by Tanya Curtis (Tan), DIRECTOR Behaviour Specialist, Counsellor & Facilitator, Assoc Dip Ed.(Child Care), BHlthSci.(BehMgt), MBehMgt, MCoun
Just over two years ago I was walking in one exhausted body. I was known as a coffee snob, drinking at least three double shot long black coffees each day, and celebrating making it through a long week with rewarding food, bottles of red wine and cigarettes. My hours were long, my drive to help people was insurmountable, and I created an immense pressure to have a successful business helping people in the only way I knew how to!
I had degrees in Health Sciences, Education, Behaviour Management and Counselling, and knew that what was on offer to people so far was not always supportive to them. I knew ‘my way’ was more supportive, but I could also see that I was missing a key ingredient. I could help people go from non-functional to functional, but once at functional there was still a sadness and emptiness beyond what I could help with… I couldn’t help because I felt it too! I was only helping people to a certain level, yet I knew there was more! I didn’t know what that was, so my ‘DRIVE’ to find it or create it was intensified!
My health was not great (surprisingly), with my childhood bouts of middle ear infections, skin conditions, bronchitis and asthma carrying into my adult life, and with the addition of high blood pressure, polycystic ovary syndrome, being overweight, constant sweating… and much more.
I had many rules, expectations and ‘shoulds’ I imposed not only on myself, but all other people… and each person constantly let me down as my expectations were unrealistic! I felt alone! Each member of my family was trying to change each other to be who we wanted them to be, no-one enjoying anyone for who they were, and all with a huge amount of sadness. We all had a strong picture of what ‘family’ should be, and that picture was NOT being met by anyone. Each of our pictures was different… or we joined ‘sides’ with those who had a similar picture. Our family was at war!
I had grown up exposed to many different belief systems; my grandmother an avid Sai Baba follower, my stepmother and her family devout Catholics, my neighbours Jehovah’s Witnesses, my father a self-proclaimed atheist, my stepfather a scientist, and my mother searching for anything, and trying lots, which led us at one stage to living in a Satyananda ashram with my head shaved and name changed.
Even as I child I could feel that none of these worked, as each person was still very sad, and I could feel the escapism in each of these choices. Known as the annoying “why?” person, I was the one who questioned everything said to me and saw a loophole in all that was presented, never believing anything but still not knowing how to fill this emptiness inside – knowing it had to come from me, but not having the recipe to do so! By the time I was an adult I believed in nothing, but felt the pressure and drive of “it’s all up to me”. Without the tools of knowing what this meant, I felt the overwhelm, and used my own society-accepted form of escape via using my ‘head’ to bury myself in the books, and run a business, and celebrating a long week or day by washing away the stressors with alcohol, food and at times, recreational drugs! It is hard to look back on that and know it was just over two years ago!
So in May 2010 this exhausted body, having given up on there being ‘anything more’, feeling lonely, lost and sad, with hairy eyebrows and an hour to spare, was walking along the verandah passing my local beautician. I ducked my head in, asking if they had time for an eyebrow wax, which they did. As I lay on the table I could feel the relief of resting my body for the brief ten minutes I gave it permission to rest, as I had my vision cleared as my overgrown eyebrow hairs were removed. During my appointment my beautician mentioned to me that there was an ‘esoteric practitioner’ doing free sample treatments in the room next door if I would like to have a treatment. Without discerning what that meant (I’d never heard the word esoteric before), all I heard was “opportunity to lie down for a bit longer”, and I jumped at the offer.
As soon as Monika Korb did a facial release my life was changed. I felt something real, and could feel a sense of relief and release never felt before! It took me a good month to allow the time to book myself in for a second session, but once I did there has been no turning back. Over time, Monika shared with me some presentations from Esoteric Medicine, and by August 2010 I was cautiously attending my first Universal Medicine course… Heart Chakra 2. Before long I was attending appointments at Universal Medicine in both Goonellabah and Brisbane, and there has not been many courses I have missed in between! Thank you hairy eyebrows!
Just recently attending that same course two years on, I have reflected back on how much has changed! The person I describe in the first paragraph feels but a distant memory, like a movie I watched on someone else’s life! Physically my health is the best it has ever been; my relationship with work, my colleagues, my family, people in general and myself is one that now feels great. That empty, lost, lonely, sad feeling has all but gone! There no longer is a ‘need’, and people are now enjoyed for ‘who they are’, not exposed for ‘what expectation they are not meeting’. I now enjoy waking up each morning, I enjoy going to bed with me each night, and I enjoy all that is between each day and each night! The feeling of helplessness has been replaced with a true meaning of responsibility, and the freedom that has come with releasing my rules and expectations feels amazing. Thanks to the Universal Medicine team I have found my recipe and all the ingredients required to begin replacing that feeling of emptiness with a feeling of completeness. My livingness comes first, and with that brings about other changes. The word ‘developing’ has been, and still is, super-crucial. My livingness is a ‘development’ that will continue to unfold, and as I celebrate the changes the last two years have brought, I only look forward to what the next two and beyond can bring!
What I have learnt from Universal Medicine (and surprisingly, for the first time in my life I am not constantly questioning what is presented, as it ‘just makes sense’), and from Serge Benhayon, the Benhayon family and the Universal Medicine team, has been life changing for me, and in-fact life changing for those I have reflected my changes to! This I will be eternally grateful for! Thank you!
P.S. Thank you to my hairy eyebrows for leading me to this path of living a life of responsibility… each stray hair protruding from my eyebrows is a gentle reminder of “what has been and what is to become”.
The Truth about Universal Medicine 
It’s beautiful how our soul can help us along the way for true change if we are open to it.
The domino effect where one choice leads to another of a similar quality – amazing choices can lead to more amazing choices. But so too can it happen with less amazing choices leading to poorer and poorer choices. So it is for us to keep on track and appreciate every supportive choice.
