by Anna Karam, Goonellabah, Australia
I am a 35 year old woman. I am also a loving wife, mother of three gorgeous children, owner of a successful small business (successful by definition here being a joy to work in) and casual check out operator at my local supermarket. I’m sorry, did I forget to mention here that I am also amazing! It’s true – I love my life, I love myself, my family (in this I include many) and I love people. But life for me hasn’t always been like this. In fact, up until a few years ago I had suffered from Bulimia Nervosa, a psychological disease which began in my early teens.
For those of you who don’t know, bulimia is medically defined as an eating disorder characterised by binge eating and purging, or consuming a large amount of food in a short amount of time followed by an attempt to rid oneself of the food consumed (purging), typically by vomiting, taking a laxative or diuretic, and/or excessive exercise. But for me this definition doesn’t give a true understanding of the absolute physical and mental torture and self abuse that make up this disease.
In my experience bulimia has always been one of those ills that people don’t really want to speak of. Not unless it is happening with themselves or someone close to them. It is one of those taboo subjects you simply don’t touch! It even has medical professionals baffled. I feel this has contributed to why so many young men and women (including myself) are able to hide this disease so easily from the outside world, whilst secretly living behind closed doors with so much pain and torment.
For me bulimia looked like this. I would wake in the morning and the first thing I would think about was food, how much was I going to eat today, how much exercise would I need to do to counter this, and would I find myself binging and having to take a trip to the toilet to bring up all the food I had so fervently shoved down in an attempt to numb myself out or sabotage when I was actually feeling good. The latter would happen more often than not. I would then go to bed feeling ashamed, my body hurt, and my mind was already in the torment of what tomorrow would bring.
At times when I was living with others I would find this difficult, to hide the binging, the empty wrappers, the cereal boxes that went down so quickly, the ice-cream that never lasted. I figured out which foods were easier to bring up so as to be not so hard on my throat, cause swelling around the glands in my neck, or dilate my pupils, whatever was needed to not get found out, it was all highly orchestrated. Learning how to bring food up quietly became an art. Aside from all the physical damage, there was the constant shame and guilt that was inescapable, and deeper than this was the enormous sadness in the knowing that it was I who was doing this to myself. This disease was nothing short of a prison. A self imposed isolation that at its very core was an inability for me to accept the world as it is, and to accept me in all my light, my truth, my glory and to not be afraid to show this.
When I was 31, I was introduced to Universal Medicine. I listened to Serge Benhayon speak about self love, honesty, responsibility, and choices. Each of these words resonated so deeply with me, and so I made the choice to explore this for myself. I also started attending presentations on Women’s Health by Natalie Benhayon which inspired me in so many ways to connect more deeply with myself as a woman first and foremost.
I feel it is important to say here that I didn’t start attending these presentations and making different choices in an attempt to heal the bulimia. This was something I had long given up to be even possible for me after having previously sought out pretty much every modality on offer from East to West. I started making these choices and changing how I was with myself because everything I was hearing simply made sense. Why wasn’t I tender with myself? Why didn’t I listen to and honour the feelings I had? What was it about me that chose to abuse myself or to allow abuse from another?
What was presented to me was that change had to start within ourselves, that we cannot wait for others or expect others to make the changes, but that this needs to come from every individual in their own time and at their own pace. I never once felt judged or pushed to hurry up and get it right. In fact Serge Benhayon was the first practitioner to know about my condition before I even opened my mouth to share it, and in this there was already a healing for me and an opportunity to be more open and honest with myself.
What happened from here is nothing short of amazing. Through simply choosing to be more in tune with my body, to tend to myself with a greater level of care and love, and to take more responsibility for my choices, I have turned my whole life around. At first (and considering the pattern I was in) I found this difficult: it was new for me to love myself, and something I had always felt I couldn’t express to others. I had long associated self-love with selfishness, vanity, or being ‘up yourself ‘as my school friends used to say. And yet gradually this started to change, and it became more easy. In fact I discovered that it is actually very natural to love and care for me. From the way I choose to brush my hair, wash myself, in how to dress, the foods I choose and how I prepare them, the way I walk, how I hold my body, it is there in everything – the opportunity to conduct myself gently and lovingly and to appreciate who I truly am.
Without even trying, one day I woke up and the bulimia was no longer a part of my life. It had stopped. I had stopped. And if anyone was there throughout that period they would not believe seeing where I am today. I have come to see myself for the precious woman that I am, and my life is becoming truly amazing from this.
What have I learnt from all this? I have learnt how important it is to self love, to honour my feelings, to listen to my body, to hold myself in the deepest regard, and from here consider all others in that same light. I have learnt how important it is to accept things as they are, but that this acceptance doesn’t mean giving up on oneself, or on people. I have learnt to trust in myself, and from here I am beginning to trust once again in others. And with the support of my incredible husband, I have learnt to make light of situations, to have fun and not take things so seriously as I had always done.
Yes, I have healed bulimia, and it has been through my own choices, but I could not have done this without the enormous love and support of Universal Medicine and the presentations delivered by Serge Benhayon and Natalie Benhayon that have been nothing short of amazing, and continue to inspire me each time I attend. I have turned around an existence that saw me struggling from day to day, to living a life that is truly joy-full – in my home, my work, and my body. And the beauty is that I can feel there is so much more. I am discovering that there is simply no end to where self love can take us. It’s only the beginning and what a truly powerful beginning for me it has been. Endless thanks to Universal Medicine for how it has supported me to truly change my life, and for the countless others I have witnessed do the same.
The Truth about Universal Medicine 
“Through simply choosing to be more in tune with my body, to tend to myself with a greater level of care and love, and to take more responsibility for my choices, I have turned my whole life around.” A beautiful appreciation of the inspiration offered by Universal Medicine.
This is an amazing and inspirational testimony for everything that offers in it.
‘Without even trying, one day I woke up and the bulimia was no longer a part of my life.’ It’s clear that we need to treat any ailment we have, but going to the deep root of them is what really heal us. And then, any symptom finally dissapears
“To accept things as they are, but that this acceptance doesn’t mean giving up on oneself, or on people” – this is a great point, and reminds me of how Serge Benhayon has been with the entire humanity, including those who adhere to the teachings that he presents, and equally those who reject and attack. He loves us more than we allow ourselves to love ourselves.
I had not appreciated how food consumed so much of the thought patterns and the deep feelings of revulsion afterwards. I wonder how many other people have similar, yet not quite as extreme patterns of behaviour?
It is so important to focus on the what is, rather than the what is not. What I mean by that is that if we focus on the bulimia and try to fix that we focus on the symptom rather than the cause. I am inspired by what you have shared here Anna.
Bulimia is a punishment towards ourselves, it is used in a similar manner to cutting. It can be a sort of abuse or a source of release, release of all the tension we have built up from not feeling good enough or wanting to achieve something that may be unachievable.
Yes it does seem like a vicious cycle of guilt, shame, despair all fed by a need to numb and deny. The pretending just doesn’t last for long before the cycle begins again.
Wow, what an honour to read your story, thank you for sharing it. The shame of abusing ourselves is something I hear a lot in my work. It is so much easier to blame someone else for where we are in our lives but when we acknowledge that it is us who make the choices for ourselves we need support to build a different relationship with our body and our movements before we can change the patterns that have become so deeply embedded.
I agree, imagine receiving a prescription that says: be super loving and tender with yourself (No charge). It would be the best prescription ever… And probably the most efficient.
