom has enabled us all to connect back to those teachings that knew all about the science of energy and it’s out play on human life.
Believing in God versus knowing God. Two different things – one is from the head and one is from the body.
Religious institutions do not like it when we ask too many questions, for there are many things that often don’t make sense and they cannot explain. When Serge Benhayon shares true religion that makes sense, the questions and answers that follow are ones that support all around.
The most powerful and gorgeous thing is to realise that God is always there, a spark within us, and even in our darkest moment we are only a movement, a re-connection away from God.
Jenny, it seems to me that many religions don’t want us to know this, they would rather we roll around in guilt, believing that our sins have barred our access to God. After all if we didn’t feel we had to repent, then it might put them out of business.
Religion is a re-turn to all that is sacred, holy and divine within us. God never left us, for how can he when he is all around us and within us and only ever a breath away when we have disconnected from this space.
“How poisonous are our beliefs when they can get us to believe the exact opposite to the truth?” . . .Yes, I can now see how beliefs were constructed to counter truth.
When you say you have restored your body to its original pristine condition, can you explain more? I agree with you that when we leave ourselves, we leave God, and simply so we are from God.
Sure what I mean when I say that I have restored my body to it’s original pristine condition, is that I have turfed beliefs out of it, as well as ditched most of the pictures about life, that I clogged it up with. But perhaps most significantly, I have removed most of the ideas and images as to who I believed myself to be and as a result, have been left with who I actually am, which, of course, is who we all naturally are, the living consciousness of God.
Re-connected with God – embracing the universe within.
Alexis, you are a deeply inspiring kind woman, I love reading your blogs – a fiery light and reflection for others to know their true purpose in life too.
‘Alexis Stewart, a woman who at last feels that she is doing what it is that she is here to do’,
I love how you share that no matter what you had an intimate relationship with God. We all do, we were all created by his breath forth so it is in our very own make up, in our particles and to the core. Re-igniting such a precious relationship for all of us is one of returning home and embracing all that we are.
God is always with us, as we are a spark of this same source, we simply need to re-connect to our body and we will know that we are God equal to all the other Gods.
“even though I didn’t have any organised religion in my life, I can now see, looking back, that as a kid the way that I lived was truly religious. It didn’t matter that I never said His name, God was very known to me – very, very known indeed.” Being reminded that we all have a connection with God from the moment we are born, and don’t need anything to worship or abide by other than what we feel to be true for ourselves through this connection that we all innately have, was such a confirmation for me also, knowing that the uncomfortable and doubtful feelings I had had about organised religion were true.
Being reunited with God brings the knowing we are and the sadness of the evil of separating from who we are in our essence to be felt and reclaimed joyfully.
I can relate to what you have shared here Alexis. In that for as long as I can remember I have had a sense of what God is and not linked this to a specific teaching or religion. When I renounced my affiliation with the Catholic Church not one ounce of me felt that this compromised my relationship with God.
Beautifully said Abby, for God does not belong to an institution nor to anyone individually. God simply is and our relationship with God comes from within and not from an outside source.
It is interesting how we consider a physical move at a certain age as being problematic, whereas you can now identify it was the choice to move away from God that had affected you so much. God simply waited until you came back and reconnected with yourself again to feel your true love and joy within.
In God’s eyes I never left.
I love that prefix ‘re’ – re-united, re-connected, resurrected, religion, all beautifully showing us that there is a way back to all that we know to be true.
Yesterday someone shared with me the understanding that as long as we don´t allow ourselves to be transparent and let everyone see God in and through us our connection with God is still limited by conditions, and yes, how can God´s light be in us (in full) when we hold it back whereas God is never holding back anything from us but shines his love on us just like the sun does without any discrimination or conditions.
A beautiful reminder Alex – to know God in full, we have to be as open and transparent as He is with us.
“God is never holding back anything from us but shines his love on us just like the sun does without any discrimination or conditions”.
I love the simplicity of this Alexis, that God is always there it is just the way we are with our bodies that makes us feel the fact or not feel the fact. And how beautiful that the choices are all ours to make, even though life can be challenging, we are the ones that can choose.
We are the only ones that can choose.
I have read this a few times and today this line hit me like the proverbial ton-o-bricks – “And is that, in fact, the purpose of a belief – to deliberately steer us away from the truth?”. And I was like, Alexis, you are on the money! And I realised how many beliefs are circulating around at the moment and how they do keep us separate from truth, from ourselves. For example, so many women believe they are not worthy, as lack of self-worth is a big issue, but that is simply not the truth. We are born everything, and women are naturally wise, full of grace, sass, spunk, gentleness, power, preciousness….the list could go on. But are women living this today? Not many, not truly from the inner-essence. A belief is in the way.
Sarah, it’s a brilliant feeling when we realise the full truth of something because it means that we will never be fooled in quite the same way again. Our lived understanding contributes to the global loosening of illusions’ tight grip on humanity. A grip, by the way that will gradually loosen over time until it relinquishes the current stranglehold that it has on humanity and then the whole charade will come cascading down.
God is good! Loved this article!
Being reunited with God is the biggest joy and knowing in the world, the love we all are, united from within us. A beautiful sharing, reality and reflection.
It is remarkable how much awareness we have access to simply through the clairsentience that is available and natural to us when we are born. The fact that we do not honour and nurture this quality in our children, and by the time we are adults most of us don’t even recall ever experiencing it, is a travesty. None the less it is a blessing that this ability never ever leaves us, simply buried under the many patterns we have adopted that sabotage our connection.
It is therefore a joy to look at the hurts and the patterns of behaviour that we bring in time after time to cope with them. When these are revealed we are richly nourished by the understanding and deeper sense of ourselves.
It was never spoken to us that we are indeed a spark of God in essence, ending forever the need to search for God as something only outside of ourselves.
So many things we think we lack in life, and yet almost all are in 100% supply – we’ve just decided to close our eyes. Thank you Alexis for the inspiration to open back up to what’s actually there.
So beautifully true Alexis, when we step away from ourselves we ARE stepping away from God. And this hurts us deeply.
“God was never mentioned when I was growing up;” and could it be possible that we are our not understanding or wanting to understand our responsibility when it come to reincarnation and the way that we pass-over will be reflected in our next incarnation? Understanding our true responsibility in life will follow us into death so that our commitment to living a life of Love will cement that level of Livingness in our next incarnation.
To me that’s one of the biggest lies that we have fallen for that we can step away from God. It is impossible to do this because we all live on a planet which is in the universe and the universe is the body of God. So how is it possible to conceive that we are separate from God, the very air we breathe is God because it is part of the universe. So there is no getting away from God he is everywhere. I found growing up the Roman Catholic Church would have me believe something different. My dad always said that we didn’t need to go to church to be with God as he was always in our hearts, that was probably one of the few things that we agreed on and I feel to be true.
Like our truest friend that never turns our back on us despite the antics we get up to, our inner godliness awaits us with all the strength of a star and a whole universe of love. We are forever wrapped in our Father’s arms.
‘It didn’t matter that I never said His name, God was very known to me’ – I too, always knew that I was accompanied by something that made life light, playful, wonderous and magic. I can still today feel the simplicity and joy of the deep connection from childhood and I know it is ever only a choice away.
Being re-united with God is like being re-united with a long lost dear friend.
And I bet you haven’t been going to church?!!
We need to make it a very ordinary, very everyday conversation. ‘God’ has been shrouded in mystery and mystic (very purposefully by the organised religions to enable them to oppress the people and maintain their power) and yet there is, by definition, no-one who is more everyman than God.
and there is no man that is more ordained than any another.
We have masterfully and with awe-inspiring precision and dedication created a world that is so perfectly constructed to hold us away from God…which then begs the question…to do this so brilliantly, we clearly know EXACTLY what we are doing and EXACTLY what we trying to avoid.
Indeed Otto, we are the engineers of our own demise.
..and of our own resurrection.
At an incredibly young age, I shut myself off from my connection with God, donned the suit of armour and began the battle of life. In the last few years I have re-parented myself through those early years and by finding, re-connecting to and re-feeling the only thing that I craved – true love – the devastation of the early shut-off clears, and the riches of heaven are beginning to re-fill my body.
“I never consciously realised that the greatest hurt by far was choosing to step away from my beloved God.” This is something i am finding also and the realisation of our true intimacy with God and all around us that is here and is always waiting to be connected to again as. A beautifully shared experience and reality of our innate union with God inside from our bodies as one.
“Re-united with God” – felt when we are re-united with the quality of our stillness. Where we see the absolute grace and royalty of our light; the light of godliness.
So incredibly beautifully expressed Zofia.
Just because we pull the blind down doesn’t mean daylight’s deleted. Shutting the door doesn’t erase the stars from the sky. So one of our saving graces is, if we are just willing to open up we can reconnect to God again.
“I never consciously realised that the greatest hurt by far was choosing to step away from my beloved God. ” I have the same feeling, I recall the date/time and period at School when I choose to let go of me and enjoin being liked by my school peers. I went from a feeling hurt by what I felt around me to starting to numb it and with that stepped away from the raw truth of what I felt and therefore also from God.
To know that ‘God never walks away from us’ is so inspiring; to be honest about the fact that it is us that walks away from him is also inspiring because, if we walked away then we can absolutely walk back, feeling his embrace every step of the way.
‘if we walked away then we can absolutely walk back’ – Exactly, it can’t really be said in a simpler way.
As a kid, I felt a strong to connection to God, as a teenager and a woman in my twenties, I put this connection onto the back burner. It wasn’t until I came into my thirties and made that connection again that I realised just how deep my grief was at denying and separating from God was. For me my relationship with God is innate, it’s a deep part of me that I can’t deny.
‘as a kid the way that I lived was truly religious’ – Yes, kids know true religion because they know who they are, that is, until they start to compromise themselves and dismiss what they feel, in order to fit in to the world.
It is curious that we can actually consider ourselves separate from and then re-united with God. It is like imagining that we have the option to cut ourselves from the Sun and then we one day start to be open to accepting the Sun in our lives again. Of course we can make up anything we want and we sure do, we even build institutions that confirm what we have decided to have as our reality, even if it doesn’t really make sense if we look at it with the purity and honesty of a child’s eyes.
“…because no one had ever spoken to me about what true connection to God was, I never consciously knew that God and I were one and the same and so consequently I didn’t realise that when I chose to step away from myself, I was also choosing to step away from God.” How wonderful would it be if we were all taught this from a young age, that it became the most natural and fundamental piece of wisdom that we passed onto our children as soon as they were born? It would undoubtedly change the way we feel about ourselves and put to rest so many questions that we otherwise have as we grow up.
It is so true, that life is geared towards not seeing or being aware of the God within, both ourselves and of eachother. Life on earth in many ways has therefore become God-less, which is kinda odd, because God has not gone anywhere.
I walked in a park yesterday beside a beautiful lake, colourful flowering shrubs, huge trees and as I did, I lost my ‘self’ and became one with all around me. I moved in space, not time.
God is everywhere, in us, others, nature, the universe: all is God and God is Love. Our disconnection with the grandness and simplicity of this truth, leaves us in separation, at odds with ourselves, humanity and nature.
Beautiful, Shirley-Ann, no bells and whistles, just a gentle unfolding which re-connects us with God within.
How beautiful Shirley-Ann.
Our intimacy with God that is always there and amazing to be reunited with and acknowledged again in life is very beautiful to read and know for myself also. A real and honest sharing that is inspiring and a great reflection of the love and union with God we are and share.
So many of us like to sit on the fence or consider ourselves agnostic so as to avoid the ridicule of being branded a religious nutter.
Understanding the way that a re-connection is, as is the truth of the word religion, when coming from its roots as it does mean to re-connect, takes us all to a place that is simple for us to transfer what we feel about the dogmatic ways of modern religion and open us all up to the truth that God delivers.
Maybe the deeper understandings like these insights dedicated to Universal Medicine shall put asunder the skeptic, religious fanatic, agnostic and atheist who have had the wool pulled over there eyes from all the lies that have been bantered around about how true religion, which is so natural for us all, as we all feel the magnetic pull towards God.
When I was younger, I thought it was cool and controversial and alternative to be an agnostic. A horrible play out of the need to be individual and to get some kind of recognition.
This is what happens to so many of us Otto and may I add to the discussion by sharing that as an individual it is possible to be in a spiritual pursuit or being an agnostic to seek “recognition” so that we fit in with others and have a similar point-of-view then we are open to discuss our way-ward-ways with others so we do not feel so isolated, and all of this will keep us from our truth of our divinity.
It’s interesting that you say “..so we do not feel isolated” As an agnostic, I always felt that there must be more to the world, must be more to all of this thing called ‘life’ – what was the point of it all? where were we going? why? Since Universal Medicine has re-awakened me to my innately religious being – a relationship and development that is ever-deepening – I have never felt less alone, more connected and more committed and purposeful in my whole life. So in fact, it was my choice to be an agnostic that was truly isolating me by keeping my world so individualistic and myopic.
God – how can we not know what is in every cell in our body? The answer lies in our disconnection to our body.
We don’t need to ‘believe’ in God. We live inside God’s body and therefore am an intrinsic and very precious part of him. All we need to do, as you so eloquently express it Alexis, is re-connect to our innate knowing of God within us, a warm, wise and joyful quality in the centre of our being.
Not believe in God, but re-connect with the God within us all, absolutely true Rowena.
Beliefs are tenuous at best, knowing is absolute.
Beliefs can be broken or disproven. Our connection with God can never be broken or disproven. Absolutely we can choose to ignore it, deny it and intellectually reject it….but it is never not there.
I absolutely knew God as a child, but I chose to ignore this connection by going into hurts that then kept me trapped away from the most important part of me. I know when I am in connection to God, as when I met certain people my heart sings, it is quite incredible to have such joy in my heart that I can actually feel it so alive and singing. I would love to have this experience with everyone I meet, because we all deserve this way of greeting each other. How different would our lives be if we all lived this way.
So much of life interferes with our capacity to know God. Innumerable distractions of our internal and external worlds leaves little room for space, stillness and silence and without this we may not feel God’s ever-loving and constant presence.
I completely agree Kehinde. We are constantly pulled, prodded and pushed from the moment we’re born until our last breath, because the forces that seek to interfere with us know that if we were simply left to be, then be with God we would.
