At 62 my life felt as though it was falling apart. This feeling of inadequacy and not knowing how to deal with life had been present throughout my entire life. As a child I felt unable to take care of myself and to feel what was truly OK for me: I could not understand why it was so difficult to love and be loved. I spent my entire life looking for love.
This pattern continued until I was forced to change at the age of 47. I began to see that I did have choices in the way I lived and experienced life and with this I began to change the way I felt about myself. I tried various self-help groups and therapies and they all appeared to work for a short time.
However, when my mother died I knew I had reached a breaking point. When I was younger, I had turned to drink as a way to ‘get me through life’ and later on I replaced the alcohol with numbing out on television and films. At this time, numbing no longer felt like an option. I needed some help and support and so I booked a session with an esoteric practitioner.
I was introduced to the ‘Gentle Breath Meditation’ and over a few weeks, as I began to open up, I knew that I needed to know more. It was suggested that I read The Way It Is by Serge Benhayon.
These two things – the meditation and reading this particular book – gave me little moments when my body calmed down from all the restless activity that continually went on in my head. This subtly but profoundly began to change my whole life. I felt more connected to myself and to the world. It felt as though I now had some command over how I was in the world – a way ‘to be’, without constantly losing who I was.
Within a year of my first session of Esoteric Healing – a gentle and non-imposing session that allows the client the space to connect to their body and let go of the busy-ness of the day – I attended Universal Medicine’s Heart Chakra 1 and 2 workshops at the Sound Foundation in Somerset. I found these workshops challenging and beautiful at the same time. I knew that what was presented by Serge Benhayon was undoubtedly ‘the truth’. I had wondered before about the meaning of life but not really looked in any depth as to whether or not I was living a life that was truth-full and true.
I was struck by the very ordinariness of Serge Benhayon. I am not sure what I expected, but probably someone who fitted into a certain stereotype. He was no superstar – he was just a normal guy but he had an extraordinary warmth and love that shone through, and a directness that was disarming. His manner was the same whomsoever he was talking with – a sense of equality that made you feel totally at ease. This man was without arrogance. He had a sense of humility and grace, and a love that was easily felt.
Through Serge’s example of family life and the way he lives his life, everything that he offered always felt possible. I could see that all we need to do is to keep life simple and to respect our truth.
Subsequently I attended Sacred Esoteric Healing (SEH) Level 1 and Level 2. During SEH Level 2 I was very aware of the profound and deep healing that was taking place. This course offered the opportunity to let go of childhood hurts and issues, and to release some of the pain held in my body. My body shape changed as my body had re-configured and the excess weight around my hips seemed to fall away.
I have been inspired to change my own life in a way that is truly amazing. I am now building different relationships with myself and with family and friends. My relationships now are based on honesty, where I lovingly reveal all those little things that I have held back on and kept hidden for so long. I was so ashamed of who I was deep down inside but now, as I open up, I realise that we are not so very different from one another – that no one is perfect and that it is OK to be me.
I have developed a new relationship with myself and have built self-respect and self-love into my life, which means I can also offer respect to others and allow them to find their own path. In this way I am able to understand and relate to everyone. It is wonderful to now experience real relationships where I do not need to be anything but myself.
Everything that I have heard Serge Benhayon say over the years has made sense.
I have an overwhelming feeling of coming home … back to the roots of where I came from in the first place. I am gradually building a foundation where love is the essence of my life and who I am.
by Susan Lee, Colchester, England
Further Reading:
Serge Benhayon – An Amazing Role Model
A True Love Letter for Serge Benhayon
My Life After Serge Benhayon’s Presentation Only Confirmed And Refined What I Had Connected To Before
The Truth about Universal Medicine 
When we express ‘from the quality of our essence and the wisdom of our inner knowing’ we bring truth to the whole world.
When something doesn’t last, it can be seen as a temporary fix. Temporary fixes do not work as we’re simply on a merry go round buying time, trying various and many temporary fixes. Universal Medicine is no temporary fix as it continuously supports me to be all that I am in the real sense of the word and so much more.
Yes, Caroline – it feels beautiful to reflect and consider all the many blessing that have flowed my way since I found Universal Medicine and the Ageless Wisdom. It has offered me a reality and a space that allows me to take my relationships deeper – there is nothing airy fairy as you can feel the changes and the impact on the body and how this supports me in my daily living. My whole life has changed not just a part.
Beautiful and it is incredibly inspiring when we do take responsibility and make those changes as they have an impact on everything and everyone around us and beyond no matter how small or big we may think those changes are.
Thank you Susan, it’s a joy to read of your return to the love you innately are, and your beautiful photo shares the truth of how life now is for you. This sums up so much about relationships and how our return to the essence of love within can transform how we are with people; “It is wonderful to now experience real relationships where I do not need to be anything but myself.”
As we return to our essence we begin to realise what has been missing in our lives is an honesty in the quality of love – we have settled for far less than what and who we truly are, when in truth we are born to be love and nothing less. Knowing I can be myself allows me to let go of any hindrances to living love.
” This man ( Serge Benhayon ) was without arrogance. He had a sense of humility and grace, and a love that was easily felt. ‘
This is so true Susan.
Thank you Susan, it may not be until we experience the Gentle Breath Meditation or a course with Serge and Universal Medicine that we realise what exactly is missing from life, because without that reconnection to self and our soul it can be undefinable. That reconnection is the foundation to reconnect in a true way to so many things, God and all other relationships, work and life in general.
I have felt uncomfortable and have felt completely raw and vulnerable in some Universal Medicine courses, which one may say no thank you… but I put both hands and feet up and say yes please!! Every time I feel uncomfortable or rocked I’m seeing parts that are not truly who I am and that is an awesome thing!
The glorious thing about everything that Serge presents is that it is forever unfolding and requiring us to take our understanding of life deeper, and surrender to all that God is. As we learn a greater sense of self acceptance and appreciation we begin to feel the possibility of being at one with God, forever confirming that we are equal with God in our essence.