Tanya the title of this blog cracks me up! And how beautiful to appreciate how certain events have led you to finding so much more in life than you ever expected, and still on-goingly unfolding for you.
Removing the intensity of life, without removing ourselves from life, finding settlement, is a path we can only be walk when we say yes and surrender to something we may not even have consciously looked for but feels true inside us.
It is amazing how when we make changes to be more loving with ourselves how everyone else around us benefit – love has that powerful affect!
I deeply appreciate and adore the immense changes you have made within yourself Tan. You a a completely different person today. A true living example of love and care and an immense inspiration to so many including myself.
It’s truly amazing to read about how your life has changed Tanya, so many of the Universal Medicine students have various difficulties in their history, from addictions and family trauma to health and emotional turmoil (and everything in between), and each of us has returned to a true way of living impulsed from our innermost heart and soul. This has meant huge changes to our health, mental and emotional wellbeing, work and family life, and relationships. Congratulations on your changes Tanya and your new soulful way of life!
when you know something makes sense there is no need to question it!
I too was this: ‘By the time I was an adult I believed in nothing, but felt the pressure and drive of “it’s all up to me”. but had no clue as to go about living. This is something I am still very much learning, but no longer do I feel unable to share what’s going on honestly with people or shut God out. I’m stepping off the train track, my own little mission to achieve the accolade of success all on my own – a mission to prove to the universe I can do it all myself thank you very much. Needless to say my individualistic efforts were fruitless and cost me dear in my mental and physical health. Being part of the flow of the universe is so effortless, nurturing and loving. Honestly appraising my little crusades helps me admit they are never worth it. I don’t have to prove myself to God for I am amazing as I am. fighting the flow is like a great swimmer swimming against the current, it’s tiring and gets you nowhere.
What is amazing to feel from Tanya’s blog is how our whole life can be transformed by making a simple choice ( as in feeling to take care of hairy eyebrows). Perhaps Tanya was offered the esoteric facial release which lead to her returning to her true self because she listened to what her body was telling her to do and not letting her head dictate what she should be doing.
The opportunity of re-connecting with ourselves is always around the corner in the most everyday situations.
Tanya I loved reading your blog, we are offered so many opportunities to reconnect with ourselves, yet often miss them because we are too busy playing our life out in our head, and when we do take up the opportunity our life can change dramatically.
I love reading stories about how people came to find Universal Medicine. Each story unique and magical, and whether it was the love at first sight or took a period of resistance, the fact that each person found it and chose it to be their own way is so very much worth celebrating and appreciating. I mean, what are the odds?
The more I connect to my innermost and develop the relationship to self the more I welcome Universal Medicine into my life. There is no question what is presented is the absolute truth and it resonates with every particle in my body. Universal Medicine is the consistent laying of the foundation with which I live my life. We are truly blessed to have Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine in our lives.
The responsibility of our own body, the vehicle we house and express through life with, is what sets us up to be able to live in a way that actually inspires and supports people to grow and connect more deeply to themselves. No doubt Tanya, your work and purpose has magnified with your continued awakening and lived responsibility with your body.
When we create pictures of how life should be and look based on our unrealistic expectations of ourselves and others we always unsurprisingly end up disappointed.
I would say that it is expected that in a world at odds with what most of us feel deep down is the way humanity could and should be living, we would keep having those feelings that all is not well and we keep sensing that even when things look rosy, underneath it all there is that sadness and that questioning about it all.
I have noticed that people tend to each have their own way of coping with this, numbing, distraction, adopting abusive ways, obsession about changing one aspect of life and some like I did for most of my life give up and withdraw.
It is a blessing when you come across Universal Medicine and find that things start to fall into place, and you see evidence that not only is everything your heart craved for is possible to actually live, but it is also our true and natural essence.
Such a delightful celebration of connecting back to ourselves by way of appreciating every moment in our life. Each precious moment offers an invitation back to who we are; it is up to us to feel this and to respond to what we feel.
Thank God for our ‘hairy eyebrows’ – I suspect many of us have been led to where we next need to go by many such serendipitous moments. In this case, let’s call it divine intervention with beauty benefits. In my case it was via a workplace. I was soon to leave there, but met the right person just in time. Mind you, it took me a few years to actually have my first Universal Medicine healing session, but the connection was made and the die cast.
I would have never thought that you were the kind of person you described in the first paragraph!
Tanya, I love your homour, your openness and your honesty in your writing! Bring some more blogs out please! And how beautiful to feel your appreciation for yourself, for the changes you have embraced but also the true support from the Esoteric modalities that was around for you when you were ready to make the changes.
I love your perception of the blog Henrietta, your comment is light and full of appreciation.
I love that you are able to look back and deeply appreciate the changes that you have made. Appreciation is one of the keys needed to keep evolving.
‘There is no longer a need…’ and in this relationships with others change. I could so relate to the sense of people trying to change each other. How awful it feels when we try to fix another…or someone tries to fix us. When we meet our own needs from within, we can allow others to be themselves and offer them the reflection of this inner connection. The deep innate essence that is equally within us all is a wonderful thing to know and ‘develop’ an ever deepening relationship with. My eyebrows have got a bit hairy too – I look forward to where they take me!
Tanya when I read the title of your blog I wondered what on earth was going to be shared here. But isn’t it true we all have our own version of ‘hairy eyebrow’ story to share that led us to Universal Medicine and the healing modalities……
If for years we are searching and left with that constant emptiness and sadness then we haven’t found what it is we are searching for – look again till one day it just might be that beautician or that student you are studying with or in my case I was being a client for a practising student studying another modality that led me to a Universal Medicine practitioner.
I love reading this blog again Tanya, you can feel your playfulness and lightness throughout and your gratitude for your hairy eyebrows leading you to greater truth.
Choosing to take responsibility for what we’re bringing to our relationships is the game changer. Until or unless we’re prepared to look at our own stuff, we perpetuate the same situations and scenarios again and again.
