by Kim Olsen, Warwick, Australia
My path to make contact with the esoteric and Universal Medicine was kicked off by an incident. I fell and badly broke my left hip. Up to this point I had been doing what the world expected of me (to me now that felt like going through the motions of living). I had been suffering hay fever and sinus problems for more than 20 years.
Previously, as a teenager I had needed to have my tonsils removed. I was overweight and showing early signs of a heart attack-in-waiting… I am sure I was heading for cancer as well – if the heart attack did not kill me first.
So when I was 36 I had this fall which left me immobile for three months. My hip was fractured, I had scarring on my lung and bruising on my heart. While I was reflecting on this in hospital, I realised that I had not been listening to my body and the messages it was trying to give me. I resolved to do so from now on.
From a temporal point of view, this resolve (alignment to my soul) set me off on a disastrous path. I lost three good relationships and much of my assets (worldly). However, I have through this journey found who I am, and to me now that is all that really matters. Looking back, I realised I would now lose relationships if I did not express as me in them. I had taken on an adage to be what I thought others wanted me to be.
Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are? It is so lovely to be confidently expressing now as me.
I was now seeing much of the world and the way I was, as it was. At one stage my spectacle prescription improved back five years as I started seeing in-truth how my relationship was. The optometrist agreed that my sight had improved, but did not have an understanding of what I was proposing. I realised that our world was full of paradoxes about how things are. All our worldly truths I could see as part truths hiding the real truth.
Then in 2004 I did a Heart Chakra 1 with Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine. It felt so good and familiar. I then kept doing what I was doing until 2009 when I came back to Universal Medicine.
You may wonder why I did not continue then, however looking back I needed to see more things I wasn’t, which ultimately help define what and who I am. So in 2009 I returned to the esoteric associations and Universal Medicine with a knowing that most of the difficulties we face in this world would be lessened or removed if we felt empowered. I have personally found that empowerment… initially coming as a realisation that I can be me anywhere, anytime and with anyone. Then I found the keys within as to how to manifest this. It is a simple, very fulfilling way to live, to let go the shackles of doing, and be.
Over the years I gave up dairy, alcohol, sugar and gluten as I saw how these substances dulled my body and my sensitivity. I can see that my sensitivity was compromised by these substances in a way that made it impossible to be aware of their influence, which adds to the arrogance of knowing that what we are doing is right. I now at 58 feel the best I have done health-wise since about 16, and wellbeing-wise since I was about 5. I no longer get hay fever or sinus conditions. My circulation problem, highlighted after the broken hip, and the swelling in my legs are gone. My propensity for sunspots on my skin has diminished and I have watched areas heal one at a time. I sleep well every night. I never get caught up in reactions to events and what people say and do. This list goes on and on.
So to say Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine have done it for me would be wrong. What I have found from being an esoteric student is a rebuilding of my confidence in my feelings, to be now at a point where I trust them and my feeling of the energies, implicitly. Also I have gained a confidence in my feelings and their messages.
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Isn’t that the strongest of all things to be empowered by oneself to return to the magnificence that awaits us when we return home to ourselves.
We have a knowing, we all know that the way we are living can be harmful. I remember one time when I was very young – four, maybe even three years old, something came over me and I started dancing around a pole in a sexual way. All of the sudden I swung and hit my pelvic bone on the pole, my god did it hurt – tears burst out of my eyes from the pain. But in that moment I knew that the way I was moving was not okay and I had stepped out of line – I was 3 It wasn’t learned, it was known.
Great points Doug, and just highlights that all our relationships are a great reflection of the relationship with ourselves…reflections we can learn from, and make any necessary change to deepen our self-love and as we do, it becomes a lot easier to let others in.
As an esoteric student I have so much more confidence in myself, which comes from me trusting myself and all I am feeling, and expressing and sharing from honesty.
A deeply inspiring sharing Kim, and such a refreshing realisation that we all have this choice to return to truly supporting ourselves, our well being and vitality.
Although it is beautiful to read stories of the return home, they are just stories. The important part is the fact that we are back and that there is nothing like it.
It is true, we can not express ourselves with confidence when we do not have a foundation of knowing who we truly are, the ideas of who we are, are not the same as physically connecting with our body and how we feel.
I feel most steady and confident when aware of how I am feeling and not reacting to that awareness. Universal Medicine didn’t bring me this, only the tools to reconnect.
“At one stage my spectacle prescription improved back five years as I started seeing in-truth how my relationship was.” – This is an amazing confirmation of how our bodies are constantly communicating with us in many ways, sometimes with symbolism. I just recently had a similar experience when I had my eyes checked and it went from 20/30 to 20/25 in a couple years. This felt like a sign that I began to allow myself to see and accept more that was happening in my life and the world without so many ideals and beliefs clouding my sight.
Its amazing what happens when we reconnect to ourselves and begin to live from our innermost heart, our connection to our soul. For me I became more clear on who I was and began expressing that in the world, and from that I became more clear with my sensitivity and trusting my feelings more. It’s an unfolding process and very worth it.
“I can see that my sensitivity was compromised by these substances in a way that made it impossible to be aware of their influence, which adds to the arrogance of knowing that what we are doing is right.” What a valid observation and it makes wonder, which explains so much of why people will vehemently defend ideas and concepts that are blatantly inaccurate, let alone those that appear true when they are not.
‘Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are?’ This question just stops you right in your tracks – it is so powerful when truth is delivered. Most of humanity don’t know who they are, myself included, but since I have been willing to heal my hurts and take responsibility for my life, I can feel so much more of who I am and what I bring. Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine have been an amazing support for me to understand myself and make different choices and now my life is so much simpler as I say no to complication and distractions.