So true Susan. The Way of The Livingness is constantly expanding along with everything else. Every moment is an opportunity to deepen and evolve.
The presentations and inspiration by Serge Benhayon is beautiful in the simplicity “a way ‘to be’”
Where there’s simplicity there’s a flow. I have held a belief that life couldn’t possibly be simple – where did that come from? The beliefs we can take on to get in the way of living a simple life can be very subtle yet very abusive to our wellbeing and the way we live.
Wow Susan, many I’m sure would want to know how to build a foundation where love is our essence. I captured a few how moments for me:
– the ‘Gentle Breath Meditation’
– read The Way It Is by Serge Benhayon.
– command over how I was in the world.
– session of Esoteric Healing.
– keep life simple and to respect our truth.
– relationships now are based on honesty.
– built self-respect and self-love into my life.
– I do not need to be anything but myself.
And my addition is accept that I am a Son of God.
Thank you Susan.
Beautiful sharing Susan, Thank you. It is truly amazing when we live life with a foundation of love and respect for ourselves as it from this place that we embrace the world around us offering a healing reflection to all.
‘I could see that all we need to do is to keep life simple and to respect our truth.’ That’s the Way of the Livingness.’ To connect to God and that will make our lives simple and with a knowing of what is of truth.
What a turnaround Susan, your story is a beautiful testimony to the power of love and how it can transform us in a number of ways no matter what age we are – very inspiring.
That’s pretty transformational Susan! Awesome that you haven’t thrown the towel in purely because you’re not what society would deem young. We need more role models like you that remind us that it’s worth dealing with our stuff as and when it comes up so that we can live a more enriching and purposeful life.
Why living without who we are does not make sense?
Well, because we will live with an enormous continuous unsettlement that will feel more and more uneasy as we reach further away from the truth. And so, it makes so much more sense to start living again from who we truly are.
It seems to be the case for most of us, that we spend our lives looking for love outside of ourselves, and in the search we forget that love is what we are seeking, settling for so much less instead. It is life changing when we discover, feel and realise that the love we seek resides within us already. And in developing a relationship with this inner-quality, our essence, we are able to live more and more in connection to this love, offering a refection for all to behold. The light of your inner-glow, as seen in your picture here Susan, speaks volumes of your connection to love.
‘These two things – the meditation and reading this particular book – gave me little moments when my body calmed down from all the restless activity that continually went on in my head.’
Halting the merry mind-dance that had been running the show has been pivotal for me as well, Susan. It’s amazing to consider that two simple things – connecting to our breath and the truth in a book – can have such a profound impact on our health and wellbeing. Perhaps something for the medical world to consider.
Changing my relationship with myself to a more loving one has had a profound affect on how I experience my life as well. This is a continuing process and the deeper I go, the more joy I discover.
Gorgeous photo of you Susan, radiating light, joy and love in your face, I had the same sense of coming home the first time I heard Serge talk, I felt my love within in my body of who I truly am and where I come from, with love and self care I came to an understanding that just being me was enough, that I was ok .
Its very beautiful that you have been brave enough to face your issues and that you now have shared your progress with us all, very touching. I was also shocked at how normal Serge appeared but he had a very warm presence that made me want to snuggle up and just cry. It truly is remarkable how many people have been blessed by a relationship with Serge, a relationship that offers a reflection that deepens the connection we have with ourselves.
We can spend a long time and much seeming effort looking for love outside of ourself – but Universal Medicine provides us with a foundation to re-connect with the love inside of us, and with that we can begin to truly shed needing love from another. It’s not that we then become aloof or don’t care about others but quite the opposite in fact! The more love we fill ourselves up with from inside the more we have to share with all others.
To build a life where love is the essence now that is a way to live and to be dedicated to that is very inspiring. Without this basis it’s very easy to bash ourselves in our constant need to better ourselves and find solutions, and that does not work, as you note here Susan and I’ve experienced myself we can give things up, certain foods, alcohol etc. but if we don’t address the underlying patterns there we find something to replace it with and that is what I learn hugely from my interactions with Universal Medicine, that we’re not broken, we’re just not living the natural love we are and it’s a discarding process of letting go ways of being that do not support us to be the love we are.
The simple but powerful support of Serge Benhayon has been a profound influence in my life, taking me from daily emotional distress, to daily care and self support. There aren’t words to adequately describe having someone walking by my side in life, reminding me of who I really am, but asking nothing of me.
Beautiful sharing- I love that it shows that we don’t need to give up or stay in patterns that have capped us for life but that we can open up to a new way of being at any age.
Building a relationship with ourselves, I believe should be something that is nurtured the moment we hit childcare. We are born with that relationship, but then we’re not supported to continue that relationship in a world that is all about being the best or getting skilled or just being something, anything other than just who we are.
I so appreciate what you say about having pockets of ourselves we are ashamed of. They are hidden away till we realize that they are actually eating away at us. What you share here is inspiring and shows the potential for change being within all our grasp.
“Everything that I have heard Serge Benhayon say over the years has made sense” I agree Susan, we cannot deny the love that is felt when Serge Benhayon shares everything that is already known within our hearts, it is just that we have chosen to forget it long ago.
What a beautiful inspiring story Susan. I loved the way you took responsibility for making choices to rebuild and reconnect to yourself. Thank you for sharing your experiences and your wisdom.
It is never too late and we are never too old to rebuild our relationship with ourselves, and the biggest blessing of doing this is that we also get the opportunity to re-establish, rebuild and even restore our relationships with others at the same time.
You are truly an inspiring woman at 62 Susan, which just shows no matter how far we have travelled away from ourselves, we can by choice return to who we truly are which does not happen overnight by any means, but takes dedication and consistency to build a loving foundation for ourselves. You rock Susan.
“I have developed a new relationship with myself and have built self-respect and self-love into my life, which means I can also offer respect to others and allow them to find their own path. ” This is beautiful Susan. When we heal ourselves we offer a reflection to others, so that they too know they can heal.
Brilliant Susan. We can live such a fast ride from childhood these days. It seems we experience life to be a certain way, and then go on believing it has to be that way, whereas it doesn’t have to be.
