by Sue Goodson, UK
Since attending my first Universal Medicine retreat in the UK in May I have been inspired to go for a daily walk first thing in the morning, whatever the weather. It is a time I enjoy to be with myself, in the fresh morning air, feeling the opportunities a new day brings… to start afresh.
I enjoy walking ‘with my heart’, feeling how my body is. I enjoy the journey of coming back to the true me, and taking the time to reconnect to my heart. It’s just one of a few healthy changes I have made, including eating more healthy foods, and going to bed earlier, which I have done gradually and from the feeling that my body appreciates those changes. It feels more self-loving, whereas before I would often disregard how I was feeling. Now I am learning to tune into those feelings more, as it feels right.
I have been attending the amazing healing courses and presentations at Universal Medicine for the three years since 2009. Since then, I have slowly discovered that I have within me everything I need to live harmoniously. It is just a simple matter of reconnecting to the love within. It was often easier said than done, only because initially I resisted this simple truth and didn’t want to face myself, warts and all!
In my earlier years I worked as a professional dancer, and also taught ballet/jazz dance/aerobics to children and adults. I lived in many different countries – Europe, USA, South America, the Middle East and Far East, travelling with work, and later on with my husband’s work. I never felt that I truly belonged anywhere. The dance work was very hard on my body, and it was easy to get injuries. I craved recognition and acceptance – that really was the nature of the work. It was about glamour, and how you looked on the outside. Now I know that the answers are not found on the outside, but only by connecting to myself from within.
We returned to the UK in 1995 so we could put down some roots for us, a family of four. I decided to retrain and practise aromatherapy massage. I worked in a complementary health clinic in Ascot, later in Richmond and central London. I also attended many complementary health courses – always searching for that elusive better health for myself and my clients. My health wasn’t that great, and usually with some symptom or another presenting itself I never felt truly well. I constantly looked outside of myself for answers to my confidence issues and often suffered with anxiousness, stomach problems and cystitis. I was really searching for the answer to my health issues, but trying to help others at the same time. I knew I had to get myself right before really being able to help others, but nothing gave me the full picture.
Through a good friend I eventually found myself at my first Universal Medicine course, Heart Chakra 1. At that first presentation I felt very welcome and very inspired by Serge Benhayon and the teachings. I learnt a simple breathing meditation called the ‘Gentle Breath’, which really helped me to reconnect to myself. I was introduced to many other tools to help me live harmoniously; one being the lovely eye pillows for self healing. I continued to attend more healing courses and presentations, and after each one could feel in my body how different I felt. It was an amazing feeling, one I had never felt before in the same way. It is great also to have some practical inspiration for living a healthy life with exercise, diet, sleep etc. (simple things that anyone can do.) It’s not rocket science nor a set of “do’s and don’ts” – they just make total sense. Of course I can often feel the resistance in me to this level of self-love, but it is a work in progress, and one I intend to follow, as I haven’t felt this level of vitality, or of being so centred, before.
I am very thankful to Serge Benhayon and his team for all the love and support they have given and continue to give.
Here are a few things I have learnt along the way that I am working with:
- Don’t beat myself up, focus on the positive.
- Feel, don’t think, that way I honour myself. Let myself feel what is in my body and not override it. Trust it.
- Don’t give my power away, there is a choice… but at the same time, don’t hold back.
- Be present (conscious presence); check back in with myself by closing my eyes.
- Just Be.
- Be gentle, walk gently.
- It’s not what I do, but the way I am (energetic quality).
- Don’t compare myself with others, breathe my own breath.
- Give myself more time, don’t rush, and build a momentum of gentleness.
- Don’t try and impose my views on others!
- Self expression is everything.
- Time for me… to reconnect to my inner heart (the love within).