515 thoughts on “Being Gay”

1. How gorgeous that you have come to this beautiful place within yourself where you can celebrate yourself for all that you are and totally accept and appreciate your natural expression.

2. How devastating is it to know in the body of our cells truth, but to dismiss it in order to fit into societal beliefs?

3. ‘I offer a huge heart felt thank you to Serge Benhayon, founder of Universal Medicine, for never giving up on presenting truth and love.’ Susan, I share your heart felt thank you. In re-revealing the truth about life with so much understanding as to why we deviate from it, we can begin to live, once more, with a backing of ourselves and all the choices we make. There then becomes a lessening of our reactions to the outside that says we are wrong and we can live what is true for us being less encumbered.

4. True relationships and love, beyond the many and varied ‘rules’ we impose (different ones depending on social, cultural and/or familial conditions) represent the simplicity and magic of God.

5. ‘This was a beautiful time for I allowed myself to simply feel and be me for me.’ How you express how you were when you were 4 is so beautiful, I can feel how the outer stuff that is not love can corrupt us and how pure we truly are. What you’ve written is a beautiful call to return to the loveliness of who we truly are whatever is going on in the world around us. I have glimpses of this in my day where usually I would have felt very intimidated by strong forces around me and coming at me, and feeling like I don’t have to lose myself to them.

6. How can we ever be evil if we live to that what we feel from within. It is the human thinking in disconnection with who we are that made the rules and call something that is natural evil. No I know what true evil is, as it is everything that comes from living in this disconnection.

   1. Yes, everything that comes from living in this disconnection brings more disconnection and the evil compounds until we return to what we feel from within – even if that is the honesty of feeling the ugliness that the disconnection allowed through.

      1. Yes Karin, we have to become honest of our own choices and face the true ugliness WE have allowed into our lives by choosing to disconnect from that universal love we all belong to.

7. After recently reading a great blog on this same site on self-doubt, I can see now just how much ‘self-doubt’ is a paramount factor that the Catholic church has instilled in millions of people across the globe for thousands of years- taking young children who already have a deep connection with God, know, appreciate, and accept themselves and others, and can express from that space, and inserting self-doubt into their minds to the point that they give all that up to believe in numerous lies that are used to control people and gain wealth for the Church.

   1. Yes Michael, self doubt is not natural to us and is massively planted into the minds of people by the religious institutions like the catholic church in their pursuit to have power over the people, instead of to unite them as a true religion would do.

8. As a child, we do not see anything wrong with being gay and it is perfectly natural to us. It is only when we pick up from the adults around us and older children that something does not fit with how we feel about things.

9. Its shows us that love is universal and that in fact anything that has separered us is in fact evil.

10. We all have a right to feel at ease in our own skin. Society is an interesting mish-mash of ideals and beliefs that can often be so judgemental that it squashes that ability to live that simply.

11. A while back I was having a discussion with an older person of the faith you mention and she was saying that this certain celebrity was not right and all these bad things about her and I said that I thought she was ok and why did she think these things about her and was it because she was gay, which was the reason. I said that by saying being gay was wrong it was like saying God had made a mistake or God was wrong, for which she had no reply.

    1. It is very cool when we can have these discussions with each other and if, without judgement and reaction, we can explore our beliefs and where they have come from. When I have done this I usually find the quick sand my beliefs are based on quite quickly.

12. We all have areas of hurt where we hold onto to not live fully in life, and every such area is the gift to open up to share more of ourselves and to claim back our natural glory.

13. When we try and fit into outside ideals, we in fact take ourselves further away from ourselves and thus from God. The cruelty of the rules we set up and the prisons it creates for us is atrocious, and feeling it this morning, I feel the utter evil of it …. these rules are deliberately designed to crush us and in being crushed, we do not live the joy and beauty of who we truly are, gay, straight, black or white etc. We’re all an equal part of the puzzle and our unique expression is needed by all.

14. Being heterosexual is not the guarantee for a loving relationship that it is made out to be; love is love and love does not care whether it is from man to man, woman to woman or between a woman and a man. Only institutions and authorities have made it complicated and used it to cement their forceful hold.

    1. So true, the only guarantee to being in a loving relationship is to be you, be what we are made of, be love. If we lived that love, then we would know God intimately and see there is not a smidgen of judgement about who we love.

    2. Allowing love to be our leading light in relationships is the ‘guarantee’ of true relationships and this does not fit any paradigm about length, gender and/or being endlessly cosy.

15. The catholic church has a lot to answer for! The damage this church has spread across the globe is enormous.

16. Truth is known in our heart, not in abstract rules, ideals and beliefs. As a rule of thumb it’s clear to say that any statement that makes another wrong or less is coming from a judgemental place – Love has nothing to do with this. Thank you Susan for sharing here.

17. This just goes to show how important it is for each and every one of us to fully claim our truth and the truth of who we are ‘However, without fully claiming, accepting and expressing what I knew on the inside, I allowed outside ideals and beliefs to hide and bury this innate connection and, from a need of wanting to fit in’

18. To be simply who we truly are comes with no pictures, expectations or gauges – it just simply and powerfully is.

19. It seems that the natural expression of loving, whatever the gender, has been distorted into a choice that is sinful. When all the time you knew from your inner heart not from your thoughts or indoctrination what your expression was to be.

20. “Two same sex partners building a loving relationship with themselves and others in their lives did not feel like any issue: the only issue with it seemed to be what others had created.” – very well said, and I wonder how much we or others create issues that in reality aren’t an issue at all as a kind of distraction from dealing with the real things that we need to take responsibility for in our lives…

21. “However, without fully claiming, accepting and expressing what I knew on the inside, I allowed outside ideals and beliefs to hide and bury this innate connection and, from a need of wanting to fit in” If we are not full of ourselves we give permission for the ideals and beliefs to move in with their many suitcases. After a while they feel like they have always been there and they are part of the furniture and feeling full of ourselves is what feels odd.

22. Absolutely Susan – the irony is when we reject part of ourselves in this way, we reject God no matter what we say. Far from the dogmas and beliefs of the church our body naturally knows what’s best. And nothing in this world can tarnish the expression of love from our heart.

    1. I hadn’t understood the depth of this simple first sentence of yours Joseph until I realised how we all come from the body of Love, from the body of God, and therefore if we reject a part of ourselves, we reject God.

23. ” and that any relationship based on true love and connection can be celebrated. ” it matters not what our sexual orientation is, only that it is founded on true love and commitment .

24. When we truly sense God from within and around there can be only love. There is no right or wrong way only that which is true through the connection to our inner heart. We cannot judge or impose onto another what we think is true and we certainly can not manipulate or control others simply because of our own created issues/hurts which we are holding onto.

25. Love is love and it matters not what shape or form it comes in.

26. Love is Love and how many have closed down their ability to be truly open to love because of childhood experiences is evident if we look at the world in general today. Great blog.

27. What is natural is love and desire to be in loving relationships with people. It doesn’t matter which sex you are drawn to have those intimate relationships with. The Catholic church has allowed and perpetrated so many terrible things and been wrong about so much. Why would they be any more informed about how we should express our sexuality?

28. Religion is about connecting to God which essentially is a connection deep within. When religion imposes a mould upon us, how can we connect to ourselves?

29. So many are living lives not truly expressing themselves as who they naturally are, whether that be fully claiming and living the gender they are or having an intimate relationship with someone they love. Do we realise the tension and sadness that grows that eventually lead to illness and disease? I absolutely agree with this, “There was nothing at all wrong with this true expression of love and it was in this moment that I woke up again to the truth within and felt the stirring of living the call of my natural expression with no holding back.”

30. It is really quite insidious how people and institutions such as the Catholic Church feel they can impose on others their beliefs and say it is ‘God’s’. I feel slowly we are starting to tolerate this less and less however it will be awesome when we do not tolerate this at all. Great to hear you have now claimed yourself in full including your sexuality.

31. Judgement is such a dangerous thing in society. No matter what someone’s choices in life or lifestyle or behaviours we can connect to the quality of who they are and celebrate and honour that.

32. This is a great exposure of how religion imposes it’s ideals and beliefs on us and then the relationships we have, not only with others but ourselves also.

33. As a child we have an innate knowing of who we are, we can feel the beauty that lies within and an inner strength that knows what is true for us. As we get older we start to listen to the ideals and beliefs of others including the Church, who have strong beliefs on right or wrong, but not what is true, and we fall for these beliefs to the detriment of who we know ourselves to be.

34. It is far better and so very healing to live our truth than by overriding and taking on the ideals and beliefs of what deep within does not feel true for ourselves.

35. To say you will end up in hell if you live as a gay person is completely ridiculous. What if we were told that we’d end up living in a hell if we didn’t live the truth of who we are?

36. Interesting blog! I like it … keep on writing

37. Thank you for this blog which illustrates the evil that comes through anyone that tells us God judges, that we are sinners and that we have to conform to a doctrine in order to be loved by God. As children we know who we are and if we stay with that knowing and honour that relationship with who we are, we would not consider harming another through word, thought or deed and therefore would not need to even consider pleasing or appeasing God. I love that you have been offered a true reflection of love in your life so you can embrace the love that we are.

38. Reading this has reminded me that when we are young, we do have the absolute knowing that we love. I remembered wanting to be with my teacher all of the time. All I wanted to do was stroke her face because she had a very fine downy layer of hair and I Just loved being with her. I also remember her being very sweet and gentle with us.

39. So true, how can any relationships based on true love and respectful interactions be deemed by another as wrong? Perhaps we need to change the lens with which we view the ‘rightness’ of relationships using the quality of love and decency within the relationship, rather than the combination of genders.

40. God = Love and vice versa – what could be simpler than that, and who wrote this rule book anyway?

41. How could a relationship based on love ever be judged for being less because of its gender. Love is love, regardless of whether we are female, male, gay, straight or anything in between. Judgement and critique of one’s expression is not love.

42. The very living experience of your life is to be openly shared on many platforms. There are many people who have chosen to live “a shadow” of themselves, gay or not. Reading this article offers all the reality of choice, something many don’t realise they have.

43. Love is love and commitment is commitment, whether that be in a heterosexual or same sex relationship. Everything else is just man-made dogma and a desperate attempt to maintain a forceful hold over a flock of followers who listen to intermediaries rather than honour their innate connection with God.

44. The beliefs we can adopt that restrict who we can/can’t love are crippling and they all start with the beliefs around accepting and loving ourselves or not based on our characteristics/behaviours/mental pictures- the list goes on!

45. When we give ourselves permission to be all the love that we are, we give ourselves permission to return to our true and authentic selves and allow this to express in all facets of our life without any borders, divides or pictures of how this should look according to a self-created or adopted ‘rule book’ that would only seek to crush such an expression.

46. Going against the indoctrination of the Catholic faith, and knowing that our parents and friends will be hurt if we follow our truth can be difficult, yet parents often surprise us with their understanding and if family and friends don’t accept our choices, then it is their choice and we cannot live a life that is untrue to us only to please others.

47. ‘This was a beautiful time for I allowed myself to simply feel and be me for me.’ I can feel the acceptance of you, of life and of you in the world with these words. It’s beautiful, and it actually feels like criminal behaviour to me that we take this away from people as they grow up. There’s nothing stopping us from bringing this back to ourselves and others once we realise and acknowledge the other way is false.

48. I also grew up as a Catholic but by the age of 15 really had had enough of the intrinsic lack of love, lack of equality, full of judgement and harshness emanating out of most teachings. I was aware enough to know that God was love and so was Jesus and everything the Catholic Church stood for seemed in complete contradiction with that.

49. ‘and that any relationship based on true love and connection can be celebrated.’ yes true love starts with a loving connection and relationship with ourselves first then with others. It is not about gender just love.. to be shared with another.

50. “any relationship based on true love and connection can be celebrated” beautifully put Susan, as others have said love is what is key.

51. Awesome Susan – Love is love , simple and pure.

52. This a story worth reading in the paper or magazines. Whilst society in general accepts same sex relationships, your story would resonate with so many people who have been brought up in a similar indoctrination. Giving yourself permission to simply be who you know yourself to be is not easy when the support is not there. But to come out the other side and tell the story, is the first step of support for anyone else who may have experienced the same.

53. I remember witnessing homophobia first as a child and recall being absolutely baffled by it. One person in particular got so angry; it seemed to me they’d lost themselves inside some kind of thinking and emotions that wasn’t them and they’d stepped away from the caring person they really were. For them it was like they’d taken being gay as some kind of personal affront which made no sense. Indeed, any homophobia didn’t make any sense – how could people be so emotional around this? I remember doubting what I felt, so I checked in with myself and nothing hit my radar of being untoward in anyway. From what I had seen I concluded that it was their thoughts that must be off track and it saddened me to see the prejudice and persecution that was there that they’d justify to themselves.

    I still cant’ quite believe the atrocities inflicted on people who are gay but a good 30 years later I’m going to answer, perhaps only in part, why it is that someone’s sexuality is targeted in this way, and also honour a knowing I felt as a child and hence the bewilderment as to why people were being targeted for this so intensely and with such force. The expression of intimacy through physical touch can be one of the most intimate expressions we have in this human form, it asks for a surrender and transparency perhaps not embraced or seen in everyday life. So to make it wrong or for someone to fear expressing love in this way is an effective way of shutting down people who are not just gay but others who may not want to register they do love people who may happen to be of the same gender. What if homophobia is an effective ruse for us all to love less, express less and be confined to the belief that you can only love your close family and partner and no-one else? As far as intimate partners go, for me monogamy is the only way, but I’m not talking about sexual relationships, I’m talking about seeing and appreciating the beauty within us all.

    1. I watched a similar transformation in someone I love and can really relate to recently – suddenly the beautiful and fun person I knew was letting words of stone drop from their mouth and the judgment and hardness of the expression was palpable. As soon as we veer away from love the rocks of separation appear and a crash is nearly always around the corner.

    2. I too was baffled at why some were so upset and aggressive about same sex relationships, it just didn’t make sense to me. I’m sure though that if love was just allowed to drop in and take the space of ‘hate’ for just a moment, the person would feel their essence and therefore the essence of all others, and this staunchly held belief would simply unravel and be seen for what it is.

