by Elizabeth Dolan, RN, Australia
Recently a patient I was nursing said to me, “You are a true healer – your presence heals”. I knew exactly what she meant, but only because of the work I have done with Universal Medicine. Let me explain…
When I first met Serge Benhayon I was full of anger and blame. I was angry at the world and felt let down by it. I had spent my whole life searching for the ‘meaning of life’. When I was in my teens I read all sorts of literature to try and understand what life was all about. In my twenties I traveled extensively in search of some elusive thing that I felt was missing. I worked in various countries; tried to do ‘good’ by working in refugee camps and with various disempowered groups; went to university and studied psychology and philosophy thinking that this would help; became involved in experiential psychology, and then studied metaphysics and even became involved in new age spirituality… None of it helped, and all of it left me feeling more and more empty – in fact worse off than before I had started, because my head was now so full of theories, ideals and beliefs.
By the time I met Serge Benhayon I had almost completely given up on that feeling that ‘there is more to life’. To the outside world I would have appeared like a fairly functioning human being, but really I was miserable, drank too much, was about 15 kgs overweight and was working mainly on night shift in a nursing home because I couldn’t face people. I would not have admitted it back then, but I was just managing my way through life, surviving life as best I could.
A friend had been to see Serge and spoke highly of that visit. I resisted going at first, but eventually made an appointment. So I walked into his treatment room, full of anger and full of blame. I challenged him on everything he said… I was rude and obnoxious and questioned him about his work, the way I should have questioned every other person I had read or listened to, but hadn’t. Every two weeks I went back to interrogate Serge a bit more. He didn’t react – he just answered my questions. What he said was very challenging at times, but it made a lot of sense. The thing I was bitter about was that I had always felt myself to be a genuine person who was on a genuine search for truth. I had devoted my life to it, but it had gone so terribly wrong. When he explained to me that I had to look at the energy I had been searching in, then I started to understand what had gone wrong. I had gone in search of meaning from a place of feeling empty and lost, and wanting to be filled up from the outside, when in fact I needed to have started with knowing myself first, and in that way I would have been able to discern what was true and what wasn’t. I was an empty vessel trying to be filled.
With the support of Universal Medicine I learned to reconnect with myself. In doing that, I experienced myself not as an empty vessel, but someone who was full of love. I discovered that this was not only true for me, but for all others equally. We may not always live like that but it remains a fact – we are by nature love.
Over the years my life has changed beyond recognition. I changed my diet and stopped eating gluten and dairy. Because I wasn’t eating gluten anymore I stopped bloating, and as a result lost all the excess weight. I stopped drinking alcohol when I let myself connect with just how harming it was, and I realised that I was just using it to take the edge off life. I bought a house with 2 friends and committed to living, to the best of my ability, with truth and love.
I now work full time in a busy hospital, and love it. I love being out in the world and just being myself. On a daily basis I see how people have given up on life and themselves, and the consequences of that. I also see that the world is in need of people who have started to deal with the things that have brought them to the point of giving up on love, so that others can feel that maybe, just maybe, there is something beyond just managing life, and that we can in fact enjoy it.
Universal Medicine supported me to go deeper, to look at the energy I approached things in, and to be honest with myself. I learned that the choices I make on a daily basis impact my body and life, and the lives of those around me. Ultimately I have learned to take responsibility for myself, and to stop waiting for someone else to bring to me something that is in fact already within me, should I choose to connect with it.
Now back to the patient I mentioned at the start of this piece. I understood what she was saying because of my experience with Serge Benhayon. She experienced ME – the fullness of me, and in that she could feel the more (love) that she is. In feeling the love that she is, she experienced the possibility for true healing. This is exactly what happened for me with Serge Benhayon. He allowed me to feel the love that I am… and with that I have been healing myself.
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“He allowed me to feel the love that I am… and with that I have been healing myself.” I experienced goosebumps reading this. The magic of feeling the innate love within.
Elizabeth this is so important what you have shared ‘None of it helped, and all of it left me feeling more and more empty – in fact worse off than before I had started, because my head was now so full of theories, ideals and beliefs.’ That when we search for answers outside of ourselves we in fact become more empty!!!! This alone says it all. No need to make it complicated just re-connect and look within, as once we align to the true truth everything is there, as has always been.
Bringing it back to what energy are we aligned to, what is running us, ‘I had to look at the energy I had been searching in, then I started to understand what had gone wrong.’
Elizabeth this is what we are not taught at any time in our lives; which is to know ourselves first deeply and honestly. When we are able to do this then we are easily able to discern what is true and what isn’t, we are no longer empty vessels but full vessels of our own love.
Having lived most of my life in emptiness I am filling myself up with my own love and beauty. There is no way I would want to go back to a life of emptiness, it is extremely painful as I relied on others to tell me my worth and of course everyone had a different opinion and none of the opinions were supportive or pleasant.