It is this repetitiveness that we one day stop to (1) be aware of, and then (2) to question, and from here it means we are finally ready to make a change.
We can help others from our knowledge/training.
We can help them ten thousand times more, when we add our livingness into the equation.
Knowing you as I do today Tanya it is hard to imagine you as being you in your past life. So amazing are the changes in the lives of students who embrace and live by the teachings of Universal Medicine.
Love your honesty – when we are not connected to who we are, how can we reflect the truth so another can be remember that same truth for themselves.
Its interesting that you mention all the people in your life and how sad and empty they all felt despite clinging strongly to their different beliefs. I too was the same, but I kept searching because nothing ever felt complete or answered all of my questions; that was until I came across the teachings of Universal Medicine.
There was another part of this blog that really struck me as an issue with practitioners ‘I could help people go from non-functional to functional, but once at functional there was still a sadness and emptiness beyond what I could help with… I couldn’t help because I felt it too!’ I was definitely one of those practitioners and I am continually questioning if that is why we don’t see lasting change in our health system. Well worth pondering I would propose.
I can also really relate to that comment, I was always able to support people up to a certain level with conversations, however now I realise that there is more to healing than simply what we are taught in psychology, one, the practitioner really cannot do it for the patient and two unless I have healed something in myself, there’s no way I can help another.
Oh I love it!! I love that each hairy eyebrow is a reminder of the opportunity that was offered… that is just the way it happens. We are offered and we have the choice to turn around and walk away or investigate further, always our choice. That is what brings lasting change.
I was always a very mouthy person and that annoying kid in the classroom that questioned everything; I had to know why and how everything did what it did. I am still very opinionated and passionate in my views but when I am at a Universal Medicine event, although I am very local and always question things, I am not fighting them, as I know with every fiber of my body that what is being shared is pure truth. So sometimes even though my mind may not have a full understanding of something, my cells seem to know it inside out. I think its amazing how you have studied so much and you searched so long with nothing that truly resonated until now. Your eyebrows really did lead you to a life that is so full of love.
You’d never think hairy eyebrows could lead you to the best thing ever, this just proves you never know what’s around the corner and what may lead you to a future more magnificent than you could imagine.
Definitely Meg, and if we have expectations of how things should be then we will be blinded to the opportunity that is right in front of our eyes.
True, it’s much better to be open and take your next step, rather than picturing it and then trying to create your next step based on that picture.
The title of this blog immediately spoke to me as I have a pair of eyebrows that need pretty much daily attention. Reading how it was your eyebrows that pulled you into the beauticians that just happened to be giving esoteric facials just shows how we are drawn to what is needed. Constellations are never accidental and to fully consider this is to appreciate something beyond my mind’s ability to fathom – they are perfect for the millions of people on the planet at all times, offering the opportunities and reflections needed. We are more loved than I have ever imagined!
Amazing sharing – when we know what is true for us our body communicates loud and clear as evidenced in the surrender you felt.
What a classic article and one most would be able to relate to. You have got to love the chain of events that are listed here and you can see how life gives us opportunities to grow and expand our awareness of what is going on around us. I can relate to the ‘why’ person and how this person from young seems to be broken down in and by the world. We don’t want people or more children to ask why, especially if we don’t know why because we asked and were never answered. I remembered being younger and asking a lot of questions. If they were too difficult or pointed you would get shut down and sometimes ridiculed. The world doesn’t like to be stopped and asked things that question a quality of behaviour, especially when it’s been accepted by others and considered somewhat normal. We need to keep asking questions of what we are seeing that doesn’t fit and from this article I appreciated the ‘why’ people and children more. They are the ones that are possibly seeing we need to come back to something and not just let the norm keep running away.
It totally makes sense to me that the more we accept everything about ourselves the more we accept others. When I find myself placing pressure on myself that I still should not be feeling a certain way (after many years of being a student of The Way of The Livingness!) I am in fact delaying evolution but simply expressing exactly how I feel openly and honestly is having an impact in accepting myself and therefore others accepting me.
A beautiful opportunity to cherish your eyebrows – hairy or not – you may discover they pull you towards what you have always known was missing from your life.
Thank you Tanya for sharing your inspirational blog with us. A lovely outcome from having “hairy eyebrows”.
The esoteric facial release massage is beautiful when we need to let go the tightness built up from taking on too many problems of the world!
There is never any co-incidence in where we find ourselves… that you found yourself Tanya in a beauty shop with someone giving free sample treatments of esoteric facial release is because you were ready for change and growth and to return to a truer way of living. Having done the course, I love esoteric facial release.
I agree that before Universal Medicine came along I was trying to find some meaning, settlement and purpose in my life but I was missing the awareness of some key ingredients that I actually already had with me but was unaware of it. What is so lovely about how Universal Medicine supports people is that you are supported to become more aware of what you know and who you are from the inside out.
I love the way you write Tanya, very refreshing, fun and real, simple, straightforward and to the point and very solid and yet lighthearted, simply appreciating all that is there. Thank you.
An awesome story of how you came back to yourself Tanya. I love it. And your appreciation for your eyebrows! How cool is that?!
I love to hear about our paths back to God. Eyebrows…that is new!
It doesn’t matter what we do no matter how sophisticated or pleasurable it seems the body can still hold the tension. It has made all the difference to my life to feel, honour the tension, and change it not from my mind but from my body. To understand my body is a tool – a sacred tool. When listened to it has the answers. I just have to be honest about what it is saying.
What is interesting is how much we submit to images and get trapped by that submission in a journey that goes nowhere, and the extent to which we may give in to it as the only possibility; fact that gets confirmed by our daily reality.
I love your story Tanya. Nothing short of a miracle. If it wasn’t your hairy eyebrows, something else would have got you there. When we know something in life isn’t right, the search continues until we find the unmistakable Truth.
So many testimonials of people turning their lives around. The story is not so much in the detail, but the fact that so many people have been inspired to make what are effectively very simple lifestyle changes, but lifestyle changes that we all struggle with.
