by Kim Olsen, Warwick, Australia
My path to make contact with the esoteric and Universal Medicine was kicked off by an incident. I fell and badly broke my left hip. Up to this point I had been doing what the world expected of me (to me now that felt like going through the motions of living). I had been suffering hay fever and sinus problems for more than 20 years.
Previously, as a teenager I had needed to have my tonsils removed. I was overweight and showing early signs of a heart attack-in-waiting… I am sure I was heading for cancer as well – if the heart attack did not kill me first.
So when I was 36 I had this fall which left me immobile for three months. My hip was fractured, I had scarring on my lung and bruising on my heart. While I was reflecting on this in hospital, I realised that I had not been listening to my body and the messages it was trying to give me. I resolved to do so from now on.
From a temporal point of view, this resolve (alignment to my soul) set me off on a disastrous path. I lost three good relationships and much of my assets (worldly). However, I have through this journey found who I am, and to me now that is all that really matters. Looking back, I realised I would now lose relationships if I did not express as me in them. I had taken on an adage to be what I thought others wanted me to be.
Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are? It is so lovely to be confidently expressing now as me.
I was now seeing much of the world and the way I was, as it was. At one stage my spectacle prescription improved back five years as I started seeing in-truth how my relationship was. The optometrist agreed that my sight had improved, but did not have an understanding of what I was proposing. I realised that our world was full of paradoxes about how things are. All our worldly truths I could see as part truths hiding the real truth.
Then in 2004 I did a Heart Chakra 1 with Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine. It felt so good and familiar. I then kept doing what I was doing until 2009 when I came back to Universal Medicine.
You may wonder why I did not continue then, however looking back I needed to see more things I wasn’t, which ultimately help define what and who I am. So in 2009 I returned to the esoteric associations and Universal Medicine with a knowing that most of the difficulties we face in this world would be lessened or removed if we felt empowered. I have personally found that empowerment… initially coming as a realisation that I can be me anywhere, anytime and with anyone. Then I found the keys within as to how to manifest this. It is a simple, very fulfilling way to live, to let go the shackles of doing, and be.
Over the years I gave up dairy, alcohol, sugar and gluten as I saw how these substances dulled my body and my sensitivity. I can see that my sensitivity was compromised by these substances in a way that made it impossible to be aware of their influence, which adds to the arrogance of knowing that what we are doing is right. I now at 58 feel the best I have done health-wise since about 16, and wellbeing-wise since I was about 5. I no longer get hay fever or sinus conditions. My circulation problem, highlighted after the broken hip, and the swelling in my legs are gone. My propensity for sunspots on my skin has diminished and I have watched areas heal one at a time. I sleep well every night. I never get caught up in reactions to events and what people say and do. This list goes on and on.
So to say Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine have done it for me would be wrong. What I have found from being an esoteric student is a rebuilding of my confidence in my feelings, to be now at a point where I trust them and my feeling of the energies, implicitly. Also I have gained a confidence in my feelings and their messages.
295 thoughts on “My Journey Home”
Universal Medicine presents a way of self-empowerment to re-connect to the truth of who you are.
Sometimes we need an accident or an illness to bring us to our senses. And it feels that is what happened to you Kim, and in coming to your senses you were able to be open enough to make the changes that have so transformed your life…amazing.
Like WOW ‘I now at 58 feel the best I have done health-wise since about 16, and well-being wise since I was about 5.’ That’s incredible! How many can say this .. that at nearly 60 they feel as good health-wise as they did when they were a teenager! On reflection however I am also aware that currently teenagers are not feeling the amazingness they should be and ill mental health is going through the roof among other things, so there is definitely work to be done here to support them and others.
This is fascinating
“All our worldly truths I could see as part truths hiding the real truth.”
