I Found Observing My Body is a Great Support

by Rosanna Bianchini, Gloucestershire, UK 

A few years ago my body was much harder and more rigid than it is today. I had tightness in the muscles in my neck, shoulders and chest, which was causing both aches and a stiffness of movement in my upper body. My body felt hard and unyielding. As a result I could say that any movement took more effort than would naturally be needed, and the demands on my muscles and my energy were therefore greater.

I had begun to understand that if my body was as tight and as toughened as it was, how could I possibly feel or know what felt right for it and what did not? – just like calloused, leathery hands with their thickened skin cannot allow full sensitivity to feel what is there to be felt. I also noticed that with this hardened and stiffer state the sensitivity and movement-flow through the muscles was being affected, and it was more difficult to be gentle just doing simple everyday things because of this.

For many years I had also a feeling, somewhere inside, that something was very wrong on a deeply fundamental level – from a place more profound than the consistent aches and pains, and deeper than the history of past depression and illness. In very quiet moments, when I was doing yoga and focussed on the deliberate and slow movements in my body, I connected to a place where I could feel there had to be more, another way to live, that did not result in feeling as I did. In that connection lay both the inspiration and the answer, which I was to later discover.

However, the question remained; why had my body ended up in such a way? I wanted to find out what was really going on: what had I been doing for my body to be showing me now, so loudly and clearly, that it was not OK?

But where to start? It was becoming clear, simply through a process of elimination, that any lifestyle choices I was making during the day, like what to eat, when to sleep, how to exercise (or not), must be having a consequence that showed up sooner or later in the body… so how could I become more aware of this? And how could I begin to feel what was really going on in a body that had become stiff and hardened?

I began by paying attention to myself to learn what was happening – but I had to discover a way back to having a body that could feel, and so initially I took my clues from observing Serge Benhayon and others who I could clearly see were making responsible and loving choices for themselves. And it was from their consistent reflection of love, which came through in the way they lived their everyday lives, that the ‘more’ – which I had, deep inside, known there to be – was confirmed. It was confirmed as being love… and with this confirmation my trust in that loving way was re-kindled.

Just as a child would learn – I observed, I listened, I noticed and then I experimented for myself.

I put a focus into bringing a deliberate gentleness to the body and making choices that I had observed were more loving and nurturing, choices that would support my body rather than choices that ignored the physical consequences of them. To build this discovery of what was more self-loving, I took feedback from the body itself. For example, I would experiment with food to feel how what I ate affected my physical state or the way I felt emotionally, I would take notice of all the signs my body could give me, like how ‘bunged up’ did my nose feel on waking? How stiff were my muscles? How runny did my eyes feel? What were my periods like? How creaky were my joints? Did I feel bloated in any way? What did my skin look like? How dry was my hair? How regularly was I going to the loo? Every part of me, both inside and out, had a story to tell. I listened and experimented consistently, checking back for what may have caused the change (good or bad), and adjusting accordingly what I ate, how I worked and how I interacted with people, based on what my body was feeding back to me.

Over this initial year or so, because I had been willing to give myself the time to listen to myself and my body, and in response make choices that were more loving, harmonious and supportive for me, I started to feel more harmony and balance within myself; my hardness and tightness eased and my body became softer and easier. Physically I began to feel more open across my chest and less restricted in my back and shoulders. I also noticed in my relationship with others, feeling less guarded and protective.

I can honestly say that feeling what my body has to say and bringing in more loving choices to live in a more loving way, has brought a profound, positive effect to the way I feel – in all senses of the word. With the self-proven understanding that every choice has its effect, it has been very lovely to explore the benefits and support we can bring to ourselves in such a simple way… I can also say that I am still enjoying this connection and a deepening of that honourable relationship with myself.

204 thoughts on “I Found Observing My Body is a Great Support

  1. Just as a child would learn – I observed, I listened, I noticed and then I experimented for myself. This feels so empowering, but so much can be felt when we start to listen to our bodies from which we can make different lifestyle choices that truly support us to grow and evolve.

