A short while ago I had an Esoteric Chakra-puncture session and as I was talking to the practitioner about how I was feeling, he asked if I experienced anxiousness. I reflected for a moment on how my days had been lived over the previous few weeks and responded, “No, it’s not something I regularly or strongly experience; I’m more likely to feel tension in my nervous system and I easily recognise those signs.”
Following the session, and again the next morning, I reflected a bit more deeply on this and realised that there had been an underlying tension in my body for a few weeks, coinciding with a change in jobs, and I had also been biting some of my nails again after not having done so for 3 or 4 years. I had been eating more sweet and salty foods than usual, and I was feeling anxious about the workload I had, both at work and outside of it, on a number of different projects that I had been called upon to support.
On my way to work, as I sat in the train, I gave myself time and space to connect to my body with the gentle breath so it could reveal to me what was underneath the tension. What I felt was a deep and long held anxiousness that I’d not let myself feel before.
I was able to feel how I was actually anxious about surrendering completely to God, to saying yes to trusting in my connection to God and my divine purpose as a Son of God. I was anxious about letting go of being in control of the direction of my life.
As soon as I was clear on what I was anxious about and called it out, I felt myself drop into a very deep stillness, I felt held in an embrace so warm and loving and had an absolute sense of knowing that God is always with me, within me.
It never ceases to amaze me how simple it is to get a sense of clarity when one chooses to be in the gentleness and stillness of one’s breath.
As the week unfolded, I observed myself leaving this embrace, leaving the stillness and returning to a state of anxiousness. I realised I still find it difficult to fully accept and appreciate God in my life – yet he accepts me unconditionally! I am slowly but surely learning to accept that I am a Son of God and I can reflect his love every day. While total acceptance may take some time, I felt I needed to make a commitment that for the next two weeks, to stop each day and take time to connect with my breath and my body; to the stillness and sacredness that is naturally within me.
I found this a very powerful way to appreciate and accept all of who I am and, in the stillness, I am rediscovering the relationship between God and me.
This ‘stop’ has now become part of my daily ritual, a powerful way to surrender and reconnect to the wisdom of my body, and the wisdom and presence of God. My understanding of where the anxiousness comes from has also deepened so that I am now aware that at times life, or what is being asked of me, feels ‘too big, too much’. Trying to control life has therefore been about making it seem smaller and manageable. In truth, I have been trying to keep myself smaller and less than what I truly am – a Son of God, equal in all love and glory to him.
When I make my days about stillness, God and all of me, then nothing is too big; there is no need to go into anxiousness, doubting what I am capable of. My days are simpler, fuller, joyous, and my connection to God is felt within and reflected in everything around me.
My re-connection back to God and the stillness within me has been inspired by Serge Benhayon through his own living and sharing of an unwavering connection to God in every moment.
By Michelle, Brisbane
Further Reading:
Stillness
From Giving Up to Reclaiming Myself as a Son of God
What Causes Anxiousness?
Being in stillness feels very divine, ‘As soon as I was clear on what I was anxious about and called it out, I felt myself drop into a very deep stillness, I felt held in an embrace so warm and loving and had an absolute sense of knowing that God is always with me, within me.’
A great commitment to make, ‘ I felt I needed to make a commitment that for the next two weeks, to stop each day and take time to connect with my breath and my body; to the stillness and sacredness that is naturally within me.’
We are much more than our anxiousness. Whatever may come we can face up to from a greater perspective, from a place of observation and no judgment that supports us to hold ourselves and others in a very loving way. This approach takes us out from playing small, the victim-hood and the belief that we don’t deserve Love in all its greatness simply because we don’t choose it all the time. Love is unconditional, and is always there to come back to it.
Love is always there to connect with, ‘It never ceases to amaze me how simple it is to get a sense of clarity when one chooses to be in the gentleness and stillness of one’s breath.’
Appreciating taking the time to read this blog. Michelle love what you shared as feels very close with something I’m experiencing. Feeling very inspired to bring stop moments to check and confirm from my body the sacredness that lives naturally within. Very needed in these times. Thank you
Thank you Michelle, our ‘appreciation’ energetically brings so much to our lives, as when we appreciate our most divine connection to God, and then as we deepen this foundation we bring an ‘authority’ to it, and this is a ‘conformation’ of that which we are, with the three generating True purpose.
Appreciation is such an important part of our lives, ‘I found this a very powerful way to appreciate and accept all of who I am and, in the stillness, I am rediscovering the relationship between God and me.’
Anxiousness reveals that we are focusing on the ‘me’, whereas when we reconnect to our inner stillness we part of the all.
The biggest issue we have on earth is actually our connection with God, the impact of this issue is what is causing all our world issues at large. So, if we aim to fix our world issues without healing the one that is causing them in the first place, our attempts will simply not work and we have witnessed this throughout history and in current times. Getting to the root cause of our disconnection with God is the key.
Could it be that we are so used to being anxious amongst the rush and push of modern day life that we don’t actually realise how much anxiety we are living with as it has become our normal.
That is true Suse, many of us live, or have lived in constant anxiety to such an extent that we are no longer able to recognise that anxiety has become a chronic part of our lives.
Being an anxiety sufferer in the past, I also have discovered that it is only in my disconnection from my essence that anxiety enters, as we lose sense of knowing who we are and knowing the power of God and all that we are innately connected to. Returning to this connection and atonement is where we are guided to live impulsed by the stillness and divine intelligence of our Soul, where life is lived with far more knowing, wisdom and enrichment and we naturally express the joy of who we are.
Letting go of control would appear to be the greatest instigator for anxiousness yet to do so and surrender to the knowing of one’s body and be guided by that is, in fact, the surest way to let go of anxiousness – easier said than done yet with practice so rewarding.
Many people would consider all they do and all in life to be causing anxiousness, but it is not so commonly known to reflect on if we are connected to ourselves, our body and God.
Great point, it is not commonly known that anxiousness in life is a result of our disconnection with ourselves, with people and with God. I reckon all our issues are related to the fact that we fight who we are and deny the divine Godly aspect of ourselves.
I know whenever I feel overwhelmed at everything that I have to do or by what life is presenting to me, coming back to that simple connection with the breath and the body and the natural sense of stillness and steadiness within is super supportive and cuts any anxiousness or overwhelm.
Coming back to our connection with self is super supportive.
The problem is with us, not with Him.
When we don’t surrender to God and His quality, we create.
Beautifully said – so simple and the reality is we are stupendously grander in essence, in our atonement with God, than anything we create.
Surrendering to God keeps things simple, ‘When I make my days about stillness, God and all of me, then nothing is too big; there is no need to go into anxiousness, doubting what I am capable of.’
it is in trying to control our lives and all the comes with it that creates much anxiety, life can have a simple flow when we surrender and connect to the wisdom of the body.
Thank you Michele, stillness is our key marker in life that we need to build as almost everything outside of us is the opposite of stillness. Hence we need to hold ourselves more in stillness in a world where the opposite is expected and lived, in this moment in time.
When we connect to our stillness we can feel God, we can feel this immense love and let it expand or not accept it, disconnect and feel the complication come in.
Our connection to God is confirmed in many ways the more we open our inner heart, and from there we can build a relationship with God that is totally equal.
Knowing we are all equally sons of God, ‘I am slowly but surely learning to accept that I am a Son of God and I can reflect his love every day.’
We can befriend God and anxiousness equally. Both accept us unconditionally. Yet, letting God go sometimes is easier than letting anxiousness go.
Very true Eduardo, and totally weird as a choice to make… and yet make it we do, countless times and throughout our lives. Time to choose the other path.
How very true – but this “unconditionally” has completely different meanings when it comes from God and when it comes from anxiousness. God is happy to let us go to anxiousness if we choose so, but if we choose to break out of anxiousness, there are a few strings we would have to tie up before we can make the steps.
Isn’t it fascinating how often we find it easier to accept abuse than glory!
It often seems that we are more ready to accept all that we are not rather than all that we truly are!
Trying to control every aspect of our lives is exhausting and definitely leaves a residue of tension in our bodies, I’m beginning to learn how to surrender to the fact that we are part of something bigger here and I love your practical tools on how it worked for you.
When we are trying to control our surroundings and the people in it we can definitely get tense from the frustration or resentment that manifests when things don’t go the way we personally want them to – but I wonder how often this is because what we want our own way on, is not actually the best way for everyone.
Isn’t it weird how we reject the glory and magnificence of who we are for the a vastly smaller version and the illusion of control which does not even work?!
When you put it like that – it completely doesn’t make sense… it’s a bit like God pretending he’s not a God!
that’s exactly what it is!
Life can be and indeed is very simple and joyful when we allow it to be. Makes it even weirder that we so often choose complication, misery and the illusion of control instead!
‘When I make my days about stillness, God and all of me, then nothing is too big; there is no need to go into anxiousness, doubting what I am capable of’, How very true Michelle. I had something quite big happen to me on Wednesday. My financial source of income had suddenly been cut due to a mistake in the bureaucracy of processing it. The letter I received was quite ‘punishing’ in its energy, but despite the shock I immediately saw this. I made an alignment there are then to approach the authorities concerned with nothing but goodwill and in my natural loving power. The whole thing, which could have been a disaster and drama with much anxiousness was sorted very easily.
I learnt that anxiousness comes from not knowing what to do with one’s awareness, i.e. noticing more than we think we can handle. Once we find a way to deal with what we are aware of, the anxiousness reduces.
This is such a great blog Michelle. Yes the whole of human suffering is self-inflicted. We have done it to ourselves while all the time God is holding us unconditionally in the superb beingness of Love until we bring this game to a halt.
It is interesting how we would turn every stone in our life to find what is causing us tension but may not consider the relationship with God and divinity and that the ignorance of that can cause a lot of tension in our body already.
We have developed so many skilful ways to avoid and not feel a connection that is never not present, our connection to God. We put things in the way and create things, hold onto pictures and beliefs that inevitably put doubt in our way. All doubt does is delay what is already ours and always there to return to. God knows who we are so is always ever present holding us in love, no matter how long we take to return and no matter what we put ourselves through.
I forever find it very interesting as to the difference our bodies feel depending on if we have chosen our stillness, or not. Any moment I don’t choose my stillness there is an agitation in my body.
Yes, because there is no balance in what we do.
“When I make my days about stillness, God and all of me, then nothing is too big; ” words of wisdom and timely after a intense bout of anxiousness in reaction to something that occurred, these words inspire and offer support.
I have also found these moments when anxiousness or tension creep in usually because I am reacting to something that has happened and I have also found that when I stop to connect more deeply with my body and surrender to that stillness everything becomes much clearer to understand and easier to handle.
Stillness gives us the space to feel clarity, and with that, a deeper knowing of who we are, and what’s needed in any given moment. There’s always a choice: allow ourselves to get caught up in the whirlwind and craziness that is the outside world, making ourselves frantic as we try to control it, or come back to our bodies, to our natural stillness within, through the gentleness of our breath and our movements.
The thing is, we all, each and every one of us, have a relationship with God. Now I know that the atheists amongst us will recoil in horror at this statement, but irrespective of our beliefs, the interconnectedness of all things is a simple energetic truth. God is within each and everyone of us, and in the spaces in between 🙂
Beautifully said Chris.
“I was able to feel how I was actually anxious about surrendering completely to God,……..I was anxious about letting go of being in control of the direction of my life” – this really resonated with me. “Trying” to surrender with resistance makes it more painful and arduous and the situation appears bigger than it really is.
And many of us carry this ‘control’, We can control a car (to a degree) but we cannot control what is around us, which is being presented to us to evolve, we just need to get out of our own way and let God in.
“we just need to get out of our own way and let God in.” Yes Shushila, Sometimes and if aligned, God works through us with or without our awareness until something changes and we are amazed at how it happened.
If we take stop moments throughout the day to connect to and feel our body through our gentle breath it can bring us back to that place of stillness within where we get a sense of our connection with God.
“I was able to feel how I was actually anxious about surrendering completely to God, to saying yes to trusting in my connection to God and my divine purpose as a Son of God. I was anxious about letting go of being in control of the direction of my life.”- The timing of reading this is incredible and in this moment I can feel it hit home on a personal level very strongly. I could feel lately that there has been an underlying anxiousness in my body related to my relationship with God, but only after reading this blog has the true dynamic been revealed to me. Thank you so much Michelle for your honest sharing of your experiences. It’s a life changer!
“in the stillness, I am rediscovering the relationship between God and me.” As we deepen our stillness within, so too do we deepen our relationship and knowing of God.
‘I was able to feel how I was actually anxious about surrendering completely to God, to saying yes to trusting in my connection to God and my divine purpose as a Son of God.’ Is it much more comfortable to stay in control than to walk with God, no..resisting love, being in anxiousness takes much more energy than to be in the presence of who we are, God.
I liked your practical commitment to stopping to connect with your breath and body and feel the stillness. and using this to support you to surrender more to your relationship with God. I feel amazing when I drop back into stillness, i feel very at home there and from here I can get more and more familiar with claiming myself as a Son of God and feeling again the relationship that has always been there.
Within the stillness will always find, what is there to be found in the light that the universe reflects within and through all of us.
“It never ceases to amaze me how simple it is to get a sense of clarity when one chooses to be in the gentleness and stillness of one’s breath.” When you choose to be clear you shall be in light to where you are at i.e. Choosing what you know is still, what is service, what is love that will vitally be the outcome.
“When I make my days about stillness, God and all of me, then nothing is too big; there is no need to go into anxiousness, doubting what I am capable of.” This is a sure antidote to anxiousness, taking a stop moment to connect, knowing we are supported by divine love every step of the way.
I was anxious about letting go of being in control of the direction of my life. And yet when we surrender to all life presents (with no resistance) grace can flow and all the support is available to us to take our next step, as God holds our hand to do so – when we let go of control!
Being anxious because of truly surrendering to God, to trust my connection and accept my divine purpose as a Son of God is definitely something I can relate to. And how this is the cause of my struggle and disregard towards my body. So thank you Michelle as I felt a surrender in my body while reading about your daily stop with a natural acceptance and appreciation of who we are.
I often feel anxiety in my body when I am trying to control what happens in life, letting go of this is a game changer and allows me to surrender and be part of the divine flow that beautifully supports me in life.
It is beautiful to feel, the truth that resides in our bodies is always ready to guide us to know how to live in connection to our essence, to our stillness, in and with God.
When something upsetting happens some of us walk to the fridge and grab whatever lies within those icy doors, others go straight for the pill ‘anxiousness’, which causes a vibration in the body that will, yes, effectively wipe out the incident that has just happened and put us into even more distress!!!! This is exactly the same process that people are operating in when they cut themselves (causing a hurt to the body that is numbing of the unassuageable emotional pain within) and yet we often accept ‘anxiousness’ as ‘normal’.
It is fascinating how we create conditions that make sure to keep us in separation to our essence…. Until we realize what we are doing and what are we missing out.
Anxious about surrendering completely to God – this stopped me on my track and I can feel how this is also true for me – not because I doubt it, but because I do not even give this a proper go. The angst of knowing what is available, yet not chosen.
Building my relationship with God has been life changing for me. It’s been the difference between thinking I’m doing it on my own, to realising that I’m never alone. And what an incredible illusion to bust, it’s like knocking down the flood gates to love that you have tirelessly kept maintained for eons.
Michelle, it’s such perfect timing to read this blog today .. that in fact when we try and control and manage life rather than just being in the flow of it of course we have to be anxious! But if we surrender and let go (something I can struggle with), we met life and it meets us and it all becomes so much simpler. Thank you for reminding me today.
Beautiful comment Monica. I agree – there is far more grandeur and majesty to behold in our lives, when we are in surrender to God and the flow of the universe.
Thank you Michelle for a great sharing one that I can relate to very much. While doing connective tissues exercises I am becoming more aware of how much anxiousness I carry in my body, and a sense of letting go of the control and surrounding to trust God is something that I very much want to experience, but am a little afraid of.
I have always found it difficult to imagine life without control, knowing when and how things are going to be done or happen makes me feel a sense of safety. Surrendering still holds a judgment in my mind as being irresponsible and stillness within life still feels like something unobtainable. When I have a session at Universal Medicine I always feel very still and amazing but practically with how much I have on my plate, I am scared if I bring stillness, I won’t be able to do what needs to be done but instead just want to rest and I will never come back from the surrender. I know it sounds silly and that I am my own worst enemy but it is what I feel at the moment.
Hi Michelle, thank you so much for this blog – I feel like I am in exactly the same phase at the moment. There’s a constant angst and chatter in my head, almost as if I don’t trust myself to let go. I feel like I need to talk to people to “help” me, but I also don’t want to talk to anybody. I feel like I want to stay in bed, but I also feel like I want to be moving constantly – it’s almost as if I’m in a battle between my head and my body. But, it’s a great confirmation because I am starting to give a voice to my body whereas previously it has all been about my head!
I can relate to what you share of keeping myself in a state of anxiousness and not surrendering to more grace. When I do surrender I am able to feel what is needed in each moment and know how to respond.
To observe ourselves and our behaviours and and allow ourselves to feel how we are is a great way to find out why we do certain things and with the clarity we then have we can take the next step and see what it takes to let go of it.
The trick to us reconnecting back to ourselves is to become aware when and why we have disconnected.
I’m discovering in the controlling action all I can control is how small I make myself, then everything else looks huge! Holding myself in fullness is being open to all with the love and support of God, it is a choice.
True Sandra, that is what we are in control of, how small we can make ourselves and within the love of God is waiting for us to join, to make the choice to be equal to God.
This control thing is such an illusion as we can’t actually control anything even how small we are because we are not small – we are vast beyond measure. What we can do is pretend to be less than who we are but sooner or later that will catch up with us and the truth will out!
Yesterday I did attend a Livingness 1 workshop presented by Natalie Benhayon in Cologne and she offered the Gentle Breath Meditation to the group and how simple but profound way to connect back to our essence and like you shared too Michelle a sense of clarity is very simple then, as our essence doesn’t know complication, only love, very simple.
“When I make my days about stillness, God and all of me, then nothing is too big; there is no need to go into anxiousness, doubting what I am capable of.” As I have become more still the underlying anxiousness and tension I have buried is emerging. Connecting more deeply with my body and my essence is dealing with it at last. I am appreciating that I am no longer burying emotions but clocking them and dealing with them. I find Esoteric Yoga to be an amazing modality that supports my deepening stillness.
I hadn’t considered before that the anxiousness I often feel is connected to surrendering to God and the Plan but it makes absolute sense now that I am anxious about not being in control. Thank you for the inspiration to connect to God everyday, to claim and surrender to being a Son of God and let go the control.
It’s seems to be the one thing that offers the most amazing loving supportive holding, is the one thing that I have shut out or down from and this is God. It’s a strange paradox to think I’m in control, which does set up tension and anxiousness. When surrendering to the presence of God with-in me the quality of my next choice totally changes and things become very clear, simple and spacious. I’m loving claiming God with-in me.
When we do allow ourselves to stop, really stop, and not being forced to stop that is, still having a choice, we can experience a well of nurturing that has always been there for humanity to drink from…. The thing is, it is always a choice.
I agree – when I am in appreciation of the grandness of what is and my relationship with God, all the so-called issues disappear and hold no challenge or threat.
Serge Benhayon has been for me the true door-opener into the world of the Divine, making what was for me previously so inaccessible to a living essence of our true nature that he embodies
The more I practice committing to life, that is, bringing the love that I am to every situation, the less anxiousness can get a hold on me. We know that we will never be given anything that we do not know how to handle and that the only one thing to choose is presence and love and then surrender. I am learning how to go to surrender as a position rather than anxiousness.
When I feel anxious it is a sure sign that I have chosen to separate from God. It is through the consistency of my movements in connection to myself and therefore to God that supports me to not allow anxiousness to enter. Indulging in anxiousness which has been a big behaviour of mine is avoiding responsibility and therefore avoiding evolution.
When we connect to God and the oneness of everything then there is no place for anxiousness and the worry about our ability to cope because we can feel that we are part of the bigger picture and everything is taken care of – we only have to do our part. Letting go of feeling that it is all down to me has lifted a huge burden and the anxiousness continues to dissipate.
Thank you Michelle I could really relate to living with an underlying anxiousness that I did not allow myself to be aware of and would have vehemently denied until fairly recently. This has dominated so much of my life and contributed to lots of unhelpful behaviour patterns that I have been slowly unpicking with the support of Esoteric Practitioners. Recognising that I have a choice in each moment to go into anxiousness or choose to re-connect to stillness is so supportive and dropping any judgement of myself for slipping back into old habits means I can let go of the twists and turns that my mind wants to get embroiled in and simply come back to my body.
Michelle you have hit the nail on the head for me. Your blog just created space in my body. It’s not that it was something new for my awareness, but it was a reminder of what I had already discovered and had allowed to slip back in. Thank you, I feel the surrender to all that I am come back to my body.
I can relate to what you share Michelle and I have found doing an Esoteric Yoga program allows me the space to truly surrender and to feel a level of stillness that is exquisite and supports me throughout the day.
“It never ceases to amaze me how simple it is to get a sense of clarity when one chooses to be in the gentleness and stillness of one’s breath.” Coming to stillness brings the most amazing feeling in one’s body. So why do I choose to leave it? I realise I choose not to be responsible in that moment and I creep back into comfort – then all stillness is lost.
It’s interesting this anxiety that we feel about not wanting or feeling able to surrender to God, to the bigger picture. I realised the other day that I feel this anxiety because I don’t actually want to surrender to God. What I felt was how I have blamed God for letting me down, instead of taking responsibility for my own choices to walk away from him, from myself, from humanity. It’s like deciding to leave the house naked in a strop, slamming the door behind you on the way out and then blaming the house for having locked you out.
Now that I have started to build trust within myself, by being consistent in a couple of areas, and being more honest with myself about what I can feel, my relationship with me, and with the bigger picture, is starting to shift. I’m starting to open up, to appreciate that we all have an equal and divine part to play in the whole picture and bringing about true brotherhood on Earth again – and taking responsibility for my part, just by being me, in this is something I’m now accepting with joy instead of begrudging it.
Thank you Michele for your article these words spoke to me today “Trying to control life has therefore been about making it seem smaller and manageable. In truth, I have been trying to keep myself smaller and less than what I truly am – a Son of God, equal in all love and glory to him.”
I find that the Gentle Breath Meditation is a great way to give me space to re-connect back to myself and feel what is truly going on.
What you share Michelle is very timely as I begin to feel for myself what needs to be released if I am to ‘surrender completely to God’
‘When I make my days about stillness, God and all of me, then nothing is too big;’ I am reminded of how recently, and for a brief moment I became anxious about driving home after dark along unfamiliar roads on Christmas day. As soon as the feeling entered my body, another came in that simply erased the first and replaced it with stillness and deep knowing that in the moment I would be supported, shown how to be and what to do.
How amazing is it that we can live with a level of anxiousness and not even been aware of it until we are brought to a stop. For me the feeling that I didn’t identify as anxiousness for a long time was a feeling that I really didn’t want to feel so I continually numbed it with food, drink and dramas. But it simply sat and waited, building in intensity until I was stopped in my tracks, challenging at the time but in retrospect, the best thing that could have happened; it was the beginning of the end for the anxiousness.
‘Hello Anxiousness, you have reappeared in my life in the last week when I thought you were gone forever. So I have acknowledged that you are there, felt what you feel like, nominated that you are not who I really am and have come back to my inner truth. In this process I realised that I was in fact feeling all the Anxiousness around me in people, being brought up by the Christmas rush, end of year events. I was feeling you and imagining that I WAS you. But I am not, and neither are any of the others running around with and hanging out with you. I am Love, and they are Love, so that is what I am going to choose. Goodbye Anxiousness’.
“When I make my days about stillness, God and all of me, then nothing is too big;” Yes ,when we connect and move in this quality there is an instant trust in whatever is presented and there is no need to rely on management tools that will only offer a short relief at the expense of our wellbeing.
Hi Michelle, I love what you have shared here. It is truly powerful to stop and connect to the stillness deep within, this is a great way to connect to God. Control is the mode we run in when we are not connected. I have noticed that control and subservience are two sides of the same coin. Connection that brings understanding and acceptance is the way out of control.
Everything can appear on the outside to be going well in life but the thing is that we and life are made up far more of that which we don’t see but can certainly feel. Reading this blog again brought back the fact that when focused on life’s outplays there is actually so much more going on then that narrow focus and drive to control is aware of, or allows us to be aware us. Coming back to re-connect to what is within us helps bring life into perspective, especially in those times when we feel cornered, hurt, emotional, reactive, confused or simply not quiet right.
I loved rereading your blog Michelle, the inspiration and wisdom it provides, so much to ponder and enjoy. What you have written here is very beautiful, thank you;
“When I make my days about stillness, God and all of me, then nothing is too big; there is no need to go into anxiousness, doubting what I am capable of. My days are simpler, fuller, joyous, and my connection to God is felt within and reflected in everything around me”.
Michelle your blog finds me pondering on going ahead of an imminent moment, planning how to respond and what to say. This has been a way of being in control I have used much of my life. However it leaves no room for truely responding to each moment. A moment to consider how this has prevented me from presenting much needed truths. Also a moment to consider how this separates me from my body, from my connection to God.
I came home last night still living and thinking about the tensions of the day and found it difficult to sleep. I then did a gentle breath meditation and my whole body settled and I felt myself again.
Beautiful Michelle, I love the simplicity you present of finding a relationship with God through stillness, a quality inside you. This is a far cry from the institutionalised version of God that has us relegated to that of a ‘sinner’, forever working to absolve ourselves in order to be accepted by Him.
Thank you for this reflection Michelle. I have recently become aware that my not being fully open to and with others is because I have been keeping God at arm’s length. God’s Divine love and support is with and within me all the time but I have not appreciated that I have to say yes to being at one with God.
‘I was anxious about letting go of being in control of the direction of my life.’ This makes a lot of sense Michelle. Control is such a big part of desperately trying to maintain a sense of security, when all we really have to do is live from our essence. The anxiousness serves to fragment us and stop us from surrendering to the essence which is so nurturing and a great beauty to live from.
This is a very pertinent blog right now. We are here to bring love back as our living way, we come around again and again to ensure we don’t leave anyone behind and we all choose to live love as our normal. Who would have thought that was a difficult choice and yet here we are very often choosing the polar opposite.
Many many months have passed since I first read this awesome blog Michelle, and so much has changed with myself and anxiousness. I have been working with letting go all the conditions that I have on life that keep me ‘safe’ and ‘secure’ – I have had conditions on the way life should look, people should behave and, if that doesn’t happen, I react – basically because things have to look a certain way in order for me to feel safe. The question is why do I need to keep safe? Because I was not fully living from my truth and essence, therefore there was always an unease, an unsettlement and so my constant motivation was towards securing a life I could cope with. At a healing course presented by Serge Benhayon I was able to finally release these myriad conditions which were keeping me from accessing my full trust with God, and what followed was the release of that full trust which just flowed in though my heart. Not one anxious moment has come up for me since that day, just observation and flow . . . and power.
Reading this is such a blessing Michelle. So often we look outside of ourselves for reasons to blame for the anxiousness and restlessness we feel. Yet when we are willing to be honest with ourselves, deeply reflecting on the choices we are making, we then can come to the truth of what is really amiss. Every moment we have the choice to live in connection within our Soul, our stillness within, in union with our bodies, in surrender to God and every moment we resist this we are stepping away from all that we naturally are. Thank you for the powerful reminder that what we choose to surrender to, or not, is directly reflected in our bodies, which highlights the how significant our relationship with our bodies are.
Anxiousness is an insidious plague that is undermining our societies connection with the stillness that is their essence, to the point where people do not even realize that this ‘condition’ is deep inside of them.
“When I make my days about stillness, God and all of me, then nothing is too big; there is no need to go into anxiousness, doubting what I am capable of.” So true Michelle, when I feel connected to God, there is no need to be anything than me in relationship with the all and all the anxiousness disappears and no job or task at hand is too much, but just simply done.
Creating rituals into our daily rhythm to reconnect to the stillness within is a way to let go of control and complexity and instead trust in the simplicity and deep wisdom of our bodies.
This beautiful, finely sensed blog can be read again and again! It really sets me up for the day to feel its richness of energy and to keep deepening my awareness so that any anxiousness I may have is nominated and felt so that it will not dominate me. It is so liberating to see how we are using this emotional reaction of anxiousness to purportedly protect ourselves from life’s ‘slings and arrows of outrageous fortune’. But as you say Michelle it is signal that we are controlling life and not surrendering, and that we have conditions on life that we feel we must maintain to be safe. In fact this is the least safe way to go!
