1,362 thoughts on “Trust and Appreciation”

1. If we never deal with our hurts they hold us back immensely from who we truly are, this is a beautiful and inspiring account Chan of the love and joy we can feel when we make the choice to finally let go of hurts, this is true healing.

2. These experiences remind us of who we are and that we can always make more loving choices in our own lives.

3. Our childhood hurts set us up to live in a life of protection, yet when we drop that protection and connect more deeply within ourselves, we find our essence, and in that we can feel another’s essence too, and that changes everything because we are no longer trapped in a life of protection but open to the joy and love we feel from the inside out.

   1. I agree Sally and being in protection doesn’t protect us at all. It hurts us more to be in protection, whereas being open to showing our vulnerability, sensitivity, tenderness and all of who we are is a true strength. It allows us to feel it all, the hurts, and the love and to really feel how amazing we are.

4. When we experience love, it is recognised by our body immediately and it is then also a marker for how we can live.

5. In reading your words, I can see that there is a great indictment for us as a human race, that even just one child should learn that it is safer to shut down the expression of their joy, and what’s worse – is how this was allowed to carry on into adulthood, how this one precious child was left to be in life without the expression of their pure joy. If taken very seriously, which by all accounts it should be, we as a humanity are way, way of track, just by the juxtaposition of the sadness of a child in the company of adults who are too sad themselves to notice or to help.

   1. Great point Shami and I agree, humanity has been off track for thousands of years. We are in an era where I feel this will be corrected and we are being shown how to return to our true path and we will no longer be able to ignore the call to return to love.

6. “….to not be too joyful in case I get attacked.” I wonder how many people in the world have done the same thing? A large number I suspect. How different the world would look if this wasnt the case, and everyone of us simply shared the joy that we are and that we feel all the time.

   1. I have wondered about the same thing Sandra, my guess is that it is most likely that everyone may have experienced some form of holding back from expressing joy and love at some point in their life. I find it is our experience of seeing people around us doing this that we can often learn as a young child that it is not OK to be who we are and to be joyful because the reflection we receive often isn’t a joy but a contracted way of being and expressing.

7. It is ridiculous that anyone holds back the joy they naturally are and yet we do, we simply do not give ourselves permission to live and feel how amazing we are.

   1. It certainly is Fiona, it doesn’t make any sense does it? I didn’t understand why we as humans made such unintelligent choices but I started to understand why after attending Universal Medicine presentations, workshops and course, and then everything in life simply made so much sense.

8. We can make life look good by avoiding challenges or keeping ourselves small and we might think it is all good. Enter The Way of The Livingness and it is really exposing of the fact we are not truly living but getting by and existing and therefor not vital and joyful.

   1. And, why would we choose a life of abuse and misery when we can choose a life full of joy and vitality? The Way of The Livingness is definitely the way forward for humanity to experience true harmony and love.

9. Abuse is so normal in society that it is common for us not to realise just how much abuse we endure each and every day. It is absurd and unimaginable to most that this is the case until you feel real love and connection with another. Hence our responsibility to share all the love we are and have reconnected to so that others can be inspired to live it too.

   1. Yes, I agree Joshua. Abuse has become so normalised in society, it seems to take extreme forms of abuse for our society to raise concerns. But I feel it is the subtle forms of abuse that leads to extreme forms of abuse, so it makes sense to me to address all forms of abuse if we are to eliminate abuse from our lives. Also, this cannot be achieved without reintroducing love back into the equation.

10. Love this, thank you for sharing Chan Ly. Most of us spend a long time walking around in an armour of protection without even realising we’re doing it. As I’ve slowly built more of a connection to my body and what I can actually feel, rather than what I think I’m feeling, the contraction and old patterns of holding back are more clearly felt too, but also how useless these patterns of behaviour are. We think we’re protecting ourselves by playing less but we’re kidding ourselves, because we all have the choice to see who we, and each other, really are regardless of the behaviours we might put in the way to try to cover up that essence.

    1. Awesome sharing Bryony. I feel to add that it is crazy why we would choose to reduce ourselves and go into protection when it doesn’t actually protect us in any way. It doesn’t sound very intelligence does it? And, when we can see that we are choosing something over and over again that simply doesn’t work but the tendency to go into protection is very common. So, it would be great to question, what is the source of intelligence that drives us to go into protection.

11. We are masters in the art of reducing ourselves. These are waters in which we know how to swim to the point that we know how to reduce ourselves to the point that we can avoid feeling pain (a situation that invites you to [further] reduce yourself to it).

    1. I agree Eduardo and it doesn’t help that everywhere we look around us, many people are also doing exactly the same thing, reducing their joy. It is when we receive a different reflection, one of full joy that it supports us to realise reducing ourselves is not the way. Reducing ourselves in any shape or form simply causes more pain and suffering, and this can leave us stuck in the cycle of abuse and misery if we are not prepared to choose a different way.

12. Thank you for sharing Chan. Unfortunately, this toning down is an all too common occurrence. We all know it happens because we can see it and feel how our children change. Then we also feel it when a child is fully connected, and we know that this is what we miss, and that can bring up jealousy and resentment towards a child. So, all in all, one big set up.

    1. Yes, I agree Julie, I also see this is a common occurrence for many people and this is why it is so important for us to reflect love and truth without holding back or toning down our joy. It is natural for us to be joyful and it hurts us all to hold it back.

13. I agree Shirley-Ann it is so important to not contract, shy away from shining our joy in all situations. It is always a blessing to be in the presence of someone who is fully expressing who they are and showering us with love and joy, it naturally lifts us up even if we may not be feeling that way ourselves.

14. Very gorgeous Shirley-Ann, appreciation is gold and I am learning to apply it to my life more and more. My experience during Sacred Esoteric Healing level 5 is something I will never forget and it is an incredible reminder for me that we are all deeply connected to everyone and to God.

15. Yes, I agree Linda. It looks like everything in life is about going inwards instead of outwards. Whenever we seek to be love, we are often taught from a young age to seek love from people and things outside of us. What you share Linda is gold, and this will support many people to realise that we in fact hold the key to life and to living love consistently.

16. We can only ever really trust when we reconnect to our essence, to who we truly are. And this connection is so worth appreciating.

    1. It certainly is Kathleen, and it has been an easy process for me to trust from being surrounded by people who are living the loving way. I found it was very easy to trust when I was met by people who were deeply respectful, loving, honest and caring. This was what I had experienced at Universal Medicine, and it was very easy for my whole body to surrender and trust in a space that emanated absolute love.

17. Returning to living that love requires us going back through the toning down steps we made. And those steps hurt whereas the love and joy doesn’t.

    1. Yes, I recall when I realised how much I had deliberately been toning down love and joy, I remember it hurt a lot. But it didn’t last long, because once I nominated what was going on, I was able to let it go and make a different choice.

18. This is so beautiful Chan . . . ” I felt I was finally home with my family, even though I only knew a small percentage of the people there” . . . We are finally home when we reconnect to the love that we are and when we do reconnect we feel the love in everyone else as well and then we wonder why we had advoided connecting for so long.

    1. I know what you mean Kathleen. It also feels like once I finally returned to the love from within, I have also returned to humanity and no longer see myself as separate.

19. Imagine that… we have created a world where it is possible for someone to make the decision to not be too joyful in case they get attacked. That when we see a light shining, far from being inspired to turn our own light on, we instead go about stamping the other light out. This simple sharing shows how twisted things have gotten, and that we need to find another way. Serge Benhayon is leading that way forward.

    1. I agree Simon, Serge Benhayon is certainly leading the way for humanity to live all of who we are, and he inspires us all to turn up our light and shower our world with love and joy that resides in us all.

20. Until you attend an event like Sacred Esoteric Healing where there is harmony, warmth, a lack of comparison and jealousy, presenters who speak with you from the wisdom of their bodies rather than at you, it’s hard to imagine this is possible. We have accepted group work as being stressful, anxiety provoking, ‘rah-rah-ing’ or with participants all pretending to be ok but not going anywhere near true connection. I also appreciate that I know what it can feel like and what can result when we come together in unity and harmony.

    1. This is what I love about the Sacred Esoteric Healing course Fiona, you have captured exactly how I felt. The love and harmony in the room was always deeply felt and what we get met with is absolute love.

21. Could it be that toning down our love and joy to fit in life is a conscious choice to avoid to live that power and be the reflection of change, simply by you living with that love and joy?

    1. Great question Nico, for me the answer is yes, it was a conscious choice and I can remember at what age I chose this. It was a very calculated and deliberate choice that led to many threads of complications, sadness and emptiness, where no one benefits.

       1. Thank you for your honesty Chan Lee, as it makes me also look for myself and be honest about my choices in life. When did I chose to become a participant in this creation and leave my tender and delicate being to succumb to the misery this brings. Yes I do know when, and it was deliberate as I pretend I was not knowing and with that handed myself over to what other people told me about how to and not to behave.

22. Return from a contracted way of life and entering the realm of true joy and freedom to express the love that we are without any suppression or conversion, is what we all and deserve. We only have to make the choice to choose that for ourselves as it will not be given to us by society as that is fed and held by the contracted way of living of the many many people that are holding it. We can only deconstruct this way of living from the inside out, a responsibility for each and everyone individually to one day return to.

    1. Yes, I agree Nico and no one can do this for us. We can embrace support from others but no one can make us take responsibility for life, it is up to us to embrace it in full or we can choose to live in contraction.

       1. Yes Chan Lee, we have to embrace life in full and understand that it is all about our way home, returning to a way of being we all left long ago because we wanted to experiment with creation, a way of being that is at the root of what we today call our life, our societies and our world which all are not true because we have created it in the image of God, not in co-creation with God so it is void of the full truth and connection.

23. “I came to the realisation that life isn’t just about me but it is about encompassing everything and everyone.” This has been a turning point for me Chan, as I had made my life about me first in many ways. But what Serge Benhayon has shown so many is that when we do anything, when we make it about everyone, ie even cleaning our teeth ‘for everyone’, we start to understand the implications of what this means and the repsonsiblity we therefore have to take care of how we do absolutely anything and everything.

    1. I love what you’ve shared Sandra and I now know that responsibility leads to absolute joy.

24. I love your sharing here… “whenever I feel disconnected I can choose to re-connect to love and to connect to God in an instant. In knowing that He is in me, all round me in every moment, always beside me and in every part of me and in absolutely everything…:

25. So many of us go on to live a defensive life; a lesser life from what we knew as a child. We often associate children as having tantrums because they don’t get what they want but if you look a little closer at the adult in full-blown reaction, there is no difference, except the size of the body. Life, as it is at the moment, is not set up for us to hold onto that childlike joy but the more we start to realise that we can have joy in our lives the more we will question why we react the way we do.

    1. I love what you’ve shared Julie, I was laughing to myself because I have done exactly what you’ve presented here. I sometimes look back at how I’ve handled dealing with my children’s tantrums especially when they were younger and found myself throwing a tantrum equally yucky and harmful. Sometimes I joke to my children that it would be great to have it on video so we can see how we’ve all behaved, reacted and how we responded to each other. It would be funny and exposing to watch how ridicules our behaviours can be when we are not ourselves.

26. Many of us have learned to turn down the brightness of our light and not shine, but in the end we not only do ourselves a disservice but others as well.

    1. Yes, I agree Jennym, and it takes a level of honesty and willingness to embrace responsibility to reach an understanding and realisation of what you’ve shared.

27. A great reminder Chan that we all have this openness, light and love within us from the day we are born, but for so many different reasons we let the hurts that we experience during our lives to dull the truth of who we are until we actually forget. So to be able to reconnect to everyone else, God and the Universe through the healing modalities of Universal Medicine is one of the most precious and joyful gifts we can ever receive.

    1. It certainly is Sandra and I cherish and deeply appreciate these modalities from Universal Medicine. My experiences during the many courses I’ve attended has been profound and I am continuously learning from them and being more open to making these connections with my soul a more frequent occurrence.

28. Thank you Chan, to re-read this blog is a reminder that actually being open and loving no matter what comes at you is the way to live. To be able to feel and understand the quality of the person rather than the angry attack for example stops any escalation of the situation.

    1. Awesome comment Mary, you remind me to not take attacks personally because I can sometimes still fall into this trap. And, by not personalising attacks means it will support me to stay open, be compassionate and loving, because as soon as I react I have already contacted and gone into protection.

29. One of the things I love about the Universal Medicine courses is that they help strip away all the crap that we carry daily and when that’s all stripped back you begin feel a renewed sense of who you are – it’s like washing a dirty rock to find there’s a diamond inside.

    1. I know what you mean Meg, I also love Universal Medicine for the same reasons, it supports people in so many ways to peel away layers and layers of hurt and complications that does not belong and supports us to reveal the amazing being that we are.

       1. Yeh absolutely, it’s invaluable in a world where we tend to carry every incident and hurt with us from the time of occurrence right through our whole lives – what if it’s actually simple and possible to heal these and live free from the our past experiences?

30. When I see someone react form a hurt in which they try to stop me from living a joyful and love filled life, I now can understand why they are doing that and from that understanding I can choose to not get involved in the misery of life they prefer me to return to.

    1. Awesome Nico and it is amazing to arrive at this point in life where we are able to observe and not take on the demands from things outside of us or to conform and change who we are. It is a strength to not join the misery in the world because it is a condition that is very common in our world and it can be difficult at times to not fall for it.

       1. Sure, it needs a lot of healing of the old hurts to be able to see through the false layers we have build to protect ourselves from these hurts ever happening again and with that, keep ourselves entrapped in an endless cycle.

31. I know that one too Chan Ly, to choose to not be joyful because it would upset other people. Now I can see how ridiculous such a choice is as by doing that I succumb to the demands of temporal life that tells me that life is to live in the misery of it and always will be a struggle.

    1. Yes, it is pretty ridiculous to shutdown our joy because we are afraid of people not liking our reflection. It hurts us when we choose to do this and it also hurts the people around us too. So, it doesn’t make sense does it?

       1. I do agree with you Chan Ly, it makes no sense and I hope soon more people will come to this realization.

32. Trust is a big word, and big to live in this world that is so not configured to allow us to trust! For me it has been amazing to build on trust and learn to live with more trust in my life – and this too is due largely to Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon with his consistent loving presence, never wavering and always being super steady in his love for me and all – this steadiness has been the key ingredient for me re-developing my trust again! A treasured gift indeed!

    1. Me too Henrietta, it is with huge thanks and appreciation to Serge Benhayon and the people at Universal Medicine for their love and support. Also I agree, our world has been constructed in a way that doesn’t support us to trust. But when we learn to trust again this is a beautiful experience and we then realise we have the ability to trust once we heal our hurts and let go of the protection we’ve put up.

33. That is awesome Linda, beautifully shared. Going into hardness and protection doesn’t protect us at all, it gives the opposite effect. I have come to realise it is through trusting what I feel, staying open and surrendering to love that is the greatest protection of all.

34. How beautiful that we can heal deep hurts from abuse instead of becoming part of the circle and being the next abuser because of shutting down to not feel the hurt.

    1. It certainly is Lieke, it is our willingness to reconnect to love and our soul that supports us to break the cycle of abuse. Because if we hold onto our hurts and express from there, then this will only feed back to more hurts and abuse.

35. Withdrawing from life has never worked, and there is much healing to be had by letting humanity in, feeling the hurts, and then letting them go.

    1. I agree Julie, I feel many of us know this is true but when it comes to it, it isn’t always so easy to let our hurts go, especially when we have been so used to holding onto them.

       1. I agree Chanly88, and sometimes we do not realise we are still carrying something around with us, often for many years. Just the other day I went to the dentist and was shaking when the needles were administered. When I sat there and felt into it, I could feel that this was trauma held in the body from over 12 years ago relating to a bad dental experience. With something like this, I would go to an Esoteric Practitioner who will assist me in letting it go. Especially, as I need to go back to the dentist for more dental work.

36. Chan your story is amazing because you have outlined childhood abuse and the effects on your life, and the deep changes you have been able to make with the support of Universal Medicine to return to a way of life that is loving and joyful. You story here is a testament to what’s possible, that we can recover out of traumatic abuse and live from the love and joy within again.

    1. Thank you Melinda. What I realise is that anyone can recover from traumatic experiences when we choose to reconnect to love and to our soul. Someone once asked me many years ago, what was my secret to healing the abuse I had experienced, and my answer was love. It was so simple and I didn’t have to go through counselling or medication which is almost unheard of. I feel it is the power of love that can deeply heal us.

37. The love we are is the unifying factor that brings us back to humanity and wanting to be a part of it. Without love, we the people are the cause for not wanting to be part of humanity or living this life in the fullness it is supposed to be lived.

    1. We are all living in a body of love, no matter how hard we try to escape this we are always being called to return to love.

38. I agree Doug, the part where we choose to hold back our joy, this choice can only to made by us. No matter what the world throws at us, choosing to disconnect from who we are ultimately is our choice. Every time anyone of us chooses to return to love and joy, the world receives a huge blessing and a reflection of who we are.

39. Brilliant Linda, it is a joy to discover the truth about going into protection and how this is in fact not supportive or loving at all. Being open, embracing love, trust and surrender, not holding back are opposite to the form of protection so many of us know and live with.

40. It is incredible to connect to the love that is within us, and if we are able to connect to this quality on a daily basis, we can also start to build this connection and deepen it to make it a consistent and solid foundation for life.

41. If we live in contraction we are more likely to get attacked. So we may as well shine for all to see and enjoy it.

    1. So true Rebecca, I have witness this and also experienced it myself. There is enormous power in being who we are, no holding back but like you shared shinning who we are for all to see and this is something no one can attack or penetrate because the power of love and joy is far too strong for any attack to stick or harm us.

42. Beautifully expressed Linda and adding to what you’ve shared, everyone misses out whenever we hold back expressing love and who we are.

43. I love what Serge Benhayon has presented so far, everything he shares makes so much sense and with absolute truth. I also hear what you are saying Doug, it does feel like madness sometimes, but it is also so awesome to realise what we have created and know we can get ourselves out of this mess too.

44. Through the Sacred Esoteric Healing practitioners I began to re-learn about trust and appreciation. I’ve developed some solid friends over the past couple of years and what I love is about relationships. In the past if I lost trust in anyone, well they would be history.
    Since I realised that everything I perceive as ‘awful/bad’ in a relationship, is an offering of healing of a past hurt and I’m grateful. So I don’t lose a friendship, I gain a solid friendship from a solid foundation.

    1. Awesome Shushila, when we have issues come up with friends often that it is automatically seen as a bad thing, but they could in fact support us to evolve when we are willing to understand what the issues are and why they are there. Like you shared, we could develop a solid foundation through trust, love and understanding, and not to just walk away from relationships without understanding what is truly going on.

45. Appreciation is a biggie for me, I knew how to appreciate others and expected this from others too and when it was offered it was never enough. I’m re-learning that appreciation begins at first within us then we don’t need to search elsewhere for it, in that appreciation we are confirmed as to who we truely are.

46. Both trust and appreciation were lacking in my life. It is since meeting Serge Benhayon, Universal Medicine and the Sacred Esoteric healing modalities has this moved to a new foundation.

    The one I am going to focus on is appreciation. Why is it that we are ok to show our appreciation to others but not to ourselves? I regularly observe the need to be appreciated by others (including myself and still have this expectation from time to time), when who better to appreciate then one self? Just something worth pondering over.

    1. Same here Shushila, I am learning to appreciate myself so much more thanks to the amazing people I have met at Universal Medicine. With this, life has become a joy and my relationships with people are becoming more and more amazing every day.

47. Chan I did my very first retreat in 2015 too and have never looked back. “I know I was finally home with my family” this absolutely takes my breath away because this was said to me at my very first attendance of the Sacred Esoteric Healing modality in 2014.

    1. I attended the same retreat Shushila in 2015 and it was my first time too. I loved it, it is an incredible event that is on every year and I wouldn’t want to miss it.

48. We can reduce ourselves in life so we don’t stand out, or in an attempt to protect ourselves from being hurt. But we are only hurting ourselves more in the process. It’s huge to be able to move through this and reach a point where we realise this. Those times where we feel connected to everyone are markers of true community and brotherhood. They reflect a lot about how far we ourselves have come.

    1. Once we experience this marker it sets us for life to constantly return to love and brotherhood as much as possible. There are many things in life that doesn’t support us to do this but it doesn’t mean it is impossible because I have met many people at Universal Medicine who makes this way of living in true brotherhood look very normal and easy.

49. ‘What really hurt deep was not what was physically done to me but seeing clearly that the people who chose to abuse me were simply very hurt and choosing to vent it out on others. The sadness for me was seeing that they chose to suppress love in order to attack and defend’
    Holding back our love not only hurts others, we hurt ourselves and our bodies, for love is meant to flow and be shared and released, and not contained, for love is too grand.

    1. I agree, love is indeed very grand and I feel we are only touching the surface of true love and its grandness. So, there is no end point to love, it just keeps deepening.

50. A beautiful appreciation of returning to love and joy and sharing it with all.

51. A great reminder to appreciate what has constellated for me to have access to the teachings of the way of the Livingness, something I haven’t spent enough time doing before.

    1. I love sharing about how I was constellated to attending my very first Universal Medicine event. It blows me away every time I share my experience and how I came to The Way of The Livingness. Thank you God, for constellating the sequence of events for me to be where I am today and for meeting the amazing people at Universal Medicine who have inspired me to no end.

52. “The sadness for me was seeing that they chose to suppress love in order to attack and defend.” This is the understanding we can bring to why people do what they do but equally not excuse it. You share a way out of that loop and bring a choice into this life through movements that re-imprint your experiences to reflect a more deeply healing way for others.

    1. When we understand the reason behind why people choose to hurt themselves and others, it is then easier to de-personalise any attack coming our way, because for someone to attack another person, they are deeply hurt inside and are also attacking themselves first before they are able to attack others. Observe and read each situation is key for me to understand what is really going on.

       1. Well said Chan, de-personalising the attack is vital to be able to respond in a way that offers another opportunity to bring more love to the situation. Knowing that what we put out there is what we are doing to ourselves should be information enough – but perhaps that is why we do not allow it to be common knowledge, because it calls for too much personal responsibility and accountability.

53. There are so many people who have lost trust in life, and stay hidden behind their hurts… this shines a light that all can see.

    1. When we step out of our hurts and let go of things that do not support us, we are then more equipped to support others to trust again and to do the same. It is amazing to be inspired by people who live their life free of hurts and emotions, as they reflect to us what is possible and how natural this way of life is.

54. This is an incredible change to go from not trusting to complete trust of yourself and everything. We all have/have had trust ‘issues’ in some shape or form. A first start is to be aware that we don’t trust and then to ask, why not?

    1. Great question Simone. So many of our relationship issues stem from lack of trust and when we understand where this comes from and be aware of it, it supports us to heal the mistrust and learn that our hurts do not have to dominate who we are or how we respond to life.

55. A very beautiful transformation with thanks to the important value of appreciation and to know that we are held in life through everything, even through times that are challenging.

56. It’s scary when you start to walk your joy, which can be very much felt. Some people will respond and some will react. I am learning, sometimes successfully and sometimes not so, to continue to walk in that joy regardless of what comes. I can feel how important it is to stay open and not close down in reaction to the hurt. All of this incredible learning is presented for us to know what we (all) have within and no longer hide it away.

    1. It hurts to hold back our love and joy, I no longer do this regularly and it feels so different in my body. It feels so natural to just let out our joy and share this with the world. It is a strain to retain it or hide it, so why not have a go at letting who we are be seen? Also it feels absolutely amazing to not react to life but continuously work on deepening our connection with our soul and shine God’s light.

57. Does this explain part of why when the physical scars heal we still having trouble dealing with situations or incidents, “What really hurt deep was not what was physically done to me but seeing clearly that the people who chose to abuse me were simply very hurt and choosing to vent it out on others.” For me this was true and a number of times the physical part healed and it was like something underneath was still there, like it was still living inside you. There would be dreams or nightmares, random memories, flashbacks and none made sense and were difficult to see. On the outside everything looked ‘normal’ but inside there was so much going on. It wasn’t until more and more I dealt with what I was feeling, truly feeling did everything begin to make sense and I started letting go of the past. This article takes things simply to another level in this.

    1. I find there are multi layers to healing and this is very beautiful to embrace. Whenever our body is ready for another layer of healing we simply just surrender and it naturally knows what is needed. We just have to deeply surrender to this process and it is effortless. As a result we feel lighter and lighter with each layer as we let go and discard our hurts and protection.

58. Thank you Chan for a beautiful sharing I remember you sharing your amazing experience I too feel so much love and a sense of being held in that love at our workshops, I can remember a saying from childhood it was “don’t get too joyful the other shoe might drop” I never quite understood it but what it conveyed was scary and certainly dampened any joy that was there to be felt.

    1. I can recall when I specifically decided to hold back expressing joy, it was around the age of 7 or 8. For children it seems to be more acceptable by society to be joyful but as we grow up, we very quickly get a sense that it is not OK to shine too bright and be too joyful. Crazy why this is so and I feel our world is currently not accepting that we are all deeply amazing, grand and are multi-dimensional beings. It is currently designed to keep us small and it is time to deconstruct this hold over humanity and re-built and return to the truth of who we are.

59. Chan you should have titled it Joy Trust and Appreciation. The joy in your writing here is truly palpable. It is certainly a joy to read and feel how much you have let go of.

    1. Ha ha ha…thank you Jennifer, so true, I have never felt so joyful before and deeply at one with everyone. Having experienced this in Sacred Esoteric Healing Level 5, it is now a marker for me to return to and keep deepening this beautiful connection with myself and everyone.

60. What hurts most of all, more than the attacking behaviour of others, is how we leave ourselves and live in fear and contraction, not standing up to the bullying at play… living so much less than who we are is our greatest sadness.

    1. …and we can change that in a moment. I have found that if I take care of my movements and enjoy them, that whole scenarios can change around me and I don’t have to say a word. We do not have to hold ourselves small.

    2. I agree Bryony, this is exactly how I felt. Since speaking up about abuse and eliminating it where I can, this has made a huge, huge difference in my life. I am no longer living in fear but more in my power and joy. I am letting go of the sadness and being more joyful and this is thanks to the amazing Sacred Esoteric Healing courses I have been to at Universal Medicine.

61. This was great for me to read and bring a deeper appreciation to my life. I live with a house full of amazing people- a few years ago I would have done anything to live in this situation and now that I do I find at times I don’t fully appreciate it, I can look at the small issues and then hold people out and not fully embrace all the love that is around me. As I write this I realise that I firstly do this with myself, I give myself a hard time for what I am not instead of deeply appreciating all that I am. When I fully shift this within myself I know that I will be able to shift this in how I am with others.

    1. I totally get what you mean MW. I too live with 3 very amazing people, they are absolutely gorgeous in every way but I sometimes forget to appreciate them and instead focus on the minor issues that are not important. Starting to appreciate myself and people around me feels great and this allows so much more joy in my life.

62. From about 7 years old I decided that this was the safest way to function through life – to not be too joyful in case I get attacked. How many of us have made a similar decision in early childhood that needless to say is still playing out in our adult life – explains why we adults get oh so serious ( my hand is up here), and no longer feel the joy or the magic in life. I recently attended a week-end retreat with Chris James and boy was that a whole lot of fun and supported me greatly to connect with joy and lightness again.

    1. Beautiful Jacqmcfadden04, it is astonishing how many people walk the same path of contraction, holding back and living deep in our hurts. When we realise this is not it, life is not about being a victim, then the world feels like a very different place. There is more support now than ever before from God to live who we truly are, to live with a deeper level of responsibility, joy and love.

63. The process of coming back to ourselves is deeply precious and joyful. This is a process that requires our consistent awareness and livingness and our lives can change so much because we are committed in moving in the direction of truth.

    1. Beautifully said Adele, this is the process I have deeply embraced and now, my body feels free of hurts and not governed by the past but living now in more connection to who am and I feel absolutely amazing for it. This then opens up space for me to truly give back to humanity, because every move I make is from love and not hurts, and this is a blessing for us all.

64. Shows how we can hold the world to ransom almost out of our own actions or choices. We project out to see the world appearing to be a certain way and then choose to bring our actions in line to match what we see. In place of this is seeing the world for what it is, feeling this and then choosing to hold true to what we feel. It’s not that the world isn’t a ‘horrible’ place at points or that things don’t happen but it’s more about you and how you move within these. If you choose to go into these and join them or if you choose to see them and then support the truth of who we actually are to everything and everyone. There is no doubt life impacts us, with this though there must be a movement by us first away from who we truly are for this to be possible. Deal with this movement and you will see that the impact can no longer touch you, you haven’t moved beyond it you have moved to pull it up or back to a true quality.

    1. When we stay steady in our authority and stay connected to who we are, nothing can really rock our foundation when we make it about truth and love. It is when we disconnect from who we are that we then can easily indulge in our hurts, contract, go into protection and hide.

65. Your trust and appreciation is contagious Chan!

    1. It certainly is Kathleen, and it is the most magical way to live, with huge doses of trust and appreciation our life with be full of joy.

       1. Yes Chan, and it is the joy of the confirmation of evolution as this is exactly what appreciation does – it confirms we are learning and growing and expanding in awareness and this all brings us to more responsibility, which is the ability to respond appropriately and thus we get to feel even greater joy.

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67. ‘I came to understand and appreciate that we are all deeply connected and how protection is a contracted way to live that is completely false.’ This is a great awareness to come to Chan and to live in appreciation and acceptance of the love we truly are, we find the protection we once lived with will begin to naturally fall away.

    1. Thank you Anne. I realise that letting go of protection also means letting go of individuality, because protection does not exist when we are expressing from purpose, and it simply does not exist when we make it about all of us, leaving no one out.

68. This is such a powerful sharing Chan filled with many points of great wisdom. It is so true that in the illusion of protection we are actually causing greater harm to ourselves and others, as the love we are within is withheld from being known, felt and reflected as the blessing that is for us all, thus withholding the healing we all receive from love.

    1. Holding back from expressing who we are hurts us all. It is all about individuality when we go into protection and contraction, there is nothing healing or evolving about this. What you’ve shared Carola is spot on and very inspiring.

69. It is interesting to note that sometimes we are not aware that something is missing in our lives i.e joy, until it is pointed out to us. This in it’s self says a lot about humanity and the level of disconnection we are prepared to live with.

    1. We have normalised being miserable hence why it can sometimes feel foreign to see someone in absolute joy.

70. What really hurts is to feel how miserable can life be when we choose to live so separate from our innate religiosity and divinity. This is so much so that life becomes all about relief coming from our ability to deeply abuse others.

    1. Our ability to hurt another person happens very quickly when we judge, when we see someone as seperate from us or when we go into jealousy. It first comes from a hurt we have identified ourselves with and have not yet healed that then leads us to inflicting more hurts onto others and ourselves. I feel this is why it is so important and it is our responsibility to heal our hurts, otherwise it will be an opening for us to be in protection and an invitation to abuse.

71. It is through connection to ourselves and to humanity that we face our pain and start to heal our hurts. Withdrawal and isolation do not work, the wounds just keep festering.

    1. I agree Gabriele, and I feel the only way to heal our wounds and the world is to add love and appreciation as our everyday medicine.

72. When we choose to tone our sparkle down in fear of attack from others, we attack ourselves more than anyone else ever can. It’s a coping mechanism to get through life, but it’s exactly that – about getting through life. Shine and sparkle and there is much more on offer, even if we do get attacked more.

    1. So true Nikki, it certainly hurts us deeply when we tone down our sparkle. No-one can turn it down for us, the choice is always ours, which means we are the only one who can turn it back up full volume.

       1. We control the dial and it is deeply saddening when we realise that – but equally empowering.

73. ‘I felt I was finally home with my family, even though I only knew a small percentage of the people there. ‘ Very gorgeous Chan, we know each other deeply from our inner connection.

    1. When we connect to ourselves we naturally are open to connecting to each other.

74. Thankyou Chan, reading this again today reminded me of the many awesome moments I’ve experienced in the Universal Medicine courses, and how they continue to impact my life in positive and beautiful ways.

    1. I too hugely appreciate what Universal Medicine is offering humanity, and thank God for Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine. Without them the world will be in an even greater mess.. Now, I am beginning to see answers and ways in which we can bring harmony and love to the world. I now understanding the meaning of love, truth and purpose. Everything in life now makes absolute sense and the overwhelm about life is no longer present.

75. “Suppress love in order to attack and defend” – this is a pattern we seem to be repeating from one generation to the next. Not surprising the love quotient is felt to be far less than what it could be and we feel the gap between what is potentially available to us and what is being lived amongst us, and that hurts us very much.

    1. And that it is often those closest to us that attack and hurt us the most is staggering and wounds more deeply than the stranger danger we are taught to be most afraid of.

    2. Absolutely Fumiyo, whenever we can feel the absence of love it hurts us deeply but when we understand why then it offers opportunities for us to heal. No blame or going into sympathy, just simply taking responsibility for what is reflected and offered for us to learn.

76. So beautiful to read Chan I can relate to shutting down my joy from a young age, it just wasn’t safe to be just me, even now I am still learning that joy can be in every moment when we come from love and feel the deep brotherhood that exists in our community, a taste of heaven on earth for sure.

    1. We learn very quickly at a very young age what is accepted by our family and society. It seems that being in contraction and abuse is OK and accepted by people around us, but when we are choosing to be joyful we often get attacked. This doesn’t make sense does it? But with all that we can feel as we grow up, do we confirm and contract further because of these attacks or do we stay steady, be who we are in full and live from absolute love and joy?

77. Universal Medicine is a great business that supports people all around the world to live to their full potential. To hear about your transformation is inspirational and touching. Our body is key, it has an intelligence that can be capitalised on and it offers us a way home.

    1. I agree Sarah, our body is key and we have the ability to access the intelligence that is offered to us all, through connecting to our body. Learning to cherish and listen to my body’s intelligence has supported me in life and it is at Universal Medicine that I got to really appreciate who we all are and why we are here. The truth and love presented by Serge Benhayon is unifying, all encompassing and always evolving. Every presentation is done with the highest level of integrity, quality and love. Where else can we find a business like Universal Medicine in the world?

78. Reading this has simply invited me to choose to initiate joy into my day, by allowing myself to connect and play with what I already know exists with-in me. The pattern of holding it back because another might react causes more harm to everyone in the contraction than in the expression of what is natural, innate and wants to come out.

    1. Exactly Sandra, very beautifully expressed. What you’ve shared took me a long time to understand and it was from attending the workshops and presentations presented by Serge Benhayon that I came to numerous realisations like this. They were filled with lots and lots of aha moments that were pure GOLD and filled with absolutely truth.

79. Thank you Chan Ly for reminding us we are all one family. There is no need for us to see ourselves less than but rather equal to all, in other words, we are all love!

    1. It is extremely powerful when we embrace the fact that we are all one, all deeply connected to each other, and when we allow love to be our main form of communication and expression.

80. Thank you again Chan Ly. Bringing our awareness to our body is always our key to surrender to ourselves. Truly. Since I have come to Universal Medicine I have deeply discovered this fact or actually re-discovered that on this planet earth, we need to live in full connection to our body – as without, we see – look around – it is not working. Hence why the works of Serge Benhayon are it, simply absolute exactly who we are and what we need to live and bring back again – connection, awareness of our body and everything in and around it.

    1. I agree Danna, and if more and more people choose to live in full connection to their body, I reckon we would not be in the mess we are in now. Humanity is very sick and this doesn’t just happen, it is a sign we have disconnected from our body and have veered off track away from truth and love for a very long time.

81. Appreciating our loving choices – even the tiniest of them feels like it goes a long way towards healing what may have filled the space before.

    1. So true Sandra, the more I appreciate the more I see and feel is there to appreciate, this has a magical flow on effect to all my relationships as well.

82. Understanding the ‘false sense of securities’ that we might employ is such a loving choice, one very worth appreciating in and of itself.

83. Beautiful Chan, one of the greatest gifts Universal Medicine has offered me, is you see and live the truth that our greatest protection is to be all the love we are.

    1. Yes, this is the greatest gift of all, to be love. My understanding is that when one person lives all the love that they are, everyone including the universe receives a blessing. Amazing, true love is always for everyone and no one is excluded.

84. “For the first time in my life I felt completely safe to truly allow my love and joy to shine, to be who I am and to not hold back expressing the joy I felt. ” This is beautiful Chan Ly. Coming to the realisation that because so many people suppress what they feel and hold back, when they see someone who expresses their natural joy and vibrancy in life it presses their buttons. For me learning to not take things personally is a work in progress around this.

    1. For me too Sue, learning to not react or take things personally has been a huge support. It allows us to be free of the emotional dramas and be more ourselves. I am also learning to express myself more and more without worrying about what people might think. In most instances people really appreciate it when I express and let them know how I feel and not shy away from expressing who I am.

85. Thank you Chan Ly, I could feel the love you felt on that course, you shared it from your whole body and it came through your writing. It is so true, we can re-connect to the love inside, to the fact we are part of that great body of love, the great body of God, any time. It is us who wander away, and for us to come home at any point.

    1. God is deeply loving and unimposing, and we are constantly held in love and are left to make our own choices. When we choose to return to God, he is patiently waiting for us without any judgement whatsoever, just absolute love.

86. Thank you Chan Ly, it is lovely to feel the joy in you now and inspires me to stay open and allow that in me also. I can relate to the protection and shutting down that can occur, especially and ironically, in families. This is a great reminder that it doesn’t have to be this way.

    1. I notice I can sometimes fall back into this old pattern of going into protection and it feels awful, but the amazing thing is like you shared, it doesn’t have to be this way. We always have a choice to let people in, be open and loving.

87. I recently heard someone share that one of the most unsafe places and the most likely site for abuse of a person, be that child or adult, is in their own home. If this is true not only how sad is that but what an indictment on today’s society as a whole when our home should be one of our safest place to be ourselves, learn and grow.

    1. It sounds crazy doesn’t Suse but this is so true what you’ve shared. Some of the most horrendous abuse occurs in homes and the fact that abuse is more common in homes than anywhere else, isn’t this is telling us something? My understanding is that our home is a symbol of our body and if we allow abuse to occur in our own home, this means we are already living with abuse in our body in order for it to spread outwards. I also, see this same energy of abuse spread out on global scale.

88. Life is about everyone, and allowing ourselves to be connected to this love, knowing it is normal and we aren’t meant to be in protection but in awe-some Unity.

    1. Correct Benkt, you are spot on, we are not designed to be in protection hence why it hurts so much to choose this. When we listen to our body every particle communicates to us to be love and any form of protection is simply not love.

89. ‘I thought if I made myself small by holding myself back it would not attract too much attention, therefore, I felt safe’. Oh this was my old way too, which created so much struggle and complication in my life and also kept me ‘alone’. Having seen the falseness in that like yourself, these days I love to connect with people, my family and friends, and I observe how easy it is to just be myself with not needing anything from the other.

    1. Awesome Jacqmcfadden04 and everyone who is around you when you connect to who you are without holding back immediately receives a blessing and this then ripples out far and wide.

90. ‘I came to the realisation that life isn’t just about me but it is about encompassing everything and everyone.’ When we make life about the whole (everyone and everything) and not just about the individual, it can change the way we make everyday choices.

    1. It certainly does Rachael and it changes our relationship with everything and we can feel much more expanded, the space around us feels lighter and more expanded too when we make life about the whole and not just about the individual. We can feel the difference between the two states of being when we allow ourselves to connect to the whole and this includes everyone and everything on a deeper level with absolute love.

91. I can really relate to what you are saying here Chan about learning to hide or tone down our joy to keep safe in the world and it is a shocking aspect of human behaviour that we constantly attack each other for shining too bright. Learning to express myself as myself and my joy no matter what the response or reaction from others has been one of the most liberating things I have ever done in my life, even though it is still a work in progress.

    1. Amazing Andrew, this is what our world needs, more and more people like you who are committed to expressing in full and letting joy and love flow without resistance. One at a time we will inspire each other to live love as our basic foundation and it is through reflection that we are reminded of the sparkle that shines within us all.

92. True Chan, when we cap ourselves we cannot see what is around us to grow in love, how to express in a way so we can inspire others or even honestly admitting we can be an inspiration when live life in our fullness. What a joy you have come back to the love that you are and not holding back any longer your light; shine on!

    1. I find capping myself from expressing love and from expressing who I am feels more hurtful than any abuse I have experienced. I am continuously learning to allow myself out and not hold back expressing who I am. Thank you Annelies for your awesome comment.

93. When those we love choose to not be loving what a golden opportunity for us to up our own love! There is so much to appreciate in others being them, and for us to continuing being us no matter what. Isn’t this just the most amazing plan for every one of us to come back to love? Live and let live! And being the whole and truth of who we are is the best form of protection, ever.

    1. I agree Adele, the protection we think we are getting from being contracted is more harmful than we realise. It is only when we fully express and live love that we don’t need any form of protection because our body is not built to be in protection. It is designed to express love through and through, and therefore, going into any form of protection is not love.

94. Chan thank you for this inspirational sharing on trust and appreciation. There is much to ponder on here!

95. A beautiful appreciation of yourself, Universal Medicine, fellow students and being a student of life. Thank you.

96. I may be a bit naive, however, if we trust the universe, if we trust that people are good deep inside, won’t we receive the same back?

    1. I know what you mean Viktoria, also it is our ability to trust people without an ounce of judgement or holding that supports us to return to love and to our natural state of being.

97. When we understand that everything is energy, we have an opportunity to observe and reassess life from a different perspective without reaction only the awareness of the opportunities we are blessed to evolve.

    1. Not many people are aware of what you’ve shared Francisco, hence we tend to react to situations and each other and at the same time creating disharmony all around us. When we understand how life works we are much better equiped to deal with life and therefore evolve.

98. It’s an amazing journey to be understandably shut down from abuse and trauma in childhood, to carry the management strategies of such experiences into life such as being contracted and joyless as a way to avoid attack – to living in love, joy and brotherhood. This really communicates the truth and power that Universal Medicine offers people, the chance to resurrect ourselves out of our trauma and back to the love we innately are.

    1. Hear hear Melinda, beautifully expressed. Most people think we can never heal from these forms of extreme trauma and abuse but the truth is we can. Universal Medicine has supported thousands and thousands of people globally to heal and continues to do so daily. There are countless examples like mine and this shows how powerful Universal Medicine healing modalities are. The amazing support from Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine is absolute Gold and a blessing to humanity.

