For six years now I have been studying, learning and growing with Universal Medicine. Before Universal Medicine, life did not make sense for me and I had given up on myself, others and life.
Growing up, my mother was protestant and my father belonged to another small church – but neither really cared much about religion.
When it was time for my protestant confirmation, I thought about not doing it – as it was my choice. One of the reasons I did it was because of the big celebration which was held for me… and all the presents and attention I got.
I knew the protestant religion didn’t mean anything to me… when I read the bible or heard stories about Jesus I could not relate to it. When I was sitting in church listening to the priest, I didn’t feel comfortable and it didn’t make sense. Singing songs in the church also made me feel uncomfortable – it was rather artificial.
What I liked in school religion was discussing really how to care about others and about society – and this was something I was interested in. But religion itself for me was an empty word and had no meaning. We hardly went to church; only at Christmas as far as I can remember…
As a child I had a strong sadness, I felt very alone, I was crying a lot and felt that the world was different and that people didn’t understand me; I didn’t know how to deal with it.
Later I blamed my parents strongly for it, but it was not their fault. I now see that this is the way I had chosen to Iive for so many lifetimes. I realise how much I had given up on who I truly am, and the knowing in my heart.
When I was in my mid 20’s, I decided that there is no God.
Life didn’t make sense. I didn’t live in harmony and I only saw misery around me.
When I was 30, an illness made me stop and look for a different way to live.
Half a year later I met my beautiful partner and experienced a connection I had not felt before.
We both went to England to participate at a workshop held by Serge Benhayon.
Then everything started to slowly change.
The way Serge lived and what he was expressing made sense: he taught us that everything is energy.
…And life began to make sense again.
I agreed and felt that he spoke and lived truth.
The challenge was to constantly let go of all the things that didn’t support being truly me, and to start to accept and allow myself to feel my amazing essence – that there is love and joy in my heart. In expressing it I can expand and share this with others.
It took years to let Serge’s message in – that we are all love and that it is about being me. So simple.
I began to understand that we are not really separate but one: that’s why brotherhood and harmony with everybody is necessary. And that we are here on earth to reclaim that we are originally divine and loving by nature… then to reflect that to others who have forgotten or, are strongly denying it.
I know now that true religion is in me. True Religion is to be in connection with my divine essence: the connection I have to myself.
All I have to do is become still and give myself the permission to feel me; my Soul and God reveals the depth of love that I am
I am a Son of God. Divine and amazing in essence – we all equally are. And my purpose is to be a reflection of love to other people.
Today I could feel the pain of having not reflected my truth to other people: this hurts deeply in my body.
I can feel how strongly I have held my truth and true expression back to avoid reactions or to not rock the boat. I’ve not allowed myself to be seen and heard as joyful and loving. This was deeply ingrained in me, but now it feels time to speak and live the truth.
I have lived denying my own power, inner-knowing and amazing beauty. Now I am beginning to feel how awesome and beautiful I am.
So, welcome Janina – Son of God.
I am a Son of God and Universal Medicine has reminded me of that fact: and, that we are all equal Sons of God, all-knowing in our divine essence.
By Janina Koch, Cologne/Germany
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