Beautiful Elizabeth. As health care workers, we are inclined to think we help others as much as we can, (which is true) but we often do it at the expense of ourselves. As a therapist, I used to tell people to do exercises, but I didn’t do them myself. So caring for ourselves has to come first, then our job caring for others is so natural.
I loved reading your sharing Elizabeth, I probably can estimate that billions of people that live on this planet, are experiencing or have experienced something similar to you. The quest and thirst to search for whatever it may be for them, truth in most cases.
When we the see the end product, giving up on things that no longer serve the body, because it felt right for the body, is the key. The support from Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine worked for you, and life has changed and you can work full time, says it all for me.
If it isn’t for you, then continue to search, like many others have experienced. One day we will feel we are at rest with one another, one day, we will feel we are at home with one. Whoever or whichever the modality or practitioner is the one, that supports you along that pathway.
I love this – this presents a great question about what true healing is, what true seeking is. Many of us are seeking without quite knowing what we are seeking, and it feels like when we experience true healing then we understand what we have been seeking all along – as that experience makes sense of many of the previously unanswered questions and fits like the last piece in the jigsaw and brings back a sense of settlement we have long forgotten.
I knew I was searching for something more, and hadn’t quite given up that the answers had to be out there, somewhere. I am so glad that I found Universal Medicine, it confirmed there was indeed more, but what I hadn’t realised on that first meeting, just how much more I would be opening myself up to. Its been pretty amazing, and like you Elizabeth, my life has changed so fundamentally that I am more me than I have ever been.
Many of us have sought in vain initially as Elizabeth described, ‘and even became involved in new age spirituality… None of it helped, and all of it left me feeling more and more empty – in fact worse off than before I had started, because my head was now so full of theories, ideals and beliefs.’
Elizabeth, thank you for sharing this, it is beautiful that you are now committed to and enjoy life, having purpose and supporting others.
“Ultimately I have learned to take responsibility for myself, and to stop waiting for someone else to bring to me something that is in fact already within me, should I choose to connect with it.” This is something huge to learn, I’m still working through this understanding as I let go of pictures of how relationships should be, and learn to find everything I’m looking for outside of me within myself.
Life before meeting Serge Benhayon felt like wandering around in the woods at night. Eventually I accepted that life is cold and dark. But then came the realisation that I do know the way home and that I need not go out into the dark to find anything about myself as everything is already inside the house! Currently I feel like the learning is to stay indoors and discover what happens, what can be done when I stop searching.
When we can allow ourselves to simply be, our presence alone can be a healing. The challenge is to allow that moment, that space to just be, especially in a world that is so fully of that darn busyness.
That’s true Henrietta, and we see ourselves as nothing because we don’t have self appreciation as a part of life, we don’t realise how wonderful we are so we don’t enjoy the space to be as we are not able to nestle into ourselves and feel the fullness of our being. If we don’t know the richness of our being then we may feel we have to continually prove our worth through doing and achieving.
Amazing life-changing experience Elizabeth. I enjoyed reading about the difference you are making today in the hospital you work in, by being that nurturing presence, bringing a new quality of stillness that invite others to trust again and be open. This is no common to find in this world and yet it’s our true nature as human beings.
Lovely to read how Elizabeth understands the responsibility of how she lives, ‘Universal Medicine supported me to go deeper, to look at the energy I approached things in, and to be honest with myself. I learned that the choices I make on a daily basis impact my body and life, and the lives of those around me.’
The patient you were nursing was so accurate and makes me remember how sensitive we all are, that when we feel truly held and loved we can easily notice it, and that’s a blessing.
A gorgeous testimony Elizabeth of how deepening in living the love we naturally are within, through all aspects of our lives, is the greatest medicine that offers us true healing, freeing us to live the power and joy of who we are, the reflection of who we all are in essence.
I understand and relate to your sharing Elizabeth. I was also a seeker, travelling in the search for more. Then I found Universal Medicine and I came home. But that home is within me, so I am home wherever I am and I no longer need to search outside of this truth that I can feel.
“None of it helped, and all of it left me feeling more and more empty – in fact worse off than before I had started, because my head was now so full of theories, ideals and beliefs”. The spiritual new age and other study is like a game of snakes and ladders. You can think at the time you are going somewhere or getting something, but you end up sliding down, further away from the truth that is waiting in your body to be connected with. No theories or ideals, just responding to what is felt.
Very lovely Elizabeth. I have been approaching something from the wrong energy for some time. It seems easy to switch this energy and now give myself the permission and authority to a new approach of what I know is needed for the true healing to take place.
It’s a good question to check in with ourselves on how we are approaching things, is it from our fullness, or seeking something from a disconnection to ourselves and from our emptiness?