The Many Faces of Grace

by Joel Levin, Western Australia

In my life ‘grace’ has had many faces, and not all of them easily recognisable.

One period of grace was when I was starting my business and my business partner decided to cut me off once we had secured seed capital. This experience was made harder by the fact that I was the sole income earner of a family of four. At that time I was feeling crushed by life and the fact that all my personal development, spiritual development, work with charities, hard work professionally, and generally being a nice guy, had come to this…

It was hard to see the grace in this, and at the time I would not have called it this – but the experience stopped me cold and left me less sure that I had all the answers. As I look back, however, it was truly a period of grace, when the walls I had built crashed down – and all I had was myself.

About a year later, I had a raging fight with my wife over her desire to fly across the country to Lennox Head to attend a workshop with a guy named ‘Serge’(Benhayon). By then I had rebuilt some arrogance in feeling like I had life sorted again. And couldn’t see why she would need to travel all this way to attend a workshop.

There were many periods of grace through this time. First was my wife’s commitment to adhering to what she was feeling so strongly; the second was what she returned home with. There was a stillness, a presence and clarity in her eyes that couldn’t but make me stop. Even though I saw it and felt it, I still fought it… but that’s the thing about grace, it leaves you time to feel what you need to.

Now many years later, and after making many trips across the country myself, I realise how unfolding my experience of grace continues to be.

Initially through attending Universal Medicine workshops, I experienced a deep re-connection, joy and a stillness that could only be described as grace. As I applied the principles of what I had learnt, I would hold this connection for longer and longer and had begun to realise that the ‘it’ I had been looking for all these years was actually in me, and started with the choice to be me…  Grace touches me again.

In those early days, I was going to workshops to get something, to change something, to arrive somewhere… in fact, this was how I was living my whole life. … Grace stood by and watched lovingly, not asking me to be anything, or do anything more than be me.

At this point I was still looking for something outside of myself to ‘save me’, or to find the ‘one thing’ that I could change within myself that would lead to my moment of epiphany. Through this time I wasn’t able to feel as glorious away from a Universal Medicine Workshop as I did within them, as I was always looking for the next thing. This need to be ‘saved’ led to a period of intense frustration with the world and myself.

Then last year, I realised that this feeling of grace I was connecting to was not something I was learning, but something I was remembering: it was not something that touches me from the outside, but something that touches me from within.  It was not a single achievement, habit or reward, but came from the culmination of what I do each moment.

Life was not something to be achieved, but something to be lived. It was something to be cherished, enjoyed and honoured rather than something to get through.

I dropped much of the search for someone or something to blame (it still pops up every now and then) and started more truly living from what I feel. I started realising that how when I bring all of this to any little thing, not only is grace ready and waiting, but that it comes with a sense of joy.

However, there is always another layer. I noticed it was easy to see myself as equal to others that were still battling life to various degrees – but what about the people I knew, who no longer battled, who appeared to just live a life full of love…? Surely I am not equal to them?

I realized that it was easier to make them ‘special’ and at the same time give me a reason NOT to live the same joy every day…ouch, grace, ouch… grace.

One person in particular I noticed I had put on a pedestal, was Serge Benhayon. I realized that I was treating him differently to others, and that this difference was coming from me, not him.  While there is no doubt that what Serge Benhayon and many others live each day is ‘special’ –  living from such a deep connection to themselves is special – I now know very deeply that this is equally within all of us. I also know that this ‘special’ is actually very normal, and not ‘special’ at all.

So there you have it… the grace of knowing that we can choose to be equal in our battle with life, and in doing so, feel frustrated, let down and disconnected. Or, we can begin to connect to the ‘specialness’ that lives equally within every person – waiting…

Amazing grace.

219 thoughts on “The Many Faces of Grace

  1. Grace, I am pondering on this beautiful word, which does not have a direct translation in Dutch, specially not with the energetic meaning of it, to me. “Genade” (the translation that comes most close) does feel religious and heavy, whereas grace carries the energetic meaning of God at Work for me.

