I Wanted to Belong to Life

I wanted to belong to life so I looked around at what was on offer.

“Join me” . . .  said the sporting club, we will cheer for you and you for us, we will leave it all on the field and you will learn to be your best. So I joined and belonged to everyone – but not to me.

“Join me” . . . said the religion of my parents, we will eat, drink, pray together; you will be part of a community that has thousands of years of history to belong to. So I joined and belonged to the community – but did not belong to me.

“Join me” . . . said the fiction writer, you will be swept away by my stories and have things to discuss with those around you, so I joined and had stories to tell – but none my own.

“Join me” . . . said my friends, we will drink together, party together, have meals at fancy restaurants and get up to mischief in the small hours of the morning, so I joined and belonged with my friends – but not with me.

“Join me” . . . said my partner, we will start a family, you will be Dad, I will be Mum and we will be parents, partners and lovers together, so I joined and belonged to the relationship – but not to me.

I wanted to belong to life but got stuck along the way. I felt frustrated and tired – very tired; I was tired to my bones, tired to a place that all of my efforts amounted to naught and all I was left with were the things that “took the edge off.”

BUT . . . I wanted to belong to life and to begin with, hated what Universal Medicine presented.

Universal Medicine presented it was important to care about me, it said to consider belonging to me before I could really feel belonging with others. It presented the power is in you but that tiredness you feel is the result of avoiding that power . . . I wanted to belong to life but when you are tired, when you are sceptical, this is not what you want to hear.

BUT . . . I wanted to belong to life so I tried what Universal Medicine presented.

It has been challenging at times, it has taken commitment, my life is not and will never be perfect, but I can meet with family and friends and that meeting is what I appreciate more than any food we eat. I can work with clients and the quality of the work can mean more than any pay cheque.

I have a religious way of life that places God and me on equal footing in terms of light and responsibility for the wellbeing of myself and the world.

I have found a place within where I belong that no one else can touch or call into question. A place of humility, a place of sacredness and a place from which I no longer NEED to belong because I am with me always.

I wanted to belong to life but really, really, really wanted, and now belong, to me.

By Joel Levin, Australia

 Joel Levin Joel Levin, is a student of life, himself and The Way of The Livingness. With a deep interest in what makes people and groups productive, effective and joyful to be around.

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Living Religion: my Livingness is Religion
Living Religion: a Relationship with Self, Love and God
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555 thoughts on “I Wanted to Belong to Life

  1. In order to truly belong to ourselves once again we must first renounce all that we have come to let stand in the way of our truth, our beauty and our love. We also need to be really, really honest with ourselves how much comfort we have found dwelling in such shadow. When these hindrances are removed, we cannot but shine the light of our true making. Divinity restored.

  2. Our need to belong, which comes from our true and deep knowing of brotherhood and oneness, is what causes the tiredness, the empty feeling and seeking of belonging in the wrong direction. Everything we could ever want to belong to is inside us already. We can but belong to God and each other when we first honour our relationship with ourselves.

    1. Absolutely Fiona, it feel like a surrendering to ourselves, to our heart, to the impulse that comes from the connection to all that is divine and holds us all as equals.

  3. “I wanted to belong to life” I can so relate to this…..I felt like I was not participating the way that I could, I did not join clubs, but I did invest in family, friends and work; so different but the same, groups, hoping to belong and be seen for me. I am realising that this commit to life and belonging begins with me from the inside out and looking outside to belong will always result in feeling lonely.

  4. What a perfect blog to read and connect with this morning. The longing to belong is exhausting till we value and build belonging with ourselves and develop that relationship before all others. It is such a gift because it is so much less imposing on others and the world. I will have to read this one at the end of my day today I feel 🙂

    1. Great point Lucy – that the wanting to belong is very imposing and then counter productive to the want to belong. It is fascinating to observe the longing sets up the experience of separation and isolation.

  5. I wanted to belong outside of us is very exhausting like you say Joel, your not the only one who has felt this, it is many of us in the same boat wanting that belonging. Universal Medicine has been amazing in how it presents to us a way that we can choose to connect to that place within our selves, what a life changer it is.

  6. This wanting to belong is our separation from this one life force. The spirit within me does unify with the spirit in all people, I am learning to overlook everything else. Thanks for sharing your spirit.

  7. I wouldn’t go that far to say that I hated what Universal Medicine presented, but I can feel how what gets presented was so obviously true and there was a definitive feeling that I had known it all along but I had been trying to avoid and find a way without having to go there, and I did find it a bit annoying because my suspicion that there’s no other way but embrace this kept being confirmed.

  8. Although we find it sometimes confronting to hear what Universal Medicine presents and you go as far as you hated it, we feel the truth in every presentation. How amazing is it you can now state at the end of your blog; ‘I have found a place within where I belong that no one else can touch or call into question. A place of humility, a place of sacredness and a place from which I no longer NEED to belong because I am with me always.’

  9. This sense of wanting to belong outside of ourselves is very strong, I have found anyway. I put it down to a false sense of brotherhood which we all innately know is the core of our existence, in this false brotherhood we do away with ourselves in order to belong to the group and what the group want. It really is the most limited version of brotherhood. Where as what you share here Joel is how we can be ourselves, take care of ourselves, know ourselves and in that join with others in union, and from there we are one with the divinity of the universe and all the glory that is.

  10. Join me said my Soul and remember the love you innately are and the eternal connection with the essence of all that is found in your inner-most 🙂

  11. In order to fill up the emptiness within from not embracing who we are, we rely on distractions that offer us temporary relief but nothing compares to the joy, love, and power we can connect to when we finally accept and appreciate our beingness.

