Universal Medicine Helped to Heal Bulimia

by Anna Karam, Goonellabah, Australia

I am a 35 year old woman. I am also a loving wife, mother of three gorgeous children, owner of a successful small business (successful by definition here being a joy to work in) and casual check out operator at my local supermarket. I’m sorry, did I forget to mention here that I am also amazing! It’s true – I love my life, I love myself, my family (in this I include many) and I love people. But life for me hasn’t always been like this. In fact, up until a few years ago I had suffered from Bulimia Nervosa, a psychological disease which began in my early teens.

For those of you who don’t know, bulimia is medically defined as an eating disorder characterised by binge eating and purging, or consuming a large amount of food in a short amount of time followed by an attempt to rid oneself of the food consumed (purging), typically by vomiting, taking a laxative or diuretic, and/or excessive exercise. But for me this definition doesn’t give a true understanding of the absolute physical and mental torture and self abuse that make up this disease.

In my experience bulimia has always been one of those ills that people don’t really want to speak of. Not unless it is happening with themselves or someone close to them. It is one of those taboo subjects you simply don’t touch! It even has medical professionals baffled. I feel this has contributed to why so many young men and women (including myself) are able to hide this disease so easily from the outside world, whilst secretly living behind closed doors with so much pain and torment.

For me bulimia looked like this. I would wake in the morning and the first thing I would think about was food, how much was I going to eat today, how much exercise would I need to do to counter this, and would I find myself binging and having to take a trip to the toilet to bring up all the food I had so fervently shoved down in an attempt to numb myself out or sabotage when I was actually feeling good. The latter would happen more often than not. I would then go to bed feeling ashamed, my body hurt, and my mind was already in the torment of what tomorrow would bring.

At times when I was living with others I would find this difficult, to hide the binging, the empty wrappers, the cereal boxes that went down so quickly, the ice-cream that never lasted. I figured out which foods were easier to bring up so as to be not so hard on my throat, cause swelling around the glands in my neck, or dilate my pupils, whatever was needed to not get found out, it was all highly orchestrated. Learning how to bring food up quietly became an art. Aside from all the physical damage, there was the constant shame and guilt that was inescapable, and deeper than this was the enormous sadness in the knowing that it was I who was doing this to myself. This disease was nothing short of a prison. A self imposed isolation that at its very core was an inability for me to accept the world as it is, and to accept me in all my light, my truth, my glory and to not be afraid to show this.

When I was 31, I was introduced to Universal Medicine. I listened to Serge Benhayon speak about self love, honesty, responsibility, and choices. Each of these words resonated so deeply with me, and so I made the choice to explore this for myself. I also started attending presentations on Women’s Health by Natalie Benhayon which inspired me in so many ways to connect more deeply with myself as a woman first and foremost.

I feel it is important to say here that I didn’t start attending these presentations and making different choices in an attempt to heal the bulimia. This was something I had long given up to be even possible for me after having previously sought out pretty much every modality on offer from East to West. I started making these choices and changing how I was with myself because everything I was hearing simply made sense. Why wasn’t I tender with myself? Why didn’t I listen to and honour the feelings I had? What was it about me that chose to abuse myself or to allow abuse from another?

What was presented to me was that change had to start within ourselves, that we cannot wait for others or expect others to make the changes, but that this needs to come from every individual in their own time and at their own pace. I never once felt judged or pushed to hurry up and get it right. In fact Serge Benhayon was the first practitioner to know about my condition before I even opened my mouth to share it, and in this there was already a healing for me and an opportunity to be more open and honest with myself.

What happened from here is nothing short of amazing. Through simply choosing to be more in tune with my body, to tend to myself with a greater level of care and love, and to take more responsibility for my choices, I have turned my whole life around. At first (and considering the pattern I was in) I found this difficult: it was new for me to love myself, and something I had always felt I couldn’t express to others. I had long associated self-love with selfishness, vanity, or being ‘up yourself ‘as my school friends used to say. And yet gradually this started to change, and it became more easy. In fact I discovered that it is actually very natural to love and care for me. From the way I choose to brush my hair, wash myself, in how to dress, the foods I choose and how I prepare them, the way I walk, how I hold my body, it is there in everything – the opportunity to conduct myself gently and lovingly and to appreciate who I truly am.

