486 thoughts on “Tricked and Trapped in the ‘Spiritual New Age’… Freed by The Way of the Livingness”

1. Brilliant – this part about having an arrogance of feeling superior because of being a part of the Spiritual New Age. I know this arrogance very well, and it is amazing how insidious it can be, with the potential for limiting personal relationships and one’s access to orthodox healthcare.

2. I dabbled with the new age and didn’t find any deepth or real interest, I like yourself found a lot of support in the gentle breath meditation it has been the bridge to feeling real ease in my body.

3. Responsibility is a big one Beverley, and it needs us to be completely honest with ourselves by stopping and observing to understand and become aware of what is happening around us with people who say one thing but do another. That can be the way of the world but it is our responsibility to ourselves to feel the truth.

4. When the answers to our dilemmas comes from the same dimension that ‘help’ us creating them in the first place, it is not accidental that we do not go too far. The Spiritual New Age can never be the answer.

5. The way of the Livingness is to take responsibility in life and thus empower ourselves. We choose and create all our reality.

6. Yes it is interesting how the complementary health field talks a lot about energy, but does not focus on the quality of energy that the practitioner chooses to live with and how responsible they are with their body, their vessel for the delivery of that energy.

   1. The fact of the two energies is a wake up call to what we see every where and often comment on innour every day language ‘what’s got into you’ etc we know the quality of love and we know what is not of that quality. Yet we choose to live ignorant to the energy we choose to live.

      1. Great point, yes in every day life, this conversation could be happening and I am sure if it was, the complementary health field would be reflecting this in the way that many of its practitioners choose to live and so the energy that is chosen. The channelling of energy without discerning where it comes from can be very damaging for both practitioner and client.

7. It is so easy to get caught in the “spiritual new age” based on the very fact that when we know something like the institutional religions are not the whole truth then we look for something else, I know I got tainted by the spiritual new age and even though it felt very untrue it still seemed better. Amazing to have the way of the livingness to help free me and inspire me to reconnect to the truth.

8. After trying virtually dozens and dozens of different meditation techniques, most of which were complicated, I distinctly remember feeling that “this just can’t be it, it’s just too complex”, and everything else that ended up being the Truth in my life was much more simple and direct. When I learned the Gentle Breath Meditation, it was like a breath of fresh air (pun intended)! No bells and whistles, no external gadgets (like crystals) or sequence to memorise, just following my breath in and out of my nose as gently as possible, but with profound effects after only a few minutes, and to this day it never lets me down.

   1. The key is choosing to breath gently that is the missing piece other meditations focus on the breath also and body awareness but none ask you to reconnect to the quality of your gentle and stillness of breathing that we all had as infants.

9. I have once thought that spirituality was the answer too but the poignant truth was never for one moment did I feel totally safe with it, there was so much tension from feeling it is not the full truth but I gave my power to it, wanting it to be true.

10. After more than a decade of diving into the spiritual new age I was worse off than before, deep in drama and emotional distress. Enter Universal Medicine and here I am 15 years later, not a skerrick of the drama I used to think I was in sight.

11. The search for me ended two years prior to attending a Serge Benhayon workshop. Before those two years, I was heavily involved with the Christian Spiritual church, Reiki, Chrystal healing, Vortex healing and so much more. One day it was as if I just woke up and could see the lovelessness of it all, and absolutely knew there was more to life than what my experience was at that time – so I just decided to quit everything and wait. Then when I came across Serge Benhayon I knew that I had to meet this guy I had heard about, but in the back of my mind was the fact that I did not want another fake healer. My fears were unfounded because Serge Benhayon is a 100% the real deal and I have never turned back or looked at another modality since that day.

12. Hi Beverley, like you I tried all sorts of different therapies, even training as a ‘Spiritual healer’ and attended exhibitions where we were told we had to wear white underwear – I never found out why – and we’d offer ‘healing’ to the general public. Looking back it never felt quite right, there was a kind of arrogant ‘I can fix you’ approach within myself that I am sure was causing more harm than good. Fortunately like you, I met Chris James and he introduced me to Serge Benhayon and my life changed for the better year by year as I attended Universal Medicine healing courses and presentations that inspired me to make more healthy lifestyle choices.

    1. We heal ourselves no one can do it for us.

13. When you talk about medicine and that you chose “to work alongside it whilst taking the personal responsibility to look more deeply into the root cause of any disturbance that may arise.” I was struck by the pure gold and pure wisdom of this line. This is what will save our heaving medical system, people seeking medical support along side taking responsibility and exploring the energetic root cause of the disturbance.

    I had day surgery last year for the first time and I sought medical assistance and followed doctors orders, but I also looked at why else that occurred, and I got great insights into how I was being with my body. This supported me in the hospital and with my healing.

14. I’ve never met anyone who presents with the clarity and true simplicity that Serge Benhayon offers, detailing the difference between spirit and soul, and the real meaning of healing on an energetic level.

15. “I chose to be oblivious of the fact that the ‘Reiki Master’ I trained with had a drinking problem”. When we want something badly enough or believe it is our ‘road to salvation’ we become incredibly blind to what is glaringly obvious. There is also a suitable belief that what we do in our spare time does not affect the quality of what we do, or that it affects anyone else. This is far from the truth as energy does not start and stop or have any boundaries.

16. For me too, Beverly, the search is over. After the first Universal Medicine workshop I attended, I was almost too afraid to hope/pray that in Serge Benhayon I had found what I had literally searched the world over for. It took a couple of years for the hoping and praying to turn in to self-care and choosing to take responsibility and I have never looked back. My search is over. This IS it.

17. It is indeed possible to be freed from the complications of the theory of how we should live a spiritual life by focusing on living connected to our bodies and listening to the wisdom of the inner-heart.

18. It is interesting how the spiritual new age makes it look like you need to do all these things to connect to your soul but that connecting to your soul is anything but that and it hides that it actually is very simple to do through the connection with our body and life.

19. As someone who headed down the spiritual new age path for some time, I can attest to how damaging and dangerous this path is. Relinquish your commitment, responsibility, withdraw from life and live in complete disregard of your body (and all other bodies) while you arrogantly assume you are reaching a more enlightened state and healing old wounds.
    All along those wounds are being further cemented into a body that is being numbed to the bone, while the being itself is being slowly eaten away by an energy that thrives off the illusion the spiritual new age is steeped in.

20. Thank you Beverley, it’s a story I’m sure many can relate to about the spiritual New Age, that despite all the promises and practices life’s issues do not go away, nor the emptiness or feeling that truth has not been found. This is a very powerful line “I stopped being a victim of my own choices and began to make choices that supported me and my well-being.” That line could relate to every human being and has the potential to bring much understanding and change.

21. I too was taken in by the Spiritual New Age after having given up on the Religion of my family. When we are searching for the connection back to who we truly are we often get pulled off track . I consider myself truly blessed that I was introduced to Universal Medicine and its founder Serge Benhayon.

22. The really weird thing with me and the Spiritual new Age is that all along I knew that it was shonky! But I fell for one of them which had the appearance of being ‘pure’ and real. Oh how mistaken I was in this – I allowed myself to be totally hoodwinked by the illusion of the ‘goodness’ of this group, which was, in the end, taken over by a massive force which I finally saw through . . . but not before some damage to myself because of lack of discernment.

23. I did a lot of searching too – through positive thinking, popular psychology, philosophy, religion, reiki etc etc…but when I reconnected to my inner heart, through the gentle breath meditation and the support of Universal Medicine, I stopped seeking because a level of settlement came to me that I had not experienced before – the settlement that is my true inner being. Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine are the real deal – no doubt.

24. “I knew there had to be another way.” The Way of The Livingness as presented by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine offers a true way to find our way back to who we truly are.

25. I ventured into the New Age many years after leaving religion, still searching for “it.” After a few years of trying different spiritual healings, I was in a New Age book shop one day and as I picked up a book I suddenly felt very ill in my stomach, I dropped the book and never read another one again. This left me in the desert or wilderness for a few years until Serge came along into my life and showed me that the truth I had been searching for was within me all the time and not anywher out there.

    1. Thank you Jill for sharing your comment. I remember buying two books from a New Age author that were very popular, when they arrived by post and I held the package, they felt so negative I threw them both in the bin. I didn’t bother reading them because I felt their energy said it all.

26. The search is over Beverley. The discovery or new-found awareness is now defining what is the true me and my feelings to my inner-knowing and, what is not me and the false pretences of the spirit wanting to be the more dominant so called light.
    “None of the ‘New Age’ study had offered this most fundamental of facts, but instead had wrapped Spirit and Soul into the same package as if to hide the fact of their difference.”

27. I also was embroiled in the spiritual new age practices and renounced everything that I had invested ten years of my life taking part in – two years before I found Universal Medicine something happened to me where suddenly all the things I was involved in were being shown to me as not being love and of no truth. I hadn’t worried about things being of truth or love before and then suddenly it was as if my eyes were being opened and I felt very strongly to disassociate myself from these practices.

28. I spent a couple of years of my life lost in the search of spirituality, there was absolutely nothing that felt true and most people that I met were just immersed and identified with the glamour and illusion of knowing how to work with energy, but no one ever considered what source of energy they were aligning to and never question whether that might be the reason why they were still living in with a victim mentality blaming others and feeling sorry for themselves, in poverty, poor health and emotional wellbeing. The spiritual new age is a trick that keeps people stuck in their own pits and the arrogance that they are doing great when in fact they are soooo far from their truth within.

    1. There can definitely be an arrogance about sensing and working with energy as a kind of truth that’s been uncovered in a world that sees only physical from as real. The foolishness of such arrogance is exactly as you say, that despite feeling energy we are still lost if we can’t discern the source and quality of energy we are working with.

29. The title of this blog says it all “Tricked and Trapped in the ‘Spiritual New Age” recently I attend a mind body fair where there was all sorts of tarot card readings, palm readings etc going on, I was actually surprised that people could actually get away with offering in public these sorts of services as it was so very obviously praying on those vulnerable and looking for help. The unfortunate thing is all this kind of looking into the future is compounds their pain and leads people more astray.

30. We can be so easily fooled by energy if we do not know the difference between soul and spirit and this simple truth applies to all areas of our lives. There are many that have claimed to have seen Jesus but was it Jesus or another entity mimicking Jesus. The astral plane is very clever and indeed we can be tricked into thinking what we see and sometimes feel is the truth when it is far from it.

31. “I stopped being a victim of my own choices and began to make choices that supported me and my well-being.” It is truly ironic that our way of life is the result of our choices yet we blame others, bad luck or God for our life and feel a victim to fortune. The Way of The Livingness frees one from this trap.

    1. New Age Therapies could be seen as bandaids because until one begins to make loving choices and aligns to the soul anything else is really a relief. It may be that therapies like reiki or kinesiology are seen as helpful, and I myself have tried them both but in my experience there is nothing as powerful as a simple loving choice that honours the body. I can also see now that none of the New Age therapies I tried actually were from soul, which is why they just gave me a temporary relief, nothing truly changed as my way of life stayed the same and the quality of energy behind the therapies could not reconnect me to soul as they are sourced from the spiritual plane.

32. ” Looking for answers” a challenging place to be , as the world will give us answers as you have found out. But the answers are make up of bits of truth but not the full truth ,as in not the full story. This is why people of spirit always feel lost and are always searching. The spirit is but an aspect of us that is lost without the Soul this is where ” The way of The Livingness ” comes in and brings about the aligning of the spirit with Soul and so the search is over.

33. Serge Benhayon has inspired many people to look deeper and consequently past the trappings of the so-called New Age which promised much but delivered little.And the health statistics worldwide are but one sign of it.

    1. What’s interesting about the New Age is there are so many different versions of “the answer” in terms of presentations, modalities, workshops, and products. We could say they are different and diverse flavours of the same thing which is the energy of the spiritual plane. Serge Benhayon’s work and The Way of the Livingness has a one unifying truth, and this unity is something definitely missing in the differing flavours and factions of the spiritual New Age.

34. Words are words and anyone can say anything. It is what comes with words and what energy they carry and are spoken in that matters. The spiritual new age may speak of many things that are true – such as energy, but there is a big part missing. For me that is where I got tricked and trapped – it all sounded good but I was not discerning whether it felt true.

35. My spiritual new age trappings looked different but I was on the same path relentless and desperately searching for it. The Way of The Livingness has brought me back to me and that is IT.

36. The spiritual new age is a trap as it keeps you hooked and searching for more and taking you further and further away from your Soul. The Way of The Livingness is completely different as it reminds you of the truth and wisdom that resides within and reconnects you back to your Soul.

37. The title sums up your article perfectly. I would understand if some people reacted to what they were to read here, simply because all those other modalities are so heavily hooking and feed you with enough insecurity to have you rely on them, hence the need for everything to be outside of you when doing any ‘readings’ if you like, ie: the crystals and the pendulum etc. It feels all too easy if we just relied on our inner knowing…(says the voice in our head), so out there we search….far far away from where it all truly is.

38. There were many times in my life, as I was lurching from one drama to another, that I knew that it was “Time for change! I knew there had to be another way” but except for a momentary respite from one new age modality or another, life remained as challenging as it always had done. But the moment I sat down in my first ever Universal Medicine workshop presented by Serge Benhayon I knew that my searching was finally over for I knew without a doubt that I had come home to what I had been searching for, for what seemed like forever, and that was home to me.

39. If the spiritual new age is the answer, we would not need to be going back for more and more, like a hole that can never be filled. Eventually having a band-aid is never enough, it is very exhausting and the arrogance that has accompanied would prevent us to see this honestly, so eventually either our bodies have to warn us extremely or we would have to discard it to clear the dishonesty, lies and pride we have so unnaturally lived with.

40. The Spiritual New Age pathway is one where people jump into with the hope having a life that they can say it is complete. Yet, those that venture there have already a pattern of movement that they want to be confirmed and changed at the same time so they can feel complete. How far in denial of what their body tells them they are willing to be makes the whole difference in the world for each person who enjoin that path. What is truly confirmed is a question that is really worth pondering on.

41. I can relate to what you’ve shared Beverley with regards the Reiki and dowsing. I too dabbled very briefly with this, finding more comfort in the dowsing aspect because it seemed to take any ‘guesswork’ out of it. But I still didn’t feel comfortable with these modalities as there seemed no substance to them, no tangible lasting change. When I came across Serge Benhayon and experienced my first Sacred Esoteric Healing I was absolutely blown away… nothing could have been more tangible in terms of what I could feel changing in my body as he worked, and the result was nothing short of miraculous at the time. I never looked sideways at another of the spiritual new age modalities again, they couldn’t touch the power and truth of what I had felt that day.

42. When I connected to Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon it opened me up to so many changes in my life and the truth of The Way of The Livingness. This then showed me also how shallow The New Age was.

43. It is through living the principles of the Ancient Wisdom Teachings as presented by Universal Medicine that I have been able to free myself from the traps of the spiritual new age, absolutely no growth or development in it only the indulgence of that which keeps you identified with what makes us live so much less than who we truly are.

44. Tricked and trapped – that is exactly the way with spirituality – an illusory comfort that we are made to think is better than yet so feeble beneath its might of arrogance once exposed by the true light.

45. There is absolutely nothing new or advancing in the spiritual new age, from my life experience it hooks you into believing you are getting somewhere but in fact is the opposite as it buries everything to a later time where you have to deal with a greater level of intensity, in my opinion it should be called the spiritual retarding age.

46. I was “Trapped in the Spiritual New Age” as well as Guru’s for many years until I met Serge Benhayon, he was the personal over the years I was search for truth, that I knew when he spoke they where truth there was no seconding guess, questioning there was a solid knowing. Where as others and Guru’s I questioned, what was being presented or said was true or not.

47. The spiritual new age offers just enough segments of the truth that it’s easy to think that it is the truth. But that is only if we are listening to the words spoken and not the movements of those speaking the words. I know I have been sent way off track by being attracted to what is being said, rather than feeling if the presenter was walking their talk and living everything that is being shared.

48. I had some similar experiences when I dabbled in the spiritual new age… lured into the promise that it provided the answers, but at the same time seeing and feeling things that were incongruent to what I knew something of truth to be. The most harming part was the constant turning back on myself with self-condemnation when something didn’t work for me… I must be the problem, and hence my ‘issues’ were increasingly cemented, along with my declining health. All so obvious now in retrospect, and all so easily turned around and truly healed through Universal Medicine.

    1. I also experienced that self condemnation when New Age Therapies did not work for me. There is a bit of an arrogance around the therapies and books, etc, as they are written and presented with such an absoluteness that they are “it”. Looking back I don’t recall any humility at all in the various modalities I tried or studied, so I can see now why many would feel that they are the problem, not the therapy or book.

49. The so-called Spiritual New Age is not usually taken for what it is; a deeply harming set of beliefs and practices that play with energy without saying so and that create footprints in the body that in truth do not help a person to evolve and expand in the divinity we are all and belong to.

50. The truth about sprit and Soul as presented by Serge Benhayon and the Ageless Wisdom has to be the most important and liberating teaching there is. Understanding and experiencing this has transformed my life in the most wonderful way and brought me great wisdom and understanding about life, myself and others.

51. The Spiritual New Age has trapped many a ‘genuine’ seeker of truth. This is partly because these are people who know that there is more to life than just the physical. They have felt things, seen things, and know that there is divinity. Along comes a slightly re-interpreted form of divinity and they (we!) are gone hook-line-and-sinker. Thank heavens for Serge Benhayon who has taught and is teaching all to learn to discern, first by clairsentience and then by true Intuition. It is then easy to feel that there is no Livingness in the Spiritual New Age – it is actually a very sneaky cul-de-sac.

52. There is so much I could relate to here, the arrogance of believing you are better than others who are not as ‘spiritually’ enlightened is a big one. Yet in all the New Age pursuits I tried there was no livingness that ever made me feel complete or inspire to live. There was no commitment to life, as you just asked the universe to do it for you… I never did get that. Universal Medicine supported me to get real, be real and commit to life, self and people.

53. I love it when people talk and walk ‘self-responsibility’ like this, it’s great to see. We run around into all manner of things in the hope of feeling better. I remember a brief run at Reiki and those style of ‘healing’ courses and what I remember clearly above all is the fact of having no control or no idea what I was really doing. It was a fly by the seat of your pants style of thing that as long as it was working who really cared. These things were ok until there was a challenge and you realised after all you had done nothing had changed. Universal Medicine brings that change by changing or supporting us to truly see our view. It’s only through standing on your own two feet and walking that things become clear.