The more I open up and live a life not in hiding as I have done for most of my life the more I see and hear that I am not alone in feeling what life throws my way. This revelation has been incredibly supportive knowing that what is going on for me is certainly something that is going on for another and nothing to be ashamed of.
“I began to see that I did have choices in the way I lived and experienced life and with this I began to change the way I felt about myself.” Giving up my victim mentality once I had begun attending Universal Medicine presentations was life-changing for me. Learning that we do have choices – even if we feel that we don’t was a revelation. Listening to my body – that knows truth – and honouring those feelings – made a huge difference to my life.
Beautifully expressed Susan. I know several people that recognise that Serge Benhayon speaks, writes and lives absolute truth. These people do not attend Universal Medicine events and they may only have read one of Serge’s books or attended a single presentation but they know for sure that what is being communicated is true. Some of these people have openly expressed that they are not ready to face the truth yet but the fact they recognise this is awesome in itself. You show what is possible when we choose to live the truth.
‘…..all we need to do is to keep life simple and to respect our truth.’ What else do we want, living like this is letting out more and more the love that we innately are.
In reading this article today I am feeling the magic of what one choice can open us up to in our lives. It leaves me pondering on the importance of choice, and the power that is held in that only we can make them.
What a gorgeous photo of you Susan you are simply shinning…. I relate to much in this blog and also how Serge Benhayon and his family in the way the chose to live and relate to each other and to all others by just ‘being love’, was a powerful reflection and so very healing at the same time. I remember it gave me hope, that I too could live that way some day…..amazingly, this is what I am living several years on (through all the loving choices I made to self-care/self-love) – just being love without perfection, and now I too offer this reflection to all others…..
To me it’s really simple what Serge Benhayon is offering – to live the love that we are. Your life Susan is one of the many examples of how we as people blossom when we live making our choices from the love we are.
By sharing a way of living that allows him to be who he is, Serge Benhayon reflects a way of being for all of us. It is never about self but always about all, we are all on the same path of return learning from and with each other.
Thank you Alex, you have really described in your comment the foundation of humility we naturally live with as part of evolving in brotherhood. We all equally have so much to offer one another and there is no special “One”.
That is so true and what inspires me most. This is not about him and is how we should be. Living with truth, honesty, love and joy.
And it’s never too late. That’s the beauty of free will and choice. Whenever anyone is ready to say Yes to being more of themselves, everything starts to open up no matter what age.
It is what I have become aware of too that none of us is perfect and will never be. This has been such a revelation to me as I tried so hard to live a perfect life fitting in and ‘keeping the peace’ before I came across Universal Medicine which always felt that I was never good enough as I placed ever increasing pressure on myself to get things right. The more I open up and allow myself to be transparent the more I see that I am not alone in what presents itself before me and the easier it becomes to accept when I do slip up and see my imperfections in the way I choose to be with myself and others.
This is a beautiful sharing Susan! I can agree that I felt the feeling of “coming home” when I connected with the presentations of Serge Benhayon and the Ageless Wisdom and the love that is shared with all in Brotherhood.
Your story is very inspiring and shows that it is firstly never too late to make profound changes and secondly, that we all have an inner knowing that there is a truth to be lived that we can connect to from within; a truth that has always been there, just buried under the debris of our accumulated flotsam and jetsam, i.e. the hurts and disappointments, ideals and beliefs, etc.
There is so much magic in the everyday ordinary stuff – not because of what we do but how we are and what we are connected to when we do it. The ordinary can be extra-ordinary.
Thank you Susan, it was a joy to read of your experiences. I also found the Universal Medicine course Sacred Esoteric Healing (SEH) Level 2 quite an amazing and life changing experience. I knew I had many things from childhood that needed to be healed but after trying various things from counselling and hypnotherapy, various complementary health modalities, spiritual healing and new age and self help books and courses I was still utterly miserable and unable to create any true or long term healing or changes. I remember my first experiences of SEH courses and realising that the energy of my traumas were actually clearing – I could feel it all happening during the healing sessions practising what we learnt. I have now experienced many sessions of SEH as well as other Universal Medicine modalities like Chakra-Puncture and Esoteric Connective Tissue Therapy and I can say that at long last I have found something that actually works, and I feel this is because it’s based on the true science of energy. After many years of feeling utterly burdened by my past and nearly given up because I had tried everything to no avail, I am now living free of so much of what was troubling me. I never thought this would be possible. Universal Medicine is a true blessing.
There have been so many accounts by so many people of how their lives have dramatically changed as a result of meeting Serge Benhayon and coming across Universal Medicine. I count myself very joyfully as one of them and the many many photos as well as people in real life I have met that beam the same radiance and joy that you do Susan, is incredible. There is so much love and joy within every human being. There is something stupendous within each of us. And through the alchemy brought about by the quality of his lived way, so many people as a result of Serge Benhayon, are reconnecting to the endless beauty they have within.
Thank you Susan, indeed there is nothing grander than coming home, where we know God is within us and working through us to offer a reflection of love to the world around us.
These two things was how it all started for me as well, “I was introduced to the ‘Gentle Breath Meditation’ and over a few weeks, as I began to open up, I knew that I needed to know more. It was suggested that I read The Way It Is by Serge Benhayon.” I was at a point in my life where the questions were stacking up and there was no answers forthcoming. I felt like I had looked everywhere and tried everything and always been left back in the same spot. These two things or points we are guide to start walking me out of the maize I had created so I could see what was there again. All the questions were more then questions that were a reflection for me that I was looking at things upside down. Universal Medicine supported me to turn the world around and be able to read again what is truly going on.
What a beautiful testimony to how Serge Benhayon has inspired you to change your life, I feel privileged to witness your transformation over the last few years and am inspired by your willingness to keep opening up thus proving that it is never too late to make different choices and reflect those out to others.