54. I look forward to the day where a blog like this will have the title “Being” and where the “gay” is not needed. Where being gay is no different to being heterosexual in that it’s not of importance and doesn’t need to be announced. As a heterosexual I have never felt the need to announce it so, yet with people who are gay, society does expect it of them.

    1. Yes Nikki, I couldn’t agree more. I have never announced myself in that way, they are all terms that separate us. Yet hot on the heels how great would it be to not have to announce our nationality or religious beliefs. We are so used to separating ourselves from each other that we have to find which ‘group’ we sit with!

55. A real sharing on the truth of who we are and the expression of this with honouring and love is everything. Very beautiful to feel and read thank you .

56. A gay colleague of mine has recently got engaged to his male partner. They are both totally claimed in this. It is a joy to witness their joy and commitment to each other. It is their normal. Very inspiring.

57. When we experience this kind of deep love and connection between two people, it clearly exposes where we do not have it/see it/feel it in our own lives. There is no room for any kind of indoctrination, ‘damning’ or squashing of anothers true expression when real love is present.

58. When we deny any part of ourselves we are but a shadow of who we are in truth and this is a very empty place to be. Accepting all of who we are brings fullness and grace.

59. Serge Benhayon presents that being gay should not be a big deal – and that as a heterosexual we don’t ‘come out’ so why do we need to if we are gay? It is simply who we are – who we are attracted too.

60. The effects of such indoctrination extend to all fascists of society including those like me who are not gay. It shaped my perception of gay couples into thinking they were wrong and I cast judgement on them for this. All I was really taught was to judge another and not truly how to be love with them.

61. You know you are in the presence of true love when you feel there is freedom to be yourself in every way shape and form.

62. Taking on the expectations of others always leaves us with a lesser version of ourselves.

63. Words hurt when they are used as weapons.

64. The celebration of true love and togetherness in relationships is to be adored in all it offers us of simply being ourselves and I love how you knew from a very young age. The knowing and honouring of “This beautiful time for I allowed myself to simply feel and be me, for me.” is a real celebration we all deserve at any time and clearing and healing ourselves allows this. Again how absolutely beautiful.

65. I am ongoingly so supported by the teachings of Universal Medicine to be honest about, and dispense with, any beliefs that in any way separate us.

66. Removing the layers we are living which are not of our true expression allows for the real connection to be lived.

67. Great read!

68. Absolutely love reading this blog. It offers a profound insight into how religious judgments and dogmas are designed to seperate people from God rather than remind people of their divine nature and innate connection with God.

69. Super clear and succinct Elizabeth… any of our stereotype thinking and beliefs, keep us in the notion that we are separate from one another… the truth is the opposite of this.

70. True love is the purest thing on earth… there is no shame, no judgement, no right or wrong and when expressed it transforms everything. Thank you for sharing your experience of being gay, Susan, this level of honesty and openness is a beautiful support for us when we commit to dispense with our stereotype thinking and beliefs.

71. Thank you Susan for sharing here, an inspiring read for all…

72. We spend so much of our lives doing what we think we ought to do or rebelling at the same that we do not allow this connection to our innermost where the truth of who we are resides. Awesome sharing of your reconnecting Susan and an inspiration to look more deeply at what we are choosing for this coming New Year.

73. Wow Susan this has brought tears to my eyes, many many people over many lifetimes have been persecuted and discriminated against because they are perceived to be different and lesser. Yet this could not be further from the truth. God knows us all as equal and celebrates in truly loving relationships whether they are Gay or straight. Love is what matters.

74. All the ideals, beliefs and images we hold in life and try to adhere to, do take us away from the grace and delicacy we naturally are and instead makes us hard and resentful on life and to all people we live with.

75. ‘In choosing to comply with the Catholic Church I took a bigger step away from God than if I had honoured my true expression.’ If God is Love, then is it never wrong to love and express love with another person, whatever their gender or sexuality?

76. Very beautiful Susan and so honouring of everyone – Love in its true beauty.

77. So true Elizabeth – despite the efforts of those discriminating against others we are always connected and at heart we are all truly equal.

78. “There was even the message that having a same sex partner was inhuman, and if this was your expression, that there was something deeply wrong and even evil with you.” Wow, we as people can be so hard on each other when we live from ideals and believes instead of from our heart where we deeply know what love is and what not.

79. There should be no reason in our ‘modern’ society that certain identities, cultures or people are looked down upon.. We’re a so-called increasingly intelligent species, who can’t see the beauty in our diversity and understand that this is simply the same essence being expressed in different ways? Something doesn’t add up…

80. Yes indeed, Susan, once we open up again to our soul and to God, we cannot hold back from reflecting all that we are and all that we come from.

81. I wonder where the church and some cultures and othe religions got the idea that being gay is wrong because that is like saying God made a mistake which is a good way to stop a discussion about the subject with the older religious generations view on the matter.

    1. Brilliant observation Kevin, and what a contradiction that would be for God to punish someone who was gay and also of His creation! That reminds me of another common theme from organised religion (i.e. Catholicism) that simultaneously says God is an all loving compassionate being, but that he will also punish someone and damn them to an eternal Hell for making a mis-take in life. Also, why would God create humans who are automatically born sinners if he is an all-knowing, all-powerful Being? That simply never made sense to me at all.

82. ‘Re-building my connection to myself, and learning to love, live and appreciate everything I am (not just being gay), is where I have begun’: I love the way that you have included the whole of you here Susan so that you can express lovingly in your gay relationship but are not identified with it. So much of not being accepted by the community’s status quo can drive people to rebel and then identify with a label (whether it be coloured, gay, different) which then perpetuates the division between us all, as there is individuality and identification involved. What you have come to is deeply beautiful!

83. Discrimination of any kind is totally ugly and vial. Whether it be skin colour, sexuality, gender, culture or religion. It is just an excuse to remain separate from our fellow human beings and remain aloof and arrogant. This serves no-one, least of all ourselves, because we miss out on the love that is available that is beyond any differences.

84. “There was even the message that having a same sex partner was inhuman, and if this was your expression, that there was something deeply wrong and even evil with you. This meant that you needed to be prayed for and healed so as to return to ‘God’s way’, the Church’s way.” This is so far removed from the truth of who we are, it begs the question, how did we as a human race let this happen? It is only by not living and expressing the truth that we know that all times that these kind of claims eventually become accepted by some even though we know how awful they feel and how wrong they are.

85. “Being Gay” – is being human the same as “being straight”, love knows no sexual preference or gender, it just loves love.

86. It is so important to follow what is innately true for us… it is that truth that is needed in the world – for whatever reason that may be, it is all part of the Divine plan.

87. ‘The way he consistently meets everyone equally has allowed me to feel what I, and we, are all worthy of.’ Yes, I have totally felt this too.The power of reflection cannot be underestimated. It takes just one person to reflect the truth of who we are for us to return, a knowing which has never left us. So lovely to read the beauty of your knowing as a child and though so many people said otherwise and with such force you knew to return. The more we live with consistency the truth of who we are the more we are reflections for others.

88. When we conform to a picture or an ideal that’s outside of us, from school, society, or whatever culture or religion we’re born into, it feels awful, because it’s not us – we’re just playing a role, going through the motions. Claiming back who we are, expressing ourselves in full, based on who we are and not what we think we need to be to fit in or be accepted, is so freeing and liberating. The more we do it, the more we build that connection to feeling and knowing who we are, that is so much more enormous and expansive than any picture or role.

89. Except in the case if the Ageless Wisdom, the established religious organizations have always been used as a way of controlling the masses. But we can only be controlled in this way if we remain ignorant of our Godliness and give away our power.

    1. Great point Lyndy. We have a plethora of religions in the world today that preach love delivered in an energy that is anything but. The big ouch is that on some level, humanity has actually purposefully chosen to be deceived.

       The Way of The Livingness is the only religion I’ve seen that holds love as a way of life. The name says it all. It’s worth appreciating that many are now choosing this way.

90. Sadly when we try to fit into society’s rules and expectations we reject ourselves and our natural loving way of being. There can be no love or joy in that for anyone, for we are not sharing ourselves openly just as we are.

91. Surely all that really matters is if there is love being lived between two people, no matter the gender, life at it’s core is about loving relationships.

92. It’s kind of ridiculous that our sexuality should be part of our identification. We don’t need to ‘be’ anything except ourselves, so ‘being gay’ or ‘being straight’ is only an addition to the beauty of the inner essence that we all share equally.

93. To accept someone for ‘who’ they are and not ‘what’ they are is key to building true and harmonious relationships with everyone we meet.

94. That is so cool, you must love every second that you express all of the Love that you are without any contraction and I am pretty sure everyone around you will be loving seeing and feeling all of you to. Its a win win for everyone!

95. Amazing – love is love and when it is expressed in truth it is the most beautiful thing that should never be held back

96. This blogs shows the bastardisation of religion by institutions when any form of love is considered evil, shameful and inhumane. They have a lot to answer for as does humanity for allowing this in our society. I feel the tide is beginning to turn though which is promising as the corruption within the church system is being exposed more and more, especially the the Royal Commission.

97. What comes to me on reading this is a song by Jenny and Chris James that children I know regularly sing “I am beauty-full for being me”. Imagine if we all walked around knowing this.

98. The church has a lot to answer for in the way that it has treated people who are gay. God knows no separation of any kind so why does mankind think it knows better than God?

    1. Great question, Elizabeth. Could it be that our religions are man-made based on the needs of those in power at any given time in our history.

99. In society so much energy is put into the topic of sexuality when the same energy could be used to simply live lovingly with each other.

100. Funny how when we feel the truth from our hearts, what is not true then will come in to make us doubt, so whether we remain with ourselves is how steady we are with backing ourselves up built from a foundation of listening and respecting ourselves and our choices.

101. I love that you were so accepting of who you were when you were 4. How imposing and messed up society is to undermine that. How at odds it is with what nurture and care actually is. No matter how many spins society may put on doing ‘good’ for someone, if this doesn’t support a person’s natural, divine expression, but actually hinders and disrupts it, this is not ‘good’ but evil, because it tries to take you further from your truth. How great to read the reclaiming of what you already know. I have to ask myself, ‘where have I left what I already knew? – and were/are the investments in what isn’t true worth it?

102. What a healing it must be for you to return to religion after all you went through. I find it cruel for any Religion to put out propaganda that being Gay is a sin or evil, I cannot imagine feeling so rejected for just being who you are at such a young age. I know the two women you heard present and they are such a sensational couple, on and off stage, what a support for you to see such a reflection and of course having them as role models in a Religion that celebrates all equally.

103. Thank you Susan for without the expression of love we in truth do not live as the expression of love as funded by our Soul. It is up to us to choose to connect to our soul and walk on this earth. A steady mountain of love chosen and breathed by us all, one day we will be walking (em-bodying) this again.

104. What I have observed in my family who has been partly brought up christian, is that how manipulated the word God is and how “God”s way” has been used to suit the churches needs instead of the absolute truth. Hence we now have institutions, buildings, churches owned by people who use the word God and religion to suit their own personal needs that often neglect another person or a group/society or even humanity as a whole. How truth-full (Godly) is that?

105. When we can fully accept and appreciate ourselves it matters less and less to us what others think. We can be fully claimed in this.

106. Given we are all from the same God and we are all innately love how is it even relevant to talk about wether we are gay or heterosexual, it does not really matter. It is just another way we divide and separate ourselves from each other.

107. It must feel amazing to be totally confident and accepting of all that you are and sharing this with everyone no matter what there responses are. Very freeing.

108. If there is a right and wrong there are ideals and believes which leads to separation, but when there is truth it is always unifying and there are no right or wrongs.

     1. I love this clarity! Right and wrong are polar opposites so cannot but incite conflict and side taking and separation. Truth is universal and one unifying.

109. The bottom line is, there is nothing wrong with anyone, straight or gay. We fall for and take on these pictures that are fed to us and live a lesser life.

     1. This is so true, we need to be self-assured that who we know we are is all that matters. What others think and feel matters not.

     2. I never understood this judgment of people with regards to gender, colour, sexual orientation and so on. The issue is that these beliefs that we take on are so far spread and insidious that they have become woven into the fabric of society so much so that they are considered normal. My first encounter with racism was in school when I was 6 years old. It was in North London in the mid-1970s and I was at an all-girls school, which happened also to be all white. In our class, a new girl joined who happened to be Asian. I remember feeling deeply hurt at the other girls’ treatment of her who refused to hold her hand. At 6 where could they have possibly got the notion that it was ok to treat another child in this way if not for those beliefs taken on by the local community? In the end, this child was removed from the school by her parents but it must have made a big impact on me at the time to be still so remembered and deeply felt 41 years later.

110. It’s crazy that the church believes that you are evil to have a same sex partner and that it is something that you need ‘healing’ for. Totally absurd.

     1. As an add-on to that (which I totally agree with), the church also condemns us all as sinners because we come into life through sex, and therefore always having to atone for our sin and will never be good enough and had to have someone (Jesus) come through to die for us because we are so bad! They also manufactured the immaculate conception to promote this lie, so really we can only observe the absurdity and see it as just that!

        1. The church presents we are all made in God’s image so ALL are from love, yet the judgement passed down by the church, when I was young, was that not only was homosexuality unacceptable, but that divorce was not recognised; that divorced people were not to receive the sacraments nor be able to re-marry in the church. It was clear to me that God, the epitome of Love, didn’t make those rules or judgements, that in fact they were made by our fellow human beings to protect their patch;. that they were instigated to keep the status quo of how the rulers of the church wanted people to be controlled in the world. Superb to read you have been freeing yourself from this judgement and embracing expressing who you truly are, Susan.

111. I am always so impressed when a person knows so assuredly who they are and what they want, like knowing your sexual orientation from such a young age and, even though this was something that you felt you have had to return to, the fact that you always knew deep down who you are, is a wonderful and powerful thing to appreciate.

112. Knowing who God is as a young person is something to be truly appreciated. Being able to navigate the doctrines of popular religions and stay with that knowing is as they say, “where the rubber hits the road”.

113. What we take on to not know (any longer) what we know, to become what we are not and the process of getting rid of all that we have taken on to be once again who we are – a reflection of our descension and return or ascension.

114. Speaking up for true love not perpetuating the pictures and restrictions of what relationships ‘should’ look like… now this is foundational teaching.