We seem to only see and hear what we want to see and hear, and so keep ourselves away from the real truth of life by continually justifying and making excuses. We are trying to fix the unfixable. We have so many solutions and use them like sticking plaster over a problem, but the problem is still there and we then have to use bigger sticking plasters to hide the truth of what is really going on in life. I wonder what would happen if we actually picked apart our problems starting with our personal ones first, would that have a knock on effect to the larger societal problems, would this change the way we lived our lives?
‘Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are?’ This is extremely difficult as I well know from experience! Finding out who I am and what my qualities are changed my lack of confidence completely!
Kim, your story would be great to write about as a case study with the changes you have experienced with your health and well being. It is your lived experience, so important to record.
There are many people who could share gems about their experiences, that stop moment that makes them reflect about life. We turn to whatever person, that will assist us during those challenging times.
What I love is we are given what we can handle and sometimes, that can be hard to fathom when we are caught in the dilemma.
I can relate to ‘my journey home’ and it is a feeling that you are home, a feeling where you are no longer living your life for everyone or everything else. You are living your life for you. And with this, is always some form of ramifications.
There are many self help books today talking about confidence and how to reach it when in fact we all actually are very confident by nature. If we look back and remember how we came in to the world, full of joy, super confident and present, we may realize that everything already is inside us. There is no need to reach or to develop any technique or skill, but to re-connect back with who we really are.
Re-connecting back to who we truly are, being present in our bodies, with our true selves is such an important step.
‘I have personally found that empowerment… initially coming as a realisation that I can be me anywhere, anytime and with anyone. Then I found the keys within as to how to manifest this. It is a simple, very fulfilling way to live, to let go the shackles of doing, and be.’ Such a precious realisation Kim. It feels like an allowing we all can give ourselves in every moment, by being present, enjoying the simplicity and beauty we have access to when we just be.
Kim what I am mulling over at the moment is that I am finally allowing myself to feel who I truly am and as you say this is all that really matters as there is much more to life than the security blanket we build up around us in order to get through life. I realise that nothing we say or do will work unless it comes with love first. If we do not start with love as our premise then we have simply failed again.
Love for ourselves is fundamental – learning to self-love, appreciate and nurture ourselves; then this foundation of love starts to ripple outwards
Finding who you are is priceless and definitely a journey worth exploring. We can do it by choice or wait for the broken hip!
Love reading this Fiona, because it reminds me about the beauty that it actually is being in this ongoing journey of exploring who I am.
“Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are?” I never thought about this Kim, but I have to confirm that you are right. It is hard to look like being confident while you are not, because you have no firm true base to stand on. It is more like standing in quicksand, the more you try to convince yourself, the more you move, the faster you sink in the suffocating sand that makes you even less aware of who you are. A permeating cycle that we all one day have to step out of and take our first steps free from the quicksand onto the steady foundation of the love we are from.
I’m glad you have written this particular sentence Kim
“So to say Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine have done it for me would be wrong. What I have found from being an esoteric student is a rebuilding of my confidence in my feelings, to be now at a point where I trust them and my feeling of the energies, implicitly. Also I have gained a confidence in my feelings and their messages.”
People, myself included in the early days would ‘spout off’ Serge said this, Serge said that, etc., But Serge Benhayon only presents something it is then up to the people who attend the workshops, presentations, Universal Medicine healing sessions, etc., to discern for themselves and from that discernment make their own choices. No one can do ‘life’ for you; what I so appreciate about Serge Benhayon is that he has given the world the tools with which to make those changes so we wish to do so.
True Mary, ‘what I so appreciate about Serge Benhayon is that he has given the world the tools with which to make those changes so we wish to do so.’
How we get there is not the most important thing. What is crucial is to know that this is home.
Indeed, Eduardo, we can fill books with the stories of our past while as you say, they do not really matter, but being home does.
Sometimes we arrogantly think that we can continue living in a way that doesn’t support us. But when the adjustment comes in a form of an illness or an accident, we have the opportunity of reflecting in the waywardness we have fed until that point, come back to the humbleness of understanding how much hardness we have allowed and start honouring ourselves again. The great thing is that we can make that adjustment at any moment we choose, not needing to arrive to extreme situations, but even if that is the case, we can always choose love to make it easy.