Without even trying, one day I woke up and the bulimia was no longer a part of my life. It had stopped. I had stopped. And if anyone was there throughout that period they would not believe seeing where I am today. I have come to see myself for the precious woman that I am, and my life is becoming truly amazing from this.

What have I learnt from all this? I have learnt how important it is to self love, to honour my feelings, to listen to my body, to hold myself in the deepest regard, and from here consider all others in that same light. I have learnt how important it is to accept things as they are, but that this acceptance doesn’t mean giving up on oneself, or on people. I have learnt to trust in myself, and from here I am beginning to trust once again in others. And with the support of my incredible husband, I have learnt to make light of situations, to have fun and not take things so seriously as I had always done.

Yes, I have healed bulimia, and it has been through my own choices, but I could not have done this without the enormous love and support of Universal Medicine and the presentations delivered by Serge Benhayon and Natalie Benhayon that have been nothing short of amazing, and continue to inspire me each time I attend. I have turned around an existence that saw me struggling from day to day, to living a life that is truly joy-full – in my home, my work, and my body. And the beauty is that I can feel there is so much more. I am discovering that there is simply no end to where self love can take us. It’s only the beginning and what a truly powerful beginning for me it has been. Endless thanks to Universal Medicine for how it has supported me to truly change my life, and for the countless others I have witnessed do the same.

214 thoughts on “Universal Medicine Helped to Heal Bulimia

  1. The world needs people whom we can deeply trust and seek support from. More so then this we need people who have had the courage to deal with their own hurts so they too can assist others.

  2. “Through simply choosing to be more in tune with my body, to tend to myself with a greater level of care and love, and to take more responsibility for my choices, I have turned my whole life around.” Universal Medicine has supported so many of us to do the same, through simple everyday loving choices.

  3. “I have learnt how important it is to accept things as they are, but that this acceptance doesn’t mean giving up on oneself, or on people.” That is true, acceptance does not mean giving up, it just means this is the way it is…for now.

    1. Jeanette this is so true and I feel we do confuse the two. Acceptance Vs giving up. I see everyday how people struggle with acceptance of where they are in life, and they actually fight acceptance. Do we struggle to accept where we are because of the irresponsibility we have lived in denying to accept who we are, which we know to the core of our being? I know tI still struggle with this.

  4. So little of what heals us is actually used in our treatment of illness, disease and health issues, yet as has been presented beautifully simply by Universal Medicine, it is only when we are willing to honestly go to the root cause of ill health that we get to the answers and can actually heal the issues, this means we are never bound by any condition, which with something like bulimia, or two other examples: cutting or alcoholism becomes much more empowering.

  5. This is such an important sharing Anna – there are many young women and men out there with some form of eating disorders that often are based on a such a deep lack of self worth or a strong sense of self loathing, that we do need to open up the conversation, which is just the beginning of how we can support each other with such situations and choices. How you have turned things around is proof to so many that this can be done and done with grace, it is indeed a possibility and a beautiful one indeed. Thank you Anna.

  6. To free yourself from the bulimic prison you were in through embracing self-love and responsibility, is a truly extraordinary feat. It is clearly a deeply debilitating disease that many believe they will never overcome… so your article is profound… and a blessing for all that now know the healing that is possible with deep love and acceptance.

  7. The diseases are many but the treatment is one – LOVE. The power of love (and Truth which is the of the same essence) heals everything!

  8. You mention how Bulimia is connected to acceptance. I am discovering (still work in progress) a tremendous freedom in simply observing things and seeing them for what they are without needing, demanding or trying to make them different.

