by SC, London, UK
When I was 27 years old, I had just left my marriage of ten months and felt depressed and lost. A friend suggested I come to an open night for a new counselling and psychotherapy organisation in Crows Nest, Sydney. Unknown to me at the time, it was based on the AA (alcoholic anonymous) principles. I subsequently joined a weekly therapy group to address my depression and anxiety.
One night a week I would show up and talk about my problems in the group… and it was always focused on what we had ‘done wrong’ that week. There was a loose structure to dig deeper, but the basis was always how ‘bad’ we were/are – always looking first at the broken part of us, the victim. Within two weeks of group work and working through the childhood years, the childhood sexual abuse from my stepfather came flooding back. The abuse happened every Friday night from age six to eleven. It ended when my mother left him after seeing us together. I had told her many times what was going on, but she refused to acknowledge what was happening. I had buried it so deeply that I had literally forgotten – but once the floodgates opened, all the memories returned. That’s when I started the one-to-one sessions, as I needed support and it was there and available.
After 18 months I stopped group work, but continued my weekly one-to-one sessions for the next eight years with the same counsellor. During that time I cognitively ‘addressed’ my abuse, but the patterns of behaviour continued and the sense of anxiety was always present. I felt that mentally I had dealt with the abuse, but I still felt trapped in old patterns that I had no control over. I felt like I couldn’t live life without my sessions with my counsellor!
Nothing really changed – I was still drinking heavily, doing recreational drugs and, with a poor diet, my body was a mess. I had needy relationships with men that didn’t last longer than a year.
The day I met Serge Benhayon for a session, I was 33 years old. He asked me why I had come to see him… I replied that a friend had been the day before and she looked amazing and I knew I wanted some of that. He closed his eyes and said that the true reason I was there was that the scars of the sexual abuse were still locked in my body, and I felt trapped by the old patterns that were driving me. I started to cry, and felt so much acceptance and love from him that even today tears well up when I remember that moment.
What was revealed to me in that hour was the power of true love. Serge talked through the whole session and explained everything as the healing unfolded. I felt everything in my body. It was like my body lit up and I could feel myself again. And so began the true healing I was longing for.
In my experience, this true healing process is the polar opposite of psychotherapy, which focuses on going over and over the pattern of the impact of the abuse, and band-aid solutions that never truly address the deeper pattern. And the AA model that “I am an alcoholic” is simply not true. I know there are different counselling techniques that have been introduced over the last ten years that profess to look at the body too, but their driving force is that “you are broken and need fixing”.
Esoteric Healing always sees me from the essence of love that I am – and the things that I do, or that have happened to me, are not who I truly am. A very different approach. Esoteric Healing offered me the opportunity to be truthful as to the impact of patterns of behaviour and to see them, not as who I am, but as the things I do to NOT be all that I am, naturally. Therein lies the choice – to be a victim of my childhood, or to take responsibility and heal that inner child from a place of love.
The past abuse had placed strain on my relationship with my Mum over the years, the pain of the silence of not speaking out for me of the abuse at the time, though, through my own unfolding with esoteric healing, I have been able to let hurt and judgment go, which has consequently changed and deepened the relationship we now have together.
The Universal Medicine courses provide a place of learning. He/they have given me the opportunity to deepen my awareness to myself and reveal the patterns of behaviour that affect me in daily life, to deepen my tenderness with myself in every expression.
Reflecting on the eight years of psychotherapy, I know in truth that nothing really changed – compounded by a lack of growth in my bank account! But I would not know that truth if it weren’t for my commitment to healing myself and the guidance and reflection of love that I continue to feel from Serge Benhayon, his development of the Universal Medicine Courses I attend, and the Esoteric Practitioners I see for support when I need it.
No longer is there a reliance on seeing a practitioner to fix me – my healing is mine, and I have been empowered by the many techniques offered by Universal Medicine to build my self-love.
The Truth about Universal Medicine 
Quite amazing really. The power of love is beyond what words can describe. Sounds like a bit of a cliché but I think that is why a lot of practices such as psychotherapy only works to a certain extent. Because they do not come with love, it’s mostly a mental approach, and it doesn’t change the energy locked into the body from what has been experienced.
“No longer is there a reliance on seeing a practitioner to fix me – my healing is mine, and I have been empowered by the many techniques offered by Universal Medicine to build my self-love.” In contrast to what we usually understand to be true, it is this empowering approach of Universal Medicine and the practitioners of these modalities that truly support us to understand that we all have the capacity to heal our past hurts, rather than continually placing the blame on another.
A true and empowering healing SC, thank you for sharing your experience.
Building strenght from inside out gives us the capacity to go forward with our presence.. Knowing that healing is part of our everyday life and that healing occurs by our willingness to be and let go of the old. Move on with all that we have build and let go so far.
‘Therein lies the choice – to be a victim of my childhood, or to take responsibility and heal that inner child from a place of love’ It is never too late to reparent ourselves and to live the love that we are. I can feel in this blog how you have turned the corner so to speak and are allowing this to happen.
Alcoholics Anonymous is curious. On the one hand, it makes a point regarding anonymity. At the same time, it makes a point regarding the need to identify yourself as being an alcoholic in recovery. So, it does not matter who you are as long as you identify yourself as an alcoholic; fact that guarantees your not healing the reason why you drink in the first place. A smart way to keep having a solid rate of enrollment. AA is not about healing but looking good as organization.
This is a great article – we can choose to live a life of blame and keep repeating patterns of old behaviour or we can choose to see the energy that is driving our stuck-ness and move beyond the pain and the hurt. We have much to appreciate and much to let go of, we can work on both at the same time.
8 years of psychotherapy, gosh this sounds more like they needed you, not you needing them! I am wondering after you having that moment of clarity and starting to feel light in your body again from meeting Serge Benhayon, if you went back to the psychotherapist to speak with them about this .. they could have learnt something here maybe? In life I have tried many different things to try to heal hurts or change my life or feel more connected to me, but it was like putting a band aid on (or in some cases burying it deeper) nothing changed, that is nothing changed until I met Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon and then that is when I can honestly say true healing began.
The scars of our past hurts remain in our bodies which impacts on everything we do and all our relationships, especially the relationship with ourselves. The Esoteric Modalities, are an amazing support when we are ready to face ourselves and our past unloving choices.
Very inspiring of how much you have healed and let go which is evident in the deepening relationship with your mother. I have also found the Esoteric modalities by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine an amazing support for my body to expose old ways of being and behaving.
The best healing I have ever received was to surrender. Surrender and your body would know how.
I can see the importance of building that relationship with who you are, the loving, delicate amazing child, now woman, and the importance of seeing that you don’t need fixing, you need to understand so it doesn’t define who you are or how you now live. I feel we have much to learn in the professional world when we truly listen to people who have experienced abuse so we can all heal, not compound the pain and ensure we are not adding to the behaviours that extend the healing process.
One of the best things we can do for ourselves is to face our past and heal our hurts, and then we have more space in the body to feel more of who we are and our true divine essence.
I so agree there’s a big difference between Esoteric healing modalities and many other modalities around these days. It is incredibly healing to be met by someone who not only says ‘we are love in essence’ but lives that truth and knows it for real.
Not only is this a great testimony for Esoteric Healing but also highlights the fact that the AA model does not truly work to heal the hurt at its root.
“Esoteric Healing always sees me from the essence of love that I am – and the things that I do, or that have happened to me, are not who I truly am”. This is so different to how most practitioners view their clients – possibly because there is a belief that if the client isn’t broken, then there is nothing for the practitioner to do. Knowing you are whole and pure is super empowering and allows us to know we heal ourselves.
Beautiful to feel your own healing through taking responsibility and not allowing your childhood issues to own you, or wanting to find a fix for them, when the true healing comes from within yourself.
‘true healing comes from within yourself’ and does not seek to fix or to remedy anything from the past, rather to arrest the ill energy and see that none of it is who we truly are, rather choices that were made out of reaction to not being the love that we are.
We need to include the physical body when it comes to healing our past hurts and that is why Esoteric Healing has so much to offer. And most importantly, Esoteric Healing does not view anyone as broken, faulty or lacking – true healing is, after all, the shedding of what we are not and never is it an improvement on what we already are.
I agree with you when you say
“In my experience, this true healing process is the polar opposite of psychotherapy, which focuses on going over and over the pattern of the impact of the abuse, and band-aid solutions that never truly address the deeper pattern.”