“what has been and what is to become” captures very succinctly what it is our journeys in life are really, and what a great confirmation it is for you now to look back and see the huge changes you’ve made and how they’ve supported you to completely turn your life around and live in a more vital and joyful way. Well done Tanya, and thank you for sharing your inspiring story.
“Thanks to the Universal Medicine team I have found my recipe and all the ingredients required to begin replacing that feeling of emptiness with a feeling of completeness.”
This is a great description of what Universal Medicine provides, the ingredients that are required, we then need to put these together and find our recipe of a living way that works for us and supports us in our joy and completeness.
I reacted a lot to the inconsistencies around me growing up, I didn’t understand why adults around me would put up with the abuse that they did. But it’s interesting how we eventually make a choice to join with them and abuse ourselves. Even though we made a choice we always know that it doesn’t feel right. I love how you found your way to what is true and felt it with your whole body. I agree, hairy eyebrows rock!
Thanks Tanya, I guess the why’s are there because what we hear is not really complete, there is something missing. With UniMed there is not so many why’s as there is a wholeness to it.
“I had many rules, expectations and ‘shoulds’ I imposed not only on myself, but all other people… and each person constantly let me down as my expectations were unrealistic!” Same, same for me. I do still have expectations but I am much more aware of them these days and have very recently committed to exposing them more deeply as I can feel they are key to how I hold myself back from fully stepping into my responsibility.
I love your story of how you found Universal Medicine and how you have transformed your life. This is a credit to you listening to your body and following what you felt was true and supportive.
‘ We all had a strong picture of what ‘family’ should be, and that picture was NOT being met by anyone.’ It is interesting how pictures can destroy our relationships with everyone, learning to appreciate and accept myself first has been key to expanding this love in all my relationships.
I too have found my images and expectations of how ‘family’ should get in the way of me developing a true relationship with people close to me. Your comment is an awesome reminder for me to let these go and learn to appreciate and value myself and others more and more.
What a beautiful playful and very real sharing on how you came to Universal Medicine and how it has changed your life. It is the greatest gift in the world to humanity, allowing us all to simply be who we are. The joy and magic of this is very inspiring as are our choices on our path back to who we are – love or essence is the medicine of the Universe.
I love it. How things get constellated is just so magical. But the chances are even if your eyebrows was not hairy and walked past the beautician on that day, you probably would have found Universal Medicine one way or the other.
Love the title of this blog Tanya :), one should never judge a book by its cover. The true beauty you unfold is a joy to read and feel.
You never know when God will present himself, from hairy eyebrows to a toilet stop, he is forever offering moments.
Tanya, reading your blog has reminded me that as I child I wanted to know the ins and outs of everything, I asked a lot of questions, listened to a lot of information, but never felt the fullness of the person. Often I was fobbed of with quick answers or even told I was annoying. This I realise now contributed to the lack of love and understanding that I had for myself, let alone for others. It is only now that I am regaining my love and natural understanding. I too thank your hairy eyebrows for they have given me a moment to feel the impact that this has had on me and subsequently how I have lived.
My, how we take our eyebrows for granted – but they offer us so much. Tanya, your blog is a full reflection of the simple fact that we do know truth when we ‘stumble’ across it. Thank you.
How profound Tanya… Your writing and earlier myriad of life experiences, reminds me of the William Blake quote: “The questioner who sits so sly, will never know how to reply.”
You were NO ‘sly’ nor cynical questioner – clearly. You didn’t stop asking, questioning and seeing all that didn’t make sense and that which didn’t offer any true sense of liberation from the depth of sadness, the angst of being disconnected from our true selves, that you felt.
How truly profound then, when such open questioning ever-remained within you, that you found something that truly made sense – offering the missing piece you knew was there, in reconnecting to you and arresting the cycles of self-abuse you were living. Wow…
I agree Tanya, it is great when the missing ingredient is found to be simply connecting to ourselves and living from the impulses of this connection. The emptiness is us missing our self as we cannot access this connection if we have deserted our body and escaped into our heads.
Amazing where we’ll journey to before we finally clock that we have everything we need already and that it’s the way we choose to live that enables us to begin replacing that feeling of emptiness with a feeling of completeness.
I can’t believe I missed reading this blog before now – hilarious Tanya! Amazing where our body can take us when we simply surrender.
Tan, I have just re-read your blog and really enjoyed it – thanks too to your hairy eyebrows for what they have brought you as changes in life. Love it!
Tan I love your humour and your hairy eyebrows story! Thank you! I also really liked what you said about how developing and unfolding is a continuous process: “My livingness is a ‘development’ that will continue to unfold.”. To function in today’s world is already a challenge for most, and so it becomes unlikely for people to look beyond managing one’s life. So as you say, tackling the sadness that most of us actually feel if we are really honest with ourselves, is a rare opportunity that we will take. In your sharing I can appreciate your sensitivity and the fact that you were all along aware of this sadness, this feeling that things were incomplete, and hence the incessant drive to keep looking for solutions and answers. And so you stumbled upon the esoteric work as taught by Serge Benhayon, and this allowed you finally to feel supported to explore deeper this sadness and feeling of incompleteness and to take life from a state of function to a process of actually Living. And this truly is an unfoldment that deepens continually. A very deeply inspiring story. Thanks Tan!
I love how your hairy eyebrows led to the transformation you describe. Your body took you there!
I love how you shared Tanya that you were ‘Known as the annoying “why?” person, I was the one who questioned everything said to me and saw a loophole in all that was presented’. This is actually a quality for if we don’t question the so called norm and challenge the current status quo everything will remain the same and nothing will ever grow and evolve.
‘P.S. Thank you to my hairy eyebrows for leading me to this path of living a life of responsibility…’ So cool how life simply works out, you followed your impulse to sort your eyebrows out and little did you know what was waiting for you! It reminds me we never know what’s around the corner, but it’s bound to be pretty spectacular.
