The Beauty of Stillness in my Hands

I have long been amazed by the way in which the practice of Esoteric Yoga brings not only a reconnection to inner stillness, but also a deep awareness of stillness being a state of being that is actually innate to our bodies (no matter how far away from it we may think ourselves to be). Experiencing this awareness has revealed what changes to my daily routine and way of living the choice of stillness can offer as a way forward. This became very clear quite some time ago during a 6-week course with the Esoteric Yoga Stillness Program for Women.

A few minutes into one of the sessions that comprise the program, we were lying down and I had connected to stillness. Our practitioner had us focus our attention on our hands. As I allowed myself to feel my hands from the place of stillness, I was very aware at that moment of two vastly different types of energy within them.

I was delighting in how delicate my hands felt and I had a sense of how much delicateness and stillness they were capable of holding. I started to feel a deep sense of appreciation for my hands and found myself contemplating how remarkably divine would be all that I touched and did with them, if I were to express in this energy.

At the same time, which in itself is quite remarkable, I also felt the intensity of how much I had had my hands ‘do’ up until this moment of revelation. My hands were showing me how much my life had been a push and a drive as I felt the physical hardness I had encased them in to serve this unrelenting, harsh, forward momentum.

I had used my hands as functional workhorses, there only to serve whatever my mind was deeming was the thing to do at any one time.

I had disfigured two fingers on my right hand with excessive writing while pushing myself to get a degree at University – before the days of word processors. I had tensed my hands driving my car at times, in stress, frustration and anger, and had used them to lift weights in the gym that were way beyond my physical capacity. I had allowed shopping bags and dog leashes to cut into my hands, while choosing to ignore the harsh, physical effects of these activities. On a few occasions I had burned and cut parts of my hands in kitchen accidents, usually when I was in a hurry or distracted by a million thoughts other than those relating to cooking.

All of this I felt as I observed my hands from stillness, without judgement but with an honest accounting of the energy residing in them, placed there by me during the course of a lifetime.

I was astonished by the matter-of-fact honesty offered by my body without recrimination or blame: just a sharing of truth and the offering of a choice – continue with the harshness or choose to honour my hands in the delicateness and stillness that I truly am. I could choose to have the same hands I had had as a baby – delicate, sensitive and tenderly aware of how my touch engages with the outside world.

For a while after this, my hands felt a little sore at the fingertips. This I attributed to my choice to honour them. This choice meant that I became very aware of how and when I was pushing, because my fingertips, previously numbed into hardness, became very sensitive and their sensitivity alerted me to how I’d been using my hands – the quality of energy I used them in as I went about my daily activity.

I started to take moments to stop and to appreciate my hands at different points in my day when I moved them gently or massaged them, reminding myself that I wanted to move all of me, including my hands, delicately, from stillness. At other times I found I was naturally delighting again in the loveliness of my hands in activity, often when drying dishes, or during my cleansing routine, or dressing for the day.

My hands have since become a truly remarkable and precise indicator of whatever energy is running through me at any one time and they offer a constant awareness of the choices available to us all. They are absolutely worth appreciating and absolutely worth offering the energy of delicateness and stillness for their expression. As am I absolutely worth being delicate with me, as the woman that I am.

By Coleen Hensey

Further Reading:
Quality of movement = Quality of life
Stillness and Aloneness
Our Delicateness

465 thoughts on “The Beauty of Stillness in my Hands

  1. When we stop, connect and feel it’s really amazing to feel how we have lived and what choices we have made. The body speaks loudly and can communicate precisely what is there to be looked at. I also find it amazing how the body can clear our old patterning when we give it the space to do so.

  2. ‘Functional workhorse’ describes perfectly how we can push the body to such an extent that we are willing to work it to the ground until illness and disease sets in so that we have to stop.

  3. “I was delighting in how delicate my hands felt and I had a sense of how much delicateness and stillness they were capable of holding” – this is gorgeous … feeling the actual fine quality and it is this stillness quality that makes everything physical then so beautiful. Quality, stillness is our true beauty.

