539 thoughts on “Living From Love, Not Hurt”

1. I too have searched out there instead of within and even though I haven’t perfected it, I discover more and more about these false beliefs and question them, are they the truth or another falsity handed down to me?
   The more I do this, the more I feel the true essence emerging through, I’m learning to observe more of this within myself, then it assists me to bring understanding in others but also reflect this to them without imposing.

2. Wow Julie, you have really turned your life around. Instead of drinking from the muddy polluted waters of the stagnant lake, you have committed to drinking from the pristine font of the waters of Life.

3. When we begin to explore our relationship with who we are within, the love we are in essence, we soon realise that it requires no effort at all to be ourselves, and in fact can feel how it requires much more effort to resist and deny it.

4. When we bury our hurts we end up living a life of protection in order not to feel the hurts we have, yet all the time we do this we are stopping ourselves from living the love we truly are, and when we let go of those hurts and live from our essence we wonder why we held on to them for so long.

5. “Our Essence, you see, is the love we all seek,” And we have all been seeking in the wrong place until we come back to feel the love of our inner-most essence.

6. I have come to the understanding that hurts that we hold onto or have buried, keep us locked away from who we truly are. And it is through healing these hurts that we have ingested, that allows us to reconnect and feel the true beauty of who we are, and from there, start the journey back to who we truly are at last.

7. I love the title of this blog and how it reflects the simplicity of the choice we can make every day and how deeply this can impact how our day is and how we are with others.

8. ‘Being in a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with myself allows for a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with everyone else.’ Absolutely the relationship with ourselves is crucial to how we are with others and investing time in exploring and falling in love with ourselves may not be currently the accepted norm but has most definitely supported me to let go of my many layers of protection and build loving and confirming relationships with others in many areas of my life.

9. yes when we don’t deal with our hurts then they take over and before we know it, everything we do seems to come from these hurts. But this is a simple inversion of the truth that we have an essence, which is simply and purely love, and not one ounce of hurt resides there.

10. Julie thanks for this ‘ouch moment’
    “These hurts, I have further come to understand, have been nothing more than excuses to justify not living in the fullness of this Essence.”
    I personally get so much from reading all the blogs that are published because there is so much to re learn about how we hide from our own innate essence making all sorts of excuses as to why we cannot take responsibility to look after ourselves and instead indulge in foods and liquids that further the indulgence and numb our bodies so that we cannot feel the harm we do to them. Why is it we withhold our natural birthright from ourselves and instead look to other to supply what we won’t give to ourselves? This makes no sense to me

11. A brilliant exposure of that fact that we seem to have our commitments the wrong way round. As you say Julie If we can be so “committed to drugs, alcohol, overeating, drinking caffeine, lack of exercise, judgment, blame, lack of self-worth, jealousy and comparison, with which I have excelled in my life, I now dedicate that same commitment to living every day from my innermost.”

12. Letting go of chasing the dream/ideals outside yourself began for me by being humbled by my body which could no longer take this kind of treatment. It then was a slow process of building care for myself back into my norm, like a parent caring for a child. It keeps evolving now but as Julie says, it always has its foundation in your relationship with yourself.

13. “Our Essence… is the love we all seek.” So simple and profound in their beauty of telling a gigantic truth, these words are a gift to read.

14. While living from hurt rather than Love there will be conflict and inevitably violence in the home, which then spread out into national and global. It is vital for the health and evolution of the human race that we deal with our hurts and heal them.

    1. It is vital, I agree Lyndy – as otherwise we are continuing to allow abuse to be considered ‘normal’ which as we can see by the state of outplay and the nature of our relationship in the world today is it not, nor is it serving us well at all.

       1. Absolutely Carola. Over 400 years ago, Shakespeare presented the first performance of ‘The Taming of the Shrew’ which magnified the battle of the sexes, the accepted norm of domestic abuse, to the view of an Elizabethan audience. It is gobsmacking that we are still engaged in this wounding, damaging drama.

15. Many of us tell ourselves we are no good at commitment and yet we are master of it. It’s just what we have been committing to that’s caused the problem e.g. overeating, being emotional, unmotivated, lacking self worth, drive, drugs etc… This shows me that there is no commitment issue – just a matter of choosing to commit to different things that support e.g. being caring and loving, eating well, rest etc. instead of those things that don’t.

16. It is true we tell ourselves that we cannot commit to life in full and yet we commit very strongly to the things that do not work and manage to do them for lifetimes.

17. Julie thank you for my ‘ouch’ this morning
    “These hurts, I have further come to understand, have been nothing more than excuses to justify not living in the fullness of this Essence.”
    From this sentence I have to be honest enough to say to myself that I am playing this game too. And this is also a huge exposure of the type of energy we are using to keep ourselves small, rather than admit there is a grandness that we all are evolving back to and this is a completely different energy that we are not logging into.

18. This is a pretty cool revelation ‘These hurts, I have further come to understand, have been nothing more than excuses to justify not living in the fullness of this Essence’. As we as this ‘But it isn’t ‘out there’ – it’s inside us, solidly, continuously, bigger and grander than anything this world has to offer’ Gosh if we came to truly understood these things alone WOW what a difference in the world it would be. And all of this comes down to ‘how we are with ourselves in each moment’.

19. I love the commitment of waking up and just being up for life, knowing there are a lot to deal with but we are ready for it, because dealing with everything allows us to be in life, not away from it or on the periphery. Committing to life deeply we truly live on earth and to not needing to be here one day.

20. I love the claiming that I can feel in these words. “But it isn’t ‘out there’ – it’s inside us, solidly, continuously, bigger and grander than anything this world has to offer”. I so agree with you Julie, that there is nothing that compares or that we want more than to feel and be with our essence.

21. It’s such a go-to pattern – to let yucky energy in and then try to numb out how this feels. It’s like having too many drinks and keeping on drinking, or feeling full and carrying on eating. Allowing myself to feel what energies I’ve let into my body – sympathy, anger, frustration etc, allows me to see just how familiar my hurts are. The hurts have particular flavours whose familiarity I seek as a comfort even if they come with harmful consequences not just physically but harm my relationships. Living from my essence is a completely different way from which to live that is divinely wise.

22. I love your description of the essence that we truly are Julie. We cannot fathom our own grandness but we can take steps to live it.

23. That bit about work…we are constantly inviting others to match the energy we are in, it’s like cell osmosis in a way but with energetic quality which is brought through how we live. Just by being me and focusing on my essence others have the chance to align and bring balance or not. Thats pretty cool.

24. I was told many years ago that when we are born we are given the grace to be able to feel everything and know everything. Is it no wonder that for most of us seeing babies and young toddlers catch at our hearts, because somewhere we too had that joy and innocence they possess naturally. How different life would be if we fostered that yumminess that children have so that they don’t feel they have to give it up in order to fit in with family life and school. I know a few teenagers that have been actively encouraged to hold onto what they know to be true in spite of society encouraging them to enjoin and lose themselves in the ‘teenage’ scene. They are super kind, gentle, very responsible, hard working young men and woman and it is an absolute please to be around them and know them. They are so full of life and vitality which you don’t see so much any more in anyone.

    1. Yes, we so do a disservice to our teenagers and society when we pass off the behaviour’s of teenagers who are self-abusive, verbally abusive and struggling with life as ‘normal’ teenage behaviour. We don’t offer loving guidance and boundaries that support them to respect themselves and us all so we see behaviour that reflects this lack of love on our part. It’s wonderful to know teenagers who are supported to stay true to who they truly are and a joy to be around them.

25. We can hold ourselves to ransom for our perceived ‘failings’ which in the end just distracts us from the otherwise innate and whole love that we are.

26. We have to understand that it is holding onto hurts that make us rely on or go to those behaviors that are detrimental to our health and wellbeing, the moment we bring awareness to this and are willing to let go of that which is in the past and no longer belongs in our bodies the more we create space to live from the essence of who we truly are. And that is a blessing for all.

27. Absorbing another’s emotions is poison to the body. Choosing to honour our selves and stay connected to our essence allows for us to observe what is going on and get a handle on the situation. From this understanding, staying with ourselves, we can maintain an equilibrium and not get caught up in the complications that could otherwise ensue. In a sense it is about getting ourselves out of the way and coming from a place of love.

28. To let go of the search outside ourselves requires us to become open to the possibility that it’s not out there but within us. This is a hard nut to crack with all the prince charming, happy ever after, we have been drip fed since birth. What started the turnaround for me was feeling a glimpse of my essence and knowing that was what I missed.

29. When we are willing to be honest with ourselves we will discover the truth, that who we are within is far greater that any hurt that we play into. When we live from our love we meet another in honor of the essence we all are within, as such offering true connection as we develop real relationships.

30. “In my experience, the steps to let go of this searching and allow what is inside to flourish have begun with my relationship with myself ” Letting go of the searching outside – something I too excelled in for many years – feels the simplest way to return back to the true me. ‘The kingdom of God is inside you’ is even a truth found in the bible.

31. I have discovered that when I finally let go of my hurts that I had been using as a protection against the world that there was indeed something very special about me. This feeling in my body I could not deny. And I came to the understanding that this was my essence, that it had been there all the time but I had buried it underneath all the hurts which I had stacked on top and my hurts were what I had been concentrating on; they took all my attention. Reconnecting back to me, back to my essence, is like coming home after being away for a long time and feeling how familiar everything is and how natural it is to just be me.

32. We certainly do put a lot of energy into things that don’t support us – as you have listed and shared here – I did all of those things not to feel what was missing and try to fill it with something else. But what a lot of energy that is that can go towards self loving choices.

    1. I agree HM – it sure does highlight just how natural and freeing it is for us to live from love – who we innately are.

33. Living life from a place of how I feel despite what the world tells me I should be doing or what would make me accepted, is a choice from a strong connection with ourselves, this is our livingness of the love felt within and the process of expressing it honestly on the outside. We may feel a bit different from others, but our choice to live from a connected body is a reflection many are thirsting to see and feel.

34. ‘Being in a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with myself allows for a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with everyone else.’ This is beautiful Julie; we make space for all our relationships to be more true when we build this deeper relationship with ourselves – such a powerful flow on effect that is felt by everyone.

35. This is a very beautiful example that we haver already everything that we need, we only need to tap into it and stop chasing all the ideas and images about life that we have.

36. I love how you have presented that it always is a commitment whether that is with abuse or with love. We are having a relationship with something. And the question is what with.

37. Nothings ever too hard I am understanding, but that doesn’t stop me throwing in the towel and running for the cupboard sometimes. But recently I have started a self talk with myself that really did work when I was in a state, not wanting to feel something and going into a complete tantrum like a three year old. Was that everything in life moves, changes and shifts, even hurts are not as static or solid or rigid as we give the power of belief and illusion to them. In a years time what hurts me now will be a distant memory. And as I reminded myself of this, and asked what my responsibility was, the hurt and the issue dissipated. And this happens so often, once the hurt has been nominated, it moves and 10 minutes, 30 minutes later it’s like it never existed yet was being held onto for years.

38. And the simple truth of it is that it does take commitment… And true commitment starts with the honouring of ourselves first and foremost.

39. How easily I forget sometimes the magnitude of my essence and how easy it is to come back to it each and every time, simply by choice.

40. The real, raw And honest truth – that we are everything we have ever sought for and that it is only a simple return to that, forget all the foolishness we have made life to be, and start to re-know this fact and you safe yourself very dearly and trustfully lovingly.

41. I love the Livingness 1 workshop, the last time I attended it felt so powerful to feel my own love and power of that love held deep within and feel the same love equally in everyone that attended the course that day, knowing that we as humanity are that love.

42. Commitment is commitment, no matter what you choose to give your Will to, to focus on, good or bad, its commitment. I love that you have reminded me of this because sometimes I think things get too hard but I never gave up when I was trashing myself back in the old days and so, I should be extremely impressed that I am able to continue to heal, by choice, my old patterns.

43. Thank you for demonstrating how simple and gorgeous life can be when we choose to take responsibility.

44. Good point – seeing we already have a commitment to all the things that undermine and sabotage us, how about committing to what is true and thus supports us to live joyfully and in harmony.

45. What a simple, powerful and wise message; live from love not our hurts. As you have suggested Julie we do this by allowing what is inside, our true essence, to flourish.

46. I know that when I carry my body in the hurts then I don’t see things clearly, I see them from the protection and so I see a skewed version of things not the reality of what is going on and then I often react or personalise things and am not able to read situations clearly as they are tainted by my hurts.

47. You are right Julie – it isn’t ‘too hard’ at all for we work harder in not being this Essence in truth. And to be honest, even if it is hard work, it is worth every moment along the way.

48. Julie what you say is so true, we put such effort into
    “drugs, alcohol, overeating, drinking caffeine, lack of exercise, judgment, blame, lack of self-worth, jealousy and comparison, with which I have excelled in my life, I now dedicate that same commitment to living every day from my innermost.”
    I like you I now give myself the commitment to really look after myself and take myself into consideration all the time and it’s paying off because I can actually feel this other part of me that is truly beautiful to feel and now, of course, I’m wondering why did I leave it until my 60’s to discover this other part of me as you say my essence. Well my excuse is that I didn’t meet Serge Benhayon until my 50’s and its taken 10 years to let go of my own resistance to me! How daft is that!!

49. It is a choice to either stay caught in hurt and reaction or to make love one´s priority. Just the intention of making life about love means a change of game. As soon as we turn towards love, love ‘turns towards’ us, ie. we give love permission to come our way and enter. Without such openness love is still at offer but we will tend to be blind and closed off and hence ignorant to it while we are focused on being protected and avoiding to get hurt.

50. We have identified with our hurts so much that when we seek love we actually don´t know anymore what love truly is, ie the version of love we will settle for is not true love at all but an emotional substitute that will assure that we don´t need to open up again to what we actually are longing for as it would require to let the guard down and face our hurts, take responsibility and heal. As long as we are not willing to go there we will seek love outside and won’t be able to reconnect to the abundance of love within.

51. Like day and night, either living from hurt and reaction or the love that resides within, is the difference of how life looks like and one´s whole approach to and relationship with every aspect of life. As every type of energy seeks more of itself so does hurt look for confirmation to stay in the hurt and protecting attitudes and so does love, resonating with and magnetically pulling more love. The choice is ours, what posture do we take, in every moment another choice confirming itself.

52. What I love about the Universal Medicine workshops is that it does not matter if we have attended them before or not, you still get so much out of them. I recall how I used to wonder why some people repeated workshops, and then one year I decided to repeat a Level 1 Healing workshop – I wanted to support any new people who were doing it for the first time. When I attended the workshop, even though I was somewhat familiar with the techniques we learned, because Serge presents each workshop from a different angle and with a different ‘twist’, it was like I was attending a brand new work shop – I was delighted! This is similar to Serge’s books where there are so many layers of blessings that one can receive – each time that you read a book of his, there is something different you get from them and it is almost like reading a brand new book!

53. Nothing in this world can deliver what we truly want – but it does a great job and giving us everything to distract us away from the fact that everything we seek is already within and we already are that everything.

54. A gorgeous reminder of what love is and what is not. And so our hurts are just showing us where we have not been loving. Thank you Julie.. We need to come back to who we are and need to live the love instantly.

55. Exactly Julie. The same dedication that we use to take ourselves off- track and then to hold ourselves together with can be used to choosing wisely and lovingly.

    1. Love your point Lyndy! Dedication can be strong for us, but we must ask – dedication to what? Dedication is certainly our strength when we follow the compass of our inner hearts.

56. Living from love dissipates any hurts we hold onto that taint our expression of love with all others.

57. Embarking in developing our relationship with self is forever ongoing where there is no room for self-judgment or lack of trust only the absoluteness of our connection to the divine.

58. When we are driven by our hurts and imperfections we get taken on a ride of deception and distraction that fails to address the root cause of these same hurts.

59. There is a false belief that love is an on off switch. That a momentum of not living love for ages can just turn on a switch to suddenly have a body full of love. Whilst we can make a committed choice to return to love, love is a process and a forever unfoldment. Every choice of being love builds the next choice. Wanting ourselves to be perfect in love is recognition. Wanting to change things all for the best without wanting to deal with all of our past choices is impossible. Just start to be love and live this in our moments of awareness, rather than focusing of what we have missed in love. Be love. Be love. Be love.

60. The Livingness 1 course by Serge Benhayon is my favourite course, it’s the foundation of love, the essence of who we all are that we have stepped away from, and returning to that essence is what brings the joy back into life. No flat screen TV, cocktail, overseas holiday, or other supposed apex of human living can fill the void of simply living our true selves again. What Serge is offering is truly a gift. A very beautiful course to attend.

61. Thank you for reminding me how simple our choices are. Essence or hurts – it really is that simple.

62. Such a simple yet powerful message here Julie, that being to live our lives from love and truth rather than hurts and playing ‘Pollyanna’.

63. Julie, What I have come to understand is that the hurts that we carry colour the world that we then perceive and for most of us I feel that we reduce ourselves so not to get hurt again. We putting a ‘sticky plaster’ over the hurt to protect it but it never heals, the wound is always seeping and raw.
    If we can through the Universal Medicine workshops and healing modalities heal the hurts that we all carry then our lives will change. I know this for a fact as mine has, the more I am prepared to look at what is actually hurting me and heal, the more I want to be active and fully engaged in life and not hide away in the shadows.

64. Love what you write here. Our essence is grand it is only our choice to live from it or not. To let go of our hurts and protections is not always simple but ultimately very rewarding.

    1. I am discovering that what you say is true Benkt when we let go of our hurts the whole body expands and our natural essence starts flowing again, it’s as though we are releasing the flood gates of a dam and it is such a wonderful feeling in the body as there is such warmth accompanying the flow too.