99. If we are honest we can see that a lot of the attacks we experience in life come first from those close to us and because we hold onto certain ideals and values about what we call family we tolerate abuse. It is through the appreciation of who we are in every movement that we can stop tolerances for that which is less than love.

    1. Spot on Francisco, this is what I have experienced. It doesn’t make sense, why would we tolerate any form of abuse, regardless who they are from? And, your comment explains this so well. It is crazy, isn’t it? So awesome to expose what is going on in what we call family and in our society.

100. Trusting in myself and all I am feeling has been a huge expansion for me, although recently, with a new situation, I allowed doubt to creep in, which felt old and not needed. Just coming back to my self worth and reconnecting with how much I bring and share of my true self (without perfection) was enough to bring me back to trust and in the trust I got to feel that there was nothing for me to do, as everything was already provided for me to take my next step. Appreciation is what I am feeling now!

101. I work with people at often challenging times in their lives and in the past I would have toned down my joy and gone into sympathy for their situation leaving me drained and in no fit state to support them. What I am learning is that by bringing all of me to my work I offer them an opportunity to see that there is another way to be and that they too have choices in life.

     1. What you’ve shared is powerful Helen and it is so true, we can sometimes fool ourselves in thinking we are helping others when in fact we are enjoining them and draining ourselves. True healing is never draining but deeply nurturing, loving and divinely supportive. By simply choosing to stay open to who we are, to love and stay connected the rest is effortless. As we allow love into our body, it naturally heals and it is so powerful that it will naturally supports others to also heal.

102. The choice to contract away from the joy that we naturally feel to express has such a huge impact and it is so lovely to feel your appreciation for the all-encompassing love that you experienced on Sacred Esoteric Healing Level 5 and the solidness of your commitment to share that expression of joy with all.

     1. Thank you Helen, and this is a great example of when we embrace who we are and allow God’s love to flow through us, His love is for ALL, never contained to just one person, it is for absolutely everyone.

103. Learning to trust and appreciate, ourselves and others, is such a blessing. I love how you appreciate this fact Chan and have found a true home and family; gorgeous to read, thank you.

104. It is a solid confirmation when we can trust in ourselves in all we are feeling and then express from that space without holding back or being in fear of reaction or rejection.

     1. I agree Jacqueline, when I express without holding back I will feel an expansion and lightness in my body.

     2. Hear hear Jacqmcfadden04. When we make life about ourselves and protection, the fear of rejection or reaction is present. But when we live and express from love it is not able to be just contained for us, it naturally expands to the rest of humanity.

105. That protection we tolerate actually hurts us more than expressing the love that wants to come out.

     1. Very true Leigh – we ultimately starve ourselves of the real fuel that charges our body… Love. When we don’t express it we turn to distractions and forms of escape or self-abuse to counter the already abusive move to not express who we are. Thus a vicious cycle that can be difficult to break.

     2. It certainly does Leigh and we can feel this. So why would we choose protection over love? It doesn’t make any sense because in our current society we are more likely to go into protection than allow ourselves to trust and be love. Something doesn’t add up and when we start to question this, we will find that we do know and we all hold the answers.

106. What an opportunity for us to share in that learning as well Chan, thank you so much. The interconnectedness of us all brings a responsibility and an accountability that I find to be the best medicine I have ever had for letting go of the protection I have kept around my heart for way too long. Learning that it is a self-imposed prison came from feeling what it is like to trust on a grand scale just as you have shared here.

     1. When we have been deeply hurt it is easy to go into protection and not trust, but the thing that hurts us the most is when we live with a lack trust within ourselves and others. Once we heal our hurts our ability to trust is unblocked and the walls of protection can come tumbling down, leaving us free to be who we are

        1. Yes, the protection vs protection and the hurt vs hurt conversations where no-one feels understood, met or connected to.

107. Good on you Chan, I related to every word and feel very inspired by your experiences. I have recently been examining my own pattern of shutting down my essence, my own natural love and joy, to avoid attacks or disapproval. It seems to be quite a theme in humanity to attack those who shine in truth and love – yet there are also many who welcome a person who shines in their fullness and is inspired and healed by that reflection. You captured the essence of Universal Medicine workshops – deeply healing, amazing, and reconnecting not just to ourselves, but to brotherhood and the vastness of the Universe/God. What Universal Medicine offers is the real deal and its spectacular to experience.

     1. It certainly is Melinda, what a blessing it is to have access to Universal Medicine courses, presentations and modalities available to everyone.

108. “I came to the realisation that life isn’t just about me but it is about encompassing everything and everyone.” How beautiful and how full our lives can be if we choose to live ourselves fully “For the first time in my life I felt completely safe to truly allow my love and joy to shine, to be who I am and to not hold back expressing the joy I felt. ” very inspiring and beautiful to read and share with you.

109. We are all connected with one another whenever we agree with that or not. With allowing ourselves to feel this natural connection in full we can understanding that this state of being, in which everything we are, think or do is felt by all, brings a responsibility to live to the best our ability and in that we support not only ourselves but all of humanity in their return to Soul.

     1. Beautifully expressed Nico, and we are never truly alone when we understand how deeply connected we all are. This also highlights how loving it is to embrace this level of responsibility and be willing to connect to ourselves and everyone around us.

        1. Yes Chanly, I am not always aware of this fact that we are all interconnected and one, and that any choice made by me will have an effect on all people i live with on this planet. I have found that when I allow myself to be aware of this fact I open up to another level of responsibility that not only makes me to feel part of this whole we all are, but too to let go of all the insidious behaviours I used to show but was only serving myself with. My life becomes much more from a stillness than the raciness I was living in before.

110. When we are in contraction and holding back our natural divine expression in the mistaken belief that this will protect us, life is all about me, me and me…..When we start to heal our issues and hurts, life starts to expand, more choices and more support become available to us and at one point, life starts to flow towards us, and then life becomes about everyone and that people come first.

     1. Spot on Jacqmcfadden04, this was exactly how it felt. When I was living from my hurts and in a contracted way it was all about protecting myself. When I let go and healed my hurts the world seemed to open up, expand and I started to see the bigger picture and like you have shared, life becomes about people. This highlights to me how important it is for us to heal our hurts, otherwise we simply do not evolve.

111. ” I can then choose to not hold back my joy but to fully express it with every part of my being, to celebrate brotherhood and return to God.” So great to read this Chan Ly – and celebrating ourselves gives those around us a reflection – so that they too can feel joy in everyday living.

112. So beautifully shared Chan. It is so true that when we are willing to embrace the love we are, connect to who we are within, we then come to know that we are all equal in essence, equal Son’s of God no less. It is only our resistance to being the love we are within that we instead take on loveless and abusive behaviours that do not reflect or honor who we truly are in any way. The fact that we are Sons of God means that every cell and particle in our body is constellated, in order for us in connection to our Soul, to simply let the light of oneness pour through us.

     1. This is why it hurts so much when we choose to disconnect from our Soul, because every particle in our body is designed and constellated to align to and express God’s love. When we resist or fight who we are, a Son of God, then we are creating a war within ourselves, as a result we create disharmony all around us.

        1. So true Chan – it hurts because we are moving in an abusive way to our Divinity, which dishonors all that we are.

113. Chan Ly, you are so right, we are absolutely held in love all of the time, so it is to give us over (obey) to all that love available. As you say: ‘In knowing that He is in me, all round me in every moment, always beside me and in every part of me and in absolutely everything, I can then choose to not hold back my joy but to fully express it with every part of my being, to celebrate brotherhood and return to God.’
     This is our answer to all of our world problems. It can be solved simply by coming back to connecting to who we are. And feel that we are part of a grand/enormous whole (universe). Appreciation of ones Light is the key to coming back to who we are.

     1. It certainly is Danna, beautifully expressed. The answers to our world issues are so simple. We forget that we each hold the key to living in absolute harmony, love and truth. Thanks to Universal Medicine they are reminding us of who we are and how we can access the wisdom and love that is within us all.

114. Beautiful Chan Ly, reminding us all of the fact (consciously aware or not aware at this moment in time), that we are always supported by something greater than we can see or currently live by. And hence, we are never alone or left alone. We are constantly being pulled up to go with the love and connect and deepen.. As this choice is there for everyone of us, we can either accept or deny. And so this blog is very well placed for us all, to stand still for a moment and feel that we have a choice now and everyday to connect, be love and receive, and let all the support in that is around us for us to return back to who we are – love.

     1. Thank you Danna for your beautiful comment. What I appreciate is that we are constantly getting reminders to be love but are we open to seeing them? For me, I am definitely more open to love now than I have ever before and that is thanks to the amazing reflection from Serge Benhayon and constant inspiration from Universal Medicine.

115. This is truly beautiful to read Chan and be reminded that we all can feel this deep connection with God and this immense love if we make the choice to surrender – a simple and very powerful choice available to us all.

116. I have held back a lot in my life and now realise that I protected myself from others because I had this long held belief that if I kept myself small and in the background then i would be safe and not harmed, but oh how much I have learned since then. Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon have inspired me to uncover my hurts and beliefs held and allow my true essence and expression to shine. Sometimes I fall back into old ways of being but I now know that I can make a new choice to return to that love once again.

     1. Wow this is gorgeous to read Kelly. I feel the same and it is empowering to know that it is always our choice to return to love, no one can do this for us and we are in the driving seat of life in more ways than we are led to think. Every part of our life is a result of all our choices. Amazing isn’t it when we understand how life truly works?

117. Once the love that is spoken about has been felt, it cannot be forgotten and it is this that inspires me to continually return to it, even after the most difficult or trying of circumstances, as the steady acceptance and understanding I feel in this love supports me more than anything else as I live my own personal life, with my own challenges.

     1. That is correct Leigh, this level of love is a marker for me to return to daily.

118. In disconnection and or under the onslaught of the loveless of life that surrounds us most of the time it is easy to ‘forget’ the omnipresence of God; reconnecting to HIs love and presence immediately enables us to change our relationship with life.

119. The mere absence of love when everything in us knows and wants to live and share love is as such a deep pain we don´t want to feel and is enough to shut down even without being exposed to further abusive behaviours. Shutting down one´s own love means abandoning who we are, from then onwards missing ourselves is the deepest sadness we hold; it is the reason for feeling lonely.

     1. So true Alex, we could be in a room full of people and feel lonely. Your comment explains very well why this is. It also explains why we can sometimes feel very lonely living in this world where there are over 7 billion of us.

120. Choosing to hold back or temper our expression according to who we’re with in order to keep a low profile or fit in to keep ourselves what we perceive as safe is something that is so common. I’m sure many of us do it without even being consciously aware of what we’re doing because we’re so used to it. But on another level we do have that awareness that there is more to us, more connection, love and joy that we can experience and share with others and Universal Medicine shows us how that can be our norm rather than a special occasion. Thank you Chan Ly for showing how beautiful it can be to truly open up.

     1. I know what you mean Fiona, moderating our expression to fit in with society is very common. This is a pattern I am learning to break. I often catch myself do this on a very subtle level. I am learning to be more aware of when and why I do this. I now know that the wisdom of the universe is constantly flowing through my body, and I am learning to align to this wisdom and not hold back from expressing and sharing this with the world.

121. I share the same experience Chan. It makes me wonder how power-full and influential the reflection we receive from others is. When you are around others that do not like the joy that you bring, their reflection, particularly as a group can be very full on and rather imposing. But equally if not more so are groups of people who do actually love, express it in full and support you to be the natural joy that you are.

     1. Yes, that’s my experience too Joshua because it’s not what we are used to seeing and so when we are reminded of how we could be living and how far away we have drifted from living our true selves we find it hard to see.

     2. Yes, the power of reflection is huge. We can feel it when we walk into a room where we are supported to be who we are. This experience is rare in our world but Universal Medicine it making this the norm. Whenever I attend any Universal Medicine events, my whole body can feel the love and support that is present and the events feel totally safe for me to be who I am.

122. Its the surrender to all that we are, that is the true gift shared and received. Thank you Chan Ly this is beautiful to read.

123. In the reflection of our loved ones we get to see all that we have chosen. Our family we were born into is no coincidence and whether we like it or not every member within the family offers us a wonderful opportunity to grow.

     1. Yes, I agree Caroline. I often reflect back and appreciate my willingness to learn from what I have experienced and that every situation is offering us to learn and grow, to evolve and re-imprint our steps with love and truth, instead of blame.

124. Trust and appreciation, two very important words for both adults and children, and each one a choice. I have only recently learned to appreciate just how powerful our choices are.

     1. Me too Sally and I have learnt that when I am able to trust and appreciate myself, it is also very easy to trust and appreciate others. Amazing how deeply healing it is to surrender to all that we have been offered by God, the love we are constantly being held in and reflected by God is always supporting us to turn to love from within.

125. I agree Chan. Attending presentations and workshops with Universal Medicine has brought the light and love back into my life.

126. Talking to young people it seems that there is a common theme of wanting to be noticed and to be happy. We are accepting so much less than there is on offer for us. We are missing the innate joy and boundless love. It is beautiful to read your blog and feel your coming back to feeling this in yourself and how awesome to be held in this among so many people.

     1. Thank you Elaine and I couldn’t have done this alone, because the healing that took place was thanks to the support of many beautiful and amazing people I have met at Universal Medicine. I appreciate that their loving reflection sparked and ignited the love that I felt within me and in all of us.

127. Thank you Chan for sharing a beautifully inspiring blog, I know what you mean about hiding your self and not being too joyful in case the other shoe might drop, meaning something bad may happen, but not anymore. I just love our coming together in joy and acceptance, feeling the love that we are in true brotherhood. This I feel and deeply appreciate, this is our home.

     1. I love it too Jill. I remember distinctly around what age I made that choice to not be too joyful and I was feeling deeply hurt at the time. So, letting go of this by allowing myself to be joyful is absolutely incredible.

128. You raise many great points here Chan. One that stood out for me today was that life is not just about protecting ourselves from feeling our hurts by playing safe and holding on tight to the beliefs of what we think will keep us safe. The Love we are within is immovable, ever-present and always waiting for us to feel the embrace of Loves unifying warmth. Being honest with the hurts we feel allows us to see that this is not who we are, through which we can then heal and let go of that which we are not, clearing the way so we can connect to a deep, greater, all-encompassing and ever-joyful quality that is the Love we all equally are. This connection is our greatest strength. It is only ever our choice to leave our connection to Love, and it is this that truly hurts us the most.

     1. Absolutely Carola, and when we don’t want to accept this truth you’ve so beautifully expressed, it is then very easy to go into blame with zero responsibility and the cycles of abuse then continues.

        1. Exactly Chan and this is so often why we leave the grandness of who we are, for we feel the responsibility it calls to us to reflect, the all that we are, as it is not for us to hold onto. In fact, who we are is part of a greater whole, not ever an ‘I’ yet this is what we resist the most and is the source of our hurts and the need to be identified by them.

129. Your joy is palpable Chan. Loved reading your words and appreciating more again of what we have had shared with us by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine.

130. It is important we appreciate Universal Medicine and all it has brought us. I know for me it is easy to take the presentations and knowledge for granted – but all this means is that I intellectualise them and cherry pick the bits I like so I can lead a better life rather than a true life. Appreciation is huge because I know for sure without Universal Medicine I really would be a complete mess, and with Universal Medicine, whilst I still hold back embracing truth in full, my life has changed hugely. I have learnt the hard way that taking things for granted does not work and keeps things the way they are, whereas the more I appreciate all the details and wonders in life the more I embrace truly living.

     1. That is awesome James, thank you for your very honest sharing. I can totally relate and I too would be struggling with life if I had not come across Universal Medicine. This is a way of living that is true medicine and Universal Medicine deeply supports us in every aspect of our lives.

131. There is so much hurt in the world, and to read about someone actually healing the past and returning to live a rich and full life is truly inspiring.

     1. Yes, I agree Cjames2012 there is so much hurt in the world. All the atrocities and abuse we currently witness is a result of unresolved hurts. The more we support and inspire others to heal, the more likely we will begin to see less and less abuse, and as a result we will see more and more love in the world.

        1. Yes its true. There is so much dysfunction happening in the world that we must remember that if we simply attend to what is in front of us , the ripple effect is there.

132. Gorgeous blog chanly88 – I attended Sacred Esoteric Healing Level 5 for the first time recently – in part because your blog inspired me to. I was blown away by all I experienced and I know I will never be the same again. This course left me with the absolute knowing that we are from heaven and we have a responsibility to return.

     1. Awesome Leonne, thank you for sharing your experience with Sacred Esoteric Healing Level 5. I feel the same. What I experienced at my first attendance has reawakened a deep knowing of who we all are and why we are here, to return to love and to live in brotherhood once again.

133. This morning I felt to read this blog to appreciate what I felt during the Sacred Esoteric Healing level 5 in 2015. Today I am attending this course again for the second time and I can already feel how deeply supportive it is for me and the day has only just begun. I am feeling an openness, steadiness and joy. I am simply appreciating this feeling and allowing it to flow out towards everyone.

     1. I saw you lying on a table at the recent Sacred Esoteric Healing Level 5 course Chan and I remembered this blog – it is a delight to stumble across it again today. Your appreciation for what is on offer through Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine is truly beautiful and inspiring.

134. Unfortunately I think it is common for people to hide the light they are out of a fear of being attacked. As a result we have perfected the illusion of protecting ourselves, but really have just created layers to hold our scars. Sadly very few will have had the blessing of ever feeling the safety when amongst strangers, that they can allow themselves the grace of dropping the protection and truly feeling the love and joy within without thinking they need to hold it back or protect it. A beautiful experience to remind us what is possible.

135. ‘ I came to the realisation that life isn’t just about me but it is about encompassing everything and everyone’.
     It sure is and when we do make it about everything and everyone, a grace of understanding and acceptance begins to flow in our lives….

136. I love that feeling of coming home, of coming back to something you know deep inside and allowing that out once again.

137. ‘ I felt I was finally home with my family’ what a delectable and wonderful healing to feel this. I have just moved back to Scotland (after 14 years of living in the Netherlands) and this is exactly how I feel!

     1. This is a beautiful feeling jacqmcfadden04, and in truth we are always home, no matter where we are. Our family is all around us, no matter what country or island we are on. When our heart is open and we are connected to our essence we can feel that humanity is our family and every inch of space in our universe is our home. We are constantly held in love wherever we move.

138. ‘ My deliberate choice to not be too joyful in case something horrible might happen was a contracted way to live. I thought if I made myself small by holding myself back it would not attract too much attention, therefore, I felt safe. This was what I had chosen pretty much my whole life’. I could have written this as this was exactly what I did too… I would hide, and keep myself small in the belief that if no-one saw me, I would not get hurt, and I would be safe. All my life I just wanted to feel safe, held and loved and went searching ‘ out there’ for this which I can say now was the totally wrong place to look. Having gone through quite a transformation over the last few years, I now know that everything I need for this life journey I carry within me, and every day is about honoring my body and my being and appreciating how much I have truly changed. Thank- you to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine.

     1. We seem to worry so much about getting hurt by people but the fact is we hurt ourselves more by staying contracted, playing small and holding back expressing God’s love that resides in us constantly.

139. At times not easy because of the judgment and jealousy directed at us but it is important that we are being all of us and not holding back our natural joy and expression so that others can see and be inspired by this.

     1. When we experience judgement and jealousy from people, the most common thing we do is go into protection and react, this is the exact opposite to what is supportive. Like you shared Deborah, the most important thing is to be ourselves and not hold back our love because the best way to deflect judgement and jealousy is to be love.

140. Reading this, an old memory came back – I was about 8 or 9 years old, I can still feel the deep sadness and desolation in my chest that I felt then to come to a decision that I would no longer trust anyone, that I would not share what was most precious and deepest truth about me. There was this definitive moment where I felt as if I had just made a pact with something, and I think that’s what we do – say ‘Yes’ to what is not love out of deep hurt. It feels so freeing to be able to name that point now and that it was ultimately my choice.

     1. I recognize this too Fumiyo, there was also a definitive moment where I made a decision or pact with something and aligned to an energy that was not love because I felt I was not given the space just to be myself, and my environment did not accept me or support me to share the amazing love I was born with, so I shut it down, and hurt myself and all others in the process.

     2. This is awesome Fumiyo. I agree it is ultimately our choice to shutdown who we are and to not trust the world, and it is also our choice to heal our hurts and return to love.

141. Finding our true family is a profound and life-changing experience, and through this we feel the interconnectedness of all, and the one heart that we all truly are.

     1. It certainly is Chris. In the culture I grew up in, we believed that blood family is everything but the truth is humanity is our family, there is no separation when we understand what family means and when we return to true family the joy and openness is incredible and oh so natural.

142. Thank you Chan – and now letting everyone else feel that we are all one is the way to move forward. Imagine introducing this feeling of oneness to everyone in the supermarket, at an arena event, at the local fish market, just by connecting to the very fact is a huge gift to everyone.

     1. I love this Mats, it is certainly a gift to us all when we move throughout our day deeply connected to ourselves, to everyone and to God with openness and love. When I try to connect from my head it doesn’t work but when I just walk connected to my body, the connection happens so naturally.

143. Attending Universal Medicine events I too have felt the warmth, and openness of so many people attending that it is easy to open up let more of our true selves out – and it becomes easier to live this same level of openness out in the world – supporting people that they too may find the possibility of learning trust once more.

144. So many times we make life about the ME ME ME… And don’t get me wrong, the ME is very important from the sense of self care and self love and should never be neglected, and by this I am in particular talking about the BODY ME. And of course too that part of us that needs to express what we are feeling in order to process the events that unfold around us. However, when we make life only about the me, we forget how we are actually a WE and never just the ME. And so I love this sentence here “I came to the realisation that life isn’t just about me but it is about encompassing everything and everyone.” this is GOLD!

     1. Great Point Henrietta, when we make life about ‘we’ it is so much more joyful. Leaving anyone out by just focusing on ourselves as in focusing on self-gain, we don’t actually gain anything except misery and loneliness. We are here to be in brotherhood, so it is unnatural for us to live anything less than this.

145. It’s such a game that we can get caught up in – holding the world to ransom because of our hurts… often pretending we are open to others when really we are not. It’s amazing what can happen when we take responsibility for our choices, be honest about our hurts, and truly drop the guard that keeps others out, and keeps us from letting others in.

     1. I agree Angela, it doesn’t work does it when we live in our hurts and hold the rest of the world to ransom when we have only been hurt by a handful of people. I am learning to drop my guard and be more open to people. I realise that it hurts us more to shut people out and to stay in protection because it goes against our natural way. We are born to be open, loving and be joyful, and it takes a lot of effort to live opposite to this. I see that when we embrace our natural way, life is so much simpler and deeply healing in every way.

146. ‘Reflecting back, I realised that the people I loved dearly have been the ones who attacked me the most’. Those close to us are the ones that seem to hurt us the most; our families and loved ones this is true, but I have discovered that it is these relationships that bring deep clearing and healing when we are ready to go there and feel and let go….. and let go we must if we are to truly move forward and evolve. Allowing support is so important because it can be painful to feel our old choices. I am deeply grateful and thankful for all the support from Serge Benhayon and his family and all the practitioners of Universal Medicine.

     1. Beautifully expressed Jacqmcfadden04 and I agree with what you’ve shared. For me, sometimes the most challenging relationships are the ones where I learn and grow the most. When I am willing to take responsibility, willing to be open and willing to be love, I find the challenges are like messages to go deeper and explore what they are showing us.

147. Trust and appreciation do go hand in hand, and a super title. I have had trust issues all my life around not feeling safe and underneath not feeling safe and which got exposed this week was the belief that I was not wanted by my family, which I have carried a very long time and had caused me so much pain, disconnection, self-abuse, self-neglect and disharmony. In having an esoteric healing session, the practitioner supported me to see that it was possible that my family could not cope with how bright my light was as a child – that possibility has created a big shift in cutting the cord to that old belief which has created much space in my body to fully accept my divinity, my light and my connection to God that was always there. This has allowed me to trust in myself again and to deeply appreciate the miracle in how far I have come and all the amazing steps I have taken and continue to take.

     1. Wow, beautiful realisation Jacqmcfadden04 and building trust within yourself is so important and very supportive. And the deep appreciation towards yourself is awesome and you remind us to do the same.

148. Beautiful and you are welcome Chan. I was at both events too. Do appreciate, your contribution lifted and brought healing and understanding to us all with you being there in your fullness and humbling honesty in your presence and openly sharing. I thank you too,Chan and Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine.

149. That is awesome Chan and is a testament to yourself, other members of the community and to Universal Medicine – it is the real deal and no matter where we have come from, what we have done we are treated as the love that we innately are and are supported to return to a deeply loving way of being.

150. This is truly beautiful Chan – there is so much to appreciate about Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine and to have appreciation too for ourselves for having found the Ancient Wisdom/Way of the Livingness once again and for heeding the call.

     1. The power of appreciation expands us and connects us to everyone and everything. I am starting to understand the magic behind appreciation and what it does. It is deeply confirming, binding and it builds more appreciation, it is endless and it is like a reflection of heaven on earth.

151. Beautiful Anna, I love what you’ve shared. God’s love is all encompassing, expansive and incredible. I am so grateful to be inspired by Universal Medicine to begin my journey to discover living and expressing God’s love in my life and it will just keep expanding and deepening.

152. Yes I agree. This is the power of true love, appreciation at it highest level and rippling out to humanity.

153. Yes Chan, I have to agree with you too…”Every single experience has been absolutely amazing. Each time I come away feeling clarity, love, purpose and truth, and feeling deeply supported…” The Universal Medicine courses never fail to inspire!

     1. How blessed are we to have Universal Medicine available for humanity. It is absolutely all inspiring and deeply empowering.

154. Thank you Chan for such a beautiful sharing, of opening up to the love you are, to God and to all humanity , a love that is deeply felt and all encompassing.

     1. Imagine what this would feel like if we were all to embracing trust and appreciation consistently. And if we were all willing to connect to ourselves, to people and to God in this way, Brotherhood would certainly be felt.

155. I couldn’t agree more Anna, the more I surrender to God’s love and open myself up once again, the ‘more joyful and beautiful life becomes’.

156. “I thought if I made myself small by holding myself back it would not attract too much attention, therefore, I felt safe.” What I thought felt safe, really doens’t feel safe anymore. There is a hardness in my body and a feeling of anxiety when I hold back. This is opposite to what it feels like to express openly and let others in. My body then feels gentle and expansive, and this confirms to me what you have beautifully shared Chan; that life is about allowing what we feel inside to be expressed in the world and letting the world in too. I am having fun creating the space to do this.

     1. Beautifully expressed Simone the hardness and anxiety is also what I felt but in the past I was not always willing to listen to it. Amazing you are creating the space to express truth we certainly need more of this in our world.

157. A beautiful and honest sharing Chan, it is deeply healing and supportive to read. This line stood out for me as I too chose to live this way most of my life ‘My deliberate choice to not be too joyful in case something horrible might happen was a contracted way to live.’ I can so relate to this and how we lessen our joy and light to fit in with others so we don’t feel any further attack. In truth we are attacking ourselves by not living the fullness of who we truly are, what a blessing to have an opportunity to heal this contraction with the true care and support from Universal Medicine and the amazing Modalities sent from Heaven.

     1. Absolutely Anna it is blessing and I appreciate it immensely the support and love I receive to deepen my healing. This is available to everyone which is so incredibly.

158. Very beautiful Mary, thank you. I hear what you are saying about how we treat children. I have found a way to live that inspires and reminds me that is it possible to nurture our children to not tone down their love and joy but to celebrate with them. This way is The Way of The Livingness and through the inspiring teachings of Universal Medicine, I am now learning to let go of imposing on others by connecting with myself first and allowing others to be themselves without judgement or any expectations. To simple observe and express truth more and more.

159. Thank you Linda. Love is extremely powerful, the more we allow ourselves to express and embrace love the more we get to experience the joy and magic of life.

160. Such a beautiful sharing Chan, feeling your freedom from unlocking and breaking free of what bound you is joyfully felt. Living life from a knowingness of God is forever a new step with the Divinity within guiding us.

161. This is a really gorgeous end to the blog Chan – ‘I can then choose to not hold back my joy but to fully express it with every part of my being, to celebrate brotherhood and return to God.’
     There is constant reflection in all we see and feel in the world, a reflection that we are more and connected to the almighty nature of God in all. Through the wonders of nature, a loving look from a stranger or a warm embrace from someone we hold dear – they are all moments offered for us to confirm the magic we are from.

     1. Beautifully said Rachel. I love your comment, it reminds me to appreciate the wonders of nature, of people and life.

162. Chan, I share your appreciation and boundless Joy in reconnecting to a sense of true community within the student body of Universal Medicine. For most of my life I tried to fit in, with family, friends and work colleagues – but it never really worked and I was always sacrificing parts of myself to do this. Now, I am not asked to fit in, but to be all of me without reservation and shine my light. It’s a wondrous feeling to drop the guards, let people in and more importantly, let my true self out!

     1. This is so awesome Rachel. This means we can also bring this level of trust out to our community, by like you shared, ‘let my true self out!’ because once we’ve experience this kind of amazing connection it’s like a marker where we know we can experience this elsewhere and make it more and more part of our way of interacting with people.

163. “The sadness for me was seeing that they chose to suppress love in order to attack and defend.” This is deeply sad for children and it makes us shut down too sometimes. An unloving cycle then begins until we realise it’s not the way we could be choosing – thank goodness for Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine for showing us another way.

     1. Beautifully said Shelley – it is our responsibility to break this heavy chain of lovelessness and inspire those around us to see beyond the behaviour of another to the truth of who they are, no matter what they are choosing. Yes, of course abusive behaviour needs to right consequences and to be called out, but the person needs to first be seen as the Son of God they truly are.

     2. It is deeply sad I agree Shelly that most of us choose to mistreat each other, children and adults. What is really empowering is that we can choose to break cycles of abuse and no matter what we have experience in the past we hold the power to make new choices, more loving choices and the responsibility to make these choices is always ours.

        1. It’s true Chan that we have the ability to make a true choice in each and every moment.

     3. Serge Benhayon and people from Universal Medicine have inspired me deeply to live a more loving way. I am continuously learning every day from being more aware and willing to take responsibility for all my choices. This is forever depending and the amazing thing is how simple life is when we embrace the teachings presented by Serge.

164. Thank you for sharing Doug, it seems from reading all these incredible comments that most of us have chosen to reduce ourselves and contract out of fear of being seen seeking protection. What I realise was it didn’t work, I was not protected but felt hurt even more by my choices. Universal Medicine have really supported me to come to some amazing realisations in my own time and by my own choosing and started an incredible journey of healing.

165. That’s awesome Brendan. When we trust ourselves we trust others too and from there it allows others space to also trust. Trust can be contagious and we differently can do with more and more trust in our world. Trust is what allows us to let our guards down, be open to people and love to flow and expand.

166. ‘The truth about my choices was exposed and this was such a healing to understand and to heal what was not loving.’ As we build a more loving connection with ourselves we get to feel when a choice is not self loving and an opportunity to change our choices.

     1. Awesome Sally, the more loving we are the easier it is to let go of our unloving choices.

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168. With true appreciation we connect naturally to our relationship with God. I have spent many years believing ‘someone’ else had a stronger connection with God, this allowed me to give my power away and kept me from my own divine knowing. I am now realising we all have an equality with God that is never compromised it’s just some are more frequently choosing this connection then others. To accept ourselves and where we are at is key to starting our conversation and relationship to God.

     1. Beautiful Samantha!

     2. Samantha, ‘To accept ourselves and where we are at is key to starting our conversation and relationship to God.’ And when we feel our own equalness with God, everything changes.

     3. Absolutely gorgeous Samanthaengland, this is so true. It is always up to us how much we choose to connect to God. He consistently loves all his children equally. No one is more special than another. He is forever patiently waiting for us all to return home.

169. Very true Brendon and we can certainly turn this around by first appreciating ourselves and then the appreciation for others just naturally follows.

170. When we come “home”, the search for recognition and love in the outside world stops. That is so lovely to feel – everything what we need is inside us. This “coming home” creates so much space in us.

171. So true – the moment we trust in ourselves, no confirmation is needed any more from the outside world, life gets much easier and joyful.

172. Your experience of “I thought if I made myself small by holding myself back it would not attract too much attention, therefore, I felt safe.” I know very well. I played the same game. I didn’t want to get too much attention, I was very anxious and I was not strong enough, if somebody would attack me, to cope with it. Since I deepen my relationship to me and my body more and more, I’m able to let go of my old behaviors of hiding, I’m able to show more my light and my love.

     1. This gorgeous Alexander1207 and by you sharing and expressing your light and love, we all get to experience the amazing person you are. This then inspires us to share and express in the same way, Thank You.

173. Exactly – being home – means being in brotherhood , brother hood is family. When I entered my first course all I could feel was this old deep sense of familiarity of being close together. Instead of empty and coldness in the room I felt warmth, tenderness and care. This is why we are all together in this world. Like having no food on earth – in this case we could replace the word food with love, we must work together to build the love – which is brotherhood on earth.

174. That someone has healed their hurts to such a degree to be able to write so beautifully about an experience of such a deep connection… This is the sort of miracle that should be in our newspapers, with interviews on television and social media, inspiring the billions of hurt people of the world that there is indeed a path home.

     1. Thank you Cjames2012 for sharing this. You have inspired me to express my journey ‘home’ with the world.

175. Exquisite Brendan, so beautifully expressed and so, so true. We are certainly never alone, it is after a choice to disconnect, to separate from ourselves, from God and others that we then experience the emptiness and loneliness. I’d like to highlight this part of your comment ‘we are never ever alone.’ and it is a choice to feel alone.

176. I agree Brendan, when we trust ourselves we are then able to trust others and with trust we can build truly amazing relationships, allowing miracles to occur.

177. Beautiful Chan Ly, indeed every course has a level of brotherhood we build towards – every time it will be different. It is absolutely amazing to hear how you experienced Esoteric Healing Level 5, and how this made you feel like one big family, where all the family members were not even there, ‘so the speak’ (whole humanity). This reminds me of ages ago, where everything was more in union, together and where protection from each other was definitely not needed. So is it powerfull to feel this back again – with so many people. In this way we learn to trust love again – and that together we make a whole – a brotherhood for all.

     1. Beautifully expressed Danna. At Esoteric Healing Level 5 I was able to feel so much love and joy present during the course, uniting everyone and brotherhood was deeply felt and appreciated, expanding beyond the course to feel that brotherhood is available to humanity. This feeling was truly joyful in every way.

        1. Yes Chanly88, can you imagine all the people living in brotherhood together, were there is no need for despair, sadness, fight, flights or democracy – other then living in soulful connection together? I mean how simple. And how complex we have made it. Let’s return.

178. Learning to trust people again is a beautiful process. So many of us grow up feeling protected or unable to truly open to those around us. We therefore miss out on connecting to the love there is all around us, which can be felt looking into anyone’s eyes. Seeing and feeling this love allows us to open and trust again, also knowing it is equally inside us too.

179. I agree Brendan and I feel without appreciation it keeps us focus on ourselves only and it allows us to forget about people.

180. Well said Brendan and when we start appreciating it is beautiful to experience how the list goes on and on what an impact this has on our daily life.

181. To feel the love within and all around equally. That strikes me as the experience of harmony and knowing that we are all equally love is the truth.

     1. Beautiful Simon, your comment reminds me to appreciate again what we are capable of, to restore harmony and share this with humanity, we can choose to do this right here, right now.

     2. Beautiful Simon. It is a choice to feel the harmony within us and then know that it is equally within everyone. Then when harmony isn’t felt in a situation, it becomes easier to understand and accept that the harmony is still there, but it is simply not being chosen.

182. I am sure this blog resonates with a lot of people including myself. For so many years the games of ‘playing small’ and ‘holding back’ and ‘protecting yourself’ is what I played, and where did it get me? Not very far I have to say. For one, my body was never very happy, which luckily I kept listening to as it nudged me to finding Universal Medicine and what truth was all about. Secondly, I was so up and down with emotions and felt stuck on this kind of roller coaster. I now feel such steady joy and love and know that holding it back from others is painful to me and to humanity. And as I deeper that connection to the divinity and love within, that just keeps on getting better.

     1. Thank you for sharing Eleanor. I have found my deep pain is from holding back expressing love.

183. Such a powerful sharing Chan. Your words here surely touch us all:
     “What really hurt deep was not what was physically done to me but seeing clearly that the people who chose to abuse me were simply very hurt and choosing to vent it out on others.”
     As I’ve come to bring myself out of a deep withholding of my own immense joy and love also, seeing this – that those who I’d seen as ‘hurting me’ were themselves so hurt – has been such a powerful part of the healing. The deepest hurt I’ve discovered, is to see how those I so love were/are not in the fullness of their own joy and love themselves – how the hurt and pain they’ve held onto, whilst not dealt with, has precluded them from truly loving without hindrance and being all that they are.
     Through Sacred Esoteric Healing sessions and courses also, I have come to get deeply in touch with how much I always knew the magnificence and potential of the person before me, even if they were screaming at me in the most harmful and annihilating way…
     Our self-healing enables us to understand, and as you’ve shared, truly EMBRACE others – whatever their pain or hurt, and however it may manifest in their actions. Abuse is never, ever ok, but as we heal and return ourselves to the magnificence of our own love, its cycles of perpetuation are ceased, no longer needing to carry forward generationally.
     ‘Tis no small thing then, to face and deal with any hurt, however big or small, we may harbour – for this serves us all more greatly than can be measured.
     Thank-you for your wisdom Chan. And I can vouch entirely for the amazingness of feeling held in true family, at Sacred Esoteric Healing level 5 this year, and indeed any Universal Medicine course or presentation. What an absolute blessing.

     1. Wow Victoria and thank you. Your comment is also very powerful and inspiring. It reminds me to appreciate when we choose ‘to face and deal with any hurt, however big or small, we may harbour – for this serves us all more greatly than can be measured.’ This is deeply inspiring and each time we choose to heal our hurts we are also allowing healing to take place around us. This is simply magical and confirms the fact that we are all deeply connected as ONE.

        1. Both your comments Victoria and Chan Ly are powerful and inspiring. The fact that due to our inter-connectedness when we heal gives an opportunity for others to equally do so is a huge confirming responsibility.

        2. So true Chan. Our own healing offers the opportunity for another’s, for they are no longer bound by our holding them responsible for our own pain. Whatever time ‘the other’ may choose this though, is completely their call.
           Yet we can love, understand and embrace, nonetheless.

        3. I love that you’ve brought that word into the equation here Jonathan: “responsibility”.
           If we are aware of a hurt we hold onto, an ill-projection towards another, then in that awareness we inherently hold a responsibility to attend to what we feel is there.
           It’s not ever only about us, is it, but about all…
           And the thing is, ‘we’ will undoubtedly get the ‘side-benefit’ of feeling infinitely lighter and ‘better’ also. To hold back our immense capacity to love, hurts us greatly.

184. “I came to the realisation that life isn’t just about me but it is about encompassing everything and everyone”, this is a great, as for so long many of us have got caught in making life about self, but the truth is its about humanity, working and living together in brotherhood.

     1. Thank you Amita. Life makes sense to me when it’s about brotherhood.

185. This is such a beautiful reminder of that what I can be, and that love and trust for everyone is inside. It is always within me, and it doesn’t need to be sought somewhere else or be hidden, as that costs a lot of energy.

     1. Absolutely Benkt. Love is certainly inside us all, whether we choose express love or not it’s entirely up to us. It’s always just a choice away to feel empowered or completely disempowered. The power of our choices is greater than what we think.

186. Chan your blog was beautiful to read. I have found Universal Medicine has offered me some deep friendships, building an extended family that now stretches across the globe. It is amazing the level of love and support that is truly offered between each other, it is both deeply supportive and inspiring, and something to truly nurture and appreciate.

     1. This is very gorgeous Sally and I totally agree. It feels absolutely amazing and simply magical to have this beautiful deeply nurturing and evolving connection with others.

187. Such a gorgeous sharing thank you Chan.
     I love how you appreciate who you truly are and your joy in expressing you; also your deep appreciation for the constellation and family at level 5.

     1. Thank you Shirl. Appreciation is deeply confirming of who we are.

188. I love that you made the link between feeling hurt and then not choosing to see the all encompassing and universal way life is truly all about. With hurts we tend to make life all about ourselves, and selfishly so, because it imposes onto others the very hurt we felt from others in the first place!

     1. Words of true wisdom Joshua, highlighting the importance, responsibility, and true gift for all of dealing with and healing our hurts. Thank-you and Chan both.

        1. I agree Victoria, Joshua’s words are indeed full of wisdom and a massive WOW. I feel when we choose to hold and protect our hurts, it blinds us, and it debilitates us, controls us and propels to therefore, to harm others when we are not open to healing them. By choosing to express from our hurts, we essentially can hurt others and the cycle continues until someone stands up to it and clears it by choosing not feeding into this vicious cycle with the power of love.

        2. Beautifully said Chan. Our view and ability to truly see and perceive anyone and understand their behaviours and actions is coloured and obscured by the hurts we carry.
           In my experience, there is always more to ‘uncover’, if one is truly intending to love oneself and all deeply. Once more personal hurts are faced, there are ‘bigger picture’ ones we must feel – and how the beliefs, behaviours and negation of truth by many can also lead us to shut down the power of our own love. And so it goes…
           How powerful is our own love, that we do have the ability to meet ourselves at such a deep level, and come to embrace all once again…

189. Re-reading your blog, Chan, after Level 5 and relating to your feelings of trust and appreciation in full-again.
     The sense of absoluteness which I experienced during a course is still with me. It creates a lot of space within which everything is possible.

     1. This is so amazing Elenalight. Sacred Esoteric Healing Level 5 is very powerful, truly incredible and an experience I would cherish forever, to appreciate and to learn from every time I reflect back to the incredible love that was present and is available to us all, to access and to live it at any time and any place.

190. This is Such a beautiful blog Chan Ly. I too was not struggling with life (on the outside) before I came to Universal Medicine, but was struggling internally. Since attending presentations and workshops I have also re-connected with God within, and god in all people and the presence of God. A life truly lived is one in connection with oneself and an inner ease that lives its joy in all of the outside world.

