341 thoughts on “Spiritual Searching – I Too was Seduced”

1. I went from Christianity to the Spiritual New Age. At first I was taken into trying this modality and that but none ever giving me what I was looking for, so I left it all and was a spiritual destitute for a period of time. Then along came Serge into my life, I had come home, I had found what I had been looking for – my innermost essence, my search over at last.

2. It is quite amazing how little is known about the most basic aspects of energy. Once the veil is lifted this will feel like a dark age.

3. There were so many of us seduced by the tantalising offerings of the spiritual new age, mainly because we were living with an emptiness from the choices we had been making in our lives and simply wanted to be given the answers to the questions that were overflowing from us. Unfortunately, most, including me, accepted what we were offered without question and ended up more empty and more lost than we originally were, such were the lies that we were being fed and eagerly took into our lives.

4. The seeking of selfishness is no accident but is something we go for because it seems to stop us missing love. Anything to take the hurt away it seems – but Roberta you make it so clear these false answers hurt and harm us way more, cementing the reasons we have to be sad.

5. I got really caught up in New Age spirituality in a similar way Roberta, yet after years of it I had to say that my life still didn’t work, I still couldn’t explain the misery and emptiness inside, and after years of searching and finding temporary relief, if not distraction, I was in a much worse place by the end of it all. This is because I felt such a lack of trust and almost like giving up. I came to realise that nothing I did, read, or attended had worked for me. When I found out about Serge I had a very strong pull to travel interstate to meet him, but I had also decided that this was the last stop because I could not bear another thing that lacked substance and did not work. I’m talking about decades of exploring and searching before attending Universal Medicine workshops. That was 2012 and since that time I have not looked back, the healing, care and support provided by Serge and his work has allowed me to completely change my life. Serge Benhayon is absolutely the real deal.

6. I’ve come to recognise my body as a true marker or antenna as you say (love that analogy!) for discerning if something really sits true with me or not. It’s something that I’m continually learning with and fine tuning but I can honestly say that listening to my whole body brings me back to a sense of harmony that I know to be true and from that I have a marker to correspond with all else in life.

7. Today when i read a line such as “I have learned in my recent journeys, despite 25 years of spiritual searching, that the true book of wisdom I sought was in fact inside me all along.” I am like, of course that makes sense. But reverse back pre meeting Serge and I would have thought that was crazy, how would I, the person that was deeply discontented with life have the answers. Fast forward to a number of years of healing the various hurts and issues that I have had and in clarity, I know the truth was and is not only inside me and has been all along but is equally inside everyone else.

   1. You are exactly right!

8. Within us all lies a restlessness that reminds us constantly of the fact that we are so much more. There comes a point in everyone’s journey where this restlessness can no longer be covered by our every day life, activities, emotions and distractions and the search begins. On this path of return we will find a plethora of seducers that tell they are it, to look no further. But in the end, however long or short the journey, all will find their way back to the truth of who they are.

9. Wow Roberta this brings shivers down my spine when I once embarked on similar journeys with spiritual gurus. But at the back of my mind there was always something missing or niggling at me, I always felt an imposter.

   It was only when I met Serge Benhayon did this niggle stop niggling at me and through his presentations I know I have it all, its just hidden with ideals, beliefs and cultural influences. I’m learning its equally within me and no other person knows anymore than me.

10. I love the true book being the body – the marker of all truth. That’s a book I’m absolutely willing to read and listen to.

11. It is very seductive when somebody says; “I have all the answers” and especially so when they can back this up to some degree. However, this claim always seems to disappear under closer scrutiny except when the answer is “you have all the answers yourself as well – already!”.

12. It is becoming clear to me, a great marker in my body that anything that stimulates and excites me I am not coming from love. I have left my body placing everything on that which is outside of me and worse thinking that it is greater than the stillness within even if it temporarily. Living in stimulation also exposes the self as when I am living in the connection to myself I am at one with the universe and there cannot be anything but the stillness and connection to everything and everyone. I am expansive and there is no more small, contracted individual self.

13. the true book of wisdom I sought was in fact inside me all along.” The Ageless Wisdom presented by Serge Benhayon can be read as absolute truth within our body.

14. Not knowing is a responsibility but being love is also a responsibility. So in the process of not knowing are we still able to hold ourselves in love? Responsibility is very cool.

15. Wow Roberta, how often or much do we ‘think’ we have it? The many different flavours offering us any range of extent of delights, identifications and pleasures. It’s all the same coming from the one source of separation.
    ‘IT’ was ‘IT’ when I was presented with the truth that there are 2 x different sources to establish life from, that brought ‘IT’ truth home. I still dabble in the ‘delight’ of its me who is thinking – when what comes to me is not mine to own – so I have a choice what I will own. The more and more I let what love is inside, that is not for me but for every man that walks this earth, the more I appreciate myself and where I truly come from.

16. Love your point about the body and how it seemed to have no place in any of your seeking as All was coming from the mind. It seems all we are searching for is a true and deep connection with our body without taking any honesty or willingness to be real and true with our choices in life.

17. Interesting Roberta that the whole spiritual journey started with a cry to something outside yourself. Makes sense it went that way as the true answers to our dilemmas lie within.

18. What I find so very amazing is the lengths we will go to not feel our bodies and take many different avenues, cobbled paths, mountains etc to negate our natural universal intelligence of who we are and the wisdom we hold. This just highlights how truly powerful we are and how beautiful it is to return to the inner wisdom we bestow. What we learn on our journey back, also shows us the path of our return and much more to appreciate on where we have come from. A very inspiring blog Roberta thank you.

19. A very honest blog. Similar to my own story, except I didn’t go into regret, I just said; ‘Oops’ and got on with unraveling the spiritual life that I had built up. Perhaps that is something to do with the fact that even while I was working with the astral energy I always felt that something was still amiss, and I kept searching until I found Universal Medicine and the way home to myself. Now I search no more.

20. Making mistakes can feel grueling and shameful but they’re not who we are.

21. Roberta I too allowed myself to be seduced by the spiritual new age – and what a seductive path it is! Your description of it is perfect. Your reference to the state of your body at this time is important too. So many of the spiritual teachers and gurus I met, if not all, were far from healthy and vital. While I knew on some level this was less than ideal, and was reflecting their inner reality, I overrode my concerns and continued to go with glamour rather than truth.

22. Oh boy as I relate to the feelings of excitement and stimulation as I too embarked on a spiritual journey do I thank God and myself that I got myself out of it; that I listened to the feelings that were constantly communicating with me ‘this is not it… there is more’.

23. A very powerfully honest blog Roberta thank you. The pride we bump up against when faced with the truth can be a source of devastating stubbornness, in that we keep on with what we know deep down is not true with a doggedness that digs at us deep. Thankfully in your case you not only let go of this pride, but also didn’t lose yourself in the flagellation of what you were once part of. Universal Medicine and the modalities offered are like no other when it comes to restoring yourself from such wayward ventures into the spiritual new age.

24. It is clear that you no longer judge your actions or indulge in remorse for decisions made in the past and this is absolutely incredible and inspiring.

25. Roberta its amazing to see how we can be seduced by something that sounds right and in that we can override the niggles of what deep down we feel is not true. The seduction of the spiritual can seem so close to truth until you add the factor of quality of energy, then in my experiences its black and white.

26. I guess the first and foremost book we write for all to read is our body and how it looks and feels. People around us will feel and read our body and know exactly what is going on for us in life.

27. Knowing the difference between our Soul and spirit as presented by Serge Benhayon makes so much sense and is truly empowering, helping us to have a much deeper understanding of ourselves and our true path of evolution.

28. An amazing and deeply honest sharing Roberta, I too spent endless hours and time and money on spiritual searching. What a blessing is has been to meet Serge Benhayon and to understand the truth of the 2 energies and how this plays out in life, one energy leading you closer to love and your Soul and the other taking you further away from truth and our inner wisdom.

29. I had been deeply pondering the difference between Spirit and Soul and how these play out in our lives and after life when I came upon Universal Medicine. To then be able to explore what the Ancient Wisdom Teachings conveys in a very practical and down to earth approach as presented by Serge Benhayon is indeed a blessing. I, too, find myself following the dictates of my spirit however becoming more aware of when and how this happens I am able to make choices that align me back to a soulful way. I so appreciate the support that I am given on this path.

30. When on that ‘Spiritual Path’ it is so enticing, it is like a drug. Although the ‘high’ never lasts one always craves more and so one returns to get another ‘hit’.

    1. Very true jstewart51, I can recall many years of spiritual searching with always the lure of ‘this will be it’ like a carrot on a stick. It wasn’t until I met Serge Benhayon and began having session with Sacred Esoteric Healing that I realised I no longer had that feeling that something was still missing. It was the beginning of feeling a deep ease and contentment within me, which only leaves me when I choose to disconnect from my essence.

31. Thank you Roberta for this honest sharing of your Journey from the Spiritual New Age to the truth of The Way of The Livingness as presented by Serge Benhayon. I was sent on a wild goose chase through my searching until I too came to the truth of the Ancient Wisdom..

32. Reading this reminds me of an incident that happened shortly before I was to go to my first ever Universal Medicine presentation. I too had completely given myself over to my own spiritual searching. To the degree that I fell down my front stairs and into the garden. In that moment though, I knew that I was being ‘pushed’ by an energy/force to not attend the presentation. Somehow in this knowing, I also knew the importance of attending, so I did.

33. We have allowed ourselves to be programmed so that we look for anything and everything outside of us and not ever within. If what we are looking for were not within, it would privilege some over others and that is not how it works. We all equally have access to our inner-most.

    1. This is a great point Gabriele as God loves all equally.

34. How absolutely beautiful is it to know that we have the book of wisdom within us?. All we have to do is access it.

35. ‘What was the point of my existence?’ I remember feeling this, feeling that there had to be more and literally feeling what was the point of me being here. Now, I have none of those feelings as my life has purpose and I have an understanding of the bigger picture and what I bring is of equal importance to what another brings.

36. I too Roberta, went seeking through the Spiritual New Age movement, though only for a short time, don’t you just love it when the magic of God appeared on the van to call you to visit Serge. Even though you were heavily into the movement being open to signs was a doorway for the Heir-achy to call you back home.

37. This sounds like a very humbling experience for you and you have come out the other side so eloquent and well spoken. I watched my mother go through the spiritual new age faze when I was young but interestingly, like you, although she was involved, she new that there was something missing, something that didn’t quite add up. When we came across Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon everything made sense because the difference between the two energies had been very practically laid out. I am no saint and I often still dabble in the harmful energy, I dabble for comfort and entertainment but at least I know now what is going on and how harmful it is, at least I am no longer ignorant to my surrounds.

38. Very much appreciating your honest recounting here Roberta. How tempting it can be to say ‘yes’ to the spiritual arrogance offered by the new age… to say ‘yes’ to a belief that the Kingdom of God does NOT live within and we must pull in, if not wilfully invite in, other energies to enter – to express through us with all of their false ‘spiritual might’.
    And what a great renunciation it is, to recognise that none of this has been ‘it’, and that it is our reconnection to the true Kingdom and the light of the Soul that has awaited us all along… No ‘rah-rah’, no recognition, no falsity… only the absoluteness and purity of Love.
    I spent my own years dallying in new age philosophies and teachings, and every one without fail, confirmed the false belief stated above – ever asking that you seek outside of yourself to ‘be more’ and ‘connect to more’. What a trap for the sensitive being, who in truth, simply needs to be held in love that he or she may heal those yet-harboured hurts which stand in the way of reuniting with the Soul once more.

39. I so adore the honesty in which students of The Way of the Livingness, as presented by Serge Benayon, now choose to live their lives in, and then express to the world. It is so refreshing.

40. Spiritual seeking can take us off course for lifetimes and is, in my experience symptomatic of discontent (tension) without a true impulse to seek truth. When we truly seek… we find, and whatever else we seek, we find.

41. There is a part of us that knows that the ‘meaning of life’ is found deep within us, thus why we set out on a search that will take us everywhere and anywhere other than back to the truth that lays within. Therefore it is not a case of us needing to seek truth and going in search for it, but more so a case of us being willing to return to it.

42. One of the greatest realisations I have ever had was the fact that what we seek, we find. When I thought I was ‘searching for truth’ by finding new things to tantalise my spirit, all the while thinking I was advancing myself, I was not truly seeking truth at all, but relief from the underlying misery I wasn’t prepared to get honest enough about to access the truth. Once I began that search in earnest, asking from a place much deeper and open to the actual truth, I found it very quickly, or more correctly, it found me. I have never looked back, and nor have I ever missed the fact that when we seek… truly… we find.

43. It feels to me as if you are missing some appreciation in that you were able to admit so whole heartedly that you had been duped! So many would rather shoot the messenger than admit that they are on the wrong path, especially when we are so invested in what we do. To put your hands up in the air and go whoops I was on the wrong track is very courageous.

44. It was the greatest point of my life to meet and be met by Serge Benhayon for in that meeting I met myself – my true self that I had been so deeply missing. When we are offered the reflection of true connection we can choose to take it or run away as it exposes all that is not true and the error of past choices. As we then start to live as our true selves we offer that same reflection to others and also keep deepening our own connection – it is such a beautiful way to live. Yes there are indeed great riches and volumes within.

45. In disconnection to our inner-hearts where we can discern truth from what is not, we are at the mercy of ideals and beliefs that guarantee nothing more than glamour -often at the expense of our bodies and not to mention the many lifetimes it will take us to clear such grime from our souls.

46. I heard people saying that the spiritual journey is actually a delay of finding that the truth is actually already inside and with your story I can really see why. You felt there had to be more but the spiritual new age is so enticing and looking like it is it that we can get lost in the illusion of it without realising.