65. I love that life is ever unfolding and continue to presents to us what is needed (and the support) to evolve in any given moment. It is then up to us to live in a way that sees the gifts (and the support) and accepts them.

66. Yes, there is no end point, like we finally make it and have a great relationship with ourselves. We are evolving all the time, or at least the potential is there, so with a commitment like yours that is ongoing we gradually let go of the hurts and make space for more love in our bodies and in our lives.

67. Living from Love not hurt, is the only way to go. This ceaseless need we have to get away form the pain we carry, through using a multitude of ways of numbing and distracting, can simply be addressed by facing our hurts , being honest about them and dealing with them. Once the hurts are out of the way the Love flows in to fill the space.

68. We lay so many expectations on ourselves, when we fail to fulfil those expectations we feel like we have failed and we eat things in order to numb us from that feeling, through Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine I have learnt that there is a way to live without expectation, and by connecting to our inner knowing we know exactly what to eat to stay connected and live a life that is not dictated by expectations but guided by an inner knowing of what’s next.

69. ‘Being in a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with myself allows for a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with everyone else.” so true and requires us to work on this in every moment of the day a constant connection to our essence.

70. I have made many excuses to not live in the fullness of my essence, one of them being ‘it’s too hard’. Recently I went to an old friend’s birthday party and there were many people I hadn’t seen in years attending the party. It dawned on me that the choices I have been making and the choices they have been making are like chalk and cheese. No one said anything to me about how stunning I looked but they didn’t have to, the jealousy coming from them was immense. They did not want me there reflecting to them a different way to live and for my part I really need to start appreciating that I have actually chosen to walk back and reconnect to myself and the truth I come from. This would never have been possible without the absolute support from the Benhayon family and the Universal Medicine practitioners.

    1. I can totally relate to what you have shared Mary having experienced the same many times over the last few years. I used to feel quite puzzled that no one commented as I knew how amazing I looked, but then I began to observe the silent reactions and could see that what I was reflecting was way too exposing for them and often the jealousy and judgment coming my way was huge. These days I do not go looking for anything from others but when a compliment does come I can feel how honest it is and that the person is totally accepting of me as I am.

71. We all do know deep down that there is more to who we are, more to life. It is only we that choose to live less than the Soulfulness that is available for us to live through our connection to our essence. As the more we listen to that inner-knowing the more will be guided to explore and discover the wonders we naturally already are within. For the love we seek is only truly found and known through being who we truly are.

72. You are absolutely correct, Julie, that what Serge Benhayon presents is no Pollyanna approach to life but a practical, down-to-earth realistic way of living that is healing, fulfilling and successful as it is the Truth.

73. Thank you Julie for sharing the great light-bulb moment that you had and for sharing how you have been putting this clarity into action – steadily throughout your daily life and learning along the way, without perfection.

74. It’s an interesting premise isn’t it that it’s taken commitment and dedication to feel bad, self neglect, and make consistent unhealthy choices, and that we can take that same commitment to dedicate ourselves to living from love.

75. We can be so committed to self abuse and spend lots of time searching ‘out there’ for anything to fulfill us all the time missing out the beauty and essence we all have within. Taking the steps to reconnect to our essence allows the self abuse to eventually fall away and we then get to experience the simple joys and love that continually surrounds us.

76. Indeed Julie, being able to relate to and be inspired by the teachings of Serge Benhayon, knocks out the Pollyanna approach – one of the most subtle consciousnesses used to grab those of us who imagine that we are nice and harmless but are in fact living an illusion.

77. It’s great to take the understanding of hurt and self-abuse even deeper and understand that it is something we may willingly and stubbornly choose as a way of resisting the step to a greater level of responsibility and awareness. Once I have begun to understand and see how this works, the hold of those patterns is cracked – and now seemingly for the first time in a long time I truly have the freedom to choose.

78. “… But it isn’t ‘out there’ – it’s inside us, solidly, continuously, bigger and grander than anything this world has to offer. Take the most amazing sunset/sunrise you have ever seen, the most delicious food you have ever eaten, the joy felt looking into a new love’s eyes, the miracle of childbirth or simply the joy of a child and multiply it by a gazillion… that is our esoteric Essence…” First lesson 101, is to understand what our essence is, and here you have done this exactly. So from this point onwards we have a foundation and point of reference to recognise that we don’t put ‘the cart in front of the horse’ anymore!… it all starts with self-love.

79. This is really great – I have just recently realised how much of my clothing had been bought in order to make up for something lacking from my life or in me. But this something I can only find on the inside, it is something that no piece of jewellery or pair of shoes or dress can ever make up for. Things on the outer can at best confirm what is already felt and claimed within and that confirmation works both ways, applies to the lack and the richness equally.

80. When I’m seeking another to come in and be responsible for me or with me I’m missing my connection to the essence of my own power and truth. This instigates an instant disconnection to my body, which hurts on a physical level. It’s getting simpler to go back ask honestly understand why I’m seeking clarity ‘out there’ rather than with-in.

81. I love at the end how you point our we have so much commitment to blame, judgement, over-eating, not moving forward, not supporting ourselves, not supporting other people – imagine ALL that commitment in the opposite direction… Life would be phenomenal.

82. Thank you Julie for so honestly sharing what you have come to know and experience, it is so simple, it is not out there but it lives inside of us, it is our divine essence that we can connect to at anytime .

83. It is so true that the deeper one develops a relationship with oneself, relationships with others also deepen.

84. “Being in a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with myself allows for a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with everyone else.” Observing this unfold is like a miracle as you get to feel and experience the true love of people in all areas of your life, no longer life seems to be hard and cruel but the love available to all is experienced more than ever before.

85. “deep, deep down, we all know it’s somewhere” and when we connect to our inner-most where love is waiting for us we reconnect to the Divine essence of who we are and know that that somewhere is inside us.

86. The ‘excelling at the commitment to what is loveless’ is heavily entrenched within us. However, the tools of the Ageless Wisdom that Serge Benhayon presents are greater than anything we have succumbed to and chosen in the past – it is just for us to persevere and consistently choose to use them.

87. The commitment to all the unloving self harming and abusive things we choose in life requires an enormous effort. It’s so funny because I’ve always seen it as the other way around, believing that caring and looking after myself was such an effort… yes it may be to start with, after choosing the other for so long… but in truth it is natural? It shows how far away we have walked from what we know innately from our inner-most.

88. A very timely read as it reinforces the fact that we always have a choice.

89. The more I have everything I ‘want’ the easier it is for me to feel that nothing outside of me can bring me the love I seek. I’ve had trouble believing this in the past but now I know it from lived experience.

90. When you live with hurts it’s hard to fathom that there can be another way round. Still we feel that there is more to life and unfortunately there are many pitfalls that can help us feel a bit better but usually it’s quite short lived. When we feel how it feels letting go of old hurts and patterns it’s like a whole new world opens up. It’s not really it’s just that we experience life without the glasses that before fogged our eyesight.

91. What would happen if I truly committed to me, to living my life from my innermost and dropped my commitments to lack of self worth, lack of knowing, overeating, judgement, comparison and jealousy? Even just considering a life this way for a moment leaves me feeling inspired and lighter.

92. I love that, it’s just a matter of commitment, for if we can commit easily to one or many things in our life, it’s showing us we can commit to all very easily. It’s just a matter of choice – what’s more important – our issues or woes, another bit of cake or, people and humanity.

93. Not going into those old patterns of hurt is essential for knowing the amazing depth of love that we are.

94. The ‘out there’ belief is one of our biggest down falls. So many other beliefs stem from this place because we neglect the fact that everything is already within. It makes so much sense about our fascination with getting to outer space and spending squillions of dollars in the process, the constant search is expensive and exhausting!

95. Our hurts are our armour to protect us from feeling that we are grand, divine lights, equal to god, who have chosen to not live as such and thus live a lie. The beliefs and ideals of what we should be, how life and others are/should be we hold as truth are lies. Until reading this blog I never put this together as simply as it is. Thank you Julie.

96. I was considering how committed I was to self loathing, I had an almost unblemished track record when it came to putting myself down daily. So really it makes sense that I should be able to apply this proven dedication and consistency of daily put downs… to building a body of love and appreciation?
    If we are able to approach change with a little fun and knowing that we are able to do it.

97. A very obtainable proposition, living from the natural love that we are

98. Thank you Julie for a beautiful sharing, I love these words, this is where it all begins “Being in a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with myself allows for a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with everyone else.” we can only give out what we first give to ourselves, when we accept that love is who we are, then this is what we give out to others.

99. If you are under pressure, in a rut, not feeling great, looking for answers, confused, injured, depressed, bored with life, stale or just for no reason, we all should attend at least one course from Universal Medicine. Just this alone gave me so much understanding as to why things are like they are. We are never taught or shown how connected the world is and grow up thinking, this is how it is. Life can be very different and the choice is always ours. So we can sit back and be critical or we can be active in how we are. Everything in our life is a reflection for us, we don’t have to listen but through this listening you will begin to see more of how things can be. We don’t have to take the ‘hand that life has dealt us’, we can take an active role in how we move into the world and see how this unlocks so so much. Universal Medicine delivers this time and time again, connection to more of what and who we truly are through living, and not just a feel good for five minutes.

    1. ‘Life can be very different……’ As I read this I felt how different my life has become and that I don’t stop very often to feel how my life would have been had it not been for Universal Medicine. The changes have been profound and I can feel how the changes I have made are only just the beginning.

100. Each time I read this the part that stands out is “The commitment to drugs, alcohol, overeating, drinking caffeine, lack of exercise, judgment, blame, lack of self-worth, jealousy and comparison, with which I have excelled in my life, I now dedicate that same commitment to living every day from my innermost.” I had never considered if there is a commitment to living in a self destructive way we are completely able to commit to loving ourselves with equal if not more commitment. It feels though that the destructive way requires effort and force whereas living lovingly actually feels more natural so why do we ever think this would be hard?

101. Thank you Julie you raise some really great points here, it is interesting how we can put so much energy into behaviours that take us away from our essence. The more I build and deepen the relationship with myself, I notice I am less inclined to do or eat something that will lessen this connection within me, this is a work in progress of course and it is the consistency of making loving choices that supports me with this.

102. I love how you say this Julie – “Our Essence, you see, is the love we all seek, searching all corners of the globe, stuck in the belief that it’s ‘out there’…” – starting from a place of knowing that our essence is love and that all we need to do is re-connect with it and express from that source makes a big difference to thinking that we are incomplete and need to get something from outside of us to make us whole.

103. Hi Julie, I loved reading this blog, it’s very honest and confirmed what I know to be true. We all can choose to re-connect to our inner heart and develop a relationship more loving than words can describe. Thank you

104. What you have expressed here Julie, for me, sums up the key to living a joyous, harmonious and loving life; with lots of learning opportunities along the way this is how I commit to live;
     “Being in a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with myself allows for a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with everyone else.”

105. I notice too that it can be easy to lose our own connection and get pulled into other people’s stuff. I love Serge’s presentations on movement and how we can’t think our way out of a situation- we need to change our movements to change our thoughts.

106. I used to have this image of getting to a place of finding what I had been looking for and that would be the end of seeking – so it was quite hard for me to accept that it actually was a choice made at every moment and I was not to rest on my laurels ever after.

107. This is where it is for all of us … the relationship we have with ourselves. We all have a relationship with ourselves only what type? Abusive, disregarding or self-loving and caring? It is time to get back to the basics as you have shared ‘This is my life on a daily basis, how I am with myself in each and every moment. It’s about the choices I make when I get out of bed in the morning and how I place my feet on the floor; when I feel what to eat instead of eating what I feel,’ This is where true change begins ✨

108. Only by building this foundation of love for self can we then share this with another, ‘Being in a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with myself allows for a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with everyone else.’

109. I now know what ‘Pollyanna’ means (just looked it up!) and although there is an incredible sweetness to Serge Benhayon it isn’t all sweetness and light, with Serge there is also zero holding back in saying how it truly is and as you have said ‘simply the reality of the truth’.

     I love this, this should be slogans on billboards everywhere reminding everyone the gorgeousness of who we truly are as well as a reminder that we have an essence and to connect to it! .. ‘But it isn’t ‘out there’ – it’s inside us, solidly, continuously, bigger and grander than anything this world has to offer. Take the most amazing sunset/sunrise you have ever seen, the most delicious food you have ever eaten, the joy felt looking into a new love’s eyes, the miracle of childbirth or simply the joy of a child and multiply it by a gazillion… that is our esoteric Essence.’ Stunning ✨

110. What we may not appreciate is that it takes a lot of effort to not live who we truly are; we’ve had to invent foods and movements and behaviours that are so far from loving – how crazy is it that we can take natures resources and create chocolates and sweets and fast foods? Incredible when you think about the effort that goes into that when it is so far from being supportive. So perhaps it isn’t that much of a leap to start living who we are, perhaps we have not considered the amount of wasted energy that living from our hurts allows, and to really sit and feel this brings with it the realisation that to choose love is simple.

111. We look everywhere for love, we make choices that keep us far from love, yet love is our essence it is there with us everyday, we only have to choose it for ourselves and from that choice it changes everything.

112. Every time I attend a presentation or workshop by Serge Benhayon I am inspired to live life in a even more truthful way – it is absolutely amazing what he presents and I agree with you in all that you shared.

113. This makes so much sense and blows ‘the life is too much of a struggle thoughts’ right out of the water. We already commit to all of those things you mentioned Nicole and we know they do not work, but it just never occurs to us to question our behaviours which do not work. What you have given us is an insight into a way of life that does work.

114. I have just had a week where what I have chosen and the consequences have been clearly seen – when I do not commit to living from my essence it feels uncomfortable in the body afterwards – the momentary ‘comfort’ or ‘pleasure’ derived from an ill-choice does not compute with the ill-effects that last much longer.

115. :…Being in a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with myself allows for a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with everyone else…” The medicinal effect of self-love and self-care are beyond measure, as it does not only take care of one, but takes care of many.

116. Such a valid and valuable point to make Julie, that we choose to put our energy into how we spend our day and it can either be energy from our innermost or not, “The commitment to drugs, alcohol, overeating, drinking caffeine, lack of exercise, judgment, blame, lack of self-worth, jealousy and comparison, with which I have excelled in my life, I now dedicate that same commitment to living every day from my innermost”

117. If we remembered more our choices than our hurts we’d soon realize that we don’t get hurt, we choose to get hurt.

118. Life can be so simple if we make it about living from our essence. There is no need for struggle, indecisiveness, loneliness or keeping track who we think we need to be – for the essence of who we are is our natural and most honest navigator to life we could ever ask for.

119. I’ve been, and sometimes still am in the mentality of ‘it’s all too hard’ – but the reality is, like you’ve expressed Julie, that I’ve been so committed to not being myself that all I need to do is switch it around. Instead of over eating – just eating enough, instead of checking out I can choose to be present, instead of doing what I think someone wants me to do, I can do what I feel needs doing, instead of wearing what others may like, I can wear what I Love!

120. Making each movement about love changes everything. Moving in a way that honours our body honours everyone. Moving from hurt heralds more hurt. It is quite simple really.

121. We live in a world where there is always and end point, the finish line, the degree completed, the race finished, our goal to lose 10lbs achieved etc. This part of your blog stood out this morning – “This is not something that I have suddenly ‘got’ and am now sitting pretty. This is my life on a daily basis, how I am with myself in each and every moment.” It struck me that I can look for an end point, some confirmation that I have ‘got it’ and can now have a break, rather than it being a choice about how I choose to live – which is ongoing.

122. Julie what you share here is a choice. A choice we all have, to say; ‘do I get everything out of what’s around me, or am I willing to look deeper than that and be honest’ – the fact is – when we are honest we can see that our way of living is not just for us, we are a reflection to others. We are all walking reflections, and to have lived in a way where we have the comforts of the exterior but are willing to say ‘I know there is more’, is huge. It requires a humbleness and a deep honesty. For when we live from our essence – everyone gets to feel this, and we become an inspiration for another who might be feeling how we once were. It is responsibility of course, but it is also, as you share here – so beautiful.

123. “I realised that the hurts I’ve absorbed through false beliefs of my ‘failings’ as a woman, mother, wife, friend, daughter, sister, employee and neighbour, are how I have encased myself in a seemingly impenetrable suit of armour, burying my natural essence underneath. These hurts, I have further come to understand, have been nothing more than excuses to justify not living in the fullness of this Essence.” I can relate to this completely and am seeing how these excuses are woven into many of my behaviours which justify my choices. It is since choosing to love myself and choose to connect with myself and others that living from this love becomes easier and is a continuous learning.

124. I know when I live from my hurts I won’t really let anything touch me… an autopilot kicks in that deflects what is really going on away before it reaches me in an instinctive defensive pattern. Yes this way protects me, but unfortunately it also means that nothing touches me, there is no real connection with the world. It’s not a pick and choose way of being it’s either being fully present and engaged or it’s not. I have found in recent years that the more I let people in, the more connected I let myself be, the more love I have in my life… and these hurts are not nearly so big as they once seemed.

125. ‘These hurts, I have further come to understand, have been nothing more than excuses to justify not living in the fullness of this Essence.’ So true Julie, it seems crazy that we choose to give so much energy to our hurts all the while missing what we truly crave which is the connection to our essence. Living and expressing from our essence allows the space for our hurts to be lovingly addressed and let go.

126. That makes sense Ray, life is about movement and the quality of that movement. Our movement impacts on everything, like a ripple effect.

127. “Almost immediately I began thinking of foods I could eat (mainly the sugary or salty kind) that would allow me to block out the feeling of yuckiness that had invaded my body” – yes, food is something we use/abuse purposely to block out, soothe, comfort us from stressful situations for example. I know that whenever I get an urge to eat something I know is a filler/comforter food that something is about to happen.. which it does, so is like I’m reading what’s ahead and then eat the food to prepare myself for the onslaught. Once this became evident, I’ve paid closer attention to choose instead feeling what’s ahead, instead of eating to not feel it/what’s coming.