I spent 25+ years in psychotherapy and nothing changed I was encouraged to be the ‘victim’ of life.
Finding Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine was the best medicine because as you say SC the healing modalities on offer see us from the pure essence we are and work from that base. And how ridiculous is it that we spend so much time and energy not being all that we truly are.
So true Angela, true only takes place when we take responsibility for our choices and connect within. From this point the healing journey begins and keeps unfolding.
I love what you share “No longer is there a reliance on seeing a practitioner to fix me – my healing is mine, and I have been empowered by the many techniques offered by Universal Medicine to build my self-love.” This in itself feels so empowering, we are our own healers, we don’t need to give our power away. Yes sometimes we need support from other practitioners but that is to go deeper in our healing journey.
That’s true self empowerment!
This is an incredible account of someone who knows that there is more and who seeks it, not willing to settle for short-term solutions that lead no where but back to the same point again and again – you have sought the ageless wisdom which is a testament to your strength and inner wisdom.
I didn’t experience sexual abuse but I certainly did hold many beliefs about there being something wrong with me that needed to be fixed. How very healing it is to realise that the beautiful essence that we all have equally within us is fully in tact, untouched and ‘untaintable’ and that we can reconnect to it when we choose to. Thank you SC for this testament to the real power of Esoteric Healing and the graceful work of Serge Benhayon.
“What was revealed to me in that hour was the power of true love. Serge talked through the whole session and explained everything as the healing unfolded. I felt everything in my body. It was like my body lit up and I could feel myself again. And so began the true healing I was longing for.” This feels like a true general description of what happens to everyone who is touched by the absolute grace of Serge Benhayon.
What you have shared with me here is that we can heal trauma on an emotional and psychological level, but that it can stay in the body till we get support. I have seen this manifest in patterns of behaviour and choices that seem illogical at the time but when put into context make perfect sense. I am so pleased you have found the support you needed to heal those underlying traumas.
Esoteric Healing recognizes that we are all from the same oneness, that at our very core we are sons of God and that deep down we all want to be loved, so anything that does not belong with this is discarded and healed to create space for our natural way of being.
Absolutely, Esoteric Healing gives us the space to discard what does not belong and allows us to return to who we truly are, sons of God.
Thank you SC for what you’ve shared – this has demonstrated that if what ever ‘treatment / sessions’ not getting to the core of it all, then the healing modality is not the absolute healer.
Like yourself Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine has made a a true difference in my life, health and love – what a changer.
SC, reading your experience is an absolute blessing as there is no trace of victimhood, reaction or recoil from the world – you have claimed your way and been so active in your healing.
It is what’s possible when we are given the opportunity to be invited to own our true power, and we accept it.
“Esoteric Healing offered me the opportunity to be truthful as to the impact of patterns of behaviour and to see them, not as who I am, but as the things I do to NOT be all that I am, naturally.” This is why Esoteric healing is so empowering and so valuable for society today.
This is an extraordinary and very powerful sharing S.C. reminding us that is possible for us to heal any trauma or past abuse with the support of the Esoteric Modalities. Amazing the journey you have been through and the steps you took to truly heal these hurts, this will be very inspiring and supportive for anyone else who has been through any similar abuse in their lives.
Yes and the reason the esoteric modalities can support is because it offers a knowing, from the body, that what has happened to us does not define us, it is not who we are. This is so important because without that key it all lives on as memories in our body, a body that knows what it feels is not love. This is the disharmony that drives the search for healing.
You present so clearly the difference between what Esoteric Healing is and how it always comes from a place of confirming you in the love you naturally are and allowing you to see those behaviours which are not love and to address and heal them – a very different approach to many other ways which work from the premise you need to be fixed or to be better in some way. It’s utterly changed my life and that of many others, and best of all, it puts the person back in the centre of their own life knowing they have the choice to live the love they are, and to allow more of that love to be seen and lived in their life.
That’s well described Monica ‘putting us back in the centre of our lives’ and l would add into the centre of ourselves.
Yes Irene, very definitely back to the centre of ourselves, and the truth of who we are.
So very true, it puts us back in charge and repsonsible for what has happened to us and what is happening to us. Ultimately we always have a choice whether or not we want to admit it.
Getting fixed does not work as we are at the mercy of that which is outside of us to heal us. True healing comes from within and until we acknowledge, accept and commit to taking responsibility for our wellbeing and how we choose to live then the issues, hurts, dramas and investments will continue their cycle to feed our ailments, illness and disease.
It’s great to read when someone can say that the healing is mine, and claim if for what it is. Many of us go to healers and counsellors expecting them to heal us and ultimately give our power away, but in truth we are the only ones who can heal us. Serge Benhayon has shown us what true healing is and that it is our choice at the end of the day.
What a beautiful story and journey of true healing and the immense gift Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine offers to humanity.
This is a very valuable testimony on a very popular way to try to deal with very common problems (alcoholism, compulsive eating, depression). They are based on the acceptance that you are your conduct. There is a total identification between what you do and you. Yet, such identification is precisely the main barrier to step out of the issue you are going through. Not surprisingly, these methods do not really work. They are unable to really clear the issue from the body. The body is still locked in where it was.
I studied counselling many years ago and could not fathom how it could possible work as it seemed to magnify the problems presenting. What Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine offer in the way of healing is to disentangle one from patterns, behaviours and stories by first and foremost allowing the client to feel a connection to the true glory of the essence we are and from this connection look at what is ‘not us’. This brings everything into a true perspective.
Thank you SC for sharing such an inspirational story. I found myself in a similar situation where I was having regular reiki sessions and although my health improved somewhat there came a point when I no longer felt to have them. Ending the sessions wasn’t an easy process as there was a lot of reaction from the therapist and this behaviour made me feel uncomfortable reinforcing my decision to leave. Attachment of any kind does not support any party. I was needy and this neediness Universal Medicine has supported me with. It has been a natural unfolding empowering me to take lead and do what I feel is true for my own wellbeing… there are no binds to any Esoteric practitioner.
What is on offer by the world in general is the fix it, band -aid way of healing and dealing with our issues, it is a going outside of ourselves for healing instead of going within to the love that we are in essence and from that loving space true healing takes place .
What a testimony! The fact that anyone in the media is trying to diminish and discredit Universal Medicine’s name when these are the quality of experiences that come out of sessions really is shocking. I cannot imagine going through what you have been through and I am so touched that you are on the journey now to truly heal, you are very brave to write this blog, it inspires me to no end.
‘No longer is there a reliance on seeing a practitioner to fix me – my healing is mine…’ I really love this statement SC. There is an acknowledgement that we benefit from healing and support, but a real claiming that we are the ones in the driving seat.
Now there is an article about healing, not a cycle of treatment that keeps bringing you round and round in the hope that something changes. This statement at the end; “No longer is there a reliance on seeing a practitioner to fix me – my healing is mine, and I have been empowered by the many techniques offered by Universal Medicine to build my self-love.” A healing session that you take home with you to build on for the next session if you have one. It’s a very different model to other modalities we have where you keep coming back to be picked up to go out and come back and have the same thing happen again. These Esoteric Healing modalities support you to stand up, walk, and then keep walking. It’s not them doing it for you but more a support for you to see what you can do for yourself. Remember as a child, you didn’t want things done for you, you wanted to learn and do them for yourself so you owned them. We are no different in this way when we are older, no one truly wants things done for them they want to learn how to do things for themselves and the only way to learn them is to actually be supported to take the steps yourself. Sounds simple and almost common sense but this isn’t the norm of our current world ‘healing’ modalities.
Gosh who were those 8 years of psychotherapy for!!! Something tells me not for you! This is so revealing how 8 years of seeing a person once a week did absolutely nothing yet in a few 2 minutes with Serge Benhayon the energy had been called out as to what it was immediately hence started to unlock and heal. It is great to hear how your relationship with you mum has healed as well and you have not held onto blame, resentment or judgement.
This is an incredible story SC. Such a journey, and one that many of us have been on in one way or another. The understanding that you are not your issues is one of the biggest revelations any one can ever have. It’s freedom really, freedom to just be who you are.
I had never heard or came across any modality, before Universal Medicine, that held me in the knowing that I am complete, full and amazing. Everything else I tried always came with the energy of you not being enough… unless, you did this, sat like that or drank a miracle cure. I see now that it was what I believed that had me looking in the directions I did… but deep down I knew there was more.
