The Many Faces of Grace

by Joel Levin, Western Australia

In my life ‘grace’ has had many faces, and not all of them easily recognisable.

One period of grace was when I was starting my business and my business partner decided to cut me off once we had secured seed capital. This experience was made harder by the fact that I was the sole income earner of a family of four. At that time I was feeling crushed by life and the fact that all my personal development, spiritual development, work with charities, hard work professionally, and generally being a nice guy, had come to this…

It was hard to see the grace in this, and at the time I would not have called it this – but the experience stopped me cold and left me less sure that I had all the answers. As I look back, however, it was truly a period of grace, when the walls I had built crashed down – and all I had was myself.

About a year later, I had a raging fight with my wife over her desire to fly across the country to Lennox Head to attend a workshop with a guy named ‘Serge’(Benhayon). By then I had rebuilt some arrogance in feeling like I had life sorted again. And couldn’t see why she would need to travel all this way to attend a workshop.

There were many periods of grace through this time. First was my wife’s commitment to adhering to what she was feeling so strongly; the second was what she returned home with. There was a stillness, a presence and clarity in her eyes that couldn’t but make me stop. Even though I saw it and felt it, I still fought it… but that’s the thing about grace, it leaves you time to feel what you need to.

Now many years later, and after making many trips across the country myself, I realise how unfolding my experience of grace continues to be.

Initially through attending Universal Medicine workshops, I experienced a deep re-connection, joy and a stillness that could only be described as grace. As I applied the principles of what I had learnt, I would hold this connection for longer and longer and had begun to realise that the ‘it’ I had been looking for all these years was actually in me, and started with the choice to be me…  Grace touches me again.

In those early days, I was going to workshops to get something, to change something, to arrive somewhere… in fact, this was how I was living my whole life. … Grace stood by and watched lovingly, not asking me to be anything, or do anything more than be me.

At this point I was still looking for something outside of myself to ‘save me’, or to find the ‘one thing’ that I could change within myself that would lead to my moment of epiphany. Through this time I wasn’t able to feel as glorious away from a Universal Medicine Workshop as I did within them, as I was always looking for the next thing. This need to be ‘saved’ led to a period of intense frustration with the world and myself.

Then last year, I realised that this feeling of grace I was connecting to was not something I was learning, but something I was remembering: it was not something that touches me from the outside, but something that touches me from within.  It was not a single achievement, habit or reward, but came from the culmination of what I do each moment.

Life was not something to be achieved, but something to be lived. It was something to be cherished, enjoyed and honoured rather than something to get through.

I dropped much of the search for someone or something to blame (it still pops up every now and then) and started more truly living from what I feel. I started realising that how when I bring all of this to any little thing, not only is grace ready and waiting, but that it comes with a sense of joy.

However, there is always another layer. I noticed it was easy to see myself as equal to others that were still battling life to various degrees – but what about the people I knew, who no longer battled, who appeared to just live a life full of love…? Surely I am not equal to them?

I realized that it was easier to make them ‘special’ and at the same time give me a reason NOT to live the same joy every day…ouch, grace, ouch… grace.

One person in particular I noticed I had put on a pedestal, was Serge Benhayon. I realized that I was treating him differently to others, and that this difference was coming from me, not him.  While there is no doubt that what Serge Benhayon and many others live each day is ‘special’ –  living from such a deep connection to themselves is special – I now know very deeply that this is equally within all of us. I also know that this ‘special’ is actually very normal, and not ‘special’ at all.

So there you have it… the grace of knowing that we can choose to be equal in our battle with life, and in doing so, feel frustrated, let down and disconnected. Or, we can begin to connect to the ‘specialness’ that lives equally within every person – waiting…

Amazing grace.

272 thoughts on “The Many Faces of Grace

  1. ‘I was going to workshops to get something, to change something, to arrive somewhere… in fact, this was how I was living my whole life. … Grace stood by and watched lovingly, not asking me to be anything, or do anything more than be me’. A timely reminder to check in with oneself and see where one is at.

  2. What a gorgeous blog, showing us that there are indeed many faces of grace and perhaps it is not till a little later that we get to see that everything that happens happens for a reason that perhaps is there to support us to let go of any control, protection, hardness, trying, doing, achieving, and to learn to trust, and surrender to love that we all are.