128. “Living From Love, Not Hurt” – just these words/title alone Julie are HUGE to consider and really reflect on, and as you share all the ‘woes’ we have are excuses to not get on with things i.e. be who we truly are, and therefore they serve as a blanket of comfort by which we can feel protected by to not feel the real grief or real woe – that of not being our true selves. When there is a living from love, woes or ups and downs of life may still happen, like we lose our job, get divorced, suffer illness etc., is just that with the steadiness of (self) love the adverse affects are less and the love holds us steady, open, not closed and protected in hurt.

129. What if life was simply a series of movements? It wasn’t about this food or this person etc, it was just all about the way you move. I’m not just talking about walking and talking either, I’m talking about to the detail of the way you breathe, everything was simply a movement. Nothing had a heading or a more important tag, just more and more awareness about how you are moving. How would life be and how would it look. Monday would no longer be Monday, it would just be a series of movements. The way we move then governs what comes next and so we can move in a quality that supports us or we can just move because something needs to be done, almost automated like a robot. One supports you and allows you to feel, and the other gets through Wednesday to get to Thursday. Life isn’t about titles, it’s about movement and the quality of it.

130. It is interesting to see the myriad of hurts and excuses we use to justify our choice to not develop a relationship with ourselves, when it is in that relationship that everything we could ever want, is naturally there to be embraced, no searching required.

131. ‘In my experience, the steps to let go of this searching and allow what is inside to flourish have begun with my relationship with myself’. This is the key to life Julie. Our relationship to ourselves initiates our relationship to everything and everyone and then not even the sky is the limit.

132. I have had a big realisation about an old previously buried hurt from this one sentence. Thank you Julie!
     “These hurts, I have further come to understand, have been nothing more than excuses to justify not living in the fullness of this Essence”.

133. Julie, I can relate to quite a few indulgences on you list, namely lack of exercise, judgment, blame, lack of self-worth, jealousy and comparison and I agree it is worth making a commitment to living love and not any of the above and love is just a choice away even when at times it feels miles away.

134. It is true what you say here Julie, if we can commit to ‘drugs, alcohol, overeating, drinking caffeine, lack of exercise, judgment, blame, lack of self-worth, jealousy and comparison’, we can commit to the other end of the spectrum with as much, if not more consistency.

135. ‘Being in a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with myself allows for a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with everyone else.’ The quality of love that we can hold for ourselves is the quality of love we can bring to another, and this another feels – so the more we criticise and self-judge so too does another too get that quality

136. The fact that we so often mould our personality to disguise our hurst, rather than showcase to the world our true love, shows not so much how flawed we are, but rather how deeply sensitive we truly are to life.

137. When we live from our essence there is something really deep that can be felt and to know and feel another’s essence is truly beautiful.

138. As you say, Julie, developing a truly honest and loving relationship with oneself if not a ‘Pollyanna’ approach to life but one grounded in truth and reality that leads to the return to one’s Essence.

139. Choosing what we commit to can make all the difference to our state of being. Love what has been said here Julie – “The commitment to drugs, alcohol, overeating, drinking caffeine, lack of exercise, judgment, blame, lack of self-worth, jealousy and comparison, with which I have excelled in my life, I now dedicate that same commitment to living every day from my innermost”. Living from our innermost is absolutely worthwhile as it will bring the most joy love and harmony to one’s life.

140. Without the reservations of making a mistake the possibilities to explore new avenues to express and learn widens.

141. A hurt starts with a ‘yes’, yes to the illusion of being hurt. I can be as commited to being hurt as I can be to living harmlessly.

142. Such a revelation Julie: “These hurts, I have further come to understand, have been nothing more than excuses to justify not living in the fullness of this Essence.” I can feel in myself how I do this. Sort of saying ‘I have been hurt, now I won’t be open and loving’ to ‘punish’ the ones that hurt me’. Yet this hurts me even more as I actually feel greater from expressing openly and lovingly to everyone around me as it feels so good in my body.

143. Thank you Julie for a beautifully simply blog, it is so simple to connect to our true essence, it is living from our hurts that makes life and everything in it so hard. Our first relationship is with ourselves. “‘Being in a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with myself allows for a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with everyone else.’”

144. When we live from being a mother, daughter, friend, wife, sister, employee, we end up living from the hurts that we feel from those roles. I have now discovered if I just take ‘me’ first to those roles I am able to come from the love that I am first.

145. Julie your words ‘Being in a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with myself allows for a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with everyone else.’ This is so true because we have to love ourselves first before we can be love with another.

146. I have realised how quickly we can jump to defense. I had an incident where I was talking to someone and they went into defense mode which surprised me, but rather than defend back I had a millisecond to ask what hurt are they defending and just by asking the question it opened me up to feeling that there is something beyond the defense. By connecting to the hurt, even without talking about it, changed the whole direction of the conversation.

147. Julie it’s a good question to ask ourselves… Do we put the same commitment and energy into that which has us feeling our glorious selves, appreciating the Light and Wisdom we bring, who we are here to on earth as a reflection to our fellow brothers. We have a responsibility to live from the love and that fullness in every move we make.

148. So often we think to understand life we need to think about it. However, the truth of life can actually only be understood by movement and the quality of our movements. For it is through the way we move that the greatest revelations are revealed.

149. We can say we don’t know what hurt and that we are living a deep inner pain, but this is just a lie even though it is a reality when we already have such a powerfull Essence within us. The many, many examples of people living from their inner most today, and having turned their lives around is simple proof of this fact.

150. Life feels so different when I choose to drop my hurts. I feel free to love.

151. Living from my essence – I had no idea what that meant until I met Serge Benhayon. And now I can, but it is my choice, a choice that I make in every moment.

152. From attending a Relationship Workshop presented by Serge Benhayon, I had a light globe moment how I was using my hurts as an excuse to not live all of me. The how is fascinating when finally allowed to be revealed. The difference in the depth of honesty I’m willing to go, is the depth of love and understanding I hold myself in.

153. When we are committed to developing a loving, nurturing and caring relationship with ourselves we are able to reflect this out to all our relationships. I realised appreciating myself supports me to appreciate others which then supports me to not allow comparison or jealousy to affect my relationships.

154. Julie what you write here makes perfect sense, as in we do commit to making the unloving choices consistently so how hard, can it be to commit to making more self loving choices? It really brings it home as to how the world is set up to live in reaction from the hurts being triggered constantly and that unless we start to address these hurts and bring in understanding, we will be forever at the mercy of the emotional ups and downs.

155. ‘multiply it by a gazillion… that is our esoteric Essence.’ I love this quote because I’ve not fully allowed myself to live with my essence and live it daily in full so reading this is such an inspiration.

156. It is definitely about commitment to living life from our inner most, having this deep relationship with ourselves which we only can build on, there is no time to slack the line. In truth we are always on, and this is our innate way to live.

157. ‘My relationship with myself…is my life on a daily basis.’ Yes, me too. There is no end game or final ‘retirement’ point and this is inspiring, since it knocks out the myth of some moment of perfection and opens up the truth that we are forever learners.

158. The way we are connected to one another and to nature, the universe and the grander whole is all through our inner most, our essence that is naturally connected with everything it belongs. Returning to this state of being to me is the journey I am on. Regularly I can clearly feel this connection and then my life flows and is joyful in all aspect of my life, but when I do not live in this connection life becomes complicated and a struggle and I am in the ‘misery’ of it, the misery which is of my own creation lived.

159. I love your commitment to yourself, by building a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship and, ‘I now dedicate that same commitment to living every day from my innermost.’

160. Its great Julie that you present our esoteric essence or inner most that shines ,even when we try and dull ,hide or dumb down its existence ,but it is always there quietly waiting due to our soul connection to god as it is what we are made of.

161. Thank you Julie. A commitment to love rather than the commitment we have to maintaining and burying hurt is certainly the way to go with our energy. This is a sustainable way of living whilst the other is a complete drain on all our resources.

162. When you were writing about how we try to fill ourselves up and I read this line “when all this fails to fulfill” I was reminded about what a friend said to me once….”all the corn chips in the world won’t take away the pain”. And I could so relate to this when I am stuffing in corn chips (or whatever you are using) like no-one’s business, and I know it is never going to fill this gap but somehow I still continue. But the hole cannot be filled with any external thing – it can only be filled by us living the fullness of who we are. I am still learning this one and sometimes corn chips win, and other days I can feel my essence, and when I live the fullness of that, I don’t even know what a corn chip is! Great topic Julie.

163. By building and deepening my relationship with my inner-most, life returns to being one of love, instead of searching everywhere outside of myself to find that ‘magical something’, not realising that ‘it’ is right here inside, in my inner-most heart.

164. “Living from love, not hurt” I recall when I was full of hurts, to the brim, that I really didn’t know what it was to feel love. Certainly not within my body, there was just too much emotion and drama. How it unfolded for me, it was a process, relearning to connect to me, getting support to understand, gain awareness and heal many hurts, develop self caring and self honouring rhythms during my day and evening. These didn’t occur overnight, but slowly I build other rhythms, not so destructive ones, until I was able to truly begin to live from love.

165. Thanks Julie for sharing , It is crazy that we let the hurts get in the way and then they block us from being all of ourselves and as you have written quoted “I realised that the hurts I’ve absorbed through false beliefs of my ‘failings’ as a woman, mother, wife, friend, daughter, sister, employee and neighbour, are how I have encased myself in a seemingly impenetrable suit of armour, burying my natural essence underneath. These hurts, I have further come to understand, have been nothing more than excuses to justify not living in the fullness of this Essence.”
     This blocking ,burying and building a suit of armour only causes the beautiful flowers that we naturally are to wilt and not shine ,hurting ourselves and then others in the process and by that refection.

166. Life is a set up and we are supposed to believe everything we are told and live from our hurts with no understanding of what truth or love are all about. For me as a Student of The Livingness I am now coming to the full realisation that after 12 years I can choose to reconnect to my inner-most or soul and along the way deal with and feel what issues I have to heal.

167. Finding my way in life is a journey that allows me to feel what my body is sharing or telling me, rather than using my head to come up with contrived ideals and beliefs. It is like our head is taking us back to the dark ages where the majority were kept contracted and not able to discern their essence. We are at the opposite end of the scale now where pseudo science rains supreme.
     Over the past 12 years I have found that The Way of The Livingness has prepared me for the bumpy road ahead with all its pitfalls. My role and the responsibility I have to stay connected to my essence is becoming clearer each day.

168. ‘Take the most amazing sunset/sunrise you have ever seen……multiply it by a gazillion… that is our esoteric Essence.’ This is the power of God that lives in each and every one of us.

169. It is our ultimate responsibility to live from our essence.

170. It does require a level of commitment to support oneself in how to live so that we can hold steadfast in the face of all that the world throws at us to try to take us out. But the reward of knowing the joy of connection to our Essence and to see that the seeming power of evil to ‘hurt’ us, holds no power at all, if we do not allow it so. – and so we can remain true to ourselves, and live from that place of absolute joy, free from the turmoil and tumultuousness of the world around..

171. Our essence is always there ready to be reconnected with, No matter how far we have walked away from it.

172. I would do the same – stay at gatherings in the desperate hope that someone must know the answer to the meaning of life the Universe and everything, and that it might just be dropped the minute I left the party – needless to say it never eventuated. But in truth we have the answer inside us all along, and thanks to Serge Benhayon presenting the keys – we can unlock the ties that bind, we can see the fog we encase ourselves with – and we can once more free ourselves to live and know fully the truth of all of us.

173. Beautifully expressed Julie, ‘Being in a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with myself allows for a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with everyone else.’ and if we bring the same level of commitment to this development, as we have previously done to our favourite checking out pursuits, then the door opens wide for true love, true connection and true evolution.

174. When we become more loving towards ourselves the process of observing and not absorbing the emotions of others begins. The more we can observe, the more aware we are of what is happening and the more supportive we can be.

175. If we react in any way we are buying into pain. We are separating from our essence. There seem to be endless situations that are tempting us with this choice but as you say if we want to have a true relationship with anyone, including ourselves, living from love is the way.

176. Yes, having let go of this searching everywhere outside for this elusive missing ‘part’, I now realise as you say
     that it is within us all along, just waiting for us to connect back to it, our ‘essence’, our innermost.

177. The whole exploration of outer-space is definitely driven by the search for answers to the ‘mystery’ of life. There is of course no mystery – the answer lies in our connection to our innermost essence. About turn! An article deeply and closely related to this can be found at: http://www.unimedliving.com/relationships/us-in-the-world/are-we-alone-an-inner-space-program-for-the-lonely-planet.html

178. I love the way that you put in the specifics of where we search ‘out there’ for the thing we most want, our essence Julie. We search just about everywhere and it is great to name and ‘out’ them! ‘Our Essence, you see, is the love we all seek, searching all corners of the globe, stuck in the belief that it’s ‘out there’: in some hidden valley, on top of a mountain, in the deepest ocean, or with a partner, having children, a new body at the gym, a better house or car, a new pair of shoes, that ‘must have’ dress, or chocolate bar after chocolate bar. When all this fails to fulfil, we have turned our quest to outer space, sure that it’s ‘out there’, as deep, deep down, we all know it’s somewhere’. Even when I was younger and before I realised the fullness of what is being said here I used to look at people climbing mountains and diving into the deep blue sea and know that they were looking for answers to the ‘mystery’ of life. In fact for myself when I stayed until the very bitter end of a party it was because I was looking for that definitive conversation or ‘meeting’ with someone that would bring the answers to the big questions in life.

179. Beautiful Julie, a great illustration of how unresolved hurts dictate so much of what we choose or are able to choose for ourselves in life.

180. Everything in this world that we can experience towards us doesn’t even come close to what we can feel come out from within us. It shows when the food, situations, conversations or issues solved or goal reached is seemingly fulfilled and yet leaves us with a feeling of emptiness, didn’t hit the spot or craving more of unsettlement. I have had many of these moments and now what I am finding is that when I feel hurt I know I can try and stuff down distract from the feeling but it never brings resolution or healing to the moment. Only when I come back to my body and question what is there to be aware of do I come to understand the reaction and be free of the tension of trying to pull everything into the void I created by not filling it with the love I am.

181. If there is almost no reflection out there that reminds us of love then it is really in the face how responsible we are to be that reflection for the world out there.

182. Life is too much of a struggle is the mentality that I bought into for several long years. Thankfully now and through the courses of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, this old belief has no space in my body to operate or take over, as now I am the captain of my own ship or vessel – my body!

183. Now that is a commitment worth having Julie! ‘The commitment to drugs, alcohol, overeating, drinking caffeine, lack of exercise, judgment, blame, lack of self-worth, jealousy and comparison, with which I have excelled in my life, I now dedicate that same commitment to living every day from my in’. We can spend endless energy criticising others, having jealous conversations, driving out to scavenge for alcohol or chocolate and support whole industries making these substances, when in fact the energy that could be chosen is love.

     1. Love becomes the only choice, which we have all been looking for but in blind ignorance have elected to indulge in life trappings.

184. This is a great point Julie – we never ‘reach a destination that ‘this is it’ and sit pretty. What we have instead is a constant opportunity to choose our essence, to choose at every moment what quality we will move in, so that there is an ever-unfolding process and we are the conductor of the music that follows. ‘In my experience, the steps to let go of this searching and allow what is inside to flourish have begun with my relationship with myself. This is not something that I have suddenly ‘got’ and am now sitting pretty. This is my life on a daily basis, how I am with myself in each and every moment. It’s about the choices I make when I get out of bed in the morning and how I place my feet on the floor; when I feel what to eat instead of eating what I feel, when I choose what to wear based on what will support the gorgeousness of me and when I connect with everyone, not from my hurts but from my Essence.’

185. Yes it is truly amazing how we have gone searching everywhere outside of ourselves to find that ‘magical something’ we have all been looking for, not realising that it is right here under our noses(literally) in our inner-most heart. The old alchemists used to say that the philosophers stone is right here under our noses, and that every one already possesses it, and that it is as familiar to us as the ground we walk on.

186. I love your blog Julie and your beautiful natural expression which I can feel is bursting out of you. Thank you!

187. Just the title of this article is profound. How much of my life do I live from love and how much from hurts? And how amazing to realise I have a choice and am not a victim as I would let myself conveniently believe. Growing up I remember thinking many times how that wasn’t the way to treat another based on love, but did so from judgement and condemnation, not love and compassion or an understanding of them or myself. As I bring more understanding into my life I don’t stay in hurt as long, or often don’t go there at all when once I would have jumped in and wallowed. I can feel the pull to live from hurts and seek justification for doing so very strongly at times, but this cuts me off from feeling the beauty in us all, especially myself. So I can indulge in self-deprecating self-bashing and believe I am faulty in some way – all to avoid living from my essence.

188. Allowing what is inside of us to flourish, bloom and blossom so beautifully expresses the unfolding nature of true connection and relationship.

189. Unfortunately it is all too common that the coping strategies mentioned are enough for people and they circle around a never ending list of them which can take them through a life of insatiable seeking and it is only a severe illness that sometimes pulls this way of living up. Taking this into context of the blog, our bodies are so precious as indicators of quality of life, dare we allow ourselves to feel and connect to them with honesty. I am appreciating this more and more.

190. Julie this is deeply inspiring to read. There is no quick fix but a daily loving dedication to keep returning to my connection with me. My need for a quick fix is to avoid acknowledging my responsibility in all I do not like in the world and knowing exactly how I have had a part in creating it. Though at times it feels like bitter pills to swallow, what a blessing it feels just starting to just be honest and stop the running away from life through anything outside of myself including seemingly noble deeds, saving the world or bettering myself. Once I thought the daily dedication to being love was such a chore and I wanted it to just be done, but now I am feeling the possibility of joy and inter-connectedness moving with the flow of universe and dedication to it brings; that this can be a living reality not just a pipe dream.