     1. It so is and I would say there are so many pictures and restrictions on what relationships should look like it stifles our natural knowing of how to be in relationship, even with ourselves.

115. I feel people who are in true deeply loving relationship, like the two women you mention, should definitely express and be transparent and share with others more. And then we get to feel and see something completely different and more-so to confirm in our bodies ‘ah so that’s what a true relationship should look like’ We are given a different marker other than what we see in everyday life. I know though that currently in some countries people are completely perpetrated for being gay which is shocking so to express like this is not that easy … one day it will be though. ✨

116. ‘The way he consistently meets everyone equally has allowed me to feel what I, and we, are all worthy of.’ – Serge Benhayon’s way of holding everyone he meets as equals is unlike anything I have ever experienced.

117. Expressing all the Love that we are, within every relationship that we have and not settling for this in only some relationships, if any, is super cool. What I have started to realise and embrace is exactly what every cell in my body is calling for.

118. Love your comment Shirley! the most important thing is whether they are loving and caring… who they choose to sleep with really is up to them and no one else’s business.

119. What would the world look like if children like you would have support right from the beginning to express, what they know is true for them?!

     1. That is exactly what I thought Stefanie .. it would be pretty cool.

120. When we comply with institutionalized religions we loose our connection with our self and with God.

     1. Even though I did not know why, I have always run a million miles away from institutionalized religions.

121. Love is love and love does not differentiate between heterosexual and same sex expression and neither does God. It is only those who purport to be speaking in His name that adopt such a supremacist stance and cast judgment.

122. There is a glorious freedom to be returning to a connection with myself and God in a way that does not need to appeal or be recognised by outer rules and expectations. Yes the freedom felt is immense, to be free to be yourself from the restraints of rules and expectations. Appreciation for the path you have chosen to free yourself and live the truth of who you are Susan.

123. “without fully claiming, accepting and expressing what I knew on the inside, I allowed outside ideals and beliefs to hide and bury this innate connection and, from a need of wanting to fit in,” the importance of accepting all we know inside and feel and to express this is so clearly shown here and lays such a huge role in our lives and how we are and the behaviours we take on that are not ours. The simplicity that we are love and to be this says it all and is shown here beautifully.

124. This sharing of yours Susan is very revealing and I’ m sure there are many like myself who will now be able to understand the situation you have been put in through no fault of your own.

125. The first wedding I ever took my daughter too was between two beautiful women and since then she has never had a fear around it or questioned it…. our perception is based on what is normal around us… and I love that people can now get married in Australia. Its amazing that it has taken this long, but change is good.

     1. ‘our perception is based on what is normal around us…’ – Indeed, it is very common to take on and not question what is reflected to us as being normal.

126. Once we know what love is we know how to express that love.
     Towards whomever feels true.

127. “…For me, my connection with God was already innate and I felt the holding of his deep love, available to everyone equally without any such discrimination or injustice. The rules of the Church felt incredibly hard and not of God’s words at all…” Its interesting how when we are very young, it’s ‘child’s play’ and totally obvious to know the difference between truth and non-truth.

128. I have always felt an acceptance and normality of same sex couples, but have always found it odd that this has not fully been accepted in society. The same can be said about racism – there are many who still abide by the ideal and beliefs of racism, and yet beyond the skin colour and beyond our sex, we are all the same, no different and yearning to express the love that we all are.

     1. Yes we are all the same and it matters not what the colour of your skin, your eyes, you hair or who you love.

129. Ideals and beliefs say that two same sex couples should not be together, but the true heart does not abide by such impositions, and instead feels its way and says yes to the power of true love.

     1. Exactly. And if we stopped to consider the number of relationships in which abuse, disregard, neglect and unkindness are the norm, then maybe we would be more open to exploring and being inspired by the qualities of true love, not an ideal, false picture of what a relationship should be.

130. Life can be confusing enough without the extra burden of what you had to go through, it is a good thing that attitudes are changing and one day we will all be able to express who we are without any outside interference.

131. It is inspiring to read your open and honest blog Susan, and so important that there are articles out there of this nature for our younger generations to read. It is exactly this kind of support that is needed so that they have some point of reference that they may potentially not have to endure the ridicule that has been imposed on so many before them.

132. Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon are the greatest support in coming back to knowing the truth about ourselves, who we are and what our purpose is. To no longer allow ourselves to be squashed and to go into hiding by how others may react, or what they might think is a very liberating way to live. How beautiful, Susan that you have shared so openly about your experiences of being gay and this is to be celebrated.

133. “The way he consistently meets everyone equally has allowed me to feel what I, and we, are all worthy of. ” to me this is a beautiful expression of love and of what true relationships are all about.

134. How liberating to be… “…returning to a connection with myself and God in a way that does not need to appeal or be recognised by outer rules and expectations.” To not be owned or ruled by anything outside ourselves is very freeing indeed… to live from within our innate essence is our truth.

135. It’s still a very brave and open thing to do, claim in this way you have known how you have felt for a long time. I trust more and more people will feel supported to be able to express how they feel without feeling like they will be shut down or critiqued. When people are able to speak and articulate in this way it supports us all as there are many things we are still yet to open up to ourselves about who we truly are and we are seeing this more and more.

136. Sex and love – one of the confusions if not deliberate bastardizations to keep us from being the love that we are and expressing it as and with the qualities of the man or woman we are.

137. “There is a glorious freedom to be returning to a connection with myself and God in a way that does not need to appeal or be recognised by outer rules and expectations.” – Very beautiful and there is a true joy that comes with this, that then can be shared unconditionally with everyone else as well.

138. Funny (well not really) to feel how behind the times we can be…being gay, gay marriage and all these things as not really being accepted…I often just find myself shaking my head about this. Recently gay marriage was legalised in Australia, and I am all for it, but really it should just be called ‘Marriage’ – unless you wanted to call all marriages “gay” meaning joyful!
     All this seems like a big distraction from the real issue at hand, which is the lack of true love and respect and care in relationships – it matters not what sex you are with, but what matters much more is the way you are with each other and the level of love and care and tenderness you can express with each other. It is not your gender pair up that determines this form of expression.

139. Love can never be evil – evil is all that separates or turns us away from love and God.

140. “I began to hear messages that such a choice was a sin, that it was not normal or natural and that I would make God and everyone else very unhappy if I chose to be with a woman.” It always used to find it really hard to comprehend when I heard church going people, particularly those that professed to be caring about everyone, judge or disagree with someone elses personal choice. What I was hearing from the vicar/priest was that God loved us all, but this was not the message I was getting from those around me that went to church. It simply didnt add up.

141. I love your description Susan as being a shadow of yourself after having allowed the oppression of Church doctrine to obscure what you essentially knew was true. How beautiful that you are returning to the sunshine of you are you so truly and beautifully are! Out of the shadows and into the Light.

142. Thank you for sharing your journey to reclaim the truth of you Susan, and indeed the truth for all. True relationships can never be conditional on external ideals and beliefs.

143. In essence we are all the from the one source, in many colourful expressions of the divine. A judgement is a step way from truth and not our nature.

144. When we don’t live a major part of our life, it seems to leave us limited everywhere in our life. Is it because we are always worried about transgressing into the forbidden part, the one we are not allowing ourselves to live?

     1. Maybe also because we have created a separation and that affects every part of our life and puts us into parts so we are no longer whole ie separated from ourselves and others. When we are not whole we have a hole which depletes us.

145. So many of us have lived a shadow of ourselves, allowing ourselves to be limited by what society dictates to us as being ok or not ok. But should we allow ourselves to express freely then what a blessing to the world in what we can allow out.

146. What a beautiful and powerful healing Susan, very inspiring to honour and live the true beauty and power of who we are.

147. Awesome blog Susan, it should be shared far and wide in celebration of your return to trusting who you know you are in essence and all the expression that follows that is natural to you. For someone who has only known you for a short number of years, I have certainly seen you blossom and to read part of your back-story here leaves me appreciating you for the woman you are, all the more.

148. What a superb article. So intimate and deeply personal, and equally relevant to all people regardless of their sexuality. This understanding – that we are educated to withdraw from who we are, and that in reclaiming our full and true expression we reclaim our divinity – can be applied to every facet of life.
     It is Universal truth.
     What a beautiful healing Susan. I am honoured to read it.

149. It’s bizarre how our sexuality is everyone else’s business.

     1. It is a forceful way to control others as we tend to be less sure of ourselves in this area.

        1. I’m very sure of myself in this area, but I don’t go round introducing myself as ‘Hi, I’m Rebecca, I’m heterosexual’. It’s so unfair that gay people are preceded by a label of being ‘different’, and that their natural orientation should matter so much to others.

     2. ha ha great point Rebecca – what is it that they find so threatening and even more bizarre is, what does the church have against love? Perhaps because it’s not so easy to control people if they connect directly to love and God – they would be out of a job!

150. A beautiful honouring of who you are and the love you are from within shared so simply and lovingly. The amazing support of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine shows the world we are all love and the oneness of us all with absolute understanding and holding of who we really are.

151. It is not before we are embracing ourselves in full for who we are that we will be the loving gorgeous beings that we are. Peeling off the imposed ideals and beliefs is key in restoring the lovely core that has been buried when we identified with what we are not to fit in and belong to those who also lost themselves just the same way as us, one generation after the other.

152. Letting go of the judgement that we hold towards ourselves opens up our relationships to be more embracing and honouring of each other regardless of gender, offering a reflection of love and understanding, confirming the beingness of who we are.

153. Love is love. What flavour it comes in is irrelevant, it is still love. Is raspberry ripple any less ice-cream than pecan? No. Same with love. Love is love.

     1. Ha ha and I am guessing these are you favourite flavours of ice-cream? Seriously though, and you are spot on regardless of what it looks like, “Love is love” and no person or building has the right to say otherwise. We have man made constraints that now hold themselves to be above even the law at times, and attempt to dictate who can be and do what, but when it’s broken down we all return and start from the same place.

        1. Ooohhh – don’t get me started on Canon law and the immunity of the Vatican! One of the most obscene bastardisations of love imaginable. (pecan)

        2. Yes the Vatican sits there tasting like Rats-zinger ice cream, shaped in the mould of a cane toad, poisoning and contracting the beautiful land of Italy where Leonardo painted, and polluting the atmosphere of the world. One day the healing will completed and we will all be released from the grip of the House of Lies that we have created.

        3. Even more funny and a great example. How does an institution like that become able to skirt around things like they do? We all have seen factually what has happened over and over and yet they still remain virtually untouched it would seem and only move pieces around within the same walls to suit whatever they need. Sorry you said “don’t get me started” and yet it appears this may just do that, as I said great example.

        4. There is another way to look at it. The Catholic Church and the Vatican are not going to change their ways, they are not going to open the port culls, they are not going to give us the keys to their gargantuan, secret catacombs that hold all the evidence of the incessant corruption and abuse. That just isn’t going to happen. But – who props this institution up? Who feeds it, who supports it, who turns a blind eye to all of this, who isn’t asking the questions, who isn’t knocking on their doors…and who is validating the whole edifice by blindly aligning to them? We are. So we are responsible. I make no judgement on the Catholic faith, no judgement on people’s beliefs or morals. This has nothing to do with that. This is an organisation that has carried out and is still carrying out systematic, gross, absence and massively widespread abuse. No other organisation would be allowed to do this. So why the Catholic Church? How have we allowed this?

        5. I was born into a large catholic family. I agree we are not going to see the doors wide open anytime soon and it would seem the church is a protected species. The only way this can continue is because the uproar or call for ‘justice’ isn’t loud enough. In other words there are still more of us in support of what the church is doing in parts, rather then seeing truly what the whole picture is. It has become hands off because it is so intertwined in everyday life for so many people. We have become used to it and accepted it as a part of our life. Yet more and more, the gross conduct is exposed and what’s more, our knowledge of it occurring is also exposed. What we are seeing is that not only did and was it happening, but whole parts of the community were very aware of it occurring. We had the awareness and yet did nothing about it. Perhaps there in lies an answer, we are possibly protecting our knowledge or awareness of what has been going on and in that, would rather allow it to just continue rather then face this fact, over to you.

154. I love how your deep knowing stayed with you, though distant from the imposed beliefs from so young.. waiting to be claimed, and when you met Serge Benhayon your knowing was confirmed and your were inspired to live what you new was true for you. Such an inspirational blog.

155. It is truly extraordinary to see how much ‘love’ and the simple understanding of one human being for another is left out of the equation when it comes to Church doctrine. There are many lies in this world of lies, but the Church lies have to be some of the worst because they pretend to be good and moral when that is the last thing that they are.

     1. Yes I agree Lyndy – this type of good and moral is far, far more harmful, evil and insidious than those things that we see as clearly bad.

156. When children or adults use terms like gay or similar as something unnatural or strange we know that they have not learned and or experienced what love is in truth. The moment we know love for what it truly is there can be no judgment whatsoever on any gender constellation.

157. Beautiful to have your open testimony Susan. An institution with such methods of suppressing and silencing people such as the Catholic church has done far more evil than good, infact it has done no good to our society.

158. It is so important that your experience is shared, I still react to hearing kids using the word gay as an insult. It is really time for all that nonsense to stop.

159. When I was a child I didn’t question the Catholic Church, we did what was expected and I loved some of the ceremonial aspects of it. I had no idea of the torture that was done in God’s name, although we did learn in history about some of the Holy Wars that took pace. We ate Fish on Fridays and went to church on Sundays, I prayed to God and confessed my ‘sins’. I was a ‘Good Girl’. But somewhere inside something was always missing and that was LOVE. I never truly experienced love, only the romantic kind in books and films. It is only now at the tender age of 67 that I am truly beginning to understand what love is.

     1. My candle has been burning for 64 years, I have seen and experienced many things to reflect on that was not love, and many judgments, values and beliefs have fallen by the way. Is life a lot like an artichoke, after you lose all the hard, weathered outer leaves, all that is left is the tender heart in the centre.

