How Crazy is That?

by Joel Levin

I participated in the Livingness One Workshop run by Universal Medicine last weekend. The workshop explored at its simplest level, how we can live from our essence.

In small groups we explored the presented possibility that life has two possible directions along a single continuum…

One direction is our glory, our divinity, our amazing light. That direction remains ever-an-option for all to take. That direction is love, it is joy; it is our true expression.

And so the other direction can only start with the pain of separating from that love – it can only start with a hurt. This means that each step is looking to either cover up that hurt, or alleviate it. For some, this comes in the form of different lifestyle choices that are used as distractions – some use life’s dramas to pile one hurt on top of another; some use food and different drinks to cover all this up… In reality, there are many, many ways we can deny the original choice we made away from love.

The most compelling question presented was WHY? Why would anyone make the choice to go in any direction other than the one that leads to true joy…? And here is the wisdom that struck me…

Love, is love, is love… Love is never withheld, it never asks to be let in, it never offers incentives or expects to be chosen and it certainly doesn’t punish those that don’t choose it (although living outside of love can feel like a punishment, but that is of our own choosing).

The crazy part is that in the choice to NOT be love, we get something in return: it might be pain, hurt and suffering, but it is OUR pain, hurt and suffering (i.e. it’s something we earned and something we can identify with). For example, if I choose to jump off a building and break my leg, my choice brings with it time off, attention and sympathy, that is directed towards me.

Love, on the other hand is free: it doesn’t ask or require you to follow anyone or become anything other than yourself. Love won’t congratulate you for choosing it – it will be there as equally for you now as it also was in those moments that you didn’t choose it. It doesn’t care about race, skin colour, wealth, intelligence or life experience. This means Love can’t be bought, it can’t be earned, only returned to by allowing and accepting ourselves and others as equals, i.e. no identification. With love, we have to surrender the investments we made in our hurts.

This means in a world that can be back to front, the hurt gives us something to own ­– something that is ours. But love offers no special treatment for individuals. Love does offer joy, vitality, freedom and simplicity, but it is offered to all equally without any sense of reward or parade.

It’s a bit like spending your life savings by investing everything you have in a house and realising that it is falling down around you… and then seeing a house down the road that’s got everything you have ever wanted (and more). However, in order to move in, you have to completely leave behind the old house, all the furniture and little knick knacks you used to make the house ‘yours’… and all you can take is you.

How many of us have chosen to live in the house that’s falling down because of how much we have spent on it? HOW CRAZY IS THAT!?

724 thoughts on “How Crazy is That?

  1. Identification in being an individual, even if it is painful; are we mad or just plain crazy, ‘The crazy part is that in the choice to NOT be love, we get something in return: it might be pain, hurt and suffering, but it is OUR pain, hurt and suffering (i.e. it’s something we earned and something we can identify with).’

  2. Joel I adore how you use playfulness to show us how out of sync we are with love because we want to make it all about us the individual. This thirst for acceptance and recognition is deep within us all and keeps us separated from each other, and that is the game that we have played for eons. There is no love in separation.

  3. Thank you Joel, I hadn’t quite looked at individuality this way but it makes perfect sense, separate from love with a hurt that then becomes your thing, build a life around it, later decide it doesn’t work, deconstruct house… move back into the Kingdom of God.

  4. One is an ‘away from’ and the other is a ‘back towards’ False love is an ‘away from ourselves’ and true love is a ‘back towards ourselves’. Everything that is true is already contained within us or rather accessible from within us as it comes through us and everything that is false is obtained by grabbing at stuff outside of us.

  5. The playfulness with which you present such huge revelations is so cool, Joel. I can see myself walking down the street to the new house with nothing but myself and I feel richer and fuller than I ever have.

  6. Oh we love it, we really do, we love to make stuff up about ourselves never admitting that we’ve actually made the whole thing up, including what we deem as ‘ourselves’. We don’t exist in the way that we pretend that we do. There is only One of us, One United Consciousness but we’ve spun a yarn, a very long and elaborate yarn about who we believe ourselves to be when we’re not, we’re not that at all.