“No longer is there a reliance on seeing a practitioner to fix me – my healing is mine” This is so inspiring, I so often look to others for the answer, instead of saying hang on a minute, I actually already have the answer – I already know it I just have to take my next step claiming it – and no one else can do this for me.
Beautiful. “Esoteric Healing always sees me from the essence of love that I am – and the things that I do, or that have happened to me, are not who I truly am.” Universal Medicine offers us all the choice to reconnect to and feel the Divine essence of who we truly are.
If all we do is focus on our issues, imperfections and weaknesses how will we ever learn to appreciate our strengths that help to nourish and rebuild us up.
A beautiful account of what came before and what came after your meeting with Serge Benhayon. A 1 hour session vs 8 years of therapy – that says it all.
Being a victim gets us nowhere but further buried into the ‘what is not’ of who we are and attracts sympathy, which deems us as less than others.
“my healing is mine” – Ha!
What a responsibility. What an empowerment!
Wonderful SC what you have shared is a testimonial that true healing is possible. Thank you for not holding back such an amazing and very inspiring way you have found with Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine.
Beautifully expressed SC. I know without a doubt that everything we have ever experienced is stored in our bodies if we haven’t yet dealt with it. When we allow ourselves to feel all that we feel our bodies release the trauma and we set ourselves free.
That’s extra-ordinary to attend psychotherapy sessions for eight years and there to be no healing. The important point here is to understand what healing is so that issues are not buried and locked away to be forgotten and then become our clever behaviours. “Esoteric Healing always sees me from the essence of love that I am – and the things that I do, or that have happened to me, are not who I truly am.”
I spent 3 years and quite a lot of money going to counselling sessions regularly, but nothing ever changed. It was as you have said Sarah, I was seen as broken and in need of fixing which only offered me a place to relieve myself of my anguish every week or so. I would cry and feel catharted (is that a word?!) but within hours I would have stepped back onto the hamster wheel of emotions – blame, guilt, lack of self-worth, self-loathing etc. It was my experience too that true healing began when I started taking responsibility for my choices through the loving reflection of Serge Benhayon.
We can spend a lot of time dealing with our issues, analysing them and trying to get to the bottom of them. All of that is a focus on what we are not. When we focus on what we are in truth, true healing can occur.
The only way we truly heal anything is to first see or connect to ourselves as complete. It is that part of us that does the healing of the part that is not. In that sense we are responsible for our own healing, and all that a practitioner can do, is facilitate that process through having healed themselves. That is exactly what Serge Benhayon did… and continues to do for thousands of others.
I got shivers down my spine reading this, you are so brave to put all this on paper, it actually proves how fare you have come in the healing process to be able to share your personal story with not an ounce of judgment or victim energy in your article. Its such a wake up call when you read content like this, an article of this quality, it just makes me think, I have no excuses to hold back, if you are powering in your relationship with yourself and publishing amazing blogs about it after what you have experienced in childhood then there is no good enough reason to stop me from writing a blog. What an inspiration, thank you.
“Therein lies the choice – to be a victim of my childhood, or to take responsibility and heal that inner child from a place of love.” It is a major healing to take responsibility for being in our hurts when we can so easily slip into justifying playing the victim. It is the difference between control and connection for playing the victim is a form of control and it takes over our life and taints everything whereas connection to who we truly are frees us as we can then know our self and others from a whole different perspective through the eyes of the Soul.
Thankyou SC for sharing your experiences. I have also experienced many different so called healing modalities but it was not until I came to Universal Medicine that true, lasting healing began. And like yourself, I am a practitioner of my own healing, as I can very much relate to this line “I have been empowered by the many techniques offered by Universal Medicine to build my self-love.”
Wow SC how truly simple, in a moment the absolute understanding of who you are and holding you with an immense amount of love and respect, true healing takes place, “He closed his eyes and said that the true reason I was there was that the scars of the sexual abuse were still locked in my body, and I felt trapped by the old patterns that were driving me.”
It is quite worrying how people have professions of therapists or counsellors but do not have a true understanding with regards to energy .. hence 8 years of psychotherapy with nothing changing for you. I have experience this as well attending many courses, counselling and body work therapies with nothing actually changing, the true root of the problems not being picked up or addressed. We live a lie ‘thinking’ we are changing something when in reality we are not, in fact in some cases we are just compounding this more in our body. I have however experienced the absolute opposite of this with Universal Medicine and Sacred Esoteric Healing modalities. The truth of energy is a known, there is no guessing, the root of the problem is felt and addressed (if the client is willing and open to healing) and old patterns, hurts, behaviours, beliefs are cleared from the body leaving the person to instead feel their own essence, who they truly are and live from this. It is not a magic pill and not easy at times .. commitment and honesty are required but since attending my first Sacred Esoteric Healing course I have not looked back and am in a completely new and beautifull place in my life to where I was 10 years ago. It was beautifull to read this, you captured and expressed the true love Serge Benhayon is so well ‘He closed his eyes and said that the true reason I was there was that the scars of the sexual abuse were still locked in my body, and I felt trapped by the old patterns that were driving me.’ Thank you for sharing your experience.
Thank you SC for sharing this. Approaching healing from the stance of we are not broken is a huge key point and something that we always need to be reminded of. It’s so strong to go into blame or victimhood that saying ‘hang on, I am not at fault but in disconnection from myself these things happened’ – is a game changer.
I missed this article when it was first published but it has been beautiful to read it now and to feel the truth in this “true healing process is the polar opposite of psychotherapy, which focuses on going over and over the pattern of the impact of the abuse, and band-aid solutions that never truly address the deeper pattern.” Esoteric healing is the only modality I know from experience that addresses to roots and patterns from the perspective of love and knowing, that I am not broken.
A brilliant testimony of what true healing is about and the power of Esoteric Healing, thank you.
Beautiful and inspiring to read, thank you SC. starting with knowing who we truly are and from there building self love in the body brings the healing we longing for. To be met by Serge in his deep profound love confirms the love that we are in his reflection.
‘Esoteric Healing always sees me from the essence of love that I am.’ Beautifully said and very true SC, all the Esoteric Modalities are so supportive and powerful in allowing the body to surrender and to truly heal.
What stands out the most to me in this blog is the word choice. It was like the whole page lit up, it was as if SC claimed her choice to live again, to breathe again, to be who she is free from hurt. But the fact that this came from an initial experience of deep understanding and love is very significant and it really does bring in to question the current medical practise of psychology – as well meaning as it is, is there room within the practice perhaps for love to be a part of the therapeutic equation?
“Esoteric Healing always sees me from the essence of love that I am – and the things that I do, or that have happened to me, are not who I truly am. A very different approach.” It certainly is a different approach, so much so that after one workshop, a session with Serge Benhayon and three months of intense questioning I totally renounced my very busy kinesiology practice (of 15 plus years building) to learn and live the Esoteric approach. It is true healing and true living.
Thank-you for sharing so openly and honestly your journey back to you SC. True healing can only occur when we are willing to let go of being victim to our childhood hurts and Universal Medicine Practitioners are there all the way to support us in re-connecting back our real essence by seeing us for the love we truly are and as you express “therein lies the choice – to be a victim of my childhood, or to take responsibility and heal that inner-child from a place of love”.
The therapy groups around a specific issue are really something to watch out. You have an issue. You go there.The meetings confirm that you are the issue and you construct a whole way of being around it. You even get a way to feel occasional relief. These groups are like a black hole. It is very easy to walk in, and very difficult to leave. You become a walking issue.
I love how freely you share your life and the experience you have had in trying to heal, then in true healing. This article is an amazing support for anyone who has experienced sexual abuse, or in fact, any abuse.
Yes shows how there is many paths and its about choosing the true path to healing no matter what your experience of abuse you have had. When there is a will to want to heal the true healing presents itself.
Beautiful story of healing, thank you SC for sharing this and showing just what a paradigm shift Universal Medicine therapies offer and how very needed they are.
Beautiful SC . . . “Therein lies the choice – to be a victim of my childhood, or to take responsibility and heal that inner child from a place of love.” . . . our essence is always in tact just waiting for us to connect back to it.
Esoteric Healing does see us all from the essence of love that we are, and that is much needed in this world.
It makes so much sense that Esoteric Healing starts with who we already are, but is buried by the hurts and scars of life we carry and, most important, that we are not those hurts but are glorious in the first place.
What a wonderful gift of healing you have offered others with your sharing SC. Through the teachings of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine Practitioners and their love and support you have turned your life around, thank you for an amazing sharing.