I quite agree, Jacqueline. I was not confident in myself and instead relied on external props, such as knowledge and skills, to maintain a false sense of confidence. Like you, and so many other people, I have reconnected back to ‘me’ through the loving support of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine.
Sometimes these challenging events in our lives can literally be a blessing. Reconnecting with ourselves and expressing what we feel is our natural way, there is never a moment we are not feeling.
You highlight so beautifully how our confidence is not something we need to obtain as it is not something we lack. We are born with confidence, as it is a reflection of knowing and expressing who we are, and is naturally lived when we live in connection to who we are in essence.
It feels like the world is set up in a way that deliberately diminishes our confidence, and keeps us separated from ourselves, when in truth we choose to be with ourselves, connected to our innermost, or allow the separation. When we do choose to connect, everything drops into its own flow, and we begin to have a true relationship with ourselves.
Our body always speaks clear and if we don’t listen it speaks loud. As you show with your experience Kim, when we listen to our body, the learning it offers to us is assured and the regeneration very possible.
Being settled in the body, knowing who I am makes me appreciate that I am equipped to deal with anything that would come upon me – I guess that is part of being confident.
Just what I need to read today and what a timely reminder that I am fully equipped to deal with anything that life presents to me… ouch I have been giving my power away, which is just on old pattern, but I can now choose to claim it and then live it!
” Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are? It is so lovely to be confidently expressing now as me.” This is such a wise and practical understanding thank you for sharing Kim.
When we rebuild our confidence, we rebuild the very foundation of our lives.
Stories of coming home are always deeply touching because in truth we are all returning home, and what a joy there is in that reunion.
Wow three months of immobility is a huge opportunity to stop and reflect on how we have been living. Amazing that you heeded to the call within you that the life you were living was off track and that a complete review was required.
A re-connection with inner confidence and trusting myself with what I feel has also been restored. With constantly deepening appreciation for all Serge Benhayon offers and shares, I am the forever student returning to the wisdom of where we all come from.
“Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are?” – this is a brilliant question. In a nut shell we cannot be confident if we don’t know who we truly are – and I am not here talking about any identification with career or role (such as sportsman, mum, dad, doctor, teacher, student, apprentice…etc). For when we peel away our usual forms of identification, nationality, culture, religion, gender etc etc, then what is actually left? You could answer the human being, but are we just that? Of course we have a body and an human aspect to us, and then we have the being aspect, but more than that is an essence that lies deep deep within, which knows that we are far grander than just what the eye can see, and that we have an age-old connection to the Universe and the grandness of the stars. But how often do we think of this when asking ourselves who we are? How often do we make it about what we do, our careers or achievements, instead of the love that we are first and foremost? For in this we find true confidence, and only this.
This line is a corker for me “Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are?” It illustrates that we are walking on plasterboard – never knowing if it is going to give way or not. The anxiety of feeling we must always have a safety net weighs heavily which means the boards we are walking on are even more likely to break.
Hi Lucy, I just read your comment after I posted mine about the same line – it is a brilliant line to reflect upon! And I love how you have presented it with the analogy of the plasterboard when we ride on a role or a career identification for who we are…we could say we are a teacher but if we stop teaching who are we then? and where is our confidence then? We could say we are a parent but when the kids grow up who are we then? etc etc. Who we are has to be more than what we do, and the sooner we realise this, then the more we can address the feelings of anxiety and actually come to the essence of the answer, pun intended.
The journey back to ourselves is a journey well worth turning around for.
Second guessing and doubting our feelings leads to complication and confusion. I love that you show how a steady building of confidence in ourselves is very possible not because it is given to us by Universal Medicine but that we make that commitment to ourselves and learn from our choices..
This totally knocks out any ideal, image or thought that power come from outside of you.. In fact , it is only within you that is truly empowering you and awaiting you to choose that power to be lived by you. No demand or expectation of outside can do that. It is an inside choice.
It is true, it is hard to be confident when you don’t know who you are, and then find out that all the things we have put in place in order to navigate through life are based on protection and security. I remember clearly after leaving one of Serge Benhayon presentations asking myself ‘Who am I’, and questions like ‘What do I actually like’ – just simple every day questions, and it astounded me because I did not actually know.
Kim this confidence thing is harder when we pretend to be confident. It’s played out in my life thinking confidence meant being loud, argumentative, ‘look at me’ syndrome – it came with many outer flavours.
True confidence comes from that soul connection with the body and the more I trust, the more wisdom flows through my body – getting to truly know myself seems so homely than being a pretzel of how life should be.
The inner building of our love for ourselves, and the application of that in everyday life is The Way of The Livingness, and it is a continual development.
Giving up dairy was life changing for me as well Kim, after suffering severe sinus issues so bad I was put on steroids, I decided it was time to do something as I didn’t want to be on medication long term. So I gave up all dairy and within a few months all my sinus issues cleared up, it was one of the best choices I have ever made for my health as well.
Building a connection with the body builds a steady foundation of confidence within us as we learn to trust what we feel, and from there, be able to express it. This is a slow and steady process but the more we connect, feel, express and appreciate how it feels, the more we solidify this foundation.
Doing what the world expects from us may be satisfying but this is nothing compared to the fact that it kills us.
This alone is life changing -“what I have found from being an esoteric student is a rebuilding of my confidence in my feelings, to be now at a point where I trust them and my feeling of the energies, implicitly”. Being able to trust ourselves is huge because we then become the drivers of our own destiny.
I am guessing we all come to a point in life where we ask questions or ask for more. This could come from something happening or from a feeling when something isn’t going ‘right’. It’s always amazing and confirming to see how people turn their lives around and how they begin to see their part in what is happening in the world around them. It’s this process or living application that then leads us to see more and to be aware we are more.
“Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are? It is so lovely to be confidently expressing now as me.” This is beautiful and very powerful and can be deeply appreciated once we start to understand what it means and relearn to be ourselves again.
Hi Kim, yes true confidence can only come from knowing how to reconnect to our essence and that means getting out of head and into our inner-heart.. This brings us back into our body and out of the anxiety that results from being in our head. It is very difficult to be confident if you have left your body and are being dictated to by your inner critic.
I would love to know more about how your sinus issues have cleared up and what different changes in your life supported you to move through hay-fever after 20 years! That to me is a blog in itself. I might try to contact you directly for more information on that. I am a sneeze machine and would love to say goodbye to my tissue box! Thanks for sharing a part of your story. It’s amazing how many people from all different ages and walks of life have benefitted from the works of Serge Benhayon.
Empowerment that comes from within is a game changer in life.
Another testimony of what the reflection of one who lives their truth can do for others.
There is a huge misconception that exists in our society today that confidence is something to be obtained, that some people have and some don’t when in-truth confidence is something we all already hold within and is simply known and lived when we are in connection to our essence, to our Love within, our Soul. Whenever I lose confidence in certain situations I realise that this is a sign that I have chosen to leave my connection to Soul, through which thoughts of doubt soon enters to try and take hold. As soon as I choose to return to my connection to Soul I return to feeling solid in myself and confident to move being guided by truth, by my essence within.
A huge turnaround Kim. Quite amazing really. It takes great honesty to admit what does not work in life, and greater honesty to be willing to do something about it.
Hear hear Adam.
What a wise and powerful lesson Kim, to not get caught up in peoples reactions, emotions and situations. To observe and not absorb is certainly a simple and loving teaching of Serge Benhayon.
We live in a world that is fast paced busy and very focused on the tick box mentality. Finding the keys of wisdom through appreciating our own qualities and potential supports us to ‘let go of the shackles of doing, and be’. Beautiful blog Kim.
“Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are? It is so lovely to be confidently expressing now as me.” I so can relate to what you share, I struggled to be confident when I did not know who I am. It did not matter what job I did, what qualifications I had, I was still lost. Until I decided to connect back to who I am with the support of Universal Medicine.
It is indeed impossible to be truly confident without knowing who you are and the more we try to supplement the lack of confidence the less we know ourselves. Part of knowing oneself is to know what we are not but have identified with or try to be. Hence the first lesson with Universal Medicine is learning how to come back to a quality that allows you to get to know the real you again and thereby getting aware of what does not belong to you.
When we don’t know who we are, we don’t know who anyone else is either. By coming to know who I truly am I reconnect to others.
It is indeed precious to reconnect to ourselves again. The more we are truly connected to ourselves the more we are connected to everyone else.
No-one can ever do our healing for us. Free-will means it has to come from us. So the inspiration may be via another – in my case also this is Serge Benhayon – but the work needs to be put in by us for anything to change.
If we each approached our health and wellbeing in this way, we would begin to address the 80% lifestyle contribution we make to our ill-health conditions.
Amazing Kim. I enjoyed reading your list of healing the old and how contracted you once were with almost everything being affected in your life by choosing to not empower yourself to acknowledge the messages of your feelings. That List is worth Gold, to fully list and inspiring me to do so myself. Not a Bucket List but a Gold List!
It does not matter what it takes us to come home. All it matters is to embrace the glory of feeling we got there.
It is great how you rebuild your confidence Kim and not holding back to express this as it is very inspirational for the world to read about it.
“What I have found from being an esoteric student is a rebuilding of my confidence in my feelings, to be now at a point where I trust them and my feeling of the energies, implicitly.” Can absolutely relate to this, I now feel I have built true confidence to express openly and connect to my true feelings, it is beautifully empowering.
We learn so many ways to build our confidence and all it takes is to connect back to who we truly are, but that is the one thing nobody teaches… except of course Universal Medicine.
Great to read about your journey home Kim. How you are feeling now is amazing. Most people, as they age feel the opposite of what you’ve just shared. You inspire us all, by how you managed to transform your life in such a remarkable way.
I love reading stories like this as it always confirms how powerful the teachings of Universal Medicine are that they have supported thousands of people like yourself to truly heal any ill condition that is holding them back.
My list of obstacles and ailments has diminished since uncovering the power of my body and the Wisdom therein, since becoming a student of The Way of The Livingness, rather than taking life at face value, I am learning to use my senses to read, observe and feel my choices.
So many of our ill health conditions need not be chronic, and yet it is our stubbornness and refusal to consider our own role in things that often make it so.
When we make the choice to remove the masks and the barriers of protection we have lived with for so long and have re-connected to who we truly are, it doesn’t matter where we are, what we are doing and who we are with, as long as we are there with all of us. For me the best and most amazing journey I have undertaken in the last 12 years is the “journey home”, to me, with Serge Benhayon walking alongside me, lovingly supporting me every step of the way.
From someone that has a list of ailments at the age of 36 and was in hospital with a fractured hip, scarring on a lung an bruised heart this is INCREDIBLE!!!!!!! ‘I now at 58 feel the best I have done health-wise since about 16, and wellbeing-wise since I was about 5.’ You are so right no one can ‘do’ this for us or change our lives apart from ourselves but Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine are definitely an extremely bright beacon of light showing the way ✨
I agree Vicky, it is ultimately up to us to make these changes, heal and return to our true, vital, joyful and loving selves (our return home), and no one can do this for us. People can inspire us, but the steps and movements towards true change is always our choice to make.
It is strange but there are a couple of things that struck me as so true in this blog, and I say strange because it should be so obvious! “Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are?” I have to thank Serge as well because he also stated the obvious, he taught me to not be afraid of my feelings and that has changed my life.