Totally. I agree with you completely.
Isn’t that incredible – that the bulimia didn’t disappear through you working hard on it to get rid of it, but because you started to love and care for yourself? That just blows my mind – every psychologist in the world needs to read this, it completely revolutionises the way we need to approach every problem.
Thanks Anna for the inside perspective of bulimia and wonderful to hear the way out as well. I couldn’t help but think how wonderful it would be to have a book written about this process of healing bulimia. And I’m not even sure it’s heard of by some.
“Through simply choosing to be more in tune with my body, to tend to myself with a greater level of care and love, and to take more responsibility for my choices, I have turned my whole life around.” – This is something to really value and appreciate and I feel is a key part that is often missing in conventional medicine – the responsibility that we take ourselves, for how we live our everyday life and not just seeking a cure for something in the form of a pill or intervention (which may well be needed as well, just not in isolation from developing our way of living too).
How healing to open up the conversation and talk about it. It seems Bulimia is one of those things that people have shame in talking about and then it stays hidden harder to heal in full.
This is really amazing and something that definitely needed to be shared for others to read and support them where needed.
Bulimia reveals that we cannot stand the emptiness we feel inside and cannot stand what we are doing to fill it up either.
Yes, when what we are doing to fill it up is fake and not true. We cannot completely lie to ourselves and not feel what we are feeling, we can only numb the communication from our body about what we are feeling so we can open the door to pretend.
” I am today. I have come to see myself for the precious woman that I am, ”
How beautiful is this statement , and how wonderful for all you are living this truth.
What is so inspiring about your honest account Anna, is how you focused on confirming and living who you truly are as a tender and loving woman, allowing the bulimia to drop away.
A true way to heal – if we focus on the problem or issue we can often only get dragged further into it or go around in circles with it.
What I can feel is how this lack of self-love gets so deeply ingrained in our patterns of thinking and behaviours, and how self-abuse gets enacted differently from one person to the next and if we become problem-focused it would be very hard to understand what is truly going on, let alone find the true answer.
Late teenage years and in my early twenties I was bulimic and now twenty seven years on I am beginning to understand the reason I put my body through it. What I am sensing and more so accepting today has always been there. I know lies in every cell in my body, but what is revealing is that I am learning to accept the world as it is by learning to accept and love me in the world. I am learning to accept my light and express truth in many ways and boy does this feel good! The more I acknowledge and live my light, the more I expand making my every movement in relationship with food love.
“Through simply choosing to be more in tune with my body, to tend to myself with a greater level of care and love, and to take more responsibility for my choices, I have turned my whole life around.” – Thank you Anna, what you share here is gold, it may be challenging at times to change our ways but rather than just focusing on stopping the errant behaviours or patterns, if we bring our focus to building more connection with ourselves and our body and the way we love and care for ourselves and others, then big changes can happen.
It is amazing what can fall away from us when we embrace the call to be more self-loving…and to be the love that we are. It has certainly been the case for me.
Bulimia sounds like an extreme version of the eating patterns I and I suspect many of us have. We spend a lot of time thinking about the next coffee, treat from the café, meal or dinner out. As women, we then think about how fat we are going to get and go into a pattern of self-loathing that just feeds the eating. Actually allowing ourselves to have the feelings we have (how many of us were made to feel ashamed of this as kids?) is a vital part of stopping this sabotage and abuse.
My guess is that mild bulimia and mild eating disorders are very common. Mild or extreme, they are still not the truth of who we are.
This article helps me to understand what a devastating disease bulimia is. It also reminds me that there is nothing that we cannot heal from if we choose to.
‘… this was the enormous sadness in the knowing that it was I who was doing this to myself.’ — that’s the thing, we think other people can hurt us and damage our sense of self, but the ultimate damage is the fact that we choose to abuse and dismiss ourselves out of fear of being hurt by another.
Yes and this fear can infiltrate and dominate our lives affecting so many of the choices we are making. In fact, letting us think we are making a choice, but actually the choice is already made because fear has been our foundation.
Anna this is a great example of how when we commit to making more self loving choices, and learn to love ourselves first, we are able to let go of certain patterns that were once destructive and not self loving or supportive to ourselves.
Thankyou Anna, it’s quite an inspiring story that someone trapped within the cycle of Bulimia could make their way out, and not with complication, but through self care, self love, and treating oneself tenderly. It’s quite a celebration reading your story. I had quite a healing myself as I read realising that I don’t quite accept life and in that I don’t accept myself, now a new level of acceptance and self acceptance is there, thank you.
Yes, same here – I used to purge a lot between the age of 16-19. Like you said, many times it was to self-sabotage. Although I no longer purge, today I had a similar experience to what used to happen in the past. I overate, and while I was doing it I could really feel that I was doing it because I just wanted to sabotage my day. I had a brilliant day at work yesterday, however did not appreciate it so it resulted in a series of movements which lead me to drop very low and feel quite miserable. Although it has been quite a rough day, developing this understanding is just so beautiful, to know that everything affects us, giving us the opportunity to begin to make different choices.
The beautiful thing about what Universal Medicine is offering is that the teachings are universal as they are about us taking loving responsibility and care of our self first and foremost and if applied to life, as you have Anna, love becomes our best medicine.
A beautiful testimonial of the healing power of true love – a love that comes from within.
Someone suffering from bulimia structures life in a way that combines a restricted public appearance with a very strong private/reserved series of activities. This way of moving in life can endure forever. The only way to break with it is to feel the call to be more, to register the misery you are living, to understand that this is not you, to feel how YOU really feel and to make a choice.
I have known people close to me that have suffered in the prison that you describe in such great detail. I have been so close to this disease that although I have never suffered from it, I feel I understand it deeply and therefore really appreciate how you were willing to express it so openly. It is very hard to fully recover from this disease because it is so physiologically damaging; how beautiful it is to hear that through the support of Universal Medicine you were able to get back to who you really are.
This is a truly remarkable story. Love is the greatest medicine we can administer for ourselves.
An absolutely remarkable account Anna – thank-you for being so open about the bulimia and the torment of living with this, and then, the true miracle in what has changed for you.
Something deeply special is occurring here on too many occasions to mention, with such powerful transformations in occurring in the lives of so many students of Universal Medicine, and those who receive treatments in the Esoteric Modalities founded by Serge Benhayon. There are many who deserve to read this story, to know that one need never give up in life, that from reconnection to the essence of all that we are, much will indeed change and unfold for us.
Beautifully put Victoria, the feeling of reconnecting to our essence is the most amazing thing in this world.
Our unloving patterns can be our prisons and they can go round and around with dizzying repetition until we identify and arrest the root cause of their origin.
Very true, but we should never dig into it ourselves, think about it and obsess. When we do that, we are actually distancing ourselves from truth.
Anna, how you have turned your life around is amazing, this is very supportive and beautiful to read, ‘I have learnt how important it is to self love, to honour my feelings, to listen to my body, to hold myself in the deepest regard’, I am working on this at the moment, I have become aware lately that even though I am much more gentle and loving with myself than I used to be that I still not hold myself in the love and with the regard that I could, there are still many ways in which I do not fully value myself and all that I am, it is with deepening my self love and care that I am changing this.
This is a truly beautiful account of the immense healing power we hold inside of ourselves and which we only need to connect to. This is what Universal Medicine is all about that connection to our universality and the magical beings that we all are.