How very beautiful that after all those years of various treatments and looking to fix what’s apparently wrong you were met, regardless of your history, for who you are, which began your healing journey. Being truly empowered is a very powerful thing all round.
I saw that in this blog too Jennifer. SC was met for who she was as opposed to what had happened to her and being seen as broken.
A very inspiring blog to read, and thank you for sharing such a personal account, as your story, addressing the healing of sexual abuse, offers enormous healing for many people. You show how the esoteric begins with the root cause and then heals back from this point, (a bit like a wound granulating from the base to the outer skin) and from this, being able to identify the habits and behaviours that that we employ to avoid the original hurt that we don’t want to acknowledge, yet keep on seeking something (therapy) to work out what the original problem is.
What a beautiful account of the love you have chosen for you SC. Thank you for sharing this, it feels like you have surrendered to a deeper connection and knowing in yourself which is very confirming for me to feel. It is also inspiring to be reminded how we are never victims and our empowerment is in us just waiting to happen should we so choose.
A very inspiring story of true healing SC. I know how easy it is to focus on what I’ve done wrong, but that just keeps me in a negative spin. I could feel the power in your last paragraph when you say your healing is yours. It definitely is in our hands and that very empowering to feel. It transforms us out of victim mode.
An incredibly powerdul blog SC. One that shows our misunderstandings on so many fundamental fronts about healing. I have had different experiences of psychotherapists and I don’t remember the word healing ever being mentioned, makes me wonder what we were doing other than going around and round in circles and digging up more reasons to feel bad. So many people are involved in this psychotherapeutic process, or other harmful ways to try to manage their hurts. I am grateful to be forever learning about esoteric healing and learning to heal myself, baby step by baby step.
The freedom that comes from letting go of the hurts from our past is as equally loving as it is empowering.
great point Suse- how self-loving it is to deal with hurts and let go of them…
Many methods of so called healing focus on the hurt that has been caused. Though Esoteric Healing it was not just a matter of going back and re-visiting the hurts, it was learning that I am not that hurt and looking at how I took on that hurt and how my behaviour was modified from that moment. I thought that was who I was but really it was a modified version of the true me. This has been incredibly powerful for not just myself but for countless others I know.
What a beautiful thing it is when we are actually “healed” and when we can come back to the essence of who we truly are. It is quite different to sitting in the problem or issue and wading around in it.
A truly stunning sharing on the healing power of true love and the unfolding of you through committing to loving and not fixing yourself. Awesome.
‘Esoteric Healing always sees me from the essence of love that I am – and the things that I do, or that have happened to me, are not who I truly am. A very different approach. Esoteric Healing offered me the opportunity to be truthful as to the impact of patterns of behaviour and to see them, not as who I am, but as the things I do to NOT be all that I am, naturally.’ To be held in such unconditional love that totally supports us to reconnect to who we truly are, after acting as if we are not for lifetimes, is extremely profound. I have witnessed this ongoing process not only in the author but many others who have chosen this way. It is up to us and the dedication we have to ourselves and our own healing that will ultimately change the world.
When we go over and over the same problems and issues and what we have subsequently ‘done wrong’ in response to these hurts, we go round and around in circles which only serves to feed the patterns of abuse we originally developed to numb the hurt in the first place. Further, by only focusing on the problem we don’t value our qualities and strengths and so cannot build ourselves to truly let anything go. In fact, it only serves to drive the behaviours in response to the hurt all the more as it’s kind of like painting a picture in the same color green over and over and asking why there is no blue, purple or other color in it to give it the depth it needs to lift and bring its true beauty out.
I really like the model of healing that Serge Benhayon has taught where you acknowledge the issue, or hurt, or situation that has shaped our behaviour, but it is not allowed to dominate, and the acknowledgement means that it can be healed from a very powerful place of responsibility and choices. Ultimately we all have a choice whether we allow traumas to forever scar us, or move on and set ourselves free from things that have hurt us in the past.
This is an awesome account of healing SC. How beautiful and healing it is to know that there is nothing wrong with the essence and love that you are. The healing is removing the poisons that are locked in our bodies and knowing how precious and loving we are.
“Therein lies the choice – to be a victim of my childhood, or to take responsibility and heal that inner child from a place of love.” The wounded inner child puts up walls of protection that disintegrate once we reach back to her/him with open loving arms.
I absolutely loved reading this post SC. Thank you for sharing so honestly and beautifully about your life and experiences. I spent a good 10 years and many thousands of dollars in counselling myself. Incredibly the last counsellor I saw was able to help me see that this ‘treatment was not effective and gave me a card for a practitioner of Universal Medicine therapies. Like you, I have not looked back. My life would be completely different had I not been supported to truly heal and I will forever be grateful to Serge Benhayon, Universal Medicine and the students of the Way of the Livingness.
I spent several years and many pounds on counselling. I cried a lot, I was able to see what was going on but at no point was my responsibility in my past hurts brought to the fore. It was only when I started attending Universal Medicine courses and workshops that my responsibility was called to account and I became aware that I never was a victim.
This is such an awesome realisation Rachel – ‘In that moment you are not reassembling the whole, but healing a part.’ I love how something can be heard many times but not felt until it is said in a certain way. I now hear this fully. Thank you.
This is beautiful and so clearly written, there is no true healing in going through it over and over again, there is only healing in the knowledge that we are not that what has hurt us and guides us in life. Taking us as a whole and looking honestly at the parts that are not us brings true healing.
This is an extraordinary story SC and offers true support and inspiration to others who have been affected by any type of abuse, that it is possible to begin to truly heal these scars. All the Esoteric Modalities are amazing and offer the client an opportunity to deepen their connection with themselves and to make choices that are more loving and true.
I spent years in counselling and never ever did I let go of the issues or even understand the root cause. However in less than the same space of time my relationship with myself transformed once I came across Universal Medicine and started seeing a Universal Medicine practitioner. I have developed a love for myself and a joy for life that surpassed what I thought was possible and the beauty is that I know there is more.
A brilliant explanation of the principles of Esoteric Healing therapies and the philosophy that underpins them. As you say, in stark contrast to the basis of psychotherapy and psychiatry. Esoteric Healing brings the opportunity for personal responsibility for our choices and therefore for the way we live and experience our lives on a moment by moment basis. It does not require us to painstakingly revisit ‘the moment when’ until we’ve emoted about it to death and yet to our dismay that moment – or more accurately those choices in that moment – still run our bodies and our patterns. Esoteric Healing instead promotes self-love as a bridge to build a foundation from which we can begin to take different choices from those that have been our persistent default.
SC this is a deeply honest sharing which is very inspiring to read. It is great to realise that bringing focus to what we have done wrong in groups or sessions, just keeps it alive at some level and the imprints of the abusive actions are still with in the body, creating havoc and anxiousness. Functionality is improved but not the freedom to be truly loving and connected with oneself. Universal Medicine is the first organisation I have come across that deals with the imprints in the body and to be with oneself.
“No longer is there a reliance on seeing a practitioner to fix me – my healing is mine, and I have been empowered by the many techniques offered by Universal Medicine to build my self-love”.
I’m very touched by your sharing SC. I know this very well, when I felt bad in my life, I went to different practitioners with the hope to fix me. And of course, no matter where I went, my inner misery wouldn’t become better. Only when I started to realise – thanks to Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon, that everything is inside me, I don’t have to look outside for anything. This revelation started my own healing.
Wow, what a powerful story, the world needs to hear this!
With this level of abuse you could be trapped in the hurt of it for all of your life but to hear the way you talk about it and the changes you have experienced and the perspective you now have is quite incredible. Thank you for sharing so honestly.
Yes this fixing approach has us believe we are sorting our problems out because we can latch on to them and they become the focus, ever expanding our personal story about our hurts, there can also be a feeling of getting on top of them, and of regaining control. This does not in truth heal anything for we are really just going around in circles. In this approach we do not stop to connect to the love that we are, the love that is there to support us to feel what is truly going on. Serge Benhayon went straight to the heart of the problem with you and that is what we can, with practice, do for ourselves also.
It is true Susan, any belief that has us thinking we are broken is a dangerous one because in its grip we will clutch at any straw rather than stop and discern truth. It is a dangerous practice to do any and everything to fix something in such a way that the essence is left unacknowledged.
I had the same Susan , I thought I had dealt with my issues, with other healing modalities, counselling etc, but it wasn’t until I met Universal Medicine did I actually started to connect to my hurts and feel them in my body that I was able to let them go.