  7. “Love won’t congratulate you for choosing it – it will be there as equally for you now as it also was in those moments that you didn’t choose it” – wow, I can feel how my spirit just hates that. There’s absolutely zero identification when it comes to love.

  8. I really enjoyed reading this blog Joel. You so succinctly explain the two choices we have and their qualities that no elaboration is needed in the elucidation.

    1. The choices we have, so why do we not always choose love, or joy, ‘WHY? Why would anyone make the choice to go in any direction other than the one that leads to true joy…?’

  9. ‘…but it is OUR pain, hurt and suffering ..’ I can relate to the kudos I thought there was in making life hard – look at me, how amazing am I for coping with all this; or, when not coping I could be poor me but I’m doing well considering. This crazy desire to be an individual feels both ugly and immature. It’s worth recognising and letting it go.

    1. This is how many choose to live their life, making life about them as an individual, what they endure, and so on, instead of keeping life simply about love.

  10. Recently I was staying in a hotel and the back ground music was from the mid seventies and I could feel how emotionally charged it is. Music is another form of distraction we use because we can get lost in the emotion of the melody, add say alcohol to the mix and then we are gone. I know from my own experience that when we are in such an emotional state there is no way we can feel our essence. I don’t feel we understand just how toxic most music is.

    1. Today I went for a walk and a person was playing their music so everyone could hear. I remembered when I was a teenager and I wanted to make a statement. I wanted to claim I like this music and this is who I am in yer face. Now I don’t like hearing other people’s music but I know there’s a big lesson for me: being in the world and not get affected or absorb emotions. Me reacting is fueling what I don’t like. I’m not anywhere near being chilled about this – I can get a right righteous bee in my bonnet but I am learning and letting this go.

    2. But this I understand. If we are choosing to live separate from love we then have to ease the pain of this. Emotionality is an effective, albeit it misguided, way to do this.

  11. “This means in a world that can be back to front, the hurt gives us something to own ­– something that is ours.”
    I feel when we have something to own it keeps us all in the individuality of life and this is what we crave, because being an individual keeps us all in the separation to God. This is how we have fooled ourselves for lifetimes. There is a part of us that is so utterly arrogant that we would rather suffer in whatever way that means than return back to our origin, our soul. This actually makes no sense to me whatsoever, but this is what we are all doing. We are all suffering the imprisonment of separation.

  12. ‘..it will be there as equally for you now as it also was in those moments that you didn’t choose it. ‘ I love this. reading it I can feel all those areas where I am still conditional and not loving. Wonderful to notice and drop.

    1. Love just is, it’s as simple as that but we dance around creating stuff out of nothing, concocting dramas out of thin air, investing in illusions and buying into beliefs. What an absolute waste of time, truly what an absolute waste of time.

  13. Thanks so much for this blog. As I get more honest about the house is really falling down, and how I am way more than any of my hurts, I can leave them behind and walk away.

    1. Only when we get honest about what is truly going on can we leave it behind, otherwise it will forever remain unresolved.

    2. The things that we say hurt us are completely fabricated, our anguish, our tears, our sadness and our grief are all conjured up by our spirit, they are not part of our soul and never will be.

  14. The title of this blog is a phrase I have often used in observations of illogicalities in this world. It seems anything that is absent of equal love and care for others is always open to the corruption of greed and selfish pride.

    1. Is greed and selfish pride any different to being a samaritan or an evangelist? all of them are variations on the ‘What is Not God’, I actually think that the energy of ‘saving others’ is potentially worse than selfish pride because at least with selfish pride we’re all aware that it’s out for self gain but with the energy that stokes samaritans or evangelists then the energy that is also out for self gain is much more hidden.

  15. Joel, thanks for writing this piece because we do need to understand how we are actually hurting ourselves, and for most of us we have no awareness of this. We seem to live in auto pilot mode just ‘doing’ life. Which means we spend most of our lives in the identification of our suffering without realising that actually we can do something about it if we chose to, by simply bringing more awareness to our bodies?