It’s interesting how you talk about dairy, sugar, gluten and alcohol dulling your sensitivity. Many might see being sensitive in itself as a negative aspect, but with sensitivity you can feel and read all that is going on inside your body as well as outside in the world.
I can relate to that Heather, there was a time I would have considered sensitivity to be a negative, though it is in truth a strength as it allows us to feel, know and bring understanding to ourselves and life….’reading’ without the reaction.
I agree it’s very hard to have confidence when you don’t know who you truly are. Similar to you I used to have no confidence, but developing more of a relationship with myself and my body has definitely changed that, to the point I can say I definitely have confidence and surety in who I am.
Yes, so true, confidence comes from the deep connection with ourselves and our bodies and not from anything that artificially builds us up from the outside.
Totally, it’s the connection and the solidness in our bodies that allow us to feel secure and steady and not eternally looking for something else to provide that steadiness.
Dear Kim,
You share how you now feel confident to be you, there is such beauty in this confidence, a beauty that becomes ever more present every day. Being confident is teaching me again how to move and how to be myself in this world, it is subtle yet powerful, tender yet strong, joyful and playful beyond measure yet solid in speaking the truth. Confidence in who we are brings so much to our lives and equally so to those we spend our lives with.
I hear you say and agree whole heartedly that we have to come to make these changes in our lives in our time and our own way. It is about remembering who we are and coming back to feeling the moments when we are not ourselves.
Love this Kim: “…most of the difficulties we face in this world would be lessened or removed if we felt empowered”
It is a choice, isn’t it, to actually be empowered or not… There is so much in our world that would seek to disempower us and for most of us, so much we’ve aligned to that is actually extremely disempowering… and yet, it remains a choice. One that is constantly made – if we are willing to see, feel and respond to all that comes to our awareness in this regard in the way that we live our lives.
I would say that deep down, we do all know who we truly are, yet it is a process of unravelling all that we’ve taken on and adopted that’s ‘not us’, that can lead us back to this knowing being deeply felt and confirmed within our being.
Could it so simple, as a gentle breathing technique – such as the Gentle Breath Meditation, presented by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine for years now – to regain that true taste of who we are? In my own experience – a definite ‘yes’. And once known, there need be no going back to a life that avoids ourselves.
Kim your question “Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are?” really resonated within me. That has been the underlying basis for all my struggles as I was growing up and continued throughout my adult life. It was not until I became a student of Universal Medicine that I began to open the door to explore my relationship with myself which has had a profound effect on my relationship with others. I am forever grateful to Serge Benhayon for showing me the way to start opening that door.
We are all on our ‘Journey Home’ and sooner or later we all will make it. Supported by Universal Medicine.
I’ve always known deep down and sensed that whatever choices I’ve made in life would keep presenting themselves until I saw them for what they were and the intention behind them. I didn’t admit that to anyone or myself before attending Universal Medicine but it was always there. Our bodies will always show the truth even when our minds try to convince otherwise.
Kim this is gorgeous- that you have come to trust and understand who you are and make changes in your life based on that knowingness. Very powerful and shows how if we stop and observe how we are living, we start to become open to seeing what is loving and what is not loving, and how everything happens for a reason and these reasons are there to communicate to us what is next to look at in how we live.
Kim this is awesome – Universal Medicine offers so much support and so many tools for us and has the amazing capacity to hold us with immense love, yet it is still for us to make the choices that actually lead to long-lasting changes in our life. There is an expression that says ‘you can lead a horse to water, but you can’t make it drink’ – and so it is with life – we can be offered the truth a million times but it is only when we embrace it fully that we actually allow truth into our lives. That is what is so precious about Universal Medicine and what they offer – the truth always as an absolute, and never with any hoaxes, strings attached, expectations etc. This is the level of integrity that comes with Universal Medicine, a level of integrity surpassed by none other that I know of. It is for each of us to feel when we are ready and for what level of truth we are ready for, and one thing we can trust in is that when we are ready Universal Medicine does deliver it, with immense love.
“Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are?” yes agreed, it’s hard to have confidence without being able to know and stand with yourself.
We are responsible for our illness, disease and ailments. Once we accept this, we then realise healing is in our hands and has been all along.
It is quite remarkable how much baggage and layers we accumulate that we then have to let go of to get to the truth of who we are.
In the frantic pace of today’s society much of our productivity is unfortunately measured by either quantity not quality or the good old tick box system of life. But when we begin to let go of ‘the shackles of doing, and be’ simply ourselves, our every day life can literally come alive.
Thank you Kim for the reminder that creating the space to honour and listen to our body’s messages are all we need to change and heal our lives.
A wonderful testament to how improving health has the first step in responsibility, And, that its never too late to turn everything around. Brilliant Kim, so very inspiring!
Wow Kim what a beautiful sharing. What is highlighted here is just how truly awesome our bodies are and when we stop and listen to them they share juicy insights into how we are living day to day. We are forever learning, growing and shifting when it feels right for us and our bodies.
Also this part ‘ I realised I would now lose relationships if I did not express as me in them.’ Expressing as ‘ME’ is the only way to truly develop and enjoy our relationships. Without this we are already lost.
‘Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are?’ Confidence is often considered as arrogance or being ‘up front’, hard and with a certain attitude. But what you share here Kim is the truth. Confidence is from our connection within and can be felt in every movement and word. No need for attitude just a loving connection. ✨
Thank you Kim for your inspirational sharing. I am inspired to continue on my journey home too, and feel I am more connected to who I truly am.
Having the inner confidence you speak of is indeed a rarity and one of the greatest things found through the Universal Medicine teachings. To trust in you… in knowing you and what you feel, is an absolute blessing that makes approaching life and facing whatever comes your way, simple.