47. Roberta, you say, “I too was seduced” which does indeed show the setup that’s there to stop us finding our true purpose in life. However, ultimately we are responsible for the choices we have made and once we discern the harm hidden in seemingly benign choices we can make only those choices that stem from love and harmony and serve to reflect that to the world.

48. Living in the comfort of the ‘magnificent home in the country’ and having everything you want still does not fill the emptiness we feel from not connecting to ourselves and having no true purpose in life. We can seek outside ourselves for years adding another flavor to our lives until we start to see that any new pursuit is just a new flavor of the one thing which is a distraction from committing to what we are here to bring.

49. In my experience spiritual searches allow us to ‘seek truth’ under conditions, allowing us to be manipulated as we don’t want to use our full awareness. Putting truth (or true love) above everything seems to be a minimum requirement not to get caught.

50. It is amazing how the mind can convince us if we are doing something right when we can completely ignore the messages from the body, in my experience, it was as if there was no connection between them at all–which is actually spot on, as there is no connection happening with myself. With connection, there is no right or wrong, it is only if there is love or lovelessness.

    1. I agree – people in my experience much of the time remember receiving a warning message from their body before things went badly wrong and remember overriding that message.

       1. Very true Christoph, I know this for myself but also countless others I’ve seen in a consulting context who report that in retrospect there were warning signs that things were not right. Inevitably these were ignored until such time as a more severe condition became apparent.

51. The seduction of surface successes will never still the knowingness within that is aware there is more to the game of life than what we see.

52. So many of us have been caught in the excitement of the new age Roberta! It seemed to be an exciting time but not fulfilling, instead a smoke screen to take us further off track from the truth. When Serge Benhayon
    came along the truth was revealed and all made sense.

53. The true antenna is the body and not the mind The mind plays a big in spiritual and mental healing techniques but it is never true, from this the body stays empty.

54. In my experience the Spiritual New Age provided some sort of relief for the empty feeling I had inside. But it never quelled it and it needed to be fed constantly. Whilst the talk was all about energy it did not come close to giving any understanding of the multidimensional beings that we are and our responsibility we have. Those two things alone have changed everything and I know that any emptiness I am feeling is because I am not living my multidimensionality and walking with responsibility – neither of which is an external gift, they are two things I carry within and have a choice to walk in.

55. It’s interesting that if we let ourselves hear truth and really feel it, we can then react to it so much that we start to doubt truth, the very thing that we felt to be true in the first place. Once the reaction passes, for pass it will. whether in hours days, months, years or lifetimes, we come to understand that truth is something we know and feel from within so we have no need to fear being hoodwinked by illusion again if we dedicate ourselves to living in connection to what is inside us.

56. We are so incredibly vast and connected to so much more than we can see. If we try and reduce ourselves into simply functioning as humans without the awareness of that vastness, emptiness prevails.

57. Serge Benhayon’s teachings of the difference between spirit and soul have been 100% fundamental in bringing understanding to the truth of energy, consiousness and Will. What I wanted to stay totally unfathomable 10 years or so ago has been uncovered, presented, re-presented, and re-presented again and again, until finally the penny drops and the pieces come together. Once it is known, there is a true choice that can be made.

58. Roberta it is a very powerful experience you have shared, thank you for your honesty. I was also heavily caught up in spirituality and at the end of it all, after years and years of exploring I was just as empty, miserable and unhappy as I’d been at the beginning. It was all a distraction and a desperation to feel better. Your line really stood out for me “I’ve just channelled and produced a book of loving words” as it highlights to me how the New Age is built upon “love” being out there to the point it must be channelled from another source, instead of that source actually being inside of ourselves and the essence of who we are. It’s interesting how the New Age/spirituality is cleverly constructed to avoid all truths, including all that we truly are as souls with an equal connection to God. It could be said that spirit-uality is a clear example of a consciousness created by the spirit which purposefully excludes the soul and its grand truth.

59. Your path is a familiar one and trodden by many. When we have been seeking answers in all the tantalizing modalities that are available it is a bit confronting and no where near as glamorous to realise they are within us all along.

60. Thank you Roberta. It is not easy to face the fact that we have been deceived and that we allowed it to occur through not dealing with our pain and emptiness. Thank heavens for Serge Benhayon who has introduced the importance of connecting with the divine spark within us, which leaves no room for disconnection, emptiness or hurts. This is what has changed my life.

61. It’s interesting how you use the word “seduced” when you describe your relationship to spiritual searching, it gives away it’s true intention and origin by it’s seduction and attempts to hook you in, whereas the truth simply allows you to be and to choose it whenever you’re ready – quite a stark difference.

62. Very telling when you describe your reaction to the discovery of the new age offerings as an “emotive response” – emotive it is indeed and can’t but be; it is the filling of a need that will align with and further ingrain the emptiness that is felt on the inside. True answers there are none in the new age, only delay tactics and entertainment.

63. That feeling of “there has to be something else”, “this can’t be it” is so eye opening if we allow it to come through.

64. I love the clarity we have when we look back at our previous endeavours seeking what was missing from our lives. When we look at life from the inside out there is much more clarity and understanding than when we seek life from outside first, and fall for beliefs rather than what we know to be true or not.

65. I was thinking about the two energies this morning and how to explain it so it doesn’t sound bonkers! Someone recently refuted this and said there was just the absence of love if something was not loving, but on pondering this I realised that is not possible as all is energy so there is never the absence of energy it is either the energy of love or not and everything plays out from there.

    1. What you have shared is huge. There can be no void. If we are not filling the moment with love we are actively filling it with something else. And a very significant question leads on from that: when we are not walking with the fullness of the love that we are, what are we inviting in?

       1. Yes, exactly Golnaz. In not walking and living in and with ‘the fullness of the love that we are’, energies other than love must fill ‘this space’. We think ourselves to be ‘prey’ to such energy, but in truth, it is we who have said yes to it crossing our threshold in the first place.

    2. That’s a very simple explanation because if something is not love then it must be something else. It either is or it isn’t.

66. The spirits pride can seem like a powerful force – but it is nothing compared to the light and love of our inner-heart. Learning to focus and be with everything that is rather than stew on everything that is not that love has been a huge lesson for me.

67. It’s interesting how obvious it appears as a false path when looking back and having connected back to the truth within us. This just goes to show how deceptive and powerful glamour and illusion really are.

68. The continual journey to seek answers from the outside only prolongs the truth from permeating our every cell and reverberating out through our bodies. When we begin to listen to the copious amounts of wisdom available within we begin to uncover the truth and honesty of life and love and that is truly monumental in terms of healing our past experiences and patterns that we have held onto for long periods of time.

69. I used to think I was less than those who claimed to be able to read energy and do healing and stuff like that that was beyond the physical realm, and it was very easy to give my power away. I can now feel how I had already stepped away from my power well before I encountered and experimented with anything outwardly by not claiming what was inside me.

70. You paint the picture so clearly Roberta of what the new age is, the excitement, the next thing and always the seeking, and yet while I can clearly see that now, I didn’t want to be honest about it when I was in it – I knew deep down something was not true, but I continued until I came across Universal Medicine and met something completely different, that did not try and fix me or make me better but in fact asked me to go within and be myself. It’s changed my whole life and approach, and brought me back to a realness and a depth of connection in myself, it’s brought me back to me.

71. Seduced, such a perfect word to describe the way I was tantalised by spirituality and the spiritual paths I too walked down. The offerings of bliss and along with that the arrogance were all part of the package.

72. Thank you Roberta this is a great sharing on the importance of knowing the difference between the two energies – Soul or Spirit. I wish I knew the truth of this before I spent countless years and energy in the Spiritual New Age movement as well. If the truth about Soul and Spirit was taught at school at a young age how empowered we would feel knowing we always have a choice as to which energy we align to.

73. Knowing the truth about our spirit and Soul is truly liberating, it gives us a clearer choice of what energy we choose to have running through us and it is a clarity that is very needed.

74. Roberta such honesty I love it, it is very refreshing and certainly what we need more of. There are so many ‘new age’ therapies out there but just how true are they? If we do not at first understand and feel the truth of energy ‘one being truly Divine (the soul consciousness) and the other from the Astral plane (the spiritual consciousness)’ for a start, then everything is baseless. When I first met Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine it was like my body came alight it knew that what was being presented was the truth, there was no arguing and no way my mind or doubt could get in the way. It was very matter of fact. You also raise a great point why is it that when we are so down or desolate we continually look outside ourselves for the answer, in fact we don’t even have to be down and desolate! It seems a given that at the moment the majority of us look outside of ourselves for answers not within. i would argue that if we were truly deeply connected with ourselves and the innate love within there would be no room for feeling down and desolate in the first place. So it seems this really is a bit of a dilemma at the moment, that here we are in the 21st century apparently evolved with faster and flashier technology being produced every second yet we still do not know how to connect with the incredible love and wisdom we all hold within!!! All I can say is thank goodness for Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine for through their living, teaching, presenting and what constantly and consistently reflect to all is that there is another way of living and being, and the tide of exhaustion, misery, depression, desolation, disregard, abuse, feeling lost and much more is slowly turning back around to one of true love and connection.

75. I love this line Roberta “How could I have believed through all my spiritual searching that at any level I was being en-light-ened when the body grew heavier and heavier, leaving me 20 kilos overweight?” Our bodies show us everything we could ever need to know, how could the truth leave you overweight and getting heavier and heavier? It doesn’t make sense. A true way of living supports and nourishes the body in every possible way.

76. Thank you Roberta for sharing your story, I could relate to the New Age searching always trying out and getting hooked into another modality but never feeling met. Not until Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon came into my life did my searching end, and my life, living from within began and now continues to unfold.

77. It’s like a well kept secret that there are two energies, ‘spirit which is the separated aspect of the soul, or the soul which is our true connection to God.’ It’s only when we see the difference can we see the deception we are fed to take us on a spiritual journey away from ourselves, rather than our connection to our Soul which is the true connection to our essence and who we are in truth.

78. I just love the part where you were waiting for a sign and a white van passed you “at a round-a-bout with the one word written in huge letters diagonally up the side of the van ‘S E R G E’” – the masters were making sure you got this message loud and clear.

79. “Instead of just going “Whoops!!! I was mistaken,” I descended into remorse and regret, afraid and ashamed to face anyone.” – we can create a lot of complication for ourselves by heaping heavy judgement on our past actions or choices rather than simply being fully honest with ourselves and then allowing ourselves to move on from that with a different quality of choice.

    1. So true – often our reaction to our mistakes is worse and does more damage than the actual mistake itself! What if it was ok to make mistakes and we only had to make a different choice?

80. I love the idea that’s there’s a book of wisdom inside us, sometimes recently I feel like I’m consulting the encyclopaedia of the universe – which literally blows me away.

81. I could relate to the tantilisation with anything energetic in my earlier life. I also felt my spirit’s ears prick at the chance to be special, to be able to manipulate energy. The crazy thing with the spirit is that it is we who are being manipulated and finding things to identify us or make us seem special takes us further away from the oneness of our soul that we all share.

82. ‘It’s interesting to note that I was constantly working with my mind – not ‘feeling’ from within or listening to my true antenna, my body.’ We can put so much effort into working things through in our mind, looking outside ourselves for confirmation or recognition we are doing ‘ok’ This is an exhausting way to live and yet one that most of us use to get by – no wonder exhaustion in our societies is at an epidemic level. To bring a deeper awareness to the messages our body is constantly telling us all the time and responding to them is a great starting point and I have found that journey well worth taking.

83. It’s funny yet it’s not, that many of the modalities that work with light or energies are not questioned as to what energy they are actually working with. It’s like not paying any form of attention to what fuel you use in your car, you just fill it up with whatever. The body gives us the grace to discern if the energy is true or not but it will still keep on serving us until it cannot no longer due to the fuel not being true.

84. “……despite 25 years of spiritual searching, that the true book of wisdom I sought was in fact inside me all along. Back then I had no awareness that there were indeed two different energies that I could choose to align with.” I too was seduced by spiritual course, books and workshops – but found no truth in them – so kept on searching. It was always ‘the next one will be the one’…. Not until I came to Universal Medicine did I know in my body that I had come home to myself – and to truth. Serge Benhayon is a world teacher -presenting pure gold One day the world will know this.

85. Being in our body is definitely the marker of all truth, as presented by Serge Benhayon. I used to numb myself or not even stay in my body so that I didn’t even feel my body – I didn’t want to hear truth. Since becoming a student of Universal Medicine, this has changed. I now love receiving my body’s messages – they are now very clear to me.

86. I love this line Roberta – ”How could I have believed through all my spiritual searching that at any level I was being en-light-ened when the body grew heavier and heavier, leaving me 20 kilos overweight?” This is why I love the teaching from Serge Benhayon that the body is the ultimate marker of truth, it simply cannot lie, you can think you’re doing amazingly in your head, but if your body is heavy, sluggish and overweight – where is the joy and the success in that?

87. I really like this blog, I have been avoiding it, for I don’t want to feel how heavily I have been involved in the spiritual pursuits, the false light, not the light of my Soul, in this life and past lifetimes. It’s interesting as I react a lot to people who are reading spiritual books, but really I cannot judge, which I do big time, I freak out, can be arrogant, dismissive and react, ( then what in truth am I reflecting of the Ancient Wisdom and The Way of The Livingness – certainly not love) as this is where I started off in this lifetime, going down the yoga, reiki spiritual new age track, and here I am now, having felt and found the absolute truth in Serge Benhayon, The Ancient Wisdom and Universal Medicine. 

88. What you have expressed here Roberta is so important and to me is so true when you say that what we are searching for lies within;
    “Through listening to my body and the innate love that lies within, I can acknowledge that I was inspired by the love that Serge Benhayon has for all humanity”.
    We are indeed blessed to be inspired by Serge Benhayon and the teachings of Universal Medicine.