“how simple it is to get a sense of clarity when one chooses to be in the gentleness and stillness of one’s breath”.… And there we have it such a simple statement… And yet it carries within it the key to the resolution of the awful mess that humanity has ended up in… To be still, be gentle, and to actually feel that within.
The exact same level of stillness is within us all. Even a person who murders another has not an ounce less stillness in them at the moment that they murder, than a buddhist monk sitting on the side of a mountain and meditating, it’s simply a question of how much crap we have layered over the top of the stillness.
Making a daily commitment to connect is such a vital part of life, and one I don’t feel we put enough importance on. What if many of our problems, such as anxiousness, are simply a lack of choosing to connect? It would make life very simple!
Isn’t it extraordinary that the love of God is always there… immutable, and will always be so, and it is simply our choice whether we are connected to this , or not.
Thank you for this blog. I am learning to trust that feeling of sinking back into a trust that I am always in Gods love, it doesn’t go anywhere, but I do. The moment I doubt or feel like I have to fix something I take a little step away and if I don’t pick up on that tension I can be gone for a while.
Deep surrender is restful and restorative, so different from the need to control situations.
This is beautifully simple. Stillness – connection – love. Surely there is something more complicated, an initiation test, a series of rituals, a quest? No, it’s simple, stillness – connection – God.
I love this line – ‘When I make my days about stillness, God and all of me, then nothing is too big.’ When we connect to who we really are everything is just there, nothing is too big or scary, there’s just simply work to be done.
I really enjoyed reading this and could relate to many of the things you shared in your blog. I find myself contemplating if I am also denying myself a clarity from not letting go and surrendering in this way and am intrigued as to what may be possible if I choose to commit to giving myself the time and space to explore this… I look forward to giving this a go to see what unfolds.
Michelle, I have been feeling an overwhelm and anxiousness over the last few weeks and reading your blog today reminds me that going into smallness actually feeds the anxiousness, and that in fact if we can see that trying to keep ourselves smaller doesn’t work we allow space for the bigness and support of who we truly are. I’m not there just this minute, but this is a great reminder to see that trying to control and stay small doesn’t work. So I will be exploring and catching those moments of smallness through simply connecting back to and feeling my body.
I’ve never considered the link between anxiousness and God, but it takes perfect sense, we cling so desperately to human life and everything we can control, and it’s only in moments like changing jobs where we have no control that we realise we are not actually the ones in control, and life asks us to surrender to something much grander and knowing we’re always taken care of.
It is so timely to read your comment this morning when I have just recently lost my job. the act of surrender has been so brilliant. I know I am so supported and looked after as I say “YES” to life and drop all conditions I may place upon it for my comfort!
Thank you Michelle – of late I’ve been realising that I have been wanting to control a lot and not fully letting go and trusting that whatever is there for me will be there, I only have to trust.
This blog is a delightful reminder that when I feel anxiousness I need to stop and reconnect with my body and feel my connection to God.
It is such a simple thing to do, stop and feel the stillness within us, the connection, but most often we hurtle forward doing the opposite. Could it be an investment in staying with what we are familiar with rather than stepping into a place where we can make no more excuses?
This is deeply beautiful Michelle… ‘When I make my days about stillness, God and all of me, then nothing is too big; there is no need to go into anxiousness, doubting what I am capable of. My days are simpler, fuller, joyous, and my connection to God is felt within and reflected in everything around me.’ This surrender is extremely powerful and amazingly energy saving! No longer do we have to invest in a drama of anxiousness that drains our precious body of energy and life.
This is such a profound blog Michelle, that it can be read and re-read many times and still the ‘living’ quality can be felt. The point about the partnership of anxiousness and wanting to control is very pertinent to us all. You mention the anxiousness around the new job and workload, and this is what is actually happening for me at the moment – I am looking for a new job and as opportunities start coming in the workload and re-situating things is quite huge, along with a slight unease about finances! So I am bathing in your paragraph: ‘I was able to feel how I was actually anxious about surrendering completely to God, to saying yes to trusting in my connection to God and my divine purpose as a Son of God. I was anxious about letting go of being in control of the direction of my life.’ Thank you!
Thank you, Michelle. Your sharing is so relatable for me right now. I have also started a new job recently, on top of other job I already have, and I have been feeling rather unsettled for the last few days and what I have been feeling is how anxiousness is draining for my body, and I feel how my adrenals are having to work very hard to stay on top of things – and I agree with you, coming back to the stillness within is a great, simple medicine we can choose to take any time of day.
It is no mistake that I was guided here this morning to read this blog again. This time it speaks to me of the simplicity in connection and that connecting to God and myself is not some far out exploration or transcendence. It’s a very simple movement to be with yourself in a moment and knowing that we are part of a much bigger picture then our minds allows us to believe at times. Thank you Michelle.
Thankyou Michelle, this line really was highlighted for me “This ‘stop’ has now become part of my daily ritual, a powerful way to surrender and reconnect to the wisdom of my body, and the wisdom and presence of God.” I also appreciate the Gentle Breath Meditation and what it offers me in reconnecting to myself, to my body, and feeling what’s truly going on for me. Unlike most meditations I can take the gentle breath into my daily life which has given me a new supportive way to be. When I lose myself in the stresses of life the gentle breath is so easy to do to bring myself back to my stillness, or at least stop the stress from getting worse!
That tension that creeps up on me, is also the same thing that stops me from feeling God, from being in touch with the magic that is all around all the time.
This is such a valuable blog Michelle. This anxiousness is something that nearly all of us experience, though some go to anxiousness more often than others – using it as a go-to place. I am one of those who has gone to anxiousness frequently. But now having felt the beauty of the stillness and the expansion and well-being that comes with that, I do not visit anxiousness nearly so often. I can now handle several really difficult things or things going ‘wrong’ in a day now, whereas in the past just one of those things would have sent me crazy. Now I can look at them and say yes I can go there and face it, it won’t be too bad!’ and in fact life feels really beautiful.
The idea of having stop moments built into our day to confirm the connection to self and God, is a lovely foundation and support. It seems anxiety can be partly the lack of loving foundation and care. Knowing that we are deeply loved and allowing ourselves to feel this is important.
Thank you Michelle. I love feeling how much understanding you brought to yourself when you realised that anxiousness was present in your body. Your sharing makes it clear to me that we can only understand what is really going on for us when we take the time to connect to ourselves.
It is always a powerful thing to do, to pause and reflect and connect… Feeling our connection with divinity brings a sense of balance and harmony and trust that humanity hungers for, seeks everywhere, but will always only find it within.
Amazing blog Michelle. I found myself suggesting what you would be anxious about, change of jobs, relationship issues, money problems…. but no it was about “surrendering completely to God, to saying yes to trusting in my connection to God and my divine purpose as a Son of God.” Wow! Yes I can relate very much to this. In my day I often look just at the practical, physical things of life yet ‘forget’ about God and myself as being divine in essence and truth. Thank you for sharing and thus reminding me.
“I have been trying to keep myself less than what I truly am” I can very much relate to this, and feel how harming and irresponsible it is.
” letting go of being in control” this is an interesting line that stood out for me, obviously some control things to look at. But it’s got me pondering why do we use control in the first place, as a form of protection, to make us feel safe, I feel it’s the latter, but really it’s like being confined in a corset or straight jacket, instead of letting out the fullness of our joy and expression. Control can come in many minute forms and details.
I can feel a lot of my anxiousness derives from work – as I am reacting to what I feel and see and hence taking it on, rather than calling out the energy that’s being chosen. For example someone may be walking or talking in anger, but not outwardly displaying it, or the kids may be feeling a lot of sadness, I’m feeling it, but reacting to the behaviour chosen to cover it or not feel it, instead of bringing awareness and understanding. It’s much more simple to observe it, and in some cases allow it to play out and not get involved, if need be.
It’s interesting as over the past month I have felt an palpable anxiousness in my body as I have never done before, it can be very uncomfortable at times, what I have noticed is that after an Esoteric Yoga Session or when I am focusing on one thing at a time this anxiousness does not feel to be there. It seems to be when I am not putting pressure on myself or trying to live up to how I think I should be, an image in my head, or letting myself check out in my thoughts and be distracted – then that anxiousness is not there. So as you say “I was able to feel how I was actually anxious about surrendering completely to God,” my feeling is I am anxious about surrendering to myself.
Anxiousness (which feels like a constant shuddering throughout the body) is something very much so in my face at the moment, or more specifically in my hips that then goes throughout the body. Believing that I can’t the love that I am is being exposed for the disturbance that it truly is. The symptoms are not something I am a victim of, simply my body telling me that choosing to not be who I truly am creates disharmony in the body. “When I make my days about stillness, God and all of me, then nothing is too big” – thank you for this line Michelle, coming back to my body – which is from where God speaks and not from the words in our minds – I feel quiet strongly and as you shared through being with your gentle breath is the way to address this disturbance of not being our true selves.
Its’ very powerful Michelle when we place these things into our daily rhythm so that they then form part of our unwavering foundation: “This ‘stop’ has now become part of my daily ritual, a powerful way to surrender and reconnect to the wisdom of my body, and the wisdom and presence of God.”
If we immediately feel the presence of God when connected to our innermost then could it be that it’s not that we don’t trust God but that we don’t trust ourselves to maintain that connection as he is forever omnipresent and never gives us more than we are capable of handling.
‘ To saying yes to trusting in my connection to God and my divine purpose as a Son of God. ‘ Beautifully said Michelle and a lovely reminder to take into my day thank you.
I love these words Michele, thank you for the reminder “When I make my days about stillness, God and all of me, then nothing is too big; there is no need to go into anxiousness, doubting what I am capable of. My days are simpler, fuller, joyous, and my connection to God is felt within and reflected in everything around me.”
This is so timely for me at the moment because I’m about to start a major change of circumstances in relation to work, and this is super supportive for me not to get ahead of myself but simply to remember to connect to my gentle breath and stillness and inner knowing within.
If we stop to feel our stillness, we can also recognise how infinite the love God has for us is. It is so easy to trust what our path will be when we come from this knowing stillness.
Great reminder, to be checking in with the body all the time, if not living from what it shows all of the time…those thread of anxiousness, can lay dormant for years, driving behaviour and without connect to them deeply we don’t grow.
A great read Michelle and reminder that trust is needed as that anxiousness you talk of is something I experience to quite a heightened degree, creating worry about the future and how I need to make things pan out, when trust is a much better way to allow things to unfold, committing only to the quality in the way I do things.
This is a deeply beautiful reflection to come back to Michelle, of the ever-presence of God that is within each and every one of us, whenever we choose to surrender to this and accept this. We all are born with what is needed to walk and live Soulfully, as our bodies are our best guide in reflecting the truth to us whenever we choose to listen. Developing an honest relationship with our bodies is vital, as it is through the stillness of our bodies that we can discover the innate wisdom of God that resides within us all, and it is also through our bodies that we can live and breathe wisdom in the world. This beautifully revealed through the power of our breath.
We actually have to be honest, to stop and feel the anxiousness that we ALL carry, and it is from this stopping and feeling that we can start to make the choices that will help us to let go, heal what hold the anxiousness , and feel the love of God within the stillness.
Michelle a beautiful reminder for me this morning of how I bring in anxiousness to avoid feeling my next point of evolution.
Thank you for sharing this powerful reminder Donna as this is something I also recognise I do. I am discovering more and more the beautiful warm embrace of God that is present within when we surrender to Love, of knowing that we are always held in His Love and as such always called to simply be and live all that we are.
Michelle this was beautiful to read this morning ‘I was anxious about letting go of being in control of the direction of my life.’ I can so relate to this sentence and as I read your blog I felt my body begin to surrender. Saying yes to trusting in my connection to God is still a work in progress and for me connecting to my gentle breath and moving in gentleness are a huge support.
This is a wonderful blog Michelle, I am very aware lately of the tension I hold in my body, and can feel that a huge part has to do with accepting and trusting in the connection with God. Letting go of control of life is a big thing and feels as if it is a great step into returning to what we truly are, Divine beings.
Having presented in communities for many years simple techniques of reconnecting with their bodies stillness voices and hearts, the most common re-occurring theme is that when people do stop and feel, how much tension and anxiety is lying just beneath the surface… It really is wonderful to address this because this tension and anxiousness is affecting us all the time.
Thank you Chris for sharing your observations, it’s so true. We all experience tension and anxiousness and the more we are honest about it the more we give ourselves the opportunity to come to understand why this is happening. I have experienced that taking moments to stop, connect to our breath and feel our bodies is a great way to discover what running us in the background.
Great point Chris and then the choices we make often mask how we are feeling so it can be easy to live in a way where we are no longer aware of the anxiousness and as you say its not until we drop that we are able to feel the tension that is there and then let it go.
Thank you Michelle I really loved reading your blog, I too have lived with this anxiousness wanting things to be a certain way , being in control, When I choose these stop moments with the Gentle Breath Meditation I am brought back into stillness, life then has a flow to it and I can feel more clearly the choices I have been making.
This is quite profound Michelle and I love the way you gave yourself space to feel and read into what the anxiety was about. Everything is there for us, to reflect and support what we need to evolve and to understand what is in the way of us living as the true Sons of God we are. Utterly inspiring.
Beautiful words Rachael and so true – ‘Everything is there for us, to reflect and support what we need to evolve and to understand what is in the way of us living as the true Sons of God we are.’ We are a complete Divine package designed for the purpose of allowing the Light of God to shine through.
Doug it’s been an eye opener for me also, such a subtle energy at play that I actually haven’t identified until I read this blog. Very low grade anxiousness, almost undetectable until I realise I have one of the tell tale signs, snacking or feeling the need. I have been working on a project that had me in subtle anxiousness, and I now realise I wasn’t deeply and completely surrendered to trusting myself. I know this is the missing link and as you say ‘ giving over control to God’.
Michelle I have just reread your blog again and it is gold for me, to link it back to a very, very low level of anxiousness. So subtle that I don’t think I would have identified it without reading your experience, it’s is the underlying link that I have been feeling but not quite able to pinpoint and nominate. Once again thank you, your expression has revealed so much.
I so agree merrileepettinato. Michelle’s blog is beautifully revealing about many things, especially about that low-grade anxiousness that is running like a constant base under everything. It is great to have these things named so that we become ever-increasingly conscious of things and states that we were so in, we hardly knew that they were there.
Actually Michelle you have also linked for me, eating and anxiousness. I hadn’t linked a very low level anxiousness as a choice to play smaller, and the indicator for me is I realise I look for a snack. Ah yes the games that play us!
I can relate to this Merrilee, of looking for a snack when I feel anxious.
Totally MW and Merrilee. As I look back I realise that food was one of my biggest medications, and I didn’t see it for a long time because I always took care to eat ‘healthy’ food.
“I was anxious about letting go of being in control of the direction of my life. ” Michelle you have just given me a deeper understanding of the meaning of anxiousness, and being an indicator of the control I still use to direct my life. This was occurring yesterday and I couldn’t work out why anxiousness was there in several situations all of which were asking responses from me. I get it now what …. a great lesson thank you Michelle.
Feeling into our body is a very powerful way to look at what we are really up to.
In our mind we can invent anything, but our body will always tell us the truth.
Ha! I love this Michael. Such simplicity in our bodies, it is what is it – yet our mind can come up with whatever complex concoction to distract or redirect our queries from truth and the simplicity we are from.
And it is so simple isn’t Michael, to simply tune into our bodies, and therein lie the answers.
Love it Michael well said. There is no escaping how in truth we are living as ‘our body will always tell us the truth.’ The mind only leads us to believe that we are. There is much wisdom to be discovered through our bodies.
Yes so true that our bodies will tell us the truth, the other day I was in a situation that I thought I was handling then afterwards I wanted to eat to dull down and not feel what was going on. I ‘thought’ I was okay but my reactions were showing otherwise.
‘I was able to feel how I was actually anxious about surrendering completely to God, to saying yes to trusting in my connection to God and my divine purpose as a Son of God. I was anxious about letting go of being in control of the direction of my life.’ Control has been and sometimes still is a huge thing for me in my life, resulting in lots of headaches and migraines. This is not the case anymore because of getting to know my gentle breath and thus my connection with God but what I felt while reading your blog I can take this deeper as getting anxious is still a very familiar feeling. Thank you for the inspiration to observe my anxiousness to be able to let it go.
Recently I have been experiencing more anxiousness than I have felt in a long time, and I realised that I had taken my connection to me and my breath for granted. It’s like I reached a point that I was comfortable with and cruised along from there, comfortable and happy to be free of old woes. There is no cruising though and there is no stopping as we are always in a cycle. So I feel the anxiousness was the effort it was taking to resist the next step, the next stage of development… because I don’t know what it will be or how it will go. This is a lack of surrender to God as you describe Michelle. It was so worth reading your blog to understand this. Thank you.
The Gentle Breath Meditation has been instrumental in enabling me to reconnect to my inner self, in a matter of minutes, it offers me stillness and through that stillness I am able to feel the true love I have within myself.
Michelle I love the way you have come to the realisation that when you feel the anxiousness in your body, you are making yourself feel smaller when things feel too much, when in truth we are so much more, when we are connected to the all, there is no limitation to our capacity to serve humanity.
‘ In truth, I have been trying to keep myself smaller and less than what I truly am – a Son of God, equal in all love and glory to him.’ – I love what you share here Michelle, letting go of control in my life and has been key to me deepening my relationship with God and feeling the warmth and support that is always there.
Gee, no wonder control is such a plague amongst humanity! It’s what keeps us from feeling the Godliness of who we are. Control feels like the antithesis of trust, trust in all that is and who we are – that we are capable of reading and feeling everything and living a very healing life.
I couldn’t agree more with you Rachael, control really is a plague. We are huge beings, godly beings and yet there is so much control to keep it all in, to keep it human. I’ve had the mental image of control being something that is constantly focused on or a nasty force looming over a person – but it can be subtle too, like how we hold our shoulders while expressing, how we move our body, rub our eyes in a rough manner – that’s controlling and saying ‘you don’t/your eye doesn’t, deserve to be treated with gentleness or respect’.
That’s great Rachel, control is the antithesis of the trust… And we can feel that control all the way through our bodies, and learning to let go of the hold that that control has upon us is definitely the start of starting to really trust.
This is such an important point you make Michelle… ‘It never ceases to amaze me how simple it is to get a sense of clarity when one chooses to be in the gentleness and stillness of one’s breath.’ If we lived by this it would put an end to arguments, From that stillness is not only a sense of clarity, but it is also impossible to hold something against another and impossible to hold onto a stance of ‘being right’. Each of these requires a breath that is NOT gentle, and hence not still either. It is so simple… one has to wonder why we would choose anything else.
Exactly Jenny, and it is precisely that simplicity so confounds the mind that just loves complexity, and is definitely uncomfortable with simplicity and all that it brings
Yes cjames, having that simplicity and gentleness of breath as a base bypasses the usual complications the mind likes to run with… it cuts any potential for argument off at the pass.
I relate to this sentence “Trying to control life has therefore been about making it seem smaller and manageable” – When really who said that life has to be small and manageable, when I am connected I am open to everything coming as and when it needs to.
Michelle on re-reading this blog the meaning of your words ‘Trying to control life has therefore been about making it seem smaller and manageable. In truth, I have been trying to keep myself smaller and less than what I truly am – a Son of God, equal in all love and glory to him.’ dropped deeper. I keep myself small (and in the illusion of being safe and in control) rather than surrendering to the huge glory that I am a big player in. Thank you.
Beautifully said. When we can allow ourselves to fully meet and embrace each moment at our best and not make ourselves smaller, just because we cannot see the outcome. That is a great moment to celebrate ourselves.
Well said hartanne60, it’s much more powerful to realise we make the choice to be small and in that feel the consequences. I like your line “surrendering to the huge glory that I am a big player in”!
You have inspired me to set aside space to stop and connect to God each day Michelle. Thank you.
Me too Leonne, especially when I read this line – “When I make my days about stillness, God and all of me, then nothing is too big; there is no need to go into anxiousness, doubting what I am capable of.” When we are with ourselves and not in doubt, the world is a better place.
This blog Michelle comes as a beautiful reminder for me, as I realise how hard I can make it for myself when I do not make committing to consistently connect to my stillness, part of my everyday.
I agree Giselle… the very simple choice to connect to our stillness and the gentle breath can provide us with an amazing support in our daily lives, in whatever activities we are involved in and whomever we are with.
Its interesting Angela, as for me I find that that still part of me I’ve found feels to be something I know better than almost anything else, so to not consistently connect to it is like leaving part of me behind.
It’s true Angela, I use it at work, before I start a class, at the end of the day and also if I feel I am reacting to what is happening in the classroom. I stop, connect back to my breath. So simple, and such a great tool to observe life.
Dear Michelle for me it was a great support to read your awesome blog. I am too deepening the connection to me. Hence following sentences got me: “I was anxious about letting go of being in control of the direction of my life.” That was exactly what I needed to read and I really can relate to it. Trusting in my connection and surrendering to god in full is now what is needed.
I was really touched by this as it confirms what I have been feeling: “I was able to feel how I was actually anxious about surrendering completely to God, to saying yes to trusting in my connection to God and my divine purpose as a Son of God. I was anxious about letting go of being in control of the direction of my life.”
Accepting myself in full has been and is a fascinating process. A process that makes it become so obvious that what we meet in life is a reflection of how we are and what we create. The more I accept and love me, the easier and more loving my life and relationships have become.
Letting go of control is such a big thing because of the illusion that only we are in control we can have power. The fact is very different: once we let go of control, we will become more powerful than ever before, as we suddenly become truly free.
I can feel the deeper connection I now have with myself through the deeper connection I have with others. This is an awesome reflection and confirmation.
Perfect timing to read this inspiring piece Michelle. I too have kept myself small but by doing this I am limiting myself and the space to simply fly high.
Love your blog Michelle- reminding us of the importance of stop moments throughout our day to reconnect to our loveliness and God, through the gentle breath.
Stillness is like a jewel offering the glory of its preciousness.
Beautiful Donna.
In choosing some anxiousness this week, I have felt to read this blog again to allow me to understand more of what could be behind it. Yes when I try to do it “on my own” there is definitely an anxiousness, to which I need to surrender and to know that I will be supported.
Rediscovering our stillness is extremely precious and freeing as it lets us feel that we are enough just as we are. Such a simple revelation and yet so incredibly profound.
It is so beautiful what you have said here Michael about rediscovering stillness. Before Universal Medicine the idea of stillness would have seemed boring to me. Now it is the very heaven, or the very way to heaven and it is so delicious to simply reside here.
Deeply beautiful to read this Michelle. I love what you have shared about consciously recognising what the anxiousness was about, and finding within yourself a foundational tone of your relationship with God. The body surrendering and accepting, your reconnection to the Stillness within you… all so natural once you came back to letting go control of how things were/are, and just being with the knowing of you first and foremost.
An awesome sharing in this light – what if all humanity engaged in our activity from such a foundation? How amazing that would be!
And yet, here and now, we can be real – deepen this relationship we innately have, accept the imperfections, and lovingly support and remind ourselves that all can be held in His love.
“When I make my days about stillness, God and all of me, then nothing is too big”. How true Michelle. I have had such moments when I feel so completely part of life, so full of joy for everything around me.
It is a fact that when we allow the space to connect deeply to ourselves we feel divinity – we may give it different words like ‘home’, ‘warmth’, ‘space’, ‘god’… If this is our true nature and expression then it makes sense that there would be a tension. Serge has presented on the fact that anxiety comes from us denying the fact that we energetically read everything – we pull in a force so that we don’t feel what it is that we are reading.. this makes sense and I can feel in my own life how anxiety is actually just a distraction from a deeper truth and tension that I am not wanting to feel – like in your case Michelle when you stopped and felt more deeply through the anxiety that you needed to feel how you were keeping God at arms reach and not fully embracing yourself as a Son of God. This is something we can all relate to…
How powerful: stillness and connecting to the God within dispels anxiousness.
‘When I make my days about stillness, God and all of me, then nothing is too big’ Michelle an amazing confirmation and reflection for us all.
Feeling my tight shoulders and stiff back have become constant reminders that this is accumulated anxiousness – and all I need to do is remain with the stillness – what a blessing and I too wonder why I don’t just want to stay with that stillness when it is such a beloved space to be in, whereas the amount of effort I use to resist it is exhausting me.
“When I make my days about stillness, God and all of me, then nothing is too big; there is no need to go into anxiousness, doubting what I am capable of. My days are simpler, fuller, joyous, and my connection to God is felt within and reflected in everything around me.” This is so beautifully expressed Michelle, the one and the oneness in equal union.
I really wonder what stops me from making this very simple choice that I already know I would very much benefit from.
Yes, Fumiyo, I am wondering the same thing – in my head it feels like a simple choice and yet when I feel my body I can feel all the resistance. As Michelle suggests, it feels like I am not willing to let go of the control that is the illusion that keeps me from surrendering.
This blog has been a great help to me as I also at times, have anxiousness in my body that is caused,or is a bi-product of not connecting to the light that I am. Making time to connect to that stillness is an essential part of my day.
Hmm I have been travelling with anxiousness for most of my life, this body has only really known that state of being. To return to a stillness of sorts I would use substances and drinks to calm everything down and interrupt the racing state of mind that ruled me. Having sought and found the wisdom of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine – I recognise in me a shift that has certainly allowed me to be more honest about how I am in my every day. Am I still all of the time? No not at all. Is this a constant work in progress? Yes it is and day-by-day I can feel the shifts starting to build a new foundation.
Before I read this blog for the first time a few weeks ago I did`t feel anxiousness in me at all, but I realized that I am a person with a high level of control. I started feeling into that deeply and tried to let go of control in different parts of my life. Then it was there… a deep and huge feeling of anxiousness, which I also felt very often in my dreams in the last weeks. I know that it is already there very long and I can hardly believe that I did not feel that before. I set up a perfect system of patterns that helped me to not feel my anxiousness without even noticing it. Feels somewhat crazy..
The stillness will let us feel that there is nothing to do or reach and that we are enough just as we are. A massive change for many as often life is only made about gaining more and more and more.
We all have anxiousness and tension and it is great… revealing , but great … to realise and understand this because then we have the opportunity to let go, and until then , we are simply holding on to the tightness, in the vain hope that it protects us.
Agreed cjames2012. We ‘think’ we need the tension, the tightness… but we don’t.
One big and lovely confirming “AHHH” on that!
Thank you Michelle for your beautiful blog. I loved what you shared here: “It never ceases to amaze me how simple it is to get a sense of clarity when one chooses to be in the gentleness and stillness of one’s breath”. This has been my experience more so over the last few months through my commitment to connect more deeply to stillness. I discovered that when I come from a place of stillness, there is pure clarity and lightness in all that needs to be done. I also felt how my commitment to life is the highest when I remain connected to that quality of delicateness and tenderness I truly am. In stillness I feel truly connected to God and to the whole of humanity and there is true purpose in all that I bring.
Michelle i simply love rereading your blog and will do many more time. What caught me this times: “Trying to control life has therefore been about making it seem smaller and manageable. In truth, I have been trying to keep myself smaller and less than what I truly am – a Son of God, equal in all love and glory to him.”
Michelle, thank you for this truly inspiring blog. It is a great reminder to make each day, each moment even, about stillness. As you say, “when I make my days about stillness, God and all of me, then nothing is too big; there is no need to go into anxiousness, doubting what I am capable of. My days are simpler, fuller, joyous, and my connection to God is felt within and reflected in everything around me”, and the beauty is that this is our natural way to live.
Yes Anne, a stunning beauty indeed, it boggles my mind how I could spend even one day without that stillness.
“I was able to feel how I was actually anxious about surrendering completely to God, to saying yes to trusting in my connection to God and my divine purpose as a Son of God. I was anxious about letting go of being in control of the direction of my life.” I can feel this is a very deep awareness to realise. Thank you.
I was able to feel how I was actually anxious about surrendering completely to God, to saying yes to trusting in my connection to God and my divine purpose as a Son of God. I was anxious about letting go of being in control of the direction of my life. Powerful to read this for the truth it presents on many levels. Thankyou for sharing such an insightful blog Michelle.
I love the ‘stop’ moment you talk about making sure you have. Even the simple things like feeling the wind brush against your skin, is a moment that brings you back to the body, a moment to stop and connect and feel your presence in the world.. These moments do make such a difference in the way you live in the whole day.
Being finely attuned to the body offers so much wisdom and guidance. The simplest little thing has the power to offer so much love, if we choose to take the time to notice. Sometimes the way we look at what is happening around us and within us comes from a belief that we are not enough and so anxiousness arises and separation happens. If we see what is happening through the lens of being all we are, a Son of God, then what is happening becomes a letter from God in loving support of us. Your loving blog has allowed one of those moments – the opening of a loving letter from God – Thank you Michelle.