‘A self imposed isolation that at its very core was an inability for me to accept the world as it is, and to accept me in all my light, my truth, my glory and to not be afraid to show this.’ This feels the truth about bulimia. I appreciate your openness and honesty about this eating disorder, how you’ve turned around your life by making the choice to love yourself and your body. And as you say Anna, this is just the beginning. An amazing begin that is.
Hear, hear to this Anna Karam – what a wonderful account of the true power of self-love. Yes, I too grew up in ‘playgrounds’ that dissed self-love as being ‘up yourself’, the words spoken with pure disdain. Yet whilst there can be arrogance in selfishness, true self-love is a very healing and humble state of being – and in my opinion is right at the heart of what humanity needs to turn the tide on self-abuse, self-neglect, self-loathing and through this the abuse of others. Learning to love ourselves is the way to true healing – as you have so clearly demonstrated here.
Well said Richard for learning to love ourselves first and foremost is key to unlocking all our hurts and issues that hold us back from living our potential.
Each time I read this Anna, I feel a deeper appreciation for what Serge Benhayon has brought back to our world. The amazing transformation you made is inspiring, not just because you healed bulimia, but because there was no direct intention to, yet you did.
It’s interesting to ask then how many psychological disorders may not exist if self care and self love become our daily foundation?
When we change how we view ourselves, make the effort to love ourselves, against the grain of what society tells us, then that is where true change occurs. There really is something powerful in matter of fact accepting ourselves as lovely and worth adoring, especially when you consider how much ill health stems from self loathing and an inability to accept ourselves as we are.
Very true Stephen, instead of seeing illness and mental health disorders as mysterious, we could very well start with the common sense approach of considering “how much ill health stems from self loathing and an inability to accept ourselves as we are”.
It is extraordinary how Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon has supported and inspired hundreds of people worldwide to bring true healing to any ill conditions in their bodies. Well done Anna for the steps you took to heal bulimia and reflect to others what is possible when we make loving choices and begin to deeply appreciate ourselves.
It’s beautiful to hear about the changes you have made and the ripple effect it has had on healing something that to many seems irreversible. When I started to read it felt as if one of the reasons for this condition is what you stated later on and that was the reluctance of embodying our light. It feels as if we eat because we know the body needs to be nurtured but then we feel we don’t deserve it or that we are not worth it. Through developing a love for oneself I guess this behaviour naturally transmutes into one where we are being more gentle and accepting with oneself. Thanks for sharing Anna.
What I love about your contribution is the disclosure of the psychological factors that underpin bulimia – there are so many misconceptions around that would have us believe it is about body image first and foremost. You make it quite clear that the condition has its roots in the desire to numb what we are feeling because what we are truly feeling can seem too overwhelming with nowhere to turn for support. Thank God for Universal Medicine!
Its kind of amazing when you read how someone has cured a life long illness so effortlessly. Its the sort of story that should be shared and great that you have put pen to paper Anna so that others can read how there is another way (and more importantly how gorgeous that way of living feels).
Learning to love and care for ourselves has such far-reaching effects. The fact that the bulimia just faded away is like a miracle. Applying self love, acceptance and appreciation can make such a massive difference to our lives, regardless of whether we have a medical condition. I wonder when our health services will wake up to this fact!
It is amazing the changes you have made Anna and how you have turned your life around. Thank you for honestly sharing how life was for you and how you have got to where you are today. It shows to me how fundamental the healing was in the changes you made to how you were living that the bulimia just seemed to go without a specific concerted effort against it.
This is a great testimony of how making simple choices to be loving with yourself can make such a huge difference to your behaviour and your life. It seems significant that the focus was not on the bulimia and the trap of being in that illness, and yet the illness just slipped away.
Some of the symptoms and behaviours you describe resemble those I had in the past. Because I managed to deal with it in a way I considered okay, and I knew others to handle it similarly, it never occurred to me that it might actually be an ill-ness or un-normal. In hindsight and with the greater understanding I have today of what is truly healthy, caring and loving, plus your description of bulimia, it is obvious how harming and probably ill my way of eating and need for purging once was. So I wonder, how was it possible that I didn´t even consider anything wrong with my behaviour at the time? 1. I didn´t know better, 2. it was considered normal by everyone around me, 3. Before Universal Medicine I had no sense of self-love and true care.
I love the honesty with which you have written Anna. It was beautiful to read and it is always healing to read of another experience when it is expressed without emotion and with the deepest honesty.
It is a pure joy to read the sharing of your self-love experience, it is deeply felt as it comes from your lived and embodied experience and thus is igniting the same energy in me. You are just the same inspiration to those around you like Serge and Natalie Benhayon have been to you. The ripples of love vibrating through society by people living it.
What an incredible journey you have been through, a never ending one I suppose, of discovering and appreciating yourself in ways you may have never imagined were possible when you were in the thick of Bulimia. It really is a miracle that something as debilitating and imprisoning as this disease can simply slip away due to the commitment to The Way of The Livingness.
Appreciating ourselves for our qualities and the choices that we make no matter how small they are, allows us to bring a new level of love and care for our bodies where there is no space for abuse only the acceptance of our own glory.
Thank you Anna for your blog. This line rings very true for me still now…”Why wasn’t I tender with myself? Why didn’t I listen to and honour the feelings I had? What was it about me that chose to abuse myself or to allow abuse from another?” I have never experienced bulimia, but I know overeating very well and continue to do this. I can feel from what you shared how deepening our self-love is the only way to treat ourselves out of this self-abuse and being so honest with everyone about what I am feeling. I can see that holding back really doesn’t serve anyone and is more than likely one of the greatest causes of illness and disease.
Acceptance of ourselves, others and the world around us is a huge issue for so many of us in today’s world. But when we start to make an ever deepening commitment to making self-loving choices that builds ourselves from within while simultaneously allowing ourselves to be inspired by others and the world around us we in turn become far more appreciative, understanding and accepting of ourselves, others and the world around us.
Being able to accept ourselves in full is such an unfolding throughout our lives. There is so many layers that can sometimes be streamlined and sometimes not. What you have shared here Anna is where they are not so streamlined at times, but then what amazingness can unfold and become streamlined when we learn again to self care, self nurture, self accept. Very beautiful.
You mention how Bulimia is connected to acceptance. I am discovering (still work in progress) a tremendous freedom in simply observing things and seeing them for what they are without needing, demanding or trying to make them different.
Beautiful advice Nicola, I too am discovering the same. We are on the same return path xo
The diseases are many but the treatment is one – LOVE. The power of love (and Truth which is the of the same essence) heals everything!
To free yourself from the bulimic prison you were in through embracing self-love and responsibility, is a truly extraordinary feat. It is clearly a deeply debilitating disease that many believe they will never overcome… so your article is profound… and a blessing for all that now know the healing that is possible with deep love and acceptance.
This is such an important sharing Anna – there are many young women and men out there with some form of eating disorders that often are based on a such a deep lack of self worth or a strong sense of self loathing, that we do need to open up the conversation, which is just the beginning of how we can support each other with such situations and choices. How you have turned things around is proof to so many that this can be done and done with grace, it is indeed a possibility and a beautiful one indeed. Thank you Anna.
So little of what heals us is actually used in our treatment of illness, disease and health issues, yet as has been presented beautifully simply by Universal Medicine, it is only when we are willing to honestly go to the root cause of ill health that we get to the answers and can actually heal the issues, this means we are never bound by any condition, which with something like bulimia, or two other examples: cutting or alcoholism becomes much more empowering.