Institutionalized Religion OR on the other spectrum atheism is a completely different thing to knowing that each and everyone of us has a natural connection with the universe that is deeply religious, simply because we know there is more to life than simple mechanics. We can of course ignore this larger part of ourselves and only focus on the body and its mechanics, make life purely about quantity and not about quality, but the reality is that we are simply ignoring the biggest part of who we are and what we are here to bring. And when we look at the quality, it is about recognizing that it is not about the quality coming from an outside, externalized source, but realizing that it comes from within the deepest depths of our hearts.
I also had a strong relationship with God when I was a kid but didn’t acknowledge consciously acknowledge this until I re-found God as an adult. Because the socially normal ways of having God in your life, like attending church and praying weren’t part of it, I had none confirming that what I felt was true or valuable. Looking back now I can see that I and almost all kids have this connection with God, simply because we are in the simplicity and grace of being present and responsive to our bodies. This is how I short cut the many ideas that can run me, and allows the space and stillness of God in my body.
‘because no one had ever spoken to me about what true connection to God was, I never consciously knew that God and I were one and the same and so consequently I didn’t realise that when I chose to step away from myself, I was also choosing to step away from God.’ – I love what you are sharing here Alexis, how crucial is it to know that we are all one and the same, even God. Separation from ourselves and the all has dire consequences, even though we may not be consciously aware of it.
Realising God is within us all the time, there for us to start to connect to in any moment, is deeply healing and humbling. It opens the door to build a relationship with Him through our building a relationship with ourselves.
“God never ever walks away from any of us; it’s always us that choose to walk away from Him.” This is the illusion we live under for in truth God is all around us in every cell of our body, we live within his sphere we can not escape him, he is always there, we just choose to turn the other way.
I don’t know exactly when I started to abandon my sense of an absolute unquestionable connection and oneness with God and the whole of the Universe, and instead buy into the many ideas and pictures about what and who he is. I know by the time I came to Universal Medicine I preferred to ignore any mention or conversation about God.
Thank you Universal Medicine, it is such a joy to reconnect to the simplicity and absoluteness of all that I started off with and abandoned that long ago.
Love the analogy Doug and may I add that. “organised religions” all shuffle the cards so as to give a different version, but it all comes from the same ill energy and thus will be understood for the false platforms that hold these institutions, which means we will no longer play 52 card pick-up, as our eyes will be open to the deceptive ways the cards have been stacked.
Agreed Doug, and as Alexis has already shared, “By restoring my body back to its original condition, it has enabled me to be able to feel God again and to realise that God is within us all of the time,” Thus understanding the holes with absolute clarity so we can become Holy again.
Then it highly probable that the modern religious dogmas want to hold us in ignorance so we are kept from the truth about being held responsible for every action and thought? And this is not condemning anyone, it is simply sharing what the energy is that these institutions have been set up in.
This is what the Ageless Wisdom teachings have always been presenting, that we are either being connected through divine energy to our essences and thus being responsible for us evolving out of the mess humanity is living in, or playing the game, which is indulging in the ill energy that has always been settling for the comforts of whatever era we have been in.
Then those prophets that have presented the truth about God have always been shut down, discredited or condemned, censored, concealed, reinterpreted and/or then religions have placed them on such a high place of honour that it is seemingly impossible to obtain the same over glorified way of living. When the teachings have always shared we are all equal. Go figure?
The presentations of the Way of The Livingness have shone a light on God and reincarnation from day one and seeing it is part of the lineage of The Ageless Wisdom in its current form, then is it any wonder that the media are continuing the age old patterns of discrediting, condemning, censorship and reinterpretation?
‘God never walks away from us…’ so true Alexis. It’s strange that even when we walk away from God and even say we don’t believe in him, we can still blame him for what happens in our lives. Is God a convenience in such cases, to believe when we want to – or not? And still he holds us……. – no judgemen, just pure unconditional love.
Now no matter how down and out we may feel in life, if we remember this one fact we realise that it is us who have been responsible for all our choices.
It is interesting to feel the disconnection you felt when you moved to another town and experienced bullying. If we withdraw and separate from the love that we are when we are hurt in life, it makes sense that we cannot connect to the all, God or whatever we call it.
We certainly are Richard, but how we use our power can either be healing or harming. Also, however far we think we can walk away from God, the pull is always present for us to return to Him again.
The hurts we hold in our body can block our connection to God and our ability to feel His light within us. It is our responsibility to keep our body clear of hurts so we can do what our body is naturally designed to do, express God’s light through every particle of our body.
‘I always knew that I missed the countryside and that the bullying at school was traumatic, but I never consciously realised that the greatest hurt by far was choosing to step away from my beloved God.’ Bullying can be traumatic so much so that people actually commit suicide over it ..which is absolutely shocking and something (bullying) that should never be excused, dismissed or tolerated. What is really important here, as you share, is our connection because the more we are deeply truly connected to our innate essence the less and less bullying has an affect on us.
The re-union with God appears to me as being a step by step or gradual process, although that may not be necessary, nevertheless I experience that with every layer I let go that has kept me separate from God, I come back to him a bit more, only to discover another layer I have not yet been aware of and so on. I suppose that we only complete that unfolding when we realize ourselves as being Gods just like him. In that sense the re-unification is actually the full activation of us being the Gods we are breathed forth in equalness by our heavenly father.
Alex that has also been my experience, the gradual unfoldment of God.
‘It has taken my reunification with God to realise that as a child I knew Him intimately. If you asked me to explain who God is or how He feels, then I couldn’t, other than to say He feels like the deepest part of me.’ It feels a huge expansion of all that I have held on to so tightly to get me through life when I realised the simplicity and integrity of knowing me was the same as knowing God – we are one and the same.
Very well said, Alexis. Coming back to the body and letting go of what holds us in hurts or issues naturally opens us up again to feeling the spark of God within us.
All my life [until I came to Universal Medicine 12 years ago] I had always kept myself busy, racing, rushing around, pre-occupied with anxious thoughts, checklists on life, with countless ideals about myself, doing everything quickly from talking, eating, walking. Then i started to re-gain my breath. And in this breath felt another quality that was there underneath the ill quality breath of race and rush; I felt the quality of silent stillness. It is here , and it is living my life in a few of those such moments that i gave to myself, that I felt the presence of myself, and also the presence and knowing of God. In stillness, God is; we are too.
I too moved house around the age of 9. We moved from a very old wooden house to a band new build house in the same area we lived, but 5 kilometres away. You may think that is fine, to move from a old house to a new, and I agree. But that is only the physical. The connection I had build with myself and with surroundings in the old place, where I knew all the ins and outs and especially all the people that lived there, were very valuable to me. In the new place these were not there. Everything was new, everybody was new and in that I now can feel that I was missing the old connections and to the trust in life I got from that. But now I have learned that we cannot control life and that we have to build that strong connection with ourselves from which we can go to every place in the world without inwardly being disturbed.
I love this, Nico. That wherever we go we have ‘home’ with us when we are connected to our innermost – in a deep, loving, open and honest relationship with ourselves.
I do recognise that Alexis, “God never ever walks away from any of us; it’s always us that choose to walk away from Him”. It is by our own choice that we lose our connection with God, as when we choose to return he is there immediately as in ‘hi, I have missed you, glad you are back’ without any judgement.
It’s not possible for God to ever miss us because it’s not possible for God to ever think we’ve left.
Yes you are correct Alexis, I responded too much from me being identified as a human.
and that’s the set up Nico, to get us all believing that we are individual humans, rather then the collective consciousness of God.
Living life from our body is a totally different way of relating to life than how we’re taught. When we live life by what we can feel and not what our minds dictate, there is that connection to our innate knowingness of what feels true and right for us. And with that, a freedom that comes with just being our natural selves, not one ounce of self doubt or seeking anything. We don’t even need to think, because we just know.
I suppose most of us walk away from God because a lot of what we learn or is shoved down our throats doesn’t make too much sense but when we make that personal connection things really start to come to light.
Yes Kevin, without that inner connection we can be told the many lies and are not able to see through them. But when we reconnect with our inner most, the the blinds are lifted from our eyes and we see all for what it truly is.
Rebecca if we didn’t teach God out of children then we wouldn’t have to teach Him back in.
‘…when I chose to step away from myself, I was also choosing to step away from God.’ – Hence the simplicity of returning to oneself as the way back to God – that´s the esoteric path. We are sons of God, God is immanent within us, we are him and he is us and we know it when we live it.
So we’ll said Alex and the only way for any of us to truly know God is by living him in our bodies, there is no other way.
I have tried to ‘find’ God many times in my life to realise more recently, like you Alexis, everything I ever needed was already within.
Very beautiful Gill. And, it is when we connect to God within ourselves are we then able to see and feel God’s light is actually being reflected all around us and within us.
This is very powerful Alexis – ‘I have had to turf out everything that does not belong in my body: ideals about how things should be, beliefs (all of them because there is not one belief that is true), notions, ideas, images, imaginings, every thing that does not come from truth.’ When we re-connect to the grace of God within our body, we realise how much we have put in the way of simply feeling all that is and has always been there for us to bring to the world.
How poisonous are our beliefs when they can get us to believe the exact opposite to the truth? And is that, in fact, the purpose of a belief – to deliberately steer us away from the truth? Yes it is. One such belief I carried was that God had abandoned me, which kept me believing for a long time that I was all alone, and that I had to do things on my own. Needless to say, this created so much struggle in my life, which was exhausting. Feeling so much lighter in my body since seeing through the falseness, and clearing that belief from my body.
Clearing beliefs from our bodies is like throwing ballast overboard, it makes our bodies so much lighter.
Understanding how we are responsible to re-connect to our essence, (which has always been divine) and we all equally have this connection.This has been taken away from us by religious teachings that are man made, that preach God and his messengers are some how different. Example is that we have not embodied how reincarnation works, even those who have a belief in an after life, and this is because like a lot of true teachings they have been bastardised, so that we do not get to fully have a grasp of the responsibility that comes from being a Son of God. Returning to God is simple if we only choose to re-connect to our essence and allow our body to re-learn to be a divine vehicle again.
We are held by great hands of love that never let go. It is only when we disconnect from this beholding love that we feel as if we are alone and lost in the darkness of our chosen isolation.
Beautiful Liane, perfectly summarised.
So true Liane, I love the way you’ve shared this and spoken about it. Beautiful to read and a great confirmation of the love that we all are.
God within us, this is a call for us all to feel this more deeply, thank you Alexis.
What has been shared is quite beautiful Alexis. Your returning relationship with God and what it means to be religious … it’s not about going to a church. Its having a relationship with the deepest part of ourselves – as you have so beautifully said.
And there are many house of cards that are held together in society with such an inconsistent foundation and will come crumbling down when the untruths and inconsistencies are exposed. These exist in all facets in life, eg the education system, religions, our work places, the beliefs we hold about ‘family’ and so on.
If we use truth as our gauge as to the solidity of life on earth, then we are living in a very flimsy world indeed.
We can only build truly enduring, steady and lasting relationship, community, workplaces and family when they have foundations of truth.
Without the foundation of truth, there can be no real foundation.
Is it no wonder that we are all struggling in life and are falling apart with anxiety, stress, mental illness, increased illness and disease, abuse, pornography, obesity, excessive alcohol and drug use, excessive binge eating, binge TV, given-up-ness, lack of motivation, seeking escape etc, because we are living on rotten foundations that do not, in truth, support us? The thing to wonder at, is that we keep on going, trying to make these foundations work.
‘How poisonous are our beliefs when they can get us to believe the exact opposite to the truth?’ this question Alexis is super important and one we should take time to seriously consider. When I am posed with this question, I think of the damage that is done, the harm, the division in relationships that results from people standing in their untrue convenient truth/belief system and pitting that against another who may also be standing in their untrue belief system they are holding on to with a vengeance. The untruths that we hold as truths do not only not allow us to see the truth but cause a great amount of distress in the world as we choose to act upon them and champion them at all costs.
‘It has taken my reunification with God to realise that as a child I knew Him intimately. If you asked me to explain who God is or how He feels, then I couldn’t, other than to say He feels like the deepest part of me.’ beautifully said Alexis.
‘Before the age of nine I lived life from my body and then when trauma hit, it changed the relationship that I had with my body.’ – Wow Alexis, this is such an important revelation. The way you share this made me understand the impact of traumas on a whole new level. Thank you.
“We’ve constructed so many false and misleading notions around what it is to be religious that I never considered that as a child I was deeply religious…” – I think this is something that can apply to us at any and all stages of life whereby we could be dismissing an innate knowing or sense of divinity and religion in our everyday life because it doesn’t necessarily fit the picture of what we have heard ‘religion’ is meant to be…
There’s nothing more instrumental in preventing people from accessing God than organised religion.
Love to hear about the natural connection you feel so clearly – untutored, and with no sense of an organised God, you have your own relationship with what is divine within. Its there for all of us… are we listening?
The forces that come at us usually unseen, unchallenged and in silence means they are often hidden but are felt and because we don’t talk about it these forces are not exposed. They shut out the truth of who we truly are. It is beautiful to read about your reconnection to who you are and your reclaimed relationship with God, Alexis. Your reflection is powerful as it teaches us about the experience of so many people around us.
I’ve experienced this to be true also Alexis, that our bodies hold every experience we encounter, good or bad, every hurt, every reaction, every thing. Understanding myself in this way has lead to being able to release a lot of what ‘weighs you down’ to not walk our light and natural way.
Our bodies are with us with every thought, action and experience in life and they do hold and register all of this, every detail. It makes complete sense to be in absolute awareness of what our bodies are communicating so we can allow ourselves to let go of what we know does not belong to our true and natural selves, cherish all that does and support ourselves, our body as needed.
‘If you asked me to explain who God is or how He feels, then I couldn’t, other than to say He feels like the deepest part of me.’ I feel the same. As a kid, there was such a deep knowing within that was absolute and unquestionable. Even during my Catholic upbringing when none of the Church’s behaviour made sense and I questioned the whole aspect of the role of Jesus that was presented by the church, I never let go of the absoluteness of God.
This is inspiring Rachel. A glorious example of the strength and power of our inner knowing.
This is a simple yet profound revelation – “I never consciously knew that God and I were one and the same and so consequently I didn’t realise that when I chose to step away from myself, I was also choosing to step away from God.” When we lose connection with ourselves, we sorely miss the joy, love and purpose in life from feeling God in our every breath and movement.