“When I make my days about stillness, God and all of me, then nothing is too big”. I love the truth of this expression. Reading it I feel the simple joy and expansion that is available when I choose to surrender to my heart connection with God first.
I love what I offer and share in my workplace, walking down the road, being served in a store etc. by simply being in my stillness, being with me.
And what a gift this is Marcia, and one we each have the ability to offer one another simply by connecting to the divine stillness that resides within and expressing this quality in our everyday. No effort, just simply a surrender.
“It never ceases to amaze me how simple it is to get a sense of clarity when one chooses to be in the gentleness and stillness of one’s breath.” This is very true, Michelle. Yet I often forget it in the day-to-day action of the day. There are so many touch points that we can put into our days, and so many ways that we can reconnect with ourselves.
I am finding that I often have a plan or a picture of what my life should look like or what should be occurring around me and there is a underlying tension, almost a ‘holding my breath’ kind of feeling as I wait to see if my expectation turns out the way I want it to or not. Add to that the fact that I pedal like mad to try to keep this band wagon on the road going in the direction I think it should go. How exhausting is that?! Letting go of this control is still something I find challenging to do at times but I know that when I am truly surrendered to the stillness within me, it stops the picture forming habit.
I use to be “anxious about letting go of being in control of the direction of my life.”, but once I let that go, by calling the anxiousness out, my body started to become lighter, the hardness started to fade and I began to feel the stillness in my body and my connection with God. God is always within us, it’s allowing that stillness, to be able to feel the connection.
Thank you Amita; it is that simple, all we have to do is to allow the stillness out because the stillness within is who we are and is always there.
I find regularly, especially at certain times of the lunar cycle, I am able to very much relate: “It never ceases to amaze me how simple it is to get a sense of clarity when one chooses to be in the gentleness and stillness of one’s breath.” I find a period of time spent in this space magnifies the clarity, whereby I bring-it-out, into my day and work. There’s nothing more satisfying than this; no amount of money or no other person can bring this to me.
It is revealing how we can think we are not running on any anxiousness, but then actually feel this when you have a session with an esoteric practitioner. Even a low level of it, is enough to put the body in that ‘fight or flight’ response, which is draining if it is there all the time. It’s like having a bucket with a hair line crack in it, leaking water… our body is in that fight or flight response – draining energy – even with a small amount of anxiousness happening. This just demonstrates how important and great medicine it is for us to have body awareness and even regular esoteric healing sessions.
Having just spent the day surrendering at livingness 2 , I can feel a flow and grace in my body. The anxiousness I have been feeling and choosing rather then my relationship with God is no longer there as a background hum.
The choice is ours in each minute of every day!
We are not the anxiousness we feel in our bodies, but by choosing not to connect to the love and stillness within we choose to allow something in that does not truly belong and sadly is now accepted as quite normal.
I love how you described your commitment to `stop` and surrender to God, Michael in these moments we return Home. Thank you.
Committing to a regular ‘stop’ and surrender to God is a powerful tool to build our relation with God and to learn what it actually is to truly surrender. This is the true power of living the esoteric in everything that we are and where we find the commitment to go this way and make it about living with our inner most, our connection with God as the main purpose of our life.
Stopping and surrendering is the simplest and most profound gift in the day for me, a constant reminder to ‘let go and let God’. We don’t have to have all the answers or be able to do it all, when our job is just to stay connected through our breath to the fact that we are divine.
Hear, hear janetwilliams06, If I ever feel a tension building, such a stop – and it may only be for a moment – is the most precious thing. In it, I am reminded of how precious I am. I can appreciate my dedication, commitment, application of the wisdom I know in life… and yet ensure that there need be no ‘pressure on’.
Taking a moment right now – inspired by your words, thank-you!
Gorgeous reminder Janetwilliams06, we do not have to have all the answers, we do not need to be perfect, and we do not need to ‘fit in’, because when we stay connected to divinity, we are already a perfect fit.
I read your comment janetwilliams06 and there was a sigh of recognition. Of course I don’t have to do it all or know all the answers. Thanks for that reminder as I can still get caught up in thinking the reverse. I love your expression ‘let go and let God’.
When we allow ourselves to feel the stillness within, it simply exposes the anxiety and nervous tension we have. It is amazing how simple it is really! Just how God operates 🙂
Exactly robynjones11, in stillness anxiousness is exposed, in exposure it loses its hold over us, in the steadiness of our stillness it ceases be.
I agree Giselle, because in the steadiness of our stillness there is no room for anxiety. This has certainly been my experience.
Yes Giselle and robynjones 11, surrendering to stillness as the antidote to anxiousness, another tool in my kit.
This is beautiful and true, when we make our day about stillness and our connection to God, there is no anxiousness, nothing is too big. The inner power and beauty creates space and clarity , no space for doubts or uncertainty.
Beautifully shared Amita – it just is.
So beautifully expressed Michelle. Thank you for sharing.
Michelle I felt strongly pulled towards this brilliant blog today as I too have been made aware that I have had an underlying layer of anxiousness I had not yet felt until very recently when I had a session with an Esoteric Practitioner. It’s just another layer for us to be aware of and continue to choose our own loving connection to God and the inner stillness we all hold. Thank you.
I am also becoming aware of deeper layers of anxiousness, which I sometimes don’t want to feel, yet like you share it just shows that I can go deeper with my connection to myself, to God and my inner stillness.
“Trying to control life has therefore been about making it seem smaller and manageable.” These words Michelle, really stood out for me. I can feel how sometimes I tighten everything I have to do into a box trying to keep a handle on it all. In this I just create the tension. This form of control of mine comes from me not connecting with my breath which would allow me to feel from my body which activities are priorities and which are not.
It’s amazing how our gentle breath connects us with space which then allows us to feel what our body is showing us. Your article Michelle, reminded me to feel my breath allowing it to be gentle to caress my body and I could feel the anxiousness running. Now all I need to do is surrender in my body with the support of my gentle breath and I can move through the anxiousness back to me, free of the tension.
Sometimes I don’t realise how much anxiousness I have running though my body until I go for a session with an Esoteric Practitioner. Sessions usually bring me right back to my true energy which is so gorgeous to feel.
There will always be things that happen in our daily life which affect our connection to God, but it is reassuring to know that by using the gentle breath we can regain that connection.
It is something important to remember Peter that we are not designed to be perfect and so there is no point setting out to be otherwise we just set ourselves up to fail. It is great to have tools such as the Gentle Breath Meditation (https://www.universalmedicine.co.uk/services/free-audio-library/gentle-breath-meditation) to bring ourselves back.
Couldn’t agree more Peter and James. Through the work and absolute dedication of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, we have been given all the tools we could ever need to return to our connection with ourselves, with God (if we have lost our way), and also build, foster and nurture that connection in our everyday lives.
Absolute gold – we have the Ageless Wisdom on tap!
I had such a limited vision of myself and my life and I spent most of my life trying to control life to make it fit into this picture. It wasn’t until I went to a Universal Medicine presentation that I considered that I was so much more than how I look, or what I do. I now understand that connection is everything.
The picture you describe here nicolesjardin is so restrictive when we begin to realise just how grand we really are. It feels so good to discard these tiny pictures and open up to the grand canvas that is awaiting us.
It has to be experienced to be known; the very fact you’ve said it (and I agree wholeheartedly), is a simply profound and gorgeous thing: “I now understand that connection is everything.”
Gorgeous nicolesjardin and Oliver, the connection with ourselves, with our own divinity is indeed everything!
I am learning that if I make that connection my foundation – no excuses, even if I have a full workload, and a lot of things up in the air – coming back to that connection and putting things in my day that I know support that – helps me realise that I am so much more that what you see.
Beautifully said. We are lost without connection, and we know it. Our bodies suffer, WE suffer. Surely nothing is worth us negating our foundational relationship with God, and connecting with our knowing of Him in our every day.
Love the sharings here – so deeply confirming of this 🙂
Me too nicolesjardin, connection is indeed everything and your comment really resonated with me as when I read this blog I could feel how much I can still go into wanting to control things, to have things be a certain way and that I do not fully trust God, it’s changing slowly but there are still times when I go into the anxiousness that Michelle talks of. I know when I let go, I am indeed so much more than I know, and life just flows, so time to stop and feel where I am and how I can support myself to stay connected with me.
“When I make my days about stillness, God and all of me, then nothing is too big; there is no need to go into anxiousness, doubting what I am capable of. My days are simpler, fuller, joyous, and my connection to God is felt within and reflected in everything around me.“ This blog inspired me to deepen my connection with God, thank you Michelle.
So many people live in anxiousness they are not even aware they are, I feel it has become an almost accepted way of living in our fast paced lives.
“My re-connection back to God and the stillness within me has been inspired by Serge Benhayon through his own living and sharing of an unwavering connection to God in every moment”.
What you have written here is very inspirational Michelle, as is Serge Benhayon
Surrendering to God, I also carry some anxiousness and hardness around this; certainly a challenge and a work in progress.
When I completely surrender to God and totally let him in and express him out, I have a much greater depth to let the whole world in.
I am learning to appreciate anxiousness or any tension that the body feels, as it is an immediate reminder that signals I have left the connection with myself and with God. What an opportunity to then go back and ask myself what was the belief that has allowed this to happen and to be honest about it.
I recently come aware of the fact that most people run with a moderate level of anxiousness and nervous tension to try and cope. Most people don’t realise that this anxiety is because of our lack of connection with ourselves, let alone how to re-connect. We are all so fortunate to have access to these modalities and teachings to know the way out of this.
The point you make Michelle about surrendering to God completely is a point of tension for many my self included. The reality is having subscribed so earnestly to the false way of being I have distorted truth and now see that which is love as a difficult thing! Divinity is me – simply me. Letting the anxiousness go is part of the deepening and accepting of myself as divine.
Sometimes when I breathe out it feels like God is breathing in and vice versa. There are times when I watch trees and I can feel them emanating joy and aliveness. That feels like God to me.
Yes, Jinya, connecting with nature is a great way to feel God all around us, within a natural order that is all-encompassing and pulsating with life. When we feel this, there can be no struggle or anxiousness, only joy.
I keep re-reading this line, as it speaks volumes – “When I make my days about stillness, God and all of me, then nothing is too big”. It challenges me to accept that life really can be that simple, and that we can ‘let go and let God’. There is a part of me that still goes but, but, but…, however this is not so strong anymore, and each time I feel the anxiousness arise is an opportunity to deepen my relationship with God inside and all around me.
“It never ceases to amaze me how simple it is to get a sense of clarity when one chooses to be in the gentleness and stillness of one’s breath“
This is also what I experience Michelle. We only need to stop and reconnect to our breath and tenderness and then everything is there for us.
There is no part of our soul that is anxious about surrendering to God and divine will. This is just way it is meant to be, in rhythm with each other, nature and God. It is only our spirit which has separated from the soul that is kicking and fighting, as it knows that it doesn’t exist as a separate entity when we surrender.
Well said Fiona!
So true Fiona, and it was this distinction of the difference between Spirit and the Soul, that was for me the no.1 question I had, answered by Serge Benhayon.
This was beautiful to read Michelle, I can feel how simple it is just to make a choice to stop and feel our stillness and our connection to God, and also how powerful that is. It also makes it quite clear that is then also our choice to go into anxiousness and to make ourselves small. Very inspiring Michelle, I shall remind myself of this next time I go into anxiousness!
“I was able to feel how I was actually anxious about surrendering completely to God, to saying yes to trusting in my connection to God and my divine purpose as a Son of God. I was anxious about letting go of being in control of the direction of my life.“
I have observed myself how much i avoid to stop and become still, surrender and avoiding therefore to surrender and be with God. If i do the connection is very strong.
And it feels he is so patient with us and just waits for us to choose to be with him.
Michelle this blog has many layers to it and this one jumped out at me as I know this true for myself as well – “Trying to control life has therefore been about making it seem smaller and manageable” – in this contracted state of being you can’t see past the hills to the horizon. There is so much spaciousness by being the simple, divine scared beings that we are that when we are in this connection it is impossible to try and control life, life just is.
Everything thing we need we have, we just have to connect to ourselves and stillness. It’s so simple but powerful at the same time. Great blog.
I like your comment,’making my day about stillness’. I’d not previously thought of my connection to myself like that, but it’s a great priority to focus on. I’m going to start tomorrow morning.
Michelle re-reading your blog and letting myself feel about the letting go and surrounding I can also feel an underlying anxiousness or holding. What you raise hits the mark as I also experience that as soon as I be honest about why I am anxious, by allowing myself a moment to stop and feel rather than carry on hoping it will go away, my body relaxes as I’m no longer fighting against myself. Yet this is not one choice but something I find I have to keep choosing as there are always things in the world that feel horrible – if I am honest with this whilst they still feel horrible the anxiousness is not there and I feel much more still with myself. A great blog for reflecting on.
So true David – for me also it is a choice that at the moment I need to keep choosing, to let go of achieving outcomes and control and feel what I am holding in my body.
I agree Michael and David. It’s a choice, yet also I can feel an ‘alignment’ if you will – to that which is ever-there, the Stillness and true essential being that I am, within.
To be embracing this in daily ‘activity’ is something to most definitely celebrate – with no need for perfection, but as you’ve described, a willingness to be aware of what’s going on for us. The most tremendous difference is made through this – not only for ourselves, but everyone we interact with.
Wow what an epic blog, it has really shown me how far I have to go in my relationship with God and the trust that he is always there. There are moments when I absolutely cannot deny it, but this is not the norm from moment to moment, definitely something to work on. I love that you have put little rituals into your day to support this relationship.
Michelle- I love your honesty and beautiful sharing about your relationship with God. I could totally relate to you. I too at times “find it difficult to fully accept and appreciate God in my life – yet he accepts me unconditionally! I am slowly but surely learning to accept that I am a Son of God and I can reflect his love every day”. When I feel the divine beauty and love that I am within- from doing esoteric yoga in the mornings I am then reminded of the magic of God’s connection, and who I am, reflected my nature around me eg a beautiful fluffy white feather appearing out of nowhere.
That feeling you describe of anxiousness in letting go of the control of life and letting God in is one that I can feel is a biggie, Michelle. Or, to put it more honestly, it is one that I can feel I am holding onto as a big deal. The choice itself is not hard, but there is an identity there with knowing what to do next, making my own decisions, etc. etc. etc.
But the truth is that the decisions I make are all based on two choices: to be with myself (and therefore God), or to not be with myself (and therefore not God).
You have said a lot in so few words here Naren. How much we can fight ourselves, our true selves – caught in needing to ‘do’ things to prove ourselves, wilful choices to self-abuse through over work, or whatever it may be… When the choice is always there.
Just writing now, I can feel the Stillness within me in a way I’ve not fully felt before – the presence of something deeply special, ‘me’, even whilst I am in ‘activity’… It feels soulful and beautiful. I have for sure, not allowed this to be my guiding light in full.
There is so much for us all to embrace here, if we truly allow the moment to stop and reconnect to that which we are.
Beautiful, Victoria. The beautifully divine paradox of stillness in action. It is such a counter to the cliche image of finding one’s self sitting in quiet contemplation in a cave somewhere. Divinity is in living the divine every day in our everyday.
Couldn’t agree more Naren. Undoubtedly, I’ve done my share of ‘cave sitting’… yet know now today, via the Grace of the work of Universal Medicine, that it is possible to remain with oneself in daily life and all its activities.
This experience is a complete game changer… as you say, the “beautifully divine paradox of stillness in motion”. Or is it simply true life, rather than a paradox – it’s just that our minds have wrestled with this so…
I am amazed at how much the gentle breath can ease so much tension. I find it particularly helpful if I am starting to get wound up about something. By refocusing my mind on my breathe it has a very calming and stilling affect.
Yes, well said shevonsimon. We have all the tools to bring ourselves back, and the breath is always there reminding us that we live within the body of God.
It is very powerful to feel how your moments of reconnection to feel your stillness and God inside is always a very very simple choice and is always with you all of the time. God is really not that far away even in the moments we feel so deeply disconnected from him.
So true Joshua and I am glad I read this blog this morning to be reminded of the fact that it is a simple choice to connect with myself and God or not.
“I was able to feel how I was actually anxious about surrendering completely to God, to saying yes to trusting in my connection to God and my divine purpose as a Son of God. I was anxious about letting go of being in control of the direction of my life.” I can relate to this anxiety with letting go of control. I know I can surrender though as I am not really in control anyway no matter how I try. I am just in control of how I respond to life and the quality that I choose to live by.
‘It never ceases to amaze me how simple it is to get a sense of clarity when one chooses to be in the gentleness and stillness of one’s breath.’ Thank you Michelle, it truly is that simple.
I loved this line – “I am slowly but surely learning to accept that I am a Son of God and I can reflect his love every day.” it is something I have only recently been able to really say to myself and mean. In the past I could ‘say it’ but didn’t really feel it from within. This is an ongoing unfolding, to feel that more and more each day.
Priceless wisdom Michelle, with stillness, God and being present, anxiousness doesn’t stand a chance. Its when that connection is lost that it will always be at the ready to come flooding back in.
‘I was able to feel how I was actually anxious about surrendering completely to God, to saying yes to trusting in my connection to God and my divine purpose as a Son of God. I was anxious about letting go of being in control of the direction of my life.’ Today this sentence caught my eye as I know about the control of the direction of my life as well. I was asking myself what does this mean for me to think I am in control of the direction of my life and how truly does this play out in my day to day life?
Everything you have said I have found to be absolutely true Liane, ‘Know who you are and by virtue of this, you will know who you are not’.. If we can start from this one true choice, to be all of who we are and live this, then anything that is not a part of that fullness will seen and understood as being not from God and thus part of the illusion of the existence we are living in here on earth. Learning to hold steady in that fullness allows even greater love to be and the whole world can lift as there now is a reflection for all to know who they truly are.
Until I came across Universal Medicine I did not even hold it as a possibility to have such an open, equal and empowering relationship with God. I mainly thought of God in religious gatherings, and I noticed most religions put him on such a pedestal and prescribed such judgmental attitudes to him that a relationship with him became distinctly disempowering, in fact at some stage I even found the painted picture of him quite scary! It has been a real gift for me to be reminded that my connection to God is and has always been from within myself, and a blessing to let go of all those misguided ideas that kept me well away from him. I like your suggestion to make a commitment to stop at least once each day and “make time to connect with my breath and my body; to the stillness and sacredness that is naturally within me”, this seems a great way to reconnect to the wisdom of our body, and deepen our connection with God.
The other thing that came up for me is that I need to reflect deeper on what is causing the tension even though I strongly suspect that it is, as you have shared, “anxious about completely surrendering to God, to saying yes to trusting in my connection to God and my divine purpose as a Son of God, anxious about letting go of being in control of the direction of my life.”
On reflection I can feel that even though outwardly I appear to be very calm and ‘together’ there is a low level of tension always present inside my body. Nothing that can’t be changed with a good dose of stillness and connection to God and me!
I’m returning to this beautiful blog today as I can feel anxiousness in my body about how I will be accepted at work after having made some significant changes within myself on a long weekend. It feels like an anxiety around being able to hold what I know absolutely is true…it also feels crazy and as I write this comment, I can feel the mental energy subsiding and my truth returning. My truth, like yours Michelle, is, “When I make my days about stillness, God and all of me, then nothing is too big; there is no need to go into anxiousness, doubting what I am capable of.”
I am taking that confirmation forward into my day as inspiration…thank you 🙂
I love re-reading your blog Michelle. “When I make my days about stillness, God and all of me, then nothing is too big; there is no need to go into anxiousness, doubting what I am capable of. My days are simpler, fuller, joyous, and my connection to God is felt within and reflected in everything around me.” Beautiful.
I’ve never really consciously choose to feel my profound Relationship with the Divine and God. As if I accepted (with my mind, at cost of my body) that I cannot Live that Divineness here on earth. That it is not accepted and so I can’t live it. As if I am at the mercy of others. I know that this is not True and at times I experience that it is not True. But on so many occasions it clearly feels as this being the Truth or at least my truth. I love how you’ve dispelled in detail how you returned to the surrendering. And by addressing the anxiousness you were able to surrender.
“This ‘stop’ has now become part of my daily ritual, a powerful way to surrender and reconnect to the wisdom of my body, and the wisdom and presence of God.” Wow Thank you Michellle to ‘Stop’ is so powerful and it reminds me of my dream last night where I was going round and round in circles and eventually knew I just had to stop and stop I did! How often can we keep going with overriding our bodies, ignoring the innate wisdom our body is always communicating to us with?!
Yes Samantha and Michelle to ‘Stop’ is so powerful and yet so simple – and the most amazing way to connect back to ourselves and observe what we have been truly at.
Having spent an awesome 3 days on a Retreat with Chris James in Frome this weekend, the feeling of stillness has developed to a much deeper level within my body. I intend to honour this new marker, thank you Chris and thank you Michelle.
I could feel a surrender in my body too Michelle when I read this sentence. ‘I was anxious about letting go of being in control of the direction of my life.’ I realised how I set myself up to be in control and so much of life is set up in control mode as well. Naming it and seeing control for the tension maker that it is, is a healing in itself!
Very true bernadetteglass, being able to see and call out how going into control can affect us is very healing, and it feels to me like letting go of control is a big step towards connecting with God and all the qualities that are equally within us.
Thank you for this beautiful sharing, Michelle. I can relate to what you say here: “I was able to feel how I was actually anxious about surrendering completely to God, to saying yes to trusting in my connection to God and my divine purpose as a Son of God. I was anxious about letting go of being in control of the direction of my life.” Beautiful how you have committed to stop each day and take time to connect with your breath and your body. I am very inspired to do the same…
I so loved reading your blog Michele – co-incidently quite timely I would say and very relevant. The words that particularly stood out for me today were “I was able to feel how I was actually anxious about surrendering completely to God, to saying yes to my trusting in my connection to God and my divine purpose as a Son of God.” Thank you.
Michelle, this blog resonated with me. I love this line: ‘When I make my days about stillness, God and all of me, then nothing is too big; there is no need to go into anxiousness, doubting what I am capable of.’ Days like this I feel so expansive and around everything that nothing can overwhelm me, such a contrast to the days when I try to control my life so it seems ‘manageable’. When I do this there’s a sense of burden from the belief that I have to do it all on my own. When I surrender and trust my connection to God it feels as if everything gets done with God and in harmony with other people, there is no sense of my self doing something for itself and therefore no anxiousness as I am present with my body and taking action from there. It’s an active stillness where I am poised ready for action and not afraid to commit.
In this space there is a deep knowing that things will unfold according to divine timing.
Beautiful……things will unfold according to divine timing. Taking a big deep breath while I write this…letting go….there is a timing for everything.
‘Trying to control life has therefore been about making it seem smaller and manageable. In truth, I have been trying to keep myself smaller and less than what I truly am – a Son of God, equal in all love and glory to him.’ Michelle, when I read this sentence today I had such a wow moment as I could feel all the ways I choose to sabotage myself to not feel the fullness of me and my connection to God. Meanwhile God is patiently waiting! I am inspired to commit more deeply to stillness throughout my day. Thank you.
What a great reminder to stop and take the time to be with ourselves, to drop into our bodies and connect to the deep stillness that is within us. I know that the Gentle Breath Meditation is super supportive and confirms who I am and why I am here… to be me in all that I do. Not bring all of what is outside of me into my being to create dis-harmony.
I agree “When I make my days about stillness, God and all of me, then nothing is too big;” and also I feel I expand, in authority, in love, in my scope and expression when I connect with that stillness which is within my and all around me.
I like the way you bring in the word ‘authority’ here, Samantha. When I feel connected to my essence and to God everything is known and felt, but when I loose that, the doubts come in and what is not true in the world seems to become louder and more imposing. When we disconnect from the love that is there all the time, it is no wonder that we become anxious and unsure of how to navigate through life. Yet there is no greater authority than when we feel love in every cell of our body. The choice is ours…
Reading what you have written her Janet, I get the image of a person out at sea, being battered and thrown around by the waves. This is what anxiousness feels like, lost and drifting in an unknown sea. And then presence, being in and with our body is like standing on land, 2 feet on the ground, solid and steady, knowing each step that is being taken.
Yes I forget that I am walking with God at my side every moment of the day. Thanks Samantha for the reminder. Today I will walk with “God and all of me”. And I will walk with him tomorrow as well as the next day and the next…..
With your sharing, Michelle, you showed me a key, I am just searching for, summed up in the sentence: “Trying to control life has therefore been about making it seem smaller and manageable. In truth, I have been trying to keep myself smaller and less than what I truly am – a Son of God, equal in all love and glory to him.” I also know the tension and anxiety going alongside with trying to control my life, when I don’t feel fully equipped to deal with it. To truly connect equally to God means at the same time truly connecting to me and open up to be held and supported in every moment. I feel that I always have refused to be “a Son of God, equal, in love and glory to him” and within refused to be in connection with the divine part in me, that is able to just let life unfold without the requirement of control. Thank you so much for this breaking through the egg-shell-help for me…
A beautiful reminder to make the time to have stop moments throughout my day – thank you Michelle.
And more to the point, whilst stop moments are important for us to check in with ourselves, what if life is such that we cannot take a stop during the day, for that is surely the case for many. What if we lived instead with the knowingness of our connection in all that we did, that all our movements were done in the grace of stillness? Would we still need as many stop moments to re-connect? This is not to understate the importance of having moments to regather ourselves during the day. If our life is hectic, or if we find ourselves getting caught in the momentum of the day, such moments are super important. But if we end up relying on those moments to keep us connected, what is that saying to us about the way we live the rest of the time? Connection is our life-blood, our source of energy, and so it is most interesting that as human beings we do not give much awareness to what is giving us the energy to get through the day. Enter the teachings of Universal Medicine…
Brilliant question Adam Warburton – ‘What if we lived instead with the knowingness of our connection in all that we did, that all our movements were done in the grace of stillness?’ Choosing that which supports stillness to be our constant.
There is a relationship that is beginning to blossom. Even though this relationship between me and God has always been there, as it is with everyone, it is evolving. The subtleties are much more obvious, the signs are brighter and the activity is clear. The more I connect to the love within me, it is hard to deny what is now becoming absolute in his presence and a relationship that is both exquisitely delicate and powerful.
Michelle I truly believe that the vast majority of the world’s population live with anxiousness and probably most aren’t aware of it as it has become their default setting. My anxiety became so bad that I needed support for it. Even though I had known that I had had bad anxiety I had thought that it was in bouts throughout the day but when I became anxiety free I realised that I had been living with it constantly.
Agree Alexis Stewart you make a really valid point, we don’t know how something affects us until we become honest, and for a lot of us honesty is a big deal and where we tend to cover it (up) with convenient excuses like: “i work better, or produce more results under stress” for example. When we pull back this falsity of excuse we start to see. Which allows us to not only see it in others, but also much more within ourselves too, similar to your realisation of having been living constantly with anxiety.
Anxiety is a epidemic in the world today, and one that many accept as a ‘normal’ part of everyday life.
Jenny, where I have been working in the past, the majority of clients are medicated for anxiety. They don’t question at all their anxiety, and neither do their medical practitioners, but just put them on medications to control it. The epidemic will only continue while so many accept anxiety as a ‘normal’ part of life, when it is not natural to who we are.
One of the greatest ways to hide anxiety is to live off nervous tension. Coffee, sugar, constant deadlines – all of these help to keep us moving and distracted from the uncomfortable tension that inevitably arises when we take a moment to be still.
Yes so true Adam. I remember years ago reading something about stopping and being present and still so I put some pasta on for 10-12 minutes and decided to sit on the couch and not do anything for that time. Oh my how interesting was that – I was like back in school in detention, wriggling, squirming and then the tears came and a I cried. And I remember thinking no wonder people don’t want take a stop moment – they don’t want to feel the momentum in which they are living their lives. I am glad that I have decided to look at the momentum because if I didn’t and kept myself busy, I would have got seriously sick FOR SURE.
Agreed Adam. And the thing is, there may be a little to let go when we do stop, as Sarah has shared. But underneath, is there not the beauty of ourselves – the Still and natural nature of who we are.
I’ve learnt in my life, that this ever-awaits within. It don’t go nowhere!
It’s simply up to us to say ‘yes’ to it, and foster such a true and potent relationship with ourselves.
Great point Alexis, “I work better under stress,” Coffee, sugar, alcohol, help me control it or so we’ve been told. I wonder if they are more than half of the problem.