191. “In my experience, the steps to let go of this searching and allow what is inside to flourish have begun with my relationship with myself.” I have found this too Julie. No end of searching got me nowhere and it wasn’t until I found Universal Medicine and understood that all that I needed was already inside me could I begin to start building a true realtionship with myself. It is an ever unfolding journey of deepening my appreciation for myself and what I bring to the world, and learning to accept that I am enough just as I am and has nothing to do with what I do.

192. So true Julie. Living from our hurts gets us no-where and is a place where we keep punishing others and ourselves for our lot in life. Stepping out of that and into accepting and appreciating all the gorgeous things about us, starts to put it all in perspective. And nurtured by connecting to our true essence, we realise we are so much grander than we think.

193. Love is not a unachievable far off thing, an exclusive destination we might reach one day, or a state of bliss we can buy. Its simply a choice of energy that we make in every moment, in the way we breathe. It’s quality is so deeply familiar to you and me, yet we let ourselves run loose with actions and movements that are harsh and do not belong to us. But as you show and beautifully so Julie, we don’t have to solve these hurts, just feel what is there and return to Love and bring this to the world.

194. Such simple truths in this blog. When we choose to shift our relationship with ourselves inward for our source of the love we so crave, we get to learn that we are responsible for all our choices and come to appreciate that we are therefore the orchestrators of the quality of our lives in every moment.

195. I love reading a blog each morning, as it sets my day with a theme in mind. Today, as I lie my normal day, my theme is to be aware of whether I am connecting with my Essence or coming from a hurt. Thankyou Julie for this inspiration.

196. It is a fact that you live this way and make a conscious choice to live this way, and clearly it has made such a difference in your life – and to the lives of many others around you I am sure. Living this way is not a fantasy, but a very simple and practical reality, that as more of us choose to commit to, will change the way people are. Thankyou for the inspiration to live my day, to the best of my ability, living from my own inner essence.

197. I love how you frame this: “the hurts I’ve absorbed”
     It highlights that hurts don’t accidentally happen to us, but that we actively absorb an energy to feel hurt.

     1. We may all need support to cope with our hurts, and there are a lot of services available in the community to do exactly that. Understanding the fact that it is an energetic choice to “actively absorb an energy to feel hurt” – and making our support services take stock of this fact, may change the way support services are delivered. Rather than being based on sympathy or manipulating the issue, support can be based on helping a person take a deeper level of energetic responsibility and understanding that they are choosing the hurt over love. We may need support to connect with our inner most and clear the hurt energy, but we don’t need to analyse the hurt for years on end.

198. Wow, this is so true. “Being in a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with myself allows for a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with everyone else.” This is something that should be taught in schools, that the deeper the relationship we have with ourselves, the more awareness, understanding and allowing we have for others.

199. “There is no Pollyanna approach here, simply the reality of the truth as presented by Serge Benhayon.” This is such an important point Julie, it is not that everything is roses, clearly it is not, but I know that when I have a true connection to my innermost, the world is an amazing place and I can feel the value and appreciate all the reflections around me.

200. It is so lovely to read this blog. It is so full of beauty. A gorgeous reminder that we do have a choice, and that we can choose to live from love.

201. There is a lot of abuse going on in our world today – on both an obvious level and in more subtle ways. I feel this is precisely because we live from our hurts and not from love. When we open our mouths and abuse comes forth, it comes from something in us. If it was not there, we would not be abusive. Transforming our race out of its abusive momentums is surely about choosing to be more loving with ourselves first rather than lashing out at each other. We cannot continue to blame the world for what is happening.This just leaves us in the position of being a powerless victim – and this is a denial of who we are.

202. Many a wise man has told us all over eons of human life – ‘The Kingdom of God is within you’. Time to start listening maybe.

203. That made me laugh, the dedication to the all the non loving ways being something you excelled at so far. I so can relate it is utter madness the effort we put into being not ourselves.

     1. And it is easy to get tricked into doing just that, living with your hurts at the forefront of your life. If we live with the hurts at the forefront of our lives, we are choosing to live with a wall of protection, rather than from our Essence. There are whole industries based on helping people with their hurts and the fact that they choose to live with their hurts at the forefront of their lives. – yet, if we are honest and simply take a deeper responsibility for the fact that we choose to live with and perpetuate these hurts, we can easily free ourselves of them. Life is always about a choice. Choosing to live from hurt, or choosing to live from the Divine, loving Essence within.

204. Even though I know this to be true I find I still revert back to living from protecting the hurts, it is a real dedication to live consistently from my essence out.

205. This is a good point, that hurts hold us back to not live in full what is there on offer. After reading your blog I realize I am focused on hurts to not live in full the amazing woman I am, when in the first place it hurts me when I do not live myself in full.

206. This is a good point, to take the hurts as an excuse to not live the amazing woman I am.

207. Sometimes it is really hard to let go of hurts. But hanging onto them is so unloving, it wears us down and gives us the excuse to be small. Letting them go means to let go of the idea we have of how things should be. Not being dictated to by that idea is very liberating.

208. In my experience, it has taken a lot of dedication to be unloving and uncaring to my body. Every choice needed to reflect disregard. There is much force needed to deflect of dim the naturally de-lightfull beings we are. And like you Julie, I am now turning that dedication to self-love and care and honouring who I am at my very core and thus who everyone else truly is too. It’s different now, it’s not a force but a willingness to surrender to what already is.

209. The search is endless if we don’t turn inward to see what is already within.

210. Amazing how easy it is to slip back into the pattern of how to not feel rather than stay with the responsibility of feeling.

211. “But it isn’t ‘out there’ – it’s inside us, solidly, continuously, bigger and grander than anything this world has to offer. Take the most amazing sunset/sunrise you have ever seen, the most delicious food you have ever eaten, the joy felt looking into a new love’s eyes, the miracle of childbirth or simply the joy of a child and multiply it by a gazillion… that is our esoteric Essence.” wow what a paragraph it is truly something else to feel the connection our birth place the universe. It is immense!

212. I have realised through Universal Medicine presentations that the quality of relationship with myself and my path of evolution is what affects my relationship with others. If I choose to connect with people through my armour of hurts then it stunts any form of evolution. So when I connect to people from my essence letting go of my hurts then my connection is always open to evolving myself and others.

213. If we make life about our hurts, we loose our purpose and the opportunity to bring deep meaning into our lives.

214. The work of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine is founded upon the truth that, we all have an innermost essence – something that has been known throughout the ages, and shared by many great teachers such as Pythagoras and Yeshua (Jesus). Not only do all have this within, but we all hold it equally so – no ‘one’ is more nor less in this. And how powerful our life becomes, and the changes that ensue – as you’ve shared so beautifully Julie – when we re-connect to this fundamental aspect of who we are.

     1. And what I see more and more is that no matter what your social status in life, no matter your level of intelligence, no matter how you might be judged as externally “beautiful” or “ugly”, no matter your racial, religious or cultural ties – OUR INNER ESSENCE IS THAT OF BEAUTY AND LOVE and we all have the same potential to live from that inner level of love, no matter what has happened in your life. The work of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine has made this truth a living fore once again.

        1. Beautifully said Marianna. How truly precious it is, when one, and then another, and another… reconnects to the true beauty within, and the means of division we have falsely fostered, simply drop away.

215. Love this Julie: “I now dedicate that same commitment to living every day from my innermost.”
     What if, we all truly acknowledged the ENORMOUS amount of effort and energy we put into that which, is actually abusive to ourselves (let alone others), and refocussed it – made it about love, true inspiration and unity amongst us all? What if we took care of ourselves to the nth degree, leaving no stone unturned?
     I can’t even fathom how dramatically our world would change…

216. On a daily basis whenever conversations go deep enough I find most people are deeply dissatisfied with life, either searching in the hope that there is an answer, or simply resigned and given up altogether. “The steps to let go of this searching and allow what is inside to flourish have begun with my relationship with myself.” This is a wonderful insight that brings the power, understanding and responsibility right back where it belongs.

217. “These hurts, I have further come to understand, have been nothing more than excuses to justify not living in the fullness of this Essence.” You really say it as it is. It is a choice to leave ourselves – our essence – and to not feel the emptiness of that we choose to make issues with, family, numb ourselves with food, or ourselves (lack of self-worth for instance) instead of taking responsibility and coming back to that point where we left ourselves and take the responsibility to come back to it.

218. As I continue to heal my hurts – from the root – I find that my old protective wall has slowly crumbled away. Love serves us – and everyone – so much more than trying to shield ourselves from potential possibilities, that may never happen.

219. Living from our essence – which we all have within ourselves – enables us to be a warm loving human, not only with ourselves but of course with everyone we meet. Thus no need for a protective wall, which doesn’t work anyway.

220. I love the point you make about the choice to nurture yourself not being hard. When I read this it allowed me to feel the fact that we always have a choice as to what we will invest in.

221. Living from love not our hurts is the only answer to living life from our fullness and feeling our essence and the beauty we all are. This really is life changing, the opposite to constantly searching outside our selves to feeling and knowing our essence of love. The Livingness 1 workshop, and all that is presented by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, shows us the light simply with this way of living from honesty and integrity so we can let go of our lifetime of collected hurts we have held on to and choose a way of living that releases these, and thus allows us to be all we are in the world, joyfully in every moment.

222. Julie, this is great, ‘I bought into the “it’s all too hard” mentality. But you know what? It isn’t!’ I love how you share how you had so much commitment to drinking alcohol; overeating; lack of self worth etc and now you simply commit to living from your essence instead and so this is your focus.

223. I love how you describe our essence Julie. Once connected to this, there is no more searching. I use this feeling of lack, or looking outside of me, as a marker that my connection to my essence is slipping, I then focus once more on connecting with that which lies within, then the feeling of lack dissipates through this connection to my essence.

     1. Thanks Lee for highlighting that and reminding me where it’s at. There is such a deluge of inane garbage “out there” that gets us lost and confused about ourselves and we need to remember the marker within us that is our true Essence.

224. Julie what strikes me about this is how much you felt when you attended the ” Livingness 1 Workshop”, as someone that had a similar experience when I first attended a Universal Medicine event it shows that we as a society can feel something that is true when it is there, it also shows how much we go about life accepting things that are not true. There is little wonder why we walk around hurt, but in the simple few hours of the workshop with Serge Benhayon we get everything, nothing held back that needed to be said. Instead we have the choice to connect to love and learn to live from that. Of all the events, workshops or “business books” I ever read, the Livingness workshop (then called something Heart Chakra 1) was my best investment.

225. We search far and wide for something that is with us all the time… we simply have to connect, and then share all that we are… and that is both a choice and a responsibility in every moment.

226. Living From Love, Not Hurt, now that is a whole new ball game – and one that I am committed too. Living from love allows me to trust, allows me to express all of me, allows me to truly connect with others and let them in, and allows me to expand and evolve and reflect that living from love is simply a choice we all have access to. Living from love allows me to know that I am not my hurts. Super blog to read, thank you Julie.

227. “Being in a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with myself allows for a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with everyone else…” Brilliant and how true is this. Having an innermost relationship that effortlessly expresses outwardly.

228. What is going on that we always look for and expect the ‘Pollyanna Approach’? My awareness is growing around the fact that it has been my lack of commitment that has allowed for a lifestyle that does not support me and that in every moment I have the opportunity to claim commitment to loving me through the choices I make. It’s not ‘too hard’ and it is all about how much we love.

229. There comes a point in life for many people when they realise that regardless of all the searching for the answer to being fulfilled by looking ‘outside of themselves’ that it cannot be found ‘out there’, and therefore there must be something more to life than what we see before us. This was certainly true for me, until I found the teachings of Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon who showed me that everything I had been looking for was already within me. Learning to connect to this innate wisdom that has always been there is a continual and ever unfolding journey, and learn I do, each and every day.

     1. Same here Sandra, I stopped my searching ‘ out there’, the day I found the teachings of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, and ever since I have been initiating on my path of return.

230. “This is my life on a daily basis, how I am with myself in each and every moment.” I agree Julie, it’s about embracing the love that we are and when we do the results can be life changing.

231. Julie if we tried out what you suggest here, living from love, not hurt then firstly we have to really consider that most of our live has been spent trying to protect the hurt we feel. So we’ve not really been living at all and secondly I have no doubt that we would never hold ourselves or others in anything, we would not be judging people and society as a whole would deeply benefit from that level of love and care. In essence it would completely change everything.

232. it is easy to see how we set ourselves up for ‘failure’ by creating an image of how we think we should be, how we should sound, and how we should look. All of that ignores the beauty that we are.

     1. Yes, we ask ourselves to be something we are not – we then can’t be what we are even though that is much more than what we are trying to be.

233. When we have that moment of realisation it’s as though all the past falls away and suddenly our hearts open wide to embrace a sense of coming back to ourselves – on a knowing that we can begin to build a true relationship based on trust and understanding – and as you have said Julie this allows us to build the same beautiful trusting relationships with others.

234. We think that if we get married and have kids this is the answer, only to find out that if we have not first connected to our self that we can be very lonely living with in a big family.

     1. So true Mary-Louise, our essence or connection, which brings with it a feeling of how sensitive we are is key to not feeling our hurts. Being lost and lonely, lacking in self-worth etc. are all distractions to keep us from our essence! I have been caught up in a deluge of false images that have and still can keep me from my essence. After 12 years of being a Student of The Livingness my life has turned the corner and I am prepared for the bumpy road ahead with all its pitfalls. There is no illusion on my part of the responsibility I have to stay connected to my essence..

235. We start to discover our innermost essence – our divine nature – when we begin to have a relationship with ourselves. It is a very simple process but one we need to take responsibility for and actually apply to our everyday life. Thanks for sharing about this Julie, that we need to bring our focus from out there inward.

236. Experiencing our essence makes a big change in our life. For example, we then know – not just think – that there is an essence. We can feel it and then know which part of us is not our essence. That is life changing.

237. Sometimes I don’t realise how much I give myself a hard time until I start to actively love and appreciate myself- then this shows that my pattern of not doing this is quite ingrained and one of the biggest things that caps me.

238. When you have all but eliminated all unnecessary and unhelpful ‘medications’ (drugs, alcohol, caffeine, TV, emotions, drama, over-work, sex, relationships, so on and on) food is the last bastion to master. We still need to eat to nourish the body but eat to numb, dull, comfort, avoid, entertain, indulge…? No. What you describe here Julie is a typical way we can misuse food to avoid feeling something, and once you’re aware of them, these moments come up frequently within a day. Much to consciously work with!

239. ‘The commitment to drugs, alcohol, overeating, drinking caffeine, lack of exercise, judgment, blame, lack of self-worth, jealousy and comparison, with which I have excelled in my life…’ Julie your words describe exactly how so many of us on the planet currently live. No wonder life feels hard – we have committed to everything but ourselves and – what’s worse – in the midst of our abusive lifestyles, we set about seeking the answers. In all that confusion we have no hope of finding or committing to anything that is true.

240. Keeping it simple and bringing it back to belonging to ourselves, I just love that. If we do not have ourselves we do not have anything.

241. “I realised that the hurts I’ve absorbed through false beliefs of my ‘failings’ as a woman, mother, wife, friend, daughter, sister, employee and neighbour, are how I have encased myself in a seemingly impenetrable suit of armour, burying my natural essence underneath.” This is very revealing Julie and shows how so many of us do this in life. It was not until I was made aware of this that I was then able to understand and after a long while accept that it was my own hurts that I have been using as excuses to not live the fullness of who I am, and live my life from my true essence. What a revelation this has been, and how would our lives look if we were to learn this from an early age? Very very different I imagine.

242. One of the greatest gifts I’m allowing myself is to loose the self judgment …. I’m appreciating that mistakes are actually gifts, an opportunity to learn, if we’re not learning we’re not evolving, we’re staying still. I’m choosing to embrace the growth that comes when things don’t go quite as anticipated, rather than reacting to the fact that they haven’t gone as expected and feeling a sense of failure as a result, which is a very effective way to stay small and retreat from life.

243. ‘I bought into the “it’s all too hard” mentality’ …. I know that one too, it’s such a con, the truth is it’s so much harder for us to NOT be who we innately are than to connect and live our lives from our essence. The effort required to go against the natural law of the Universe is immense, causing great harm to our bodies, hence our increasing rates of illness and dis-ease.

244. Thanks, Julie, I can very much relate to this. The “it’s all too hard” mentality has dominated a large proportion of my life, and it has taken a while to stop identifying with the hurts that allowed me to keep this story running. What is really hard is to keep investing energy into digging our heels in and keeping ourselves small and a victim of life, when in truth we are a part of something much grander when we let ourselves go with the natural flow of it.

245. It is a profound realisation when it becomes clear that all the love that we have been seeking ‘out there’ in items, activities, pursuits, other people, is actually within ourself, especially since the whole world seems to be encouraging us to believe in the absolute opposite. All we need do is stop and reconnect more deeply with this love and express it.

246. The process of making choices, as described here, requires the moment-by-moment awareness that there is even a choice to be made. Given this moment-by-moment nature of the choice-making, a dual benefit can be felt: it necessitates the building of conscious presence – the syncing of the thinking heart with the body’s activities – as well as the exercise of choice.