     2. Where love is concerned, any age is a ‘tender age’. Somehow, love takes the measurements of time out of the equation.

160. I cannot imagine growing up with the intense and confusing experiences that you were faced with due to the conflict of how you felt on the inside compared to what was expected by your Church and the false version of God that you were fed from the outside. I love that Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon views all as equal sons of God and nobody, no matter their Religious background, sexual preference or culture is exempt from this. Knowing that being love, is all that matters and true love has to begin within, is the type of Religion that is needed on this planet. What this prospective brings, is that Gay or not, we are all people and even over identifying with one’s sexual preference is just another way to divide us, Universal Medicine reminds us, that at our core, our essence, we are all the same and there is no need for division.

     1. Beautifully expressed Sarah.Universal Medicine supported me to see that I was stuck in ideals and beliefs around people’s sexual preferences. I now know that it is about one thing only that is love, love is love and it does not matter which gender you love as in essence we are all the same.

161. ‘However, without fully claiming, accepting and expressing what I knew on the inside, I allowed outside ideals and beliefs to hide and bury this innate connection and, from a need of wanting to fit in’ – something we can all very much relate to, unfortunately. It saddens me how readily I gave up on myself in place of the pictures being championed around me on how I ‘should’ be in this life. This just pulls us further away from our true, glorious self, however, the choice is always there to re-connect once again and claim the divinity of who we truly are.

162. We are love, and the more we come to accept who we are the more we will be able to express the love that we are.

163. ‘Two same sex partners building a loving relationship with themselves and others in their lives did not feel like any issue: the only issue with it seemed to be what others had created.’ …. everything that is not true in our society, we have created and in our acceptance of anything that is not true, we also become complicit.

164. ‘However, without fully claiming, accepting and expressing what I knew on the inside, I allowed outside ideals and beliefs to hide and bury this innate connection and, from a need of wanting to fit in,…’ This is huge.

     What’s interesting is my mis-reading from to form – that I actually form or create my need to fit . My missing my connection with myself, with God, with everyone has allowed me to be self-critical, shying away from others when I’ve felt the pull to be with people; or holding back on expressing truth. Being in connection is wonderful, there is no need only observation.

165. Not claiming being gay when a person is gay, is a clear example of someone not living the truth of who they are, but what most people don’t realise, is that none of us are living the truth of who we are, and that there is a deeper truth to who we are underneath our sexuality. Someone can claim themselves as a gay person and yet still not claim themselves as being a living aspect of God.It is only by claiming ourselves as a living aspect of God, that we will return to a way of living that holds all people as equal, with no emphasis on either what sex a person is or their sexuality.

166. Growing up being gay was seen to be wrong or not ‘normal’, hence I was pulled to this way of expressing. I now understand what the expression of true love is – it does not have a category. Love is love – I have no issues with same sex relationships. If being gay makes you feel great on the inside, then we need more of it!

167. ‘For me, my connection with God was already innate and I felt the holding of his deep love, available to everyone equally without any such discrimination or injustice.’ As a child, I used to ponder on God and I could never reconcile the man-made constructs around him, and the narrow linear ways of judging others, as I knew in my heart that God couldn’t possibly judge us in the way we judged ourselves. It never made sense, nor does it make sense now in my growing awareness of what a beholding love really means and feels like.

168. How beautiful Susan. It takes great courage and commitment and love for yourself to express ourselves regardless of others who might tell us we are unnatural for simply expressing what is naturally within.

169. I was horrified to read the way your natural way of being was so suppressed by the Catholic Church: ‘In choosing to comply with the Catholic Church I took a bigger step away from God than if I had honoured my true expression.’ I was brought up as a Catholic and still find it hard to accept God and to know that I am part of God.

170. I am also in absolute appreciation and thanks to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine for never giving up on offering the truth, love and understanding of what is really going on and making sense of everything divinely with absolute support for us all.

171. Honouring who we are and the simplicity of being this love is everything in truth with our relationship with ourself and God coming firstly and from there onwards our expression flows in whatever way divinely.

172. The more I understand love the more I realise there is no judgment in love. So, if ‘God is Love’ then there is no judgment in Him. If that is the case, where do judgments come from about people and their choices regarding sexuality – and anything else for that matter?

173. It feels to me like we develop and grow by learning how to be honest and true in all our relationships, by deepening our connection to ourselves first and then to everyone in the world. The force that comes with anyone telling us how to live our lives in any way contrary to this, is an energy we do not need in our lives.

174. We know what is true until we get poisoned with what is right. To come back to the truth we need to detox the poison that otherwise keeps us from embracing truth. Such is the evil of right, robbing us of truth and leaving us in the illusion of good and bad.

175. “For me, my connection with God was already innate and I felt the holding of his deep love, available to everyone equally without any such discrimination or injustice.” This is the crux of it. If we can all connect to God in this way and know the quality of energy we are held in, there is absolutely no way there can be any discrimination or injustice unless it is created by the minds of men. We all have this innate knowing, we just choose to forget if what is in front of us does not match our own experience.

176. ‘I was super hard and harsh on myself, carrying huge guilt and the erroneous belief that I was unworthy in God’s eyes for potentially making the choice to love a woman.’ this is such an insidious trick from ideals and beliefs and especially those which are from the catholic or other false religions – to take on guilt and regret and then punish ourselves in doing so. Deeply harmfully evil.

177. “The way they related with each other and everyone in the room was incredibly tender, open, loving and encompassing of all ” A true marker of real relationship, where everyone is treated with the same loving respect and equality and an example to truly aspire to.

178. A great blog to read that demonstrates how it is a man-made idea and belief that love is only heterosexual, however Love does not discriminate between gender, colour or culture.

     1. Yes, Love does not discriminate- how could it be any other way? This exposes all that is discrimination is not love even if people claim it is.

179. Love knows no boundaries”… two amazing women who had been in a long-term relationship presented on stage about how they had developed deeply loving and committed foundations with one another….”

180. It’s crazy the Catholic Church has gotten away with such things as when we connect to ourselves, such beliefs go against our very core – our core being love. Love is love.

181. So it sounds that from the age of 4 you had it all sussed out in a very wise way. So then, for me, that puts the spotlight on all those around you while you were growing up to ask the question ‘so why did we not allow you to just be? Why did we think that you should live under what we ‘thought’ was right?’ Reading your blog another question came to me. The Human Rights Act is an Act for everybody and maybe it was not in place when you were growing up but it is in place now (or is supposed to be) with articles such as Article 10. -the freedom of expression and Article 14 -protection from discrimination. With the church being an organisation that is supposed to be for the people, it seems to me these rights should automatically be in place, which means as long as no one is harming another (which again is ironic as there are many many cases where priests and such like from the church have been reported as sexually abusing children, young people and adults). I feel everyone should be accepted, regardless of their sexuality, as equals. This should not be questioned, and definitely not condemned.

182. ‘The way they related with each other and everyone in the room was incredibly tender, open, loving and encompassing of all in a way that I had not observed to the same depth’ – To be truly held in love is something we cannot but feel on a very deep level, love is our origin and therefore resonates deep within.

183. ‘This was all contra to everything I felt within. For me, my connection with God was already innate and I felt the holding of his deep love, available to everyone equally without any such discrimination or injustice.’ This is so beautiful – it seems so crazy that we would reject this way of being for the lesser emotional versions of love that we have created.

184. Thank heaven same sex marriage has FINALLY been legalised, completely crazy that it has taken so long, which feels to me like it has more to do with the politicians than the wishes of the people. It’s quite shocking and revealing of where we are at in our society, that something so basic has been denied for so long.

185. ‘….. if this was your expression, that there was something deeply wrong and even evil with you.’ With everything that has come to light about the hideous and evil acts that many catholic priests have inflicted on innocent and vulnerable children, with, as far as I know, no action being taken by the church to prevent such acts being repeated, it’s very hard to read and feel the hypocrisy in these words. Love is the key ingredient for any true relationship, our choice in partner is just that, our choice.

186. If we were to honour that…”…simple knowing and that it felt super OK and natural, from inside…” us, to follow the guidance our body knows, our lives and society in general would be very different to what we have today.

187. “any relationship based on true love and connection can be celebrated.” What Serge Benhayon offers is the real deal and is nothing short of amazing. This is the heart of the matter, not the rules and regulations of society or the church, but is it based on true love and deep connection. So much to celebrate in claiming and living the true you.

188. Not sure how the catholic religion thought it was going to support any-one by telling them they would burn in hell if they did not abide by their rules. All it did was create fear and a tendency to hide any wrong doings, or what we thought were wrong doings, instead of being open and honest and learning from any situation.

189. Susan as you say and I echo “I offer a huge heart felt thank you to Serge Benhayon, founder of Universal Medicine, for never giving up on presenting truth and love.” for without that commitment to truth and the absolute support from Serge my life would be very different and not at all in a good way.

190. If, at the age of four, we know something as profound as the fact that we are gay….then what else do we know at that age? And yet, do we nurture, embrace and appreciate that knowing in our children, or do we squeeze their spherical beings through the square holes of education?

191. I had a very similar experience growing up in the Catholic Church. I am not gay but there were many other things that felt natural to me that the church deemed as evil and threatened that I would go to hell or hurt the world in some way if I did not follow their rules. The sense of freedom I felt once I realised that my natural knowing and truth was a valid way of living was palpable and very valuable to me.

192. Is it ever wrong to love another person? Surely not. Age, gender, sexuality et al cannot be a barrier to the expression of love that we innately are.

     1. It feels like we are miles away doesn’t it – and in a sense we are. And yet, depending upon how we move through life, we are also very close.

193. The sweetness and simplicity of basing everything on love first… inspiring and confirming, thank you.

194. It is so healing to be in the presence of someone who doesn’t judge you. I remember the first time I met Serge this was a stand out feature/quality I felt in him. He judged me less than I judged myself, being held in this space of non judgement allowed me to connect with and express to him things I hadn’t dared to even express with myself prior.

     1. I had the same experience Abby I was given permission to see my self as love first and not be identified with all my wrong doings.

     2. To be held in such love allows all that is not love to expose itself. I had the same experience Abby, and what a blessing to be held in the truth of us; our nature is Love.

195. This is a very powerful sharing, one that every person, fullstop, can read and ponder. Just how much do we give over our true inner feelings for those of a world that has gone astray? Each of us has much to understand here as to how such a reality is not only our own, but pretty much everybodies in the world, bar for a few who have been able to reconnect to and live from their true essence.

196. I never understood as a child, growing up in the Catholic Church, that if God was love and we are all his children why he would be prejudiced against some of his children being gay, women, black or non-Christian. it was only later as an older teenager I understood that God didn’t have a problem with sexual orientation, gender, background, colour or culture, but that it was the Catholic Church that did.

197. It is such a beautiful and inspiring thing to witness how people are empowered to come back to our selves through the presentations of Universal Medicine, and then begin to blossom into the truly awesome beings we naturally are.

198. Love is never a rule or a picture of how it has to look like. When felt from the heart we know what is love and we know what is true. Genders, religions, age, nationality cannot stop love from being love. Love is love and it is always equal no matter how we are physically. Love is never a behaviour it is always a feeling of how we are held.

199. It is great and about time that same sex marriage has just been legalised in Australia ✨

     1. It is crazy that we have created a world in which such a natural part of life was once outlawed in the first place. And yes very welcome step from Australia.

200. Now that fortunately in most societies it has become less dangerous to declare if you prefer a sexual relationship with someone of the same gender, there are many cases like in this blog where people share that they were aware of this very early in life, and how natural it felt prior to the dictated opinions and judgments from society.

     The fact that these are not isolated sharing, ought to have us stop and ask what might be the message here. If there are many that experience this from early in as the most natural thing, and there is nothing wrong and contentious as some ideologies try to paint, we need to ask and look at what are the invaluable and loving reflections offered by such a relationship.

     1. Yes, Golnaz. It is clear to me that being gay is natural since one comes in this way at birth. If we factor in reincarnation then is it possible that being gay is simply because in a previous life/lives a person has been hurt by the opposite gender and to become trusting again they need to partner with someone from the same sex? If we look at the bigger picture in this way how can we possibly judge another for their sexual orientation? If a same-sex relationship is loving, surely that is what we are all about and surely that must be our primary focus.

201. Reading your words today Susan, I’m reminded that we can’t be brainwashed or indoctrinated, or made to feel bad. All of these things are essentially a choice that we have. Life can seem as though it’s too hard, harsh and unfair but it’s actually us who promotes it being this way. Have we truly accepted ourselves for the beauty we are? If so, are we really likely to give this away for comfort and ease? It seems there is so much more we need to appreciate.

202. This exposes how when we take on the fear imposed on us it then controls so much of our lives. And yet when we stay true to ourselves, to our innate knowing, there is no place for fear.

203. How you are unpacking the many layers is inspiring Susan… “Re-building my connection to myself, and learning to love, live and appreciate everything I am…” we each are worthy of endless love.

204. ‘Moulding myself to something I am not has not been very pleasant I must say, for it has shut down firstly the fullness of who I am and secondly, the knowing that I am a divine Soul first and foremost, and that my expression here on Earth is to be honoured for what it naturally is because it forms part of a much larger divine jigsaw puzzle that I am not in control of.’ – beautifully said, Susan. Sadly, this is something we can all very much relate to, for we have all sold ourselves out, on some level, to comply, to fit in, to change ourselves to be what is ‘expected of us’ and in so doing, we dim the light of the divine whole that we are a part of and everyone gets affected, hence the mess we are living in today. However, just as we chose to dis-connect, it’s jjust as easy to re-connect to our divine selves and share our light and love for all to feel.

205. It always amazes me how we make life about what is considered “normal” vs appreciating and making life about truth and love, if we did ‘being gay’ would not even be a thing.

206. Love is love is love – with no conditions whatsoever.

     1. Yes, it is like the sun that shines equally for all.

        1. How very true Victoria – the Sun is such a divine symbol for the universal, undying, all-inclusive Love of God with whom we are one.

207. ‘The rules of the Church felt incredibly hard and not of God’s words at all.’ …. we know when something does not feel true – a gorgeous confirmation for us to always trust in what we are feeling first and question what we are being presented with, rather than blindly accepting what appears to be the norm in life, at our own expense.

208. “There was nothing at all wrong with this true expression of love and it was in this moment that I woke up again to the truth within and felt the stirring of living the call of my natural expression with no holding back.”
     What an absolute healing Susan – to finally have confirmation of a truth we have naturally felt within us for years is an absolute blessing!