I recognise this attitude, that stress is part of normal life and helps to get things done, but what is the end result of that state in the body? With a constant flight or fight mode kicked in, and the stimulants there to avoid the inevitable exhaustion, then it is a perfect recipe for the health crisis that we are facing today.
The other day I was sleeping during the day, just having a short cat-nap and I became so still and completely ‘warm and fuzzy’ so-to-speak, it felt breath-taking. When I woke and shared with my girlfriend what this felt like, the only way I could describe it was to say: ‘I felt like it was to be God’. Oh how the stillness we are, is available, if we choose to foster this quality!
I have felt this also Oliver, and how exquisite it is along with feeling this connection while I work. It is such an amazing understanding that we are God in this moment and I am enjoying building on this to be my every moment.
Haha this also happened to me the other week when I too had a sleep in the day to support me and my body. I felt exactly the same: warm, fuzzy and completely with God. The divineness which is possible, but it is our choice to connect to and hold or not.
I remember Oliver, once I woke in the middle of the night aware of the exquisite stillness I was in connection with. As I moved my body to roll over the stillness was so still and quiet, if I had been lying in an ocean of water there would not have been one ripple from the move. At the time I thought…this is how it must feel for Serge (Benhayon) when he moves his body… I knew at that point that I was the same as Serge and had the potential to make the same choices. I’m yet to commit to that in full, but maybe it’s only a breath away….
I love how your this feels to read, and the loving supportive foundation it is: “When I make my days about stillness, God and all of me, then nothing is too big; there is no need to go into anxiousness, doubting what I am capable of. My days are simpler, fuller, joyous, and my connection to God is felt within and reflected in everything around me.
Thank you Michelle for sharing a truly beautiful and inspiring blog. I am at the moment gaining a deeper insight into the anxiousness I am feel in my body from time to time, I am learning to let go more and trust, and connect to the deep love of God that resides within me.
Michelle I totally get what you are sharing here. The control that you speak of and not truly surrendering to the Son of God that I am, that I have felt and is becoming stronger – the more I accept it in full, all of the time, I get to feel that this is actually my natural quality to be living my life in. Those behaviours and habits that I have lived for so long are breaking and falling away and it feels super freeing being All of who I AM. The gentle breath is an amazing tool and support for deepening this connect and I am forever grateful to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine for introducing such a simple, powerful yet profound technique.
I have felt anxiousness in my body like a juddering that comes from deep inside, it affects my breathing and the thought processes that I have. I find that I am not able to get anywhere fast enough or sit still due to the fear that is racing through my body. Anxiousness is, for me, a terrible state of being and I always used to think it was something that happened to me, until I realised that it is actually something that I choose – mainly as a way to protect my self and to not have to take responsibility for myself in any given situation.
Thank you Michelle – there are a lot of jewels in what you have written. The first one that stands out is in the power of nomination. It never ceases to amaze me how when I stop and connect I actually know exactly what is going on and as soon as I nominate it I am freed from the imposing energy. It never fails to work. However the next step is to actually LIVE what I have now understood because even though I may have understood it, it has not yet become the EXPERIENCE of my body which may have had a life time of living the opposite!
When I became aware of the anxiety I was living with I had to come to terms with the fact that I was choosing the anxiety as a way to avoid my awareness. I could hide in the anxiety and it served me in that way. When I chose to let it go, I had to accept more of myself and my levels of awareness.
I keep coming back to this blog as I just love what you have shared it is so touching and inspiring, breath and surrender.
I have enjoyed feeling the surrender in your blog Michelle. very inspiring, thank you.
Thank you for this beautiful blog Michelle. ‘I was able to feel how I was actually anxious about surrendering completely to God, to saying yes to trusting in my connection to God and my divine purpose as a Son of God. I was anxious about letting go of being in control of the direction of my life.’ This makes a lot of sense to me. Choosing anxiousness gives me the ticket to escape my connection with God. The stillness and gentleness that I feel when I connect to the breath also never fails to amaze me. I am inspired by your blog to honour this more by appreciating the moments I take to connect in the day and by really feeling the impact on how I connect with others, the qualities I bring and how I feel when I do this.
Reading what you wrote Michelle about trying to control life by making everything smaller and manageable, including making oneself less than a son of God was a revelation to me. I do this all of the time under varying titles such as prioritizing, coping and even self-love. This won’t be so easy to get away with now – thank you.
I could also feel my body drop as I read your words that God is always with me, within me.
Sitting and choosing to deeply connect with ourselves is not something we may choose to do often. Others may seek to do it to try and find something, or get somewhere. The concept of ‘connecting’ to ourselves might seem quite foreign to some as they are not aware a separation has occurred in the first place. I was certainly like this, and now have a marker in myself of what it feels like to be connected and ‘with’ myself, or not. This learning has taken place over a number of years, and is something forever deepening as I make the space to stop, connect and feel what is happening in my body.
The reading of your sharing Michelle was for me like having a healing session. Thanks for increasing my awareness relating anxiousness and our connection to god.
On re – reading your blog, the piece that spoke to me this morning was your relating how you began to bite your nails again. I used to bite my nails and remember how when I read books or watched films with suspense I would find myself biting my nails, showing me my underlying anxiousness which I didn’t recognise as such at the time.
“I was anxious about letting go of being in control of the direction of my life.” I’ve been reflecting on this and its a really interesting way of looking at anxiousness and life. The fact that I’ve come to also understand is the more we try to make an outcome a certain way, the more tension and stress we actually hold in our body.
“When I make my days about stillness, God and all of me, then nothing is too big”. This is a very inspiring line, Michelle. It helps me to see the clear choice I am making in each moment – to feel my connection to God in everything I do, or loose myself by not honouring who I am and what I am a part of.
‘I was able to feel how I was actually anxious about surrendering completely to God, to saying yes to trusting in my connection to God and my divine purpose as a Son of God. I was anxious about letting go of being in control of the direction of my life.’ This control is something I recognise in myself, not fully trusting what I feel inside, not completely ready to surrender. Your words have reminded me to reconnect with the stillness and to allow myself to feel more.
It’s great how you highlight anxiousness as being the energy that takes us out of stillness. I experience this when I find myself racing against time. I become anxious that I won’t get everything done, my head becomes full of thoughts and my heart beats faster. I am then no longer in stillness, no longer with myself and no longer with God. This can affect my whole day unless I manage to find a way to come back.
Thank you for this medicine, Michelle. Connecting to the body in gentleness really puts an end to the anxiousness. And having made this experience once, feeling anxious will always be as a marker for the fact that I am not fully with myself. Now I can see it more as a friend who reminds me of something important rather than something that I have to fight against.
This is so powerful for you and all who read your blog Michelle. From these moments of stillness we can find our connection to God, it’s there within us all. It is quite incredible that we go around in our day in anxiousness and not notice it, but when we do realise that, we can come back and reconnect in an instant, when we have a marker of the stillness to return to.
Thank you, Michelle. What I heard loud and clear in your article was a commitment to building back a relationship with God that you know absolutely is infinite, but that you also understand, tenderly so, is something you need to build your body back to it, having avoided this knowing and connection for some time. A really inspiring support in the appreciation of the incremental steps we can all take on this return to the warm embrace of God that we all yearn.
Reading this blog gave a clearer understanding of anxiousness and how subtle and insidious it is. Anything that I identify with as being more than or less than my innermost truth, can create an anxiousness around how to move forward in life and it is really an irresponsibility of my spirit to choose this way of being, as the innermost is always there, as is the quality of stillness I can choose to connect with and appreciate, this is who I am.
Beautifully said, Simon. This really does expose the simple choice we make to abandon everything we are and know so that the spirit can be irresponsible and give power to the outside world, when the truth is that everything that occurs to us is of our own making.
What I have noticed is that the more I am actually living with stillness and presence and not indulging in the thoughts that seem to constantly remind me how many things I have to do, the more time I actually have to get things done! Following the lead from my body and honouring it’s rhythm (what it is telling me), seems to create so much more space and time in my day – it feels magical, but really, it is just learning about a different way to understand my relationship with time. I am enjoying reading the book Time by Serge Benhayon as part of my learning. There is a great article about it here http://www.unimedliving.com/publishing/unimed-publishing-books/time-space-and-all-of-us/time-space-and-all-of-us-book1-time.html
It is amazing how we can get clarity when we connect to the stillness of our own breath. But isn’t it interesting that we do find it amazing! This understanding – the power of our breath – should be normal for us. This learning should be the first thing we are taught when we go to school, or from our parents, until it no longer needs to be taught, because it is just how we all live from birth until death.
It is beautiful to hear how you have committed to making a stop moment each day to remember who you truly are – simply by connecting to your breath and feeling the deep knowing that is the connection with God. Thank you for your inspiring words and story Michelle.
I have loved re-reading this powerful blog Michelle. These words stood out to me: ‘My understanding of where the anxiousness comes from has also deepened so that I am now aware that at times life, or what is being asked of me, feels “too big, too much”. Trying to control life has therefore been about making it seem smaller and manageable’.
This is a great exposure of the particular dynamic or vicious cycle of control and overwhelm, control and overwhelm, and the illness that it brings to the body. I recently re-experienced this pattern when asked to to fit ‘one more thing’ into my week. Eek! After an initial squirming and protesting within I called on a friend who I knew would help me not magnify that reaction. Within days, after surrendering, a miracle of outworking and constellation happened in my life. Huge learning! This is true education.
Love this Lyndy because that ‘squirming and protesting’ has become a ‘friend’ to me these days, since I now what is being offered up is an opportunity to learn.
I know this feeling Lyndy – and the worst is when you try and control the overwhelm! Instead of stepping back and accepting where the line of ‘enough’ draws, we can sometimes dive in and try and sort everything out and find solutions… This never works! I find that in those situations it’s about creating space and focusing on one thing at a time.
That’s it Susie, ‘one thing at a time’. It’s when I concertina everything into my To Do list at once that I go on overwhelm and the anxiousness comes in. It’s even a sense of panic that there’s not enough time for everything and I just don’t know which one to start with and can’t fully focus on one thing. By contrast, if I am fully present with what is presenting itself to be done in the moment there is much more of a sense of spaciousness and things get done with ease.
How powerful and beautiful this is Michelle, “When I make my days about stillness, God and all of me, then nothing is too big; there is no need to go into anxiousness, doubting what I am capable of. My days are simpler, fuller, joyous, and my connection to God is felt within and reflected in everything around me.” You have expressed so well what I feel is true for me too. Thanks for putting the words together that confirm me in my stillness and connection to God and everything around us.
I find it so easy to get caught in the momentum of everything that is going on around me and only realise this has happened hours later when I stop the activity and feel how tired, achy or on edge I am at the end of the day. It is a great advise to commit to moments of stop during the day, feel what is happening if required, and re-connecting or deepening the stillness we feel. And taking this wonderful quality into our day
Yes I agree Golnaz – Stillness is indeed a wonderful quality of the Soul and available to all of us. There are some great quotes and free audio about Stillness here: http://www.unimedliving.com/unimedpedia/word-index/unimedpedia-stillness.html
I love the truth in your words here Michelle, this has also been my experience,
“It never ceases to amaze me how simple it is to get a sense of clarity when one chooses to be in the gentleness and stillness of one’s breath.”
The current way of living in society leads most people to feel “at times life, or what is being asked of me, feels ‘too big, too much’”. This is evident by the language people use during the week, looking forward to ‘the day nearing being over’ or “Friday’s nearly here”. People don’t want to work or be in life and instead want to do their own thing, to escape life, because we feel overwhelmed by life. This article is a great inspiration to feel that it doesn’t have to be like this and when we are connected to our stillness, with God and in who we truly are then it’s not overwhelming.
This represents a quantum shift that, rather than being something out of reach, is at our fingertips all the time. Living life connected to and with our bodies means we have a forever guide along side us. Being open to what is being shared is our forever learning.
Yes you make it sounds as simple as it actually is matidaclark, “living life connected to and with our bodies, meaning we have a forever guide”. I feel it’s so easy to live ourselves, that it is us who create the many complications to think we can’t do this.
Thank you Michelle, your blog iinspires me once again to take more moments to come back to stillness. I know how great I feel when I do this, and how everything in lifes flows when I am taking the time to re connnect and live with the stillness, but for me it seems like I just fall into old patterns of behaviour of doing it hard, or staying busy and the truth of the matter is, I just need to change the pattern.
Great insight Michelle, In stillness all that is not of this same quality is exposed. I can relate to the feeling of anxiousness whenever I start driving something rather than surrendering and trusting that there is a natural flow when I stay connected to myself, before ‘doing’ anything.
Very true Victoria. For me, tension and a level of anxiety come in when I am not allowing the flow of life, when I bring myself into the equation and do things how I think things should be or try to make them go the way I want them to. If I allow life to unfold and present itself to me, I remain in stillness and what is possible never ceases to blow me away. The anxiety comes when I try to control, even on a very subtle level.
Your blog encouraged me to take a brief stop moment to connect to my breath and my purpose, knowing that I can make how I live my life about people and choosing to make it all count in the small things I do in my day… Just bringing it back to this moment as best I can.
Thank you Michelle for sharing this and the reminder to come back to the simplicity of our connection to ourselves and God, appreciating and saying yes to our divine purpose.
God wouldn’t stand back in self doubt so why should we? Let’s feel our unique amazingness. Allow our deepest possible level of appreciation for this to continually unfold and share all of us to the best of our ability with everyone.
It feels so different living life coming from our fullness and what I’m discovering life reflects back to me even great depths of appreciation along the way. All very simple and joyful when I’m in connection with God.
The more I choose to developed my relationship with myself, my body and the more appreciation I bring into my daily life the easier it is for me to deal with anxiousness as I have developed a marker in my body that allows me to come back to me sooner than before.
This is so important Francisco. Having a marker to show us that it is time to reconnect back to what is truly ourselves and letting go of all the stress and ideals. Just being and joyfully sharing all of us.
Thank you Michelle, this is great sharing and indeed we learn to manage life in so many different ways whether living with nervous energy, worrying, planning ahead etc and this can sometimes give us the sense of life being too much and feeling overwhelm but the antidote to this is just our ability and willingness to bring it back to our bodies by allowing ourselves to just stop and reconnect to the stillness and wisdom within that keeps us living in the moment without judgment with what is there for us to feel.
Your words inspire me Michelle “I gave myself time and space to connect to my body with the gentle breath so it could reveal to me what was underneath the tension. What I felt was a deep and long held anxiousness that I’d not let myself feel before”. How empowering your words are.
I also recently have noticed my anxiousness and how I always thought and even said to my friends that that was not one of my things…because I look so calm on the outside they agreed…
Actually I have felt very anxious many times, and especially in times of change, but no one or hardly anyone notices because I look like I have everything under control.
There is such an effort to keep calm, that if I used all that energy to be still instead of calm, I would be so much better and connected with no need for anxiousness or stress and not putting that pressure on my body.
I too can look very serene on the outside even when there is turmoil within, yet I’m sure no-one was really fooled except me. Because there was such a desperate need to keep up the pretence I could not even be honest with myself that sometimes I could not cope. I would just stagger on trying to manage all the while feeling overwhelmed and anxious. Since coming to Universal Medicine I started to be aware of the anxiousness and not put pressure on myself to have to cope. It’s okay to fall apart, for in actual fact, that is the reality and being real helps me reconnect to where I am which is here – already in the stillness.
Good point Julia – I’ve done the same with appearing very calm on the outside but have been very anxious underneath. Now I’m not sure who I was trying to fool – I think perhaps it was me! Putting energy towards being connected and still feels like a far better way and resource of my energy instead of just trying to maintain the facade of seemingly being calm.
It seems to be a very common coping mechanism, I feel for those children that see so much pain and trouble in the world that get overwhelmed and develop this way of dealing with life, the keeping calm when everything around is swirling. Looking as if they can cope and sometimes in pain or anxiousness inside.
Anxiousness can simmer in the background infusing every movement and every decision and has done in the past. It is quite a disruptive energy to live with. The more I dedicate to being present with self care, it opens the door to living with stillness, then there is no room for any anxiousness what so ever.
I get anxious regularly and often it has to do with feeling how awesome I am but coming up with reasons why I can’t be that awesome in my day to day life, as if Awesome-Me is too much for the normality of my daily life.
When I accept myself for being Awesome I love being in the normality of my daily life as all the normal things in my life get Awesome-Me. And there’s no room for anxiousness then.
I had a new marker in awesomeness yesterday, Joost, as i walked across the petrol station I had the feeling -I’m gorgeous, look at me everyone. Reading your comment now, I see how the anxiousness of trying to not be noticed has limited that awesomeness in the past. Awesomeness – bring it on!
On re-reading this gorgeously truth-filled blog I find the point about attempting to make life smaller and more manageable most relevant.
Before being a student of Universal Medicine and The Way of The Livingness, and thus of myself, I did just this, and one of my main methods was to struggle – with life, emotions, relationships, work, stress, anxiety, time – you name it I struggled with it, conveniently keeping my focus anchored in the struggle and far far away from stillness or even gentleness. I couldn’t see the forest for the trees.
Today is a different story and although I get caught up (or bogged down) sometimes, my breath and connection to my body bring me right back to the simplicity of making life about being Love.
This blog has really helped me to get deeper into my body and feel that anxiousness. The relationship with my body is the key to my relationship with God. It really is that simple.
Realising I have more to share here. In the last week I have been making space to connect more deeply with myself in simple ways throughout my day mainly by stretching and walking. In this time I have become so much more aware of the inner tension and anxiety I carry and bring to my movements at work and at home. Life has become more interesting and simple at the same time and I am naturally letting go of layers of judgment and self-critique I have been harbouring for god knows how long.
Reading this blog I could feel the stillness you have been dropping into. Amazing isn’t it, what can be discovered when we connect more deeply.
Michelle I have found the same thing “What I felt was a deep and long held anxiousness that I’d not let myself feel before.” the not letting myself feel things in my body. I have always been amazed at my ability to override something and pretend it is not happening, rather than deal with what ever has got me out of sorts. But what you are offering here is that there is no having to deal with anything but rather a commitment to connecting to that which lies within and in that you are with what ever is occurring from a place of real strength and openness.
I have this same experience Vanessa, I am very aware that I override easily what I feel and pretend it has not been there but my body is speaking another language and tells me very loud and clear that I am not honest and that’s it is time to get to this honesty and even truth about what I choose in my daily life.
This is a timely blog and comment Vanessa as I have recently been noticing how superficial I can keep my connection to my body, so I might notice and honour the basics such as thirst, warmth and rest with more consistency than ever before but I can also ignore my reactions that are then held as a tension and often not noticed until my behaviours start to alter. I might look to foods that I wouldn’t if connected, I might struggle to focus and stay present in many ways so I might run late, get behind on emails and/or shut down my expression. When I stop and I am willing to feel my body more I too am amazed by what I have been numb to so I came to the same conclusion – deal with what gets me out of sorts. What can get me out of sorts can be obvious and understood but when this is not the case dealing with the seed of disconnection from disconnection is like a cat chasing its tail – ridiculous, hilarious and maddening if you are the cat! So re-connection makes more sense than trying to deal with things from disconnection. Thanks Michelle and Vanessa for sharing on being consistently committed to connection.
This is a very timely piece for me to read. What you share has really resonated with me (and feel sure with many others also) In your words “doubting what I am capable of”. Its that nagging ‘doubt’ that brings about tension and anxiousness and the feeling that I need to control situations. The simplicity of having a ‘STOP’ moment bringing back that inner connection with the gentle breath, stilling that busy mind which misguides so easily. Thank you Michelle.
Beautiful Michelle what a gift thank you .Anxiousness is such a destructive way of living and the disconnection of ourselves to ourselves causing this is the reality underlying it leaving oneself lost and unknowing . When connected to ourselves with our breath and stillness within everything is simple known and a warmth within. This is the love we all are in connection with our soul.
Could anxiousness be not knowing how to deal with our awareness? If we deal with what we are aware of or learn how to deal with what we are aware of, could that also have an effect on our anxiousness?
For me this is absolutely true Christoph, ‘Could anxiousness be not knowing how to deal with our awareness?’, this is something that I have realised lately, as a child and young woman I was very sensitive to energy, to how people felt, how something was said, what was really being said behind the politeness, but at the time I did not know this was energy, I did not know what to do with what I was feeling and would often go into my head, withdraw and become anxious. It has helped knowing that what i am feeling is energy and that it is either love or not and that I have a choice to get anxious or to stay present and allow myself to stay aware.
This feels very true christophschnelle. Choosing anxiousness definitely helps me to not feel what is going on in a situation and gives me a very instant get out. When I choose anxiousness, I also enter into a process of choosing all sorts of behaviours that get used as an antidote to the anxiousness and the effects are devastating on my body and my health. Thank you for reminding me that is a simple and supportive process of ‘learning how to do deal with what we are aware of..’ we know how to deal with it, but it defiitely something we have to re-learn and being aware of the learing makes it more loving, gentle and fun
Very good point Christoph. I used to have quite a lot of anxiety and as I became more accepting of myself, the anxiety went away.
christophschnelle I would go further and say for me it is not being willing to deal with my awareness, I have recently felt anxiousness and the reasons why have been there staring back at me but I have been unwilling to look at them, as if they are too obvious to be the reason and go looking for something far more complicated when in fact it is quite simple and easy to read and understand if the willingness is there to reflect and consider the feelings that arise.
I love what you share about stillness and your relationship with God. I can very much relate. When I’m in the rushing, In a state of nervousness or anxiousness I can’t feel god. But when I’m still, with myself I feel me in my body and God within and without. Which is why dedicating myself to building a way of living by that supports me to be in that stillness consistently is a no-brainer; for me there is no other way to be.
It is great what you have shared here Katerina about building a way of living, which I also found inspiring about what Michelle spoke about developing in her blog. When we commit to taking moments in our day to connect with the quality of breath – we are building that foundation of love which allows and supports that stillness.
Ever since an incident a couple of weeks ago I have experienced an underlying anxiousness in my body. It is there all the time. Reading this blog has given me an opportunity to feel more deeply the anxiousness in my body. I can feel the unwillingness to surrender as I want to be in control of the situation and how I want things to be. What I feel in my body is that the need to be in control denies me of my connection with God and that hurts. Thank you Michelle for sharing as there is much to ponder on here.
‘I was able to feel how I was actually anxious about surrendering completely to God, to saying yes to trusting in my connection to God and my divine purpose as a Son of God. I was anxious about letting go of being in control of the direction of my life.’ your article confirms the process I have started with myself to take the time to connect with God and how loving this feels in the body.
Walking back to God one step at a time – thank you for this gorgeous blog. I can feel many similarities between my own anxiety and that which you describe but especially the element of control. I love the way you describe ‘letting go of being in control of the direction of my life.’ This feels so real for me having recently been gently supported to realise the calculating hold I had been using over my own life and in planning for the future – letting go of this seemed like the last thing I wanted to do, I even wanted to defend it as ‘doing well’ and overcoming old obstacles but it was all down to anxiety and control in order to achieve things I had decided I had to do, forgetting myself in the process and doing a great deal of harm – I have had to learn how to let go but in so doing have been able to truly start to commit to myself and a way of living in connection.
What you say makes so much sense Michael. I have begin to trust and am dropping control and all sorts of magical constellations are coming about – things that looked ‘impossible’ to the linear mind are falling into place.
That is so well said Ariana and from my own experience I have found it difficult to really accept there is more to me then what meets the eye. It seems by your writing you are knowing that in yourself more and more. I criticise a lot because I try to get it ‘right’ rather then accepting even living more of who I am, I will make many mistakes and that is totally ok.
I have returned to your words Michelle as they are so relevant and poignant for me right now. I have been experiencing anxiousness for a very long time. It is something that I have learned to accommodate…it is the pink elephant in the room of my life, however it has become so big that it has me squeezed against the walls!
So the days of accommodating are gone and you have reminded me of what needs to be done – there are no clever solutions to anxiousness to be found out in the world. They lie inside, in the stillness of my being and in the tenderness of my breath. Everything I need is already inside me.
Great comment Rachel. Let’s put all our pink elephants into a zoo once and for all by refusing to allow their presence to occupy our space. We won’t have them living with us any more. Let’s say ‘yes’ to our bounteous and precious stillness, after all there is nothing to prove and nowhere to go . . . except home.
I use control to not fully express the sweet, tender, delicate women I am, I connect with these qualities with in me, and know my self to be this and now need to live my divine connection with all of humanity.
I can relate marylouisemyers, control and also anxiety to keep me from being connected to the gorgeousness I now feel in and from my body.
Your commitment to understanding and making space in your day to feel what the practitioner said is very inspiring. Everything is here to help and support us to evolve, we just need to be open to it and allow space to connect to ourselves, deeply so. Really gorgeous Michelle – thank you for sharing this awareness.
This is the most precious of blogs and a great sharing. Exactly what I needed to connect too, I love how that happens! I have been feeling to do what you have been putting into place with regular check in’s to accept that their is the love all around us if we let go and allow ourselves to feel it.
“It never ceases to amaze me how simple it is to get a sense of clarity when one chooses to be in the gentleness and stillness of one’s breath.” It is indeed amazing what is revealed when we are fully prepared to be open and honest with ourselves, knowing the truth might be hard to swallow, but it is needed for our development.
Thank you Michelle, very beautiful words. Letting go of the control is simply surrendering to a fuller, deeper and connected part of ourselves . ‘As soon as I was clear on what I was anxious about and called it out, I felt myself drop into a very deep stillness, I felt held in an embrace so warm and loving and had an absolute sense of knowing that God is always with me, within me.’
I love coming back to this blog as it has such a profound message that I can hear every single day: nothing is too big, no need for anxiousness nor doubts, just all of me and knowing that God is always there. What else do I need?
Once we truly let go of this pressure to control our lives and instead trust and surrender to what life has to offer, we will realize how absurd the thought of being able to control life was. Such magnificence in all its fullness can and will unfold, but will never be controlled.
“I realised I still find it difficult to fully accept and appreciate God in my life – yet he accepts me unconditionally!” – I love this line…how many conditions we put on our ‘worthiness’ of something that unconditionally available and NOT at any cost other than being who you truly are and deeply want to live.
Up until recent years I had no idea I was anxious most of the time because it had been there my whole life and was so familiar I thought it was me a part of me. These days through being more aware through connecting to my body I feel anxiousness when it is there in my body and am able to call it out and as you say Michelle call it out and drop in a deep stillness in my body.
This is a beautiful expression of how to feel deeply where we are at – how we can absolutely know what is needed to support us and how with consistency and appreciation we get the chance to Love ourselves back from many conditions – like this example anxiousness.
I have been reflecting on lately how we feel within ourselves and the way tis forms how we choose to live our day through the different choices we are willing to make. How we feel within ourselves is of upmost importance and the only way I know to effect this is re-connecting to my body and feeling the flow and rhythm that resides within.
Thank you Michelle – top blog and great to know you are choosing to build and develop a true connection with yourself. I too am doing my best to knock out any anxiousness and doubt which can creep in at times but because I am learning to trust my body so much more it feels like a huge disturbance so I don’t get far into it as I have to deal with it.
My understanding from my own experience has been that there can be layers of anxiousness so when things are still and steady there can be a deeper surrender needed and allowing the space so whatever needs to come up can be addressed and it is done with ease.
A tip I use that is super practical is at night when I go to sleep. I place the palm of my hand just under my ribs in the centre and feel the pulse and that gives me an indicator of what is going on. If it is still and I start thinking about something I can feel that pulse change to a shudder and thats my sign that whatever it was I was thinking about has bothered me and had an affect on my body because the pulse changed.
Michelle thank you for your sharing. Bringing it back the basic of gentle breathing and stillness truly allows us to reconnect within and to God. With this stillness we truly can deepen our clarity. Stillness holds so much power which we under estimate.
Amita what you write here is so true – “Stillness holds so much power which we under estimate”. We often dismiss stillness as not being enough when in fact as you say it holds so much power.
Michelle – your blog has come at such the right time, as I have been travelling around Europe, visiting places and connecting with relatives that I have not met before. I too have been feeling an underlying “anxiousness about surrendering completely to God, to saying yes to trusting in my connection to God and my divine purpose as a Son of God.”
For me it’s about trusting and knowing that ‘I am enough ‘just the way I am- not needing to prove anything. By stopping throughout the day, breathing my own breathe, and feeling the divine connection within, as a warmth of pulsating love, I reconnect to truth, and anxiousness no longer exists.
As I have been reflecting upon surrendering to myself and God, this wonderful blog appears. Thanks God and thanks Michelle for reminding me we can choose to be all of who we are not what the world forces us to be.