  2. It feels like everything is possible in grace. There is no emotion attached to this word. It feels open and free yet held at the same time. There is a woman who works in the same shop as myself and I love that she is called Grace, it seems every time someone mentions her name there is an expansion and an allowing and an invitation for us to express more fully if we feel to.

  3. I recently had a period of grace where I was leaving a workplace and in doing so it was an opportunity to reflect on what I brought to that workplace and the love I actually felt for my colleagues. I realised that I didn’t express this so openly with them all the time instead playing the game of more polite and proper workplace relations. However, in leaving I realised there was much love for me to express and going forward I want to do this more consistently instead of waiting for the bigger moments in life to do this.

  4. Grace comes in many forms and often in a way we least expect or know at the time and at times we fight it… One of the most gorgeous side effects of Grace is ‘trust’.

  5. ‘Life was not something to be achieved, but something to be lived.’
    Living life without being focused on a target or an end point allows each moment to be full rather than deprived and waiting for something that is already within.

  6. Grace allows us the space to feel what is there to be felt. I have for a few years now put into my daily routine of keeping a diary of my feelings, moods, bodily happenings and life situations. A reflective time I give to myself but Grace…now that word feels bigger, like taking a moment to feel everything, even that grandness within. I ask myself now, could I bring into my day a moment of grace? a moment to stop and feel how grand I really am…Thank you Joel.

  7. “Life was not something to be achieved, but something to be lived. It was something to be cherished, enjoyed and honoured rather than something to get through.”
    This is a great reminder Joel, to cherish, enjoy and honour whatever life presents to us each day and embrace it with all that we are, willing to learn our lessons and bring to the world what we came here for, which is first and foremost, to reflect love.

    1. When we embrace every day and every situation whole-heartedly, instead of avoiding those things we don’t want to deal with, the quality of life starts to change and we actually start to enjoy it more because we’re in it and committed to it, not in the lethargy or dullness of distraction or avoidance.

  8. ‘We can begin to connect to the ‘specialness’ that lives equally within every person – waiting.’ So true Joel, every moment is an opportunity to make a choice to live the love, beauty and wisdom we all truly are.

  9. “Life is not something to be achieved, but something to be lived. Something to be cherished, enjoyed and honoured rather than something to get through.’ – imagine how different the world would be if we thought about life like that, rather than something to achieve or get through. The more I let go of pictures of how I think life should be, or how I think I need to be, the freer and more open I feel – and the more joy I experience every day.

  10. I love the title of this blog as grace does indeed come in many faces and many little packages. One such package for me was when I got breast cancer and when first diagnosed I was so angry and baffled having always been healthy. But as I let go of the fight to hang onto an old way of living and accepted what lay before me, I created the space for grace to enter. I learned much about myself, and I changed much in my life and even though I was living alone at that time, there was so much support for me that I never for a minute felt alone. It was the first time I felt grace all around me and as such I began to trust in myself in the sense of being able to listen to my own wise counsel as I had a lot of decisions to make.

    1. Thank you for your beautiful comment and for sharing so intimately the process of grace in your life. What a great line “But as I let go of the fight to hang onto an old way of living and accepted what lay before me, I created the space for grace to enter.” What a beautiful sense of surrender this communicates, and the way we can walk hand in hand with God when we let go.

  11. I too have realised it was easier to recognise another as special, clearly making this choice to avoid responsibility for claiming and living the ‘specialness’ within me! Through inspiration I grow but that does not mean I drop the quality of equalness with another. The more I claim the specialness within me the more my confidence grows and I can hold an equalness within myself and with another.

  12. I think it’s beautiful how you say that the feeling of grace you were connecting too was actually something being remembered rather than an entirely new thing and how it built through the way that you were choosing to live.