54. There is nothing encompassing of our true nature in the spiritual new age, it is all an illusion we buy into in desperation of missing ourselves, it is only through our connection to our inner heart that we know we are all equal sons of God and have the capability and free will to claim that any moment of our life.

55. Accepting that our soul and spirit are indeed separate is vital to our understanding of human life and how this duality plays out within ourselves and in the world around us.

56. Yes, I agree the search is over because we are already everything we have been looking for and much, much more than we can even fathom!

57. I love your experimental approach to life, and how these experiments with food and lifestyle begun with questioning what life is really about. I get the sense that the ability to question and experiment in life is an essential part of learning what’s possible and what we’re inherently capable of.

58. It’s a bit of a trap the spiritual new age, if for no other reason than it enables you to connect to the world of energy, which is quite enamouring at first – you get a sense of the world beyond the limits of physicality. Of course, the question that is not asked enough in those circles though, is, who is this spirit who says that they are my guide. What is it exactly I am working with here. And if we do not seek to ask even these most basic questions, then we are easily lead astray and caught in the illusion that what we have connected to is “it”, when the truth is it is far from it.

59. There’s such a big difference in looking for someone to answer and fix all our health and well-being problems and in taking responsibility for our own well-being. Ultimately no book, no guru, no teacher can tell us what is right for our bodies – it’s something we need to take total responsibility for.

60. “Well if I was really connected to my Soul, why would I need an outside indicator?” When one realises this it is as obvious as, ‘not being able to see one’s own nose’?

61. It is interesting to see how we know what is true the instant we see it, while we are willing to choose everything that is not true to save us from the endless unease in our bodies.

62. The things we do to supposedly find ourselves when all we have to do is look inside ourselves.

63. Constantly seeking an answer from the outside drains your body in the most profound way. For me, it has felt like being a contestant on a treasure hunt show on TV that never ends. It doesn’t matter if it’s new age modalities, sport or work, this game where you pursue ‘a holy grail’ is the same in the end. Nothing can replace building Love and understanding in your own body every day. What a relief it is to let go of the games – thank you Beverley for this reminder.

64. This sure is it – no more looking or searching. I too dabbled in the spiritual new age – albeit it quite quickly as nothing seemed to have all the answers – sure they played with energy something I loved but it was not relateable to everyday life and this is something Universal Medicine has brought to the fore – everything now makes sense. Especially the more I choose to understand life and see what is going on and the way I am. There are no more random occurrences which cannot be explained rather everything happens for a reason and I can choose to be aware and thus responsible for this or not – either way it is happening none the less!

65. So often we ignore what is right in front of us, because we have an outcome/picture already planned in our head, when we choose to come from energy first, what we feel, these pictures melt away. When it comes to healing and choosing a practitioner, it can only make sense to choose someone who comes from a lived quality, of walking their talk…we need to honour what we feel.

66. ‘Spiritual New age’ entices many people who are looking for what is missing from their lives, yet it takes them further away from finding the answer, through The Way of The Livingness I have found my own answers and that true love is very different from the love I was brought up to believe was love.

    1. We are all desperate for love and the ‘Spiritual New Age’ appears to satisfy this craving. Hence it is so enticing and in doing so it is actually evil, leading one away from Truth.

67. When people search for answers not all paths lead (yet) to Rome (Universal Medicine), but over time they will.

    1. I do agree but for me the question is how long do I want to delay my return back to Soul, symbolised by Universal Medicine? I know that nothing I learnt on my spiritual foray benefited me in any way, in fact it puts doubts into me when I came across Universal Medicine that it was the real thing and so had an element of wanting to test it, so it had to prove to me it was the truth even though every bone and cell in my body was saying yes this is it – it is everything you have known but never been confirmed with before now.

68. “Trapped in the Spiritual New Age” – that was me. I know what the clutches of the New Age can feel like and it can be quite hard coming out of that illusion.

    1. The most harmful and seductive Spiritual New Age teachings I’ve found to be are those that mimic the true teachings of the heart most closely. When I came to Universal Medicine I was full of ideas that I already know everything because I recognised what I was hearing or reading. But slowly I started to realise that what I thought I knew was very different because just like a phone number or an email address where even one digit wrong makes it completely useless, a teaching also needs to be considered in its totality including the energy and the intent behind it and if the person teaching it is actually living it consistently. It can be hard coming out of the illusion, but so worth it.

69. Thank you Beverley, this is a great sharing highlighting the importance to discern energy what is of truth and healing and what is not from truth and therefore harming. Thanks to Universal Medicine I was able to free myself from the entrapment of the illusion that is offered by the “spiritual new age” and now know in my body when I move aligned to love.

70. One thing I have learnt is – just because it seems beyond explanation in the natural world, eg sessions at John of God for instance, which defy current medical and scientific explanation – doesn’t mean that true healing is taking place, and in witnessing these demonstrations, albeit impressive, had left a deep sense of unease and that there was something missing in the whole puzzle. Through the presentations by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine I can now clearly see and understand the difference and why it is so – and this understanding of healing feels true to my very core.

71. I like the point that you mentioned about your Reiki teacher who drank alcohol which did not feel right but that because of our need to have found ‘it’, the way out of our tensions, is bigger to be fulfilled than to trusting our own feelings. Whilst as you shared listening to our true feelings will lead us out of the ongoing search!

72. It was not so much that I felt trapped, but that I was just lost and when I looked in the obvious places for sign posts, they always led me down dead ends and strange little diversions. The Way of The Livingness has been a game changer because it is so practical, it’s a living way (and not written millennia ago) and when I get lost it’s there with clear directions on the way back to myself and to God.

73. With Serge Benhayon we get answers even to questions we have never been able to put together. With Serge Benhayon we learn how it feels when the body nods entirely to truth.

74. Why is the spiritual new age entrapping? Because in the first instance it points to a truth of sorts in that we are not just physical, that there is a multi-dimensionality to our existence. That part is true. The problem is that we are not equipped to discern what it is that we are connecting to with these spiritual experiences. Is there only one side to the coin? Who are these so called guardian angels that connect with us, or speak to us through a medium, who seemingly are able to predict our future, or read things about us that they should have no right to know? What is that place we escape to in meditation that feels so blissful? What are those images I saw? What are my dreams really about? And so the list of experiences goes on and on.

    Energetic discernment is what is required to be developed for the student developing their awareness of such things, but that is not easy in a world that does not teach such things. And so for many of us, we are ill-prepared when such awareness is bestowed upon us. It is for this reason that historically, those that have arisen to realise the truth of their divine origins, or to put it another way, have re-connected with the fact of their Soul, as opposed to their spirit, have only done so with the support and leadership of one who has already walked the path before them.

75. I spent many years immersed in the Spiritual New Age movement always searching for truth, what kept me going was the occasional truth or a new teacher that inspired me – but eventually I would see through it all and knew this wasn’t the real deal. Meeting Serge Benhayon was a life changing moment as it was clear this man not only walked his talk but he was the real deal – and every cell in my body felt the truth and wisdom this man brings.

76. Your story is my story Beverly, right down to meeting Serge Benhayon through Chris James. The first time Chris mentioned Serge’s name I knew that I was about to meet him; the impulse could not be ignored. Little did I know though that I was about to be presented with the answers to the many questions about life that I had been asking forever, questions that the ‘New Age’ definitely not have the answers for.

77. A wise friend once asked me, “how does sitting on a mat crossed legged with your eyes closed for hours on end truly help humanity”?

    1. That was one very wise friend Victoria. All I got from sitting cross legged was very painful joints, so much so that walking afterwards was not the easiest. How can that be healing? And as for spending hours doing this – getting up and going out into the world to be with humanity would in my book be the way to bring the help and healing that is needed.

78. There is a similar thread that runs through most of our experiences and dabblings with the spiritual new age – we all had that deep inner knowing that this wasn’t IT and there was much more to discover.

79. I can relate to the arrogance as a Reiki master as I too thought I knew a lot about energy because I had read many books and attended many courses on the spiritual ‘new age’ but it was all about knowledge and no livingness. The glamour had to go together with the self identification of being a ‘new age’ healer.

80. So many who are very aware that there are more dimensions to life than meets the eye and senses fall for the trap set that presents a version of multidimensionality that sounds right, looks right, has some familiar features, but is in fact a dead-end as it misses out the one crucial thing, and that is that true multi-dimensionality requires that one lives not for individuality but for the ALL.

    1. So true Lyndy, there is no ‘escaping’ the fact that we are part of the ALL. Some of the spiritual practices I experienced were encouraging transcending this plane of life, which was in hindsight a rather selfish endeavour. The soulful way encompasses all of us.

81. Thank you Beverly for sharing your experience through the Spiritual New Age to finally arriving at the truth of Universal Medicine, I delved into the ‘New Age’ for a few years later on in my life, but never feeling it was quite it, it never satisfied the longing in my heart. When I attended a talk one evening by Serge Benhayon I instantly knew that I had come home, it was interesting that a part of me knew I had come home and a part of me just wanted to get the heck out of there. Some time later I would come to know about the two energies that can run our bodies.

82. I love the authority that this blog is written in. Claiming our truth is very powerful and very healing for others.

83. Everyone thinks that Universal Medicine is another spiritual pursuit but at the moment it stands alone in its field, it stands alone in this way for it calls out the spiritual game whilst honouring the depth of energy that is forever present in this multidimensional world. It does all of this whilst 100 percent supporting conventional western Medicine. It encourages its students to study energy, study life, study at University, to embrace big business, small business, community, true charity; it encourages the student to be as committed as possible without perfection to themselves and all things, family, work, friendships. It presents that life is service, not comfort, I have not seen any spiritual teaching on offer the encompasses its philosophy, none that calls for this responsibility and therefore sadly it will stand alone, misunderstood as a Religion until the time when it is understood and embraced around the world.

    1. Well said Sarah – Universal Medicine was the first I ever encountered to call out the spiritual game, the game that is such a deceiver – it sounds good, looks good, nearly takes us there, but fails to deliver because it does not come from the comprehensive richness of the the inner-heart.

       1. I begun to attend presentations run by Universal Medicine because I was interested in beginning to develop a true sense of health. I was living in Byron Bay at the time (for those that don’t know Byron Bay is a very spiritual new age town) Yet I was not sold by what I saw, the endless yoga and mediation, affirmations. It all seemed a bit hypocritical as I was seeing the same people out at Rave Parties taking drugs and getting on it.
          The fact that Serge Benhayon was openly questioning the energetic integrity and life styles of the spiritual new age modalities and its Gurus really made my ears prick up. Finally someone that was willing to question everything but was not just criticising for the sake of it, he approached every subject with this inquisitive nature, nothing was off limits, Religion, education but he did it all with such love and understanding for why the world operates this way. What I found at the core of Universal Medicine was a universal medicine, one that is for all equally, there is no chosen one or Guru to pay homage to. The word Medicine was also redefined for me, I now view medicine as every choice I make, it is how I move and operate that will either heal or harm me and others.

84. This line made me giggle – ‘no “wandering down wooded paths” or “into a mountain cave to meet an Indian guide or an angelic being”, just a simple focus on my own breath’ as I have so been there meeting guides, beings and wandering down paths. The Ageless Wisdom is so simple that is why it is often overlooked. Connecting to yourself via your own breath. So simple. And free!

85. The ‘spiritual new age’ is a decoy set-up to deter those seeking (or shall we say avoiding?) truth. It is the vast array of ‘glittering crumbs’ that are laid on our path back home to the love within our heart. If we stop to inspect them, we are gone, set on an illusionary path of all that glitters and sparkles but contains not an ounce of true warmth. We each have a flame that flickers deep within us that by virtue of its origin is a guiding light that can never lead us astray. Where we stumble is looking outward to the web of false light set to entice us and lead us away from that which is always calling us home – the voice of our Soul and Thy Father, the place where true Fire burns.

86. This is it indeed. The Way of The Livingness is the only thing I have found that offers such a fundamental change of energetic beingness away from a constant pursuit of ‘it’ to realising that what we have been seeking is in fact already within us – and delivers it too. Many spiritual new age modalities in my experience offer something akin to this, but Universal Medicine actually delivers. Serge Benhayon is the real deal without doubt.

87. Much of what you have written about Beverley I can relate to, especially searching with the New Age modalities, but even when I was taking part there was always this niggle that there was more and that the claims were half baked. Like you I was observing the teachers and many things were popping out – things like favouritism, one getting angry over money, another having a tantrum, one person saying one thing and doing another. Slowly I was getting to see these things because there was no consistency with any of them, but having been around Serge Benhayon now for ten years he always shows love equally to everyone.

88. ‘I was introduced to the Gentle Breath Meditation, a simple technique where you focus on your breath and make the choice to breath gently… no “wandering down wooded paths” or “into a mountain cave to meet an Indian guide or an angelic being”, just a simple focus on my own breath.’ And what a breath of fresh air the Gentle Breath Meditation is! Yes I too have traipsed around a few magical forests in my time and found nothing changed as a result. THE GBM on the other hand is the simplest, most practical and portable tool I’ve ever come across – and one of the most profound in terms of the changes it rings. In my case, a gradual stilling of my nervous system and sense of true balance – physical and emotional – on a consistent basis for the first time in a long time. And all in 5-10 minutes per day. Genius.

    1. There is a knowing deep within us that there is more, more than this third dimensional life we lead which can keep us searching outside of us for years, as in my case. Trouble is while looking outside of ourselves we miss the simplicity of the fact we are but a breath away from reconnecting to the divinity within.

89. The most harmful thing about new age modalities is that you think you are becoming more enlightened, however they are taking you in the opposite direction

90. The marriage of western medicine and traditional ageless medicine is one that is our way forward.

91. When I was in high school became a fan of philosophy and sayings/quotes, but when presented with Serge Benhayon I didn’t like him at first. One day I realised the difference, Serge Benhayon is presenting real and true responsibility in life, where as many quotes that are around sound good and you can like them but not truly relate one ounce of it to real life.

92. ‘Looking back I am aware of the trap and total arrogance I had fallen into, along with a feeling that I was a better human being because I was part of the ‘Spiritual New Age’ bandwagon.’ Oh yes I know how arrogant I was because of making the choice of being ‘alternative’ but I was constantly searching to fulfil myself with another course, workshop, treatment and it was never it. In a way it had the energy of entertainment, distracting me from the real world and from the deep knowing that everything is already there in each and everyone of us.

93. “The search is over – This is IT.” I so agree Beverly. Having also searched for over twenty years, but never felt each spiritual organisation I came across offered the whole picture or the whole truth, coming to Serge Benhayon’s presentations felt like coming home. My body said yes.

94. This was very similar to my experience with searching and the spiritual new-age path. Reading your story though I remembered that ever present anxiety and nervousness when especially using new-age techniques such as Reiki and kinesiology, to just name two. Many around me including myself just put it down to a lack of confidence in what I was doing but it never felt true and I always felt like a fraud yet I had this enormous arrogance of being better than everyone else. What I feel now is how the spiritual new-age for me was like a massive illusion and emotional backpack on my front and back that assured I delayed connecting back to my soul.

95. I can relate to feeling “tricked and trapped by the spiritual new age”. I got caught up in it for a while and it had such a hold on me. I remember when I released myself from its grips and I looked back and felt like I had been under a spell.

    1. Yes that is exactly how it felt for me also Nikki, like being under a spell and I also see this observing others who are in the spiritual new age now. It was like being in a cloud or a bubble of believing you were above others and all consequences. One of the mantras that I said, and really needed to break through, that is quite common out there is ‘if it’s meant to be or if it’s meant to happen it will happen’. This was a biggie and a really great excuse to use to not need to take responsibility for anything.

96. There are many people, myself included that have had this sense that there must be more to life than just what we can physically see and what our senses can pick up. We can’t see, touch, taste or smell large clouds of anger or sadness in rooms or coming from people and yet we can feel them even though they are not physical. The Spiritual New Age taps into this knowing that we are more than the world around us but just like we can sense emotions we can sense what is and what isn’t true. I have found many of the same contradictory feelings come from mainstream religion and the spiritual new age. However I have not experienced this ‘something’s just not quiet right feeling’ when Serge Benhayon presents on the metaphysical aspects of life, he presents them as a part of the world we live in, not something extra special or allusive or out of reach but a part of everyday life as it is.

97. When you are into the spiritual new age it can have a grip on you and you have no idea of its strength. The best way of keeping you trapped is having you thinking that you are totally free, that’s usually when you are the most held within a consciousness that doesn’t want you to be more aware about energies. What is good though is that common sense highlights a lot of the weirdness of the spiritual new age and usually people can see what is just weird and doesn’t make sense and what is actually true. The great thing is that what is truly true is running in our veins so we just need to listen a bit more carefully and what is true will reveal itself very clearly. And no need to be shamed if we have let ourselves be fooled.

98. “Looking back I am aware of the trap and total arrogance I had fallen into, along with a feeling that I was a better human being because I was part of the ‘Spiritual New Age’ bandwagon”. This captures the same way I felt after discovering Universal Medicine and how I had actually walked further away from myself and created a web of a mess in my body. How I ever thought I was ‘better’, even though I was getting sicker, was just part of the illusion I lived in for many years. Thank goodness I was led to a crossroads that showed me very clearly how energy works and knowing and choosing which one we are aligning to matters thereafter in the choices made.

99. Even though we may not know the words for it, we do know the energies at play in the world. We can feel and see the astral energy play out and feel Fiery energy when expressed. The Reiki master being an alcoholic is a great example of that. We know when something feels off and learning to honour those feelings is having a relationship with ourselves at a much deeper level.

100. It’s one of the greatest crimes – that there are so many false paths for people to journey down when they fall an awakening in themselves, or call to connect with something bigger, grander, and divine. As a result people get lost down dead ends, and invest years of their lives into movements that go nowhere. A crime when the call to initiate can be the prelude to a wonderful journey of self discovery, to the magic of God, and to life not being about self but being about part of the whole.

101. It is ironic how we seek answers to what is going on for us that all we have been told by the world never seems to fulfil, and search for such answers from someone who supposedly knows, only to be presented by those true teachers the fact that the answers we seek are within. For those who want concrete solutions this is never going to appeal. For those that seek true healing, this is the truth they have always sought.

102. Reading how you “overlook” that the “Reiki Master” had a drinking problem is a whole blog of its own. It is stunning how we all manage to do that – to be so very selective in what we choose to see and to override the truth that is so very clearly before us. Every time I finally choose to see something I had not been looking at it is always quite stunning to observe how blind I was to it previously. It is always easier to see blind spots in our friends. What strange creatures we are!