  3. When we establish a deeper connection with our awareness and relationship with ourselves, we understand the depth and beauty grace offers us to be able to unfold and evolve the truth of who we are.

  4. …’the grace of knowing that we can choose to be equal in our battle with life, and in doing so, feel frustrated, let down and disconnected. Or, we can begin to connect to the ‘specialness’ that lives equally within every person – waiting…Amazing grace.’ Absolutely amazing, God will never look back how we have been living but will welcome us knowing we are an equal part in the divine plan.

  5. Love this point that life is something to be lived, loved, cherished and enjoyed, and not something to just get through. Life feels more expansive and easier when we’re not trying to get somewhere or get something from it, but instead we just commit to being there 100% and doing whatever is needed, no more and no less.

    1. In the past I was always trying to get somewhere, and to make life better… the turn around was commitment, committing to life, ‘and doing whatever is needed, no more or no less’.

  6. Beautiful Joel. The grace of God’s love is that which we are eternally held in anywhere we are, a beholding of truth that represents the equalness that we are and are here to reflect though the lives we live.

  7. When we see the grace in the challenges we experience in life we know we are embracing and learning the lessons of what is being presented to us, in order for us to discard what is not true and thus hindering our return to soul.

  8. ‘Grace stood by and watched lovingly, not asking me to be anything, or do anything more than be me.’ and this is how we need to be with ourselves, knowing that we are already everything we simply need to allow ourselves to live all that we are, not to dull ourselves with food or any other distractions.

  9. Hello Joel, I love what you have written about grace and your inability at first to recognize grace as grace itself, as the events that happened in your life did not feel like grace at all. This for me is now becoming my lived experience to finally recognize the glory of grace and the offering it has been offering me all along my way. Forever expanding my awareness of grace and how it is present in my life.

  10. I liked what you shared about remembering your equality to those living amazing lives, and that grace is waiting patiently for us all to return to the truth in our own time. The fact that we are all equal and could not be anything less reflects the truth about God and what love is.

  11. I love how you see the most difficult periods in your life as a period of grace, if we embrace challenging periods of our life as an opportunity to change something in our lives that might have been holding us back for a long time, rather than fight them or wish they weren’t happening, they can provide us with a whole new platform upon which to step forward on.

  12. We are so loved. And there’s no condition attached to it. We are given space to come back to what we already are.

  13. Thank you Joel for such an open-hearted, heart-felt personal sharing of your journey to the realisation and living of, “Life was not something to be achieved, but something to be lived. It was something to be cherished, enjoyed and honoured rather than something to get through.” It is a blessing to have you in the world and what you share.

  14. A lovely lady ‘Grace’ who stands so quietly reminding us of the space that is always around us. They must be related. And of course the other person who has always been there, waiting patiently no matter what we are doing to ourselves, is God. Waiting for an opportunity to reconnect the moment we look up from our little hurts and realise we are part of something so much bigger.

  15. It is so normal for us to live in our Connection with the divine that we find thousands of ways to avoid the love which is there.

  16. Yes, there is a real sense of non imposing that comes with grace. It simply shares what is there to be shared then offers space to adjust and decide if you are going to embrace it or not.

  17. When I read your blog today Joel I really get a sense of the space in grace – the allowing and freedom for us to arrive at our realisation or evolutionary moment at our own pace when we are ready and humble enough to understand and accept what life is presenting to us.

  18. I am in a period of grace at the moment where many things are being shown to me, in the past I would give myself a hard time when I come to see the error of my ways, but I am now learning to bring more understanding so that I can learn all that I need to from the experience presented to me.

  19. Grace is offered constantly. It helps to recognise it as such, if not we may fight against something that is divinely granted. And a great loss when we do.

  20. I appreciate the grace in reading this blog today, in being reminded that grace is ever unfolding and that those times when we feel rocked are in fact asking us to go deeper, to let go of ways of being that may no longer work for us and in fact that there’s a bigger picture we’re often not aware of until grace comes along and shows us. Grace breaks the comfortable arrogance we can easily slip into, grace forever shows us that love is not static, it’s a forever expanding thing.

    1. I agree Monica, “there’s a bigger picture we’re often not aware of until grace comes along and shows us” When our lives are disrupted, we often don’t understand why. Only in the fullness of time do we get to see the all and with it comes understanding and wisdom.

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