Despairingly I stood, thinking to myself “What am I to do? How can I do it?” I had already walked 50 metres from the car park and the shop where I needed to buy a few things for dinner that night was only another few metres along. I stood trying to decide whether the level of pain would allow me those few extra steps – but then the thought of having to actually walk around the shop as well as the steps back to the car saw the fortitude dissolve. Was I really listening to my body or was I giving up – giving in to the pain?
That was only a few months ago.
The story of the on-again/off-again severe physical pain in my body began more than 30 years ago when a fall on my tail bone at a wet and greasy petrol station in Melbourne caused tears to flow for most of the 2 hour journey back home to country Victoria with 3 young children in the car.
The x-ray suggested a possible hairline fracture of the coccyx, but little did I know at the time that this was to be the commencement of years of pain, incidents and surgeries as I continued in the momentum of pushing myself to cross the things off the ‘to-do’ list and getting the job done.
Yes, there was much for me to learn about listening to my body.
Roberta Himing – ‘I was Owned by Constant Physical Pain’
By late spring 2013 constant physical pain owned me. Everything was governed by the level of pain that I was in – where I parked the car, where I would shop and ‘if’ I really needed to shop, who I would visit and could I even manage to visit… did they have stairs? A visit then was not an option.
I was in physical pain doing everyday activities (walking, cooking, weeding etc.), but often my back would also ‘lock’ causing me to stay in whatever position I was in at the time (sometimes up to several minutes where I could not move). Although a level of pain was constant during this period, sometimes it was more extreme than others.
Looking back, ultimately the excruciating back pain saw me calling an ambulance late one night, unable to put one foot in front of the other; subsequently I lay for 5 weeks on my side, not moving. An MRI showed 4 bulging discs and one ruptured disc. I feared I would not walk again.
A frozen right shoulder and a badly torn cartilage in my left knee soon followed, with keyhole surgery resulting for the knee. My knees and ankles would often let me down at the most inopportune times so I resorted to wearing flat shoes, just in case.
Early 2000 Roberta Himing is Introduced to Universal Medicine and the Esoteric Modalities: Beginning to Develop Awareness of the Body
These incidents were all before I introduced myself to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine. In the early 2000’s I commenced as a potential student with Universal Medicine and the opportunities arose bountifully to observe my previous reckless and disregarding behaviour more honestly. Pain in the body continually resulted in many visits to the G.P. along with x-rays, scans, M.R.I’s etc. Two cortisone needles into the bursa for revealed bursitis produced unsatisfactory results. The x-rays showed then there was nothing wrong with me… I felt to see a hip specialist – but the doctor said not necessary, the meniscus was in great shape, no hip replacement required. Basically they couldn’t work out what was going on. Was it all in my head?
Despite this, we had to move from our house about 15 months ago because it became too painful for me to pull myself up the stairs while gripping the banister to get to the bedrooms and bathroom.
During these past several years I have been receiving the most divine assistance from a few practitioners working esoterically, Neil Ringe being the most regular one whom I visited for Esoteric Chakra-Puncture. During these years of pain his true knowledge, deep love and wisdom were supportive to my healing my body. At an appointment with Neil late last year it was indicated there was a possibility, a potential, dependent on my developing awareness about taking notice of what my body was trying to tell me, that healing for the constant physical pain I experienced could indeed take place. I held onto that, but at that time did not trust myself really. In early 2013 there were another two hernia operations.
In September last year the pain increased. I felt ‘use-less’: I had allowed the constant pain to own me. Further x-rays, scans on ‘whizz bang’ updated machines, and a couple of M.R.I’s later now showed all the degenerative stages of the chronological age of this body, including scoliosis, narrowing of the spinal canal, atherosclerosis etc etc. plus now the new kid on the block – muscles had fallen from my right hipbone. By this point my husband had to take over the household chores and drive me to doctor’s appointments.