“So consequently I didn’t realise that when I chose to step away from myself, I was also choosing to step away from God” Very true – and step back to ourselves and every speck and every millimetre of heaven awaits us.
Good point there, I haven’t really connected how important it is for the body to be considered when we talk about our experience with God. Overall our body is not much of a topic in these type of conversations. Then it’s more about the beliefs we have and the practicalities we do that is supposed to connect us to divinity, as in doing good and regularly going to church, but I feel many of us can feel that this is not the way to connect with any so called “higher power”. I think it’s important that we reclaim what you are sharing with us, that many of us were in fact religious when we were little just by the way we were with ourselves and that that is actually the true version of what being religious is all about.
Imagine talking to God, while on social media on your phone, imagine having a chat with him in your lounge while the TV was on in the background, consider going out for tea with God, all the time thinking about something else. It sounds odd but it is the reality of how many of us live distracted from God and ourselves every day.
Beautiful experiment to live by Joseph… every comment, text, chat, email, presentation are all communications with God. Do we give them our all or excuse ourselves because we are tired, we hold back, we’re nice etc. All of which mean others do not get our all.
Love what you bring here Joseph. Super cool and a way of bringing more appreciation to all others who we interact with.
These are fantastic parallels, shows the reductionism that plays out in our lives everyday.
Love it, Joseph. It sounds too ridiculous for words as we say in The Netherlands, but this is actually how we interact with each other. With God, ourselves and other people, we sell ourselves short from all the divine connections that are so natural for us.
I remember being with a young child reading a book about gardening, and the child pointed at a figure and said that it looked liked God. I was really surprised at the time as the family was not into organised religion and would more likely call themselves non-believers. And at the time I was also in that category. But now as – like you Alexis – I have reconnected to God in the simplest and truest way – and I can see that child was also connected and knew that as well.
I’ve come to see that the fact that God is associated with being “a believer” has been what has stopped us all appreciating that we are all innately part of God. We see the outplays and versions of what has been touted is God when the truth is far simpler than made out to be.
This is a great example of where the mass following the untrue way has deterred many from not seeing and feeling the simplicity that God is, is deeply known to us before words and is never part of any organised form.
So often words take us away from the experience of something and in so doing, end up distorting the experience so that it’s no longer recognisable.
On reflection God was never mentioned with my mum and dad when I grew up, yet I still went to Sunday school and church. This has enabled me to see just how much we do things on autopilot, or what we ‘should’ be doing without even questioning or having a discussion. For example it would have been far more enriching having a discussion about this and not going to Sunday school, as then I would have not only expressed myself and had a better understanding of others beliefs and ideals, I would have started to lay the foundation in my life of what my values were and what I truly cared about and knew, because it would have been expressed from my body. There is no blame here on anyone, just something I have seen more clearly after reading this blog. It makes me wonder just how many other things I adhered to in life being on autopilot and not lovingly questioning. Also the numbing affect this had on me .. there were quite a few!
This is beautiful Alexis, we can feel deep within, when we connect, that God has never ever walked away from any of us. The essence within us all is one and the same.
Indeed it is Gill, we are all the United Consciousness of God. One living piece of divinity that has fallen for the illusion of separation, when in truth there is none.
Such a great sharing and a poignant point about when we choose to step away from ourselves we are choosing to step away from God. The ultimate relationship as an equal, yet in nearly if not all scenarios, we are taught God is above, higher and more than we are.
“It has taken my reunification with God to realise that as a child I knew Him intimately. If you asked me to explain who God is or how He feels, then I couldn’t, other than to say He feels like the deepest part of me.” My earliest memories was when I would hide under the bed and pray to God whenever I felt scared. I knew he was there always around me and within, I felt safe by talking and praying.
This is really beautifull ‘If you asked me to explain who God is or how He feels, then I couldn’t, other than to say He feels like the deepest part of me.’ I feel similar in that the relationship is intimate yet I still do not value and cherish this as much as I could. Something for me to be with and heal.
IT would be great to have that taught and/or reminded of as a kid. That it is in our Connection within our body where we find the Union where we are part of. There we feel God.
I agree to bring this teaching as a Kid would be so supper supportive to humanity as a whole,
The need to either teach or remind kids of their natural connection to God only arises because we have stripped them of it in the first place. If we were to simply support kids to stay as they are and celebrated their natural connection to God, then there would be no need to educate them about God because our bodies know God inside out.
‘It didn’t matter that I never said His name, God was very known to me – very, very known indeed.‘ In life we have many words and names for things, we have mentalised much and reinterpreted much and have this version or that version of the one thing BUT our bodies always feel and know the truth. And as young children before the world imposed its version of life on us, we could feel life clearly from our bodies. So the words and meanings are not important when the knowing is very absolute in the body and if we all learn to live life from this connection, from this knowing then life/the world would be a far truer place to be.
I agree Richard, the mind always comes with complications, while we live with our inner heart, our direct connection with God, life becomes so much more joyful and very simple too.
I agree we have complicated it with our mind, the simplicity is that God is within us and with us all of the time. We must just choose to connect to this awareness.
For me, even saying that God is ‘with us’ implies the possibility of separation, when in truth there can be none.
We must all have that, that our greatest hurt is our disconnection with God.
Our disconnection from ourselves from God is disconnection from our deepest knowing, our connection to multidimensionality, the grandness we are all from and part of. Yes I agree. It is everyone’s deepest hurt whether they are consciously aware of it or not. From this disconnection all other separation and rot takes place in life, society, relationships, etc.
Actually we can say that we are lost, rudderless when we disconnect from God and do stray away in many directions to continuously improve life. Because of that divine origin, we do have a remembering that life can be so different, more loving, we then constantly try to create. But this will never work, as we cannot make or create love, we can only connect with love and that is a completely different movement.
Beautifully said Nico.
I so agree, that is the most painful and deepest hurt, as that is taking us away from who we are truly are. No wonder when we disconnect we feel lost.
Yes Amita, psychology becomes very simple when we understand that our deepest hurt is form our disconnection with God and that all the feelings of being less, being obsessed, or being jealous or even when we compare, all is from this disconnection in which we are at the mercy of another force that does not unite and enjoys all the excitement and the individual attention that comes with it.
Because when we return to God after so many years, our bodies needs some time to readjust and discard the ill and hurts it is holding as its way of coping with this disconnection.
We took time to disconnect, a lot of time and were part of much in that disconnection, so it makes complete sense that we give ourselves the time and space upon our return and the letting go of the ill patterns, hurts beliefs etc that simply do not belong to the grandness we are from. What I have found though, is that the return and the response of the body to truth, is far quicker than the time I took in separating and the abuse of not being with myself.
So true Johanna, time is relative and especially when you see that you can undo in a few years the ill you have build in thousands of years it is still fairly quick. It too demonstrates the power we have when we make the choice to return to that inner spark and make our life about this returning and nothing else.
If we separate from the inner heart it makes sense that we also lose our connection to the all or GOD in whatever way we experience that connection to something bigger than ourselves.
It is through our body that we find our way back to Soul. A connection to an ancient old truth that we are love from within. A joy as it is mystic.
We never actually discussed religion or God in our family, religion was just something we did on Sundays or holy days. We went to church, we ate fish on Fridays and that was about it. The Way of The Livingness has introduced me to True Family and Brotherhood and a new way of appreciating just who or what God is.
I find it interesting to hear from people who felt they were religious as children. I never had that experience and my parents were not in any church when I grew up. Religion was simply not an important subject.
Religion is innate in all and not the loaded and maligned term and its connotations we have turned it into.Every child knows God and religion without knowing the actual word; God and religion come before words.
Beautifully said Gabriele. Our deep and true knowing and innate connection rest deeply within each and everyone of us – We as humans have added words, mentalised, invented different versions of the one thing, reinterpreted, misinterpreted and overall bastardised the what is truly deeply there before words exist.
This blog is very beautiful Alexis… I can feel in my body your journey away from and back to God as it reminds me of my own too. Thanks for describing it so detailed and true.
I love how you bring it back to us and that we step away from the connection from God and hence ourselves. And I think also that there are lots of things out there specifically geared for us not to reconnect: beliefs, education, institutionalised religion, food, etc etc.
We are so much more connected to God then we think we are. There is that tendency to look outside of us, to read books, send prayers to heaven, perform rituals and pilgrimages but all the time we are doing that we forgot that God is already within and that this outward search is only a distraction from really connecting.
God looking everywhere for God and then giving up because he can’t find Him.
That is crazy, because we are looking outside of ourselves rather than within.
Yes Alexis, it is a ridiculous behavior we one day can laugh about, but at this moment is bringing all the misery and suffering we see on a daily basis around us.
Life becomes so hard because we disconnect from God and with that from our innate beingness. No wonder we at times we can feel so lost, devastated and alone.
I was brought up to see God as outside of me and that I was some kind of sinner, a very unworthy person to be in God’s presence! I have since learnt that Religion has it so wrong and is responsible for many of humanities ill ways of being. There is not just one Son we are all Sons of God equally so. The healing has begun thanks to The Way of The Livingness, as presented by Serge Benhayon.
Yes I was brought up like this too Roslyn, yet I could still feel something much truer and deeper in my body that supported me to eventually see what was false and claim the truth more and more.
Leaving God (and therefore our soul and connection with all life) is very traumatic but something that I didn’t acknowledge or feel the depth of until I was re-united with God, especially through the Gentle Breath Meditation and Esoteric Yoga. It’s one of those huge inner aches we have, that we push down and try to ignore because no one else is admitting they miss God.
That our bodies are the medium through which we feel God is such an alien concept for many religious faiths and institutions, and yet it makes such “common”sense, in other words how the true wisdom inside all of us if we choose to connect with it, (for we live in our bodies not our minds which are only part of the whole of us), is not from our minds but through feeling and listening to our bodies. It is very obvious how those who make a study of theology come to it from their brains, and as a culture we have become addicted to knowledge and amassing information from which to work things out, rather than allowing the deep wisdom of our bodies to inform us as we live our daily lives and feel God within.
Alexis, thank you for sharing your walk back to God. It is beautiful to truly know that God, ever loving, always there, never walks away from us.. that it is we who walk away from him.. and through simple choices as presented by Universal Medicine we can reconnect with God at any time.
The simplicity and sweetness of this invitation to return our bodies to their natural state and therefore complete relationship with God is super cool, inspiring and beautiful. Thank you, Alexis.
We are not taught what is to me the most important thing in life, which is that we are the same as God, there is no difference. How can there be a difference, we are all made up of the same chemicals and particles as the universe… fact. God is our universe… fact, we therefore live in the body of God… fact and so by the very fact our particles are the same as that of God…how can we not be God? So even when we think we have stepped away from God, we cannot because we are the very fabric that he is. I know I was taught this as a religion, science and philosophy in past lives but these teaching became corrupted by force by the religion of the day and we have lived the lies we were fed ever since. Where it is easier to blame God or give up on him than to accept we gave our power away to a false religion that would at the time brook no opposition.
If we dip in and out of life like flicking through tv channels, is it any surprise that we forget the truth that we’re divine? Stay present with all of you in all you do and you can’t help but know God.
So beautifully said Joseph.
When I am deeply connected with my self I know I am with God
That is a truth for men too Mary-Louise, we are from God and therefore always connected. It is only by your own choice we can feel not connected and alone, left out from God.
It is us who disconnects, God never disconnects or leaves us.
Interesting how I feel I have always had a strong connection with God, but I still feel uncomfortable talking about this with some people – possibly because I can feel their discomfort around the topic. There has been so much bastardisation of this word to make it mean so many things that it is not, and in that wrong association, you can feel a judgement or catergorisation of yourself when you mention this word. And yet it is everything but that…Perhaps one of our ‘jobs’ is to help these words be brought back to their true meaning when we use them correctly. God I love this! 😉
Every time I shed a notion, belief, opinion or ideal, I am one step freer from all the patterns I have adopted to cope, none of which have come close to restoring me to God in the way that the teachings of The Way of the Livingness and Universal Medicine have.
Matilda I love how you express this, its full of wisdom, simplicity and an incredible power that we all poses when we choose to let go of things that are not true.
The power is within us, once we we let go of the layers we have put on to stop this truth from coming through.
I love this, how you learned such honestly from your parents Alexis. Sadly, we don’t always live life in this way, and we can make huge problems and complications. When we live what we know from our bodies, our beliefs do not rule us.
The beauty of God is within us all and the joy comes from here within and nothing can take this away from us although we can and do give our power away to religious institutions and beliefs that then cripple us in denying all we feel and know inside. A poisonous way to live that is the core of all illness and disease.
The truth of God is the origin of all truth.
When you talk about preparing your body back to the pristineness like it once was, I can relate to. When I feel the quality that God is and that this also resides in me equally, then it makes absolute and total sense to nurture and prepare the body so it can en-house such a pristine vibration.
As a child I do not recall feeling connected to God, nor do I remember God being discussed at home and at school we had morning service with which I felt no connection, just something that had to be done as part of school. However, I always felt something was missing and spent years searching and exploring different religions and philosophies to no avail. It was not until I met Serge Benhayon, Universal Medicine and The Way of The Livingness that my search ended, my missing part discovered and the journey to deepen my connection with God has commenced.
“God never ever walks away from any of us; it’s always us that choose to walk away from Him.” So true, so even atheists still have God on their side! No judgement, no conditional love. God is with us always in all we do – regardless…….
Atheists are the livingness of God, just as is every mass murderer that has ever lived. There is no one that is’nt the livingness of God because there is nothing but the livingness of God.
There are many religions in the world that steer people away from truly connecting to God. But it is at Universal Medicine and in your gorgeous blog Alexis, that the truth is revealed. We are always deeply connected to God, His love never leaves us and when we cannot feel the presence of God, it is us who have chosen to disconnect from Him. But that is not the end of the world, because like you’ve shared and from my own experience, we can very quickly reconnect to God through our body. No need to go to a special building, seek a special person, meditate for years etc. because God has made it super easy and simple. We just have to reconnect to ourselves and we can all feel His love within every particle of our body.
“How poisonous are our beliefs when they can get us to believe the exact opposite to the truth?” A clever trick that can take us on a lifetimes journey in the opposite direction to where we are destined to be… constantly seeking outside ourselves, rather than re-turning to the love, truth and wisdom within – to God.
