2004 was one of my most disastrous years. My marriage had broken down. I had no real job. Financially I was totally dependent on my husband. Emotionally I was unstable and did not feel either like a woman or a good mother. On top of this, a friend of mine died at the age of 30 after ‘a simple operation’ to her knee and left behind a husband and two little kids.
I did try to fix all the things on the outside by doing sports and having affairs to fill my lack of self-love, trying to confirm that I was ‘functioning’ as a woman. I started to smoke cigarettes (and the occasional joint). I was involved in as much emotional drama as I could create. And also I looked at some spiritual pursuits, healers and NLP. This made me feel ‘alive’.
I threw myself into caring for my friend’s two children and their alcohol-dependent father. This made me feel useful and gave me recognition and the feeling I was doing something good.
In 2004 I also had my first healing session with an esoteric practitioner, a student from Universal Medicine, who came from Australia to Germany. For the first time in my life I felt ME. I felt the deep sadness which I carry with me and the release in that session. I felt like coming home. No imposing and no demands – just simply myself. What a beautiful experience.
I continued with the sessions which helped me enormously to live my daily life in a more respectful manner towards myself and also to others. Life got more ordered and less extreme in the sense of stress and emotional dramas.
In 2005 I went for the first time to a Universal Medicine course and I met Serge Benhayon. Who is that man I thought? For a long time I had a fear that I would be hurt again so I was very discerning. But I was pulled by the truth of what Serge presented (and still presents) which confirms what I do feel inside of me but never dared to express.
Since then I have become a student of Universal Medicine and a student of my soul. My life has changed slowly. My husband and I started to live together again. We had a more loving approach to each other and became open to what our relationship was about – that it is not always about love, but about needs which have to be met: he was the knight who protects me from the outside world and I was the home he needs to come back to. Today I know that how we live together is still not as loving as it could be but a lot of things have changed and we both know that until the end of this life we will not choose to live like that (lacking of love) again. We gave our relationship a chance and discovered that while it was not functioning on a level as husband and wife, we are now living together as friends and are learning to support each other with new and more loving foundations.
Regarding the caring of the two kids and their father – I recognised that after two years I was exhausted. There was a need for me to help, but I never asked if that help was wanted! I also saw how alcohol brings down families, including my own family.
The more self-loving I got, the less need there was to fill myself with affairs and cigarettes and I stopped both habits. I became aware of how food influences my body and my mood. I stopped eating gluten and dairy three years after attending that first healing course, and nobody imposes on me what to do. I keep to a certain sleep rhythm which helps me to be more vital and present during the day.
Today I feel deep appreciation for Serge Benhayon, his family and Universal Medicine. I have got a job in an office and also have started to work as an esoteric practitioner myself.
Is my life perfect? No. But it is more true and I am more ME. I still have a lot to resolve. But now I can and do feel joy. So all in all, through attending the courses and healing sessions and through my own daily choices, I have been brought back to life, and no longer keep myself hidden.
By Sonja, Germany
The Truth about Universal Medicine 
I find the Esoteric Healing as presented by Universal Medicine to be very effective to help clear old behaviours and patterns we carry.
I love how you shared that you became a student of your Soul. What greater teacher and guidance could one ask for than that, that of our essence, our light within, and through in developing a loving relationship with our bodies, we have access to a wisdom and intelligence that is universal and such an awareness that allows us to know what’s of truth and what is not. In living with this connection we are able to live and bring to life all of who we are. This is everything that Universal Medicine is about, learning to live guided by our connection to the truth of our Soul.
I feel like this….”Is my life perfect? No. But it is more true and I am more ME.” even though I stumble, make a drama out of nothing and forget how much has truly changed in my life, I have this foundation of self-love now which is much harder to rock or deny.
We are highly trained in the most obvious and insidious ways to bring us down. There is like a contentment with emasculated misery that may seems to be running behind the scenes until it comes into open air and reveals itself in full.
It is a great point to raise – the difference between function and love in a relationship. And while there may not be a complete understanding of what the difference between the two could possibly be, I reckon that to have a willingness to explore and to learn is pure gold and enriches the relationship no matter what.
Gorgeous sharing. To move from a woman dependent on a man to a woman who is supporting herself, and working on a relationship that broke down is not only remarkable, it is miraculous when we look deeply into the conduct of many and the state of relationships on a broader scale in our world today.
“The more self-loving I got, the less need there was to fill myself with affairs and cigarettes and I stopped both habits. ” So true. When we truly love and care for ourselves old habits can gently fade away – without any trying.
There is so much to learn about love when we have forgotten how much we are from it, are made from it and how it is our essence. So what we look outside for and expect from another person actually has to come from us first. Congratulations for staying with it and what an opportunity to learn , develop and deepen with your husband rather than write the foundation of the relationship off.
Sometimes the most difficult situations are those which take us directly to the truth we are living, clearly revealing our part in them.
Beautifully said Amparo. We really are offered every opportunity to evolve if we are open to it and willing.
There is much to be said for being true to ourselves, not allowing the pictures of life we hold to cloud what is true. When we let go of expectations we start to live in the reality of the moment.
“Is my life perfect? No. But it is more true and I am more ME” – your joy in this is so palpable. We can live like a victim of our own life, but knowing that there is a choice, and lovingly looking at the choices we have made, and making new choices with love can put us back into life to be its master.
Such an inspirational testament to the fact that nothing in this world can bring us to life more than living in connection to who we are in essence, as our connection to Soul is everything. Thank you Sonja for sharing that there always is a true way waiting for us to live.
