My search for something more to life…

by Rosie Bason, Byron Bay

My search for something more to life first started when I was about 20 years old and living in the Caribbean. I started going to a guided meditation group, then I decided to learn Reiki but still continued to smoke and drink and eat foods that were not good for me.

I then studied for a diploma in Herbal medicine, learnt Kinesiology and several other modalities. I still continued to abuse my body; I would take drugs, smoke, eat junk food and not sleep properly… even though I had studied about the body and how it works. 

I then tried Buddhism: I would sit for half or sometimes an hour every day looking at a box on the wall with a special script in it and I would chant away, hoping that it would bring me enlightenment and make for a happier life. I got to the honesty that I did not like my life, but I did not know how to change it, other than read about Buddhism. At the same time I also read many well-known self-help and New Age books. I did all these hoping things would change, but without looking at me and taking responsibility… so I continued with my loveless lifestyle. I was not enjoying life and I was still searching for more to life.

It was not until I moved to Byron Bay and was introduced to Universal Medicine that it all changed. I remember having a session with an Esoteric Practitioner and getting really upset because I realised that everything that I had grown up thinking was true was actually so very far from truth. I felt that I had really gotten lost in all the ideals and beliefs that I had learnt about. I thought that I had to keep looking on the outside to find the happiness and to find joy – I had not realised that it started from within. I felt sad that no-one and no book or course had ever made it that simple for me. I felt angry that I had allowed myself to be fooled and that I had invested so much time and energy into all of these modalities that never taught me how to discern energy and how to truly connect to me.

For me the learning has never stopped since; I have become more aware of energy and I can feel it in my body. I can feel it when I choose to be connected to me, and when I am not. I can feel it in my body if I choose to eat something that is not good for me (I get bloated, or cramps, or worse, diarrhoea), I can feel it if I overwork, if I stay up too late, and I can feel it if I am doing something for another that really is at the expense of myself. I feel this as being tired, or my legs ache, or if I take a minute to lie still I can feel how fast and racy my whole body feels.

We can learn so much from our bodies if we just take the time to listen and feel. There is so much to learn when we can let go of our pride and our investments in the past and not feel shame, but make a choice to be more aware and make loving choices today.

198 thoughts on “My search for something more to life…

  1. Rosie I agree it is a bitter pill to swallow when I started to realize that I have fooled myself for so long but as you so beautiful expressed after swallowing it life changed forever in a way I was always looking for.

  2. I remember looking for more in life, as I was sure there had to be a greater meaning. When I started going to presentations from Universal Medicine I realised that the way I was living my life was already separating me from connecting to what I knew deep down was true; it took a lot of honesty to start changing my choices and finding the true connection I hold inside.

  3. Being able to bring an honesty to the way we are living is the first step to accepting and knowing how to change our life, the more we listen and discern how we feel from inside the more we open our awareness to what feels true and what does not.

  4. As with all mistakes – once we nominate them and take responsibility it is time to move on and do it differently; shame or guilt only keep us shackled to the past.

  5. I too learned the hard way, often very hard, that not taking responsibility for my life lead to a very “loveless lifestyle”. I spent a whole lot of time searching for the answers to the messed-up life I was living as there was a part of me that knew that this wasn’t ‘it”. It was only when I found my way to Universal Medicine that I finally found what I was looking for and that was the true me who had been buried under layer upon layer of ideals, beliefs and life experiences. It has taken a while and a deep commitment to peel back these layers but it has so been worth it as I am loving the wonderful woman that I have rediscovered.

    1. Thank you Ingrid, I also knew there was a deeper truth to life, something missing that would explain it all. Thank goodness I did not give up searching as the work of Universal Medicine has been so life changing, with the biggest change being me returning to me, and looking within. Like yourself I have also uncovered and am loving the wonderful woman I am!

  6. Gosh Rosie your blog is sharing something similar to how my life was, searching for that something. I had a library of books, attempted many other modalities and they just didn’t ever reach that point of emptiness stored within me.

    Universal Medicine has made a difference to my life that I am living my life from who I truely am. Connecting to my body more and more and fleeing what is going on in and around me – am I perfect at it, no, but compared to 3 years ago – definitely. I cannot thank Universal Medicine and the practitioners enough for bringing me back home.

  7. I also did the merry-go-round of the spiritual new age and personal development, but honestly at the end of it all I was still in the same confusing and empty place. It wasn’t until I began working with Universal Medicine that things really started to change for me, and those changes have been sustained and continually built upon. Life for me is very different now, and continues to become more loving and joyful, and with significant changes to my overall wellbeing thanks to Universal Medicine.

  8. Universal Medicine is presenting that there is another way — but with an understanding of all the ways before followed, so only with more awareness we rise to a deeper understanding of why and what choices we have made. We are inspired by love, as this is what we all have been looking for. To actually find that it is all in you and me.

  9. The key is to not fall for the ideals and beliefs and to actually choose to let go of our patterns that seeks those falsities. We hold an enormous strength within us that can actually strip away all the lies and falsities we have created.. all it asks us is to be willing to let go of the evil (falsity) we have allowed. Which brings back the power of allowing the other energy in our lives that is actually free of evil that is: love.

  10. Rosie thank you so much for your honesty: “I felt angry that I had allowed myself to be fooled and that I had invested so much time and energy into all of these modalities that never taught me how to discern energy and how to truly connect to me.” This could be one reason why it is not so easy to stopp to look outside – we have to forgive ourselves for being so distracted by our own choice . . .

  11. The life we have is all about our choices, learning to not be a victim of our choices but taking loving responsibility by listening to our what our body is telling us and making the changes, what amazing opportunities we give to ourselves to heal.

  12. It is our search that then holds tricks us into believing there is something more to life which inevitably takes us away from exploring and living our life from who we are naturally. When we return to the connection to our bodies and our movements day to day we begin to lay the foundation for life from simplicity and the searching for more simply begins to dissipate.

  13. Thank you Rosie, it can be quite a shake up to find the truth. I have also had moments where I have acknowledged how much I had been fooled, when all along all I ever was searching for was right there within me. The truth is also very simple. It’s true also Rosie what you say about letting go of the past and getting on with choosing, being, and expressing love.

  14. I agree Rosie, we can learn so much from listening to our body and opening up our awareness to feel the truth of what we are feeling and why. There are many ideals and beliefs we accept as we grow up that keep us separated from the inner wisdom in our body and seeking outside ourselves for the answers to life when they are within us all along.

  15. I have been in life searching for the outside aims, looking for distractions everywhere.. What I came to observe since meeting the Benhayon family is that this search is no longer necessary. I came to see how they were living that did not need that aim of searching outside. That you could be truly enough from your own livingness and that actually people that you meet can add to that. But from their loving conversations, reflections and actions I learned that my look for outside was actually not necessary at all. But they held me a mirror of the richness that I was/am, and so I began to take this mirror more seriously and I can say they are absolutely right, and unfolding of truly being me and feeling in my every way that this is enough.. Has started. And I am very thank full for that, so thank you whole Benhayon family.

  16. I did this to when studying anatomy and physiology and health, drank alcohol and smoked. The arrogance is incredible to think how we are living is okay and that it will not affect our health!!!

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