89. Roberta what you’ve shared is so important… “Somehow I knew I still hadn’t found that piece of the puzzle that had thus far eluded me, but at that time the illusion had me in its grip.”
    I was caught up in the spiritual new age too, with the tell-tale sign that it was not ‘it’ being the fact I was still forever searching. I would never have said I didn’t already ‘have it’ until I actually found ‘it’ – also as a result of one meeting with Serge Benhayon. Everything in my life began to change from that point onwards. Even then it was only in retrospect, a couple of years later, that I realised I had stopped searching and had no further interest in anything outside my own connection to the love I could feel inside me.

90. It is easy to say that we just need to look inside for the answers but it is true nevertheless, we first have to learn to look inside again and understand what we find there. If we knew how to do it we probably wouldn´t look outside for the answers, hence the process of undoing what keeps us from knowing, and step by step returning back to what we once left behind and miss since.

91. Sometimes we need to be exposed to the “what is not” before we can truly feel the truth of the “what is” . This was my experience as well, Roberta. Now I am saying yes to the energy that is loving and simplicity itself and my life has changed so much.

92. I can relate to your story Roberta, and to the endless exhausting search for something, the answer, the longing that would take me from one spiritual quest to another always leaving me with more to look for, more of a gaping hole. The answers we are all searching for are within, which is as you have expressed, accessed when we look within with a bit more honesty…. what is revealed is then the answers we’ve been looking for all along.

93. The beauty of our connection is that in truth it is always there patiently waiting for us to stop and see that we hold the key to everything we need. There is no perfection in our roads of returning to our bodies connection, because we are all on a journey of discovery and learning which is forever shifting and changing.

94. “all I could possibly want on a physical level, yet there was such an emptiness and sadness I could not explain.” I can relate to this as I also felt this sadness and went on a spiritual journey for sometime but I think I ended up more sad and definitely more disillusioned at the end of that journey. When you connect to the light of the soul and learn to live in connection with your soul, there is no emptiness – only the occasional sadness when you realise the times you chose spirit over soul. But that sadness can be felt and let go and return to the holding of the soul.

95. Beautiful article that exposes the spiritual search leading us away from us while selling us salvation, answers, meaning, love but never delivering it so that it is embodied and thus confirmed by the body as of its true making. The proof of truth is not in the pudding but definitely in the body.

96. Do we feel vital and joined up? Do we feel a warmth all over our body? Do we cherish our every last cell? For what I have found is that there is constant seeking in life, which is never satisfied that is missing this gorgeous connection in me. Although the spiritual books and pursuits you mention Roberta have dropped away this is still a process I have to watch out for. For this empty coldness that used to be ‘ok’ or ‘normal’ is no longer fooling me that this is true.

97. I have heard it touted that money is the root of all evil. In fact the root of all evil is the misinterpretation and misuse of words. For in mixing our meanings and definitions, we lose the truth in our actions and can easily cover our lies with what we say.

98. In my so-called spiritual seeking, I had the might of arrogance to look down on most of things as ‘fluffy’, thinking I was being discerning only to fall for the ones with more devastating, imposing force to match my own – even when I could feel something was off, I was attracted by intensity and willing to give my power away, and there seemed like no end to that ‘seeking’. So glad I somehow found a way out of that trap.

99. Roberta, thankyou for sharing so openly and honestly. I also was enthralled by the spiritual New Age, but after many years and much spent money, I found myself back where I originally started – feeling empty and lost with no true answers. By that stage I could add that I had been significantly altered, and not in a good way, by the many spiritual healing and alternative healing modalities I relied on. When I met Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon it was my last stop on my journey of searching for the truth, I just felt I could not go through another thing that was possibly based on more enthralling information that would ultimately lead me no where. However, within 5 minutes of hearing Serge speak I knew I was listening to the truth, and to a true gentle man. Since that time my life has changed in so many ways for the better, my health and wellbeing has improved across the board, as have my relationships and working life thanks to Universal Medicine. What I appreciate about Serge’s work is that it’s simple and practical, and it discerns (rightly so) the difference between spirit and soul. If I could swap every spiritual, New Age and alternative modality for more time with Universal Medicine I would.

100. Many of us have been hooked in to the Spiritual New Age by its teachings and/or healing techniques. It’s almost like we get on a merry go round that keeps on taking us for a ride until we begin to realise what it is all about. Awesome that you have come through to feel the way you do now, shedding all that extra weight on the way.

101. “I made a decision to seek within a little more honestly.”…it is quite humbling when you choose to do this as can ‘pull the rug’ so to speak on the lies you have been standing upon.

102. It’s only since my introduction to Universal Medicine have I been made aware of the two different energies that can be aligned to.

103. Love your blog Roberta, so similar to my story…same, same just some details different. I too was over weight, this alone was a dead give away and the fact I was depressed for the 10 years I was involved in the spiritual new age movement and hardly worked….interesting that I thought this was all okay!!!!

104. Yes it is remarkable Roberta, how we can discover something revealing about our behaviour and then this gets used to further beat up ourselves. “Oh how awful I have been for not loving me – how bad of me!” – this circularity just perpetuates the very same attitude and approach it looks to call out. This is the nature of the spirit in us, that it will use words and any diversionary props to avoid us simply loving us. This is why as you show Roberta, energy and our body is a crucial component of anything true we come to know.

105. This open sharing has given me many insights into the inner world of spiritual new age.
     Thank You.

106. So lovely and inspirational to read Roberta; so wonderful that you appreciate the sun shining again due to you taking responsibility to listening to your body and the innate love and wisdom that lies within;
     “However, the sun did shine again and the trust has returned now as I write these words”, thank you.

107. I think that regret after finding out what energies we have been playing with and how we have expanded those in other people’s bodies is one of the aches I remember from my early days as well. When you have felt the lightness of the connection to soul, everything else stands out. We dull that connection so heavily that it feels disconnected, but in fact the soul waits patiently for the reconnection, gently pulling us back with a constant tension.

108. “I had a deeper knowing that there was still ‘something else’ that I was missing.” So many of us share this constant awareness that ‘something’ was missing. On my first meeting with Serge Benhayon I knew I had found the key to finding the lost piece of the jigsaw – me.

109. Not so long ago, I attended a mind body spirit fair for work, and I was really stunned at the energy around the place. There was a lot of people searching desperately un-discerningly for something. I could see how some of the people running the stalls took advantage of this, there were fortune tellers there, and card readers that I could hear being quite imposing in what they advised and recommended, this whole thing was quite an eye opener for me as I could really directly feel the harm and added devastation it was causing.

110. “Instead of just going “Whoops!!! I was mistaken,” I descended into remorse and regret, afraid and ashamed to face anyone.” Which is the same energy that has us taking the spiritual instead of the soulful path. The spirit loves the struggle because it creates a delay to us coming back to our soul and truly serving.

111. Learning the difference between Spirit and Soul is a re-awakening to the truth of everything – no wonder something the temporal world, and the spiritual new age work so hard to ensure this truth is buried, dismissed, obfuscated and bastardised.

112. It really is amazing when we feel the undeniable wisdom shared from our bodies, instead of reverting to the knowledge from our heads. Our bodies are the true markers of wisdom and when we are open and aware of the wonder we all hold, amazing transformations can occur.

113. Discovering the reality of there being two energies from which to choose to live life was an outright game changer for me too Roberta… and knowing how to choose the one that is truly loving was also pivotal. Prior to that I would think I was choosing love when in fact I was far from it. The teachings and presentations of Universal Medicine are enlightening and exposing of the way things really are… and with this understanding, it is possible to make sense of life in all it’s complication and intricacy.

114. It’s remarkable that after 25 years of searching you found a place where you could rest and become aware of the falsity of everything that came before, transform your life and start again with a deep knowing of truth and of finding what you had been seeking all along… yourself.

115. Great blog Roberta, it just goes to show how simply being met has such an impact on a person. It’s like we have the moment of truly meeting ourselves. No searching afield needed, its all there under our own nose, by simply connecting within.

116. “How could I have believed through all my spiritual searching that at any level I was being en-light-ened when the body grew heavier and heavier, leaving me 20 kilos overweight?” such a real and practical question that if we answer honestly for ourselves, will be the start of true healing. It doesn’t need to be extra weight – it can be the opposite where we are wasting away, ill-health of some kind, aches, pains, dis-eases – they all offer us a reflection of the truth of how we are living if we but open our heart’s ears to listen.

117. Roberta thank you so much for your honest blog. Your openness helped me to get a deeper understanding why people chose to be on their spiritual path. It made it very obvious for me that being spiritual can become an addiction – therefore you blog is gold – it can shake this people to stopp this unhealthy path.

118. It’s astounding how many of us hold on to extra body mass and feel comfortable and get encouraged to stay that way imbibing and eating substances that keep us numb to our true feelings. I love how frank you are in this blog and share your realisation of the two different energies that can run us, spiritual or soulful and your choosing to align to the soul when the attraction of the spirit has been so strong.

119. It is not that Serge Benhayon “taught” that there were two types of energy, and that people then “learned” the fact. He simply presented it as a possibility for people to consider. And sure enough, in time, if you are open to trialing what he has to say by looking at the way you live, you can feel the fact. Prana has a certain quality of heat to it – prickly, like static on a television set. Prana can also feel cold, empty, but also make you feel driven. In fact it has a thousand different flavours, which is why at first it is hard to discern – equally because it is an energy source we are used to running on. Fire, on the other hand, has a different quality of warmth. It is more an all encompassing emanation, a particular warmth that invites your body to surrender. Of course, the the difference between the two cannot be felt by the mind. It can only be felt through the body, and if truth be known, it is only when the body is in the state of fire that it can feel the fact of both. So, thus the esoteric way – thus the focus on the relationship with food, with looking after the body, with taking care of oneself, with renouncing the ways of the world so to speak – all of it designed to assist one to develop a body that can actually feel the fact of fire.

120. ‘I have learned in my recent journeys, despite 25 years of spiritual searching, that the true book of wisdom I sought was in fact inside me all along.’ This book never leaves us, we can open it whenever we are ready to do so, ready to build a relationship with ourselves, a relationship with God.

121. Gorgeous Roberta ‘It is indeed revealing when we return to our true book of loving words and the wisdom within, that book being our body; after all, it is the marker of truth for each one of us.’ And with every book open and read and enjoyed in full we are a living library. 😉

122. “Why do we believe that someone/something out there knows more than each one of us knows intrinsically deep inside?” Great question, and one well worth considering.

123. I do not doubt the authenticity of people who have participated in channeling spirits etc – at least with regard to the fact I understand they are authentically channelling something. I have had first had experience with a weegie board when I was younger. The experience was real. The problem is that because it is so mysterious, and we cannot see what we are dealing with, we either discount it as a skeptic would, and decry it as not being real, or just as dangerously in my opinion, we give such spirits/forces more credence than we should. I did not go down the spiritual new age path as some have, and I do not judge those that have. I understand. There is a world of energy beyond that of physicality, and it makes sense to be drawn to it. However, the question that always prevented me from “believing” in the predictions of clairvoyants etc – even though in many cases I found them to be quite accurate – was one question. And that is – what are we playing with here, and what are these energies or spirits we call in and give our power away to? What is their purpose? And until such time as I could discern as such, I would not give them the time of day. To me this is super important. If you want to play in the world of energy, then know what you are dealing with, and until you can be sure you know beyond mere faith or hope, my advice would be to treat such things with a huge grain of salt, and whilst it is good to be open, it is equally important to be energetically discerning.

124. Amazing how much energy we put into searching outside of ourselves for the answers when they are there in our bodies waiting to be read all along.

125. Spiritual teachings offer you somewhere to go, something to get, which distracts you from the truth that is within us all along. We only get hooked by it if we say Yes to playing the game because our need for love and recognition creates an opening for the astral energy to enter. Once we are full of ourselves there is no room for anything but love and no door for any not-love to enter.

126. Roberta, I too was seduced and got caught in the illusion of spiritual teachings. As you say, I was “hooked” and I allowed the astral energy to run me. I knew something was not right because I got very drained and depressed until I started putting into practice the simple techniques suggested by Serge Benhayon. When I first met him, I felt seen and met as an equal and I connected to a strength within which I had forgotten. I realized also that “the true book of wisdom I sought was in fact inside me all along”.

127. Thank you Roberta for openly sharing your journey. I can so relate to many things in your journey, especially that the more I aligned to the astral energy the heavier I got. I have become much lighter as my relationship with the divine energy evolves.- thanks to Serge Benhayon presenting this to me.

128. In my spiritual searches I often came back to thinking I was not doing enough, not committed enough or not intelligent enough to progress and this was why I sunk to a deep emptiness at times. To get out of this horrible mind set and false searching has only been possible with the support of Universal Medicine, because I would have never settled for the rat race reality of life being enough and would have continued to follow my inner knowing there was more.

129. There is no doubting Serge Benhayons resolve in living and presenting truth

130. Beautiful expressed Rachel and yes there is nothing more divine than the feeling of our true essence being reignited back to who we truly are.

     1. This path feels true. The steps we take along it are solid and strong.

131. Thank you Roberta, for such an honest article and for your willingness to know what is truth and what is not.

132. Your description Roberta reminds me of when we search for our reading glasses, only after much exasperation to realise they are sitting on our head. Just like the glasses, our body and its feeling wisdom is with us in it all, just waiting patiently for us to stop frantically rummaging around the room.

133. “so from my chosen ignorance I played and cavorted heartily with that energy that took me even further away from my Soul.” The step towards responsibility is understanding that we make a choice as to what energy we align to because deep down we do know. I love that you’ve highlighted that it was a choice Roberta and one that we all have to either align to our Soul or our spirit.