You also committed to life, to your life and as a result brought all you have to offer back to us. I appreciate so much that you have shared here and how you are working on the grass roots of relationships.
It’s so different what life looks like living from disconnection to our soul and essence, and then life lived in connection to the soul. Each one is our choice but until I found Serge Benhayon I had no reflection around me of a soulfully lived life, nor the support to make this a reality, not until I also began using the Universal Medicine Therapies. It’s amazing to reflect back to life before Universal Medicine and after – the changes are profound.
The more we can let go of pictures of how we want it to be, the more Space we allow ourselves to be in and offer others to be in.. That’s why it is so important to discard any image, expectation, judgement as those are not the truth or reality and feel ugly in many ways. Plus keeping us distant from each other.
Wow, another wonderful example of what’s possible when we allow enough to support in to help us realise how we are sabotaging our lives and relationships all around us by not being who we truly are. It’s a miracle that you were able to turn it all around.
Beautiful Sonja. Life is not perfect, yet clearly there are big changes that have occurred as a result of you committing more deeply to yourself.
Human life is full of imperfections of which we find ourselves often making mistakes, the irony being if we are open and honest with ourselves they can also be awesome lessons in life.
Very true Suse, it feels to me everything is designed for us to evolve, even our mistakes.
“Is my life perfect? No. But it is more true and I am more ME.” I can relate to becoming more real and true in my life now, a far cry from trying to be perfect being good etc.living a false life. By the changes I have made as you have, I am learning that I am okay just as I am and if I am open and aware I will know what changes are to happen next in my unfolding.
An inspiring testimony of how our life can change when we have a reflection that there is a different way to live. No drama, no stress, just simplicity and flow. And never too late to start making different choices to live more of the life we want to lead, and not one that we’ve created through emotions and dramas.
I was just realising while reading that people can go through life and not really connect to the true purpose of it. At times we go to healers and massage therapists, acupuncturists and so on because we feel that we’ve slipped from something and we want to feel a bit better. But it’s not very often that we get reflected back to us why we might have slipped and what is a true way forward.
Thanks for sharing your story Sonja. A beautiful example of what happens when we choose love.
It is only until we embrace sel-love into our lives that we realise our lives are full of patterns and behaviours that allow us to manage life never getting to the core of what is creating the void from our disconnection from our soul.
I can certainly say that meeting Serge Benhayon and attending Universal Medicine presentations brought the joy of living back into my life, as before this, my life had no purpose, truth or love.
Sonja what you shared here has occurred for many of us since meeting Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine – ‘Bought Back to Life’
Its funny – a couple of years ago I could have said the same thing about the most disastrous year, but tough as those times were there was a reality check. I was allowing myself to feel what was really going on and that opened me up to changing – in hindsight that year was a blessing and forms part of the platform on which I stand now.
The art of confirmation can be totally misused if we do not put it to something with a true intent. Not just that, we misuse it when what we confirm is that we are much less of who WE ARE.
I love how when you see another living their truth it can wake you up and inspire you to come back to your truth, power and purpose. Serge Benhayon’s unwavering love and what he lives is very inspiring- it is amazing to see what happens in the lives of people around him.
Absolutely MW – this highlights the beautiful responsibility we all hold in living the light we are.
I think this is a huge thing for someone to say and share, “So all in all, through attending the courses and healing sessions and through my own daily choices, I have been brought back to life, and no longer keep myself hidden.” I can appreciate this and understand and when you consider how many of us are ‘hidden’ from life in our own ways it’s no wonder things look the way they do. It is amazing to see for myself and from others what transformations are occurring with the support of Universal Medicine. This is what we all want when we finally are asking for support or help, a result and also a sense of how to make those choices ongoing. The people treated by and with Universal Medicine keep bringing the true results, sustained true results at that.
“Is my life perfect? No. But it is more true and I am more ME” I love this line and your sharing Sonja thank you. Being brought back to life is an experience many people have experienced since coming to Universal Medicine, when I look back on my former life I was like an empty shell looking every where for something to fill me, when I first heard Serge speak I knew I had come home, home to the Me that was always inside of me.
When we have a need to save someone the questions we need to ask ourselves before charging on in is: do they want to be saved; is this in their best interests; and am I doing this for them or for me? I was one who felt great identification by being the one to save but now know that it simply came from an emptiness inside me, a gaping hole that I finally realised no one could fill but me; I am the only one that I can save.
So true Doug. I have done this many times and it doesn’t support anyone. I have to be super aware that I don’t fall into this way of helping people because I used to do this a lot without discerning if my support would be loving or not. Great for me to read this blog and your comment Doug. I am still learning to observe and discern each situation as they arise and not to just jump straight into rescue mode.
Often we help friends and family without checking if that is what they want. Awesome to be aware of the intention behind why we offer help; is it to make us feel good, seek recognition or for the love of supporting people.
I am not perfect either but you are one step ahead of me, as you have so beautifully taken the time to write this blog. With all of the simple yet profound changes you have introduced to your life, you are literally changing the world, for all is felt by all, we are very powerful and we don’t give ourselves enough credit. Thank you for clocking the change and recording it, you will go down in history like so many Universal Medicine students as the proof that taking responsibility in all areas of life is the way forward, and is the consistent path back to love.
There is so much to appreciate isn’t there when we look at where we have come from and how our lives have changed since choosing to live with more awareness. Thank you for sharing your story as it shows just how possible it is to play an active part in how engaged, connected and healthy we are in our own lives.
Listening to what your body was telling you, and honouring that call – amazing how much you changed – what if more of us did this in life? There would be far less exhaustion and coffee and smoking! Universal Medicine has been the catalyst for change for so many of us – and the fruits are very visible when we come together for courses.