  9. Being able to accept ourselves in full is such an unfolding throughout our lives. There is so many layers that can sometimes be streamlined and sometimes not. What you have shared here Anna is where they are not so streamlined at times, but then what amazingness can unfold and become streamlined when we learn again to self care, self nurture, self accept. Very beautiful.

  10. Acceptance of ourselves, others and the world around us is a huge issue for so many of us in today’s world. But when we start to make an ever deepening commitment to making self-loving choices that builds ourselves from within while simultaneously allowing ourselves to be inspired by others and the world around us we in turn become far more appreciative, understanding and accepting of ourselves, others and the world around us.

  11. Thank you Anna for your blog. This line rings very true for me still now…”Why wasn’t I tender with myself? Why didn’t I listen to and honour the feelings I had? What was it about me that chose to abuse myself or to allow abuse from another?” I have never experienced bulimia, but I know overeating very well and continue to do this. I can feel from what you shared how deepening our self-love is the only way to treat ourselves out of this self-abuse and being so honest with everyone about what I am feeling. I can see that holding back really doesn’t serve anyone and is more than likely one of the greatest causes of illness and disease.

  12. Appreciating ourselves for our qualities and the choices that we make no matter how small they are, allows us to bring a new level of love and care for our bodies where there is no space for abuse only the acceptance of our own glory.

  13. What an incredible journey you have been through, a never ending one I suppose, of discovering and appreciating yourself in ways you may have never imagined were possible when you were in the thick of Bulimia. It really is a miracle that something as debilitating and imprisoning as this disease can simply slip away due to the commitment to The Way of The Livingness.

  14. It is a pure joy to read the sharing of your self-love experience, it is deeply felt as it comes from your lived and embodied experience and thus is igniting the same energy in me. You are just the same inspiration to those around you like Serge and Natalie Benhayon have been to you. The ripples of love vibrating through society by people living it.

  15. I love the honesty with which you have written Anna. It was beautiful to read and it is always healing to read of another experience when it is expressed without emotion and with the deepest honesty.

  16. Thank you Anna for sharing about your challenging journey with Bulimia. I now have much more awareness of just how debilitating this condition is on so many levels. I feel sure your blog will be very supportive to others that are in a similar situation to what you were in, and to know that they too can heal from this ill condition.

  17. Some of the symptoms and behaviours you describe resemble those I had in the past. Because I managed to deal with it in a way I considered okay, and I knew others to handle it similarly, it never occurred to me that it might actually be an ill-ness or un-normal. In hindsight and with the greater understanding I have today of what is truly healthy, caring and loving, plus your description of bulimia, it is obvious how harming and probably ill my way of eating and need for purging once was. So I wonder, how was it possible that I didn´t even consider anything wrong with my behaviour at the time? 1. I didn´t know better, 2. it was considered normal by everyone around me, 3. Before Universal Medicine I had no sense of self-love and true care.

  18. This is a great testimony of how making simple choices to be loving with yourself can make such a huge difference to your behaviour and your life. It seems significant that the focus was not on the bulimia and the trap of being in that illness, and yet the illness just slipped away.

  19. It is amazing the changes you have made Anna and how you have turned your life around. Thank you for honestly sharing how life was for you and how you have got to where you are today. It shows to me how fundamental the healing was in the changes you made to how you were living that the bulimia just seemed to go without a specific concerted effort against it.

  20. Learning to love and care for ourselves has such far-reaching effects. The fact that the bulimia just faded away is like a miracle. Applying self love, acceptance and appreciation can make such a massive difference to our lives, regardless of whether we have a medical condition. I wonder when our health services will wake up to this fact!

  21. Its kind of amazing when you read how someone has cured a life long illness so effortlessly. Its the sort of story that should be shared and great that you have put pen to paper Anna so that others can read how there is another way (and more importantly how gorgeous that way of living feels).