134. The thing about the spiritual new age movement is that it does not teach or encourage you to discern energy sources. This is actually a very natural thing to do, as any child does it right from the start of life and if you talk with them about energetic qualities, they can tell you some fundamental truths that bring everything back in to perspective. But unfortunately we are rarely spoken with in this way and so that ability is buried or forgotten and we can begin to accept life for how it is presented to us, not realising that the ability to discern energy and to always see the source it is coming from is actually an essential key to life that was never lost.

     1. Agree Shami what Serge Benhayon presents on the 2 sources of energy is absolute gold and was certainly a missing key in my life.

135. Roberta, you have asked some hugely important questions when you ask why we look outside ourselves when we have problems, rather than within. It goes to show how far away we have gradually moved to from understanding and trusting that we do have a lot of wisdom inside ourselves. I also found it hard to set aside the hurt around how often I had been duped in the past with various spiritualist ideas and to embrace what Universal Medicine offers, but I also recognised that there was something here that did feel true and it was just my mind fighting what I was being shown. Bit by bit I have been learning to embrace who I am and to trust that I do have untapped depths of wisdom to guide me through life.

136. It is a huge thing to recognize when we have been fooled and yes it is easy to descend into shape and remorsefulness. But such emotions only stem from the fact of our pride and investment in what we have created. If we were truly humble there would be no place for shame or regret for in humbleness we allow ourselves to see the greater picture of all things.

137. Sign me up Roberta for the group of retired Reiki Masters and spiritual searchers. The fact of there being two types of energy we can draw from is central to the presentations of Universal Medicine and central to the fact that there is a universal medicine and that is to become aware of the energy we choose.

     1. I so love that Joel – ‘Sign me up for the group of retired reiki masters…’ – one has to laugh now at the ridiculousness of that scenario. For some sobering reason immediately springs to mind the current situation of a consciousness that encourages a developing insidious indoctrination/belief or further separation via suicide bombers, supposed martyrs and terrorists – a bit scary when one realizes that this is the same energy or consciousness that I allowed myself to believe was connected to God and His/Her all embracing Love. In humility I so appreciate that I chose to explore the fact of there being two energies that we can in any moment choose to align with, and they being the Soul or the spirit. This awareness has only come about as a result of my listening to my inner heart instead of looking outside of myself for the answers, subsequently meeting The World Teacher of Love and Wisdom Serge Benhayon, becoming a student of The Way of The Livingness and attending the heartfull presentations of Universal Medicine. What would the world be like if all the sons of God chose to be connected to their inner hearts – to their Soul, to the Fiery Consciousness.

138. I too got lost on the way to the truth Roberta. There is so much I have to thank Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon for. Thank you for your sharing,

139. How lucky are we all who have met and been met by Serge Benhayon.

140. Serge Benhayon offers something deeply supportive to humanity, he offers that everything energy and everything is then, because of energy, I stopped and pondered this and like the difference in the spirt and soul (as you mentioned) I saw clearly that I got to chose which energy I lived with. It is empowering beyond words to have this presented. And nothing strange about it, we all have felt our inner bodies when we go into a rage or indignation that something comes into our bodies that is a rush, an energy, it is not just emotion, we can feel how it can take us over. And yet we have the power to chose what we express, this is fundamental to how we can live life together, with responsibility.

141. I hadn’t heard this before, “I met many folk who like me, didn’t realise that there were two different energies to choose from: the spirit which is the separated aspect of the soul,” I can feel now through observation that my inner life’s essence, my soul expresses very differently from my spirt. Through paying attention for the last few years I can feel the difference, heavy or light, dark or light, dark or expansive, self or the all. I am choosing the All, my soul more and it feels naturally harmonious.

142. I loved the fact that you saw SERGE written across a van Roberta, your Soul was not going to let you miss this.

     1. Yes it shows we are constantly given signs

143. “There has to be something else!!” the prominence of spiritual pursuits and self-help books today indicates to me that we actually deeply know the way we currently live is not ‘it’. Yet no presenter, that I know of has defined the existence of these two energies and our ability to feel this in the body like Serge Benhayon. Universal Medicine and The Way of The Livingness undress the spirit’s game, which has us seeking high and low for what we actually already have and know.

144. Our body is definitely our true antenna that senses and feels all. This is a realisation that we all must make and accept as true and we all need to go way beyond both analogue and digital on this!

     1. Suse yes our body is a true antenna that senses and feels all

145. Just like you Roberta we all have that same book of wisdom within us equally that we can access anytime we choose. And with that ‘book being our body’ all we have to do is simply stop, appreciate and read the wisdom from our own bodies.

     1. Yep, all we have to do is choose to listen! Much needed advise for me to take on board!

146. “It was about twenty five years ago when I was feeling very sad and hollow inside – and unbeknownst to me without true connection to myself, the true me – that I soon allowed an energy in to fill the empty space within me.”
     I can relate to feeling this hollow pit of emptiness Roberta and trying to fill it with anything, everything and anyone to no avail. It’s an enormous blessing to have Serge Benhayon present with us at this time showing us that only the way to fill this emptiness is to cease looking outside ourselves and reconnect to that innermost part of ourselves and embrace the love that we are.

147. Thank you Roberta for sharing so honestly your journey out from the darkness of the spirit, and into the light of the soul, claiming the body as your true book of loving words, so beautifully said.

148. I too over the years experimented or looked outside of myself rather, into the world of New-Age healing – It sometimes would give me a quick-fix and at other times, like with my experience with Reiki left me feeling uncomfortable and violated in some way.
     What I deeply appreciate is the inner-knowing that once I was re-introduced to truth and the ancient wisdom of the Esoteric from Universal Medicine, and the integrity from which they present it was crystal clear that this truly is the way, leaving no space for anything less.

149. It takes a lot of honesty and courage to admit we have been fooled, sometimes over and over and always feeling ‘this is not it’ but at the same time thinking “oh perhaps it is just me” or ” this is better than nothing because there surely is something more to life than what is offered in the mainstream”. There is so much more in this blog and one I will return to often. The fact that we have been thinking instead of feeling and trying to work things out mentally, is a huge awareness. I was lost in this for a long time, in a very heady and superior ‘spiritual path’. Feeling was subjugated as being weak, fanciful and inferior. The truth to behold thanks to guidance from Universal Medicine, is that feeling is an amazing universal language and love is more powerful than thought in an infinitesimal way.

150. Our bodies are the best and most clear marker of how something ‘feels’ for us and yet we so often approach life from our head…”It’s interesting to note that I was constantly working with my mind – not ‘feeling’ from within or listening to my true antenna, my body.” Connecting with what the body shares and feels builds a deep wisdom and understanding, I can feel it developing within me and I have observed it and been inspired through seeing it being expressed by others.

151. Just imagine if every child was given one lesson in their early years, and that lesson was that all the answers they will ever need are all within and that searching outside of themselves will only take them further away from who they truly are. The world would be such a different place to live as humanity would be able to feel the truth of themselves and of all those around them, and true brotherhood would be the only way to live.

152. There was always another modality to try – “maybe this one has the real truth,” I thought.
     I also tried modality after modality and got trapped in finding the next thing they all seemed similar in the end. Until I came across the teachings of Universal Medicine, it literally stopped me in my tracks and asked me to consider things I had never taken responsibility for.

     1. I can relate to the bubble of bliss it is very easy to fall for. If it looks good and creates a distraction bringing relief it must be good, right? I have learnt that distraction is not healing or dealing with the issues.

        1. A bit like the illusion of happy many things can make us happy but that doesn’t necessarily mean that they are good for us either – like an addict getting a fix of something they are temporarily happy to get a hit but it doesn’t bring true healing or joy. Or someone achieving an award or good grades they feel happy because of an accomplishment but it doesn’t take them closer to who they are.

     2. Yes, I can relate to this searching Nicole. I didn’t last long with any modality because the novelty quickly wore off as I could see that there was a duplicity in what was being taught and how things were panning out in real life. Taking responsibility for myself was something I thought I already did but once I started to attend Universal Medicine I found that there was so much more to responsibility than what I had imagined. What is presented through Universal Medicine feels very true to me in every sense and over time I am finding that my foundation is steadily building and strengthening. My relationship with myself and others is more on track now than ever before in my life.

        1. Great point that you make here – One of the greatest things I felt for time and time again was wanting more for others than I was prepared to live for myself – it just does not work, and holding onto that belief meant I was willing to give my power away to those who were not living what they were preaching as well because that supported my comfort.

153. For me the Gentle Breath Meditation, the simplicity of this meditation and learning about the difference between our spirt and our soul has been the wake up call after hiding myself in the New Age world where there was always something new to distract myself with. The Gentle Breath Meditation brought back the connection with my body and I am forever grateful for Serge Benhayon bringing this wisdom back to humanity.

     1. Your words ring true for me also Annelies, having learned the Gentle Breath Meditation as presented by Serge Benhayon was for me like opening the door to my heart – revealing in the stillness the simplicity of reconnecting with one’s well of wisdom within.

154. Roberta thank you for sharing so openly about your spiritual searching. I wasted many years in the Spiritual New Age trying many different modalities, going to many workshops and I was addicted to seeing clairvoyants – I was in a desperate search for answers. Meeting Serge Benhayon was a turning point in my life as well, everything he said made complete sense, the true love and support he offered was like nothing I had experienced in my life. The search was over because finally I had found the truth – to reconnect to my inner heart where all the answers lie.

     1. What is so permanent here is that nothing can be given to us – it is all for us to feel and accept within us – that makes us feel complete. I recognize this feeling very strongly of never feeling enough, also if you seemingly had everything you could think of. Until I met Serge Benhayon and his whole family , I realised I had just about everything in my life – simply because I had found something back again – that is me! Yes, just me and feeling the connection to myself and so to people – was that feeling of being enough in this world. No magazine can beat that. Only my heart can. I have learned how to be in connection with myself by the Gentle Breath Meditation, Esoteric Healing , Esoteric Yoga and many healing sessions by Esoteric Professional Practioners.

155. Thank you for sharing this Roberta, an inspiring unfoldment to the true self. And the title is very poignant – ‘Spiritual Searching – I Too was Seduced’ – says it all really. Great food for thought for us.

     1. I agree Jenny, the title does say it all. I’ve definitely had moments where I have been seduced by the spiritual new age, for at first it appears to answer all those questions about who you are and what your purpose is here. It doesn’t take long to realise that none of what is being fed to you is not true when you experience what truth actually feels like. 2 very different things.

        1. I have definitely had these moments / periods also Elodie, but in the end, I realised I only had to be honest and feel my own body to see and hear the real truth.

156. Thank you Joe for your comment and yes, I agree with you, as I ultimately discovered the further I dallied within the arena of the Spiritual New Age some years ago now, I still have a clear memory of how endless and fruitless was the time spent trying to fill that space, allowing the absorption of those modalities of enticing and varying kinds that offered promises of this and that – but all the while as I dallied there, the hurts and the emotional issues were being buried further into other parts of me, supposedly giving an apparent impression of ‘healing’ as sometimes the symptoms seemed to vanish – aah ha! but the truth is, as I discovered, that what was occurring truly, was that the ‘hurts and issues’ could only be revealed, addressed, cleared and perhaps healed by the choice to connect with my inner heart, that still place within where we may reconnect to the Ageless Wisdom Teachings as shared by Serge Benhayon at Universal Medicine.

157. Roberta I too have been inspired by Serge Benhayon to honour, respect my body and listen to its wisdom. It is a very restful place to be, quite different from the spin, anxiety and promises I pursued in my New Age Spiritual. I understand now that I was so driven because I knew there was more to life, I knew there was a depth of wisdom within me.

158. Suzanne I appreciate your comment, and I agree I did feel it to be a ‘huge awakening’ for me at that time, but from my since interraction with other students who have felt to share intimate backgrounds before ‘finding’ Universal Medicine, my story pales as far as the difficulties and hurdles of life that many of the students have experienced before their ah ha moment – quite humbling really.

159. The book of loving words is most definitely within our loving hearts and lived in this body and as you say Roberta it is key if we want to deliver the truth that we understand and feel what is passing through us all the time. Thank God for Serge Benhayon who has stood up and delivered what we have all been waiting for. We always have a choice and knowing the difference between prana and fire has unravelled a lot of the mysteries in life and humbled any desire for recognition that has been the driving force and addiction for lifetimes!

160. Roslyn, I just had to smile on reading your words of having “….read hundreds of books…” – had me thinking back to that time – and yes, bookshelves full of self-help/new-age and whatever else indicated that the answer was in that book. Interesting isn’t it when we recall and reflect on those empty times of searching outside of ourselves – when in an instant Serge Benhayon had reminded me that all that I was seeking was truly held within – and what I was seeking was a reconnection to my divine love – no need for hundreds of new-age style books, for now it seems that the depth of the Ageless Wisdom, if I feel to read about it, is in a handfull of purple cover books, 8 so far, that deepen and confirm that which is known somewhere deep within each one of us. How glorious.

161. “There was always another modality to try – maybe this one has the real truth,” This sentence says it all. While we are still searching we have not found the truth but when we met Serge Benhayon we knew we are hearing the truth and the nagging searching for something ‘more’ from outside of us was over. Serge Benhayon inspires us to feel within to find love and who we truly are.