‘But you see, because no one had ever spoken to me about what true connection to God was, I never consciously knew that God and I were one and the same and so consequently I didn’t realise that when I chose to step away from myself, I was also choosing to step away from God.’ This is what happens when God is considered to be something outside of us and we don’t have these conversations about God and what He means to us. I’d no idea my greatest hurt was me walking away from me and God in hurt anger. I blamed circumstance outside myself- things that I thought shouldn’t have happened, and things that I thought should have happened but didn’t. I didn’t see my part in it all and how I am always held in love.
Even a few years ago I’d never have considered getting the same front flat tyres on my car as being more than bad luck and the world being pitted against me. Now I can read how I have been living hasn’t been honouring of the stillness within and being stopped in my ways is actually a call for great reflection.
A very honest and lived answer Alexis ‘If you asked me to explain who God is or how He feels, then I couldn’t, other than to say He feels like the deepest part of me.’
God is word-less, innate – God just is.
Thank you Alexis, it’s a deeply heartfelt sharing and I can very much relate. This is a beautiful truth ” I didn’t realise that when I chose to step away from myself, I was also choosing to step away from God.” Your words confirm that God is what are are a part of, that God and who we are is not separate.
I agree with you Alexis that when we restore our bodies back to their origin, we can naturally feel our connection to God and the universe. I feel the problem we have with the way we live, is that we have accepted so many lies and lived them, which has hidden from us the truth of who we are and where we truly come from.
Exposing the lies we have lived can be very uncomfortable but it is only in relinquishing them that we have any chance of building an honest relationship with ourselves and therefore others and life.
“….even though I didn’t have any organised religion in my life, I can now see, looking back, that as a kid the way that I lived was truly religious.” The simplicity of knowing that we already have that connection to God within us and don’t need any form of building or priest to make us feel worthy of Gods presence is so beautifully humbling and deeply touching.
We are never separate from God. How can we even imagine we could be? It is as crazy as saying we need to make an effort to connect to oxygen when we are breathing it, we are surrounded by it and it is also part of our every single cell – and perhaps even more ridiculous when we consider the energetic aspect of life.
The fact that some religions sell the idea that we are separate from God and we have to somehow appease him and claw our way back into his favour, shows how manipulative those hungry for power religious institutions have been for millennia and how we have on our part chosen to go along with it.
I agree Golnaz, we are not lowly or sinners who deserve punishment, but we are born connected to God through our essence, institutionalised religions cannot take that away though perhaps in some cases they can promote beliefs that could cloud our connection to the truth if we take the beliefs on.
So true Golnaz… ‘those hungry for power religious institutions’ can only exist if we give our power away to them, if we allow them to be.
Hear, hear Glonaz, powerfully expressed and spot on. You have revealed one of the greatest evils in the world. It is when institutions and organisations deliberately steer people away from truth and from truly connecting to God, and therefore steering people away from connecting to themselves. Because what will happen when people world-wide chooses to reconnect to themselves? they will feel empowered and able to see the lies that has been promoted and sold.
Yes, if God exists, it makes no sense to be separate and may not even be possible.
God isn’t something we see or touch and feel, it is the essence of who we are.
And no mystery either… he is the foundation breath and pulse in our bodies.
Divinely put Matilda.
As you so beautifully describe we are one with God but then learn to be separated from him all the while it is the most natural way of being to us.
God is a natural part of life even if we don’t realise it. To not ‘believe’ in God is to admit that there is a God that we are just not open to acknowledging. There is too much talk about ‘God’ and too many religions on this planet to justify denying his existence. It is not worth shutting him out with our minds, and it is oh so very worth opening to him by allowing him into our lives.
Rebecca I second that, it is very hard to consider that everything that we say is our belief are things we have picked up, and given the state of the world today, surely there is more untruth than truth, therefore how many of us are living with beliefs that are so far from the truth, they are the complete opposite. I know I was one and still have I am sure, beliefs that are far from true.
‘even though I didn’t have any organised religion in my life, I can now see, looking back, that as a kid the way that I lived was truly religious. It didn’t matter that I never said His name, God was very known to me – very, very known indeed.’ This is a gorgeous confirmation that we are already everything and are not the empty vessels education would have us believe when we enter it.
The integrity of your parents in not believing in something until their bodies felt it, was such a role model for you to surrender to what the body is feeling and allow it to come back to naturalness. This process, no matter how long it may take allowed you to feel and live a true connection with God.
We can never walk away from God and that’s the truth.
No we cannot, there is that pull that keeps us coming back and holding on.
I agree, we live within God’s body so it would be pretty impossible to walk away from God, but we are capable of disconnecting from this truth, hence why sometimes it can feel like we have walked away from God. The pain from our disconnection from God hurts us deeper than anything we can imagine.
What comes up for me reading your amazing blog this morning is sadness that we have so bastardised the word God that children all over the world are growing up without the recognition that they each have their personal relationship with God which, with support they never need to walk away from. The steadier that we become in our knowing of God the more able we are to reflect that to others including children.
Yes. And because we have done this we have the responsibility and wherewithal to undo it; expanding back into our relationship with God, giving each other the invitation and permission to do the same.
I love this line Alexis . . . “If you asked me to explain who God is or how He feels, then I couldn’t, other than to say He feels like the deepest part of me.” . . . so beautiful as it perfectly describes the indescribable.
God is a guiding hand that is always with us, it is just that often we resist the guidance and think we know better.
Very true Mary Louise we can also get quite stubborn about the paths away from God that we have travelled, causing us to be wilfully blind to the fact God is always there waiting for us to connect and be guided.
So true we think we know better so we ignore the guidance of God, to later find out thats what would have been more supportive or truthful.
I like the simplicity of your sharing-‘ God feels like the deepest part of me’
Ultimately we come from God, so therefore we are Gods ourselves however humanity has been fooled or tricked into believing the lie which we live daily that says we are the lessor sons of God and therefore daily we live our downfall until such a time that we realise who we truly are.
Without connecting to ourselves we can’t connect to anyone, not another human being and also not to God. This puts all the things we do in our lives to disconnect from ourselves in a different perspective, Because without connection we can’t come to true love and that is what we all want.
To re-unite with God every day, every moment when we have forgotten for a sec that we are more than human and that there is more than the daily chores to be done is a religious way of living – returning to our divine nature and origin.
“going to bible classes and then promptly being asked to leave because he was asking too many probing questions.” Hahaha that’s hilarious. That’s a surefire way to knowing he was onto something 😉
‘a woman who at last feels that she is doing what it is that she is here to do’. I love the description of yourself. Sharing lived truth is the greatest gift we can give each other.
I agree “Sharing lived truth is the greatest gift we can give each other.”
We do not need to let God back in, we need to let him out. Surrender and transparency are the keys to reclaiming our innate divinity.
Agreed Liane, God’s in already and never can he not be.
When we experience trauma we shutdown our natural openness and ability to surrender to our ever present connection to God. The Universal Medicine healing modalities offer a way to restore us back to harmony and a deep settlement in our bodies that re-ignites us with the love of God we knew from young.
When I read how you recalled your childhood I smiled: “as a kid the way that I lived was truly religious. It didn’t matter that I never said His name, God was very known to me – very, very known indeed”. I have heard the same from many people. In fact this connection, harmony and honouring of the all seems more natural and present than most adults who cling onto one religious dogma or another.
To understand that all we have to do to understand God is to connect with that which is already within us, and that there is nowhere we have to go, nothing to worship, and nothing to glorify other than our own divine connection to that which we know within our own bodies is true, removes any need for identity, recognition and needing to prove something about religiion. Instead it confirms that is is something that is accessible for everyone and anyone.
Many of us are naturally religious, our connection with God is instant as soon as we align, we need to consistently move in a way so we are always with God because otherwise we are with the astral.
The moment we think we have to do anything to be religious we are definitely on the wrong path. Residing back to within, is the way to true communion.
The simplicity is that there is only 2 movements, one towards God, or the other way, giving yourself away to astral.
So simple isn’t it?
And if you think you can walk in between, you are in fact in deep illusion with yourself and your choices.
Nature has a natural fast-track way of assisting one to feel at ease, to feel a settlement in the body, and to feel connected in a greater sense of this word.
Nature is there for us to remind us through reflection of our magnificence- although nature represents only a mere part of the grandness we are all originally coming from- its reflection is deeply needed in todays world.
I new that God was everywhere as a young child. Not with those words but i knew without a doubt.
When I started to to go to church and did not understand anything about what they were saying about God, it made me start to doubt my understanding of God.
I realize now that was the start of my brain overriding my heart.
Thank you Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine for supporting me to get back on track.
This really stands out for me – ‘…I have been able to get back to God, and that very simply has been to restore my body to the pristine condition that it was in as a child.’ so simple and no mystery to return to what we have felt once before.
I read the blog again as I said I would … Who would believe the way back to God was to “… very simply has been to restore my body to the pristine condition that it was in as a child.” Holy moly it is true! Very easy to do and gives us all a marker how far we have drifted away.
A cracker blog Alexis Stewart. The best subject to read about — how to come back and have a relationship with God. It’s a bed time story for not only the kids but the adults. It probably more suited for the adults to read back to themselves. I have not enjoyed life as much as now having a intimate relationship with God. He is so real and God damn playful (pun intended). I laugh constantly to myself that we live in a world that is created to not remind us we are an equal son. That is funny but a very serious subject. A quote of the many — “How poisonous are our beliefs when they can get us to believe the exact opposite to the truth?”
I discovered the key is not to make it about me, but make it about God and to be able to do that I have to take care of my body and me in it.
I just love that you are re-united with God, Alexis, we are so blessed that there is no judgement that we had been elsewhere and not felt God in our lives, or interviews and debriefs for our actions. And when we return, there are no bells and whistles, but joy, acceptance and Love waiting for us to come back.
I was brought up catholic and even though deep down I knew God was part of who I am, what I was being taught did not feel true. I pleased my family and went through the system, but the minute I was old enough to say no thanks, not true to me, it was like I was being freed of a chain and ball around my ankles. The Way of The Livingness offers a true relationship with God and it is from within that we can then choose to express this to all.
I also always knew that there is a God – For me the Catholic Church was ever since a horrible experience as there were so many tasks you needed to do/fulfill and there was anything but fun in it. I never doubted God, accepting though my own power of being a God within myself is the next step and I am enjoying my journey of discovering what that means and feels like.
“And is that, in fact, the purpose of a belief – to deliberately steer us away from the truth?”
Brilliant question Alexis, are beliefs simply a void filler, a complication/distraction to avoid the grand potential of deepening our relationship with ourselves and in turn living from our innermost wisdom.
To develop time through a space with ourselves, in the silence of connection, is to develop time and a space with God – and who would not want to be in His presence or spend time with Him?? Thus to sabotage space is to sabotage this such opportunity.
I spoke to a young man at work recently who claimed without holding back in any way that he had a deeply personal relationship with God, and he put his hand on his heart as he was speaking. It is super beautiful to feel when someone shares the joy of feeling God within them and all around them in everyday life.
In truth we can never unpick our selves from God, only ignore the immense love and delicacy within us, a constant that sits waiting to be connected to inside. Thank God for God, a presence who loves us eternally regardless of whether we embrace him in return, but a choice that brings immense joy when we do.
“And is that, in fact, the purpose of a belief – to deliberately steer us away from the truth?” If it is true then we don’t need to believe it, because it is true. It is only lies that we need to be forced to believe. What I am saying is true and can be easily seen when you watch people; and kids sometimes offer the most honest example of this – when they are trying to convince you of something, they will ask whether you believe them, yet if they know it is true, then they don’t care whether you believe them or not.
I love the way you share how connected you were to God through the way you lived and your humour is just wonderful as you bring the illogical nature of what we have accepted as our normal.
God really never gives up on us or leaves us. My first blog post talks about how He chased me down once again, and He finally got me this time ❤️❤️❤️
We seem to have developed a consistent habit of seeing God as separate to us. Even seeing God as by our side is missing the point. God’s inside us and every single thing. Thank you Alexis!
Bingo Joseph, there is nothing, as in no-thing that is not imbued with the body of God. Even the ‘what is not’ is borne from Gods body.
‘… God is within us all of the time, He is never not there; it’s simply that life is set up in such a way so as to interfere with the medium through which we feel Him, and that is through our bodies.’ …. no surprise that as a society we are completely obsessed with what we put into our bodies, but not in terms of how it nurtures and supports us, rather, for the numbing effect it provides so we don’t have to feel the dis-ease and un-settlement that our body is sharing with us, brought on as a consequence of the way we are choosing to live. Food is one of our most over used and abused medications.
I love this Shirley-Ann, so simple, yet so true. God is always there for us, but it’s up to us to initiate the conversation and be open to receiving what is shared with us.
‘I assumed that because my family never went to church and because I never prayed ….. that I wasn’t religious’ ….. that’s the set up, the absolute insidiousness of these false ideals and beliefs which we willingly accept, giving them full reign to manipulate us and draw us away from our connection with our selves and, therefore, from our absolute knowing of the truth. Instead, we become dumb, deaf and blind to the divinity of who we are and instead live a very fragmented, untrue version of our selves until we once again choose to re-connect with our body, our soul, God, the Universe and the truth.
So well said Alison.
Beliefs make us believe what is opposite to truth. Truth does not need to be believed, as it just is.
We are often taught that God is some white bearded guy sitting on top of the clouds or whatever other image we have been brought up with (the white robes and the beard are a common theme running around though)…and it can be strange when you find out that you are governed by images and pictures, all of which are actually untrue representations of God…This can make you question things, wonder if there ever was any truth to it etc….But like many true and wonderful things, they can get bastardised over time and one of the end results is that people will not then be familiar with the truth when it is actually presented. However, this is where you must rely or count on your inner connection and you get to realise what you actually are aligned to. The truth of your choices does get exposed over time – for time allows for observation and consistency and in this we get to see if and how our choices have supported us or not.
Sometimes it is the words ‘God’ and ‘Religion’ that can put us off – they have been used in so many ways that do not really represent the truth of who and what they are and when we associate these words with something that is false, then we can easily understand why we could be put off by them. But once you hear the true meaning of the words, and once you connect to what they actually mean, then this can begin the shift and then it opens up a whole new (yet old) way of being that allows the true meaning of these words into your life.