It was about this time that the Expo for Body Mind and Soul was to be held at the Convention Centre on the Gold Coast. I felt how important that event could be to expose the Gold Coast to the Esoteric Healing Modalities, however up until days before I had not rostered my name on as a practitioner – after all, I was walking with a purple walking stick – how could I be a practitioner with a walking stick? But I must have trusted enough innately. Unbelievably I had no pain for the 3 days I attended the expo.
However the physical pain in my everyday life returned thereafter. My G.P. suggested a referral to a Neurosurgeon as he indicated that it was difficult to fathom what was going on – he was perplexed but could not help me. Arrangements were made for me to have a ‘Disability’ sticker for my car and a referral to an orthopaedic surgeon was prepared.
My GP said that the body does have an amazing ability to heal itself but meanwhile I had better be in touch with a Pain Management Clinic and continue taking quantities of strong pain relief tablets.
Esoteric Connective Tissue Therapy… The Beginning of a Miracle
In late 2013 I finally listened to and acted on inner promptings and made an appointment to see Kate Greenaway, a Universal Medicine esoteric practitioner, and commenced Esoteric Connective Tissue Therapy sessions: I recall my level of constant pain then being gauged as at least 8 out of 10. The subtle but ‘power-full’ modality of Esoteric Connective Tissue Therapy began its magic. I diligently did the ‘sliding/gliding’ exercises Kate recommended.
She reminded me that I was not the pain. The physical pain was not who I was. It was my experience, but it did not define me.
These words caused a light-bulb to go on. There was a knowing, a deep awareness that a miracle was occurring within my body: I sensed the connective tissue fibres ‘re-growing’… it seemed as though I could feel the muscles somehow re-attaching themselves to my hip bone, like ‘picking up dropped stitches in a piece of knitting’. There was a knowing that through the Esoteric Connective Tissue Therapy sessions there was the potential for healing. At last I started to truly listen to my body. I knew it was time to share with others my experience of this amazing and awesome modality.
My next visit with Kate Greenaway in early 2014 saw the level of physical pain as about 5 – 6 out of 10 as a constant, but I knew that if I focussed on my body a little more deeply and the fact that “I indeed was not the pain” there were endless possibilities. Just trust. It is almost the end of April 2014 and I’ve not needed to use pain relief nor the walking stick for about a month. The pain percentage now would be about 5 -10% which occurs only when I basically ignoreand stop listening to the signs from my body.
I’m still learning to evaluate and listen to my body as to how far to walk so as not to cause distress and pain.
This evening I walked along the foreshore, not on the soft sand yet, but enjoying nature, feeling the sea breeze and marvelling at the wonder of the body and how it reflects to us just how we have treated it in this and other lives… have we respected it or been in total dis-regard?
I sit here typing this unfolding story with no physical pain evident. The Universal Medicine healing modality of Esoteric Connective Tissue Therapy has revealed to me the depth of healing that potentially is possible when one gets themselves out the way to re-connect with that deep and quiet place within.
This has been a Miracle – (an everyday miracle).
by Roberta Himing, Elder Student of Life
Update: as of August 2015 Roberta Himing continues to live pain free. To this day she regularly does connective tissue exercises and continues to receive Esoteric Connective Tissue Therapy sessions a few times per year. She recently travelled to Costa Rica where she did a days rainforest trek and crossed several swing bridges across cavernous ravines . . . and all with no pain! You can learn more about Esoteric Connective Tissue Therapy and Universal Medicine’s other modalities at Universal Medicine’s website. You can learn more about Roberta Himing at www.RobertaHiming.com
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Yes, this modality, ECTT really needs to be headline news; it could support many thousands of people who live with chronic pain.
I have seen more clearly over the last few weeks and know the effect when we do not take care of ourselves and listen or love our body. Modalities like Esoteric Connective Tissue are really supportive in bringing that care and love back to the body.
This really is a miracle Roberta and a testimony in, when we listen to our body and find something that truly supports the body pain can be turned around. Since I have found the esoteric healing modalities much has changed in my body as well, one is from having really painful periods (endometriosis) to now having pain free periods and actually enjoying having them! It is the esoteric healing modalities I will always go to along with seeing my GP if needed. As these are the only 2 things (as well as looking at how I am living) I will go to in order to support my body and well-being.