‘I have an overwhelming feeling of coming home … back to the roots of where I came from in the first place.’ It is interesting how we can spend so many years living the opposite of who we truly are. With the support of Universal Medicine thousands of people worldwide have re-connected back to their true selves and to feel the power of love when we begin to make choices that truly support and nurture us.
It is awesome just how ordinary Serge Benhayon is. Truth is, I wouldn’t be all that interested in what he had to say if presented as someone not quite from this planet. I love how sensible and practical and just plain normal he is….it’s so refreshing.
“I knew that what was presented by Serge Benhayon was undoubtedly ‘the truth’. I had wondered before about the meaning of life but not really looked in any depth as to whether or not I was living a life that was truth-full and true.” Beautiful to re-read your blog Susan. My whole life also changed as a result of hearing Serge Benhayon present – because I made new choices for myself with regard to food, sleeping, relationships and how I generally conduct myself in life – finding new purpose in living.
Such a beautiful sharing Susan, coming home to your true and loving self, understanding that you are enough, The joy of you, being you, is beautifully reflected in your photo, thank you.
Beautiful Susan to feel how you have changed your life by the choices you’ve made from checking out to connecting with yourself, accepting and appreciating yourself for who you are, never for what you do.
Susan, this is such a gorgeous sharing and what a blessing to read this about you: “I have an overwhelming feeling of coming home … back to the roots of where I came from in the first place. I am gradually building a foundation where love is the essence of my life and who I am.”…Serge Benhayon does remind us and reflect to us our true home, but it is for us to open the door and re-enter where we left eons ago and re-embrace it again.
Very beautiful Susan. There really is much to appreciate. Your face says it all really.
Universal Medicine is for all ages, all kind of people and it brings sense to every time in life.
When I read one of Serge Benhayon’s books I always feel more connected with myself and the world too and my body feels more settled and harmonious as well. They are such gold, I’ve never read any other book that supports me in the way that they do.
A very beautiful testimony Susan of the way you have returned to being and living in connection to you through all your relationships. I love what you say here of Serge Benhayon as it is so true – ‘everything that he offered always felt possible.’ As all that he offers and presents comes from a knowing and in honor of who we all are in essence, and why it make sense and feels possible is that it reflects the truth of us all.
“I had wondered before about the meaning of life but not really looked in any depth as to whether or not I was living a life that was truth-full and true.” This resonated very clearly with me and attending presentations and workshops with Universal Medicine, I too now appreciate it is more than OK to be me – it is wonderful.
What you share Susan of sensing there was more to life and searching for it through various self help courses and books was also my experience. What I find very interesting is not one of these books asked me to consider ‘being gentle’ in how I live, yet it is this simple choice that brings me deeply into my body and fully with my life. How is it that there is so much literature out there that misses delivering the vital component that brings us to the thing we have been searching for, our selves?
Also, I love the fact that we have the freedom to make changes no matter what age we are, whether that be in our teens or in our 80’s. It is simply never too late to realise that we are worth being here and all have something to offer.
Lately I seem to be coming across many stories about people making different choices to turn their lives around from misery to joyful. It’s pretty outstanding what one man can inspire others to do, simply and ONLY through making the same choices for himself. Serge Benhayon actually practices all that he presents every single day and the only reason he is able to present is because of the choices he’s made for himself in the first place, and not the other way around.
I too had not come across a man or woman before I met Serge Benhayon who spoke the absolute truth and that what was being said made so much sense. It is no surprise to me that so many lives (including my own) are changing through meeting Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine.
It is amazing to read what a journey you took and what is possible to let go of, when we truly make the choice and make a new imprint on how we go through life.
“Through Serge’s example of family life and the way he lives his life, everything that he offered always felt possible.” This line resonated with me. I’ve never felt like the way that Serge Benhayon lives is unachievable; challenging to my current choices and lifestyle, perhaps, but certainly not something I couldn’t do myself. And at this juncture you can either say ‘whatever’ and walk away, become jealous based on the choices he’s making…or you can be inspired. Which is what it’s really all about.
Love the photo of you Susan, you are just shinning and so gorgeous and is evidence of you making love your foundation and all you have shared here. It was delightful to read.
The Gentle Breath Meditation has an uncanny ability to allow every-one to reconnect to who they are, and from there anything is possible, regardless of age.
Susan, what you have shared is that it is never to late to change or turn our lives around. It all comes down to a choice and then a commitment to continue to make loving choices that not only benefit ourselves, but more importantly everybody else around us. After all we are here to reflect the love we are all from.
Yes James thank you for the reminder in that our ultimate purpose is to serve humanity.
This is so powerful Susan – something the world deserves to hear… “It felt as though I now had some command over how I was in the world – a way ‘to be’, without constantly losing who I was.”
To actually ‘step back’ into living, from and with our bodies – rather than driven by nervous energy and our heads (excessive mental energy) – well that is the most empowering thing I have ever come across in my entire life. And it has changed my life markedly also – continually offering more understanding, awareness, and a deepening connection to all that I am, and to everyone around me – a solidity of connection where I am no longer so ‘swayed’ by the goings on around me and many things that may occur in a single day…
Susan, from your sharing here, it seems that you have always been a person with a great deal of love – and with that love, comes a great deal of sensitivity…
Without a solid foundation in our lives, this sensitivity isn’t always easy – we can find it hard to navigate life and the challenges it can readily present to us.
How truly beautiful and powerful that you have found such inner transformation through the support and work of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine – that your foundation within you and knowing who you are, may be steady now. A blessing to all who come within your sphere.
A story of true transformation. Beautifully shared Susan.
“I could see that all we need to do is to keep life simple and to respect our truth.” This to me is now understood as being true to me too. In the past I was living in complications that made me feel alive but in truth only exhausted me and was disrespectful to the essence that lives in me and where I originate from. This essence is connected to a grander whole we are all part of and when I allow myself to live this essence in full then complications are not needed anymore, and even are impossible. Through this way of life, in connection with my essence, simplicity of life can be enjoyed again.
Susan, it is inspiring to have elder role models like yourself. Knowing that is is never too late, or we are never too old to live a live of love.