     1. Thank you Harryjwhite, what you’ve shared is beautiful. It’s interesting that so many of us are or were feeling the same, internally struggling but externally pretending that everything is OK. When we are willing to be honest and admit how we are truly feeling it opens us up to truly healing our hurts and to discard our inner struggle and to truly live life full of joy, love and truth. Universal Medicine have support and inspired so many, many people globally to heal our hurts and truly live in our true power, the power of love.

191. So true Brendan your comment is full of wisdom, Thank You!

192. Your Blog Chan has offered an opportunity to see and live life in the truth that is there. You have shown how the choice can be made to hold yourself in love and make that your way. We can all make this choice and instead of shutting down, bring a ‘double’ dose of the Love to the world.

     1. Awesome ch1956. By choosing to hide or shutdown takes us deeper into misery, the natural opposite of that is to stand out, to not be afraid to shine who we are and to stay completely open. Allow ourselves to feel it all, to feel everything without suppressing it or denying it, just feel it all and let it go. And I agree, so, definitely bring on the – ‘double’ dose of the Love to the world. The more Love we choose to live and express the more we can feel love all around us.

193. The consistency of Universal Medicine in sharing the level of love and true care that they do is what allows us to bit by bit, to let our guards down and again begin to let people in. Without consistency it’s difficult to surrender. This is the difference of Universal Medicine, it’s not up and down with moments of happiness and elation, it’s just consistently love.

     1. Beautiful Danielle, it certainly is our consistency to committing to love that brings us all together, to unite us all and to live in harmony. It is simply like heaven on earth, once we ALL commit to love consistently.

     2. I love how you describe Serge Benhayon as ‘Mr. Consistent’, he sure is. He is an incredible man. I always feel a deep appreciation for his consistency to expressing love and truth to us all.

     3. This is so beautifully expressed Stevie. I feel the same too, I feel so grateful for this opportunity and support available to trust, let go and allow healing to take place. Truly magical.

194. This experience of Level 5 that you had and shared with us Chan must have been wonderful to have shared with all those participants . Thank you for sharing your experience of this wonderful event.

     1. It was an event like no other, it was magical and simply incredible. I feel each time I attend another course by Universal Medicine it just keeps expanding and deepening. I feel joy deepens more and more as I choose to take that next step towards evolving. Universal Medicine inspires us to return to love. Love is never stagnant, Love is forever expanding, it is endless and if we are willing to align to it and stay consistent, we will one day return to God.

195. It is truly beautiful to feel the absolute joy and celebration of your return to yourself and God. Thank you for sharing Chan, it was a joy to read.

196. That has been key for me too Brendan – earlier I had no idea how crucial it is to learn to deeply trust and how much it affects everything we do.

197. It one thing to mentally comprehend the concept that ‘god is everything’ another to feel and live it. That the healing levels offered by Universal Medicine facilitate us to go there is truly amazing. Your words here Chan are full of wonder for life and shine bright. They remind me that when people close are consumed by hurts, I can bring this bigger understanding and always be safe and sound.

     1. Thank you Joseph. I have found by learning to connect to God we get to feel he is in fact in everything and everywhere, all round us. Our life can be truly magical if we choose to see this magic and choose to live it.

        1. Within both the blog and this comment Chan I can feel how deeply touched you are by the awesomeness of God and also how much you are equally part of the grandness. Beautiful.

     2. So true Joseph, to live it and feel it for yourself is something quite exceptional. The biggest step for me was to stop denying my divine origins, which opens the door and allows god to work with me.

198. This is so timely to read Chan Ly – I am attending Level 5 Sacred Esoteric Healing in the UK and can feel in myself this understanding of how and why I have lived in protection, sheer contraction away from the magnificence of all of me. Sounds crazy but knowing that this is a complete choice makes me want to recoil and not feel – yet being in with the family you cannot but feel how every part of you is pulled to being the truth of you. All of you – anything less is not supportive of the whole.

     1. Thank you for sharing Lee. Level 5 Sacred Esoteric Healing is very powerful modality and to be attending this is already a massive support and healing for yourself that you have chosen. To then attend with an open heart, surrender and embrace the immense love that is present is simply divine. Words doesn’t seem to fully capture the energy that you can feel in a space that is so incredibly full of love and totally divine. It is a blessing to simply feel and appreciate its power and healing it brings to humanity.

     2. The understanding that the contraction away from love was self-created and self-maintained is one that can be a huge knee-jerk reaction. But as Arianne above commented love changes that relationship. We’ve been trained to regret and lessen ourselves from moving away from something that is grand or that that grandness holds us as lesser for having been lesser. But from the experience of the love within my body, and from others expressing it outwardly, Love doesn’t do anything but love, we walk away, we react, we avoid, love remains there and doesn’t wavier. If I react I have a choice, come back to the love that understands and loves or react further – it doesn’t change the fact that love is still there.

        1. That’s a whopping dose of medicine Leigh in just one sentence ‘The understanding that the contraction away from love was self-created and self-maintained is one that can be a huge knee-jerk reaction.’ While we may not like swallowing this medicine, there is something liberating in this because if we can accept the part we have played we also have the power to be aware of this and make different choices.

199. Thank you Chan Ly. A very empowering blog, when one can claim that they now feel true family and openness, from a difficult and self-capping childhood. The fact that mostly all people shut off at such a young age shows that something is not right in the world, and that we can feel everything (at every age).
     Your blog is so important as for me, it asked me to look at my protection, as you have shared invaluable life lessons here. I re-read the blog and read in its simplicity how it was Love that changed it all. And to hold God in every facet of life is something for us all to claim more and more so. Thank God for Universal Medicine’s approach to ‘healing our hurts’ to return to who we are – it is actually revolutionary.

     1. Thank you for your beautiful sharing Arianne. I wanted to highlight this part ‘in its simplicity, how it was Love that changed it all’. Yes, it was love that healed many hurts and misery in my life, bringing truth and clarity. Love is simply so powerful and we hold that power within us all.

        1. Me too Stevie, it is absolutely incredible how God communicates to us, His love is always constant, it is only us who sometimes chooses to ignore it. He never tones it down just because we ignore His love but keeps it forever expanding regardless of our choices.

200. “I know that whenever I feel disconnected I can choose to re-connect to love and to connect to God in an instant. In knowing that He is in me, all round me in every moment, always beside me and in every part of me and in absolutely everything,” It is so beautiful to feel yourself opening up to all that God is Chan. Thank you.

     1. Thank you Suzanne. I am really appreciating this myself, I haven’t always been this open and loving towards myself and others, in embracing and accepting God so deeply prior to Universal Medicine. My level of appreciation and trust has certainly expanded thanks to all the amazingly beautiful people I have met at Universal Medicine.

201. Thank you Chan-Ly. The Universal Medicine courses go so deep in allowing us to feel safe to let go of these past hurts and access our True selves; releasing all the faces we put on for the world. Our job, once the connection is made, is to live who we really are in every part of our lives thereafter.

202. I absolutely agree, I too feel that everyone is my family and I love everyone so deeply, if you know it or not it doesn’t matter. Welcome home Chan.

203. I am so very delighted Chan that you had the amazing experience you had at Level 5, as it feels that from it, as well as your other Universal Medicine experiences, this beautiful blog was born. Thank you for sharing your journey and your gorgeous self with us. From reading the comments I can see that your honesty and your wisdom has touched many, many people, as it has touched me.

204. There are often situations when words cannot say it all. The level of love is such that to say anything would take away the absoluteness of that moment, appreciation is very deep coming from within. The many Universal Medicine workshops/presentations with Serge Benhayon and, healing sessions with the Esoteric Practitioners that I have attended each and every one brings about a deep appreciation, as have your sharing with us Chan. Thank you.

     1. Marion, spot on. “There are often situations when words cannot say it all.” This is so very true for Universal Medicine and the teachings of Ageless Wisdom. A growing understanding, acceptance and appreciation of the flow of life; a deepening of love for one another, commitment in life, responsibility about our choices and purpose; an immense support, shared wisdom and inspiration towards turning my life round are just a fraction of what I have been gained over the last few years. There simply are no words to express the magnitude of my experience.

205. Each one of us managed to create a false sense of security in life. How we did it varies from person to person, but they all have something in common, it is about protecting a very limited version of ourselves even if we may think that it is to protect the whole of us. The mechanism in place not just ‘protects’ us, it also guarantees and confirms the limited version of ourselves. We have to credit Universal Medicine for having revealed this to us, and for having helped us to feel again what is truth about us. Looking forward to level 5.

206. The joy and the love, you have now allowed to be with you and coming through you into the world is absolutely powerful and very light and wide at the same time. I can feel, what you have chosen and how you have freed yourself from the self-constructed prison – which I know so well too! So what you write – and how it feels is truly inspirational. Thank you.

207. I am coming to feel that appreciation feels akin to amplification and validation in that what we appreciate seems to then come into being.

208. It is beautiful to reread your blog and feel your joy through the healing which Esoteric Healing Level 5 has brought to you, Chan.
     I myself am looking forward to this course.

209. “My deliberate choice to not be too joyful in case something horrible might happen was a contracted way to live. I thought if I made myself small by holding myself back it would not attract too much attention, therefore, I felt safe. This was what I had chosen pretty much my whole life.”. This is very familiar to me. I’ve accepted a lesser self as being me. In truth it’s an identity that I’ve chosen over and over again to numb myself from feeling. Numbing myself from feeling me as well as other people. The excuse, in case I might get hurt actually is an excuse that already comes from the lesser me. It ‘sounds’ as the perfect excuse, but I am experiencing that it has been an excuse to not take responsibility for myself, but taking on the roll of being responsible for everyone else. This has been so strong living inside of me that I was really confused when I only recently felt that I am not responsible for others. This consciousness has owned me for a long, long time. Now there’s lots exposed that I’ve not wanted to feel before. Anger, frustration, even hate and very manipulative control. I am so joyful, yet in each moment there’s a choice to connect in order to feel myself and the world around me, or not.

210. Chan, I just had a moment interacting with a fellow brother and realized how un-joyfull we can be with each other, and on the converse how joy-full we can be! In this instance I felt how my smile and natural joy had the potential to be ‘infectious’. Really, it just gives others the opportunity to connect to this joy in themselves, and express it if they choose to. I too suppressed living my joy from such a young age as I felt the lack of it that seemed to surround me. Moments like this remind me that joy too has a purpose, and that is to remind us all that this world does not need to be an un-loving and serious place.

211. Thank you Chan. I really felt today in reading this how I have not appreciated the level of love in my life that has now become normal, by virtue of attending workshops and courses by Universal Medicine, and living with dedicated students of the Way of the Livingness. Building trust in these relationships and feeling the consistency of love that is on offer (and has been on offer all along, from God our Divine father), has allowed me to become open to this love everywhere. I am forever deepening my allowing of feeling the love is that around me, and there for me to live in every moment. The only cap on this is the one I place on it, and as you say Chan this joy is there for us to connect to, in a moment, always.

212. I agree it definitely does feel like a home coming when you attend a Universal Medicine event. It’s a lived knowing within that we are all connected and that feels amazing.

213. Awesome Brendan, I totally agree it is most definitely well worth it to appreciate continuously, to take a moment whenever possible to feel this and I feel it is one of the key components in life.

214. So beautiful to read Chan of how you have re-turned to your innate joy and love, and no longer in the belief you need to hold it back to protect yourself. This is huge and so much to appreciate, because there are so many, including myself, who have been in the illusion that to keep ourselves safe we need to hold back our light and love. Seeing it now, it’s like a domino affect, one person feeds the same fear of being who they truly are to another, and it keeps going and we all fall down…. until someone stops the game and reflects another way.

     1. This is so true, Aimee. I like you analogy of the domino effect, it certainly is like that but I also realised that we only get knock down by choice. It takes only one person to stand up and they naturally pull and inspire others to also stand up against the illusion of protection and ways of life.

     2. Aimee, I love what you have said here – it is so true how we are feeding and confirming each others fears. What we all need is the reflection of truth.

215. It is amazing to read about your journey from holding back – an all too common state – to what it feels like to open up and allow the love you are to be released from its confines. It truly is a home-coming.

     1. Thank you Naren. ‘Holding back – an all too common state ‘, this is so true and it is so common that we don’t actually realise it can cause so much harm in this world by holding back our joy and love. I realised that when we are not choosing to express in joy we are therefore expressing in misery, I feel there isn’t an in between, just one or the other. The coming home feeling was allowing myself to open up, to be love and joyful, it was a truly incredible experience.

        1. “when we are not choosing to express in joy we are therefore expressing in misery” It is the misery of knowing deeply that joy is our truthful expression, and to not express in joy means that we have to make a deliberate decision to not express it. We can call it depression at its worst, or even just a bad mood, but the fact is that we have made this choice. The tricky part is that we often do not want to accept our responsibility in making that choice and blame outer factors such as people, work, etc. for our state. The truth is that we have a choice, always.
           Yes, there are challenging times. There will always be those. But it is up to us to choose whether we see them as the world out to get us, or opportunities for learning and evolution.

216. I love this Chan Ly “I came to the realisation that life isn’t just about me but it is about encompassing everything and everyone” this is amazing recently I have been realising if I go into a reaction or make something about me I am as you say missing the bigger picture. When we focus on our true purpose and the need of humanity we can no longer dwell on matters that have triggered us. Seeing the bigger picture is one sure way of of not only healing oneself but of also being of service to humanity.

217. “I came to the realisation that life isn’t just about me but it is about encompassing everything and everyone.” Chan I really love what you have shared here. This is one that does still come in and out of the day for me. I know I can still become insular in my own life and forget that I am indeed connected to everyone and everything, that how I life and choices I make ‘do’ impact on the whole. So this feels very timely for me right now and can understand why this line in particular stood out. It is really beautiful and your blog, has been very inspiring indeed, thank you.

     1. Thank you Raegankcairney for sharing so honestly and openly, very inspiring. I must say, the part you highlighted is one of the most beautiful and empowering realisations for me. When I make loving choices knowing that I am encompassing everything and everyone, it becomes meaningful, purposeful and puts everything into perspective and feels so grand. This seems to make it easier for me to commit to making more and more loving choices knowing that every choice I make impacts on us all.

218. I agree about appreciation. Any step you make with appreciation consolidates what you see. We often see appreciation as this big thing to stop and do. But appreciation can be simple and in every moment. Don’t save appreciation for the big occasion, bring it into everything, into the detail of your life and make it very personal and watch how it supports you. Appreciation is much more than just a word. Thank you Brendan.

     1. I love how simple appreciation of even the smallest things has helped to enrich my life, you are right Raymond Karam it IS much more than a word, it’s becoming a big part of the way I live.

        1. Hello catherine bower and that’s great. Appreciation is huge if we allow it and some may read this and question or dismiss this as I may of. But after experiencing what even a small drop of appreciation in my life has opened up for me there is no going back. Appreciate everything you see and in the next step you will see more.

219. Shutting down on our innate joy as a form of protection is something I’m discovering a lot about lately. It seems when around people that are definitely not joyful for their own reasons; I turn this against myself and the first thing that happens is I shut down my natural joy. Being joy-full for some reasons makes me feel like a target. To avoid any disapproval or perceived rejection it has been safer to disappear in to the background. This has all been a child’s view of preservation, not having as yet been able to develop an understanding that whatever pain another is feeling is not our fault and not our problem. Unfortunately by the time we reach an age or stage of mental understanding to this fact, the patterns are pretty ingrained, and the joy is hidden deep with in- until we choose to let it out again ☺

     1. Well said Sandra – if we have been used to bury our joy from childhood, it is our choice to let it out again.

     2. Thank you Sandra for your awesome comment. What you’ve shared is so common and so relatable. It is never too late to express our joy regardless of what our old patterns and behaviours were. We do ultimately stand out when we are being joyful because all around us people are simply not choosing to be expressing in this way. By staying in joyfulness we naturally pull others to feel and express it too. Instead of joining the misery and allowing ourselves to be weighed down, we can make a choice not to give into what is around us but to stand tall and express who we truly are. To fully let our joy out is a blessing to humanity.

     3. Beautifully expressed Sandra and deeply inspiring, Thank You!

220. “I came to the realisation that life isn’t just about me but it is about encompassing everything and everyone.” This in itself is a huge realisation to make especially when we consider how normal it is for life to seemingly revolve around our own needs and not that of the whole.

     1. This is so true Joshua. The more we realise this the more we will be able to rebuild our world back to harmony and live together in brotherhood.

221. Now I know my Universal Medicine family, I am at home with myself, wherever I am, and whoever I am with, and there are no words to express how much I appreciate this.

     1. Yes, and with experiencing the Universal Medicine family I now know true family.

222. There were so many profound realisations for all at Sacred Esoteric Healing Level 5: it was the most profound and divine event experienced on this planet for a long time.

     1. I absolutely agree coleen24, it was simply, utterly and completely divine.

223. “The sadness for me was seeing that they chose to suppress love in order to attack and defend.” Being aware of this can bring, and has brought huge sadness to all of us, Chan Ly but how awesome is it that we now have the choice to discard that sadness and live from the Joy and Brotherhood which you experienced so exquisitely at the event. Thank you for your amazing sharing, Chan Ly.

     1. Thank you coleen24. By choosing to discard layers of sadness has allowed me to become more and more joyful. The other amazing thing I realised from attending Universal Medicine courses is that I am not responsible for what other people choose. I am solely responsible for all my own choices and no one else’s. I can choose not to go into sympathy but to be compassionate, to observe and not to absorb the harmful energy that people project. To stand up against bullying, to abuse, and to express everything that there is to be expressed, continuously. And to not let fear drive me, but love and truth.

        1. I am finding the switch from sympathy and empathy to true compassion a huge learning too, Chan Ly. There is a genuine understanding in compassion and the deep respect of free will, which does not occur with empathy and sympathy. Compassion feels unimposing, insightful and evolutionary, the other two feel suffocating and sticky. And, yes, compassion does ask for the expression for truth without concern or worry for the consequences.

224. Thanks Chan. It’s beautiful to feel the love and holding that you felt at that time, and how when we feel this, we feel divine and scintillating in fire and love

     1. Thank you Ben, I love this word you used ‘scintillating’, I didn’t know what it means so I looked it up. “Scintillating-(sparkling or shining brightly) in fire and love”, I totally agree Ben, is an absolutely divine feeling.

225. “Not to be too joyfull in case I get attacked”. Yes I have felt this one. Even now my joy either inspires or it rubs people the wrong way. It took a little time to learn to feel and understand the energy that comes at me to squash this joy. I use to calibrate what was seen by others because of my sensitivity. Now I know that others need to see and feel my joy no matter what reaction is directed at me because it’s time people were reminded that there is another way and the result is the magic and the blessing of living with joy.

     1. Amazing Matthew, this is definitely what we need more of in this world, JOY. By you choosing to not tone it down no matter what forces are coming at you, you become so powerful, joyful and like you shared ‘the result is the magic’ and by you holding true to who you are you, this naturally inspires others to join you too, to be joyful.

226. Chan Ly ,It is definitely amazing to see you unfolding back to the true original joy and love you are from .Keep up the great work of just being you .

     1. Thank you Greg for this beautiful reminder, I am learning everyday to connect deeper and deeper with myself, with people and with God. Some days I have feelings that come up that makes me feel heavy, which I didn’t used to know how to deal with but now I allow myself to feel it. To understand where it is coming from, and what I find really clears this feeling is by appreciating myself, appreciating where I am, appreciate my every movement and reconnecting back to myself. Appreciation seems to clear things that still pop up every so often to weigh me down. Everyday is an awesome opportunity for me to continuously learn to live more and more from my true essence.

227. Beautifully expressed Brendan, thank you!

228. I am reading your blog through new eyes today Chan. I have played small my whole life in a bid for protection and it has not worked at all – in fact it hurts more than any outside attack. I have been unable to shake this despite knowing that this is the truth, however, reading your blog I feel the key to renouncing this lie is to connect to myself and in doing so connect to God and the fact he is with me every step of the way.

     1. Very beautiful sharing Leonne, thank you. I felt this too, the deepest hurt was that I chose to disconnect from myself, not what others did to me but my choices. By choosing to protect ourselves this doesn’t seem to protect us at all. By choosing to rebuild our connection with ourselves, with people and with God, we are able to heal our hurts as we appreciate who we are, to be gentle and to be loving in every way. To be love is our greatest protection of all. When love is present protection is not required, truly, we don’t need to be in any form of protection, as it opens our hearts and to feel absolute truth.

229. “From about 7 years old I decided that this was the safest way to function through life – to not be too joyful in case I get attacked. ” This speaks volumes for the craziness that the world finds itself in, where young children deliberately bring themselves down in a need to find some protection from a world that reacts and attacks such joy.- and live and grow up in that deep contraction. What is the world missing out on, and where are the adults that they let such a tragic state of affairs develop? The more self-absorbed we get in our issues, the less we are open to understanding what is going on to truly support others including children. But it only takes a step forwards towards responsibility for ourselves and begins the unfoldment for being able to serve all others… just by being our true selves.

     1. Awesome Annie. It is the hurts that we carry that perpetuates this craziness and cycle of abuse. Only when we choose to take responsibility and heal our hurts and ‘just by being our true selves’ that we can truly break this cycle and allow others to also heal.

     2. Awesome Annie and spot on, I’ve been noticing more and more the self-absorbed and individual way many of us live… and how this just encourages more of the same. I can see where I do it too, and as soon as I make things ‘all about me’, I’m totally disconnected from everyone and everything. When I do take responsibility, I can see what is needed for myself and everyone around me simply and clearly.

     3. Annie well said it how crazy to consider that a large section, if not all children, learn that being joyful brings attacks from others. And that as a result the choice is to deliberately not be too joyful. We have the result – a world of adult (and child) depression, anxiety and stress. It’s time to stop trying to make our children something we want them to be from the ideal pictures we’ve been painted about a secure life, and instead all look at what we can do to support our children to grow up who they naturally are.

     4. Annie in answer to your question ‘where are the adults?’ When young children deliberately bring themselves down in a need to find some protection from a world that reacts and attacks such joy’, well the adults muted themselves long ago and have forgotten that they and their children are messengers of God.

     5. Your words “the more self-absorbed we get in our issues, the less we are open to understanding what is going on” resonate in me. I know this state of being, when I was hiding and just caught in my issues. I know now, that there is another way thanks to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine. We are all the same, love and very precious beings and it is all about brotherhood.

230. I could so relate to your blog, Chan Ly, and feel deeply inspired. Thank you.

231. The depth of love that you felt within yourself Chan, and loving connection with others was so beautyFull to hear- this is what true brotherhood is all about.

     1. Thank you Lorettarapp. Wow, true brotherhood is certainly powerful and I am appreciating how we can all connect in this way, by opening our hearts and embracing everyone as part of us.

232. “My deliberate choice to not be too joyful in case something horrible might happen was a contracted way to live. I thought if I made myself small by holding myself back it would not attract too much attention, therefore, I felt safe.” What a common paradox. So many of us hold ourselves back feeling it will protect us from attack and that life will be less unpleasant but in fact we still feel horrible, suppressing our natural joy and joie de vie. The irony is that those who attack do so because they are jealous of that joy, which they have in fact suppressed in themselves. Us shining our light, our joy, reflects to them their hurt for not shining theirs. Suppressing our light does not ease their pain, just allows them not to feel it, and we join them in the misery. Instead the loving thing is to stay in our glory to inspire them to do likewise as is demonstrated by the inspiration of Serge Benhayon of not holding, and those inspired by him to do likewise.

     1. Thank You Jonathan, this part you shared ‘Suppressing our light does not ease their pain’ this really reminded me of feeling sympathy for those people around me, feeling that I couldn’t possibility add any more pain to what they were already going experiencing, so I tip toed around them, tried to make things better yet not realising how unloving that was for me and them. I did certainly join them in the misery for sure and now I have let that go and have already started healing. Thanks to all the loving support from everyone at Universal Medicine, I feel so empowered to continuously expand and learn more and more each day.

233. Thank you Chan, this is beautiful, I can feel love, harmony, joy and your connection to God. It feels to me as though you are shining really bright !

     1. It was the first time ever, in this life time anyway, that I have allowed myself to fully shine. I am now continuously learning to keep on shining and to allow my true light to be seen no matter what. Everyday is an opportunity for me to choose this, to really shine the light of God.

234. These two part Chan i could have written myself. Thank you for sharing your story so openly.
     “I too then chose to reduce my immense love and joy as a form of protection so I didn’t have to feel the pain. I simply didn’t feel safe to be shining with joy and love, so I deliberately chose to tone it down. From about 7 years old I decided that this was the safest way to function through life – to not be too joyful in case I get attacked. This was my false sense of security and investment to make life about keeping me safe.

     My deliberate choice to not be too joyful in case something horrible might happen was a contracted way to live. I thought if I made myself small by holding myself back it would not attract too much attention, therefore, I felt safe. This was what I had chosen pretty much my whole life.”

     1. Isn’t it amazing to feel how much we are all connected? What I have experienced and how I chose to deal with my hurts is not that dissimilar to you Janina and with so many other people around us. We are all very much alike in so many ways and it seems we are struggling with the very same issues. Our greatest hurt and sadness is our separation from our Soul and from God, and by choosing to live in contraction from the true light that we are.

235. A stunning comment Brendan – ‘When we appreciate another we open up to them even more, and then their seeming ‘imperfections’ become totally insignificant…still to be addressed, but insignificant.’ An inspiration to live by.

236. Thank you Susan, it feels incredible to finally feel at home.

     1. Yes, I do not want to be anywhere else!

237. Very beautful Chan – ‘I came to the realisation that life isn’t just about me but it is about encompassing everything and everyone.’ I lived a life completely unaware of this fact myself, until I came across the ground breaking teachings of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine.

     1. Yes I too was unaware that life is about everything and everyone until attending talks and courses by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine. More and more I am understanding our inter-connectedness and the implications of this and how I am within this.

     2. I absolutely agree Eva and from this realisation life is so much grander and more expansive. We are truly blessed to have the teachings of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine available to us. Deeply inspiring people to choose the true way of living and to consistently choose love above all else.

238. More and more I can feel and appreciate how we all connected and the responsibility for the way we live and what we reflect to others.

     1. Me too Margaret, isn’t it just simply divine to feel and appreciate our connection?

239. Chan Ly I could feel your joy as I read your amazing blog. It was wonderful to feel your openness and it is very inspirational how you have changed your life – wunderbar.

     1. It has been amazing to experience joy and openness during Sacred Esoteric Healing Level 5 and I am appreciating by sharing my experience how others can feel it too. The power of sharing and expressing is incredible and a beautiful healing process.

        1. Thank you chanly88 I agree because I have the same experience that “sharing and expressing is an incredible and beautiful healing process.” In the moment I start to share and express I know exactly that I did the next step towards healing – for me that is one of my best markers.

240. ‘I came to the realisation that life isn’t just about me’. Once we see this and live from that perspective our life expands and we open our hearts to humanity and we don’t doubt that we can trust. Yet we appreciate ourselves deeply as a worthwhile member of humanity with a unique contribution to offer and from that fullness of knowing what we bring, we bring it without reservation. By knowing our own worth we get the focus off ‘me’ and can get on with committing to life.

241. That’s it Brendan. There is so much to appreciate everyday and it completely transforms any hardness or judgement we may hold against ourselves or others.

242. Wow that is amazing to read. We are always presented with so much love, each time we are ready to receive more it just keeps pouring in and out, like God’s breath never ending. Incredible.

243. “I came to the realisation that life isn’t just about me but it is about encompassing everything and everyone.” I love this sentence and your whole blog Chan Ly. Somehow we think we are better off protecting ourselves and the very opposite is true. We can only be safe and well when we acknowledge that it is not (just) about us and that we are all connected, FACT!

     1. Thank you Katinka. Our best protection of all is LOVE. The line you highlighted is about brotherhood, I am only beginning to understand and embrace the true meaning of it. The power of our connection when we choose to come together as one simply blows our minds away, as the true magic of what we are capable of is beyond what we can intellectually comprehend. To sum it up we are all so powerful when we are united as ONE, but individually and separately our struggles in life seem to continue.

        1. Thank you Chanly88. Your sharing about brotherhood made me stop just now I realise that I can choose every moment to be connected with everyone. I can not fathom yet how powerful it is if I would choose that more and if others like you Chanly88 would do the same. Power, power, powerful!

244. “I came to the realisation that life isn’t just about me but it is about encompassing everything and everyone.” This line jumped out for me as I feel that people do say that want life to be about everything and everyone, but what are they truly meaning by this? How is that being brought into everyday life to live that, embody it. I know for me, it is something that I am still working on, to bring more to all in what I do, not just making daily life choices self serving, or about me. Some days are better than others, but I have made a choice and intent to see this about myself and bring about these choices to be more holistic and all encompassing. Definitely a work in progress.

     1. Thank you for sharing raegankcairney, I too am learning to live life encompassing everything and everyone. It’s knowing and accepting that I am never alone or separate from people, nature or God. Once I have realised that this is possible, and understand the true meaning of brotherhood, it changed everything for me. I am choosing to embrace it to the best of my ability and also a work in progress for me too. Life just makes so much more sense to me now, because individuality and self-serving choices just never felt true. It explains how I have been feeling all my life and why I held so much tension that was so unnecessary because I was choosing to go against what is so natural, living in true brotherhood and embracing joy, love and truth.

245. This is a beautiful blog Chan, and one I can relate with, how gorgeous that, ‘For the first time in my life I felt completely safe to truly allow my love and joy to shine, to be who I am and to not hold back expressing the joy I felt.’ Sacred Esoteric Healing Level 5 sounds amazing, I am so looking forward to it here in the UK in 10 days.

     1. You are going to be blown away lorrainewellman, it is such a powerful healing modality and one that is like no other in this world. Completely and utterly amazing really, no words can capture the true power of it, you’ll just have to experience it and what a blessing it is to humanity to have Sacred Esoteric Healing Level 5 now available to everyone.

246. Thank you Chan Ly, I am sure many can relate to your sharing and, if they haven’t already, will find that deep inspiration and support from Universal Medicine that truly lovingly brings us back to harmony again, a feeling in the body like no other.

247. We don’t trust ourselves but slowly as we begin to appreciate bit by bit, just how amazing we are, that trust can build as we realise we can do more, we are more.

     1. Consistency is certainly one of the ingredients that builds trust. In the beginning the trust might seem elusive, but with a consistent and regular encounter that brings that feeling of connectedness and feeling safe, we get to build back the trust that was lost. This can take time in some cases, but in the end it does happen.

        1. That is a beautiful point you have made about consistency and trust Henrietta. The dramatic ups and downs, peaks and dives, of the emotionally driven life does nothing to build trust and love. Only a continual choice of aligning to love brings that consistency that then builds trust.

        2. Thank you Henrietta. I feel the experience in your words and that makes them powerful for me. Just stick at it and bit by bit something very strong and steady is eventually built.

        3. Thank you Henrietta and Lyndy – beautifully said. Consistency with ourselves and with others lays the groundwork for trust to grow.

        4. Thank you Lyndy, Dean and Annie – consistency and trust are so strongly tied together and as you have said Lyndy, a consistency of poor choices with the dramatic peaks and dives does nothing to build this trust and love. Strong and steady aligned to love, this is the way forth.

     2. Very true Carmel – we don’t trust ourselves and rightfully so, as most of us have abused ourselves and overridden what we have felt for most of our lives. It is definitely a step by step process, and like Henrietta says it takes consistency and true care to build that trust in our bodies.

     3. When we haven’t been able to trust ourselves or each other for such a long time it does take a while to slowly build it back again. With our willingness to heal our hurts, with appreciation and with time we can certainly regain trust back into our lives again.

248. Beautiful sharing Chan coming to terms with the fact that life is not about me and there is so much more true purpose to our being in this world and who we truly are and the inspiration of this isa great realisation for us all.Thank you

     1. Thank you tricianicholson. Life makes so much more sense to me when I started to truly understand the meaning of brotherhood, I feel so joyful feeling the true meaning of it now and appreciating that I have chosen to live it. It explains so much about my purpose in life and who we really are. The joy in knowing that no one ever gets left out or behind, no one is ever better or less than you or I, brings tears to my eyes and that we are all equally love. We are all deeply connected and divine.

        1. Beautifully expressed chanly88 and one day we will remember that there is, in truth, only one of us.

     2. Yes tricianicholson, life is not about me, it is about brotherhood, love and connection. And to be in service for other people.

249. Holding back our love, due to another’s lack of joy, or choice to not be love, is so counterintuitive to our innate purpose. We all want to live love, and live in a world that does so too. By holding back our love, because another is seemingly holding theirs back – we get caught in the game and merry-go-round that creates the world sorely lacking in love that we live in. It is time to heal the hurts that stop us from being the love we innately are, as it stops us from living the True Love of brotherhood.

     1. Beautifully said Amelia. There is a lot of ugliness in the world but if we react to this and keep ourselves smaller than our full selves we are showing others that is it possible to live without being affected by the world around us. Furthermore, when we contract in this way, we are just hurting ourselves. Hurting ourselves so that others don’t need to feel the choices they’ve made that don’t truly honour who they are.

        1. I agree Kate when we drop our love because others aren’t being love it is a comfort – so that we don’t have to feel uncomfortable with their reactions, but it also doesn’t support them to feel the choices they haven’t been making.

        2. Reacting to the ugliness in the world indeed serves no purpose. I am learning to observe this more and more as I become aware of the preposterous nature of so much that happens around me. It is not natural for people to direct hatred and jealousy at one another, and yet it happens. It is not natural to drink Coke or Ice Cream when they are clearly harming the body, and yet this not only happens but is recommended and advertised widely. All of these things are deeply felt in me for the harm that they truly are to my fellow brothers. In the past I have contracted when feeling these things as I felt that was the best way to deal with them – ie to not feel them. More and more I am realising we can never not feel anything, but bury if we choose to. It will eventually come back up – like a bubble that cannot be suppressed under the surface of the water forever.

        3. By reacting and choosing to contract the fullness of who we are, this definitely hurts us the most and in turn hurts everyone around us too. Any action or expression that is not love is simply harmful to us all.

        4. katemaroney1 you remind me on the power of true reflection. When we stay connected to ourselves in this moment we offer something to another person, to connect to himself / herself as well. That is beautiful when we remind each other what we really are – love.

     2. Beautifully expressed and I totally agree Amelia it is definitely time to heal our hurts and start living in true brotherhood. It is incredible to feel so many people globally are choosing this thanks to the immense love and support from Universal Medicine, the True Love of Brotherhood can now be lived.

     3. Amelia – your words are very powerful in bringing more understanding to the depths of love. When we hold back, we stop an opportunity for ourselves and another to be more open. But when we don’t hold back – watch out world – we instantly become a reflection to others and give them the choice to not hold back either.

     4. Wow, such a true comment and very powerful Amelia. Who is going to step off the merry-go-round first?.. someone has to. 😀

250. That’s wonderful Elizabeth, we can all do with the same program. Appreciate, appreciate and appreciate, we can never underestimate the power of it.

251. Reading your lines I can feel that what is holding me back is that I haven’t let go of a deep hurt I once explored with one of my nearest, a family member. And just as you said, I decided to function. And that breathtaking contraction is the killer to my joy and love, that is borderless inside me. Thank you, Chan, for reminding me and everyone on the solid love we all come from and we can always choose to return to – that unites us all.

     1. Thank you for sharing Christinahecke. This is so true, ‘breathtaking contraction is the killer to my joy’. When we choose to hold onto our hurts it is very difficult to allow ourselves to trust, appreciate and feel the joy from within and all around us. Our hurts pretty much block out so much of who we are ‘love’ and to return to love is to continuously discard the embedded crust of hurts that we often us to protect ourselves. When we fully embrace love there is no protection needed, it simply is so powerful, solid and magical, nothing can come close to substituting its divine power.

        1. ‘When we fully embrace love there is no protection needed, it simply is so powerful, solid and magical, nothing can come close to substituting its divine power.’ I can feel that it is not the will missing to go and be love, it is not accepting our own choices, an inability to confront our hurts and protection mechanisms we have constructed to ourselves. And on top we have decided to rather rationalize our feelings than expressing what the body offers by its senses.

     2. Christina your use of the word ‘borderless’ to describe the love that is inside us is very powerful and causes me to then consider ‘love’ as we commonly think of it, ‘love’ feels so confined in it’s common use that it could fit in a tea cup! Man we really have settled for the scraps for way too long, it’s time to turn this baby around. Heaven on Earth next stop!

        1. That’s sadly what mankind has reduced love to: a limitation. Something we can have only for someone or a limited circle of people. The moment we started to make it about self we started to limit ourselves. That’s why we can’t handle the borderless – and reduce them as well. Our hearts are constantly filled with and impulsed by love. It is a choice to accept and allow to feel the unlimited true version of love. It’s life changing!

        2. I love what you’ve shared here Alexis. Prior to Universal Medicine I knew love as the way you’ve described it, it was a version of love that pretty much fits into a tea cup, really, the truth is love cannot fit into anything as in we cannot try to contain it, bottle it and save it for later. Love is in everything, it is all expansive, all encompassing, evolving and the more we say yes to it the more it expands. We have to live and share it to fully feel what true love is. And if we all consistently choose to be love, our next stop would definitely be Heaven on Earth.

252. I can relate to this “Prior to Universal Medicine I was coping with life, not fully living in joy or in harmony with my body or my family.” I was just going through the motions of living and working, there was a deep sadness and major exhaustion. When I met Universal Medicine I got to understand about self care, self worth, self responsibility, love, making my own choices. All of this changed my life as I started make gentle changes, I started to love myself, my life and my work. Now i can say I have joy, harmony in my body and my life, which is constantly deepening.

     1. Very beautiful Amita, so awesome to read your return to love, joy and harmony, and to consistently choosing to deepen this. What is so obvious here is that Universal Medicine is inspiring people all over the world to truly live lovingly and in harmony with ourselves and with others, creating a ripple effect reaching far and beyond.

     2. Before Universal Medicine it didn’t even occur to me how I was living, I had just resigned myself to that’s how life was, it was full of challenges and highs and lows. I didn’t realise life could be lived with consistency and that love could be the leading way always. I am still letting go of past patterns and choices so that love can be my way.

        1. Same for me Kristy – before Universal Medicine, my focus was primarily about ‘what’ I did, not at all about the quality of who I was, and there was a sense for me of ‘resigning’ to my lot in life. Letting go of my past patterns has been huge and something I’m still working on, but focussing on the quality of how I am living has totally turned my life around.

        2. Thank you Kristy. I too I am working on letting go of my old patterns and behaviours that occasionally still creeps in. And I am learning to do things with awareness of the energetic quality and not to be governed by the outcomes or quantity. Most of all, I am learning to be more loving, this is simply incredible to build upon more and more every day.

        3. It’s amazing Kristy that life could have been any other way. I too also didn’t really think about how I was living, that was just how life was, you got on with it the best you could. Like yourself I am still letting go of past patterns but my life has changed dramatically since taking responsibility and choosing the quality in which I live.

     3. I agree Amita, Universal Medicine has changed my life, my relationships, my work, every moment of every day. I now exist as one with all others, in evolving brotherhood. Thank you Chan for this blog of trust and appreciation.

     4. Wonderful expressed Amita. Before Universal Medicine I also felt very exhausted and sad. I was totally disempowered, caught in my victim role. Since attending Universal Medicine courses I started to connect to my essence again and a wonderful journey to myself began.

253. Chan what a lovely article you share with us. “For the first time in my life I felt completely safe to truly allow my love and joy to shine, to be who I am and to not hold back expressing the joy I felt.” It is simply beautiful when we are truly connected to the love we hold inside.

     1. Sally, Chan the power in these words reminders me on the true strength of the love we naturally are. In that Trust is natural rather than the situation we face throughout society where finding/feeling trust with someone or something is like a needle in a haystack.

        1. It feels like when we fully trust ourselves, thats when we find the trust in others too. No more needles in haystacks, it all becomes clear.

        2. Thank you Sally, Catherine and David. This is so true, by trusting ourselves we are able to trust others too. Once we trust, allow ourselves to surrender and open our hearts, it is an amazing healing process.

        3. ‘It feels like when we fully trust ourselves, that’s when we find the trust in others too.’ – This is a great point – how could we possibly trust others if we don’t even trust ourselves?

        4. I feel to really heed what I know is true: what you have each expressed, ‘by trusting ourselves we are able to trust others too.’ That this brings great healing to hurts that I can now still feel I let run the show.

     2. I agree, Sally and Chan, feeling our love and joy within is beautiful. I had an image of light coming into the dark room through the open door and all the scary shadows and monsters are disappearing! There is nothing there to be afraid of and there is only freedom to share this joy with others. To me that’s why many of us feel like we are at home, because we belong to this love and it belongs to us, we are made of it.

        1. We are all equally love. By choosing to live it and express it, fear cannot enter our body. Love is so powerful that it wipes out and clears anything that is not love. So, if we consistently choose love that is all we need and love heals everything.

     3. Yes Sally it most certainly is and when we don’t measure this to fit into the environments we are in it is even more amazing. Trusting and Allowing the FULLNESS of who we are is a blessing on all accounts. I’m getting much better but still have moments where I turn it down a bit. When I do this I can feel the impact this has and how it doesn’t feel great. For me it is cutting the comfort and not being a afraid of shining out. Just going for it.

        1. Awesome Natalie, I have found the more we allow ourselves to shine our joy, the easier it is to consistently stay in our powerful loving light.

254. This is such a gorgeous blog to re-read, full of appreciation, joy and love… it takes me straight back to that feeling of being at the level 5 workshop, that feeling of oneness, knowing, family and love…Awesome Chan… You show how the written word has power to reconnect one to love…

     1. I felt the same at the Level 5 workshop. The love and unity I experienced in that room and over the 3 days was a marker for me too. I felt so much appreciation for each person in that room for making the commitment to making their life about love, and love for all. It was a truly beautiful thing to experience.

        1. Yeah I agree Amelia, those three days were an amazing learning of how life can be with no issues or dynamics between people but living with an open heart.

        2. I often look around at a Universal Medicine course/workshop and am astounded at the number of people willing to commit to heal their stuff and make life about love. It is way cool and so so needed.

        3. How inspiring to read your words Sarah and those of Amelia Stephens as we approach Sacred Esoteric Healing Level 5 here in the UK. That is the amazing thing about Universal Medicine and the understanding it has brought to us all – that we can all connect whereever we are in the world. I can feel that there will be many in Australia connecting with us in the UK at this time as we all come together in a way that is unified and expansive for all of humanity. It feels deeply loving to appreciate all the many blessing we are offered throughout each and every day.