Feeling confident is not based on what we can do and achieve, but in the connection and knowing of who we are. When you don’t know who you are, it is difficult to be confident. Being able to value and appreciate ourselves helps develop confidence and how we relate to the world.
Knowing who we are and honouring ourselves, supports us to be empowered, ‘I have personally found that empowerment… initially coming as a realisation that I can be me anywhere, anytime and with anyone. Then I found the keys within as to how to manifest this.’
Everyone’s journey back to Love is different, some people delay, stop/start, or run away and return, while others grab it with both hands and never look back. The fact remains we will all get there in our own time one day.
That is why it is so important to give another space, as we have likewise been given space.
“Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are?” Yes, so very true, and how could we – there is no solid ground to stand on. Being allowed to simply be and rediscovering oneself is a most beautiful gift to receive that brings true settlement into one’s life.
When I have felt truly amazing it’s been when I am connected to my inner truth, trusting how I feel and acting on it – it’s a movement with me instead of against me.
So many us keep chasing the wrong things to build a confidence we don’t think we have. For years I kept studying and learning more and more new things in the hope that one day I would feel more confident about what I had to offer the world. “Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are? It is so lovely to be confidently expressing now as me.” What a great reminder about the foundation of true confidence.
Kim your story and the many others that I read are a statement to the fact that actually the presentations and Esoteric healing modalities of Universal Medicines actually work, in a world that is not working and lost its way.
The presentations and modalities from Serge Benhayon, under the umbrella of Universal Medicine are all phenomenal in what they bring for any of us who are open to seeing Truth, and wishing to heal, to return to who we truly are.
True that we are educated in a way that there is an only knowledge that is our highest intelligence whilst there is so much more that is actually of great value that is our real intelligence, by our inner-sense from our body. It makes sense why there is so much body neglect when we go into knowledge. This shows us the lie of knowledge being our highest intelligence, clearly showing us that our body knows the truth and that it is through our whole body sensitivity we come back to our true intelligence. Time to do so. Thank you.
Accidents, illnesses or other such significant events can just stop us in our tracks sometimes and wake us up to the fact that we really do need to start to take genuine care of ourselves and others.
So you took a reflection of inspiration and embraced it in your life and tested to see how it worked out? Yep that sounds like a smart way to discern if something is right for you or not then it is your truth not some gobbledygook you are taking in, repeating and pushing out without any livingness behind it.
Being ourselves and expressing our feelings is very natural but something we have convinced ourselves we cannot do. Holding back our awareness, we hold back our love.
True confidence is very much related to presence. If we are disconnected from our bodies we are not able to be present. The journey home begins with reconnection to ourselves and our bodies as you have described.
So true Nicola, and this exposes the false confidence that is based on external achievements and accolades that is currently running the world.
Isn’t that the strongest of all things to be empowered by oneself to return to the magnificence that awaits us when we return home to ourselves.
We have a knowing, we all know that the way we are living can be harmful. I remember one time when I was very young – four, maybe even three years old, something came over me and I started dancing around a pole in a sexual way. All of the sudden I swung and hit my pelvic bone on the pole, my god did it hurt – tears burst out of my eyes from the pain. But in that moment I knew that the way I was moving was not okay and I had stepped out of line – I was 3 It wasn’t learned, it was known.
Yes Viktoria it’s definitely a knowing and the communication we are in tune with is much bigger than ourselves. We are held by God always and our body is also very truthful to us as a way to bring us back to the love and sacredness we innately are.
Great points Doug, and just highlights that all our relationships are a great reflection of the relationship with ourselves…reflections we can learn from, and make any necessary change to deepen our self-love and as we do, it becomes a lot easier to let others in.
As an esoteric student I have so much more confidence in myself, which comes from me trusting myself and all I am feeling, and expressing and sharing from honesty.
A deeply inspiring sharing Kim, and such a refreshing realisation that we all have this choice to return to truly supporting ourselves, our well being and vitality.