Thankyou Kim, I have enjoyed reading your honest and powerful story, and your dedication to living the real you again. I agree that being an esoteric student involves “a rebuilding of my confidence in my feelings”, as this has also been a daily occurrence for me as well. It’s also a rebuilding of confidence in who I am and that this is more than enough.
I recently had a wake-up call myself after ignoring many signals I was receiving in life and not taking responsibility for certain things. When we are prepared to listen to these wake up calls they are an awesome opportunity to make different choices that are more supportive and true.
It’s true Kim that we can’t be confident until we have a knowing of who we are deep within ourselves and have built a strong foundation of love for ourselves.
This is a beautiful sharing, Kim and just these two realizations and turn arounds in your life are true “miracles”, as they would – and can – be in everyone’s life too: “I can be me anywhere, anytime and with anyone” and therefore “I never get caught up in reactions to events and what people say and do.” who is returning to the truth of their soul. A work in progress, but I can say everything, I have ever searched for in my life and found in the presentations and living Example of Serge Benhayon, and so many people who are taking their responsibility and make true changes, like you!
It just feels so great in the body when we can completely just be ourselves, so liberating because we find joy, a joy that we forgot ever lived within us.
Kim it’s great that you came to the realisation you did and how you feel now to what you felt at age of 36. There is no denying when we take responsibility for ourselves, our health and our body improves, we also feel self empowered and our confidence improves too express openly. Theses have been my own experiences too.
Thank you Kim for sharing this. Sometimes we need some big wake up moments when we are fast asleep. It is beautiful to read how you have committed to staying awake and to live a life of truth.
Yes I agree Jeanette, it takes practice and absoluteness for me to hold what is true to me. I deeply feel this ..” I had taken on an adage to be what I thought others wanted me to be.” I still feel myself give my own power away to others; when I lose myself and try to seek others recognition and approval, instead of connecting with me and honoring my essence, vulnerability and preciousness. Relationships would be so much more fulfilling, honest and genuine if we could do this more for ourselves.
Isn’t it incredible how we need to go to such lengths before we give ourselves a “stop” moment..”While I was reflecting on this in hospital, I realised that I had not been listening to my body and the messages it was trying to give me. I resolved to do so from now on.” Your experience here Kim is a great argument for finding stop moments to listen into our bodies each and every day. Thank you for this reminder.
‘a realisation that I can be me anywhere, anytime and with anyone’ this is the loveliest sentence because I can really feel the beauty when I am myself and the beauty of all I meet. And no doubt those I meet also feel this beauty, the beauty of being themselves.
Yes so true Marion, when the love flows in the changes are instantaneous and ever expanding in our lives.
I got my eyes checked a few years ago and my eye sight had improved as well. It was at the same time I started healing and deepening my connection to me. The self discovery that I am a part of God and everything esoteric feels natural and right. These days I know I am out when my vision feels blurred. Perhaps this is a message to indicate that I am not choosing to see the truth.
Thank you Kim. It is very empowering when we accept that we are responsible for our own health, wellbeing and sense of self-worth. When we think we just have to ‘put up with’ our lot we lose connection to who we are. Universal Medicine has supported me in discovering who I truly am and I discover I am well worth knowing.
Lovely to read your journey back home Kim and of the improvements that has brought to you.
Kim your question “Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are?” resonates with me. I’m learning more and more about who I truly am and I feel my confidence growing as I slowly remove the many layers I buried myself in over the years.
It is interesting when the body gives us a complete stop in life giving us an opportunity to look deep within and begin to make different choices. Thank you Kim for sharing your journey home and for making choices that truly inspire and support you.
This line particularly stood out to me, because I recently had a conversation about it, ‘Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are? It is so lovely to be confidently expressing now as me’.
I am finding that there is an ease when I am expressing as me and not pretending to be some body I am not – otherwise there is an underlying anxiousness of not getting it right.
agree there is only true freedom if both choices are clearly known… otherwise this isn’t a choice. For example if we were brought up to believe that the only way to hydrate ourselves was to drink coke because we didn’t know that water existed how could we know that drinking water would be healthier for us?
So true and often proven by many, but not because he sais so but because of people by his reflection are inspired to explore and re-claim themselves and their own inner truth to then make choices based on that knowing, leading to change naturally, because our innermost knows best what really fosters our health and wellbeing.
“Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are?”
That question highlights a very crucial point, that we need to know who we truly are, without any of the false surrogate emotions and behaviours, ideals and beliefs that bury our natural being. Without our true self there can be no true confidence, we need to be self-conscious to be self-confident.
It is great to read how you have made changes in your own time, Kim, yet again demonstrating how Universal Medicine does not coerce any one to change, but it is through our own body and how it feels that we make the changes.
There are so many gold nuggets in this blog! Thank you Kim for sharing how your life has changed as you’ve made the choices to notice, respond and follow your feelings. The realisation I had today also touches on what you mentioned about being yourself anywhere. When I focus on me and my body rather than everything and anything what I am left with, or what has always been there was me. And that is awesome because it takes the legs out from underneath the trying to be someone. The more I do this with that awareness of my body the following of ideals, beliefs, judgements etc compared to just being me are becoming more noticeable.
Your life Kim is a testimony, what is possible, when you start to take responsibility for your own choices and when you start to love yourself. And yes – there is another way. Thanks for sharing your personal journey.
A very enlightening story of your journey back to your true and whole self Kim. And you are right, Universal Medicine can’t do it for us, but it can present the truth and the choice is ours. From what I have seen and felt before me when speaking to you, I see a very gentle, loving man who has jumped with both feet onto the path of return to his true self. Thank you for sharing.