Starting out to make life about being positive and feeling our essence rather than it will never happen to me or ‘rather than’ what would it feel like if God was in my life, when you ”realise that God is within us all of the time, He is never not there,” so allowing our divinity to be a normal thing is all about those positive steps and never loosing sight of the truth of our divine connection.
As God never leaves us and it is us who choose to walk away… so too is it a simple choice of walking back, of re-connecting and re-uniting with our divine essence – God within.
And yet most organised religions have us believe that walking away from God results in judgement, damnation or purgatory – none of which would ever be imposed upon us by God, who is simply waiting, patiently, arms outstretched for us to turn around and look within.
Patience and waiting are human traits, God doesn’t need to do either, because He already is.
For there to be a leader there has to be straight line but evolution is spherical, hence the process of evolution is a bit like being in a cement mixer, we are all folding back on ourselves constantly.
‘…the medium through which we feel Him, and that is through our bodies.’ – to then know our bodies to be a temple becomes very practical, real and simple.
God never ever walks away from any of us; it’s always us that choose to walk away from Him. God’s love is endless and unfathomable for us. He is literally there with us every second of the day and communicates his love and support in numerous ways by symbology, nature, numerology. All we have to do is take super good care of our bodies so that we can connect to God and be it’s vehicle to express on earth.
Very true, Monika. It is up to us to live in a way that God can be felt within us all of the time.
Beliefs make sure that our commitment to the truth won’t be 100%, but less, that we judge and cannot observe and read energy and know what is actually going on. They keep us going, busy, always striving for an end goal or result without us connecting to the endless well of energy that purpose gives us. Beliefs disconnect us from the truth, from God and our multidimensionality. Perfect game that we love to play and the amount of pictures being fed to us is endless.
Ahh yes, “God is threaded all the way through who we are” and this is why we register truth when we fell it in the body.
It is a beautiful moment when we realise we know God, because that realisation pays no credence to the images of God or the ideals that we think ‘God’ expects us to live to, but instead draws on the essential knowing within ourselves, that God is love. We are loved so much that we are left to learn this by our own will.
Yes, what grace is that? We are left to re-discover it in our own time and our own will.
‘God is threaded all the way through who we are, but the way that we choose to conduct ourselves ensures that we’re not able to feel His living breath deep within us.’ this awareness, or lack of it, is something we all choose and there is no-one to blame except ourselves. Now we were being offered tools and techniques for redeveloping that awareness and reconnecting within so that we can feel who we truly are.
I am just beginning to truly comprehend that God walks beside us at all times, he is there in the good and the bad and when we feel and and when we cut him out. His love never backs off, never leaves and always asks us to be all of who we are even when we don’t want to listen.
Thank you Rebecca, and this also reminds me of the poem of the two footprints in the sand…where we know that God is walking beside us as the second set of prints…and that at any time that we only see one set of foot prints, it is not that we are walking alone, for it is that he is carrying us. How beautiful is that?
I have loved that poem for years because of its deeply important message that in our darkest hour, should we be open to him, God is there.
It’s not possible for God to leave, God is who we all are.
Alexis what you write here is very beautiful and true
“It has taken my reunification with God to realise that as a child I knew Him intimately. If you asked me to explain who God is or how He feels, then I couldn’t, other than to say He feels like the deepest part of me.”
I have reunited myself back to God during the recent UK retreat and it is as though I have gone back to my childhood where no matter what I knew he was there. It was me that shut down the access to him and all that which is always on offer.
“I remember Dad trying to ‘find God’ at one stage in his life, which constituted his going to bible classes and then promptly being asked to leave because he was asking too many probing questions.” I love this! It’s comical but also tragic. Good for your Dad that he did not just accept what was being presented, and also for knowing that there is actually a God and actively trying to find him.
Every time I re-visit this blog and read this line is touches me – “If you asked me to explain who God is or how He feels, then I couldn’t, other than to say He feels like the deepest part of me.” When I was young that intimate relationship with God just was…it was natural and intrinsic to my whole being. And I agree that having lost that connection and re-found it, there is no greater joy.
It is only in very recent years that I feel united with God for prior to that, for and as long as I can remember, I was looking for him by trying different religions and philosophies until I gave up looking in my 40’s. In that ‘uniting’, however, I have come realise that there never was really a separation, it was just that it was I who did not acknowledge, appreciate and allow him in to my heart.
“By restoring my body back to its original condition, it has enabled me to be able to feel God again”… It is any wonder that we can get lost when most religious dogma would have us looking to a god outside of ourselves, though when we remove all the impediments we find we are home with God.
Love that you bring it back to the body – so simple and makes sense of why most of us live disconnected from our bodies.
I too experienced a similar trauma when moved from the beautiful green and wooded countryside to suburbia as a child. What I realize now through your blog Alexis is how we build environments that fail to support our inner connection, because we focus on functionality rather than people and community. What a different world we will build when we put community at the heart of town planning and create space for connection, integration and nature to support our inner knowing of God, rather than knocking it out of us.
It’s true Rowena “we build environments that fail to support our inner connection”. When the town planners, architects, building controls, environmental and landscape designers know their connection to God we will begin to build the environments that do not constantly fight our natural way.
Totally, we lost our community play ground for property development there is so much building of homes and no consideration of infrastructure that supports a community to grow.
Man has got so much to answer for when it comes to all the images and doctrine they have invented about God. We know God when we enter this life but organised religion and life in general seems hell bent on distorting this from day one to takes us away from what we know to be true.
Yep but we come in as love, so we return to love and we know love. It sort of exposes the pointlessness of the game to think that God aka love doesn’t exist.
It is a great point to view that emotional damage on our body creates much more trauma that we possibly want to observe. Does emotional impact have a physical impact? I would say most definitely so. In that way it is great to claim that through self-care and the support of Esoteric Healing my body is returning to a clear vessel that allows me to feel the world and God.
Yes, Heather. Universal Medicine has proven to me beyond all shadow of a doubt, that as we heal and clear the murkiness of the emotional hurts and traumas of the past , it is possible to feel like a brand new penny again, in the joy of being able to feel God and embrace life once again.
How come that we all are deeply religious at birth, get completely lost in life not knowing who we are?
Because life is purposefully set up to come in like a sledge hammer and knock us off track, pretty much as soon as we’re born. Mum, Dad, Nanna and our aunties all lost their connection to God such a long time ago that they don’t hold any conscious awareness of our true ancestry, we’re given food and drinks that contain stimulants that disconnect us from our bodies, people play music to us that disconnects us from our bodies, we’re encouraged to walk in a way that attracts an energetic source that is looking to claim us for yet another lifetime as the wandering lost, we’re put in front of cartoons on the telly and Mum gives us her mobile phone to shut us up in the supermarket, need I continue?
No Alexis you do not have to continue, I got your point, that is how we do it and continue to do so if we do not make a change in the way we live life on a daily basis, The Way of The Livingness as presented by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine is therefore a good choice as proven already by many of its students. But why have we chosen to make our families and societies like you describe in the first place? As it makes no sense.
Nico I can only answer that from my own understanding of my life and that is, I did the same to my son as was done to me because there were no other choices available to me. Now the reason why there were no other choices available to me, was because the choices that I was already making set up the range of choices that were available to me. So basically we get imposed on from birth, which then puts us into a way of behaving and moving that ensures that we don’t have access to our original way of being. Hence when we come to parent our own kids we are not free to parent in a way that allows our kids to stay connected to themselves and God. And so it continues, until such time as we choose to move our way out of our current choices and give ourselves access to choices that come from truth. And this, in a nutshell is what Universal Medicine is all about.
That what you describe Alexis I know so well, and indeed it is a pattern we all are in and you can only break by stepping out because you can see through the evil it is. But that is the point, because we are in the pattern we have made ourselves blind for the other way and now need that other reflection from universal Medicine to ‘rescue’ us from the life chosen. You might say that is great, and some people agree with me, especially those people that call themselves the students of Universal medicine, that we now have Universal Medicine that shows us the way out of the illusion we call human life. But still many people do not want to see this truth and some even heavily defend their way of living because they like what they have, although they are suffering. What is so appealing to that?
So true Nico… perhaps because our deeply religious way of being in the world is not confirmed and so we measure our way of being and align with those around us, losing ourselves and our connection to divinity in the process.
Yes Paula, that is what happens, when we look around only snippets of that deep religious feeling are reflected to us but not the whole truth and most people become disillusioned and try to carve out a life that does not hurt to much and provides a feeling of protection.
It is actually very saddening to consider that while we all innately have that connection with god in us, that so many are lost and disillusioned in life, but instead of choosing to reconnect to that inner spark, choose instead to go into all kinds of distraction and numbing, like alcohol, drugs, gaming, also sports, endless vacations, watching television all day, getting depressed etc.
Very macabre puppeteers, that’s who.
Yes we can say it makes you wonder though we do know, but at times instead just love to numb ourselves from the reality of life in which taking the responsibility to resurrect ourselves from the numbness we have chosen would be our true way.
How many people live in protection rather than in surrender to our bodies? This may not be normal but has been made the norm. It takes some shaking up to be honest that this is what we have created at times.
We return our bodies to their naturally pure states by removing all the toxic waste that we have dumped into them over our lifetimes.
‘And is that, in fact, the purpose of a belief – to deliberately steer us away from the truth?’ – great question, Alexis. There are a great many ideals and beliefs that I’ve swallowed during my life and it’s true, that when I consider them, well the ones that I’m aware of, I’m sure there are many more that I’ve not uncovered yet, they are all asking me to ‘perform’ in some way, to be something that I am not. They try to lure me away from being myself. There is an absoluteness about truth that just ‘is’, it doesn’t ask me to be anything, or expect anything of me, rather, it’s felt and known very deeply and powerfully throughout my body when I re-connect with it.
To know that we and God are one and the same is something that is very precious, but not taught or confirmed to us by anyone in society, (not even those with parents who are. believers!). I love the way that the writer described God as the deepest part of you. If we all knew that, would we be fighting over which God is the true one, have atheists denying God or just an acceptance and treasuring of that part of us?
The world today has made God to be a being that is well and above all of us. There is a real confusion with what and who he is, we are sold the idea that he is a mighty being that is there to judge and punish us. Thank God for universal medicine, thank God for Serge Benhayon for bringing in Ancient Wisdom – a wisdom that comes from the soul which teaches us the love of God.
Our connection with God is so innate that as children we don’t have to work at being religious, it is a natural part of life.
So true, Rowena, it’s like breathing. In fact, it’s when we do start to ‘think’ about our connection with God, when other people start to tell us about their version of God, that things start to become very complicated.
We are brought up to ‘believe’ that adults are the wise ones and ‘know’ more than us, which is very clearly untrue. As children, we are often way more connected with our bodies and our innate wisdom than the adults around us.
When I was growing up God was talked about loads particularly on Sunday when we went to mass. He was this thing up their in the sky that was always looking out for what you did wrong, I did not have a good impression of him in fact he was like a punishing parent that I needed to be scared of if I made a mistake. Thank goodness for Universal Medicine where I discovered that God was not any of these things, that God resides within us all and that we are all from the same loving source.
There is such life changing reminders in this blog. When we step away from us, we step away from God. When we step away from us we create a false sense that we are alone, yet God has never left, it is only us that have turned away.
This highlights the importance of our relationship with the body and that our body really is our temple that holds sacredness, true love and wisdom when we align to this and let it flow through. There is so much globally in regards to this, we need to learn and understand more with this. For first and foremost this should be what life is about and our true purpose. ‘I have had to re-visit things that have hurt me in order to release the hold that they have had over my body. By restoring my body back to its original condition, it has enabled me to be able to feel God again and to realise that God is within us all of the time’.
To be abe to re-unite ourselves with God through the teachings of Universal Medicine, and understand that we have always had a relationship with him, its just that when we were younger we mostly didnt understand that that was what it was, is one of the greatest gifts anyone can receive. We have absolutely everything we need to know, literally at our fingertips when we choose to live with the knowing that our connection to God never, ever leaves us.
You have rediscovered God through your body. So might you be saying that the zillions of hours, the mountains of books and the endless philosophical studies and debates that have been dedicated to the intellectualisation on the subject of religion might be a dead end in our path of return?!
I think you may be onto something Otto, all the searching outside of ourselves can lead us further from the truth that is closer than a breath away. I know for myself having gone down this path; it is one that never truly fulfills.
I too have gone down that path and many others of similar dressing. Sometimes I used to wonder if all of that wandering, tension, disarray and un-ease makes the stillness of the inward-turning all the more palpable. But more so now I feel that it was a total and utter waste of time. There is zero judgement here in that it got me to where I am, so for that alone I am every grateful and it was the path that I needed to tread. But, there really is no reason to because we know it, in absoluteness and we don’t have to taste the opposite to confirm it. That is just an indulgence of the spirit.
I used to also believe that all of the twists and turns that I made on my way to truth were a necessary part of my journey but I now know that the ‘what is not’ can never prepare us for the ‘what is’, it is simply more time wasted roaming in the wilderness.
And this is still just as valid today. Sure the wanderings may not be as obvious as they were, but any wandering from the ‘what is’ is a wandering…and yet actually I would suggest that it’s the small wanderings that are much more ‘dangerous’ and can cause a much longer delay and distraction because they are seemingly less obvious…but this again exposes another big lie. For there is no grey. It is black and white and we always know the difference. The question is whether we have the commitment and responsibility to live and walk that knowing.
Indeed I am Otto.
On the one hand you have a high-priest dressed in fancy clothes stood in some imperious structure, bestowing upon his inferior congregation the complex intricacies of this seemingly intangible higher-power. And on the other hand a kid, who knows in every cell in his body that God is simply in the way he or she breathes.
If God is within us all, is actually who we are; then if we are not connected to God then who are we connected to?
This is the big question we should be asking ourselves, if we are not being impulsed from the love that we all innately are and are a part of, then what is impulsing our next movement? Energetically, with every force there is an equal opposing force, therefore, if we’re not connected to and being impulsed by love, we are being impulsed by harm, the complete opposite to love. We know about God, but what do we truly know about the evil energy that perpetrates our society, allowing us to commit the most horrendous acts, where does this energy come from?
When we are children we have a very ordinary everyday relationship with God and then comes along organised religion which tells us that we are not worthy of this relationship and that the version of God we know is incorrect.