103. It is so easy to fall for the false light of the spiritual journey when we are not connected with our hearts, as it is only when we move with that connection we can discern that which is not true and creates harm to ourselves and others around us.

104. I suppose the greatest trap of the spiritual new age is that it offers a tantalising taste of the fact that the world is not just based on physicality, and in that it sparks a familiarity, a memory of a form of life that we intrinsically understand, and yet don’t live – limited as we are by our own physicality. The problem with this is that we become enamoured by the glamour of what it offers – the elation of someone being able to read your future and past, the “magical” healing moments where pain is taken away that otherwise could not be healed by conventional medicine etc. For all its fraudulent tricksters, there is enough truth in the spiritual new age to attract people to what it offers. The problem with all of this – we don’t know what we are dealing with. That information you “access” – where does that come from? The truth is we don’t know enough about the world of “energy”, and so discernment is required, for if we are to be honest, the world is not all light and love. And therefore it stands to reason that the immediate world beyond ours – or that we call the spiritual world – must also have “forces” that equate to what we see in the physical. In other words, just because something is energetic, and supposedly has powers beyond the physical, that does not mean we should be enamoured by it without first questioning its intent or source. In other words, as Serge Benhayon has always presented, and Bailey before him, energetic discernment is of the foremost importance. So by all means, accept and embrace that there is a spiritual world, don’t deny that people can connect to something that can give them information about your past, or that spirits exist, or that there are forms of energy healing that can “cure” physical symptoms. But do not become enamoured by it, and always discern its true intent and effect upon you and others – for otherwise it leads to the path of deep illusion.

105. I was part of the ‘spiritual new age’ too Beverley, and although I never really took to reiki or crystal healing I did dabble in some very strange practices which kept me entranced for a number of years in the belief that I was on my way to some kind of salvation. Once I had read all the many new age books I could get my hands on the novelty soon began to wear off and I realised that the IT I was searching for was not in books, pendulums, waving my hands around someone’s chakras or meditating on my navel, the truth of what I was searching for was inside me, my very own body and once I had found what I had been looking for through Universal Medicine I knew my journey home had begun. Thank you for sharing your story which I am sure is a mirror for many who are searching for their Soul and looking in all the wrong places.

106. Beverly, you talked about appearing confident and calm on the outside but on the inside struggling with anxiousness and feeling like a mess. It seems to me this is actually quite a common scenario amongst many people who spend much time with spiritual pursuits, meditation and healings, and this has certainly been my experience too. There is an appearance that everything is OK and under control, but deep inside there is an angst and a knowing that this is not “IT”. The key thing with this is that people are actually very very sensitive and we see and feel so much. Sometimes the intensity of what we feel and see can actually feel rather overwhelming. However, it does not have to be such an experience – We all actually have access to true support and a true sense of calm and completeness, and this is something that I have learnt from Serge Benhayon’s teachings. I too used to appear OK on the outside and yet have such anxiousness on the inside (and at times this still can happen) but thanks to the real tools (which for me simply started with the Gentle Breath Meditation) i have been able to handle life in ways I would never have deemed possible, to be so much more a part of life, more so than I could ever have fathomed, and actually enjoy the days and the completeness that lies within. Of course this is not with perfection and there are days when I feel overwhelmed, but then I just bring myself back to the basics and it does not take long to re-turn to myself.

107. I know and have met people who have had very positive experiences with new age healing modalities such as Reiki and crystal healing, and I do not question the authenticity of their claims. Nor do I question the supposed amazing ability of clairvoyants and palmists, and have had experienced first hand their ability to be quite perceptive about past and future events.There is much about this world that we don’t understand.

     Similarly, I have received physical healing from a well known massage therapist who was able to physically manipulate my body to instantly heal what were otherwise chronic back, hip and knee injuries that standard physiotherapists were at a loss how to treat.

     HOWEVER, looking back, the question I ask with reference to all of those experiences, is “was it true healing?”

     For in their own way, each of those experiences brought about a certain physical relief that could not be denied. But the real clincher that for me that exposed the falsity of each of these experiences was not that they did not provide some tangible feeling of relief and even physical healing, for that they did. And even in the case of the palmists and clairvoyants, there was something psychologically reassuring about those sessions in the sense you kind of felt reassured that a total stranger could know and relate to you so well.

     But the fact is that none of those experiences actually caused me to change the momentum of my ways that caused my predicament in the first place. In other words none of those treatments truly addressed the root cause of the problem, but rather in their own way, sought to treat the symptom. Even in the case of energy healing such as Reiki, it was still symptom orientated, especially if you consider what is providing the energy behind the supposed modality.

     In short, the new age world is dangerous, not because it does not at times offer some physical and psychological relief, but because we really don’t know what we are playing with when it comes to energy, and that on its own is food for thought that asks us to consider energetic modalites beyond just the normal scientific analysis, and beyond assessing them according to their supposed physical and psychological benefits.

108. I love your title Beverley and the acknowledgement of the freedom offered by The Way of The Livingness – no requirements just an opportunity to connect to our Souls and feel our true purpose and the steadiness that comes with that.

109. ‘For the first time in my life I had a glimpse of feeling whole and complete without the underlying emptiness and anxiety that had kept me relentlessly searching.’ Yes it is amazing how the Gentle Breath Meditation brings us back to ourselves and from there opens up the possibility of a profound return to our Soul and letting go of the myriad of distractions that we have surrounded ourselves with in a vain attempt to fill the emptiness created by looking outside of ourselves for the answers when they are there within us just waiting to be connected to.

110. This is ‘IT’ indeed Beverley. I felt it from the first moment I heard about Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine. No longer was there any impulse to continue searching for myself for I have always been right here – complete, divine and a master of life all inside just patiently waiting for me to wake up and reconnect.

111. Beverley its a great blog you share here as it helps many people appreciate that when we feel there is something more to life that we have to check what the “claimed” answer is. There are many alternative approaches to healing, health and life however like you it was only when I came to Universal Medicine that I found a way of living that not only was truly complementary but deeply foundational.

112. What I find interesting is how the Spiritual New Age can be accomodated to one’s life without the need to change how we live. Instead, Universal Medicine focuses on how we live. Our livignness is everything.

113. I too once sought many external healing methods and answers. Looking back what I was looking for was connection to myself. I was never going to find it by looking out and I can very much relate to the anxiety in that. Since turning my focus inward I have discovered a stillness and also discovered that the more inward I go, the more outward I become as well – not seeking anything from the outside but sharing myself with the world.

114. “Looking back I am aware of the trap and total arrogance I had fallen into, along with a feeling that I was a better human being because I was part of the ‘Spiritual New Age’ bandwagon.” Ah thank you Beverly I remember that trap too, only too well. I attended a ‘mind body spirit fair’ not too long ago and was disturbed at how many ‘healers’, card readers etc…. seemed to be taking advantage of the emotionally vulnerable.

115. Being someone who also “was always looking for someone else to give me the answer and for someone else’s approval for me to feel okay about myself”, when the New Age rolled into town I was there in the front row convinced that the elusive answer was about to be presented to me. I couldn’t have been more wrong with the endless searching coming up with some weird, and definitely not very wonderful, modalities that only served to take me further and further away from myself, until the day I met Serge Benhayon and everything began to change. My search turned inward where I finally found what I had been looking for; the glorious me!

116. What makes the spiritual New Age so damaging is that it is so close to the truth of the Ageless Wisdom that it almost sounds like it and in fact many think it is one and the same thing. But it is ever so lightly tweaked away from the truth, a reinterpretation of it (from the ‘cult of the individual standpoint).’ Evil is just a reconfiguration of divinity, it has no source in and of itself, but it soon, as we gather and say yes to it, becomes a ‘Source’.

117. As the example of the Reiki makes clear, those that fall into the arms of the Spiritual New Age only find a slightly different version of the energy that is familiar to them so they do not have a problem with what they feel is normal (like the Reiki Master drinking). The Ageless Wisdom, instead, is a totally different energetic experience. It is also deeply familiar but in a much deeper level (the level of the Soul) and it is this Soulful familiarity that makes us realise the trap of the Spiritual familiarity.

118. “Never before had I been met with the truth about Spirit and Soul and that there are actually two types of energy, one being the fiery energy of the Soul and the other being the pranic energy of the Spirit with all its emotional baggage.” This was a revelation for me as well Beverley and on attending presentations at Universal Medicine I knew I had found the truth, the IT.

119. There is always that pull from our soul to know there is more to life that we currently live. A tension that creates that deep anxiety. We know where we are from, we know we have a purpose here and until we re-connect to that, the tension is always there. Universal Medicine and the Gentle Breath Meditation are the means by which we can reconnect to that purpose inside us.

120. Beverly I had lots of friends growing up that also felt there had to be more to life than the physical, but what? There never seemed to be anything that was complete. I recall being enchanted by some of the crystal shops after a film “the craft” came out but a passing fad left an empty hole. Acupuncture came close but didn’t help me shift anything permanently so it was by great virtue that I had a session with Serge Benhayon and life started to make true sense for the first time.

121. It took me a while to see through the ‘New Age Spiritual Healing’ illusion and the great trap it is by promising what we seek and know to be true but not delivering truth and thus no healing. Without the Ageless Wisdom teachings by Serge Benhayon I would not have developed the ability to discern energy and consciousness like I can do today. The difference of spirit and Soul, pranic and fiery energy etc, re-awakening our innate clairsentience (the ability to feel and know energy), are crucial to see through the veil of illusion or actually the many layers of it – this is part of evolution, the process of developing our awareness of what is and what is not of truth.

122. I can relate to a lot of what you’ve shared Beverly, I was very caught up in the spiritual new age for many years too… although all too readily dropped every last bit of it as soon as I came across Serge Benhayon and the teachings of the Ancient Wisdom. Like you, it was the first time everything made sense, and I mean everything, nothing was left out. Me, my life, others and the world started to make sense in a way that empowered me in it too, it was profoundly life changing, and I have never looked back since that time.

123. Spiritual arrogance is a stubborn resistance to the truth of the Soul knocking on our door.

124. As Beverly clearly elaborates, being a student of Universal Medicine is, in truth, being a student of your Soul. Finding the Soul’s wisdom embodied in an organisation that shares it in so many ways, is like finding a fresh, revitalising source of water from a natural spring after travelling through the desert.

125. You really have been around the spiritual block, great that you have found a practical and supportive teaching as The Way of The Livingness, in this I have also found something that makes complete sense.

126. ‘The search is over – This is IT.’ Exactly what I found too, Beverley. The constant restless searching is now a thing of the past.

127. To come from a place of constant searching and never attaining what you seek, to a place where you can rest and know you have found everything that resonates truth and delivers true settlement within, is beyond priceless.

128. Thank you Beverley I can relate to so much of what you shared. I first experienced spiritual healing modalities as a young teenager and from there slowly became more engrossed with the spiritual new age therapies on offer. However after a few years I was getting sicker as well as continually searching for answers. Thank goodness I met Serge Benhayon when my search stopped and I turned myself around to return to what was inside all along.

129. It is easy to become enamoured with the world of energy, for it is something that is natural to feel. The problem when we first reawaken to this fact is that we do not discern what it is we are feeling, or what or who is behind the energy we feel, so excited are we by the fact that we actually feel something.

130. The search is over – This is IT. Absolutely Beverley – the reason we continue searching is we know we are yet to find truth but I knew I’d found it when I came upon Universal Medicine.

131. The spiritual new age seems to provide us with what we think we are looking for but actually locks us further into the illusion. Universal Medicine on the other hand offers us truth to help unbind us from whatever we’ve bought into in the past.

132. Remarkable transformation Beverley, what you’ve share is inspiring. It is so true, to feel empowered and live soulfully we do not need anything outside of us to connect us to that. We have everything already within us to be all of who we are, we are all deeply powerful and no outside source can provide or replace this. We can connect to our innate power by simply choosing to do so.

133. Hi Beverley

     That ‘spiritual new age’ seems to take us further out into the never never rather than back into the light of the soul. And like a glass wall the arrogance is hard to penetrate.
     Understanding that being in and loving our bodies is the start to our reconnection with soul is an amazing revelation and celebration really. Instead of ‘out there’ we connect to ‘in here’ and BHAM life begins to unfold.

134. Ha, ha Beverley, I smiled as I read your blog as I could so relate to your experience as being somewhat similar to mine. I always knew that something wasn’t ‘right’ with this world but it wasn’t until I was 35 that I discovered all the so called wonders of the spiritual world. This illusionary way kept me distracted for a number of years, although at the time I thought I had found the truth. There was something fundamentally missing though, and it wasn’t until I found Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine when I was 53 that I found out what it was, LOVE. Nowhere on my spiritual travels had I really experienced the feeling of love. Emotional love yes, but not true love, and that this true love was inside of me. It came as a bit of shock at first, to realise that I wasn’t special or gifted either (another hook of my lonely spiritual world) but that I was equal to everyone else and they were equal to me, and in fact when I got over the shock I felt empowered for the first time, because I could feel the truth of what Serge Benhayon presented to me, and that I had all that I ever needed right inside my own body, and not, as you discovered also, through crystals, pendulums, chanting, guided meditations, numerous new-age books, or any other tools outside of our very own loving inner-hearts.

135. Love your blog Beverley and having dabbled in spiritual new age modalities, I could very much relate to it….everything asks you to look outside yourself…..the pendulum the guru, the stones the crystals seeing each one as the answer to a dilemma or problem and the arrogance that comes with this, we have the answers that no one else has. “I had missed the point completely and had actually disempowered myself by choosing to ignore the fact that all I required was inside of me.” Simple and no need to give our power to anything outside of us.

136. The spiritual new age has many tantalising offerings with promises of a better life, a more capable life, a life where you can handle great adversity. And no one can be judged or blamed for wanting to explore this, because pretty much everyone knows that there is more to life than misery, stress and disfunction. However, what I have noticed about the spiritual new age modalities and the whole movement in general, is that it starts with the premise that you are broken or in-capable to begin with. Where as Universal Medicine starts with the fact that you are a Son of God and already an equal member of the Universal Whole, so there is no need to go anywhere or to do anything extraordinary, just the fact of you is more than enough for divinity to be here on earth, and with this comes the responsibility of awareness. Perhaps this is ultimately why the spiritual new age has such a great hold on so many of us, as we try to avoid the responsible place we have as parts of the whole.

137. Thanks Beverley, the futility in searching for ‘the one’ who will guide us out of our miseries is a common thread in spiritual new age modalities. Yet it doesn’t work in the long term and in fact often leaves people feeling let down and mistrustful. When I first started to attend Universal Medicine and heard Serge Benhayon present to us all being ‘the one’ and that what we carried inside of us that what we were seeking all along, I felt things start to shift. This understanding turns everything around and makes everything accessible because we only need to look inside ourselves for answers.

138. There are no doubt many healing techniques connect to the fact of energy. The question is, what energy are they connecting to, and if we do not know, should we not take the time to consider then what it is we are playing with? I was not into the spiritural new age, but I did occasionally, at another’s bequest, go see a clairvoyant or palmist. On occasion I found them to be very accurate. I similarly once tried a Ouija board and I could not deny there were forces at play there – something actually quite easily felt. For a long time I felt that clairvoyants were picking up on things, but they were at best only picking up on your emotional state of being, and thus why often they ended up telling you just what you wanted to hear. On other occasions, I had no answer for their ability to read things past and future with amazing accuracy. The question all of this raises, and I had never considered till I met Serge Benhayon, however, is what were they tapping into, and what was behind what was giving them such information? If it was spirits, what was their intent? etc etc etc. Spiritualism is not as harmless as we might think, especially if we give our power away to thinking that we can find answers to life through another’s predictions, rather than reflecting on our own choices.

139. Many of us have been down the spiritual new age path seeking answers. One part that is a stand out for me is that all the people who led/practised these modalities never lived what they taught yet like you, Beverley, I clocked it but overrode what I was noticing because I didn’t dare question what was going on. These people were the experts, right?? When I started to attend Universal Medicine and observed how Serge Benhayon and his family conducted themselves, I was blown away by their consistency in how what they spoke about was what they also lived. It has shown me that it is possible to both talk and walk ‘the talk’ at the same time and that anything less less than that is reason to ask myself questions.

140. Thanks Beverley your blog reminded me of the spiritual new age path I was on for many years and going absolutely nowhere except backwards in my evolution. I agree with you The Way of the Livingness is ‘IT’ – the search is over for me, finding this True Religion has been the most beautiful discovery in my life.

141. Hi Beverly, this blog resonated very much with me and my experience with Yoga – how outwardly I seemed very calm and knowing, yet inwardly I was felt nervous when teaching and felt an imposter, even though I could do all the postures. Universal Medicine was also for me the key to unlocking all the self doubt and embracing my true expression, through which I discovered that that life and teaching or any other roles we assume in life are not separate and the quality brought to all is an ever evolving loving truth.

142. How exhausting is it to continually search for something, I know I spent a long time searching following the dangling carrot offered by the spiritual new age. This did nothing but distort my view of reality and add anxiousness to the already nervous person I was.

143. I have recently become aware of the many people who are searching desperately for something, the intensity of our times means many are checking out with stimulating substances or choosing something which they hope will take away the pain – like spirituality. Unfortunately much of this is done in vein as unless we truly choose to deal with our hurts and take responsibility for every aspect of the way I life has turned out we just keep going around and around in the same illusion. I know because I spent years on the spiritual merry go round. Thankfully I was given a stop moment and instead of choosing again irresponsibility and illusion I changed the energy I was in and choose real love and real healing.

144. ‘I stopped being a victim of my own choices and began to make choices that supported me and my well-being.’ This line is powerful, because without this self responsibility, we allow ourselves to wallow in our self pity which is then impossible to grow from.

145. Exactly Kelly. How did we get to this point where we have lost so much confidence in our own knowing? We don’t trust ourselves, and therefore don’t trust others, so we sit on a merry-go-round literally going nowhere.

146. ‘I had missed the point completely and had actually disempowered myself by choosing to ignore the fact that all I required was inside of me.’ I think this sentence is true for so many of us in all kinds of situations. We are in such a habit of assuming that something or someone else always knows best. We leave ourselves behind and don’t stop to feel and accept that actually, we know a lot more than we choose to want to know.

147. Isn’t it amazing that although we know that all the answers are really inside and we do know, we don’t trust it and instead look everywhere to find the missing link. This takes many of us into the world of the New Age and the plethora of alternative or complimentary modalities, philosophies, etc. Like you Beverley it was not until I came across Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine did I get the understanding of spirit and soul that had been eluding me, and what then made, and still makes, all the difference.