247. ‘Take the most amazing sunset/sunrise you have ever seen, the most delicious food you have ever eaten, the joy felt looking into a new love’s eyes, the miracle of childbirth or simply the joy of a child and multiply it by a gazillion… that is our esoteric Essence…’. What is described here is beyond anything we can imagine and I have to say, sets a benchmark for me personally. As an esoteric student of some 9+ years, even though the quality of my connection with myself has expanded enormously, I have yet to really begin to feel the depths of joy that can be felt when we are 100% re-connected to ourselves. And that’s just one of the benefits of this way of living – knowing there is always a greater depth to go to, to be, to bring… and that the love we can tap into knows no bounds. One thing’s for sure – life is now never, ever, boring!

248. ‘When all this fails to fulfil, we have turned our quest to outer space, sure that it’s ‘out there’, as deep, deep down, we all know it’s somewhere.’ Yes – the on-going space race only takes us further away from our inner-most, the essence we are all seeking to connect with. Not to mention the massive irresponsibility all those nations concerned have demonstrated by continuing to competitively spend in this arena while health budgets and economies are failing and falling. It’s the same as spending on fireworks when you don’t have enough to eat.

249. I have very much enjoyed the time so far learning to live more from the inside out – there is a long way to go but also a long way I have already come in reconnecting back to who I truly am and living this in the world.

250. The untarnished essence – to live from here and not our hurts, is such an incredible change to life.

251. Julie, I like how you said you’re not sitting pretty – just committing to living from the essence of you, your truth rather than what’s ‘out there’.

252. It is incredible when we choose to connect to our essence, we are than able to connect to others in their essence, this simply holds all others in equality, love and truth. Through consistency with our connection we are then able to not absorb the emotional dramas and all the things that are not who we are. To be able to hold our connection to ourselves and others no matter what is presented before us is true power, true brotherhood and love.

253. Live from love, not from hurts; our hurts come from not living love!!

254. My ‘commitment to living every day from my innermost’ started 12 years ago after a Livingness 1 presentation by Serge Benhayon and after 12 years I am still learning to deeply re-connect to my essence and hold it during the day!

255. To describe my essence is to act in an accordance of not holding back anything I feel no matter how hard or big it is to complete that I know will have a huge impact on this world and the way we live.

256. “Being in a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with myself allows for a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with everyone else.” Absolutley true Julie and well said. It all starts here with ourselves, taking real care in the smallest of ways of what we are willing to accept and what we are not.

257. It is wonderfully profound when we start making choices that really do nurture us from the inside out.

258. ‘This is my life on a daily basis’ – not looking for a fix-all – but committing to living in a way that develops my relationship with myself (and therefore God, the big picture, Divinity, Love, Soul – take which ever words work for you) – that is a yes please and thank you – whatever it takes.

259. Self love is not selfish. It is only when love for the self first is lived that I can truly love another.

260. Great post Julie, a very honest one. The thing that stood out to me was what you described about when we get pulled into someone else’s drama. It happens to me as well and what I’m really working on is staying with myself, holding myself. It really is a choice, and not one we need to climb Everest to find!

261. As I heal the hurts within my body the distance between needing the outer to fulfil me and the connection to my essence is widening. Theres’s a call to deepen the commitment to self, to be more aware and listen as when a hurt does present itself and I do not take heed it can deplete me.

262. Yes, I create the hurts simply because I don’t want to feel the amazingness of who I truly am. I create the dramas and allow the emotions to fester. It is very interesting the lengths I will go to, to not accept in full the light within but it is a choice, a choice to surrender in every moment and this is what I am learning.

263. “In my experience, the steps to let go of this searching and allow what is inside to flourish …..”
     The outer has a lot of attraction. It can give you recognition, distraction, it can give you the satisfaction of being needed, it can give you the feeling of experiencing something new and as such more attractive as what you know already, it can give you the illusion of being able to escape, etc etc. How different is it to truly allow ourselves to surrender to our bodies and connect with ourselves, very simple, but what amount of power is coming just doing these little step of sureendering and letting go of the outer.

264. This is so true Julie. That which we so often go searching outside for actually resides within. It is ridiculous that we get sold the lie that we lack something and we much search out or purchase this something from somewhere outside of us. Everything we need already resides within.

265. You know what I Love living from love. You wake up in the morning feeling super light, joyful and immense, you wake up loving being you, the sunrise is a confirmation of the love you live, you can’t help but love people, and I mean everyone you meet, the bus driver, the ladies who work in the super market, the little kids playing in the street, even your dog waiting to greet you outside your bedroom door every morning with the biggest smile and crazy wagging tail. The love you feel for you family, for friends, for colleagues, I can’t emphasise how simple and I mean super simple, and joyful life is when we choose to live love.

266. The thing is we hurt ourselves the most by holding back and living from pictures in our head of how we think we should be or express.

267. Begin ‘with my relationship with myself. ‘ – everything in life begins with the relationship we have with ourselves and there is nothing more amazing than this in the world, feeling who you really are and everything about yourself. I find the deeper I allow myself to have a relationship with me, my truth, getting to know me all over again – the joy, solidness, delicateness, sweetness, truth, love, cheekiness, playfulness, power, deep care, tenderness and contentedness- I bring to everyone.

268. I have actually realised ” that the hurts I’ve absorbed through false beliefs’ is purely a game I play to avoid the responsibility of living all of me. It’s a game of stimulation and identification. Instead of simply Living as a Son of God, and not making it about me.

269. It feels so important to realise that do often the desire we have to numb ourselves are from our reactions to what we have felt from other people than from our own issues. This really does highlight the importance of energetic responsibility – taking responsibility for what we put out there which affects everyone else also.

270. When we are constantly looking for a solution to make ourselves or situations ‘better’ we are already seeing ourselves as less and not enough. I have found connection and getting honest with myself arrests the searching and allows me to connect to what is actually going on.

271. “As I went back to work yesterday, full of the knowing of my Essence and the beauty of connecting with people in this way, it wasn’t long before I bought into someone’s pain and allowed it to trigger my own. “-
     This is a great point in that it shows how when we fail to maintain a posture of observing situations but instead take other’s emotional issues and hurts on ourselves, it provides a gateway to get sucked into the same kind of reactions to our own life’s hurtful situations, thereby bringing up things that may have even been already healed within ourselves. I’ve noticed for myself that the times I get really sympathetic about other people’s challenging life situations (like illness, loss of partner, etc.) and take on their responsibility as if it is my own, it has only lead to my own emotional distress and a great weight on my shoulders that it not mine to carry.

272. It feels good to bring who we are, there is no more trying or agenda and draining of energy…rather space, joy and true connections with others that deepen and grow.

273. Living from our essence brings untold joy – it is something we need to teach our young, and to commit to in full.

274. “In my experience, the steps to let go of this searching and allow what is inside to flourish have begun with my relationship with myself”.
     Simple yet oh so true Julie; thank you for sharing your experiences and wisdom.

275. Very few of us show our true selves to the world. Even the outgoing person is generally putting on a show designed to hide the real self from view. That way, if you get rejected, you at least know it was not the true self that was not accepted.

276. Universal Medicine offers a way to deeply honour ourselves, by being able to admit that in life, there are moments when we can feel that all the things we do and fill our life up with is missing something. Although perhaps not pleasant, such moments feel clear and sobering. Then we begin to see that as we add more of these moments, they start to become an honesty about who we are and how we are living. Ultimately we see that these moments hold the truth – the truth of who we are and how life can be lived from a richness and harmony within us. Without honouring a moment, we can not come to this truth about how life can be.

277. It is a completely different approach to know that a part – the main part – of you is love and is not hurt and to start from there than to feel that one is imperfect and needs to improve.

278. When I look back and see how much effort I used to put into numbing myself with alcohol, cigarettes, caffeine,drugs… the parties… the list goes on and to have been inspired and felt safe to connect to my hurts (ones I never knew I had) with the Sacred Esoteric healing modalities as presented by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine – It has been the most life changing experience I have ever had. To realise how much I was avoiding feeling All of who I AM and the enormity of what I bring and I still have moments where I shy away from it.. But I know that this is who I really am – the divine Love that created us is so grand and we are from the same source. That can freak us out sometimes…

279. Sometimes I have felt very much like an ambulant onion – walking around with all my layers to protect me! These layers are only something that I have been able to shed bit by bit after exploring and realising that they are there, understanding that these hurts are what I use to shield myself from the world. But in fact when we use any form of shield, even one we think we can see through, then we actually are holding ourselves back from the world, hiding ourselves in some way and not really showing the all to the all. So cutting the onion suit off has lead to some tears (yes onions do make you cry) but they have been good tears to shed because of the freedoms that comes afterwards from letting it all go.

     1. And shedding this onion suit has been very much a process that has been inspired by Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon! Inspired and supported so lovingly by Serge and his family and the many practitioners of the esoteric modalities, it is a joy to work alongside people like them and inspire others to shed their onion suits too!

280. As I got today into hardness and some fury towards somebody very close to me, I stopped myself rather than continuing expressing the anger. Not only did I stop, I opened up my heart and felt the Lightness, Love and Joy within me. What I learn from experiences like these, is the fact that I’m the master of my choices and that I’ve got the power to change situations into a more loving one, or more separation.

281. I love this blog Julie, and this sentence particularly struck and inspired me: “The commitment to drugs, alcohol, overeating, drinking caffeine, lack of exercise, judgment, blame, lack of self-worth, jealousy and comparison, with which I have excelled in my life, I now dedicate that same commitment to living every day from my innermost.” It is incredible that we are willing to commit ourselves to all of the above, over committing to taking true and real care of ourselves by living from our innermost on a consistent daily basis. We sometimes have to hear things a hundred or more times before we really get it, and this is the beauty of going to a presentation by Serge Benhayon as he presents the same things in so many different ways, and never ever tires of doing so, to support us to eventually understand it for ourselves.

282. “The commitment to drugs, alcohol, overeating, drinking caffeine, lack of exercise, judgment, blame, lack of self-worth, jealousy and comparison, with which I have excelled in my life, I now dedicate that same commitment to living every day from my innermost.” This is a corker of a statement! When we say we are not committed to life we have made the choice to be committed to disregard. As you point out commitment is a commitment and so the choice only becomes what it is you are committing to and not about not committing!

283. No matter how much we’ve ignored it or disconnected from it our essence remains untarnished and always there ready to be reconnected with.

     1. That is the nicest thing in life I am aware of.

284. It does take a huge commitment to deny and not live our essence in full. In fact I use the analogy of a stress ball, when left alone it is perfectly round and full but when pressure is put onto it becomes smaller and contorted. We put this pressure on continuously because as soon as we truly let go we will pop right back to our original form – our divine essence. Imagine the amount of commitment, perseverance and energy this takes!

285. Julie what you discovered about your hurts is huge. We tend to think we get so hurt we are broken and will never be whole again. That we just have to learn to live with it and buried as best as we can. But when we look at it from an energetic point of view it is very clear that it can be healed in full and that it is us who hold on to the hurt.

286. With this blog Julie, you present such a paradox of life. We spend so much of our time and way of living endeavouring to protect ourselves from anticipated hurts yet as you say holding onto the hurt(s) we are striving to protect is but an indulgence. An indulgence that leaves us unfulfilled, looking ‘out there’ for an answer which only creates a bigger hurt.

287. “In my experience, the steps to let go of this searching and allow what is inside to flourish have begun with my relationship with myself.” This is key if we are to truly re-connect with what we seek so intently in the world outside. Building our inner relationship, identifying what we are feeling, nominating our emotions, becoming aware of how our body feels in relation to numerous choices we make through the day, honouring our tenderness and allowing that to be expressed in all our movements is just the beginning of allowing what is truly inside us space to expand, express and flourish. There is so much beauty, wisdom and grace inside us, a truth that Serge Benhayon, his family and his life’s work focuses on restoring to the whole of humanity without exception.

288. I love that you said that it isn’t something that you’ve suddenly ‘got’ and you are now sitting pretty as it blows away all those illusions of enlightenment or achieving something and then being entitled to something else or privileges. I too have felt the love and the joy in my body and nothing comes close but I live in a way that takes me further and closer to that connection depending on the choices I make, and what hurts I choose to hold onto.

289. “These hurts, I have further come to understand, have been nothing more than excuses to justify not living in the fullness of this Essence.” This is a very big and important statement. We often use our hurts to avoid life, to hold resentment towards another and to justify our unloving choices. It is time to take greater responsibility for our hurts and stop using them as weapons against others and indeed ourselves.

290. It’s funny that you mention Pollyanna, because although a fictional character, I saw the film many times as a young girl and she inspired me to make light of difficult situations, and I still do that as a way of coping when work gets tough. Your description of the most amazing sunset multiplied a gazillion times made me smile – we do indeed look outside of ourselves for beauty, not recognising what we already have within.

291. Living from love and not hurt is what is going to transform life as it is currently known back to the loving expression that we inherently know it to be.

292. Julie, This is great, ‘The commitment to drugs, alcohol, overeating, drinking caffeine, lack of exercise, judgment, blame, lack of self-worth, jealousy and comparison, with which I have excelled in my life, I now dedicate that same commitment to living every day from my innermost.’ I can feel how I spent so much time and money on drinking, overeating and lack of self worth – this consumed by everyday, I was very dedicated to these giving them a lot of energy – I was a master at them, I love how you now have this dedication to living from your innermost, this is wonderful to read because I know how dedicated and committed I can be and that rather than it being to unloving, unsupportive ways of being I am now making it about being dedicated to loving choices and living from my essence instead.

293. Love reading your blog today, it is simply about connecting to our essence. I had a similar experience this week where I absorbed someone else’s energy and I could not understand why I was wanting to eat bread and cheese, things I don’t eat, which makes me tired. If we move away from our connection to our essence anything can get in.

294. I often experience that it is in the moments where it feels too hard or yucky and there is a desire to numb with food or other distractions, that the real reward is found if I don’t succumb to those feelings and seek to numb but instead embrace what is going on. In doing that there is so much more clarity about any situation and what actually felt intense is never as bad as it might first feel.

295. Every livingness 1 workshop I have ever attended with Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine and there are many, there has always been something profound I have taken home to my life. Another awareness I knew inside and am so confirmed in this that they are very beautiful and life changing to attend as all the courses are. Bringing true love home to all of us and our knowing and livingness of all we are. Thank you Julie for this beautiful sharing with the importance of letting go of our hurts .

296. To note here is the continuity with which love is consistently chosen. Healing hurts is not something that I get right one day and from there on I am healed. Healing hurts is a way of taking daily choices and living in the joy of healing needs consistent ongoing deepening steps.

297. So true we devote a mass of energy to living in disconnection from our essence. Not only can this be redirected to living in connection but when it is, it does not get used to sustain healthy and self loving habits. They occur as a natural part of the divine rhythm that our essence connects us with. Instead all this energy gets channelled into immense development of health, well being and the quality of our expression which begins to naturally inspire and support others to do likewise. This is the success story behind the growing body of students of Universal Medicine and their expanding involvement in serving their larger communities around the world.

298. I love how your commitments in life have been completely turned around – the same time, effort and attention you paid to ‘drugs, alcohol, overeating, drinking caffeine, lack of exercise, judgment, blame, lack of self-worth, jealousy and comparison’ has now been swapped for taking care of yourself, making supportive choices and being loving rather than reactive with others. The hours we spend on making ourselves unhappy and numb, distracted and so forth can add up to a significant chunk of our everyday lives – you’ve suggested how powerful it could be if we swapped this all for choices that confirmed our joy.

299. Wow this line struck me today “I realised that the hurts I’ve absorbed through false beliefs” as it shows that our hurts are not us, they are not who we are and do not need to define us. That hurts are absorbed by us, but the reality is we have the choice to live from the untouched part of us, our own love and that is always there. I was thinking even the smallest hurt like someone shouting and us feeling hurt can mean we live from what is not us, the compounding effect over the years we grow up with is quite staggering. Thank God for Universal Medicine as I was completely engulfed by my hurts and living from them, I did not know there was another way that was possible to live.

300. Me too Julie, I have attended many Universal Medicine courses and I get many light bulb moments just like what you’ve shared. I am always blown away by them and from the inspiration I receive to live a more loving life. This is a blessing for me and everyone around me.

301. The beauty of Serge Benhayon is his ability to express the profound simply so that we absolutely get it. I discovered from attending Universal Medicine workshops and presentations that we are not our hurts ant this was deeply transformative. Previous to this, hurt is what I had identified with. To learn that this was a choice I was making, one that could be released and replaced with love was a revelation and the start of my healing journey.

302. You would think it would be the most natural thing in the world that everyone would do automatically to deeply love, honour and nurture ourselves but self-abuse is a million times more wide spread. The more we care for ourselves the more love we can then have for others and this is how harmony in the world will slowly grow.

303. How long have we used the excuse that ‘it’s all too hard’. What did we have to do to start smoking, drinking alcohol and coffee? We had to work hard to override what our body was telling us! When being who we all actually are, only requires us just to be our self!

304. We can choose ourselves…. I love this Julie! Your blog reminds me that it is simple and doesn’t have to be the big hard arduous way I’ve believed it is and have made it. This is something we should all know and when we forget be reminded of in our families and at school.

305. A great blog to read, thank you. I have noticed that the behaviour patterns we gather in response to hurts become a false foundation that unconsciously become habits and, (as you share) … “excuses to justify not living in the fullness of this Essence”…

306. What is profoundly true about what is written here, is that virtually everyone is walking around with these suits of armour, with projections so deeply embedded within us that it would be seemingly impossible to let go of… And this is where one could say the miracle of what Universal Medicine presents comes to the fore… That makes it possible for anyone to let go of these shields and to experience what it is like to feel their essence and then to live in the light of what it means to be a true human being.

307. “Being in a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with myself allows for a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with everyone else.” That is so beautifully expressed, Julie, I love it. That is so key to the dedication that is needed for us to lead a truly loving life, which is what we each really want for us all.