God does not need or want anything to be other than it already is, because He is all that there is.
I have an acceptance of the existence of God that has been an undercurrent my whole life but the feeling of certainty of God being within me is a little more elusive. When I hear Serge Benhayon present, everything he says makes sense but it is in my head not yet in my body. I am slowly working towards full reconnection with my Soul which I ‘know’ has never actually left, but there are pockets of resistance, of comfort that are not yet willing to go there.
Carmel I can relate with this but I also had the sense that the way people (from church) spoke about God did not resemble the feeling I had with God and of God therefore I was very confused.
“I have had to re-visit things that have hurt me in order to release the hold that they have had over my body.” Such a great line and so true. We take things on and then believe that they are us. If we understand that this is not who we are we can let them go and regain our natural state of being.
In life most of us have periods of being numb in a part of our body. I have at times gone years not even realizing I am numb, until something has prodded me to start feeling again. Our connection with God is the same. It is part of us and forever holding us, being numb to it for a while does not take away from the fact.
It is really beautiful to re-connect to the purity of the relationship we had with God as a child. There is a strong sense of coming home, and it is bitter-sweet in a sense because we realise that it has always been there it was only us who strayed away.
This is something that many of us can get caught up in, the blame and victimhood of life, it is being done to us, rather than thanks to being the masters of our own life…”God never ever walks away from any of us; it’s always us that choose to walk away from Him.” We look for answers outside, but they are deep within, humbly patiently there always.
Sure we chose to walk away from God but there comes the day that we choose to walk back and it doesn’t have to be with cap in hand.
“But you see, because no one had ever spoken to me about what true connection to God was, I never consciously knew that God and I were one and the same” – beautifully true, and in the certainty of ourselves we can be certain of God.
I love how you have pulled this out Zofia, its a great confirmation of who we are and the innate knowing of connection we have as kids. I see how important this aspect is to support in our next generation of children, so they don’t loose the knowing of God they have albeit without words to describe it, instead being confused with a version of God that does not match what they know God to be.
I love the way God was not indoctrinated in your upbringing but you knew God was there all along. I feel it was a great blessing not to have had institutionalised religion in your life but you felt God for yourself from within.
I hate how we are totally set up to not know and feel God in the way we could as a young child and all these so called good people of good religions are the main culprits at nudging us far enough away from what we felt as children, to not want to feel any longer.
Is re-united with God a bit of an oxymoron? How do re-connect to something we may have forgotten but never lost? When we choose to have our reunion with God it can be like looking in the junk drawer, we know its in there, it just takes time to find it.
I love the title of this blog “Re-united with God” As a child I knew I was part of everything. I lost this sense but never completely abandoned the idea of God, now I’m re-connecting to the God within me.
Nowadays religion is not the real and true religion we all know in our bodies. What we are calling religion is worship, rules, discrimination and supremacy – but true religion, as you say Alexis, comes from deep within us, is equal to and knows God inside out without denial or doubt. We are made to feel less than God in modern day belief systems and this is the biggest lie of all.
How beautiful to feel the temple of God is within ones heart.
Beautifully expressed, Alexis. Your words resonate with the truth of your lived experience of God’s presence, I recognize that feeling in my body too.
Imagine being married to someone but pretending they are not there. Consider walking every step of everyday along side a friend but thinking you are alone. This is the absurdity of our current relationship with God. Let’s just open our eyes to the fact that he’s always by our side.
I like how you bring it to the absurdity it is Joseph. What we miss the most is always with us but have separated from by our own choice.
That is such a beautifully apt analogy for the relationship with God that so many people have and was one that had for many, many years and most likely lifetimes.
Many hold a grudge against God imagining that he has abandoned them or something like that. Yet this wonderful analogy points out the fact that it is only ever our own choice to blind ourselves to our exquisite eternal bond.
He’s so much closer than by our side.
‘And is that, in fact, the purpose of a belief – to deliberately steer us away from the truth?’ Every belief or ideal frames us and reduces the truth of our being, our godliness and connection to the expansive all that is. Through the inner connection with my body the qualities of divinity are naturally felt.
‘God never ever walks away from any of us;’ – offering us the ultimate reflection of Love – to hold another with love irrespective of how they behave, whether they judge, deny or simply reject you completely. You are always right there, with them, seeing them for the amazingly divine being that they are.
‘… even though I didn’t have any organised religion in my life, I can now see, looking back, that as a kid the way that I lived was truly religious. It didn’t matter that I never said His name, God was very known to me …’ – beautifully confirming of the fact that when we are born, we are absolutely knowing of who we are and the divine magnificence of all that we are a part of. We don’t need anyone or anything to ‘advise’ us on this, it’s deeply known, felt and treasured. Hence why when we do come across organised religion, it can feel very cold, confronting and just not ‘true’.
A super worthy celebration. Knowing oneself is knowing we are part of a grandness – God, the universe and the multidimensionality we are from.
‘I didn’t realise that when I chose to step away from myself, I was also choosing to step away from God.’ the world is set up to actually keep us from truly being with our natural knowing of God within otherwise we would be taught from young and feel from how people are around us that when we leave/step away from ourselves that we automatically step away from God. Through the already stepping away and in that missing of God I feel people have bastardised and intellectualised and made organised religions and doctrines the true lived teachings of such people as Yeshua, Buddha(Sadatha Guthama)
We are taught of God as a notion of having to do certain things or follow a certain religion to be part of being saved, or good etc. especially through organised religions. But really it makes me wonder the Reason behind why people actually follow something – is it for them self, to be the good one, to say they are part of something and feel safe/saved, to get away with unloving acts because they follow doctrines and the list goes on. But as you generally share and as is true – it is us in connection with ourselves when we are most with God and it is not even a belief but a knowing.
I love what you share about how you were not brought up with God being mentioned even though you knew God deeply. I often feel there are many people in society who just don’t mention God, they are not anti-God but would probably say they aren’t believers as was the case with your parents – yet from their connection with themselves and the way they are caring or sincere or tender or genuine I feel they deeply know God and certainly reflect God.
We never question our relationship with God when we are young – it just is – we live it in every moment… until we get hurt in some way and then self-doubt creeps in and eventually takes over.
When I reflect back on my early childhood I can categorically say that I never doubted my relationship with God. Yes, it was there every moment and yes the doubt crept in and it did take over. With this absoluteness in play for us all and then this doubt taking over for us all, so much so that we choose to disconnect (albeit unconsciously) we have to ask ourselves why this is so. When we begin life in connection but then every single one of us lets this go we have to realise that on this plane of life it is set up for us to do precisely that, but not only is it set up that way we have to ask ourselves why we allow it and what we get out of allowing it.
We get to float around in the ether for yet another lifetime, continuing on with our pretence that we don’t have anything to do with the absolute carnage that we’ve created here on Earth!
For me this exposes how we as adults are currently not holding and supporting our younger generation. Because self doubt should never be able to creep in when something in the body is truly known.
I feel I still have a problem with the word God because it has been missed used for aeons. Nations have fought each under the banner of God. But that is not God, people have tortured one another in the name of God, so called heretics were burnt at the stake, there was mass murder in the UK under the Tudor Reign of Queen Mary because of her belief in God. But none of this to me makes sense, we have reinterpreted the word God and now it presents something totally different to the truth of the word we associate with God. God is the air we breathe the space we walk in; he is a beholder of the universe and there is not one shrek of his body that is not a beholding love at embraces everyone and everything. He makes us who we are by the very particles of the universe we belong to.
We can use God as an excuse to control and exert authority over others but we can say that this isn’t from a connection to God. Yes, it hurts to see how as a humanity we have deliberately bastardised the truth but that doesn’t diminish the absoluteness of that truth. When we come from the connection of everything God is we can’t have a problem with the word, only if we are holding onto the hurt of the corruption of him, but he can’t be corrupted – only our awareness and understanding of him is.
God is within us and everywhere around us, and so it is our choice to connect to this as a fathering source of energy, or to deny it or pretend that it is not there, or to live in a way that ignores it. Or we can of course work on developing and strengthening this amazing relationship and keep bringing more of this natural and innate connection into our lived day, out natural way, The Way of The Livingness.
Alexis, I love how you have made a simple comment regarding the fact that we do not have to pray or attend church etc to be religious and have a relationship with God.
“‘I never consciously knew that God and I were one and the same” This is not surprising, the truth of God has been bastardised by conventional religions and millions of people suffer not knowing they’re loved and constantly supported by God.
“and so consequently I didn’t realise that when I chose to step away from myself, I was also choosing to step away from God.” I dont think I realised that either, and for many years there was a deep underlying sadness in me, and it was only when I started to truly come back to me (via more self-care and more self-love and healing the hurts that kept me from me) that I came back to God, and the sadness shifted.
I’ve always known the ‘Kingdom of God’ lies within, but for a long while disillusioned by religion, I stopped connecting with him. Thankfully that’s all changed now.
Interesting that we are taught by the widespread religions to not truly know God despite their claims and false doctrine.
Super cool how you bring it to the body and how this is key to really have a true relationship with God. How we can feel him within and that he never leaves. What I have really come to feel is how I have compartmentalised my relationship with God and that I was never eqaul with him. Today I feel and know the oneness that we are.
Yes, not only outside of us.
‘Not that we can ever, in truth, walk away from Him, because God is threaded all the way through who we are, but the way that we choose to conduct ourselves ensures that we’re not able to feel His living breath deep within us.’ So true Alexis as when we are connected to our body and being we cannot help but know God within.
I got baptised but that was my last contact with a church – my parents had no interest in religion and neither did I, instead I loved the free time when I didn’t have to attend religious instructions.
Beautiful blog showing the simplicity there can be reconnecting to God; reconnect within and you have reconnected to God.
“reconnect within and you have reconnected to God.” Why make life complicated when it really is as simple as this?
We can have an incredible deep and life long relationship with God and never use the word, though the word has a lot of power to claim, because it is not a relationship with something outside, something prescribed – it is a way of life with the world, with people, with ourselves that acknowledges something more and deeper than just the physicality we can see.
I’m inspired by your connection with God when a child to reflect on what was my connection because even though I felt angry and hurt there was always a grand, divine love being offered to me that never ever wavered or went away no matter how forceful my anger.
This is an important process, to evaluate, refine and cut out things that have a ‘weighing’ effect on our body. It’s much more than just food which can cause us to feel heavy, exhausted and bloated, and the effect of emotions is something to explore.
Stunningly beautiful contribution about the immediacy of God, thank you very much; I absolutely love this piece.
I have a feeling that our connection with god is so corrupted that even in our questioning we are a bit lost. We tend to approach things from the awareness that we already have, that we are only human – but what if the first question we ask is: what does it mean to not be human? – and although even that is a human question, it opens the door to the fact that we have closed off an awareness that is innate and that ought to be our only compass in life.
Some time last year I connected to God being within me, all because I have been choosing to feel what’s going on in my body more and more, instead of distracting myself through any means possible – food, intensity at work, emotions…. It was and continues to be deeply and profoundly life-changing – and so simple.
‘I didn’t realise that when I chose to step away from myself, I was also choosing to step away from God.’ Such a simple concept and yet one I am sure the vast majority of us on the planet have experienced. This was certainly the case for myself. I love Alexis, how you so clearly articulate that our relationship with God is felt through the body and that we have to take care of the body if we want a relationship with God.
I’d been quite religious at school especially when I was a boarder, I loved going to mass and singing in the choir, but when I was 17 I had a boyfriend who was an atheist and he challenged all my beliefs about religion with the result that I spent the next 40 years of my life as an agnostic, not knowing anything about God. It was only with the presentations of Serge Benhayon on The Way of The Livingness as a religion that I came to reconsider my relationship with God and it’s very different from the one I had as a small child.
“Re-united with God” – the moment I take a step deeply connected and in time with myself I feel myself take a step in the godliness of myself that is also a step with God.
And one true step far surpasses 1000 steps of all the other flavours.
The process of going back to how you used to be in your body when you were a child makes complete sense as a practise for returning to that reconnection we all had with God. It is very beautiful to know that connection from when we were children and to have that physical memory that we know. There was a lot of love and a lot of joy when we were a child and so it can be a loving and joyful process to go back to that relationship with our bodies and with God. What I also get from this blog is how normal it is to know God because as you said so simply, ‘we are one and the same.’
So we are one and the same with God. This feels very true and the diametric opposite of what we learn in organised religion.
We are all one and equal and brothers in our essence.
We have constructed many false ideals about what it is to be religious, all of which seem to me, leave out the core ingredient of our irrefutable connection to God within us. It’s not that we have to work at being religious, we actually have to put enormous effort into not being religious, because when we truly come back to our selves, it’s a God Merger.
“It’s not that we have to work at being religious, we actually have to put enormous effort into not being religious”, so well said Rowena.
We have been given such false images of what we think God is and how to be with that, that the simple inner connection we know gets dismissed. To come back to the simplicity of this connection is a breath of fresh air and, in my case, a life altering event.
Would not God deliver us all into the bosom of another so we can return to brotherhood as it can be in a marriage!
“If you asked me to explain who God is or how He feels, then I couldn’t, other than to say He feels like the deepest part of me….” which confirms the meaning of the ‘esoteric’, something that is within each and everyone of us.
I love that – ‘ he is he deepest part of me’ I fully concur.
P. T. Barnum is an excellent reflection of what religion has become, promoting things that are hoaxes. How many of us are/were willing to enter the show freely not knowing the payment will be at the door when we leave. All that is required is to believe God is something outside of us. Was this just early fake news?
The process of revisiting hurts and surrendering to them and letting them go, thus rebuilding the quality of our body for more godliness to be expressed is an amazing, intimate and inspiring time.
‘We’ve constructed so many false and misleading notions around what it is to be religious that I never considered that as a child I was deeply religious’ – and this is what is so insidious. We are all deeply religious when born and because of the false beliefs we are fed about religion and what it is to be religious, I for one rejected this lock, stock and barrel as it was so far removed from how I felt about God and I really reacted to someone else telling me how my relationship with God should be. The real tragedy being, like you, I gradually stepped away from myself, and, therefore, God. How different things will be when we grow up without any false beliefs, rather, simply being supported with the truth.