        4. I totally agree Amelia, “The love and unity I experienced in that room and over the 3 days was a marker for me too.” It really brought home for me also, how it comes down to a simple choice to live like this with others in absolute brotherhood.

        5. I love what you are saying sarahflenley, and I full heartedly agree, it is an absolute joy to look around at a Universal Medicine course/event and see all the people being willing to heal their stuff and being so committed to live their life from love.

     2. I agree johannebrown, I experience the same feeling after reading this blog, beautiful to feel the power of the written word and the easiness to reconnect to my absoluteness.

     3. Thank you johannebrown17, I often re-read this blog too. A few times it brought me to tears as I release layers of sadness of previously choosing to hold back joy. Towards the end of reading, I feel the joy and love has really never left and appreciating again each time how much love and joy there is to be felt, expressed and lived. The more I choose to express love and truth the more healing I bring to myself and to others.

        1. This is true Chan – joy and love never truly leave, we can just ‘forget’ how to reconnect to it at times. Just because another seems to have forgotten, it does not mean we should hold ours back. When we hold steady presenting joy, truth and love, it allows them the space to come to this in their own time (and space). Our consistency in holding this also deepens the love we can feel and experience in every day life

     4. Thank you johannebrown17, the feeling of absolute oneness was so powerful and the love in the room was incredible. Every time I recall this experience it brings me straight back to feeling truly loved and supported. Something I have never really felt anywhere prior to attending the Universal Medicine courses.

     5. I agree johannebrown17, reading Chan’s blog reconnected me with that amazing feeling of coming home that one feels and recognises attending Universal Medicine events.

255. Thank you for sharing this Chan. There are many people, and I was one of them, who are coping with life, just getting through. Doing the minimum, keeping their heads down with the occasional bit of “fun”. I have not suffered abuse in my life but I could still feel that there was so much more than just existing. Since finding Universal Medicine I am no longer surviving, I am thriving! I love my life, I no longer hide and there is joy in my life. I am not alone in this, there are many others, as you have shared here Chan, that have reconnected to the joy in their hearts thanks to the support from Universal Medicine.

     1. What a celebration this is Lee, so many people like you and I are choosing to truly live life embracing joy, love and truth. What Universal Medicine shares with the world is incredible, showing us that life is not just about surviving, it is much, much grander and greater than that. It is beyond what we can comprehend, if we choose to accept and explore who we are and make choices to live the grandness that we all are. One day, harmony will be restored when more and more people are choosing to return to living in joy.

256. By appreciating ourselves we are then naturally able to appreciate others equally. Appreciation opens our hearts to see and feel the truth and love then naturally flows.

257. Thank you for sharing Marion. ‘Universal Medicine, and the amazing workshops/presentations with Serge Benhayon’ is a blessing to humanity. As more and more people choose to restore harmony from within we will experience harmony in the world. Universal Medicine lovingly supports and deeply inspires us to truly return to harmony again.

     1. This is true Chan I am noticing this at work, there are over 400 employees and we all work really well together, everyone feels equal in what they do and how they interact with each other there is no ‘them and us’ everyone works together to make sure the company runs smoothly and harmoniously.

        1. When we choose to work and live together in harmony it is simply exquisite and magical.

        2. Is is simply exquisite and exquisitely simple.

        3. That’s a great company you work for alisonmoir; here’s to the day when all companies work like that.

        4. This is a truly awesome way to work together as employees Alison. I think it’s important that we start educating schools of the possibility of this kind of relationship both for the students and the teachers. At the college I’m at currently everything is very divided – there is definitely a ‘them and us’ feeling going on, between the teenagers’ social hierarchy and with the teachers.

     2. Yes Chan Ly, these are some of the best workshops in the world. I can’t speak for all but I love returning to them and meeting the growing number of people attending.

        1. Yes, The Universal Medicine courses are by far the best investment one can make

        2. I agree Johannebrown17, it is definitely the best investment I have ever make. My life has improved dramatically in all areas, work, relationships and family. What is amazing is that it just keeps on getting more and more amazing. Universal Medicine inspires me every day to truly live, with purpose, with clarity, with absolute love and truth. The world’s most incredible support!

        3. I agree Matthew, it’s great to experience one of these workshops, and I for one know they have made all the difference in the world. And many others are discovering this for themselves also.

        4. Hear hear Matthew, these workshops are absolutely the best in the world in my opinion, they are phenomenal.

258. This is so gorgeous – ‘In knowing that He is in me, all round me in every moment, always beside me and in every part of me and in absolutely everything,’ -a great reminder that we are never alone, and always supported.

259. Today I was talking to someone who’s mother – at the age of 99 – soon will pass over due to the fact that she wants to go and hardly eats anymore. He and his wife are visiting her on a daily basis and have taken care of her ever since she went to an elderly home. I was appreciating him and his wife for being there for his mum. I told him that this is special these days. Where his answer was that they might seem to be the exception, but maybe all the others are the exceptions. Very very wise words to me. This is so True. Why is it that we don’t visit people, take care of them when they need it. Why is that? This should be the normal, like it used to be – rather than putting ‘them’ away in a home where others will take care of them. The man also shared that even when the caring staff members ask family or friends for some underwear or so, their response is that they will not buy it as the mum or dad will soon die (anyway). This is horrible, isn’t it. Yet for may people very real. We shouldn’t accept this. Not in a bullying or blameful way, but in the sense that we should talk about each other. Learn to trust and feel again. How much we do love and care for our parents, despite the things that they might have done. They’re special, just as we are. They want to be seen, heard and cared for, just as we want.

     1. Thank you for sharing Floris. It is heart-warming to read about your friends. ‘How much we do love and care for our parents, despite the things that they might have done.’ Your comment reminds me that what people do is not really who they are. We all want to be loved and cared for and when we truly open our hearts, no matter what atrocious acts anyone has done to us we can still treat them as equals, see and accept them as special beings just like everyone else. This is not to say that atrocious acts or behaviours are accepted or tolerated, absolutely not. But when anyone is in need of support and we turn our backs on them due to blame and past hurts it doesn’t serve anyone. We should love and care for people regardless, to truly love and care is to treat everyone as equals.

        1. Thank you Chan. I absolutely agree. I am starting to see how important true unconditional love is. And how I actually also want to be loved unconditionally. I’ve noticed that I actually have a need to be loved unconditionally first rather then being that one first. And if I choose to be that one, Magic happens. It is Truly amazing what miracles happen when I choose to live love first. What is so superb is the wonderment and appreciation for life and people. Totally different to when I come from a demand or a need. And my own parents are indeed reflecting the very fact that I’ve never chosen to express myself… Amazing science.

260. Your sentence “that with this false sense of security I was not truly living.” resonates in me deeply. In the past my fear and my anxiousness were always so big, that I isolated myself from truly meeting other people and I sought for security. At this time, there was no joy and love in my life. Since I also attend courses by Universal Medicine, I was able to open up to myself and to other people, and that is just awesome, it is unfolding path which I enjoy more and more.

     1. It is very awesome alexander1207, thank you and your comment is inspiring to read. It is life changing to acknowledge that no matter how much we try to isolate ourselves to protect and sort security, this isn’t the answer. In most, if not all cases of isolation, we can go into a deeper state of misery. We can choose to step out of this cycle of misery by choosing to be open and allow people in. Very often we do need support and guidance and this is available to us all.

261. You make some great points in your blog Chan and it feels great to reflect back and see that changes which have occurred in my life since attending Universal medicine workshops and I know now that anything is possible. When I first started to attend Universal Medicine presentations and workshops, it seemed almost impossible for me to think that I would ever get out of the mess of a life I had created and that I would feel dreadful about myself forever, but thank god that that isn’t the case and we can get over our hurts enough to see that life isn’t all about us.

     1. Thank you Julie, it is incredible how many people Universal Medicine have inspired to heal their hurts and start to truly live life.

262. Thank you Chan the love and joy emanating from this blog is palpable! Thank you for lighting up my morning!

263. I have been attending Universal Medicine courses and presentations for over ten years and I can say too that every one of those courses has supported me in one way or another. Most of the time I come away feeling joy in my body because I have let down my guard and feel a beautiful connection with me and therefore with every one around me. On the occasions where I don’t feel this loving connection it means that some resistance has come up to what has been presented and I need a little more time to feel into it and let it go.

     1. Thank you Caroline, your comment is honest and inspiring. Your willingness to allow yourself time to feel and let go it so awesome. This allows us to evolve and learn, by giving ourselves time and space to connect to truth is highly important and gracious. If we are able to do this for ourselves we are then able to offer this to others too.

264. It is beautiful to find the love that has always been inside us, that love is so powerful and creates a trust in ourself that we don’t need to be anyone else.

     1. Simply gorgeous Benkt, Thank You.

265. It’s very sad that we feel it necessary to hold back our joy for fear that another will attack because they haven’t been prepared to choose that for themselves and yet expressing our joy and being who we truly are is the only way to inspire others and reflect to them that it is available to all.

     1. I totally agree deborahmckay. By holding back my joy didn’t serve me or anyone, it hurt more than anything I can recall. Letting go of this hurt is a healing process and one that is truly worth it. To fully express joy simply feel exquisite, it naturally inspires other too to connect and naturally encompasses everyone.

266. “I came to the realisation that life isn’t just about me but it is about encompassing everything and everyone”. This is such an important realisation Chan; thank you for highlighting it and inspiring us to be all encompassing.

267. A beautiful blog Chan…how coming back to trust no matter what our hurts may be, appreciating the changes we have made and the amazing life we do have.
     Appreciation is a powerful healer.

     1. Beautifully said Paula, trust and appreciation is certainly powerful.

268. Your connection to brotherhood, to everyone and everything, is beautifully expressed and clearly felt. And it made me realise just how focused society is on self and self-gain, when in fact life is all about brotherhood…what a trick we are all caught up in!

     1. It feels amazing to finally step out of this trick that so many of us have been caught up in. At first it feels sad to realise that I had accepted to be tricked in the first place and that my path was a result of all my choices. It is extremely empowering to know that I can make new choices to trust, appreciate and love again. Allow myself to feel everything and open our hearts to live, to truly see and expose the illusions.

269. Beautiful Chan and inspirational sharing and choice you have made. Living the love we are and letting this love into our whole body and our life is a golden key we all have with us throughout our life.

270. “… I decided that this was the safest way to function through life – to not be too joyful in case I get attacked”. It’s ridiculous really that we hold back our joy because of another’s hurts but we do; I am constantly working on this. ‘Fitting in’ and pleasing others has been a big behaviour of mine but I am learning to express love and joy, have understanding and acceptance especially when others are in reaction to me. Thank you Chan Ly for sharing such a gorgeous and beautiful blog.

     1. I really relate to this ‘fitting in’ pattern that I’ve done too Caroline, pleasing others, not speaking out and rocking the boat, not reacting when others react to me. I’m starting to learn that life is about encompassing everything and everyone, and that doesn’t allow me to stay small.

        1. Thank you Caroline and Gill, so many of us can relate to this ‘trying to please others’ way of being, this was something I did too. It was a false way living that was coming from acts of protection and of recognition. By learning to live expressing truth and love really cuts this ‘pleasing’ energy out and allows us to consistently choose to act according to love and encompassing ourselves and everyone.

271. “From years of exposing what was not love and starting to choose love again, I have experienced something I have never thought was possible – an amazing expansion” I agree fully from the first workshop until this day the expansion that I feel through connecting to myself and choosing love continually expands.

     1. Awesome David and very inspiring.

272. The wonderful thing about Universal Medicine courses and presentations, is that they don’t propose solutions or how to cope with our life, but rather provide a space to go deeper and explore the underlying patterns and behaviours that created our life’s issues in the first place. We can then get to see how our actions and our choices have an effect on ourselves and on everyone around us. It is from this insight and honesty that true change is then possible. The tools and techniques presented at the courses are for helping us to connect to ourselves first and foremost and from there what naturally unfolds and develops is a foundation of love from which we can understand what serves us and all others, and what does not.

     1. Annie I completely agree. Never have I found somewhere that supports people with such love and not an once of judgement (ok that’s worth a huge pause and appreciation in itself). This allows me the space to be honest (I’m not feeling the need so much to defend myself) and see how my choices affect myself and all around me. I’m able to feel who I truly am and see all that isn’t me is what’s making unloving choices and so, lovingly, take responsibility of choosing love as the foundation and from here my choices will be loving, respectful, harmonious.

     2. I totally agree Annie, we are simply presented with the truth and always very lovingly so. We are the ones who choose what our choices are going to be next. The support from Universal Medicine and everyone associated with it is incredible, inspiring us to take responsibility, learn to self-care, self-love, learn what true love really means and that we can choose to live this consistently through our own choices.

273. Thank you Chan Ly for your expression regarding trust and appreciation. For me to totally trust myself with expression has deepened within me my appreciation of the love and joy within me. And then in your words the inevitable happens “In knowing that He is in me, all round me in every moment, always beside me and in every part of me and in absolutely everything, I can then choose to not hold back my joy but to fully express it with every part of my being, to celebrate brotherhood and return to God.”

     1. Awesome Mary, I have found through trusting and appreciating myself I am then able to be the same with others.

274. Acceptance and appreciation go hand in hand. If we appreciate who we are, then we have the foundation to accept what we are struggling to allow ourselves to see. But if we do not appreciate who we are, and appreciate all that life is, then when we allow ourselves to see the corruption of the world around us, we have no foundation to support us, and so we become overwhelmed with despair, and instead choose to distract and numb ourselves from the world, rather than allow ourselves to see all there is to see.

     Without appreciation, we cannot see evil.

     1. This is powerful Adam, ‘without appreciation, we cannot see evil.’ This is so true and to the point. Your comment reminds me to appreciate myself some more. I realise it was with acceptance and appreciation of who I am that I didn’t go into overwhelmed or despair, to then seek to completely numb or distract myself from who I am or the world. The thought of losing and numbing myself with harmful substances was not appealing to me. What I am appreciating is that I was able to cherish, appreciate and accept who I am regardless of what I was presented. With appreciation and acceptance, our hearts, our eyes and every part of us are open to truth. We can choose to observe and not absorb the harmful energy that surrounds us. I totally agree Adam, by choosing to accept and appreciate ourselves is a strong and much needed foundation for life.

275. I am learning to express and share a lot of the amazing stories I have in my life. Also when they include words as past lifes, God, religion, feelings, etc. I am learning that people can hear much more then I thought they can. And, it’s so beautiful and inspiring to hear this stories. Even with friends I don’t expect to agree with me or understand, they too start sharing their experiences, views, etc. And it all start with trusting and appreciating myself and my life to (dare to) share what I experience.

     1. Beautiful Floris, I love what you shared. I have found to openly share my feelings, thoughts and experiences have assisted me to heal in so many ways. This started from when I was young, I simply love sharing with people and found once I am open to sharing, and people then feel that they can too. It’s an amazing feeling to truly connect with people.

        1. Yes Chan, the amazing thing is that if I’m Truly connected with my inner-heart that the words just come naturally. Like ‘it’ knows exactly what to say. It is me that still has to choose the trust in this Magical science betweet One Soul to the other. Today I had a healing moment, just by a friend expressing that I’ve been very hard on myself and then a few minutes later confirming how sweet I am. So profound, so supporting! How great is it to be Truly supported and let Love in!

276. I have seen that protecting ourselves from being hurt, becoming contracted, hurts us more than the actual hurt! Also there have been so many times I have concentrated on the hurt and given this energy instead of allowing myself to let this go using the hurt to not let me be who I truly am .. which is …. CRAZY!

     1. I know Vicky, it does seem pretty crazy to choose our hurts over love. This was a huge sadness for me to realise this choice I had made and to heal the sadness a layer at a time as it presents itself.

277. A beautiful realisation, there were so many roads you could have gone down, with all that you have experienced. It’s so inspiring that you chose love. Great blog Chan thank you

     1. Thank you Natalie, someone once asked me a long time ago what was the secret to overcoming what I experienced? I was baffled myself at the time but I pondered on the question and realised it was LOVE. There was no secret, it was simply a choice to choose be love or not. Now, I am learning to live lovingly consistently, to allow more healing to take place, to go deeper, and to continue learning to live in truth and love.

278. “I came to the realisation that life isn’t just about me but it is about encompassing everything and everyone.” This is great Chan Ly, when we realise this. I was so self-conscious as a child, which I took with me into my adult life. Slowly this is dissipating as I came to realise life isn’t just about me. There is a bigger picture at play and reminding myself of this supports me to come back to who I truly am.

     1. For most of my life I too thought that life was all about me and my needs! When I came to the realisation that life isn’t just about me, it was such a glorious feeling in my body, a oneness, where it was impossible to put myself above or below another. This is such a great reminder and marker that whenever I feel disconnected to another, I have disconnected from myself and lost sight of the bigger picture; life is not just about me but about everything and everyone equally so.

     2. Awesome sueq2012, I love what you’ve shared. The support and inspiration we receive from each other is incredible by expressing and sharing, I find is very healing.

     3. Awesome Sueq2012 thank you for sharing. When the truth of who we are is revealed and accepted, everything starts to make so much sense.

279. I can relate to a lot of points you are raising. The sad thing about protection is, that we are then isolated, we are not connected. The other day I could drop my guard and it felt so amazing, to be open and to feel the love within me and all around me. True Intimacy lived feels like to be in heaven.

     1. Yes isn’t it crazy alexander1207, that the one thing we all want the most – intimacy and love – we hold apart form us by all the protections we build up to not be hurt.

        1. Thank you Alexander1207 and Sonja awesome comments. I agree, it does seem a bit crazy to protect ourselves from feeling and experiencing what we crave the most, true love and true intimacy. The fear of being hurt is what drives us to protect ourselves, this fear is fuelled by our past hurts and not willing to heal and let go. The energy of fear is powerless when we choose to recognise it and consciously choose to align with the energy of love. With love, protection is never required.

     2. I love what you are saying Alexander, when we protect ourselves we isolate ourselves from others and stand alone. If we truly want to change the world’s affairs we have to start with ourselves and start dropping our armour and show our true and loving self underneath.

280. “I came to understand and appreciate that we are all deeply connected and. . . protection is a contracted way to live that is completely false”. Chan, how lovely that you came to this realisation, which has the potential to be life changing, as it was in your case. Once we discover “that life isn’t just about me but it is about encompassing everything and everyone” true healing can begin. Thank you for your inspiring blog.

281. I agree with others Brendan what you say really brings a practical focus to letting people in, first seeing the love they are and appreciating it, then how they act is never something to react to but to hold steady with and not withdraw or come on strong. As a student of the Esoteric, I would not be sincere if I was not also relating these words back to my relationship with myself – appreciating the love within before dealing with the ‘imperfections’.

282. I never learned to appreciate as a child, nor as a teenager or young adult, only when I came to Universal Medicine I became aware how very important and natural appreciation is and lives within us. Parenting and the whole education system needs to be changed and have appreciation, self-love and speaking one’s truth as top priority.

     1. That is a good point Esther, self-appreciation and its importance in being able to appreciate also others. As a child and growing up teenager I was told that your not worthy unless someone else appreciates what you have done. Self-appreciation was not valid. This is recognition from outside. But how can you accept appreciation from outside if you even do not appreciate yourself from within?

        1. Great question Sonja, it really is upside down and back to front some of the things we’ve taken on. We can choose to correct this by appreciating our qualities from within and what we reflect out gets reflected back towards us, so naturally and effortlessly so.

     2. I can totally relate Esther. I grew up being taught to not appreciate myself because to appreciate myself, it was seen as being ‘full of myself’, it was a big ‘No, No’ like it was something not permitted but the funny thing is we should all be ‘Full of ourselves’ because when we feel full, we feel amazing as the fullness is simply our ability to feel the love that we are. It is never too late to appreciate ourselves and allow ourselves to feel the fullness of who we are. It would certainly be amazing to be taught this from the start of life to appreciate, to express and feel the fullness of who we are consistently.

        1. Yes Chan It would save us a lot of trouble and hardship.

     3. I agree Esther and I also feel true change comes from us first, to appreciate, love and express truth regardless is our true way forward towards this change we all so desperately crave for.

283. I very much agree Brendan. Through appreciation we learn to focus on all that is, all the beauty that is there, be it in a person or the things happening around us. We basically learn to look through different glasses at the world and suddenly see much much more than we did before, it is like a whole new world is opening up.

     1. Brendan what you have initiated with your comment is powerful stuff and has helped me to realise that ‘imperfections’ is a man made word and that in God’s realm no such word exists. When God looks at us all he sees is himself in utter perfection.

284. I too have a very similar realisation from also reading many blogs and comments written by people who are so openly sharing their experiences and deeply inspiring people from all over the world. It is incredible that the internet is being used to bring people together and assisting in confirming the feeling that we are never alone but always connected to each other. Our choices, patterns and behaviours are very similar and confirms the choices we make ultimately affects everyone and that we are very much all alike. When we open our hearts we can feel deeply connected to everyone.

285. It is interesting to ponder the choice of ‘capping’ and how we may use it to attempt to hold back our natural evolution “I was capping myself so that I couldn’t see any possibilities that were out there waiting for me to explore, to express and to share.” I am feeling ‘awesome’ right now, and this has happened through being open to evolve and not capping myself to a degree in the last 10 years. However I can also feel a resistance that pops up regularly, it is a bit like ‘how good can this actually get?’ In my life I have been used to drama, stress and anxiety and the possibility of feeling joyful and expanding as a person all the time some times freaks me out a bit. It is a trick that I play with myself that I am learning to challenge, and this is working. Capping ourselves is a big trick that I know I have spent years adapting, playing around with, holding back my potential and natural ability, and the choice to cap actually adapts itself, as I have evolved it still pops up in a new form. I say keep exposing it and challenging when it turns up and consider that where we can go with this life is infinitely awesome.

     1. Beautiful davidsamantha. Capping ourselves holds us back, it simply delays us to go deeper, to be and live more of who we are. I too have never felt so awesome in my life experiencing moments of resistance that davidsamantha talks about. I have come to realise that whenever I feel resistance I am therefore capping myself, I am being asked to be more, to go deeper, to let go of the protection so that I can express with no holding back.

        1. I have realised by choosing to cap my joy was such a controlled way of living, completely harmful and hurtful way to live. I am so grateful to have been inspired to make a different choice, to let go of this and learn to live embracing absolute truth and love.

     2. It’s awesome what you share here davidsonsamantha. You are so honest and open, and this is what assist us to evolve. I find when I am being completely honest with myself it exposes everything and allows me to then heal and let go. But when I feel any resistance, it is because I have already chosen to be closed and to protect myself. Without honesty and openness we can stay stagnant and resentful. It is so amazing to choose to be open and simply allow myself to feel and to be completely honest.

286. I can relate to holding myself back so as to avoid attention, and then when I attended Universal Medicine workshops and discovered that was what I had been doing my whole life, it seemed really difficult to choose a different way of being – living that way had become an ingrained behaviour. But it is possible to make changes to the way we are in life, no matter what age or circumstances we find ourselves in – this has been proven to me time and time again since attending the workshops as I see people coming back to their true selves.

     1. Yes Julie – what you say is so true and when we begin to accept that we can let go of all these debilitating behaviours we find our true sense of self, and holding back no longer seems an option.

        1. Thank you Julie and Susan. I know, it does seem impossible to let go of our old patterns and behaviours when we are so engrossed in them. But through learning to self-care, self-love, self-nurture and learning to be more aware, the loveless old patterns and behaviours simply drop away effortless. From knowing that we are love and to start living it, what is not love is exposed and the choice to no longer acceptable them anymore becomes so natural.

        2. I love what you say Chan Ly and the word ‘engrossed’ really showed me the depth of attachment that we can invest in holding on to ‘old patterns’ and use them as an excuse to stay stuck. This is the perversity of the way we are living our lives when we shut ourselves off from the opportunities that we are offered daily in our lives to change and make choices that are more loving and supportive. As we return to a more loving way of living we can feel the depth of love and joy that has always been there when we let go of control.

287. What a joy to read this, Chan. I often feel what you describe in a similar way, the presence of God in me and around me, and it fills me with joy that you feel it too. Welcome home.

     1. Thank you Regina. It certainly feels amazing to finally come home to my family, embracing everyone and I now feel my family is much, much greater and larger than I have ever imagined. My family extends to humanity.

288. It is amazing when we find Universal Medicine, and experience a large group of people sincerely connecting to the love that they are. It does feel like family, like home, the most beautiful joy. The gorgeous thing is, is that we can have this all the time, wherever we are, by just being the love that we are. By being connected to ourselves we are connected with everyone.

     1. I agree Amanda, we can certainly feel joyful and connect with everyone in this way by simply being the love that we are and expressing with an open heart. The entire world is our home, our family, for all that it is and to embrace it with love and only love is so powerful and our very natural calling.

289. “Now that I have experienced what true connection to everyone and everything is, I know that whenever I feel disconnected I can choose to re-connect to love and to connect to God in an instant.” Beautifully expressed Chan Ly and what I love is that we do not need anything outside of us for this, it is inbuilt within us all. God is always right there with us, we simply need to stop and re-connect. Joy on tap, all the time, equally for all.

     1. So true Kelly and I love this part ‘Joy on tap, all the time, equally for all.’ It certainly is.

290. What I got so strongly from today, is that it is up to all of us to create a safe space for people to be themselves and to hold that space in love. Not carrying anyone but a simple holding. From there miracles happen and what you shared Chan and who you are is a living miracle. To come from a childhood of abuse to re-connecting to a deep love and knowing of God and brotherhood, is exquisite. The responsibility on all of us is to commit to love.

     1. “… it is up to all of us to create a safe space for people to be themselves and to hold that space in love”. Beautiful sarahflenley and I agree… no trying, no imposing but simply connecting and being with ourselves, holding this and allowing whatever is there to unfold. This is timely, thank you for the confirmation.

     2. This is gorgeous sarahflenley, and when we hold and appreciate our own love it creates a safe space for everyone to connect to their own love too. That’s where the real magic starts and what unfolds from that honesty is truly exquisite indeed.

     3. Thank you Sarah. I have found that everything that happens, happens for a reason and that there is always a message there for us to discover and to learn from. Through committing to love we can view life with clarity, purpose, understanding and truth. I love to highlight this part from your comment ‘The responsibility on all of us is to commit to love.’ taking responsiblility is the first step towards this commitment.

291. Chan Ly, what an absolutely beautiful expression of love and appreciation. I feel your depth of connection to God and to the ALL. What an inspiration for you to express it aloud to all of us. Thank you. SO so beautiful.

     1. Thank you Anna, it was a beautiful process to learn to express what I felt and experienced through writing. I have found it deeply healing and the most amazing part is in the sharing.

292. “The sadness for me was seeing that they chose to suppress love in order to attack and defend.” and then we do the same, reducing ourselves ever further away from love itself. The hurt of that, creating the fury we in turn lash out with to anyone who dares to express that love. It seems to me it is a game we have all played. . . or has it in fact played us?

     1. This is what I have seem happen, our hurts allows us to lash out and hurt others too, perpetuating the circle of abuse. So by healing them, letting them go completely there is no way we are then able to hurt anyone or ourselves, in any shape or form because without our hurts we get to truly feel who we are and express the love that is naturally waiting to be expressed.

293. When something is said as simply as this, it gives the opportunity for everyone to relate, well done Chan: “From about 7 years old I decided that this was the safest way to function through life – to not be too joyful in case I get attacked.”

     1. Attack in this instance came in many ways for me Oliver, envy, rejection, disbelief and confusion. Even as an adult I never understood why so many people couldn’t join in the joy. To find, at Universal Medicine, a home where joy is not just accepted, but celebrated, is an indescribable – joy.

294. Thank you Mary for sharing. I totally agree, we may have different stories and experiences to share but the underlying choice/choices we commonly make or have made often turns out to be very similar, or if not exactly the same.

295. I learnt to keep that appreciation to myself, and then over the years, I just didn’t bother to even have the appreciation in the first place.

296. This is very true and I really find great strengths in your words.

297. Your experience is remarkable and it is something so profound that a study should be done on your experience alone. The level of trust that you have felt and the level of surrender that you would have gone to is very much out of this world. Thank you so much for sharing your experience and I really do trust that your experience will one day be shared by all.

     1. I so agree Natasha, Chan should be studied, with all that she has felt, taken responsibility for and healed is truly inspiring and very much should be shared with all.

        1. A unique study on the Hows and Whys ~ how so much change has taken place and why is it that she felt such deep reassurance that she could surrender and let go.

        2. Thank you Natasha and Raegan. I often ask myself the ‘Hows and Whys’ too. By appreciating how far I have come, appreciating the tools I have discovered through Universal Medicine, how they have inspired and assisted me to truly heal and that another part of this healing process is for me is to share with others about my discovery and my experience. To tell the world about the amazing, powerful, deeply supportive and loving journey with myself and Universal Medicine.

298. Sometimes, Brendan, when those imperfections niggle me, I stop and feel, reconnect. And those imperfections are a lesson to me, of my own imperfections, the work to be done, the appreciation of the connections we share. Then those imperfections really do become insignificant, and there is only love.

     1. Awesome comments, appreciation opens our heart and eyes to truly see and accept ourselves and each other regardless of our imperfections.

299. beautyful Brendan and very true, when we see another for what we appreciate first and formats all else becomes insignificant, Something that goes for ourselves too and great to regularly be reminded of.

     1. I absolutely agree Brendan and Carolien, appreciation opens our heart. In that moment we open ourselves to see a larger picture and can bring much more understanding to ourselves and others.

300. The more we express the joy and love that deep inside we all are, the simpler our lives will become. Suddenly it is not living up to something, but just being who we already are.

     1. Yes Michael, I totally agree with you, the more we express this love and joy inside through simplicity of our being, the more we become who we truly already are.

     2. The simplicity of what you have shared Michael is sublime.

301. Gorgeous tale of restoring trust. love and joy! I remember your joy in that course Chan and it was divine!

     1. I was also there Chan. You are clearly a very sincere and joyful person.

302. Choosing to love again and to not ‘hold back’; that I feel is the key to opening so many doors to allow that flow of love to emanate and to continue expanding.

303. “To choose to love again” those words resonated deeply within me this morning. Understanding now it is about the choices we make and taking responsibility for those choices. Holding back in our expression is another avenue that I walked down many times but in doing so has left me feeling detached from all those around me, adding more layers (of self protection, contraction) to cover that deep love that lies ever pulsing within. I too am constantly thanking God with appreciation for constellating me to have found Universal Medicine, and the amazing workshops/presentations with Serge Benhayon. Chan Ly thank you for this awesome sharing.

304. This blog is profoundly moving Chan Ly. The simplicity and truth of the final paragraph has brought a feeling of expansion in my body from just reading it. Thank you.
     “I know that whenever I feel disconnected I can choose to re-connect to love and to connect to God in an instant. In knowing that He is in me, all round me in every moment, always beside me and in every part of me and in absolutely everything, I can then choose to not hold back my joy but to fully express it with every part of my being, to celebrate brotherhood and return to God”.

     1. I agree Stephanie, It is always a choice in every instant whether we choose connection with ourselves and with God and all that is, or whether we choose the disconnection of the individual self. And the more we appreciate and embrace who we are as part of the All, the more expanded and profound that connection will be there for us to connect.

     2. Awesome Stephanie, thank you for sharing your experience. It’s amazing to feel the expansion in our body, a feeling so natural to us.

305. Chan these are two key things that I have been working on – Trust and Appreciation. Trusting and Appreciating that I am enough but more than this that I am Everything that I will ever need to be and knowing this as an absolute truth. In my head I can doubt this but when I come back to my body and connect to my inner heart there is doubting to be had, I feel the absoluteness of this Everything and I feel amazing.

     1. Very gorgeous Natalie, trust and appreciation like everything else, there is always more and more to allow us to go deeper and deeper and allow ourselves to expand with it.

     2. Appreciation leaves no room for self-doubt and what you share Natalie is awesome, how our minds can work against us whereas when we connect to our body it only ever supports us to connect to our inner heart and to truth.

306. I have found it very very difficult to come with reasons to appreciate myself. I think it’s like the phrase, ‘Use it, or lose it’. If I don’t appreciate, then I lose the ability to appreciate. It’s never fully gone though, just needs a firefighter to help get the fire going.

     1. This is so true Suzanne, appreciation is always within us. The more we appreciate ourselves the more we appreciate everything else around us. Appreciation is certainly very powerful and deeply confirming.

     2. I love the honesty here Suzanne. I too have found it very, very difficult to appreciate myself. I go through phases of appreciating myself but often there is very little substance and can easily give up. My feeling is that I am to commit to this first step and the depth of the appreciation in time will come; it is about commitment.

        1. Yes, this is an area I am choosing to commit to, appreciation, it is also an area I have struggled with and have likewise gone through phases of appreciating and then stopping. Understanding more and more the value of appreciating will, I feel, help me build a stronger foundation of this. Thank you for sharing this beautiful blog with us Chan Ly.

307. Thank you Chan, how beautiful to feel your love and joy.

308. Thank you Ariana for raising these very important questions. I feel that so many of us have chosen to forget who we are, what true love is and how to live it for thousands and thousands of years. We are still living the consequences of this choice. We’ve chosen to accept a lesser way of living that has created the disharmony we are faced with now. We have chosen to live in a loveless way which has created what seems like a loveless world but love has never left us, it’s constantly around us, we just didn’t choose to see it before until now. The world is not loveless, it is what many of us have chosen to see and take on that is loveless. So many people are beginning to wake up to the love that continuously surrounds us and is within all. We have been reminded that we have a choice to choose to live and express love again. One by one we will inspire and remind each other who we are and why we are here, to express love in a world that is actually full of love and is accessible to everyone in an instance as it is in us all. We are presented and inspired to return to love through the teachings of Universal Medicine and The Way of The Livingness. We have also been shown in the past how to return to love and restore harmony but we just didn’t choose it. Now, we have access to these tools again to return to truth, love and harmony.

309. “I know that whenever I feel disconnected I can choose to re-connect to love and to connect to God in an instant.” Chan, this is one of the greatest realisations we can have. Choosing to re-connect to love and God is free, requires no props and can be done in any situation at any time. All it takes is a simple choice.

     1. Beautiful Anne, requiring no props, I love this. God is within us, so we do not need anything or anyone to make that choice – we simply choose it.

     2. Very true, thank you for rephrasing this Anne. Being with God does not require anything from the outside, just a simple choice will do.

     3. ‘All it takes is a simple choice’, this is exactly it Anne and it is deeply empowering to know that we continuously have choices to connect or disconnect to Love and God.

        1. I agree Chan it is deeply empowering and strengthening to know that we continuously have the opportunity to connect or disconnect to Love and God. And the point about choosing continuously and not just one-off is a great one to make; we may have great moments but do we consider ourselves worth living with God everyday?

        2. ‘living with God everyday’ – when we put it like this it becomes huge but very natural and real. Thank you Fiona and Chan.

     4. So true Anne. It is as simple (and sometimes difficult) as choosing to connect or reconnect to the love that we are.

        1. Great comment Lee, it highlights the fact we are the ones that makes this choice a difficult one because in truth it is very simple.

310. “What really hurt deep was not what was physically done to me but seeing clearly that the people who chose to abuse me were simply very hurt and choosing to vent it out on others. ” this is great what you share, when we can see beyond ourselves, it does become clear that those that abuse others are usually very hurt themselves and don’t know how to be as the pain is too deep. When people start to connect to their essence of love which helps them heal these hurts, they themselves will not abuse another as they will start to connect to the love within them, which is equally in everyone.

     1. Thank you Amita, love is indeed equally in us all. When we fully accept and appreciate this fact, it brings clarity to everything that appears before us.

311. Chan re-reading your article this morning really highlights the fact that we are each an equal part of God. You have shared your experience of the Oneness of God and that is powerful beyond measure. And yes you have been guided back by Universal Medicine but take the time to fully appreciate the fact that it is you that has taken the steps.

     1. Thank you Alexis for your beautiful reminder. I do sometimes forget to take a moment to fully appreciate my every step.

312. When we react to another reflecting something powerful and true the door to jealousy is left wide open.

     1. And Jealousy is the energy behind all abusive behaviours and appreciation counteracts jealousy. Thank you Victoria.

313. It’s amazing how our light can so upset others. But when you consider they are simply feeling the pain of being less than the light they truly are it makes sense.

314. Very beautiful to feel how you came back to yourself Chan, gorgeous appreciation.

315. Yes I agree it is quite staggering how we can feel like we have an issue that noone else must have, yet when we open up many more have the same thoughts, and all to keep ourself feeling bad. It seems like it is a clever way to keep ourselves individual, small and feeling safe in the world. Of course everyone loses out because we miss the amazingness we all really are. I find it makes a big difference when I can appreciate and value all I and everyone bring and express this to myself and with others.

316. Thanks Chan Ly for a very inspiring and heart felt article . The abuse you and many people have suffered through the years is a sad fact of where we have been as a humanity . I particularly liked this line quoted “From about 7 years old I decided that this was the safest way to function through life – to not be too joyful in case I get attacked. This was my false sense of security and investment to make life about keeping me safe. ” what an amazing transformation to allow the love in and out by the conscious choice of trust and appreciation .

     1. Thank you Greg. I have found what is deeply healing is to be open and honest about abuse. It is rife in our society, it comes in many forms. What I have truly found to be the antidote and preventative for any form of abuse is by choosing to live in truth and love, to freely express appreciation and allow ourselves to trust.

317. Yes, Chan Ly, I can relate to the feeling that ‘I simply didn’t feel safe to be shining with joy and love, so I deliberately chose to tone it down’. With the love and self acceptance I have now found I can see how I too made myself small, and how dishonouring this was both for me and for everyone else. It is only when we all come together and claim our power and our essence that we can change the world around us to a way of living that enhances and expands us all.

     1. Every Universal Medicine course I have been to has encouraged me to shine with joy and love, no matter what. And I agree Susan, for the world to change, we need every one of us to claim our power, our own strengths and live them outwardly, no hesitating.

        1. As I approach another season of courses in the UK I love what you say – ‘Every Universal Medicine course I have been to has encouraged me to shine with joy and love, no matter what’ and this is so true – as we allow and confirm ourselves in an environment of love and support we are more open and surrendered to the love of the all that is forever present in our lives.

     2. Thank you Susan Lee, it is inspiring to read. We are truly blessed as more and more people to come together to claim their power and essence, to fully live expressing truth and love again.

318. A pretty astounding advert for Sacred Esoteric Healing Level 5! Thank you.

     The word protection now makes me giggle as I have come to realise the ridiculous-ness of how I have used it to do the opposite. For a multitude of reasons I built myself a protective fortress in which to manage life, keeping everyone and everything at arms length – then I couldn’t get hurt, right? WRONG…in closing myself away I was reducing the protection, so to speak. As I have emerged back into the world, arms opening wider to all that life is, I am feeling the true ‘protection’ of God. It is in openness that I am taken care of, not when I am inaccessibly cowering in the shadows.

     1. I can relate to this matildaclark – the protective massive fortress constructed by myself and the illusion of being safe and protected. All it did was deepen my sense of separation and isolation from myself and others – a hugely painful experience. I am enjoying letting the walls crumble away and enjoying opening my arms wider to let others in and share more of the deep and infinite love that I am with all.
        “I am feeling the true ‘protection’ of God. It is in openness that I am taken care of, not when I am inaccessibly cowering in the shadows.”

     2. It has been incredible for me too, to realise that the best form of protection is love, trust, openness, appreciation and my connection to God. Thank you for sharing Matildaclark and for inspiring us.

319. Developing the understanding of my childhood hurts has allowed me to reconnect to all of me and bring me back to the world.

     1. Awesome Heidi, healing our childhood hurts is so freeing, an empowering process and creates more space for love to be express and to be deepened. It peels away our protection against others and opens our hearts to allow people in and embrace each other for who we are. My understanding is that when we choose to heal we allow others to also heal.

320. It’s beautiful to be in a room filled with people and able to feel the love and openness. It is very much like being home, and reminds me how we should be with others- without barriers.

     1. I am appreciating that if we can feel this way in a room full of people, open and loving, we can also feel this anywhere, if we so choose to connect in this way, like you so beautifully shared Emily, ‘without barriers.’

321. This blog to me is very beautiful because it brings to life the fact that God is in us all – a subject which I hold very dear.

322. This blog also becomes deeply personal for me as it supports me to move away from reaction in my own family which perpetuates the lovelessness that can rear its ugly head. I can be the rock of support to provide the trust you speak of to allow others the space and trust to return and express the love they truly are and truly wish to be.

     1. This is awesome Gina, trust is massive. I realised that I used to react in certain family, friends or work situations because I had an expectation for them to be a certain way. Letting go of expectations is a great support for me to not react but to stay steady, open and loving.

        1. So true Chan. Only just this weekend I set myself up with a picture of how a particular event was going to pan out. I saw it for what it was instantly which stopped me from going into a reaction and wrecking the whole thing!! How amazing we can now do this Chan?!

323. Thank you Chan. I also feel what it is like to be connected to people again from attending workshops, courses and healing sessions with Universal Medicine. I have begun to feel a sense of family with people and community, something deeply healing.

     1. It is deeply healing to come together like this to support each other to heal. One of the most amazing, loving and supportive things we can choose for ourselves and for others.

324. How beautiful you came to this understanding Chan: “…the people who chose to abuse me were simply very hurt and choosing to vent it out on others. The sadness for me was seeing that they chose to suppress love in order to attack and defend.” If only humanity had this understanding we would evolve back to love almost instantly – supporting each other to heal our hurts instead of reacting and causing loveless relationships, separation and wars.

325. This is a true celebration and appreciation of what occurs when we embrace our natural yearning to express with love. It is a truly inspiring blog which I will embrace reading many more times as it confirms for me my experience of returning to love and knowing I am of and with God all the time and to support and remind me to never waiver from living out this joy each and every moment. Thank you so much Chan. x

     1. I too often reflect back to this experience to remind me of our connection as ONE, and to appreciate the grandness and love we are constantly submerged in. I find it is the way I choose to live that brings me to deepen my connection with myself, with people and with God. Reading yours and everyone’s comments inspires me to continuously deepen my connection and to make loving choices that support me to live in joy. Thank you Gina.