Although it is beautiful to read stories of the return home, they are just stories. The important part is the fact that we are back and that there is nothing like it.
It is true, we can not express ourselves with confidence when we do not have a foundation of knowing who we truly are, the ideas of who we are, are not the same as physically connecting with our body and how we feel.
I feel most steady and confident when aware of how I am feeling and not reacting to that awareness. Universal Medicine didn’t bring me this, only the tools to reconnect.
“At one stage my spectacle prescription improved back five years as I started seeing in-truth how my relationship was.” – This is an amazing confirmation of how our bodies are constantly communicating with us in many ways, sometimes with symbolism. I just recently had a similar experience when I had my eyes checked and it went from 20/30 to 20/25 in a couple years. This felt like a sign that I began to allow myself to see and accept more that was happening in my life and the world without so many ideals and beliefs clouding my sight.
I’m going through the same awareness at the moment Michael of allowing ideals of how I want the world and people to be to prevent me from seeing life exactly as it is.
Its amazing what happens when we reconnect to ourselves and begin to live from our innermost heart, our connection to our soul. For me I became more clear on who I was and began expressing that in the world, and from that I became more clear with my sensitivity and trusting my feelings more. It’s an unfolding process and very worth it.
Yes and a stepped approach that is worth embracing rather than just coming to the answer without re-connecting with your essence first.
“I can see that my sensitivity was compromised by these substances in a way that made it impossible to be aware of their influence, which adds to the arrogance of knowing that what we are doing is right.” What a valid observation and it makes wonder, which explains so much of why people will vehemently defend ideas and concepts that are blatantly inaccurate, let alone those that appear true when they are not.
‘Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are?’ This question just stops you right in your tracks – it is so powerful when truth is delivered. Most of humanity don’t know who they are, myself included, but since I have been willing to heal my hurts and take responsibility for my life, I can feel so much more of who I am and what I bring. Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine have been an amazing support for me to understand myself and make different choices and now my life is so much simpler as I say no to complication and distractions.
I quite agree, Jacqueline. I was not confident in myself and instead relied on external props, such as knowledge and skills, to maintain a false sense of confidence. Like you, and so many other people, I have reconnected back to ‘me’ through the loving support of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine.
So much of what we currently base confidence on actually stems from comparison and competition, the way we look and dress, athletic ability, intelligence, etc, – if we are better than someone else then that’s apparently confidence. But the truth is exactly as Kim has expressed, it’s simply in knowing who we are and trusting how we feel.
Sometimes these challenging events in our lives can literally be a blessing. Reconnecting with ourselves and expressing what we feel is our natural way, there is never a moment we are not feeling.
You highlight so beautifully how our confidence is not something we need to obtain as it is not something we lack. We are born with confidence, as it is a reflection of knowing and expressing who we are, and is naturally lived when we live in connection to who we are in essence.
I absolutely agree with you Carola, I love this part ‘We are born with confidence..’ and when you observe babies, not any part of them shows signs of not being confident, they simply ooze confidence from head to toe.
True, babies do ooze confidence, where, how, and why do we lose this confidence as we grow up?
It feels like the world is set up in a way that deliberately diminishes our confidence, and keeps us separated from ourselves, when in truth we choose to be with ourselves, connected to our innermost, or allow the separation. When we do choose to connect, everything drops into its own flow, and we begin to have a true relationship with ourselves.
Our body always speaks clear and if we don’t listen it speaks loud. As you show with your experience Kim, when we listen to our body, the learning it offers to us is assured and the regeneration very possible.
It is wise to listen to our bodies from the start, rather than wait till they have to speak even louder.
Being settled in the body, knowing who I am makes me appreciate that I am equipped to deal with anything that would come upon me – I guess that is part of being confident.
Just what I need to read today and what a timely reminder that I am fully equipped to deal with anything that life presents to me… ouch I have been giving my power away, which is just on old pattern, but I can now choose to claim it and then live it!