Thank you SC for this blog and the insight of the way of true healing with Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine. At least healing with Love and rediscovering the love we are, instead of trying to fix – what has happened and what we have done – more from the mind. For my experience this (fixing-)approach (with different forms of therapies) just leads to have a certain kind of “control” over the hurts what furthermore magnifies the issue with control but not to really let go of something, to become who you truly are because the identification with what you are not is so grand. Thank you for this great change of perspective from your own experience.
SC thank you for this inspiring blog on an important topic. I totally subscribed to the therapeutic approach that “you are broken and need fixing”. I too first saw Serge Benhayon on the recommendation of a friend. I was always looking to healers to fix the general misery I felt in my life so when he asked me what I wanted I was at a loss for words. I was taking not an ounce of responsibility for the condition of my life and totally reliant on external measures to fix me. This has changed for me too and I now know that my healing is mine.
This is absolutely amazing what you share here and exposes so clearly the truth about lots of therapeutical treatments as being band aid solutions in a cycle of victimization and focusing on the abuse, the what is not instead of looking at what there is and making healing part of our responsibility. It is very inspiring to read how you have chosen to truly heal yourself with the support of the Esoteric Practitioners.
A fundamental principal of healing
“never think that we need fixing or that we are broken. Healing comes from knowing that we are all that we need to be from within. This inner knowing supports us back from the darkness into the light”
Wow this is powerfull and very inspiring to read SC. Esoteric Healing is an amazing modality supporting everyone to heal deep hurts that stop us being all of who we are. This line stood out for me as an absolute gem -‘ Therein lies the choice – to be a victim of my childhood, or to take responsibility and heal that inner child from a place of love.’
I love your comment Chan, I can feel how easy it is to be a victim of things that happen to us in life, but in truth there is nothing we cannot recover from, and we can use these instances to learn and deepen the love we have in our lives, rather than carry around a giant black cloud with us.
I agree, though it’s remarkable how long something can effect us for if we let it. I like what you say about taking responsibility and making different choices, this has got to be the key for really moving on.
This sharing also shows us that coming with an approach to ‘fix’ something that is ‘broken’ in fact heals nothing, and that it is coming from a connection to our fullness – the love that we truly are, which allows us to heal and release that which we are not (stored trauma, or imprints from experiences in our lives). Esoteric healing is truly divine and offers a powerful and consistent means to heal and bring love into our lives.
This is a great example of healing the energetic imprint of abuse our body and the subsequent behaviours and patterns it then creates – and how this cannot be achieved through mental activity and talking alone, in fact, the latter can set us back as we can convince ourselves that we ‘should be over it’, when in fact we are still carrying the trauma and shock in our body.
SC you bring a lot of clarity through in your writing. It makes sense that if we see ourselves as being amazing beings then the problems and issues that face us cannot overwhelm us. The model of I am an alcoholic, I will always be an alcoholic always seems very given up and oppressive to me. It is like holding ourselves captive in a cage saying we can never get out. When in fact there is an incredible being within all of us that we can let free if we take the powerful choice to do so and accept that the things that have made us miserable or imbalanced are not who we are. My biggest challenge I find is in accepting that I am not perfect but that my imperfections are part of my life and the mistakes I make don’t define me.
Thankyou for sharing SC. it was an amazing story to read. The way most people go about healing using the “you are broken and need fixing” way, I find too doesn’t help either. It makes so much more sense to have the start base of being amazing, because you are born amazing.
Beautiful to read SC and I agree Esoteric Healing is such a beautiful modality as it sees the person (me, you) for who they truly are first and that is always love, whatever has happened in life.
Allowing myself to feel from my body and not live from my head has been, and is, the life-changer. Something that is easily acknowledged but needs constant loving choices to live – and from that a life of love is possible, only our choosing of non love slows down this process.
SC this is such a powerful blog. It reveals the truth that to truly heal from such abuse (truly heal) one must be willing to begin to make self-loving choices and see that it is our choices and our way of living that heals us. As you so rightly state – the healing begins with you, what Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon offered you was a means to reconnect to the love that you already are. Thank you for sharing your amazing journey it; shows the power we all hold in healing ourselves.
Responsibility for our own healing gives back the power to the individual. What a great blog SC, Serge Benhayon’s presentations and sessions have been paramount in my healing of similar issues!
Dear SC you show us that great healing happens when we shed the victim’s role and take on the responsibility to be who we truly are. It is hard work but every time we leave behind another layer of this heavy cloak that hurts us we expand with love. Thank you for sharing your story.
Thanks SC for sharing your story. What a positive outcome to such sad events, thanks to your ability to take self responsibility for your healing! I especially found the part where you mention that your development hasn’t been through focusing on yourself as a broken victim, but rather through working on all the ways that you create barriers to not be your true, natural self. This is an important message for me to assist in reframing how I see my own issues.
Thank you SC for sharing this amazing journey that you have travelled and the bottom line through all that searching for truth we have arrived at truth thanks to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine who never wane from their commitment and purpose to deliver to all that are willing to listen and feel- the truth.
SC I loved reading your experience of your first session with Serge Benhayon ‘I replied that a friend had been the day before and she looked amazing and I knew I wanted some of that. He closed his eyes and said that the true reason I was there was that the scars of the sexual abuse were still locked in my body, and I felt trapped by the old patterns that were driving me.’ What an incredible start to your healing process to be met with such wisdom and love.
It is deeply beautiful to read your story and not feel it laced with the scars of your past but instead littered with an understanding that has supported you letting any hurt go, and a power from choosing the healing path of responsibility and claiming the love you are. Amazing.
It’s so easy to fall into that trap of feeling broken and needing someone else to fix you, under the guise of them telling you, you are doing the work. My experience with Esoteric Practitioners is that they simply don’t take on your responsibilities. They present their own livingness, which is essentially them living from their own inner heart and knowing and then it’s up to us whether we choose to be responsible for our choices. There is an immense commitment from the practitioner, but no attachment, so we are free from the shackles of any imposition or neediness. They act as a facilitator to our own healing, but they will never claim to be the one to heal us. No one can do that for us, we have to choose it for ourselves.
I tried many types of therapy’s to try to heal my childhood hurts for many years but nothing worked. It wasn’t until I started having sessions and attending the courses with Universal Medicine, that the true healing started, along with the deeply connecting to my body and myself, for that I am very grateful to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine.
Thanks for sharing your journey SC, its a great example of the healing potential when we go down the path of truth.
This is such a beautiful blog SC. Thank you so much for sharing your experience and clearly explaining the difference Esoteric Healing offers simply by coming from the absolute truth of who you are, love. With this as the foundation we can shift what seemed insurmountable issues and hurts and get on with living a joyful life.
A powerful sharing that confirms that true healing comes from connecting to the essence of ‘who we are’ and does not come from ‘what we are not’. Simple.
It is such a seemingly small change in perspective: seeing someone as whole and complete (with issues on top of that) vs seeing someone as broken…
It makes ALL the difference!
‘Esoteric Healing always sees me from the essence of love that I am – and the things that I do, or that have happened to me, are not who I truly am’ what a great simple example of what building our self love with choices…will take us back to who we truly are.
It is such a difference to realize that we are not the victims of life or a mess that needs to be fixed, but simply the most amazing beings that have just chosen to not see what they truly are.
What a beautiful sharing SC. It always touches me deeply reading or hearing how somebody has found truth and true healing, and to experiencing true love. Your story is so inspirational; it’s so worth taking responsibility for our own healing.
‘Esoteric Healing offered me the opportunity to be truthful as to the impact of patterns of behaviour and to see them, not as who I am, but as the things I do to NOT be all that I am, naturally.’ So true, SC! And isn’t it amazing all the layers we choose to take on in order to assist us in not being all that we are naturally. Thank goodness for Serge Benhayon, Universal Medicine and all the practitioners who are able to support us in removing the layers.
Thank you for sharing your healing journey SC. It is amazing when we connect to ourselves through the healing modality of Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon how everything can drop into place and the healing begin.
Serge Benhayon is a true gift of love to everyone in this world. The road l have travelled since attending the incredibly accessible courses and working with the esoteric practitioners, has been miraculous. Everyday the steps l take bring me closer to me. I realise that l am responsible for my choices and that it’s entirely up to me as to how much l will unfold and evolve. It’s all a choice that rests within my hands, every moment. I have not suffered such abuse in my life, however l can understand how Serge Benhayon enabled you to see that you too have a choice, even regarding the extremity of your own situation. That you/we are LOVE first and foremost, and that there is a way to return to that truth within us no matter what the circumstances. Thank god that I and the world have been blessed with this great man and that many will be able to transform their lives to a loving , gentle way of truth to live and share with all humanity.