What you expose here is huge, maybe not as huge as your eyebrows but it defiantly comes close.
This article actually asks the reader what energy their success is being achieved in?
Its easy to trick ourselves that we have made it and there is nothing left to do when we are busy and in a profession that ‘helps’ people, even if we are sad and lonely. Well done for not just thinking that is the way life is, well done for looking deeper and letting your eyebrows lead you to reawakening the love you always were. For that choice has benefited so many people in your life and continues to do so, what a gift for humanity it is when we step into our full potential.
Thanks Tanya for your joyous and exuberant expression of what it feels like to find the truth, a reconnection to ourselves, and create a life that actually works after finding Universal Medicine. You have shared a lot of wisdom and honesty, I particularly liked this line “There no longer is a ‘need’, and people are now enjoyed for ‘who they are’, not exposed for ‘what expectation they are not meeting.” This is something I feel I can look at further in my own life, I really appreciate the way this is expressed, as I can feel I have a deeper opportunity now to accept people as they are and drop any expectations or pictures I’m holding, and simply let people be. There is a simplicity in being love with people and expectations are another layer of complication to be let go of.
It’s amazing how many people live with a similar list of health issues and soldier on as if it is normal to manage but few turn their life and health around like you have. How powerful that you have learnt the impact of our choices on our health and behaviour to be able to take that to your clients to truly support them in a way you couldn’t before living the proof for yourself. Amazing.
Thank you Tanya for a great sharing, so beautiful to read the before and afters of peoples lives when they have come to embrace the teachings of Serge. I look back on my own life and wonder who was that person. Thankfully so different to the person I am today.
My life is totally different than it was 5-6 years ago as well Jill, and as I learn not to be so hard on myself for the choices I made in the past, I can appreciate more and more the choices I am making today – choices which have been, and are, truly life-changing, and yet at the same time, truly simple.
Amazing point Angela, that is a key on its own – not to beat ourselves up about our previous choices but to appreciate the current ones!
Thank you Tanya for such a playful and lighthearted blog – who would of thought hairy eyebrows would lead you to a path of true love and healing. Amazing to read how you transformed your life by taking responsibility and making choices that truly support you.
What a gorgeous and amusing blog Tanya – it’s difficult to imagine you as the person you describe pre Universal Medicine when I see the amazing woman you are today with your acceptance of people and the loving understanding you bring knowing the beauty that each one holds within.
What a unique way to have found Universal Medicine Tanya, love it! It certainly is amazing what changes can take place in our lives through simple everyday choices, changes that surpass our imaginings most often.
I love hearing how people have found Universal Medicine as well Joe. The hairy eye brows story is a classic.
Tanya I so relate to your description of your family, ‘trying to change each other to be who we wanted them to be, no-one enjoying anyone for who they were.’
I certainly did this in buckets, missing out on years of appreciating how lovely my family all are. I wanted to change them so they would look after me – rather than the far more simple, powerful and possible choice of taking responsibility for myself. Trying to change them was so controlling and is set up to cause misery for all. If there ever were any changes they were not true as they were forced.
Brilliantly said Deanne. I’ve been playing a game of choosing how much I function to entertain myself ( I’ll have well functioning days and then sabotage the level I am able to function so the next day I can rectify my mini- dramas to avoid a big drama). Take this game away and I’ve felt at a loss but bring in purpose I can take responsibility into my day and live expressing love in all I do.
Tanya I also felt a constant undercurrent of loneliness and sadness in my life even when I was enjoying what I thought was a good time. Since listening to presentations by Serge Benhayon and attending workshops with Universal Medicine I am learning to reconnect to who I truly am and feeling the love within my inner-heart, and this same love within others, and I am no longer lonely or sad. A deep connection to myself, to God and the Universe and all the wonders of the Ageless Wisdom are a constant joy in the exploration of all that we are, and are returning to.
“I could help people go from non-functional to functional, but once at functional there was still a sadness and emptiness beyond what I could help with… I couldn’t help because I felt it too!”
– I know this space…it is the great biting ‘emptiness’ that arises from our disconnection to ourselves, each other and The All that we are a part of. It is our disconnection from love – God. The good news is God never disconnects from us, it is we who choose to disconnect from him, so reconnection is only ever a choice away, OUR choice.
I too used to believe in ‘nothing’. It is a reaction formed when we have made the choice to disconnect from what we know is true. In that disconnection, we are then fed a dizzying array of fillers to numb us to the fact that we made this choice, so as to relieve ourselves of our responsibility of turning away from love. When these fillers don’t work (because they are void of love and hence lack any true substance and nourishment) we rebel in overload and renounce them all, only to believe in ‘nothing’. But belief in nothing is still a belief and even ‘nothing’ is something. When we live the love that we are, we do not have to ‘believe’ anything because everything is KNOWN by the quality in which we live. The illusion is easily exposed if we are willing to look.
I can relate to what you share Tanya, about your past seeming like a ‘distant memory’ or a ‘movie’. For me, when I think about my life as I was choosing to live it prior to reconnecting back with the Ageless Wisdom, and now having made that connection again thanks to Universal Medicine, it feels like I changed the channel – from all that was not love, back to love. Or was it that I changed the entire TV, from black and white to digital? Actually… I upgraded the entire system, from analogue to digital and have never looked back since. We are so much more than we play ourselves to be and our evolution lies in our own hands.
Most have not expressed it like this before Tania, but in most families (and relationships in general) across the world everyone is trying to change each other to be what each person needs them to be rather than accepting who they are already. This is really intense and very imposing to feel this placed on you!
Tanya, I can feel your amazingness in this sharing and the true power in all the great choices you have made and are making. There are no coincidences in life just opportunities that we can choose or not- what a great choice that was to get your eyebrows done that day!