“When I make my days about stillness, God and all of me, then nothing is too big; there is no need to go into anxiousness, doubting what I am capable of. My days are simpler, fuller, joyous, and my connection to God is felt within and reflected in everything around me.” I love this Michelle and can so resonate.
A beautiful and deeply practical way to deal with anxiety and to build a closer relationship with God. I found this blog allowed me to feel how I need to be connecting to that stillness within and to feel what was taking place in my body – and in this way I can build more stillness in my life. Thank you Michelle.
There is much to ponder upon in your powerful blog Michelle – on re-reading today this paragraph is resonating deeply within me –
“I was able to feel how I was actually anxious about surrendering completely to God, to saying yes to trusting in my connection to God and my divine purpose as a Son of God. I was anxious about letting go of being in control of the direction of my life”.
Until attending presentations by Serge Benhayon I had little awareness of how much ‘being in control’ figured so predominantly in my life to keep myself well protected from any perceived harm. Unraveling the control measures has been quite challenging at times, yet also the most amazing and healing with understanding there is a choice to live differently – less control and more love. An ever-unfolding path for sure.
This also reminds me of the power of the sessions with Esoteric Practitioners. We are offered so much and we can go as deep as we choose. Thank you for sharing your willingness and allowing to go to this depth and the reflection it gives to us.
I find this blog so very helpful Michelle, I have the knowledge that I am the son of God, equally as everyone else is, I even believe and know it, but truly accepting it is still some way off I still get caught up in doubt and anxiety when I am not connected to myself. My anxiety is a by-product of holding back my light. Why would I do such a thing?
“It never ceases to amaze me how simple it is to get a sense of clarity when one chooses to be in the gentleness and stillness of one’s breath.” So clear, so succinct, so beautiful, so true.
Thank you Michelle for sharing this simply inspirational blog , it is our choice to be run by all the superficial day to day complexities of our world or to simply connect to our breath and just be and accept we are supported in our father’s absolute love, the very same love we are, and take our next step in that stillness and awareness.
‘When I make my days about stillness, God and all of me, then nothing is too big; there is no need to go into anxiousness, doubting what I am capable of. My days are simpler, fuller, joyous, and my connection to God is felt within and reflected in everything around me.’ …… this is so beautiful, Michelle, so complete, nothing more is needed as it is all there already.
Yes, it’s wonderful to read what Michelle’s written as I can really feel the truth of what you say Alison, ‘nothing more is needed as it is all there already.’ What a wonderful truth to live by. Such a contrast to the way I’ve usually lived: constantly striving to better myself and keep up, not fall behind. Just writing what this is like is exhausting! So glad I’m feeling how being me can be my constant, no rushing, no exhaustion just being.
When we feel that we are sons of god and our own divinity and the big part we all play for humanity, and stop making ourselves small, separate from others or unworthy, life unfolds with such clarity and simplicity, this brings one true purpose and direction.
This blog is the ‘missing link’ I have been looking for, the connection and surrendering to God and the relationship it has with anxiety, very comprehensive and encompassing article Michelle, I am super appreciative, thank you.
I agree Thomas – this all makes perfect sense. How can we feel capable of living a life of purpose when we are not intentionally living as who we really are?… The Sons of God – equally so. You’re right, our connection with our divine aspect is absolutely the ‘missing link’ in society and one that will one day be restored. It is up to those who know this to be true to LIVE IT and ground this wisdom firmly on earth for others to access it too. Thank you God for Serge Benhayon, living and breathing Godliness for all.
This beautiful blog brings tears to my eyes Michelle. I love the way you didn’t just dismiss the words of your practitioner and bury them, but instead allowed the unfolding of that session to continue afterwards. That is often what happens with a session – there is an unfoldment, an unrolling effect that can take place for two to three days afterwards. and I love the way you took time to feel the anxiousness and to feel what lay under it:
‘As soon as I was clear on what I was anxious about and called it out, I felt myself drop into a very deep stillness, I felt held in an embrace so warm and loving and had an absolute sense of knowing that God is always with me, within me’. Deeply beautiful!
I too have been living with a constant underlying anxiousness – sometimes less noticeable and other times pretty awful. I have mostly attributed this to the way I am being, both with myself and the world, but had not considered that it might have a deeper underlying root cause – that my attachment to control and unwillingness to surrender to the fact I am a Son of God is what continues to feed this cycle. The control comes in with the game I play where I try to imagine how life would be with this or that scenario, this gets me ahead of myself and as I can’t possibly know how it would be, I become anxious. Great blog Michelle thank you. I can feel there is much to be exposed here for me.
Hi Michelle,
Thank you for sharing your story, I love the way you deeply considered the practitioners question when you were asked about anxiety, you could have easily brushed it off but the physical experiment you did was super inspiring. I might add this little gem to my daily routine.
Wow Michelle, what a Powerful blog to me. It makes God instantly ‘normal’. I recognise very much how I do not fully let go of the control and try to be with Him and be in control… Which doesn’t work really. But I’ve actually never felt what’s underneath. Yes, I’ve tried feeling it, but than more from a ‘striving’ point of view when I was missing the connection. I can feel how you made it very clear and simple. What a lovely treat and appreciation of yourself and God having this in your daily Ritual. Thank you for sharing Michelle.
I love the simplicity of stillness – it is a constant call that says – ‘you are enough, hold steady and shine.’
Just feeling the energy in the words…surrender and …stillness the body starts to respond and let go. These qualities are so needed in our world today, that for the most part is running in constant motion. When we re-connect to our natural stillness we can begin to restore inner and outer harmony
There is such contrast in the quality of anxiousness as a state of being and stillness as a state of being. Anxiousness is manufactured and driven from the mind, whereas stillness is our natural way that simply says – ‘surrender, you are in God’s love, be yourself’.
Words of Beauty Marcia. Yes, when you feel even just a glimpse of volume or depth of stillness, the anxiousness becomes something we want to look at and start to deal with…because the feeling of stillness in the body is completely connecting, confirming and very beautiful.
Absolutely Zofia and Marcia!
Love this Marcia, and yes anxiousness is the fabrication of our mind as soon as we judge something for being right or wrong, where all that we need to do is surrender and allow ourselves to feel what there to be felt.
It is very easy to feel stillness and to feel God. But I do things to sabotage the connection. The part that loves being an individuated person hates to feel the loss of it’s identity, which in fact is not really an identity but only an identification. We might have a identification card with our picture on it with our name, but that does not sum up who we are. My true identity is only felt when I am being fully me and surrendered to God. It would be impossible to do this without stillness, especially in a world that is non-stop motion.
It can be very subtle how energy can creep in to interfere with the relationship with God. However, I’ve found through the self care and nurturing of me, it can arrest the cluttering energy and self doubt. Taking a few steps ‘with me’, breathing and closing my eyes for a few seconds and the love that I know and feel is right there.
I have felt that too Matthew.. making a few moves towards loving myself can make so much of a difference to how strong I feel within myself. It gives me a sense of control over myself back again.
When I truly felt and knew I was divine, a part of God, everything changed. My outlook on life, on dramas, on relationships, my approach to birthdays, celebrations, Earthly matters…Everything… changed as I knew what truth was and could let the rest go. Knowing I am a part of God and He of me created a stillness in me that is impossible to shake.
Thank you Suzanne, I agree, the true kingdom of God that is inside us all equally, and once found is “impossible to shake” in me also. My loving choice every day is to be connected to my divine inner-self, the innermost or esoteric, that true kingdom of God that we all come from and can reconnect to.
What I find very interesting in what you’ve shared Michelle, is that initially you were not aware that you were anxious, yet you had been biting you nails and reaching for salty/sugary foods to get you through – very physical responses to stress and tension. It’s fascinating how we can be responding physically to stress and tension but not actually clocking it, therefore unable to address the cause. When we give ourselves the space to “take stock” and connect, we can put the pieces together.
That is a very good point Hannah, and most of us carry a tension and are unconscious of it. Is it because it is so normal or because we want to avoid the clarity? Perhaps both (big mistake) it is so empowering to connect to the breath, and through stillness allow the truth to be revealed as Michelle has explained.
Yes, without a true marker, the ill patterns, and quality we have chosen is not exposed.
“it is so empowering to connect to the breath, and through stillness allow the truth to be revealed” – written with the clarity and power of your lived experience – thank you Bernard!
Hannah I agree completely. Lack of awareness is like a big black cloak, it can cover up anything. People can live in absolute chaos, often repeating self abusive ways of being totally unaware of the cycle that they are in and that is the whole point of life, to keep repeating and repeating itself until we do become aware. It’s like we are standing in the middle of a carousel and the carousel is going around and around and around us. We say ‘oh there’s that horse again, oh there’s horse again, oh there’s that horse again, bugger me, it’s me that has to change if I don’t want to see the horse come round again !’
Hilarious Alexis! What a brilliant example – and so very true!
Michelle this sharing is GOLD! I can relate to so much of what you shared and reading this blog is very timely for me. I will return to it often, thank you dearly.
Michelle I have just re-read your article, there is so much in it and I have got something deeper from it having read it a second time. I am also aware that there is so much more for me to get. Thank you for sharing your deepening relationship with yourself and God, by doing so you helped me to deepen my relationship with both God and myself.
‘It never ceases to amaze me how simple it is to get a sense of clarity when one chooses to be in the gentleness and stillness of one’s breath.’
This statement says it all – couldn’t have put it better!
I agree Helen, once you have experienced the gentleness and stillness of your own breath there is no denying the clarity that this brings. And if you haven’t I can only recommend you sample with one of these meditations.
http://www.unimedliving.com/meditation/free
Absolutely kathleenbaldwin and helen simkins and when you feel the warmth of the breath and focus on this, it’s very steadying which is great for when feeling anxious.
To breath us is to breath the stillness that is God.
Absolutely kathleenbaldwin and helen simkins and when you feel the warmth of the breathe and focus on this, it’s very steadying which is great for when feeling anxious.
To breathe us is to breathe the stillness that is God.
I was offering a presentation yesterday for a corporate company and was sharing with them the Gentle Breath Meditation. I was again amazed at how the energy in the room completely shifted after just a few minutes of each person choosing to breathe their own gentle breath. It is that simple, stop, choose to breath gently, return to the body and in this we return to God.
I have had a similar experience to this Donna. It is amazing to feel the quality of spaces change when people make choices to be themselves through the quality of their breath. It makes me realise what we are generally breathing is not us! I have noticed changes can be made by how we choose to walk, move and speak too. The quality of our movements, for which our breath is one, also can inspire a change.
I loved this line too Helen it does indeed sum it all up – the first time I did the gentle breath mediation was a revelation, so amazing!
What a beautifully captured quote! It’s really true too. I notice that if I am trying to do the gentle breath but my intention is just to feel better and make the issues go away then it doesn’t seem to make me feel very connected, but when I really want to connect, it can be so simple and it works.
Yes Helen… it makes perfect sense.
Still and gentle breath = still and gentle body…
And of course an anxious breath has a profound impact on our body and our thoughts.
I know which I would prefer, and it is only a breath away.
A very powerful blog Michelle; I especially resonated with your following expression;
“As soon as I was clear on what I was anxious about and called it out, I felt myself drop into a very deep stillness, I felt held in an embrace so warm and loving and had an absolute sense of knowing that God is always with me, within me”
Using the gentle breath meditation is such a beautiful way to drop into stillness and to feel the inner wisdom.
Thank you Michelle for this powerful exposing of anxiousness – since listening to Serge Benhayon’s presentations and being inspired to bring more awareness to my body, long-held anxiousness continues to be exposed and there is always a choice in that moment to re-connect to my body through gentle breath or stay with feeling anxious. I have found that when In I am in conscious presence it is impossible to be in anxiousness.
Stephanie I too have become much more aware of anxiousness and how I carry it in my body. If I am gripping with my toes I know I am quite anxious, where as if I am feeling flat it feels like there is also a subtle feeling of anxiousness in this as well, as I am not comfortable in this feeling flat and to avoid it I can go into a bit of a drive.
Thank you Michelle for your blog, a simple reminder to stop and reconnect to to God and the stillness within. A stop moment can be so powerful and yet so simple to come back to the love we truly are just by the gentle breath.
That something so simple can have such a profound effect – allowing you (and all of us) to develop a relationship with God. This is huge. The steps are that simple, and a consistent practice of something as natural as the gentle breath is the only tool we need to feel our divinity within. I loved reading this Michelle as it reminds me where to look, and to take the time to make that connection.
I have found what I once called the gentle breath now feels more to be a tender breath in the way it embraces and emanates throughout the whole of me.
I agree with you Simon where you say it reminds you where to look. I know that there are many things or people we could go to when we feel ‘out of sorts’ but a very true place to go in connecting to yourself and in that connecting with God.
Michelle your understanding of making yourself small and then feeling like what is being asked of you is too big is huge. My understudying of anxiousness is that it comes whenever i feel I have to do or be something instead of simply being with myself, present in my body and feeling what is next for me to express.
Great understanding of anxiousness Carolien, thank you, so simple and it makes so much sense. The moment I feel anxious I can then ask myself: what do I have to do or be right now other than simply being me?
in reading your comments Mariette and Caroline it occurred to me that it not only about having to be or do something but also very much about the way I do it. Even when I am more with myself and connected a full to do let can easily put me into anxiousness as I am partially in the moments ahead of myself. I am experimenting with a different way of being with this and that is in staying with what I am doing and being focussed on that and then letting the next thing come to me.
Yeah, great comment Carolien, I am also playing with that, as in not thinking what will be the next thing to do, but letting the next thing come to me. So basically you let life come to you and let it unfold in front of you instead of moving towards it which then has a control in it.
Yes, I certainly feel anxiousness in my body when I feel I have to do or be something. I have lost the connection with my body and doubt creeps in, feeling the anxiousness which is exacerbated when I am around people. Building a foundation of love in my body and being present is key.
I like your understanding of anxiousness Carolien, appreciating and accepting the fact that we are enough as we are, simply being us. That awareness always brings me back to me, and then the way forward is much clearer.
Michelle, although I have not felt deeply into why I live with an underlying anxiousness I feel what you have written is the truth for me and something for me to go away and ponder.
“I was able to feel how I was actually anxious about surrendering completely to God, to saying yes to trusting in my connection to God and my divine purpose as a Son of God. I was anxious about letting go of being in control of the direction of my life”. These lines resonate with me today. And I realise all I have to do is surrender to what is already there within me; God’s love. Thank you for sharing this super blog.
‘When I make my days about stillness, God and all of me, then nothing is too big; there is no need to go into anxiousness, doubting what I am capable of. My days are simpler, fuller, joyous, and my connection to God is felt within and reflected in everything around me.’ Michelle, I have recently been feeling how beautiful it is to live with stillness and on the days where I have a level of consistency the way I feel in myself is vastly different to when I don’t.
Thanks Michelle I had not thought of anxious being related to trying to be in control of the direction to my life and not full surrendering to the fact I am an equal son of God before, so this blog was very supportive and I shall be returning to it again in future as it is in itself a beautiful stop of stillness.
Yes I agree andrewmooney26. I hadn’t connected the two before, but it makes sense that we become anxious if we wish to control an outcome. Surrendering to what will naturally come and not trying to be a certain someone seems a lot simpler and a lot less wasting of our energy.
‘Trying to control life has therefore been about making it seem smaller and manageable’ in truth I have become smaller.
I am a big controlfreak and I use control to feel safe, but I am more and more aware how this stops the flow of love in me and how I give constantly energy away to an outer source. How simple it can be to just observe, not try to control but make choices after having observed and understood what is going on.
‘When I make my days about stillness, God and all of me, then nothing is too big; there is no need to go into anxiousness, doubting what I am capable of.’ This line spoke to me Michelle, since I still suffer with anxiousness, but it’s only when I feel like I am all alone that that it’s my job to do it all. When I feel connected to nature, to others and to a sense of the bigger picture, I agree that nothing feels too big, because I’m not making it all about me and my to do list.
I recognize the anxiousness as a underlying current throughout my day and my nights. I am not always accepting this to be the case and to lovingly offer myself a moment to feel as to why it’s there.My connection to God is very natural if I so choose it, life holds me, He holds me, I hold myself in a warmth that I can surrender to very easily.
Wow Michelle, it is not new what you have written about the deeper cause of your anxiety but it was confirming for me to hear this again. Surrendering to God is what feels most natural to do but that does not mean I do it as much and as often as I could. I am here to be God’s breath on Earth and there is nothing else I would rather do, so I need to find ways to remind myself of it. When I stop and feel his presence, when I feel his kingdom lives inside me, then I can be present too, not holding back on ounce of my grandness and my love and be of service to all others.
This is a beautiful sharing Michelle and I had a moment when I read these words:
“I was able to feel how I was actually anxious about surrendering completely to God, to saying yes to trusting in my connection to God and my divine purpose as a Son of God. I was anxious about letting go of being in control of the direction of my life.”
I have to ponder on why there is still an anxiousness around surrendering completely to God when I can feel that we are all held in his hand at all times – a great blog to revisit 🙂
Good morning, Michelle, yesterday evening I commented on this blog and this morning I felt to reread it and it is totally changing the quality in which I go into my day now. I feel very connected and joyful. Thank you for reminding me that we are equal to God and so absolutely divine, that is just so huge…
Reading your blog Michelle felt like I was the one on the healing table receiving chakra-puncture. One of the most key understandings that Serge Benhayon has given me around anxiousness is to get underneath it and feel what I am trying to avoid feeling – exactly as you did on the train to work. Look what came from that! The unfolding since the chakra-puncture session has been very beautiful – supporting you to stop, connect, feel, understand and even share here in writing – the blessing of chakra-puncture and Serge Benhayon- its founder.
I simply love building the relationship with God. The acceptance of this incredible relationship and feeling the connection supports the letting go of choices that don’t support the love that is God.
Having re-connected with my own true essence (soul) it is easy for me to say now that I know God and that my relationship with him is going deeper all the time because my relationship with myself is going deeper all the time.
I particularly enjoyed your insight about trying to control life by making it smaller and more manageable, yet realising that in fact you are trying to keep yourself smaller and deny the magnificence of light and love that you actually are – in equalness with God. I can deeply relate to this. I can see that I have found many stories to keep me from claiming the responsibility to be living the full brilliance of who I really am.
I find it amazing how we can think we are not experiencing something and then when we choose to get honest, stop and feel: there it is, revealed as being there all along.
emmadanchin I agree. It seems to be part of the way that life works for us all to be totally unaware of various aspects of ourselves, often swearing blindly that we don’t have certain personality traits or behaviours and then one day we get it, like a curtain has been lifted to reveal something about ourselves that we feel we are seeing for the first time. There seems to be a time lock on these moments and therefore trying to get another person to realise something about the way they are behaving is a waste of time. Time will reveal everything to us all, but it does it in its own good time.
Thank you for your reply Alexis. I have learnt that it is wise to be patient, humble, and open to the possibility that something deeper might be going on; to let myself feel and observe and wait to see what is revealed.
Thank-you Michelle for this beautiful reminder of how important it is to connect to the stillness that resides within me. “when I make my days about stillness, God and all of me, then nothing is too big”.
You nailed it for me Michelle in every word you have written.
This is beautiful Michelle and has helped me loads with what you have shared, in that I have been aware of an anxiousness I am feeling, felt at times life has been too big too much in what is being asked of me to do (to step out more into the world and stop hiding) and foods I am eating have reflected this. When I read ‘I gave myself time and space to connect to my body with the gentle breath so it could reveal to me what was underneath the tension. What I felt was a deep and long held anxiousness that I’d not let myself feel before.’ and then ‘I was able to feel how I was actually anxious about surrendering completely to God, to saying yes to trusting in my connection to God and my divine purpose’. I could feel in my body I need to do this as well and that even though I have ‘thought’ I had stopped I haven’t REALLY stopped to ask the question why am I so anxious and THEN allow the true reason to be revealed to me. Thank you.
“It never ceases to amaze me how simple it is to get a sense of clarity when one chooses to be in the gentleness and stillness of one’s breath.” I know this to be true and yet I resist it. Perhaps this is part of my choice to play small and say no to the amazing plan God has for me. Thank you for reminding me how simple it is to come out of anxiousness and confusion Michelle.
I really appreciate this article at a time when I’m recognising just how much I have conditioned myself to be in control of the direction of my life. I have begun to acknowledge that it’s purely a way I keep myself small and less than who I truly am, but that when I surrender and let life flow, that stillness you describe comes in and life just takes off in ways I could never have created by myself.
How very true Cathy. Stillness and surrender have allowed my life to be taken in a direction I would never have been able to imagine, let alone control. And yet deep down, it feels so perfectly constellated to bring out the best in me. The more I accept this, the more I can say yes to all that is presented.
So true Cathy, I am learning to let go of my picture on how I think my life should look or the direction I think it needs to go. I am learning to connect more deeply with the hierarchy and to surrender to what ever is my next point of evolution.
I love this blog it is very inspirational, my take home message is “When I make my days about stillness, God and all of me, then nothing is too big; there is no need to go into anxiousness, doubting what I am capable of” When I embark on a new program “can I do this” comes up for me but when I deeply connect to my stillness and God I know I can because all that I need is provided for me.
Thank you for this reflective post Michelle. When I consider my own level of anxiousness, and then how I feel in stillness supported through gentle breath, but also Esoteric Yoga, there is no doubt the latter is the healthier and enjoyable state. I’ve discovered that it’s my lack of preparedness tied up with leaving myself short of time and holding myself in a level of perfection (to get it fitted in or to get it right, not wrong) that keeps me suspended – away from feeling what is to be felt and my connection with my Divinity and God. Since literally slowing down and allowing spaciousness in my day my anxiousness has decreased, an ease with self is developing as perfection lessens to make space for stillness.
“I was anxious about letting go of being in control of the direction of my life.” This is SO key Michelle, as soon as we use control to get by, we are imprisoned by the temporal passing of time and any sense of our divinity disappears. Your commitment to unearth this anxiousness from deep within is truly inspirational.
“I felt held in an embrace so warm and loving and had an absolute sense of knowing that God is always with me, within me.” This is beautifull, I have felt this too.
Getting up in the early hours of this morning and bathing in the stillness that I felt in the morning and within me, I felt this knowing of God with and all around me. And I paused to ponder, why do I not make every moment of my day about this stillness? What could be more important? Today I walk with the intention to trust this knowing.
It seems Doug, we can never have enough reminders to pull back into a stilled and harmonious state. The realities of life make this a forever learning.
What a gorgeous reminder that God, just like our Soul, is forever present with us and it is us who choose to switch off from the awareness of that. And in those moments that we do connect nothing is too big or too difficult, everything constellates to support us.
Yet – we tend to play a massive game contra to this. We make life choices in disconnection to God and to our Soul, it doesn’t work, we get anxious, so we try to control the situation, it works for a bit, but in the end it still doesn’t work, so we try controlling the situation some more, it works for a bit…. and so the cycle goes on. When you look at the whole picture it seems silly doesn’t it?
I have been finding that it’s acceptance that what allows the true beauty of us to be seen, for a person who accepts is truly beautiful as this ease with self shines through. But more than this, the more we accept, or deeper accept, the more we easily and naturally surrender to that place of stillness, where God is.
The struggle between trying to control everything in life as opposed to surrendering to that greater power within all of us is a struggle that first takes place in the body, not the mind. When I have allowed a certain way of walking, a way of talking, a way of speaking, eating, moving and being, my choices thereafter have all followed exactly the same quality as that movement.
The other day I noticed that an entire conversation was changed by the way I spoke one word (a persons name). My body and my voice in one very loving movement and sound were both used to convey how I felt about them as I spoke their name. With that one word the entire discussion became immediately more intimate and open and the need to control the conversation soon dissolved.
I can so relate to what you shared Michelle. I too have experienced anxiousness and I have been compressing myself to stay small. This was exhausting, I was trying to control and not allow too much of who I am out or to be seen. Through years of working through my fears, anxiety and how much I have been holding myself back, I am beginning to learn to allow myself to fully express who I am and the power of God’s love. I am learning to reflect God’s light every day and to share it with everyone, to not hold it back anymore.
Michelle, your blog deeply touched me, I’d never related that underlying anxiousness I too can feel to a surrender to God and letting go control (something I am learning to do), but it is. To feel and know that we are held and cared for always, that we are Sons of God and that to hold on, to control to be in anxiousness to fight the natural flow that is there for us. Thank you for reminding me of that connection to God I hold is always there, it never leaves, but I leave it – or think I do, when in reality I can’t, even then I am still with God, just not actively celebrating and building our connection – thank you Michelle for reminding me.
Wow! your anxiousness sounds pretty complicated Michelle. My connection to God is simple, when I close my eyes, I breath gently and feel the stillness. It’s acceptance, of just allowing myself to be and trusting in God. I don’t have to do anything else, I leave that to God.
This is a beautiful blog and one which I will ‘save’ to keep re-reading … I have found it helpful to have anxiousness addressed as, like you say, “What I felt was a deep and long held anxiousness that I’d not let myself feel before.” … I too have the signs of anxiousness like biting nails and nervous tension but have not actually taken the space to ‘go there’ and see what it is about … thank you Michelle, for taking the space to feel and then put it into words.
Wow, thank you Michelle. Could this be the source of all anxiousness, the fact that we are terrified of surrendering to and trusting God’s love? To allow ourselves to trust the divine constellations God creates for our evolution is just a choice and one that will set us free from the agony of trying and hoping.
This is a must read for everyone. I never used to consider anxiousness or how much we carry without being aware of it. I am now seeing that it is running in most of us, most of the time, even if we appear to be calm and collected! That appearance is often the veneer created by control, meanwhile our feet are madly paddling under the surface of the water. It is lovely that you have taken your exploration beyond the work stresses and explored your relationship with God and being divine. Often the anxiousness is a reflection of our issues with letting all that power and gloriousness out for all to see.
Doug it still astounds me at times how strong the pull to ‘get things done’ is, even though I know this deep stillness. As I write this I can feel a deep appreciation to Serge Benhayon for sharing that there is more to life than getting the job done so that I have a choice now as to whether I do the job in stillness and connection to myself and God, or with anxiousness and push.
Stillness has brought me to rediscover my relationship with the divine also. Then my connection feels absolute. So why do I choose to step away from it?
This is so timely Michelle; thank you for its gift to support so many of us to understand we hold ourselves back by playing it small. I have experienced a deeper trust and confirmation that God is around us all the time supporting everything which occurs. And yet, when life gets that little bit busier it is still easy to fall into old behaviours and pull on the reins and go into control, instead of claiming the gift it presents – which is God saying – you are capable of representing me in so many areas and here are the opportunities. My cap also is the lack of commitment to supporting myself in my livingness to have a body to live all which is presented. Awesome and thank you. x
Anxiousness can be so subtle and ingrained so deep we aren’t even aware of it – as you so clearly share Michelle. It is far more prevalent than people realise – in fact most people would have anxiousness running in their lives. I would never have called myself anxious before coming to Universal Medicine…sure I was nervous at exam times, starting a new job, or would be stressed or overwhelmed at times – they were the ‘out there’/obvious manifestations of my way of living. However, running like an undercurrent through all of my life was anxiousness – it was behind my every action and every thought, fuelled by a lack of self worth – not feeling enough as who I am and therefore constantly wanting to fix everything and everyone, constantly calibrating with the world around me so then I would be ok…like a mouse running on a spinning wheel, and a totally exhausting way of living! It is through Universal Medicine and the presentations by Serge Benhayon that I have come to expose all of this and to start to heal the lack of self worth, and the anxiousness is having less and less control in my life.
How inspiring – in every sense of the word 😉 our breath is with us constantly as is our connection to God should we so choose it.
Agree True Gem, so simple, consistent and ever-present.
Thank you Michelle – this was a perfect reminder for me this morning to just take a moment to breath. There are times when the anxiousness can be such a strong distraction yet so deviously subtle that we have trouble putting our finger on it. Just as you have experienced, it is in those moments that we allow ourselves to really feel what is going on that we can get a fuller sense of the pull away from the gentleness of the breath and how it is just simply a question of choice – to be gentle or not. And then of course there is the acceptance, of ourselves and the simplicity of it all.
Yes Henrietta I agree that anxiety can be very insidious and subtle and so easily missed when we are caught up in the motion and action of life. This is why it is so important for me to have moments in the day totally dedicated to stillness and re-connection to my body to really allow myself to feel what is really going on.
Thank you for this awesome sharing Michelle…since reading it yesterday I have been considering my relationship with God. Before Universal Medicine I saw God as outside of me and blamed him for any problems in my life, but at the same time I could always feel what I called the sound of silence in nature i.e. the stillness that was there. It has only been since reading your blog that I have connected the fact that I have always known God through stillness, and it has been through various esoteric modalities that I have felt that stillness again, but I hadnt related that to being God until now…so…” in the stillness, I am rediscovering the relationship between God and me” once again – thank you Michelle.