Through Sacred Esoteric Healing I also came to know that; ‘Healing was mine’, along with a commitment to myself to heal my childhood hurts and emotions I had taken on, I can now feel more and more of my natural essence as a woman; my stillness.
Agree in full, esoteric healing is incredibly powerful as it sees us as already loving first , and then we simply let go of the things that are not of love. Yes it takes work, but we are so so worth it
I love your comment Felicity, ‘it takes work but we are so so worth it’
I love this unfolding and how you have shared what happened for you and how you came to heal it. I also love how even your understandable judgement of your mother’s response has been healed by this. Very very cool- I know many people who live held to ransom by what has happened to them in life. You are showing clearly what has helped and supported you.
It’s gold that you also distinguish exactly why some approaches didn’t support you to heal and actually made the situation worse.
There are so many that have been affected by sexual abuse as a child and it’s time a true way forward was offered to them.
Dear SC
Thank You for being so vulnerable and tender to share this with us. It is deeply empowering.
With love
Nadine
An amazingly profound blog, SC – it offers a way to rebuild our lives and an opportunity for the patterns of abuse to be lovingly healed. I have found that love offers a way of expansion, whereas digging into the past and beating ourselves up only causes hardness and resistance in our body and a deepening of the old pattern.
Gorgeous sharing SC. Esoteric Healing is fantastic as it focuses on who we are and not what we do. If we are to say we are an ex-alcoholic or abuse victim we are identifying with the behaviour that has happened and that gets more attention than the fact that we are great people first and foremost.
Well said Tony. True healing knows who we really are; and the issues don’t define who we are. No need to identify with those issues. They are only little specks on the amazingness we naturally are.
WOW, thank you for your amazing sharing! Enjoyed every word in it I can feel the depth and amazingness how it must have felt, when Serge said straight to you what he felt and what was actually true.
A very powerful blog SC. Esoteric healing sees the person from their natural loving essence and empowers them to build self love so as to heal themselves. A far more loving approach than focussing on negative behaviours that ‘need fixing’.
Thank you SC. I can only agree Sacred Esoteric Healing and all the courses that are presented by Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon offer us a true healing, in the way that we can really let go of past hurts and behaviours that we have taken on, so we are literally free from them as opposed to just handling our ills and ailments, be it physically or emotionally, and keeping them under control.
It feels so disempowering to have the constant attachment to have to see your practitioner to keep your life in order! Whereas there is none of this with true love, only inspiration to continually build more of who one truly is into one’s life.
I love the beauty in esoteric healing and counseling.The fact that we are not ‘broken’ but can sometimes do things that make us think there is something seriously wrong with us and therefore assume we must be ‘broken or a bad person’.What a relief I felt, when I finally understood that it was what I was choosing to do that was not such a great idea, but that I was choosing certain behaviours to block out how I felt. Might have been out of order for a little while but certainly not broken.
“Therein lies the choice – to be a victim of my childhood, or to take responsibility and heal that inner child from a place of love. (…) No longer is there a reliance on seeing a practitioner to fix me – my healing is mine.” That is such a beautiful truth based and expressed from you SC – thank you for letting every reader in, getting the chance to truly get a reflection back from your sharing. To me it was as well the moment when first seeing Serge Benhayon. I remember that I had a felling like a heavy weight falling off me and an indescribable warmth, uplifting feeling and expansion in my body. For lifetimes I had burdened myself with something I always wanted to address, for someone – to see me – to reflect to me truth – that I wasn’t wrong – that I was simply hiding my truth for others and part wise my comfort.
When entwined in the midst of despair its easy to see how we can fall for the view of being broken, that there is something or things wrong with us that need fixing. To step out of that toward Esoteric Healing that is offered through Universal Medicine, in taking responsibility for our own healing, the true steps to start to let go of our hurts begin, in connecting to the fact that always in essence we are love.
Michelle, I have felt that too, that ancient, far away feeling that something sacred and holy resides deep within me. Over the years I gave up on ever feeling this again, believing it was lost or buried too deep to ever be found again. But miracle of miracles I am starting to feel this stillness within once again. It feels as if it is moving towards me but I know it is me that left it and am now making my way back home to the most amazing thing anyone could ever have – their divine essence and connection with God.
Your testimonial is very precious to me, SC. It is so honouring of yourself, your feelings, in that way honouring all people who have suffered abuse, and also honouring Serge Benhayon, because you stand up and express what he does for us: loving us to bits!
The love and forgiveness and understanding you have for your mother is extraordinary. I know many others have also come to the same depth of love and forgiveness as you have through the Universal Medicine courses. For me, these are all miracles, the types of miracles that should be talked bout everywhere.
This is such a powerful blog I love your last line “my healing is mine, and I have been empowered by the many techniques offered by Universal Medicine to build my self-love.”
I found that I was so stuck in the mentality of going to someone to get fixed that It took a little while to truly understand that the healing was mine, now my tool kit is so full I can live with so much more responsibility and awareness asn as a consequence there is such joy and freedom and an opening up to world.
This is a very powerful and clear description of the approach by Esoteric Healing to healing that is different to all others, and through which true healing can occur as expressed by SC in her personal account presented here.
A deeply powerful blog. If we look at the connection that the mind has with the body and how our thoughts will affect our body, it just doesn’t make sense to have to replay scarring events over and over again. I have found with all of the various modalities I have tried in the past it wasn’t until the Esoteric Healing modalities that I have been able to truly work through deep seated issues and behaviours that I have held and to release these from my body.
I agree Donna, it wasn’t until I started esoteric healing that I was actually able to release deep trauma and issues from my body – and certainly there was much that I was holding in my body that needed clearing. It is absolutely without question the way forward for true healing to occur.
I can feel the Love in your writing and that you have come home to you and it is lovely to read and feel. I can also really relate with what you have said about how band aids are applied but nothing really changed or heals from counsellors I have seen. What you have said here is so true ‘Esoteric Healing always sees me from the essence of love that I am – and the things that I do, or that have happened to me, are not who I truly am’ and is so vital.
Awesome blog SC, and I can totally agree that only the Esoteric healing modalities have offered any true change to the unloving patterns and behaviours I have chosen to go into. Thank you for sharing and for reminding me today that we are not our hurts and always have that essence of love within us.
Serge Benhayon treats you as an equal, and that your behavior is not you. The things that have happened to you do not own you, nor do you shy away from them. I agree, “This true healing process is the polar opposite of psychotherapy” Thank you for sharing SC.
Such a great claiming SC
This is a wonderful account of taking responsibility in a situation that certainly was not easy and where forms of treatment had only entrenched a victim mentality. What is unique about the healing and learning that Universal Medicine offers, is that not only does it bring us to question whether there is a place to connect with, within us, from which we can take responsibility and heal. It also is presented by people who have taken those steps themselves, right to the core of their being and outward to the way that they live. Because of this, the talk is the walk and therefore is deeply compassionate and lovingly supportive.
A lovely sharing SC, it is only when you experience that first feeling in your body again at a practitioner session or Unimed course that it is undeniably the way forward.
Love this sentence “ Esoteric Healing offered me the opportunity to be truthful as to the impact of patterns of behaviour and to see them, not as who I am, but as the things I do to NOT be all that I am, naturally”
This was so empowering for me when through Esoteric Healing sessions I understood how I had been identifying with everything that had happened to me and in that I was the victim always looking for sympathy from others so I could feel better about myself. I have let go of a lot of that and with the loving support of practitioners my life has changed and am loving being me.
This was an awesome blog to read. Thank you for sharing. I too tried lots of counselling and also Anon, but the changes came only with the support of Esoteric Healing sessions.
franciscoclara8, I love your honesty in sharing how, as the victim, you were always looking for sympathy from others so you could feel better about yourself.
I have often identified and held onto being a victim, when really I am just the victim of my own choices.
This blog is so beautiful and powerful. Clearly stated that the esoteric sessions look at the essence of the love that you are first, so we are able to work through letting go of all that is not of that loving essence. You have had a remarkable journey, and you have obviously come so far that the relationship with your mother has also deepened and healed. Amazingly expressed, thank you for your sharing.