  12. Whether we realise it or not as long as we see the world as a collection of separate things and live our life governed by our head, well then we belong to the biggest club of all – the community of disconnected human beings. When we live connected our breath, to our body we are naturally conennect to all. When this occurs you don’t need any badge or certificate – you just get to feel and be aware of everything. This is the only club for me. Thank you Joel for this blog.

  13. I want to belong to life to Joel; what you have expressed here is powerful and inspiring;
    “I have a religious way of life that places God and me on equal footing in terms of light and responsibility for the wellbeing of myself and the world”.

  14. ‘I have a religious way of life that places God and me on equal footing in terms of light and responsibility for the wellbeing of myself and the world.’ Wow, this takes all the miss-interpretation of waiting for God’s saviour to come save us and places us back on our equal footing with all that we are.

  15. When we are our own best friend it removes any need to belong to anything away. I still fall out with myself quite regularly, but have felt the absoluteness and unconditionalness (new word!) of my love for myself and this is something I am treasuring and valuing more each day.

  16. When we belong to ourselves, we are with ourselves. And when we are with ourselves, we are much more steady and can see more clearly what is going on around us, and can be less knocked about by what happens. And we can be more of our natural selves – tender, warm, open, joyful, playful, sexy, sacred, and power-full. And when we resist that, oh my, how tired we can be. It takes a lot of energy to resist our natural selves. Think about a bad mood you have been in and when that finally shifts, you let go and relax. It takes a lot less energy to be you than in a bad mood for example.

  17. How much time do we waste looking outside ourselves to belong to some external force when ironically it is our own heart that is our home and what actually connects us to all that is outside of us from a quality that is totally loving, solid and true.

  18. Through the appreciation and confirmation of our beingness, we get to know our interconnectedness with everything there is and it is then simply a choice to surrender our bodies and accept what is already within.

  19. This is so absolutely relatable – thank you for telling your story Joel. The key for me was the incredible tiredness, this is when I knew I could no longer continue with past choices to belong and fit in. Universal Medicine was the first (after many other tried, tested and unsuccessful techniques, and treatments) to offer insight into where to look for and truly understand the source of my depletion and how to restore vitality. As you share – belonging to me is where my true connection to humanity comes from.

    1. I agree Lucy, this is a working progress for me too and this journey is certainly worth it in every way. Where I am now and how I view the world is so much more loving, making it a joy to live life without the ups and downs but a steady appreciation of how amazing life really is.

  20. Especially as teenagers, we try to fit in and find our niche and everything we think is going to define us, make us stand out and be noticed. Because education does not yet cover the true truths of life, this can lead to many years if not decades of being lost in the desert of the outer offerings – and there are many and ever more.

  21. Our current way of life is so set up to distract us from the very core of our being and the fact that we ARE beings before we are human and belong to the universe. Yet, all around us our human-ness is confirmed, our form is confirmed and our five senses tantalised. There is not much that confirms our divinity – so this, we much connect to and bring to the world who is in truth in desperate search of more.

  22. This is such a beautiful statement and one that makes my whole body light up in joy and appreciative of its truth – “I have a religious way of life that places God and me on equal footing in terms of light and responsibility for the wellbeing of myself and the world.” Placing God and ourselves in equal footing is the beginning of a marriage made in heaven.

  23. So beautiful I am re reading this blog today ‘I wanted to belong to life but got stuck along the way. I felt frustrated and tired – very tired; I was tired to my bones, tired to a place that all of my efforts amounted to naught and all I was left with were the things that “took the edge off.”’ This really touched me as I recently have been diagnosed with osteoporosis. My body tells me how I have been living, trying to belong with no care for my body and Yes, avoiding to live my power. Once more I am offered the choice to take responsibility for myself and the world and live from the love that is inside me.

  24. The seeking to belong ceased when I chose to reconnect to my essence and embraced the teachings of Universal Medicine. Reading your list of ‘join me’… Joel really felt eerie and alluring, the way you expressed this really captures how cold and sinister these setups are in our society.

  25. Belonging or identifying with something only separates us from our essence and the essence that connects us to all. Learning and understanding the wisdom and clarity for life is found within, not only connects us with a far greater intelligence than we ever thought possible, but also then connects us to a far greater sense of love that supports us to continue to deepen our relationships and connections and the need for belonging simply melts away.

  26. It seems apparent to me that whatever we long for in life, is something we need to be in ourselves first – otherwise life will simply reflect our longing back to us.

  27. What a beautiful story of self-realisation Joel, thank-you.
    You know, we do all essentially ‘belong’ to all – but not in the sense that we need ever give one iota of ourselves, our integrity and indeed our power away to another. When we are fully self-claimed, we know without a doubt, that we are here for all, and nothing less.
    I love how you’ve delineated here, that seeking to belong out of personal need, will not ever require nor satiate the longing within that actually seeks re-union with oneself and God, yet avoids this by attempting to fill the void with something lesser.

  28. “I can meet with family and friends and that meeting is what I appreciate more than any food we eat. I can work with clients and the quality of the work can mean more than any pay cheque.” This is truly beautiful, a way of living where being with ourselves and others is all the joy we need. We have made life so much about food and money and distraction that we need to relearn how to be with ourselves and truly be with others. And when we do we will step by step realise that what you say is true and very possible.

  29. I can so relate to this- of just wanting to fit in and be accepted by others but when I forgo myself in this way it feels empty and like I am robbing myself of something when I contort myself to fit in with what I think will be accepted. I have done this many times and nothing compares to truly loving and accepting myself.

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