‘we are never bound by any condition’. Very empowering words Stephen, thank you.
“I have learnt how important it is to accept things as they are, but that this acceptance doesn’t mean giving up on oneself, or on people.” That is true, acceptance does not mean giving up, it just means this is the way it is…for now.
Jeanette this is so true and I feel we do confuse the two. Acceptance Vs giving up. I see everyday how people struggle with acceptance of where they are in life, and they actually fight acceptance. Do we struggle to accept where we are because of the irresponsibility we have lived in denying to accept who we are, which we know to the core of our being? I know tI still struggle with this.
“Through simply choosing to be more in tune with my body, to tend to myself with a greater level of care and love, and to take more responsibility for my choices, I have turned my whole life around.” Universal Medicine has supported so many of us to do the same, through simple everyday loving choices.
‘I am discovering that there is simply no end to where self love can take us’ Beautiful words and inspiring us to be more self loving.
The world needs people whom we can deeply trust and seek support from. More so then this we need people who have had the courage to deal with their own hurts so they too can assist others.
Thank you Anna, your sharing on Bulimia is beautifully honest and open and your story will support many others who are facing similar challenges.
“This disease was nothing short of a prison. A self imposed isolation that at its very core was an inability for me to accept the world as it is, and to accept me in all my light, my truth, my glory and to not be afraid to show this.” Suffering from Bulimia is certainly a prison but the key to freedom is love. I get the feeling that those who suffer from this debilitating disease are so often those who know they are precious and divinely delicate but don’t know how to handle all the love that they know they are. Universal Medicine offers us all a simple way to live, celebrate and shine with all the love that we are.
Thank-you for sharing your story which has given me an understanding of bulimia and how it controlled your life Anna. The changes you have chosen to make through being more self-loving would be a wonderful inspiration for others with this disease to read. Through Universal Medicine so many of us have come to accept and appreciate that self-loving choices is key to living more responsible and joy-full lives
Wow what a transformational story Anna, for me I was really touched by your questions, ‘Why wasn’t I tender with myself? Why didn’t I listen to and honour the feelings I had? What was it about me that chose to abuse myself or to allow abuse from another?’ Questions I feel everyone in the world would benefit from asking.
” A self imposed isolation that at its very core was an inability for me to accept the world as it is, and to accept me in all my light, my truth, my glory and to not be afraid to show this.” You are a glorious role model Anna for the practice of self love and self nurturing. How absolutely amazing you must have felt to wake up that morning knowing and feeling your body say that there was no more bulimia for you – precious 🙂
I didn’t know about bulimia before I read your blog, Anna. It was very educational and inspiring in a way how your healing became side effect of simply listening to your body and making sensible loving choices. With deep appreciation of you.
Acceptance hasn’t been something I’ve mastered so reading the line, ‘acceptance doesn’t mean giving up on oneself, or on people,’ is super relevant.
When I ask myself what if I were to accept an aspect of life I find difficult to accept – a situation, a choice, an event- there’s a feeling of helplessness, of powerlessness and that I’m somehow giving up and accepting the status quo I find myself finding so disagreeable. But what if, in the acceptance, I am choosing to stay with myself and get to feel the power and the love that this brings – and that’s how to rock the status quo – not through my many reactions of inaction or action.
Anna your story is a wonderful testament to the healing power of simply choosing to truly love and care for ourselves. The fact that your bulimia simply vanished without you even attempting to cure it is amazing. Thank you for sharing such a personal story.
Thank you for this blog Anna, it just goes to show the power of self-loving choices and to live in a way that honours that in every moment there is an opportunity to love and appreciate who we truly are.
“A self imposed isolation that at its very core was an inability for me to accept the world as it is, and to accept me in all my light, my truth, my glory and to not be afraid to show this.” Thank you Anna for sharing this. Opens up a chance for others to discover the real reason behind the eating disorder. There is some amazing insight here.
“Even though I wasn’t physically hurting anyone, my energy, just in the reaction was” Thank you Anna it is amazing how we often think ‘self’ abuse is not harming anyone else only ourselves yet in truth any abusive behaviour we do to ourselves is hurting those around us.
This is so true Samantha yet it something very few of us care to admit to ourselves for then we would have to see our part in the creation of this messed up world we live in.
So true Lucy. So easy to pretend there is no cause and effect here – I can tell myself no-one is directly effected by my actions because I can’t physically see that they are. But we’re all connected and when I’m not 100% love the rest is not love which I’m adding to the world.
I’ve lived most of my life very stunted from being me in full, it’s taken a lot of effort and dedication! I’m starting to feel what a dis-service this is for everyone I meet – no longer in a self-bashing way so much but in an appreciation of the fact that I do hold the huge potential to inspire by just being me. That’s pretty awesome in itself.
Very true Samantha. They Witness it and feel the energy. Besides, they don’t get the full amazing you.
Very true indeed, when we hold ourselves in that abused state everybody else gets ‘the abused person’ rather than the truly loving person that we all are. That then feeds the ‘your not good enough to be around people thoughts’. All for the sake of hiding and suppressing that love that we are, so much effort put into sabotaging it must mean that this love is pretty huge!
Yes, in truth we all know this. One of my own daughters wrote a song for fun a few years ago title ‘We are all connected’. She was nine at the time. Every choice affects every one.
Thank you, Anna, by sharing your story you allow all of us to learn from it. And that is so needed with this condition that is experienced by so many and spoken about by so few and where the true support from (medical) practitioners has a long way to go.
This is very true Monika ‘experienced by so many, spoken about by so few, and where true support (and understanding) from the medical profession has a long way to go’. In saying this, I feel the medical profession are offering all they have to offer, with the greatest intention. It is simply our lack of understanding (collectively) and irresponsibility, that has allowed it to be this way. In truth, we all know where this illness comes from, yet, everyone is afraid to say it out of fear of being or appearing too harsh. The old saying ‘the truth hurts’ has relevance here, but it is not the truth that hurts us really, it is hearing the truth and knowing that everything comes back to individual responsibility and never are we a victim of anything. We are (and everything is) simply a result of our choices.
Ouch, you are so right, it is not the truth that hurts, but our reaction to it. It feels very painful to own up what we did to ourselves and others as a consequence of our choices.
I agree Monika, that it hurts to feel the choices we have made that have been harmful in some way to ourselves and others. Just yesterday I reacted to a situation that was out of my control, and in that reaction what I expressed was harmful to those involved. Even though I wasn’t physically hurting anyone, my energy, just in the reaction was. It was hurting me, and I felt the physical repercussions afterwards feeling tired and depleted for the rest of the day. This is enough for me to see that energy is indeed the driver of everything, and that our choice of energy always leaves an imprint.
God, so great to read Anna. It isn’t the truth that hurts. As you said it’s the realisation of what we have done to ourselves and the responsibility of our past choices. I think that’s what hurts more. The truth just brings that to light.
Beautiful and amazing sharing Anna, to read how you have transformed your life, to live with such self honouring now and choosing self love over and above all else, is truly inspiring.
Thank you raegankcairney, when it comes to self love and love, I am a forever student. The learnings and new depths never cease.
Anna you are proof of the power of self love, leaving behind you a condition that baffles the medical fraternity. The many testimonies that can be read from people having come across Universal Medicine is a powerful healing for me. I can feel the very real transformation happening within me when I choose to love me. Thank you for your blog.