  2. “With the self-proven understanding that every choice has its effect, it has been very lovely to explore the benefits and support we can bring to ourselves in such a simple way…” I love that Rosanna as to self-prove something with the body is so much joy-fuller than only imitating and thinking it – for me, it is lived and so it can not be challenged anymore.

  3. I love your expression of the “honorable relationship” with you self. The experience you share is very similar to mine and I have discovered the two most essential qualities to support any choice is ‘observing – lovingly’. Without these I can turn it into should’s and should not’s which doesn’t truly clear the attraction to eat or do things that don’t sit well in my body.

  4. It’s a great question Rosanna about the body when it’s been stuck in a momentum – “so how could I become more aware of this?” It is a constant choice; and only when you are willing do you become aware of it is a moment to moment choice to forge together a new momentum and body. Both bodies (self-neglect or love) are a choice that is saying yes to either. The trickery here is if your not saying yes to love your saying yes to indulgence or contraction. That’s the point – you are always making a choice.

  5. Esoteric yoga is such a great way of connecting to the body and allowing all that is there to come up and learn to let go and surrender so that the body is in a state where it can look at and process what is going on.

  6. “Just as a child would learn – I observed, I listened, I noticed and then I experimented for myself.” A great reminder of our natural childlike curiosity and exploring our old habits and or behaviours and returning to the gentle, joyful way of living in connection to our bodies and the true love and support needed to live a vitally rich life.

  7. Sometimes I feel I am too quick in wanting to get things right. When we allow space for whatever there is to be acknowledged and felt, there’s so much to be learnt. Allowing of that space is already a loving choice that we can give to ourselves. It is very inspiring and beautiful to read how your relationship with yourself has been deepening.

  8. Looking around at our world as it is today, many live with the tension, tightness and hardness in the body, with no connection to it being there because of how we live. To make the changes from the awareness as shared here requires first a dedication to ones body, and a humble attitude that allows one to accept what is felt and adjust ones life accordingly. Rosanna’s experiences are there for any who are willing to be inspired by.

  9. A great reminder Rosanna, that when we connect with our body and deepen our relationship with ourselves, we are able to honestly look at our lifestyle choices and feel the impact they are having on us and that our body is far more tender and delicate than we realise.

  10. This blog has blown me away, it honestly is something I will go back to read again and again. I have been having a hard time lately, feeling like I just can’t get a clear feeling on things, what you describe and the way you observe your body and experiment with it is beyond inspiring and completely simple. This is the stuff we should be teaching our kids.

  11. I loved what you have shared Rosanna about your commitment to observing your body and what it is feeling then making self loving choices accordingly. Thank you for the inspiration to look deeper.

  12. I love the dedication that you brought to yourself through simply observing absolutely everything about your body and listening to what it is telling you. This is how we learn: with no judgments and expectations, and no need to get it right, just an absolute holding of ourselves and a trust that where we are right now is where we need to be – and appreciating all the learning we are getting.

  13. “Just as a child would learn – I observed, I listened, I noticed and then I experimented for myself.” Our own body is a true scientific laboratory for life where we can observe the cause and effect of all we do.

  14. We are very clever. We manage to shape and create a body that supports us moving in a way that guarantees not feeling it, hence not being discerning about life. So, everything is fine, while in truth it isn’t.

  15. A honourable relationship with yourself is so key, so needed, as we are so precious, so it is time to realize it again – claim that fact, and walk our life in a way that honours every cell of our being – without perfection, but true commitment.

  16. “Just as a child would learn – I observed, I listened, I noticed and then I experimented for myself” . . . this is a beautiful way to learn as we then become our very own scientific experiment and our learning gets registered in our body so it is not just knowledge from the head.

  17. A beautiful reminder Rosanna of how life changes when we live in connection with our body and listen to the wisdom we are constant receiving.

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