        1. Awesome Chan. And your comment has inspired me to appreciate the choice we have made to engage with each other and come to these blogs and this work – this is to be celebrated as we are choosing to be inspired by each other. So different to being in comparison with each other which was a previous norm’ for me.

326. Chan you have taken amazing steps to heal old hurts in your life and move forward in your life. When we truly appreciate and love ourselves it is possible to feel this with others and deepen all our relationships. What you share is beautiful Chan and is deeply inspiring for many others.

     1. Thank you Anna. I have found learning to appreciate has opened up my heart even more. It is an amazing learning and feeling to embrace.

327. Chan thank you for your lovely sharing, you have shown us that no matter what sufferings we have endured in life we have a choice to not identify with those hurts and instead choose to connect to the stillness within us where the alchemy of love is possible no matter what.

     1. Yes I agree Chan and Francisco. Unimedpedia Essence http://www.unimedliving.com/unimedpedia/word-index/unimedpedia-essence.html brings a greater understanding to this, and the third three audio: “Our essence is not touched by ordeals” provides a beautiful understanding as to how our true essence is always pure and never touched by even the worst imaginable abuse and ordeals, as Chan has so courageously and lovingly demonstrated.

        1. Thank you for mentioning Unimedpedia Nicola. It is the most amazing resource for the true meanings of words and exposes how words have been so messed about over time and bastardised far, far away from their origins.

        2. Thank you Nicola, I read your comment and checked out the link you shared to find the audio on our ‘true essence’. I found it extremely supportive to listen to them, deeply confirming and inspiring.

     2. Thank you Francisco. I love your comment, it highlights the fact that our hurts are not who we are, we can choose to heal them to allow love to be fully expressed and lived. I totally agree and would like to emphasise that we certainly do have a choice.

     3. Beautifully expressed Francisco. More and more I realize, how often I’m identified with something – it could be thoughts, emotions, physical pain, my victim role, my hurts, my job, and so on. In these moments it is very important for me, to stop the momentum I’m in – to reconnect to my innermost and let go of everything I’m not.

328. We can connect to our soul and God at any moment it is simply a choice of saying yes and accepting the love that we are.

329. I have often heard how many people have a personality trait or behaviours that only their immediate family know about. These are kept hidden away, but in truth, this is exactly where healing in needed and it is up to those closest, who do the protecting to address these hidden and secret ways.

     1. This is so true Matthew. It is when we become honest and willing to heal our hurts that these secret unloving behaviours can change and no longer become part of our expression. I had a few of those secret loveless behaviours that only appeared around my immediate family. I thought they were impossible to get rid of but they natural fell away when I started choosing to self-love, self-care and take responsibility for my every thought, action and expression. It is through the loving support and continuous inspiration from everyone at Universal Medicine that this change was possible.

330. Hi Chan, I found it hard to read this through all the tears in my eyes. I know you personally and you are one of the smartest, most courageous, generous, joyful and beautiful people I know. How devastating that we live in a world where people are so hurt that they will do anything to destroy that reflection. Thank you so much for continuing to shine and bless us all.

     1. A beautiful tribute to the gorgeous power and responsibility of relationship and how the shining that one does supports and loves another.

     2. Thank you Nicola. I feel your love and deep appreciation in every part of me as I was reading your gorgeous comment. Your words deeply emanate love, openness and appreciation through and through. I feel truly blessed to receive your loving light.

331. Withdrawing and holding back will never be the protection we so long for. In fact it will leave us exhausted from being constantly on guard, feeling lonely and sad. Once we allow ourselves to be seen as who we really are with all our vulnerability, we will realise that there is no need for protection if only we lovingly care for ourselves and walk through life being who we truly are.

     1. Awesome Michael for highlighting this. We realise how crazy it is when we step out of this false protection to truly see that love is our best form of protection and if we live fully embracing love and truth there is no need for any protection what so ever. It is that powerful, simple, we can choose to live it and to be who we truly are.

332. Thank you Chan for sharing your experiences, and having attended quite a few of the Universal Medicine courses myself, I also came to the understanding that we are walking around protecting our hurts in order to not get hurt anymore, at any cost. In the beginning it felt like things would never change and that it would be too difficult to drop the negative behaviours and that there was something terribly wrong with me, but I now know that that is so far from the truth and that change is just a choice away, but making that choice over and over until the old way breaks it’s hold and if it creeps back in, its easier to spot.
     You and many others are living examples that our hurts do not have to govern our life and that we can live as carefree as children within an adult body.

     1. Great comment Julie, it brings back memories of how I was feeling prior to attending Universal Medicine. Feeling that it was all too difficult and almost impossible to change my old loveless patterns and behaviours. By choosing to make more loving choices, it naturally changed everything and the loveless patterns and behaviours started to drop away. Also like what you’ve shared Julie ‘if it creeps back in, it’s easier to spot.’ This is so true. Thank you for sharing and brilliantly expressed.

333. So often we condense the love that we naturally are, yet seek love with another from this condensed space. The two cannot join. We hold back the one thing we search all our lives for. How can we express love to another if we do not share and live with it in ourselves.

     1. We hold back the one thing that we search all our lives for. This had been the case for me before I came to Universal Medicine. No more holding back for me.

     2. This is so true Gail and it was through attending Universal Medicine presentations and workshop that I am inspired and learning to express and live love to its fullest to the best of my ability. Beautiful realisation that in order for me to fully love others I must first learn to love myself again.

334. It is just a choice, to let our love be, or not….it can be made in any moment.

     1. A beautiful and simple reminder Lisa. Thank you.

335. This is very beautiful Chan what you share here and expressing so openly the love that you felt and feel now within yourself and all around by simply connecting to you

336. The investment in living a life of being shut down is a constant drain on our wellbeing and vitality. When I appreciate and confirm the love, it fills every cell in my body. It all comes down to a choice. Your blog is very confirming, thank you Chan.

     1. Thank you Mathew. I totally agree, it all comes down to choice, for us to choose love or not. So simple, we can choose love anytime, anywhere, it is always present, available and accessible. Pretty incredible the power of love is everywhere and in us all.

337. Dear Chan Ly, thank you for sharing your experience of Universal Medicine and of Level 5 we were privileged to be a part of this year. I love how you expressed and claimed your feeling and knowing that you were home, with your true family now. I totally feel that too, even though I don’t know everybody who chooses to attend Universal Medicine events; we have so much that connects us; as we do with everybody on this planet. It’s just lovely to meet somebody who is also choosing to be aware of this fact.

     1. Thank you Esther, it was absolutely amazing to finally feel the true meaning of family, and to feel absolute trust and love again.

338. I can relate so well to this. The pattern of making myself small and invisible behind a facade that I deemed a safe protection was with me until I encountered Universal Medicine and with it allowed myself to let out who I really am step by step.

     1. Thank you Michael, so beautiful to read and more and more people are also choosing to do the same. To step out of their protection and to express and live who they truly are. Amazing to appreciate and celebrate what Universal Medicine offers to humanity, true love and support all the way for humanity.

339. Chan Ly, how beautiful to feel and experience your connection with the all. I have experienced similar moments where my being gets to feel the interconnectedness of the energy fields beyond our physical awareness and how this field has a oneness that allows me to feel what true family really is and the love and support that holds this energy field. I become one with this field as you did.

     1. It was an incredible experience and what’s even more incredible is that we can all connect with each other in this way. Your beautiful sharing Elizabeth shows that more and more of us are experiencing this interconnectedness and oneness, our natural way of being. Our true family is huge, it is all of humanity and this is also an incredible realisation. We definitely have a massive amount of love and support energetically than ever before to connect together as ONE.

340. In the last 10 years that I have been attending Universal Medicine courses I have experienced and witnessed amazing awakening’s. The silly things people and myself that have held onto as beliefs, long held hurts, lack of confidences. The list goes on and on for reasons we have held ourselves back from who we truly are. It is always been a safe place to restore the love that we all are and to build the confidence to show the world the love we have always be.

341. I feel such absolutely joy when I read of an experience such as this “For the first time in my life I felt completely safe to truly allow my love and joy to shine, to be who I am and to not hold back expressing the joy I felt.” I can feel how although amazing and super lovely it is for one, the reconnection with trust, love and expression always supports the all. It confirms that the only way is for us to support one another to shine and express. Thank you.

     1. It is a true healing to allow ourselves the freedom to be/express the truth of our being.

     2. Yes I too felt absolute joy and such appreciation for Chan Ly and all involved in Universal Medicine. They are providing tools for such unlocking of so so so many suits of armour and so so so many people are learning to trust and be their open loving joyful selves again. It makes me want to dance. It is the way forward. And one that is so needed.

     3. Thank you Davidsonsamantha. It is inspiring and very supportive for us to trust and express love more and more. It’s incredible how connected we are with each other.

342. I feel that when we’re able to be aware enough to write something like this, the depth of understanding required for big healing is present: “What really hurt deep was not what was physically done to me but seeing clearly that the people who chose to abuse me were simply very hurt and choosing to vent it out on others. The sadness for me was seeing that they chose to suppress love in order to attack and defend.”

     1. Well said Oliver, this level of understanding shows an awareness of humanity and where we all are and how we all behave as a part of it. Amazing to be able to share this understanding. Very healing for all.

     2. Yes I agree Oliver. As Chan has shared with us atrocities were committed against her by the very people who were supposed to love, protect and care for her. There are few words that can describe how devastating this is for a child (or anyone) on many levels including witnessing the hurt and disconnection in those that allows this kind of energy and behaviour to express through them. It takes immense courage, love and awareness to let all that go and fully heal as Chan has. Chan has not only healed herself but has offered a healing to those who abused her and also made it that one step easier for others in this position to heal themselves.

     3. Very true Oliver, the depth of understanding presented here is what has allowed the healing, for without understanding we carry judgement and blame and if that is held onto there can be no healing.

     4. I feel healing already begins when we are ready to look at addressing our hurts without judgement or blame. To be completely open and honest with ourselves enables us to dip deep and release the layers of hurts that weighs us down and stops us from fully expressing love.

343. There is a clear difference between security and joy. I used to believe I preferred the former over the latter. That was until I was reacquainted with true joy and now I know what a self made prison security can be. I have not let go of security yet by any means but it is no longer my preferred way of living.

     1. Thank you andrewmooney26 for your awesome and honest comment. I can so relate to it, having now experienced true joy, I know I can choose it again, and to live and express joy as much as possible everyday. This is the most amazing gift for myself and for others is to simply be more and more joyful.

344. Appreciation is very powerful…when I truly appreciate myself there is an instant joy that is there to share with everyone and all nature around me.

     1. Beautifully expressed Paula, so, so true and we can all feel this.

345. Appreciation is a beautiful aspect of life to live and is something that is just as important to helping us evolve as Love, Truth and anything else that pulls us up to be more of who we truly are. It is like we can be living with everything we have ever truly needed but without appreciation we do not truly let ourselves surrender and feel the absolute potential and love that having these things in our life is offering us.

     1. Beautifully said, Joshua. With appreciation we can surrender to the bigger picture and know that love takes care of everything if we allow it.

        1. Who would have ever thought that something so simple as appreciation can also be equally so powerful?

     2. Awesome comment Joshua, thank you. I agree, the power of appreciation is vast, yet we sometime forget it’s available for us to access if we so choose. I find the more I appreciate the more there is to appreciate, it just keeps expanding and very beautiful to feel.

        1. It has a power we often do not even recognise and fully embrace. After all how can we embrace a fully joyful and loving life if we are not appreciating in full what we have got?

346. I agree Ariana, the world is full of distractions enticing us to not live in truth and love. It’s so empowering to know that everything in our life is a result of our choices, it doesn’t just happen to us.

347. The realisation that life is not just about oneself is huge. I am gradually accepting more of this true reality as what life actually is, and it’s making my scope of what I thought was ‘life’ to be much bigger than I had ever imagined. Universal, in fact. The fact that we are here with everyone that is here makes it glaringly obvious that it’s about us all, but we have created ways of thinking to ignore the all and live individually. It’s deep in our consciousness, but even deeper is the truth we will all one day claim again.

     1. I agree Jinya, ‘life’ is so much more expansive when we realise it’s about all of us and not just ourselves. This explains to me who we are and where we come from. These are some of the most common questions we ask ourselves and the answers are right in front of us, within us and all around us. Amazing!

348. Hi Chan, I was there for the first Level 5 too. It was outstanding to feel what it was like to fully trust. It was an amazing honorable experience to practice this modality. It felt like I have been waiting for this all my life. It confirmed in me my knowing what is true and what is not true.

     1. Yes I agree Rik, truly astounding. being able to trust others to that extent felt like strangers you hardly knew could have been with you from birth and known for a lifetime. Like brothers.

     2. Thank you Rik, I felt the same too. The power of trust was incredible, experiencing opening my heart to everyone was absolutely magical. The thing is, once we experience true love and joy it seems crazy to ever want to not trust or choose to close our hearts again, but crazy as it seems it can happen if we do not continuously choose to trust, appreciate and express fully who we are.

349. “I felt deeply connected to me, to my body, to everyone, everything and to God. The love I felt for humanity was so absolute, so full and expanded. There are no words to capture what I had experienced, simply deep appreciation for everyone.” This is gorgeous Chan. Appreciation is super important – for ourselves and for everyone. We do not know the paths others have trod to reach the point they are at, so there is no place for judgement – of ourselves or another. Deeply connecting – the key, yes.

     1. Beautiful sueq2012, amazing isn’t it? Appreciation, so simple yet so powerful, it leaves no room for jealousy or judgement.

350. ‘ I realised that the people I loved dearly have been the ones who attacked me the most.’ This is probably true for most people. When we stop and consider this statement is really makes one ponder what a crazy upside we live in for this to be happening.

351. I agree Chan if we are not feeling love and appreciation for and with self and all others then we are checked out, as this is our natural state of being when we are in our bodies and anything less is not to be accepted.

     1. As you say marylouisemyers, it is our natural state of being to feel love and appreciation for and with self and all others. It is certainly time this is reflected back to Humanity as we are all living far from our natural state.

        1. ‘Our natural state’ while it has been a while for some beings, is very much as you described Katinka. No doubt that every single on of us knows it well too, sometimes we just need a little inspiration to live it again.

        2. I am truly grateful that I have met people who inspire me and reflect to me this natural state.

     2. So true Marylouisemyers, by realising that anything less than love is a form of abuse is empowering because by being more aware and fully understand this fact, then we can stand up to what is not acceptable (to any form of abuse).

352. Beautiful Chan Ly I love your expressing way ” Now that I have experienced what true connection to everyone and everything is, I know that whenever I feel disconnected I can choose to re-connect to love and to connect to God in an instant. In knowing that He is in me, all round me in every moment, always beside me and in every part of me and in absolutely everything, I can then choose to not hold back my joy but to fully express it with every part of my being, to celebrate brotherhood and return to God. This is in Essence what Universal Medicine its courses and way the way of the livingness is allowing us all to feel and know again.

     1. It was amazing to have experienced this and I love the fact that the opportunity to just keep expanding is always available. All the courses offered by Universal Medicine lovingly support us in every step of the way, for forever evolving together as the love of God is endless.

353. WOW Thank you Chan, your whole blog is golden but this sentence I love, it is so powerful ” I know that whenever I feel disconnected I can choose to re-connect to love and to connect to God in an instant. In knowing that He is in me, all round me in every moment, always beside me and in every part of me and in absolutely everything,”.

     1. “I can choose to re-connect to love and to God in an instant”. This has been one of the greatest revelations for me over the last years. No hard work or doing penance for what I have chosen, just coming back to love.

        1. I agree Samantha and Katinka, this has been a great revelation for me too. That no matter what has gone before, I am only ever one choice, one moment away from re-connecting to my soul, to God and to love.

        2. Yes Katinka, this is truly revolutionary and so simple; we just need to choose to come back to love, to what we have separated from a long time ago. No need for complication – or a journey to wherever. The love is always within us, waiting for us to turn in and to re-connect to ourselves.

     2. That is an awesome bit. Thank you for highlighting it Samantha. It’s such a great point that we can connect to God in an instant. And how could we not? Everything we see, hear and feel is apart of him.

     3. Thank you Samanthaengland. When I go for walks or have a moment to stop and appreciate where I am, this part often comes up for me as a reminder to reconnect to God.

        1. Awesome Chan walking is a great way to expand our appreciation I find when I start to truly appreciate I am then in natural communication with God.

354. “What really hurt deep was not what was physically done to me but seeing clearly that the people who chose to abuse me were simply very hurt and choosing to vent it out on others”. I have realised that what I have not healed within myself, these hurts have unintentionally have been taken out on others. This realisation has led me to be much more aware of the absolute responsibility required and for when I come across a hurt to work with it until it is healed as it is not only harming myself but others too.

     1. By holding onto our hurts it creates a viscous cycle of more hurts. I realised by choosing to heal our hurts as they appear, releasing them one by one is healing for us and for others, it is an awesome feeling. In my experience, each time I release a layer of hurts, it leaves me feeling so much lighter, more clarity, more expansive and creating space to feel and express more love. From this, I am then able to heal new hurts much faster, by allowing myself to feel it, recognise the hurt, understand where it is coming from and let it go.

355. Chan your blog is so beautiful and what you have shared is very inspirational for so many. A true home coming.

356. Thank you for sharing Chan Ly, I can tell you have a deep love for humanity. It is very healing to not take the abuse as personal but the understanding that they themselves are very hurt. Seeing other people make those choices is indeed very sad but we must not absorb the sadness, us being connected to our divine origins is all that is required.

     1. Thank you Bernard, for your loving and supportive reminder. I am learning to observe and not to absorb. This becomes easier as I connect more and more to my essence and by choosing to continuously refine my choices everyday to develop my awareness and live lovingly.

357. Wow, that really is worth celebrating, Chan! So many people are searching for love and yet it is in us and all around us all of the time, just waiting to be connected to.

358. There is not enough appreciation in the world for each other, or for who we are.

     1. I so agree with you Adam, the difference it has made since I put myself on an appreciation program is huge and the more I appreciate myself, the more I appreciate every-one in my life. We have so much to appreciate about ourself and others. It is so, so silly and deeply harmful how we often spend more time on critiquing and judging ourselves and others.

        1. Good reminder thanks marylouisemyers – I had slipped off that program and will put myself back on.

     2. Yes I’d have to agree Adam. It seems like we are all to busy to stop and fully see how amazing everyone around us is. Simply because we are unable to do this for ourselves first.

     3. I agree Adam, we can feel this and we have the power to change it by continuously appreciating ourselves in every moment. This expands us to naturally appreciating others creating a rippling effect out to humanity.

359. Absolutely Ariana, we have settled for so much less for ourselves, not being the love and tenderness and heaven sent beings we are, we then tolerate all the abuse and un-loving ways in society, for which we have a personal responsibility and accountability.

360. To feel comfortable in a room full of people when you only know a small percentage of them is an amazing thing for me. I used to attend workshops and feel very awkward at first. Now I can easily enter a room full of strangers and feel at ease. This is because I feel more at ease with myself, and this has only come about as a result of implementing the simple teachings of the ageless wisdom as presented by Universal Medicine. Embracing who you are in full means ultimately embracing everyone, for we are all equal. That’s how it works. Simple and beautiful.

     1. Awesomely put Debra. I have found the same thing. Now I feel comfortable in a room full or people whereas before I would have been heaps uncomfortable. The ageless wisdom teachings bring about an amazing change. Loved this part “Embracing who you are in full means ultimately embracing everyone, for we are all equal. “

     2. I relate well too, feeling uncomfortable in a room of strangers. But I know that the more I know who I am, the more love and appreciation I have for myself, the more relaxed and easy I feel around everybody. It’s like I have no need to impress, and I’m not waiting for them to say anything to me as I know I’m enough no matter what. Embracing myself first is how it works 🙂

     3. Thank you Debra, I love your openness and honest sharing. It’s an awesome reminder that how we feel towards others is how we feel about ourselves. I love this part ‘Embracing who you are in full means ultimately embracing everyone, for we are all equal.’ Absolutely.

361. Walking through the raw wilderness of our childhood hurts, we need connection to our bodies and a deep love and appreciation of ourselves, and a willingness to be held in Gods love, all which make this return to the love we are possible.

     1. Beautiful Thomas. Thank you for expressing this. Allowing appreciation and love towards ourselves and a surrender to be held in this love is very true.

     2. Beautifully expressed Thomas. I love what you’ve shared and deeply inspiring. Thank You!

362. The expansion I felt in you expressing in your blog is very inspiring Chan, the way you share your Joy, love and connection to God is beauty-full, it helps me realize that whenever I’m feeling contracted and protected, I have a choice to choose love and expression.

     1. Wow, beautiful, Thomas, and I have experienced this clearly this week; I felt contracted and then chose to express what was going on for me, and this helped me to come out of it, and to start taking more responsibility, and to re-connect, to me and the others around me.

     2. Thank you Thomas, I am sitting here taking a moment and appreciating your appreciation. Very gorgeous to feel.

363. Appreciation of myself very quickly leads to appreciation of others. It is more powerful than I would have ever given it credit for.

     1. I agree Vicky, appreciation is indeed very powerful and has proven to me time and time again that it is worth paying attention to, as issues are not able to hang around and play havoc with us if we appreciate ourselves, which then like you say ‘quickly leads to appreciation of others’. I especially love how it is the total opposite to any negative thoughts we may have about ourselves or others, and takes away the power of a negative emotion.

        1. Yes Julie, if we are appreciating ourselves there is no room for negative thoughts. What a simple remedy to a world wide plague.

        2. Beautifully said Julie. Thank you for the reminder.

        3. Your comment Julie, is totally appropriate for me this morning, having just seen an article on how even beautiful, famous and adored women change their skin colour and appearance. Appreciation of who we are is so important, when we feel that, and celebrate it, we have no need to change how we look.

        4. Thank you Julie, with appreciation in our lives we are able to celebrate the beautiful variety of humanity in all its expression

     2. Yes Vicky I agree, a little appreciation goes a long way, and how powerful would it be if this was something children were taught day one? The world would be a different and much more loving place for sure.

        1. Absolutely Janet. It is sad to see a vibrant child who is blind to the absolute gift that they are.

     3. That is very true Vicky, my experience is also that appreciating myself opens my heart to all around me.

        1. I too will testify here. A group consensus and perhaps a lengthy study (phD) needs to be done on the power of appreciation.

     4. I totally agree Vicky. All my life I have focused on the negative as a way of dealing with issues so when I was introduced to the power of appreciation I was very resistant and thought it a lot of make believe – the looking into the mirror and saying I’m beautiful until I believed it technique.

        But appreciation is way beyond that. It’s not a pretence but an honesty. I have looked in the mirror and been honest about actually feelings of self hatred, which quickly led to feeling a genuine sadness for being so hard on myself to feeling if I don’t love myself then how do I expect others to? To feeling how delicate and tender I feel inside -even if when I looked in the mirror, I still didn’t see what I felt inside matching the picture I thought I should be seeing. I am beginning to feel a very real appreciation of myself. All baby steps but what I get is just how real and powerful appreciation is. If I appreciate myself, I’m no longer looking to others to be appreciated which leaves me full to appreciate others.

        Such a deceit in itself and an effective way to cripple any appreciation for the beauty that is all around us because we’re too busy trying to attain the perfect picture of how things should be according to a picture that doesn’t come from our inner most.

        1. Karin, it was great to read the difference you found between the honest appreciation you have been finding in yourself and the ‘fake it until you make it’ technique. Appreciation is linked to acceptance and when I feel this, I become so much more loving and tender with myself. It’s like I drop the perfection and the false front we all seem to put on and just say its ok, I’m ok right now. Yes there is stuff to work on but there is a whole lot of stuff just waiting to be seen and appreciated.

     5. Appreciation of myself comes with having more love for myself, and this comes with making self-loving choices, honouring me for who I am and not indulging in negative emotions anymore. It is then that I start to truly feel appreciation for myself, allowing myself to be, without judgement, and to stop being hard on myself. The more love I feel for myself the more adoration I have for others, everything I do in life then becomes wonder-full and there is no room for self-doubt or misery. Loving and appreciating ourselves is truly powerful, and I love the fact that I can appreciate myself for appreciating myself, and this I can give myself credit for!

        1. I learn more and more how deep appreciation can be felt in my body when it is coming from a place of truth.

        2. Awesome to read your comment Sandrahenden, I agree, ‘Loving and appreciating ourselves is truly powerful’, and this opens our hearts to truly see others and allows us to appreciate people for who they are too.

     6. This is a great reminder that I can come back to me through appreciation of me.

     7. This feels so true Vicky and as I have been reminded recently by a wise man (thank you Adam) – appreciation is so closely linked with acceptance – in accepting ourselves we are able to further accept others as we come to understand that deep inside we are all the same.

     8. I have found that too Vicky, the more I can notice and appreciate qualities of my own, I am am able to see and appreciate them in others. That’s why having a great relationship with yourself is key.

     9. I would hear growing up, ‘Aww, you’ve got tickets on yourself’ and ‘You’re so up yourself’ if I ever expressed any joy about myself. This shuts you down pretty quick, I learnt to keep that appreciation to myself, and then over the years, I just didn’t bother to even have the appreciation in the first place. It was like not letting appreciation out stopped it from being made inside me. But now I have been given the opportunity, also through Serge Benhayon and the workshops I have attended, rather the permission to appreciate myself again, the tap has been opened again, free to express first to myself then outwardly about myself. Appreciation is indeed far more potent than ever thought.

        1. So true Suzanne – appreciation is super powerful. Must be if sooo much effort is put towards us holding the belief that it is less than desirable to totally love yourself! However did we come to believe that you couldn’t be humble and love yourself at the same time?

        2. This is an evolutionary key you have detailed here Helen . . .that you can ‘be humble and love yourself at the same time.’ What a beautiful truth. The ‘rah rah’ and ‘tickets on yourself’ accusations can either be the ‘clever’ force that likes to keep us down, or else it is an ‘identified’ kind of love full of individuated self. True love has no ‘tickets on itself’ – it just is.

     10. Awesome comment Vicky. I agree appreciation is extremely powerful, it leaves no room for jealousy, comparison or judgement. It allows us to hold everyone as equal, and feels very expansive, supportive and loving.

     11. And the same goes with love. The love that I bring to my self I automatically feel for another. So truly and lovingly being into oneself is the greatest gift for the world, as it is never selfish but encompasses all. To have learned to love myself has brought sense to and made it so very clear what it means to ‘love your neighbour as yourself’.

     12. Very true Vicky – it can’t work the other way round. Everything we need is within us and when we are connected to ourselves, we are also connected to life and other people. Our level of intimacy with ourselves determine the level of intimacy with others.

     13. I feel the power of appreciation is to be lived and experienced fully, simply by choice.

364. Thank you Chan, your blog reminded me of something Serge Behanyon shared at a workshop recently, ‘that our best form of protection is an open heart’. A person with a genuinely open heart loves everyone equally, has healed past hurts or at least working on them, and doesn’t accept any form of abuse. So from what I would have considered to be an idealistic statement in the past, is now something I am learning to apply in my life and the results are truly magical.

     1. Stevie, I recall Serge Benhayon sharing something like that in a workshop I attended too ‘that our best form of protection is an open heart’ and I was stopped in my tracks with that possibility. I had invested not only a lifetime of protecting against possible hurts from people, alternative medicine schools had taught protection methods to shield myself against harming energies from clients. All in all I had become equivalent to an armadillo! I have found that an ongoing commitment to heal our issues and opening our heart is well worth pursuing. It is quite sad how the lack of trust and appreciation affects relationships and most of us have only a handful of people we consider very close and dear to us and may be even holding them at an arms length, whilst we could have pretty much the whole of humanity as our closest and dearest.

     2. Thank you Stevie, this is so true ‘that our best form of protection is an open heart’. I love what you’ve shared and interesting to observe that most of us protect ourselves instead with hardness to shut people out. The more we can feel how powerful it is to keep our hearts open and apply this, we inspire others to open up too.

365. “My deliberate choice to not be too joyful in case something horrible might happen was a contracted way to live. I thought if I made myself small by holding myself back it would not attract too much attention, therefore, I felt safe. This was what I had chosen pretty much my whole life.“
     Chan reading your blog i can feel you speak for many of us. Many of of have traumatic experiences to different degrees and this had a huge effect on how we have chosen to live. Keeping ourselves small and choosing misery and struggle to avoid claiming the love we have been missing all along.

     1. Thank You Janina. The amazing thing is so many of us are realising we have a choice to no longer choose to play small but to claim the love we all are and choosing to live that in full. And the beauty here is that we are continuously inspiring each other and with technology, it is allowing us to connecting with people all over the globe. Spreading love and truth faster than ever before.

366. In years gone past I would feel reactive towards reading such statements about the absoluteness and love of God. Thank you Chan for your beautiful words and relationship with yourself, life and God. I actually feel these days I enjoy hearing and seeing the love of God in others and their purposefulness in wanting to rejoin with it in heaven.

367. ‘Each time I come away feeling clarity, love, purpose and truth, and feeling deeply supported.’ I can absolutely endorse this, any Universal Medicine event I have attended has brought more clarity and a deeper level of love and truth to my life.

     1. I am sure so many people all over the world who have attended Universal Medicine events feel the same. Nowhere else have I ever experienced this level of clarity, love and truth. Absolutely incredible!

368. The fact that we are all so deeply connected is so beautiful. It is asking for responsibility, from everyone. Where as everyone is also free to choose. Because everyone has to come to his or her own senses in relation to the responsibility we have. Everything I do emanates an energy, which I am responsible for. So am I adding True love to the world? Or not. Are my choices based on Love = all encompassing or are they based on my own needs? I am more and more honest about the fact that most of my choices have been purely based on my own needs. It feels really free and joyful whenever I make choices based on what I feel, rather than what I think. That this is the Truth and a possibility to live all day is something I trust now. Even though I still have got to learn a lot. Or should I say, Trust a lot…

     1. Beautiful, inspiring and thought provoking comment Floris. I too have so much to learn, I am a forever student of life, continuously learning to be open, trust, appreciate, love and to continuously say yes our natural evolution.

369. “I felt deeply connected to me, to my body, to everyone, everything and to God. The love I felt for humanity was so absolute, so full and expanded. There are no words to capture what I had experienced, simply deep appreciation for everyone.” Indeed Chan there are no words in heaven, only divine particles that are vibrating at one with each other.

     1. I love what you’ve shared, ‘there are no words in heaven, only divine particles that are vibrating at one with each other.’ Very beautiful, Thank You!

370. ‘Trust and Appreciation’ – two very important words. Thank you Chan, for giving us all an opportunity to celebrate the countless blessings we have in our lives, being a part of a community that lives true love, and guided back into God’s embrace by Serge Benhayon and his divine family.

     1. It is truly worth celebrating who we are, how far we’ve come and the constant love and blessing we are showered upon everyday.

371. Appreciating and Accepting who I am and simply how incredible I am is something that has not come easy in life. From not feeling I was enough as a child to then my whole life doing what I thought I needed to do to be accepted. Such a long old lonely life without me. Today after attending and being supported by Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon I have realised and can feel the enormous Love that I am, that I am a son of God and this is much much more than I will ever need to be, this is Everything. Accepting and Appreciating that God is my divine impulse and it is there 24/7 for me to connect and be with is growing and the more I allow and live this the more I know that I am EVERYTHING.

     1. This comment is written with beauty, simplicity, and truth, thank you Natalie. I love how you summed up doing what you thought you needed to do to be accepted: “Such a lonely old life without me.” I can tell you have moved on and left that completely behind.

     2. This is awesome Natalie, I love what you’ve shared. It reminds me that when we accept who we are, we no longer feel the need to seek acceptance from others. By accepting ourselves we feel we are already enough, already amazing, full and powerful. The most amazing part is accepting and appreciating that we are Love and we are all Sons of God.

372. What you have expressed in your blog Chan is so beautiful and I love the way in which you have appreciated, so deeply, your experiences.
     “The love I felt for humanity was so absolute, so full and expanded. There are no words to capture what I had experienced, simply deep appreciation for everyone”.

     1. Thank you Shirl. It feels amazing to deeply appreciate my experiences as it reminds me of who I am and who we all are. It reminds me that brotherhood is true and possible when we connect with true love, truth and joy, and choosing to live with an open heart. It also reminds me that there is always more to expand, to express and to evolve. God’s love is eternal and I am only beginning to discover what love really is and what an incredible journey this is and one that we are all on.

373. Thank you Chan, this is a beautiful testament to you choosing love in your life and to bring understanding to old hurts and finally leave them behind, that is true healing.

374. Very true Chan. Every time I attend a Universal Medicine workshop, there is a choice on offer and that is to either resist or accept the love of God.

     1. …and this is basically it in a nutshell Matthew – “there is a choice on offer and that is to either resist or accept the love of God.”

     2. It is truly amazing and a blessing to have this choice on offer every moment of our life. And through attending Universal Medicine courses, this is where I realised I had a choice in everything and to connect to the love of God or not. This is deeply empowering. Thank you for sharing Matthew.

375. Wow thank you Chan, for the immense healing you have brought to me and others in sharing what caused you to shut down or hold back your expression of Joy and love, it was amazing to feel your expansion and joy honoring the precious woman you are.

     1. Thank you Thomas. It is incredible how love works, from what you’ve so beautifully shared Thomas confirms that we are all deeply connected. We inspire each other with our ripple effect of love and forever expanding out to be shared with everyone.

376. Awesome comments and inspiring. ‘Love is our greatest ‘protection’. This is so true, any other protection is like what Raymond shared, ‘it’s a trick’, a complete illusion.

377. Chan what you write here exposes yet again a deep ill in our society. You write “from about 7 years old I decided that this was the safest way to function through life – to not be too joyful in case I get attacked. This was my false sense of security and investment to make life about keeping me safe”. How dysfunctional is it that children feel that they have to contract and shut down their natural joy for fear of the reactions of adults. We will not heal as a humanity until the adults heal and raise children by nurturing their divine inner qualities.

     1. Anne I agree. The cycle of abuse ends with us.

     2. That’s so true Anne. Our children are already very connected to their divine inner qualities. It is the adults that have disconnected from this, we have a lot to relearn, and to healing our hurts to allow ourselves to live with the fullness of who we are, expressing love and truth consistently.

378. Wow Chan what you’ve shared is deeply power-full and healing. To come from the feeling of needing to keep yourself small and without joy in fear and protection of the joy being snatched away from you, to giving yourself permission to shine and see things for what they truly are, what an inspiration you are, an amazing example of what letting ourselves heal and feel leads too and the love that expands within us to be felt and shared by all through making this choice. To come from abuse to this understanding is a miracle.

     1. Thank you tonisteenson. I have been deeply inspired by everyone at Universal Medicine everyday to continuously deepen my connection with love and truth.

379. Everytime I read this blog Chan another part jumps out at me. Your expression is dearly heart felt and the appreciation you hold is palpable. Truly beautiful to read.. everytime.

     1. Yes Abby, I agree too … each time I have read Chan’s blog it takes me straight to what’s important in life, and that’s love

     2. Thank you Abby, it was an incredible experience that opened my heart to true love and joy. Every time I recall my experience it reminds me of who we all are and how deeply connected we are with each other.

380. True Ariana, and you are one who inspires me to choose love. I’m not distracted by the TV, games etc but I do tend to fall too easily for self-doubt and you’ve helped me be aware that by doing this I am actually choosing self-abuse, not love.

     1. Sandra, great to name ‘self-doubt’ as a wily shadow that just waits in the wings to pull us and others down. There is not one ounce of love in doubt, yet it is used so often as an authority tag in conversations, when people are trying to sound learned, adult, in charge, wise. It is abusive in every sense of the word. When we go into doubt, self-doubt all the lights dim and we allow a grey, dull world to reign, when we could be valuing, appreciating and joy-fully loving!

381. So beautifully claimed Chan-“Now that I have experienced what true connection to everyone and everything is, I know that whenever I feel disconnected I can choose to re-connect to love and to connect to God in an instant.” Great reminder for us all.

382. I really loved what you have said here Ariana, and a great reminder that how we feel life is always our choice.

383. ‘I came to the realisation that life isn’t just about me but it is about encompassing everything and everyone’ this is such a significant statement for if everybody else understood this, life on earth would be very different indeed.

     1. I can only imagine the consequences of this being introduced as curriculum at school!

     2. Yes what a wonderful way to live that would be, if we all lovingly considered each other as well as ourselves whenever there were choices or decision to be made.

384. ‘This was my false sense of security and investment to make life about keeping me safe.’ How many of us constantly choose this perceived way of being in order to stay safe – all the while contracting our hearts until they can beat no more. Love can never be suppressed, it is who we are – and living this in its fullest is our evolution.

     1. I agree Lee. I find it interesting observing how many of us are choosing to not express love yet it’s the very thing we crave the most. Love is certainly who we are, by choosing to express it with no attachments, just simply letting it out, opening our hearts and living love in its fullest I feel is definitely the way to go.

385. This is beautiful Chan, and a beautiful reminder that life is not just about ourselves but “about encompassing everything and everyone.” I know I’ve fallen for the trap in thinking that we are not all connected and that my actions, thoughts and intentions do not affect others – how false this is! It shows how much responsibility we need to bring into our lives and to live from truth and love as a starting point.

     1. This is awesome Melissa, ‘how much responsibility we need to bring into our lives and to live from truth and love as a starting point’. When I was living my life not realising that I was connected to everyone and everything, it felt meaningless, empty, lonely and isolated. It felt like I was living with my eyes blind folded, very cautious and even clumsy in the way I moved and interacted with people. Now with my eyes wide open and feeling of steadiness, and understanding that we are deeply connected has been so empowering, reawakening and inspiring to take responsibility to another level.

386. There are so many gems in your blog Chan. Today this sentence leapt out at me reminding me this was exactly how I used to live – a moment to stop and appreciate just how many different choices I have made since attending Serge Benhayon’s presentations – my life is no longer comprised of working so hard to keep myself contracted and small to not be seen. A sense of joy within my body becomes more apparent every day.
     “My deliberate choice to not be too joyful in case something horrible might happen was a contracted way to live. I thought if I made myself small by holding myself back it would not attract too much attention, therefore, I felt safe. This was what I had chosen pretty much my whole life”.

     1. Awesome Stephanie, I love what you’ve shared. It is great to stop and appreciate how far you’ve come. Truly worth celebrating the joy you are living with now. Thank you!

387. ‘My deliberate choice to not be too joyful in case something horrible might happen was a contracted way to live. I thought if I made myself small by holding myself back it would not attract too much attention, therefore, I felt safe. This was what I had chosen pretty much my whole life.’
     I can totally relate to this, Chan Ly, as I also have lived and still sometimes live this contraction, in not feeling safe to express all of me. Universal Medicine is a huge support and I understand more and more the love which is available to us all everyday and to choose to express it is lifechanging.

     1. Yes me too kerstinsalzer15. I’m learning to trust in who I am and that that is enough. By accepting this I feel joy is natural to me.

        1. When we feel enough, we feel wonderful (because less than this isn’t enough)! Joy is natural to me too Jinya 🙂

     2. Thank you kerstinsalzer15 for sharing. I too occasionally choose to express in a contracted way, but by becoming more and more aware of this and from experiencing what true love and joy feels like, I can choose to reconnect to that more easily. The key for me is not to be hard on myself when I choose to not be joyful but to reflect on my previous choices, to understand and identify what choices I’ve made that led me to be off track. And knowing that I have the opportunity to make new, more loving choices is a blessing.

388. Chan this is a very inspiring blog, reading it I felt the love you speak of and it has reminded me in a very immediate and tangible way that I too can always choose to return to love, thank you.

     1. Thank you for sharing 1timrobinson. Isn’t this incredible? We can all choose to return to love at any time. We just simply have to choose it and live it to feel the power of who we truly are.

389. “From years of exposing what was not love and starting to choose love again, I have experienced something I have never thought was possible – an amazing expansion”
     How gorgeous is that Chan; thank you for sharing your amazing experiences and transformation.
     I deeply appreciate what you have expressed and am inspired by your power and wisdom.

390. Dear Chan, I so loved how you expressed thanks to God for constellating you to somehow be on the position that led you to Level 5 Sacred Esoteric Healing. ‘I thanked God with appreciation in my heart for constellating me to be there in the hall to experience this amazing power of love that has always been there for me to access.’ The ever-presence of God and the Soul holding us and supporting us to come back is truly awesome!

     1. Yes, Lyndy and Chan, it is very powerful to know and feel that you are in exactly the right place at the right time, especially when you take a moment to stop and appreciate it.

391. It is amazing to feel you claiming that you feel you don’t need to hold back anymore, in expressing with love and joy. There is a solidness and confidence that I feel is very true. To see that we are able to truly let go of the patterns that bind us is such a remarkable thing, another everyday miracle of the livingness.

392. Dear Chan
     The awareness that it was the people you loved that attacked you the most has been quite something for me to see also. And yes, it was their own hurts that they were not able or willing to deal with that meant they would be nasty or leave me out, or simply not see me but instead remain wrapped up in their own world. I learnt to control everything: myself (dulling down my joy, awareness and confidence) and everything around me, how things needed to be done and especially how my food was, because that enabled me not to feel how I had rejected myself. This pattern continues today, painfully so and is being shown clearly to me now to release, once and for all. To reclaim my power and responsibility and not allow any form of abuse, anymore.

     1. Awesome emmadanchin that you are choosing to claim your power and take responsibility for your choices. No matter how hard we try, we cannot control what others choose, I’ve tried this myself and it never works. We are solely responsible for our own choices and what is amazing here is that what we choose affects us and everyone around us as we are all connected. This is simply incredible to fully appreciate and understand what this means.

393. You are a brave woman Chan most people that have experienced what you have gone through make a choice to shut down for the rest of there lives. You are brave enough to face the pain and know that the love is more powerful. Thank you for sharing your story with us and its beautiful how much you have let go of in such a short space of time, very inspiring. What this article brings is the concept that if you can be open to love again after all you have been through in your childhood, then all of us have that same chance!!

     1. Thank you sarahraynebaldwin. It is amazing, simple and empowering to know we can choose to open our hearts, feel the love all around us, feel the fullness, surrender, trust and appreciate the grandness we all are. No matter what we’ve been through in life, the fact that we constantly have choices and what we choose is what really matters. It is incredible to appreciate the power of our choices when we connect to truth and love. I agree, we all have that same chance, to choose love or not.