It’s amazing how medical practitioners aren’t microscope-ing universal medicine to check out what’s going on. The amazing health stories I hear of how conditions have turned around as a result of changes made from the inspiration of universal medicine is, nothing short of amazing. There are so many stories, on so many different sorts of illnesses.
Anna this is such a power-full and inspiring blog, the possibility we can heal any ill condition that may be holding us back from being who we truly are. Universal Medicine presents on self-care and self-love and this gives us an opportunity to make choices that truly support us and improve our health and well-being enormously.
Hi Anna, yes it is pretty amazing where self love and self care lead us to……full energetic integrity and responsibility. Any illness can be healed with clarity, understanding and responsibility, which is ultimately choosing to be love (in full) in all that we do.
Your transformation back to yourself is truly awe inspiring Anna – the whole world is graced by your sweetness, grace and strength. Thank you.
Thank you Leonne. Deeply felt, and yes, the sweetness and grace is palpable, of that I will own,
There is such an ease and such a flow in the way you express your experiences, the acceptance you have claimed for yourself is really tangible. I appreciate that you took the time to write all this down and express your gratitude towards Universal Medicine. Both you and Universal Medicine are worth being celebrated!
Anna, you are such an inspiration. Once we take responsibility for our choices in our life, then everything can change and heal. You are such a role model for this, thank you.
Thanks Alexander, there is more to come. More responsibility to take, and more to be expressed and shared on this topic, but nonetheless it is beautiful to stop and appreciate that which we have already reached. How far we have come and the inspiration we offer others in our openness and livingness of this.
Yes I agree Alex. A super role model. Not covering things up but getting to the real reason as to why. Responsibly and not wanting someone to fix you, this seems to be the only way to go. Especially when these conditions leave medical professionals baffled.
Thank you Anna I reread your blog today particularly your words “Through simply choosing to be more in tune with my body, to tend to myself with a greater level of care and love, and to take more responsibility for my choices, I have turned my whole life around.” It is amazing the power we hold within ourselves, when we connect to our innermost, through self love, and self care, it becomes a very natural way of living.
Thank you Sally, when we express from our innermost, we express purely from God. There is no greater reason to connect then this.
Yes agree. Thank you for Sharing this one Sally. Instead of a cure, a way of life that means less illness and disease is lived.
Amazing Anna. You are certainly an amazing, beautiful woman. We can accept the world but not give up on it. We can live loving lives inspiring others and dedicating ourselves to love. Love changes everything.
Hi Amanda, even when I wrote this blog (which was some years ago now) I was still working on my acceptance of the world (and myself) for all that it is/ (I am). I feel there are many layers to this process and I still have to work on my dedication and commitment every single day. The old pattern of giving up was so ingrained for me, that I have had to physically retrain myself to not allow all the little behaviours to set in that lead to that giving up feeling. These days (more and more), I am looking to get in and get my hands dirty.
That is so true, Mary! I have also been in absolute disregard of my body as well as self-abuse throughout my whole life before I came to Universal Medicine. I also had bulimic behavior myself and it is absolutely about not accepting the world and your own light – as Anna said. The spirit drives us arrogantly to damage our body because it knows that it will get a new one anyway. And we play the game… so crazy, isn’t it?
Great to read your story, Anna. It tells us that it`s not even necessary to work on any of ur problems or issues. I we really commit to love ourselves and especially our body, all issues will just disappear. Really embodying this is so absolutely huge for my work as a psychotherapist. Everything can be healed by the development of true self love. Absolutely everything.
This is very reassuring statement evamariafoertsch “Everything can be healed by the development of true self love. Absolutely everything.” True self love is the key to everything. Thank you.
Your story should be printed in medical journals as Im sure it would be a great example to others who suffer from Bulimia, a remarkable illustration of the power of self love.
Yes Joe, there is a plan soon to share on a wider scale. I feel lived experience truly is the greatest authority we have in this world. That which comes from the body of those who have lived it.
The amazing thing that stands out for me in your story Anna is that you did not focus on healing the bulimia. It healed as a result of choosing to deeply honour and care for yourself, to hold yourself dearly and tenderly. With all of our hurts and patterns of self abuse, this is the antidote.
I also liked the question you asked yourself ‘why didn’t I listen to my feelings?’
As in my experience, there is so much healing to be revealed in exploring this.
Thank you Emma, that is a great question, and one I still have to ask myself at times. These days I need that question less and less as I am listening to and honouring my feelings more and more, and this is certainly something to appreciate.
Dear Anna, I am feeling and seeing the power of appreciation in our return to ourselves. Each aspect that we are able to see clearly and release, allows us to live love more fully and the appreciation of this consolidates and expands this love.
I am feeling this too Emma, and although I still at times need to take myself to it (appreciation), the more I do, the more it is becoming a pattern in my life, just as self criticism had become a pattern before it. I merely see that I am now switching patterns.
Thank you Anna for your blog on you healing from Bulimia. You describe very well the prison you were in and your return to the truth of who you are by loving yourself first and allowing yourself to heal what needed healing. You are an inspirations to many.
Thank you Katinka, it needs to be outed, the whole misery behind bulimia, as it is what I like to call a closed door illness. I feel we purposely make it that way to stay in the irresponsibility of it all. It’s convenient to hide with all that shame and guilt. It keeps us stuck in it and then we don’t have to step up and be responsible in our lives as truly loving beings.
Thank you Anna for sharing about this. It is a really insightful look into the prison that is Bulimia, and eating disorders. There is so much ‘mystery’ and ‘hush-hush’ that surrounds them, and the overall silence allows them to continue. Only by being completely honest about these conditions can we start to heal them. Noone should have to suffer the horrors of these disorders, and it is all of our responsibility to ensure these abusive cycles are not perpetuated. Thank you Anna for allowing the opportunity for conversation about this, it is so needed.
Dear Amelia, as my understanding of Bulimia deepens through my own experience of it, it becomes clearer to me that ultimately it comes back to responsibility. I see those words ‘noone should have to suffer the horrors of these disorders….’ and I absolutely agree, but I also feel in this that we are still a step away from the responsibility factor that is so needed here. In this, we stay in the victim mentality of us against the illness. Yet it is we who have created the ill!. FACT!
The more I understand what bulimia is about, which is simply an inability to accept and take responsibility for oneself and all that one is feeling, the more I feel we need to start speaking about this illness in a whole different light. In saying this, I understand there is a process here that takes time.
When we start to truly love ourselves and make the effort to do so, the most incredible and amazing things happen. You are proof of this Anna, what a great recovery from a very difficult place, well done.
Thank you Anna for your very honest sharing, I haven’t really known much about bulimia, as you say it’s not something that is spoken about openly unless you are close to someone who is bulimic. What I do know is from people like yourself sharing their experiences through Universal Medicine, and I am touched by the opportunity to have a greater understanding. It is definitely a subject that needs to be talked about more openly.
I agree Sally, Bulimia is not yet fully understood by the medical world, and statistics alone tell us this. There is a greater understanding we must come too, and more needs to be out in the open before medical practitioners can truly support people suffering from this illness.
Anna Karam, you show me with this blog that we are so much more than we could have ever imagined before we started our journey home by applying self-care and self-responsibility as being presented by Universal Medicine into our lives. These two simple but so profound activities are that powerful in the restoration of the connection to our inner most that everything that not belongs to us, such as your eating disorder Bulimia, just disappears when the level of self-love has become such that there is not place for the abusive behaviour anymore, it just simply disappears. What a great testimony of what applying self-care and self-responsibility can bring to our lives.