I am not sure we fully realise how remarkable this blog is – an account of dealing with abuse for good. Have we ever read this anywhere else?
I totally agree Christoph, most victims of abuse do not completely heal their hurts, burying would be a more apt term. Universal Medicine is unique in this area of healing and I know of many people who have had horrific lives but now live without an ounce of that abuse left in their bodies.
So true Christoph- I too experienced sexual abuse on 2 occasions when a young teenager. I had kept this a secret from my parents and friends.
This affected my relationship with males in my adolescence and adult life.
I also had lack of self worth and self loathing issues that I took on. I had a poor breast feeding history also- cracked, bleeding nipples and low milk supply.
It was only since having esoteric healing sessions, esoteric breast massage and esoteric counselling sessions that I was able to totally deal with the abuse for good.
I had previously tried reiki, QiGong, kinesiology, crystal healing, attended meditation classes with various gurus over 15 yrs, read self help books -all of which were bandaid remedies, burying the issue further, and keeping me more distant from my true essence.
I am deeply appreciative of Serge Benhayon for bringing esoteric modalities to humanity.
This is such an important story for everyone to hear. Understanding that intellectually processing abuse does not unlock the abuse held in the body is so important. So many of us waste many years and money doing this to no end, making us feel disempowered and dependent on the practitioner. Central to Esoteric Healing is the fact that you are always love at your centre and nothing that happens to you can ever touch this (how different is this from a lifetime curse of being an alcoholic!) This basic starting point is huge – it means that you don’t need to identify yourself with your behaviours or how bad you are.
Yes I agree it doesn’t unlock it just talking about it, it must be released in full from the body, that’s where we hold the abuse.
Yes, Fiona and SC an important story for everyone. Great to read the personal account on what didn’t change anything and what did. So many therapy forms we have in our world are focussed on what we are not and leave us powerless and a fore ever victim. The approach of Esoteric Healing has a different starting point and offers us true healing by letting us reconnect to who we truly are and supporting us to let go of old hurts and patterns.
Well said Monika – this focus on, what we are not, doesn’t make sense at all. As you say, so much time and money gets wasted. The starting point is crucial, we are love and nobody can touch our love, our essence.
I agree Alexander, if there is no love, no taking into account we are all equal sons of God and are divine in the foundation, we can’t heal anything.
What a revolutionary way to look at healing. That we are not inherently broken but simply choosing patterns of behaviour, based on our hurts and that these behaviours are not who we truly are but simply layers on top that have fooled us into thinking they are us. Connect to that inner place that is love and has always remained so constantly, and the layers fall away. Beautiful.
SC what an honest open sharing. Thank you. I love how you describe the difference between your psychotherapy – and especially your AA experience with its focus on you being ‘bad’ and your healing experience with Serge Benhayon and other practitioners where you take responsibility for your own life, choices and healing.
This is very beautiful and powerful. I feel your inner strength in “Therein lies the choice – to be a victim of my childhood, or to take responsibility and heal that inner child from a place of love” and “I would not know that truth if it weren’t for my commitment to healing myself”. What you have healed is simply amazing and Serge Benhayon and the modalities brought through by him are absolutely fantastic and so needed.
I love how you say: “my healing is mine!” It is so empowering to make that choice to heal and even though the inspiration and support by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine practitioners is very needed in the end the choice of healing is ours.
Wow SC! A truly inspiring account of your commitment to self healing and the power of true love. Thank you.
It is so moving to read of how at your first meeting with Serge Benhayon he was able to give you the key to unlock the hurt that was still trapped in your body and empower you to start on your healing journey and take responsibility for returning to the Love that you are, that never went away just got buried under layers of what was not you. Thank you so much for sharing SC.
A powerful sharing SC. You have exposed for me the subtle way the world can reinforce the illusion that keeps us from who we really are, by recounting your experience for eight years in sessions instead of connecting to the truth of ‘You’ which was ‘Love’. As illustrated, the body’s healing happens in just one ‘moment’ when met with pure love – it is so simple really to re-claim who you really are when meet with this love. As shared by you – ‘What was revealed to me in that hour was the power of true love’. Serge Benhayon met you fully with pure love and acceptance, seeing only your essence which deep down you knew was there.
The empowering concept, we are whole, love and complete. We can choose to not be the victim and we can heal. Great to have you explain this so clearly. Thank you SC.
Thank you for sharing your life’s experiences so honestly SC. I love how you expose that today many available modalities and treatments that are supposed to be healing have a “driving force” … that “you are broken and need fixing”. This way of thinking makes us feel forever damaged and even contaminated but could not be further than the truth. Universal Medicines healing modalities and presentations come from the exact opposite direction of this ‘you are broken force’, as it comes from absolute truth. The truth being that we are already whole and complete and simply need to discard the accumulation of our experiences, our patterns, our harmful ideals and beliefs, and our hurts. Discard all things that are not true and hold us back from living a life of joy and harmony. This true healing centres and steadies us so we can then express from an innate wisdom and truth that is universal. An innate wisdom and truth that we all have inside of us has a unique expression for each of us all but at the same time unites us all because of its quality and foundation of absolute integrity and love.
So wonderful to read your account of your journey from broken to whole again SC. after so many years. The amazing healing process you went through with the Help of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine and the Love and support you received is something that many of us can attest to receiving in our own lives. Congratulations on your dedication to your healing process.
Thank you SC, very honest, inspiring and beautiful blog of your journey to love. ‘Therein lies the choice – to be a victim of my childhood, or to take responsibility and heal that inner child from a place of love.’ Very true indeed, it is a choice to take responsibility and choose to heal what we know is holding us back.
Beautiful sharing, SC. My experience is that true healing occurs not just by accepting our hurts, but also, or even more so, by accepting, claiming and living what we truly are – which is never, ever touched by any hurts.
Very beautiful account of how it is all about healing ourself, and not only the things around us.
True healing from first accepting and expressing from our glory and recognizing the moments when we have left our glory in expression and why, is indeed very different from a myriad of healing techniques which focus on the who we are not. Coming from a place of acceptance that we are truly glory to start with seems much more simple and confirming and it actually works! Thank you for sharing your experiences SC, and how Serge Benhayon Universal Medicine have supported you in coming back to self-love, and that is truly healing.
This article shows so clearly that repeatedly inspecting what is, or was, wrong is like picking at a festering wound and it never heals. When we connect to the love that we are within and allow that love to grow then the wounds are recognized as something outside of us and do not change the beauty within.
Beautiful SC, how you describe your way of healing the abuse you where living with for a great part of your life. It is so different to approach our issues from the grandness we are compared to highlighting the ‘bad’ in us. We are pure in essence and nothing less. All the outer behaviours can then be addressed from there and will be treated with the love that lives in us all equally.
Sarah, this is a beautiful blog to read about true healing and putting a stop to the victim role. I have worked with many people that become dependant on their Psychologist/counsellor and it becomes a vicious cycle of feeling ok for a while but then needing to return. Nothing seems to really change like you discovered. It was interesting to read how you felt mentally that you had dealt with the abuse but then your meeting with Serge Benhayon revealed that it was still trapped in your body. Clearing the body of the energy is part of true healing.
Such a beautiful sharing of how you ‘cognitively’ worked for years on your deep hurts and then coming to the esoteric work where the understanding came that you are not your hurts, but so much more….. and true healing comes from being in your love and healing from there…..that is so beautifully expressed and brings deeper understanding to what true healing is…thank you!
Very well put Karoline. Connecting with your own light and allowing it to shine it’s rays into those dark places to clear them…..
Your blog is very revealing lovely SC and I love this fact. It is important that the counseling industry gets to be seen for what did not work at all. You are a living testimonial who showed us that there is an other way.
Wow SC! This blog captures why the psychotherapeutic approach is a free ride on the hurt that grabs you to the point that your life just moves around it. Starting from the big picture the process of healing takes a complete different route. Your grandness is the departure point. Because of that, the hurt is not as big and it can be healed. And the healing process never ceases to refer to our innate grandness. In the other one, the reference point is the hurt governing you. How are you going to go out of the hole you are trapped in?
Wow, such a open and straight forward sharing that blows away all illusion around therapy and puts us right at the forefront of healing, being our own practitioner. Very empowering!
This is making the difference between conventional therapy or counselling and the esoteric healing methods so clear, thank you for writing it. I will send this blog on to some of my family members when they start to consider therapy again.