“Is my life perfect? No. But it is more true and I am more ME.” If we all claimed this me-ness back, the listening to what we deep down know is true and lived it, the world would already be a very different place. Life is never about perfection but living from our hearts and that love that we feel and are.
I have noticed that many relationships are based on an arrangement, a motto of ‘I scratch your back, you scratch mine’ unwritten order and it is great to see when a couple endeavours to re-imprint it and develop it into a relationship based on love.
Amazing to read how the principles and teachings of Universal Medicine have helped bring you back to life… me too. Life is never perfect, but learning to be true to you, and live a steady, consistent and joyfull life leaves you able to much more easily handle whatever is in front of you, and the Universal Medicine modalities and courses provide you with the tools to live life in a much truer, authentic and steady way.
We can be very creative in life with a myriad of ways to fill the gaps created by not living the fullness of who we are. Looking at life from the outside in doesn’t work – bringing what is within to the outside world makes life make sense and is a blessing for all.
Thank you Sonja. It is beautiful to hear how Universal Medicine and the presentations of Serge Benhayon have supported so many people to turn their lives around by making different choices in the way they live with themselves and others.
‘Brought back to life’ what a beautiful title and it shows what happens when we take responsibility for our choices and move forward with self loving choices, more alive then ever living more who we truly are or in your words ‘I am more ME’. Thank you Sonja for opening up and share your experiences.
Reading this I have to appreciate what Universal Medicine and the esoteric healing modalities bring. How your life has changed is mostly unheard of and very inspiring to read.
It really is amazing to see how much change can be brought to our lives by stopping to take stock of how we are in every situation of our lives and what is there to learn from our choices made. Each movement we make offers much in the way of opening up old patterns or beliefs about ourselves and how we can make a choice in our next movement to alter this, which can fundamentally change so much more in the process. Love uncovers a lot about who we are and how we then live our lives thereafter.
What so many of us do, trying to feel alive or just to feel something – “I did try to fix all the things on the outside by doing sports and having affairs to fill my lack of self-love, trying to confirm that I was ‘functioning’ as a woman.” but of course when it’s not love or connection, it’s more like a rollercoaster ride, dipping and weaving always trying to find another avenue to fulfill the emptiness.
What’s funny is that when we are living the drama ridden life, fleeting from one thing to the other, multi-tasking, doing it all etc. we believe that is LIVING that is what life is about. We make it okay by saying, ‘that’s life for you’ or ‘you just need to put up with it’. But there is nothing ‘okay’ about keeping our divine essence that knows how to truly live, hidden away.
The thing that sticks out to me in this is how you went from totally annihilating yourself as a woman to reconnecting to your own truth and bringing yourself back to this- very powerful sharing.
Beautiful Sonja, as life is never about perfection, life is about expressing ourselves in full. It is about being true, not perfect.
It is very inspirational to read your awesome blog Sonja because you are so honest about your life and all your choices. For me honesty is a key to start such a change because honesty help to see how we really live our life.
How life changes when we are willing to look at what is not working in our lives, the dramas of our own creation and make changes. Very inspirational Sonya.
Sonya, I love that you have found your way back to truth and were open to seeing how your life was not working, and decided to stick it out with your husband. Such an inspiration for so many, thank-you.
This brings a great question to the fore: would I prefer a ‘perfect’ life or a true one? For me the answer is definitely a true one, so it’s interesting to feel that I still try to be perfect – an unwinnable game, for perfection is an illusion based on pictures we have created of how we think life should be. They are not real so therefore perfection cannot be real. A true life is a real life, no pictures driving us and no goals to achieve. In a true life we are free to be ourselves.
Hi Sonya reading about your life previous to Universal Medicine reminded me of the life of high drama I used to live and think was normal. Your sharing is a great testimony to how we can turn our lives around. It just takes for us to connect back to ourselves and make more self loving choices that support us to be more of who we truly are. It is that simple and this changes everything.
I love hearing stories from all around the world of people turning their life around. It is amazing to feel how powerful we all are and the responsibility we hold in how we choose to live. Serge Benhayon runs Universal Medicine in a way that allows people to come to things in their own time, there are no rules, just love.
“But it is more true and I am more ME.” I cannot say how much the Universal Medicine modalities supported me to live a life with more love and truth. It has taken me a long time and many many healing sessions, courses, and workshops to discover the real me that has been under there all a long.
Until about 5 years ago reflecting on my life just wasn’t a done thing, but doing such an exercise can bring a massive change to our lives. You get to see how over time, over the day, month, year, how life has changed and where it repeats, where it improves and where it still needs some work and/or our greater attention. Living as if we experience life and never return felt very limiting but learning through Universal Medicine the fact that we live in endless cycles and everything comes back around has been life changing.
Thank you for sharing how you have been supported to love yourself more and how this has literally brought you back to life. Your commitment to yourself and working through things with your husband is inspiring and shows that it is not about perfection but consistency and being open to Love.
It does feel like that doesn’t it – coming back to life from being numb to what we were doing and why we were doing it. It is not about getting it all right now but about being open to learning and evolving.
A Straight up and Honest blog Sonja, thank you.
Amazing Sonja, ‘I have been brought back to life, and no longer keep myself hidden.’ It is beautiful to read your journey and appreciating how you have made choices to reconnect back to yourself. It is a blessing to humanity when we choose to no longer hide who we are and choose to allow ourselves to simply be and shine our love and share it with the world.