Thank you Anna for your sharing. I am always amazed to read or hear these stories about any one has turned their health and lives around after attending Universal Medicine workshops. I have learnt that it doesn’t matter what the past has been anything can be healed and changes made with self care, self love and living with self responsibility.
Thanks Anna for sharing your experiences – you are such a testimony for what is possible, when you start to take responsibility for your own choices – very inspiring.
A true testament to the power of self love, honouring.
“Without even trying, one day I woke up and the bulimia was no longer a part of my life. It had stopped. I had stopped. ” This is beautiful Anna and something I can relate to very much. I never attended Universal Medicine presentations to fix my problems but because it made sense and I just knew inside this was the absolute truth. Then with caring more for myself and starting to love myself I also noticed some patterns I had been living with disappeared without even trying. This is amazing and a true testimony to the power of simply caring for and loving yourself. Thank you for sharing your story Anna.
A fascinating story, an incredible and inspiring self-healing, and such a blessing to read. The power of self-love and deeply regarding choices truly has no bounds.
Thank you Anna – I appreciate and love how you say that this development and care come from every individual in their own time and at their own pace. Your words help me to see there is no hard and fast rule to recover – just the universal law of love, that comes so naturally.
Beautiful Joseph, it really is entirely up to us how much love we choose for ourselves, and therefore how much we live with others.
Thank you Anna for sharing the perpetual torment of suffering from bulimia. As you say, this is not something that is openly discussed and understood. Your article shows so clearly that it is the issue underlying the illness that has to be healed and that learning the true meaning of self-love, self-respect and honouring yourself for the beautiful person you naturally are allows an acceptance and appreciation that you no longer want to throw away.
Anna what has become apparent from reading your article and all of the other articles that I have read is that self love has the ability to change an incredible gamete of conditions. Conditions that I had always considered as only changeable through medical intervention such as dementia and bi polar have been pretty much reversed much in the same way as your bulimia simply by becoming self loving. How extraordinary !
Incredible Anna. One thing I have noted from my own experience and hearing about others is that the eating disorder is not the root problem but the outcome from a bad feeling. Heal and work through that and the eating disorder falls away. This is what I have got from your blog as well. It’s great and truly healing when a practitioner can see past the disorder and help what is actually going on.
I agree Emily, so often doctors and practitioners just see the disorder, and do not look past to what is going on behind it.
Thanks for sharing how debilitating bulimia is and how it takes control of your life. It was inspirational to read how you transformed your life through making choices that are self loving and honouring of your body.
From the moment I set foot into an event held by Universal Medicne I was amazed at the level of regard for everybody who also came to check out these presentations by Serge Benhayon. Following on from that first meeting, this regard and love has grown ten fold and will continue to do so.
Thank you Anna what you share about accepting things as they are and the ways you have become self-loving, this is for everyone. There are so many kinds of disordered eating behaviours that men and women alike have these days that could be explored in a similar way to how you have here with bulimia. Over eating and all the ways we engage to over eat must affect many people. We seem to think that if people are thin it is okay to over eat so for many the behaviour goes unchecked and we don’t stop enough to understand the impact of over eating. Likewise under eating behaviours (far from an Anorexia Nervosa diagnosis) and what this does to stimulate the nervous system was totally foreign to my awareness until Universal Medicine presented this.
“I have learnt how important it is to accept things as they are, but that this acceptance doesn’t mean giving up on oneself, or on people. I have learnt to trust in myself, and from here I am beginning to trust once again in others” This is really spectacular, so great to hear that. It is truly freeing to trust ourselves and trust others completely.
” I had long associated self-love with selfishness, vanity, or being ‘up yourself ‘as my school friends used to say” .. I am sure most can relate to this Anna. It definitely is not selfish to love yourself!
Thank you Anna for sharing so honestly about your release from the prison of bulimia. It is so inspirational to read how making simple (but not necessarily easy) choices to self care and accept yourself has transformed your life. Your story deserves to be widely shared to give hope to the many that are still suffering as well as their loved ones who no doubt often feel powerless to help.
Thank you very much for your sharing here, Anna. I wish I had known this when I used to know someone who was suffering from bulimia. Even though I was aware that was something not right, and she might say a few things weren’t, we never had an open conversation about this. As you say, there was a feeling that it was taboo, and I shied away from asking and used to feel useless as a friend. Your sharing has really helped me to understand this illness.
Its amazing how you have been able to heal the cause of such a devastating and complex disease as bulimia, a great sharing.
I agree and I love the questions you’ve raised here. Very thought provoking and inspiring. When we accept who we are and never shy away from sharing it with others, expressing the fullness of love, we essentially have nothing to loose but everything to gain.
Wow Anna, this is amazing and truly inspiring to read. I love your honesty and openness about your experience with Bulimia. It will inspire anyone who is also going through this horendous illness that there is another way to live and to heal. It is empowering to know by making loving choices we can change our life around. You are an amazing example of what a miracle it can be when we choose simple loving choices everyday. There is no magic wand or cure but consistency and commitment to living life full of love is the way.
Thankyou for sharing so honestly Anna. Your commitment to reconnecting back to honouring and caring for your own body and wellbeing clearly shows how powerful this reconnection can be and how much it can heal. Bulimia is a truly debilitating and crippling condition and for you to have escaped its prison is simply awesome and very inspiring for us all.
This is a condition that many people suffer with. It is so great you shared your story. It is strange that something that effects so many is talked about so little. I think how hidden it is helps strengthen the shame.
It truly is amazing how much simply building self love and gentleness into our daily routine changes our life. Really it is so obvious but not something that I considered before Universal Medicine.
Thank you for your sharing Anna. There is most likely not enough awareness around diseases like bulimia. It is incredibly debilitating and controls your life. To be able to see yourself out of the haze of the disease and find your way back to self love is a living miracle, and one to be celebrated and shared Anna, as there are many women (and men) who would benefit enormously from hearing you share your story.
Thank you for sharing your story Anna. It is so great to have healed from bulimia and tremendous the reflection on how the changes occurred. Through Self love and connection.
Thank you Concetta, it is for me a living miracle.
Thank you Anna for this very honest and open blog of such a serious condition. It is amazing how you have turned your life around since attending Universal Medicine workshops.
I particularly liked the part when you said ‘I listened to Serge Benhayon speak about self love, honesty, responsibility, and choices. Each of these words resonated so deeply with me, and so I made the choice to explore this for myself’. I felt compelled to read this over and over.
Thank you Anna for this amazing honest blog- it is lovely to feel how you ended the cycle of the bulimia for you.
Thank you Steffi, it is very lovely to be me today, and free of the Bulimia.
Thanks Anna for a fantastic blog. I relate to your story in many ways. After suffering from Bulimia for many years myself I know how insidious it can be. As it’s so hidden it’s too easy to keep doing it or convincing yourself it’s somehow ok. I too never went to Universal Presentations to heal my Bulimia either, it simply stopped after I built a more loving relationship with myself and made more self loving choices. I now don’t even think about it, and that is truly a miracle. Thanks for being courageous enough to share your story Anna, it’s important for others to hear.
Thank you Anna, for this honest and inspiring blog. Bullimia affects both men and women alike and what you have shared about committing to self in the way one lives and the choices one makes is paramount in the healing process.
Anna, I feel this is such a lovely open, honest account of what you have been though and the unfoldment of the amazing woman that I see today.. it is a total honour to know you and to be learning from you also.