‘I never consciously knew that God and I were one and the same and so consequently I didn’t realise that when I chose to step away from myself, I was also choosing to step away from God.’ – I too didn’t appreciate this truth until relatively recently. How different things will be when the truth about religion is taught in schools and children grow up knowing God is within each and every one of us, always, whether we choose to connect with our divinity, or not.
I loved the simplicity and beauty of what you shared Alex, ‘I never consciously knew that God and I were one and the same and so consequently I didn’t realise that when I chose to step away from myself, I was also choosing to step away from God’. This line I find so inspiring that when I choose me I choose God, this is so amazing to me because most of my Christian life I gave myself away to the ideals and beliefs of the Catholic church seeing myself as unworthy.
When we choose ourselves, we choose God. I agree Jill that this is both inspiring and amazing and perfect to read today (and everyday)
Thanks Alexis , well expressed on a subject that needs to be discussed more. I also felt that I had disconnected or turned my back on God in the past in reaction .But knowing now that God lives in everyman woman and child through our soul, our connection to God is always there. Is it just us that chooses to disconnect and get lost in our hurts ,protection , reaction ,distraction etc ?. To come back and hold a sure and true path requires the will to be honest , loving and gentle and feel our way through life . Otherwise , like my own life was at many times , life can be like a pinball bouncing around excitingly in the machine but out of rhythm to Gods love . The other part of God is love is that it is never too late or over, we can always come back to God and reconnect to his eternal love equally as God doesn’t judge or punish,God just holds energetically the world in balance and supports evolution everywhere .
Much to love about this blog and today this is what I love the most, your description of your body being an ‘interactive home’. When we surrender and just be with our bodies, it is indeed an interactive home where you want to spend hours and need not much from the outside world (just watch a kid play on their own, being with themselves). When we don’t, and we protect and harden, we don’t want to spend time in our body and constantly seek for outside stimulation.
I also grew up in a house where God wasn’t beleived In. And so I followed suit and went along with it. But I now understand that there is absolutely a God and I know God in a totally different way to how I was told. Because it is about feeling and trusting that we know there is something so huge within us.
Our ideals and beliefs are our way of controlling life when in fact the only thing we can choose is divine energy, or not – life is very simple but we choose to waste so much of our time in the complexity of our pictures.
It is a tragedy that “we’ve constructed so many false and misleading notions around what it is to be religious” that although most people recall having an open and playful relationship with life, God and the universe, so many of us run a mile when anyone mentions the name of God or religion.
Yes, all our ideals and beliefs, all the pictures we mentally create, are all distractions from feeling the truth of our bodies.
If we were just to live in a way that allowed us to feel and connect with the truth of our bodies and did not rely on what we saw life would be very different.
What I love about this is that there is a very tangible feeling of God. its not an experience of thought at all. I know when I am connected I simply feel held – all over. Its not like a touch, more like a very warm, very snug blanket that I am wrapped in and there is no denying what the feeling is.
True Alexis in truth we can never walk away from God because we are God but play a very insidious game to not act like that, or as you have so beautifully expressed ‘we choose to conduct ourselves ensures that we’re not able to feel His living breath.’
“I didn’t realise that when I chose to step away from myself, I was also choosing to step away from God.” Likewise I had this feeling and its only now I remember it, that connection with myself is my connection with God and moving away from it was the moment I felt I missed something that I could not find again, until I was also reunited once again through the choice to connect back to me during my first Universal Medicine event.
I love how you refer back our relationship with God to our body, that it is this natural everyday beingness we used to know as children. Simple, and it shows that it is something we innately know so it cannot ever be lost.
Organised religion is boring at best!! It doesn’t ignite our divine particules we are all made from. It turned me off from God, connecting to the love and wisdom within and the world. Why? Because I thought if this is the world’s answer to there is more to life than the mundane, then how horrible life is with all the suffering I could see.
Now I’m reintroducing myself to true religion all the seemingly mundane is actually amazing because there is so much more to it than meets the eye. I’m reintroducing God into my life and how I live which is very cool.
‘God never ever walks away from any of us; it’s always us that choose to walk away from Him.’ this is so very true. and just like with Footsteps in the Sand when there is only set, it is God carrying us for he never leaves us and we never truly can walk away, we can just delay living the all that we are.
When we protect ourselves from people and say no to love, we are in effect also saying no to God. I too realised that the greatest hurt and the deepest sadness I could feel was from my choice to step away from God. It feels like it goes back a long, long time and it is only now that I am healing from this choice and I am returning to God as I let go of my protection, allow love to flow and live the love that I am.
“I never consciously knew that God and I were one and the same and so consequently I didn’t realise that when I chose to step away from myself, I was also choosing to step away from God.” – This is really the crux of almost all our issues and problems here on Earth, and I can feel how when I have been in disregard to my body and gone into protection to not get hurt by the harshness of the world, I have cut myself off from feeling that connection with God inside me and the cycle of abuse then continues, because without that connection we allow all kinds of negativity to come through us and express outwardly, hence all the violence, abuse, and disharmony we have.
God never really leaves us, he is always within us. This is so beautiful and we know that deep within us.
So true. And in my case…which other friend would tolerate not being spoken to for years, being ridiculed in public, being actively avoided…and then, without any judgement, questioning, resistance or conditions welcomes me back with arms wide open. The term ‘true friend’ is re-defined by God.
It is astonishing to compare the divine simplicity of this blog to the way religion is taught, experienced and explained to so many. My oh my, how the spirit will complicate to keep us entrapped from the truth.
It’s fascinating to consider the environments in which we are brought up and the attitudes toward religion. My parents were both fairly uncommitted toward any organised religion and as such no religious doctrines or practices were forced down my neck. Our house was dominated by my father’s intellect and anything religious or ‘other worldly’ was considered a folly or, to use his expression; navel-gazing. And thus we never ever even had a conversation about anything beyond the temporal, about dreams, about energy or feelings or anything beyond what could be known by the mind. Being brought up within these limits of awareness obviously has a profound effect. But I always knew there was more and would always question it “really, is this all there is? is this the point of it all?” It is with huge appreciation to Universal Medicine that I now sit at the table with my family as we all freely and easily talk about things with the awareness and knowing that there is so much more to life than what the eyes can see and the mind can fathom.
I completely agree! In the past I would never have imagined that it would be possible to feel God in the body, and it is with great joy that I feel this as an everyday experience, thanks to the support from Universal Medicine to open up my heart to love again.
‘I put up a physical barrier by hardening my body, never realising that I was also putting up a barrier to God.’ I definitely did this, and these words resonate within me, ‘God is threaded all the way through who we are, but the way that we choose to conduct ourselves ensures that we’re not able to feel His living breath deep within us.’ He is there all we have to do is allow ourselves to feel.
Even when we switch off from God, he never stops holding us. We say sorry we’ve been gone – he says ‘well you know I’ve been here all along’.
We don’t like to admit that it is us who walked away from God, and not God who walked away from us. If we were to admit this we would have to face the pain we actually feel about making such a choice, as you have beautifully written about Alexis.
I feel really touched by this blog because it reminds me how simple, grand and personal our relationship with God is.
Same here Leonne. It is amazing that we have the ability to connect to God in this way without any external influences or help. We have instant access to God at any time and anywhere, and this shows how powerful, grand and godly we all are.
When I was at school it bothered me that I wasn’t christened because I didn’t fit in with everyone else and latterly because I wanted extra presents on my birthday and at Christmas. Looking back, I am hugely thankful for the integrity of my parents, not to do what everyone else was doing and have me christened because they felt this was a decision I could make for myself when I was old enough to discern whether Christianity was for me or not.
We have set things up in the world so that if you’re ‘religious’ it means something entirely different (and all the judgments that come with it), to what it actually means: to re-connect to your Soul, the innermost part of you, that quiet voice that knows you inside out and has your best interests at heart. If we take the word ‘religion’ in its original meaning – to have a deep relationship with myself, and with the Universe, God or whatever you want to call the bigger picture, why would I – or anyone – not want that?
I felt really touched by your blog and the many realisation about God that you share, Alexis. ‘…no one had ever spoken to me about what true connection to God was…’ in truth this was the same with me, even though I went to church religiously every Sunday with my family. No one told me that when I step away from myself I also step away from God… its simple and it makes sense. If stay connected to me I stay connect to God.
Our body in its perfect imperfection knows God so well. The body is very simple and needs no alibi, the mind likes complexity and stories.
A very accurate description Alexis of how trauma can separate us from our bodies and consequently how we attempt to turn them into armour to protect us from the outside world. A common reaction that shields our greatest strength: our fragile and responsive body and the inner wisdom of God.
Why have we created a world that is void of God while we all belong to him is a question that comes to me as it makes no sense. We collectively walk away from him, creating our own external version of God, start to fight each other about whose God is the true one, we start to abuse ourselves in the many ways we see in our society, all because we crave for that connection that simply is within. To my observation we are not as intelligent as what we think we are.
Universal Medicine has been a great help for me to restore my connection with God, a connection I lost a long time ago and was searching for for a great time of my life.
“God never ever walks away from any of us; it’s always us that choose to walk away from Him.” It is so much easier to blame others than take responsibility for the consequence of our actions.
Alexis the way you describe your natural relationship with God exposes the institutionalised religions we have today. Religion is a personal relationship with God available to all equally.
What a beautiful and profound sharing Alexis – you have brought an absolute simplicity to the truth of being with God through the re-connection with the body.
“God is within us all of the time, He is never not there”
I find that such an interesting line, the one that says by losing the connection to yourself, it was one and the same as losing your connection to God. How many of us let this happen and then go on the search for God out there somewhere and go on an unnecessary, sometimes costly journey around all the house, only to find the re-connection with oneself is the one we need to experience God again and not some big building with a cross on top or some place in India or South America.
It is true God never walks away from us, it’s us that shuts our awareness off and are governed by our hurts. One of my family members was so upset about the starving children in Africa that she turned away from God because ‘if there was a God how could he/she let this happen’. Blaming God is one of the many stances we use to protect ourselves from the ugliness of humanity.
Blaming God is also one of the things that we do to avoid owning up to the fact that we are all choosing to live in a way, that actually allows there to be starving kids in Africa. And I don’t mean because we don’t donate money to charity, I mean that we allow a false energetic source to flow through our bodies constantly. And it is that energetic source that propagates all the disparity that we see in the world.
Whilst we place significance on outer circumstances and environments we tend to miss the fact that we are walking bibles – mirrors of the universe – complete and totally resourced, all we have to do is realise we are Love.
Alex I love it how you describe your connection to god as it feels fresh and very natural – a real invitation to re-visit the actual connection most of us have with god.
A picture can never define my connection with God. Always feel the connection within me and I allow myself to express, within all its imperfections in expressing, the most important is to know and feel the connection. The rest is beholding ourselves as God never gives us up.
Our body is a temple turned fortress the moment we do not look after it so that we can access our innate divinity. If religion taught us how to take greater care of our ‘vehicles of expression’ (our physical form) then perhaps we would not have to seek outward for a wisdom that can only be sourced from within.
I used to think that seeing the body as a temple was really arrogant, but now I am starting to feel God in every cell once again it feels so true.
There are many systems in life that push for us to dismiss, disregard and ignore our body and with that our connection with who we truly are.
I agree, pretty much everything in life is set up to get us to dismiss who we are and very few things support us simply to be ourselves. Holding someone in the love that they are, without any judgement is one of the greatest gifts we can give to another.
‘I never consciously knew that God and I were one and the same and so consequently I didn’t realise that when I chose to step away from myself, I was also choosing to step away from God’. What a beautiful piece if gold that line is. If we could walk around holding this truth through out our day, we would see how we are the creators of our own separation.
Well said Kim, we are robbed of our innate divinity by what we ourselves have created.
Yes what gold that line is. We are the ones who separate but also the ones who return.
As someone who grew up in rural Cornwall and spent a LOT of time outside in nature, where I felt especially close to God and very joyful within myself, I can understand how traumatic it must have been to move to a big city. When I finished college and moved to London I was already almost 19, but I remember well the feeling of isolation and loneliness for quite some weeks, months even. I spent my weekends finding beautiful parks to walk around and just sit in, where the trees had more warmth than a lot of the people.
I always knew God growing up, it wasn’t something I thought about or questioned, it was something I felt, like feeling the warmth from the sun on my skin, God was always there – equally, I didn’t feel the need to talk about it either, it felt quite personal. My parents weren’t ‘religious’, my father was an atheist and my mother liked to go to church at Easter and Christmas with us all, but we never spoke about God at home. It feels very beautiful to have now, once again, re-connected with this absoluteness that I felt as a child, then lost along the way for too many years.
I absolutely knew God as a child and also gave up on that relationship at about 9. I never thought I would have a relationship with God as an adult and was horribly dismissive of those who were. Turns out I am again deeply religious.
I moved house around 9 just like you Alexis and my life changed in a lot of ways and one is also that my natural relationship with God changed, what was left from being natural religious became more and more influenced by the church I visited with my family and the images of God as the man with the beard in heaven.
A true seeker of God will always find him.
Absolutely a true seeker will always find him. He has never gone far, he is with in us and around us,
“God never ever walks away from any of us; it’s always us that choose to walk away from Him” And many walk away not knowing that he is pure loving energy, living within us.
‘By restoring my body back to its original condition, it has enabled me to be able to feel God again and to realise that God is within us all of the time’ This is really beautiful and what an inspiration to let go of all that gets in the way of having this intimate relationship with God – and with all others. Far lovelier,beyond compare, to feel this connection to God than shutting Him out by letting in yucky energies.
I LOVE your sign off at the end of this blog. What more could we possibly seek from life?
Me too Otto, it is an awesome signing off.
What an absolutely amazing blog. Last night I was watching a debate on whether “the catholic church is a force for good in the world”. The speakers (for and against the motion) were all spouting forth extremely erudite orations on the matter full of impressive historical knowledge and extremely forcefully presented opinion. But none of it got close to the simplicity, power and truth of what you have presented here.
I had to chuckle Alexis as I experienced the same thing with bible class/sunday school as your father when I was a kid. They did not like all my questions and told my parents they felt I was not ‘really into it’ and it was better if I did not attend anymore. can you imagine God asking you to leave because you are actually inquisitive and discerning?
Beautiful blog Alexis, thank you for sharing. This is not a topic we speak openly about in society in fear of judgement and criticism, so it’s incredible you can talk so openly about it.