162. In the past we were thrilled to find that there was more to life than we could see. That seemed enough but it was not. That there was far, far more than that, more than just ghosts and astral planes, chakras and magical healings, by far more responsibility to discern what the truth of these energies were, doesn’t occur to many, but it should. In the world we can’t see, there are those 2 energies to choose from, the one that connects us to our soul, love, and the one that takes us away from it, just as there is in the world we can see, and we can feel both in our bodies.
     I loved reading your expose Roberta. Serge Benhayon presents this so clearly and the lovely thing is that we know these things within us. This is our knowledge from our hearts. I thank God and feel so blessed to be where I am today. We don’t need to beat ourselves up over past mistakes, we need to extend that love to ourselves and come back to the truth of our connection with love, with our soul. That’s all the excitement we need.

163. I agree Francisco – certainly a ‘bitter pill’ – but I am learning that it is neither helpful or healing to wander back into the ‘what-if’s’, and the ‘if onlys’ that might have been if I had chosen to unfold me 50 years earlier – however, the returning journey has now re-commenced and maybe next time around I will choose more wisely and listen from within sooner rather than later.

164. I shake my head in astonishment when I look back at all the modalities I invested in and have to be very careful not to give myself a hard time which I’ve realised can be an indulgence in itself and one I have to be very aware of. I say brava for you Roberta – that you knew you’d found the truth when it finally presented itself in Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine.

     1. Deborah, thank you for your comment and the word that stood out for me was ‘indulgence’ . Aah yes! That so reminds me of the responsibility we have to see and feel the deeper point of the exercise if we do choose to descend into a behaviour of ‘self flaggelation’ (beating up oneself) – and there you have presented it in a word ‘indulgence’. Awesome isn’t it – there is a learning for us in every moment – indeed it seems we are forever a student.

165. Gorgeous Roberta, yes truly remarkable it is to feel ourselves as the forever student we are, and equal in this with each and every one of our brothers and sisters – the warmth of Brotherhood.

166. My sentiments exactly dentistryinharmony, and also my experience; ‘That was until I met a Sacred Esoteric Healer. A true light was ignited inside me, the path I had sought was illuminated, within where it had always been’.

167. A fabulous piece of writing Roberta as I and many have fallen for the new age modalities out there. For me, I got myself into rebirthing, reiki, tantra, singing bowls and yoga, and all they ever provided was temporary relief and bury my stuff deeper. I was not aware of this until I attended courses by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, and all that stuff that got buried started to come up for clearing….. Thank goodness I found Universal Medicine which brought me also back to reconnecting with my body and my soul.

     1. You hit the nail on the head here Jacqmcfadden04 when you say “…all they ever provided was temporary relief….” when you were referring to the various illusionary new-age modalities that many of us ‘tried’ while seeking from emptiness. I do remember this, the relief, but this relief was short lived and so on the merry-go-round of seeking more of that relief we jumped right back on that unicorn horse on the carousel to recklessly go around for another ride. I always knew there was ‘something else’ back then, but that elusive missing link so to speak I did not discover until I met Serge Benhayon and began attending the Universal Medicine presentations – no more ‘relief’ just truth – and it felt amazing. It seems we all have the ability to recognize true Truth and Love from deep within for that is where we come from, and I thank God for that.

168. Thank you Lee for your comment – yes, it is all very simple really isn’t it, if we but give ourselves permission to feel. It seems that we actually do always have a choice.

     1. And that is the clue, ‘if we give ourselves permission to ‘feel’, everything starts to change in our life, as we start listening to what we feel and from that we slowly build trust, trust in the fact that we have all we ever need inside of us.

169. What a truly fascinating story and I loved the sign of Serge Benhayon’s name up the side of the van that couldn’t be ignored. It is interesting however how we tend to look for and follow signs from the outside and yet ignore our own body when it is telling us something is not true. It is inspiring that you walked away from the identity and income you had created through your spiritual adventures and humbly returned to the truth, listening to your body and the innate love within. A gorgeous turnaround.

170. It is such a simple yet oh so powerful point you highlight Roberta in what energy do we choose. Firstly, though, we need to know that there are 2 energies to choose from.
     Last month I read an amazing book to a 10 year old boy, the back cover read;
     “And the old man tells his grandson that there is a battle raging inside him, inside all of us, a terrible battle between two wolves. One wolf is bad– pride, jealousy, greed. The other wolf is good- kindness, hope, truth. The child asks “who will win?” The grandfather says simply, the one you feed”

171. I can so relate to what you are sharing with us Roberta. I was also searching my entire life and I’m so grateful, that today I know now, that I don’t have to look outside myself. Everything what I need is inside me, I just have to listen to my body / soul. Wonderful.

172. Knowing that there are two energies and that there is Spirit and Soul has opened up other worlds for me, it was like stepping out into the light and slowly getting a grasp of the world, life as such and all that happens in the world.

173. Hi Roberta, loved your story and as many have commented many can relate as do I with a slightly different story but in truth it really doesn’t matter what path we went down before we heard this life changing revelation that you expressed here so beautifully: “there were two different energies to choose from: the spirit which is the separated aspect of the soul, or the soul which is our true connection to God“. And then all there is to do is to be committed to making that choice on a moment to moment basis.

174. This is so true Conor, it is interesting that it much easier to give our power away to something outside of our self than it is to ” access truth from within ourselves,” as this demands for us to take total responsible for choice of energy feeding us every thought and deed..

175. Thank you for your sharing your story, Roberta. I love reading about how those who used to be heavily into the spiritual seeking had dropped all their knowledge and techniques accumulated as well as their status that came with it to ground themselves on the true path of return. And there’s no coercion involved in this change of direction, it was simply done by someone reflecting the truth. It’s truly remarkable.

176. Roberta, I had similar experiences as yourself. Heading for the spiritual new age. For me it was very addictive, going from one modality to another, building a collection of modalities that I could practice, for just in case. But there was no discernment in this whatsoever. I operated under the assumption that it’s associated with an alternative lifestyle, so it must be good, or if someone has a particular ability I need to study with them. One of the key markers for me that this is not a healing path was that I was sending myself broke and or poor through the arrogance of being attached to these modalities and the ideal of doing good, my health wasn’t great either, but the money was the stand out. It’s funny how we don’t look at the obvious things in our life to see if something is true for us or not.

177. Shame and guilt is a dark path. One that leaves very few exit routes. Thats why the understanding of spirit and soul is so important as the choices made aren’t specified to the abuse delivered but the choice made to align to something other that what we/you are. A deeper understand of the choice made may be more beneficial than that of beaten one’s self up, which from personal experiences goes no where fast.

     1. I agree with your words Luke that “….beating one’s self up, which from personal experiences goes no where fast.” and I learned of that little gem the hard way, by allowing myself to wallow in remorse, guilt and regret for quite a time following the light-bulb moment when I finally discovered that I had been duped, by allowing my ignorance of the fact of there being actually two energies that one could choose to align with – Soul or spirit.
        As you say “understanding of spirit and soul is so important” – and one wonders at the huge force of illusion that endeavours to have that piece of truth held from the general populace – but no more, we are now informed, we are re-membering that we do know these things within.

178. Shame and guilt is a dark path. One that leaves very from exist routes. Thats why the understanding of spirit and soul is so important as the choices made aren’t specified to the abused delivered but the choice made to align to something other that what we/you are. A deeper understand of the choice made may be more beneficial than that of beaten one’s self up, which from personal experiences gets us no where.

179. Thank you Roberta for sharing your return to you – truly inspiring. In all the years I spent in search for the truth I too was seduced by spiritual practices and beliefs. However, regardless of my lacking awareness at that time I always had a sense deep down that I would know if something was the absolute truth. It just took some time to come to it especially after for settling for the ‘near enough’. At that time I was not aware that what was actually guiding me was the feeling in my body. This has been an empowering realisation. That even when we are not aware of it, or truly listening our bodies, they are constantly reflecting the truth to us. I have learned and continue to learn, how when we begin to pay attention to our bodies and realise that all we are and need is within and we can begin to make choices that honor the love and truth that we are within.

     1. Carole as I was reading your comment I had this feeling flood my body that no matter what we have unwittingly allowed ourselves to be seduced or influenced by, the overriding feeling is that we have been lovingly held by the deepest profound energy guiding and calling us to return to the magnetic pull of the soul to Love and find our way back to the overall path of the Divine Plan – and the feeling I get is that at some level we have an understanding that even though the road may be strewn with boulders of challenges and difficult experiences there is a knowingness somehow that all is known and that divine plan that we have assigned to and aligned with long ago is held within. Interesting to notice that we both have completed the comment with the word ‘within’.

180. It’s a great point to make- when we don’t know who we are we can be culled into anything and not realise the harm we are doing to ourselves.

     1. Yes Emily, I have learned to recognize the responsibility we have to not just float along in an ignorant fashion, like a piece of flotsam on the overflow of a flooded creek, but to know we have the choice to develop awareness about all things that are there to take hold and influence us in one way or another – for the possibility of all our actions may at some point affect all else in our universe.

181. Hello Roberta, even though the spiritual new age was initially chosen, within you is a deep love and care for humanity. Many bounce along the periphery of spiritual new age, indulging in the culture, but you had a real desire to support others, you were dedicated. Many have been tricked, seduced or pulled into the ‘alternative’ lifestyles of which there are many, but there is only one true choice, and that is re-connecting with truth, with soul… With God.

     1. Matthew, you are so right, about those that may choose to indulge in the culture of the new age modalities, but the interesting thing that I have learned along the way is that we must be very aware of the energy that is behind whatever it is that is ‘attracting’ or ‘inspiring’ one – and unfortunately, though my intention was to serve, at that time I was ignorant of the fact of there being two energies from which to choose to align with – hence, the lessons learned and still am learning. What I am learning now, is that whatever you create, that is in a piece of art, music or producing a book, or whatever it is – if that choice has not come from a position of being clear as to which energy one is aligned with at that time of ‘creation’ – it seems it will always hold that unclear energy, thus always reflecting something that is not in cinque with our innerheart, where true inspiration resides.

182. I had not spent as many years looking as you, Roberta, for that ‘something else’ that was missing from me that I need to be more, from outside of me. I, like you found Serge Benhayon, it was the coming home for me. To find out that this was not something I lost and had to re-find, it was just something I had turned my back on and forgot where I had put it inside of me.

     1. That’s it – isn’t it sjmatsonuk, and I had to smile – yes, indeed. “…this was not something I lost and had to re-find, it was just something I had turned my back on and forgot where I had put it…..” – I love that.

183. I have had a similar journey Roberta and really appreciate your sharing here. Especially emphasising what a huge influence we allow our mind to have over us rather than simply feeling from the body

     1. Thank you for your comment elainearthey, and your words “…what a huge infuence we allow our mind to have over us…” is so very revealing. I have found the further along we develop our innate awareness of where we truly fit in the world or what is our purpose here in this life the more we connect the dots and discover that when only being influenced by the mind that this choice may be fraught with diminished thinking. I have discovered that for all of those years where I had no idea(or rather I had obviously chosen to forget) of there being only two energies to choose to align with in any given moment, and believing I only had the mind to rely on dismissed the wisdom of reaching into the innermost where the primary choice may be made. Yes, we have seemingly misunderstood that the mind can be fed information from the astral plane and not necessarily contain the truth of the matter at hand.

184. Hi Roberta, I can relate to so much of what you have written – have spent ten years looking at new age modalities – none of which were ‘it’, there was always a missing piece, ‘me’. It was Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine presentations that brought truth and I knew this was the ‘it’ which allowed me to re-connect back to me.

     1. That made me smile Judy – “there was always a missing piece, ‘me’.”!! That’s it isn’t it – I feel the question being indeed ‘where was the heart of me in all of that outside seeking?’
        I feel that could be the responsible question to ask of oneself, do I go with what I think, or do I actually choose the loving alternative and go with what I feel.

185. It’s great to re-read this piece Roberta as it is a great reminder that we do indeed have the greatest wisdom within. We need look no further than the beating of our own inner heart to know that the love we seek comes from within and not with out.

     1. That is so true Jade, and repeating your words “…that we do indeed have the greatest wisdom within.” One wonders why that truth is not more widely known and felt, why it is not encouraged to be expounded as a natural truth in any and every corner of education and the business world, indeed in our every day life.

186. Thanks Roberta, and as we learn to understand the wisdom that we have deep within, the trust can return, because as we learn to trust ourselves we are able to open up to others and then they may find it easier to open up and trust again… it was through Serge Benhayon and his absolute consistency and steadiness of love, that allowed the me to learn trust once more.

     1. Yes Annie, I feel what you are saying about ‘trust’ . Over time I have discovered that it was necessary for me to move from what was a belief that I did not trust some ‘thing’ over there, some energy, some situation – some thing that was outside of me,however, when I connected the dots and realized it was ‘me’ that I did not trust it provided a whole new platform of understanding and opportunity for me to look within and unravel where that lack of trust was hiding and clear it. I have found it to be true that all is known deep within.

187. One of the biggest, if not THE biggest insight is that our body accurately reflects our spiritual state of being. Everything about spirituality negates or hardens the body and steers us away from this simple insight.

     Once we realise that our body is the true reflection it only becomes a matter of time for us to find our way to truth, love and joy.

     1. Thank you Christoph for your comment – yes, when I look back and can see now by reflecting on how my body did react exactly as you say – “..spirituality negates or hardens the body and steers us away from this simple insight.” Indeed, it is a simple insight to feel how the body is responding to the behaviours of spiritual healing that I was then involved in, but there is the confirmation of that statement, spiritual healing I found actually prevented me from ‘truly feeling’ and dulled the natural insight that there was indeed a connection with that involvement and the bloating, the water retention, the lethargy and weight gain. What a gift from God it truly was when I finally met Serge Benhayon and began attending the presentations of Universal Medicine and discovered the truth about there being two energies that we can choose to align with – i.e. the spirit(that is behind new-age and spiritual healing modalities) and Soul – reconnecting us with the natural wisdom and divine aspect within us all.

