Tricked and Trapped in the ‘Spiritual New Age’… Freed by The Way of the Livingness

In my teens I started to acknowledge the feeling that what I am and what the world presents is more than just physical. This led to the exploration of mediumship and clairvoyance and hence began my journey on the ‘Spiritual New Age’ path which eventually led me to Universal Medicine and The Way of the Livingness where I finally became free of all the impositions of the Spiritual New Age.

Looking for the Answer – Reiki, Crystal Healing… but My Life was a Mess

I was very much drawn to complementary therapies and would always look out for homeopathic or natural remedies as opposed to seeking orthodox medicines.

In the search for the ‘one thing’ that was going to offer me what I was looking for (which at the time, I did not know exactly what it was) I stumbled across Reiki, and this seemed to make sense for a while.

I chose to be oblivious of the fact that the ‘Reiki Master’ I trained with had a drinking problem: even after seeing him drunk and feeling the intensity of the horrible energy that came from him, I chose to overlook this and still continued with the course as I saw it to be the route to my salvation. On the course I cried a lot and saw all of this emotion to be part of the salvation I sought.

Some people within the Reiki community began to introduce all kinds of variants to suit themselves. This did not sit well with me, so I went on to train as a crystal healing therapist where I would dowse healing sessions using a pendulum. This gave me a kind of comfort that all was well and that I had found the answer, although even then I still felt really uneasy.

I constantly felt nervous, having a permanent feeling of anxiety running through my body which no amount of crystals or guided meditation would shift. I would wake in the morning feeling anxiousness in my body and I would often feel depressed at the thought of getting through another day feeling this way. I carried this nervous feeling with me on a daily basis and although on the outside I would appear confident, there was an inner feeling of not being good enough and a lack of real confidence. I was always looking for someone else to give me the answer and for someone else’s approval for me to feel okay about myself.

By the time I reached my late 30’s I was a mess. I had left an unhappy marriage, my self-esteem was on the floor and my self-worth was non-existent. I was overweight, unhappy and felt alone whilst dipping in and out of a couple of relationships and struggling to make it through whilst bringing up a child that was by now approaching teenage years. My life had gone from bad to worse even after doing many more courses that were all supposed to offer ‘the answer’.

Time for change! I knew there had to be another way.

Introduced to Chris James, the Gentle Breath Meditation, and Connecting to Me…

A friend told me of a voice presentation in our local town with Chris James, a singer and musician who offers voice workshops through Sounds Wonderful. This was the best £10 I had ever spent as during that evening I was introduced to the Gentle Breath Meditation, a simple technique where you focus on your breath and make the choice to breath gently… no “wandering down wooded paths” or “into a mountain cave to meet an Indian guide or an angelic being”, just a simple focus on my own breath.

This is what I had been looking for!… It was the one thing that supported me to connect to me and it was as simple as connecting to my breath.

For the first time in my life I had a glimpse of feeling whole and complete without the underlying emptiness and anxiety that had kept me relentlessly searching.

Chris had learned the Gentle Breath Meditation from Serge Benhayon, founder of Universal Medicine, and when Chris mentioned him I immediately knew that I needed to know more about this man and his presentations, so I attended the next available course.

Serge Benhayon, Universal Medicine, Truth, Spirit & Soul – Search Over!

Following that course I read many books and went to many presentations by Serge Benhayon that unfolded all the answers that had previously eluded me. Never before had I been met with the truth about Spirit and Soul and that there are actually two types of energy, one being the fiery energy of the Soul and the other being the pranic energy of the Spirit with all its emotional baggage. Simple, yet profound. None of the ‘New Age’ study had offered this most fundamental of facts, but instead had wrapped Spirit and Soul into the same package as if to hide the fact of their difference.

In my arrogance as a ‘crystal healer’ I felt that I knew a lot about energy because I had worked with crystals and the use of the pendulum was based on the understanding that the pendulum was a visual indicator of my Soul’s communication. Well if I was really connected to my Soul, why would I need an outside indicator? Surely I could trust what I felt from the inside? So the pendulum had to go, along with all the crystals as I realised I had totally given myself away by investing all my power into them. I had missed the point completely and had actually disempowered myself by choosing to ignore the fact that all I required was inside of me.

Taking Responsibility for my Well-Being

The simplicity of the presentations by Universal Medicine and the practical common sense way of being they offered was profound.

The stage was now set for me to make some changes and start to take true responsibility for myself and my life. I stopped being a victim of my own choices and began to make choices that supported me and my well-being.

