Inspired by Universal Medicine: Dancing for Me

by Angela Perin, Brisbane, QLD, Australia

In my life, dancing has been something I’ve attempted, but never really ‘got’. I remember ‘trying’ to get it at the high-school discos – trying to get my body to do the fancy and smooth moves that I saw some of my friends do; trying to exude the confidence that some of them had appeared to master – never missing a beat and technically faultless. The point is, I always felt somewhat awkward. There was something not quite right, and I never felt like I could really let go…

Of course there were the odd flashing moments when I didn’t feel this awkwardness – such as dancing in the privacy of my own bathroom or bedroom (quickly brought to an embarrassing halt when I realised someone was watching!), but this was not consistent. So I settled for imagining what it would be like to dance with absolute freedom and joy, almost (as the saying goes) as if ‘no-one was watching’…

In my high school years, there were the odd (and very brief) moments of connection (when my body and head were on the same page), but mostly I was ‘trying’ in my head to ‘pre-think’ the move and get something together, and the truth was, my body just wasn’t following the instructions! Although on the outside I probably didn’t look as awkward as I felt (I still had some mastery of beat and rhythm), I knew that the way I danced was not totally comfortable… there was still an awareness of not feeling totally comfortable in my body, and I was subtly aware that there was ‘effort’ required to get the moves, which just didn’t seem natural, and felt forced – even when from the outside, they may have looked ok.

In my 20’s and 30’s, the only time I really felt comfortable dancing was after a few (or a lot of) drinks. The alcohol seemed to give me a sense of confidence that I didn’t have otherwise, but looking back – even then, I was aware that I didn’t feel ‘me’… Even though I felt more outwardly confident with my dance moves, they were over-exaggerated (to the point of being plain silly/ridiculous at times). It simply didn’t really feel like it was ‘me’ dancing, and I felt a very strong sense of having to put on a display and show off (which I must add, I had mastered quite well!). Overall, I could feel there was a disconnection from me when I danced under the influence of alcohol, so I can’t really say ‘I’ owned the dancing or felt ‘in’ or ‘with’ my body.

So the feeling of actually dancing just for me was something that largely eluded me through most of my life, and to be honest, I hadn’t really given it any further thought until a few weeks ago…

Now, imagine what it would feel like to be in a large group of people that were all dancing for themselves but with everyone else at the same time? Imagine if there was no alcohol and no drugs, no-one trying or needing to out-compete or out-dance the other, and no-one judging or comparing another’s dance moves. In fact, what if you had people actually celebrating each other’s dance moves? Not by way of “Oh no, you’re ‘better’ than me”, but “Wow, I’m inspired by you”. And – what if there was nothing to prove or achieve (as in getting recognition) by this dancing? What if it was simply a natural expression and way of celebration?

Impossible you say? I say not.

The end of year Universal Medicine concert and dance celebration at Lennox Head on 15th December 2012 was absolute confirmation to me that dancing has nothing to do with ‘proving’ anything: it is not about showing off, comparison, judgment or envy, and it is definitely not about how many people are watching you, or having ‘better’ or more technically advanced or coordinated dance moves than another.

I experienced (in myself and in observing others) that dancing can be a celebration of who you truly are.

In the case of last weekend, the dancing was truly amazing, full of vitality, and absolute fun and joy! What I felt was an expression of a group of people celebrating themselves and each other. There was no ‘hype’ or ‘prep’ or artificial stimulus (i.e. alcohol, drugs etc.) for people to get in the mood – the dance was simply a natural extension of the amazing presentations and concert that had preceded the dance. And because of this, there was no ‘let down’ or ‘regret’ at the end of the dance and there was no ‘high’ to come down from.

For me, I realised at the end, that although I had stopped dancing, (by that stage I felt, [like I’m sure many others did!] that it was time for a shower and bed…), I didn’t stop being ‘me’, and that’s why I continued to feel amazing after the dancing stopped. I didn’t feel less or more of me because of the dancing – I simply felt like me.