I love the title of your blog, Sonja, and I can really relate to that. Even before encountering Universal Medicine, sure, I had a ‘life’ but what I have now really exposes the hollowness of it as a mere existence.
That is a great turnaround and yet again, no perfection. I love that these blogs are full of people not going anywhere but coming back to love more of themselves, more comfortably in their own skins. Taking responsibility for our choices and consequences is clearly a key factor.
‘Is my life perfect? No. But it is more true and I am more ME.’ When our life is perfect we should doubt I guess, as it is never about perfection but always a movement towards becoming more ourselves and live openly and share with others. Striving to perfection is I know from my own experience pretty exhausting, to bring all of us to the best of our abilities is pretty awesome and joyful.
Beautiful Sonja – the more we live full of our true selves, the less we need to fill ourselves with everything else.
Hear, hear Liane, so true. We are like a vessel, if we do not choose to fill ourselves with love then it allows room for all the things that are not love to simply fill up inside us.
Loving choices bring deep change, it changes lives, getting to know the love within and choosing to learn every day is a blessing.
I love this line Sonja . . . “Is my life perfect? No. But it is more true and I am more ME”. . . this is exactly how I feel. In fact I say to my grandchildren ” It is great to see you being yourself” . . . or . . . “What is going on as you are not yourself at the moment?” . . . as this is all we have to do – give ourselves permission to totally be our self rather than being this and that for different people or different situations.
Dear Sonja,
“I have been brought back to life”. Such simple words, that say everything about what Serge Benhayon presents. Thank you for sharing so openly your personal life and the way it has been and is now with your husband. It is deeply healing to read the way your relationship has changed, and very inspiring how you now honour yourself in the way you do.
Sonja, to read your story in isolation one would say wow that’s amazing but to read it in context with so many other peoples stories shows how possible and real it is. Yes it is still amazing though but also further shows the power of what Universal Medicine presents. I know the stronger I am within myself the stronger everything else is in my life and so all my relationships then are much stronger. Ultimately I have a choice to be in my power and live the love that I am, or I can choose to be less, get caught up in life, make things complicated and thus all my relationships will reflect my inner turmoil – the choice is mine – and thanks to Universal Medicine I clearly have a choice – I, like so many, have been led to the water now it is my choice whether I choose to drink it or not.
Your blog really shows how the only way out of need and disregarding behaviours is practising self-love and self-care, nothing outside of ourselves can truly heal us – it is only we who can choose to do that ourselves. Universal Medicine and the esoteric healing modalities are huge support in this.
All around the world are stories like yours, like mine, true stories, simple but life changing at the same time. I find it so beautiful that no matter what our back ground or the country that we are born in, we are all the same, when we are met with love in an esoteric healing session it feels like coming home, unexplainably, you know exactly what you must do in order to live in a body that supports you. Thank you for your contribution to history, as the way forward is true health and vitality.
Self love a movement unto itself to bring such inspiring and amazing love to not only our lives but all others in one beautiful sequence of expressions. Beautiful sharing thank you Sonja.
There is no need to have a perfect life. I often have trouble with this as I sometimes imagine that once I understand things that my life should run smoothly, yet it is the times when I shake my life up or my life gets shaken up for me, that I gain the most and bring into practise the things I have felt are true. I enjoyed reading your story again Sonja. It is encouraging and inspiring to know that life can really turn around to love.
Your line Sonja ‘I have been brought back to life, and no longer keep myself hidden.’ is a beautiful capturing of where self love and those loving choices you’ve made have brought you, back to yourself and more willing to share yourself as you are with the world. And it’s those little choices we make along the way which facilitate this, slowly, surely and steadily we begin to unpick our bad habits and instigate new loving choices and they do indeed make a world of difference, I know as I too have also allowed myself to live and be with myself in a more deeply loving way and it’s changed how I am with me and out in the world, and it still does, as now I learn that love is ever evolving, and ever expanding.
Self-love and small changes can have the most huge impacts on our life. A supportive sleep rhythm alone can be like a miracle. Combine that with better food choices and a few other self loving ingredients and it seems even more of a miracle. Yet it is a miracle we are all capable of if we make the choice.
I love the title.We can function and wade through life but is that really living? The Truth has the power to bring us back to life.
Appreciating our imperfections and learning from them blesses us with opportunity after opportunity to grow wiser everyday.
It’s amazing what the majority of humanity do to “feel alive, where in truth they are not living at all, but simply existing in a way that harms them and others, more and more each day. But as you have beautifully shared Sonja, there is another way to live and this way ensures that we are truly alive and no longer living a contracted version of who we naturally are.
‘Life got more ordered and less extreme in the sense of stress and emotional dramas’ and we are the creators of those dramas becuase they feed us excitement, and a change from the humdrum. All the while that order, that hum drum speaks of a consistency and balance / harmony in life. When we have that, a still pond so to speak, then we can start to look into the depths of our being and start to enjoy OURselves.
Yes this is gold, I too know there are tonnes more to unfold, but all that matters is that I keep walking forward. I have much to learn and return to, and I simply celebrate every victory and step forward. Every single one is amazing and there is so much more to come.
This is a stunning testimony to the power of self-love and committing to being a student of yourself and of living you. It is gorgeous when there is no drive for perfection and rather just a desire to live more true…. that everything that is not truly loving or serve us tends to just drop away, leaving you to appreciate the beauty in the simplicity of just being and living you.
It’s just occurred to me on re-reading this Sonja of how seductive emotional drama is and how it’s just another way of avoiding feeling and dealing with what’s there to be felt. No different to any other addiction.