     2. Well said Christoph” Everything about spirituality negates or hardens the body and steers us away from this simple insight.” our true connection with our bodies and the honouring of the true nature of our being is our way to truth.

188. We know there is something missing, hence the elusive search and the tantalising spiritual quest, one that I certainly embarked on. This venture also took me further away from all that I was looking for, until I came across Universal Medicine. It was only then that I actually knew what I was looking for and it was right here all along. My body is like a homing device for love and truth and I need look no further…

     1. So true Sara – I love how you express ” “My body is like a homing device for love and truth and I need look no further…” – and that is what I have discovered – if only I had listened to or taken notice of that ‘homing device’ and felt from within rather than seeking outside of me all those years ago. I have found that the “if only” must be replaced with taking responsibility and feeling the truth of there always being a choice.

189. Thank you Mary, yes, that was my experience – that foray of the spiritual journey that took me further away from my truth – and yes, like religious institutions, sport institutions etc. the potential is certainly there to have one actually lose touch and forget completely who we are and why we are here.

190. The thing with True Love and True Truth that I have observed during the presentations I have attended by Universal Medicine is the level of self-responsiblity and thus integrity for all that True Love pulls us up to live all of the time. Amazing how much our spirit inside us resists this!

     1. Thank you Joshua, and that is my experience as you say “Amazing how much our spirit inside us resists this!” – and I am finding that my human spirit digs its proverbial heels in even harder presently, with a resistance that appears to be very determined to not embrace true loving changes. I am also finding that it is apparent that one must be ‘relentless’ in lovingly always choosing to come back to the gentle breath and the stillness of the inner to off-set the practice of the human spirit (who unfortunately from our own choosing) has for millennia been given free reign and allowed to be in charge and in control of the human mind.

        1. A Livingness of choosing Love in every moment, to the best of our ability of course 🙂

191. How could I have believed through all my spiritual searching that at any level I was being en-light-ened when the body grew heavier and heavier, leaving me 20 kilos overweight? – I too followed the spiritual path, Roberta, and ended up more overweight and even more miserable. Nowadays I am much lighter, both in weight and in mood!

     1. An interesting point I also found Natalie – the extra 20+ kgs. that seemed to just accumulate the longer I stayed in that energy of the spiritual modality consciousness. It’s really quite laughable I find when one sees that the more one dabbles in that false ‘light’ the ‘heavier’ one seems to become – must be all that extra unneccessary baggage. Springs to mind how funny it would be if we had to pay for this type of ‘additional unnecessary baggage’ at the air-port before boarding a plane – that could be the thread of a cartoon strip – ‘twould be hilarious I feel, seeing one take of the cartoon showing such passengers being taken to a de-briefing room for some gentle breath exercises to light-en the load before re-connecting with their flight.

192. Beautiful Roberta, we know it all deep with in our bodies, but we often choose to not go there because of how much it has hurt for not going there for a long time.

     1. Yes Benkt, we now know, or rather, we now have remembered that “we know it all deep with in our bodies,…” and I found at that time of realization that I chose to feel so bad about the situation that I went into overwhelm, but now knowing I could have chosen to not do that but just say “oops! I certainly stuffed that up! or to put it more politely oops! I made a mistake” and just get on with it. It seems the opportunities to evolve are being continuousy shown to us. I constanly appreciate the choice I made to meet Serge Benhayon and to attend the Universal Medicine presentations.

193. I too felt remorse for being allowed to be manipulated and deceived. The harm I caused myself and others. I too didn’t know the two types of energies that we can allow through us. I too have experienced my body shedding excess kilos.There is a light at the end of this tunnel thanks to Serge Benhayon for showing the way.

     1. Thank you for your comment Concetta – yes, in some sort of strange way it feels slightly supportive knowing that I, you, we were not the only ones who were ‘hooked’ by the glamour and illusion of the spiritual new age. One would almost have the feeling that we were all linked in some way for so many to be attracted by this falsity, however it feels like we really were deeply longing to be one unified in brotherhood – it’s just that the decision made was to turn left so to speak, instead of turning right – always a choice. It seems to confirm my feeling that we are truly more than just responsible for ourselves, for it feels to me as though all of our thoughts, decisions and choices actually ultimately affect everybody else as well. PHew!! that’s a very big piece of responsibility to swallow easily.

194. I’ve often heard about the the spiritual new age, only to fob it off and not not take any notice of how big it is and the sheer volume of people who have, and are being hooked into the modalities that as mentioned in the blog by Roberta, take you further away from truly knowing who you are

     1. I found this to be so true Jaime, when you make reference to the spiritual new age modalities “take you further away from truly knowing who you are”. It seems that there is even a greater and growing belief system around these modalities being able to tell you what happened in the past, what is going to happen in the future, etc. etc. etc., and the growing curiosity of that part of us which is not within the inner heart, but in the human brain seems to be of exploding proportions. One has to wonder has this disconnectedness from one’s true self have anything to do with the growing mental illness statistics.

195. Hi Roberta, this is a great account of how the spiritual new age or anything else ‘out there’ is not what we are truly looking for, and will never completely fill that space that is the connection with our soul. Thank you for sharing.

     1. Hi Melissa – yes, I agree with your words that anything outside of ourselves ..will never completely fill that space that is the connection with our soul.” Thankfully, we remembered that sooner rather than later – one wonders where we would be at if we had not chosen to re-connect with our inner selves as has been presented to us as a possibility by Serge Benhayon at the presentations of Universal Medicine.

     2. Well said Melissa, the spiritual new age keeps one in separation to their being so it is easier to abuse and disregard the body, Honouring our connection with our bodies and hearts is definitely the only way forward.

196. Very beautiful Roberta, it is crazy indeed, the spiritual and new age movement is as I feel constantly searching for something new, it never fills what we miss, the only thing as you said is in our own bodies and the true connection with the soul.

     1. Thank you Benkt – and yes, I agree with your words “the spiritual and new age movement is as I feel constantly searching for something new…” – and at that time I found that was what was so addictive – yet another modality to try out, so many choices of the one ill energy whereas the Ageless Wisdom is just that – Ageless, and it is there within each one of us – how absolutely awesome and unifying when we come to that awareness.

197. What an awesome turning point to discover that there are two energies to choose from in everything we do, say and think and that the true answers are to be found within. And it is thanks to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine that this knowledge is so freely and easily available to all.

     1. Thanks Gabriele for your comment and yes, that is exactly what I felt was true when I attended the presentations of Universal Medicine and meeting Serge Benhayon that there are two energies one chan choose to align with – why did I not know of that before I wonder. Imagine that, only two – either choosing to align with the energy of the human spirit and outside of ourselves or our deeper place within, our soul connection. It seems to me that if this awareness was known and felt by all those of us who chose to play in the field of the spiritual new age those years ago, and seeking outside of ourselves for answers, coloured also by our ignorance, and maybe a touch of arrogance – there is the distinct possibility that we would not have chosen the wayward path that took us further away from our connection to stillnesss within, our soul. But, as I discovered it is never too late to say “oops – I was mistaken”.

198. It is so clever of our spirit to not let us know there are 2 forms of energy – one that keeps us seeking for the next thing and keeps us individual, the other brings us back to a steady knowing of ourselves and our connection with all. We innately know about energy but in our ignorance of which energy we are receiving, we swallow anything that allows us to play with energy. I am one of the many who fell for this too, but like you, once I met Serge Benhayon I had a marker of soul and truth and couldn’t claim ignorance any longer.

     1. That is so true Fiona – once we are reminded that there are two energies that we can choose to align with, and ignorance is no longer an excuse – why would one choose the way of harm over healing – it wouldn’t make sense at all. I love your words “once I met Serge Benhayon I had a marker of soul and truth and couldn’t claim ignorance any longer.” Beautiful!.

     2. Beautiful Fiona, you have it in a nutshell, and the realisation that there was always a part of us that knew what was true deep inside is sometimes difficult to admit because we have allowed so much of what is not true to carry on. So we have just cruised in a lesser way because it the other seemed to big to tackle, or too uncomfortable to face what we have been playing in. Through Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, I was reminded of just what I do know, and it has been a process of unfolding and learning the extent of our chosen ignorance ever since.

        1. Thanks Annie, I agree with you and I too found “Through Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, I was reminded of just what I do know…”

199. To be totally honest and admit that we have been fooled is awesome and then to reach a place of accepting our ill-choices is profound. I too have dabbled in the spiritual new age going from one course to another and what amazed me was my arrogance. I, like Roberta thought I knew it all! Thankfully, I met Serge Benhayon, came back down to earth and was offered another way. The search was over.

     1. “I agree Caroline and to repeat your words “To be totally honest and admit that we have been fooled is awesome and then to reach a place of accepting our ill-choices is profound.” I found my own reactions oscillated from being quite remorseful and shattered at the thought that I had been so naive to have been so sucked in, arrogant I daresay, believing that I had at that hollow stage communing with God to absolute humility at the gift I had eventually been offered in meeting Serge Benhayon to bring me to truth. Yes, “the search was over.”

200. Truly loving and inspiring words here Roberta – and a great expose on how the spiritual new age takes one further from the true light and love that resides within us all equally so.

     1. So true Gemma “…how the spiritual new age takes one further from the true light and love that resides within us all equally so.” – and even though I became aware of that truth a few years ago now, there are ones that I have known for a couple of decades that were playing in that field of un-truth alongside myself, that even though the evidence is there now as to my well-ness and inner health they still choose to not see nor feel the difference between soul and spirit. Aaah! I find that at times quite un-understandable, that is quite the opposite of ‘understandable’ but the gift of allowance must step forth and simply allow others to make their own choices.

201. What you say Roberta makes me wonder if we are truly ‘unaware’ of the energetic facts of life, or whether we are simply choosing to hide from the truth? Because as you so beautifully say when we get real and connect to our bodies, its like this wisdom has always been there. Thank you for connecting this way and sharing this excerpt from the book of you.

     1. You make a great point Joseph. I feel that it is our pride that gets in the way of us choosing to be ‘aware’ – that allows us to carry on with things that don’t feel true. Society has its rules and expectations – that we are all ‘ok’, ‘successful’, ‘happy’. I remember always feeling that something was missing, that things weren’t quite right – but rather than express that or even fully admit that to myself, I carried on pretending that everything was ok. Through the support of Universal Medicine I was able to deeply connect with myself and get honest about what I was feeling.

        1. Brooke, on reading your comment the word that flared out for me to take notice of was ‘pride’ – yes, I hadn’t thought of that before when you say “I feel that it is our pride that gets in the way of us choosing to be ‘aware’ ….” and that makes sense to me, the pride of the human spirit is such that it seems it simply doesn’t want to be exposed and to be found out that ‘it’ is definitely not the beholder of the intimate truth of us – I feel in fact it had been a belief(unbeknownst to myself back then) that it held the only key to our evolution – but like many have discovered, I also found that that belief was a lie – perhaps a pride-full lie of the human spirit part of us.

     2. Thank you Joseph, I love your reference to ‘ sharing this excerpt from the book of you” – wow, that made me smile, I hadn’t quite seen that before, and seeing the end of a chapter presenting an opportunity to lovingly move on to Truth, without holding on to blame, shame or guilt is the opportunity in the next chapter, where a commitment to life, learning and remembering once again who we truly are, while exploring the playground of The Way of the Livingness as shown to us by Serge Benhayon and the presentations of Universal Medicine.

     3. Joseph, of course you have brought to light a finer point behind ‘choices’ in your comment relating to the expression of being “unaware of the energetic facts of life of whether we are simply choosing to hide from the truth?” – and I am finding as I develop a deeper awareness your words make total sense and the realization is surely that the ‘unawareness’ was indeed a choice to hide from the truth. Thanks Joseph.

202. Great story Roberta!
     How revealing is that, that you became 20 kgs over weight but thought you were enlightened… There are many spiritual new age people who don’t even consider their bodies but consider themselves enlightened but I have always wanted to listen to someone who reflects physically that what they are living works in a true way and Serge Benhayon, without a doubt is a person who lives that true way.

     1. I agree Ariel, being aware of someone like Serge Benhayon who touches the deepest part of the truth of us can only remind us that that is who we truly are – and we do not need to be on endless journeys through the spiritual new age, religious institutions of old or any other addiction to ‘find ourselves’ – as Serge has reminded us we only have to be still and re-connect with that divine part of us within.

        1. It is amazing how one could spend a lifetime searching through mainstream religions and the spiritual new age and actually still be left feeling empty. Serge Benhayon does show clearly with his lived way that the answers reside within, just as was quoted by Jesus “the Kingdom of God lies within you”. I now know what this means and there is much deeper for me to go, but now I am going inward, not searching outside of myself for the answers.

203. “Our body after all, is the marker of truth for each one of us”. Thank you Roberta for an honest account of what happens to many of us in search of the elusive something that will make us complete, happy or fulfilled. I too was lost before coming to the work of Universal Medicine.

     1. Thank you Patricia for your comment. To repeat your words “in search of the elusive something …” are key to what was that dilemma for me – always searching/seeking outside of myself – and never even considering that what I was seeking was within close by all the time – if only I had allowed myself to listen quietly, in connection to my body and not to have bought into the glamour of the bright coloured lights of visions, and the wow of the illusionary evidence of being a supposed psychic. I thank God for the gift of having met Serge Benhayon, and the subsequent presentations of Universal Medicine.

204. I dabbled for a few years in the spiritual new age and one of the things that never made sense was how they used the word soul and spirit in the same context or somehow inextricable interwove them within the text to cause confusion. Was this a trick?