“Rather than my body being the beautiful, sensitive, surrendered, interactive home that it was, my body became a means with which to protect myself from the potential attacks that I perceived were coming my way. This is key as we can either be with our body or against it, being with our body we are with God, with the Universe and all that it is communicating. Being against our body we abuse our body in such a way that connection is lost and we can no longer feel we are with God, nor are we aware of the communications of the universe.
Thank you Alexis for this beautiful blog. ‘God is within us all of the time, He is never not there..’ this is absolutely gorgeous and confirming to read, it has only been in the past 3 years that I’ve started to truly feel what you’ve shared here. And, it has been incredible to clear my body enough to start feeling God is within me and in all of us, because in the past my body carried too many hurts, burdens, ideals and beliefs to feel the magic of God is in fact everywhere.
Breathing our own breath, the breath of God, is life-changing because you are no longer at the mercy of what is going on around you. For example, if we are stressed by work, emotionally uptight about a situation, then our breathing can change – such as holding our breath or not breathing deeply.
Breathe your own breath and you remain steady within yourself unaffected by anything external.
‘And is that, in fact, the purpose of a belief – to deliberately steer us away from the truth?’ What a great question. It seems to me that beliefs we hold onto for dear life and allow to control the way we think and how we act, whereas Truth is known to us, asks nothing of us and leaves us alone. A belief needs us to exist but Truth just is.
Love this line Elaine…”… Truth is known to us, asks nothing of us and leaves us alone. A belief needs us to exist but Truth just is.” Ahhh, the simplicity of life, and honouring our truth.
Very awesome blog Alexis. Your anecdote of you praying to God about your cross county race just in case you were murdered cracked me up in one sense, as I remember praying to God too and it felt like I was making out a Christmas list for Santa. But sad too, because it shows us how bit by bit we step further away from our relationship with God with our ideals, beliefs etc. Its gorgeous to hear that you are now back home and know God once again.
Yes, I remember having conversations like that when I was younger and it is incredibly sad that from young children knowing God we turn our backs on his immense love.
When we re-embrace God, we also re-embrace ourselves (hence our body) in the same act. What we open to in one go is simply everything.
I love that … God is the deepest part of us … and that just makes sense for God is an inherent part of who we are and our bodies are of Divinity, so of course it’s our way to feel and connect to God.
So much wisdom in these words, you are a true philosopher Alexis and a philosopher of the people. You give the reader much to ponder, if they so choose, about God and their own relationship with him I know I will.
‘God never ever walks away from any of us’. Knowing this and feeling this is profound. We are never alone, we are always supported and forever held in His love – Our Love – One Love.
What a tragedy that due to the reinterpretation of the word religion we have been led to believe that you have to join something to have a relationship with God.
Yes Alexis, it is.. Through our body that we know God, as it is a connection that comes from within us and in this stage in this plane of life we have a body that is physical too.
Your sense of surrender and contentedness within yourself is palpable in this blog. Indeed it is clear that to be truly content and settled within oneself, one must be in deep connection and Livingness with God
At any moment we can reunite with God, how awesome is that, but then again, he has never left, so isn’t it just a matter of time before we chose the path home?
I love that we can use out bodies to reunite ourselves with God.
I feel I lost my connection to God at a very early age because everything I heard about him didn’t feel true, but I just went along with it to not stand out or displease my parents and teachers. It’s amazing to know that even though we may think we lose connection we are still part of the all like everyone else and he never leaves us even if we think we can’t feel him.
I can relate to what you share here, Kevmchardy, I always felt a very strong connection to God as a child, within me, however, I could in no way relate this feeling to what I felt when I went inside a church, which always had a very cold, damp and slightly creepy feeling to me. I couldn’t wait to get outside where I could breathe freely again.
“If you asked me to explain who God is or how He feels, then I couldn’t, other than to say He feels like the deepest part of me.”
Beautiful Alexis, indeed for so many of us whether we’ve been bought up around religion or not, we observe and sense that which others are calling religion, a seemingly unquestioned moral code that makes us doubt our own innate understanding of what does and does not feel true, and so begins an incremental cycle of overruling what we feel in order to fit in and comply.
What I love about your blog is that there is no trying, it is just you are writing what you felt and similarly on reflection I can feel there should be no trying in connection or re-connecting with God, it just is, the connection is always there, it is just our choice as to whether we connect and appreciate the relationship. And of course truly knowing and deepening this connection comes through the relationship we have with ourselves ‘I never consciously knew that God and I were one and the same and so consequently I didn’t realise that when I chose to step away from myself, I was also choosing to step away from God.’
If we harden our bodies from their natural tender state we cannot connect with our own inner essence or that of the all.
Very true Jennym, and our ability to connect to God is incredible. It means we cannot leave anyone out, we have the choice to connect to ourselves and to everyone, and then our connection to God is reignited. But if we focus on only connecting to people and leaving ourselves out of the equation I find it simply doesn’t work. But God is still with us all of the time, it’s just that we have to tune into His vibration and we start to reconnect to Him as He is already there, and the more we choose to connect the more we can hear and feel the magnificent presence of God.
This is a super beautiful sharing about your relationship with God, Alexis – “He feels like the deepest part of me.” I feel this too, every day, and at times I am moved to tears that I can now once again feel God living inside of me, lighting my heart and every cell with the love I know is within us all.
When we dismiss ourselves, in whatever form that takes, whether it’s to override our natural rhythms, aligning to others, dismissing what we can feel because then we’d have to say it and deal with the possibility of not being liked.. we hurt our bodies, we hurt others, and we turn our backs on God, the universe and multidimensionality. It is our decision to turn away from the truth of what we innately know, to shut down our greater awareness and connection to the enormity of the universe, that hurts us the most.
‘I remember Dad trying to ‘find God’ at one stage in his life, which constituted his going to bible classes and then promptly being asked to leave because he was asking too many probing questions. (God, I love my Dad).’ – I love your Dad too, just reading this. The truth is there for everyone and probing questions are to be embraced, where answers are genuinely being sought, as it shows the person is wanting to connect with what’s being shared, but is needing some support in getting there.
I did the same thing many years ago, I went to a Christian group where they talked about God and I asked many questions about God but not many of my questions were answered. I left the group feeling confused about what they shared and nothing seemed to makes sense. Years later, when I heard Serge Benhayon present about God at the Universal Medicine presentations and courses, everything he shared about God made absolute sense to me. It reignited the truth of what I had felt all along, that God is love, non-judgemental, equal to us and He is within us all.
Another cracker of a blog, thank you, Alexis. There is such absolute honesty in your writing and the way you express is so relatable, down to earth, powerful and very inspiring.
I was born in a Middle Eastern country and as a Catholic I had my First Holy Communion there – I only know that because I’ve seen the picture of me in my white dress and gloves against a palm in the garden. I don’t actually remember anything about God until I went to Catholic boarding school in England and I used to pray to God as my friend, but He was always outside of me. To be honest, He still is, I can’t yet fully feel God inside but that is probably because I still have pictures in my head instead of truly feeling deeply in my body.
Beautiful and funny Alexis i really do enjoy reading your blogs and takes on life. Your line here :”I didn’t realise that when I chose to step away from myself, I was also choosing to step away from God” – yes and in stepping away from God we step away from ourselves too; we are one of the same. Which means that every time we are not with-ourselves, connected to that deepest part of us, we cannot feel God and when we cannot feel Him then no wonder or no surprise we can go bananas, think, or do the most surreal things that are ungodly. We are not being our godly selves.
“I didn’t realise that when I chose to step away from myself, I was also choosing to step away from God.” Yes so true. The fact is often ignored and hidden by doing more things that are nowadays associated with being religious like praying, going to church… making us think we are still religious even though we stepped away from our true religious ways and connection to God by stepping away from being true to ourselves.
‘I remember Dad trying to ‘find God’ at one stage in his life, which constituted his going to bible classes and then promptly being asked to leave because he was asking too many probing questions.’ I love this and it made me chuckle – so much I have looked at in life could not answer the questions I had about it until I met Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine. Since then no question has gone unanswered, there have been no gaps or contradictions and everything makes perfect sense.
“I put up a physical barrier by hardening my body, never realising that I was also putting up a barrier to God.” This so clearly and succinctly describes how we walk away from God for as you say it is our body that is “the medium through which we feel Him.”
When I look around our society there is a trend to trash and abuse our body. I feel this is happening for a reason. It makes sense what you’ve shared here and why we treat our body the way we do, it is either with abuse or love.
“God never ever walks away from any of us; it’s always us that choose to walk away from Him.” The one core truth we all need to know, that we are innately interwoven and it is never God who pulls away from us. We are the ones who hold the power to surrender and express our divinity, wisdom and love or not. When we really take this on board, our entire appreciation and expression of life is transmogrified.
This is very lovely Alexis and I can see how strong and empowering it is to claim the love of God that you feel deep within your inner-heart as being the same love that you have for yourself and all other people.
“God never ever walks away from us.” As you say Alexis it is us that walk away from God, but if we choose to return, God is always there – no judgement, just immense love
Reading this reminded me of what my father would say ‘I don’t need to go to church to know God’. We very rarely went to church, but we would never hear him say there was no God or it needs to be proven. It is our choice to step away from God which is usually as a result of our hurts and disconnection to ourselves.
Awesome, Alexis – you and your blog. There is so much you have shared that mirrors my life and the path of my relationship with God, but these words were the ones speaking to me today. “I didn’t realise that when I chose to step away from myself, I was also choosing to step away from God”. How incredible it would be if, when a child, this was one of the first lessons we were offered. If it had been I know that I wouldn’t have walked away from either of us.
Believe in the existence of God or knowing that God is in us and all around us is something completely different.
True Nico I knew God existed but questioned the portrayal of God – this I did not believe in. My relationship with God was rekindled when I started to attend presentations by Serge Benhayon. Over the years I began to drop the hardness in my body and re-open up to the vibration of love, this is where I began to understand God in a very real and daily way.
Yes Rosanna, because of the reinterpretations and images in which people have made God external, we have forgotten that God is always in us, no matter if we are so called ‘good’ or ‘bad’ people, It is just where we are from and can simply reconnect, as you say by surrendering to this fact and drop the hardness we have developed in our bodies from walking away from this internal connection with the source of our existence.
That’s a beautiful way to look at the opening to God Nico: “drop the hardness we have developed in our bodies from walking away from this internal connection with the source of our existence.”
I do recognise that Alexis, God is very physical and very simple too. It is by our mind that we tend to make it more complex or difficult and put conditions on our connection with God. But like you Alexis, as a child I too remember that connection with God that was naturally there, very physical to experience through my body, nothing mental at all.
“God never ever walks away from any of us; it’s always us that choose to walk away from Him. Not that we can ever, in truth, walk away from Him” I love this, it shows how much love there is for us all and how despite the fact for many the word God is linked to untruth versions of God the reality is we are all equally part of God and held by God at all times.
This is a delightful story Alexis. An inspiration for anyone to ‘get their body back to its original state’. Such a simple way to put it.
In the connection to myself, to God, I feel safe, I feel that nothing can touch me and that I can handle anything. For me, that’s how I know God and know what I feel is worth deeply nurturing.
To me one of the most poisonous things is main stream religion because it very insidiously effects our bodies and once in our bodies is extremely difficult to eradicate. I believe that we have been fooled and it was not until we were reunited back to true religion that we have been able to step back and feel the difference in our bodies and start to eradicate the tentacles that main stream religion has suffocated us with.
“We’ve constructed so many false and misleading notions around what it is to be religious that I never considered that as a child I was deeply religious” So many children are naturally religious. It’s when we come to so-called orthodox religion that we are told what we ” should’ believe – that doesn’t add up to what we naturally know as young ones.
I would definitely agree that to be with God it is a bodily felt experience and not a comforting picture/daydream/belief that comes from the mental picture show in the mind.
Yes, I agree, reacquainting with God is felt from the body – no amount of thinking, analytical working it out takes you to a place of knowing that God’s love in within and surrounds you, it is only us ‘turning a cheek’ away to not see and feel what is and has always been there.
Thank you Alexis, it’s quite a profound sharing about your life and the truth that God is always there within us, as we are in him, but that the state of our bodies and what we experience can place a temporary barrier there. Beautifully expressed, thank you.
Alexis, I love how you love both God and your parents so much as the love for both can be felt through your writing.
I love how we can learn so much from our body, it is constantly giving us messages to listen to, without ever criticising our choices, but always nudging us back to reconnect to our inner heart.
Yes, Gill, the body reminds us every day that we belong to God, no matter how many filters we have put in place to lessen the glory of this fact.
I can very much relate to hardening my body when I felt attacked by another but it wouldn’t occur to me in the moment that by living in protection, I was also shutting myself off from God. It is so very true, how I am with myself and the way I treat my body determines my connection with God or not.
I for one am so glad you have reunited with God, Alexis, as I love reading what you have to contribute to these blogs.
Ditto. It’s writings like this that can guide us through the infinite quagmire of untruths and bastardisations around religion.
Reading this I realise when I was growing up I thought I did not know God because my parents also didn’t go to church and we weren’t part of any organised religion. It’s interesting how I perceived our family as somehow less and there was at times a feeling of shame when around extended family who were very religious. It was like we thought we needed to be on our best behaviour, wear certain clothes and not blaspheme and say God or Jesus! It shows how many beliefs there are around being a certain way, even down to what we wear and what we do, that either shows we have a relationship with God or not.
Yes, and there was a belief around going to church that you had to wear your best clothes – probably where the term ‘Sunday best’ comes from – as though God would judge what we wore! It was the congregation that did all the judging.
Exactly Paula, and as children we all felt where the judgement was truly coming from, which was in contrast to what was being said to us.
Oh My Alexis. This is beautiful. It says so much. Oh and I can so relate as I too left me and so the beauty of God I knew in every breath and wiggle as a child – but until reading this I had not fully understood the mechanism of how I too hardened in protection and became distant from me and my body and so naturally had not the same living breathing present connection with Gods huge warmth inside me – not that as you say it went anywhere – but now I see it was the way I was in my body trying to cope in the harshness of the world that actually led to this stepping back from me and His full grace in my living ways. In understanding this therein lies the key to return also – this is a gift. Thank God you have returned to your once fluid present relationship with your body – so openly steadily and fully – and breathe now with the volume of His warm grace once again. Thank you.