148. Spot on Kelly – I had a giggle when I read this line – “Well if I was really connected to my Soul, why would I need an outside indicator?”. We have all that we need within us. At times support is needed to remind us that we have it all within and to navigate and let go of the stuff that hangs around us that stop us from knowing and living that it is all within. But it is all there. Which is so different to most spiritual learnings that keep us wanting more to obtain ‘it’.

149. Very true, cjames2012. The equation doesn’t compute without the commitment, focus and diligence ‘to let go of the old props and habits’.

150. I can relate to all you have said here Beverley and it is only when I met Serge Benhayon that all the unanswered questions I still had, after years of studying to become a professional kinesiologist, were answered and immediately made sense. It was then I stopped the search and true healing in my life began.

151. I can relate to trying to find answers through alternative forms of healing and trying everything on offer only to discover that all I was doing was burying the issues even further into my body. Listening to Serge Benhayon and attending the courses of Universal Medicine have helped me to realise that to release the ill energy from the body it’s necessary to become honest and feel what’s there to be felt and this is the path to true healing.

     1. I have had the same experience, I had buried my issues further into my body with various alternative therapies. It was only once I met Serge Benhayon, that I understood about being honest with what I was feeling in my body and to allow the feelings of hurt to come to heal.

152. So much of the spiritual new age is based on giving your power away – to a pendulum, to the universe, to a crystal. No responsibility, no acceptance of one’s own part in how life has turned out.

     1. I agree Adam, whilst I was heavily involved with the New Age modalities which started with Spiritualism when I was 14 years old, and then later in life progressed onto crystals, Reiki and much more, there was always a feeling that something was not right. The answers were still not forthcoming or there was an element of truth but just not quite there, and at the time I just couldn’t put my finger on it. In the end I just said to myself this is not love and withdrew from everything I was involved with, and then waited – two years later I found Serge Benhayon via a friend. Then without any doubt I knew what I was hearing was Truth.

153. This is a great reminder Beverley of how I came to be part of the Universal Medicine Student Body. I could find no real essence or substance in anything I connected to in the New Age and it wasn’t until I had a healing with Serge Benhayon at the encouragement of a friend that slowly, I connected to the teachings by Serge of the Ancient Wisdom and then I knew this was it, I had come home!.

154. Thanks for this reminder Beverley as I was so into the hippy trip spiritual new age nonsense and I have to call it this because it really never did make any sense to me, but the addiction bug was there so I kept going for more hits and that included selling two properties to feed my addiction of travelling around the world for the next best spiritual course, workshop or modality as my search for Truth just got bigger.

     Like you I chose not to see my Masters in one of my courses where I spent over £40,000 UK pounds BOTH had drinking problems. They were in this position of mastery when I met them and my job was to follow them, be a good student, get it right, keep attending, feel guilty if I ever missed a course, never once consider I was going to be in debt and just keep going and staying under them as there was no way anyone else in the world could take their position. Gosh how sick is that and no surprise my body was always getting sick.

     Enter Universal Medicine and how come in the last 8 years I have not been sick?
     I just might be worth studying to see what it is that I am LIVING because it works and the answers come from Serge Benhayon and his company Universal Medicine.

     1. Wow Bina -your experience really supports the title of this blog post – Tricked and trapped in the spiritual new age…

155. This is such a familiar story Beverley and one I can readily relate to. I was an advocate of Homeopathy for several years before it hooked me in and I studied it to a professional level thinking ‘This was it’ and what I had been looking for all my life. But I always had questions around its many facetted approach and nobody could give me the answers I was looking for. It wasn’t until I came across Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine and was introduced to the fact that the spirit and soul were two completely different things that I realised I had been ‘barking up the wrong tree’. Serge Benhayon was able to answer the many burning questions I had with integrity, simplicity and absolute love, and I knew immediatley I had found the truth I was looking for. I had, and still have no doubt that “THIS IS MOST DEFINATELY IT”!

156. Yes – I agree Universal Medicine is IT after trying everything other modality thinking “this is the one” only to then be searching again for something else. I am so glad that exhausting part of my life is over and so much more simple now.

157. Thank you Beverly for sharing your experience of coming back to the truth. I love your words ” . I stopped being a victim of my own choices and began to make choices that supported me and my well-being. ” Choosing to be responsible with love.

158. Being met with the integrity that Serge Benhayon lives is quite an amazing experience and one cannot but be touched by the level of truth and love he lives and expresses with all equally so.

     1. Yes nicolesjardin, the difference can be truly felt. Serge Benhayon is a moving beacon of Love and humility in all that he lives and expresses. Once this has been experienced the marker is set in the body and always known. Thank you Beverley for sharing your experience.

159. Well said Beverly, and yes ‘the search is over – This is IT.’

160. When I heard Serge Benhayon talking about the difference between spirit and Soul it all made so much sense and it made me realise that all the years I had attended church and religious education at school no one had ever talked about it. In Serge I had met someone who knew the truth and presented the truth of the Ancient Wisdom that had always been available for us to choose to be aware of.

161. “Looking back I am aware of the trap and total arrogance I had fallen into, along with a feeling that I was a better human being because I was part of the ‘Spiritual New Age’ bandwagon.” I found that this trap also included the arrogance of feeling that I was better than other human beings because I was involved in these modalities. Others were somehow ‘lost’ while I was looking for answers and thought that I had found them. But in truth, I was still lost, I was just chasing a rabbit down a hole thinking that it was showing me the way.

162. I totally agree with you Annie regarding the spiritual new age being a complete distraction. I let this distract me for a few years and looking back I can honestly say I didn’t learn anything true. With Universal Medicine on the other hand I have learnt what true evolution is.

163. Thank you Beverly. I think it’s so interesting how prepared we are to let others dictate the rights and wrongs of how we should be, live. I know I’ve been doing it for some time now also. I’m more aware of it now, but it’s still creeping in at times and I can be quite oblivious to it. There’s a lack of willingess to take responsibility for oneself when we give our power away to someone else to drive our life.

164. Many people are tricked in the illusion and glamour of what the new age represents. What is taught is not full truths and the majority of people certainly do not live a life of integrity. Not once in my time in that world was spirit or soul explained or considered to be different. When I met Serge Benhayon, what he presented, who he was and how he was, showed me the way of true teaching and how to live a life of true soul full expression.

165. My spiritual pursuits left me feeling constantly unfulfilled seemingly chasing the illusion of answers, moving from one thing to the next in search of truth. It is really beautiful to finally be able to stop searching… which happened the moment I had a session with Serge Benhayon and felt the absolute truth in his words… exquisite and absolutely irrefutable.

     1. Samantha, I agree with your words “It is really beautiful to finally be able to stop searching…” – but the interesting thing that I find now is that, okay, we have stopped searching for that elusive something that was illusionary but it seems the true story now has only just begun as we commence to unravel all of that momentum of which we have gathered and encumbered ourseveles as we travel full circle once again from a place far distant and far away from our truth and our pure love returning once again back to the very place that we chose to depart from so very long ago. It feels as though even the steps in time ‘spent’ going no-where are being retraced as we come back home once again.

166. Through all the spiritual new age workshops I had attended prior to coming to Serge Benhayon’s presentations, never once did I hear of the difference between spirit and soul being key to understanding our healing process. Many of these so called healing modalities mentioned spirit and soul, sometimes in the same sentence, but the simple fact that they are totally energetically different was never explained. Hence, I was not aware that understanding the difference was going to give me the answer to my long searched for healing. Universal Medicine is the only teaching school that supported me to come back to this truth that was there all along, I had just forgotten it.

167. When I think about all the other healing modalities I learned, they feel so different from the Esoteric modalities taught by Serge Benhayon. With Universal Medicine there is a depth of feeling like no other – there is no arrogance, no illusion, just simple Truth, a letting go of past patterns of behaviour held in our bodies and a whole new way of living that helps us to find Harmony and Stillness in order to be the Love that we are.

     1. Absolutely Carmel. You describe it all so simply. There really is nothing to it, as in you don’t have to have had some full on Spiritual New Age background in order to understand or even align to the common sense presented by Universal Medicine.

168. I love that line Beverly that it was just about your breath no other thing, just reconnecting to the quality within that has never gone anywhere from when you were an infant, still, gorgeous breath. We wander far from it and yet it remains as strong and alive as your first breath.

169. This blog could be my story also. So many years searching. I almost gave up, then via a friend found Serge Benhayon. What he presented touched me deeply, he was a man that was steady and his integrity was felt. I have not once searched again since that day 9 years ago.

170. We don’t have to bring our ‘ bag of tricks ‘ as they say.
     We are fully equiped to connect to our Soul with our own breath. How perfect!

171. Awesome Beverley, I like how clearly you’ve pointed out that the crystals and pendulum were no longer necessary because you are now connected to your soul and you have all the wisdom you need inside you.

172. “Never before had I been met with the truth about Spirit and Soul and that there are actually two types of energy, one being the fiery energy of the Soul and the other being the pranic energy of the Spirit with all its emotional baggage”
     Yes Beverley what you have expressed here is very simple but oh so profound.

173. Thank you Beverly for your sharing your beautiful return your truth and power. I also found that there was no healing art, modaility or new age spiritual belief that presented with clarity the truth about what the Soul and spirit is, and the distinct difference between them. When I first was met with the teachings of The Ageless Wisdom presented by Serge Benhayon I knew with every cell in my body that this was the truth I had been looking for. That what was presented about the Soul being our fiery essence was who I was and that we all in fact can equally re-connect to this ourselves. This was the all-encompassing truth that I has been searching for as it made complete sense to me and every aspect of living.

174. It’s great reading these blogs as there are so many perspectives. Some come from a spiritual background whilst others from a die hard cop. The livingness is so practical yet meaningful it encapsulates everyone.

175. The spiritual path is so mind driven. Never are we ‘there’, but always seeking, left in the anxiousness and lack of self worth that this perpetuates. And most importantly, it keeps us separate from those not on the spiritual path, judgmental and superior to them and yet feeling inferior to many at the same time.

     When I met Serge Benhayon, he asked me how my life could be in such a mess if what I had been living had been a true support to me? I couldn’t deny the truth in what he saw. 4.5yrs later and I am now a student of the Livingness, knowing that I am enough, I am equal to all and it is my job to bring the depth of my love into all that I do.

176. Beverley I can so relate to this. My ex husband and I used to travel the world teaching Reiki Masterships – there were so many unhappy, unhealthy and certainly unwise people (including myself at the time) leading the Spiritual New Age. Thank God for the teachings of Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon as I was so lost and constantly searching for something more. ONE session with Serge and I could feel truth in my body again. For me there was no going back. When I felt that level of love and truth in my body there is no denying how I had been living and so the journey back to Self Love began.

177. “Never before had I been met with the truth about Spirit and Soul and that there are actually two types of energy”. So true for me too Beverley – I was tricked by the spiritual band-wagon for many years. When I found Universal Medicine my body knew ‘here was truth’. No more searching outside of me, just a forever deepening of who I really am and allowing this to unfold.

178. Once we take responsibility for ourselves, that’s when our healing can begin in many ways. It seems to be the common link within many of the blogs I’ve read and certainly is the case for yours-truly. It’s mind boggling to think of all the things (new age) we can say and do that looks like wanting to heal, but really are just a farce in the scheme of things.

179. I can relate to having taken part in the Spiritual New Age modalities but none of it seemed to be that effective, so I would bounce from one to the other. Then I came across Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine and stopped my searching in my tracks, because I had found what I had been searching for – the Truth.

180. We look out for answers that are being voiced from within but we don’t hear because we are so deafened by the roar and dazzled by the lights of what is on offer ‘out there’ that we miss the simple song of truth that hums quietly inside.

     Thankyou for sharing this Beverley, I sent myself on a similar wild goose chase in the relentless pursuit of truth. It was both a cringe and a joy to find it within and hum along once more.

     1. Oh I love how you poetically and philosophically say ‘we are so deafened by the roar and dazzled by the lights of what is on offer ‘out there’ that we miss the simple song of truth that hums quietly inside.’ Yes it is the Siren’s Song that is so seductive and our sixth sense gets drowned out, and the five senses become a slave to the main energetic ethos running the temporal world.

181. Self care and connection are foundational. Presented by Serge Benhayon many years ago, it has transformed the way I live and feel. I started 8 years ago with this and it is no different today as these two things constantly evolve and establish another new foundation. Along the way and over time, the body has responded to function with a living vitality and reveal very clearly that there are many choices but listening to the body is the only true choice.

182. When I read about the spiritual new age techniques and how much of the answers they seem to offer, it is so clear to me now that they can never truly help, because they promote the act of looking outside of yourself for the answers. When actually, all the love that you ever will ever need is right there inside of you, and it has been there all this time.

183. Awesome Beverly. Another great story about how self responsibility and connecting to our own breath is all we need to allow us to be who we truly are. It’s a simple choice.

     1. Something so simple, the ‘Gentle Breath Meditation’ can be something so powerfull, and yet we often look for the complication to have the answers.

184. Dear Beverly, on reading your blog again the words that stood out for me today were “Well if I was really connected to my soul why would I need an outside indicator.” and that says it in a nutshell – indeed another memory of my involvement with the spiritual new age, and another ‘indicator’ that that time spent seeking could never have been the true way of ‘finding ones self’. By God’s grace I met Serge Benhayon and commenced to peel away all the layers of un-truth I had gathered on my ‘seeking expedition’. From attending the presentations of Universal Medicine it didn’t take me long to learn and to feel all the time that I had been seeking true love outside of me was indeed innately within us all equally –

     1. Beautiful Roberta. To come back to the knowing that we have it all is so empowering and beautiful to feel.

        1. On visiting your blog again today the lines that caught my attention were about you attending a presentation and voice workshop with Chris James – isn’t it awesome when we consider how in an instant one can absolutely know that up until that point they have been following a track of illusion, the stony and rocky road but now have been offered an opportunity to follow through with the sudden awareness that this rocky road was not the road to Truth – but in fact the illusionary path. I also found that the simple awareness and practice of the Gentle Breath Meditation can bring one back to a place of stillness, a place where the clarity of choices of a deep and ageless wisdom can be made.

185. ” I stopped being a victim of my own choices and began to make choices that supported me and my well-being.” Amazing how many of us can stay victim of our own choices for so long, not wanting to admit that that is what is happening. Great news when we begin to make choices that truly support us and our well-being. Thanks for a great blog Beverley.

186. Australians know that in the bush a Wallaby Track is a track that leads to nowhere. I spent 20 years of my life wandering in that new age wilderness looking for something that wasn’t there. Spending heaps of hard earned dollars on books, courses and retreats that did nothing to alleviate my feelings of being lost and unfulfilled. You can imagine my joy when, five years ago, I found Serge Benhayon … a Teacher like no other.
     Here at last was the truth and integrity I had been searching for. No fancy dress, no kissing of feet, no self importance. Just clear sensible information to take or leave. He has taught me the real meaning of life and love. And I am very, very glad I found him.

     1. I love what you share here Valerie, so real and true for many.

187. What’s always the case for authors discussing their path to the Way of The Livingness, is that they move from a period in their life where they give their power to an external authority (being) or object (crystal etc), to then reclaiming their power within. Not a single person has given their power to Serge Benhayon and never will, for Universal Medicine’s teachers are about reconnecting each of us to our own divinity.

     1. I echo your words here Oliver as it has been the experience of my awareness also “Not a single person has given their power to Serge Benhayon and never will, for Universal Medicine’s teachers are about reconnecting each of us to our own divinity.” This awareness reveals something mammoth really, when one considers how easily ones choose to give over their personal power to another while on the dalliance in the Spiritual New Age and its various modalities – I know this to be so, as I in my state of ignorance and emptiness way back then chose that unfortunate slippery slope for a while.

     2. Exactly Oliver and this is what makes the presentations of Universal Medicine stand out for the truth they are. Nobody in Universal Medicine is preaching for us to follow them, just offering the energetic facts of how it is and leaving it for us to choose, now that is empowering in itself, no one telling us what to do but offering the truth for us to choose or not.

188. What you share here Beverly is key – “Looking back I am aware of the trap and total arrogance I had fallen into, along with a feeling that I was a better human being because I was part of the ‘Spiritual New Age’ bandwagon.” I remember feeling exactly this when I was on my ‘yoga’ detour, desperately searching, but not truly discerning the energetic quality of those I would attend classes with, and the arrogance and ‘thinking’ I was okay and had it together because I was ‘doing’ yoga. In reality I was not living love and had no idea of what it truly meant to self-care let alone the term energetic integrity. It has been through the presentations and teachings from Universal Medicine and the simplicity, common sense and practical teachings of the ageless wisdom that I am no longer searching – having discovered that it is in fact within me.

     1. Awesome Marcia. I found it was great to have the search over as it was a relentless one, as we look ever further and further and then realise it is within us all along.

        1. Yes, the wild goose chase of continual distractions so as to not sit still to feel it all within us.

     2. You’re right Marcia, there is so much invested in being ‘better than’, that a fierce arrogance can lash out at anything that dare threaten that.

189. Yes the search for the truth is over with all the new age and spiritual alternatives. Once you have been exposed to Serge and universal medicine. The truth is undeniable.

     1. A great comment Concetta, and oh so very true. Thank you.

190. There is so many new age modalities that appear to have the answers but when tried only offer a very superficial short term result. It’s great to learn that all the answers I need are inside me, with me all the time.

191. I have spent the first 3/4 of this life chasing the dream that I was told is the purpose of this life; job, education, house, family and the rest. I reached a point where I questioned ‘is this IT’ and began the search of something else. I got on the ‘Spiritual New Age’ bus with its many stops, but they all lacked something. I have no regrets, for my journey has clearly shown me what is not truth. The lack of truth of the others just made the Way of the Livingness shine that much more brightly, as truth will always do.

     1. “I have no regrets, for my journey has clearly shown me what is not truth. The lack of truth of the others just made the Way of the Livingness shine that much more brightly, as truth will always do.” Beautifully stated sjmatsonuk.

     2. Awesome sjmatsonuk! An experience shared by many.

192. Very powerful blog, especially the last sentence, feels very powerful. This sentence is a wake up call for many: ”So the pendulum had to go, along with all the crystals as I realised I had totally given myself away by investing all my power into them” – it is so important that we do not state our power in things around us, in order to keep our own power within us, ready, vibrant and alive. I too, had in the past used crystals, and gave them more power than I was giving myself, ridiculous really, but now I know it makes so much sense, as I can feel that I was in an absolute glamourized illusion. Thank you Beverly for writing this.