Thank you Anna for your awesome blog. What you have shared is so honest and inspiring. Bulimia is such a horrendous illness and to read about your journey is so heart warming and truly amazing.
Thank you Anna for sharing your experience with bulimia and it just goes to show how self love and looking at your patterns can heal things like bulimia without even trying. This blog will be very supportive to others who have eating disorders.
Wow what an amazing turnaround! Its hard to fathom how many young girls are facing Bulimia today! It’s amazing you were able to heal it with your self-loving choices and the support of Universal Medicine, Serge & Natalie Benhayon.
Anna thank you for sharing this inspirational change in your life and for shedding light on the imprisonment of bulimia. You are living proof that choosing self love and a deeper connection with self is indeed very powerful.
Thank you Kathryn, I agree that choosing self love and a deeper connection to oneself does indeed have the power to heal in so many ways. However from my experience, Bulimia presents a slightly different picture, one that is all about acceptance. For example, there are many ways in which I can practice self love and self care, BUT these can be very much an outer experience, and if I do not drop to a deeper level of self love, one that is based on a full acceptance of self and of life, then the disease can and will continue to sit on the outer, waiting to manifest any time there is a moment of weakness.
Bulimia is very much a disease of non-acceptance, and so requires a very deep level of self love – one that sees acceptance at its core. This for me has been where the true healing has and continues to take place.
Thank you Anna for sharing this it gives a great insight in how debilitating bulimia on a daily level is. When I read the part about how you started your day already thinking about food and how this continued throughout your day, basically your thoughts constantly revolving around food, what occurred to me is that many people might actually have a mild form of bulimia. I for myself have lived my entire life until not that long ago being occupied with what I can or can’t or shouldn’t eat and I know that for many women food is a big issue.
Hi Esther, yes I feel preoccupation with food is a huge issue for many. We can easily be controlling or hard on ourselves with food, but when we turn it around and look at it from a loving perspective, as in, by simply getting to know our bodies and what foods support us to feel more vital and well, then we simply follow this advice. Our body is far more in tune with us then any naturopath, nutritionist, doctor or the like. Not saying we do not need these people in our lives, for they play an important supportive role, only that in the end, it is our own body that tells us what is best.
Anna, thank you for sharing your story. I have a friend who has anorexia and it feels very empowering that you managed to overcome bulimia in getting truly honest with yourself.
I have the feeling the level of honesty and true self love, which you have chosen did one day not allow bulimia to be still there. It shows to me how being consistently self loving can transform and bring healing to one’s life.
Bulimia was not part of my life at all. Yet, reading the blog, a question came to me: could it be that food is representative of the life you are having and the binging of it is your body showing you that deep inside you, your being cannot really accept how you are living? So, it makes sense that changing your life, this need/pattern is no longer there.
Anna thank you for sharing your deeply honest story. I loved how the bulimia just stopped after choosing to make more loving choices for yourself. It’s so simple that I imagine many would find it difficult to believe it is possible but you are living proof of this!
Thank you for the reminder Sharon, I certainly am. It is so important that we claim the love we have returned to and the inspiration this then has to offers others.
Indeed. As you are able to clearly stand strong now in all your glory and not feel hidden within the “disease” you can only be an inspiration to many. We are often lead to believe that such “diseases” remain with us for ever, but you have shown that not only can they be stopped but also healed too.
Thank you for your deeply personal sharing about a disorder very few are comfortable to talk about. What an amazing journey you have made, leading you back to YOU. Beautiful, thank you.
I love how you have expanded on Anna’s comment and taken it further, into the truth- we have nothing to lose and everything to gain via self love, committing to ourselves is priceless.
I love how you explain that you did not need to ‘try’ to heal the bulimia, you just committed to loving you and the bulimia ended as a consequence. It shows how simple it is. I often feel overwhelmed when I am trying to change something big so this blog is a great reminder to bring every choice back to love.
Gorgeous Leonie, as I have gone deeper in my own healing, I have come to the awareness that the biggest thing in all this is acceptance. It feels for me to be the core of everything. I can have love for myself, I can care for myself, I can deeply nurture myself, but if I cannot accept myself, or life, or situations around me, I will still be challenged and seeking comfort in some way. Whilst I had the bulimia, ‘the food was a way to comfort, to numb, to abuse myself and my body so I didn’t have to feel what I simply couldn’t accept’.
With the illness no longer a part of my life, I have the opportunity to really work on acceptance. Of myself, of life and others, and all that occurs around me. So I have found that whilst self love is absolutely important and so foundational, the next step and that which will take us to love, is the acceptance.
Thank you Anna for this beautiful insight which I can really relate to. As I have chosen to be more self loving in my life I have still been challenged by my lack of acceptance of aspects of myself. This can then lead to me sabotaging myself in some way for example eating foods that are not truly supportive or going to bed too late which then impacts how I am the following day.
A very powerful blog as it shows how disease that medical science has a hard time dealing with, like bulimia, can be healed through a very different approach and by learning to have a loving relationship with oneself. Thank you for sharing Anna and making your story available to many others out there that are still looking for a way to deal with bulimia.
Thank you Anna for your sharing openly and shining the light on, a very common but well hidden disease. Also very inspirational in seeing where you are at these days, keep up your loving work and ways.
What a profound article, to turn your life around from a life of existence to truly joyful through loving yourself, waking up one day to the bulimia no longer part of your life. So powerful thank you.
Thank you Anna for your honest and inspiring article.
Anna you share the story of love for yourself and the healing that naturally unfolds.
A powerful message to be shared.
Thank you Anna
A great reminder of the importance of “Self-Love” and being connected to your own body.
Wow, that’s an amazing story. It’s so easy to assume you don’t have the ability to be as amazing as the person standing in front of you, but it’s just a lie. Every single person has the capability to be who they truly are without any pretence…it’s all there waiting for us to claim. This turnaround story is testament to that!
‘but its just a lie’ so true Elodie. Thank you for this, absolute gold and made me smile from ear to ear.
Lovely wunderbare Anna – you are so open and honest that is very inspiring – thank you for that. I would recommend people with eating disorders to read your blog. You also help me to get an deeper understanding about bulimia and with that also a deeper understanding for woman with this kind of eating disorder.
Yes Estera, whilst my healing of this disease will be different to other women’s (or men’s), it can definitely serve to inspire. I love what Felix shared above about our healing coming from our own rhythm, and to this I would add, at our own pace. Inspiration from each other plays a key and pivotal role in this. The ability to allow inspiration from others, and a deep understanding towards self.
Thank you, Anna. How great to read it here again: True Healing comes in ones own rhythm from inside – each person needs to initiate these steps for themselves. This is one of the most revelatory things I’ve learned with Universal Medicine to a point, where it is lived. Universal Medicine for me marks the most un-imposing places on Earth.
wow Felix, so beautifully said with such depth. Thank you.
“I have learnt how important it is to self love, to honour my feelings, to listen to my body, to hold myself in the deepest regard, and from here consider all others in that same light. I have learnt how important it is to accept things as they are, but that this acceptance doesn’t mean giving up on oneself, or on people. I have learnt to trust in myself, and from here I am beginning to trust once again in others.” I re-read your blog again today Anna, I love this paragraph.
Wow Natalie, that paragraph is pretty amazing isn’t it. I love the words here ‘to hold myself in the deepest regard’. Today I would say ‘to cherish deeply all that I am, and to never again allow anything to come between my relationship with me’!