It is a miracle Roberta, Esoteric Connective Tissue Therapy is incredibly gentle, yet so powerful.
“The pain was not me” – this says so much about how our human experience is often defined by our identification and ownership and how that gets in the way of being that is true to our being.
Wow, she did a trek in Costa Rica! That’s crazy, who would have thought that a life of constant pain could turn into this? #anythingispossible
Love what you have shared Roberta, and may I add that anyone can get the same relief from these type of conditions because the treatment and exercises are so simple, as this is what I have found. All the teaching and healing modalities presented by Universal Medicine are so simple and practical in every way.
There is magic in Esoteric Connective Tissue Therapy in partnership with taking responsibility for how we care for and move our body.
I feel that what you are sharing Roberta in how you describe the momentum that we use to push ourselves to get things done, and the incessant pushing from so many employers to reach the next level of profit that has been set comes with a health risk. And we can all see the out play of this as people are sick from the stresses that we put ourselves through to achieve these and similar tasks. But why are we are doing this to ourselves? Why are we are pushing the boundaries of making profit over the health of the workforce? This makes no sense to me what so ever.
A miracle indeed, moving from constant pain for years to being free of it- using such a gentle hands on modality such as Esoteric Connective Tissue therapy.
“She reminded me that I was not the pain. The physical pain was not who I was. It was my experience, but it did not define me.” This is such an important thing to remind ourselves of when we experience physical pain. For me also knowing that the pain will pass in time supports me to let go and to know it is clearing something from my body.
Roberta what you have written about again shows me the power of connective tissue therapy and its gentle appreciation to one’s body. You know I have access to these modalities and how do I value them in the true sense of the word. How often I have pushed my body when the clear message is not today. Slowly I am getting there to appreciate the amazing body I and we all have, if we truly care for it a loving, aware way.
Spectacular proof of the miracles that are possible with the correct application of healing and life.
Absolutely 💫
Roberta it’s an amazing story because the interventions that worked for you to the greatest degree to significantly reduce chronic pain were actually very gentle, non intrusive, and non surgical. This would also take a tremendous burden off the medical system and aged care facilities as you are now able to live a relatively normal life. An update on your life and health via another blog would be most welcomed.
Interesting, all the interventions, surgeries and so on had no healing effect, and yet ECTT the most gentle therapy imaginable reduced the chronic pain to the point that Roberta had no pain, and could even do a days rainforest trek in Costa Rica.
Beautiful sharing of your experience with Connective Tissue Roberta.
I have experienced how powerful and beautiful this modality is, both Giving them as a practitioner, and as a client. It is the deepest form of support for the body to restore itself.
We do not need to live with chronic pain, on pain killers, and just accepting it as a normal part of life. We are so much more, yet we so often accept less.
As you are aware from personal experience Roberta constant physical pain is absolutely debilitating and affects every facet of a person’s life and haunts every move and decision they make. That you could travel to Costa Rica and do a rain-forest walk after such a significant pain history illustrates how connective tissue therapy sessions and connective tissue exercises can support our bodies to heal.
Esoteric Connective Tissue is truly a deep and powerful healing modality and yes like all it comes down to the client surrendering and allowing ourselves to feel what the body is communicating and letting got what is not of our true origins. Each time I have a session I simple melt into the table and feel my pulse within and the rhythm it is connected to.
This is a gorgeous article to read, thank you so much for bringing your appreciation for Esoteric Connective Tissue Therapy.
Amazing story of how we can turn our own health around by stopping or reversing the patterns of behaviour that we created that make us ill in the first place.
I love the partnership in this work of healing, the practitioner never does anything to a client, so to speak. They do not heal them, they facility and support the client and offer space for it to happen.
I agree Samantha. Both practitioner and client are needed and the willingness of us as client to surrender allows amazing healing to take place.
It is important to remember that the practitioner does not heal the patient; the practitioner facilitates and supports the client, offering space for the healing to happen.