     1. In the past I found a very false sense of security in crystals and all things outside of me, but the security I clung to had no foundation. The only true foundation is the one that is inside, it is endless and ageless and will never disappear and therefore can always be relied upon. So beautiful and super empowering to know that we are it.

193. Great blog Beverley – thank you for sharing. It is interesting and grotesque how we fooled and lost ourselves with new age stuff because of the feeling that there is more to life than what appears on the surface. It is true there is much, much, much more to life, infinitely so – but we fell into the trap of looking in the wrong direction (outside) when we already are, and have always been, everything we were looking for. This is the deceit of many of the new age modalities, to have us looking everywhere except for where the truth really is.

     1. Exactly Nicola, so many, if not all the new age modalities get us to ‘look over there’ when looking within is really the place to go. And even those that apparently seem to look within, actually have aspects of outer support required, so some are more ‘tricky’ than others. Universal Medicine presentations are the only ones that I have found that offer the truth of how it is.

194. I always had a feeling that there was something more and while I looked at the spiritual new age stuff I could never embroil myself in it as it didn’t feel true. I enjoy now the understanding I have gained from Universal Medicine. It is both real and transforming to understand the soulful way in which we can live our lives that makes a difference on a very practical level.

195. I find this fascinating as I had never tried any of the crystals or reiki or anything and just avoided all the new age stuff – not because of any great insight but because it didn’t fit the life I’d been trained to live. I assumed that I was immune from such distractions and had no need to search anywhere. Instead I immersed myself in work, which I now realise is the same thing. Meeting Serge Benhayon has been a game changer.​ So thank you Beverley for making it so clear.

196. Absolutely Beverly the Way of the Livingness is IT, search over. Being able to say I know who I am and feel this is my body is so different than all the new age stuff I have engaged with, there was always something else, something to buy or to follow but never I felt the love that I am. In all my arrogance of the New Age path I was only going further away from what was natural to me and I became separated from people and from the fact that I love people.

     1. Not only did I not feel the love that I am Annelies whilst travelling the so called new age path, I didn’t feel anyone else’s love, of themselves or others (including the ‘leaders’)….how very different from Unimed.

        1. Hi kathiefreedom, this is very true, these days I can very much discern the quality of the presenter from their body, how they move and how they live says so much.

        2. That is such a clear point I feel Kathiefreedom, and something that I hadn’t actually noted really in those distant days, we simply could not feel true love emanating from any of the new age modality practitoners, no matter how much the new age music attracted the senses of the spirit or how they tried to glam up the verbal communication that they were just love and one of my recollections was being totally judged on more than one occasion, labelled and categorized – so that begs the question “why was I so sucked in at that time?”- but of course I know the answer now, it was because I certainly had no true connection to or love for myself, thus an empty vessel ready to be filled with what ever was on offer at that time. I so appreciate the choice I made in listening to my Soul, meeting Serge Benhayon and subsequently attending the presentations of Universal Medicine – that was when I felt the choice to re-connect to who I truly am. Woo Hoo!

     2. Yes Annelies, my separation from myself and everyone else held much sadness and everything I’d tried in the Spirituality courses I’d attended and trained in did not hold all the answers and actually fell well short of Truth. On the other hand, ‘The Ageless Wisdom’ teachings Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine represent have lovingly supported me to reclaim the love and appreciation of myself and all people also. That holds much joy!

197. So many are lost on the garden path of the spiritual new age. When we finally wake up and choose to be ourselves in full, to take responsibility for our lives and our health it is a true miracle. Deep appreciation goes to serge benhayon for living the wisdom enough for us to finally have this true and lasting choice and our way of the livingness in life.

     1. Yes, I was very lost and wandering on that path to no where until I came across my first ever Universal Medicine Heart Chakra workshop. It wasn’t a big bang or bells and whistles but it was this quiet knowing that I had never felt a person with that much integrity before in my life. As soon as I met Serge Benhayon somewhere deep inside me knew that this was different. Since then I have come to realise in that first meeting I met and felt everything that Serge lives, and knew it was true.

        1. So true Vicky, being met with the integrity that Serge Benhayon lives is quite an amazing experience and one cannot but be touched by the level of truth and love he lives and expresses with all equally so.

        2. I agree Vicky, being met with the integrity that Serge Benhayon lives is an amazing experience and one cannot but be touched by the truth and love he lives and expresses with all equally so.

198. Thank you for sharing this Beverly, I am sure there are many searching as you did, lost in the spiritual New Age. I like this line – “I had missed the point completely and had actually disempowered myself by choosing to ignore the fact that all I required was inside of me.” – so profound.

199. What I found with the spiritual new age when I was on that path was that it was all about mental energy – I have never experienced anything other than Esoteric Medicine suggesting I feel from my body what is right for me. It is definitely a game changer for me.

     1. This is true for me also Christine, the more grounded I become, the clearer my thoughts and the deeper my awareness. The complete opposite of what the spiritual new age sets up.

200. Beverley living life this way makes total sense and is something I’ve never felt more sure of in my life. I love what you write about pendulums here, which I too was attracted to for a while or people who were using them – totally giving my power away. ‘Well if I was really connected to my Soul, why would I need an outside indicator?’ We have everything we need deep within us to guide us along our journey and that’s truly amazing. If only we were taught that in schools today!

     1. Exactly Candida, a school curriculum with a foundation of expanding the knowing that we have everything inside would be an awesome start to turning around so many of the ills we see appear on a personal level, which then affect us, and all out in the world.

201. Thank you Beverly. Isn’t it amazing that we dabble in these modalities knowing full well they are not it? I know as I did this myself for many years, giving my power away to something that didn’t feel right. My involvement with Universal Medicine changed all that, nothing has ever felt more right. We all know the truth deep down as we carry it in our bodies, time to claim what we have always known.

202. I used to practice meditation to escape from my life and the aim was to have an epiphany. I thought I worked so hard at trying to make this happen, in actual fact I wasn’t really doing anything accept indulging and avoiding any responsibility for the lack of integrity of the energy I was working with. Since finding Universal Medicine my life has changed dramatically. I now participate fully in my life, no more drugs and alcohol. I run three different companies, do volunteer work and have teenage children and every moment is an epiphany or a point of evolution if I choose it to be. I am not sitting around checked out waiting for it to happen. Because of the integrity that I live in opportunities are always there for me to reflect on and develop.

     1. Awesome nicolesjardin, a great sharing of how it was, and how it is now, and the change is truly felt in your words.

        1. Thank you Beverly.

203. This is very interesting to read Beverly. I was hooked on all things spiritual new agey as well, yet could not shake this feeling of anxiety in my body. I was foggy, unwell, nothing helped that I tried. I actually just got more and more unwell over the years. The new age talked about love but didn’t translate it to being practical, a lot of my new age teachers drank alcohol and ate chocolate cake and used pawns like crystals to help them ‘heal’ me. It was Universal Medicine and the Ageless Wisdom Teachings that showed me I have everything I need inside of me. That I am full and deeply capable – amazing in fact – with what I have inside of me – no pawns (or cake that was exhausting me) needed. The stillness I have reconnected to inside of myself and the support I have received to understand and build a relationship with myself and my soul is so real and so true… all of those spiritual new age things never ever did that.. as you say they merge spirit and soul as one thing and do not understand the difference between the two energies we have to choose from in life. My health and wellbeing have changed completely since finding the teachings of The Ageless Wisdom, a wisdom that says you are love, you are from love and every single thing you do, say, eat, think, drink etc can come from this love if you so choose. Real love, not like your Reiki teacher who would speak love and then annihilate himself with alcohol – love that cares so deeply for you and is seen in everything you do. Love is a very consistent choice and one I am making my way… everyday!

     1. I agree Kate, we have had similar experiences, and I too was super anxious underneath a very smiley exterior and my arrogance would not allow me to admit just how bad I was actually feeling and admit that what I was doing just was not working. A huge blessing to find Universal Medicine and break this cycle of searching outwardly.

204. I love your comment Francis. Thank you.
     “Universal Medicine has empowered me to be responsible and be in control of my life and in that, feel the equality and beauty that I am with everybody else around me.”
     So beautiful and so true.

205. It is the arrogance of feeling better than everybody else that a lot of people in the spiritual path have, this only creates further separation and keeps people in the illusion that life is getting better without taking responsibility for anything. Universal Medicine has empowered me to be responsible and be in control of my life and in that, feel the equality and beauty that I am with everybody else around me.

     1. You have nailed it here Franciscoclara8. Like Beverley, I too was a spiritual seeker at one time and in my experience Universal Medicine is the only ‘teaching’ where students are not imposed upon but quite the contrary. As you say, Universal Medicine presentations empower a student to be responsible and to be in control of their own life and in that, feel the equality and beauty that we are with everybody else around us. Unfortunately not everyone is ready to take that level of responsibility!

206. Beverly, I can relate to your exploration of the spiritual new-age and went on that path myself before Universal Medicine. I too was a vegetarian and held the belief that eating meat kept me heavy and further from my soul. I now see that as a ridiculous belief I was holding as I now feel in my body how much meat supports me. I no longer eat from what I think I should because someone has said it is good for me, but I eat according to how my body feels.

     1. A great point Donna. When we are outwardly searching it is so easy to be led into believing what others tell us is good for us and act on that. When we start to truly FEEL for ourselves we find the empowerment in the knowing that we actually do know ourselves.

207. Beverley, I was also ‘tricked and trapped in the Spiritual New Age’ and gave my power to gurus, tarot cards and spiritual healing techniques. I got lost in a cold dead end for a good part of my life. I got more and more drained and withdrew further from committing to life until finally I got very sick and was forced to take a good look at my life. It was soon after this that I came to Universal Medicine and started making different choices. I realized that I am not a victim of circumstances, that I am responsible for my life and I do not need to look to others for answers.

     1. Sandra – you seeing, naming and expressing the fact of the cold cul-de-sac of the Spiritual New Age and your choosing of responsibility in your life feels very strong, very based on you living that. I love it!

     2. Awesome Sandra. “I realized that I am not a victim of circumstances, that I am responsible for my life and I do not need to look to others for answers.”

208. Thank you Beverly for sharing your amazing journey back to you, to your essence.
     I especially noted the words at the beginning of your article “…eventually led me to Universal Medicine and The Way of the Livingness where I finally became free of all the impositions of the Spiritual New Age.” with the emphasis being on “free of all the impositions”. I found that to be my experience also – what a God given gift, and indeed a blessing to have re-found and re-connected with what we were looking for when it was right there under our noses so to speak – and even closer than that – it was within all the time – it had never left us – but at a distant past time we had chosen to become separate from that love. I thank God for the opportunity that was offered by meeting Serge Benhayon who by inspiration has presented the possibility of there being another way.

209. In looking outside of myself through the spiritual path of ‘yoga’ I only added to the issues and dilemmas I was already facing. It was only through Esoteric Healing and then the other Esoteric Healing Modalities that became available, as taught by Universal Medicine was I finally able to begin to truly heal (and undo what any spiritual yoga practices had further added.)

210. This really does highlight the trap that we can fall into when we give our power away to what is not truly us. Thank you for sharing this.

211. Thank you Beverley for sharing the path walked by so many. The immediate stop for me was when I heard Serge Benhayon talk about spirit and soul. This was the start of all the understanding I needed to move away from the spiritual new age “Never before had I been met with the truth about Spirit and Soul and that there are actually two types of energy, one being the fiery energy of the Soul and the other being the pranic energy of the Spirit with all its emotional baggage. Simple, yet profound.” This answered all the questions I had had around energy over the years and made absolute sense.

     1. Yes Julie, it was a question that I had never got an answer to until meeting Serge and then all the years of uncertainty became clear and I was able to address and see what was there to be seen. The smoke screen had been removed.

212. Thanks for sharing your journey Beverley, there is so much that does not hold truth in relation to spiritual new age and It can be a place ,where it is very easy to get lost . Your story and the many others are living proof of the benefits of the very simple gentle breath meditation in helping us to re- connect to our ourselves .

213. I wonder what sparks that feeling of knowing that their is more to this world? And it fascinates me that we look for ‘the answer’ in all sorts of modalities, however we never just stop to ask ourselves what it is we are looking for.

     1. A great point Madeline. Its like the search is going on but not knowing what it is we search for. This all became clear for me after meeting Serge Benhayon and I was introduced to the fact that what I searched for was the re-connection to the love I am. And all possible through my own gentle breath. Awesomely simple and so so profoundly life changing.

214. Thanks Beverley, this gives those who choose to read your blog an opportunity to start to ask better quality questions of themselves if they too have been lured-in by the many hundreds or thousands of new age healing modalities around these days.

     1. There are a lot of things out there to trick us but when we find the truth we know. In truth there is no longer the uncertainty of looking and searching because we have an inner knowing of finding it. Search over. Done. Back to love. Awesome.

215. “The simplicity of the presentations by Universal Medicine and the practical common sense way of being they offered was profound”.
     So very profound and powerful.
     The search is over… Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon are it xx

216. I agree the search is over. The Ageless Wisdom is exactly that, Ageless…. Wisdom…

217. You so beautifully express just how Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine supported you, and me too actually, “… to stop being a victim of my own choices and began to make choices that supported me and my well-being. Making loving choices is the absolutely foundational key to healing.

218. I was looking for love in all the wrong places as I travelled through the spiritual new age and it was when I experienced the loving teachings of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine that I came to realize that the love I was looking for was always right there in me. As you say Beverly “The search is over, This is IT”.

     1. Many of us had a similar journey Lynda and it took meeting Serge Benhayon and attending Universal Medicine presentations for us to realise that the truth was very simple. The love that we were searching for was within us all along. From here on let’s raise our children so that they continue to hold their loving connection and have no need to search as we did!

219. In a similar story to yours, Beverley, I immersed myself in the ‘spiritual new age’ desperately looking for answers. And every step of the way there were snares to entice me deeper. I carried great disquiet at this time.

     In Universal Medicine I met and understood all over again true responsibility and the fact that there is nothing outside of me that will ‘fix me up’. Every moment is now an opportunity to deepen my relationship with myself which in turn deepens my relationship with the big picture…all of humanity.

     1. Hi Matilda what you share is quite profound and I relate to ” I carried great disquiet at this time.” as this was the way for me. Always thinking I was healing myself (from the outside) but actually creating more tension as I was moving further away from the truth. And all this whilst avoiding taking responsibility for myself but thinking I was doing well. Such a trick to fall for but really great to see this now and be able to share it.
        Taking true responsibility for ourselves is such a huge part for us to embrace for ourselves and all.

220. Yes, this is it! sums it up beautifully. No more searching for truth, it is right here.

221. Beverley I can so relate to the ‘looking outside’ for the answer and all the guided meditations which took me on a wooded path to nowhere and never did they connect me to the truth of who I am. The gentle breath as you mention did, it is simple and true and brought me home to me.

222. Your story shows to me how if a reporter has an idea in their head about what slant they are going to take in their article, they usually will never be willing to take correction and back down, and indeed, keep piling on more false evidence to prove their points. To do otherwise would mean lack of face and perhaps losing their job. But which is more important, their job or their integrity? Something is a amiss when they choose outer acclaim rather than inner honesty and truth.

223. “The search is over – This is IT”…..indeed it is Beverley, indeed it is. After being on a spiritual journey for the past 20 years I am glad to have found the truth. It is pretty cool.

     1. Sarah – I couldn’t agree more. That we have finally found it, and our true selves, is the greatest treasure on earth.

        1. Absolutely Lyndy, the search is over not because I found it! but because I found my true self within and realised that I had been living from a very poor false sense of me most of my life.

     2. “The search is over – This is IT” had me jumping for my keyboard too. But after reading Lyndy’s comment I feel that “The search is over – WE are IT” maybe even more appropriate. Fancy looking everywhere outside of ourselves for the missing something when all along we already had it all within. We was conned!

        1. Yes David it is almost funny how we keep on looking and looking and all along there it is right in front of us, well even closer than that actually as it is all inside just waiting to be connected to and expressed forth. Super cool.

224. I love the way you end this sharing Beverley.. ‘The search is over, this is it!’ It is for me too. The profound is made so simple when we accept that what we are looking for is already within us and could it be that we actually know that on some level but can’t accept it?

     1. I love your comment Bernadette “The profound is made so simple when we accept that what we are looking for is already within us ” Thank you.

225. Yes your blog resonates with me very well….I too dabbled into the spiritual new age a very broad term, like a fun park…., whatever ride I would go on, it did exactly that, I went for a ride and as you said I too gave my power to that ride, that it would get me somewhere, give me something that was sustaining but never the case….When I first met Serge Benhayon, I knew I hit the jackpot – it was the one time where my knowing was as solid as a rock… because I had reconnected back to me…and in that reconnection back to me comes the knowing that it is all within….I love the steadiness of my connection to me and the grandness within that is unfolding by the day…and to to be shared as this same grandness is in us all….

     1. Yes Karoline, I too dabbled in the spiritual new age and gave my power to several rides, thinking that it would get me somewhere, but this was never the case. Nothing felt true until I met Serge Benhayon. After attending my first presentation with Serge, I knew without a doubt that I had come home.

        1. I agree Anne. The first presentation by Serge Benhayon I attended was the turning point I had been waiting for. And to find it was all within, was an awesome revelation.

226. Beverly I to suffered from total arrogance due to belief in alternate lifestyles. Now I look back I can see my life was a great mess yet I judged all those around me for how they lived. This was the arrogance, thinking I had it all sorted or close to sorted when my life was in complete upheaval. Crazy.

     1. Yes Toni the arrogance trap is quite a big one and a great one to let go of. Beautiful to feel the freedom of being me and allowing others to be themselves without all the judgements of what they are doing running through my head.

        1. Your words are really well placed and carry so much power. Well said Beverley

227. I was only thinking the other day how much all the spiritual new age stuff I was involved in actually stunted my growth, like you I also had an air of arrogance which saw others who where not ‘spiritual’ as less this in itself is so wrong! And is something the new age material often encourages.

228. Thanks you reminded me of the first workshop I went to with Serge benhayon and the true tears of joy and immense relief that I could be with love. I’m still on the journey but recognise the path – staying on it is simple once the pesky spirit is shown displacement by the soul.