Thank you Sonja for such a beautifully honest blog about your discovery of Universal Medicine and the steps you took to be more loving and true.
Well said Angela – for what help can we really be or bring to others when we are doing it at the expense of caring and nurturing ourselves first? Sonja presented this so honestly in saying that it was about recognition and being needed, so was it actually caring? So many lives are based soon functionality and it’s no wonder why exhaustion is such an epidemic, we are lacking true care for ourselves thus in everything we do. It feels so gorgeous to read comments and blogs like this from people who are making different choices and learning to bring joy and purpose back to life.
Yes Luke… To me, existence is walking blind or asleep through life not wanting to know that we all have a choice in each moment and can change how we live. True living feels like having an active role in life, being accountable for our choices and understanding that we are not the victim of life’s dealings but the creator of them.
DOn’t forget about BeIng fUn and Silly!
Thank you for sharing your very personal life journey Sonja. I feel many people can learn from such self-honesty and the approach you have towards healing in non-perfection. To me, you feel at one with the process taking place, with the unfolding and not taking yourself ahead of where you need to be. There is a real acceptance of life’s circumstances and an appreciation for those self-loving choices you continue to make and deepen – this feels very beautiful.
Love this honest blog, the understanding that no-one is perfect but that little by little through self-loving choices we bring out more of ourselves from the hiding place that we put ourselves in.
No need for CPR, just shown how to breathe it truly is amazing the practical tools Serge Benhayon shares with everyone, so we all have the opportunity to experience our own quality with-out being caught in dramas that may be happening around us
It is beautiful to read this again Sonja. The way we complicate our lives amazes me. In the past I used to think that lots of factors in my life were outside of my control, however, Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine have supported me to see that absolutely every aspect of my life is a reflection of the choices I have made. This has been hugely powerful and your story shows that I am not alone in this.
“To live my daily life in a more respectful manner towards myself and also to others.” I too Sonja have been able to show respect for myself and hence for others since becoming a Universal Medicine student. Looking back, my life was full of self-abuse in the form of total lack of self-care. Occasionally still my daughter reminds to do for myself what I do for others. But I can definitely claim more love and respect for myself these days.
Everything you have shared is so cool Sonja. I especially love this line – “Is my life perfect? No. But it is more true and I am more ME.” I can feel how gorgeous it is to accept ourselves and our imperfections.
I too love this line Leonne – it’s like a weight can be taken off my shoulders when hearing someone else not being tied down by the idea of perfection. It also feels like I’ve been given a license to be myself even more as the need to be perfect does not leave much room for being and learning about who I am.
Almost each of us has his or her own way of growing a 100 year old hedge of thorns to protect our sleep. The moment we make a choice to get ready for a wake-up-kiss, the ageless wisdom, as presented by Universal Medicine awaits, and boy oh boy does it cut through the thorns quicker than light! The choice for me was the simple decision to be more self-loving in my day-to-day life.
Striving for perfection is elusive and keeps us feeling less because of our inability to either reach our own (or others) definition of perfection, and / at least not to be able to do this consistently… It has us on a never ending cycle of never being enough. Living our life simply being ourselves – to the best of our ability – however allows us to expand, and is based on a connection to within. I’ve experienced that it’s a much more harmonious way to live being guided by my own body rather than an external focus which dictates how I should be (or think I should be).
That what we choose changes our lives, this blog shows how choosing love changes the way we are with ourselves and others.
Thank you Sonja for this very real, humble and honest sharing. Many people have also shared that their experience with esoteric healing feels like coming home, and that the sessions: ”helped me enormously to live my daily life in a more respectful manner towards myself and also to others. Life got more ordered and less extreme in the sense of stress and emotional dramas.” with the attitude of being a student of self and a student of life I am sure you will continue to learn and develop a mastery of life as loving choices bring you closer to your soul.
I love your simplicity and honesty Sonja. When we can take a step back and look at our lives without judgement or self-criticism, just simple acceptance that we are not perfect, we can begin to rebuild them. Thanks to Serge and Universal Medicine we have been blessed with awesome tools for the job.
So true Irena, well said as when we integrate the practical tools as initiated by Universal medicine ie their modalities, courses and workshops into our daily life they support us to heal our issues and hurts and thus help us make sense of human life.
Thank you for being so honest and down to earth about how you were living your life and the changes you have made since attending Universal Medicine workshops. It never fails to amaze me when I see how people have changed over the years, not only physically but in their attitude to life and all from listening to The Ageless Wisdom as presented by Serge Benhayon.
Sonja thank you for sharing your inspiring journey. I really relate to this statement: “I was involved in as much emotional drama as I could create.” Releasing the need for all the drama and emotions to somehow define and confirm my existence was a huge turning point for me, and this was made possible by the loving guidance of Universal Medicine. “As you say, Is my life perfect? No. But it is more true and I am more ME.”
From where you were in 2004 to where you are now Sonja is nothing short of amazing. Thank you for sharing so openly and honestly how your life was and how you came back to living more of who you truly are with the support from Universal Medicine.
Wow, Sonja! This is a very honest and inspiring blog. The choices you are making now is incredible. I can imagine, some of your previous addictive behaviours would have been very difficult to give up but you’ve managed to do that through making loving choices for yourself through the support of your esoteric practitioners, Universal Medicine and your commitment to life. Thank you for sharing your amazing journey.
I was very moved by your story Sonja, especially when I read this bit “We gave our relationship a chance and discovered that while it was not functioning on a level as husband and wife, we are now living together as friends and are learning to support each other with new and more loving foundations” Building a relationship rather than existing in an uncomfortable arrangement. Amazing what is possible when make the choice to fill yourself up with you.