205. Thank you Roberta. Before I came to the work of Universal Medicine I was always so hard on myself, especially if I made a ‘mistake’; it’s really exposing of how little love I had for myself, therefore all others. Over the years this has been beginning to change and it’s really changed my life. Thank you Universal Medicine for bringing the truth we all know to the world, in a very real and digestible form.

206. That spiritual new age stuff never hooked me- I tried it out but never stayed with it for long. Different to when I met Serge- I was so astonished of the simplicity he was presenting and the energy of what he was sharing. Since then I am taking everything in that is presented and I can´t imagine a life without Universal Medicine- not because I am emotionally attached, no, but because I don´t want to miss the biggest support in my life to become the true me.

207. I always believed that in order to grow spiritually I had to suffer greatly before achieving a lighter state. So I worked and worked on myself, with some awareness growing , yes, but not the break free bliss result I had hoped for to relieve me from my suffering! It is so tempting to keep on searching and give power to someone/something outside of you.
     This is not anymore the case, as I know find all the wisdom inside of me. Doesn’t mean I never ‘suffer’ anymore, but that is my own choice………

208. I always believed that in order to grow spiritually I had to suffer greatly before achieving a lighter state. So I worked and worked on myself, with some awareness growing , yes, but not the break free bliss result I had hoped for to relieve me from my suffering! It is so tempting to keep on searching and give power to someone/something outside of you.
     This is not anymore the case, as I know find all the wisdom inside of me. Doesn’t mean I don’t ‘suffer’ anymore, but that is my own choice………

209. A lovely and powerful story, Roberta. I especially love your simple and true summary: “there were two different energies to choose from: the spirit which is the separated aspect of the soul, or the soul which is our true connection to God“. Hooray for waking up to true choice!

210. Roberta thank you for sharing your story. Having been involved in the New Age for a few years, saw people channelling etc. but no satisfaction was gained on the real truths of life. Certainly no mention of Soul versus Spirit and what that entails, and commitment to being love in everything we do in Life.

211. What an amazing story you have Roberta and to share so openly where you have come from and the vast contrast between the energy of the soul or that of the spirit. You have clearly given us very real and practical examples of each for us to know the difference between spiritual searching or soulful being. Thank you.

212. Having material wealth, yet feeling that there is more. This is not unknown to myself, and to so many people I talk with. This feeling confirms that we do already know that there are two different kinds of energy, one energy gives us a path where we end up not feeling so great and are left still seeking for that missing something. The other energy returns us to our selves, where nothing is greater or needed more than the depths of self love and love for others that is felt within.

213. I did not get caught up in the new age movement. Instead I got caught up in life. I sold myself to the ideals and beliefs that are imposed on us by society. I was the provider, the husband and father, the good employee, all in a way that was acceptable to the world. I thought I was on the right track. When my marriage broke down I began to look for something different. But I was looking for a different version of the same thing. I was lost as much as someone in the new age movement. I met someone who introduced me to Universal Medicine; slowly I “knew” this was different, it felt right. The honesty and truth that I could feel in the people I met was something I had not experienced previously. For most of my life I was looking for the answers/solutions that would make my life better, in all the wrong places. Everything I need I already have. Thank you Roberta for reminding me of my continuing journey.

214. Roberta, Many of us have dabbled in the “spiritual” new age on our journey back to who we truly are. Behind all of the dabbling has been the search for “something” and it feels so great to know I am “here” now. The “dabble” has helped me clearly differentiate between soul and spirit, and this has been a life changer for me.

215. Roberta, that was deeply honest. Thank you for sharing how far you have come, which is a true credit to you.

216. “It’s interesting to note that I was constantly working with my mind – not ‘feeling’ from within or listening to my true antenna, my body.” You’ve nailed it right there Roberta.

217. Hi Roberta, there is no shame in having fallen for the spiritual new age. The fact is that all spiritual trappings are based on an element of truth and that is why we fall for them. The problem is that because we have been devoid for so long of true connection, we mistake them for the whole truth, rather than seeing them as the bastardised fragment of truth that they are.
     The fact is that most of humanity is deeply missing true connection. True religion has been bastardised, and for those who know this, but also know there is more to life, it is natural that they seek elsewhere. This is a natural consequence when we have forgotten for so long who we truly are, and this was the trappings of the spiritual new age. Having said that, it is important that we recognise the spiritual side of ourselves. It is just that we need to recognise that this is not our highest way of being either, even though feels “amazing” once you first recognise it, especially in comparison to the physicality of being human. This is the awareness that Universal Medicine has reawakened us to, that we are not just spiritual but Soul-full beings in our innermost (or esoteric) essence, and this is something that can be easily felt once we are open to the fact, and work on creating a body that is responsive again to the fact that we can feel energy. For the energy of the Soul and the energy of the spirit are distinctly different, and once we learn to feel the difference, we can never be fooled again by the empty trappings of the spiritual new age.

     1. This is such a great comment Adam and sums the whole thing up beautifully.

     2. So true Adam and so clearly expressed “This is the awareness that Universal Medicine has reawakened us to, that we are not just spiritual but Soul-full beings in our innermost (or esoteric) essence, and this is something that can be easily felt once we are open to the fact, and work on creating a body that is responsive again to the fact that we can feel energy.For the energy of the Soul and the energy of the spirit are distinctly different, and once we learn to feel the difference, we can never be fooled again by the empty trappings of the spiritual new age.” This was well worth repeating as this is the core of the work that we need to do on ourselves.

218. Wow Roberta what an awesome blog.

219. Absolutely Alison, until the divine truth of Universal Medicine, I looked very sick indeed.

220. When I first met Serge Benhayon I was very disillusioned with the New Age Movement but I was still allowing myself to be hooked by some of it’s modalities and was well entrenched in many of it’s ways. It was my knowing that what I had found up until then was not the Absolute Truth – especially about the chakras and the distinction between Spirit and Soul that brought me to my first Heart Chakra, or Livingness, workshop. That was nearly 10 years ago. Since then it has been lovely to see friends and clients also align to these teachings and to share with each other continually with more honesty, openness and equality. I am able to embrace the Absolute Truth more and more and able to feel the Truth about the chakras and nadis and feel the distinction between Spirit and Soul – all a work in progress. I had known everything was inside me before but I had not known the absolutenesss of this nor been able to truly embody it and live it. I am constantly inspired by Serge Benhayon and everything he and his family have shared with us to date.

221. “the true book of wisdom I sought was in fact inside me all along” So so true Rosie! Can you imagine how many wars would have been avoided if we all new this to be true.

222. Ah Roberta I can relate so much to what you have written. I feel the reason why I and so many others have spent lifetimes burrowing down the wrong burrows is because most of what we are currently engaged with comes from Astral energy, whose sole purpose is to keep us from our soul. The Astral energy entices us from young and then once we’re ensnared it just plays with us. It comes in so many different guises, it is a trickster and manipulator of the highest order. It doesn’t matter is it’s spirituality, sport, fashion, as long as we are ‘looking the other way’ then it has had ‘it’s way’. But as you have done we need to stop and look within and there awaiting for us all is the glory of Heaven x

     1. Thank you for your comment Alexis – yes, I feel it to be true also – that the astral energy entices us and ensnares us depending on choice of distraction from why we are truly here – and there appears to be many choices of distraction. What I had to learn still was that it was fine for me to uncover and reveal my own distraction, but then develop the wisdom to allow others to discover in their own time and rhythm their own specific way they themselves were choosing to cover up or dull their emptiness, pain or bewilderment, without my feeling, with this fresh awareness of truth, that one has to alert others to the ‘error of their ways’ so to speak. I found this imposition on to others not to be a very palatable recipe, but the “glory of Heaven” awaits all.

223. Indeed, as you say Roberta, ‘why do we not choose to look within to where all is known in every cell of our body’? The journey to the Soul via the Spirit is a difficult one. I spent many years on ‘the spiritual path’ hoping that this was ‘it’, yet knowing that it was the wrong path. Nothing was changing in my life, in fact, my health was deteriorating and the dramas in my life were escalating. If I hadn’t accepted an invitation to attend one of Serge Benhayon’s presentations and felt that what was being presented made sense, I would be still be ‘being seduced’ by yet another guru of the ‘spiritual movement’.

224. This is a very honest and powerful question that I am certain would resonate for many.

     ‘Why do we tend to look outside of ourselves when we believe we are in such a place of desolation?”

     I too a long time ago, so it feels…. looked outside of me in my place of deep disillusionment of life and the world. But then I also met Serge Benhayon and felt simply met…in feeling truly met for me, I felt me and that there is so much more inside of me…Oh My God – I have hit the JackPOT of Gold – ME…and since then I have been developing my connection to me – to SOUL! I no more seek outside of me, why would I? The search has stopped, finito….life has begun in the true sense. I live me in my body in the world in joy and love….and the confidence to deal with whatever challenges I am faced with in life.

225. How exhausting is that search outside of ourselves for something that we know is missing and how amazing to realise that the missing part is our self. I had little regard for my body when I was on my “new age” search and like you Roberta, the weight piled on. I would sit in sweat lodges for hours stressing my body with extreme heat, or try extreme diets or fasts or long meditations but it only led me further from the truth. No wonder I overate most of the time not wanting to feel what was really going on. Thanks to being inspired by Serge Benhayon I am now able to connect with the truth inside myself and there is no more running around out there searching for the next big thing.

226. I can genuinely relate to that experience of feeling that there is more to life and thinking that I have found it in spiritual pursuits. I remember a heightened, almost excited, or exhilarated sensation in my body when I thought that I had discovered the answers in a book or an organisation. This is nothing like the many works of Universal Medicine, where I have felt just the simplicity of me for who I am and an equality with everyone else. This, by contrast, is a steady, robust, humble, and precious feeling in my body.

227. Roberta the questions posed in your blog really struck a chord with me. It is true why do we search outside ourselves for the answers when we have everything we need within. I sometimes feel for me it is a lack of trust from within myself that stops me at times. Thank you for the loving reminder.

228. Roberta, love your analogy of the body being the book – every ‘page’ tells a story. What I got from your post is that it doesn’t matter how far we’ve got into the book, that we always have the choice to go back and re-read the pages we may have missed. That this ‘going back’ even to the very very beginning is no failure but is instead a great lesson in humbleness, and in this true advancement.

     1. I agree it does need humbleness, a beautiful feeling, which allows us to just be as delicate and precious as we are. There is nothing to defend, to justify or to fight for.

229. It’s been said that the truth is out there but it seems that the untruth is equally so but what is truly true never leaves us.

230. Roberta, I know the spiritual searching you speak of very well, and the spirits hunger is insatiable. It is such a joy to re-connect with our soulful being and no longer feel the need to search; it is a true homecoming.

     1. Thank you Victoria for your comment and I agree with your words “the spirits hunger is insatiable” – my goodness isn’t that the truth – it actually was quite exhausting when I recall that time, but now, thanks to Serge Benhayon and the presentations of Universal Medicine I am no longer seeking nor exhausted from that search to fill the void.

     2. Beautifully said Victoria.

231. Thank you for sharing this Roberta. It is amazing that so many of us are “searching” and the spiritual new age keeps you searching as it never quite adds up or feels right. And then along comes Serge Benhayon and says look with in – you are already all that you need and suddenly everything makes sense. Thank you Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine.

232. It is remarkable how we keep trying so many modalities from the spiritual new age buffet, even though inside we know this still isn’t it. Meeting Serge Benhayon is like nothing else. You know there is something different – you are being ‘met’ or seen and valued for who you truly are. You know the search is over as the answers were there within you all along.

233. Hi Roberta, I remember when I first heard that there are two types of energy, it was life changing and also made so much sense as well, it certainly stopped me in my tracks. As i had to honestly admit that after 15 years of playing with energy I never really stopped to discern the quality of the energy, myself and my responsibility in the way I lived and how it affected that quality.

     1. Hi Nicole, thank you for your comment and I felt to respond to your words “I remember when I first heard that there are two types of energy” – you know, these are quite profound words and I know for a fact that it was indeed these words that literally turned the life of a dear friend of octogenarian years upside down – or rather the right way up after years of being adamant that my diminishing view of the truth of the New Age Modalities were misplaced.
        It was a recorded interview long ago that I chose to send to my friend that these specific words that Serge Benhayon expressed in an interview at a popular Northern Rivers Radio Station on the East Coast that caused her to feel a 500 watt globe to ignite – and so the true light within began to shine brightly as a result of the power of the true expression of Love.

        1. What a great addition to your amazing blog – they are indeed profound words – life changing for many.

     2. Yes Nicole, this was how it was for many of us. We delved in energy as part of the New Age Movement, without ever discerning the quality of the energy we were ‘playing’ with. In retrospect this was harming of self and others. It was not until meeting Serge Benhayon and listening to his presentations that I truly started to understand energy and the responsibility we all carry in the way we live and how we affect the quality of energy, not just for self but for all others.

234. It’s great that you are now able to look back and feel the affects the Spiritual New Age was having on your body, eventhough at the time it was filling an emptiness within you. I love how you describe refering “..to the true book of loving words and the wisdom within, that book being our body…” The body being the marker of truth for each one of us. Thanks for the beautiful sharing Roberta.

235. An inspiring article, true honesty.

236. I feel the true support this article offers to others that have walked a similar path in life. Awesome that you have shared so openly with us Roberta.

     1. Thank you Greg for your comment. I feel to add something here that I have become more aware of in my own behaviour pattern as the unfolding continues in regards to your words “others that have walked a similar path” – and that is the developing awareness of the beauty of accepting and allowing others who either may presently be locked into what were my previous belief systems, or who are presently locked into the belief system that e.g. ‘we are born, we work hard, we pay taxes, we die’- allowing them the grace of being exactly where they are without thinking there is a need to have them change their views.Through the presentations of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine I have found it is more truly loving to allow all to traverse their unfolding at their own pace.