308. ‘It’s about the choices I make when I get out of bed in the morning and how I place my feet on the floor; when I feel what to eat instead of eating what I feel, when I choose what to wear based on what will support the gorgeousness of me and when I connect with everyone, not from my hurts but from my Essence.’ – I love the simplicity in what you’re sharing here, Julie, taking it back to basics, one step at a time, one choice at a time which is either loving or harming.

309. Hurts do a fantastic job at masking who we are. Recognising I am not my hurts has been a complete game changer and I’m enjoying the (re)discovery process of who I am underneath what I have chosen to pile on top of myself.

310. We could say that holding on to our hurts is a form of control and a choice to NOT be and live who we, innately, are.

311. It is so simple it’s a wonder we avoid it. What we are looking for is within us yet we are prepared to spend lifetimes searching everywhere but within.

312. So much to love in this blog but this line is a particular pearler – “I now dedicate that same commitment to living every day from my innermost.” It says so clearly that we are all so capable of that commitment, it is simply (yet so difficult some days) to shift the commitment from making harmful choices to making more loving ones. Just use the energy for good not evil, in a super hero kinda way.

313. There is a heaviness to life when we’re weighed down with layers of protection from all our hurts – ‘These hurts, I have further come to understand, have been nothing more than excuses to justify not living in the fullness of this Essence’ – very true, Julie, and with this understanding, it makes it much easier to choose to shed those layers which are hindering us living in our fullness day to day.

314. “Being in a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with myself allows for a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with everyone else.” I agree Julie. How we are with ourselves is how we are with others.

315. If we all consistently apply the simple principle that Serge Benhayon presents: ‘observe instead of absorb’ we would find life and work a lot less draining and it would support us with not choosing the stimulants and distractions that we see so abundant around us.

316. “As I went back to work yesterday, full of the knowing of my Essence and the beauty of connecting with people in this way, it wasn’t long before I bought into someone’s pain and allowed it to trigger my own” I have experienced this too… we play small to fit in and not be glorious, which is a lot of pain in itself.

317. “Being in a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with myself allows for a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with everyone else.” The relationship with myself starts with the relationship with my body. If I don’t take care of my body and deeply honor what it needs there is no foundation.

318. “Our Essence, you see, is the love we all seek, searching all corners of the globe, stuck in the belief that it’s ‘out there’”. It is a powerful realization to allow what we have inside ourselves to be our guide on our way back to connecting to our soul and to God.

319. I love how you describe what you experience at the Universal Medicine workshops presented by Serge Benhayon: “each one has held an abundance of light bulb moments”. That is exactly how I experience them as well, with so many insights and realizations about life, the universe, God, why we are here, about myself and about my body. They are priceless experiences that bring clarity and understanding for daily living.

320. Everything from outside of us dictates who we are and our value and when we accept this as the feedback to what our worth is we give our power away and life becomes one big roller coaster. It is crazy that we then go into fixing everything by numbing ourselves with alcohol, drugs, over-eating, competing to prove ourselves etc. It is crisis and illness and disease that brings us back and the truth of who we are is re-connected to.

321. Life doesn’t encourage ““Being in a deeply loving and nurturing relationship with myself…..” but it seems to me that relationships with others cannot truly flourish if I do not have this with myself.

322. If I want to change my life, take responsibility for the choices I have made and make different choices. It totally makes sense, yet I have looked outside of myself for the answers most of my life. Thank you Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine for supporting me to trust myself more to make better choices.

323. It is beautiful to realise that it is our own hurts that hold us back and to feel the difference between living from the love that we are and living from our hurts. Having felt this, I choose to live from the love that I am, my inner most, and take responsibility for my feelings of hurt when they arise.

324. The way to truly feel our essence is through connecting and deeply honouring our body as the body is the vehicle in which our essence flows through.

325. Choosing the gentle, tender and loving movements supports and confirms me staying with my body where my true essence is. When I choose this, what-ever is going on around doesn’t push me to choose a sense of hurt or reaction because the heart of the truth is we are so much more than what gets directed at us.

326. Our essence is often our best kept secret. Yet it shouldn’t be a secret, because it is where our power lies.

327. I recognise the choice we have to connect to the Love we are at every given moment. And this love isn’t static, it’s inviting us forever to evolve by deepening the relationship with the love we are. What I personally have become aware of recently is the fact that I’ve got a choice to reconnect everytime I react to something or somebody. Very often I went into blaming mode, protection and hardness, rather than acknowledging the fact that I reacted. Often this has to do with stubbornness that I choose to not admit. Life becomes so much simplier when I make the choice to be responsible for whatever I feel / react to.

328. Like a cupboard that is bare and seems to be empty, but actually has a secret door at the back, so our life and body works the same way. Finding your ‘essence’ might seem odd or intangible at first. After all, you’ve lived ‘X’ years and don’t remember feeling this essence thing that is described. Yet when we just change the quality we live in life, we rediscover like an explorer a warmth and stillness that has always been there just waiting underneath. So readings your words today Julie I can see we all have our own Aladin’s cave of riches and gold beyond belief. It is there, yes Love does live naturally in you and me.

329. The great irony of the search ‘out there’ is that what we see out there is a reflection of what is within us. If we feel unfulfilled with ourselves, everything outside of us is simply going to reflect that right back to us, and so we continue on the hamster wheel.

330. Loved reading your blog again today. It is so simple to live from ones essence and at the same time there is so much in the world that can pull us away from the joy of living from that place. At the end of the day though it is our choice whether we stay connected to our essence or not so when it is our hurts that can hook us the most it seems sensible to address these as much as we can. Living from our essence is like being absolutely and utterly at home, feeling at one and in harmony with the All.

331. “These hurts, I have further come to understand, have been nothing more than excuses to justify not living in the fullness of this Essence”.
     It is so easy to wallow in our hurts and from these come all our reactions and we then bury ourselves deeper. It feels so much simpler to reconnect to the essence which is within us all and then we appreciate who we are rather than what we are not.

332. It seems crazy when put so simply how we all chase the outer at the expense of the inner. Yes we all know there is more to life otherwise we wouldn’t be so miserable or in constant tension, but how many of us realise that all we need is within? I am so thankful that I met Serge Benhayon when I did and that I was open to hearing what he was presenting. My life has changed enormously as a result!

333. “I realised that the hurts I’ve absorbed through false beliefs of my ‘failings’ as a woman, mother, wife, friend, daughter, sister, employee and neighbour, are how I have encased myself in a seemingly impenetrable suit of armour, burying my natural essence underneath”. As Julie mentions above when we stop identifying with what we have taken on and instead check into the natural essence we are, the game changes because we start to appreciate who we are and begin to honour this rather than going into the familiar self bashing and self denigrating.

334. What you write here is super powerful, Julie, and so absolutely beautiful, especially in bringing to light the pattern that most of us have lived through and accepted – of buying into someone’s pain and allowing it to trigger our own. This simple statement is profound beyond words and in itself offers huge healing!

335. Beautiful – all those other commitments we have had in our lives that actually hurt as can be let go of, in your own pace and time at your own discretion, to be replaced with a commitment to loving you and living from your essence.

336. Beauty-full and honest sharing. I recently got more understanding about living from the innermost which was before just something out there in my head. Now its starting to be real. The ideals are strong and I start to distinguish and first step is to be present with my body. It feels like starting again after birth to learn like a child to walk again in an adult body. So much hardness and so used to live disconnected….now learning to check-in and re-connecting again and again and again and turn on the appreciation radio and playfullness program instead of harshness, seriousness, critic, self-doubt, judgement, guilt, shame and blame oh and not to forger jealousy. The playfullness supports to name these things with lightness instead of it being heavy. Just started and it’s each day anew as you write.

337. I’d never heard of the Pollyanna approach – I had to look it up. Absolutely agree. Through living this joy and service in his every second, Serge shows that there are no rose-tinted glasses being worn. This is the truth. Plain and simple and glorious.

338. “The commitment to drugs, alcohol, overeating, drinking caffeine, lack of exercise, judgment, blame, lack of self-worth, jealousy and comparison, with which I have excelled in my life, I now dedicate that same commitment to living every day from my innermost.” I love this. Fascinating. And it is so worth pondering. If you look round at the world and the incredible dedication that people are capable of (sport, work, christianity, eating, tv screens, music, hobbies..etc..) it’s interesting to consider what the world would look like if we were all displaying the same commitment to our own self-care, self-love and appreciation. This is the ‘re-direction of my commitment’ that Serge Benhayon has inspired in me.

339. What an awesome blog Julie, pearl after pearl after pearl!! This one’s earth shattering and a great reminder for when the temptation is there to focus on a ‘hurt’ rather than the love we truly are– “These hurts, I have further come to understand, have been nothing more than excuses to justify not living in the fullness of this Essence.”

340. It makes me smile when I read your blog, all the effort I put into all the hurts and the searching when all the time loving choices would bring me to my essence, a deepening process but this is now what I can take out to life, to others. So simple. Thank you Julie great blog.

341. “Our Essence, you see, is the love we all seek”
     Enter Universal Medicine – the search is over – the medicine within.

342. “I have attended this and other workshops previously and, whilst each one has held an abundance of light bulb moments, the clarity and understanding in me from this particular one has been exceptionally profound.” I have attended around 12 Livingness 1 workshops and all of them have asked different questions, totally relevant to the way we as humanity are living and by exploring these questions with other people our choices are opened up to a whole new level. Only truth can be infinitely expanded upon like this.

343. I too have used my hurts as an excuse to play small, to hide and not live the gloriousness of who I really am. It is our responsibility to shine our light for all to see and feel. Staying buried in our hurts is the ultimate excuse to not step into and live all of the love that we are.

344. We can waste a lot of time identifying ourselves by our hurts, thinking that this is who we are. Through deep appreciation and celebration of our innate qualities that dwell within and letting these out for others to see, we soon discover that we are grand, we are big, we are glorious. Once we have connected with this, our hurts come up but they can also quickly shift and we realise that we have a choice to hang cling to them, or to let them go.

345. We sign the contract with illusion and glamour yet we fail to read the small print that says we are guaranteed to fail.

346. We are born moving and expressing from the beauty and magic of our essence but as we grow we see less and less of this reflected in the lives and movements of those around us and so we make the choice to join the masses and craft a uniquely layered suit of protection in order to cope with a life lived from the outside, a life that is based on illusion and glamour, false pictures of what it is to be a woman, mother, wife, friend, daughter, sister and employee. Re-finding my essence has been like finding the universe inside me.

347. When I needed to buy drugs, no stone was left unturned, no hurdle was too great to over come, the length of time it took did not matter, nor did how far I had to travel, this was the same for all the druggies I hung out with. I often say to people with an addiction, imagine if you put all that energy you put into scoring drugs into re-connecting to your self?

348. “Being in a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with myself allows for a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with everyone else.”- so true, and this is what will potentially change the world, starting with ourself.

349. You are so right, Julie, in that we are looking for that inner peace and harmony in all the wrong places and in all the material things we feel we need to have. We have had it here with us all along and we so often are choosing to not go there. But when we do make this choice we are amazing and reflect this amazingness and love to all those around us. A beautiful sharing.

350. It’s so true that the search for our essence and the ‘more’ in life has now even led us into outer space – a lot of people do indeed feel that there is more to life but look anywhere and everywhere in search of it apart from within themselves… We live in a society where all the attention is put on exteriors, images and ideals, so it’s important we have blogs like yours that offer the suggestion that it could all actually be there on the inside!

351. There are so many ways hurts can play out in life, some are subtle and others, extremely loud.

352. It is fascinating that every moment offers a new choice: either to heal or to harm. No matter how deeply I am sunken into feeling hurt, love is always only 1 choice away.

353. Thank you Julie.This is absolute gold. I have the sense that I live every day connecting to my hurts rather than connecting to my Essence. And I LOVE the way you describe the wondrous beauty that we are in Essence! Thank you for reminding me that what I connect to is absolutely my choice.

354. I love coming back to basics Julie, it’s very confirming to bring us back to simplicity when life can get very busy or complicated. Our essence has always been there inside us, solid, and strong, it’s us that choose to leave it and it’s always there shining as brightly as ever when we choose to return to it.

355. Understanding the extent to which our hurts control our lives is massive. We invest more time and effort in protecting our hurts than we do in connecting to the love and joy that is inside us, that to me is really crazy.

356. The thing about hurts is that they become the everyday, all day focus – they are all we allow ourselves to feel instead of the essence we truly are. Even if hurts are present we can still deal with them from our essence, but somehow we check out from the essence almost completely and revolve everything around the hurts. It’s really time to make the essence the central star of the show 🙂

357. A beautiful account of life and how we live it from our hurts instead of feeling and living from our essence and the absolute magic of this. A joy to read and know and realise also how much we do to avoid this. Very silly really!

358. Julie, Serge Benhayon presents the same stuff in a thousand different ways. It’s quite incredible how we can all hear something numerous times but then suddenly it seems to stand out in absolute luminescent relief. I feel that it is a reflection of how hard and how long we have each buried the truth that we have to hear it over and over again before it truly feels known in our bodies.

359. We are all already where each of us so desperately longs to be, it’s simply that most of us continuously choose to look the other way, which bamboozles us into thinking that we are not.

360. ‘Being in a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with myself allows for a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with everyone else.’ This is an amazing focus to have in our lives and one well worth exploring.

361. I know too well what it is like living from hurt as it can be consuming and taints what I see. For me it makes it appear that people are somehow ganging up against me when in truth they may actually be supporting me. It distorts reality and puts the blame on others taking all sense of responsibility away.

362. “These hurts, I have further come to understand, have been nothing more than excuses to justify not living in the fullness of this Essence.” Wow, how many of us walk around choosing to remain feeling hurt. It is the perfect way to keep ourselves protected and distant from others and away from our natural, full, and beautiful essence.

363. Not investing in our hurts and letting go of our identification with them, knowing we are so much greater than these experiences allows for a shift in a way of living. It allows for greater connection to our ‘essence’ and life takes on a whole new perspective!

364. At the end of the day it all comes down to a simple choice, and a choice we have ignored, evaded, avoided for far too long, so much so that many would deny we have a choice because life is so entrenched and awful. But we do and the choice is this – to connect to, live, cherish and express our exquisite divine essence or not. It actually requires a great deal of effort to not live it, hence all the beliefs we call in, ideals we adhere to, all the indulgences we invent all in the name of not just being ourselves. I love how Universal Medicine consistently brings us back to face the same choice again and again, a constant exposure on the quality of choices we are making and their consequences, bringing us back to the plain simple Truth of the matter, that we are Divine and Love is our true innate, God given expression.

365. Julie, this is a great article, I can very much relate to this, ‘ the hurts I’ve absorbed through false beliefs of my ‘failings’ as a woman, mother, wife, friend, daughter, sister, employee and neighbour’, reading this I can feel how I have always felt like I failed as a woman, that I just didn’t quite make it, that I wasn’t a real woman and the same with many of the other roles, this is changing now as I am re-connecting to the beautiful woman that I am and living this in my day to day. I have observed how it is ‘common’ in society for women to feel that are lacking and that they they do not match up to the idea of how we think a woman should be – this is very sad as we all so amazing and beautiful and unique and for most of us we do not fully realise or appreciate this.

366. Thanks, Julie. It feels really great to read and share about our ‘Essence’, and make it an everyday word rather than something shrouded with mystery. The more we live from our Essence, the more we remind others that they have an inextinguishable flame inside them too, that is naturally pure and loving.

367. “Being in a deeply loving and nurturing relationship with myself…..”
     I agree, This is the basis for everything, for every relationship with others.

368. Searching outside of ourselves for the answers will only lead to half truths at best, whereas all the answers we could ever want are inside of us already.

369. Appreciating what we bring and offer in this world lets us bring even more.

370. Living from love, not hurt.

     Living from truth, not lies.

     1. Not living love is what hurts!!

371. Once the search on the outer is seen for the futility it is, it becomes rather simple – not instant but a steady redevelopment that takes step by little step in the knowing that we are only getting rid of what we are not and never is it about becoming something we not already are.

372. When we look within and see that we have everything we already, we no longer need to search outside of ourselves for the answers. Our commitment to life re-configures and our past hurts and beliefs fall away as we have made a commitment to living life and how we in turn care and love ourselves from new movements.

373. We talk at length, we buy books, see counsellors and even attend courses, all in the name of ridding ourselves of these hurts and yet they seem to hang around. Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon are the first people I have found who have presented this possibility that we actually cling on to these hurts and choose to have them around. This and what you share Julie about the armour we develop is a truly different take. Let us all find out what is underneath this protective shell we have held for all these years, could it be we will be surprised?

374. Great point Julie, what a different world we would have if we put the same dedication into make loving choices as we do to making abusive choices!

     1. To add to the ridiculousness of the whole thing, not only do we make abusive choices but we call those choices loving. For example, we “celebrate” by drinking alcohol and eating cake neither of which are things that are loving choices for our body.

     2. Agreed, Nicola. We can’t continue to live a ‘normal’ life and wish the world to change. Change starts with us and our commitment to Love.

375. Ah Julie, your title alone “Living from Love, Not Hurt” holds within it a hugely powerful message.

376. Life is like the ocean – we can learn to swim so we can enjoy it or we can stand longingly at the edge consumed by our doubts and fears.

377. One of the nicest things in life is to see and feel the essence of another as that essence is love. They may express something very, very different from their essence but that essence is still there.

378. In communicating from a hurt, or from one’s essence, there is a distinct difference , the former being reaction and emotion that makes things just really difficult to see clearly, and the latter I always feel like the silence in the air just before/when it begins to snow, that light knowingness of the surrounding area, of what’s there, stillness and absolute clarity in each falling delicate flake.

379. “….and when I connect with everyone, not from my hurts but from my Essence” – this is the hugest difference in connecting and is what builds true relationships, though invariably it’s the other way round, ie many build relationships through calamity or joint hurts to feel the same as the hurting one [sympathy], and yet a hurt with a hurt – builds more hurt.