It is true – life only begins (again) when we are feeling being ourselves.
Sonja what an awesome blog. You have so changed your life around, you’re an inspiration to all. I to have come back to life through attending Universal Medicine events and having sessions with Practioners. I no longer need to hide either.
Wonderful to read Sonja how you have come back to you again.
It took me a long time to understand what filling myself up with me actually was, but you describe it so well Sonja. The love and consideration and respect you show yourself fills you up so there is no need for props, just the joy of being you.
Lovely to re-read your blog Sonja, what stood out for me was your last paragraph “Is my life perfect? No. But it is more true and I am more ME. I still have a lot to resolve. But now I can and do feel joy. So all in all, through attending the courses and healing sessions and through my own daily choices, I have been brought back to life, and no longer keep myself hidden.” It reflects that life is not about living in perfection but actually living the true you in all that you do and are.
This sentence also stood out for me too Jade. I love Sonja’s honesty and sharing that she is choosing not to hide who she is anymore. I too can relate to hiding who I am and making choices to fill the emptiness that I felt inside me most of my life, this was before I was introduced to Universal Medicine. Like Sonja, I am not striving for a perfect life but rather, I am choosing to connect to who I am, to come out of my protective shell and to celebrate who I am.
Thank you Sonya for sharing in such frank terms , to appreciate where you are at and where you have come from and to know there is always more , has such beauty and commitment to the path of unfolding back into the love we are.
What a difference you have made in your life Sonja since you made a connection with the teachings of Serge Benhayon and also the Unimed . Practitioners May you continue to grow in Love.
Absolutely, Kristy. Sonja’s story is a strong case study and a miracle on its own. Sonja made the choices and Universal Medicine presented the truth and effects of self-case.
Very important what you have shared here. I can feel the innocence of; not needing ‘perfection’ in your life. I love the more ease you come with and see your life from, without loosing the commitment to love.
This to me is sometimes a struggle. Or I have made it to be a struggle. I have been always negative and taken down that which Is actually really awesome about myself, and see always the things in black and white. Either I was off the road or not enough. Very exhausted play. I am now learning to let myself come more together , by not needing to be perfect and living perfectly. I allowed myself to have more breath and be more real and fun, and I actually start to enjoy more of my imperfections! I have lots to learn and have already learned a lot. Never I will not appreciate the good things and choices in my life. I have made space to appreciate myself, and YES also in moments where I have still lots to learn.
Thank you Sonja for your account of how Universal Medicine has changed your life. To me this is a great example of the difference between Universal Medicine and the many new age practice and belief systems available which all promise a quick fix to life’s challenges by following a set of rules but over time nothing really changes. In contrast to this Universal Medicine teaches us to feel how our bodies react to our choices and we then can choose for ourselves what to eat how to work, how we engage with all of life. Slowly our lives change to a more loving way and we are truly transformed and the process simply continues as our awareness deepens, and all of it just makes common sense.
The honesty with which you have shared and the appreciation you have for Universal Medicine and yourself for the changes you have made are really beautiful to read. Your commitment to love is gorgeous and the changes that have come about due to your choices to be more self-loving are all remarkable.
Thanks Sonja for sharing your story. One part that stood out for me was your comment around no longer keeping yourself hidden. For me this has been a big part of my journey since becoming a student with Universal Medicine. I am learning to confidently express myself more and to not be tempted to withdraw due to fear of what others will think. The more I do this without being attached to outcomes the more I feel I am being my true self, which is worth celebrating!
It is often not until we have gifted ourselves back our own life and our breath that we can see how flat, empty and miserable we were – and that we actually considered this to be normal, to be life. What a hoodwink!
Powerful words Marcia – gifted back our own life and our breath that we can see how flat, empty and miserable we were. Once feeling and knowing this you never want to return to that lifestyle ever again.
What an amazing turn around Sonja! Thank you for sharing your story, and for being such an inspiration.
Thank you for sharing this Sonja. It continues to amaze me how being presented with simple truths can be transformative to a person’s life. Thank goodness for Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine.
So true Kristy, these changes are indeed profound and reflect the true commitment that Sonja, along with many others have made to living a true life. Truly inspiring!
I love the honesty you write with Sonja, it’s very real and relatable.
Love this bit Sonja- ‘have been brought back to life, and no longer keep myself hidden.’ I’m glad you’re no longer hidden. It was great to read your blog!
Completely agree Elizabeth
Sonja your comittment to you shines through in what you have shared. I love that you now are more real and you, even though you are not perfect!
Wow Sonja this is an amazing transformation in a relatively short time, I loved your honest account of how life was back then and how it is now. You are a true inspiration of the changes that can be put in place if we are willing to get honest and commit to taking responsibility for our life.
What a great and honest account you have shared here Sonja. I can feel how practical your approach has been in making different choices and how there is no striving for perfection – just a willingness to look at living more truthfully.
Absolutely Kristy, one of the thousands of awesome and unique stories of people claiming their amazingness and love back, and living a life full of joy! It is so great to meet all those amazing people who turned their lives around and are an inspiration for everybody to choose differently as well. Universal Medicine is one big success story that should be in the media worldwide!!
Absolutely Rachel, I agree, Universal Medicine is the Success Story that should be in the media all over the world. My own life has turned around completely since I have come across Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon and his family. Nothing and nobody else has brought such profound and true healing into my life ever.
i love your words ‘bought back to life’ Sonja as it seems to me that you were not living but existing before your were shown the way back to you and the love that you are. Beautiful.