  13. No wonder ‘grace’ and ‘space’ rhyme – it’s like grace is the expression of space, reminding us to stop and consider that there is far more intelligence all around us than we care to feel or be aware of at times.

  14. A very beautiful expression of what grace is. To be honest I had never considered what grace really is. Someone mentioned it on a call this morning where we were discussing dignity. Two very beautiful words that have been hijacked and bastardised. Thank you Joel for returning the beauty and truth to one of those words – grace. I’m going to ponder on this further for sure.

  15. It’s true what you say Joel, that grace is always “ready and waiting” for us and comes with immense joy. There can never truly be loneliness in the world with this fact. And it is clear then, that the experience of loneliness is a result of humans resisting the call to grace.

  16. Grace is such a beautiful word. Before becoming a student of Universal Medicine it was a word used to say a prayer before lunch at school – that had little sense of its true definition. Your post gives a beautiful description of the word Joel. We can move with grace and feel the stillness of our expression. Gorgeous.

  17. I love the gentleness and delicateness that is present when I am moving and expressing God’s grace….
    I can also feel the difference when I move without grace, it feels harder and rushed, and disconnected.

  18. Those periods of grace in our lives are very humbling. When we are brought to a moment that asks us to go deeper and reflect on something that no longer supports us. It can at times be very challenging but also very beautiful.

  19. The Grace of re-connection. Of knowing oneself, once again, and dropping the fight with life and want for the world to bring it all TO us, rather than acknowledge and live from what we bring to it – when we know such Grace of which you speak Joel.
    I am reminded of a quote from Serge Benhayon that I read daily (and have done for several years now): “All can be Divine because of you – And not you because of it.” ~ Serge Benhayon

  20. I love this description of the word ‘grace’ – giving us the time and space to feel and learn what we need to, letting go of our battle with ourselves and the world. We are all equal, all have things that we need to deal with and challenges to overcome. It is how we respond to them that makes the difference in the quality we experience in our day to day life – do we make it a struggle, or a joy?

    1. It’s a beautiful description Bryony and one that will support me to observe and allow others the space that they need as they too find their way back to themselves.

  21. Very lovely Joel. The word Grace is so full of the true power of love – not just the word but the lived experience of it of course. I find it cleansing, like the waves on a beach, rendering the castles we have built in the sand back to nothing again – so we can know who we truly are.

  22. Thank you Joel, it was really beautiful reading your process of unfolding from relying on the outer world to finding everything within yourself. I enjoyed what you wrote about how we can deem another as special and that this can become our excuse to not live the same level of love and joy. “I also know that this ‘special’ is actually very normal, and not ‘special’ at all.” – doesn’t this line really highlight how normal struggling and misery is and how far we have all lived away from what’s truly amazing within us? Even when we see someone like Serge Benhayon living it we can choose to make that person “special” instead of realising love and joy is our true normal.

  23. I am often humbled by experiences in life and sometimes this can feel hard to accept. But when I am able to accept it, without reacting to it, I find humbleness a space that offers the opportunity for deeper self-awareness. There is true innocence within us all that is far from naive but in my experience opens us up to this ‘specialness’ Joel refers to here. We just have to be willing to feel and dig a little deeper than we are perhaps accustomed to.

  24. Today I spoke to someone how we fight a life that flows and is joyful and actually how this gives us a comfort to not step up to the life we know is true and make others who live this, like you’ve mentioned, special and out of reach for ourselves.

  25. The comfort of only feeling equal to those in struggle is a big one for me. If I was to try put myself into someone’s shoes that is living a full life of love then it means I have to ask myself the question why I am not choosing to live this myself? This is a question I would rather avoid because it is easier to pedestal people than to admit that I am the same as them, the only thing that stands in my way is choices and a way of living that allows that fullness, love and grace to flourish.

  26. It is beautiful to realise that through the struggles ,and the ups and downs of life, grace is there as our constant companion, it is often only in retrospect and as a consequence of our choices that we see the gift of grace that was offered to us at the time.

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