I think that this is the perfect example of how it is never too late. I really enjoyed hearing your story, I have my own, different to yours but each persons transformation I read about has a unique spark and quality that is very touching.
Although that is a very common way of thinking that at a certain age it is too late to change anything in life. In truth it is never to late to return to Soul and start living the grandness that we are.
It’s amazing how this is very much an ongoing experience and the more we let go the more expansive we become. I am realising that this is the case even when self-doubt creeps back in and I feel I am going backwards. which is just a trick of the spirit to undermine our evolution.
Yes, Mary I can feel the truth of what you say – we do purposely hide our light from the world and hold back on from expressing our truth – and it not only hurts us but humanity. As you say we can feel it’s ‘SO worth sharing’ because when we do we can feel the difference in our body and how that impacts on others.
“I felt more connected to myself and to the world. It felt as though I now had some command over how I was in the world – a way ‘to be’, without constantly losing who I was.” She was lost but now she is found!
Very inspiring to read your story Susan. You are a living breathing example that it is never too late to discover the truth – that the love we are all seeking is not out there somewhere but sitting deep inside us patiently waiting for us to simply make the connection.
Absolutely, Tamara. It’s never too late to choose truth and self-love. And what an amazing choice it proves to be.
Very inspirational Susan, with you clearly showing that it is never too late to make a change in the way we are living, and that bringing simplicity into life is one way to lovingly support this change. When we choose simplicity life has a gentle and easy flow to it, whereas in stark contrast, when we create complication we slowly begin to bury the truth, and life without truth is always a struggle.
It is lovely to feel that it is ok to be ourselves, without trying, without pretending, without fear. To be able to stand confidently as you, without the need of protection and knowing love is true grace.
The feeling of coming home is such a beautiful thing. We are so lost without it, forever searching. It is not a destination but a connection. Thank you for your inspirational story about your journey, Susan.
Thank you Susan for showing us all that it is never too late to change our lives. It is inspiring seeing elder people like you fully committed to life and wanting to be here, actually enjoying life. It makes a big change to what I usually see in my day to day life where a lot of elder people are not really enjoying life and are gradually withdrawing from society.
This is a great point Susan ‘Through Serge’s example of family life and the way he lives his life, everything that he offered always felt possible. I could see that all we need to do is to keep life simple and to respect our truth.’ When we live from honesty and truth, life becomes simple, because we are no longer living an expectation.
A beautiful and inspirational story to come back to Susan, thank you. What you have written about Serge Benhayon is so divinely expressed and true. Like you I can really relate to that feeling of “coming home”.
How beautiful Fumiyo to read your words of love and appreciation. Serge Benhayon is one awesome man and it is no small wonder that he inspires so much love – I feel he is extraordinary in his absolute ordinary-ness. I have always valued this about him as so often we see power in a way that comes loaded and is imposing – as you say ‘there’s so much, yet he is our absolute equal’.
Given-up-ness feels like a disease that has over taken the world – we have come so far from realising that life is eternal and that there is no end point and that we are forever evolving. If we give up we will just enter a new cycle next time around until we realise the true way to live life to the full, in a way where we listen to our body and allow that to inform us of how to live in a way that is complete and absolute.
And what is so wonderful Sally is that by you becoming inspired you too are inspiring others with your joy, which is so infectious and expansive.
It’s truly amazing how we struggle with simplicity – especially when as you say ‘life starts to blossom’ when we let go of complication. It is so beautiful that when we are honest about where we are at that in itself is choosing simplicity and the more we practice this in our life the more life flows and evolves.
Oh, yes Brendan – when you say ‘running away’ that was precisely how I lived life. I would weedle my way out of a situation in the hopes that it would go away and then slowly I began to realise that this was no way as I was merely existing – in constant fear and apprehension of being found out. As I become more honest with myself I can feel how much more present I can be when I am not constantly looking over my shoulder and I can then begin to trust myself, life and others.
Life makes so much more sense as I have gradually opened up to feeling my body – a process that began with Esoteric Yoga. As you say Linda we begin to ‘let go of what is not true and build a quality of presence in everything we do’ and in doing this we allow ourselves to explore a more intimate and loving relationship with ourselves.
I can feel what you mean Raegan – I too at times feel that the changes I have made have been profound and yet the words to express and how to articulate how I feel are so much greater and grander – one day I feel I will allow myself to expand even further and let go some more then the words to express will be there within.
Beautiful to read Susan, where love is the essence of your life and who you truly are. I too felt I had come home from the very first talk of Serge’s I went to. We are so blessed to have heaven’s reflection among us.”This man was without arrogance. He had a sense of humility and grace, and a love that was easily felt.”
You’re absolute living proof Susan that we’re never too old to change and that change can be effective whenever we so choose.
“It is wonderful to now experience real relationships where I do not need to be anything but myself.” I understand that you mean about this Susan – it’s unnerving to be constantly trying to be what we think everyone wants us to be at the expense of ourselves and ending up not knowing who we truly are. We’re very fortunate to have someone such as Serge Benhayon and now many others inspiring so many to make that reconnection to themselves.
I agree Alexander, after spending many years creating complications in my life I can now say choosing simplicity in my life has been an absolute game changer for me and has deepened the quality of my life in all areas.
“I have been inspired to change my own life in a way that is truly amazing” Mmmm yes Susan that feeling of ‘coming home’. Thank you for this lovely sharing – I can feel that warm glow inside.
‘I have developed a new relationship with myself and have built self-respect and self-love into my life’, beautifully said Susan, and how lovely that you were open to true healing and can now support others in their journey.
The levels of love and understanding that Serge Benhayon lives and shares is indeed life changing and yet it feels so natural and so common sense, making that over the years I’ve discovered just how unnatural the world and my life is and has been. But in this understanding I have learnt that the unnatural is just that – not natural and thus introduced. In a world that has identified with, and claims that current human life is normal and acceptable, to know that whatever does not feel right in my body is not natural, is super empowering and a great lesson (if not many) in detaching from that which is not who we truly are.