I never understood until this particular weekend what it truly meant to dance for, and dance with, me. My deepest thanks to Serge Benhayon, his family and Universal Medicine – not only for organising such an awesome end of year celebration, but for presenting, and inspiring by living example, the consistent commitment to re-connect to the body, and to allow the possibility for all expression (including dance) to come from that connection.

I say… bring on the celebrations of 2013!

179 thoughts on “Inspired by Universal Medicine: Dancing for Me

  1. How many of us dance for ourselves? I have experienced it but I wouldn’t say it’s a regular occurrence. However walking for and with me I do do regularly and that feels lovely.

  2. Coming to the understanding, that “dancing can be a celebration of who you truly are.” was for me such a liberation from the self-inflicted belief that whenever I danced it had to be perfect, otherwise I was embarrassed, especially if I felt others were dancing ‘better’ than I was. Attending several Universal Medicine events, where we danced, was the inspiration I needed to shatter this old belief and learn to dance for me, and that felt very wonderful indeed.

  3. We think we are in rhythm when we dance under the influence of alcohol in that slightly dissociated effect and false confidence it gives us but I cannot but wonder what beat we are actually moving to.

    1. And even if sober and dancing to the beat of music what is the quality of that beat? Sometimes kids can be ‘moving with the wrong crowd’ but anyone can if dancing to an ill beat.

  4. I found your story from young quite cute, I found there was a lot of innocence in the way you described your relationship with dancing. And it sounded like you actually knew what was true to you when it came to being yourself. Dancing and feeling free to move in whatever way we feel like is awesome, I love that. Dancing when you have been drinking alcohol may feel more loose and free at the time but is really not, especially when you are sober and watch someone that’s drunk dance. It’s usually quite uncoordinated and a bit silly. So I salute you for enjoying dancing with you and with no alcohol in your body to take away the fun.

  5. Such a big smile came across my face reading this today. One of the many thousands(millions maybe?) of moments where people are re-connecting to themselves, being themselves, and enjoying it out in the world. Love love love. Go Universal Medicine. Go people.

  6. Letting go of pictures of how we think we should look or thinking we need to entertain or please others gives us the opportunity to sense from our body instead a way of moving that feels like our true expression, coming from an ease in ourself rather than with a ‘trying’.

  7. To me too the celebration dancing at Universal Medicine events have allowed me feel that I can be completely me and in the movements my body then makes and all the other bodies with me, I can feel one, joyful and fulfilled with love.

  8. We all learn to move in specific ways to generate specific vibrations. Some are able to explore different movements alongside a specific level of vibration with others. That is perceived as a problem by those who cannot move like a fish in the water within such vibratiosn. But is it really? Without minimizing the fact that it says something regarding your capacity to connect and express, what the music invites you to connect to and express is also relevant.

    1. Yes Eduardo, it is all about connection, connection with our body, with ourselves, connection with other people but too with that what is given to us by the music which can be an invitation or a force, dependent from which source the music comes from and that is for us to become ourselves consciously aware of.

  9. When we dance with our mind and body as one, we express the joy and beauty of our connection to the fountain of love we all come from.

  10. “An expression of a group of people celebrating themselves and each other…I didn’t feel less or more of me because of the dancing – I simply felt like me” – this feels absolutely gorgeous, and totally different from a dance formulated performance designed to impress the audiences/onlookers.

  11. “I never understood until this particular weekend what it truly meant to dance for, and dance with, me” – this line and this blog too Angela is awesome.. and it gets you to think about what it is, or what things we actually do truly for ourselves and the way to do this being found in the love of oneself. Having a level of self-love means that love is what we feel first and so is there in whatever we do, (love) dance or no dance : )

  12. It’s quite a different experience to dance in connection to the soul, to learn how to express through movement a way that is true to the qualities of our essence – to dance tenderly, delicately, with sacredness and joy. The dance also becomes about how the way I move affects the whole.

  13. I have always been a “good” dancer but I have never been able to follow an instruction when it comes to dance, I always feel uncoordinated when I am attempting to follow choreographed dancing. Free style on the other hand I am in my element. What I missed so much when I stopped drinking was going out on the dance floor and having fun, that is why I look so forward to the dance parties that are put on after the Retreats. The bonus is, I wake up and I do not feel hungover or embarrassed about anything.

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