380. Living from the inside out rather than forever seeking the magic something or someone ‘out there’ has been a work in progress for me over the last 12 years, and I have found that life continues to be more rich, joyous and harmonious as a result. It comes back to how I choose to move through my day, just as you describe Julie.

381. Too often our relationship with life is developed on the basis of what can hurt us. Security becomes our comfort as we seek solace in whatever way we can from the hardship of the world. Unfortunately, this comes at a price, and that is at the price of our connection and ability to feel and understand that the world is much more than just the physicality of what we see laid our before us.

382. If we all were all as are committed to ourselves and being connected with our essence and expressing all of who we are in true as we do to our negative coping mechanisms and going around in circles using them expecting them to suddenly produce a different result imagine the world we would live in if we all took responsibility for our choices and felt the connection we all have available to us when we connect with our inner heart and express the wisdom available to us.

383. Currently pretty much the whole of the world’s population is indeed living from a place of deep hurt but there will come a day when pretty much the entire world will be living from a place of love. Life will return to being the living celebration of God that we all know it to be.

384. Oh Julie I love so much about what you have shared. The absolute ease with which you write makes reading what you write effortlessly simple. The clarity with which you share deep wisdom makes it super easy to understand and the humour that you infuse through what you share makes what you share a joy to read. More please.

385. I have been learning and discovering that it is actually harder in so many ways to resist the natural flow of Love that we are within. It may feel awkward and unusual at first but once embraced there is nothing more familiar and not a thing in this outer world that can compare to the joy of the natural-ness of the Love we are in essence.

386. ‘Being in a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with myself allows for a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with everyone else.’ It is a great point you share here, amongst many, Julie of how much more lightness we have to offer in all our relationships when we are in a loving relationship with ourselves. This is a great reflection of how nothing can go unnoticed, or unaccounted for really, as we all can feel the quality that is being lived, we simply don’t always want to see it with open and honest eyes.

387. There is no end to the depth and magnificence of Love that we can live on a daily basis, as with every moment we are presented with a choice, Love or everything else that is not of Love. This relationship with ourselves, with our inner-most essence, is one that we were all born to explore in order to heal the hurts that exist as a result separating from the Love of our Soul.

388. Beautiful, Julie, letting down the barriers by re-connecting to and living from your essence, “being in a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with myself allows for a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with everyone else”. What better commitment could there be.

389. This is stunning Julie. To be willing to see that our hurts are our choice, a choice that holds us back from embracing and living the exquisiteness of our connection to our essence, is to free us from existing incarcerated by our protection and separation from each other. There is no greater Love that the Love we are, the Love we are from, and the Love we are here to live, together.

390. Love your writing Julie and the point you make about when you went to work and how you didn’t want to feel what was going on so you instead wanted to eat. I can relate to this and your sharing on this gave me a key to start to clock it more.

391. What is really going on that we find it easier to continually perpetuate abuse towards ourselves than to choose Love? Why is it the struggle we choose? These are questions that come to me regarding my own choices now that I have the awareness of how I am choosing to live. Every moment is alive with activity and the quality of activity is up to us to choose. Energetic responsibility and integrity is not something to be avoided but to be embraced for it allows for a foundation that continues then to unfold the love that we truly are.

392. We are all love in essence, and any movement that is not of love is a step away from the truth of us. I loved reading your blog Julie, thank you.

393. “Our Essence, you see, is the love we all seek, searching all corners of the globe, stuck in the belief that it’s ‘out there’” – this is so profound, and yet when we cannot seem to find or feel our essence it seems like the last and furthest of places is to look within, And even when we look within, we have layers that seem to cover our access to our essence. And so it is layer by layer that we uncover ourselves, that we allow an unfoldment and so we develop our relationship with the deepest part of ourselves. What a blessing, but one that we cannot seem to access unless we truly seek to do so.

394. I have lived from hurts most of my life, having my “hurts coloured” glasses on and seeing life from that perspective and still do at times. I can be in a situation and react without even realising that I still have the hurt lens on and that is not who I am its just a layer of protection that I have learnt to wear so well that I forget that it is not me. When I am in the same situation, without the hurt lens, they way I respond it totally different and therefore so is the result.

395. What I get from reading your blog is how much energy and commitment we have been able to put into everything that is not our essence and how it is a choice to now put the commitment back into myself. Only recently I was thinking about how many self bashing thoughts I can have and how they are almost seen as normal, whereas there are not as many self appreciation thoughts and it appears that it is more accepted to put yourself down than to toot your own horn. So here’s to tooting your own horn and living from your essence. Toot toot!

396. Thank you Julie for this awesome blog, beautifully reminding us it is our choice in every moment to choose to connect to our essence or not. Our commitment to life can be of love instead of abuse. We have the power to choose and our choices affects us in every way and ripples out to other too, so the responsibility is always our in our every choice to make it about love, returning to our essence.

397. The more I have come to understand about the different between living from love instead of one’s hurts, the more I realise that this is the key to true freedom.

398. Julie I particularly liked this sentence, for it rings very true for me as well. “These hurts, I have further come to understand, have been nothing more than excuses to justify not living in the fullness of this Essence” What I have been sitting with here is that there is an indulgence in being in this way past when the hurt happened. It’s not about getting over a hurt but bringing understanding to ourselves and others in reference to the hurt, what’s the learning underneath. When we look underneath at the reasons, then we are much more able to let go of the hurt and move on. It’s a very beautiful thing to offer not only ourselves but to the other person involved as well.

399. Hello Julie and interesting what you say about our ‘hurts’, how we carry them and how they allow us to see the world in a different way. Almost like they put a filter on our view and then every situation, our every move is coloured with that same filter. It’s not until that ‘filter’ is exposed or caught that we can actually see how it was colouring everything otherwise we just think everything is ok. The hold these hurts have over us truly needs to be seen for you to believe it otherwise we will defend the mere notion as being ridiculous, weird or simply untrue. Great to chat about hurts and how they are also an everyday commitment to bring awareness to.

400. We’ve heard it a million times, that what we spend so much of our time seeking, is actually already there within us. But, it’s not until we are ready to accept that as truth does it mean anything to us, hence the light bulb moment at this presentation. I’ve had several moments like this, where I’ve heard the same thing over and over again, and just one day it clicks…one day I’ve dropped my guard, allowed the possibility of what’s being said, and then choose to feel whether I believe it to be true or not. I have to laugh at how long I’ve avoided doing this…avoiding allowing myself to feel the grandness within.

401. Julie, I love the point about your past commitment to all things harmful. Such a great marker that indicates just how much we can be taken out by thoughts like ‘it’s too hard’. Looking after ourselves is a foreign concept when we first start to look at our choices, but before long, like any other habit, it becomes a new way of being.

402. Interesting that how we are with ourselves is how we will be with others, and how others will be with us… we are all a reflection of each other – the question is what energy or quality are we each reflecting?

403. Julie, tremendous sharing thank you. I was like nodding with my whole body and smiling as I read this because it is so true (and revelatory) what you share with us. Living from our essence is gazillion times more beautiful and thank you for that reminder as sometimes I still choose the hurts and not my essence and somehow think that some sweet/salty popcorn is the answer. But its not. Choosing to heal our hurts and no longer use them as an excuse to live the grandness that we are, is the way forward. Beaut blog.

404. “These hurts … have been nothing more than excuses to justify not living in the fullness of this Essence.” This is so true… I can feel this reconfiguring my psyche as I read it! Thank you for the reality check Julie.

405. We can seek so far and wide when the love we all crave is already within us, and always has been, waiting for us to simply choose it – to be it.

406. The discovering what innately lives inside me are absolutely delicious and amazing beyond food the stunning skies. As you share Julie it is step by step, moment by moment these feelings and awareness if connected to inside and chosen become more apparent and more regular. It is going from the looking and seeking of what is out there to the truth of what is already with-in.

407. This is so true what you present here Julie… the commitment we have to drugs, caffeine, etc can just as easily be utilised to commit to our relationship within ourselves. We are prepared to commit to one but not the other when it is simply a choice to choose our essence.

408. What a great point you make about the efforts that we can put into living a life that is not from our essence which leaves us feeling unsettled, fatigued or even exhausted. Turn the effort around on itself and make the commitment to ourselves means we have space to just be and with our effort it is actually vey simple to live with our Essences as our first impulse. Letting go of our hurts which are primarily from ourselves not being who we know we are allows us to have a clear, clean and beautiful canvas to express on daily.

409. ah, good old soul searching – that thing we all do, even now when I know that in fact everything I will ever need is within me, i still find myself choosing to look outside to what I can do to prove my worth rather than who I am – but who I am never fades or goes away, it waits patiently for me to connect to it and live it.

410. It’s funny isn’t it, how we can say we’re not dedicated or committed especially to our own well being and living in a way that if from the essence in us, yet we are very committed and often to a way of living that does not support us. So the question is really what do we align to – our essence or everything else? And from that choice to align everything else our choices etc. come.

411. ‘The commitment to drugs, alcohol, overeating, drinking caffeine, lack of exercise, judgment, blame, lack of self-worth, jealousy and comparison, with which I have excelled in my life, I now dedicate that same commitment to living every day from my innermost.’ And living from our innermost is much more simple than the list to distract or resist to feel what lives inside as this definitely complicates our lives every day we choose to live from the outside in.

412. We certainly go to great lengths to find that illusive state of total contentment in our own skin. I have repeated the same behaviour over and over again because of the momentary relief its given me from the uneasiness that’s used to be permanently just below the surface. It only started to shift when I shifted my focus to what you describe Julie, and to be honest when I started I had no idea how it was going to work, but I figured, I had tried so many other things, it was worth getting to know me and beginning to treat myself with more kindness. The outcome of these simple choices continues to be life changing.

413. “Being in a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with myself allows for a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with everyone else.” This is absolutely true, we only need to work on self first and see the changes around us.

414. Living from our essence is what I am learning, this is the key, as we live from our essence, we inspire others.

415. It’s not that we aren’t capable of commitment it’s a matter of what we choose to commit to.

416. Wow, you’ve just explained the driving force behind space exploration! The search for truth outside ourselves is fervent and literally costs us greatly. I’d never seen it so clearly as this, like I’ve always felt space exploration was super misguided, but when I relate it to how I have searched for truth it is so clear how misguided I have been.

     And what was I hoping to be given from following religions, going travelling, finding ‘the one’? What did I believe truth was going to deliver me? A kind of fulfillment I still can find myself searching for in good weather, a beautiful landscape, a perfect job, a day at the beach. These things can be appreciated but to rely on them in anyway shows me I’m giving away my power, my connection, my responsibility to deliver me to me by simply connecting with me. So looking forward to enjoying a holiday because it is better than being at work shows me how I’m not living in full wherever I am in my day.

417. I love your description Julie. ‘But it isn’t ‘out there’ – it’s inside us, solidly, continuously, bigger and grander than anything this world has to offer.’ Knowing that what we seek is inside and not in some far off landscape begins to change everything…then comes the beauty of developing that relationship with the inside and that definitely changes everything!

418. I like how you have changed where your commitment is. All that energy you used being negative, blaming, being self critical etc can now be redirected to connect and develop that relationship with yourself. Definitely a more loving focus that must bring greater joy to your days.

419. This is so true Julie. I had spent so much time searching out there as I knew there was more to life, more to me. But all the searching out there stopped me from realising that what it was that I was searching for was actually inside of me all the time. All I need to do is to connect to this and allow it out. No more searching in space for me, just developing my connection within.

420. “Being in a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with myself allows for a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with everyone else.” This is not ‘rocket science’, this is simple science, choice to love, treasure and nurture myself = natural outcome to love, treasure and care for others.

421. To feel hurt is one thing and only temporary, to identify with that hurt is a completely different thing. Identification means to form myself around a hurt, it is a creation of what I am not that seeks to confirm itself and thus is perpetuated until I decide to let go of the identification. Only then can I come back to who I am and always have been without the hurt.

422. Interesting point that we can only feel wrong or ‘failing’ when we compare ourselves with a belief or ideal that first needs to be accepted, otherwise it cannot affect us.

423. ‘Being in a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with myself allows for a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with everyone else.’ – This is a great point Julie, honesty in relationships needs to start with ourselves – how honest are we really with ourselves?

424. Julie the best thing ever to do is what you have shared: “I now dedicate that same commitment to living every day from my innermost.” Imagine more people who would chose to do so . . .

425. Having a relationship with ourselves is one of the most magical and beautiful gifts in this world.

426. It is a deeply profound experience to connect to our essence and not take our hurts with us in our day. Although it sometimes get triggered we always have the choice to stay with the joy in our hearts.

427. ‘These hurts, I have further come to understand, have been nothing more than excuses to justify not living in the fullness of this Essence.’ Hurt has nothing on who we truly are.

428. ‘Our Essence, you see, is the love we all seek, searching all corners of the globe, stuck in the belief that it’s ‘out there’: in some hidden valley, on top of a mountain, in the deepest ocean, or with a partner, having children, a new body at the gym, a better house or car, a new pair of shoes, that ‘must have’ dress, or chocolate bar after chocolate bar.’

     There is no end to the extent to which we will pray, search, strive, fight. compete. please, abuse and try anything in this world to find ‘what is missing’, but never really missing.

429. I know that everything I love in my life has come from choosing to live from my Essence first…

     1. Yes to that.

430. Committing to living from our innermost every single day, what a great commitment that is.

431. A gorgeous blog and one that inspires me to continue to make choices to live from my essence. Thank you.

432. This is so true, our choices can either support us to be more loving or the complete opposite.

433. It is so simple, re-connect with the love that resides within us and then we can truly love and embrace another.

434. What I love about the Esoteric is that we do not have to go anywhere, read books, watch stuff on TV and/or look outside our self for any answers. All we have to do is re-connect to our innermost and every thing we need to know is right there for us.

435. When we perform activities to numb our feelings of tension we are confirming that those feelings belong.

     Whenever we comfort eat due to feelings of tension from a particular event we are saying we will let that experience fester in our behaviours a little longer. This process is a cycle of re-confirmation that the tension belongs to our daily moments and that we accept it.

436. ‘Being in a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with myself allows for a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with everyone else.’ – Julie this is so true – in order for us to feel the amount of love that is always around us, we need to connect to the love that is within us first – our essence that is there always. Hurts are the very thing that get in the way, and it is only from hurt that humanity has been able to create all the things out there to make us feel OK – when really this can never be enough – we always come back to the importance of our essence first.

437. The livingness one course held over here in the UK last June equally blew open my perception around holding onto and healing hurts of which this blog further confirms. What hurts us most is our choices made to bury what naturally wants to be expressed and shared. A series of behaviours and choices we learn from outside of our essence that are not true to our nature and yet as children we are imposed upon to adopt them. When we stop blaming the outside world or the impositions and the force we are surrounded by on a daily 24/7 basis currently in human life and start to say ‘I chose to take on that situation/behaviour/energy’ it leaves us feeling empowered and allows life to change and expand. And often now when I ask myself from where my situation has stemmed from – Spirit or Soul is when I snap back into the drivers seat of my choices in life, I can live from love or exist from my hurts, that is my choice.

438. What if we brought such dedicated commitment to loving and accepting ourselves instead of the commitment we make to those behaviours we use to mask our hurts?

439. This really made me feel how amazing I am. It’s harder to fight our essence then it is to live it. You’ve highlighted the importance of listening to our body when it comes to eating- feeling what you eat, not eating what you feel.

440. “These hurts, I have further come to understand, have been nothing more than excuses to justify not living in the fullness of this Essence.” well this made me stop in my tracks and rethink what I’ve been running with …

441. When we finally hit this moment of realization that all the answers are deep within and not out there literally life turns around – we start living from the inside out instead of the outside in. It is simple, it is obvious once you have woken up out of the illusion the world is caught in. Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine are simply inspiring us up to come back to who we are and have always been – it is our choice to wake up or not.

442. Healing is evolving, evolving is coming back to what has always been but was buried by what needs to be healed.

443. What if ALL the dramas, ALL the issues we create, ALL the tensions we run with are ALL excuses to not live this essence, life is suddenly a whole lot more simpler then if this is the case which it in fact is, because it means that ALL the problems of this world stem from not living this Essence.

444. Yes the commitment that we have to get that bar of chocolate no matter what, go totally out of way to get these vices yet it sometimes seems too hard to commit to loving ourselves to the max with the same dedication. It seems so silly when I see it like that.

445. There is a very strong belief that it is difficult to change how we are in the world, that is the loveless behaviour that we have been used to and subscribed to. This is not true, it is a mind set that can rule us if we let it and only if we let it. We have a choice in every moment and we are not totally at the mercy of the outside world which is what we like to think sometimes to excuse ourselves from taking responsibility for the changes we need to make.

446. The hurts we absorb can certainly become a hard suit of armour and protective case around us, and then when we go out into the world and talk with other people, go to work, interact within our families and so forth there’s the potential that our armour will simply clash against other people’s armour and that no connection is actually developed. It requires someone to take off their armour in order for others and us all to realise that the suit is not needed.

447. If we lose ourselves in the roles that we have in life or become overidentified with them they indeed can become an excuse for not living who we truly are.

448. All that endless searching in ‘Outer Space’ only every delays our return to living from who we naturally are. It is also crazy how we are looking for truth outside of ourselves.

449. Lovely ‘back to basics’ Julie..”how I am with myself in each and every moment.” It is about every second of every day, every thought that happens in our heads that influence the choices we make, and building this way of life makes our foundation. Great to return to the simplicity and truth thank you.

450. Thank you for sharing this inspiring blog Julie! It is wonderful to be reminded that we are already what we have been looking for and that it is within us.