229. It is great to read how Beverley had taken total responsibility for what she had chosen. In a world where so much is thrust on you as the cure or the solution, and you are asked to make great investment in it, because if you believe in it enough it will work. It is easy to ignore all the signs your body offers you that there is no truth in this ‘spiritual’ way of being. There is no ‘secret’, the truth is right there in our body! I have also heard the words a ‘healing crises’ recently under the illusion that it is productive to foster great emotional upheaval to assist a ‘healing’ process. What a sad place spiritual healing has come to if it advocates to that disharmony can be cleared by going into more severe disharmony.

230. “I chose to be oblivious of the fact that the ‘Reiki Master’ I trained with had a drinking problem: even after seeing him drunk and feeling the intensity of the horrible energy that came from him,” I have done this in life, over rode my feelings and common sense to not look at the hypocrisy that has been before me. I have only however done this when it suited me. I have realised that we all collude to some degree if it means that we will not have our own issues exposed. However this in itself is an illusion, our issues remain and we are prisoner to them if we do not have the courage to look at them and see the truth for what it is…Great that you expose and this is such an honest and supportive blog..

231. I can relate very much to what you write Beverley, I was very caught up in the spiritual new age too, doing a well-known and highly reputed hands on healing course at the time I came across Serge Benhayon. My motto at the time was ‘fake it till you make it’ and I too was relieved to find dowsing as a more definitive method of ‘diagnosis’, taking away any need to feel for myself things that I knew I didn’t feel. But like you, I couldn’t shake a feeling of discomfort with all these spiritual practices… and didn’t take up any of them with any real commitment. I kept looking basically… until I had a session with Serge Benhayon, and from that day I can say in retrospect that I knew l’d found it. I didn’t realise till later that from that day I stopped looking elsewhere, and all those things l’d done just seemed superficial, insubstantial and way off the mark. Today I am a million miles from where I was 13 years ago as a result of the Ageless Wisdom as taught through Universal Medicine, and am a dedicated student of The Way of the Livingness also.

232. Beautiful Beverly, you story made me reflect on how we spend our lives seeking solutions, when all we ever really long for is love. When we see we are love, naturally, there is no way we will settle again.

     1. Yes Joseph it seems that a lot of the Spiritual New Age is geared to offer solutions when as you say here
        “we spend our lives seeking solutions, when all we ever really long for is love”
        Love is the simple key to it all.

233. Spiritual arrogance is a big one, I know I had it when I was walking a Path to ‘break free’.
     I thought that I really was better off than anyone who did not walk that path.
     Arrogance is always lurking around the corner, it is a perfect way to keep a distance and stay in a cocoon.

234. Great Blog Beverly, you could of written this for most of humanity, Im so greatful that I have found the way of the livingness, no more looking for me, I’m here for good.

235. Thank you Beverly for an honest and open account of your spiritual searching, one of which I can relate to. Ten years of searching led me nowhere except very desperate and despondent with life and everything it has to offer and in those moments of despair I used to say ‘there has to be more to life than this’.
     Then I found Universal Medicine and discovered yes, there was more to life and that there are genuine people I can trust who will always tell me the truth.

     1. Wow Julie you just reminded me of the familiar question that I also often posed
        ‘there has to be more to life than this’.
        Exactly the point, as the ‘this’ I was living was not, it at all.
        Then comes Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine with simple presentations of living love. Now, ‘This is it’ Living the simplicity of love. Awesome

        1. Yes definitely. And Serge never once said ‘This is it’. He just showed us how to do the Gentle Breath Meditation, showed us ways to develop self-love as the awareness of what is not loving becomes more acute. Anyone can say anything is true and gain a following, but energy gives away any inconsistencies. With Universal Medicine I have experienced nothing but consistent integrity.

     2. I can relate to this Julie. I left the UK in my early 20s to travel Australia with that same question, and I thought that I’d find it in a different country. Twenty years on, and still searching, I’d said ‘I know the answers are inside me, I just don’t know how to access them’. Bingo! My soul constellated exactly what I needed to find the Ageless Wisdom teachings when a few months later I came across Serge Benhayon’s book ‘The Way It Is’ and knew that this was indeed it.

236. A beautiful observation Cherise. Thank you for sharing.
     “The difference is chalk and cheese and the more I experience both energies – the more I know that it is a soulful way of living that I would much prefer to live and in fact it is my responsibility to myself and all others in this world to make every choice that I can to live this loving way.”

237. Great article, thank you. I didn’t find myself interested in the spiritual new age and so when I came across Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon it was the first I had really done any study for myself into the difference of Spirit and Soul and today I can experience a clear difference between these two energies. I have found that I am either in connection to one or the other in any moment .. with one I feel out-of-sorts, sometimes foggy, reactive and sluggish in my daily routines as I experience much going on in my head – thoughts, emotions and anxieties and yet when I am feeling in connection to my soul, my very being, I feel light with a sense of ease in the world, really joyful and have a knowingness about me that I have no real issues and in fact have a lot of trust and acceptance in myself and in my Soul and with God to be with me and supporting me.
     The difference is chalk and cheese and the more I experience both energies – the more I know that it is a soulful way of living that I would much prefer to live and in fact it is my responsibility to myself and all others in this world to make every choice that I can to live this loving way.

238. The true power of your lived wisdom is very evident in the way you have shared your journey with us in this blog. This is a strong reminder for me that sharing honestly and openly from life’s experiences leaves no room to be challenged in any way.

     1. Well said Greg, the journey made from modalities based on comfort, to the true connection to soul is written with true clarity.

239. I agree totally with everything you have expressed, I also spent many years going from one thing to another looking for ‘the answer’. I did Reiki courses where one of the teachers, studying to become a Reiki master, and most of the participants smoked marijuana and/or drank regularly, and the Master teacher was aware of this. At no time was there any mention of the effect this was having on our own bodies and incredibly there was no discussion at all of the effect we would have on the people we worked on. Not one of the teachers, gurus or modalities that I listened to or took part in ever taught of energetic responsibility. I did so many different styles of meditation and breathing techniques, to no avail, that when I learnt of the Gentle Breath meditation and the Ageless Wisdom teachings from Serge Benhayon I could hardly believe that such a simple technique and such simple wisdom could so quickly and so easily produce such profound changes, but within a short period my life had completely turned around.

240. Thank you Beverly for taking us through your journey of the spritual new age. I haven’t dabbled in much else except for some mind training if you like, which, after finding The Way of the Livingness, made me realise that trying to operate from my head was not the answer if my body was screaming the opposite.

     1. A great revelation Elodie “finding The Way of the Livingness, made me realise that trying to operate from my head was not the answer if my body was screaming the opposite.”
        So clear are the signs when we really take a look at what is going on for us. Our head may think its in charge and knows the way, but the body tells the truth. Awesome.

241. Thank you Beverley for sharing your journey. It makes me want to have a good look back and see and understand what was behind my wandering life of trying different things. Nothing I explored seem to last long, back then I couldn’t say why. There was Shiatsu, Martial arts, Reiki, aromatherapy, and a myriad of other spiritual healing/ creative/ self help groups and teachers. I was trying to work out who I was and wanted to be: was I going to be a photographer, an aerial performer, a writer, a healer, a cook, a world traveller and quester? Reading the title of this blog, there was a part of me that laughed inside arrogantly that I never felt trapped by the Spiritual New Age.
     What I think is funnier now, as I write, is that actually the greater truth is I was trapped in my life of searching for myself, but outside of myself!
     Nothing had answers for me, hence why I kept moving on, creating a convoluted life of not knowing myself. I had accumulated so much ‘knowledge’ about a ton of things that actually had nothing tangible or real.
     It was only when I came to the simple practical teachings of Universal Medicine,that I then realised I had been searching for this all my life: that the love and all the answers I am looking for are in me.. and that I am everything! I am still discarding the habits that created the trap I have been living in. The search is indeed over and I haven’t looked back, but perhaps I will.. It will allow me to take full stock of my journey, enabling myself to see what habits of my past are still with me! I want to move forward with my whole, true self fully in the lead!

242. I know what you mean when you write here Beverley “Looking back I am aware of the trap and total arrogance I had fallen into, along with a feeling that I was a better human being because I was part of the ‘Spiritual New Age’ bandwagon”. I too have fallen into the trap of thinking I was a better human for certain lifestyle choices I was making!

     1. Lots of people who were with me on my ‘spiritual bandwagon’ thought they were better human beings, that never felt quite right, and when I heard Serge Benhayon, I knew why. I jumped off, but still see the righteous arrogance in people I know who are still on it. Some of them have read Serge Benhayon’s books, but only relate to the parts that they feel justify their own way of being. Not ready yet, but one day…….

243. Nicole your comment ” how could it be so powerfull, it all sounded too simple” made me laugh. After years of ‘mastering’ complicated ways of approaching life with various New Age modalities and teachings, I too was struck with the simplicity of everything presented by Serge Benhayon – at times credulous and at time so very relieved to hear someone say what I suspected all along. Then when I did little exercises to explore what he was saying, the truth of what he was presenting was unmistakable. Such a blessing to have finally found something that makes so much sense and feels so right.

     1. I have found the same as well Golnaz, what always blows me away is how simple and practical what Serge Behayon presents is and yet it is so profound, the knock on effects it has had on my life are amazing – no words can say how much my life has changed for the better.

244. Amazing to feel how there was absolutely NO responsibility for the way of life we choose to live in ANY of the modalities you tried outside of what was presented by Chris James and Serge Benhayon. Absolute arrogance really as the quality of how we live and the quality of how we feel living are one and the same. Naturally if we want to live a more whole life we have to take responsibility for how we choose to live each and every day.

     1. Great point Joshua, If you look at all the other modalities as a whole the scale of the problem is very clear. In my limited experience of other modalities it seemed like everyone was looking to escape the hardships of life. The complete opposite from being committed to life and the quality you are in life. Perhaps that’s because when one chooses that path that is what one is looking for? I know whilst a teenager I had a period of exploring some of the new age shops and so called “magic” and it certainly took my mind off school but the amount of drugs, drinking and promiscuity showed the emptiness that was there just in a different “alternative” setting.

     2. Hi Joshua, I agree with your words in response to Beverly, “Naturally if we want to live a more whole life we have to take responsibility to choose to live each and every day” and I am also findinig the responsibility even stretches to not choosing to allow the energy of self-doubt in and dilute that which we know we know at a deeper level within.

     3. So true Joshua. I pursued the New Age modalities for around 10 years – what a total waste of time, money and energy. None of these modalities brought me any closer to the truth of who I am, and in fact, they took me further away, evident by the state of my health, my relationships, my attitude towards work – every area of my life really. And I saw the same in everyone else. We were all using these modalities as medication, to manage our lives but not taking any responsibility for how we lived each moment of the day, so nothing actually changed. Thank God for Universal Medicine!

        1. Have to appreciate everyday what truly loving choices we have made, and continue to make, in relation to where we once were at.

245. It’s true Beverly, the Ageless Wisdom teachings do make a lot of sense.

246. The Spiritual New Age is such a trap: it promises so much – to empower one and provide answers. As you express so clearly, Beverley, it does the complete opposite,

     “Well if I was really connected to my Soul, why would I need an outside indicator? Surely I could trust what I felt from the inside? So the pendulum had to go, along with all the crystals as I realised I had totally given myself away by investing all my power into them. I had missed the point completely and had actually disempowered myself by choosing to ignore the fact that all I required was inside of me”.

247. I would like to take this article and put a copy of it on every self help bookshelf in the country. There is so much to be lost by pursuing the spiritual new age. It can be hard to accept that – I for one pursued that path with a passion, only to find myself 10 years later much worse off. The proof is in the pudding as they say – the Gentle Breath Meditation not only works, it is free to the world, and takes only 5-10 minutes a day.

     1. Awesome Heather, after tripping around the block several times at not only the expense of our bank accounts but also the time we waste in ‘finding ourselves’ we actually come to realise that we have in fact lost ourselves further. And then, in finding Universal Medicine and the simplicity of the Gentle Breath Meditation, we find ourselves home. Search over.

     2. Absolutely Heather and Beverley – it could be up in every bookshop around the whole world! – I spent two years trekking the globe intent on finding the truth of us.. and found an awful lot of people professing great insight and spiritual enlightenment, and all of it made me uneasy, but somehow I figured they must know something – because the otherwise world I knew was definitely not right. Just because the world was insane, it doesn’t automatically mean the offered alternative is true. It was such an immense joy to discover someone who presents something that makes sense, and that can be understood and confirmed for oneself. Simple and practical and yet delivers truth.

248. Hi Beverley,

     This is such a needed expose on the spiritual new age. I too remember the years of giving my power away to crystals and whatever healing quality someone had told me they had. Wearing them, meditating with them, placing them around the room. The spiritual new age way was me meditating or using crystals to try to fix my anxiety rather than going and talking to the person I wasn’t speaking up to!

     1. Hi Rebecca, what you share sounds so familiar and yet another exposure of how the tools and tricks that the Spiritual New Age offer can lead us further away from the simplicity of the truth, for as you share here it would be much simpler to express the truth rather than try and meditate the situation away.

     2. Well said Rebecca, it “is such a needed expose on the spiritual new age”. I know many people, who have spent years essentially getting nowhere, moving from one modality onto the next without actually dealing with or addressing any of their underlying hurts. It was not until Universal Medicine that I was asked to take responsibility for my life and my actions, and from there well I have not looked back.

     3. Rebecca I love your comment. It’s got me pondering on what I do to avoid dealing with an issue and trying to use something to rely on rather than my inner resources. I know recently I’ve been anxious but, thanks to Universal Medicine, I’ve used the gentle breath to re-connect to myself. Prior to sitting down and being present I committed to beign willing to be present with whatever awareness that may arise knowing that my essense was beneath it all, a constant that I can rely on no matter what.

        My experience of me is something I am slowly building and appreciating. I can feel it is what is supporting me to let go of relying on what’s outside me to relieve any anxiety. In fact, nothing outside of myself actually works in erradicating anxiety – it just numbs out the anxiety I’ve let in. Choosing to connect in full brings a beautiful ease and lightness and a wonderful perspective to my life where I can be myself.

     4. Well said Rebecca. The spiritual new age was a huge distraction for me, so much mumbo jumbo and very little common sense.

249. I just read this for the second time Beverly and got more out of it still. A great blog — understanding the difference between Spirit and Soul is a game changer.

     1. I agree Rebecca and the unfortunate thing is that most people don’t even know there is any difference between the Spirit and Soul.

250. It seems hard to believe that the answer to a connection to yourself could be so simple. We seem to search for complication in our answers as if that would explain why we haven’t found the feeling we want for ourselves. I know when I was looking outside myself for a solution for any woes in my life, the more complicated the answer, the better. I would then feel very intelligent, yet nothing would really change. Now I build on the solid foundation of me every day.

     1. I suppose that our spirit doesn’t like simplicity therefore the complicated Spiritual modalities had a great appeal.

251. Ah, yes. The flying on an eagle through the cosmos meditation, or the secret path through the woods meditation, etc. etc. etc. It is amazing to compare the simplicity of the gentle breath meditation to the complexity of all of the guided meditations I experienced. With the guided meditations I always had to really concentrate on what was going on or what I was supposed to do next. It totally took me out of my body and into my head (sometimes being out of my body was the stated intention), but the gentle breath is something else all together. Right from the get go, there is an acceptance of who I am and where I am at, and this brings such ease to it. It truly feels natural to reconnect in this way.

252. I love how you explained why you no longer needed the crystals or pendulums – life gets very very simple when we let go of letting the outside dictate how life can be, and instead use the inner guide we all have to make decisions.

253. I always felt, like you Beverley, that there was something ‘more’ – and that there must be a reason for al these alternate medicines to exist.
     Whilst some of these alternate medicines interested me more than others, I never really committed to one particular way. But reading your story shows me that it can be very easy to get pulled in to only one way of seeing the world.
     What is amazing about Universal Medicine, and this adds to why I have committed to it – is that it does not exclude ‘the other’ and it has respect for however which way people choose to live – and Universal Medicine has always supported western medicine. It also makes us take responsibility and not give our power away to a solution that can fix everything. I’ve never come across anything like that before.

254. Beverley whilst reading your journey/story I started to ponder on the fact that even at the time when I would involve myself in things I wanted to be “the answer” there was always part of me that knew this was not it. Therefore it makes me consider that I was always aware on some level as I am sure most people are, yet choose to ignore the feeling or little voice of truth accepting something that would never be fulfilling yet trying to make it so. As soon as I came to my first universal medicine event I knew the feeling was completely true and I felt full in myself again.

255. A great sharing of your journey to universal medicine

256. It is always so great to read a journey of another student. Thank you Beverley for writing this.

257. After I realised my religion was meaningless for me I began a search for something to take it’s place. My search led me into Reiki, crystals, Indian Guides – everything that the New Age had to offer – but none of it held my interest for long. None of it gave me anything I was looking for: no joy, no guidance or satisfaction and definitely no feeling of it’s being right or true. What a relief it was to find Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine and to be able to follow the Way of the Livingness in love, joy and total commitment.

258. Thank you Beverley I enjoyed reading your blog. With the final punchline: “The search is over – This is IT.” very simple, powerful and profound as you write from your experience- no more- no less. It is awesome to read how you were able to free yourself.

259. I was just reading your amazing blog again Beverley and your opening words rang such a bell with me – it was the feeling that there was something more to the world than what we could physically see and apprehend, that led me to the world of clairvoyance and mediumship. I had always known within that ‘healing’ existed and when the time came, in my twenties (in the 1960s) , when I knew I needed a healer, I asked my GP if she knew any healers. She pointed me towards Reiki and The Spiritualist Church – it was the Spiritualist Church that I chose as I could not feel any healing happening when I tried some Reiki. So I fell for the ‘other one’ (both the same but with different flavours). These ‘groups’ were just sitting there like a spider’s web, ready to catch anyone who was looking, but had lost their way, as I had.
     What has revealed itself gradually over the years is the fact that we think we are going for some alternative but it is just another trap – only truth serves, as you so beautifully demonstrate in this blog.

     1. It is interesting how so many have been trapped in the Spiritual Age modalities. We all had the same pattern – we were soul searching and these modalities were appealing to our very excited spirit.

260. The teachings of Universal Medicine certainly break through that arrogance of the many who take part and believe in the “new agey” stuff, and also alternative therapies, and do not know they have. I certainly thought I was very liberal minded and open to everything, but have discovered how stubborn and arrogant I was. Humbleness is so beautifully demonstrated by Serge Benhayon in his daily life and the way he meets everyone, a long way from so many practitioners I have experienced in the past.

261. I agree totally Beverley, understanding the difference between spirit and soul has taken me off the old path of spiritual journeys. This trick has sent many people down the rabbit warren I used to live in. The Way of the Livingness is my choice to live my life on a daily basis, not following some crazy guru.