A great point Leigh – the lives that the majority of humanity are living are not natural – so why do we think it so simply because everyone’s choosing to live in such a disconnected way. Fortunately Serge Benhayon has seen past the illusion of the world and the way it currently is and broken away from the pack and is leading the way in how to live a life of love, joy and responsibility.
Absolutely, Leigh. We have a choice not to be cattle, trotting along nose to tail and following the leader. It’s empowering to make decisions based on how and what we feel.
It’s inspiring how one man is able to hold so many people with his ordinary love! He does this with consistency and as I observe Serge Benhayon has this first in his care for himself.
Thank you for sharing and yes Serge Benhayon:…”An extraordinary warmth… love, directness that was disarming… sense of equality… you fee totally at ease… a man without arrogance…. a man with a sense of humility and grace and a love that was easily felt…” He is one man that leaves only an imprint of true love behind, this imprint we recognise as being that love too.
And we recognise this love because we know it deep within.
It is never too late to come to the truth and to make amazing, beautiful changes to your life. Your life is such a testament to how things can change very quickly Susan. It is very encouraging to know this and to feel it.
Beautiful to read of your transformation back to yourself Susan, it can be quite a shock as to how lost we become and how simple the tools to reconnect us actually are – your smiling face shows the joyful love you hold, thank you.
Letting go of childhood hurts and issues is key to being able to change those of our values, attitudes and beliefs that have the effect of tying us in our own knots. It’s like escaping from your own self-made prison and you just begin to notice you don’t do the stuff-you-used-to-do-that-you-wish-you-didn’t anymore. It’s a great recipe for a healthier , more harmonious life.
It’s interesting your reference to a self-made prison Cathy for that’s exactly what it is – we have placed ourselves there through our own choices and Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine are providing us with the key.
“I could see that all we need to do is to keep life simple and to respect our truth.” thank you Susan, great reminder of the simplicity and beauty of developing a true relationship with self.
I love reading your story Susan, truly inspiring and this sentence says it all: “I have developed a new relationship with myself and have built self-respect and self-love into my life”.
Yes, sandrahenden, once we stop judging ourselves we allow ourselves space to allow and accept what we are in our essence – true beauty that unfolds as we begin an experience that unfolds as we let go of all we are not. When we accept that we are all equal Sons of God our hearts expand and allow our love to be a two way flow.
I love how you have been inspired to build a new self-loving relationship with yourself. Serge Benhayon definitely shows us that there is another way to live life.
Yes Sally – I had felt throughout my life that there was another way but until I read the ‘Way It Is’ I felt very much on my own with this idea and to read Serge’s words enabled me to see that I was no longer alone – that there were other people who also felt a connection that was intangible and nevertheless very real and expansive.
“I could see that all we need to do is to keep life simple and to respect our truth.” You’ve nailed the roadmap for life with this sentence Susan. With this as our foundation, living our truth becomes a natural by-product.
“It is wonderful to now experience real relationships where I do not need to be anything but myself.” – This is gold Susan. The foundation of self-acceptance and love that Serge Benhayon has inspired me to build in my life has made a huge difference to how I relate with others as well.
Yes, Mary – we can’t really lose when we go back to the basics – that we can all feel within. Maybe in the past we have over ridden moments when we knew deep down that there was another way but the rest of the world was reflecting back to us that it was normal to not be true to ourselves. Once we have experienced the joy and love that comes with being honest and truth-full we begin to unfold back to where we know we belong in brotherhood.
Susan, I feel such a feeling of coming home reading your blog, of your journey coming home to you as you unfolded and accepted you as who you are. And I’m appreciating my own journey as I too an on my way home, and each step is another one to allowing more of me to be out there, seen in all it’s love and glory.
Having just re read this the passage – ‘he was just a normal guy but he had an extraordinary warmth and love that shone through, and a directness that was disarming. His manner was the same whomsoever he was talking with – a sense of equality that made you feel totally at ease. This man was without arrogance. He had a sense of humility and grace, and a love that was easily felt.’ stood out. Having met Serge Benhayon and felt this for myself I can say that this feeling does not go away – it becomes the foundation of every future meeting, a beautiful loving consistency.
‘I have an overwhelming feeling of coming home … back to the roots of where I came from in the first place. I am gradually building a foundation where love is the essence of my life and who I am.’ – Beautifully said Susan, your blog is a reminder of how amazing life can be when we build a foundation of love that is true. No matter what age we are we can heal and change our lives as you have shown Susan with the support and love offered by Universal Medicine – very inspiring.
I absolutely love hearing of stories from our elders as often this can be a time when people can be cemented in their ways so, it’s beautiful to hear when people are still open to learning, evolving and change.
Your photo speaks volumes, Susan, in connection with your sharing. Your lines: “I was so ashamed of who I was deep down inside but now, as I open up, I realise that we are not so very different from one another – that no one is perfect and that it is OK to be me.” This is so warm-hearted, inspiring coming from a woman in her 60’s. And as your turning point has been at the same age, I am in now, it is a personal inspiration to me. Both, your sharing and your photo are very beautiful, thank you.
‘These two things – the meditation and reading this particular book – gave me little moments when my body calmed down from all the restless activity that continually went on in my head. This subtly but profoundly began to change my whole life. I felt more connected to myself and to the world. It felt as though I now had some command over how I was in the world – a way ‘to be’, without constantly losing who I was.’ What I find still amazing, that although I did a lot of meditations they never taught me that you cannot stop your thoughts, but you can be the one that decides what you think and whether you support yourself to align to truth or undermine yourself by aligning to what not belongs to truth. And this made and makes perfect sense and supports me to come back to me and my truth with a simple choice, a choice I have in each moment.
I agree Lucinda – the soundness is felt in everything and you know it is for real.. And from having that experience with Serge, from this you can feel the potential that all have to bring that same soundness as they begin to live more truly who they are.