Tanya, reading this funny and gorgeous blog was perfectly timed for me. I have in the past day or so been contemplating one of my a relationships, and the fact that it needs to change. Your comments about expectations confirmed that the best starting place is not with my ‘issues’ with the relationship, but by looking at my expectations of it. Its so easy to just ‘point the finger’, or to justify our entitlement to feel disappointed, but really, where does that get us?
Gosh I loved this, particularly the bit where Tanya explained that she said yes to having an esoteric healing session because it meant that she could lay down for longer. I sure relate to that. The fact that Monika Korb was there offering something different, just when Tanya was ready for that something reminds me again, how crucially important it is that we don’t ever think that what we do does not matter, or make a difference. We never know when we will reflect the truth to someone who is looking for it. It may be walking along the street, in the supermarket or in the middle of a business meeting. If we switch off, and say, ‘when I am ready’, we will never know how many people will miss out.
This sentence sprang out at me – “expectations and ‘shoulds.’ I imposed not only on myself, but all other people… and each person constantly let me down as my expectations were unrealistic….” Having expectations is a killer. The only person we can change is ourselves – and how different the world then looks! Thanks for this post and sharing your story Tanya.
Isn’t is amazing how we are pulled from different corners of life to the one truth?
Your story is great. It takes self responsibility to recognise something is not right. Our bodies talk to us all the time, if we choose to listen then we are able to heal and make changes. I can relate to how you filled your life with numbness and being busy, how it all seemed so perfect on the outside, but on the inside very empty. My experience is the same. I was on this search, completely numb on the inside, I was caught up in Sai baba for over 18yrs, and still never found the truth I was looking for until I met Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine. This is when I understood healing starts from within, taking responsibility of ones own life and not to give my power away to anything outside of me. I was in an extremely exhausted state when I had met Serge, but with commitment and his loving support I was able to heal my body from exhaustion as I came to understand the power of self responsibility.
It is amazing to me the lengths people go to to find purpose and what the ‘more’ is that they innately feel inside. My experience has been a little different, as I too felt something grand within me, but couldn’t quite put my finger on how come either, but instead of going out and searching for meaning from ashrams, the Catholics or drugs, I kind of just gave up, and sat in comfort. My tears dried up with the help of potato chips, cheesecake and romantic movies and I settled in for the long haul. My sadness came with me, but was neatly covered with frustration, the need to be right, expectations and control. I thought I was doing alright and I was from the outside. But when it comes down to it, function doesn’t ever win. It keeps you playing sure, but never ever do you get to the finish line, but you do keep trying, as that carrot keeps dangling in front of you (aka Me). After a particularly sad moment, I took myself to one of Serge Benhayon’s $5 presentations a few years ago and immediately and very very clearly, the door was unlocked for me. The feeling I had known my whole life became my foundation to build on and the trappings that had been keeping me comfortable and given up, I have been shedding since that day. I too am eternally grateful for what I was given on that day and every day since, that is the way back to me and the grand divinity that I had felt I was a part of. It now just makes sense.
Yes Suzanne and Esther what I found with Universal Medicine is a feeling of finally coming home, the wandering and questioning finally put to rest.
I loved reading this Suzanne, especially about sitting back in comfort, thank you.
What I find interesting is this sense of knowing that stuff isn’t correct in the world, but not really having the tools to break free of such. Universal Medicine is making the complex and tight-grip of deep-seeded consciousnesses, that plague our lives, understood and therefore possible to heal.
I agree Oliver. Finding loopholes in the consciousness that people give their power away to seemed to come easy. But what I didn’t even begin to know how to heal or deal with was the deep emptiness I felt within. I did all sorts to try to find something trust worthy and without flaw. I did crazy psychotherapies and studied philosophy to try to find answers.
The philosophers I studied many were flawed in their arguments and those who weren’t flawed I did not appreciate because I was far from the wisdom they were accessing through their inner hearts and their connection to truth. It’s not been until I’ve been supported to take responsibility for my connection to my inner heart have I been able to access this wisdom more consistently and vanquish the emptiness that once plagued me.
Tanya, my earlier years were full of sport, socialising and work, very much a work hard play hard attitude towards life. When a friend invited me to a presentation by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, I knew that there was something very true about what was being presented. This was the beginning of me realising that the way I had been living was a long way away from the truth.
Same for me gyllianrae, once I found Serge Benhayon I have not searched for anything else. He lives what we all can live and thus I have got on with living my own truth.
P.S. Thank you to my hairy eyebrows for leading me to this path of living a life of responsibility… each stray hair protruding from my eyebrows is a gentle reminder of “what has been and what is to become”. – Thank you Tanya. Who would have thought hairy eyebrows would have lead to living a life of responsibility.
Your blog made me chuckle Tanya Curtis. Yes thank God for those eyebrows and you popping into the beauticians. I have seen your work with Fabic and watched some of your presentations via Youtube. You have a great understanding of people and behaviours and clearly you’ve grown from the person in the first paragraph. Personally I have learnt so much from watching these videos and it is obviously a testament to the way that you live that has allowed you to have such understanding. A great example of what letting go of expectations and just meeting and accepting people for who they are can do. Thank you Tanya.
I love that you were once the ‘why’ person yet have found such sense in what Universal Medicine presents that you no longer need to know more but can just feel the responsibility that is required and in committing to that have watched your life transform so remarkably. A true pleasure to read.
Awesome story Tanya. I love how you found Universal Medicine and the title. That emptiness you described I’ve experienced it myself, it sometimes comes and goes but now I haven’t felt it for such a long time. If and when I do, I know to just reflect back to my choices the previous day or week. Knowing that how I feel today is a reflection of how I was living the day before means that I am entirely responsible for how I feel. My choice affects me and everyone around me. Like you, through Universal Medicine, my life has changed too, it has become more amazing, I am feeling more steadiness, at ease, clarity, vitality and love. Choosing to reconnect to who I am, it is a continuous process that is forever evolving.