One of my first choices was to have a look at what I was eating. I stopped eating gluten and dairy and found that the sinus problem that had been hanging around for years cleared up and the bloated lethargy that was always there went away, leaving me with a feeling of vitality which in truth was already there but had been completely dulled by the food choices I was making. My body weight and shape changed. After being vegetarian for many years I started to eat a little meat and found it to be very acceptable to my body and I actually quite liked it. I had feared eating it for so many years because someone had once told me it would make me heavy and not able to connect to my Soul.

Looking back I am aware of the trap and total arrogance I had fallen into, along with a feeling that I was a better human being because I was part of the ‘Spiritual New Age’ bandwagon.

I now embrace the support of orthodox medicine as part of the healing process and no longer resist it. I understand it does not have all the answers but choose to work alongside it whilst taking the personal responsibility to look more deeply into the root cause of any disturbance that may arise.

I am now part of the student body of Universal Medicine and I endeavour to live the simplicity of the Ageless Wisdom Teachings, which makes a lot more sense compared to anything else I have come across in my relentless search for truth. I have found The Way of the Livingness.

The search is over – This is IT.

By Beverley Bulmer, Norfolk, Uk

973 thoughts on “Tricked and Trapped in the ‘Spiritual New Age’… Freed by The Way of the Livingness

  1. I’ve always been deeply concerned about dowsing with a pendulum… at first it was because I assumed it was the person either consciously or sub-consciously moving the crystal to suit their own needs. Once I learned a bit more about energy that concern intensified as I learnt that forces are real, and who might actually be the one moving the crystal / was pulling our strings.

  2. I used to think that the new age things I did brought me to the Ageless Wisdom, but actually I had to unpeel the layers of distraction and come back to something that was so simple, I felt very dim for walking away from it in the first place!

  3. We can go down so many rabbit holes before we realise that the way to be at ease with ourselves is to look inside and listen to the body’s communication.

  4. Coming across Universal Medicine has allowed me to see my choices in a clearer light. Finally a true truth, that allowed me to see the lies for what they are.

  5. Sue I also was trapped in the illusion of the Spiritual new age, I never found truth or any lasting true changes for many years. Finding my way to Universal Medicine has been life changing especially learning the difference between the two energies, it stops this continual search that feeds the emptiness, it seems crazy that we are not taught about the two energies from a young age as it would empower us greatly to have this understanding.

  6. So much of your story resonates with me too Beverley. After over twenty years of spiritual searching but knowing none of it felt true i found Universal Medicine. “The search is over – This is IT.” Agreed.

  7. Brilliant – this part about having an arrogance of feeling superior because of being a part of the Spiritual New Age. I know this arrogance very well, and it is amazing how insidious it can be, with the potential for limiting personal relationships and one’s access to orthodox healthcare.

  8. I dabbled with the new age and didn’t find any deepth or real interest, I like yourself found a lot of support in the gentle breath meditation it has been the bridge to feeling real ease in my body.

  9. Responsibility is a big one Beverley, and it needs us to be completely honest with ourselves by stopping and observing to understand and become aware of what is happening around us with people who say one thing but do another. That can be the way of the world but it is our responsibility to ourselves to feel the truth.

  10. When the answers to our dilemmas comes from the same dimension that ‘help’ us creating them in the first place, it is not accidental that we do not go too far. The Spiritual New Age can never be the answer.

    1. Ultimately this ‘New Age’ is capped.. it may take us a step or two down the path, but then either veers off onto a dead end, or takes us in the wrong direction. It lacks the substance that we know deep in our cells and connect to best through our bodies and way of living.

  11. Yes it is interesting how the complementary health field talks a lot about energy, but does not focus on the quality of energy that the practitioner chooses to live with and how responsible they are with their body, their vessel for the delivery of that energy.

    1. The fact of the two energies is a wake up call to what we see every where and often comment on innour every day language ‘what’s got into you’ etc we know the quality of love and we know what is not of that quality. Yet we choose to live ignorant to the energy we choose to live.

      1. Great point, yes in every day life, this conversation could be happening and I am sure if it was, the complementary health field would be reflecting this in the way that many of its practitioners choose to live and so the energy that is chosen. The channelling of energy without discerning where it comes from can be very damaging for both practitioner and client.

  12. It is so easy to get caught in the “spiritual new age” based on the very fact that when we know something like the institutional religions are not the whole truth then we look for something else, I know I got tainted by the spiritual new age and even though it felt very untrue it still seemed better. Amazing to have the way of the livingness to help free me and inspire me to reconnect to the truth.

  13. I always avoided anything spiritual feeling that there was something that would be dangerous and harming for me. I feel grateful that this instinct steered me clear of all these possible traps.