262. I can relate to spending a lot of time and money searching, by attending all kinds of spiritual new age modalities but none of them were the answer, somehow they started out great but soon showed me that there was no truth or consistency from myself or from the teachers.
     Then I found Universal Medicine and after 8 years I am still being presented with truth, consistency and commitment at a level I would never have thought possible.

263. Often we can stay blind to a certain way of living as we really want to make it work, even though everything in our body is screaming that this isn’t right. That is why I have found Universal Medicine so amazing, it never pushed me to follow any way except that which feels right in my body, and that has lead to a deepening level of self care that is far removed from a spiritual path or journey but is instead just sensible everyday living.

264. “I chose to be oblivious of the fact that the ‘Reiki Master’ I trained with had a drinking problem…” This is just too funny to read. It’s so spot on a lesson for everyone to know that we cannot really be very healing for others if we do things that are not healing for ourselves. Life just so easily gives us these playful lessons to learn from.

265. Love it, love it, love it.

266. It is a great thing to find the truth, after it has been in you for a very long time. And feel that everything you’ve tried was only things that distracted from the real you, I think it is very beautiful.

267. Learning the difference between spirit and soul was life changing. It made complete sense and I can now easily see how I was tricked by the spiritual new age and how much of a massive distraction it is to humanity.

     1. For me too Matthew, learning the difference between spirit and soul was a revelation and a revolution !

268. I too was trapped in the spiritual new age for many years always searching and never finding the answers I desperately wanted. How glorious my life is now, no more searching needed, all the truth, love and wisdom was always within. Thank you to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine for this amazing gift!

269. Beverley I love this blog because you have brought forth so many amazing points…
     spirit & soul, seeking outside of ourselves,arrogance and taking responsibility for our well-being.
     I used to say ‘oneness and duality’ feeling the difference we had on the planet between caring for everyone and being separate and so when I heard Serge Benhayon speak about the difference between soul & spirit…. EVERYthing seemed to make sense. This was the beginning for me and my true re-connection with soul.

270. “Serge Benhayon, Universal Medicine, Truth, Spirit & Soul – Search Over! ” The search was over for me too, after too many years into various spiritual modalities which never satisfied, all looking outwards for the answer, when it was there inside me all along. Thanks for sharing Beverley.

271. I was not one to get caught up in new age modalities but I found many other ways of distracting myself to maintain the separation from me. So lost was I in sport, work, alcohol and being the provider for my family that that I would not have had time to explore the “spiritual new age” arena. I always looked at the spiritual new age area as being a bit whacky, a bit out there and what I was doing was the “right thing”. My very conservative upbringing coming to the fore here. In fact there is little difference between them, they both pull us further into the separation. For many years I thought what I was doing was just me. At times I would question this, particularly around alchohol, but I would always settle for the comfort of where I was. When introduced to Universal Medicine things started to make sense. When attending presentations I was constantly saying to myself, I know that or that feels familiar. This had never occurred for me before. The truth that I feel in The Way of the Livingness means that the search, that I was barely aware of, is over. The truth lies within me, always has been and always will be.

272. An awesome ‘good news’ story or account of becoming free from the spiritual new age, congratulations Beverly! I too was deeply immersed in the spiritual new age and what I celebration it was (and is) to cut the shackles and break free from its insidious imprisonment. Thanks to Serge Benhayon and his clarity and courage to expose the deceit and lies.

273. Thank you Beverly, your story I suspect is similar to many as the search to connect and feel Love is obscured by much smoke and mirrors. Once the truth is felt the smoke and mirrors are revealed as clear as day. The account of your journey is lovely to read.

274. “I stopped being a victim of my own choices and began to make choices that supported me and my well-being”. How freeing is it to realise we have the choice not to be the victim and to take responsibility for ourselves. Thank you for sharing your experience of ‘new age’ spirituality, I too have felt the arrogance that this comes with and I have also felt the amount of responsibility and integrity that Universal Medicine offers, what a difference!

275. What a massive change for you from crystal healing to embracing conventional medicine.
     Wow.

276. Reading this Beverly made me remember how complicated spirituality was before I knew of the honesty and intelligence of my body, my breath and my soul. The simplicity is the difference and it is a bone deep joy to feel that difference. Thank you for sharing your story here.

     1. Me too Rebecca…the new age spirituality always had complication and always left me feeling like less. The simplicity of the soul has a lightness and an ease that confirms me as an equal and with a knowing that the wisdom has and always is within.

     2. Thank you Rebecca, you summed it up so beautifully- the simplicity of living honestly in connection to the intelligence of our body, breath and soul.

277. Having been lost in life for a long time, not knowing which way to turn, Universal Medicine showed me a different way and path to follow that has truly enhanced my way of living.

     1. I agree Mike. Until finding Universal Medicine I had not realised how lost I was and as you say my way of living has been transformed and as a result truly enhanced.

278. I agree Beverley this is it, I knew from the very first course I attended even though I didn’t really have much to compare it to having never really dabbled in the new agey stuff,but I just knew.

279. Thank you Beverley Bulmer for such an honest account of a journey through the underbelly of the ‘new age’. “Taking responsibility for my well being” is a key phrase that Beverley wrote, as this really calls to account ANY practice that side-steps self responsibility, as does investment in all the crystals, cards, and candles and all other accouterments of the ‘spiritual’ seeker. We are responsible for where we are now, and we are accountable for our words, thoughts and deeds. We must truly know ourselves to understand the depths of self responsibility.

     1. Well said Chris. And who would have thought that self-responsibility can actually be a JOY…not the heavy burden that we imagine it to be!

        1. Yes Rebecca the Joy of self responsibility as it is definitely, “not the heavy burden that we imagine it to be.”

     2. Yes Chris, any so-called attempt to shift responsibility to any other thing or another may be a ‘temporary panacea’ but it doesn’t ever truly work, as Beverley outlines so well.

280. Beverly your blog is such a familiar story for so many people. The spiritual new age is laced with trickery and illusion. Thank you for starting this conversation to install how important it is for us to actually discern what we are getting involved with.

281. Awesome Tim, I found embracing truth to be such a great support and in doing so it inspired me to make the changes required to bring this truth to my body as a way of living.

282. A lovely blog Beverley. I too was drawn for a while to Reiki, but when I decided to train at Level 2, I did not feel at all comfortable. The trainer showed no regard for the group she was going to work with, making us wait over an hour while she did other things she wanted to do before being available to do the course. I did not like the feel of what was being presented, and when I had a session with her a day or so later, she doubled the time of the session without arrangement, and charged me for that. There was no integrity in what she was doing, only wanting the financial gain. How different is the level of integrity in all the teachings and healing sessions provided by practitioners from Universal Medicine. They are second to none.

     I too have gone on to completely change my whole way of life, to that of the way of the livingness, with such remarkable results.

283. Great blog Beverly I too had done the rounds of the spiritual new age and had been totally sold on a succession of beliefs,convinced each one was true deeply needing it to be so, but nothing ever really changed. I now have recognised that all these per suits had been quite harming to me and adding to that I had continued to use drugs to numb the pain I was in. Given this history the road back to feeling truth in my body has taken a while, but like you I knew that when introduced to the gentle breath by Chris James, I had finally found the true way of connecting to myself. Since then I have learned the about and adopted the simple principles of the way of the livingness as presented by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine and my personal connection to truth continues to deepen.

284. Here! Here!

285. Gold at the end of the road Beverly, or should I say Gold at the beginning of your self discovery and journey back to you. I loved reading your blog and the way you expressed your appreciation for the teachings of Universal Medicine. Thank you

286. Reading your blog today one line jumped out at me, ‘ I stopped being a victim of my own choices.’ how often I’ve made choices that I pretended to myself were choices that supported me but weren’t actually based on love. It’s wonderful to read we all have the choice to make choices that truly support us and consequently all those around us.

     1. Hi Karin, I found it to be a huge turning point to realise that we are always responsible for our own choices, all of them, no outside blame, our responsibility and this is super empowering even though some of the choices may not be great along the way. A few trips here and there can often turn out to be supportive too.

287. Hi Beverley,
     I loved how you expressed your journey seeking some ‘thing’ that you innately knew that you were missing. How simple it is really, when we finally get it, that that elusive ‘thing’ that we had been expensively searching for outside of ourselves was always there – just within. I too explored that illusionary route waiting for the star bursts and clanging of symbols to exclaim “this is is”! – when all the while we didn’t have to go anywhere – that connection that we so yearned for was held quietly within – which I also was assisted to reveal through the Gentle Breath Meditation as presented by Serge Benhayon at the Universal Medicine presentations.

288. Hi Eva, I really love both what you are saying and how you are saying it here in your comment. Amazing, thank you.

289. I took a similar ‘trip’ with the spiritual new age before finding Universal Medicine and always knew there was something not quite right. When I had my first Esoteric Healing session (and was introduced to the gentle breath meditation), I felt and thought “I don’t know exactly what this is, but this is it.” The real deal.

     1. Exactly Deborah, when you meet truth you cannot but know that ‘this is it’.

290. Yes Eva, those three little words… the ones we all wait a lifetime/s to hear!

291. Fabulous blog Beverley, and so true about what’s offered through Universal Medicine… what’s always blown me away is what it all boils down to is an infinitely “practical common sense way of being”. Nothing could be more normal, sensible and practical as ‘The Way of the Livingness’, and yet at the same time profound, rich, endless and all encompassing.

     1. Yes, who would have thought it Jenny, when we were opting down the seductive paths of the New Age, that in fact the down-to-earth, practical, commonsensical approach to life presented by Universal Medicine was what would actually release all the riches and profundity of life to us, through the simple and true love of the heart.

     2. When the Spiritual New Age met Universal Medicine it was all over. What Universal Medicine presents, automatically exposes the dozens of spiritual new age practices available today in the broad light of day through it’s pure simplicity and common sense.

        1. Hear hear Dean! The spiritual new age is a particularly sticky trap especially for those ‘seekers of truth’, even those who ‘know’ that the truth is within. Until we connected to the practicality of life and the significance of listening to our body in all that we are and do, the truth remained forever unattainable. We were spinning a cocoon that kept us away from all that is precious.

     3. I absolutely agree Jenny, and this is exactly why Universal Medicine ‘delivers” as much, as it is a very DYI or more accurately FIY-( Feel It Yourself ) way of presenting that leaves you with your own truth!

        1. Oh just love it Carolien – FIY (Feel it yourself!)

292. My previous understanding meditation before Universal Medicine was exactly as you described, a quite ‘out there’ kind of practice that took you to some place where you emptied your mind. Who would have thought meditation could be as simple as breathing in and out of your nose and connecting to how you feel in that moment. Simple yet transformative.

     1. Stephen, these mind emptying meditations never felt quite right to me particularly when I had to sit on the floor for a long time which was excruciatingly painful for my back! Gentle breath meditation is just that – gentle on the body and it is a powerful tool for presence.

293. Like you Beverley, I tried various ‘New Age’ alternative therapies to try and heal the pain of the way I had lived my life, but in the end I was really doing it my own way, in that I would try to sort out the problem without reference to the medical profession. How arrogant that was! It was only when I came to the work of Universal Medicine that it was suggested that maybe we can live a life that is supported by both the ageless wisdom and the way of the livingness – living medicine in all that we do. This way has proved to be so much more self-loving and gentle to both me and my body.

294. What a difference finding Universal Medicine has been for me. Looking for the answers in the ‘spiritual new age’ movement and being so arrogant about my ‘abilities’ in healing during this time, I now realise we all have an inner knowing through being connected with ourselves. Finding that stillness within has changed everything. Knowing there is no need to look outside ourselves and give our power away to others, has freed me from the illusion that others have the answers to life’s big questions.

     1. Great, Anna to feel the freedom of knowing that you have all the answers to ‘life’s big questions’ and all inside of you. No outward search required. Awesome.

295. Thank you Beverley for sharing your experience. I searched always for the answers on the outside too, but know its over!

     1. Yes Nayme, so beautiful to feel the search is over as we find our way home.

        1. Indeed Beverley, it is so beautiful to know that the search is over and that we are liberated from the tyranny of it.

296. I too have been on a search and was part of the ‘Spiritual New Age’ but it is so liberating when we come across Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine. ”The search is over – This is IT” – it certainly is. I loved reading your story.

     1. Caroline I totally agree it is liberating coming across Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, especially when there is so much Spiritual New Age stuff that you can get caught in out there.

        1. Getting caught in it is a good way to describe the affects of the spiritual new age Amita, it does feel like it keeps you in the fog of all its rules, dogmas and beliefs, not in the expanding awareness of ourselves and the truth of us as human beings, as taught by the Ageless Wisdom.

297. What a journey, I am so glad you came to the end of the road Beverley. What a find, your inner self, Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine!

     1. Yes what a journey, and a journey many of us seem to have undertaken. For me it was closing the door on the spiritual new age and opening another door only to find my true self hiding behind it. And that door had been there all the time, right under my nose.

        1. I agree Sandra as I took many turnings along the spiritual new age paths and almost didn’t go when I was invited to attend a course being held by Serge Benhayon. “Been there, done that, worn the t-shirt” was my dismissive reply to the offer but something inside me said to give it one more go. Wow. What a difference, search over! Yes, I now see I was hiding, avoiding and so much more. Today I know I have found true teachings and as I open up to more of who I am, joyfully skip along the path of enlightenment, allowing myself to unfold naturally each day as and when I am ready to receive and step up further.

        2. Talking about journeys… I did that thing and we did all sorts of techniques and guided ‘journeys’ to reach ‘the source’. Not until I stumbled across Universal Medicine did I realise that the only true source of truth is already within me.

     2. Speaking from personal experience I agree a Glorious find – The Real You, Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine.

298. Thank you for your sharing Beverley. I too spent a lot of time and money “searching” and trying various modalities attempting to find the ONE that would explain the woes of the world and myself.
     Universal Medicine and the Way of the Livingness confirms that I never have to look further than myself to find the answers to anything.
     How simple.
     How liberating.
     I am staying with that.

     1. Awesome Narelle and as you say:
        “Universal Medicine and the Way of the Livingness confirms that I never have to look further than myself to find the answers to anything.
        How simple.
        How liberating.
        I am staying with that.”

        1. Right on Narelle and Beverley, thank you Universal Medicine and the Way of the Livingness…
           How simple.
           How liberating.
           …and I am staying with that too.

     2. Narelle I too spent sooo much time, money and energy searching for the answer. Reflecting on this now it was all a way for me to escape accepting that everything I need is inside of me. Having this connection now there is so much wisdom, beauty and understanding, I find it impossible to not fall in love with myself, others and life. It does leave me questioning whether by continually searching we are feeding some kind of force that wants us to not know that we have this wisdom deep inside of us.

        1. This is so gorgeous Shevon, ‘having this connection now there is so much wisdom, beauty and understanding, I find it impossible to not fall in love with myself, others and life.’

        2. Very good question Shevon. We are so beautiful and when we really connect the our beauty inside, we are irristable and we cannot help but fall in love with ourselves and with each other. Imagine how much the world would change if we let everyone fall in love with us? What industries would fall as a consequence of people choosing to connect to and live from the love that is in their hearts?

        3. Beautifully expressed Shevon!

299. Hi Amber, it was so freeing to realise that the power I outwardly searched for was inside me. Super self empowering in the very true sense.

     1. You know Beverly it’s so freeing and playful reading your blog that I’ll will read it bits at a time just to make it last longer…

300. I agree Beverley, I found the spiritual new age approach very appealing to my knowing that there was more to life than the very physical stuff around us. But what I can also see now looking back was their (my) reliance on forces outside of myself to dictate how things were or could be; like the pendulum, crystals, flower remedies even muscle testing. They all gave power to something other, rather than me taking responsibility for myself.

301. Hi Beverley, thank you for your blog, I love when you say how you realised you were giving your power away and that you realise the power was in you all along. You are an inspiration.

302. Such a great sharing Beverly, I love how you write it’s so much fun to read. I was never into spiritual new age and healing but my lifestyle choices were pretty much in the same direction of disconnecting from the world. Learning about soul and spirit, prana and fier was the most useful information I ever got in my life!

303. Awesome Beverley. I enjoyed reading your recount of your spiritual new age searching. I didn’t really know what spiritual new age stuff meant but now have a tad more understanding and realize there are a tonne of people that are in the same boat you where. Surely they have discontent like you did as well… It was more then interesting to read about the reiki master’s drinking problem. People drink to wind down, relax or forget- If the spiritual new age gig was it, why would one need to do that?

     1. Exactly Emily, why would a Reiki master require the escape and ‘fix’ that alcohol offers if what they are practicing is true support? A great indication of the lack of truth and hypocrisy at play, of which I was part of too, within the Spiritual New Age bandwagon of tricks. Great to step back and now see the truth of it all. Thank you again to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine for offering the truth.

        1. How truly said Beverley – hypocrisy being the operative word. Not living what we speak is hypocrisy, but I had never connected that word directly to that meaning before you uttered it. I would not have thought of myself as a hypocritical person – that is not a word I reserved for myself! And yet I was and still sometimes am – if I speak about something I ‘know’ to be the truth but do not live it. This is where the disconnect is. Thank you Beverley, this may be my today’s theme!

304. Hi Penny I know when I was offering Reiki I used to drink and smoke and not see anything wrong with that. How ridiculous it seems now to practice a so-called healing treatment whilst at other times doing something that is harming. I am a self confessed hypocrite in this case and thanks to the presentations of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine this way of being is long gone.

305. For me Rob it was such a revelation to understand the distinction between spirit and soul. It is like a foundation rock that we can build on and without it we are just living in a fog.

306. Beverley, this is a powerful account of your journey that led you to your true connection with Soul. I, too, have been searching high and low outside of myself for decades for the Truth while working full time in the corporate world as a Personal Assistant. I have always had the two elements in me : a very organised, structured and efficient and ‘getting things done’ side and a side that deep down wanted to know where we come from and where we are going hence the astrology course and the Reiki and the numerous books I have read on philosophies and religions. My search is over also.

307. Thank you Beverly for your awesome blog. I can very much relate to what you share although I came from the “opposite” side. I was very much in conventional medicine, working in a pharmaceutical company. And for me nothing existed except the physical and hard proven facts. At some point I realised that this is not “it”, at least not “all”, so I quit my job and started my training in body work. I strongly felt drawn to massage and osteopathy but after completing my trainings I was still looking for more, restlessly – until I came to Universal Medicine. Immediately I could feel that this is the missing piece I was looking for. It felt and still feels like coming home. I totally agree with you: “The search is over – This is IT.”