What a playful title and lovely story 🙂 The way you were living is quiet a common reality for a lot of people these days, and it seems that only once we are open to the possibility of something more, that we are able to see that stress and sadness does not have to be an every day occurrence.
Thank you Tanya yes thank God for hairy eyebrows and thank God for you Tanya.
Inspiring read Tanya! Thank you!
Tanya, I can relate to a lot of what you have written in terms of using activity and my mind to ‘achieve’ as this is how I have behaved for a lot of my life. Your words ‘I could help people go from non-functional to functional, but once at functional there was still a sadness and emptiness beyond what I could help with… I couldn’t help because I felt it too! I was only helping people to a certain level, yet I knew there was more!’ rings bells for me as I was rarely satisfied with the outcome of my work, yet knew that I had done a good job in terms of my job description. Universal Medicine has helped me understand that missing link was caring for and taking responsibility for all my own life first and foremost and that once I developed more love and appreciation in my own body towards myself, I could naturally support, inspire and offer healing to others.
Awesome blog Tania, thank goodness for your hairy eyebrows 🙂
I couldn’t help but read your blog with a title like that. I still find it magical how a certain choice that we make can change our lives forever.
Great blog Tanya love the humorous account
Thanks Tanya your blog illustrates so beautifully how one brief experience of connection can change everything forever if we are ready to change. What an amazing turn around in such a short time.
You must thank those hairy eyebrows every day Tanya, as the turnaround in your life is extraordinary and I can feel the joy that you now live each day. Like you, I have made many life changes since finding my way to my first Universal Medicine workshop 10 years ago, and when I look back at how the quality of my life has blossomed over these years, I totally understand what you are saying here: “The person I describe in the first paragraph feels but a distant memory, like a movie I watched on someone else’s life!”. The life I have now is one I never dreamed was possible, and every day I appreciate the choice I made to follow the impulse to that first workshop. Thank you for sharing your inspirational story.
That’s right Ingrid. I too reflect to how I was 2 or 3 years ago and I am amazed with myself at how I am living now. The loving choices I am making seemed impossible before but now it is part of my everyday way of being. I appreciate all the inspiring people I have met through Universal Medicine that inspires me to continuously evolve.
I thank your hairy eyebrows too Tanya! Love the playful way you wrote this.
I have made a similar expperience by contacting somebody “accidentally” some years ago who turned out to be an esoteric practitioner. From that point my life changed in a way that I feel much more healthy and vibrant today. Thank you Tanya. Thank you Universal Medicine.
Tanya – thank you for sharing how the ‘Truth’ of who we are never leaves us, it is just dulled by the world, others and food – as we allow that. There are many moments configuring all of the time to connect us back and once we listen and connect the first time to one of these, there is then no other way. Beautiful ‘Hairy ‘ Eyebrows confirmed.
Tanya – the inherent drive is something that is strong in me and has always been that way. My weeks in my late teens/early 20’s resembled the picture you have laid out. But always I felt something was missing – the angst was there. It was only after attending my first session with Serge Benhayon (for a fear of flying) did I feel what i had been missing. At first i could not put a word on it and a few days later after a heart chakra I felt teary eyed at the day being over – reflecting on that it was the first time that I felt “at home” in my body – met by someone that truly loved me.
I love reading your comment, beautiful sharing David. Thank you!
Tanya, I so know the search to find that thing that I knew was missing in my life. I too found Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, and like you there is no longer a desperate need to search. I have found what was missing in my life. Me. Living connected to the love I have within has transformed my life and the joy I now live with is so beautiful.
That was a beautiful constellation you got yourself into, Tanya!
“Thank goodness for hairy eyebrows” – The title had me wondering Tanya, it is amazing how our body speaks to us. Great blog, thank you for sharing.
Yes Tanya, thank goodness you listened to the impulse to have that facial release with Monica Korb. I too found that nothing filled the emptiness until Serge Benhayon firstly named the feeling for what it was so I finally realised the problem I was trying to solve, and thereafter it has been a matter of developing my own living way step by step. It is beautiful to read how there was no holding back once you connected to yourself – a beautiful story.
I love how you arrived at truth and recognised it in an instant Tanya!
So simple, effective and such immense power of actually listening to the impulse from with-in. In this situation it’s got a humours by line and a whole new meaning to ‘giving the hairy eye-brow look”.
Your blog makes me think how there seems to be only two paths in life – either buckle up or give up and accept life the way it is, or embark on an ephemeral search for truth and our own patch of Nirvana – neither of which seem to lead anywhere in the end. The lives of the celebrity, homeless drunk, free loving hippy, or successful business man all seem to have one thing in common – none of these lifestyles seem to provide a true solution to the inescapable tension that I am sure we all feel in life at some point. Which of course leads to the inevitable question that perhaps our search for our identity lays not in what is on the outside, but within. And although that can lead to some discomfort at first, it is the only way we really get to reconnect to the true vitality and richness of life that is naturally ours to behold. This is the core of what it means to be esoteric.
Haha thank you to your hairy eyebrows indeed ! What a difference you have described to the way you are now.
Amazing Story Tanya! Knowing you now I would never have guessed the life you lived before, as I see someone who is now so full of integrity, responsibility and dedication. And yes I find too that Wwat Universal Medicine presents makes a lot of sense.
It’s amazing what just two years of self connection and the awareness of self love can do in ones life. I love hearing these stories and over time they will inspire thousands to come discover there is another way of living, that is deeply satisfying, joyful, vital and benificial for all.
Hairy eye brows ha! It was your body being inspired to go where there was a facial release happening – this is the magic of God.
I totally loved reading this account of your experiences in life! So very inspiring!
I love how you honestly write “I could help people go from non-functional to functional, but once at functional there was still a sadness and emptiness beyond what I could help with”. We champion functionality in todays society, but do not generally take it to the next step which is Quality of life, the fact that every day can be filled with joy rather than scattered moments of happiness here and there. Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon offered myself this new way of thinking and have shown me practical skills to build this joy and quality into my every day life, I no longer exist, I celebrate.