Very cool Sonja! Only good can come from taking care of ourselves.
Thanks for sharing your story Sonja. It is another amazing testimonial of what happens when we are supported to take responsibility for our lives and connect with ourselves rather than looking outside ourselves for a quick fix or for something else to provide the solution to our problems. Universal Medicine, in my experience, never provides solutions or coping strategies but simply shows us the way to feel again the divine beings we truly are, and once we feel this again the next steps in life are always clear and obvious and simple.
Sonja as I read this I felt how open and honest you were, and how that honesty has played an important part in getting your life back on track. Very inspiring to read that if we choose another way there maybe a different outcome.
I love the way you appreciate the changes you have made whilst knowing there is no perfection. It is lovely to know that any relationship can start again on a true footing, with the intention to be about love rather than meeting needs. I, like so many women could relate to the overdoing for others to the point of exhaustion. Self-care has been key for me so that I have love within me and don’t need to exhaust myself trying to get it from others
Fantastic story of your self healing process. Its amazing how a few simple, self loving choices can make such a profound change in our lives.
Sonja, I really enjoyed reading this. I love the simple matter of fact way that you write. It is very honoring to acknowledge how much of our lives we give up on to be the rescuer. And how you have claimed yours back.
Very great story about coming back to the true you through caring for yourself.
That was lovely to read – how once you began on the path of return your life began to change and you found the real you, once you let go of the emotional drama. And finally ‘Is my life perfect? No. But it is more true and I am more me. I still have a lot to resolve. But now I can, and do feel joy’ – I so agree, it’s so lovely to let go of the need to be perfect and to feel the real me.
“Brought back to life” – with self-love, touching story Sonja, it’s as simple as this isn’t it. Life can change irrevocably with just one ingredient.
Your honesty is what is so uplifting about this blog Sonja. Not claiming to be perfect, but boy has your relationship with yourself improved out of site and so too are you relationships with others now improving. The only way is up – the more love you have in your life, the more is reflected back to you. Very real, thank you for your sharing.
Your comment is very perceptive and understanding Jo. Our relationship with ourselves of course has a direct affect on our relationships with others. It is wise to forget about perfection and address what is in front of us as best as we can, with a healthy attitude of learning.
Thank you Sonja for writing this so honestly. “I continued with the sessions which helped me enormously to live my daily life in a more respectful manner towards myself and also to others” is a very big step forward and once you take that step, there is no going back.
Thank you Sonja, the way of life that Serge Benhayon presents is about each person making a free choice and this to me is what your story shares. The Students of The Livingness inspire a way of life that is divine. Thank you for sharing the normal existence that is part of each and every student’s Livingness.
Hear, hear Doug. Revisiting this blog after a few years, I am again struck by the depth of Sonja’s honesty. And also that she celebrates the true miracle – for what else can it be called? – of where she now finds herself in her life and relationships.
Such transformation deserves sharing, and celebrating deeply, and should most certainly not be held back until we meet some crazy ideal of everything being ‘perfect’ (unattainable). Sonja has already, through her commitment, experienced many miracles in her life, if truth be told. And undoubtedly, there will be many more to come. More writing please Sonja!
Thank you Sonja for your realness here as you explain your story. You are not making it out like Universal Medicine takes away your problems and gives you a happy, rosy life that’s easy – You have changed your life dramatically because you have made the choices to work on yourself as a person, clearing out things that aren’t working and introducing things that do work. Universal Medicine does teach life skills, but it is up the the student to put into action these skills and change their life, and/or live a more true life with who they are.
Beautifully put Ariel, Universal Medicine is incredibly empowering and so many people like Sonja have been able to make choices for themselves in how to live lovingly and from a solid foundation of knowing who they are.
Thank you for sharing your story so honestly Sonja, much of which I could relate to particularly being ‘involved in as much emotional drama as I could create’ as a distraction from all that was not right in my life. Learning to take responsibility for me and my choices has turned my life around and left others the freedom to get on with theirs without my ‘help’ or interference.
I too can relate to the feeling of being brought back to life and no longer hiding, and totally agree that life is not perfect, but certainly a lot more joyful.
Thank you for sharing your story of coming back to YOU.
Lovely to read his simple, clear and honest writing Sonja. What stood out for was this line: “There was a need for me to help, but I never asked if that help was wanted!’ I do recognise this, and for me it was about feeling needed, and was a great distraction of not dealing with things in my own life.
Beautiful Sonja, ‘I have been brought back to life, and no longer keep myself hidden.’ I thank you for sharing your experiences so openly and honestly.
I take heart in your story Sonja. There is no perfection, just me living me and working on being aware of what is true and working on being present in each moment. We are made of love.
Universal Medicine has inspired us to come back to ourselves. The power lies within us.
Sometimes I try to fix things and don’t get anywhere. When we first met, Sonja, you simply expressed what you felt, which left no space for issues. That was and is a great learning for me. Thank you for your most beautiful expression.
Thank you for so openly sharing your experience with Universal Medicine Sonja and how the re-connection with your essence supported you to make loving choices and turn your life around. How healing it is that there is never any imposition by Serge Benhayon or Universal medicine about how to live, there is only ever presentations and then the choice is for a person to feel what is truth for them. The no judgement and no attachment of how people respond to the presentations is a quality I have found to be truly supportive and very refreshing. Thank you Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine for presenting another way 🙂
Thank you Sonja, beautifully and honestly expressed. I followed your steps reading your every word. I too have lived in your shoes and can relate to your journey of being good, dependant, drama and numbing out. I too through taking responsibility and self love have changed my life. I am choosing to live my life.