308. Yes Beverley, the Spiritual New Age really does have some hooks, and similar to you until I was really honest with myself, the fact was, nothing had changed in my life. I too had the arrogant thought that “I was a better human being because I was part of the ‘Spiritual New Age’ bandwagon” and “I understand more about life than you do” attitude. Then along came Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine and the true path back to me finally began.

309. Something I saw in the street yesterday really brought home the importance of looking at the quality and integrity in the lives of people who are practitioners and will be either putting their hands on you or counselling you in some capacity when you are vulnerable and seeking the truth. There was a person offering services publicly, a health/healing/counselling practitioner with an outdoor service that could reach passers-by. He was smoking cigarettes and/or joints continuously, drinking alcohol, shaking all over….. “would you buy a session from this man?” What confidence could you have in the ‘truth’ being offered through the veil of those drugs and the contaminating effect they have on the mind and body of the person? And if someone has so little regard for their own wellbeing, how are they to advise you on yours?

     1. well said Diane, it’s amazing what we are prepared to overlook when we place a need ahead of our truth.

        1. A great comment Susan to Dianne’s previous sharing.

310. Thank you Beverley for your sharing. I too can relate to so much of what you have said – I too was part of the new age bandwagon using crystals and using pendulums and also living in constant anxiety and nervous tension and blaming this on the world and not wanting to take responsibility for my own choices in life. Thank goodness I too stumbled across Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon and his work – so much of what he presented made sense, but it also asked of me to take responsibility which was not always that easy for me to do – like opening a can of worms that I had pushed to the back of the cupboard so as not to have to deal with it all. It has so been worth it though, opening this can of worms! And so much more has opened up to me when I too ditched the pendulum and the disempowerment that went with it. The best things ever in my life!

311. Thank you Beverley. The part that stood out the most for me was when you shared, “I stopped being a victim of my own choices…”. This statement is powerful and goes against everything that is presented in the ‘Spiritual New Age Movement’, for if this was taught within this movement, there would be no reason for the spiritual new age to exist!

     Coming to the understanding that I was the only one responsible for the choices I have made and continue to make has been and still is truly liberating (after firstly being confronted with the level of responsibility that was required to see this). It is extraordinary to live this level of responsibility and I find it deeply supportive to myself and all others, as this way of living is unimposing because I am not blaming or shifting the responsibility of me onto anyone else. Being personally responsible for all that I feel and all the choices I make is a very powerful way to be.

312. Wow Beverly, this is brilliant and I can relate to all of your story… the promise of change and ‘the answer’ inherent in the spiritual new age, the lumping together of spirit and soul, often used interchangeably… etc etc. My motto used to be ‘fake it till you make it’ because I KNEW nothing was really changing. I just somehow thought one day it’d fall miraculously into place and l’d finally have it! I too got progressively sicker and more unhappy, whilst at the same time pursuing even harder a range of things that were supposed to help.
     Not until I met Serge Benhayon did everything start to make sense in a way that made it’s application into my life simple…and life changing… from day 1. I have never looked back and now often refer to my life before this as ‘another lifetime’… because that’s how it feels.
     I know hundreds and hundreds now just like me, who would all relate to your story just the same. Thank you, your account is beautifully clear and inspiring… a much needed story for others still caught in the merry-go-round of bettering themselves within the spiritual new age.

     1. Awesome reply Jenny. You and Beverley are describing my life before Universal Medicine exactly – the merry-go-round of bettering within the spiritual new age.

313. ..feeling that I was a better human being because I was part of the ‘Spiritual New Age’ bandwagon. This point really struck me Beverley. I could feel this in relation to anything we do that makes us feel better! It may be religion, exercise, helping people or a myriad of other ‘activities’ that we can rationalise as being worthwhile. They are all illusionary as a way to make us feel better if we cannot feel absolutely ‘full of our own ‘worth’ before we lift a finger to start being in service to others!

     1. This is a very pertinent point Bernadette and Beverley – one of the great illusion breaking realisations that Serge Benhayon has delivered to us as a race. Thank heavens for Serge Benhayon.

     2. This is a big one Bernadette, as it is part of our normal and accepted way of life as human beings to find something to make us feel better, and especially if it comes cloaked in the guise of ‘doing good’ or anything else considered ‘worthwhile’. But we seldom stop to consider why we are not ‘full of our own worth’ first before we venture out on these ‘doing good’ endeavours. In other words what are we actually bringing to these ‘well intentioned’ efforts?

314. Wow! Beverly you had gone on many paths to find your way and it was always within you, in you own breath. The lengths we go for looking outside ourself is shocking, as I too had gone down the path of such things like kinesiology, homeopathy, natropaths, many other techniques.. but these supported upto a certain point (like food changes) but none of these really seemed to support or work as I would keep going back to them for the same thing over and over, going in circles coming back to same place each time. I was sick and tired of trying things and nothing working!
     Then one day I went to get my regular homeopath refill that was so called working, the homeopath said that they had stopped suppling and doing homeopathy as that only deepens the cause of the issue deeper in body. I was puzzled and wanted to find out more and he was offering other types of services called “Esoteric Healing”. I was curious and the journey started from there which led to my 1st workshop from Universal Medicine called “Heart Chakra 1” and I haven’t since looked back. A lot of things that were foggy in my life started to unfold and make sense esp. about body and its suffering and it could be the way I’m living both physically and energetically.
     I’v been to Chris James’s workshops and they are so supportive and powerful in truly learning to express yourself.
     Thank you for your sharing your journey.

315. It is so refreshing and a big relief to no longer be trapped in the spiritual new age. All that searching was quite exhausting! It is glorious to feel, with the help of Universal Medicine, that we already have everything within us.

316. Whilst reading your blog Beverly, I recalled that number 1 question I had never found an answer to when I was a girl, of ‘what is Spirit, and what is Soul’. Not only had it at last been answered the day I heard Serge present, everything I had yet to form questions for also began to be uncovered. The beginning of detangling myself from all the tricks I had become so enmeshed in, with the welcomed re-introduction to stillness in motion.

     1. Yes Giselle, the question ‘what is Spirit, and what is Soul’ is one that many ask while growing up. In my case, I did not even have the clarity to ask the question and when I was older I got caught up as many did who were interested in the New Age Movement, believing that the ”spirit’ was it and hence pursued anything promising ‘spiritual growth’. How we are deceived until our eyes are opened, in my case by meeting Serge Benhayon and the truth he presented once heard, resonated deeply with me. At last I knew that I had come home – to my soul!

317. How seductive those spiritual New Age modalities are, they offer a “seeming” rather than a “being”, at least, that is how they feel to me. They “seem” to give us benefit, to heal us, to make us feel good, very often using all the enticements we know are true, like “we are not here to cure you but support you to heal yourself from within,” and “you can take responsibility for your health.” This is why people are often confused about the difference between this and what Universal Medicine is and teaches. My experience is that, despite these statements, New Age ideals, and many Alternative Therapies took me right away from myself, and I could often feel an energy entering me and rushing though my body. Looking back I realise that many of the practitioners were not living what they were practicing and telling me. They were living an ideal in the practice room but bringing a lot of unrecognised and unhealed stuff in themselves to the sessions or workshops. Whereas, what I have learned from Serge Benhayon, by example and teaching, is that loving ourselves by clearing those emotional attachments we have carried around for years, and finding the stillness within to enable that to happen as a bridge to the Soul, brings true Love to our lives and the healing session, for both practitioner and client.

     1. You are so right Joan. New Age modalities are about ‘seeming’ rather than being the real thing. The words appear to be true but if the truth is not actually ‘lived’ the words are empty. Thank heavens for Universal Medicine which has offered a true way of being where we could clear the obstacles to us being the love and the truth that we originally are.

        1. Yes Lyndy, the words are all there to be found in the Spiritual New Age and some of them are very close to the truth, so close as to appear to be the same in many instances. However, as they do not come from the right source, soul and true love they are as you say, ’empty’. And no matter how much one tries to live those empty words, no true transformation or deep connection with one’s soul will eventuate. Yes, truth must be lived within the body, embodied, and this is what happens when the simple principles offered by Universal Medicine are applied.

        2. Absolutely Josephine. You say it so eloquently: ‘And no matter how much one tries to live those empty words, no true transformation or deep connection with one’s soul will eventuate.’ This is the one huge difference between Serge Benhayon’s presentation of the Ageless Wisdom and every other presentation, all of which are a pale imitation if not a total re-interpretation of the real thing. No other presentation has given us the multi-dimensional full-ness and living-ness – they have all been cardboard cut-outs pretending to be the real thing – nothing happens with them except hope.

318. Thank you for sharing this Beverley. It is amazing how we know that there is more to life and we search but get easily fooled and don’t trust what we feel. When we are given the opportunity to connect with our own body and truly feel what is going on, the answers becomes clear. In the words from a beautiful song “…stop looking outside for the love within”.

319. The search definately is over Beverley, Universal Medicine is the real thing. I can totally relate to your blog, I was seeing a reiki practitioner for a number of years and I was an absolute mess by the end of it. The first time I received a treatment from an Universal Medicine practitioner I knew this was the real deal and furthermore incorporating the livingness into my life has turned my life around

     1. Awesome Joe, I found the love and integrity from Universal Medicine Practitioners stood out above all others, leaving me in no doubt of the fact that this is the real deal.

        1. I agree the love and integrity offered by Universal Medicine Practitioners is second to none. It was regular healing sessions with several of these practitioners which allowed my body to begin healing from all the spiritual activities I had previously been involved in. As these old paradigms were gradually shed from my body I felt a return of vitality and fullness within my body and a much deeper connection with my self, which I had never made in all the years of spiritual seeking.

320. I can relate to your journey through the spiritual new age, always feeling there is more. It is amazing how complicated it can be made out to be when in fact it is very simple – not always easy but the principle is.

321. As I read this wonderful blog, comments and the amazing paths that came to the door of truth, love and simplicity, I feel to thank you Serge Benhayon for presenting the door to The Way of The Livingness and the Ancient Wisdom Teachings. As Rowena said
     “the endless searching has come to a halt only to find we had it all inside us all the time”
     how freeing.

322. Awesome blog, Beverly. I related to so much yet I fell for kinesiology, not reiki. Yet I too, used a pendulum and felt ‘it’ knew instead of me. The craving for the answers was so desperate that I became a victim of my own choices, also. The truth as presented by Serge Benhayon was so simple yet so all encompassing, all seeking outside of myself ceased and the journey of re-discovering my true self from within began….thankfully! It’s been awesome returning to what feels so natural and right for me.

323. Thank you Beverley for your awesome blog. What stood out for me while I was reading it is the wisdom of the body in knowing truth. When you were exploring the “spiritual new age” you expressed that you always had a nervousness and a feeling of emptiness and the need to keep searching. How beautiful that your body was signalling that something wasn’t true and how beautiful that you found truth by re-connecting to you via the Gentle Breath Meditation and The Way of the Livingness.

     1. Yes Bianca that feeling of nervousness was so ‘normal’ that I fell into thinking that it would always be that way, and having others around me also feeling that way was confirmation at that time that it was the way! Such a trick and trap – Then meeting with the loving presentations of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, they were like nothing else I had felt before and I now know it is because they came with absolute love. Awesome.

        1. Ah…. the nervousness. It was normal for me too and it was normal for everyone around me in any country I have worked in. And when I was on a high stress level accumulating all that nervousness, it became anxiousness. That has been a pattern for so long. Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine have shown me and so many people that there is another way to live life.

324. This is indeed ‘IT’ for me also, Beverly.

325. I was a Reiki master and when the world conference was on in Perth, gave healing to the grand master at the time, who entered the room all frustrated and agitated…before heading off for a drink before dinner. The crazy party….I felt so honoured to be asked.

     1. Oh I know it well Joel! Not in the Reiki field but in something similar.

     2. I once lived near a Reiki Master. Some nights I would hear this incredibly loud groan/cry/scream. I never could make out exactly what it was but it was very creepy and it came from the house they lived in. I even called the Police one night as the sounds made me think they were mentally unstable. I had never been to a Reiki Master or experienced this type of healing but after hearing all of this I stayed far away from it.

     3. It was the relationships between the so called grand master and all the students that caused me to question Reiki and withdraw my support, a number of years before I found Universal Medicine… can’t imagine Serge Benhayon ‘frustrated and agitated’ or bringing anything into the room but his loving self and the inspiration for us to do just the same.

        1. Yes Kathie, I tried to study Reiki once and attended the first day training, but couldn’t go back. The dysfunction amongst those already trained was so overt I found it just too uncomfortable to be in the same room. In 13 years observing Serge Benhayon I’ve never seen anything I could call dysfunctional… as you say, he’s always and ever just his loving self, and totally inspiring in that.

326. I can relate to what you have shared about some of the New Age stuff, Beverley. I also tried Reiki for a while. Did level 1 with someone I met on a tour in Japan, felt good at the time, and thank goodness I did not do it on anyone else. Then I later felt to do Level 2 and the earlier teacher was not available. I picked A Reiki Master advertising in the local paper at the time, and did her 2 or 3 day course. I found some of the people involved a bit strange, and the teacher was completely disorganised, and completely unconcerned about keeping us waiting for about an hour before she was ready to start. After the final day, the teacher persuaded me to have a session with her as she felt I needed it. Yes, I was a mess, I needed something, but not Reiki. I agreed to a double session, at the full rate of course, and when the time came, the practitioner went for an extra hour as well, without discussing with me. Then she charged me for that! And she knew that I had another appointment after, which I was late for. There was absolutely no integrity or caring in that teacher at all. It was very clear that she was completely doing it for the cash return. And the course we did made absolutely no mention of a code of conduct, or the need for integrity.

     A few days later, I burned all the Reiki Books and never answered any calls from that practitioner.

     Thank goodness soon after I found Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, where the level of integrity is the highest possible and where I have learned TRUTH. I too have come home.

327. Thank you Beverley for your wonderful article – so clearly expressing the pitfalls that we encounter when we choose to seek solace in those modalities that energetically sit outside of ourselves. I also travelled for a while along this rock strewn path, little knowing at the time that I was in fact choosing to travel further and further away from my essence, my soul connection. I too recognized the simplicity of true Truth when I met Serge Benhayon and attended the presentations of Universal Medicine. It was very confronting for me initially as I realized the ill choices that I had been making for the previous several years – however, on finally recognizing I only needed to say “oops – that is not it” I also learned the Gentle Breath Meditation, initially learning to re-connect me with me. So simple really – no hocus pocus, outlandish promises or any other falsity.

328. I too tried out the New Age Movement for a time in my searching, and finally felt I had come home when I found Universal Medicine.

     1. Exactly Jill, the feeling of coming home, re-connecting to our innermost. Simple, yet profound.

329. Hi Joan, I remember when I did the guided meditations I would most times fall asleep and then other people would share what a trip they had, literally, as they would have probably totally left themselves to go on the ‘guided tour.’ The revelation of the Gentle Breath Meditation was for me to stay present with me and to come to the understanding that the truth of meditation is about re-connecting to who we are and not leaving ourselves was awesome.

     1. And to add, Stephanie and Beverley, that the moment the connection happens through the gentle breath, the body fills with warmth, and I feel really alive, something that never happened in any other form of meditation which always seemed to take me further away into a cold, cold empty space, and then I had to take time to come back to me, instead of being already there in me and ready to open my eyes and take that amazing warmth and gentleness into the world.

330. Even just the title of this article says it all, it is so true.

331. ” I stopped being a victim of my own choices and began to make choices that supported me and my well-being.” How empowering, freeing and awesome to discover that we can move on and begin to make ‘choices’ that support our lives. It can without a doubt change everything. Thank you for sharing.

332. I tried lots of modalities, too, but always felt that there was something missing. Something more direct. Did I really need to ask a crystal a question? Invoke a ‘higher self’ before a massage. Where was my power in all this? Finding Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine was life changing, and gave me my power back.

333. I agree with you Joan – I shudder to think of how I used to believe that if I sat in meditation for 30 minutes to an hour, I must be ‘getting it’. I then set up a perceived cycle of failure as I was unable to stay with an empty mind as instructed to do. I now know this was one thing that stopped me checking out even more than if I had the ‘ideal empty mind – mindlessness’. The Gentle Breath Meditation is so different, so simple and a beautiful way to just simply be and re-connect with the innermost of myself.

     1. It reminds me Stephanie and Beverley…… I once went along to a meditation in London (which religion I won’t name) that lasted for hours. It was cold and we had to sit on a cushion and it was very uncomfortable. I was looking around me and felt the emptiness and the desperation and I never returned.

334. “The stage was now set for me to make some changes and start to take true responsibility for myself and my life. I stopped being a victim of my own choices and began to make choices that supported me and my well-being.”
     This is the answer to my question today.

335. As I read your blog it reminds me that it feels almost ‘too easy’ to have actually found the truth being presented by Serge Benhayon. I was so accepting of the fact that none of the spiritual new age courses, workshops or presentations would actually present true truth that I had stopped expecting to find it!
     How I learnt to keep myself on track and out of depression was to use a conglomeration of every workshop that I had attended and by doing so I had all bases covered….or so I thought.
     When I heard Serge speak the true words about spirit and soul and what living from love really was, I was stunned (and angered initially) but my heart knew this was it and that there IS a truth that we all have access to. From there, it is available for all of us to re-learn how to live the truth of love.

     1. Hi Deborah, when I heard Serge Benhayon explain the difference between the Spirit and the Soul it was huge. I had always been presented with confusion around the two and now it was presented so clearly and made so much sense.

336. I felt to comment again, as I realised when rereading this blog the insidiousness of the New Age.. I too was so caught up in it, mostly by giving my power away to others thinking they could fix me.. What a trip. Great blog.

     1. Exactly Michelle, such a trick we can fall for to think that someone else can ‘fix’ us. To return to the knowing that the answer is within, is an amazing revelation in its most simplest form. Beautiful.

337. Hi Beverly, I too have been on a similar path in looking for the answers on a spiritual quest only to be disheartened again and again moving from one thing to the next to the next. So when I came across Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon, my heart warmed and my body simply let go. The search was finally over…and the funny (not so funny) thing is, it was with me all along! No more trying to be ‘natural’ and ‘spiritual’ – I can just be myself, thank god, and live a warm-hearted and soul inspired life where for the first time, I feel true purpose and true meaning …

     1. Awesome Sara. Thank you for sharing.

     2. True purpose and true meaning……Thank you Sara.

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