What you share Michelle is so relatable, and so very beautiful. Your summary offers such a glorious shinning light, and simply directs us back to our connection: “When I make my days about stillness, God and all of me, then nothing is too big….”
This is so true. I recently experienced this, that nothing is too big, I was feeling deeply connected to God. I felt the absolute knowing that God is with me and within me, it has been this way all along but I just didn’t choose to see this before. I was driving home when I felt this amazing connection to God and to truth, I had to stop on the side of the road to release the immense sadness I felt from my life of disconnection to God and the disconnection from myself. Afterwards, I was feeling that “nothing is too big….” it was so powerful. We can all connect to this amazing power of God at anytime, anywhere and in any situation, it is constantly and instantly accessible.
It basically comes down to that we are either with God or against (without connection to) him, although we may not feel like being against him but anyway we choose a state of being and an energy fills us that separates us from God. Anxiousness being one of the emotional states that expresses such separation.
Its amazing that we have rejected God, what he offers in way of support far surpases anything we could ever provide ourselves, even in our wildest dreams.
This is very well said Alex, quite the absolute view of what’s chosen when we find ourselves disconnected.
Very true Alex. And when there is an experience of that stillness and of God, to then separate away and feel other than that hurts – anxiousness for instance can be felt as a very real thing in the body rather than always operating in the background so we get used to it.
When you put it like that Alex one can understand that when we lose connection to God there is an awful lot to be anxious about.
Oh my God ;-), indeed what else is left but anxiousness when we are without connection to the one and only consciousness and beingness that makes us who we are. Without knowing who we are everything else is just a desperate attempt of patchwork.
Yes Alex we certainly do become desperate and that desperation creates a lot of anxiety. That is why anxiety is one of society’s major health problem today; along side depression as they go hand in hand.
Well said Kathleen! there is stacks to be anxious about when you have no connection to God or yourself!
Very true Alex, it is very black and white like that, just like Jesus said, ‘you are either with me or against me’. It is us who try to make the grey areas, so we can settle for less and say we are doing better than, but better than is not truth, better than is not love. When we start with love as a marker anything but love is not love.
Grey areas are the neverlands of comfort where we indulge in what we are free to choose but not who we are by our very innate, divine nature.
Very well said Alex, we can fool ourselves with grey areas but when we feel what love truly is we see that anything less, even a smidgen is far from love.
A beuatiful account Michelle, one of the things that particularly stood out for me was this –
‘On my way to work, as I sat in the train, I gave myself time and space to connect to my body with the gentle breath so it could reveal to me what was underneath the tension. What I felt was a deep and long held anxiousness that I’d not let myself feel before.’ – this paragraph is gold. How often do we hold onto anxiousness and not let ourselves feel it but rather bury it in all sorts of distractions so we don’t have to feel what is truly going on in the body? And so we don’t have to feel the consequense of choices we have made?
This is a great call, Michelle and I can relate to it feeling like a bit of a leap “…to saying yes to trusting in my connection to God and my divine purpose as a Son of God. ” We have strayed away so far from this natural truth, that it seems like quite a step to take.
How amazing will it be when we can all live this natural truth as naturally as we take our next breath. So many people can’t even say the word God because it has become so loaded with beliefs and ideals, so we as the Sons of God have a long way to go to come back to our natural connection.
Yes Michelle, I have struggled with the word God and religion because of my perception was that going to church was not ‘cool’ and if you were religious you were a certain type of do-gooder and I did not want to be associated. The ideals and beliefs that we carry are indeed huge but as I begin to trust the truth of God, the truth I felt as a child and feel my connection I am changing my relationship with the words and the judgements and beliefs are falling away.
Thank you for a timely reminder to again surrender to God. As much as the loss of our deep connection with God keeps us feeling anxious, it often is the anxiousness that robs us of our divine union – a very deliberate vicious circle.
Hi Michelle, I read this blog and recognised how I still choose to try to control life. The stillness in your words was beautiful to feel and a tremendous support in feeling the anxiousness present in my body. Thank you
It is a great reminder Michelle, just reconnect to the stillness deep within. I love it.
Thank you Michelle, a great reminder of how we easily we can re-connect to the simplicity of God within us when we choose to feel how gentle our breath is and how still our bodies are. We are so very skilled at abandoning God and leaving this simplicity, thinking that we have to control every aspect of our lives. Serge Benhayon gracefully shares the practical ways to develop and maintain a living connection to God, one he has personally achieved with great mastery and willing shares with all who care to pay attention. Michelle, thank you for taking that moment on the train to do deeper and ask yourself why you were feeling anxious, you have demonstrated that asking the question and listening within for the answer delivers true choice and true resolution.
Rowena you have hit the nail on the head, control and anxiety are twins we can not have one without the other. This is huge….
I had a beautiful reminder this morning as I could feel a tsunami of stress building in me with the huge tasks I had to get through – That I had a choice to continue and be overwhelmed or stop connect and not let that get in the way of letting my divinity out. It worked I stopped and I even had time to go to the Gym.
Yes Nicole I have found being anxious takes up quite a lot of time and energy, and time/space magically appears when I choose to let it go and feel me in the moment I am in rather than in the anxiety of my day ahead.
Michelle thank you so much for sharing how your connection to God and acceptance has deepened it was very beautiful to read.
When I trust in God and in the fact that I know everything I need to know deep within me, a stillness will grow inside me. This stillness no longer leaves room for anxiety, stress or control.
So true Michael. If we deepen our connection to stillness, we deepen our connection to ourselves, to everyone and to God. Great comment Michael!
I find that the more intimate the connection and care within and for myself, the more sensitive I become to anxiousness. It is like the bar or marker drops lower and lower and where I once would not have recognised the anxiousness within me, I can feel a low lying sense of it. It is an ongoing process of becoming aware of it and what causes it and letting them both go.
I can relate Lisa. What I’m learning with this is not to freak out when I do feel an anxiousness and try to stop it, fix it… I’m realising that the finer I allow my natural sensitivity to be, the more something that is not in line with this lovely quality will feel quite jarring — and hence the anxiousness that will come up.
Every time I feel anxiousness I can clock that it’s an opportunity to feel deeper in my body.
I too have found this too be true Lisa.
Thank you Michelle, in reading your blog I could see how easy it is for us to go into anxiousness or stress when we make ourselves small or are living less than the beauty and grandness of God’s love that we are. When we are greater than great and bigger than big, we shine brightly in the world and yes, there is nothing too big that we cannot handle.
‘stop each day and take time to connect with my breath and my body; to the stillness and sacredness that is naturally within me.’, what a great thing to do within the day.
From what you describe, I get a real sense of a difference between putting my faith in god as many religions encourage and the surrender you describe that includes you as an equal player in god’s plan.
Yes Joel, the former feels like giving up and hoping for the best, while the one where you are an equal player feels empowering and with a strong sense of self-responsibility.
Yes Joel I reckon there is a difference here too. In the past when I was a member of a major religion I used to put my faith in God but this usually meant no responsibility on my part and just accepting whatever happens as God’s will either positive or negative. But what Michelle is describing here is that we do have responsibility to commit to connecting with our soul in every moment which then allows our beautiful relationship with God to be much more powerful. This is our equal part to play.
And what a difference to have a real feeling inside that is God… no faith required, just the application of some simple principles and hey presto there he is, inside us all the time just waiting for us to notice!
This is a great point Joel. Putting your faith in anything that doesn’t include you as an equal part is a sure fire recipe for anxiety, always at the mercy of outer influences or hoping for salvation of on kind or another.
Yes Joel, I always felt so disempowered at the religious concept of ‘putting my faith in god’ but how inclusive and practical what Michelle has shared is beautiful.
Thank you so much Michelle! Seriously, this blog is exactly what I needed to read right now with a work load that has almost doubled for the next 6 weeks and could feel a little anxiousness creeping in. The beautiful reminder ‘…to stop each day and take time to connect with my breath and my body; to the stillness and sacredness that is naturally within me.’ is so appreciated.
Gosh Michelle I really understand what you’re saying here and think this could be similar to what I’m not allowing myself to feel…. Very interesting – I will ponder that one! Thanks!!
The Gentle Breath Meditation is a marvellous tool to reconnect you back to your body and feel what there is to feel. Through this connection I have been able to gradually let go of the anxiousness that was present and begin to feel the beautiful stillness that is forever present. It felt like the anxiousness was sitting on top of the stillness like a lid holding it down. Great to lift that lid.
Developing presence in every movement we make and everything we do is key to developing confidence and trust in ourselves. I love your words Michelle – ‘It never ceases to amaze me how simple it is to get a sense of clarity when one chooses to be in the gentleness and stillness of one’s breath.’
Experiencing anxiousness and this having an effect on our ‘connection’.
A spoonful to swallow, however very true.
I know when I become anxiousness it is slippery slope to no where good. I eat more sugary foods, I feel inadequate and directionless.
I great learning curve for me has been to stop…
When I feel anxious I normally go into ‘fix it mode’ and become busy to solve the problem but all this did was momentary numb the tension.
Instead stopping to feel the source of the anxiousness was far more productive for truly dealing with the issues that were making me highly strung.
This is yet another trick to keep us separated and as you said Michelle, anxiousness can be so subtle that we don’t even realise it’s there. I have enjoyed your blog and I have learnt a lot about my own anxiousness through reading everyone else’s comments. Thank you.
Thanks Michelle for sharing ,It is truly amazing when we claim true breath back and by act of choice then we get the flow and balance back , what a joy it is to come back to our selves without the anxiety running the show.
Michelle, what you write is such a deep truth – nominating exactly what is going on, just nominating, not anything more at all is needed, can transform us instantly. Suddenly we have a new level of awareness and there may be hiccups afterwards but we have changed for good. For very good!
I love that blog so much, Michelle. You really have touched something deep inside of me and I felt true joy when I read it. Connecting to God and trusting in the divine plan instead of trying to control life to get a false feeling of security is also a big issue in my life. But when I take a stop-moment, I can feel my connection. I really ask myself why we loose it so quickly when it is actually one of the most amazing feelings in the world. We are completely held in light and true love…
Most people carry at least a low level anxiety with them in their daily lives, and infact it is so normal, that people do not even recognise it for what it is. Your blog is quite profound in that it nails what is actually underneath anxiety, and that is the lack of confidence in feeling equipped to deal with all that we are feeling. And so, quite simply, we become anxious as we don’t actually think that we are enough to deal with what is in front of us. And so we go into a rhythm of breath that is not naturally our’s, and this is what creates the anxiety. This is why the gentle breath meditation helps so much in this regard, for it helps us to reestablish and reconnect to the simplicity of our own connection.
That is so simple. tension is natural because we live in a world we have built for ourselves where everything is motion and doing and fast, and so pulls us away from the love of God all the time. How we respond to that tension determines the way we live our lives. If we believe ourselves to be small, then anxiety sets in with “How will I cope?” but if we trust and feel our innate essence where we meet the stillness of God, then anxiety is absent. This is our natural way of being and livable in this world if we choose the stillness that is always there. Beautiful Michelle, thank you.
Beautiful blog Michelle. I can totally relate to your comment – It never ceases to amaze me how simple it is to get a sense of clarity when one chooses to be in the gentleness and stillness of one’s breath. This is so true.
What you write Michelle is such a huge topic, anxiousness affects so many people and I notice I carry anxiousness in almost everything I do. I would describe it as debilitating, this makes modalities such as chakra-puncture so valuable, but also that willingness to stop and connect to how the body feels, that is when the enormity of the potential we all have can begin to be realised.
Reading you blog this morning Michelle and then returning to it this evening, has led me to reflect on the underlying level of anxiousness that I have in my body most of the time. The counter to this is to choose to be more deeply with myself with a quality of gentleness and tenderness. I felt myself dipping in and out of this all day, but having read your blog has inspired me to keep choosing to come back to my body. Knowing that I know God only through this connection.
Reading this blog today I felt a confirmation about moments I have been experiencing lately of being in a flow, with much on my plate and much being attended to in the work day, but not at all with a sense of strain or even effort. The normal mind even thinks at times, “this is strange” as there is no nervousness or exhaustion, yet many things are just getting done. Also in these amazing passages of time, things constellate – a phone call or email from this or that person offering support in the next phase of various projects without lifting a finger to recruit it. Perhaps this is part of the magic of being held in the stillness of God?
I loved reading your blog Michelle. We do carry that anxiety when we forget how held we are by God and how deeply loved we are. What an excellent commitment to stop and connect each day. In the stillness we find clarity.
Its interesting that so often people don’t even realise the constant tension they feel is actually anxiousness, and that it actually isn’t a natural thing to feel all the time. We don’t create a lot of space for stillness to realise there is actually another way to live.
Very true Rebecca, we so often just ‘plod on’ and don’t stop to really feel how we are feeling and what’s going on within us. I’ve found Chakra-puncture a really supportive modality for giving me a marker of how still I can feel in my body and to know that it is something that is always there and that I can always reconnect back with.
I agree Fiona, being quite an anxious person, for me chakra puncture has been an amazing support it realising the tension in my body and giving me an opportunity to return to myself.
I agreed Rebecca. We have become so accustomed to anxiousness as ‘normal’, as opposed to our innate stillness. When we allow the space for something deeper, and for our breath to return to our true normal – it is there… ‘It never ceases to amaze me how simple it is to get a sense of clarity when one chooses to be in the gentleness and stillness of one’s breath’.
I agree Kylie – its interesting that in this world of business and caffeine and sugar and entertainment, that the one thing it is almost impossible to do is stop? That is, unless you make the conscious decision to take time out, to come of the rat race and connect back to the fact that underneath the perpetual anxiousness is a stillness that can’t be shaken.
” When I make my days about stillness, God and all of me, then nothing is too big; there is no need to go into anxiousness, doubting what I am capable of.” this is so true. I have also come back to having stop moments in my day, checking in with my breath and how I feel inside and allowing the stillness to return. When there is a lot going on around us, especially if the energy is particularly of a disturbing nature taking care of ourselves in this way is vital. There can be a lot trying to pull us out and how lovely when we can stay centred and loving in all of that.
That’s an amazing revelation, Michelle, that the cause of your anxiousness was about control so that the immensity of God could be cut down to what you perceived you were able to manage and to keep yourself small. I completely relate to the ambivalence about letting go of control, letting go of planning things out and knowing in advance the outcome, because I have decided what that outcome will be. I also understand your experience around the level of your commitment to your relationship with God – yes, it can feel scary from one perspective. I love how you share that going into Stillness is what brings you to your equilibrium – that feels awesome. There is so much to consider in what you present here: thank you.
Anxiousness is something I have lived with for many years until this past 12months, when I felt the need to really look at what I was allowing in to feel that anxiety. I have realised my lack of self worth and therefore self nurturing were playing a big part in this. With more attention given to my own needs and surrendering to the tenderness within, I am feeling more of my whole self than at anytime in my life, with more to go! Thank you for a truly inspiring sharing Michelle.
Yes Roslyn Mahony, I have found anxiousness to be a response we get when we know we are not living all that we are or could be.
From one moment to the other, we can all the way to our grandness, and feel how really spaciously, humongous and all embracing it is. From one moment to the other we can also go all the way to feel us not just only human, but even a reduced version of it. Our best and worst feelings of ourselves is only one step away. Knowing the first is key for us as we learn to embrace it on seemingly unimportant aspects of our lives too. It may not be so glamorous but everything starts there anyway for us if deepening is our option.
This is beautiful and so true and relatable to thank you Michelle for the great insight and reminder of the depth of anxiousness and why in our bodies it can be. The gift we all have to stop feel and allow things to show themselves and unfold and the normality of this in the way we live is a very real and loving way to be.
This is a great opportunity for people to read and understand that yes, there are underlying tensions in my body that I was not even aware of, and these tensions and anxieties have really affected me in my day-to-day life, and then to have the opportunity to address, to recognise, to acknowledge, and then to start to heal so that we can feel what it is like to be able to feel that lovely sense of surrendered stillness.
I can relate so much to this as I read it, I can do the exact same patterns and I hadn’t got to the crux of how I hadn’t nailed the issue thus far. So this is a very powerful blog for me to connect with Michelle, and is perfect for me to remember to surrender to and trust in my connection with God through my stillness. This is going to be great support for me to return to, thank you.
Thank you Michelle. I loved this sentence: ‘I found this a very powerful way to appreciate and accept all of who I am and, in the stillness, I am rediscovering the relationship between God and me.’ Yes, so true and so simple.
Accepting all of who we are is a big issue. I am aware of having kept myself small, and I see it in many teenagers who don’t want to stand out from the crowd. Us adults have the same problem. It reminds me of a famous quote that talks about the fact that we are afraid of our greatness. But I am realisng more and more that when I do feel great, its because I have let go of the need to control everything, and I feel that being me is enough, and in being me, I don’t feel alone, so that must be my connection to God.
Thank you for the reminder Michelle. To take a moment to stop, feel the anxiousness and feel the reason why we are anxious is so very valuable and helps us to drop beneath it into the divine stillness that is there waiting for us.
Great blog Michelle, it took almost all day for me to read it, and I definitely started out feeling the anxiety I was holding in my body. As I have finished reading the blogs and comments, I now feel connected to a vast & steady stillness within me again. I just love the parallel that has been drawn between playing small and feeling overwhelm and the fact that we have a choice to live our big selves and then we are so very capable of living big lives. I shall re-read this blog again.
God and his Love are ever steady, every present…it’s we who wander away but if we pause and become still we will then be able to feel his loving embrace.
I agree with you deborahmckay God never leaves us, it is we who turn away.
‘This ‘stop’ has now become part of my daily ritual, a powerful way to surrender and reconnect to the wisdom of my body’ – I love this Michelle. It’s amazing how something as simple as stopping has made such a difference to your life – this would be super supportive for so many people, as anxiousness is becoming really common. Young people especially (well from my view) seem to be running around 24/7 in total anxiousness and nervousness; they can’t stop because that requires feeling their body, which is something they don’t have an experience of doing.
So true Susie…and same goes for people of all ages! Life today is run on 24/7 anxiousness. Learning to ‘stop’ is GOLD because we are stepping outside the wheel of motion and choosing our own rhythm. Our body loves us for this.
Very true Susie – the anxiousness is an epidemic of global proportions. Just look at the dependence the world has on caffeine consumption (which now holds both the number 1 and number 2 spot of most consumed beverages in Coffee and Tea). Caffeine is known to create tension in the body, as well as giving us the get and go to do more and override how the body is really feeling.
Susie your observation about young people is spot on. I see it in kids my son’s age – he’s 9 – where already life is all about doing and achieving and they are holding so much anxiousness in their small bodies. School barely gives them a moment to be children so I can easily see how this momentum continues into adolescence and adulthood.
Yes Michelle and Susie I agree, and this sets the foundation for their adult lives. A live with anxiousness than sadly becomes their normal. Reflections as the one you give with your blog Michelle, is very much appreciated and it is needed in the world.
Thank you Michelle for a light bulb moment reading your blog. I have always felt a sense of shame about being anxious and have readily denied that I am feeling it which makes it much harder to accept. I am recognising it more easily now and can really relate it to my wish to control and keep myself small. Thank you for the inspiration to re-commit to being in the stillness of my breath every day and the expansiveness that this brings.
I know exactly what you are saying here Helen. I remember a couple of years ago one of the Unimed practitioners said to me,
‘You know you are always a bit on edge with life, what is that all about?’ I was surprised, thinking of myself as a pretty easy-going person who enjoyed life. But later the penny dropped and I could feel how actually anxious I was. It was a great awakening.
Michelle there is much to reflect on with what you’ve shared. I’ve found that I am also anxious in a number of situations and felt an underlying tension but had not truly looked at why. The point about wanting to control life and not being able to comes up strongly for me. In that if things don’t go to the plan or picture then there is a frustration or tension. With all of this I am starting to understand there is no true acceptance of myself in those situations. So with a focus on stillness, acceptance and expression I will see how that changes.
A beautiful sharing Michelle – thank you! I can totally relate to keeping myself self smaller and less than as a theme that has run my life for years – the underlying anxiousness is constant and huge until this is addressed and dealt with.
“My understanding of where the anxiousness comes from has also deepened so that I am now aware that at times life, or what is being asked of me, feels ‘too big, too much’. Trying to control life has therefore been about making it seem smaller and manageable. In truth, I have been trying to keep myself smaller and less than what I truly am – a Son of God, equal in all love and glory to him”.
I love how your share the power of stillness here Michelle and that when you make it about stillness, God and all of you, nothing is too big. This is huge!!
I am just in a situation where a lot of anxiousness is offered in my live and found that I can go on the trip with it and get myself nuts by trying to become control over things to feel save again – OR – surrender to my stillness and true being and let unfold what will unfold. Knowing me and that I will not leave me is my choice – so what ever happen maybe – at least I will have me. That is such a good feeling. I start to trust in me again. So life can come.
Thank you Michelle, I can very much relate to your experience and your connection with God, I have been making even more space to do the same and have realised that this can be done also while working, moving etc.. The acceptance part is the part that I have also needed to work on and will continue to work on while bring it into my daily rhythm as a normal part of my day.
Thank you, Michelle, this has explained some of what is going on for me, especially your words, ‘Trying to control life has therefore been about making it seem smaller and manageable.’ because I’ve found it easier to do less and stay small, knowing full well that I am capable of more but somehow not wanting to go there. The word ‘Surrender’ comes to mind as I write this, and ‘allow’. And it is allowing stillness to be there that makes the difference.
This is a beautiful article Michelle, I loved reading ‘ I felt held in an embrace so warm and loving and had an absolute sense of knowing that God is always with me, within me.’ This is very confirming for me and a wonderful reminder that God is always with me, thank you.
Very true Michelle that Serge Benhayon is an awesome role model for his connection to God and brilliant that you actually got to feel the underlying anxiousness that was driving you in your life. This is also a recent revelation for me so I can relate absolutely to the lack of trust and connection to God.
“This ‘stop’ has now become part of my daily ritual, a powerful way to surrender and reconnect to the wisdom of my body, and the wisdom and presence of God. ” – the wisdom of God and the wisdom of our body are one and the same.
I love that Gylrae ‘the wisdom of God and the wisdom o of our body are one and the same” There is no way to God other then through connecting to our bodies and being present in our days.
That’s it Carolien. That is all we need to know and do, and our incredible future cannot help but present itself. So simple. And yet it requires such commitment to apply this in a world which is swimming in the opposite direction. I sometimes feel like I am a salmon swimming upstream ‘against’ a current. But it is extremely worthwhile to do so.
“When I make my days about stillness, God and all of me, then nothing is too big; there is no need to go into anxiousness, doubting what I am capable of. My days are simpler, fuller, joyous, and my connection to God is felt within and reflected in everything around me.” This is huge – anxiousness and many other aliments that surround it are rife in the world today, imagine this being offered – the simple and practical tool of the gentle breath meditation( here’ s a great one – http://www.unimedliving.com/meditation/free/meditation-for-anxiety-and-stress/beating-anxiety-gentle-breath-meditation.html) That by stopping and connecting to ones breath and body it supports presence – hello presence and goodbye anxiousness. Then there would be no need for the medication, bladder problems and stories that run in our heads etc.
This is a great reminder of how the gentle breath is such an amazing tool for bringing us back to ourselves and getting to the root of what is going on which you did so superbly here. The realisation that the anxiousness was about letting go of being in control and surrendering is enormous. Thanks Michelle, a pleasure to read.
Anxiousness is a comfort.
Wow Gylrae, when I read your comment there was a momentary reaction of, I don’t want to believe that, but it is true that comfort is found in anxiousness, drama and other indulgences that we initially may not want to see.
That is a big exposing ouch gylrae 🙂
“It never ceases to amaze me how simple it is to get a sense of clarity when one chooses to be in the gentleness and stillness of one’s breath.” Huge, simple and very profound – this is truth. I would even say – ‘It never ceases to amaze me how simple it is to get a sense of clarity and God when one chooses to be in the gentleness and stillness of one’s
breath”.
I will make a commitment to read your blog every day for the next two weeks, Michelle.. 🙂 No seriously, thank you for this simple reminder and explanation where anxiousness comes from and how subtle it can run through our body. It is so easy to get lost in the everyday’s management of life.
Thank you Michelle for revealing the tension and anxiety of not living everything I am all of the time in my commitment to being a Son of God and feeling his love in and through me wherever I am.
I often over ride and try to bury the tension, I have not yet mastered using the tension as an Ali.
This was my ‘oh that’s what’s been going on!’ moment – “I was able to feel how I was actually anxious about surrendering completely to God, to saying yes to trusting in my connection to God and my divine purpose as a Son of God. I was anxious about letting go of being in control of the direction of my life.” When I make certain things bigger than everything else I need to do, that is when I open the door and invite anxiousness and overwhelm in. It’s also something I can see I call on when there is even a small thing I don’t won’t to deal with. This is a great reminder, thank you Michelle.
Same here, Aimee. And you are spot on about making things bigger than everything else just being an open door for anxiousness to come in to distract from what we don’t want to deal with at that time.
That’s great Aimee, what sings out here is “When I make certain things bigger than everything else I need to do, that is when I open the door and invite anxiousness and overwhelm in.” Thank you, allowed me to feel how each thing we ‘do’ is all equal in the fact and sense that, we can if we choose, bring ourselves equally to each of those things to be done. So this is presence… and this is the antidote to anxiousness and overwhelm.
Beautifully said rosannabianchini and Aimee. When we regard the thing we are doing as more important than who we are, we are lost to the winds that blow us from one anxiety to the next. Everything we do is equally important by the virtue of us holding ourselves in equal presence and thus equal value in whatever situation we find ourselves. That’s the lesson to be learned in the school of planet earth and it’s something I need to remind myself of everyday, every moment.
Michelle and Aimee, I can so relate. The anxiety of letting go, of relinquishing control and surrendering! So beautiful to feel, and also scary because of the addition to control which comes from an underlying belief that things need to be a certain way, and if they’re not this way I’ll perish, so better hold on, for dear life, never let go…. oh the anxiety we hold on to not drop and let ourselves just melt within God’s love.
Great comment Aimee, I can relate to making certain things bigger than everything else I need to do and then feeling overwhelmed. Thank you for this extra eye-opener.
Thank you Michelle, I am often blown away by the insights offered by Esoteric Practitioners sometimes in a session something will come up that I had been choosing to be unaware of or hiding what then unfolds in my willingness to accept more love and healing can be a complete miracle.
Oh Michelle, what a blessing your blog brings to me. Life changing realisations. Words cannot describe my appreciation for you choosing to feel and write this down. Thank you with the deepest appreciation and love.
Chakra puncture is an amazing support, an opportunity to feel the choices made and consider more deeply the choices to make. I recall being completely unaware of how anxious I was and how long it took to diminish, it still surfaces from time to time, but it is nothing like it was when my palms were never dry and the all consuming doubt about not being enough would determine my every move. Knowing I am a spark of God, falls short if it is not lived.
When there is a sense of tension already felt in my body that hasn’t been expressed and dealt with, I tend to choose foods which then keep me in this state of racyness. When I ask what tension is? It is wanting to delay the natural movement that my body is pulled to be in the direction of. Tension is my body telling me to simply be in simplicity.
Thank you Adele – a clear and strong ‘Ah Ha’ moment from reading your comment!
” I tend to choose foods which then keep me in this state of racyness. When I ask what tension is? It is wanting to delay the natural movement that my body is pulled to be in the direction of. Tension is my body telling me to simply be in simplicity”.
Truly and deeply so—nothing is too big when I commit to being present to every small detail in life. This process is amazing and exposing to how there are so many details I have missed, and can choose now to see them clearly and take back my responsibility. When life feels big, it is an opportunity to commit to life even further—when I am with me, God is always with me. Thank you Michelle, your blog has inspired a deepened connection with me.
What a beautiful reminder you’ve me through this blog Michelle, to start looking at my level of anxiousness again. I am inspired by your two weeks program to take a moment every day day to connect to your sacredness and stillness. I can relate to what you write about your anxiety that “I was anxious about letting go of being in control of the direction of my life” as I feel is key for me too. Letting go of the control about life and to allow it it to evolve from simply living life from my connection within feels the way to go. We do make ourself smaller by taking control over our lives as we do not allow to live the grand life we ought to live as the sons of God on earth.
I love the simplicity in your blog Michelle and can feel how easy it is to hold onto our current way of being instead of surrendering to what God’s purpose truly is for us.To fully accept God in my life I need to let go of control and that is scary. I am going to be more open to trusting my connection to God. Thank you.