394. A phenomenal healing Chan, from experiencing all forms of abuse as a child to feeling open and trusting, and to let love in and out. Yours is another example of a story to be told to inspire others who as adults live daily in the hurt of having experienced abuse as children.

     1. Thank you Sandra. I have been deeply inspired by everyone at Universal Medicine. It is a blessing that we continuously inspire each other, to walk together returning to love.

395. Thank you Chan for a very beautiful and inspiring blog to read, I love these words,
     “In knowing that He is in me, all round me in every moment, always beside me and in every part of me and in absolutely everything, I can then choose to not hold back my joy but to fully express it with every part of my being, to celebrate brotherhood and return to God.”

396. Thank you for this blog Chan describing what happens when we leave behind our contracted ways and choose to trust and love those who are hurt as much as we are. A natural expansion of life follows which is limitless in its stillness. It is up to us to explore as far as we are willing to go.

397. I had a similar experience at Level 5 Chan. It was like a mini debut of coming out of a lifetime of ‘hiding’ and it was the exquisite energy of being with my true family, Oneness with all and God that promoted it. What struck me is that there is soooo much more to me, to us, not just than we each allow to shine, but than we all think there is. Universal Medicine has bit by bit over 16 years supported me to discover and express more and more of the love, light and joy I am and despite the glory experienced at Level 5 I know there is a lot more to unfold.

     1. Awesome jeannettegold, I too am learning more and more everyday. It’s amazing to allow myself space to appreciate the greatness, incredible love and joy we all experienced at Sacred Esoteric Healing Level 5 but like you share there is always a lot more to unfold. Love is endless, it is forever there for us to go deeper and deeper and to continuously evolve.

        1. Chan I absolutely love that love is endless, that there is always more to unfold. Having no finite end to achieving Love really takes the pressure of getting everything right, getting it now, perfectionism and then comparison.

398. Its amazing to read your story – so many people never recover from abuse in their childhood, and yet you have come to realise that you lived a life constructed and small, but that in fact you are neither of those things, but a loving a joyful person

     1. I love your highlight Rebecca. Chan has shared a great awareness that she (and the same for all), does not needing to be conditioned into our childhood or any experience. We are at our essence all divine beings full of love and joy. It’s a choice to connect to this.

        1. Thank you Rebecca and Sandra. It is empowering to know we can make a choice to connect to our essence at any time.

399. “Life isn’t about me but it’s about encompassing everything and everybody”. What a loving, beautiful and true way to live. Actually, the only way to live is living in and from love.

400. Although you say Chan, there are no words to capture what you have experienced, I definitely can feel the love and enormous joy in the connection and appreciation for all that has been offered to you. Your blog is a statement for the power of love when fully accepted and lived.

     1. Thank you Annelies for your gorgeous comment.

401. As always Universal Medicine helps to expand the understanding of life and God. If I know God from within I don’t need to believe or trust in Him anymore.

     1. I agree felixschumacher8. The more I feel God in my life, the less doubt there is. I don’t have to give him anything and he loves me already. It is a relationship based on mutual love and feeling it heals my mistrust of the world.

     2. So true felixschumacher8, when we feel the grand expanse of love, the depth of beauty, harmony, stillness and joy within we understand the interconnectedness of all things and experience God through the undeniable truth of our own divinity.

     3. Hello felixschumacher8, yes absolutely. It becomes a known and a way of being and living. I so wish that more of my friends were able to experience the divinity of the healing modalities as they are so deeply healing.

402. ‘The sadness for me was seeing that they chose to suppress love in order to attack and defend.’ This was a revelation for me Chan Ly…I had always thought of this as the ‘attackers’ being very hurt as you mention, but had not looked at it from this perspective before where they were choosing to suppress love, and ironically it would be the one thing they would be missing and craving the most.

403. It has indeed been a revelation to learn that we are all connected and that every single thought, movement and action that we do affects everyone on the planet. That is an awesome responsibility. We assume that, once we are on our own, out of sight, no-one is affected by how we are living, but that is not true. We cannot hide, because we are all connected in the one energy field and any disturbance affects all. In a positive way that also works – as we live in a harmonious way, that harmony can also be felt, so that is where our responsibility lies.

     1. I agree Carmel; it is an awesome responsibility to know that we are affecting everyone with every thought that we have, with every action that we take, with every movement we make. It is a responsibility that most of us like to run away from but when it is understood it can be felt as a great way to live and a very loving way to live.

     2. Indeed Carmel, it is a great responsibility to live in a way that is harmonious when we know and can feel that we are all connected – not in perfection of course, but to the best of our ability.

     3. Great point Carmel, in acknowledging the love we are and are all from and to take responsibility to live in harmony with the fact, the world becomes less and less about us and them, and more about Brotherhood we are all equally a part of.

     4. Brilliant comment Carmel. We are never alone, there is nowhere to hide as we are all connected. We live in the same energetic sphere, what we choose affects the ALL. We don’t have to go anywhere to change the world, we can change the world in the way we choose to live, in our very own home. Our every choice can contribute to harmony or disharmony. So empowering to know we have choices and ‘where our responsibility lies’.

404. You have presented something so magnificent here Chan – that others supported you to open up, trust and return to your natural unhindered joy. When we open our hearts we all hold the capacity to inspire others beyond measure such as you have in writing this blog.

     1. So true Abby, when we open our hearts anything is possible and true miracles happen!

     2. Thank you Abby. I am continuously inspired by people who have opened their hearts and I feel so bless to be surrounded by so many who have chosen to return to love again.

405. What is always amazing about us as human beings is our capability to hurt those we supposedly love the most. How is it possible for one to abuse those closest to them? The answer is simple – we feel safe, safe enough to express all of the angst and hurt that we have repressed elsewhere in our lives, and so we know that if we offload all that tension upon those closest to us, that they will ‘understand’. And so we willingly abuse those closest to us, and conversely we willingly accept abuse from them in return, saying things and acting in a way that we would never pretend to in public. Such is the illusion of life behind the polite facade of suburban doors.

     1. What you’ve said here Adam highlights to me the stark difference between opening up as opposed to offloading on one another.

     2. Yes Adam, crazy really isn’t it that we feel we can offload our undealt with emotions onto those we ‘love’. It beckons the question: do we really love our ‘loved ones’?

     3. True Adam – as they say ‘familiarity breeds contempt’. It’s horrible how we take those closest to us for granted and this ‘safety’ becomes a deadening kind of comfort which kills the love in a relationship.

     4. So very true Adam, the abuse we ‘dish out’ to those closest to us, and conversely the abuse we put up with is huge, constantly re-acting from our hurts and protection, when what is on offer is a tremendous love and intimacy we so desperately crave, but in order to allow another in, we must be willing to feel all of our past hurts and pain, with the many tears that are there to be shed.

        1. Very true – getting in contact with what hurts us is all so important – although without a foundation built by appreciation of ourselves and of our partner, and of others, that on its own can be a very deep hole with no way out.

        2. Great comment Thomas, ‘constantly re-acting from our hurts and protection, when what is on offer is a tremendous love and intimacy we so desperately crave’ I totally agree. We all crave for love and intimacy, yet when we hold onto our hurts it allows us to reject love, we tend to find it extremely difficult or perhaps too afraid to accept it because we don’t trust it would last. We endlessly search for love in others, testing it when love is present and missing love deeply when we choose to separate from it, and yet it was within us all along. To trust that love is endless, expansive, it has always been there and always will be and patiently waiting for us to connect to it. This can be easily clouded by our hurts, so by allowing ourselves to let go of our hurts, heal them and surrender is a massive step but one that gives us clarity, opens our hearts and allows us to trust, to connect and to fully express love again.

     5. I agree Adam. It’s crazy to observe how many of us choose to exert so much energy and create harm in keeping up appearances, feeding our ultimate illusions in life, instead of being completely honest, open and face our hurts, heal them so that the abuse does not continue. We have a choice to break cycles of abusive patterns and behaviour and that choice is entirely up to us, no one can tell or force us to choose anything, until we are willing to accept the truth of what is really going on, otherwise abuse simply continues, spiralling out of control.

406. Gosh Chan this is a very powerful blog. What an amazing healing during the Level 5 Sacred Esoteric Healing course. You’ve reminded me again that we do all deserve ALL of each other, and this is why… “I felt deeply connected to me, to my body, to everyone, everything and to God. The love I felt for humanity was so absolute, so full and expanded. There are no words to capture what I had experienced, simply deep appreciation for everyone.” When we allow ourselves and each other to connect in this way, lives will feel once again full of the Joy you connected to as a child.

     1. It was so incredible, what’s amazing is that we can all connect with each other and feel the power of brotherhood.

        1. What a beautiful, unshakable quality in brotherhood.

407. “The sadness for me was seeing that they chose to suppress love in order to attack and defend.” There is so much awareness and love in this sentence Chan. We can choose to be a victim of how others choose to behave and express, or we can bring an understanding of it and take responsibility for the way we are feeling. What a difference this can make to the way we live and relate to others.

     1. So well said Rebecca. So often we will play the ‘victim’ card, shunning all self responsibility instead of owning that and accepting that we are indeed responsible for how we feel and everything that happens in our lives. Yes, what a huge difference this would make to the way we live and relate to others.

     2. Hi Rebecca – I can not underestimate the power of understanding. When I feel understood I feel held and supported, God is understanding. When I become understanding of others judgement dissolves in the simplicity of allowing another to be.

        1. Beautifully said Abby, with understanding, we are equal, and therein lies the abundant Love of Brotherhood to be felt once more.

     3. Absolutely Rebecca, in choosing to bring understanding to the less than loving behaviors of others, or indeed ourselves, can break the cycle of hurt perpetuating. In that moment its like saying, ‘I know this is not who you are, for you are love, as am I’, and the invitation is given to return to love again, and out the hurt for what it is.

     4. Thank you Rebecca. Choosing to be aware, brings clarity and understanding, and our willingness to take responsibility for our choices, truth becomes very clear.

     5. Thank you Chan and Rebecca, I agree, our choices in life definitely are a reflection of how we are feeling, and thanks to the presentations of Serge Benhayon the students of the Livingness are now expressing the joy they are.

     6. So true Rebecca – how we feel doesn’t depend on the behavior of other people. Everything what is happening within us, is our responsibility, we can’t blame anybody. I felt very empowered when I realized – there were my choices which created my mess and now that will be my choices again, which will bring me out to my chaos. When I get my relationship to myself right, all other relationships will unfold accordingly.

408. Thank you Chan for sharing your beautiful blog , I can’t help but feel your unfoldment as a precious, delicate flower that feels and is aware of being part of a far grander connection, with the dropping of all protection and accepting life and people in full and pouring forth your fine essence in the field of flowers.

     1. I feel that too paulmoses39 and Chan’s dedication to developing even further the great person she already is very much shows in the grace of her writing.

     2. Thank you paulmoses39 and Dean, I deeply appreciate your inspiring comments.

409. A beautiful and powerful blog thank you Chan… a reminder for me that God is omnipresent and that it is simply a choice to connect in every moment

     1. Thank you Chan and Jenny, I agree, we cannot be reminded to often to reconnect to ‘God.’

410. It is a testament to the choices you have made Chan that you were able to move past the abuse you suffered as a child to experience the love that you now have. It is a joyful happening to feel that love from others emanating all around us as you experienced at the level 5 course, this is our natural way to be for sure.

     1. Our choices create a pull to others who are either making similar choices or are ready to make them. We coalesce into communities and groups based on this pull, which is in fact a choice we have made. It is up to us to accept these choices as ones that we have made, or forget that we made the choice in the first place and dig in our heels.

411. Very true Raymond, well said.

412. I can very much relate to this Chan, ‘Prior to Universal Medicine I was coping with life, not fully living in joy or in harmony with my body’, I used to push body so much and just didn’t consider taking care of it in the way I do now, if my arms or legs hurt from carrying something too heavy I would not pay attention, I would just see this as ‘normal’. It has been since attending Universal Medicine courses that I have been inspired to actually take care of my body; this sounds so simple and so obvious but I notice how it is very common in society for us to not listen to our bodies and take care of them.

     1. And it is simple steps like these to care for our bodies that can make a huge difference to our lives. I’ve found that by doing this regularly I am more appreciative of myself and feel more in harmony with everything around me. The more I take care of myself, the more I want to take care of myself as it becomes the new ‘normal’.

     2. This is awesome rebeccawingrave, I love how you are now choosing to care and listen to your body. I too have started to listen to my body more and more. I have been more aware especially with food as it affects me very quickly when I choose to eat something that is not supportive. I notice my energy levels drop and my mood changes when I make unloving food choices. So, with every choice I make it affects how I feel. My body communicates this constantly and therefore, reminds me that my choices affects the quality of energy I am in. Our body is amazing, highly intelligent, sacred, precious and divine. When we accept and acknowledge this, caring and loving our body becomes very natural.

     3. I agree rebeccawingrave, it’s been the same for me too. I was just coping with life, getting through the day somehow, muddling quite a bit. Thanks to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine I have a clear way back to living a deep, rich and truly full and fulfilling life. I appreciate all I have received from studying with Universal Medicine and I appreciate myself for making the choice to turn my life around, to look at my hurts and to release layers upon layers, to reveal more and more of the real me.

     4. Thank you Chan and Rebecca, I agree, life before Universal Medicine for me was a total lost cause. Now the joy filled days are a normal part of life.

413. Thank you for sharing Chan, to come to realise that: ‘the people I loved dearly have been the ones who attacked me the most’. Is hard to feel. Something I have found crazy is that as humans we tend to attack those we love and are closest to us. We somehow think because they are ‘family’ or close then they won’t leave us, yet we would not dare do or say someone of the things we do behind closed doors to anybody else. Why is this? Why do we feel we can get away with hurting those closest to us? It is quite a twisted thought process really.

     1. Yes, it is crazy James to be attacking the ones we ‘love’ and polite to people who we aren’t ‘close’ to – the whole thing being that, in this scenario, we are ignoring the all-important factor of energy and that ‘everything is energy’. Thus the proliferation of ‘numbing’ devices used in the world – entertainment, food, coffee, alcohol, drugs, hobbies, and practically anything you can name which we will coerce into the role of dealing with pain.

        1. Agreed Lyndy Summerhaze – a factor the world at large seems to ignore is ‘everything is energy’ first and foremost and we are thus controlled by whatever energy we are choosing to live by through this lack of awareness of energy. It is only since enjoying Serge Benhayon’s presentations that I have been inspired to be more discerning of energy and its consequences, once upon a time I would have vehemently opposed anyone saying that coffee was not great for my body!
           “the proliferation of ‘numbing’ devices used in the world – entertainment, food, coffee, alcohol, drugs, hobbies, and practically anything you can name which we will coerce into the role of dealing with pain”.

        2. Beautiful said Lyndy and clearly with all of humanity in mind when you wrote it.

     2. Yes James, hurting our close ones and being hurt by them is a great set up to then feel the rest of the world will hurt us too.

        1. Michelle I agree with you that it is a great set up. Because we have been hurt by one or possibly two people or indeed a handful of people at most, we then contract away from billions of people just in case it happens again! In effect what we end up doing is shutting ourselves down from receiving love from billions of people. It’s actually a tragedy.

     3. I feel one of the reasons we attack those closest to us has something to do with keeping people at a distance. If we fear letting others in and love, the ones with the greatest ability to do this consistently are those with whom we spend most of our time with i.e. family. What a great question James, one that would have many answers.

        1. Dear tonisteenson, I love what you have just added to the jigsaw puzzle about attacking those closest and to us, as Chan has so potently brought up. Yes, our fear of intimacy, the hurts we carry!

        2. This is definitely a factor tonisteenson, and how crazy that we take for granted our ‘loved ones’, as our unconscious habit patterns weave a web of comfort that stifles love. We rarely connect and assume the person is the same as they always have been and there can even be some comfort in the familiar abusive behaviour.

        3. That describes complacency, comfort, the measured life to a T Sandra! There is such an isolation in that and no glorious renewal and rejoicing. Thanks for that.

        4. Yes and those that we surround ourselves with, can often teach us so much/reflect much to us but we often do not want to see that reflection so it is easier to deflect then to reflect on what is being presented to us.

        5. So true tonisteenson, it would seem that in allowing our hurts to reign, as if being one in the same, there would appear to be no room for anything else, least of all love.

        6. Spot on Lyndy, with the people closest to us there seemingly is a higher risk in being close, loved and seen, therefore we keep them at a distance by being abusive (by abuse I mean any behavior that is not love) that way we think we stay protected and avoid any feelings of rejection or vulnerability.

     4. The abuse that occurs between those who are closest with each other, to me highlights the prominence of the hurt, we give over to it allowing it to explode in the faces of those we hold dear and close, as if by backward way of letting our loved one know the pain we’re in. Of course in this lack of responsibility all that is achieved is the perpetuation of the hurts themselves. Perhaps we somehow trick ourselves to thinking if the one who loves me the most can feel this pain somehow I won’t have to.

        1. It is very twisted Giselle but a reality for most of us. I certainly have done this and find myself doing it. It makes no sense, I do agree that on some level we want the person to understand what we are feeling or going through but then by attacking them alienate them even further away. It is in these moments we need to honour our sensitivity and say I am feeling really hurt rather than lashing out.

     5. Brilliant point James, it’s so crazy why we choose to hurt those closest to us. There is a façade we often create to keep up an appearance, an illusion that we are doing great, we are loving and helpful but in truth we are not actually doing so great at all if we are abusive to ourselves or others. We often dare not expose the truth of what is really going on in fear of what others may think and in fear of rejection. With people closest to us we know it’s more difficult for them to walk away from us. We often find ways to vent our undealt sadness, frustration and anger, very often this is dumped onto the people closest to us, whom we’ve set the highest expectations and demands on. We choose to abuse ourselves and others because of our undealt with hurts. By taking responsibility and start healing our hurts and understand the root course, we can then arrest our abusive behaviours and patterns. From this healing, Love can be restored.

        1. Well said Chan, we need to look at, address and let go of any unresolved hurts we may be carrying, only then will we truly be able to love both ourselves and others in full.

414. Powerfully said Chan, thank you: “In knowing that He is in me, all round me in every moment, always beside me and in every part of me and in absolutely everything, I can then choose to not hold back my joy but to fully express it with every part of my being, to celebrate brotherhood and return to God.”

415. Well said Ray. Love is our greatest ‘protection’, for in its expression, a fortress is obsolete.

     1. Yes Liane, a fortress is positively archaic. Let love be expressed and celebrated.

416. “The sadness for me was seeing that they chose to suppress love in order to attack and defend.”

     This is a powerful point to draw our attention to Chan, that far greater than the pain of the abuse you sustained is the choice those who chose to abuse made to not express the love that they (we all) innately are. It hurts to not be love and the force required to hold back what we so naturally are is devastating to the one who wields it and all those who receive it at their hands. This force is jealousy and whilst we refer to it ‘as a curse’ and as a ‘green eyed monster’ (Shakespeare), rarely have we let ourselves feel its absolute annihilation of our love and our light when we choose to contract and play small as a result of it. More can be read here: http://www.unimedliving.com/unimedpedia/word-index/unimedpedia-jealousy.html

     1. Thank you Liane, so beautifully said and so true… ‘rarely have we let ourselves feel its (jealousy’s) absolute annihilation of our love and our light when we choose to contract and play small as a result of it.’

     2. Well said Liane, that force that comes back at us, when we are cruising along– jealousy in all its viciousness. As Chan named, it is this experience that leave us feeling “not to be too joyful in case I get attacked.”

        1. Yes yes yes to Joel, Jenny, Liane, and Chan. How powerful to put your finger on this crippling force of jealousy which has blighted our world, our relationships. As you say, what we can do is choose to not contract, withdraw, hide or make ourselves less in the face of this force, but fully bring our Light, our Love and our a valuing and appreciation of ourselves and all that we bring . . . and keep bringing it, understanding that whoever it is being jealous in that moment is in deep regret and fury that they have not lived their life to their own grand potential.

     3. Brilliant comment Liane. The deepest hurt of all is choosing not to be love. The force of jealousy is powerless when we choose to connect to love and our absolute truth.

     4. Hello Liane Mandalis and your comment brings me back to the title of this blog, “Trust and Appreciation”. Particularly appreciation, as it has the power to dissolve jealousy. I agree with the force of jealousy and how we use it and in that I simply see a lack of appreciation. As you say “to not express the love that they (we all) innately are” means that you don’t see who you are, you don’t appreciate the power you naturally are and are from. I see appreciation as a big key to this and know in my own life it can stand me tall. Thanks Liane.

417. This is beautiful Chan, I had goosebumps reading your reawakening to the fire that is love, forever burning within. We are all the kindling to this flame, each affecting the quality and warmth of this glow by the permission we give ourselves to burn bright. When this is truly felt, as you have so gorgeously shared with us, how can we ever choose to walk away again or hold back what is not ours to own, but is ours to share with all? We are the many fiery sparks of a great body of love that is God. Together we burn eternal, the love that we are. With you all the way Chan Ly x

     1. It is always a blessing to read your comments Liane they are a healing unto themselves as was it also a blessing to read this beautiful blog Chan Ly; another flame ignites to lighten the way for us all.

        1. What a beautiful expression of appreciation Kathleen, as was another comment I just read from Abby about Chan’s writing. It is rare to hear such whole-hearted appreciation, one with another, one for another.

     2. I got goose bumps reading your comment Liane. Feeling your love and commitment is truly inspiring. Now, tears are surfacing as I re-read this part, ‘We are the many fiery sparks of a great body of love that is God. Together we burn eternal, the love that we are. With you all the way’ I am with you too Liane and everyone of us, all the way.

        1. Yes Chan and Liane, we are with each other all the way, sharing and living in the fiery being of Love. One day our dark planet could shine again as we each take our place in the fiery firmament.

418. Revisiting this blog again Chan Ly gave me a deeper understanding of what choosing to live a contracted life does entails and what is actually does to me. I now discover that living in contraction I do miss out on possibilities of life that are there waiting for me to be lived but I do not see them from this contracted way of living. Actually by choosing to contract I am contracting away to live life in full with all its opportunities and challenges that are there to let me evolve and to return me to the grandness I actually am part of. Lets get out of here out of this self created imprisonment and choose for love and nothing else but love, whatever this is causing in the temporal world for that.

     1. Thank you for sharing Nico. Sometimes it can seem a bit scary to step away from what we have been so used to, this false protection. But once we choose to take that step, we then realise the grandness and true love so patiently waiting for us is our greatest protector of all, in truth, love needs no protection, it has no boundaries and in its fullness we are whole and as One. To me, protection is something we’ve created to keep us away from expressing our power, truth and love, who we truly are.

        1. Thank you Chan Ly, the grandness we are is indeed patiently waiting for us to be accepted and appreciated and I agree that this grandness does not need any protection as when I am this grandness I will feel and see everything for what it is and know that it is not about me but about the energies that are playing out. There protect myself from this grandness is just doing the contrary, it keeps me away of me returning to live the Son of God on earth that is the true purpose of my life.

419. All Universal Medicine events are nothing short of amazing that give everybody the opportunity to feel and express true love, thank you Chan for sharing your experience

420. Beauty-fully expressed, Chan. I can feel that your willingness to be vulnerable and to thereby open your heart up to everyone around you was a glorious way to heal the hurts from your childhood. Our only true protection is when we let go our ‘shields’ or ‘armour’ and open our hearts…it feels so gorgeous that you have done this.

     1. Thank You Anne, it feels amazing to let go of my protective ‘shield’ and learn to express love more and more.

421. Chan a beautiful reminder that holding back our joy is a choice and that when we connect to the fact that life is about everyone and everything then that joy is our natural expression.

422. Thank you Chan for this wonderful blog expressing your transformation from hiding your joy to learning to trust once again. The paragraph that stood out for me this morning was “I came to understand and appreciate that we are all deeply connected and protection is a contracted way to live that is completely false.”

423. I was brought up being strongly urged to be nice to others and I took this on and spent an enormous amount of energy on how to fit in. The tragedy is, most people do not gauge this pretence and therefore do not call it out, even adults you grow up around. Instead there is accommodation of one persons falseness and reinforcing of it in another, while thinking this is unique expression of personality. Therefore no one understands let alone heals the hurt that accumulates around not truly meeting ourselves or each other. It can be challenging at first to be introduced to a community of people, the students of Universal Medicine, who do not play ball with this kind of behaviour and see through it. Yet because that community is growing in maturity and not judging of each other, there is also great love and support, so whenever someone comes back to their true expression, it is greatly and joyfully celebrated.

     1. Awesome sharing Simon, I can relate to trying to fit in and spending a lot of energy in trying to please others. It was so draining which then led to resentment. I used to think that that was what was expected but in reality I was the one who set up the expectations and limitations. Now, I can see so clearly what an illusion I was under, fully playing an exhausting game that was so not loving at all.

424. What we do and don’t do in the name of protection hurts us more then anyone else could.

     1. Great comment Rachel, this is so true. I have experienced in the past where I stand by and say nothing and do nothing just simply watch with fear and horror, this was equally as harming as the abusive behaviour. Being in a state of fear was already a deep contracted and protected way to be, and feeding the abusive energy. So, when I choose to hold myself and others in absolute love, fear cannot enter. I can then observe, and detach from what is truly going on and express truth with an absolute knowing to arrest the abusive behaviour. I am in the process of learning to do this, deeply inspired by Universal Medicine, what a blessing!

425. I loved every ounce of this blog, from the first line I felt a very special writer and message. There is a huge message here for all of us in what you have shared, that we can return to the love we so miss so much, that it is all there inside us waiting, all a around us and in each other. This really is true brotherhood.

     1. Thank You Melinda, it is a blessing to truly feel what we are part of, the grandness of God’s love and true brotherhood. So expansive and forever deeply loving.

426. Thank you Chan. When we shut down in reaction to attacks from others, we bring the same harm to them. And so this devastating cycle goes. We can always trust what we feel, for when we live with a completely open heart we are safe from harm. Long may you continue to feel love and “express it with every part” of you.

     1. Awesome comment Joseph, Thank You. Choosing to react is indeed a devastating cycle, we get to see this so clearly when we step away from it, how harmful it is to ourselves and to others. Choosing to live with an open heart and express love continuously is our greatest gift.

427. Surrendering to Love is our only way to come back to the Love we innately are. If we do that together than the power is beyond words. We’re indeed so held by a world around is that we can’t see (yet) but that we definitely can feel. But it’s up to us to make the choice to accept the Divineness or not. They can support a lot and lovingly leave the choice to connect up to us.

     1. Beautiful Floris! We are so supported constantly and I love what you’ve shared, ‘it’s up to us to make the choice to accept the Divineness or not’. So true and inspiring.

428. Chan your life has completely changed because you made a choice to open yourself up to love. I love attending these events as well because you do get to feel love and brotherhood in their truest form. This then gives me courage to apply it to my everyday life.

     1. Thank you lindellparlour, I love attending them too. What we get to experience at the Universal Medicine courses, presentations and workshops is consistent truth and love. We get showered in this throughout the duration of the events but how we choose to apply and express the same consistency and integrity in our everyday way of living is key to returning to what we innately know is truth and love.

        1. I agree Chan, throughout the events we are given the opportunity to feel truth and love in it’s purest form, which enables us to apply it to our every day living. Once you have felt true love you never want anything but it expressing through your body.

429. Beautifully said Katie and Chan, at Universal Medicine events we are all held in so much love. Level 5 was exquisite and to be with lots of people for 3 days and to understand on a much deeper level how we are all important aspects of the Universe and thus needed to actually expand the Universe was deeply humbling.

     1. Awesome comments, thank you. The love we experience at Universal Medicine courses are always so incredible and everyone feels so held in so much love. Once we complete these courses we can choose to continue to expand our love and go deeper and deeper.

430. Dearest Chan, your gorgeous way of expressing is to lovely to feel – it has brought tears to my eyes in appreciation of another one of us (you) that holds the marker of the depth of love that is there for us should we so choose it. We are very blessed indeed to have this as an experience to know and appreciate that which is offered to us. There are many out there who have never experienced this, and so just in your sharing, in your blog, you offer them the opportunity to feel what you have too – not everyone will feel it, but the offering is there and that is all that matters. Thank you Chan – I look forwards to more being shared by you and of you!

     1. Beautiful Henrietta, I whole heartily agree, it is very powerful for Chan to share all this with the world and in writing it leaves an opportunity for others that have been mistreated or badly abused to know that there is a way out and one that can lead you to a place where love is all encompassing. Thanks Chan for the blog and Henrietta for your heart felt reply.

        1. There is such power in sharing our experiences openly and honestly – the way Chan has done this has allowed her to deepen her appreciation of herself and hence deepen her love for self and for those around her, but in addition by sharing this, she offers such healing to those who read it. And sarahraynebaldwin, you too have felt the power of sharing through blog comments too – there is much evolution being offered to ourselves and those who read them.

     2. Hello Henrietta Chang and I agree. We in fact feel everything and it is just that some choose to be aware of that fact and some choose to remain buried in other things so as to not be aware of it. As Chan has written there is no place too far to go that you can’t come back and see what is actually happening around you. It’s great to appreciate what we have, who you are, no matter what imperfections you may see, everything takes a start to gain a momentum. If there is one key I take away from everything, appreciation. No matter what the situation I always give space to appreciate. This alone has changed the landscape of my life. It’s lovely to see you Henrietta appreciate this blog in this way, thank you.

        1. I completely agree Raymond. Appreciation is the key and I love how you have said how it has “changed the landscape of my life”. I agree as it has for me too. And yes, I appreciate what you have shared Henrietta – I can feel the depth of your appreciation for Chan here and it is so beautiful to feel.

        2. Hello Simone Lewis and as I read Henrietta Chang’s comment I can sense the appreciation, feel it. This shows me that appreciation is not just a word to use in a sentence or a statement but it’s more a feeling first. I love the feeling appreciation has, when done from a feeling it literally dissolves everything else in your sight. Not that you become blinded but more it opens up how you see everything, as I said ‘changes the landscape’. Thank you Simone.

        3. Very true Raymond. In our home, we have a little appreciation ceremony before dinner each evening to reflect on our day. It is very easy to feel when one of us is “trying” to appreciate by saying what we think we appreciate instead of speaking from the appreciation we deeply feel for ourselves, each other and the unfolding of our day. The quality of what is shared feels so different! One is quite painful to listen to; while the other is a celebration that you want to be a part of!

        4. Thank you Simone Lewis and yes there would be a different feeling from the two qualities. While it is great to feel and see the difference the ‘pain’ would suggest something other than appreciation. If there is true appreciation of any given moment then I see no ‘pain’ only value given to what is truly there. All else is seen and felt but given no weight due to the power of what is true in the moment. This supports and holds anything and anyone. If we turn off and turn on to what is going on around us then this brings the pain, this part is our responsibility.

        5. Appreciation is key, Raymond Karam – without this we would be pretty lost! It’s like appreciation creates a platform for us that is solid and unwavering, which means that when things come to push us or test us, then the platform is there to hold us. So if we don’t build on appreciation then the platform is not as solid or as easy to climb back onto if we do fall or have a tumble. There is a foundational quality about appreciation that becomes our strength in times of challenge.

        6. Hello Henrietta Chang and I agree, appreciation gives you a base to step from. I find it a huge support in my life.

     3. Thank you for your beautiful heartfelt and deeply loving comment Henrietta. I agree we are truly blessed indeed. When we experience true love we naturally want to share. Love is always encompassing the ALL and love is always present, we can simply choose to connect to it. It is very simple and powerful, and only a choice away.

        1. Great point Chan, and it feels like, as Henrietta has shared, we have a choice what we fill our foundations with – if we choose love and appreciation then this is what we have to fall back on when we take a knock. I have experienced this lately with doubt. When it tries to sneak in, I pour even more appreciation for myself and my choices into my foundation and have found that there is no room for the doubt. This supports me to live more of the love I am and make more loving choices.

431. Through Sacred Esoteric Healing and the other Universal Medicine Therapies we have the opportunity to reconnect to our essence and to feel the love that we are. In that we feel and know that we are all equal, we are brothers, we are love. Family name, gender, country of origin are no longer barriers to feeling what is true family, we are all Sons of God.

432. I agree Katie. Universal Medicine operate with the deepest integrity and highest quality. In this, as Chan has shared, so much true healing is offered. Universal Medicine provide the space and opportunity for all who are there to come together and simply be the love that they are. And wow! it sure feels amazing!

433. Chan what you share is a powerful realization “I realised that the people I loved dearly have been the ones who attacked me the most.” Recently I have been paying a lot of attention to abuse, the where and how I have attracted it in my life. I heard on the radio last week that just about everyone who has experienced extreme abuse has heard the words ‘I love you from the abuser’. This is very disturbing. How could we possibly feel a connection to the two love and abuse?
     As you say there is a huge reduction of love being played out by us all whether it is in our own self preservation or hurts.

     1. This is great what you brought up Sandra. There were times where I did get to see glimpses of what I thought was love from people who abused me. Back then I hung onto that, hoping that things would change. Another hurt I realised was I had actually placed expectations on them to be more loving. Whenever that expectation wasn’t met I also got deeply hurt. I realise now, that was another setup I had, and it was harmful to me and to others. The words ‘I love you’ doesn’t mean anything if they are not spoken in truth. For example if they were said with expectation or to pull you closer, it is not loving but harming. Learning to discern the energetic integrity of people’s expression helps us determine the truth of what is really going on and not be attracted to the words but to be really aware of the energy behind it. We all have the ability to truly feel the truth but how much we are willing to accept truth is another things.

434. A very beautiful sharing Chan. I love the simplicity of knowing that it is always a choice – in every moment we have the choice to re-connect to love and God.

     1. Beautiful Simone. It is empowering isn’t it to realise this? I love this line ‘in every moment we have the choice to re-connect to love and God’.

        1. It sure is Chan. The power of knowing that we each know everything!

435. Well said Katie. They are indeed truly remarkable and reading this type of blog is showing the world the profound impact these workshops are having on people when they choose to be open to what is on offer.

     1. Hear hear Katie and sarahflenley.

436. Once we have felt the beauty of the love that we hold inside of us then there is no going back. Thank you Chan for sharing your experiences, which mirror the experience of many, including myself, who is looking forward to attending Sacred Esoteric Healing Level 5 knowing that you have set a new foundation for a new level of healing for all of us.

437. It is amazing the way we choose to dull the grandness of who we are as a result of traumas we have experience in our childhood. it takes great courage and willingness to heal to return to the love in us equally as sons of God. Thank you Chan for sharing such love for being you.

438. There is so much depth in what you are connecting to here Chan. It is very beautiful to read every word you have written and feel how surrendering to the love that is, that has always been there is such a joyful experience and one we can choose to connect to always. It is a constant relationship we can separate from or not. Holding back our joy for protection just doesn’t work!

     1. Thank you Suzanne, I know and totally agree, ‘holding back our joy for protection just doesn’t work!’ If I wasn’t introduced to Universal Medicine, I would still be in this false protection of holding back, too afraid to step out and fully experience joy. I am deeply grateful to be here now, learning everyday to express who I am and to fully embrace life.

439. What a beautiful realization Chan that we are all deeply connected and that “…life isn’t just about me but it is about encompassing everything and everyone.”

440. This is a beautiful sharing Chan and demonstrates a level of surrender and trust that opens the heart to feel the true glory of who you are, and all those around you. Definitely a moment to celebrate and use as a marker of truth to remind you of the wellspring of love that lives within us connecting us to God and all others.
     Very inspiring as are you…. Thank you.

441. Trust and appreciation of me and the relationship that I have with self care and self love is instrumental in allowing me to see and feel the magnificent light in others.

     1. Hello matthew brown and I agree, especially ‘appreciation’ it’s huge. If you were to be just aware for a moment of what some of the things you say to yourself in internal dialogue I think you would be shocked. We at times can be our only and worst critic. Why not appreciate who you are, even if it’s just for a moment. You don’t have to be perfect or do some massive deed to appreciate. Appreciation is a huge key to anything you do and if you haven’t got it in your life for yourself then I would say something needs to be looked at. Appreciation, I love it, thank you Matthew.

442. Our Love is there to be connected to. There are no barriers in Love, so whatever walls we create can never be made from love – for ourselves or for others. One of the greatest tricks going around is that protecting ourselves (in the way you have described Chan) is going to somehow preserve something. All it preserves is our separation to each other, which is a great hurt for many as we orbit on this planet of ours.

     1. I agree Amelia,
        I have felt my choice to harden to protect myself in certain situations has lead me further away from myself and created a deeper feeling of separation to God and all others. It is incredibly isolating and I know in these moments I have forgotten the love that exists within myself and all others choosing instead to focus and react to the external situation rather then feeling and connecting to the unaltered love that exists within myself and everyone else I “orbit this plant” with.

     2. Brilliant Amelia, I agree. Protection is all a trick we play to avoid living fully who we are and avoid expressing love. It is an invisible wall that divides us and ‘all it preserves is our separation to each other’, very well said.

     3. So too in being met by the wall of another, from Love it can be understood the wall’s purpose is to shroud a hurt that awaits its release, and to let flow the Love that otherwise is.

     4. “All it preserves is our separation to each other, which is a great hurt for many as we orbit on this planet of ours” – completely gorgeously said Amelia Stephens, self-preservation is self-interest and is not the aspect that will evolve us back home to where we’re from – fully and wholly unprotected Love.

443. This line stood out for me in how “protection is a contracted way to live that is completely false.” Hardening up to protect ourselves from our hurts doesn’t actually deal with our hurts, it simply buries them deeper! The more I drop my layers of protection and remain open to people, the more I find I have less hurts to heal!

     1. Hello Angela Perin and I agree. I recently had a general conversation with another man in my business. He was saying lightly how we need to harden our children up, he was referring to my young daughter. He was laughing about it and I just told him how I was raising my children not to harden. I explained that when they harden they shut down and stop watching things, they become rigid and no longer flexible. I said I would rather raise them to stay open and keep an eye on what ever has ‘hurt’ them rather then shut down. That way at least they know where what ever hurt them is and it can’t sneak up on them. I said from experience that when I stop watching something like this and shut down it usually comes back around and hits me in the back of the head and I get shocked. He agreed and said he had never looked at things that way but it made sense. I could feel the respect he walked away with, for me and for himself.

        1. Hello Raymond, this is a great conversation to have with anyone but it is also not that common to hear men interacting in the way you have described, usually it ends up being a laugh along type thing with no true evolution. Thank you for sharing this story with us, very cool.

        2. Hello sarahraynebaldwin and you make a great point. It was also great to have a conversation like this with another man as it bought more awareness to me about what was going on. It also gave me a point to appreciate exactly what was being said. We can go along with conversations or we can offer a true direction. I know which I choose, thank you Sarah.

        3. Very inspiring Raymond, I observe myself ‘going along’ with conversations on a regular basis, afterwards I get this ‘erky’ feeling and I know that through this observation I will eventually be brave enough to bring more realness and less niceness when I am put on the spot. Once again thank you for sharing your story.

        4. Yes, very inspiring sarahraynebaldwin and Ray. I too am experiencing being aware how I ‘go along’ with certain conversations while one part of me is squirming and another part checking. out. I am now more and more prepared to bring my love and truth to such a situation, yet yesterday found myself doing this polite compromise again. I am just going to keep on feeling and being aware of the quality of my response (or reaction) and refine it from there. I was really ‘put on the spot’ when my beautiful hairdresser triumphantly presented me with a gluten free dairy free cake with my peppermint tea.’Here I’ve made you this cake specially for you as I know that you don’t eat the cake like the others do’. OMG, it was the most gorgeous looking delicacy and I was on the spot stuttering!

        5. Thats classic Lyndy and the perfect example of the difficult decisions we are all faced with daily, to do what feels right for you or to not offend or befriend another.
           It is a challenge I have certainly not nailed yet but I have found simply bringing more awareness is the key, no judgement of myself or others and being as loving as I can with myself and others is also helpful. Thanks for sharing Lyndy.

        6. Hello sarahraynebaldwin and I can relate. I found that in most conversations I wasn’t really listening to the person that was in front of me. I was thinking about something else or planning what to say next or wondering what I was having for dinner. The more I simply committed to really listening to the person the less I was left with the “erky” feeling you described. Next time you are speaking to someone just take note of how you listen, I was quite surprised actually what was going through my head. In listening you also give the person space to speak, it really is quite powerful but yet so simple.

        7. Hello Raymond, deeply listening is great advice. When I am a little nervous or uncomfortable, the thinking or random thoughts come in, ironically when you worry about what you might say next, you miss out on what is already just there waiting to be said. Thanks again Raymond for this reminder and sharing your experiences.

        8. Thank you Sarah and I find that if I wander in a conversation I just bring myself back and connect with the person in front of me. A simple plan or dedication to meeting their eyes, not staring at them just watching them. I have found from here there is no more I need to do, all the answers, support and everything is there from this simple connection. It’s crazy really, we get nervous, anxious, concerned etc on what we are needing to do in any relationship. Will I say the right thing, the wrong thing, or nothing when all we need do is simply connect. It may sound simple and it is but watch all the things you do to not make it so simple, classic really.

        9. Thanks Raymond, more gold and since this thread I have noticed that my listening has increased and in that people seem to open up more as they feel a trust that there is actually space to do so, the things I am finding out about people are amazing, my life feels richer and fuller.

        10. Great Sarah and as I have said I use this as a constant marker. If in any relationship, conversation or moment I get lost or off track in my thoughts I take a small moment to connect. In this moment, it would be to go back and dedicated some time to listening and watching the person. I find, every time, the conversation deepens and the feeling is ‘freedom’. I no longer get caught in trying to come up with a solution, or answer questions, just connect, listen and watch the person and everything comes from there. Great to hear you are having as much fun as I do with this, it is super simple.

        11. Beautiful conversation you had Raymond. ‘Hardness’ is a form of protection that shields us from expressing and receiving love. Our deepest hurt is separation from love. Most of us think hardening up it a great way to protect but it actually does the opposite, it hurts us and others more. Raising our children to be open, aware and to feel, to express truth and love is the only way.

        12. How you are raising your children Raymond sounds like just how Angela is living – the less ‘protected’ = the less hurts to heal. Raymond your example with your colleague leaves me wondering how often I have heard something I do not agree with and let the comment slide rather than shared my perspective. It is very easy to be complicit in silence but then we lose a richer way of relating with each other.