  4. I often catch myself when I am rummaging in my bag to find something, how I can bash my hands/fingers around as the frustration grows, and the rummaging has more force when I cant find the elusive item. I stop, as I too have been re-connecting to the delicacy and stillness that our hands offer, and look with much more grace and care and you know what? I normally find the item much quicker!

  5. Whatever we have done to our hands, we can always make that choice to reconnect to that delicacy our hands are able to express and make them the tools through which we can express and share the love that lives within with everybody we meet.

  6. We can be so hard on our hands while they hold such a delicate and tender touch. Is it possible that in making our hands hard that we live in avoidance of this delicateness that comes from within and can be naturally expressed by our hands?

  7. Beautiful. Simply a powerful message in its delicate terms. We are here to be sacred from our connection and in our movements, this is what we mostly miss. Time to bring it back into our lives.

  8. Taking the time to connect to my hands, especially my fingertips, has been the most priceless commitment in my every day life. Feeling all the parts of my hands and sometimes bringing the palms together and delicately touching each fingertip has the power to reconnect me to the rest of my body and to how it is truly feeling. I often find myself closing my eyes and connecting to my breath at the same time, and as I do I can feel the stillness that is always with me begin to ripple throughout every particle of my being; very yummy indeed!

  9. It has been through Esoteric Yoga that i too have discovered that within me, within my body, there is a depth of stillness that feels like it goes on and on forever… Without discovering this through Esoteric Yoga, through the connection into my body, life in this ‘modern 24/7 environment would be far less than grand than it is now, now knowing my Soul, what love is, and that there is far more to life than just the everyday ‘mundane-ness’ we superficially experience.

  10. Very beautiful reminder Coleen that truth is love, and love is always calling us to be more and more of the love we are by way of our openness to the truth of what is and what is not of this love. Our every part of our body constantly reflects the truth as you have wisely shared, as such wise it is to stop and check in with our bodies and its innate intelligence that at heart knows only to guide us to be more of who we are in essence.

  11. When you spoke of using your hands as functional workhorses, to serve whatever the mind was deeming was the thing to do, I know this is how all of the body is used when we choose to not be present with ourselves. We become hard all over from that drive, which apart from exhausting us, stops us from feeling the delicacy and sensitivity we are, and that we can feel all manner of things, in detail, energetic as well as physical.

  12. Such a great blog to read first thing before I start my day reminding me that there is always a choice as to how I move my body in the world.

  13. It’s true that our hands can be at the mercy of the state of the mind. If we are in a driven mode and are driving ourselves to get everything done it is our hands that have to do it all. Great point! So focusing on the quality of the movement of our hands is a great way of cutting the domination of the mind and lovingly choosing a different way.

  14. This is gorgeous. Thank you for the reminder of the delicacy of our hands, and that they represent and express the energy we are choosing to run with. Focusing on using them in a way that honours them allows us to honour the rest of the body.

    1. When I focus on my hands I do naturally become tender in all what I do. So indeed a great reminder to remind myself on focusing on my hands more often.

  15. Beautifully observed Coleen. Connecting to the quality, delicacy and exquisite touch of my hands confirms my true nature.

  16. What a gorgeous blog Coleen, and now I have so much more awareness of my hands and how I am moving them. Am I absent when moving them or am I moving them with the quality of delicateness and awareness? If I am honest I tend to move between the two, and now make a conscious choice to move them in connection with all of my body!

  17. How extraordinary that we can bring awareness to an area of our body, like our fingertips, and they can ache afterwards like we have had a workout. It is illogical from what we know according to the way intellect works at the moment, yet when we consider that everything is energy and everything is because of energy we can understand how the body holds on to memories till it is ready to release them and the connective tissue adjusts to the space or tension. Having felt it, it feels so logical to me now.

