My Journey Home

by Kim Olsen, Warwick, Australia

My path to make contact with the esoteric and Universal Medicine was kicked off by an incident. I fell and badly broke my left hip. Up to this point I had been doing what the world expected of me (to me now, that felt like going through the motions of living). I had been suffering hay fever and sinus problems for more than 20 years.

Previously, as a teenager I had needed to have my tonsils removed. I was overweight and showing early signs of a heart attack-in-waiting… I am sure I was heading for cancer as well – if the heart attack did not kill me first.

So when I was 36 I had this fall which left me immobile for 3 months. My hip was fractured, I had scarring on my lung and bruising on my heart. While I was reflecting on this in hospital, I realised that I had not been listening to my body and the messages it was trying to give me. I resolved to do so from now on.

From a temporal point of view, this resolve (alignment to my soul) set me off on a disastrous path. I lost 3 good relationships and much of my assets (worldly). However, I have through this journey found who I am, and to me now that is all that really matters. Looking back, I realised I would lose relationships if I did not express as me in them. I had taken on an adage to be what I thought others wanted me to be.

Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are? It is so lovely to be confidently expressing now as me.

I was now seeing much of the world and the way I was, as it was. At one stage my spectacle prescription improved back 5 years as I started seeing in-truth how my relationship was. The optometrist agreed that my sight had improved, but did not have an understanding of what I was proposing. I realised that our world was full of paradoxes about how things are. All our worldly truths I could see as part truths hiding the real truth.

Then in 2004 I did a Heart Chakra 1 with Serge and Universal Medicine. It felt so good and familiar. I then kept doing what I was doing until 2009 when I came back to Universal Medicine.

You may wonder why I did not continue then, however looking back, I needed to see more things I wasn’t, which ultimately help define what and who I am. So in 2009 I returned to the esoteric associations and Universal Medicine with a knowing that most of the difficulties we face in this world would be lessened or removed if we felt empowered. I have personally found that empowerment… initially coming as a realisation that I can be me anywhere, anytime and with anyone. Then I found the keys within as to how to manifest this. It is a simple, very fulfilling way to live, to let go of the shackles of doing, and be.

Over the years I gave up dairy, alcohol, sugar and gluten as I saw how these substances dulled my body and my sensitivity. I can see that my sensitivity was compromised by these substances in a way that made it impossible to be aware of their influence, which adds to the arrogance of knowing that what we are doing is right. I now at 58 feel the best I have done health-wise since about age 16, and wellbeing-wise since I was about 5. I no longer get hay fever or sinus conditions. My circulation problem, highlighted after the broken hip, and the swelling in my legs is gone. My propensity for sunspots on my skin has diminished and I have watched areas heal one at a time. I sleep well every night. I never get caught up in reactions to events and what people say and do. The list goes on and on.

So to say Serge and Universal Medicine have done it for me would be wrong. What I have found from being an esoteric student is a rebuilding of my confidence in my feelings, to be now at a point where I trust them and my feeling of the energies, implicitly. Also I have gained a confidence in my feelings and their messages.

132 thoughts on “My Journey Home

  1. Realising that we will ‘loose’ a relationship if we start to express what we’re truly feeling or sensing we could say isn’t really a loss at all – because we’re letting go of a falseness, and if someone doesn’t want us in our truth then it’s more their loss than ours…

    1. I agree losing something that isn’t true isn’t actually a loss, no matter how much we may consider it a temporal physical loss at the time. And absolutely – if someone doesn’t want us in our truth then it’s only our loss if we hold back.

  2. Discovering my confidence levels were directly related to the way I treated and honoured my body was ground-breaking for me, the more I took care of my body and claimed and expressed the truth, the more and more confident I felt. Who says confidence is something you’re either born with or without?

    1. Or grows as we get older? I feel I was confident when I was born, quiet but confident but from the age of five my confidence began to slowly diminish as I began to give up on life. I became extremely introvert and shy and would blush every time someone would speak to me. My confidence is growing and I have seen a big change over the past 18 months as I express more and more what I feel to say.

      1. Yeah great point, if anything our confidence diminishes as we grow up and lose more and more connection with our body. But not to say this cannot be rebuilt at any time we choose.

  3. We are taught in school to just be confident, stand tall and be confident, but I never knew what that meant or even what that was. I also saw that once I had confidence I would be okay, I would speak up, I would not let people treat me badly and I would be able to make decisions with ease and do whatever I pleased. But that wasn’t it either, and just kept me in constant anxiety, because I wasn’t ticking any of these things. A confidence for me now comes with me honouring what I feel to do and following it through, listening to my body and staying with my body.

  4. The behaviour of doing to gain love is a big one to master. It can creep in sometimes without me realising it when I’m on my own and when I’m in the company of others but I am beginning to become aware of when I do fall into this trap especially when I’m with another who is evidently reflecting this way of being.

  5. “I can see that my sensitivity was compromised by these substances in a way that made it impossible to be aware of their influence, which adds to the arrogance of knowing that what we are doing is right.” Wise words and exact truth. Choosing to act in a way that is not true will cover up the way of seeing truth. Great to note and a simple fact.