I love this as a living example of how easily we can change our lives, and all that it requires is a true relationship with ourselves to deeply care for ourself and make supportive choices. I feel most people struggle to bring about the changes they want in their life because they haven’t considered it’s all about developing a positive and loving relationship with themselves first, and what this exactly means and looks like. Which is everything that Universal Medicine shares!
Awesome Sonja. Thank you for delivering the absolute truth in all that you said in your article. I really loved and appreciated you sharing with such honesty. Its rather refreshing really! So many people these days seem to crave what I would call the ‘white picket fence syndrome’ and give the illusion to others that their life is ‘just perfect’ and going ‘totally to plan’. However if you scratch the surface of that perfect life, things are often not as they seem. It is just plain sad that people feel the need to pretend, fake and hide what and how they truly feel, for you will never heal what you hide. We are all human and the accumulation of how we have lived in the past. A past that may consist of many mistakes and missed opportunities with choices we have made, but nonetheless have to live the consequence of. Underneath all that though is our true potential and as you have shared Universal Medicine and its modalities, presentations and workshops provides an awesome support to unlocking and uncovering that potential in us all. We are all a work in progress and wanting to evolve. The moment we accept that fact and that our imperfections are not actually us, you see your world with different eyes and the whole world opens up. Thank you again Sonja, I was really inspired by what you have shared.
Your journey has been a difficult one. I know. I stopped in the moment you felt you again. I know how this feels. There is nothing like this. Only a true feeling of coming home makes one realise how incomplete and therefore difficult life was up to then.
Amazing journey Sonja – I smiled when you mentioned having your first session with an esoteric practitioner that for me too was the beginning of my (return) journey – thank you for this sharing.
Coming back to Life/Love, not perfect but how different it feels. Thank you for sharing your learning and your letting go.
Thank you Sonja. I particularly love your last sentence. To be brought back to life and to start to really enjoy life is something I have also experienced through the help and inspiration of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine.
A testimony to the fact that Truth once met can change lives when we choose to choose it.
Thank you Sonja, I loved your words ” I have been brought back to life and no longer keep myself hidden.”
Well said Jade, with the loving support of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine we have all made changes to our lives that are truly amazing. Thank you Sonja for expressing how you were brought back to life – your loving choices will inspire many around you.
Hi Sonja, the way you write is so honest and real, as in life we have all chosen times to hide in emotion and drama, not knowing how to connect to ourselves (or even really knowing this is a possibility). It is amazing how through Universal medicine so many have been brought back to life, as what is presented is that we can heal ourselves, that we are worth loving and that our true medicine is the way we live (not in perfection, but in a true and loving way). Now that is something that is definitely worth writing about.
Hi Sonja, I find your story interesting and the last sentence so, so lovely: “I have been brought back to life, and no longer keep myself hidden.” I relate to that and am only just realising how much the world misses out by me staying hidden. There is always more to reveal and expand back to. Thank you.
A very honest sharing Sonja. One of your comments was that although your life isn’t perfect you “… can and do feel joy.” The wonderful thing to remember is that the deeper you go with your connection, the more joy you will experience.
Very inspiring Sonja. The choices you have made to bring love into your life seems to have created a true turning point for you. Here is a great story, of how Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine and all that they represent, have made it possible for you to take true, deep care of yourself and others, and have your marriage brought back from separation. Interestingly stories like these (and there are many) have been conveniently ignored by those who attempt to bring Serge and Universal Medicine down.
This blog is so powerful and profound Sonja. You are saying so much in such few words.
The changes you have made are incredible considering how you used to live. You say –
“I was involved in as much emotional drama as I could create.” – it takes courage to share this and be so honest. It also takes true responsibility to address this and make changes which you clearly have.
I am amazed at the changes I have made in my relationship with myself, my husband and my family since I attended my first workshop in 2005.
I do my best to take time out just to Appreciate how far I have come and how content I am in my life now and that feeling of contentment is there every single day, no matter what challenges I have to deal with. I know I am equipped because I have the teachings of Universal Medicine which most definitely have the answers for me in my life.
It is simple, easy and practical and thats why I have stayed with it.
Thank you for your honest sharing Sonja. If one session can make such a turn, what power do we hold in our hands to make our lives truly vibrant and joyful.
I too loved the simple, straightforward and honest way you expressed.
What a turnaround!
Sonya when I first started reading your blog I started to question did I write this as my life journey has been very similar. You ended the blog with and I quote ~ “So all in all, through attending the courses and healing sessions and through my own daily choices, I have been brought back to life, and no longer keep myself hidden”. Absolutely can agree with that as through the teachings of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine I now no longer live desperately seeking recognition, acceptance nor approval. Now my life is full with what love truly is and “oh what a feeling that is “. Love Me Love Life Love everything ❤
My hat goes of to you, by having the willingness to explore and look at what is needed to rebuild a life of love for you and those around you, you inspire all
I love your simple honesty in your article and the detailed steps that you have been taking in your life Sonja. You sharing your 1st experience of Esoteric Healing is exquisite – how wonderful that you allowed yourself to feel the sadness and then let it go. That’s when we realise that we are not that sadness, we just hold on to it. When I read articles such as yours I feel the blessing of what Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine are bringing forth for all.
Thanks Sonja, very real and inspiring. Small steps and self discovery.
I love how you say, “Since then I have become a student of Universal Medicine and a student of my soul,” particularly ‘a student of my soul’. Once we do that we have true purpose and a true guide to support us so that we do not need the external crutches to fill our feelings of emptiness but instead come to realise we are already complete in ourselves.