Lovely sharing Kim. I too have had improvement in my sight since being a part of the Student Body of Universal Medicine. I have learned so much since listening tho the Presentations of Serge Benhayon and having sessions with many of the Practitioners in Universal Medicine. I agree that we need to just be ourselves in all we do.
The part of your blog that struck me was when you shared how much simpler it was to just be you in all your relationships! It is something we forget as teenagers as we are itching to be liked, if not loved, by everyone!
Thank you Kim for sharing your journey home so simply. I remember the first time I heard Serge Benhayon speak, I knew I had at last come home.
If our body is the marker of all truth, then it makes sense why we go to such great pains to ensure that we cannot hear its messages. For if we truly listened, we would be quickly humbled by all that it has to say.
So true Kim- it’s hard to feel confident in yourself when you don’t even know who you are. I bet many people an attest to that, I know I have felt the same way.
Great work Kim and one comment that really stood out for me in the blog was ” I realised I would lose relationships if I did not express as me in them”.
“I have watched areas heal one at a time.” – I can relate to what you say here Kim, I also noticed areas healing one at a time as I let go of behaviours and foods that were not true to me.
A true journey back home indeed amazing to feel the love and care you have for yourself Kim. There are many false journeys on offer out there, from organised religions too the spiritual, what a blessing it is to simply connect to the divine beings we all are.
This truly does show us the power of true, loving and evolving choices can make to all aspects of our lives including our health and our relationships. Thank you for sharing this with all Kim
To have a spectacle prescription go back five years is just extraordinary. The power of knowing and seeing truth continues to amaze me as does the transformation people make when choosing to bring self-love into their life and heal themselves from within out.
Your story is another example of an everyday miracle from a student of The Way of the Livingness. How you feel now Kim is a testament to the everyday self-loving choices that you now make.
Thankyou Kim for sharing your story. It is inspiring how you took control of your life and chose to change it because of your accident and seeing how your past choices were not supportive. Sometimes these unforseen incidents can heal us and help redirect us to a greater path of truth. Especially incidents that physically stops us and allows the body to heal and creates time to revise our life choices.
A lovely inspiring journey Kim. It was a dramatic start to your journey (breaking your hip) but like many incidents that occur in our lives they are for us to stop and look at what this means in terms of self nurturing, and the way we live our lives. You listened, and also found Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon, that took you to the truth of who you are.
What a journey Kim and what a miracle to have good health and with more energy than most of your life. Serge Benhayon’s presentations helped me so much too, I have made many changes to how I was living, my health problems have turned around, my life completely different now.
It is incredible to read how many lives Universal Medicine have inspired to reconnect to our essence (love), and leads to making loving choices which naturally improves all areas of our lives, health, relationships, work, and the list goes on and on. This way of living is the answer to all our problems and self created misery. It is a gift from God showing us the way to return home, to who we are.
A great example Kim of how a so called ‘accident’ becomes a blessing in disguise. Could it be possible that there are really no accidents, just nudges from our soul encouraging us back to love?
Great comment Marika, I love your question and very thought provoking. I feel that there is always a reason behind everything that happens and that there is a message in it for us. Our body, our soul and God are constantly communicating to us, sometimes the message needs to be louder in order for us to stop and listen.
Thanks for sharing this Kim, so great what you have chosen for yourself and that you allowed the unfoldment process to be what it was without trying to get somewhere. Good to read you’re feeling you again!
Kim I love the way you have expressed here as it feels empowered and is clearly you expressing you. No it isn’t Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon that bring us back to feeling and living our truth, their presentations may awaken us, but it is our commitment to living the truth of us that brings our confidence and sparkle back to life.
Thank you for this inspiring blog Kim. It is amazing how your body healed when you changed how you live. It is a great message to listen to our body and connect to who we are.
Thank you Kim for sharing your journey with us – I’m loosing count how many times I’ve had accidents (reminders) that all is not well with the way I was living life. My body is now reflecting back to me (sighing with relief I feel) that finally after many years of searching, that Serge Benhayon/Universal Medicine came into my life. What was presented offered me a choice/s to make significant changes to live in a more self loving, honest way. Also with the support of the amazing esoteric practitioners which continues to help me on my journey.
Thank you Kim for sharing your journey back to the real you and all the awareness and sensitivity that has allowed you to heal your body .This is another true testament to the effectiveness of the Esoteric healing modalities, esoteric lifestyle and the power of connecting to your innermost and making loving choices that support and heal rather than harm . A great sharing ,for all ,like the opening of a flower to reveal its true glory.
It is amazing that at 58 you are healthier than you were at 16. It’s wonderful what knowing who you are and listening to your body can do. Thanks for sharing Kim.
Than you Kim your story is inspiring , miraculous and so natural just to be you , love it.
‘Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are?’ This is so true Kim, it is hard, like a half confidence without the absolute power behind it but when we really know ourselves it’s deeply held and wow it’s confidence on full throttle!
“I can see that my sensitivity was compromised by these substances in a way that made it impossible to be aware of their influence, which adds to the arrogance of knowing that what we are doing is right”… that’s very true Kim. It isn’t until we stop eating these substances that we realise how we have lived up until that point, in my case, with a numb, bloated body, and living in the illusion that this was normal. Being presented with the true facts about food allows us to begin to make true choices to heal ourselves by using the body as a marker, and not our heads.
This is a beautiful and inspiring story to read Kim, thank you for sharing
I love the way you have taken responsibility for the quality of your life and the choices you make.
It is such a simple yet powerful message.