        13. Hello Deanne and I can relate to what you are saying, ‘don’t rock the boat’ comes to mind. There is a way to develop this and the awareness you have just bought here is part of that development. There are times when we think we ‘need’ to say something or have our opinion but equal to that is the art of listening and being able to just hold yourself steady in a conversation or relationship. This is why I appreciate ‘The Way Of The Livingness’ so much because it’s a real living approach to everything and not something you can hold onto as an ideal. From connecting to what we feel everything else is from there out.

     2. I agree Angela, dropping our protection and being open to people definitely creates less hurts to heal. I have found, to first heal my hurts I must be willing to recognise that they are there, then I look deeper to understand the root cause of my hurts and through understanding where is comes from I can let them go. Each time I get hurt and choose hold onto to it, I know it’s a choice that I’ve made, nobody else’s and it is my responsibility to let them go. If I choose not to heal them, my hurts will weigh me down, shut people out, mistrust, go into protection, feed of the hurts and the hurts feed more hurts. Through holding onto our hurts allows us to do some atrocious and horrific things. If we all start to fully heal our hurts we can break the cycle of hurting ourselves and others, without hurts the love we hold within is easily expressed and received.

        1. I agree, Chan and the more love we show and express to ourselves when we deal with our hurts, the easier it is to deal with those hurts. It still requires courage and resolve but a lot less than it may otherwise need.

     3. and there, right there Angela Perin is a mis truth debunked!

     4. So true Angela. And the hardened layers don’t actually protect us, they just prevent us from feeling what is truly going on and therefore prevent us from dealing with our hurts.

444. I am sure there are many cynical people in the world who would read your blog and guffaw at the huge love pouring off the page. To such a person, it may seem too good to be true that one can experience so much love, brotherhood, community, connection to God and our divinity. It took a long time for me to accept and appreciate what we have been bestowed and indeed how real and tangible it all is. It is indeed more real than the reality we have been trained to accept as the only way life can be, but totally is not.

     1. I fully agree with what you say, Jinya.

     2. I had to come back to your comment, Jinya. In most cases when people speak about love and brotherhood in a way like Chan, I have to say that I also do not believe easily in what is said. But in case of what I have experienced with Universal Medicine I only can say that form the first session I got, I have felt that I am home, home within myself. From there I could feel how this love and truth which Universal Medicine offers expanded more and more – in myself and in others.

     3. Jinya that’s an absolute kicker of a line ‘ It is indeed more real than the reality we have been trained to accept’. What you have said in only a few words is colossal! The world as we know it is a fake, fabricated through our minds. We keep the whole charade going through our consistent application of living out mis-truths. If we stopped acting out what is not true we would snap back to truth in an instant. We’re holding back a barrage of love. We, the people of the world have our collective shoulder to the wheel in an attempt to hold back the love that we are and it’s overwhelmingly exhausting us. Now is the time to disassemble all of the false constructs that we have put in place that support the lie that we are living.

        1. Awesome Alexis Stewart, well said.

445. I was very touched by your appreciation of the Universal Medicine Course, God and the ‘family’ who attended the course. We rarely stop to appreciate these things, often caught in thinking about what’s next. This leaves us falling way short of appreciating and feeling the magic that is in each moment. I am going to go to bed and consider what I have to appreciate!

     1. That’s awesome Fiona. Appreciation leaves no room for comparison, jealousy, judgement or self-loathing. When we appreciate who we are, everyone and everything, it cuts out a lot of relationship issues, allows us to be fully open and feel the magic of every moment.

        1. Wow this feels absolute. Hear Hear Chan! And everyone for that matter ~ Just reading all the comments of all these people appreciating is truly deeply healing…that even here we are growing each others expressions, rather than diminishing them! This is a rarity in the world – however something we are all deeply searching for, and returning to.

446. It is very inspiring Chan to read your blog and feel how you have healed the past in such an honest and loving way, and can now come to trust and appreciate you and your amazing life.

447. Chan, you have shown amazing courage and strength and even more courage so many times!

     1. I agree Christoph, you are amazing Chan and inspire me in your strength and Commitment to reflecting Love.

448. TRUST is a big one for this world today. The majority of people I come across have major trust issues and this means they do not open up fully.
     My job is to always bring things Back to Basics and so I say if we start to TRUST us and by that I mean to really have a true relationship with ourself then things start to change. For example, my body knows it would like to go to the loo and like many women, I would put it off – well there you go. I am dis-honouring a simple request from my body and if my body was talking back to me it would say “sorry but I do not trust you as you do not listen to me even for basic things like going to the toilet”.
     So day in and day out, I have been practicing listening to what I feel and doing my best to stay connected and allowing my body to once again TRUST me and yes this has helped me to trust myself and others and staying open. It comes from the consistency of living in this way and YES I have many people who have given up on life that trust me so I know it works. By the way I got all this from an amazing man called Serge Benhayon.

449. This is definitely a profound realization – “I came to the realisation that life isn’t just about me but it is about encompassing everything and everyone”. This changes everything in life.

     1. I agree Elizabeth – that is a big realisation, which can massively change our outlook on life. A paradigm shift for sure.

     2. Agreed Elizabeth Dolan – this line really calls us to step out of the comforts and games of self and into the bigger picture of life. I for one can get very bogged down in my own stuff and fail to see the beauty and connectedness of everyone and everything. What I do, say and how I am is not just about me – a great aware to step up to a truer responsibility.

     3. This stood out for me too Elizabeth. Coming to an understanding that life is not just about “me” but about “everything and everyone” does change how we perceive life. There is a great responsibility that comes with this knowing and also, so much more love to surrender to.

450. Trust and appreciation are so relevant when we are coming out from our reduced hidden small selves to feel the absolute all that we are. When we do, as you wrote,’I felt deeply connected to me, to my body, to everyone, everything and to God’ it’s not scary at all as it would have seemed, what a trick it was to keep us from shining.

451. Funny how we choose to be less joyful and focus on our hurts when there is so much more to be joyful about.

     1. That true Carmel and appreciation can really open the door to the joy of life again. Hurts have a way of taking centre stage and all of our focus, but appreciation can really give us back our perspective to see how much in ourselves and life there is to truly celebrate.

     2. Well said Carmel – the irony is more painful then any hurt we choose to hold onto.

452. This blog is an absolute joy to read Chan. I too was present at the SEH L5 course and for the first time in so long I felt the marker of being safe in my body and for me that is really huge. Your words brought back the joyous enormity of that weekend – thank you for sharing your heart.

453. Thank you for sharing Chan. It’s wonderful to have found this family and to now know that true brotherhood is the way forward for humanity to heal.

454. “I came to the realisation that life isn’t just about me but it is about encompassing everything and everyone.” This is a big one. Everything about Universal Medicine is about honouring ourselves, for sure, but also about encompassing everyone else. Every single one of us is important and a part of the jigsaw – so cooperation between us all is important. When I learned about energy and how all we do, think and say affects everything and everyone it really opened my eyes to this.

455. Wow Chan, what a truly inspiring and expansive blog – your fullness of both joy and love embraces everyone who is open to feel the depth of what you have so beautifully expressed. It feels like a great privilege to be able to share your amazing experience of participating in Sacred Esoteric Healing Level 5.

456. Beautiful Chan thank you for sharing this. Learning true trust, appreciation and to be the love we are is an amazing gift offered to us all by the honest reflection and inspiration of Serge Benhayon and all he presents to the world consistently with absolute love. Serge has offered me the choice to see truth and learn to trust myself also with joy and humbleness.

457. Thank you Chan for sharing your experience of Level 5 with us. I have also experienced this connection and love you speak of whilst being in a room of lots of people, when attending Universal Medicine workshops – prior to attending these workshops nothing would have got me to sit in a room with this many people and feel totally comfortable, as my avoidance to people was very strong. But that has all changed now and I feel totally at home and comfortable with myself and others – l have regained my trust again thanks to Universal Medicine.

458. Thank you for this reminder, Chan, that God and therefore, Love, is all around us and in us all at all times. It is the simple choice to say ‘Yes’ to that love is all that is needed to have it in our lives.

     1. Naren it is as simple as a choice to say “yes” to that love and trust and appreciate it as it comes into our life. Love is around us all the time, as we open up to it we can feel it constantly, as we go deeper into our connection the confirmation of love is there.

        1. And that step of appreciating the love that we have chosen is often forgotten, the part which is so important to nurturing ourselves in that choice.

459. Thank you for sharing this, Chan. I too have felt moments at Universal Medicine events where the love in the room is so strong it makes me want to cry, because it is what I (and countless others) have searched for our entire lives – true family and brotherhood.

     1. It is beyond words the feeling of being in one of the healing courses and feeling how the unity of everyone in the room and the amount of love that is possible when we choose to have this as our being. I too have been extremely moved by this and blown away that it is actually possible. This is very precious.

     2. It is very true janetwilliams06 and quite overwhelming at first, but the level of love within and between those who attend these events is strong, true and so very, very beautiful. It took me a while to be able to actually accept this love, but now I have opened my heart, it is easy to accept, appreciate and return the love, care, honesty and intimacy these events generate and is a quality that has gently year by year come to fill all the other corners of my life with a simple, constant joy.

460. This is a beautiful blog Chan, “I thanked God with appreciation in my heart for constellating me to be there in the hall to experience this amazing power of love that has always been there for me to access.” I was also at Level 5 healing workshop and the appreciation I had that I was able to be there constellated with hundreds of others also runs so deep. I thank God everyday that I found Universal Medicine and that through its loving support I have found my way home. I know, as a result I am more present in the world and offer more to others than I did before.

     1. Absolutely rachelmurtagh1 – I have been shown the true depth of who I am and equally so all others. We are love – that is who we are.

461. Trust and appreciation are key ingredients to a life lived of love.

     1. Absolutely agree Donna. Appreciation in how amazing and beautiful we are, and trust in Gods love that in in us all.

        1. I agree Donna and everyone who has commented on the power of appreciation. The more we appreciate all that IS, we are not wasting any energy on the what is NOT.

     2. Too true Donna. It is through appreciation that we build more trust, as we see and feel the beauty of all that is there for us to connect to.

        1. Wow it just hit me after reading the comments on trust and appreciation how the world as we know it has completely and utterly distorted the truth. We have mangled the truth to such an extent that we no longer have any recollection of it. That the world that we live in breathes fear rather than trust, that the world that we live in practices criticism more than it does appreciation demonstrates how warped everything has become. Appreciation and trust are tools to get back to God and yet once we are there we will not need the tools because we shall be en cloaked in the absolute knowing of who we are.

     3. I agree Donna. Learning to trust can sometimes be a hard one for me. But I have discovered that the more connected I am, the more I naturally feel trust, and then I have do doubt whatsoever that things will work out perfectly, without trying to make things happen. It is only when I go into self-doubt that the lack of trust comes in. It really confirms to me that the more we connect to ourselves the more trust we feel. There is no room for doubt.
        And as for appreciation, I am learning to appreciate myself more and more. I can so easily appreciate the support of my friends, but remembering to appreciate myself is another matter, I just have to keep reminding myself how far I have come, and that is a reflection of how far we have all come, as we are all supporting each other and I trust and appreciate that very much 🙂
        Another ingredient in my medicine cupboard is allowing. When I allow myself to just be, and accept my vulnerabilities without judgement then the love for myself grows daily.

462. ‘For the first time in my life I felt completely safe to truly allow my love and joy to shine, to be who I am and to not hold back expressing the joy I felt. ‘
     I absolutely love what you’ve shared here, Chan. It’s so true, when we feel safe, as in we feel love from all those around us, we naturally want to be our selves in full and to feel the absolute joy in being so. The challenge comes when we are feeling a lack of love, or indeed the opposite, judgment, comparison, jealousy, to still be our selves in full and to still hold those around us in absolute love is something I still struggle with.

463. The appreciation and joy expressed in this article is gorgeous to read and share in. The way the you describe your experiences of the courses is something that I relate to. What you say concerning how we carry our hurts is revealing “What really hurt deep was not what was physically done to me but seeing clearly that the people who chose to abuse me were simply very hurt and choosing to vent it out on others.” I know that I also used to carry hurts and lived from this place and so hurt people myself along the way and so it is also done to me. Recognising that people often do express through these hurts is eye opening. I learnt to begin to be understanding in a way I had not thought possible by observing what was a hurt and what was the true quality of a person.

     1. I agree Samantha that is exactly what I felt; that the appreciation and joy Chan is sharing is really gorgeous to read and healing in itself. I am sure many people can relate to this blog in how Chan describes hurts .. I know I certainly could to the part that talks about being small and contracted so not to get attention and feel ‘safe’. I also know exactly what Chan means when she shares about the appreciation of the courses, presentations and workshops run by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine. It is an environment where you feel safe, unimposed on and held in true Love and where you can feel a love and equalness from everyone in the room. It is an incredible feeling that everyone should feel and indeed shows the power of true brotherhood and how we are all connected.

464. I loved reading your article, Chan, and these words particularly touched me – ‘During a break I lay down on a massage table, closed my eyes and felt the energy in the room. I felt I was finally home with my family’. It’s interesting that we often grow up with a presumption that it’s our family who will ‘love us the most’ in this world. When I met Serge Benhayon, who loves everyone equally, it completely changed my whole perspective. I can remember him presenting how he loved everyone to the same extent and I wondered, at the time, how he managed to do this ….. I couldn’t imagine loving other people as much as I loved my family …. now I’m beginning to understand and also realising that I have been holding back so much of my love, it feels very beautiful to share so much more, with so many more.

     1. Through all these blogs, your beautiful blog piece Chan and your heartfelt contribution Alison, I can see more and more that this loving self-respecting relationship we can have with ourselves – almost like a delicate courtship or true romance – is of great importance if we are to all emerge in our world as healthy, strong, hard working, appreciative and supportive people.

     2. Yes indeed Alison, thank you for your sharing. Thanks to the Benhayon family and the student body, I too am opening up my heart to what true family actually is, and it is the greatest gift in my life.

465. “I felt I was finally home with my family”… Chan this blog was very beautiful to read. I was at level 5 and it was absolutely Heaven on Earth! Family is not only the people whom we are born into but also (and even more so) the people we are magnetically pulled to by our Soul and the choices we have made. I grew up in South America and Barbados yet somehow I woke up one day when I was 20 and knew it was time to move to a ‘larger’ place. Constellations happened and I ended up in Brisbane. The first moment I came here I knew I was ‘home’. The magnetic pull of God is already set, all I had to do was remain open.

     Appreciation is a very powerful thing and comes naturally when we connect with ourselves and those around us. It’s lovely to feel that you don’t come from the Blaming Game and the power there is in taking responsibility for our choices.

     1. Universal medicine is my family too Chan.A true family that accepts me as I am, but also challenges me to be more.

        1. This is so true Catherine, that a true family challenges us to be more as does true love not hold back from speaking truth even if it can be difficult to hear or express at times.

        2. I love that Catherine and feel the same way – true family are those that “accept me as I am, but challenge me to be more”.

        3. I have found the true family I have always been searching for through Universal Medicine. I receive utmost love in the sharing of presence and joy and also in the bringing of greater awareness so that I can evolve.

     2. So true Donna, family is the people we are drawn to and connect with. The feeling during level 5 healing was one of connection, family, trust and love. The whole weekend was amazing.

     3. I’ve lived in a few different countries but when I arrived in Australia I too had this incredible sense I was finally ‘home’. I agree Donna, it is extremely empowering when we choose to understanding the responsibility of our choices.

466. It is amazing that when you were very young you could see past the abuse being done to you and that the people doing it to you were just very hurt and lost themselves. We probably all feel this but to remember it is a great thing. It’s a pity we all shut down at an early age, but hopefully it won’t be such a normal thing in the near future if enough of us start coming back to the truth.

467. By existing instead of living there can only be faux Joy and self-achievements and personnel victory’s are always left as fleeting things that are short lived and or un-satisfied. To embrace life and honour ones-self can show you the Joy that is always inside of us all… both are just a choice away.

468. Beautiful Chan,”I thanked God with appreciation in my heart for constellating me to be there in the hall to experience this amazing power of love that has always been there for me to access.” This statement resonates very strongly with me and grows with every Universal Medicine event that I join and every day as I feel the depth of love within me expand and I feel the joy of knowing who I truly am.

469. Hi Chan Ly, I too was at the first Level 5 Healing workshop held by Universal Medicine, and for me it felt very much like permission to trust in what I know. I have found All the UM workshops powerful and lifechanging.

470. “From about 7 years old I decided that this was the safest way to function through life – to reduce my immense love and joy as a form of protection so I didn’t have to feel the pain. I simply didn’t feel safe to be shining with joy and love, so I deliberately chose to tone it down.”
     I can relate to this choice Chan – and appreciate you sharing. I realise, as you did, that this is actually the opposite of safety – and the more we stay steady and expanded, the less actually effects us. It’s such a common thing we go to – pulling back to not feel, when feeling it all is what truly protects us. Love your sharing.

     1. Very true Kate, well said. We do definitely tend to contract in an effort to ‘protect’ ourselves from what’s happening in the world; all the abuse and pain… But as you say, it actually works the other way: ‘the more we stay steady and expanded, the less actually effects us’. When we contract we actually jump in the same boat as the people/society we are trying to defend ourselves against!

471. Chan thank you for your gorgeous sharing. I’m always blown away by the similarities that we grow up with. Awareness come up of who we truly are and understanding what has got in the way and then wow – here is a blog that states the truth clearly and lovingly. Your sharing is very precious and appreciated.

472. How beauty-full it is Chan when you ‘come home’- to the deep love that you are, and also feel it with those around you- especially after sacred esoteric 5 course, and know that we come from one big family, with its foundation based on love.

473. I have done a fair bit of not trusting and missing out on joy too, Chan, and it is through Universal Medicine workshops and courses that I have come to understand the extent of the harm I was inflicting upon myself in that posture.

474. Indeed Rebecca – very cool!! I love that Chan has shared that the feeling of love, connection and openness is shared by so many people in the room. A beautiful energy felt and shared by all and that all contribute to this in their unique expression. This shows that we are all connected on a deeper level.

475. What an absolutely awesome and beautiful blog Chan. To hear and feel how you expanded and felt the love for all, and how that changed everything for you is both amazing and normal – you came back to who you are, and hearing of it inspires all of us to do the same.

476. This is so beautiful Chan Ly. There is no holding back in your expression of love and appreciation and it is exquisite to feel your joy in your re-connection to who you truly are.

477. Those words you have used Chan trust and appreciation feel huge as I have not lived these qualities for many years. Being able to trust and appreciate ourselves and others again with the Love that we are feels absolute and by dealing with our hurts and issues this process speeds up our return.

478. Chan you’re on fire and I’m fanning your flames !

479. Chan there is so much to love about your article and one of those things is that you make it incredibly clear what reducing ourselves into small versions of our natural magnificence prevents us from experiencing. By taking away the self reduction you then made this possible ‘I felt deeply connected to me, to my body, to everyone, everything and to God. The love I felt for humanity was so absolute, so full and expanded’. The love that you describe is always there it’s just that we put barriers in place to prevent us from feeling it.

480. What a beautiful sharing Chan, I can deeply relate to the feeling you experienced at the Esoteric Healing course of being home with family.

481. This is truly beautiful Chan Ly and a joy to read. I would like to express my love and appreciation to you for writing this and choosing to feel and be a part of an amazing expanding family of friends. ‘to truly allow my love and joy to shine, to be who I am and not hold back expressing the joy that I felt ……to fully express it with every part of my being, to celebrate brotherhood and return to God”. Wow!

482. Beautiful Chan, a coming home to the love that you are. I have had the same experience where I have a deep knowing that I am home with my brothers, and a deep appreciation and love floods my body.

483. Hello Chan Ly and this a big line, “I came to the realisation that life isn’t just about me but it is about encompassing everything and everyone.” We often look at others and situations and only respond with ‘what’s in it for me’ line. Universal Medicine has continually supported and shown that this is not that way and as you say life is about “encompassing everything and everyone”. Thank you Chan.

     1. Universal Medicine has inspired so many people to open their hearts to humanity, what brotherhood truly means and to a deep knowing that we are all connected and therefore every choice we make affects us all.

        1. Hello Chan and it’s great to be more responsible for the choices you make in and around life. This is one of the core parts of Universal Medicine, self responsibility. Just this has given me more value in life and opened me up to the many things that are going on around me. The way I see it is you can either be awake to what goes on around you or you can be asleep, all along everything is still happening, it’s just in your slumber you don’t have to be aware of it. In other words you feel it anyway, you just turned a blind eye to the affect it’s having until one day something severe wakes you up. I appreciate being awake, I feel more freedom, breathe much more fully and best of all no anxiety. Thank you Chan.

484. What a journey you have been on Chan. From severe abuse, being in protection and not truly being committed to life to connecting to the deep Love you are is an amazing story. I also thank God for Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon for presenting another way to live life and be all of who we are in Love, Truth, Harmony and Joy. For without this we continue to live with our hurts and our misery.

485. Such a testament to Universal Medicine and your own personal growth that you can say that you feel completely safe in a scenario after your previous experiences.

     1. It certainly is – there are so many stories like this one. Universal Medicine changes lives every single day because of their love and inspiration and because the student is ready.

486. What you felt laying on the table Chan Ly is the truth and what is available to us all, once felt in the body will never be forgotten. Little ones who are this shinning light are so easily attacked by those that have lost connection to their own light and allowed hurt to rule their way. It is so beautiful that your light is now shining and that you have re-claimed all that you are. Thanks for sharing.

     1. With appreciation in our hearts we celebrate the shining light we all carry and inspire others to live and celebrate that too.

487. Beautiful sharing Chan. I agree that, as always this was a powerful course presented by Serge Benhayon, and the sense of Brotherhood was very strong as a room full of people chose to openly and honestly work together to heal. It sure is a false sense of security that we exist in when we choose to hold back in fear of being attacked and choosing to play it safe and play small. I have invested in this illusion and I am realising how far more harming it is, not only for ourselves but for everyone, when we hold back the truth and love that we know we am. As in truth there is no actual protection occurring only a reduction of the light we shine therefore reducing the chance of a reaction to this light. Your transformation is truly inspiring Chan as you have embraced your light again and now share this with us all. And you have reflected so brilliantly how together, through trusting the love that we are within, we can re-build trust between us. And as we support each other to heal our hurts and mistrust between us we let go of the illusion of protection that keeps us all reduced and separated from living together the in the true power of Brotherhood.

     1. It is so empowering to lift the lid off this huge illusion of protection and start living with openness, love and truth.

488. It is truly joyful to read your blog Chan and feel what you have connected to or should I say returned to. I can so relate to every word.

489. I can feel the love in your words Chan that you felt lying on that table. What you share illustrates how we take up issues and unloving behaviours as a way to fit in and substitute joy and our true amazingness.

     1. When we choose to connect to love and truth, there is no room for our issues. Our issues are self-created, therefore we can choose to not create them and choose to allow space for more love to be expressed instead.

490. Thank you for your story Chan, It is beautiful to let go of all protection and truly appreciate all that we have got, and that we are a true joy to live with, and that this joy is allowed to be there for everyone.

491. You raise a dilemma here that I am sure is shared by many: closing down on the immense joy deep inside in order to keep ourselves protected from potential attacks and thus making our own life miserable.

     1. Hello Gabriele Conrad, and not to mention the fact that from the ‘closing down’ we actually are bringing everything we are ‘trying’ to protect ourselves from to us. As you say Gabriele, “making our own life miserable”. We are responsible for our choices and hence everything there after. As Chan Ly says, “I felt deeply connected to me, to my body, to everyone, everything and to God. The love I felt for humanity was so absolute, so full and expanded. There are no words to capture what I had experienced, simply deep appreciation for everyone.” From here your life will no longer carry the misery.

     2. This is something that has come up for me much lately, which presents a great opportunity to not go into theses old patterns and to really enjoy how JOY-FULL I really am. Accepting this simple fact can take a little time especially when you have thought that you are not this amazing.

        1. There are so many thing in life that try to make us feel less. The choice to buy into these thoughts always rests with us for how can we see/feel/recognise greatness in another if we don’t this within ourselves first?

     3. I really see how this is what happens in society, ‘closing down on the immense joy deep inside in order to keep ourselves protected from potential attacks and thus making our own life miserable.’ Reading it likes this it makes it sound crazy, but this is so common, it is certainly what I have done in the past, I’m learning now to trust and be more open and not hold myself hard in anticipation of an attack as this feels awful in my body and stops any true connection with people.

     4. And the irony is it doesn’t protect us at all, only imprisons us further into living out a lie

     5. Yes this is indeed crazy, it does not matter what you want the most joy, love, intimacy, friendship and so on – but just in case you may get hurt, you even rob yourself to experience it at all. What a sad life to live.

     6. It makes me wonder where the sense in choosing this is. It just doesn’t make any sense at all yet I chose exactly this way of functioning prior to attending Universal Medicine. Through the courses, presentations and workshops I started to understand the impact of my choices, the illusion of seeking security and protection, and understanding truth of what is really going on in our lives. Why things are the way they are, understanding the meaning of life and the grandness we are all part of. So, many people are now choosing to live truth and love all around the world. Through our livingness (the way we choose to live) we inspire others to step away from the illusion that feeds our misery and to live with truth and love again.

492. Chan hear hear on your last sentence “to celebrate brotherhood and return to God.” – when I look at where we are has a society when seem so very far away from a One Unified Brotherhood – but what you have clearly and lovingly shared is that to have this in our lives simply means living this Love in all that we do. I know when I have been around the ginormous love that we are which Universal Medicine presents every time there is no where else I want to be and nothing else I want to be choosing. Returning back to God.

493. I love the power in this blog. The power of someone who has been holding back and who clearly and strongly chooses to let out all the love and light they are. It must have take enormous effort to contain your love and light previously.

494. Chan, I love the way you express everything. I feel your heart in every word.

495. It is so awesome you are letting go of sadness Mary. I too am letting go of it, layer by layer and letting go of my protective shield. I would like to expand a little bit on hurts, so ‘In order to attack and defend’ is a protective way of living that deeply hurts ourselves and others, the need for protection stems from holding onto our hurts. Hurts can go onto creating more hurts. What I’ve learnt is when I get attacked, is to stand up for myself and expressing that this behaviour is not OK, choose not to react or take it personally but to see that the person who is attacking me is simply very hurt. I am learning to stand firm, steady in my absolute power to express truth. Also understanding that I am not responsible for other people’s hurts, it’s their own responsibility and their choice to carry them. We are all responsible for our own hurts, if we chooses to carry them, then this means we can choose to let them go at any time. Our hurts are our protective shields allowing us to continue a vicious cycle of abuse if we do not heal them.

496. Chan although i have never met you, i can feel how you have blossomed, how your body and face have opened, you have returned to the love and joy you knew as a child – another soul reignited by the by the Livingness.

     1. Well said lucindag – I can appreciate so much of what Chan has shared with us today. It’s beautiful and inspiring to see so many people choosing love again.

497. This is a beautiful sharing Chan Ly and a gorgeous example of what a room feels like when taking part in a course run by Universal Medicine. Every course has this consistency and the love is palpable and undeniable.

     1. Yes Jeanette, I agree all the courses are always very consistent. They operate with the highest level of integrity, respect, love and care for everyone.

498. When we stop holding back and we make a choice to express the Joy that we feel regardless of how others respond, it’s like life opens up for us and brings people and situations to our door that enable us to experience even more Joy. In reading your blog, Chan Ly, I can really relate to the decision to hold back and hide Joy. In my case it was definitely so that others didn’t feel jealous, whereas now I no longer care as the harming affects of holding back the Love and Joy I feel is not worth it, as I have developed a number of women’s health problems as a result. Thank God for Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon for bringing healing modalities, courses and workshops that empower and ENCOURAGE people to just be themselves.

     1. I agree shevonsimon. It is so harmful to supress our love and joy. I used to read every situation to work out how much love I can express to not upset anyone but that was not love at all, it was controlled and run by fear. True love is not ever holding back but to fully express it in every situation and in every moment.

499. Gorgeous and powerful sharing, Chan Ly. This sentence stood out for me:
     “Now that I have experienced what true connection to everyone and everything is, I know that whenever I feel disconnected I can choose to re-connect to love and to connect to God in an instant.”
     That is what all the courses of Universal Medicine offer: the possibility to connect back to love, experience true brotherhood and know where we come from.

     1. Universal Medicine is truly a blessing for humanity, inspiring us to ‘connect back to love, experience true brotherhood and know where we come from.’ Absolutely incredible and beautifully expressed Monika R.

500. Your words echo every part of my own experience with Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon. No where else on earth have such changes, transformations and amazing turnarounds ever been experienced and written down before. 100’s of people are changing their lives not just from worse or OK to good, but good to amazing and amazing to specular – no kidding here. People are shining in their lives now with a glow that the world has not seen since their youth.

     1. Joshua seeing some photos from the early days of attending Universal Medicine events and being reminded how life was not only for myself but many others it shows the real power of the modalities that Universal Medicine brings and the deep appreciation for the choices that everyone has been making. How is it possible that the glow and vitality of people is shining stronger now then 10 years ago? Not just one person but hundreds – and completely opposite to the rest of society.

        1. Absolutely David, seeing these before and after photos is amazing beyond words as not only the vitality returned to these peoples faces but there is a joy and a love in their eyes that I have never seen in any other such photos from other organisations before.

501. I agree Rebecca, ‘Words cannot describe how amazing these courses and workshops are’. This feeling of ‘coming home’ is incredible, knowing that we are all connected and never alone. If we allow it, our hearts can open and expand beyond our immediate family to our greater ‘Family-Humanity’.

502. ” I can then choose to not hold back my joy but to fully express it with every part of my being, to celebrate brotherhood and return to God”. This is lovely Chan Ly I have held back and kept myself small not wanting to get hurt, not realising that holding back is the very thing that hurts me, and keeps me from expressing the love and joy that is naturally within me.

     1. Thank you alisonmoir for your beautiful and honest comment. I didn’t realise this too until I started attending Sacred Esoteric Healing courses and Universal Medicine presentations. It’s empowering to realise the biggest hurt of all was not so much what other people did to me but my reactions to them and what I chose afterwards. So, if I always choose to live with an open heart, not react, then it’s near impossible to get hurt. Pretty much the complete opposite to protection and being closed, is to stay open and observe. How amazing is that? To expose the illusion of protection, how that keeps us separate, hurt and in misery.

503. Chan, what a gorgeous sharing. I found Level 5 very healing as well and it has certainly strengthened my inner foundations in my living. It is so easy to go back into feeling small or less but I instantly feel the shrinking away from brotherhood and that is so sad to feel.

504. In the past, I chose to not allow pleasant anticipation as I wanted to avoid the possibility to be disappointed until I realized that pleasant anticipation is not only of value when the looked forward to event is happening as expected but is enjoyable anyway while it is present. It was a way of protecting myself from getting disappointed or left down as that was obviously a hurt I was holding on to. Playing safe and keeping ourselves protected robs us from being all of us in every moment, waiting for a time when finally everything would be good, but it is just wasting life and waiting for nothing.

     1. So true Alex, our fear of the pain of disappointment denies us so much joy, we are forever looking for the ‘perfect moment’ to drop our guard and finally enjoy ourselves and they never seem to arrive. So often what we fear never happens and we waste so many precious moments guarding ourselves. What glory to have finally found a way to live that enables people to heal their pain and fear and openly celebrate themselves and one another. Every moment of our lives is transformed as we are able to stay open and receive everything, even the unpleasant things don’t seem quite so awful anymore when our hearts are full of joy.

        1. It’s crazy when I reflect back to my childhood how much fear I allowed to run me. The fear was stacking up the invisible wall around me, falsely protecting me and disabling me to not stand up to the abuse. I realise now, allowing fearful thoughts was another choice I made. I used to have some crazy thoughts even as an adult which was sometimes debilitating, suffocating and disabling but the empowering thing is to know that they were all made up, they were all in my head. I can choose to not allow those thoughts come in to run me and weigh me down. Through being more aware and from attending Universal Medicine, I no longer have outrageously fearful thoughts and when the little ones try to creep in, I know how to get rid of them. I also realise that these crazy thoughts are related to how I choose to live, my every choice, my rhythm, my connection with myself and people. Everything I choose I know affects the next, so if I choose to live lovingly consistently there is simply no room for fearful or negative thoughts, only loving and inspiring ones. Everything we allow into our body, is a choice. We have the ability and power to heal when we choose it.

     2. It is amazing Alex what you realise now is so empowering. Many of us can look back at our past choices and clearly see how some of them were so absurd, being in protection and fear completely holds us in a blanket of misery. Thank God for Universal Medicine, showing us that we can choose another way to live, that we don’t have to hold our love and joy back but to fully express it continuously.

505. It’s amazing how quickly we learn (as children) to cap ourselves and hold back from shining our light, as a form of protection so as not to stand out amongst the other children. It’s wonderful that you now feel able to express the love and joy that you are.

     1. This is all thanks to Universal Medicine, gently, lovingly supporting and inspiring me to live the fullness of who I am. Learning to trust and express truth and love no matter what.

506. Beautiful and inspiring to read this Chan. As you lay on the massage table feeling the immense love within you and around you I was with you feeling it too. Wow. It’s grand to know this is how life really is and can be for us all.

507. It certainly is an amazing experience to be in a room full of people, and feel total trust and love on a Universal Medicine healing course Chan Ly. It is an immense blessing to feel and connect to everyone.

     1. I always feel so at home and open at Universal Medicine healing courses. It’s difficult to stay protected and closed when a room full of people who are emanating love. Watching everyone interacting with utmost respect, gentleness and joy ignite those qualities in me too. My every single experience at these courses have taught me so much about true love, trust, appreciation, brotherhood and understand the true meaning of life.

508. What I’ve also come to realise is the fact how my life is so different when I live from openness and innocence rather than control and from needs. For a long time I wanted life to ‘give, give, give’ without me giving back. I am now finding out the absolute joy of True giving. Where there’s just my own Joy of expressions of Love. And what I notice is that unexpectedly, very often I get something ‘back’. But because there’s no expectation for this to occur there’s an innocence joy when this happens. For example, today I sat in a restaurant and asked if it was possible to get a few nuts, rather than a whole lot (which were on the menu) and offerend to pay (even though my mind was telling me otherwise). A very friendly sir helped me out and when I later wanted to pay, I didn’t have to pay for the nuts. That felt as a present from life. That life is not about money, but about people and appreciating each other. I enjoyed this moment of connection very much, innocently so.

509. Beautiful Chan Ly a real inspiration and so lovely to read feel and know too. So relatable to and with such a deep understanding. The courses and workshops of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine are amazing and bring about the true brotherhood and love that we all are and well worth celebrating and expressing about with the love and joy we all are in oneness. Thank you.

     1. I agree tricianicholson. These courses and presentations by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine are life changing. Supporting us to find our way back to truth and love again, so empowering, inspiring and a blessing to humanity.

510. What touched me reading this blog is the Oneness that is shared. We’re all interconnected. Eternally. I’ve got a knowing inside that this is the absolute truth – which in fact is very joyfull – yet I am asking myself why I don’t choose to live this in full. As if I hold the world responsible for me not being able to shine my Love. That dependent relationship with the world is something I’ve had for most of my life, if not all of my life. As if I am not the one choosing, but that my choice is always dependent on another one or others. I am starting to really see and feel that this is NOT the case. That there’s a huge responsibility to stay with my love and stillness. Always and everywhere. How lovely that feels and how this is completely different than the picture I’ve sold myself to be. I am so incredible loving, adorable and sweet. Yet, I am the one to embrace that, rather than stay on the mission to be trusted and loved first before shining.

     1. Beautiful honest sharing Floris. One of the many life changing things I realised, deeply inspired by the teachings of Universal Medicine, was that I am responsible for all my choices, therefore responsible for everything in my life. Everything external to me was not something I can influence or control but I can choose to accept. When I make choices based on outside influences it’s mainly for recognition or protection from my hurts. When I make choices based on what feels true and loving first, then there is nothing to measure against, it’s all encompassing, feels complete and full.

511. A great insight “life isn’t just about me but it is about encompassing everything and everyone. I came to understand and appreciate that we are all deeply connected and how protection is a contracted way to live that is completely false.” We tend to shrink and hide our light at the first sign of possible hurt. Yet I often wonder what my life and many hundred of other people’s would be like if Serge Behayon had chosen to walk off and hold back every time someone disagreed with something he said or was less than gracious when discussing a point, even now with the cyber abuse that is going on. I shudder to consider the world without the incredible life enhancing changes thousands of people have made in their lives and in the communities as a result of him never ever holding back his love and the wisdom he shares with everyone equally. Your comment is so spot on “life isn’t just about me but it is about encompassing everything and everyone.“

     1. I agree Golnaz, everything about Serge Benhayon reflects to us that there is no self on our way back to love but only the encompassing of everything and everyone as the sons of God.

512. Thank you Chan for sharing the immense healing that Sacred Esoteric Healing brings. Being among a full house of people and feeling safe and absolute harmony is proof alone of the power and grace we are bestowed with through the Esoteric Healing Modalities.

513. I love love love your last paragraph Chan. It is indeed a true blessing that Universal Medicine’s workshops, healings , websites, and books offer such an amazing moment of grace for humanity, where each of us is held in absolute love and oneness, and we have the space to remember the deepest part of who we are. And we are empowered to trust once more in our own ability to express our love and shine our light, whilst knowing and seeing that same love and light in others even though they may choose to not see it themselves.

     1. Isn’t it incredible when we allow ourselves to express love we then see that we are all the same? Love is always there, in us, all around us, everywhere, why we don’t choose it is simply a choice.

514. Chan, you described a feeling of ‘coming home’ here. I too have experienced this sense of coming home through attending Universal Medicine events and being part of the student community. The sense of ‘home’ can be found both within a group of people committed to building love, truth and connection in their lives as well as from connecting to the true home we all hold within.

515. This is gorgeous Chan. ‘I too then chose to reduce my immense love and joy as a form of protection so I didn’t have to feel the pain’ – I’ve certainly done this in the past, and I know from observation it is the way a lot of humanity function – reduce themselves and become hard so they feel protected and safe from being hurt. As you’ve pointed out this actually disconnects us from the world, and the potential of true family and true love in relationships. What’s so incredible about the Student body of Universal Medicine is that they are so open and caring, it’s almost impossible to keep those brick walls up when you’re around them!

     1. Hardening in the body, especially across the chest and in the tummy may seem like we are protected but it really leaves us in a painful, contracted prison. I went into protection the other day at a meeting and the discomfort across my chest as I drove home was unbearable. This certainly isn’t a get out of jail free card, with no consequences for our body or wellbeing!

     2. I know Susie, it is impossible to keep hold of our protection when we are surrounded by people who are extremely open, loving, caring and honest. When we meet someone who is completely open and loving, we feel safe to let down our guards too, imagine being in a room full of people who are this way. Well, we don’t have to imagine, it’s real, we can choose to attend Universal Medicine presentations and courses and it’s all there to be felt, love and truth, absolutely incredible.

        1. Absolutely Chan, and you could say that we have a responsibility to show others this way of being… Not everyone is aware they live a life protected and hard, but it is very very common and until someone shows them they don’t actually have to live in a way that shuts them off from connection, both with family/friends/people, but also with themselves, they will continue down the same contracted path.

     3. Beautiful Susie, Yes I agree. I have too reduceer my immense love and joy, even at times I had still chosen to do so to not feel the pain, leave it there untouched. Well, what I have deeply sensed from Universal Medicine, that love is way more powerful than these pains. Everytime I have to remind myself of this fact, and not allowing myself to run away from feeling this. Everyday I am learning to feel old hurts, and let them go, it might vary how deep the pain is, but up until now it was the best that I have ever chosen to let go of. I now feel free and choose to continue to be free by letting all those old ways go. I must say, it is an absolute joy ! Everytime I deepen the love that I hold within, with myself and so with others.

516. Chan, thank you for sharing your experience. So many of us have gone through a similar list of experience where we have had to tone down our joy and suppress ourselves from expressing our truth. In fear of being abused or hurt or rejected. Thanks to Universal Medicine and there presentations and workshops, we have now been able to feel safe, find our connection to God and express our joy and truth.

517. Chan – thank you for sharing just how much life has changed for you by the way you have opened up and allowed love in – and how in choosing to up your joy – you were capping yourself and others. The world needs more love there is n doubt of that. But we get it from ourselves, from choosing to accept love and reflect it to others. Thank god you have switched your light back on 🙂

518. I am also in deep appreciation of Universal Medicine and a growing number of people (who have been inspired by all that Universal Medicine presents and represents) who have committed to living with more self-responsibility, integrity and love in their lives. This has been definitely very inspiring and very supportive of me beginning to start to trust humanity and people again.

519. whoa Chan I can relate to your blog here! I have definitely deliberately chosen to not be joyful and the full love that I am, believing it is safer to live in contraction and protection. It might seem safer on one hand to literally ‘play it safe’ with our expression and letting others in but actually it is deeply damaging to relationships and a very isolating, limiting and lonely way to live.

520. Thank you Chan, I was also in the room and it was truly an experience that is truly worthy of appreciation, as is your blog and your statement – “I came to the realisation that life isn’t just about me but it is about encompassing everything and everyone.” – we are so much more than the hurt that life can dish out…

     1. Absolutely Joel – we are so much more than our hurts.

521. Thank you Chan. I remember feeling the room at Sacred Esoteric Healing level 5 too and the level of love, and brotherhood that I could feel there. It was truly remarkable for me too to feel the people I have come to know, the community I am a part of, and then all my human brothers that I do hold such deep love for. Protection can no longer remain, as it is a barrier between me and all the love that is available in all of these relationships, as well as with God of course. It’s time we allowed children a world where they do not need to shut their joy down so easily. It can and will be done.

522. Chan Ly: what an awesome blog revealing how reconnecting with trust brings us so much closer to the Love that we are.

523. I have felt abuse that I didn’t recognise as abuse as it was so normal for it to be this way at the time, but only later have I realised that it is, without doubt, abuse.

524. Thank you Chan Ly for so beautifully capturing the essence of Universal Medicine. Your feeling of, “I felt I was finally home with my family, even though I only knew a small percentage of the people there” says so much. Like so many we feel this sense of return, of belonging which confirms the truth of the experience but also your comment expresses how true family is something far more than family defined by blood-ties.