Wow Anna, that’s a pretty amazing sentence too. It has touched something in me. Your amazing!
This is an amazing article Anna Karam and all those affected by bulimia would benefit from reading this. My best friend had this and your detailed account of your behaviour was very similar and you have now given me a real understanding as to the root cause. What is incredible is when you say one day the bulimia just stopped. All because you made lifestyle choices and honoured your feelings. You are amazing as you say at the beginning and all those whose lives you touch everyday are blessed because of what you have done to turn around your world of abuse. What a healing to read this and feel another true story on this blogsite. I am forever appreciating Serge Benhayon, Universal Medicine and all those who write on this blogsite.
Such an inspiring blog. Thank you so much Anna.
Thank you Karin.
I wholeheartedly agree, such an inspiring blog, Thank you Anna. I can so feel your tenderness and delicateness and wonder how it could happen that such divinity could be led to those depths of self abuse. Immense joy that you are out of that pattern and back to yourself. For all to see and feel.
It is really interesting to hear how you healed bulimia, particularly that you didn’t focus on the fact that you needed to stop being bulimic, but that you just started to love and care for yourself very gradually. Bulimia is such a serious, destructive and complicated issue and it seems it naturally took care of itself as you allowed yourself to naturally take care of yourself. This really is absolutely amazing and simple.
I agree Laura, imagine if this is how we approached the treatment of those suffering from this illness. To develop self love, self care and self nurturing (all things presented by Universal Medicine) and to foster a greater level of self acceptance and acceptance of life around us. This is so powerful and certainly from my experience, very healing.
Thank you for sharing this Mary, it is certainly a self defeating way of being, to constantly judge and bash ourselves.
We could instead choose to develop tenderness, understanding and love with and for ourselves – this is truly liberating, as you and I (and countless others who have found the support of Universal Medicine and its teachings and healing modalities) have and are both now experiencing.
Thank you for sharing this with us Anna. I too suffered with many of the symptoms you describe in your blog and am learning to love myself and hold myself with more love and tenderness.
Thanks Natalie, it seems like a distant memory to me now, and yet at the time I felt for sure I would never be free from the prison I was in. I recall laying in the bathtub many evenings crying over this very thought, now knowing that all I needed to do was to start loving myself, and accepting life as it is and myself for the beautiful woman that I am.
Thank you, Anna, for sharing a topic that is not often spoken about openly. An inspiring read and relevant for all!
Hi jsnelgrove36, it is true what you say that it is relevant for all. It is important to not remain ignorant to the fact that this illness affects so many, directly and indirectly, not unlike cancer, heart disease and every other ill experienced by humanity. Awareness is always the first point towards truly healing.
A great article Anna, honest and open. You have brought to light one of the hidden ills that effect so many, thank you for sharing
Thanks Jacky, there is much more light to be shed on this one for all.
Beautiful Anna, thank you so much for sharing your journey so honestly. There is so much shame attached to Bulimia, something that no-one wants to acknowledge and actually deal with. What is so incredible is that you attended Universal Medicine events with no intention of healing your bulimia, and yet as a consequence of taking ” the opportunity to conduct myself gently and lovingly and to appreciate who I truly am” your Bulimia disappeared as you say, “Without even trying, one day I woke up and the bulimia was no longer a part of my life. It had stopped. I had stopped.” This is true healing, when we can feel that something has just left us, that we no longer have any desire to harm ourselves in that way again. Your journey is very powerful and I trust that others suffering from Bulimia come to read this post, to show them that they have the answer to heal it from within, by treating themselves with gentle loving tenderness, the best universal medicine in the world.
Hear Hear Rowena, it is the best universal medicine in the world, and it is what Universal Medicine teaches us all.
Amazing Anna. I loved the way you claimed: “it had stopped. I had stopped”. Very inspiring, thank you!
Yes, that was an amazing day to be able to claim that in full. Wow, thank you for reminding me of how powerful I am Gustavo.
Thank you for sharing from the personal, intimate perspective of this ‘hidden disease’. What a powerful testament to the power of self-love.
Hi Jonathan, yes self love and understanding went hand in hand in the healing of this disease. If it were not for the incredible amount of understanding I was able to offer myself during this time of healing and learning, I would not be the woman I am today. Understanding has become my best and most trust worthy friend.
I watched a presentation on Bulimia a few months ago, and was reminded so strongly of how this ‘hidden disease’ affects so many. It’s fantastic to see this blog, and people writing about it, and showing that it is possible to love yourself out of that tormented existence. It’s a very powerful story.
Hi Simon, yes there are so many cases of this disease that go on hidden. For myself, I was able to hide this so well from even my closest loved ones which only goes to show the level of shame around this illness.
Anna, thank you so much for sharing your story. I too have healed my bulimia and as I read your words, I remembered the roller coaster of torment and suffering that is this loveless dis-ease. Like you in dis-ease, I became a master of strategy and trickery all designed to abuse myself. But also like you, with love, feeling into my body, self nurturing and loving myself, I turned my life around. Thank you so much for sharing.
Thank you Susan, it was very healing for me to write about this and share with others my experience of this disease and how it played out in my life. In doing so, I was able to further unlock the hold these old patterns had over me. Now they no longer run my life. This is a true testimony of how powerful we are when we make a commitment to heal no matter what.
I have always said if I was any good at throwing up, I could easily have fallen victim to bulimia and/or anorexia. The thought of going through the whole throwing up thing also stopped me from drinking too much as well!
Whilst I never explored both ends of this eating disorder spectrum, I nominated some 20 or more years ago that I too had an eating disorder. This is an issue that touches so many people without them even having to go to the possible extremes. Your story is truly a miracle Anna, and a blessing to all who read what you have shared. Thank you.
A very powerful article, thank you Anna.
Thank you Anna for being so honest and open about your experience with bulimia. I knew very little about this disease. I agree – you are an amazing beauty-full women, and an inspiration to others who may be going through something similar to what you have overcome.
Amazing Anna. I had a brief understanding of bulimia but you have offered so much more, thank you. Your opening paragraph really shows the power of the changes you have made and as you go on to say “Through simply choosing to be more in tune with my body, to tend to myself with a greater level of care and love, and to take more responsibility for my choices, I have turned my whole life around.” Awesome.
Thank you Anna for sharing your amazing and truly powerful journey. Your story has given me a greater insight and understanding of bulimia, a disease my daughter struggled with during her teenage years.
Thank you Anna, I learnt so much from what you have shared.
Awesome beauty-full Anna… Thank you for sharing.
Anna, this is an inspiring story. Thank you so much. With love, Jade.
Wow Anna – thanks for sharing your story with us and for explaining about the hidden disorder, it helps us to understand what it is like for people who live with it. Your words show us how by making self loving choices, we can turn our lives around.
Wow Anna! What a great story to share. There must be so many people with eating disorders who would love to read this. This is an area that many who haven’t experienced it, find difficulty with, particularly as it is such an un-talked about subject, and your article undoubtedly helps us understand it better. Thank you.
This is such an amazing healing. I feel you need to share this with the medical profession as well.
Yes , the medical system does need to hear about this approach, because its very effective, and nothing else seemed to work.
This is awesome Anna, you have brought light and information to a subject I knew very little about. Thank you for sharing so much of your beauty-full self with us, as from my understanding bulimia is quite a common disease, so many people have the potential from benefiting from all you share, whether they suffer bulimia or not. I definitely have – thank you Anna.