I love rereading your blog Kim. A very lovely simple and honest sharing of the many transformations that occur when we begin to feel life again . I really connected with your experience of food ‘Over the years I gave up dairy, alcohol, sugar and gluten as I saw how these substances dulled my body and my sensitivity. I can see that my sensitivity was compromised by these substances in a way that made it impossible to be aware of their influence…’ I now know that awareness of life can only be developed through the connection to how we feel. There are many ways that we can dull this awareness and food is definitely one of the biggest. By changing my diet, as you did, my level of sensitivity and awareness has increased immeasurably. Its so true that while eating these foods we cannot be aware of how these substances dull the body.
Very true annemarie00. It is only in the past 2-3 years that I have become to realise the impact that food has on my body, my mood, and I guess my whole being. By eliminating food that makes me feel heavy, dull or disconnected, I am able to be more myself.
I agree chanly88 the impact of food is greater than I ever realised and I love now that my sensitivity is awakened that it is a continual development, learning and refinement.
I have read your blog again – the part where you say ‘ I realised I had not been listening to my body and the messages it was trying to give me. I resolve to do so from now on’ – after reading what happened there after clearly says that it worked. I deeply appreciate feeling your commitment, it is truly inspiring.
Thank you for sharing your story Kim. It is amazing that we don’t listen to our bodies, that we often override what we feel and know to be true. Yet when we start listening to our bodies and trusting what we feel the results are truly amazing, as you have shared here.
The turnaround in your life is coming from your choices to be more self loving with yourself. Great sharing, Kim.
So fantastic is your awareness and choices Kim, I love the way you so simply express how you feel, no drama, just how it is. I related to much of what you shared. Thank you
A journey alongside the presentations of Universal Medicine is one that has also profoundly changed my life. Anything that life presents I can now choose a more loving way to sit and feel what is happening and why, heal and move forward with confidence and love.
Awesome to feel the confidence in your expression Kim. I resonate with the question you pose ‘Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are? Answer, yes I do!!! Thankfully I too found my way to a presentation by Serge Benhayon that set me on the path of truly understanding and befriending myself.
This is so true. And when you know who you are it is easy to stand with the confidence of this knowing in any situation.
A true testament to your choices and the fact that it’s never too late to self love.
‘I have personally found that empowerment… initially coming as a realisation that I can be me anywhere, anytime and with anyone. Then I found the keys within as to how to manifest this. It is a simple, very fulfilling way to live, to let go the shackles of doing, and be.’ Thank you Kim I love how you talk about unlocking the shackles of doing which I can really relate to. For me keeping myself busy was a distraction from feeling how deeply disconnected I was from me.
So true Leigh and Kathie developing trust in my feelings and being gentle with myself when I get it wrong, builds my confidence in myself and what I need to do as I go through my day.
Dear Kim, I am truly inspired by you commitment to be yourself in every situation, with every one. The way you live now is a testament to this commitment. I find that there are areas in my life where I struggle to hold on to my self and your writting is supporting me to take my level of commitment to my self up a notch or two.
Thank you Kim for sharing your journey home. As an esoteric student I too am rebuilding my confidence in my feelings.
Thank you Kim for your story, claiming back your truth and health. What is real enriches and what is not falls away.
Kim, you wrote “(It) set me off on a disastrous path. I lost three good relationships and much of my assets” – thankfully it doesn’t have to be that way. Did it happen before or after 2009?
Hi Kim, I too can relate to your sharing of your journey home, it is beautiful to read the stories of people transforming their lives with the support and teachings of Universal Medicine.
” I realised I would now lose relationships if I did not express as me in them. I had taken on an adage to be what I thought others wanted me to be”, Oh, how I have done this too Kim, great realisation!
And you are right, Universal Medicine can’t do it for us, we are presented with the truth, and it is then our choice to make changes in our lives.
There are many testaments, to be found on these pages, that many people have changed their lives through the teachings of Universal Medicine, so we must be doing something right!
And well done you.
Yes Sandra I too relate to being what I thought others wanted me to be. If I don’t know who I am how can I expect others to? As I have gradually come home to me it has improved all my relationships because I am so much more real and I am then more able to connect with other people.
Beautiful Kim. What an extraordinary journey! I stopped when you were talking about you being at the hospital and felt how messy your life was and how awesome your result of changing gears. Your experience of deep familiarity with the esoteric and the discovery that this is home is very familiar to me. The esoteric is a wonderful home to unfold and feel at home with you and then with the others.
Thank you Kim and emfeldman, it is because of the way in which Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine’s presentations have inspired me to make different choices that my health and life has turned around. As you say, the “feeling of being home with myself and then equally with others” are inspirational words.
Thanks Kim – It is so simple really. There was a time, when if someone asked me how I felt – I wouldn’t have a clue. I now know that I didn’t know because I had chosen to be totally disconnected from my body. Being connected and feeling all in the body brings with it ‘Responsibility’ for all the choices’ I make and now, I cannot not over-ride what my body tells me about something, for it means moving into pain.
Great to hear Kim about you returning to what you knew to be true. Not always easy but so worth it in the long run.
This shows how we can gradually move back towards who we once were. I explore with wonderment this natural self-confidence, that comes with the Esoteric way of life. At first the gentleness comes across a bit theatrical, but with each step it becomes less a trying and more a being.
In the beginning the practising the esoteric way can look and feel a bit artificial and weird as it may be unfamiliar and somehow a kind of clumsiness seems to make it strange, but as you say, felixschumacher8, as it becomes more familiar it also becomes natural and then very elegant, light, playfull, wise, at ease… simply lovely. It is not the esoteric as such that is awkward but all the rigid ingrained automatisms that hinder oneself to simply be and live the esoteric instantly as the esoteric is our innermost nature but imposed upon and buried by the learned behaviours of trying to be who we are expected to be. These taken on patterns don´t let go easily and make the esoteric look strange in the beginning – a world upside down really turning back on it´s feet.