525. The realisation of contraction and holding back being false in the sense of it keeping us safe is Huge Chan as this is an illusion many of not most of us hold dear. I have always thought it was best to not let the love within out just in case it wasn’t reciprocated or even received. But the biggest hurt is the disconnection this creates from our essence, the love that we are and everything and everyone we are connected with. In truth the ‘safest’ way to be is in that expression of love for in this at the very least we have ourselves and this connection.

526. A beautiful and powerful sharing of coming back to God and trusting in humanity again Chan Ly…thank you.

527. Wow Chan Ly…your sharing is truly inspirational. Where in the world do we ever find so many people united with such loving harmony for hours on end? Universal Medicine and all it represents is quite extraordinary!

528. This is just gorgeous to read Chan. To feel you no longer choosing to reduce your love or cap yourself and instead deeply appreciating the connection you have developed delighting in it’s expansion, is an absolute blessing for us all. Thank you for sharing what is possible when you reconnect to love.

529. Chan I remember something you shared around this time- that you were able to as a mother and wife start to claim more time for you instead of feeling like you needed to be everything for everyone but starting to make the choice to ask for support when needed- this can be huge for women and I found this very inspiring.

530. Chan its sometimes hard to find the words to describe what I have felt at Universal Medicine healing workshops. You have done a great job of it. I have attended many Universal Medicine healing workshops. I always come away feeling more connected to myself and to others. The joy that you express through your words is very tangible and I really connect to that feeling of finally being home as well.

531. “I came to understand and appreciate that we are all deeply connected ” there is so much power and stillness felt within ourselves when we connect back to the fact that we are all connecting to the same Divine essence. I was appreciating this morning the beauty and strength in brotherhood – and here is your joyful celebration of it! thank you Chan.

532. Chan Ly thank you. Through reading your words I can truly feel the enormity of what you experienced and of who you are. YOU constellated yourself to be there at that healing course through choices you have made, it was no accident or coincidence. We are your family and the love we share is amazing in its continual unfoldment.

533. You have just shared your experience of what is possible for every human being Chan and also why we lose that joy and connection with ourselves and the whole family in childhood. This is why it is so important that Serge Benhayon has come to show us the way, that by our living we may inspire others to return to themselves and be part of the whole we all are. This return to what is Truth and Love has to start somewhere, and as children we know it, but as long as the generations go on repeating the same patterns, and children are not given the reflection of how awesome and joyful they are by adults, it will never change. So Universal Medicine is here to offer the opportunity for that change.

534. And all this is what we get to take with us when we return to where we are currently residing in the world. This is huge and to live this is even huger. This is why Universal Medicine events are so very truly healing.

535. What an amazing thing it is to feel “…completely safe to truly allow my love and joy to shine, to be who I am and to not hold back expressing the joy I felt.” Very beautiful Chan. Go for it!

536. Chan thank you for sharing your experience and the deep appreciation that you feel. The sense of coming home is very much what I felt when attending Universal Medicine events. As you say “For the first time in my life I felt completely safe to truly allow my love and joy to shine, to be who I am and to not hold back expressing the joy I felt. “

537. It’s crazy that we keep ourselves small thinking this will keep us safe, when in fact we just harm ourselves even more. Thank you Chan for sharing your experience of how it can be when we truly trust and open to the love that is there all around us and within us. Just beautiful.

538. The absolute Trust, Care, Love and Integrity (both energetically and physically) you can feel with Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine in the presentations, courses and workshops is an incredible thing. It feels like (you actually are) being held in the safest space to let go of all the hurts, sadness, protection etc that has been held onto in the body for probably lifetimes, enabling all to, as you have expressed Chan, return to the love we truly are. What is also incredible is how Serge shows that everyone can hold another with the same level of trust, care, love and integrity as he does it is simply a matter of choice and asks us to be more in the most beautifull unimposing way.

539. Absolutely Beautiful Blog! Deeply felt your love. How many of us choose to hold back out love and joy, to stop being “big” and to play small so as to not be noticed and not be attacked, I know I did. It is only since starting to expand that I have been able to feel just how small I have been playing and that it was for the simple fact that I too was very connected to Humanity. I absolutely loved your description of being in the hall and feeling all the love of the people, Its like I was there with you.

540. Thank You Chan Ly for sharing your life experience and what has really struck me is when you say you made a deliberate choice to not be joyful.
     Gosh to know we make ugly choices that truly harm us and then of course others is something we all need to stop and ponder on.
     Where on earth do we get these thoughts that then become ingrained patterns that play out in our life and keep us in the misery and agony when we know deep inside it is simply not the Truth.
     Enter Universal Medicine – they have ALL the answers and good news is you do not have to go to a level 5 course to know what true joy is all about and feel that and live that.

541. ‘The sadness for me was seeing that they chose to suppress love in order to attack and defend.’ I also suppress love at times, especially if I am allowing myself to align to a hurt . I can be very unloving in my defensiveness. Being more aware of this and feeling it more acutely my choices become more poignant and the love and care I am with myself is more and more precious as it builds within me and holds me. Reaction then happens less frequently and is easier to catch and that horrible energy of wanting to get even abates and dissolves into nothing.

542. When young we are not taught that the unsafe feeling actually comes from the energy of separation, when we choose to separate to avoid feeling the separation another. But so often sadly it is the case that we are not taught that the love within us is our safest place to be, that love is a constant within us and that the separation is not real because how can we be separate from our ever constant love?

543. Hi Chan, I love what you have described: the sense of Love and connection to everybody and God during Level 5 – brotherhood. it is truly gorgeous to feel this in the openness of your words and sharing of yourself.

544. Great words, Chan, ‘ I know that whenever I feel disconnected I can choose to re-connect to love and to connect to God in an instant’ knowing that means we have no excuse for wallowing in our own misery – God is always there.

     1. Straight to the point – God is there, he never leaves, just waits patiently for us to reconnect to him, surely this has got to be ultimate love.

545. It seems to be just part of everyone’s life to shut down around age seven or before, so as to fit in, not be seen to shine too bright or to just plain hide from the world in some form or another. That is before the resurrection of the Ancient Wisdom presented by Serge Benhayon and the healing modalities he has brought through which totally smash (gently of course) this old ingrained way of being to pieces.

546. You have redefined True Family – to be so much more than just our relatives we know by the family we were born into. True family is so much more than that, it’s just the ability to love another person and let them love you back.

     1. Beautifully said Meg. If I ever do not feel the love from this family it is not that it is not there it is that I have pulled away and cut myself off. So this means to be continually open to being love and working on that rather than thinking I’m all alone ( poor me, hero or overwhelm are a few versions of this that I have kept up my sleeve). So reaching out in moments of vulnerability and not pretending to be sorted ( how I think I should be) but being honest.

        1. That’s a hugely interesting concept, normally we think that if we do not feel love it’s because of the other person, rather than as you present here that if we do not feel love it’s because we have cut off from it, thus making ourselves the prime person responsible for love in our lives. This is revelatory! I love it!

547. “For the first time in my life I felt completely safe to truly allow my love and joy to shine, to be who I am and to not hold back expressing the joy I felt.” How amazing is that! Thank you Chan for sharing your story and letting the world know what is possible.

548. Absolutely beautiful Chan, this is a marker that you will have forever…and inevitabley even more amazing markers still to come…

549. Thank you Chan for your expression, while reading your blog I can feel the love, the joy, God, you and all that you bring to this world.

550. Thank you Chan. There is nothing more beautiful in life than feeling connected to ourselves, to other people and to God. It is priceless and it is what people are looking for their whole life. Thanks to the work of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine a whole lot of people are now experiencing this level of connection.

     1. This is so true Elizabeth. Everyone is wanting to Be Love and be loved and through the teachings of this great man Serge Benhayon we now know that this is possible through the deep connection with ourselves.

     2. Yes, love what you have shared here Elizabeth…no amount of fame, fortune or breathtaking view can replace the exquisiteness and intimacy felt when connecting to ourselves and then sharing this with others.

551. Chan Ly how beautiful you returned back home…

552. ‘Prior to Universal Medicine I was coping with life, not fully living in joy or in harmony’ This seems to be a common thread that PRIOR to attending Universal Medicine courses people have been living in this way and after re-learning how to connect deeply to ourselves and others again, people are LIVING life, not just simply coping with it. What an incredible testimony to the business and people within it.

     1. Hello Michelle M Ryan and I agree. I wonder if Universal Medicine was in the car business would they be seen differently. Bringing weary, unregistered and sometimes beaten up cars back on the road with better performance and fuel economy then ever before. Not just doing this for one particular make of car in one country but with all makes in many countries. This would be a huge step forward for the car industry, some maybe threatened but most would be bringing theirs cars in. Universal Medicine are doing not just many great things for people, they are completely turning peoples lives around. Chan Ly is just another one.

553. “My deliberate choice to not be too joyful in case something horrible might happen was a contracted way to live. I thought if I made myself small by holding myself back it would not attract too much attention, therefore, I felt safe.” How this deliberate sabotage makes us feel safe, when in actual fact, it makes-us more likely to experience the angst of contraction.

554. Chan your article is inspirational – what a transformation you have made. I too have capped myself by keeping small, even though I did not have the obvious history of abuse that you speak of but more and more I feel the shift in me to express myself fully as I too have felt the loving feeling of a room full people in healing events.

555. Gosh I know that ‘getting-hurt-by-growing-up-and-then-avoid-expressing-true-me-so-don’t-get-hurt-again’ – but as you said Chan – it does not work. In Fact we hurt our selves by choosing to hide and to ‘play safe’. Lovely to read your ‘coming back’ through the support and offers from Universal medicine – it was and is the same for me and so many others. To claim back our light is an enormous break in the ‘tradition’ of getting-hurt-and-so-will-hurt. Our parents made the same experiences as we did with them – and so: they did not know better. Or, to say it truthfully: they did not make the choice to heal and so offer their children something else then they’ve got. But if we want a more unhurt family and society – someone has to start to let go of the hurts and so: change this cycle. With Universal Medicine I learned to trust again. To trust in me and my choices. That they will be lovingly choices, which will not hurt me or another. It is a blessing! And that blessing is not just for me and my life – but for us all.

556. I can relate to your experience here Chan Ly being in a room full of people who are open to healing has bought a deep sense of brotherhood into my life.

     1. I can too Abby. Feeling so connected to people I hadn’t actually met in person, yet felt I had know for lifetimes, has shown me the unavoidable interconnectedness and love we are all equally from. It is through Universal Medicine that I have begun to understand what True Family actually means.

     2. The feeling of brotherhood that is so familiar to us, but not common as yet in the world. It really is a gift to experience and a blessing to be part of.

     3. hear hear Abby, the groups of people at the courses at Universal Medicine and how they have come together in a way that is virtually free of dynamics, have been an awesome testimony to how we as human beings are capable of living in brotherhood.

     4. Hello Abby and I also agree. Literally a full room of people working in close proximity but never once feeling crowded or imposed upon by anyone. How can this be? When there is a true love at the foundation, anything is possible and as is shown here not just possible but fact.

557. ‘With my fear of fully living my life and being joyful, I was capping myself so that I couldn’t see any possibilities that were out there waiting for me to explore, to express and to share.’ this is such an amazing understanding that you came to, and is inspiration for all of us to share. Thank you for making different choices and living with openness and joy. What a celebration!

     1. Yes this a celebratory piece of writing – thank you Chan:)

558. “I came to understand and appreciate that we are all deeply connected and how protection is a contracted way to live that is completely false. The truth about my choices was exposed and this was such a healing to understand and to heal what was not loving.” Such a great understanding Chan Ly. Living in protection is not really protection at all, as I am discovering. Feeling the deep connection we all have with each other and being open is the way to go. Thankyou for sharing.

     1. sueq2012 I too am discovering the same thing. Before I felt it was a positive character trait to do it all on my own. I was showing the world how strong and independent I was. Actually I was just keeping myself away from people. Now I realise there is so much support from being connected to others and that keeping myself separate takes up a lot of energy. I agree that ‘Feeling the deep connection we all have with each other and being open is the way to go.’

     2. I love what you’ve shared sueq2012, ‘Living in protection is not really protection at all’. This is so true, living in protection of hardness, shutting people out, shutting out the world does us more harm than we realise when we are in full protection mode.

559. Thank you Chan for sharing so honestly and openly about your life before Universal Medicine, as well as the amazing turnaround in your life since. To have had the life changing revelation at Level 5 that you were finally home amongst family is just another confirmation of the power of the courses that Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine offer. We are all one big family but for too long we have held ourselves as separate, and not part of the whole. To be able to acknowledge the falsity of this way of living and to embrace all as family is the most incredible feeling imaginable.

     1. Yes, Ingrid, how it would be if the whole world experienced for just one hour how we felt at the Sacred Esoteric Healing Level 5: and yet that is our natural state! How much do we rob ourselves of our true way of being that someone needs to show us how to re connect and then how we, in turn, feel so awesome after 3 days … when the truth is that we how we are naturally. What happened with us ?

     2. Awesome Ingrid, I totally agree. Opening our hearts and embracing people as our family is the most incredible feeling and with love there can be no separation.

560. ‘For the first time in my life I felt completely safe to truly allow my love and joy to shine, to be who I am and to not hold back expressing the joy I felt.’ This is so awesome and thank you for sharing your beautiful return to you Chan Ly which I am deeply inspired by.

     1. It is deeply inspiring what Chan has shared here, I completely agree. To be able to take responsibility for ourselves in this way and heal our hurts allows us to really be free to connect and live a joy filled life.

     2. The freedom to express our joy and love limitlessly is our birthright and it reveals how much of the world is not claiming and living what is so natural for us all. Universal Medicine is our homecoming to our true normal and our true joy.

561. Thank you Chan, you have encapsulated the exquisite nature of the Universal Medicine workshops and the immense Love present within them. I feel this sentence says it all “I felt I was finally home with my family, even though I only knew a small percentage of the people there.” No where have I ever experienced such a deep love in a group, not in the ‘hippy’ sense, but in the energetic sense, where openness, honesty and tenderness are paramount in expression even between people who have never met one another before. It is a miracle that you can now so openly declare your joy seeing all you have been through in your life, so many would have chosen to remain protected and hidden. It is a tribute to the immensely healing and evolving work of Universal Medicine to feel your expansion and joy, thank you for sharing it with us.

     1. Yes I agree with this too Rowena, I have never felt so much openness in a group, and it is not hippy at all, it is actually the way we should be living.

        1. I have never felt so much openness in a group either, in fact I’ve never known any group like this, yet it feels so natural and it’s something I truly treasure.

     2. Beautiful rowenakstewart, ‘No where have I ever experienced such a deep love in a group’ I agree, the first place I have ever felt this deep love is at Universal Medicine courses and presentation. Now, through the loving support of Universal Medicine, I am beginning to live this deep love in my very own home.

562. Awesome Chan Ly. I felt I could have written this myself our stories are so very similar. I made myself small so that I would not be seen or attacked and I did that by holding back my expression. Also because of being so hurt for not been given the space to express all of who I was, I decided that humanity did not deserve my love, so I shut off from my love and in doing so only ‘hurt’ myself……and as such my life became one of absorbing instead of observing!

     1. Thank you jacqmcfadden04. Through our hurts we hold ourselves in protection and closed to expressing and receiving love. By healing our hurts we begin a process of healing that opens our heart to love again. In all the Scared Esoteric Healing courses I attended, I feel encapsulated in a space of love that allows me to trust, feel and express love too. This then also expands to my family and everywhere I go.

563. To realise that family is beyond blood ties is such a liberating experience.
     From this liberation we can be open with anyone, love anyone and just feel safe with anyone. And in return we can receive this also.

     1. Experiencing brothers and sisters in all the people we interact with, is not always easy and not always done even with an intention to do so – but I agree Luke, by foster this with others, we too get to enjoy more of the same.

        1. Agree Oliver, however well worth the effort

     2. Family is about Love, not blood.

        1. YES Sara. ‘Family is about Love not blood’.

        2. A dear friend shared this with me recently, a quote I believe from Serge Benhayon.

        3. With you all the way sister!

     3. Very true Luke, and this is a big step away from the idea of family that we are sold on, it is a very different persecutive of the world we create when we allow anyone to be our family and let people into our lives. Life has so much purpose when it is about people first, without people I can often feel directionless.

        1. Agree Stephen G…

     4. I agree Luke, we are ALL family, no separation, no difference in essence. Universal Medicine has helped me feel safe again to let the world in.

        1. Agree, for a long time I felt a lot of tension with the fact I could only be deeply loving and carefully with a specific group of people, but through the inspiration of Universal Medicine a new spin on family has now come to light.

     5. Very much so Luke. To realise, appreciate and open ourselves up to this, is heart warming. To love everyone equally and know and feel that connection is, as you stated, quite liberating.

        1. It is a very liberating experience. As it allows you to drop your guard on many levels.

           When we drop our ideals about family we also drop all the roles that we tried to make us comfortable with boxing ourselves into different categories.

     6. Yes beautifully said Luke and very true. The idea that we can love our family more than anyone else is actually very restrictive. Feeling that we can love anyone in the same way is very beautiful and allows us to be ourselves wherever we go.

        1. Agree Lieke, takes a lot of weight off our shoulders. It is very restrictive and effort-some to limit who one cares for and doesn’t.

     7. ‘To realise that family is beyond blood ties’ is huge as for the inner child that relates not only its hurts but also the longing to be loved to the original family is usually very long stuck in getting out of that limitation or actually misconception. Like Chan says: “the people I loved dearly have been the ones who attacked me the most.” We need to experience true love free of any ideals, concepts or beliefs to realize what family is in truth.

        1. I whole heartily agree with you Alex, “we need to experience true love… to realise what family is in truth”.

     8. I agree Luke, beautifully said. This realisation is heart opening and allows love to continuously expand and expand, it never ends.

     9. It is Luke, and we know it from deep inside that this is the truth, that we are all connected as a family and that family is actually something completely different than that what has been told to me that a family was.

        1. Agree Nico, family is a very loaded word with many ideals and beliefs behind it.

     10. So true Luke. It is often said that you can’t choose your family, but to me, it feels like we can. As you said, family goes beyond blood ties, and my family is continually expanding. It feels great to be open and loving with more people in my life.

         1. When I wrote this comment I remembered this saying also. It is true that we can’t choose who our family is however its true in the sense of includibility oppose to excludability. If you catch my drift.

     11. Well said Luke. The concept of family that we have been sold is so limiting. Immediately it makes us reduce our ability to feel that we are one family. We may not live under the same physical roof but we all know what ‘home’ feels like. We all know love.

         1. Well said Vicky, our conceptions of family are limiting. Imagine if we all felt ‘safe’ to open our hearts to everyone, as family. The world would be an extremely different terrain.

         2. I often say hello to people I am passing on the street or am standing next to at a checkout. I speak to them like I do to those that I know. Sometimes I am asked if I know them and I say no. This actually surprises people. Once they realize that I don’t know them, something happens, they smile and remember that we don’t have to act like strangers and that it is very beautiful to have loving, open connections with people we don’t necessarily ‘know’.

         3. That is beautiful, do you have a blog written about this?…

         4. No . . . not yet Luke. Thanks for the prompt and inspiration.

     12. haha, brilliant Ariana, maybe there is a new song in the air!

     13. It’s amazing to feel just how big your family can be when you don’t just make it about blood and genes. You are correct – we can love anyone and be open with anyone – and it’s totally liberating to break this tie.

         1. Our family is always HUGE

            Only when we attach ideals and beliefs to the meaning of family does it reduce.

            Yes a most definite liberating experience.

564. There in now 100s of blogs in regards to all things that have grown from the teachings’ presented by Universal Medicine and hundreds of thousands of reply’s and a common thread that continually arises through the words and experiences is the feeling of coming home. It is a home that is filled with love.

     1. Your comment is so powerful to read sjmatsonuk. Because it makes pause to appreciate the vast volume of testimonial that now exists. An ever-expanding new normal. An ever deepening lived expression. An ever strengthening foundation. On which we can all love our way back home.

     2. Great point sjmatsonuk. 100’s of blogs and testimonials with so many more to come and every single one coming from each person’s own experience, written in their own time purely by their own choice. That is something very spectacular!

     3. It’s been incredible to be able to share my appreciation for these courses presented by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine. ‘the feeling of coming home. It is a home that is filled with love.’ As a child I never thought this feeling was possible. Now, I have a home filled with love, opening and sharing with everyone.

        1. I completely understand, I think I stopped thinking that this feeling of coming home was even possible, but thanks to Universal Medicine I know it’s posdible every moment of the day.

     4. Indeed sjmatsonuk and what is so glorious about returning home is there are no fireworks or exaltations, simply an oh so sound feeling of open hearted joy.

        1. This blog and all of these comments are giving me a real feeling of joy too, and a coming together as one big family, as in our hearts we know who we are and where we come from, and we know we will return. I have always known that I had a job to do, and that I was not going to go home until every last single one of us went with me…. I didn’t know what that job was until I discovered Universal Medicine. I have a way to go yet, but knowing that there is a purpose to life and we have found it, is beyond words.

        2. Lucindag, I have tears in my eyes reading your comment about returning home: ‘ there are no fireworks or exaltations, simply an oh so sound feeling of open hearted joy.’ No more the wayward wanderer but home form the hills to Soul.

        3. Its like if your heart is sitting in front of a fire with its fuzzy slippers on with a warm cup of tea… with chairs for everyone to en-join.

     5. There is no escaping truth sjmatsonuk and the truth is that we come from Love and we will return to Love and it is through the teachings of the Ageless Wisdom as presented by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine that we will RE-learn how to RE-connect to the innate stillness inside of us and walk the path of RE-turn to who we truly are. The feeling of familiarity we get when we attend these courses is because we all have a memory of where we come from and there is no doubt in my mind that one day we will all return to the place of Love that we miss so much.

        1. There cannot be any doubt the Ageless Wisdom is the original Re-ligion.

     6. Love is our home, and Universal Medicine helped to hand me the key.

     7. So true sjmatsonuk. The feeling of coming home is a constant theme that runs through many of these blogs and comments. What a beautiful feeling and connection this is.

565. Chan Ly – this is a beautiful and honest sharing of your path of return to Love through you being inspired to make different choices in your life after attending the presentations of the Ancient Wisdom by Serge Benhayon. What a complete turnaround from contraction and lack of trust to absolute knowing of God within, around and with you always.
     “Now that I have experienced what true connection to everyone and everything is, I know that whenever I feel disconnected I can choose to re-connect to love and to connect to God in an instant. In knowing that He is in me, all round me in every moment, always beside me and in every part of me and in absolutely everything, I can then choose to not hold back my joy but to fully express it with every part of my being, to celebrate brotherhood and return to God”.

     1. ‘..a complete turnaround’ as you described here Stephanie, is to claim what we all innately know and thus is the coming home! Serge Benhayon has presented the livingness of this truth. Because he speaks and lives this truth we are all blessed with the opportunity to connect with this in ourselves as Chan Ly has! I deeply appreciate that I have found the path ‘home’ too.

566. All Universal Medicine courses have the purpose to support us in our evolution back to who we truly are. The connection and unity to our one source is deeply felt and they support people in the unlearning and letting go of the what is not to fully embrace the what is, that is love and always in us. Your sharing is beautiful to read and the joy of coming home is deeply shared!

567. Thank you Chan for your deeply beautiful article, I can very much relate to your up bring and how you reacted and tried to deal with that and what it amazing is how simple you have expressed the remedy to be. Working on this on a daily basis is huge and very much apart of what I have found to support in building a steady livingness, which as presented by Serge Benhayon is the Way of the Livingness.

568. This is so beautiful Chan Ly what you share. Thank you for opening up and that you allow trust and love being part of you life again. To me these are such important aspects in our daily lives and in us meeting people wherever we go. I am always humbled by the fact of the power we have by allowing love in our lives and what its refection through us is capable of. Walking around with the reflection of god on earth gives everybody the possibility to get inspired to allow light into their lives too instead of the misery that is spread so widely. We are the bringers of light and will put straight what has gone wayward. Welcome back.

569. Chan your testimony to the amazing work of Universal Medicine is also testimony to the amazing commitment in you to claim your true home and your love for humanity. This is inspiring for anyone who reads this — to do the same.

570. Thanks Chan Ly , I too had lived a life in reductionism or contraction being careful not to expose the innate joy that was within . As abuse , critique ,bullying and abuse through comparison and jealousy were huge whilst growing up . So keeping your head down was at the time considered safer bet .
     Saving that Joy or expression for the more boisterous moments of life i.e. being drunk or drugged to show a morphed or warped version of fun/joy which was really not! I have felt the amazing joy that can be within us all and also the amazingness of group work where by people are working together in brotherhood letting there guards down and volunteering to expose and heal there hurts in a total supportive environment such as Universal medicine events and healing courses. This is the livingness in action ,not at all a selfish act but one of self care and brotherhood so as one can be more rather than reduced to less.

571. I absolutely agree with you “I thanked God with appreciation in my heart for constellating me to be there in the hall to experience this amazing power of love that has always been there for me to access.” I too was at that Level 5 Sacred Esoteric Healing course, and it was life-changing. It is so amazing the love that is there to be felt in the room when large numbers of fellow students are gathered together such as at that healing course. And even if a small number of similarly connected people are together, the energy that can be felt is amazing. But as we connect more and more to ourselves, we can feel that same energy deep within ourselves. It is amazing just how safe I can feel with fellow students of Universal Medicine, it is such a beautiful feeling, I have no problem in sharing anything personal with them. I have learned to speak with such a level of honesty now with these people, I have no fear whatsoever in sharing things are would otherwise be considered deeply personal. This is the beauty of the great healing that can take place with all these healing courses, when we are able to speak with true honesty how we are feeling, the things that come up for us etc., it allows us to then let go of all those things that are not true for us, and let the healing just happen. I too thank God for constellating me to meet Serge Benhayon and be able to attend these absolutely life-changing courses with Universal Medicine.

572. An awesome testimonial Chan Ly about Universal Medicine. You have captured the essence of what many people coming together feels like when the foundation is based on harmlessness and love. This experience shows that harmony and love in people, is very much a natural way of being in all.

     1. Yes, when Chan Ly wrote this, she wrote for all of us. Every student can agree with the incredible love and support they feel just being in the presence of the student body, it’s so strong and palpable it feels like a place I can truly surrender and I do, and in doing so get to feel who I truly am once again.

573. There is nothing like the feeling of brotherhood and returning to live what we known what we all have done in the past

574. Going to Universal Medicine events and connecting to self feels like coming home to me too. It is the most gorgeous feeling to know that we are so deep, so expanded and so able to be connected with everyone else. I am profoundly grateful to Serge Benhayon for showing us the way it is and what is possible and also revealing that we are all capable of this great and expanding love. How amazing it will be when every member of humanity understands and feels who they truly are.

575. Simply beautiful Chan Ly. And by your gorgeous and loving reflection, what you felt in Level 5 was a sum total of what you bring to the family that you belong to. When we gather in purpose and brotherhood, the love and support is palpable, it is actually coming home, home to the love we know we came from. The love swells in our hearts, and I join you whole heartedly in your appreciation.

576. Hi Chan Ly I can really relate to making and living this choice..”My deliberate choice to not be too joyful in case something horrible might happen was a contracted way to live.”
     I feel I did this to not be seen, to not stand out, as I could feel misery all around me.
     It’s only now, having attended many years of Universal Medicine courses and seeing practitioners regularly that I have been able to make a truer choice for myself and my life and begin to dare to shine again. I honor your courage Chan Ly as your life seems much more steeped in outside abuse. My experience was exacerbated with my own personal abuse. I was my own worst enemy. No matter what the circumstance there always is an opportunity available to choose again, from love, for love and as love, to be more love.

577. Chan Ly what you have been able to heal to be able to embrace to trust and let love in and out again is truly remarkable and worth celebrating everyday.

578. It is interesting what you say Chan Ly that the abuse you felt came from those closest to you. It seems that this is often the case in relationships, we dump on those closest to us, but what is more telling is that we allow it. I know I have allowed that to happen, but it is quite fortifying to now stand up and say no more to the abuse, but not in reaction to the abuse.

579. I came to understand and appreciate that we are all deeply connected and how protection is a contracted way to live that is completely false. – It is a true life lessons that has helped me to transform my life.

580. Chan, you have come such a long way from the abuse you experienced as a child. We cannot underestimate the miracle of transformations such as this, for many remain stuck in the pain and the hurt of it all. It can be devastating to be hurt from the behaviours of others and from those we trust, and it makes us want to keep people out and hold back love, but here you are presenting to us all, that to truly heal we must let people in, we must love and in this regain confidence in each other and appreciate each other deeply. Thank you for sharing Chan and reminding us that to heal, we must open our hearts.

     1. Beautifully said Maree, ‘to heal, we must open our hearts.’ This is so true, when I reflect back to how I healed my hurts was exactly this, with love and an open heart. I didn’t completely shut myself out, I just toned it down looking for every opportunity to fully expand again and finally found it at Universal Medicine.

581. It is beautiful to feel and read how you have claimed back the love you are Chan Ly and to know that no matter our circumstance this is possible for us all.

582. Joyful truth Chan Ly, yes love what you say about feeling being with family even though you only knew a few people there. When we are connected by the truth of love – this is true family, or brotherhood. There’s no need for blood lines, lineage or surname to connect someone/us to this fact. This is perhaps one the biggest lessons, understandings and truths that I too have experienced from Universal Medicine which makes complete sense to me. Family = brotherhood = love.

583. Thank you Chan for sharing your deep appreciation and re- connection to your love and natural joy, something to celebrate for sure.

584. This is a beautiful sharing Chan and I thank you. I love your comment ” I came to the realisation that Life isn’t just about me but it is about encompassing everything and every one.” so true. You share how you felt you were with your family again, when attending Universal Medicine courses, this I can relate to , the feeling of coming home. You suffered more than any child ought in your young life and yet you were able to see that these people, cut off from their feelings were themselves hurting, and therefore suppressed Love to do what they did. You share a great deal of Wisdom with us. Thank you Chan.

585. How beautifully and clearly you have given us a road-map of protection and how you employed it Chan. This is a path many many of us took. It is a contract we made with an evil consciousness – I will tone down my gorgeous Light if you leave me alone. Ouch! As you say: ‘My deliberate choice to not be too joyful in case something horrible might happen was a contracted way to live. I thought if I made myself small by holding myself back it would not attract too much attention, therefore, I felt safe. This was what I had chosen pretty much my whole life.’ No more!

     1. How true Lyndy, and very true for many of us. I can almost remember the time in my life when I made the contract you speak of, but in doing so left myself and the glorious love that is within me, from that point I had nothing as I had walked away from everything. It’s a day the angels will sing with joy when each one of us begins to wake from our slumber and reclaims the powerful, glorious beings we truly are.

     2. Ouch indeed Lyndy, ‘I will tone down my gorgeous Light if you leave me alone’, what an evil agreement, and OUCH again. Brilliantly expose Lyndy, the truth of what I signed up for in the past. I can laugh about it now, but the reality of it wasn’t so pleasant. Thank you Lyndy and Thank God for Universal Medicine and the amazing students for inspiring me to see this massive illusion of security.

586. Thank you Chan for such beautiful honest sharing.
     I too can relate to keeping myself small, holding back my true light and the love that I am for fear of being attacked- past pattern of behaviour.
     However, after every Esoteric Healing workshop and retreat held by Serge Benhayon I am reconnecting more to my divine essence, to God within, and I am able to feel the exquisite love that exists within us all, that is true brotherhood.

587. Chan, you have had a profoundly and remarkable life to experience and you sharing of it offers so many insight, support and healing on so many levels. Thanks for opening up and sharing it with the world.

588. Wow I can feel how beautifully expansive being able to express oneself in full and not holding back in any way. Feels so yummy feeling true family too.

589. ‘ My deliberate choice to not be too joyful in case something horrible might happen was a contracted way to live. I thought if I made myself small by holding myself back it would not attract too much attention, therefore, I felt safe.’ I can relate to this is entirely. Whilst I have not experienced much of the horrific abuse you have, I can still feel that I have shut myself down for most of my life…being afraid of being all that I am. What is most frustrating is when I see others do this, because I get to see and feel the impact that has on everyone around us, but what I seem to refuse to see and feel is that I too contribute to this mess when I don’t choose myself in full.

590. Chan Ly, that you have found a moment, a place, a group of people and a space where you could truly and completely let go and allow your love and joy to shine, given your tumultuous and traumatic history, is nothing short of a miracle.
     And you are a living testament that the essence of what Universal Medicine the school and healing organisation presents for its students and clients is a deeply supportive service for all who choose to be with it.

591. Thank you Chan for sharing the connection that you felt. Being there myself I can relate to this too as being held, loved and appreciated by all in the room and therefore by the energy of God which is in us, makes us and surrounds us always.

592. Chan I love the way that you deliver the truth in such a clean, crisp and clear way, it feels delectable. You have shared incredibly deep truths and what will be of revelation to many is your description of your deepest hurt, which was not actually what was done to you physically but ‘seeing clearly that the people who chose to abuse me were simply very hurt and choosing to vent it out on others. The sadness for me was seeing that they chose to suppress love in order to attack and defend’. This revelation reflects the depth of your healing, as to truly heal we must go to the part of the pain that hurts the most. People often get stuck just short of the kernel of the pain.

     1. Very true Alexis “as to truly heal we must go to the part of the pain that hurts the most”.

593. The true joy of return returns us to the deep love that we are, how much we have to appreciate ourselves for, that no matter what our choices have been in the past, we are choosing again to express from this deep love.

594. Chan – thank you! Your appreciation gorgeously expressed, and encompasses beautifully all that is available to us all when trust becomes part of our living way, as it has become yours. What Humanity is blessed with by our not holding back is most definitely beyond words to describe as the feeling says it all.

595. Chan I could relate to much you have shared here. Not holding back and expressing from all that we are has the potential to move mountains and that sounds like a joyous way to be.

596. Thank you Chan Ly for sharing the beautiful story of your return to joy, expression and brotherhood. I could feel the love and appreciation in every word.

597. I love the appreciation you are expressing here, it’s simple gold!
     I too have felt the love, solidness and support of other students, supporting me in my day,
     I am delighted to be able to share in the incredbile love amongst the student body. It’s me feeling my own love, which belongs to every single one of us.

     1. Gorgeous Felicity, I too feel the incredible support of the student body, knowing this support extends across time and space. Even when I am far away from these events I can feel the loving support of being connected to such an amazing family.

        1. Love your words Kate and the power of connection.

598. And this speaks for so many of us (if not all) who are students of Universal Medicine. ‘For the first time in my life I felt completely safe to truly allow my love and joy to shine, to be who I am and to not hold back expressing the joy I felt.’

599. What a magnificent turnaround in your life Chan. What I appreciate coming through your blog was the way in which you have been able to explore all this hurt and pain so deeply and to heal in such a way that the expansion is truly shining through. Lately I have come to see a few patterns of my own that I have clung onto that are not serving me (or anyone else) that were taken on eons ago and that I am still using in the present day. You have inspired me to dig deeper with cleaning out my own closet in the knowing that right at the back of this closet is the real me waiting to come out and be seen in the world, so Chan – a heartfelt thanks to you for writing this blog.

600. What a powerful story Chan. To be able to see the protection you had developed, in response to the abuse you had been subjected to, as a contraction away from the joy that you naturally are is an amazing insight. To then be able to live your life from the joy you naturally are, rather than the hurts you have been subjected to is a miracle. Sacred Esoteric Healing courses are life changing events.

     1. Absolutely Lee. It is only when we allow ourselves to see our behaviours that stem from protection that we can choose another way.

601. So beautiful to feel the joy, trust, appreciation and expansion in you Chan. Another walking, talking miracle of God. Thank you for sharing your experience. I just heard the rooster crowing as I was reading this and I thought you definitely have something truly profound to crow about!

602. Absolutely gorgeous Chan, thank you for sharing your celebration of love. I can relate to what you have shared about holding back your joy. This is something that I too have been very good at from a young age. What I am now finding is that joy is our natural state of being and it feels amazing to let it out.

603. Chan Ly, it is lovely to read of your ‘amazing expansion’ and the appreciation you express. And it is a clear demonstration of how ‘protection is a contracted way to live that is completely false’. We walk around with a ‘false sense of security’ not knowing that this protection is actually harming us and this way of living can even attract to us what we are trying to protect ourselves from, so it’s not even achieving the goal we think it is.

604. Chan, the way in which and what you have expressed here is deeply beautiful, thank you. The feeling of coming home and being surrounded by family is also what I feel when I am deeply connected to myself and therefore to God. God leads the way to true unity and brotherhood, supporting these markers we have where we know ourselves in full to be love and not our hurts and so we return to everyday life to uncover these hurts and to let them dissolve like sand through our delicate fingertips. We are God indeed, we are absolute love and joy and there is no (true) reason to hold this back from all of us.

605. I agree that protection is a form of contraction and a choice not to commit to life. There’s no guarantee of protection in life either, so it is a false economy to make ourselves small and hold back in the hope we won’t attract attention.

606. I have been attending Universal Medicine presentations myself for four years too and although there have been a few ups and downs and many wobbles along the way I have never doubted for a minute that we are all connected to God and that we hold this immense love inside of us and what Universal Medicine presents is the truth. Your experience of Sacred Esoteric Healing Level 5 sounds absolutely sublime Chan Ly, and what has been achieved here is laying the ground for more love on the earth and that is to be truly appreciated. Awesome work Chan Ly.

     1. Absolutely sandrahenden – every course Universal Medicine presents naturally grounds more Ancient Wisdom from the 5th Dimension plane of life. So much can be felt that is true, and is missing from our world. Thank God.

607. Wow, that’s an amazing change and understanding, thank you very much for sharing it Chan Ly. We can think that we’re protecting ourselves from pain by holding back and shutting down certain qualities that we would naturally otherwise bring but really it is more painful to hold back.

     1. I absolutely agree Fiona that by holding back who we truly are in an attempt to protect ourselves from pain, only creates more problems. To hold back the amazing light we are is going totally against what we are so naturally and as a result so very harming to our body.

608. Attending any of the Universal Medicine Workshops or Presentations leave a marker in the body of what Love is that is never forgotten. As you have said Chan Ly – ‘I felt I was finally home with my family…..’ knowing and experiencing this makes anything is possible. Beautiful, thank you.

     1. To realize that humanity is our family is a game changer.

     2. I agree with your words ch1956 “knowing and experiencing this makes anything is possible”. Once I felt this again too, that I am equally a Son of God through Universal Medicine, I knew I was home. I lifted and my life changed instantaneously and forever. All is possible without a doubt!

609. Thankyou Chan for such a beautiful account of what Universal Medicine offers all to connect with. For years universal medicine has presented the fact that our relationship with God is something that can actually be very tangible and easily felt once we commit to creating a physical body that is sensitive and delicate and thus energetically aware. Our bodies are the instruments by which the truth of all life can be felt and discerned. It can also be the instrument by which we shut down our awareness of all that really goes on.

     1. Great point Adam and something many have forgotten that the body is the key ingredient in our connection to God and how important it is to take care of it. It has become so normal to just trash it, abuse it and use it for our pleasure that self-care seems like a new concept but really it is an age old wisdom.

        1. Beautiful expressed Judith “… something many have forgotten that the body is the key ingredient in our connection to God and how important it is to take care of it. It has become so normal to just trash it, abuse it and use it for our pleasure that self-care seems like a new concept but really it is an age old wisdom.” I found this to be definitely true also. My body is now my vehicle to hold all that needs to hold to live joyfully and responsive to what is needed from me to celebrate life and others around me to the maximum! Let’s turn it up !!

     2. Yes Adam our Bodies are so aware. Universal Medicine has shown us that by being delicate and sensitive and respecting our bodies’ natural way, then we are inescapably energetically aware and can read and know life by that awareness, how beautiful!

     3. Beautifully said Adam. ‘For years universal medicine has presented the fact that our relationship with God is something that can actually be very tangible and easily felt once we commit to creating a physical body that is sensitive and delicate and thus energetically aware.’ Our bodies are a Divine instruments of truth, that can be tuned in or tuned out to the awareness of All that we are and All are connected to.

610. You are a powerhouse Chan. I cannot imagine how much energy it must have taken to hold back the power, joy and love that you consistently shine forth. Thank you for sharing your exprience of Sacred Esoteric Healing Level 5 – it sounds like a truly incredible course.

     1. So true Leonne well said. Chan is indeed a powerhouse. The amount of energy required to hold back such a light, that in truth can never be held back, is reflected buy how exhausted and anxious we often are. It is inspiring to feel how naturally magnificence we are when we surrender the power of our Love within.

611. That is a great confirmation Chan, it is not an easy thing to experience what you did as a child and learn to trust again but to get an opportunity to feel how the protection hurts you more is an amazing gift which opens up new choices.

     1. So very true, Lucy. To let go of past hurts, experiences and protections is what sets us free. Living without these restraints feels amazing as I too have experienced.

612. Dear Chan Ly, so lovely to read your deep love and understanding of your self and others. In world that has gone a wee bit narcissistic your commitment to interconnectedness is sorely needed.

613. What a joy to read of your return Chan.
     I also attended level 5 Sacred Esoteric Healing and felt the awesome stillness, love and joy that we were all immersed in.
     I am sure that as you have been reminded of the great love and joy that it is to be you, you are already inspiring others to re-connect to the same love within them.
     Thank you so much for sharing your story,
     Rob Skinner

     1. Beautifully said Rob. This is the gift that we are to all when we simply let ourselves be all that we are.

     2. Totally Rob, “I am sure that as you have been reminded of the great love and joy that it is to be you, ..”. This course and every participant was made up of all the power we chose to claim. The course would not of being as power-full as it was if those people did not allow to choose it. When everyone is aligned to the same purpose great harmony and results can be achieved.

614. Yes the Universal Medicine Healing and bodywork courses are simply ‘out of this world’. For me and so many others they have been a game changer to connect me back to my natural joyfull and vital self. Remembering again that I am a being of light first and foremost has brought me home.

     1. Well said Marika, they are ‘out of this world’, and as such these healing and bodywork courses from Universal Medicine have been the game changer, life changer, for thousands world wide….

     2. The modalities are ‘out of this world’ brought into this world to bring us back to who we are beyond the limitations of this world.

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