There’s a strong connection to self and God in this blog for me that I found wonderful; I particularly resonate with: “Trying to control life has therefore been about making it seem smaller and manageable. In truth, I have been trying to keep myself smaller and less than what I truly am – a Son of God, equal in all love and glory to him.”
I too have spent a lot of my life trying to keep myself smaller and less than what I truly am – it is crazy how so many of us have shyed away from the fact that we are indeed all Sons of God, ‘equal in all love and glory to him’
I can feel my anxiousness comes up whenever I cannot control a situation. I love how you share that control is about making life small and manageable and keeping ourselves less, yet we are so so much more. Thank you Michelle.
Michelle, thankyou! I love commitment to ‘the stop’. The way you described this is very inspiring, in fact, your whole blog is inspiring.
Michelle I have just re-read your article, it really is a very profound piece of writing. It brought up in me that I have an anxiousness that is very subtle, in fact hardly there but it is. I have been aware for a while of a slight unease when I have things that I know I need to get done and then a real feeling of ease when I have done those things. It’s like I can really let myself go when I have done what I perceive I need to do but I am wondering then how much of the time do I feel slightly tense? This is now for me to look at and dismantle, as it of course gets in the way of my connection to both myself and to God.
Alexis I recently discovered another package of anxiousness I was using and it was definitely related to thinking I hadn’t done enough on different projects in my day and hence at night time when I could be building my connection to myself and God I was in anxiousness and pushing myself to do more work. I’ve now made a commitment not to work in the evenings but choose activities that are more nurturing and sometimes this does include completing tasks that need doing but I’m able to do this from an impulse not anxiousness and my evenings and sleep are really starting to change.
Great points you make here Michelle, thank you so much for sharing this.
I have made the same commitment Michelle – to do as much as I can early in the mornings before work, then mainly nurturing, wind-down period when I get home at night – though sometimes it is necessary then to do more work, but then I have just been snuggling next to the log fire with my lap top, guess where? on my lap.
The divine and nurturing stillness that lies beneath the raciness of every day, an everyday life that seems increasingly speedy and fraught, brings the pure and much needed medicine! Beneath the agitation, the anxiousness, the apprehension, is the divinity and stillness of God and the universe and our own precious essence that brings us all that we are crying out for, all that we have been searching for ‘out there’. Thank you Michelle for your timely reminder.
Interesting read thanks Michelle I can relate to “I was anxious about letting go of being in control of the direction of my life” coming from a poverty back ground as a child I struggle to trust that everything will be taken care of financially. I have a fear of being old and not working and therefore not having money to attend the Esoteric workshops and sessions. I know if I don’t work on this issue that is what I will create so I am working on my trust issues and my connection to God and know when I do let go of control and trust everything works out and flows.
Deeply beautiful Michelle. The stillness has returned!
For us who have lived like ‘perpetual motion machines’ in constant tension and anxiety, it is like a new dawn to start learning to trust God and become still. If it were not for the example of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, I’d still be lost in the old tense way. For me it’s quite an up and down learning process, and it’s Serge’s consistency that helps me to continue developing stillness. My gratitude goes to him, and to you for sharing Michelle.
Perpetual motion machines. This was definitely me. Now, through the work with Universal Medicine, I am beginning to understand what motion is and the effects of perpetual motion on my well-being. The emotions and thoughts that are running unchecked. Tension or nervousness buzzing through me. Judgement, jealousy, self doubt. Any and everything that prevents me from surrendering totally to the absolute love of God, letting everything go, releasing all control and protection (more motion), and utterly accepting God into every crook and cranny of my body and being.
Thank you Michelle. Reading your blog this morning stopped me in my tracks, recognising the anxiousness that I am currently in and have been for a few days. It is not possible to feel God with us unless we are in our stillness and the anxiousness is another way that we keep ourselves separate. As I write this, I can feel myself drop more into my body. Yes there is still much to do but without the connection and stillness it feels like there is no point unless that quality is there.
Surrendering to God and also letting go of control and knowing that you are living in the impulse of God! Thank you Michelle a great blog to go deeper with..
Just what I needed to read today – thank you Michelle! I could relate to the anxiousness and tension of wanting to control and not wanting to fully ‘let go’ … While this is something I’ve been working on, this blog has been a great reminder to use the simple tool of connecting back to my stillness and in that, to fully allow myself to feel my connection to God.
I agree Angela – I too can relate to the subtle need to wanting to control and not always fully trusting that when I let go, what I needed to get done will happen with a natural unfoldment and without any push or force. To allow ourselves to connect to our stillness is crucial.
Thank you Michelle for sharing this inspiring insight into anxiousness and highlighting the power of Esoteric Chakra-Puncture in supporting us to re-connect to our stillness, our essence within. I can relate to what you have realised – ‘I was able to feel how I was actually anxious about surrendering completely to God, to saying yes to trusting in my connection to God and my divine purpose as a Son of God. I was anxious about letting go of being in control of the direction of my life.’ This is so true as I realised that I do play down my connection to God, my knowing that I am a Son of God and the union I feel with God, in some areas of my daily life with others, and that this inconsistency does create tension in my body and an anxiety in me. And I am discovering how we when we do surrender to the grandness of who we truly are and all that we know within, and express this in our lives, the anxiousness is not present and instead there is a joyful knowing of how interconnected we are with all and how natural this truly feels.
It was really gorgeous to read of the connection you felt to and with God when you surrendered to what lay underneath the anxiousness you were experiencing. It is amazing how often many of us settle for skimming along the surface of connection denying ourselves the extraordinary power and beauty of what lies in the deeper layers of stillness… or the fact we can live from there.
Thank you, Michelle. This is a great reminder. Our connection to God depends on our choices at every moment. It is not an arrived at point which I can just busk in. It’s a constant conscious choice that I keep making.
‘God is a choice in every moment’ – that is gold, Fumiyo. We just need to make that choice so often that it becomes a natural every moment habit superseding the former self-destructive habits like the anxiousness cycle that keeps us disconnected from ourselves and God.
Michelle I am deeply inspired by your blog and can relate to the hesitation to let go of control & just trust. I resonate with your words ‘I am slowly but surely learning to accept that I am a Son of God and I can reflect his love every day.’ I can feel the depth to which this is now true for you.
Michelle, how beautiful! I can really relate to the feeling of needing to be in control, but what that truly does first is control me in a sense by reducing me down to someone living in fear and doubt. It’s a real illusion that we can be in control. I really enjoyed reading about your surrender, letting yourself feel you are part of something greater and an equal in that, and from that space why would doubt even be needed when you are surrounded by and filled with the grandness we are truly from.
I find your blog very inspiring Michelle, thank you. It’s helped me to a greater understanding on several different levels, anxiety, playing big, playing small and I will definitely be reading it again.
This is so timely for me right now Michelle. “I was anxious about letting go of being in control of the direction of my life.” When we don’t let go of control we halt the flow of life lived within our own stillness which separates us from God. Its when we return to our innate stillness that brings us clarity and spaciousness for a life lived with love.
That is beautiful and powerful Kelly Zarb. This choice is waiting for us all to make.
Great blog Michelle, I have been feeling exactly the same, how I didn’t trust my connection to God and dismissed my feelings as not being real or true … I was fighting my true feelings so that I could keep control over my life.
This sentence really stood out for me Michelle, “I was able to feel how I was actually anxious about surrendering completely to God, to saying yes to trusting in my connection to God and my divine purpose as a Son of God. I was anxious about letting go of being in control of the direction of my life.” so well said.
Yes to the above comments about surrendering completely to God and saying yes to trusting our connection and our purpose, I loved these words Michelle. I have felt the gentle breath to be so supportive as is chakra puncture, in bringing us back to simplicity, and allowing me to let go of control. It is the consistency now, to build this.
Yes, I echo your sentiments alisonmoir. “I was anxious about letting go of being in control of the direction of my life’ this is still a challenge – to surrender and trust. When I do it is such a beautiful way to be and it is building to become my default programme.
Sweet surrender – ‘I was able to feel how I was actually anxious about surrendering completely to God, to saying yes to trusting in my connection to God and my divine purpose as a Son of God. I was anxious about letting go of being in control of the direction of my life”. – in a nutshell – yes yes yes.
Debra S thank you, this quote is very powerful. On the one hand I have control, and the other the expansiveness of surrendering to God and all that I am. Control seems quite logical when I am in it, but looking at the big picture it does not support or protect me at all. In fact, what protection is there truly in being separate from God and from all that we truly are? For me control is an enticement that comes from the idea that I am small, and in that smallness survival is the key focus and self is all that exists.
I feel that I bring in anxiety to avoid surrendering and feeling that connection to God. I use excuses and bring in worry and anxiety when there is actually nothing wrong. Reading this is a great reminder to let go – when I do it feels so simple and natural.
This is yet another trick to keep us separated and as you said Michelle, anxiousness can be so subtle that we don’t even realise it’s there. I have enjoyed your blog and I have learnt alot about my own anxiousness through reading everyone else’s comments. Thank you.
Michelle, I have had the same anxiousness about surrendering to God and also had a session on this subject. I had been surrendering to this fact more and more and my body had been showing signs of anxiety and nervousness. What came up was that my body was feeling anxiousness because it was not living at the level my soul was. It there fore felt it had so much to do in order to get there, which was causing anxiousness. I had chosen to take a step up and now my body was seeing where it’s next X was. Now I’m trying to live more supportive of my body, so it can carry and allow through what I am choosing to live.
I am having a similar experience, not calling it God or son of God, but I find that stillness is the only way I can feel my essence, my love. Because love has been emotional most of my life for me. I find stillness supports me to get to the core of it all. And nowadays it is so needed as there is so much mental and emotional energy waiting to take over. I feel that my commitment to stillness has to be renewed frequently. It is not something I do in the morning and that is it. I need to keep choosing it, as my day and my quality changes enormously, if I don´t i can easily feel overwhelmed and get emotional.
This is just the perfect blog to read after a day when I’ve realised how much anxiousness I’ve let in through not choosing my connection to myself and God. I can nominate an attachment to outcomes and wanting to be seen to be doing a good job so that I may keep my job. But when I measure myself by how happy people are who I am there to invariably challenge this is even more of a call to address my false investments and certain recipe for anxiousness.
I no longer want to go down the control route of making myself small but to really feel what is it that I am anxious about. Your blog and all the comments are really supportive of this. Anxiousness isn’t a dirty secret or something that is inevitable. A wonderful reminder we are do not have to live with it or play small. I have a choice to be all of me and work with God -ok so that’s an area to look at in terms of acceptance, anxiousness etc!
Wow, Michelle, a great but exposing blog here. Thank you for sharing how anxiousness can be there in us, when we are denying that possibility. I also now realise that I also have some anxiousness deep within. As I read your blog, I could feel how I too so, so related to your words, “I was able to feel how I was actually anxious about surrendering completely to God, to saying yes to trusting in my connection to God and my divine purpose as a Son of God. I was anxious about letting go of being in control of the direction of my life.” I so thank you for exposing this yourself, which has now helped me realise that is the reason for how I have been feeling lately. I have come to the point of letting go much of the wish to control things, and have started putting events into train towards a big change in my life, but have had a deal of nausea at times, not bad, but it is there, and enough to draw me every so often to buying that usual panacea, a packet of potato chips. Obviously for the salt content (as well as that crunch). And it is amazing how awful I feel after if I have too many, but then every so often, back I am drawn. Obviously, it is to not feel that anxiousness that is in my body. I now accept that yes, I do have some anxiousness and the only way to deal with this is to face it, as you have suggested, give myself a stop time in every day to really connect quietly back to me and from there surrender to the all.
It was great to hear about your realisation on the train.. And about the little moment you gave yourself to do so…
I agree Emily, made me want to choose this also. 🙂 True inspiration.
Such a healing read Michelle, offering so much to reflect on. Everything has meaning and to allow what is happening without checking in presents many missed opportunities. This is a beautiful reflection to me and will shift old patterns I have allowed to get in the way of being with the truth that my breath connects me too. Thank you.
Michelle what you share is a familiar story for me, that of anxiousness, control and playing small – these have been my calling card. What I love though is the fact that you took the time to stop, connect and feel, allowing yourself to go deeper and really claim back the truth – I find that inspiring and a true reminder that we have all the answers within.
Can relate to that Jade. Same calling card. The beautiful thing about this story is that it can have an ending if we let go and reconnect back to the stillness and harmony that is naturally within our bodies.
Michelle, I can absolutely relate to how you are feeling, and to your choice to try another way. I’m in the same position as you right now, starting a new job, which is overwhelming and feeling anxious about the work I need to do for my side business outside of work hours. The anxiety has also had me reaching for sugar and salt and I wake up with a sore back and neck every morning. I’m giving surrendering a go by allowing each day to unfold as it needs to and doing my best to come back to me and avoid getting bogged down with details about the job I can’t possibly know so soon. As this approach is not my normal, it feels quite forced to do this, and I’m also only able to hold on to it for short bursts, but it’s certainly something I know I can build on with time. The drive to want to prove I can do the job well is what is running me more than anything, and that is really draining.
Thank you Michelle, beautiful and inspiring to read. Anxiousness about letting go of being in control of the direction in my life is something that I recognise, while reading I could feel I do stop but I sure can deepen my relationship with God and make every day about stillness.
Michelle, I could relate totally to your statement about giving yourself the space to feel held ‘in an embrace so warm and loving and had an absolute sense of knowing that God is always with me, within me’. The truly powerful message here is that we look away from God, he never leaves us. My anxiousness is always related to allowing myself to become distracted from my true self worth, only available via my union with God. Purpose and commitment are naturally there. Thank you for this awesome sharing!
What you have shared Michelle I am sure many can relate to. Isn’t it interesting how life flows when we surrender to the truth of who we are, trust in ourselves, trust in God – all is and feels great. Then as soon as we try to manipulate life or control it, the anxiousness & stress kicks in. Our bodies are an amazing marker of wisdom guiding us to what is true and supportive and what is not.
Yes Marika , bring in control and manipulation and the beautiful connection to ourselves and God that we naturally have cannot be there with us.
Thank you Michelle, I deeply appreciate what you have offered here, I can see that it would be supportive for me to consider God’s presence and support in my day to day as well. The support that comes from this connection is quiet, unimposing support which just sits and waits for us to drop into its’ embrace. When I do, I feel so held and time and space expand around me. When I don’t consciously appreciate that support and connection, I feel pressure and alone even though I can be surrounded by people.
Michelle that is so beautiful. You now have a market to return to each time you choose to be with God and what I could feel quite strongly is that when we build this relationship, we don’t ‘opt out’ as much. This allows us to be more consistent with our Stillness and therefore with God. I can feel lots of pearls in the piece of writing – the way I have kept myself small, by not letting God in fully. I can say that I completely and totally know God is there, but my relationship with him is weak and so I too feel the anxiousness of ‘doing it alone’ sometimes, when in truth it does not have to be like that nor are we designed to be this way. You have inspired me to look at my relationship with God, to have more ‘stops’ in my day and to ponder further on what it means to be his son – very beautiful!
Donna what I’m coming to realise is that part of re-establishing and deepening our relationship with God is to be expressing about this relationship until it becomes natural and normal. I feel we still shy away from fully appreciating God in our lives because we’ve all been swayed by the beliefs and ideals of religion rather than the truth of God.
What a lovely sense of being held with god. The depth and level of stillness offered to you and to all of us when we stop and connect is grand and you have shared this so well in your blog.
We long for someone to hold us and let us feel everything is going to be ok, but God is offering us this 24 hours a day 7 days a week without fail. He is always there waiting patiently for our imminent return.
He is the most patient being that I know, and all that I have done that has not been so great is never held against me.
Gorgeous Michelle thank you for this deeply inspiring blog. In all you have shared here I can recognise in my life too, it is in disconnecting from my stillness that requires an anxiousness to carry on without it. Yet in connection with my gentle breath my relationship with me and with God builds, and to me nothing can come close to that.
Thank you for this inspirational take on anxiousness Michelle…like you I wasnt aware of being anxious – nervous, overwhelmed or stressed at times sure but not anxious. However over time I too have come to realise that my whole life has been constantly run by an underlying anxiousness related to self worth – very subtle but there all the same. It has been great to read your perceptions of this in relation to God which is inspiring me to look more deeply at this also.
I’ve come to realise — and this has been with the amazing support of chakra puncture — that whereas the stillness comes from within me, anxiousness is something outside of me that I then call in and identify with. Anxiousness is a state I choose as a result of it being ‘familiar’, and it can often be the end-result and choice of a number of previous choices that lead to anxiety. Unravelling this, and realising that ultimately it is a state that is not innate in me but something that I actually choose — and can therefore not choose — has been hugely liberating and empowering.
Yes Katarina – Anxiousness is nothing what truly belongs to me – but stillness comes from within. And I found that by open up for anxiousness (leaving my stillness), I open up a door through which a lot of other crap then can enter – thoughts of doubt, lowering and judgment, as example. And coming back to my stillness is closing this door again.
This is very helpful Katerina, thank you.
Katerina, I love how you have highlighted the fact that we bring in the anxiousness and that this is not who we are. This makes it very clear it is actually a choice we make – to live from our stillness or to reject all that we are and identify with anxiety.
Thank you Katerina for this reminder today that anxiousness is always a choice. Just like you share it can feel ‘familiar’ because I have lived a life long in anxiousness and I haven’t mastered it yet. I know the stillness is always waiting there for us when we choose to be with God.
How awesome to have this understanding Katerina. Empowering and liberating indeed.
Thank you, Katerina, for making it absolutely clear that anxiousness is a choice and not something we are a victim of although when we are caught in it we feel at its mercy. That raises the question of why do we choose or allow it, what purpose does it serve, why have we made it something so familiar when it is not supportive at all to feel at ease and confident?
Yes Alex, anxiousness is a very familiar ‘go-to’ place that we visit when we don’t want to feel and face up to what is presenting itself to us– life in the raw. It is employed by us a a ‘comfort’ even though it is a highly ‘uncomfortable ‘place to be. But it is familiar and so we go there – it is as if the buzz, undermining and confusion that happens with anxiousness provides a ceaseless static that says, ‘I don’t want to feel that, I just don’t want to fee that!’ But eventually we will have to feel what is there to be felt.
Yes, I agree with you Alex and Lyndy. Anxiousness is a very old familiar place to resort to when holding back from feeling the true reason for the underlying tension. Nowadays I can feel this and know I can make a choice – to be with my breath and my body or the anxiousness.
I agree Katerina, its amazing that we actually choose this state of being and call it in. Then have to find the myriad of ways to surppress or numb it!
Anxiousness as a result of a series of choices Katerina is great to point out- I find this too. It often starts with going onto auto-pilot, day dreaming and my mind wandering instead staying on task and before long complications arise, maybe I run short of time, feel pressured to rush and then comes in the anxiousness. Understanding anxiousness is chosen I would also describe as liberating and empowering.
Absolutely gorgeous and very inspiring Michelle…the fact is we are always part of God, it’s just that we choose to ignore or avoid it. He is always there waiting for us to come back to who we naturally are – a Son of God
It really is amazing the lengths that we go to, to avoid God’s love and avoid shinning bright as a sun of God.
This is so beautiful Michelle – “When I make my days about stillness, God and all of me, then nothing is too big”
Yes, Jane, this stillness and knowing God deeply is the best foundation for every day.
Absolutely Jane, this is one stunning blog!
“Anxiousness, Stillness, God and Me”- Michelle, your blog was such a delight to read and feel. The level of intimacy you have developed with your breath/the gentle breath meditation, feeling your body, nominating and calling out what you feel, connecting to your innate stillness and the feeling of God within you are ALL profoundly touching and inspiring. Your blog offers a gorgeous illustration of some of the deeply healing benefits and life changing opportunities those simple techniques have on offer for us all.
Alexandra, I know that after many years of studying with Universal Medicine it’s easy for me to forget the power of the very simple gentle breath meditation but it has been the key to many changes in my life. Now it’s available for all to access http://www.unimedliving.com/meditation/free/meditation-for-beginners/introductory-gentle-breath-meditation.html
‘It never ceases to amaze me how simple it is to get a sense of clarity when one chooses to be in the gentleness and stillness of one’s breath.’
Michelle I really get what you mean. I have this saying ‘Is it God’s Plan or my Plan? When its my plan I can feel a drive and an anxiety and when its God’s Plan there is a deep stillness that I am called upon to feel and allow. God’s plan is far more expansive and greater than anything I could ever ‘create’. I just have to get still, let go and trust. 🙂
I like your saying Kathryn about ‘is it gods plan or my plan’. When it is gods plan everything just flows and when it is our plan there is always a force behind it that is not us and fraught with opportunities to go wrong.
That is beautiful Kathryn – I’ll remember that. I’m now referring to it as being in business with God – he’s the best business partner.
Love it Kathryn ‘Is it God’s Plan or my Plan?’ such a simple way to expose the ways that I try to control my life and how this leads to anxiousness and overwhelm. Great reminder that the choice to re-connect us always just a breath away.
I love your saying kathrynfortuna, “Is it God’s Plan or my Plan?”. I know that drive and anxiety which for me becomes like a push when I am caught up in my plan, there is none of that with God’s Plan as you say. Let go and trust.
Hello Michelle and this is a very timely blog about ‘anxiousness and stillness’. This is a great way to look at anxiousness and I can relate, “I was anxious about letting go of being in control of the direction of my life.” Then to add another piece of gold, “Trying to control life has therefore been about making it seem smaller and manageable. In truth, I have been trying to keep myself smaller and less than what I truly am – a Son of God, equal in all love and glory to him.” Another quote from you to finish, “When I make my days about stillness, God and all of me, then nothing is too big; there is no need to go into anxiousness, doubting what I am capable of. My days are simpler, fuller, joyous, and my connection to God is felt within and reflected in everything around me.” This blog Michelle is a road map through anxiety and the ‘why’ it’s there, thank you.
The way you describe the stillness as “an embrace so warm and loving” feels so appropriate Michelle. Although it can be lovely to hug another, do we truly enjoy and let ourselves melt in their arms? It feels so beautiful when we do. It seems the same resistance is at play with God and embracing us in this way too. Here’s to living everyday surrendered to our natural warmth and stillness.
Oh just gorgeous Joseph. I melted in someone’s arms the other day, and how could anyone ever talk about chocolate melting in their mouth in the face of such a heart-melting hug.
Michelle, I feel like you have delivered something big right to my mailbox with your blog. There are many parts that I felt related to my experience with anxiousness but what struck me particularly was the notion of anxiousness helping me to hide and stay small, rather than trust and surrender in acceptance of myself, love and God. Thank you.
I can really relate to living with anxiousness and about not trusting in my connection and the divine purpose as a Son of God. Controlling life, instead of surrendering to the flow of life has also come up for me too, so this blog is timely, another level where I need to go. Thank you Michelle.
This is wonderful Michelle and such a timely read for me. I have recently realised that I too have had an underlying anxiousness running my body for many years with many unpleasant consequences, but I have now learned to make stopping and being with me, even for a minute or two, so essential, as it brings me back to me so very quickly – in fact I am still amazed by how quickly. And it is in this stop, in this stillness, that all the answers are waiting This the moment that my body speaks to me so very clearly and reminds me that I am not alone but that God is with me, within me, and together there is nothing that we cannot heal.
Really beautiful Michelle. It has me wondering if anxiousness is largely there when we focus on the day to day ‘stuff’ rather than surrendering to and accepting ourselves in all our grandness.
How beautiful is it that you were able to take what you got from your Chakra-puncture session deeper and actually get to the point where you were able to feel your relationship with God. This is profound.
Hello Elizabeth Dolan this is the blessing of this wonderful modality, http://www.universalmedicine.net/chakra-puncture.html. The fact that you walk out of the session clear to make the next choice. So you can go back into the patterns that may not have supported you or you can choose a ‘new’ way of living with whatever issue is in front of you. This modality is one of my favourites because of the support it has given me and the way I feel around the treatments. It is one solid point of connection. Thank you Elizabeth.
All of what you have shared shows how powerful the healing of the chakra puncture modality, the practitioner who was on the mark and self being open to healing can be. From one question being asked about anxiousness and an honesty in feeling into this question you have unraveled a pattern of control and been able to strengthen your connection to God. Awesome how we can create a space of such clarity when we become so still and open.
Thank you for sharing this beautiful example of the clarity on offer when we connect to our stillness. I love the connection you have shared and the realisation of the equality that exists between all.
Michelle I never thought that I suffered from anxiousness. I used to think that the fearfulness or uneasiness I felt were just part of life. Looking back I think the dreadful migraines I experienced for years were a way of telling me that all was not well. The gentle breadth, the reconnection with myself has truly transformed my life in the simplest but very telling things like not waging war on my fingers. I’m no longer ashamed of using my hands, in fact I take great care of them after so many years of abuse.
Michelle, one of this things I had never even considered doing in my life before I discovered Universal Medicine, was to just stop and reflect. O how I felt, on my day, on what had happened. To do this, to make time to do this, has changed my life profoundly. Hearing your story about how you stopped to recognise the control that was in the way of allowing life to flow is exactly the hurdle I have come up against and continue to come up against. But it is only with my ability to stop that I can really see the choices I have to make.
What a remedy for anxiousness, one that people and our established medical care would do well to know about, as such a large % of the population experience anxiousness and may not even be aware; just like you shared in the beginning of your blog.
thank you michelle for this inspiring view on anxiousness, I can feel how anxiousness affects my days very much. It is something I have come normal with but can feel that there is indeed a deeper lying fear of losing control, thank you for this inspirational blog, to look deeper at the cause of anxiety.
That’s wonderful Michelle, that you have nominated your anxiousness and taken the all important steps to connect to your stillness, and it is in those moments that you feel the Stillness of God.
I had a realisation today driving home from work, I realised that if everything that we have ever been is with us right now, in the present, then if we can honour and acknowledge that we are already ‘IT’, that we are Sons of God in all our glory, but we are just choosing to not feel it, or accept it right now. This also made me realise how dishonouring it is to doubt myself, because how can I doubt myself as a Son of God? These doubting thoughts are not coming from a place of Love so they cannot be the real me, it is just an ongoing, moment to moment process calling out the what is not me, and consistently taking myself back into the stillness and out of the deeply embedded grove of anxiety and self-doubt that is not me either. Thank you Michelle, for in stillness we will all evolve together.
I like how you are making it a little ritual to connect deeply with yourself every day.
I have suffered some anxiety most of my life, and I have never connected it to the relationship I have with God. I have always had the feeling it was about not trusting enough. But in actual fact, not-trusting is a sign of not being connected to, or surrendering to God, which is in and and around us in constant flow. It feels like this blog has given me a deeper understanding of my own anxiety. Thank you Michelle.
Thank you Michelle, this is a timely read as this I could feel an anxiety this morning in myself that had not been present fro a few weeks. On reading this and what I was faced with today I understand and can relate to what has been shared. I can feel the anxiety arises when I lose sight of the bigger picture and think I have to be in control, rather than just allowing and accepting my connection to myself and God.
I’m sure many people struggle with “..letting go of being in control of the direction of my life.” You have shown that by doing this we only make ourselves smaller, but by connecting to ourselves and surrendering to God we start to experience the knowledge and wisdom that is available to us all.
This is huge Michelle and so beautiful. It could not have been more perfectly timed for me to read either as only yesterday I too was feeling this and your clarity has made it much clearer for me. Beneath the anxiousness I felt a fear and a resistance to letting go, another aspect of control to be aware of that I’ve been shaking off recently. As you say, once I did and connected back to me, the magic was within which confirmed to me ‘how simple it is to get a sense of clarity when one chooses to be in the gentleness and stillness of one’s breath.’ It is indeed powerful and grand and to know it’s always possible where ever we get to. Thank you for sharing and how this has unfolded for you since. There are so many gems here in what you’ve come to.
What a blessing to read this. There is indeed a connection between anxiousness and not feeling God. This is an eye-opener!
This line: “Trying to control life has therefore been about making it seem smaller and manageable.” stood out for me as it made me realise that I have been doing this too! Trying to lessen my workload, work less hours, do less to gain space in my day. But I have learned that is not the way, it does not work. It is about the quality I do things in, it is about if I am thinking about the next thing already when I am doing what I am doing at the moment! And absolutely about being connected to stillness inside of me, this is the most vitalising nutrient I know. What you added that it is about feeling I am a Son of God is beautiful and something I will start to feel into as well. Thank you Michelle.