One thing that struck me as so evident and obvious when I first heard Universal Medicine presentations, but which I had blindingly disregarded for years, was that we may have put absolutely zero effort into truly caring for and supporting ourselves and then wonder why things get shaky sometimes and why we can’t cope with life. There is such a deep level of sabotage going on, and sometimes I feel it is because then in that state of ill-health we do not have to face the bigger responsibilities that are awaiting us.
I agree Meg, and until I met Serge Benhayon, responsibility seemed more to do with being boring, shut down, burdened and stuck in a rut, but through Serge Benhayon I have come to understand the joy and expansion that only grows and deepens once we begin to learn true responsibility and understand that life is about service to all.
Absolutely! I used to thing irresponsibility was for boring people too! Thank God for Serge Benhayon showing me the true beauty and joy and growth that comes from truly taking responsibility for myself and the way I live my life and how that impacts upon others.
There is a soundness in Serge Benhayon that is felt through his voice, eyes, movements, a truly sound presence that I have never experienced so clearly in one human being.
From a foundation of Love – anything is possible… so true and when you look at what Serge Benhayon and the Benhayon family manage to do in there life it is incredible. I would never thought it to be possible but each lived moment from the glory of who we are clearly create space and with true purpose much is possible. Thanks to Serge leading the way I can see it as a possibility for me also. Connect to who we are and go for it, don’t hold back.
Susan your words ‘I felt more connected to myself and to the world. It felt as though I now had some command over how I was in the world – a way ‘to be’, without constantly losing who I was.’ describes my experience too.
I love reading about all the amazing changes and miracles in people’s lives inspired by Serge Benhayon. There have been many in mine including the fact that I used to be filled with guilt and anxiety about everything, going over everything constantly in my mind and reexamining what had happened. This is gone, I have absolutely none of it and that is amazing.
Beautiful Susan, what I feel from your blog is that you have been deeply touched by the work that Serge Benhayon has brought through and how this connection to you is now present in your body. I mean that is fantastic news! Even if we learn to connect to ourselves in every moment of our day – without perfection as you had wisely said.
I can relate to living life not being able to feel what was truly ok for me. I feel I was constantly holding back from committing to life for fear of getting it wrong, not being perfect or outstanding (as was the norm in my family) and finding ways to protect myself from feeling that I was denying my essence and choosing less than I truly am. Feeling and seeing all of this and living in a way that confirms who I really am, I feel a steady joy emerging that I have not felt since I was very young. I have a very deep appreciation for the liberation I am experiencing being a student of Serge Benhayon.
A life based on self love and self care is the relationship that is missing for many people. This relationship has been forgotten almost all together to a point where it is non-existent and everything is about a relationship that is outside of ourselves. It can be a relationship with your car, a book, clothes, exercise or food and we move between these things to not feel who we are. The inspiration from Serge Benhayon has been has been instrumental in rekindling this relationship and developing a love affair with me.
Thank you deborahmckay, that is exactly what I needed to hear – these patterns of behaviour are deeply entrenched within and I have just caught myself closing myself off from an amazing opportunity and opting for comfort rather than be open about how I was feeling. It feels as though there are many layers to our shame and slowly and beautifully we allow them to no longer rule our lives but to be free and joyful.
It is amazing when we stop and consider and appreciate how something as simple as a warm and loving reflection can turn our life around. The older I grow the simpler my life becomes as I gradually let go of the complications of the past.
I agree Jonathan, I may not have liked what I was hearing at times, because of the level of responsibility that I was being asked to take for my life, but it definitely made sense. It is hard to describe the feeling of being presented some of the most confronting truths about my life but having these delivered in a way that was so totally supportive and inspiring… Serge Benhayon is an inspiration for how communication and evolution could be.
Yes Joel L, there are many times I have been challenged by the presentations I have attended by Serge Benhayon! Without fail, these presentations have reflected to me the level of responsibility and commitment that was missing in my own life. Yet, my body knew the truth was being conveyed and it all made sense.
“It is hard to describe the feeling of being presented some of the most confronting truths about my life but having these delivered in a way that was so totally supportive and inspiring… Serge Benhayon is an inspiration for how communication and evolution could be”.
“I have developed a new relationship with myself and have built self-respect and self-love into my life.” I have done this too Susan and the change in my life is remarkable when I look back over the last 12 year. Removing all the barriers that I put in the way to defend and protect my life are gradually falling away allowing my life to be more open loving and caring.
“I was so ashamed of who I was deep down inside but now, as I open up, I realise that we are not so very different from one another – that no one is perfect and that it is OK to be me.” This point is so true – we are not so very different from each other, yet we can feel that we are until we open up with each other and share deeply. I agree with you too that everything that Serge Benhayon has presented over the years makes complete sense to me too. Seeing your transformation over the years I have known you is so beautiful. Your grace and beauty shine out.
Oh and the joy in your smile says it all
Susan, one of the things that I find so inspiring is learning that we can always make new and loving choices in our life and this is not dependant on our age. Seeing elders in the community, such as yourself, living you in full, shines a light on how we can enter our elder years with grace, dignity and a full commitment to life.
Susan than you for sharing the story of your transformation. Serge Behayons wisdom and love for himself and humanity has inspired many people to make positive changes in their lives. He is a humble man of integrity and tremendous warmth. He is never imposing offering simple lifestyle changes from his lived experience.
What you are expressing Alexandre is very common amongst the students including myself. I was pondering on this yesterday just how many miracles that have occurred for myself in this lifetime thanks to Serge Benhayon and how I need to deeply appreciate myself and the support I have been given. To not give back to humanity when so much support has been given is criminal. To name a few: I have given up drugs and alcohol, I am not a recovering addict like most, it has no pull for me what so ever. I have healed from bulimia and anorexia I have owned and felt the huge mistakes I made while parenting, let them go and changed what I could with my daughters in their later life which has resulted in loving relationships with both of them, which were once totally estranged. As well I have let go of the shame around my abusive parenting. What I have listed above is extraordinary and this is only three of the changes in my life that have occurred and I am only one person, multiply this by thousands who have also experienced changes in their lives and we have miracles aglore.