Imagine being in your late 50’s and early 60’s and feeling and having the health of what we did at 20. This is the real news Kim, for it is not the current ‘norm’. It’s expected that we have deteriorating health as we get older and through your story here Kim we can see that there is another way for us all to be as we age. It’s not about denying our age or the fact that we get older. it’s about offering ourselves the best opportunity we can to live life to the full with a deep care and respect for ourselves, everyday.
Very true Jennifer, improving our health, as we get older is certainly not the norm. This is noteworthy for anyone interested in health, wellbeing and bringing true change to their life.
My feelings too Jennifer, Kim’s sharing is totally against the ‘norm’ and needs to be shouted to the world! We are living so much less than we naturally are and through Esoteric living, we can all live more in line with our true nature. Deep appreciation for Serge Benhayon and his commitment to bringing this truth back to our world for all to know again.
Absolutely Jennifer and most importantly it was that Kim took on the responsibility for his own health and lifestyle choices, empowering himself to make the changes he felt were necessary – and the result is an amazing transformation in health and well-being. It just shows what may be possible if we were to start honouring and caring for our bodies and ourselves. Can’t help but feel the Government’s Health System might benefit as well!
Great point Jennifer. it is the general norm to deteriorate in health as we get older, but as Kim has illustrated, it doesn’t have to be that way. It has been the same for me, I am looking & feeling younger as I get older because of my choices to deepen my self-care that have been inspired by the teachings of Serge Benhayon.
I agree with you Jennifer – any deterioration in our health is usually only because of an accumulation of the ill way we’ve treated our bodies in our earlier years from a misguided belief that we are bullet proof but of course it always lets us know.
Awesome Kim that you now live with more vitality and wellness in your 50’s than your younger years. I too have been inspired by the work of Serge Benhayon to re-connect to my innate wisdom and honour how I feel. This has turned my life around and I am now living with a greater level of health, love and quality of being than before.
So who wants or needs to be forever young when age is not the problem but the quality of our choices and the consequences thereafter? Time and age become meaningless when we finally become who we always were, it is coming home and everything falls into place, ie. harmony is restored.
Thank you Kim for sharing your life – it is an amazing moment when we become willing to see the truth. I have always been aware of my sensitivity but for a long time saw it as something wrong in me. Initially it felt as though the world could not cope with my level of sensitivity and that I needed to be able to ‘handle life’ and like you ‘my sensitivity was compromised by these substances in a way that made it impossible to be aware of their influence. It has been beautiful to be able to claim back my sensitivity with the support of esoteric practitioners.
Thank you Kim for sharing your experiences with Serge Benhayon. For me it was the learning that everything is energy what changed my life. It is crazy that we don’t learn about energy in kindergarten or at school.
I can definitely relate to the familiarity of the Universal Medicine courses, I remember feeling almost relief that everything I had always felt was true, amazing you now have the confidence to be who you really are.
That’s so true that you can feel more confident when you do know who you are, it’s awesome you have found yourself. I love how Universal Medicine gives us tools to re-connect back to who we are.
Thanks Kim, Awesome to hear your journey back to confidence and knowing who you are.
Thank you Kim, the commitment we go through life in presence to the daily events and to see and express truth is felt to be so empowering as you have shared. It truly makes a world of a difference when this is lived consistently.
Thank you Kim for your very honest blog, I too have to thank Serge Benhayon for the truth he brings about who we truly are. I love your words ” I can be me anywhere any time and with anyone, a reclaiming of the real me.
Lovely to read how eventually you came back to you. When I read “Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are?” It resonated with me and in reading that one sentance I could appreciate how much I have grown and evolved since meeting Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine and how I have started to come back to me; … this is just the beginning as well. Also you are right in saying no one can ‘do it’ for you, any change, reflection or evolving is completely up to us individually; but what an awesome support, teacher and role model Serge and Universal Medicine are in showing there is a different and more loving way to live.
Well said Vicky. I can relate to everything you have said. And isn’t it amazing that no one can ‘do it’ for us. This effectively empowers us to ‘do it’ for ourselves.
Mine too Jo!
I loved the profoundness of that question too. It certainly did take a lot of energy to build and maintain such a facade for me!
Kim, I love your honestly when you say, “do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are”? It is not uncommon for people to find it hard to be confident when they don’t know who they are. As a society we are raised and educated by being recognised for what we ‘do’, not for ‘who we are’ so more and more we lose the ‘essential me’ – the ‘who we really are’! The ‘essential me’ gets buried under a lifetime of accumulated ideals and beliefs. It often takes an accident or illness to make us stop, as you describe and make a conscious decision to re-connect to our ‘essential me’ – to listen to our body and not our mind! Yet expressing from our ‘essential me’ requires no energy or force as it is the natural way to be. And, as you say, “It is so lovely to be confidently expressing now as me”. Welcome home!
Beautiful Kim. Being empowered from making daily choices that bring a clarity and sensitivity to have the confidence to trust our feelings and live life from that place is where the true healing begins.
You are a living example of this from how you feel in your body and being. I can feel you shining through in your writing.
Wow amazing Kim, what an incredible story and return to health and well being at 58 years old – truly inspiring, I know many stories of men and women that attend Universal Medicine courses who have turned their lives around and are more healthy and vital now than they have ever been, theses stories are amazing and are not what is happening in the rest of society which appears to be that people are getting less well. Reading your article reminds me of how blessed I feel to be able to attend Universal Medicine events.
So lovely to be able to trust ones feelings and develop a confidence in who you are. Having the awareness and ability to feel and then know what you are feeling without doubt is like having an in built compass to always guide your way in life.
I love this Rachel. How the building of confidence in the body is like a built in compass. Steady and reliable that gives us the confidence that we are headed in the right direction