    1. I love what Joel has offered here. To explore what it would feel like to put down all the accoutrements and accessories of life and walk simply and purely as us… to begin to feel what it would be like to have apparently nothing to offer except ourselves and realise how rich this is.

    2. People do spend a lot of time in the identification of their suffering, whereas in reality they can make different choices, choices to align to God, to love, to truth,, ‘Love does offer joy, vitality, freedom and simplicity, but it is offered to all equally without any sense of reward or parade.’

  16. And how crazy is it that someone who is expressing utter love and care of humanity with more beholding and genuine love than almost anyone could imagine to meet is attacked and called a cult leader?

    1. It is utterly crazy, we all desperately seek love, whether we are aware of it or not, and yet when we are offered love in abundance, we can turn round and attack those who offer love.

  17. It is crazy not to choose love yet so many of us do not choose it. Eventually all will choose it but how long that takes us is up to us.

  18. Love just is, and it is there for us all equally. There is no investment in love like the path of hurts that we dedicate so much time and effort to create. Yes it is crazy but something we all fall for!

    1. Love is there for us all equally, ‘Love won’t congratulate you for choosing it – it will be there as equally for you now as it also was in those moments that you didn’t choose it. It doesn’t care about race, skin colour, wealth, intelligence or life experience.’

  19. There are so many times in my day when I use that expression – “how crazy is that”. I am sure that I am not alone in this. It is absolutely crazy for example to not love ourselves yet we seem to accept it as part of life. Now that is crazy!

    1. There’s a whole lot of crazy that goes on in life when we come from love. The things I used to do that once made sense now I wonder what possessed me? But seen from wanting to be an individual, defined by what I did, even having a reputation for crazy, was something to live for. But the more I live from love the more I see how crazy not living from love is.

  20. To understand and appreciate love as something that we can return to, surrender back to, rather than go outside of ourselves to seek or need to try to conjure up, makes a big difference.

  21. ‘With love, we have to surrender the investments we made in our hurts.’ and this takes honesty and a choice to see with no attachment and identification the investments we made for so long. It brings us to a truly joyful life where we realize that we are much more than the pain we may experience at some point, we are pure essence from the inside, no matter that we have run away from it.

  22. Every word written here feels so True. With our issues and complications we believe being someone – it hurts but at least we can identify with something, crazy indeed – whereas Love is for all equally so and it has nothing personal.

  23. “This means that each step is looking to either cover up that hurt or alleviate it”. I love the clarity and simplicity with which our two choices and the resulting consequences of our choice to walk towards or away from the soul. To consider that all the things we do each day are driven by the need to alleviate or cover up the hurt of not living with the soul is massive. That means everything we choose to eat, how we exercise or not, when we go to sleep and what we do to keep ourselves up.

  24. How many of us have chosen to live in the house that’s falling down because of how much we have spent on it? HOW CRAZY IS THAT!?
    Yes, that is crazy, from the knowing that we are loving Souls, even when we have stepped million steps away from it, to invest in something that we know is not working. How crazy is that ?

  25. Everyday I realise more and more how utterly subtle the choice between love and abuse is. And despite how fine such a choice is it is poles apart in its quality to the other.

  26. It is the most empowering feeling to feel true love but it is can be the most exposing as it shows how utterly irresponsible we have been and how much we have been fouled by lies that we think are true.

  27. Love can’t be earnt, that is something many of us trip up on feeling we have to work for love in order to deserve love. Where the truth is love is always there to connect to as simple as that when we are willing to actually let go of our hurts.

  28. “With love, we have to surrender the investments we made in our hurts.” – And when we do we wonder why on earth we held onto them for so long, because when we become love our hurts become insignificant.

  29. We are reminded of and shown what we have invested in every day, in so many ways: from busting a gut running to catch the train because that’s the one we’ve decided we’ll get, or getting annoyed or upset because someone else isn’t acting how we’d like or are expecting them to,
    or the day isn’t going as planned..holding onto any expectation and reacting to it not being fulfilled is a distraction away from our true purpose: being who we are, and through that, upping the quota of love on the planet.