    1. Absolutely Lucy. Once it is experienced, this energetic fact cannot be un-known, it can be denied, but not un-experienced.

      1. That is the wonderful fact of the body, you can’t unfeel what you felt. It is the marker of all truth according to Serge Benhayon and when you take it to this simplicity it is fact.

  18. As I pressed my mouse to send the last message I got an image of the ripple effect of our actions online, so if we hammer our keyboard and then slam the mouse to move around the screen or press send then it just feels jarring compared to considering the impact of my actions and simple movements and choosing to do them with more focus and presence. This doesn’t make them soft because that wouldn’t be much better, there is simply more awareness of the impact and impress we are leaving behind or sending out.

  19. The delicateness we can connect to in our relationship with our fingers is never far from the surface since doing the Esoteric Yoga. It was the medium for me to reconnect to them and then see how that touch feels in everything I do. It pulls me back when I type, when I clean my face, when I pick things up and put them back. Thank you once again for the reminder that little things matter as they have big ripple effects.

      1. What I have noticed is the subtle things we do that seemingly don’t count but plant a seed that ‘doubt’ can come back to. Everything matters, sow seeds of quality so that is what we feel and build as a foundation to stand on regardless of what comes into our lives.

    1. Seeing the ripple of our movements from how we are on the keyboard to clicking a mouse in your earlier example is so practical and shows how we can be fully responsible for what we send out into the universe.

  20. There is much to share on this subject: asking us all, how much do we allow our beauty to come out? Have we created more ways to suppress it ?
    I for myself can say that I have lived based on a lack of self-worth, now since I had committed to my truth again, finding out more and more the worth (love) that I actually Am, so now I am observing all ways which I have played less than who I am. Finding out every day that there is more and more to be re-discovered.

  21. As I read this lovely blog I found myself bringing the tips of my fingers together and feeling the delicateness flowing from all my fingers, running the fingertips of one hand down the inside of the other hand; it felt exquisite. Since being introduced to the beauty of my hands through the Stillness Program for Women I have been continually delighted how different it is to do certain things when I first focus on their innate delicacy and how they then respond in kind.

  22. Thank you Coleen, it’s a simple focus to bring our awareness to our hands and to use how they feel as a gauge of the overall quality we are connected to. It’s also quite lovely to bring awareness to our hands – which I plan on doing more of today! Your words also about your relationship to life and how this has been reflected in your hands are very supportive, there is a lot to consider about how we are with life and how this is expressed through our hands.

  23. This is very cool – I’m going to bring more attention to my hands today, the first thing I notice is I need hand cream! I know in the past I’ve brought attention to the delicateness of my fingertips and it’s been very beneficial in helping me to keep focused on the task I’m doing.

  24. Coleen thank you for the reminder that our hands are indeed very delicate and it is when we are distracted that we tend to be much harder on them. When we are aware and connected to our hands we are able to pick up a lot of information just through touch and feel.

  25. Thank you Coleen for a great blog reminding me to take more tender care of my hands realising that every part of life is graced by our touch when it is tender and delicate.

    1. Thank you Jill for your words “every part of life is graced by our touch when it is tender and delicate.” I notice when I am rough with myself and how I move I feel cut off from the my natural understanding that I am part of the all and having an effect on others. When I am connected to my Soul and tender and delicate with the way I move the care for others is automatically there as is the awareness of the whole I am part of and having an effect on.

  26. Indeed so much is revealed by our hands and especially how we have moved and used them.. A profound watch and observation of our own movements; for example when we cut our hand with a paper cut or when we have used them roughly and lift up something delicate it often clashes. It is this reflection that we are given of how we actually can live more supportive and lovingly towards ourselves, and pay attention to moving more delicately and in a way that does not push but actually allows space in and between our movements.

  27. It’s amazing what our body can reflect to us about the kind of energy that we’re doing things in, and so far from just being a functional vehicle, our body is super sensitive and helps us to reconnect with there being more to life than just the physical.

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