451. Thank you Julie this is such a practical description of how to start developing a true relationship with self. No wishy washy ideals but a simple and practical development of conscious presence and honouring our feelings and sensitivity.

452. It takes dedication and commitment to stay with the awareness of why we eat what we do. Once a little attention is paid, it is not hard to see how much what we eat is eaten to numb what we are feeling and not wanting to feel.

453. Thanks to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine the search for love and truth is over. It can be found within our inner heart; here our divine essence lies. Nothing can destroy it; we can only choose to build layers upon layers of false protection/ emotional hurts so it cannot be felt, or choose distractions of food, alcohol, drugs to numb us.

454. Choosing to be in ‘a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with myself’ is a work in progress for me but I have certainly found that it has greatly benefitted all my other relationships and the more I open up to myself the more open I am able to be with others and the responses I get are so confirming that they encourage me to go even deeper.

455. Ouch recognising that our hurts have been excuses for not living and appreciating the depth and beauty of our essence and living from this knowing is certainly a huge light bulb moment. All that is required to turn this around, as you so rightly say, is to put the same commitment into living this way as we formerly did into all the behaviours we deployed to avoid feeling what was really going on.

456. What if we dedicated our lives to being all of who we naturally are – in essence – rather than spend it chasing for solutions ‘out there’? ‘The kingdom of God is within you ….’

457. A beautiful unfolding of truth Julie “Our Essence, you see, is the love we all seek, searching all corners of the globe, stuck in the belief that it’s ‘out there’:” when in fact it’s inside us all along waiting to be connected to. What a beautiful commitment to working equally to your own connection to being the love you are instead of all the effort to not feel this and numb oneself with all the indulgences instead. The true livingness exposed for all to choose are shown here.

458. It is a great point you make here Julie, if we use the same level of commitment towards connecting to our essence as we do to ‘drugs, alcohol, overeating, drinking caffeine, lack of exercise, judgment, blame, lack of self-worth, jealousy and comparison’, plus a multitude of other forms of abuse, we would no longer feel compelled to search outside of ourselves – we already have everything.

459. In truth we are definietly NOT our hurts. I love your writing it is very sobering saying it how it is and I really love what you have expressed here ‘But it isn’t ‘out there’ – it’s inside us, solidly, continuously, bigger and grander than anything this world has to offer. Take the most amazing sunset/sunrise you have ever seen, the most delicious food you have ever eaten, the joy felt looking into a new love’s eyes, the miracle of childbirth or simply the joy of a child and multiply it by a gazillion… that is our esoteric Essence.’

460. Julie a wonderful example of the inspiration of Universal Medicine and the current reality of the world. the fact is we all know how to avoid feeling things we don’t want to, the choice we have is to continue with that or not. What I’ve also felt is if I do jump into eating foods and other such activities then I don’t feel as alive, vital and on the pulse. I don’t feel myself. The question that comes up for me is if I don’t choose to be loving then who else will? I choose when younger to not do things to care for myself in rebellion for hurt and all I felt was more hurt, so it seems logical that choosing to do things with love would allow a live of love. One that is my choice.

461. I love how you clarify that living lovingly is not hard at all, but just a commitment to be applied with the same consistency we applied abuse for most of our lives. Are we trapped in the belief that living abuse is easier than living love?

     1. Living abuse is much easier for us as we have so much practice. If we wouldn’t be used to it, it would be extremely difficult as living abuse hurts on every level.

462. If we live life from the outside and always look what we can or cannot achieve we will always find something bigger, prettier or better and we soon realize that nothing brings true satisfaction. It’s amazing that although we experience this constantly that there is an endless non-satisfaction no matter what we achieve that we are still striving for it. What you present here is to stop this striving and feel the gold that is inside of us and live from our true power.

463. Fine analyzed Julie – it is a COMMITMENT to self-doubt, “it’s all too hard” mentality, helplessness and so on OR a commitment to responsibility about our essence, a commitment to find out how to live this divine belonging here on earth. We choose our commitment and so how our life looks like.

464. It really is that simple about life, the world, everyone on it and the universe. It all starts with us, we are all the answers and not what have been told by others that we are part of the problem.

465. Yes, it is found all inside and to live it in our daily bases brings it out. To be seen, remembered and inspiring all around us.

466. Thank you Julie, you have really blown the lid on all the reasons why we indulge in substances, foods and liquids, avoidance behaviours and all manner of things in order to avoid feeling the real impact of the energy we have absorbed that is not in harmony with our gorgeous divine essence. And it is a choice, to commit to living from our amazing essence or to commit to smothering it up. I am perpetually inspired by the Universal Medicine workshops to keep exposing the beliefs, healing the hurts and cherishing my essence and my body more and more, to keep wiping out the excuses that I indulge in to not express my awesomeness everyday. Superb blog that brings our responsibility home to us, that what we are seeking does not lie in Outer Space, drugs, gurus or Chocolate, it sits firmly within us all, waiting to be honoured, appreciated and expressed in every moment of our day.

467. Great blog, Julie – so many valid points! You show so well the emptiness and lack of fulfillment found in looking ‘out there’ when instead it is found inside ourselves. The practicality of this way you express so well by, “There is no Pollyanna approach here, simply the reality of the truth as presented by Serge Benhayon.”

468. I agree that having a commitment to myself is a life long journey, or a path, that leads me back to who I am and where I have truly come from, and in this discovery, which is not a discovery at all but a re-awakening, I am learning that as I walk this path back to the core of who I am, it is possible to inspire other people to want to do the same. This larger affect is what inspires me to want and to ask for more, to go deeper. Because as much as there is love in me, I can see it in everyone else too, only hidden or forgotten, just like me. So, it seems, that as we go deeper we actually become more encompassing, and true brotherhood starts to show itself and become an actual potential reality rather than just a set of words.

469. It’s so true – we can all choose what we commit to. And we can choose to commit to living and expressing from love rather than from our hurts, as you have done. We just need to be willing.

470. The more I commit and dedicate to a loving relationship with myself the more love I shine, for true love is not in a doing but from a foundation based on the connection to my essence and hence in the quality of my livingness.

471. “These hurts, I have further come to understand, have been nothing more than excuses to justify not living in the fullness of this Essence.” This is so true Julie, the more aware I am of how I have allowed my hurts to control my life, the more I have been able to see that they are used to justify to myself and others why I can’t live in the fullness of who I am, the divine essence that lives within me.

472. Thanks for sharing Julie, I too have found each day I gain that greater understanding of all the behaviours that are not who I really am, that are in place out of a protection but underneath all that I have chosen, everything I have ever searched for actually already exists and it is my choice as to whether I allow it out to through a commitment to self caring lifestyle choices and a willingness to be aware of what is going on energetically in each moment. This is a commitment to read each moment in life and appreciate why things are coming to me, what they are telling me and what is the next step.

473. It is through the connection to our essence we know God.

474. The more we get to know and then know our essence the easier it gets to realise when we have strayed from our essences. Every step taken with dedication to our essence builds the foundation of knowing our essence and living it.

475. “This is not something that I have suddenly ‘got’ and am now sitting pretty. This is my life on a daily basis, how I am with myself in each and every moment. “ This is beautifully summed up that there is no perfect state of being when once reached it will be there forever. Life is a continuous development that will blossom through the commitment and dedication to living a loving and true life in every moment.

476. If we allow our hurts to dominate, we are unable to see the world beyond self. It is important to heal them, but from a connection to our divine essence, and a knowing that we are a part of something very grand. Then the hurts can be addressed and dealt with differently – simply as old protection that gets in the way of us being able to express more of the love we are.

477. Love it Julie, you made me just realise that if I put the same effort into connecting to my essence and being with myself as the commitment I showed for destroying and numbing myself life would be truly glorious.

478. There is an enormous complexity to this search to find ourselves – I’ve done it… up that mountain, in that book, at the end of that mind altering experience. Little do we realise that rather than the epic journey we imagine, the gold we are looking for is waiting patiently inside for us to simply get out a cloth and start polishing with a bit of self love!

479. The best friend I can always trust, the child that loves me unconditionally, the equal partner I always wanted, awaits me at my innermost: my Soul. Friendships, parenting, relationships can support me to become more aware of who I truly am.

480. “simply the reality of the truth” this is the true gift of Universal Medicine.

481. The search is over, all we need to do is look within and we will find it there. Imagine if we were taught that at kindergarten, which it ought to be, what a different life we would have.

482. Having spent most of my entire life searching outside of myself for answers, finally stopping to look within has been an interesting process and nothing like I thought it would be. It turns out that feeling the hurts we’ve avoided for a long time isn’t actually that bad- and it really is about our moment to moment choices to stay connected to our bodies so that we can feel everything going on within and around us, and choose from there, instead of the mind. I’m finding that rather than this being some hippy way of operating, as I once would have imagined it to be, I actually work better with more commitment and focus, getting done whatever is needed to be done more efficiently and effectively than ever before, and without the drive and need for recognition.

483. There is such a massive cheer squad waiting to egg us on when we choose to dedicate our lives to hurts and numbing them with various means, but when we choose to feel what is true, there is a joy in our body that warmly cheers for us. When we ask for it, there is a beautiful strength that comes from within us from a depth that was always there, just forgotten.

484. I love this line
     ‘The commitment to drugs, alcohol, overeating, drinking caffeine, lack of exercise, judgment, blame, lack of self-worth, jealousy and comparison, with which I have excelled in my life, I now dedicate that same commitment to living every day from my innermost.’
     This is the best point I have heard in a while, it actually really inspires me, thank you.

485. Thats it Julie, we all can live form love and not from the hurts we have allowed from not living the fulness of our essence. Our essence is joy, harmony, stillness, truth and love and when we walk away from that we live from the hurt of not living that love we innately are.

486. “These hurts, I have further come to understand, have been nothing more than excuses to justify not living in the fullness of this Essence” – me, too. Julie. I find indulging in hurts is a bit of an entertainment we use as a distraction from feeling how powerful we truly are.

487. I was just clocking how I was allowing ‘life’ to dictate how I would feel. In the world that is set up not to let us live from our true essence, making a choice to connect and live from that place is something we can never do too often.

488. “Being in a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with myself allows for a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with everyone else.”

     This sounds simple and in-truth it is but how many of us actually live by such simple wisdom? Deep down we all know this is true yet still we engage with a game that has us searching endlessly outward and living in constant expectation that another will ‘fill us full’ of a love we deny ourselves. Yet when we allow ourselves to live from the inside out (the true meaning of ‘esoteric’) we begin to see that our love is a fire that will naturally warm all that it comes in contact with it. Not living the love that we are is a bit like walking away from a fire and complaining that we are cold!

489. This makes absolute sense Julie. We are so much more than we play ourselves to be and because we settle for less we invest in the image that we are ‘less’ and to make up for this seeming lack we search desperately outside of ourselves for ‘more’ while all the while our true self lays buried beneath a pile of rubble, piled high with everything we are not.

490. What a fabulous blog Julie, such a clear explanation about living life with your essence…”life on a daily basis, how I am with myself in each and every moment. It’s about the choices I make when I get out of bed in the morning and how I place my feet on the floor..” So practical, thank you for sharing

491. When we live in our essence and express it in full, there will be many reactions but it is such a beautiful way to live.

492. Great blog Julie an honest share on what actually serves us all in life – connection, and that from connection with ourselves we can connect with others. So beautiful and worth reading for those who seek relationship with themselves.

493. The love we all seek endlessly out there in relationships, accolades, achievements and distractions can never be found, because it only resides within –it is our own essence we desperately seek all along while it is always right there within us.

494. It is true what you say about our searching to the moon and back, that we do know there is something we are missing or haven’t fully understood as yet. Who would have imagined we have access to the immense universe within and through our bodies. The profound simplicity of this revelation changes everything in life as we begin to live in connection and in harmony with us, others, and all that surrounds us.

495. It is a great exercise to observe the quality of our choices and therefore what we are committing to in each moment.

496. Yes, with you all the way Julie, we can search for lifetimes over until we come to realise it is an ‘inside’ job, we are actually returning to all we naturally are, that which we have veiled with a life of distraction in whatever form we choose, whether that be in the searching or in the reaction and disbelief.

497. Life when lived from truth is nothing like we think it is, this is a great exposee, as it beckons me to ask myself if I am truly living every day. Our Essence is something we are born with, it is what we are naturally, it is everything that we are. The irony is we go high and low seeking for our Essence, when we already are it, an act which is impossible to begin with, and whatever we find through our seeking process would always be a reduced version of whatever we already have within us but have not chosen to live. So life in its trueness is one which we simply have to emanate, and oh what a glorious process of returning to glory.

498. What I loved about your blog Julie was how you described the effort that it actually takes to indulge in life and not work on our hurts or make new choices. This is an exposing point, clear for anyone to feel, that it’s not actually ever ‘too hard’ to make a change or to reconnect to our inner-most way of being and living; in fact, it is the contrary. We make it difficult via our chosen investment to stay in the struggle and dismissiveness of ourselves and are true abilities and full potential. When we make a different choice, to not indulge in our hurts or shy away from our commitments to being responsible for our each and every choice, we are able to magnify the loveliness and joy that is possible by living this way and definitely bring more of the ease to our lives.

499. Dear Julie it’s so true how when start to develop a closer and more caring and loving relationship with ourselves that we can start to observe more and then heal our hurts by the gentle process of nominating, being aware, understanding etc .
     Turning the focus inwards and appreciating all the awesome things we are also helps so much, and of course realising we are not perfect nor are meant to be, and are but students of life and love and also all sons of God equally so.

500. Seeing our hurts for what they are is the first step to letting go of them and living from our essence.

501. Julie, I have shown extraordinary commitment to drinking alcohol, smoking etc., in the past which is something I have not considered before. I wonder how my life would be if I too applied the same commitment to my livingness?

502. “Our Essence, you see, is the love we all seek..” These beautiful words Julie speak so clearly and so wisely of the truth that we all know, but that we have not only chosen to forget for so very long, but also have been encouraged to forget by a world that does not support us in any way to be who we are, but to be recognised for what we do. To cease the futile search outside of ourselves for the love that we are missing and to turn our gaze inward is to open up to the essence of who we are, and have always been, an essence so pure and so divine that when we re-connect to it anything is possible.

     1. In a world where only God exists we have been hoodwinked into believing that either he doesn’t exist or he’s abandoned us to a miserable fate but look inside to our essence and know God. It not possible to ever be alone, we are all the collective fabric of all things.

503. Amazing Julie, thank you for sharing. Living from our essence is so simple – we try and make it complicated! Thank you for presenting this very simple truth.

504. Ah Julie – I really resonate with this blog and you have expressed it so clearly. What we are all searching for is what we already are but have not connected with. It’s as if we’ve been in a dream and then wake up to find we already are what we are wanting to become – we just have to realise this.

505. Julie, a simple message here about the power of developing a relationship with ourselves, and that the more we develop a relationship with ourselves and the ‘within’ (our Essence), the less and less we need to seek love or ‘the answer to life’ outside of ourselves in our attempt to either avoid not feeling our hurts, or being identified with them.

506. I think it’s a great point Julie that many of us search, or have searched, for that missing something ‘out there’ because we have a knowing there is more to life. And as you say that ‘more’ is actually found in our inner-connection not from something outside of us; and then it becomes about developing letting that inside out into every aspect of our lives!

     1. Indeed Fiona connecting with the love that we naturally are within, is not complete until we start to share ourselves with others and let the flow out.

     2. Fiona your comment got me pondering on the subject of letting the inside out. I felt when reading your comment that our inside comes out very naturally, it’s just that we apply the brakes almost constantly to keep the inside from doing that which it naturally does, which is to merge with all things. My goodness me, we waste a lot of energy holding back that which can’t in truth be held back. If we all simply let go we would all end up in one glorious heap!

507. “Being in a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with myself allows for a deeply loving, nurturing and honest relationship with everyone else.” – This is the recipe, the simple and straightforwards recipe for us all as society to adopt – Imagine if we all treated ourselves with deep respect and care and were super honest with ourselves first and foremost, and then from there took it out to the rest of the world…Things would change majorly. This would be a recipe for wonderment!

     1. It has taken me a very long time to come to know that it is our relationship with ourselves that gets duplicated in the relationships around us. Nothing exists outside of us that does not first exist within us, therefore to change anything, we must first change ourselves.

508. Julie, what a profound and beautiful blog. Dedicating the equal amount of commitment to that which brings you back to love as the ill-choices that took you so far away from love is the key to the turning point in your life. What a gorgeous, powerful, delicate and glorious woman you are.
     The commitment to drugs, alcohol, overeating, drinking caffeine, lack of exercise, judgment, blame, lack of self-worth, jealousy and comparison, with which I have excelled in my life, I now dedicate that same commitment to living every day from my innermost.

509. ‘I realised that the hurts I’ve absorbed through false beliefs of my ‘failings’ – Wow, this line alone screams of how much I have given away of me and brought me back with such clarity around the choices I too, have made. The big thing is that this is something that affects us all and the world we are creating by not choosing to live from the love we innately are. Thank you Julie for this truly healing and re-confirming blog.

510. It is as simple as you describe Julie – choosing to commit to the loveliness of what is in our essence. It’s just the path of return is a little bumpy depending how many obstacles chosen to deflect what we don’t want to feel. But each moment is new and comes with a fresh choice. And as you share it is as simple as feeling how we place feet on the floor and are we with ourselves when we do, or are we running around the obstacles in our heads?

511. I like Julie, how you have described the overeating, lack of self-worth, jealousy and comparison as behaviours you had ‘committed’ to. I have also committed to these behaviours. There’s a simplicity of how you have expressed that there’s another choice to live from our innermost. It takes out the complication of ‘another thing’ that requires commitment. Just the choice in letting our inner heart lead the way.

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