209. It is all in the joy of being who we are and learning to express that, let it out completely and letting the world see and feel what we bring. The world may not always welcome this, but that is what our role is, to show that love has no boundaries and no ideals and beliefs, but just simply is.

     1. Yes, love is love, it cannot compartmentalise in the way beliefs and ideas like to have us think.

210. As with any aversion to another, the aversion that people have to those who are gay, originates in themselves. But, as with any aversion to something or someone, those that have the aversion keep their focus and blame centred on those who they are averse to and therefore not only avoid taking responsibility to change but also prevent change from taking place.

     1. Awesome point Alexis – it is something within ourselves with which we do not feel comfortable that means we focus this outwardly to others.

     2. So true Alexis and the opposite applies, when someone is living love, they can appreciate and love others equally.

211. The story of accepting to let go what feels natural in us is in exchange of other things is not a widespread one. Most of us knows this quite well. And, then we try unsuccessfully hard and very hard to square the circle. Returning to everything that our body feels natural is a profound gift to ourselves; the best possible one.

212. Age 4 makes sense to me. I am male and at that age it was clear to me that I would want to be with a girl when I grew up.

213. Since April this year I have the privilege to marry couples legally and I get to witness that gender, age difference, what work you do has nothing to do with love nor with a loving relationship. The relationship with ourselves, the willingness to learn and grow together and the ability to observe and let another come to their own amazingness are key ingredients for me.

214. We have all suffered at the hands of the world and its ideals and beliefs but this suffering is our own making for we abandon ourselves and our own inner knowing of life and sign up to and endorse these ideals and beliefs. We even created them in the first place! So amazing story here about how it is never too late to see these illusions of life for what they really are and return to a truer way of living and expressing.

215. “For me, my connection with God was already innate and I felt the holding of his deep love, available to everyone equally without any such discrimination or injustice.” To know this, and hold on to this as a child tells them that the prejudice they will come across and be coerced to accept as traditions, norms or beliefs, have no true ground or founding.

216. As children we just know who we are and reading that you knew you were gay at the age of 4 is a beautiful confirmation of that.

217. I remember being in primary and so confused about sexuality.. what it was.. and whether I was gay or not. I was confused because I loved my male and female friends equally. We innately know what love is. Love is love regardless of what it looks like. Labels and the judgements that come with them cause much harm, probably more than we care to know. And the imposition can start from a very young age where we begin to develop behaviours to ‘cope’ with the intensity of what we feel.

218. It certainly seems absurd that a religious organisation would put it about that loving another women or man would mean that you would burn in hell. What kind of image of God have they been dreaming up? This church has been incredibly controlling in its dictates, trying to mould everyone into little robots who will never ascend but will go around and around feeling punished and guilty.

219. As children we innately know who we are and parenting is about supporting the expression of that essence. Anyone who attempts to control this divine expression, person or institution is interfering with God’s will.

220. Thank you Susan. How wonderful that you knew at the age of 4. If we supported children in their awareness, connection and own knowing, they would have this as their trusted foundation for life rather than imposed beliefs. How different would our world be?

221. Wow, Susan, this is gold – “my expression here on Earth is to be honoured for what it naturally is because it forms part of a much larger divine jigsaw puzzle that I am not in control of”. We are not able to be in the flow and play our part in a much grander plan, when we contract away from the unique expression of who we are in essence.

222. ‘There is a glorious freedom to be returning to a connection with myself and God in a way that does not need to appeal or be recognised by outer rules and expectations.’ It is beautiful to read this Susan. We are born feeling this connection, we lose it as we begin to seek recognition from outside ourselves and then we realise we have a choice to return. Choosing to return to the love that we are, just as you have shared, is a true love story.

223. It’s true that’…any relationship based on true love and connection can be celebrated.’ and so it should be. It really is time that as a society we let go of judgements, insecurities, prejudice and hate towards sexual orientation.

224. It does not surprise me that children know as early as four years old that they are gay, because the truth of who we are comes from our bodies and children are very connected to their bodies.

225. Powerful confirmation to trust our own innermost feelings and not be swayed by what others tell us.

226. An honest sharing Susan and one which opens up the conversation about being gay and how it feels to know this from deep within and a very young age, but the world is telling you something different, that it is wrong and shameful. Your article raises awareness and brings understanding of the experience of being gay and what it takes to accept it within yourself, and be true to yourself in every way.

227. What a very cool thing to bring to our consideration, Jane. How amazing and simple life would be if we were not moulded away from the truth of who we are.

228. “In choosing to comply with the Catholic Church I took a bigger step away from God than if I had honoured my true expression.” There is little in society if anything that supports one to honour one’s true expression, in fact it is the complete opposite with everything mitigating against it. Thank goodness for Serge Benhayon, Universal Medicine and The Way of The Livingness for showing us another way, the way to reconnect to our ‘true expression’, our Soul.

229. The imposition of social and religious beliefs is something we are all exposed to. The blessing and inspiration of this article is that it clearly shows that these are not things we have to be hapless, compliant victims of, and that in returning to an open, honouring and honest relationship with ourselves, we can live the freedom of being who we are, unencumbered by false beliefs and rules and build true relationships founded on love not ideals.

230. I feel that from going into the Catholic Church from the moment I was born completely messed up my connection to God, for my earliest memories were the fires of hell and that God should be feared and I would be punished and all that sort of thing. How wrong can we get it? I know we can never lose that connection but we can get pushed pretty far off track.

     1. Awesome sharing Kevmchardy. I can relate to the images of ‘fires of hell’ and that God should be feared but I wasn’t brought up in the Catholic religion yet I also had these fearful images. It makes me wonder how that is possible, to adopt some of these religious fears and beliefs? My feeling is, it was possibly through people I met and from watching movies that I caught onto these images, ideals and beliefs that lead me further way from connecting to God.

231. “… the knowing that I am a divine Soul first and foremost, and that my expression here on Earth is to be honoured for what it naturally is because it forms part of a much larger divine jigsaw puzzle that I am not in control of.” Superb appreciation of the fact that we are tiny pieces in a huge picture and that we cannot deem to have any authority about the whole, as many religious institutions attempt to do, if we do not connect to the innate, infinite and unconditional love of God in the first place. And when we do, we realise that the essential component of all relationships is not sexual gender but authentic love.

     1. Yes, Rowena – that’s the key, isn’t it. How can we possibly claim to know God unless we are connected to the love he emanates? The love he emanates does not judge, it simply beholds everyone in equalness to him – in that light if we claim anything that is in contra to this we simply can’t be speaking the truth!

232. ‘…I began to hear messages that such a choice was a sin, that it was not normal or natural and that I would make God and everyone else very unhappy if I chose to be with a woman. ‘ false ideals and beliefs are constantly being imposed on us from outside of us – always up to us to discern for ourselves what is true and what is not.

233. This is such an honest blog, and it’s amazing what you’ve shared about learning “to feel what it means to live being a woman of gay expression in full”. Use the word ‘gay’ for it’s other meaning and we could all absolutely benefit from doing this too – opening up, expressing joy, being ‘gay’ in our day and appreciating all the moments along the way!

234. ” I grew up in a Catholic environment and at the age of 4 (yes, as early as that), I knew I was gay ”
     This is so beautiful. Imagine knowing you are gay at 4 years old, what a gift.

235. Being gay should not even be a topic of discussion… it’s a bit like having a discussion on whether people should be Black/Asian, Male/Female, Tall/Short…. The Church needs to start leaving people’s lives alone and start addressing their own backyard. And if so, I have a suggested first action point: Stop putting the fear of god into people to keep them contributing the big pile of cash that then goes into condom firm shares (ironic much?), tobacco shares and all the rest.

     1. Well said Michael – and it is like some recent media sites have discussed here in Australia regarding legalizing gay marriage: really we should just be calling it marriage (and not gay marriage), for we don’t say we are having a ‘gay breakfast’ or a ‘gay shower’ – this portrays how ridiculous it has become with how we discuss things.

        1. Haha I love those phrases Henrietta as it so humorously exposes the ridiculousness of it all

236. If God is love, as every major organised religion claims, it makes no sense that God would be unhappy if you are gay. We have twisted our version of love and imposed it on God, who loves equally and without judgment.

237. This is beautiful how you share your early childhood Susan… “This was a beautiful time for I allowed myself to simply feel and be me for me.” As children we innately know ourselves, and the people and the world around us, and we follow that knowing. This knowing is what needs to be nurtured and encouraged throughout our childhood so as adults we continue to live this innate truth.

238. ‘For me, my connection with God was already innate and I felt the holding of his deep love, available to everyone equally without any such discrimination or injustice.’ – very beautiful how you felt and knew the truth, Susan, thereby exposing the falseness in what the Church was ‘preaching’. It feels like their message was based on fear and control rather than anything that resembles truth.

239. If we’re not being who we know ourselves to be, then who exactly are we being?

     1. Good question, Alexis. It hurts us so much to live a false version of ourselves and we always know when we are not being true, no matter how much we invest in maintaining our identification with the lesser version we have created.

240. It is interesting how you presented that you chose to be emerged into Catholicism even though what they presented did not feel true to you. This kind of choice to not follow our feelings anymore we all make at a certain age and to a certain degree and it is this that we can rewind and discard again once we become aware again of this choice that we made against our innate feelings.

     1. Yes, we discount what we feel – after all how can we be right and the rest of the world be wrong. That just could not be.

241. This is a huge heartfelt message that can speak on behalf of millions in various areas of life: “For many years, this has left me living as a shadow of myself and not fully committing and bringing all of me to life, with impacts to my wellbeing, work and personal relationships”.

     If we let ourselves really get the detrimental curse that comes with imposing ideals, beliefs and expectations on one another, our world would not be so riddled by such evil.

242. I love how as children we just know – we know love and we know whats true for us

     1. Very true Rebecca, the greatest gift we can offer our children is to confirm them as the all knowing divine beings that they are, and support them to always express their truth as they start to navigate their way through life, always trusting in the truth they feel inside, despite the pull they may feel to step away from themselves.

        1. I agree, and supporting them to feel the difference between their truth and those outside forces that can sometimes feel like they are who we are

     2. Sometimes we hold ourselves away from the truth and won’t allow ourselves to let go and make the choices we know are best for us

243. What you share in your opening sentence about knowing at the age of 4 that you were gay confirms that intelligence and wisdom has nothing to do with age, but depends on our connection to ourselves and our willingness to be aware.

     1. And this blog demonstrates so clearly how important it is to support children in their knowing rather than imposing ideals, beliefs and how to be upon them.

244. Trying to fit into a mould that somebody, or an organisation, or a whole culture has created and insists is the “correct” way, is without doubt a stepping away from God, for God is in us and around us everywhere and fits into no mould. It is such s joy to read of liberation from the shackles of the church of your childhood Susan.

245. I find that when I open my heart to my loving nature, the desire to judge others for their choices fades away.

     1. Yes, I feel the same too Richard. From what Susan so beautifully shared, it shows how common it is in our world that people are living with a closed heart because judgement is rife and where love is commonly rejected. So, gorgeous to read that you and many, many people are choosing to open your heart and let love lead the way.

     2. Beautiful Richard, like loving yourself and letting yourself be the tender man you are brings out the understanding and accepting of other people’s choices.

        1. It seems that when we have a loving relationship with ourselves, there is no need to judge or put anyone else down. It is only when we feel that we are less than the love we innately are that the desire for this exits.

246. “There was even the message that having a same sex partner was inhuman, and if this was your expression, that there was something deeply wrong and even evil with you. This meant that you needed to be prayed for and healed so as to return to ‘God’s way’, the Church’s way. There was also of course, the nasty and very false threat that you could end up burning in hell.” How can any religion teach that God will only love us if we comply to his rules when in truth God loves all equally. This kind of message is surely enough to put the fear of God into any child, who then will grow up not living the fullness of who they are. And to celebrate that love with another, regardless of gender, is something we can all be totally inspired by.

     1. ‘God is love’ is often quoted by some religious groups, but rarely is it lived. If God’s love was lived, people of differing sexual orientation would be accepted as equal and embraced within every religious community.

247. We cannot make God or anyone else unhappy. God is love and joy – no unhappiness there… and each one of us can choose to be happy or not – it is totally up to us.

248. Its incredible how stifling imposed ideals and beliefs are… they can affect us for lifetimes!

     1. And the inspiration of this article is that we can see that we do have a choice to come out from under these impositions and re-write history as it were… returning to the truth of our expression.

     2. We’ve suffocated ourselves nearly to death with the sheer volume of ideals and beliefs that we haul around with us in our bodies. We’ve left ourselves no space to breathe our true breath.

249. So beautiful to read your blog Susan and to know that you have re-connected back to your expression of love. Serge Benhayon has an incredible knack of being able to support us back to our innate truth no matter how far we have moved away from it!!

250. People are so insecure and tormented that anything that doesn’t coincide with their ‘picture’ of the way ‘it should be’ causes them to react and point the finger of disapproval. The image must be protected at all costs to keep them ‘safe’. It would be a far more harmonious world if we followed that beautiful piece of wisdom , ‘Live and let live’ – that is true compassion for all.

251. Very refreshing to bring the focus to the quality of love shared, rather than the stereotype or box that wants to control and confine it.

     1. Yes – if we shift the focus to what is important – the quality of love shared – it isn’t important what that physically looks like. Whenever I see a truly loving expression between a couple, relatives or friends I am always inspired regardless of whether they are same sex or not.

252. Thank you for sharing your appreciation for reconnecting to everything you are. I am feeling how your reflection will inspire others and demonstrate how to live this in a super practical way without imposition from man-made institutions who are seeking to control for their own ends.

253. Love is love, with no gender bias, racial bias or cultural bias. It’s very simple. We are here to love each other and work together across the board. The gay relationship you write about that is truly loving is a marker for all relationships everywhere for both gay, straight, friends, family and colleagues.

254. ‘Two same sex partners building a loving relationship with themselves and others in their lives did not feel like any issue: the only issue with it seemed to be what others had created.” What you give us here Susan is a gem of an understanding that relates to all our issues in the world. If a relationship is based on love, real love that holds one another in their fullness, showing and demonstrating a tender respect and integrity, then no one, God included can take issue with it. Therefore if we do have an issue, it is arising because of an un-dealt with issue within us and is something we need to take absolute responsibility for, rather than attempt to manipulate other people’s views on it.