Great illusions you expose there, Lieke: that its not about cutting down on things that creates space, which becomes exclusive, but rather it is about the quality of us in our action / movement that creates space ( and that quality is completely inclusive!) Cool! I didnt know i knew that until I read your comment, Lieke, and responded 🙂
Lieke – making things small and manageable have not worked for me either- in fact it makes it much easier to drift and take longer to do things as just as you found- the quality gets lost, my mind wanders more instead of focusing on what is at hand to be done. This week I felt how in presence and especially choosing to pay attention to detail there is so much more space- the choice part is key as otherwise I tend to find it is a superficial or even feigned presence.
Wow such a beautiful blog to read and exactly what I have been feeling over the weekend. How much I have been trying to everything on my own and not allowing support from Love and God, whilst it is always there as you say.
What a great clue Lieke, when overwhelm or anxiousness comes up, we could ask ourselves ‘Are we trying and believing we need to do this on our own?’
That is beautifully asked Aimee. I have been living like that for ages, feeling like I had to do it all on my own and keeping people out. I am now finding how exhausting this is and it feels much more enjoyable to live with other people with an open heart and allow others to support me.
With a simple reflection and stop each day can change.. Amazing!
What I find most interesting about what you have shared here Michelle is how the anxiousness was there living and you were so used to it you did not even realise how anxious you were. This is placing huge tension on our bodies and I am sure it is not good to live like this at all let alone long term. When we are away from ourselves and thus living in separation to God, anxiousness is there as we are not designed to work and live in this way.
It’s true Joshua… And how many of our choices are steered by this underlying anxiousness that we are not even aware of?
Is our food, lifestyle, relationship, exercise, work and sleep choices chosen from our connection with ourselves, and therefore stillness; or from anxiousness??
Would we even need certain substances and foods if anxiousness wasn’t running the show? So many foods disturb our stillness, however we cannot identify them and make different choices until we deal with our anxiousness.
Anxiousness is terribly depleting and debilitating. I would not have described myself as an anxious person but I discovered it was there, sitting at very subtle level, but there none the less, constantly running and therefore constantly draining and keeping me from feeling truth, and my own loveliness.
Yes, I too, rosannabianchini, have realised that anxiety is there deep within, and it is now time to accept and deal with it.
Michelle, your blog is very relatable. At times I can flip between living with stillness and the knowing the presence of God and the subtle twinge of anxiousness, like having a foot in each camp, as the saying goes. Just being aware of this and feeling it in my body gives me the opportunity to address it. The more I pull myself up, it builds the foundation that can see how and what pulls me back. For me the antidote is the self caring ways that guarantee me the stop and re-connection.
There are so many gems in this blog, very inspiring. I am also feeling deeper layers of anxiousness lately and what you have written makes so much sense, thank you. “Letting go of being in control of the direction of my life”, well, that sums it up pretty well.
It makes sense to me too Mariette,I thought I had let go of a lot of control in my life, but reading the blog I can feel I am still scrabbling to hold on to the last vestiges of it.
Me too Catherine, I am also seeing where I still use control in different areas of my life and where I want to decide what is going to happen and how this looks like. It shows me where I still think that life is about me and not about humanity. It is those subtle forms of control that I am seeing now and that have just the same impact as the non-subtle ones hi hi. It is all control, subtle or not subtle.
There are so many gems in the blog, very inspiring. I am also feeling deeper layers of anxiousness lately and what you have written makes so much sense, thank you. “Letting go of being in control of the direction of my life”, well, that sums it up pretty well.
“Letting go of being in control of the direction of my life”, it does sum it up Mariette. Knowing that the direction is already plained out and that there is only one direction we need to remember in order to follow it, and that is the direction of God. It take the control out of life and brings in the trust.
Claimed, claimed, claimed. Gloriously so.
Perhaps the overwhelm that we feel when it all gets too ‘big’ and too much, comes from the fact that we are not living the ‘bigness’ that we actually are. From where we currently stand here on Earth, nothing is bigger than God. Therefore if we stand with God, we can feel that we are a part of this bigness, we are held by it and we emanate it. If however, we stand apart from God, we are still held by him but we now have a sense of the ‘gap’ we have created by our step back from this fullness.
It is through this ‘gap’ that overwhelm enters and everything gets too ‘big’, too quickly…hence the anxiousness. If instead we make the choice to live ‘all of us in full’, then it leaves very little to no room to let anything that is not the true and full us, such as anxiety and doubt, take over the space that we are not filling. We are not naturally anxious by nature, but many of us suffer with anxiety and because it is so common, it soon becomes viewed as the ‘norm’. But this is not our true normal. Our true normal is that we are love, and there is simply no space for anxiousness in a body of love, as all the space is occupied already. Therefore, anxiousness is a foreign object that we have learnt to identify with and although it is very real, it is not who we really are.
Know who you are and by virtue of this, you will know who you are not.
Love it Liane, It is so true, even to think of ourselves held in God’s love is allowing a gap. Yes, it is true we are always held in God’s love but what you have shared, that if we consider ourselves, know ourselves to be we are equal to that, then there is less space to be filled by anything other than love – anything else is a foreign object. What a way to start the day – not just with a thought for the day but a way to change your relationship to what has been considered normal. These blogs and the comments that come from them really are extraordinary.
Beautifully said, Liane, thank you. Yes, “know who you are and by virtue of this, you will know who you are not”. That is key, and giving ourselves the stop time that Michelle has suggested in each day, is the way that we come to realise just how great and able AND WHO we truly are. How easy it is truly to deal with this level of anxiety we are talking about.
Such wise words Liane, thank you for making me aware of the ‘gap’ I create for myself and the signs of when I’m in anxiousness.
So true Liane. We live in a way that makes our own shoes appear too big to fill – because we have not walked with the greatness we are. We look at our ‘small’ footprints and then ‘forget’ our true size, and that our shoes are actually perfect for us, and never too big when we stand and walk naturally, step by step – with God.
Well said, Liane, yes it is easy to go into overwhelm but I feel too that is because as you say: ‘ we are not living the ‘bigness’ that we actually are’. So if we can appreciate our grandness and equally see that in all others anxiousness eventually disappears.
Thank you Liane, my awareness of anxiousness and overwhelm now is a signal to what I have stepped away from. From your words here, either way I fill my body with something, the only choice I have is with what.
Liane- what you write is hot! ‘Perhaps the overwhelm that we feel when it all gets too ‘big’ and too much, comes from the fact that we are not living the ‘bigness’ that we actually are.” and “Know who you are and by virtue of this, you will know who you are not.”
This has been exactly how I have come to identify when I have become anxious, by re-familiarising myself with who I am, the steadiness of who I am reveals the agitation of anxiousness and I am able to understand why it has arisen and the falsity of who I am not that was starting to outplay in my body. The Universal Medicine modalities and Gentle Breath Meditation have been instrumental in re-connecting to who I am.
When we don’t accept the scale of our grandness, we play small. We effectively ‘shrink’ ourselves and then we have to ‘shrink’ the world in order to fit better in it. This is pure illusion and it is how we fall for reductionist thinking every time. But as you so beautifully say Michelle: “Trying to control life has therefore been about making it seem smaller and manageable. In truth, I have been trying to keep myself smaller and less than what I truly am – a Son of God, equal in all love and glory to him.” – Play big and watch the world expand to the size it always was.
Brilliant Liane. Super inspiring. Thank you
I love that, Liane: “Play big and watch the world expand to the size it always was” It has me laughing in confirmation of its truth!
Dear Michelle thank you for an insightful take on anxiousness. Anxiousness is one of the most common mental health conditions today. It is rare if not impossible to find someone who has not experienced some form of anxiousness. Unfortunately most go undiagnosed, as you yourself have stated you were unaware of your underlying anxiousness. For most we think only of the major signs and symptoms of anxiety, which include; inability to breath and rapid heart rates, similar to having a heart attack, yet there are so many more subtler signs that we can often miss. The key point here being we become anxious when we feel the inability to cope with something or feel we are unable to express and make our case. What you have beautifully shown is that it is simpler to connect to our reasons for being anxious than most would assume and hence be able to deal with them. By connecting to ourselves and giving ourselves that space, there is very little that is not known to us.
Thank you for your ‘expertise’ comment here, Caroline. Anxiousness it a symptom that is much more experienced than we realize. I love how both you and Michelle point out that feeling anxious comes from feeling unable to cope with something or unable to express and make our case and all we have to do is connect to ourselves, give ourselves space and start expressing what we feel. In allowing that we connect to God and our inner wisdom.
Caroline anxiousness is rife in teenagers at my school. Many don’t see it as an issue because everyone has it and often teachers are reflecting anxiousness in their teaching. When I present the gentle breath meditation they see it as too simple and dismiss it. I have had students sit outside in the courtyard near the room and gently breath and come in and say they feel so much better now, but it is something they still see as too easy to really fix something that has such a large momentum in their lives. There often isn’t an openness to feel what they are also feeling anxious about, it is just accepted that this is what people feel. I feel anxiousness is a real concern for many young people and it is becoming incredibly common. Blogs like these will offer support to people and give insight into claiming back their power and letting go of the control of their lives.
I am only beginning to learn the truth of your statement Caroline, ‘Michelle, I could relate totally to your statement about giving yourself the space to feel held ‘in an embrace so warm and loving and had an absolute sense of knowing that God is always with me, within me’. The truly powerful message here is that we look away from God, he never leaves us. My anxiousness is always related to allowing myself to become distracted from my true self worth, only available via my union with God. Purpose and commitment are naturally there. Thank you for this awesome sharing!
This is my experience too Caroline – “By connecting to ourselves and giving ourselves that space, there is very little that is not known to us.”
Caroline thank you for your comment. This is very true for me in that I was unaware for many years of my own anxiousness, I also had my Universal Medicine practitioner suggest to me I might have this. In this moment as I deepened my awareness of my body I was surprised to realise I did, but it had been there so long and had become my own “norm” that I did not even realise I was experiencing it. Because I had the support to identify it I was able to get to the cause and sort it out. Now I feel a greater sense of calm and also ability to identify anxiety when it does return for a new reason.
Thank you Caroline you sharing just how common anxiousness is. I was one of those people that was highly anxious in many situations and had no idea I was and did not display the common physical characteristics associated with anxiousness, in fact if you had asked me I would not have been able to even tell you what it was beyond being nervous. The key point you have explained makes understanding it simple and from my own experience this is empowering as I now not only detect anxiousness far faster and more easily I can also manage and shift it out of my system (my body) too. These days I can catch anxiousness sneaking in when I have more to do than I feel time to do it in and with a little awareness I can call it for what it is.
“Trying to control life has therefore been about making it seem smaller and manageable. ” Wow – this blog is revolutionary because I can feel that this attempt to control life actually keeps our view restricted. We cannot see beyond the tiny and usually miserable little world we create for ourselves. This is absurd when we consider how amazing we are in truth and how beautiful and expansive life can be if we choose to surrender to God and the divine plan.
This line stood out for me as well Leonne, how control keeps things and myself small. I can also have these moments of ‘oh it is too much, too big’ and then I go into this comfort and I try to manage everything. But then I limit myself because the more I let go, I find out that the more I am capable of. God, life and we are all limitless. And big beyond words.
Mariette your words are profound – the more I let go, I find out that the more I am capable of. These words are really powerful to me right now. I feel I need to go deeper with what you have presented. Thank you, you’re right, we are limitless. When we connect with ourselves and God everything we need is available to us.
So true Leonne. When we try to control we break our life down into these tiny little chunks with such a narrow focus that we think we have control over, yet we miss the bigger picture and through this control do not allow the connection and flow that is possible when we are open and connected to our stillness.
So true, Lee – isn’t that what we “Science”? That breaking things into little pieces to study it and ‘understand’ it??
Leonne that’s what I find quite strange; that we seem to hang on to a way that serves up a world that can be miserable at times or keeps us small and yet we accept this often and fear letting go of control. Time and time again many of us are being reminded to trust in the divine plan and to let go of the control of our lives and be open to co-creation.
Hi Leonne, that line stuck me as well today and I was like WOAH, yep I do that. I love that control in my life is being exposed and that I am learning more and more and more that it is no longer needed in my life and letting it go. Surrendering to the greater wisdom that exists within all of us and the Universe. God and the divine plan.
Beautifully expressed Leonne, it’s so true. We create our own tunnel-visioned view of life, restricted and constricted instead of seeing and accepting the expansiveness we can all actually live in.
PERFECTLY said Leonne – it has inspired me to connect more deeply with my Stillness in order to see the grandness of our Glory and our Purpose.
Yes Leonne, well said, ‘the tiny miserable world we create for ourselves’! We may even think this is ‘good’ till we see beyond and how much more there is to life.
Reading your sharing of your experience Michelle is absolute proof that God is there for us in every moment. It’s just us that leave us but the divine never does. Tonight I have been particularly anxious. And I realised just a moment before reading your blog it was because I’m scared of really being seen if I commit to something big in service. I took a glance at my in box and there I read your blog title. Thank you and God for bringing me such a loving reflection to just gently return to my own breath as I read. Such simple loving support and I feel the anxiousness clear… life is full of wonderful miracles if we don’t shut ourselves out from our connection with God.
What a perfectly timed read for you Sandra. I find that happens to me so often. I will be feeling or experiencing something and then boom, there is a blog I read that supports me to see things clearer or assists me in some way. It’s so beautiful to have so many reflections and inspirations in my life. It is amazing to always be reminded by the simplest choice to choose a gentle breath can have the most profound outcome.
Hello Sandra Williamson and I get what you are saying and I agree. When we say “something big in service” I don’t see this is true. In what you are saying and what this blog is about is feeling what is next and doing that, a true connection to the divine plan, God and everything. So any one thing isn’t bigger than another, it’s just another step along the path of the plan. It feels if we make one step bigger than another it puts pressure on and we want to control to ‘make sure’ everything happens. But as Michelle exposes this leads to anxiety and puts you off track because you are no longer trusting what you are feeling, more trying to make it happen so everything works out. What is important is to appreciate what you are seeing and the steps you take, this appreciation is a foundation to step on solidly. Thank you Sandra.
Yes – i had direct experience of that this morning, Ray: I made a forthcoming presentation more important than my morning routine and found myself ‘rehearsing’ it until I clocked it. Then the thing was re scheduled so I had missed out on the opportunity for self appreciation by focussing on something bigger that didn’t happen. Hmmmm….definitely moment thy moment is the way to go ….and NOT anticipation by anticipation.
I do appreciate my realisation of this, though 🙂
Hello coleen24 and I love this, “Hmmmm….definitely moment thy moment is the way to go ….and NOT anticipation by anticipation.” Another important part of what you are saying is appreciation, appreciation and appreciation.
Ray, such a treat to read how you explain this in your words and clearly so. It is an insidious habit (of mine and others) to place more significance on one thing over another. I can feel within I even want to compartmentalise this and say okay all of these things – x, y, and z are equally important and these ‘other’ things are less so. The popular and somewhat cultural notion of goal setting is another underhanded way we can go through life making one thing more significant than another. I have lived much of my life placing importance on a few things to the detriment of many other aspects and can verify it creates pressure, anxiety and makes life a right spin.
Hello Deanne Voysey, thank you. When we focus on ‘something’ ahead or as we are saying place an importance or significance on this ‘something’ then it can discard the steps along the way, we only have one thing in mind. As we say, every step is important, every connection, that way no matter what you step too ‘it’ will be ‘it’ because the path you walked has confirmed and assured that. In simpler terms if life is about connecting, that any moment you spend connected will lead to the next moment being the same, you will be in the momentum of that. The “pressure and anxiety” comes from us leaving our connection to get somewhere or to achieve the goal ahead. It is not that we don’t see things that could be but the road we travel is part of that. You can confirm what is ahead by connecting every moment together. Thank you Deanne.
I’m the same Sandra, I’m affraid of being seen as well if I commit to God. I’m affraid of standing out and people noticing that I am different so I find ways to hide, to not be seen, to not stand out. This creates anxiousness in my body as I always need to be one step ahead to control the holding back from life so to not be seen. It’s very exhausting and isolating. However when I do let go and feel my body and do as my body feels everything that needs to be done is achieved, I feel vital and I feel apart of this world and I want to connect with people. Not once do I feel like I’m standing out and I no longer want to hide. I feel connected to God and I feel connected to humanity.
Michelle when you say “I was anxious about letting go of being in control of the direction of my life” all I can say is tell me about it! This hits the nail right on the head… but seriously… if life is not about planning for our future for the security of ourselves and our families than what is it about exactly? And if I truly surrender to God then how will I know life will work out in the future if I am not controlling where it is heading every step of the way? This is the grip that playing small and not embracing God has had on me and it has created an enormous anxiety and tension in my body and my being.
But as I have walked through life of late and as I now start to let go of my control, the life that has been unfolding before me has become increasingly more successful, more loving, more joyful, more full, more fortunate, more rich and more fulfilling than I have ever imagined… as now I see when we work with God we have the entire universe working for us.
Awesome comment Dean ‘as now I see when we work with God we have the entire universe working for us.’ This is so beautiful and I know in the depth of my body this is an absolute truth, surrendering and letting go we are fully taken care of.
Brilliant Dean. It feels to me like many of us have a deep pattern of wanting to control our lives and to protect ourselves with the security that we have been led to believe will protect us. By living this way we don’t allow a space for the presence of God to impulse our next move, which is always in co-creation and not creation. It is beautiful to see the reflections and stories that are being shared of people who are letting go of the anxiousness and control and choosing to be a part of the divine plan, even if they don’t know what that looks like.
I hear you Dean, especially the part about security. I so get now how when we don’t feel we are ‘enough’, then of course we are constantly seeking reassurance that we are and so the drive for financial security makes much more sense to me now, but what a trap it is and it definitely keeps us small. What I also love as these comments come in is that we are all starting to have conversations where it is normal to talk about our relationship with God, like we’re re-introducing his true presence to the world, thanks to Serge Benhayon. And you’re right, working with God is the best business to be in.
Being in control of the direction of my life has never occurred to me that it is a form of anxiousness. Maybe because I’ve been to preoccupied perfecting my life in advance. I’ve been trying to do it all on my own instead of allowing and accepting God into my life which then as you said Dean we have the entire universe working for us. Letting go of the control is hard for me but when I do let go and just be it’s amazing what I achieve and I don’t feel drained I feel more alive.
It’s funny, if we look at this topic in reverse, from the inside out and remember the FACT that we know exactly how the universe works in harmony within all of its parts (simply because we are made of it ourselves, encoded by it) then it follows that at some level we deliberately ignore God in favour of our individuality – the unloving kind of individuality I mean. And that is the stark reality of it. Not said as an invitation to encourage self-punishment (more delay) but as a simple truth. We are always in the driver’s seat opting to ignore what makes us tick in favour of a pimple-sized version of ourselves.
So then what exactly is my potential? And just how much power have I stuffed down in order to (try and) control my life and squeeze into this tiny picture I have settled on as my self?
Dean I find it hard to believe that you would have ‘settled’ on a tiny picture of yourself. Tricked into believing you had settled, yes and once we are aware we have been fooled then this makes us more aware of our surrounds and we start to tune into our own essence. This essence is us, it’s God and it’s the universe. It’s huge but when we are in our individuality we become small and turn small things into big issues. Maybe we can make energy expand but we have misinterpreted energy for emotions and we expand them instead.
Good point Lindell. I wouldn’t be on this web site if I had settled for the tiny picture.
Wow, Dean, I love your honesty here. I so, so relate to this – “And if I truly surrender to God then how will I know life will work out in the future if I am not controlling where it is heading every step of the way?” Yes, this is huge, we are so used to wanting to be in control ourselves and have such a huge fear of what will happen if we just let go that wish to control. For me, now, the big word is TRUST, that all will be okay if I totally surrender to God. Still a work in progress for me, have definitely loosened the reins, but I so want to be able to totally let go that wish to control. Yet I can see (and have had little experiences of it) just how more loving, especially joyful, fulfilling and true a way of life I am heading for. As you say “now I see when we work with God we have the entire universe working for us”. Such a beautiful comment from you, I thank you.
The question is… Is our fear of losing control really warranted? Or is that part of game to ignore what we already know deep within our bones.
Dean, said grip has a STRONG hold on us. I can also absolutely relate to feeling as though letting the control go means being irresponsible in respect to my future. But I can see how much my control holds me back. Experimenting with allowing and trusting the process to unfold is a far more enjoyable way of living. I am in my early days of this experiement, so I’m only getting snippits of what this can feel like, while the controlling habit is the more dominant way. I will continue to choose to surrender as best I can and with time I know it will override the old pattern of behaviour.
Yes, I’m in the same boat everyone: how much to control, how much to surrender and trust; how much IS my responsibility? I do know when I do let go. it feels beautiful and very much like home. And then the control can kick in again so I have another merry go round ride until I accept the impulse to surrender again. It’s awesome that we are going through this together and supporting each other with our sharings.
This is beautiful Michelle. Thank you. I’m speechless.
Michelle, this was beyond perfection for me to read at this moment. I was hearing a conversation about anxiousness, and also feeling it in my body. I had felt today that I was searching for my connection with God externally, and what I came back to was ‘Hello, God is equal in you, remember’. I now can feel my way forward with it, in bringing greater commitment to redeveloping and deepening stillness as part of my daily rhythm. Surrender is a powerful word, so no wonder there is so much resistance to it.
I agree Amelia. Surrender and trust – huge words with lots of resistance – the opposite to control. And yes, looking outside for the connection that is within rather than seeing the outside as confirmation of that which is within.
I’ve been pondering a bit on ‘surrender’ lately too Amelia and it’s something we are not taught about at all. As soon as there is something bringing a tension in our lives it is labelled as a problem or issue and therefore a solution will be found somewhere. We seem to live in a constant merry go round of problem – fit it – problem – fix it without ever stopping to feel what might truly be going on. Perhaps part of the issue is we haven’t been allowed to know what we can surrender to as God has been packaged in a very specific way to keep us away from our divine wisdom.
It is beautiful and inspiring to feel how you are learning to allow and embody God / unconditional love.
What a beautiful sharing Michelle. Love how you have come to understand that your anxiousness was about letting go of being in control of the direction of your life. It is so insidious how we learn tho take control of life instead of living life and being guided by divine impulse. Its like holding a very heavy steering wheel that is very unstable and wants to go in whatever direction all the time and we are trying to hold it straight. Its so exhausting and we waste more energy on holding against it and controlling than on truly living. To surrender to God and live by God’s impulse has been the most beautiful understanding I have got from Serge Benhayon as the living example of a true Son of God on earth.
Love this Rachel: “to surrender to God and live by God’s impulse has been the most beautiful understanding I have got from Serge Benhayon as the living example of a true Son of God on earth”. This makes me want to further explore what it really means to live by God’s impulse in my life.
wow Michelle, your drop into stillness can be tangibly felt, and so can the anxiousness. I know exactly what you mean. Realising that we have an anxiousness even ever so slightly underneath everything we do is a scary wake up call. But as you have described, you felt deeper into it, and it was because you did not accept yourself as the Son of God and couldn’t walk around knowing this, and hence anxious because life seems unmanagable without the power of God (within us).
Yes, if we try to ‘take life on’ on our own, of course we feel anxious and unable to cope with it all. It is only when we surrender to the immense support of stillness and connection within us that we realise there is nothing ‘to take on’ or ‘manage’, but simply a natural flow that we are a part of.
Michelle, what you write sounds simple and great. That is all you have to do and over time it will get easier and easier. This is beautiful.
Thank you sharing Michelle, so often we can fool or trick ourselves into thinking we are somewhere where we are not or we are doing ok so do not need to look at or address something. Whereas what I have learnt from the teachings presented by Universal Medicine is that if we use love as our marker than anything less then love is not love and so comes up to be looked at.
I agree, we can often make our own illusion about how we are doing and whether something is wrong or not. Through the teachings of Serge Benhayon I have learnt to look past the illusion I create and deal with it.
Very wise and simple James, anything less than love is a brilliant marker that there is something that needs to come to light.
James that’s such a clear line in the sand ‘anything less than love, is not love and so comes up to be looked at’. With that statement there is no ‘maybe’ or ‘might be’ or ‘possibly love’ because we all know love so clearly in our bodies and it either is love or it’s not. Interestingly though we have managed to fool ourselves by changing the definition of love, which has done nothing other than to really mess everything up completely because we have pretended, on masse that things are done from love when in truth there is not an ounce of love in most of what goes on currently.
Indeed Alexis truth and love in their absoluteness gives no doubt – it is only when we change their meaning or water them down however subtly that we then are left with less and we then accept this less as being good and in fact at times champion it as being better than where we were at even though it is nowhere near where we could or indeed should be.
it is really beautiful and very affirming to hear of your experience with anxiousness and how committing to the gentle breath and connecting to the stillness within allows you to feel how you are held by God constantly. For me I realise as his Sons we can do this also. Imagine how much more space we allow when we keep life this simple – no stories, no excuses simply living the love of God from within.
This is a powerful example of how people can be living with anxiety and not even be aware of it. Good on you, Michelle, for going deeper to explore whether you did in fact have anxiety even after you thought you didn’t. This is a testament to your willingness to be as honest with yourself as possible. And honesty leads to truth, which you have clearly shown here in your blog. Thank you.
Quite amazing how deep a Chakra-puncture session can take us and what insights come up. Your account of how you put it to use in your daily life is very inspiring.
Hello Gabriele Conrad and yes I agree about Esoteric Chakra-puncture as it is one of my favourite treatments, I have regular sessions (http://www.chakra-puncture.com). I find all my sessions practical and very supportive in my life and family. This blog is a great insight into the support offered by this modality, it clears the way for you make a choice about what is going on around you. Thank you Gabriele for picking this up.
I agree Gabriele Conrad, it is beautiful to read your daily practise Michelle and how you benefit from this absolute Chakra-puncture modality. From my experience also, and I fully confirm your saying Gabriele, is that Chakra-puncture deeply supports your body to sink and let go; be it stress, control, anxiousness or even heavy emotions. Truly beneficial and essential to everyone’s health!
Absolutely Gabriele. Chakra-puncture is such a profoundly healing modality. The depth of surrender, clearing and reconnection to the body and one’s essence each session can take us to offer a platform where we have a choice presented (acceptance) to go deeper in the level of love and awareness we live on a daily basis. This is huge.
I agree Gabriele, what I have noticed is that the Chakra-puncture sessions continues long after you leave the room if you are open to deepening the experience of the session. You take it into your daily living and your body continues to speak just that little bit louder – or is it that you are more prepared to listen to what your body has been saying, no louder or quieter, all along!!!
It is amazing Gabriele, this modality has supported me to see many unloving patterns also, and trace them back to what is truly going on. I had a similar experience where I didn’t think I was that anxious until my practitioner asked me to explain how I organise work and family, when I started talking I felt the immense tension in my body and emotion that I didn’t realise was there all came up. At the end of my session I had a clearer knowing of what needed to change and what was getting in the way of me connecting to what was needed.
Michelle it is was like what you have shared was totally written for me. Today I got caught up in overwhelm around everything that is needed at work. I could feel the tension in body so I chose to reconnect to the fact that God is always there for me and the day flowed from there.
Michelle, this spoke to me as if I was living this with you. The following sentence had my whole body surrender as I recognised that I hold an anxiousness in relation to exactly this – ‘I was able to feel how I was actually anxious about surrendering completely to God, to saying yes to trusting in my connection to God and my divine purpose as a Son of God. I was anxious about letting go of being in control of the direction of my life.
“It never ceases to amaze me how simple it is to get a sense of clarity when one chooses to be in the gentleness and stillness of one’s breath.” Beautifully written blog Michelle, I agree how simple it is, often we can make things much harder, tell ourselves there is no time, but the very moment you make the choice to stop and reconnect there is all the time in the world and I can be amazed by how spacious everything then becomes. It is a beautiful simple tool requiring nothing but you and your commitment to yourself.
After reading this I sat here and asked myself: Do I have within me an anxiousness in regards to surrendering to God? And what came up was an issue of accepting that I am equal to God. This then leads onto the fact that I know I am a Son of God because I have felt it, but to what extend have I appreciated what me as ‘a son of God’ feels like and expresses like during my everyday life? I am curious to see where this goes to. Thank you Michelle.
I could feel your stillness, Michelle, while reading your blog. I know myself that I have anxiousness, worrying about money, jobs and hundreds of small things. I know in my mind that it is pointless. Now I need to feel it in my body. So I do appreciate your sharing. It shows how a simple stop and re-connecting to my breath can help to re-build trust in myself and God.
“When I make my days about stillness, God and all of me, then nothing is too big; there is no need to go into anxiousness, doubting what I am capable of.” It’s very powerful.