  30. When we truly live in love, we no longer feel identified with our hurts and no longer seek recognition from them, this to me is true freedom.

  31. Our true ‘identity’ is love, which is universal and doesn’t separate us out from others but is always considerate of the whole we are a part of.

  32. Such a great analogy with the falling down house, it’s crazy how identified we are with the self and how much love we are surrounded by if we just let go of all we have invested in.

  33. “Love has no individuality in it.” This is an upside down life changing revelation. Essentially it wipes out separation and says that there is not an ounce of truth in the so called love you think is love if there is an separation in it.

  34. Joel I like what you have written here
    “Love, on the other hand is free: it doesn’t ask or require you to follow anyone or become anything other than yourself.”
    This is I feel what Serge Benhayon is presenting to the world that to love ourselves is the greatest gift we can give to ourselves because it belongs to us freely so. And when we give ourselves the grace to be in love with ourselves again then we will be all that we were meant to be. And this means that you are completely with yourself and there is no way you could possibly follow any one because you have such a self-sufficiency within all that you could ever need.

    1. I am feeling that more, that return within and the deepth that is actually there is holding more sway to me than the distractions offered by the hurts etc. The other thing that is key to what your sharing Mary is how if we are being all we are then we offer another the permission/ inspiration to do the same.

  35. There can be a lot of push and drive and trying to seek love from others but beautiful how you share here that the movement back to love is a surrendering to what is already there within us to then bring that back out into our expression.

  36. Choosing any other way to live than one that is totally loving and embracing of every moment drains and depletes us.

  37. Choosing love means letting go of any investments in being a persona identified by anything outside their innermost.

  38. It shows that there is no in-between or a bit of both, it is either love or not, surrendering individuality or cementing it, allowing or owning, accepting or controlling – our choice at any moment.

  39. Joel these are very wise and true words
    “Love, on the other hand is free: it doesn’t ask or require you to follow anyone or become anything other than yourself. Love won’t congratulate you for choosing it – it will be there as equally for you now as it also was in those moments that you didn’t choose it. It doesn’t care about race, skin colour, wealth, intelligence or life experience. This means Love can’t be bought, it can’t be earned, only returned to by allowing and accepting ourselves and others as equals, i.e. no identification. With love, we have to surrender the investments we made in our hurts.”

  40. Regardless of what life throws at us, the preciousness of our essence remains untouched.

  41. When you have made your life all based on the individuality of you and everyone else it does take a massive shift of your consciousness to even begin to be open to the fact that true love has not an ounce of individuality in it.

    1. We have so many versions of love in this world it can be confusing to know what is true and what is not. But the truth is, we all know true love inside out and we would only fall for the false version of love when we have already walked away from true love. The two versions are a million miles apart and we can spot them instantly. Like you shared Joshua, ‘…true love has not an ounce of individuality in it.’

  42. I love the analogy about the house – we can apply it to so many things we are invested in and hang onto for way too long instead humbly accepting a new way forwards.

  43. What I get from this is how simple, and how expansive, love is. It’s not emotional or dramatic, isn’t anything you can give or get, but a quality. A quality that’s always there within us, ready and waiting to be connected to, even though sometimes we have added so many layers of ‘stuff’ around us, i.e. old issues and ways of behaving to try to not feel those issues, that we feel like the love is not there.

  44. Living from our hurts is an entrapment that has living at the mercy of our need for identity and individualisation, as we forgo the freedom of living and exploring the expansion and divine potential of our connection to the love we innately are. The wisdom, intelligence and power that is accessible to us when we live implused by our love is incomparable to anything or any emotion in this world and is what truly represents all that we are and are here to live.

  45. There is so much pain and suffering in the world today and if only we could come to an understanding that it is self-inflicted because we refuse to love ourselves. Thankfully there is a man on this plane of life who since 1999 has been reflecting to us all that there is another way to live and be with ourselves by returning back to the love we walked away from.

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