  6. It seems to be so ‘101’ doesn’t it Kim, that we can honour the knowing that we have within – listen to, and build a relationship with what we feel, as a foundation-stone for life. And yet, we are not as a rule raised in confirmation of this – instead offered a plethora of others’ knowledge, how-to’s, and ways of living that we are meant to live by, keep up with even…
    What you’ve shared here, in your own relationship with yourself, is therefore gold, for it is within all of us to rebuild our inner knowing that we may live in the fullness – and not diminishment – of all that we innately and naturally are.

  7. What you have so honestly shared Kim made it very clear that all we need to do is to look inside of us and have a deeper relationship with ourselves. To look outside of us is just something what nullify our true confidence.

  8. Being who we think others want us to be.. it’s crazy how we do this, and why we do it – out of an emptiness and a disconnection from who we truly are and what we’re here to bring. When we realise that everyone else isn’t really interested in whether or not we’re being ourselves, and that most people probably prefer us to be ourselves so that they can be themselves, too, we realise what a waste of time and energy it is to try to be anything but that which we already are.

  9. “Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are?”

    This is such a great point Kim. How many of us strive to ‘be confident’ and try to dig deep to find this seemingly elusive inner confidence, only to go to pieces when the façade we have invested in falls away? Could it be simply because we are not living true to who we are and by virtue of this we subscribe to a whole series of set ideals, beliefs and images about who we are and how that should look like and so what we end up presenting to the world is akin to a cardboard cut-out version of us that cannot withstand a small gust of wind, let alone weather a mighty storm? By reclaiming our true self – the Soul – we regain what we thought we had lost, the keys to a kingdom divine and the permission to express it in all that we do. True confidence comes from living true to our essence and not falling for a reinterpretation, and thus vastly reduced version, of this.

  10. “What I have found from being an esoteric student is a rebuilding of my confidence in my feelings” and honoring them! Honoring my feelings and my awareness – not deny, avoid or numb them. For me, it is a journey back to my worth. To claim it back. And even become authority in it. Ha! Grace is back in town.

  11. Accidents and illnesses although mighty uncomfortable can actually be a blessing as when we are laid up and unable to live how we normally do it can expose what we need to change in our daily lives so we can make more supportive and wise choices that are far more caring for ourselves.

  12. I love how you call it your journey home, it takes such a great humbleness to see that life might not be all that we pretend it to be and that there may be a different way to live.

  13. “Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are?” This is a very powerful truth and in reconnecting to who you are allows you to know the beauty of the essence of everyone.

  14. “Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are? It is so lovely to be confidently expressing now as me.”
    This line rings absolute truth within me, as I feel the purpose to life is to return to knowing the truth of who we are. Knowing that is the first step, seeing where we are at now and accepting it is the next, making choices to be more honest is the third, and all of that is just the responsibility of expressing as who we really are.

  15. Kim, it is amazing to read about how you turned your life around and beautiful to read that ‘I have through this journey found who I am, and to me now that is all that really matters’, I can feel how this is the most important thing, knowing and living who we are; this allows us to feel content and confident and be able to enjoy life, ourselves and others.

  16. The greatest life we can live is one where we are connected to our Soul, to who we are within, where we our lives are enriched beyond measure as we are guided the inner-light we know is true.

  17. I met you many years ago Kym but after you become a student of UM and what this blog made me realise is that you never know what anyone has come from.Even if we only brought attention to the physical changes you have made and the way you approach life, that in itself is remarkable. The importance of never judging another is what comes strong here, for we all have such different and interesting lives that make up who we are and what people now see.

  18. Hi Kim this is a true testimony to Universal Medicine for all we have to do as students of life is listen to our body and connect to our essence and the healing begins.

  19. “Do you realise how hard it is to be confident when you don’t know who you are? It is so lovely to be confidently expressing now as me.” I can relate to this sentence Kim, I had no confidence because I did not know me, because of not feeling me, my way was in the doing the continual doing to be something,which was very exhausting and very empty, it is such a joy now to come to know me, connect to the love I feel within and express me from that loving space.

  20. This is what it is all about, “rebuilding” who we truly are and in fact have always been but have become lost many times over in the process. We have this belief to achieve or need to be something and yet all along everything is with us, within us and remains untapped while we chase glory. When we start to return there is that feeling of knowing, wondering how you could have possibly missed it and the confirmation that you do know everything that is needed. This return is an ongoing living unfoldment, to go back over old ground walked from when you couldn’t see; redoing or re-imprinting all areas you have walked without the knowledge of who you actually are. It may seem like hard work when in fact it’s the only work worth doing as it rebuilds further that confidence in what you are already feeling.

  21. To be what others wish one to be, or to be ‘oneself’ that is not really oneself are two traps that only lead nowhere and which stop us from going to the only place from which you can really walk forward in life.

  22. Kim to say you feel better now at 58 than when you were a child is a living miracle to me – that is the beauty and power of the Esoteric Modalities to bring true healing and a deeper understanding to the body and to the whole of life.

  23. If you aren’t yourself in a relationship, then you aren’t you, so the person you are with never gets to know you, and neither do you. What a travesty that is for both parties, for being who we are with one another is a great gift.

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