255. This is really beautiful, Susan – “There is a glorious freedom to be returning to a connection with myself and God in a way that does not need to appeal or be recognised by outer rules and expectations.” We do not need to appeal to anyone or anything once we reclaim the treasures that reside within.

256. It is amazing how much the word ‘gay’ is used as something we should be ashamed of. Growing up I was deeply sensitive, I still am, I was not attracted to boys yet girls would often ask me if I was gay because either I did not want to go out with them or because I was essentially expressing more tenderly then they were and it was too much for them to cope with because I was not fitting the macho man they thought I should be. It is natural for a man to be tender and delicate with himself and others just like we are as boys, We grow up thinking this is not acceptable and so harden up and then everyone misses out. The ironic thing is, then our wives ask us to be this tender man they can feel within and we find it hard to bring it out as we have buried it so much by being told it is not what they want. No wonder men get confused about how they should be!!!

     1. There is so much to discuss about how we have been tricked into trying to be something we are not innately.

        1. It feels like it is almost an unending discussion as there are so many different ways we have morphed ourselves into being to fit in and get through life rather than just being all that we naturally are.

     2. Thank you James, it is great to expose the false pictures we can hold that have nothing to do with truth.

        1. And boy, oh boy, do we have a lot of pictures about the way we think we should be and what we think we should be doing, which is completely opposite to the way we naturally are.

257. We as a collective have to ask ourselves why did we allow this to happen?
     “The rules of the Church felt incredibly hard and not of God’s words at all. The Church dictating that it represented God’s views and had the right to pass judgement did not feel OK.”
     I feel that in the past we were bullied and harassed with often brute force to give our power away to a few people that then dictated back to the masses what they could or could not do in the name of God. Surely it’s time now to reconnect back to God, who is actually the total opposite from what He has been presented to be. As a child I never believed all that nonsense they told me was God, it wasn’t the God I knew and loved deeply and still do to this day.

258. I saw a moving moment on the news the other day when a gay man in the Australian parliament proposed to his partner who was in the gallery. They were gathered to nut out how the new law that now people of the same sex could get married in Australia legally. Things are changing, but far too slowly, although love will win in the end.

259. I know someone who is Gay and as a result, has a family that has disowned them. But what is so powerful about this blog, is that it isn’t really about your sexuality, it is about claiming in full who you are and what you feel – and don’t take on any reactions that come as a result of this. Love is love.

260. Gay, is another word to be added to the list of words that have mutated to become a different species altogether. But, how true is the original definition in regards to all relationships, regardless of gender to be joyful and merry!

261. We all have free will to choose how we live in life, equally so. We have the freedom to choose whether we work and what quality we bring to our work, what we eat, who we hang out with, where we live and how we look after our home, whether we get married or not and who we choose as our partner is, again, our choice. In truth, it has nothing to do with anyone else. Whether we judge is also a choice.

262. ‘This was a beautiful time for I allowed myself to simply feel and be me for me.’ – so beautiful to feel you treasuring and enjoying the sweetness of you in your natural expression, before the false ideals and beliefs of our society started to impose on you, Susan.

263. Our focus needs to be on raising awareness about domestic violence, how to communicate truly in a relationship, how to be loving, how to raise responsible and deeply loved children, how to be deeply and truly joyful and content in our relationships rather than disputing which genders can and cant be together – it is the quality of love in the relationship between two people that should matter

264. True love and understanding is a pleasure to behold no matter who it is between – what a great reflection to bring to the world.

265. How beautiful to know who you are and what you want, even after so much pressure to conform, there is still this bright spark of inspired movement back towards your essence and your truth.

266. Our societal foundations are still so based upon the false paradigm of ‘right and wrong’ ‘acceptable and unacceptable’ – constantly dividing and conquering us all, one against the other in order to make some people ‘in’ and others ‘out’. It is a form of protection to keep individuality. Our true medicine is loving observation – not right and wrong.

267. The more people claim themselves in full no matter what they feel the more we will start to see the naming and shaming behaviour decrease at a rapid rate. Thank you for playing your part in that here Susan.

268. I love the way you describe how you were confident with your own knowing as a young child.

269. You know that it is love when it is open, spacious and truly honoring of any human being and Soul. No matter the circumstances it must be equally supportive of the All (everybody) without an image of how it should look like. For it is only felt by the heart not its irresponsible mind.

270. “In choosing to comply with the Catholic Church I took a bigger step away from God than if I had honoured my true expression.” Now that can’t be true religion if people in a congregation feel they need to do that.

271. Any relationship based on true love and connection can be celebrated and deeply appreciated. Love is what we are here for so whenever it is there let’s claim it and expand it.

272. Love does not distinguish between genders, love is love. Anything else is the man-made and imposed rules and regulations of institutionalised religions that purport to be representing God and sell their versions of truth.

273. Its interesting how you shared that the chirch communicated to you that being gay would make God unhappy. How can you make someone who doesn’t judge unhappy? This also demonstrates how much harm and suppression casting ones interpretation or beliefs can cause / contribute to. In every interaction with another we have the opportunity to express in a way that either unites one further towards their soul (their natural inner confidence) or we can express in ways that may encourage another to doubt and even fear.

274. Susan I love your honesty! – it is so fresh and inspirational: “. . . the knowing that I am a divine Soul first and foremost, and that my expression here on Earth is to be honoured for what it naturally is because it forms part of a much larger divine jigsaw puzzle that I am not in control of.”

275. Something is seriously wrong with an ideology that instead of appreciating and encouraging the expression of the innate love within us, sets about putting conditions on when and how this love is allowed to come out.

276. Love is love, How wonderful that you have claimed this back.

277. We all grow up with a sense (at least) of not wanting to be different. Yet when people accept and express their so called differences like you have here Susan, it actually inspires. So instead of thinking or saying to ourselves I do not want to be different, perhaps it would be more honest to say I’m not comfortable being a point of inspiration for others?

278. After being molested as a young boy I knew it was wrong and that I was not Gay although it took many confused years to find my feet. So as you say Susan, we always know from a young age what our sexual orientation is.

279. “In choosing to comply with the Catholic Church I took a bigger step away from God than if I had honoured my true expression.” What an incredible revelation that rings absolutely true. True religion brings us back to the truth of who we are and your blog demonstrates this beautifully Susan.

     1. I agree Leonne and from what you’ve shared, I feel it is easy to connect to and discern what is true and what is not, because anything that makes us feel restricted, less, separate, judged, unworthy of God’s love etc. and the list goes on, then we know it is not true religion.

280. There is absolutely nothing at all that any of us could ever possibly do that would result in God loving us any less. Think of the most hideous crime and still that would not alter God’s love for us one iota and so for the church, which is supposedly an institution that represents God, to espouse that being with someone of the same sex would make God unhappy is nothing other than an out and out lie.

281. It seems utterly ridiculous that we put human emotions on God, to suggest that the choices that we make will make God happy or sad is ludicrous. The funny thing is we shake our heads in disbelief that we ever thought that the world was flat but to believe that God gets happy or sad is just as ridiculous. What’s worse is that we use these falsities to bully people into behaving in certain ways, like not following their natural sexual orientation for example.

282. What you’ve shared Susan about the Catholic Churches shows me that their teachings and principles are not based on love because they enforced rules, control, punishment and putting others down. I have experienced this way of life even thought I wasn’t brought up as a Catholic and this false version of love was what I saw throughout my up bringing. But now I know that if I ever experience love that is judgemental or separative, it is a sure sign that it is not God’s love but a false version that is distorted to look like the real deal.

283. So beautiful to feel how you felt as a little girl, so naturally connected and what a lovely marker for you to return to and live as an adult, casting aside all that isn’t true – something greatly inspiring because I notice that there is something in me that says do I really have to admit what I’ve done to myself in order to fit in? Do I have to acknowledge that all that effort and time I put into achieving what is false and not from within was not just a waste of energy but actually brought more energy into the world that isn’t loving – and in most cases this was a lot of energy? Yes I do have to admit this and see not one bit of any of the coping strategies, though often understandable, had any true benefit.

284. Allowing ourselves to be open and willing to share our truth is very beautiful, something to be deeply appreciated by us and everyone else as we are sharing the love that we are. To make a judgment against someone’s truth and their expression of that truth, exposes the ill energy that that person or institution is aligning with.

285. This is beautiful Susan. I grew up around people who thought that being Gay was ‘not right’ and it was ‘ungodly’, and although not being gay myself always found this hard to understand, let alone to accept. On hearing Serge Benhayon talk about being in a Gay relationship being absoltuley no different to 2 people in a Heterosexual one when the love is expressed in full, everything made complete sense to me. At the end of the day, it makes no difference what gender we are, when the love being expressed is true.

286. I’m not sure why the catholic church just refutes being gay, I think it actually refutes you being true to who you are, while there’s a lot of truth in religion but there always seems to be a domination over what you should or shouldn’t do or be that doesn’t leave you free to be you and be who you really are.

287. Your blog exposes how far we have moved away from our divine selves as a society, when we consider how we have accepted the damming condemnation from the church, and others, towards certain people when their true expression does not fit into the belief system dictated by the church – in the name of God. Such hypocrisy when we consider the evil that was taking place within the Catholic Church, where eyes were turned and ‘cover-ups’ made, all to protect the Institution.

288. The honesty you bring to the beautiful blog Susan is both humbling and inspiring for all – a powerful reflection of the joy in returning to the true connection within and express this fully – from simply being love. Love in its true form has nothing to do with gender.

289. Any relationship can be sacred if that sacredness is what both people in the relationship commit to within themselves and each other, and this has nothing to do with whether the relationship is of a man and a woman, two women or two men. What matters is the quality we commit to.

290. Susan your sharing is open, humble and beautiful – fundamental qualities that are needed for any relationship

291. ‘There is a glorious freedom to be returning to a connection with myself and God in a way that does not need to appeal or be recognised by outer rules and expectations.’ It is amazing how we tend to create rules and regulations around religion when at heart it is a simple connection to God that can be felt in the body and needs no outer message to sanction it or make it ‘right’.

292. It’s fascinating that at the age of 4 you had such a knowing. As children we do get such deep knowing’s, At that age or there about I knew that God was my true father there was no doubt about this as far as I was concerned. And I had no issue expressing this, why would I? It didn’t go down too well in my family and I learnt not to mention God or my relationship with him which I now can say was hugely sad for me. How to bottle up something that was so joyous to feel; God was very tangible to me he was everywhere I looked in everything I did and touched. Because what I had was so precious but I tucked God way and from that day I can now see I lived a lesser life until I met Serge Benhayon. Finally here was someone who also knew God in all his Glory and was not afraid to stand up and declare that we are all the sons of God and why wouldn’t we be.
     It’s taken me many years for me to feel safe enough to let myself reconnect back to what was so natural to me as a child and if it wasn’t for that meeting with Serge Benhayon I would have lived another life unexpressed of my deep love of my creator.

293. Isn’t it interesting how we squash ourselves into what we think other people want us to be. And how painful this is. Ultimately we cannot be anything but who we naturally are. But we can hide. This blog represents the true meaning of ‘coming out’.

294. I love how you share that by conforming to the ideals and beliefs you stepped further away from God. Any movement, alignment and choices we make that aligns to a picture of how we need to be stops us from being who we naturally are.

295. ‘There was even the message that having a same sex partner was inhuman, and if this was your expression, that there was something deeply wrong and even evil with you. This meant that you needed to be prayed for and healed so as to return to ‘God’s way’, the Church’s way. There was also of course, the nasty and very false threat that you could end up burning in hell.’ In reading these words it is very easy to feel the dark manipulation behind this consciousness and to see how completely and utterly false this is, yet its grip is still felt and has a hold over so many. I have always felt that loving expression is simply that and I have never felt anything at all in relation to sexual orientation – it really doesn’t have to be the big deal society has made it. As you share ‘any relationship based on true love and connection can be celebrated’ and I would further add needs to be celebrated. Whenever I come across two people who are committed to living the love they are, honestly I am inspired.

296. “Two same sex partners building a loving relationship with themselves and others in their lives did not feel like any issue” – Truthfully so, Susan. Love is not an issue, but we try and condition it and confine it to a box based on beliefs such as the ones you’ve shared about being gay.

     1. Quite so Susie, all the conditions and boxes we like things to fit into become nonsensical when we know true love and embrace true responsibility.

     2. Very true Susie, it is the conditions and definitions we put on it that are not true but this does not change the fact that we know what Love is.

297. So many of us grow up imprisoned by ideals and beliefs which hold us back from living the love and joy that we naturally are. I love the openness and honesty of your sharing as you let go of the shackles and claim the women you are.

298. Yes, Susan, organised religion has a lot to answer for in terms of diminishing our true nature, but it is so beautiful to read this ‘coming out’ story, out of the shadows and into the broad light of day in your fullness.

     1. Religion is directly responsible for keeping millions of people as far away from God as possible and this, it has done for thousands of years. Of course, it’s not possible to be separate from God but religion has set up a belief system that ensures that being separate from God is what people feel.

299. The way I see it is that it is our true nature to be love and this means with all people, not just those we choose to, or those we approve of. I feel this is God’s way – being love, expressing love, no matter what. It is unconditional.

300. It is very joyful to read, that you are stepping in your true power through a true reflection. Abandon beliefs and letting go of ideals, that has no ounce of truth in it, are the path to resurrect ourselves and allows inner freedom. It is a great example what immense responsibility we all carry, to reflect truth, so that people do have the chance to feel, what is really true and awaken from being in a prison of holding back.

     1. Yes, good point Stefanie. We all have a responsibility to live unashamedly and absolutely the truth of who we are, so others see that it is possible to let go of the shackles of old beliefs and societal impositions.

301. The real issue in this world has nothing to do with our heterosexual or gay orientations but more the fact that we actively condone un-loving relationships. What is so ironic is that many of our religious doctrines contribute to this lack of love by imposing false beliefs about God’s immense and unconditional love. What we are offered through Universal Medicine is the way back to securing integrity and respect as our inherent foundational rules of engagement that restore our natural expression of God’s Love to our everyday lives.