Alexandre and marylouisemyers what you are both sharing is extraordinary as is Susan’s story and as you say there are thousands of stories that reflect the ongoing and everyday miracles that have occurred because of not only what Serge Benhayon presents, but everything about the way he lives and shares this so readily.
There are so many miracles that are occurring from the spin off effect within the student body. Take one example of a student whose father had given up on life, was living in squalor and was heeding down the path of dementia. He does not directly do the Universal Medicine work but because of the love and support this young woman has given him, he turned his life around at the age of 65, he is now working which he had not done in years, living in a nice apartment and no longer has dementia.
Thank you for sharing this Marylouisemyers. You are absolutely a living testament to the power of coming back to the truth of who you really are, having been so deeply inspired by Serge Benhayon to begin to make such huge changes in your life. I am constantly inspired by Serge Benhayon and all the students of the Way of The Livingness who reflect deep and true change in their own lives.
The simpler life is, the less distractions we are caught up in, the more space we have to connect with ourselves, the people we love and do things that we love doing that matter to us. What more could we ask for in life?….Baked Broccoli!!!
I so agree with you deborahmckay, secrecy is the partner to shame. I know many people including myself that have kept something about ourselves hidden for years, crippling us all the while. When it is brought out into the open we wonder why we had not spoken about it sooner. Why? Because often we are engulfed in shame- a very indulgent energy that’s sole purpose is to stop us from evolving.
Knowing that it is ok to be me is profound. When I truly feel what this means I can feel myself coming up with all the reasons this may not be so, but it is true and it is also true that we are not that different to each other. Thank you Susan for this lovely blog.
Further to my previous comment if we accept that we are Divine at Essence, then it follows that if we reject ourselves we are rejecting God.
It is beautiful to read Susan how you have healed hurts and have come to a beautiful place where it simply is ok to be me, coming home to who we are and sharing that with others is amazing.
This is a beautiful sharing Susan, thank you.
Serge Benhayon shares, through Universal Medicine services the ability to completely accept the gloriousness of who we are, and shine this out in full with out an ounce of holding back.
Nico and Danielle, this is such true service based on love and has inspired so many people to see that this is who we are.
To become fully honest with ourselves is such a major and simple step at the same time. It is but a choice, a choice to lovingly care for ourselves and by that widen our horizon to more than an egotistic view for ourselves and our comfort.
We are all ok actually and life has set us up to think we are not ok, so we go about living from that belief. It holds us back and stops the joy we could be living with all. The simple things are often the most grand in life and bring the greatest joy to us.
‘we are all ok’. Simple, a reason for us all to celebrate joyfully. Thank you Gail
Agreed Gail, the more we choose to be present with our bodies the more we realise that everything in life has just been there waiting for us in all its fullness and there is nothing for us to do but just claim ourselves for the love that we are.
“I found these workshops challenging and beautiful at the same time”. That is my experience too Susan, and with every workshop or session. i have come to realise that through the challenge we are given the choice to deepen the growth of ourselves to live truly who we are, and be ourselves, and that is the beauty, and brings much joy in living our daily lives.
I agree Katinka, working hard is becoming part of this as well, but actually, it does not feel like ‘hard’ work, it just feels this is what I do and has become normal that my day starts between 3 or 4 am in the wee early hours.
I so agree Jacqmcfadden04, ‘working hard’ is an expression that makes us believe that working many hours is a punishment. The opposite is true, if of course we do it with love, clarity and with a true purpose to benefit all.
When you love what you do and it has a purpose, there is no such thing as ‘work’. The other day whilst at work, I overheard 2 people talking with one asking the other if they were working today – the answer was a jovial ‘I never work!’ (this is someone who I know works around the clock, and the other knew this too). And so it made me ponder on how much importance we give this word – from saying to our kids ‘not now, I’m working’ to telling others how much work we have on (implying how busy we are and how this business is justified) etc. So we can work hard and it certainly does make us feel good, but only when the working hard is not really working at all as it is a part of what we do and there is joy in doing what we do whilst still always allowing space for everyone else and a connection in this. Horah to not working at all, whilst working hard!
This one man has inspired myself as well as many others to change thier life. Was super to read your account Susan and you are just shinning in that gorgeous photo of You.
Yes Meg, Serge Benhayon is a true inspiration through his living way of the way life can be.
He certainly is. It’s incredible how one man can inspire so many people, yet completely understanding if you meet him or talk with him.
I agree Naren, when I talk to people, their weight and money come up, but not nearly as often as how tired they are, how they do like there job, that they have augments with their partners. These things won’t go away if they have a make over and lose several stone, so perhaps there more than the way we look effects how we feel, perhaps like you say, it is far more about they way we live and having the ability to stand steady throughout life.
Perfectly said Liane, I have also found how through searching for something we already have that it causes such a desperation and I can also see how every time I don’t live or appreciate the love that I am then there are openings for an issue to be created that actually need not be there if I just loved myself in the first place
I love this analogy too Jaime. And I love that Serge Benhayon reminded me where my keys were (all along), and not only that, has inspired me to hold them so dearly that I know I will never ever lose them again.
From the shy wallflower who played the victim to feel small, to a powerful and deeply caring man who is not afraid of anything anymore and aware of everything.
Thank you Serge for inspiring me to rediscover who I truly am.
“gave me little moments when my body calmed down from all the restless activity that continually went on in my head. This subtly but profoundly began to change my whole life.” This statement really stood out to me Susan, as this has definitely been my experience of observations, that it is those small little changes and simple choices that can bring about a revolutionary change
Thank you Elaine for your warm and beautiful comment – it has been an amazing and beautiful process to share my unfolding with you, and the many students that I have met during this period of my life, and this has supported me to embrace the joy of living life more fully. In coming together we have the amazing capacity to inspire one another and the whole process becomes ever expanding and evolving. I feel very humble when I appreciate how far I have come.
Lovely to connect with you Alexander – and yes the process of change and making different choices is an ever expanding and deepening process that allows us to fully embrace the grandness that we truly are and as you say ‘live the love we are’.