Tan great blog. I love how you describe the changes you’ve made and how that is still developing – that’s such a crucial point, we and life are continually evolving and developing with that. And sometimes I forget that as new challenges arise, but actually it’s an opportunity to develop and give time and energy to something that perhaps I’d been ignoring previously. So thank you for reminding me, and allowing me to let go a little more of an idea I have of how I should be.
Thank you Tanya for your honesty and deep commitment to really wanting to help others. Explaining your blocks and how you cleared them in yourself and sharing it forward to others. A path that is inspirational and true for others to do the same.
The body knows what the real deal is and the moment you stretched out for the hairy eyebrow moment – the body started speaking to you. I love those moments when everything constellates and an opening occurs where you have that opportunity to say ‘yes’ to the wisdom of the body – you did that, that day and look where you are now 🙂
Thank you Tanya for your lovely story – it was beautiful to share your unfolding path. I can so relate to going ‘from non-functional to functional, but once at functional there was still a sadness and emptiness beyond’ and I was stuck in this place until, like you, I found an Esoteric Practitioner to support me. It is lovely to look back appreciate how far I have come – and to know that this unfolding will continue as long as I am willing to allow.
I so love your honesty, Tanya. Who would’ve thought that hairy eyebrows would lead you to find what you had been looking for. So beautiful to feel your appreciation on how things were constellated to lead you to where you are now.
Just recently I got to know you, Tanya, just yesterday you shared your spectacular life-constellations with me and funnily today I stumble over this blog. I deeply appreciate your consistent steps you take with Love for you and others. It’s a joy being around you.
I have to admit that never thought that a pair of hairy eyebrows was necessarily a good thing!! It is always fascinating how each of the Universal Medicine students connected to it. Thank you for sharing your story Tanya! What I felt while reading your blog is how messy was your life and how orderly and clear it became. Beautiful.
A great example of how life and your eye brows constallates to show you a really loving way of being. It seems to be so common that people wanting to help others are not able to help themselves first, this is a key issue that needs addressing and your experience shows how valuable and effective putting yourself first is.
Thank you Tanya for sharing how your hairy eyebrows changed your life – I enjoyed your blog very much. I especially loved this part –
” My livingness comes first, and with that brings about other changes. The word ‘developing’ has been, and still is, super-crucial.”
When I reflect on my life before coming to Universal medicine,it feels like I am witnessing some one else’s life. My life before was often one of struggle and of just making it through from one day to the next. Now I look forward to living each and every day to the full.
Yes Elizabeth I was thinking the same thing, and felt deep appreciation of how life unfolds and supports us if we keep making choices to evolve.
It is such a blessing how everything synchronises, when we are ready to take the next step in our evolution, as you have highlighted so beautifully and so playfully in you blog. Thank you Tania.
Gorgeous Tanya. Every moment is an opportunity to make a choice to connect to who we are or not – even hairy eyebrow moments.
From eyebrows to ‘I love me’. Your blog shows that we all have the power to change the way we experience life and it is our choice to either be a victim or to take more responsibility.
How awesome are divine constellations like you have shared Tanya, and we simply just have to be open to them, so much magic in life, every day.
The humour and honesty in this blog were inspiring. It is great when we can look back and reflect upon a moment where we have made a choice that has affected the rest of our lives. This is what life is about, learning and growing from within.
Tanya, I just love your blog!
Awesome article Tan! Your words ‘I could help people go from non-functional to functional, but once at functional there was still a sadness and emptiness beyond what I could help with… I couldn’t help because I felt it too,’ would most likely describe most if not all health care workers of this present day. Actually, it would describe most if not all people of today regardless of their age or employment status. There is a groundswell of awareness in our society, that life as we know it today is indeed missing a vital ingredient that allows us all to feel complete and fulfilled. There’s an insatiable emptiness that gnaws from deep within. I totally agree with you Tan, Universal Medicine with its esoteric philosophies is that missing ingredient in everyone’s recipe of life.
Thank you Tanya for such an beautifully inspiring read. Amazing the changes that have happened to you in such a short time. I too at times have looked back on my life before Universal Medicine and wonder, who was that person and am thankful for where I am now.
Beautiful Jill, no matter what has triggered the change in our lives, change has most definitely happened for many of us.
Me too! And at times I consider where I would be now, without being re-connected to that crucial inner part of me?…Not a pretty sight, I imagine…probably far worse than hairy eyebrows 😳
Very humorous account, God save the eye brows…
Just kidding.
Thank you Tanya.
Tanya writes with such playfulness here. I really enjoyed reading her blog – not just because of the huge turnaround in her life, but how an everyday situation like having her eyebrows waxed, lead her to this change. Most often healing is thought of as something that happens in far away lands on top of mountains, but this story proves that opportunities for healing can occur at any juncture in our lives and that we don’t have to remove ourselves from life and people for it to occur.
Agree shevonsimon there is no such thing as a insignificant event. Because we may miss a magical moment as described in Tanya’s blog
This is so gorgeous to read Tanya, it is amazing how you have changed so much in two years, from being exhausted and given up to, ‘I now enjoy waking up each morning, I enjoy going to bed with me each night, and I enjoy all that is between each day and each night’. I completely agree with what you have written here, ‘What I have learnt from Universal Medicine (and surprisingly, for the first time in my life I am not constantly questioning what is presented, as it ‘just makes sense’)’ I feel this too.
‘Thanks to the Universal Medicine team I have found my recipe and all the ingredients required to begin replacing that feeling of emptiness with a feeling of completeness.’
And the great part is the ingredients are always there, we never run out…we may have to ‘hunt at the back of the cupboard’ as it were, lift a few other items out of the way, but whatever variation we feel to cook today, we can.
Wow – who would have thought hair eyebrows could be such a blessing! Meeting Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine was life changing for me too – you have told the story in such a sweet and open and funny way – thank you.