302. Thank you Susan for a beautiful testimony to how Serge Benhayon is a gateway to re-connect to one’s Soul and God.

303. Every movement I make that is not in honour of who I am then I live in separation to my soul and therefore to God. In truth I am a son of God, we are all sons of God so it is at the very least to respect and honour what I/we feel is true for us otherwise we end up living less than the true woman/man we inherently are.

304. “Re-building my connection to myself, and learning to love, live and appreciate everything I am (not just being gay), is where I have begun.” This is so important Susan, appreciating all of you and understanding being gay is just a normal part of expressing who you are. As a 4 year old you knew this but through your experience with the Catholic Church and its ideals and beliefs around being gay you started to question your own sense of knowing, to you being gay deeply resonated within you and felt true, but the Church’s indoctrinations were saying otherwise, not only was it a sin but you could burn in hell….to me this is where evil truly lies.

305. Great sharing Susan, it is making how much we can mould ourselves into something completely opposite to what we know is true within when we give power to what is outside of ourselves. At first it can be subtle but eventually we can be way off track simply trying to live up to the ideals and beliefs that abound within society. It is beautiful that you have now let these go and returned to what you know within. After all as you said we are all love no matter who we choose to have an intimate relationship with.

306. I can only imagine how confusing it may be to be gay and made to feel that it is wrong when it feels so right, the crime here, or the sin if you will, is making someone feel bad for what they feel and know to be true.

307. “There is a glorious freedom to be returning to a connection with myself and God in a way that does not need to appeal or be recognised by outer rules and expectations. This applies to all aspects of my life and, with much more to continue to expand and deepen, is a forever unfoldment to which I am now the willing student.” Thank you, Susan. So beautiful how you have brought it back home to all being about love before anything.

308. Thank you Susan, this was an absolute joy to read. When any one of us claim who we are in full it feels like the universe and all sentient beings in it rejoice.

309. We are constantly fed images of relationships and how they should be and lock ourselves into a way of being that is not true. The Catholic Church has affected our ability to live in heterosexual relationships too. It is not a religion of love.

310. This blog shows just how much of an impact religious doctrines and judgement have upon a person’s free will and choice.

     1. Yes, and when deep inside we know what feels and is true for us. It can be difficult when young not to take on the many impositions that come our way through the images, ideals and beliefs we are fed. It is a great moment when we return to honouring the truth from our own being.

311. Susan, thank you for sharing what it felt like to find your way back to your true expression as a woman who happens to be gay.

312. Susan a beautiful piece of expression.. and “being gay” is but an outer shell no different to “being coloured” or “being a man” or “being a certain faith/religion” and so on — inside we are the same no matter what identifications we’ve allowed in or digested through belief to make distinction, for there is no distinction in the eyes or Home of God, and our true selves either.

313. True relationship has nothing that can be judged by gender, and everything to do with our innate expression of love.

     1. Rosanna wise words and ones that reflect the fact that in life we are in relationship with everyone, if only we approach all relationships from the point of love and true love being at the foundation.

314. Such a fantastic and beautiful blog Susan, it’s great to feel you stepping out as you, unfurling your wings and just being you. It’s for all of us to live this way and unpick anything we’ve taken which seems us and our natural expression as wrong. We are all of God and what can be wrong with that?

315. ‘There is a glorious freedom to be returning to a connection with myself and God in a way that does not need to appeal or be recognised by outer rules and expectations.’ Your assertion here is hugely inspiring, particularly as it applies to anyone and everyone equally, regardless of the range and reach of the external rules and expectations that may have been imposed and applied so far in life. Your joy at the freedom you now experience is palpable in your blog and that itself offers others the courage to try it for themselves.

316. It is silly to be dropping the bar for civility and decency in relationships so much that nowadays a great deal of disrespect and abuse has become normal, and then turn around and discourage those who are choosing to commit to a deepening level of love and care of one another when we should be encouraging and supporting them and allowing them to lead the way in how we could all be relating to one another.

317. Stunning blog and sharing Susan. You show us all how deeply indoctrinated we have all been – and not just in regards to our sexuality. Our divine essence is suppressed and forgotten from day one and traded in for being ‘good’ and ‘right’ in some way. We let go of a few of these ideas and think life is great – but I feel what you present is the possibility we are still living with lies, not our sweetness, natural beauty and light.

318. When we are forced to be different from who we are, we are in a world of difficulties. When that force disappears we can then find out what it is within ourselves that also holds back who we are.

319. What a great sharing Susan, it is when we move in accordance with ideals that have us believe that life is a struggle, that we hold back from expressing ourselves in full. Seeing through these ideals and beliefs frees us up to live and love, replacing controlling and limiting conditions with joy, truth, harmony, stillness and love.

320. Thank you Susan for this beautiful, delicate and empowering blog. It is a true testament to listening to the truth of Love that lies within our inner-heart, and claim that back to live it on earth no matter what the oppressive forces of the outside world try to imprison you with!

     1. Yes, Lyndy, this is a true love story, and love always wins out in the end no matter how crushed we have allowed ourselves to be by external forces and belief systems.

     2. Deepening our awareness shines the light of exposure upon the multitude of oppressive forces in place that are designed to keep us from re-connecting to that which is innate and true in our essence. LOVE.

321. Hi Susan, what a powerful sharing – to know your truth and natural expression at such a young age. And what a joy that you chose to honour this with the support of Universal Medicine. For someone to claim who they are in full, no matter who they are attracted to – is glorious and reflects the absoluteness of relationships to the world.

322. To me what is evil is saying that same sex couples are evil. Everyone should have the choice and freedom to love who they choose to and it is great you feel you are finally able to now.

323. Beautiful expression Susan. And great to feel how you are claiming back what you already knew within was true.

324. So wonderful to be freed of the clutches of beliefs held by the catholic church Susan. True religion is now being expressed, not the conditional kind.

325. I have often thought about the reflection it must offer when I have heard Serge Benhayon talk about same-sex love and have two gay men or women present on stage about their relationships as it is so normal and not a thing when it happens. And for so many people it is ‘a thing’ and often much more of a thing as you so eloquently write about. And so it was gorgeous to read this today to hear the impact that Serge Benhayon and this reflection has had with and on you. Welcome home to you I say.

326. I’ve never understood why religion gets so involved in people’s personal lives and enforce rules. It’s very imposing and interfering, from matters of contraception to condemning gay people. Perhaps if they weren’t spending all that time enforcing their control over people’s lives in the name of God, they could instead live connected to God and explore what love means in everyday life. Now that is something I’d like to see in religion.

327. How many true relationships have been suppressed by the coercion of ideals and beliefs by organisations and systems such as the Catholic Church? They profess truth and love and condemn others who are truly loving as being evil – “any relationship based on true love and connection can be celebrated.”

328. In conforming to all the ideals and beliefs, the consciousnesses that abound in the world, we shut down our true expression, hiding the innate love and joy we all hold equally within… Love is our true equality.

329. I love how you started reconnecting back to yourself by ‘learning to love, live and appreciate everything I am’. This is a gorgeous start for each of us on our way back to the divinity we come from and unity we are.

330. This is very beautifully and honestly expressed Susan, thank you.

     These words are so true: “Two same sex partners building a loving relationship with themselves and others in their lives did not feel like any issue: the only issue with it seemed to be what others had created.”

     There is no issue when we live connected to the love we are. The issue begins when we withdraw away from this love and allow ourselves to be steered through life by all the various mandates and dictates that have their roots in this separation.

     1. So true Liane. It is only when we stray from love are there issues and consequently we are the creators of them, which thereby means we can also resolve them.

        1. And therein lies the game of the human etheric spirit, that part of us that has separated from the love and light of the Soul – ‘create problems, feel identified by finding solutions for them’. By all means such problems need to be resolved but the key to our evolution is found in dissolving them (i.e. not creating the problems in the first place) rather than solving them.

331. This is so true Susan…”…any relationship based on true love and connection can be celebrated.” When our true foundation for any relationship is based on love, it matters not what age, gender, culture etc people may be. Life is about Love.

332. Yes in truth,” any relationship based on true love and connection can be celebrated.” Thank you for sharing Susan.

     1. Absolutely for people to truly love one another regardless of gender should be celebrated.

333. This was heaven to read, thank you for your sharing and your honesty and willingness to share it with others as this can offer others a huge support and inspiration. It is very beautiful to read your sharing and to feel the choices you have made to let go of the ideals and beliefs and to come back to love and allow that to be expressed.

334. It’s lovely to see such a commitment to simply being who you are and from there everyone should support and appreciate just this. It has no gender, race or social standing attached to it, it is simply the honouring of what someone truly feels to do with their life and themselves without a thought of thinking you know better. It something that has always touched me about Serge Benhayon, the room or space you always have to be truly you. It has no heading or agenda just the simple message of ‘be love’ in that you bring forward the rest. This freedom is one seldom given in this current world and as is said in this article we can all see where certain ‘religions’ are taking us.

335. What a massive healing to see two beautiful women in relationship, without an ounce of guilt or imposition from outside. I can imagine it is very damaging to grow up gay in a Catholic home, as you are condemned and told there is something wrong with you. There is enough of that in general without adding sexuality to it!

336. Facing our ideals and beliefs and the judgments we hold with regards to people being gay is something worth bringing out into the open. Having grown up in a family who openly disliked gay people and who were occasionally quite verbal about it, it has me wondering how this has influenced my own beliefs.

337. Reading your blog Susan, I felt the joy of your deep knowing being honoured and restored, thanks to Serge Benhayon showing what true love and equality look and feel like in everyday life, and in relationship with each other.

338. The catholic church has much to undo to get to love and true relationship with God and with each other. It judges everyone who is not catholic for starters, then gays, and women are lesser beings, married people are not eligible to be priests. So essentially we get the message very early that there is a hierarchy and that we are not equal in the eyes of God.

339. It is absolutely fundamental and essential to be supported in who we innately are without imposition. Never is this something we need to ask approval, permission or confirmation from another.

340. We are all born with an intimate sense of knowing who we are, and our relationship with God and truth is as natural as breathing. Yet in a world where our godliness is not lived or celebrated we become trapped in societal projections of who we should be in order to ‘belong’, all the while feeling at a loss as to who we are. Yet the truth be known we already belong to something far greater, where there is far greater freedom in being who we really are and deep down know is true. In being ourselves, as such living in connection to what we know and feel is true, our relationship with the light of our Soul is what truly allows us to live the full potential of who we are, and lighting the way for all see.

341. Susan, there is a tangible fullness in the title of your article alone and that fullness is replicated throughout your article and is a most glorious reflection of your very beautiful and claimed fullness.

342. ‘…any relationship based on true love and connection can be celebrated’ Of course it is. In the end, this is the true purpose of any relationship, isn’t it? So if there is love, let’s celebrate it!

     1. Very true.

343. You go girl….oops amazing woman. Your blog brought me to tears. I can not imagine what you have been going through since your early teen years when you had it imposed on you it was wrong to be in a loving intimate one on one relationship with another woman. In my experience the force of the church is ugly and extreme, so I feel joy knowing you were offered such a beautiful reflection off the two amazing women you saw presenting. Enjoy the forever expanding journey back to yourself and all the wonders of you you discover….. You are amazing Susan xoxo

344. Susan, thank you for such a gorgeous and candid sharing – how beautiful that you connected to your expression early on and then were able to bring it back too however many years later!

345. Man and woman, woman and woman, man and man…matters not. What matters is the quality of love that we offer ourselves and each other.

346. I appreciate that you knew the essence of love in a relationship from very young and that you are now rebuilding that in any future relationships. We all come from the same source, the point is, do we express it or not? If we do not express it equally with all, then we are still learning about the divinity we come from. It seems to forever deepen as we peel away our pictures of what a relationship and love is.

347. Susan thank you for sharing the deep honoring you now hold yourself with and also the fact that all along you naturally had this honoring only to perhaps let other peoples views get in the way. I know that in my own way this happened to me in terms of what I felt was true in life and what life/society told me was and was not acceptable.

348. It always used to confuse me as to why we were not allowed to be whatever we were as kids, there were always boxes to tick that adults said were important.

349. Thank you Susan, for this very real, honest and beutiful sharing. – ‘any relationship based on true love and connection can be celebrated.’ – True love simply IS and is not to fit into any one category.

350. “In choosing to comply with the Catholic Church I took a bigger step away from God than if I had honoured my true expression.” This is quite huge because the Catholic Church is often seen as something that would bring you closer to God, but as you say, anything that takes us away from our natural expression, from ourselves, can not be of God because God holds all in love equally. It is impossible to not be held in love by God, so any religion that sells this story can’t be of truth.

351. Love is love – we should never look to judge another, least of all for their sexuality. Well before we could ever dare to question this, we should be first concerned with if our children are in respectful, equal, honouring and deeply loving relationships that support and grow them – if this is the case can we really then reduce it down to an issue with gender? Let’s focus on learning and building the kinds of relationships with each other, ones that are truly loving and something God would be truly proud of, rather than judging a relationship based on the genders of the people in it.

352. What is not true and not love needs to try very hard to get in and make us doubt who we are because our inner being never leaves us. So beautiful to read how by inspiration you re-connected to your ever present knowing from when you were a young girl and now playfully and willingly explore that.

353. “…any relationship based on true love and connection can be celebrated.” – Absolutely, the quality of a relationship is the marker that says whether it is true or not to me – regardless of gender. The belief that it is wrong for one human being to genuinely love and respect another in an intimate relationship just because they are from the same gender is nonsensical.

354. It is only from my body that I know truth and love and this stands for all and if another chooses to align to another energy that is not love (although they may argue it is love) it is not for me to react and argue that I am right and they are wrong as this is not love either. I hold myself steady with the absolute knowing what I know is true, give them space and allow everything to unfold in its own time; there is not an impatient expectation of what I would like the outcome to be which is how I used to live!

355. All these layers/ideals/beliefs we take on about how we should be in life completely overshadow how we feel to be in life and letting that sense guide us. I’m still working on this but from experience the destination my feelings take me to are far more joyfull than following beliefs.

356. Gosh such an impact to hold back what was true for you for so long Susan…and such a celebration to claim you back! Sexuality like many other things is really just an excuse people use to avoid committing to loving everyone.

357. Yes, Susan, I have also been deeply touched by how Serge Benhayon recognises and appreciates LOVE, no matter where or with whom it blossoms.