  14. After trying virtually dozens and dozens of different meditation techniques, most of which were complicated, I distinctly remember feeling that “this just can’t be it, it’s just too complex”, and everything else that ended up being the Truth in my life was much more simple and direct. When I learned the Gentle Breath Meditation, it was like a breath of fresh air (pun intended)! No bells and whistles, no external gadgets (like crystals) or sequence to memorise, just following my breath in and out of my nose as gently as possible, but with profound effects after only a few minutes, and to this day it never lets me down.

    1. The key is choosing to breath gently that is the missing piece other meditations focus on the breath also and body awareness but none ask you to reconnect to the quality of your gentle and stillness of breathing that we all had as infants.

  15. I have once thought that spirituality was the answer too but the poignant truth was never for one moment did I feel totally safe with it, there was so much tension from feeling it is not the full truth but I gave my power to it, wanting it to be true.

  16. After more than a decade of diving into the spiritual new age I was worse off than before, deep in drama and emotional distress. Enter Universal Medicine and here I am 15 years later, not a skerrick of the drama I used to think I was in sight.

  17. The search for me ended two years prior to attending a Serge Benhayon workshop. Before those two years, I was heavily involved with the Christian Spiritual church, Reiki, Chrystal healing, Vortex healing and so much more. One day it was as if I just woke up and could see the lovelessness of it all, and absolutely knew there was more to life than what my experience was at that time – so I just decided to quit everything and wait. Then when I came across Serge Benhayon I knew that I had to meet this guy I had heard about, but in the back of my mind was the fact that I did not want another fake healer. My fears were unfounded because Serge Benhayon is a 100% the real deal and I have never turned back or looked at another modality since that day.

  18. Reading your experience with the spiritual ways brought back the same kind of memories when I was involved in it. Endless looking for something and feeling always unsure about myself, even when others were impressed by the things I did. No self love was there. Since studying with Universal Medicine, I have become alive, awake and more and more self loving and being able to truly love others.

  19. Hi Beverley, like you I tried all sorts of different therapies, even training as a ‘Spiritual healer’ and attended exhibitions where we were told we had to wear white underwear – I never found out why – and we’d offer ‘healing’ to the general public. Looking back it never felt quite right, there was a kind of arrogant ‘I can fix you’ approach within myself that I am sure was causing more harm than good. Fortunately like you, I met Chris James and he introduced me to Serge Benhayon and my life changed for the better year by year as I attended Universal Medicine healing courses and presentations that inspired me to make more healthy lifestyle choices.

  20. When you talk about medicine and that you chose “to work alongside it whilst taking the personal responsibility to look more deeply into the root cause of any disturbance that may arise.” I was struck by the pure gold and pure wisdom of this line. This is what will save our heaving medical system, people seeking medical support along side taking responsibility and exploring the energetic root cause of the disturbance.

    I had day surgery last year for the first time and I sought medical assistance and followed doctors orders, but I also looked at why else that occurred, and I got great insights into how I was being with my body. This supported me in the hospital and with my healing.

  21. I’ve never met anyone who presents with the clarity and true simplicity that Serge Benhayon offers, detailing the difference between spirit and soul, and the real meaning of healing on an energetic level.

  22. “I chose to be oblivious of the fact that the ‘Reiki Master’ I trained with had a drinking problem”. When we want something badly enough or believe it is our ‘road to salvation’ we become incredibly blind to what is glaringly obvious. There is also a suitable belief that what we do in our spare time does not affect the quality of what we do, or that it affects anyone else. This is far from the truth as energy does not start and stop or have any boundaries.

  23. For me too, Beverly, the search is over. After the first Universal Medicine workshop I attended, I was almost too afraid to hope/pray that in Serge Benhayon I had found what I had literally searched the world over for. It took a couple of years for the hoping and praying to turn in to self-care and choosing to take responsibility and I have never looked back. My search is over. This IS it.

  24. It is indeed possible to be freed from the complications of the theory of how we should live a spiritual life by focusing on living connected to our bodies and listening to the wisdom of the inner-heart.

  25. It is interesting how the spiritual new age makes it look like you need to do all these things to connect to your soul but that connecting to your soul is anything but that and it hides that it actually is very simple to do through the connection with our body and life.

  26. As someone who headed down the spiritual new age path for some time, I can attest to how damaging and dangerous this path is. Relinquish your commitment, responsibility, withdraw from life and live in complete disregard of your body (and all other bodies) while you arrogantly assume you are reaching a more enlightened state and healing old wounds.
    All along those wounds are being further cemented into a body that is being numbed to the bone, while the being itself is being slowly eaten away by an energy that thrives off the illusion the spiritual new age is steeped in.

      1. Good question Doug. I would say yes – and as we discern that spirituality isn’t the answer we can be dissuaded from the truth in so many subtle ways, as we seek to return to soul.

Leave a Comment

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

w

Connecting to %s