This is a powerful blog. It shows that even with the most abusive of circumstances when true understanding and compassion are present, deep healing is offered. I too have experienced this with Serge Benhayon and I too chose to allow the deep healing that was offered through feeling the compassion and understanding he offers in such a loving way. It has been life changing in so many ways. Thank you for sharing your story. I was deeply touched by it.
What an honest and open blog SC – thank you. I have found that Esoteric Healing and other modalities offered by Universal Medicine practitioners offer true healing by allowing my body to release the hurt, shock and trauma it has been holding for a long time, and I’ve then seen how patterns of behaviour that I had been playing out for a very long time no longer play out in my life.
SC, your account of your journey from abuse to self empowerment contains so many powerful messages for me. I am particularly struck by the message that none of us are broken and we don’t need fixing: the key to healing our hurts is self responsibility and self acceptance. I have also found Serge Benhayon, Universal Medicine Courses, and Esoteric Practitioners have all provided invaluable support to me as I am deepening my relationship with myself. In appreciation, thank you!
Wow what a powerful and empowering post SC, it is incredible that in just one meeting with Serge Benhayon you were able to change your life completely and as you say here, ….”No longer is there a reliance on seeing a practitioner to fix me – my healing is mine”. Your story relating to abuse is testament to the fact that when we start to take responsibility we have the possibility to turn our life around and walk in a body that’s free from past affliction, and one of spacious love.
Dear SC, this is really beautiful, you have captured the essence of esoteric healing so well. I could feel so clearly the love that you are. Like yourself I have found true and lasting healing with Serge Benhayon, and the Universal Medicine workshops and modalities. Previous to finding this, there was a struggle of seeking help to change yet the same things re-emerging again later on, or something missing because everything was so problem focused. The modalities I previously used seemed to bring either a solution in some sense but also then a whole other problem because there was something wrong with the modality itself, so it would end up adding some new difficulty. Universal Medicine modalities really stand out because of the approach that we are all essentially love, powerful and equal. As you say, from this base we are our own practitioners, and dependency is definitely not part of this.
It is vey clear that psychological healing requires a reconnection and acceptance of what we feel within. We cannot pull apart the brain into puzzles pieces and open metaphoric boxes of pain to see what is within if we do not have a foundation of love to support us. I found this when I first listened to Serge Benhayon’s presentation. Let go of the hurts and build the love, beautiful.
So beautifully said. I agree with Marcia, that it is a real testament to the power of healing Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine offers. Strangely enough, I was thinking about Alcoholics Anonymous on the way home today and it’s model of healing. It is so true that it focuses on how people are broken. My name is xxx and I am an alcoholic” links the person to the behaviour.
This is gorgeous Rachel – “Live from knowing you are love before all else and you become your own practitioner.”
I agree Marcia, this comment Rachel is gorgeous. Thank you for sharing your empowering story SC. So true what you say about psychotherapy. Having been in it for many years, it wasn’t till I came to the esoteric that I became aware that there was a vital piece missing. After each therapy session I felt a sense of relief and kept going back as I was needy of the therapist to off load and understand myself but with the esoteric I am my own practitioner and am learning to come to that understanding on my own. Sometimes I need a helping hand but more now I can come to that place on my own. I also found that in therapy the root cause as to why a particular event or series of events happened to me was never really explored. What is key in the esoteric is looking at my part and responsibility in why I created what I did and in that the true healing can take place.
I love this blog, it is a powerful testament to the truth, love and support offered by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine.
Thank you for your beautiful sharing. It always brings a tear to my eye when I read a story about how long and hard one has searched, so much therapy undertaken and still no results… until they meet Serge Benhayon and are introduced to Esoteric Healing. How many hundreds of us are there now? A life turned around in a few moments of truth and love, and then a true journey back to self. Pure gold.
Thank you for sharing SC. I to used traditional mental health services in an attempt to address patterns that I continued to repeat and felt I had no control over but until Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon I made very little or no true change. Now I continue to make true change all the time and looking back and seeing how far I have come when many others are still struggling I am amazed.
That’s amazing, just one session with Serge has such a flow on effect. When I am in his presence I feel like he reminds me who I am and with that how glorious, loving and beautiful I really am, from there, it’s easy to make the more loving choices in my life. This would be similar for the many others who have met Serge Benhayon and benefitted greatly.
SC thank you for your candid and honest account of your healing journey. I could feel the hurt and sadness in your story but also power when you made the choice to reclaim yourself in truth, your strength and beauty is amazing.
Thank you for sharing this SC, the paradigm shift between the different approaches is apparent. How healing it is to remember the love that we eternally are first and foremost and then from there look back at the unloving behaviours and see them for what they are.
I really enjoyed reading what you shared SC, the shift in you could be felt as you had your first session with Serge Benhayon and you felt love and acceptance instantly. Powerful true healing.
I am struck by the depth of love and understanding Serge Benhayon held you in at your first healing session. To be able to meet another with such a personal reading that offered you exactly what you needed to initiate your own healing is beyond remarkable – it comes from a man that really loves people, is absolutely dedicated to healing and is pure of heart. I have had similar experiences and I know of others too, be it either in a healing session, conversation or email exchange with Serge that has been a healing absolutely tailored to their personal circumstances and many would testify it touched them like no other treatment or therapy has before.
Thanks SC for sharing that experience of your different avenues of healing. I have also experienced Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine practices to be far more sustaining than other ‘healing’, counselling or spiritual modalities. The responisbility is put back on you, which is ultimately where it should be. No one can fix you, especially when there is nothing to fix.
Thank you for sharing your experience SC, you are a living testament to the power of love, that which Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine stand for and live by.
Sarah what stands out in your open and honest sharing was your choice to not be the victim of your past and your commitment to true healing. Thank you – this is inspiring for us all.
This stood out for me too; and also that part of that healing process of not being a victim was acceptance, not blame.
Wow SC, thank you so much for sharing so honestly. It is incredible the changes that can be made when we are empowered and supported to take responsibility for our own healing – rather than being made to feel bad or wrong for past events and choices we have made. To be seen for the beauty that we are first and foremost is a true gift.
Like Monica has commented this blog very clearly shows how addressing an issue from the starting point of I am ‘broken’ then how can I ever see a possibility of ‘fixing’ myself while being broken?
When in that mindset, I often believe that I can’t change my situation and stay in the victim mode and expect others to fix me.
Starting from a place of “I can love myself because I am love – that is what heals”. It feels like a much stronger position, one that says that I can heal myself. What I have learnt from Universal Medicine is that they never save me or heal me, only present how they have healed themselves and that I can do so equally for myself.
Thank you for your honest sharing SC.
Great to share and claim your experience of true healing made possible by esoteric healing vs only bandaid treatment= psychotherapy
True healing starts from within, and when we feel and know that our true essence is pure love and cannot be touched no matter what has happened to us in our childhood- what liberation and blessing it truly brings. We can then start peeling off the layers of what we are not and allow ourselves to be all that we are once again.
Thank you for sharing your experience of abuse in your life. I like you spent many years and dollars investing in counseling, self-help workshops and groups. Despite this investment at 49, I had given up on life, miserable in my marriage, very overweight and physically unwell.
Today, I am fully committed to life, have a new job, back to the weight I was as a young woman, vital and free of the physical condition I had. This is all due to the healings I have received from the Universal Medicine modalities, practitioners and teachings. It was only through understanding that within me is a love that supports me to address anything in my choices that is not loving.
SC, you nail clearly why various therapy methods out there don’t truly work, they are mere sticking plasters or provide a series of coping mechanisms (useful yes), but they stop there, and don’t go deeper to look underneath. And all are based on the premise of “you’re broken, you need help, you need fixing” – it’s almost like the christian premise of everyone being sinners has pervaded our approach to therapy too. And the thing is it creates a dependancy culture, like we read of in New York, where people need therapists while their therapists take the summer off! How dis-empowering is that. But the idea that you are you, are truly ok within, and may have picked up some ways and behaviours which don’t support you is radically different – you’re not broken, you’ve just make some bad choices and you can choose differently (how freeing it that, we are in charge, and we are responsible).
Thank you SC – you express so beautifully. I love how you so skilfully and clearly explain the difference between psychotherapy and esoteric healing from your own experience. The proof is in the pudding so to speak because I too was only able to change my patterns of behaviour through esoteric healing. Cognitively understanding all I had been through did not change a thing (and was traumatic at times). True healing can take place when we are prepared to take responsibility and heal ourselves with the support of trusted practitioners.