I find that identifying with the pain, or the energy that caused the pain, and the emotions that come with reacting to the pain is more painful than the physical pain itself.
Roberta lovely to read your experience of Esoteric Connective Tissue Therapy, it truly has miraculous results.
Wow, Roberta! Yes, nothing short of a miracle, I can only imagine the joy and liveliness in your life at the moment – having a relative who suffers from immense back pain, unable to get out of bed for days and the misery that comes with that, I have witnessed how horrible it can be. Amazing that you’ve made these steps and are willing to surrender your body more and more.
Roberta returning to your blog I can’t help but feel your story needs to be shared far and wide – how many people live in chronic pain everyday? What if there are other options such as Connective Tissue Therapy instead of a life of painkillers or steroid injections?
The miracle of Esoteric connective tissue should be front page news.
With many people experiencing severe pain and it being on the increase, modalities such as Esoteric Connective Tissue Therapy are a great support to the person, but also to the health professionals that attend to the person. They put the person back in the driver seat, rather than feeling the helplessness of being in constant pain.
Roberta this is indeed a miracle. Thank you for sharing your painful story and your journey of healing.
This is an extraordinary turn around Roberta, and a beautiful testimony of how deeply healing the Connective Tissue Therapy modality is for the body.
This is truly an example of the power of reconnecting deeply to our body and how it can heal itself when we start to honour this connection and deeply nurture our body in the process. Why Roberta has done with the assistance of Esoteric Chakra Puncture and Connective Tissue Therapy would not have been possible with modern medical procedures alone. It was with them being utilised synergistically that the massive healing occurred.
Getting underneath our presenting symptoms to the energetic root cause is so important. Thankyou for sharing your story Roberta.
Learning that we are not the pain, despite it being intense, was a revelation for me. I have experienced back pain since childhood, and find that information, alongside Esoteric Connective Tissue Therapy, to be a great support.
This is an amazing story. Yes, I agree – Esoteric Connective Tissue Therapy is an amazing modality, but true healing cannot take place without us taking part in it.
An amazing story as is the modality known as Esoteric Connective Tissue Therapy – a true gift from Heaven.
This is a remarkable example Roberta of our body’s innate capacity to heal itself if we are willing to go to the energetic root cause of our malaise. How often are we ‘pushed from behind’ to go into drive and get things done rather than deeply connect with our body and allow it to move in tune with the greater body (the Universe and its cycles) that we belong to? Not in a fluffy spiritual way but with a deep honouring of the fact that we are love and there is a way to allow our bodies to move in expression of this.
Amazing Roberta, I can attest that the Esoteric Connective Tissue Therapy is wondrous. I would say it’s my favourite.
There is such a different way for us to look at pain and our relationship with it – is it that we see pain as a burden, or is it that we see it as a point of communication from the body to ask us to look at how we are living.
Esoteric Connective Tissue Treatment are powerful to experience – its like having all the dots and dashes joined up again to restore a fluidity in the body and a return to inner harmony.
Thank you Roberta for sharing this very relatable story. How empowering it is to come to a point where you were able to cease identifying with the pain as something personal and allow yourself to open to being far more than a human body.
“She reminded me that I was not the pain. The physical pain was not who I was. It was my experience, but it did not define me.
What pain does is to bring us in full motion movement. The body is no longer anchored; it is debased; it lacks a base. Esoteric Connective Tissue Therapy brings that body back to a place of repose, a place that we all know too well, a place that brings us back to something we know is true. At the same time, it brings the body to a new alignment that helps with the physicality.
‘She reminded me that I was not the pain. The physical pain was not who I was. It was my experience, but it did not define me.’ We can get so absorbed by the presence of pain in the body that it becomes the be all and end all of everything, in fact the more energy we give it the more it seems to take over. This does not have to happen as you clearly see here.
Roberta this story is just one of miracules! Incredible. Yes, the benefits of Esoteric Connective Tissue Therapy are beyond words – I find everything re-adjusts in the body as any jamming of tissue fluid begins to flow once more leaving the body supple, light and deeply connected.