  22. What I love about your contribution is the disclosure of the psychological factors that underpin bulimia – there are so many misconceptions around that would have us believe it is about body image first and foremost. You make it quite clear that the condition has its roots in the desire to numb what we are feeling because what we are truly feeling can seem too overwhelming with nowhere to turn for support. Thank God for Universal Medicine!

  23. It’s beautiful to hear about the changes you have made and the ripple effect it has had on healing something that to many seems irreversible. When I started to read it felt as if one of the reasons for this condition is what you stated later on and that was the reluctance of embodying our light. It feels as if we eat because we know the body needs to be nurtured but then we feel we don’t deserve it or that we are not worth it. Through developing a love for oneself I guess this behaviour naturally transmutes into one where we are being more gentle and accepting with oneself. Thanks for sharing Anna.

  24. It is extraordinary how Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon has supported and inspired hundreds of people worldwide to bring true healing to any ill conditions in their bodies. Well done Anna for the steps you took to heal bulimia and reflect to others what is possible when we make loving choices and begin to deeply appreciate ourselves.

  25. When we change how we view ourselves, make the effort to love ourselves, against the grain of what society tells us, then that is where true change occurs. There really is something powerful in matter of fact accepting ourselves as lovely and worth adoring, especially when you consider how much ill health stems from self loathing and an inability to accept ourselves as we are.

    1. Very true Stephen, instead of seeing illness and mental health disorders as mysterious, we could very well start with the common sense approach of considering “how much ill health stems from self loathing and an inability to accept ourselves as we are”.

  26. Each time I read this Anna, I feel a deeper appreciation for what Serge Benhayon has brought back to our world. The amazing transformation you made is inspiring, not just because you healed bulimia, but because there was no direct intention to, yet you did.

    1. It’s interesting to ask then how many psychological disorders may not exist if self care and self love become our daily foundation?

  27. Hear, hear to this Anna Karam – what a wonderful account of the true power of self-love. Yes, I too grew up in ‘playgrounds’ that dissed self-love as being ‘up yourself’, the words spoken with pure disdain. Yet whilst there can be arrogance in selfishness, true self-love is a very healing and humble state of being – and in my opinion is right at the heart of what humanity needs to turn the tide on self-abuse, self-neglect, self-loathing and through this the abuse of others. Learning to love ourselves is the way to true healing – as you have so clearly demonstrated here.

  28. ‘A self imposed isolation that at its very core was an inability for me to accept the world as it is, and to accept me in all my light, my truth, my glory and to not be afraid to show this.’ This feels the truth about bulimia. I appreciate your openness and honesty about this eating disorder, how you’ve turned around your life by making the choice to love yourself and your body. And as you say Anna, this is just the beginning. An amazing begin that is.

  29. This is a truly beautiful account of the immense healing power we hold inside of ourselves and which we only need to connect to. This is what Universal Medicine is all about that connection to our universality and the magical beings that we all are.

  30. Anna, how you have turned your life around is amazing, this is very supportive and beautiful to read, ‘I have learnt how important it is to self love, to honour my feelings, to listen to my body, to hold myself in the deepest regard’, I am working on this at the moment, I have become aware lately that even though I am much more gentle and loving with myself than I used to be that I still not hold myself in the love and with the regard that I could, there are still many ways in which I do not fully value myself and all that I am, it is with deepening my self love and care that I am changing this.

  31. Our unloving patterns can be our prisons and they can go round and around with dizzying repetition until we identify and arrest the root cause of their origin.

    1. Very true, but we should never dig into it ourselves, think about it and obsess. When we do that, we are actually distancing ourselves from truth.

  32. An absolutely remarkable account Anna – thank-you for being so open about the bulimia and the torment of living with this, and then, the true miracle in what has changed for you.
    Something deeply special is occurring here on too many occasions to mention, with such powerful transformations in occurring in the lives of so many students of Universal Medicine, and those who receive treatments in the Esoteric Modalities founded by Serge Benhayon. There are many who deserve to read this story, to know that one need never give up in life, that from reconnection to the essence of all that we are, much will indeed change and unfold for us.