237. Hi Roberta and thank you for your blog. It seems so many of us including myself were enticed by the New Age Movement to fill up that empty hole as you said. Many books and meditation groups, talks and healing groups later I was introduced to Serge Benhayon by a friend , my marriage and health had broken down but it took a couple of years for me to regularly attend his presentations. It didn’t take long after that for me to realise this man represented the Truth, something I had been searching for all of my life and although I have been holding myself back in so many ways I feel this year has started in a more positive forward motion.

     1. Thank you Roslyn for your comment and yes there have been many of us who did come from the empty space of not recognizing our connection with our Soul and I have found the expressions of everyone in response to my blog along the way so very supportive, like a warm hug. Your words “It didn’t take long after that for me to realize this man (Serge Benhayon) represented the Truth, something I had been searching for all of my life-” just expresses it simply and that was exactly how I felt on meeting Serge and subsequently attending the presentations of Universal Medicine. I have discovered there is no pain when true Love is evident – just joy.

238. ‘…the true book of wisdom within, that book being our body…..’ I can relate to how incessant the seeking beyond ourselves and outside of ourselves can be. When all the while the truth was waiting patiently within me, and my body at the ready to share all of the wisdom that it offers. All that was needed was the willingness to develop a relationship with my inner self, or even just a willingness to be open to the possibility of this on the days when the former felt too difficult. And the more I am able to ignore the relentless noise and distraction that is designed to take us away from the truth of our inner path, the more and more wisdom is available to me and to all.

     1. Thank you for your coment Stevie – the words that stood out for me were “”All that was needed was the willingness to develop a relationship with my inner self..” and when you feel into these words you know they are true – it’s that simple.

239. “Why do we tend to look outside of ourselves when we believe we are in such a place of desolation? Why do we believe that someone/something out there knows more than each one of us knows intrinsically deep inside? Why do we not choose to look within to where all is known in every cell of our body?” These are great questions to ask ourselves indeed!

240. What is inspiring Roberta is your honesty about how you were attached to the stimulation of all the ‘new age’ modalities and ideals, yet your body was 20kg overweight, clearly telling you what you were doing was not working for you. I totally agree with you, the marker of truth is the body.

241. “It’s interesting to note that I was constantly working with my mind – not ‘feeling’ from within or listening to my true antenna, my body”.
     I found that most of these new age modalities do just that, keep you thinking you are in a true healing path purely from a mental place and allowing the arrogance to kick in, where you can defend you are in the right track. Thank you for sharing how powerful it is when we choose to tune in to our bodies and tap into the immense wisdom and love within us all.

242. I had the same feeling Stephanie, that there had to be something more, something different. Even though I tried many different new age techniques, yoga classes, clairvoyants, healers, workshops, self-help books etc…I never fully lost myself in any of them as there was always something that I could feel that just wasn’t right…hard to put in words, but it was most certainly felt. Time & observation have been invaluable in allowing me to see what is before me…and 10 years on I can say without a doubt that I trust Serge Benhayon & Universal Medicine…the consistency and dedication to true love and service an inspiration.

243. I can very much relate to your story Roberta. Serge Benhayon was the first person I had met in my life who truly met me and in my first session had such a beholding love. I too saw the ill ways of my spiritual choices that was leading me down a very arrogant path thinking I knew it all…until of course the body was showing me it wasn’t it! It has been a very humbling path back to me, my heart, my soul…I am so very glad that I am returning to the truth of who I am.

244. Thank you Roberta, I to was on a spiritual journey for the greater part of my life.
     Its is interesting that we do seek outside of ourselves when we are desperate for more in life, and how that prevents any true discernment of what spiritual path we get involved in, and what energy is behind it all.

     1. Thank you Thomas – and I found your words “when we are desperate for more in life, and how that prevents any true discernment” – to be so in my own past experience. I thank deeply Serge Benhayon for sharing with us some time ago, and continues to do so, that there are two energies that we can choose to align with – either the Astral/pranic/spirit or Fiery/divine/soul. It seems to me that is where my responsibility lay – having then chosen to listen to my human spirit that operates from head, whereas with discernment the choice of energy could have been the true energy of my soul, that loving and still place within where true Love dwells. I thank God I know the difference now.

245. Serge Benhayon was the first stranger for me too, who saw the real me on first contact. I look forward to a world where we are all that for each other.

     1. Wouldn’t that be an awesome healing for the world Suzanne everyone just reflecting the love that we all intrinsically are deep within.

246. Great sharing- I too went down the new age trap for over 15 yrs- searching for the answers of life and presence of God. I was deeply lost, and my health spiralling downwards, despite ticking the boxes in life.
     What a blessing when I finally met Serge Benhayon – I felt truly met for the first time in my life, felt an equal; his words resonated deeply with me as truth. He was the first presenter that made everyone aware that there are 2 different type of energies we can align to – astral/spirit or soul, and everything from then on is because of it.
     What a huge difference that made to my life thereafter. A home coming to my soul!
     I am forever grateful and appreciative of the teachings and esoteric healing modalities that Serge has make available to humanity so that we can all return together to truth.

     1. I agree with you Loretta and I also am forever grateful and appreciative of the presentations of Universal Medicine and the esoteric healing modalities that Serge Benhayon has shared with us all. It appears and it is true that there is a wealth of richness beyond compare within each one of us – if only we would check in with our inner self and not settle for less while looking outside of ourselves for the answers to our deep longing.

     2. Well said Loretta, I too walked a spiritual path that really just led me round in circles, always returning to the same spot and the same issues, until I attended a Universal Medicine workshop. The energetic education is the key difference and being shown how to feel the difference between astral/spirit and soul energy is critical. It has brought about huge change in my life and I am continually inspired by the relentless love that Serge has for everyone, the whole of humanity, so that we can “all return together to truth”.

247. I also went on a spiritual new age journey for a couple of years. It does come with that excitement and insatiable desire to keep you looking for more and more. And then when we become aware of soul it feels like a gentle, patient friend with open arms. No enthral, just pure love. I too am so glad that I met Serge Benhayon and he in turn truly MET me.

     1. Karen – I love the way you expressed “And then when we become aware of soul it feels like a gentle, patient friend with open arms” – that is so true – just feels like ‘coming home’. It was also a realisation I found that there were no bells and whistles, no blazing euphoric colours or imposing images – just a gentle feeling of re-connection to warmth and true Love – and the greatest thing I found was that we actually recognise that as Truth – we just know it.

248. Beautifully expressed, Roberta. I fell too into the spiritual new age trap. And, what a trap!… There was always something missing. What joy it was to find that what true home is. I am forever grateful to Serge Benhayon for supporting me in finding what it truly means to live from our inner-heart and connect to the wisdom and intelligence that are in it.

249. I can imagine how exhausting it is to be on a new-age spiritual quest. I never realised that it could be so harmful. I loved the part about the white van with ‘SERGE’ on it. So beautiful to read that you then went to see Serge Benhayon. Amazing!

     ‘It is indeed revealing when we return to our true book of loving words and the wisdom within, that book being our body; after all, it is the marker of truth for each one of us.’ This is a great reminder for me, to really take note and listen to my body continuously. I have listened in the past and made some loving choices but I know I haven’t been doing this on a daily bases. Thank you Roberta, very honest and inspiring.

     1. Yes it is exhausting being on the New Age merry-go-round. When I moved to Byron Bay, for 3 years I dabbled in many workshops, healers etc & at the end of those 3 years I was absolutely exhausted. I had been hearing about Serge Benhayon over those 3 years on 3 different occasions from 3 different people. But because it wasn’t delivered to me with ‘bells & whistles’ it didn’t peak my interest much. But back then (10 years ago) I had a belief that if you heard about a book for the 3rd time from someone, it was a sign to buy it, so when the 3rd person I met had told me about Serge Benhayon I thought I had better go and check out who this person was. I walked in skeptical as I do not trust easily. I could not deny the amazing love that I felt & it was from here that my life changed. It was very clear to me why Serge Benhayon was here and it was no accident that we met when we did. I had been asking for truth…and here it was before me reflecting back that the truth has always been inside of me.

        1. I agree Marika – I also found it exhausting at that time being on that merry-go-round. Upon my developing awareness as a result of my attending the presentations of Universal Medicine I now find it so interesting that like several others who have commented and perhaps had had similar experiences, that on discovering that there are indeed two, but only two different energies that we can ultimtely choose to align with – one being the astral/human spirit/pranic and the other fiery consciousness/divine/soul that one now can see from hindsight, what energy it was indeed that was the driving force behind the choices made at that time. To quote your words “I had been asking for truth… and here it was before me reflecting back that the truth has always been inside of me.” Isn’t that awesome.

250. Amazing change!
     It is quite tricky how we can be deviated from our own inner true knowing. I recognise that people often look for quick answers – fascinated by a spiritual new age arrogance – but we need to look for true connection to our selves and to our inner wisdom.
     A big key is when we are inspired by someone who really meets us with true love and with the message that you can connect to your own essence, finding your way from your heart.

251. You are not alone Roberta. I also fell for the trappings of the Spiritual New Age, and all along felt that there was something missing. I had a LOT of questions and they simply were not being answered. Like you say ‘there is always another modality’ and how true that was for me as well. Yes there has been some deep pain on the road back to being able to listen to my body, but thanks to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, I have been fully supported along the way without a shadow of judgement. The actual tools to get back to the love that we are. Truth found.

     1. Thank you for your comment Joanne – and yes, even knowing that I am not alone as ‘the only one’ who from that point of seeking for answers outside of myself dissolves the projected thought from who knows that I was to be found to be ‘guilty’ as charged – having strayed as a result of my then emptiness. Your words “thanks to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, I have been fully supported along the way without a shadow of judgment” are very important I feel, especially ‘without a shadow of judgement’ – for indeed that is the case I have found, that never has Serge projected in any way what to do or how to do it, but always lovingly presented the fact of the possibility of there being another way.

252. Hi Roberta ,most of us have walked away from reality turning our backs on truth and the myriad of new age techniques are cleverly designed to offer us that escape. To choose reality and feel the joy of living in my body with truth there as plain as day , life is simply magical.

     1. Thank you Paul for your comment – and I agree with your words “new age techniques are cleverly designed to offer us that escape”. It is interesting when I focus on that word ‘escape’ for that word is used so often in so many forms of advertizing I have found, including one form of entertainment that I am famililar with known as ‘Cruising’. I have a better understanding now why some folk, including some very near and dear to me live only for ‘cruising’. With the additional awareness brought to my attention through my attending Universal Medicine presentations with Serge Benhayon I can now see the responsibility that we have in not settling for less, not settling for ‘escape’ but accepting the responsibiity of knowing we are enough, we are in fact divine, but we are just remembering that that is so, thus we do not really have to be looking outside of ourselves for fulfilment at all, not through supposed new age modalities, cruising or any other thing that takes one away from their true selves.

253. What a journey for you Roberta and one so many of us have been on, only to find that we didn’t need to go anywhere, it was always within ourselves. The search was over after finding Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine because for me it was like coming home to the truth of what I already knew and just connecting back to that

     1. Thanks Deidre, yes, ” the search was over after finding Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine” – the recognition of truth in my inner heart was instant. The experience at the recent Health Wellbeing & Soul Expo on the Gold Coast recently indicated that there are many who are now in that situation as I was myself about 13 years ago – still seeking from a position of emptiness and looking for answers outside in lieu of feeling it within. It was indeed a gift to be there and to offer the possibility of there being another way.

        1. Yes, it seems to be really difficult to consider, let alone accept, that the body is the key tool and indicator in anything to do with spiritualness, soulfulness, godliness.

254. Hi Simon. I can relate to what you point out here, being drawn to the bit of truth within whatever therapy, philosophy, or ‘teacher’. It is like everyone wanting to uncover true truth and healing, finding a seed, but then bastardising it with a whole lot of ego or individualism etc. And yes, Universal Medicine has a totally different formula that breaks this pattern and actually brings everything always back to truth, back to the body, and back to God. Thank you Roberta for exposing the untruth that you had aligned to and sharing your process back into the shining Sun.

255. Roberta, me too! I was on a spiritual feeding frenzy, like a desperate junkie searching for the next high. When I read Serge Benhayon’s first book, my immediate response was ‘oh yeah, nothing new, I know all that’. Sheer arrogance. But the more I read and the more that I heard Serge present, the more I could sense that while, yes, we DO all know such wisdom (for it is carried in our bodies, even if we are not listening to them), we don’t ‘know it all’ with our minds as I had been led to believe. True wisdom resides in the soul and is felt in the body first before it goes into thought. Realising this left me with the rather simple revelation that: ‘our soul knows all, our spirit is a know-it-all’. Search over. I can simply get back to being me. Thank you for sharing your journey home.

     1. Hi Liane, I love how you encapsulate the arrogance of the spirit so well with this “‘our soul knows all, our spirit is a know-it-all’.” I too felt I knew it all when I first heard of Serge Benhayon and after freely giving my power away to so many others did not want to give it away again. Yet I found Serge was not in the taking of anyone’s power so the initial resistance was coming from my ‘know-it-all spirit’ that craves to be seen as ‘knowing all’ without taking any true responsibility.

256. Very cool to hear your story Roberta before Universal Medicine. I have also observed that there are a lot of spiritual channellers that are not so healthy in their body, like you have shared was the case for you.

257. Thank you Jane – yes, as you say “what I was searching for was already inside of me”. How simple and uncomplicated it truly is. In addition I have found as a result of time as a Practitioner at the Health Harmony and Soul Expo these past few days and spending a little time in conversation with some of the other exhibitors/presenters I realize more the necessity to not impose this wealth we are unfolding on others, but to simply be and to be the inspiration.

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