358. How can True love ever be ‘wrong’? The Catholic Church has a lot to answer for.

     1. This makes me wonder why the Catholic Church and many institutional religions feel so threatened by gay relationships? I feel there is a deliberate reason for shutting people down in this way because they are reflecting too much power, truth and love to the world.

359. I grew up in the same church and I always found it unusual that a church founded on the loving principles and teachings of Jesus, would essentially exclude people, based on gender, ethnicity, other religious choices or sexual preference. The exclusion is in direct opposition to what Jesus not only taught, but lived. All justified to make it all sound legitimate, but there was no sense of being equal in the eyes of God.

360. A very beautiful story showing how very wholesome we are already when we come to this world – that we know, and exposing how small we make us by giving in to the many ideals and beliefs that we have made life to be.

361. How wonderful you were inspired to let go of the layers you’d cloaked yourself in for so many years, coming back to the beautiful essence you always knew you were and can now express in full. How wonderful it is for me to see how possible this is and also how loving relationships can be whatever our choice of partner’s gender. How evil it is to try to take away our natural knowing of God and His love and our love within – both we can come back to instantly.

362. Thank you Susan. Your inner knowing and experience proves to me that there is no church on Earth that the authority to dictate how God loves us and how we are to align to this immutable love. Serge Benhayon restores to us our inner temple, our ability to discern truth for our selves and to express our innate love in every aspect of our lives. Any doctrine that forbids love does not come from God.

363. I can feel where the real evil lies as I read your blog Susan, and it is so wonderful you have been able to reconnect to the true you, knowing your own relationship with God, and released yourself from what others attempted to impose on you. We are all learning to love, live and appreciate everything we are and what we bring, heterosexual or not.

364. Wow, this is incredible Susan. Who is to make the call that certain people or traits are ‘better’ when we are all capable of and made from the same love?

365. Love is love. It does not matter between whom the love is expressed, it just matters that it is love. And nothing but Love.

366. How wonderful to return to yourself Susan. Enjoy the beautiful unfolding.

367. Beautiful honest blog that confirms the might of our inner knowing, the undeniable depth of our awareness and how we allow outside dogmas to dominate and bend our truth.

     1. Yes, it is a powerful testimony to truth of our inner knowing.

368. Thanks for sharing Susan, its great that you are able to now claim who you are in full and in relation what is your natural expression in relationship and without the false but very imposing guilt of the catholic church.

369. I can’t help thinking how different your life, and many other lives would have been if you had been unconditionally supported with the knowing you had at the age of four. So many lives have been affected by the judgements of the church, and by many of those who often blindly follow their tenets, with some of the resulting impact being so very destructive. But here now we have in Serge Benhayon a teacher of the greatest wisdom who holds every single person as equal and worthy of the same love and acceptance. And it is from this divine foundation that we are all offered the support to finally acknowledge who we truly are and to feel free to live this truth in the world.

370. I too, through my religious upbringing, was influenced by views of same sex partnerships. I bought into beliefs that said it was wrong and I failed to understand what it meant to be gay, though I understood injustices against women and people of different colour.. I’ve had to dismantle these beliefs for myself and now accept that in essence we are all the same, regardless of how we look or express on the outside.

371. The Church’s portrayal of God is an interesting one – “don’t do this this and this otherwise He will be furious with you and you will burn in hell for all eternity with no chance of redemption…. but He loves you… he loves you and he needs money” if it weren’t for the atrocities organised religion has caused throughout the ages it would be comical.

372. Something known to be true and you from childhood, yet buried for so long is harmful. To be given permission to be openly express your sexuality heals and inspires others.

373. It is interesting that the church puts itself on a pedestal, above the rest, which we accept because we believe in the ‘good’ of the church, when underneath the facade of ‘good’ is so much harm.

374. ” whether they be heterosexual or same sex, has also allowed me to feel that being gay is not in any way wrong or evil, and that any relationship based on true love and connection can be celebrated. ” This is so lovely and true and its so wonderful that you have taken the opportunity of returning to living this way. Thank you for sharing Susan.

375. To me the Church has a lot to answer for, as like you I do not feel that any of the mainstream religions honour God at all and they have used the word as a weapon to dictate and suppress humanity.
     But we as a collective are responsible for this, as we allowed ourselves to be dictated to by people claiming authority and to know more than what we deeply know to be true. The end result is that our whole way of life has been discolored and twisted away from what we actually know to be true. The minute we reclaim the true love of God back in our hearts and live this to the best of our ability, then no religion can hold sway over us as the truth is so powerfully held in our bodies.

376. No one is unworthy in the eyes of God. To state this is a bastardisation of the love that He is. If two people love each other, no matter what their gender or sexuality, they are being true to who they are – for we are all love in our true essence. I wonder how many loveless marriages there are in our world in the name of religion.

     1. Simple, Absolute and straight to the point Richard; with a touch of irony thrown in as well – Love it.

     2. Also, could it be that in God’s eyes we are all genderless, He sees us all as equals and all the same, hence not in our physical form but sees and communicates directly to our essence. Maybe this is why we miss so much of God’s communication because we are not choosing to live from our essence but a less form of who we are.

377. The consciousness that surrounds us feels very powerful when we are in it’s grip. I knew that my son was gay from when he was the age of three and yet I allowed society’s prejudice to affect my relationship with him, as I felt unable to hold my truth. Through the teachings of Universal Medicine and the integrity of Serge Benhayon I have felt truly supported to come back to and hold my truth in full.

378. “The Church dictating that it represented God’s views and had the right to pass judgement did not feel OK.” This is what I felt about the Church too. They considered themselves the only one who could reach God and would impose their beliefs onto us, many of which felt exclusive and nothing like what God would want. This is one of the reasons why I never went to Church, there was nothing they were saying that I felt was true or in anyway drawn to. To say it is wrong to love someone from the same sex just shows to me that the Church has no understanding or concept of what true love is and what it looks like in everyday life

379. The catholic church is just one of many that make being gay wrong, what a total red herring and waste of energy for one but the enormous harm it does is the far greater crime. Then to tie it up with God is utterly disgraceful. I wonder if The Way of The Livingness is the first religion that honours all expressions of love, and exposes the falsehoods of arrangements be that of any make up. Love is king and truth the queen an equal partnership in the eyes of God.

     1. Amazing point Vanessa, I know some religions pay lip service to gay relationships/even marriage and other people/relationships/religions/cultures deemed “inappropriate” but the level of acceptance does not appear full when observing the congregation interact.

380. Wouldn’t it be amazing if the world fostered that feeling of simply being content with who you are? The fact that major religion’s such as catholicism does not allow for this is for me a major warning signal, it makes you feel like there’s something wrong with you instead of letting you know you’re awesome, you’ve got this, everything is brilliant.

     1. I never heard anything like that coming from the pulpit! That would be a sermon of service.

381. Love is a way of being that is not bound by gender, race, color or religion. As Serge Benhayon has brought to us, Love is a beholding light that holds all equally. There is a greater purpose to relationships that can be seen once we break free of all the man made(-up) beliefs and boundaries.

     1. Everything that’s not true in religion is right here in this sentence “Love is a beholding light that holds all equally.”

        1. I agree Melinda, if we would truly study the roots of all religion you would find true love but the religion we have in the world today is bastardised to the extend that is is one of the largest contributors to inequality and division between God’s sons across the globe.

382. The greatest relationship we will ever be in is the one with our self. To find others that are the same allows amazing foundations to be built and fostered.

383. It feels so amazing when we start shedding the ideas and beliefs forced on us from day one and start returning to the all loving beings we were before that all happened.

384. I remember having a conversation with an older Catholic man and how through his total belief in all that the Catholic religion had taught him, he believed that anyone that was gay was somehow wrong, a sinner and it was evil. My response was if God made all of us then the Catholic church are saying that God is wrong and has made mistakes because did he not make gay people as well? God loves us all equally because we are all equal in the eyes of God.

     1. And what did he say to that? What kind of dad would God be if he were to shun one of his sons?

        1. He had no answer to that but his blind willingness and resolve to believe what the church had taught him and his unwillingness to question his belief over what feels true or makes at least some sort of sense was quite something.

        2. It’s interesting the way you express this. “..his belief over what feels true..” To me, this so perfectly illustrates the game that we play and how these beliefs literally cover “over” what we feel.

385. “There is a glorious freedom to be returning to a connection with myself and God” The love of God is universal and embraces us all.

386. When I read this blog it is so obvious that we allow ourselves from young to be manipulated and indoctrinated to let go of our inner knowing and instead to follow a rule or human made law, in order to fit in into the society we have created.

387. We know the absolute truth at a very young age but unfortunately we allow ourselves to lose it temporarily to the outside world, until a time when we feel the pull to reclaim it back into our lives and the beautiful thing is that it is never too late, no matter what our age is to do so.

     1. Love this timely reminder Caroline – it is never too late. There just needs to start!

     2. Very true Caroline, it’s never too late to reclaim the truth that we each know to our very core.

     3. Yes as young children we know, we may be misguided by the outside world but we know and it’s this knowingness that is always there patiently waiting to be trusted again.

388. Thank you Susan for this gorgeous blog. I absolutely agree with you,…’any relationship based on true love and connection can be celebrated’. Love does not have limitations, rules, judgement or control, and I feel God is all loving to everyone on earth regardless. Love is love, and it is definitely worth celebrating.

389. Thanks for sharing Susan, and what I love is that by honouring yourself as a women, and the way you feel to express your love with the same gender than that would improve your relationships with men, and see them in a true way.

     1. Great point Harry! Saying YES to oneself and opening up to surrender will change every relationship. In fact they become true, because not only a version – full of holding back, ideals, beliefs – of you is meeting them, but YOU. And I am pretty sure, also work and other areas in life will be lifted and more powerful.

390. It’s amazing to see how the images and or beliefs we hold can harm and shut us down from who we innately are and have felt from the day we were born. The beauty of life is that we always have the opportunity to feel the divine joy we felt as a child as we peel back the layers that were not ours in the beginning but a layer of protection to our reactions and or hurts from around us. Once we peel these layers back, we then reveal the bounty and glow of the pearl nestled within and that is what you have so beautifully shared here Susan thank you.

     1. Indeed Kelly, it is never too late to reveal that pearl within and start living it in full without any holding back and it will not only stop our own suffering but will be for others the inspiration to do the same and live that pearl we all equally hold within.

        1. Yes, the more and more we unravel and share, the more we offer that as a reflection for others. We are all role models.

391. It strikes me when I read this blog how universally relevant it is, irrespective of age, sex, sexual preferences or anything like that. We have all been diminished by the consciousness that we align to (that of the Catholic Church being one of the most oppressive), we have all clipped our wings in choosing to try to fit into certain boxes. The world is constantly demanding us to conform to common denominators or socially acceptable patterns; the huge irony being that in fact, yes, we are all equal – but only in our true expressions of ourselves.

     1. Even those of us who were not brought up in the church are still heavily affected by the ideals and beliefs from the churches. It’s as if a big blanket of consciousness has been covering our world but slowly slowly, people are uncovering themselves and seeing who they truly are and realising that they are not what has been imposed on them.

        1. You are right Rosie the weight of past ideals and beliefs is something that has covered us all in one-way or another. One only has to look at the history of religions and what they have done to those that would not bow down to its authority. The hand of man in the name of God has held a bloody sword for many years.

        2. And let us not be fooled – the person who calls himself an atheist is equally ruled by the consciousness of religion. Anything that takes us away from the truth that we are all one, all breathed forth by the one God, is bastardisation of the truth and a false consciousness that will, 24/7, nudge us off the path back to that one God.

        3. Totally true, I at times was the one thinking I was an atheist and in that, I was totally fooled and lost!

        4. Is it possible that the arrogance of the atheist moves them even further from the truth? The shut-down, know-it-all who is hiding his hurts behind his intellectual reasoning?

        5. Yes 100%
           We can hide so much with our intelligence and this really isn’t intelligent!

        6. It reminds me of the Shakespeare quote “the lady doth protest too much”. Lady or Man…the person who puts forth the most intelligence or protest or argument or intellectual rhetoric, is perhaps the one who is fighting hardest to not be seen.

        7. I had the very same thought myself Otto. The big protest of one putting forth the rejection and exclusion of others and arguing against a different sexual orientation, cannot but help alert one to observe why this howl is happening – there is a lot of fear there as well as the hurt around not being accepted . . . and much more.

        8. I didn’t know of that quote but I agree with it 100%

392. Under the light of God, every flower blossoms no matter how long it has been buried in the earth or the shadows, and as each one does so it inspires another to follow.

     1. Beautifully expressed Otto.

     2. Beautifully expressed Otto.

     3. Beautifully said Otto, nothing is lost, it is just a matter of time when we choose to see and feel the light again that has always been the nourishing warmth that lets us grow and bloom.

        1. OK, so check this out. Done a bit of research. The Himalayan Lily only flowers once ever seven years. The Talipot Palm blooms after eighty years. The Melocanna Baciffera (a bamboo) flowers every forty-four years. The Queen of the Andes can take one hundred and fifty years to bloom. And there is one “narrow leafed campion” that ‘apparently’ took 30,000 years to bloom. Now – don’t tell me that nature isn’t reflecting back to us that it is never too late for the soul to blossom!

        2. Very cool. This I call research with purpose!

     4. How beautiful Susan. It takes great courage and commitment and love for yourself to express ourselves, regardless of others, who might tell us we are unnatural for simply expressing what is naturally within.

     5. Such beautiful words Otto and written by a man that inspires many and has been inspired by many to live more of the love that we all are.

        1. A flower blossomed by the flowers around me. When we see something beautiful we have a choice – shrink away into the shadows and fester in comparison, doubt and jealousy….or see, hear, know and feel that the same beauty, of a different flavour, resides in us all. I have played both games and my petals have opened and closed a zillion times – irrespective of the seasons or time of day!! But, more and more, I am choosing the ‘petal-open’ path.

     6. Beautifully said Otto… in God’s eyes we are all equal in love.

     7. Your expression is godly, but of course it is, as we are all sons of god.

     8. Wow, your comment opens up a whole scenario in my imagination- It would be great to make an animated film with this…:-)

     9. Exquisite in truth and understanding Otto.

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