The first time I experienced the pain and the debilitating effects of sciatica was towards the end of my third pregnancy, just before my 26th birthday. I didn’t know what had hit me, and the pain that would regularly run down my right leg made the last few months of my pregnancy extremely uncomfortable. I optimistically thought that when the baby was born the pain would go, but no; after bringing a 9lb 11oz gorgeous little boy into the world, it stayed.
With life then busier than ever, I now realise that I simply accepted the discomfort I was experiencing and gradually began to adjust my way of being to accommodate the pain, which very slowly became a part of me. I just got used to it being there and I found a way to continue to function, although at times it did become too much to deal with. I can now see that I also did the same with many other physical and emotional issues.
Over the years I searched endlessly and sometimes desperately for a cure, attending sessions with chiropractors, osteopaths, acupuncturists, massage professionals and more. And then there were the many New Age modalities that were promising to be the fix for all things, but apart from occasional and temporary relief, nothing really changed, and there were many times that I despaired that it ever would.
It wasn’t until 30 years later, in 2005, when I found my way to Universal Medicine, that I started to see that there was a deeper reason for this pain than it just being a physical issue; that there was more to it than the impact it was having in my body and on my life. And what was so amazing to hear was… the pain was not me!
What a life changing moment that was.
That the pain was not me took quite a while to digest, but as I slowly opened myself up to this surprising possibility, I could feel that it actually wasn’t. I had made it so.
Over many courses in the following years, Serge Benhayon presented how the body responds to the way we live, the way we eat, the way we feel, the way we walk and what unresolved issues and hurts we are holding onto. As this all began to make sense, I finally accepted that there was a reason that this had existed for so long, and it had a very important story to tell.
And looking back, the story was not a pretty one, but one that told of a lack of awareness of my body, to the point of disregard; of a lack of self worth which resulted in giving my power away, and most definitely of a lack of love for me, especially as a woman.
But finally here was someone presenting me with another way to live. Something inside me began to celebrate that I was finally listening and beginning to act on this seemingly new wisdom – wisdom that I started to realise I had always carried deep inside but had spent most of my life overriding.
The first session was amazing. Kate very gently helped me to re-connect to my body and to a depth of honesty which I realised that I had not previously had, and to an awareness of how it was feeling.
Unfortunately I could not have regular sessions with Kate so she gave me Connective Tissue exercises to do at home, and at work, as I was sitting for long hours.
The change in my pain levels was so gradual that I almost didn’t notice it happening, but a few months into doing the exercises, I became aware that I wasn’t being woken up at night so much – the sciatica seemed to be easing off. In fact, some days I wasn’t even aware of it.
I started to be aware that I could drive longer distances without having to stop and get out of the car. The awareness that I now had of how my body was truly feeling had increased enormously, I was becoming aware of how I was standing, sitting, walking and lying down and I was unable to ignore any bad posture. Part of me kept thinking that this was too good to be true, but true it has turned out to be.
The exercises have become part of my life, my morning and evening rituals, and every day I can feel an increasing awareness of how my body responds to them. I love doing them and love feeling the connection to my body; a depth of connection I have never had before. I continue to have Connective Tissue sessions, as well as other Esoteric Healing modalities, and care for my body in a much more loving way than ever before and I can certainly feel the benefits of doing so.
At 65 years of age I am working full time, and as many hours are in front of a computer, I do the Connective Tissue exercises at my desk regularly throughout the day. They not only help my body to recover from the effects of sitting for long hours but also help to bring me back to me, ensuring the quality of the work I do, and also the quality of relationships that I have with my fellow workers.
Now nearly 40 years after the first symptoms, and many thousands of dollars spent on every healing therapy I could find, I can finally say that sciatica no longer rules my life. In fact, it has almost disappeared from my life as a result of the love and care that I now have for my body and I know, without a shadow of doubt, that this amazing therapy has played a huge part in the releasing of the sciatic pain, and more importantly, the reasons behind it being there in the first place.
My endless appreciation is expressed to those who have played such a big part in my healing as I know that without the wisdom and amazingness of Serge Benhayon, Kate Greenaway and the other Universal Medicine practitioners, this would not have come about.
And of course I appreciate the decision I made to make many self caring and loving changes in my life. As a result, the days of just existing have been replaced with a true and loving way of living.
By Ingrid Ward, Real Estate Sales Team Support, West Auckland, New Zealand