    1. Beautifully put Victoria, the feeling of reconnecting to our essence is the most amazing thing in this world.

  33. I have known people close to me that have suffered in the prison that you describe in such great detail. I have been so close to this disease that although I have never suffered from it, I feel I understand it deeply and therefore really appreciate how you were willing to express it so openly. It is very hard to fully recover from this disease because it is so physiologically damaging; how beautiful it is to hear that through the support of Universal Medicine you were able to get back to who you really are.

  34. Someone suffering from bulimia structures life in a way that combines a restricted public appearance with a very strong private/reserved series of activities. This way of moving in life can endure forever. The only way to break with it is to feel the call to be more, to register the misery you are living, to understand that this is not you, to feel how YOU really feel and to make a choice.

  35. The beautiful thing about what Universal Medicine is offering is that the teachings are universal as they are about us taking loving responsibility and care of our self first and foremost and if applied to life, as you have Anna, love becomes our best medicine.

  36. Yes, same here – I used to purge a lot between the age of 16-19. Like you said, many times it was to self-sabotage. Although I no longer purge, today I had a similar experience to what used to happen in the past. I overate, and while I was doing it I could really feel that I was doing it because I just wanted to sabotage my day. I had a brilliant day at work yesterday, however did not appreciate it so it resulted in a series of movements which lead me to drop very low and feel quite miserable. Although it has been quite a rough day, developing this understanding is just so beautiful, to know that everything affects us, giving us the opportunity to begin to make different choices.

  37. Thankyou Anna, it’s quite an inspiring story that someone trapped within the cycle of Bulimia could make their way out, and not with complication, but through self care, self love, and treating oneself tenderly. It’s quite a celebration reading your story. I had quite a healing myself as I read realising that I don’t quite accept life and in that I don’t accept myself, now a new level of acceptance and self acceptance is there, thank you.

  38. Self-abuse is as the name suggests…abuse towards self, and hence it is only the person themselves who can heal this type of abuse.

  39. Anna this is a great example of how when we commit to making more self loving choices, and learn to love ourselves first, we are able to let go of certain patterns that were once destructive and not self loving or supportive to ourselves.

  40. ‘… this was the enormous sadness in the knowing that it was I who was doing this to myself.’ — that’s the thing, we think other people can hurt us and damage our sense of self, but the ultimate damage is the fact that we choose to abuse and dismiss ourselves out of fear of being hurt by another.

  41. This article helps me to understand what a devastating disease bulimia is. It also reminds me that there is nothing that we cannot heal from if we choose to.

  42. Bulimia sounds like an extreme version of the eating patterns I and I suspect many of us have. We spend a lot of time thinking about the next coffee, treat from the café, meal or dinner out. As women, we then think about how fat we are going to get and go into a pattern of self-loathing that just feeds the eating. Actually allowing ourselves to have the feelings we have (how many of us were made to feel ashamed of this as kids?) is a vital part of stopping this sabotage and abuse.

    1. Yes being honest about food cravings or indulgences and so forth rather than hiding or feeling guilty about them seems like a much more healthy thing to do, it is not about making it ok if others do it too, but reading it for what it is, embracing our human-ness really as we refine our choices.

  43. It is amazing what can fall away from us when we embrace the call to be more self-loving…and to be the love that we are. It has certainly been the case for me.

  44. It seems to me the cycle of guilt and shame is a very destructive one, where low self esteem is at the root of something, in this case bulimia. Then we go into the cycle of self-bashing and deeper into the perceived solution, which is also a perpetuating cycle.

  45. “Through simply choosing to be more in tune with my body, to tend to myself with a greater level of care and love, and to take more responsibility for my choices, I have turned my whole life around.” – Thank you Anna, what you share here is gold, it may be challenging at times to change our ways but rather than just focusing on stopping the errant behaviours or patterns, if we bring our focus to building more connection with ourselves and our body and the way we love and care for ourselves and others, then big changes can happen.

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