Getting Honest about Alcohol

by Julie G., United States

For many years I had what I felt was a strange and challenging relationship with alcohol. I first started drinking as a teenager, when I went to parties at friends’ houses. The first time I drank, the rush was so new to me and felt so ‘freeing’, that I overdid it and got sick. I have been thin all my life, and it never really took much to overdo it, no matter what I drank. One would think that would help me put a stop to drinking ever again, but it didn’t. The feeling I had of being ‘comfortable in my own skin’, to open up and not be shy, seemed to be worth enough that I came back to alcohol again and again all through college and beyond. I had a lot of fun, and I also overdid it a lot and got physically sick and hung over a lot. 

As an adult, when I first got married, I kept drinking socially with my husband, mostly only on weekends, and mostly beer. I drank because I had convinced myself that I liked the taste of beer and it just seemed like the thing to do (i.e., if you go to a bar or a restaurant, you drink). I would watch others drink socially and seem to stay sober, but I would get buzzed so easily.

Eventually, I started to notice that when I drank, I didn’t feel like ME. It felt like some other energy was working through my body. I could feel the moment the alcohol was affecting me. It started as a tingling feeling in my legs and arms and everything around me seemed somehow brighter (i.e., lights, colors). Then there was a bit of numbing, sort of like things were softening, and I felt duller, less aware of what was going on. I started to feel like I was poisoning my body and imagined that I could feel the poison working through my veins. I didn’t stop drinking completely, but it became less and less and I would rarely finish a full glass at a meal. The more I would see the effects of alcohol on the people around me, the less I wanted any part of it.

Then, a few years ago I went to a friend’s birthday party in which we spent the night going to various clubs. Other people were buying me drinks and I ended up becoming very drunk… and very sick the next morning. I hadn’t been that sick since college and decided after that experience that I would never drink again. During this same time, my husband was reading one of Serge Benhayon’s purple books and would read excerpts to me. That was my first introduction to Universal Medicine. What he was reading to me felt so true – and surprisingly, so familiar.

About five months later and after reading the book myself, we attended Universal Medicine courses in the UK. I really felt like I had come home, like I was finding the truth, some of which I could feel I already knew, although at the time I didn’t know how I knew. One of the many things that we talked about in the courses was eating and alcohol. It was a confirmation for me to be presented with the possibility that drinking alcohol truly does prevent me from feeling the true ME, and that there was something I was seeking every time I drank – both self-acceptance and the approval of others. Although I had already stopped drinking by this time, I felt that it may not have taken much convincing to have a glass of wine at a celebration or work event on occasion. Learning the truth about what happens in the body when alcohol is ingested was all I needed to make the commitment to never drink again, and now there is no part of me that would choose to drink alcohol no matter what other people are doing around me.

The beautiful thing is that no-one told me not to drink. I was just presented with the impact alcohol has on the body and supported to reflect on why I needed it, and it was my choice to stop altogether. The only attention, reward or recognition I received from stopping was from me: from the relief and tenderness I felt for myself for making a choice out of a desire to care for me.

696 thoughts on “Getting Honest about Alcohol

  1. I had virtually stopped drinking alcohol by the time I came across Universal Medicine, I didn’t want to put up with feeling tired and ill after drinking, I was feeling anxious much of the time and alcohol didn’t help. When I attended a course and the truth of what happens when we drink alcohol was presented I felt I was given permission to stop when all of my peers drank.

  2. I found it interesting that when I no longer drank alcohol and I was out with friends or relatives they tried to get me to join them. Especially at Christmas or a special event they would want me to have a glass of wine, at least join in a toast and it took a few years for me, and then them, to realise that a toast can be made without alcohol, that it is the appreciation expressed that is the main point and it matters not what is in the glass we drink from. There is also a misconception that everything is less fun without alcohol but with the heightened awareness we have that grows with time when we do not drink alcohol we become clearer and make more connections on all levels which actually allows us, potentially, lots more fun. We actually really begin to enjoy ourselves.

  3. It is so true Julie how with alcohol and other substances like nicotine we override the bodies messages right from the start.

  4. Julie, your blog is a very valuable contribution in bringing awareness to the fact that alcohol is actually a poison to the body. This important fact is not widely known and I feel sure many would certainly reduce, if not eliminate alcohol from their lives if the truth about it was made public.

  5. Society is not ready to hear that alcohol is the cause of our many illnesses and that it completely alters our state of being. Until we really understand the truth of what happens to the body and be willing to feel how much harm it does to us, the need for alcohol will continue to rise, as people use alcohol to numb themselves from the truth of what is really happening in their lives.

  6. In exposing that drinking was to self-accept and seeking for the acceptance of others, it’s awesome to ask what other choices in life do we do this?

  7. This is a great line! “The only attention, reward or recognition I received from stopping was from me: from the relief and tenderness I felt for myself for making a choice out of a desire to care for me.” Alcohol is violent by nature. I was always aggressive even though I seemed a ‘happy drunk’ having a good time. It was very abusive to my body and once alcohol was in my system there was no stopping me… I can feel the same behaviours today. It is the world of difference to tenderly take care of yourself squashing any need of alcohol to disrupt the harmony.

  8. Being aware of what our body is communicating through our consumption of food is a great motivator in cutting out things that don’t support us. It seems much more sustaining this way rather than applying a blanket rule or using will power alone.

  9. You have hit the proverbial nail on the head here in your last paragraph when you talk about the fact that information was presented to you, and then you felt for yourself what was true for you (or not) and then in this case you decided to act on the information. That is one of the amazing things about Universal Medicine, there is no trying to get you to do anything, convince you of anything, etc…. Natalie and Serge Benhayon present a way of living and series of universal truths, and then it is up to each person to feel what that means for them, and then if they so choose, to integrate it into their own lives, in their own way and to the best of their ability.

  10. In my experience, once I experienced in detail exactly what alcohol was doing to me, the desire simply disappeared. It wasn’t worth the pain.

  11. Thank you Julie, when we make a decision based on truly caring for ourselves, and with understanding of why we chose certain things like drinking alcohol, we don’t have to continually use willpower, it’s more like love-power 🙂 which brings a lasting change. If feels so great to preciously love and care for ourselves that nothing can offer us more than our own love.

  12. I can remember when I didn’t want to look at why I was drinking alcohol and the thought of stopping wouldn’t even be something I thought was on the cards. But once I played around and tried not drinking for a bit I really got to feel what it was doing to the quality of how I felt and my body. I am now over 10 years not drinking and it is the best thing that I have ever done for myself.

  13. It’s very interesting how so many of us have stories of our first drink that would tell us that our body did not like it, yet we find that sense of non inhibition so attractive that we train ourselves to drink ‘like everyone else’. Behaving in the way we would not dream of if we were sober is a classic. So, it’s quite obvious we are not being ourselves when drunk, and life often gets blamed for us wanting to not be our usual selves. It makes so much sense, alcohol would leave us when we start taking responsibility for our own life, rather than when we tell ourselves we should not be drinking.

  14. I stopped drinking when I had a glass of wine in my hand and I could feel what would happen over the next 12 hours with me and I didn’t feel that it was worth it and I just let alcohol go.

  15. Thank you for helping us understanding more about our behavior around alcohol and what it truly does and the effect it has on our body and physiological well-being. For those who drink alcohol, or have been, or never have, this science applies. For it takes only honesty with ourselves and our behaviors to understand and see what the real effect of alcohol on your whole body and being is.

  16. Its not until we really start caring for ourselves that we can feel the harm that alcohol is doing to us. With increasing awareness it becomes obvious that drinking alcohol is actually a form of self abuse.

  17. I had to get to the point where alcohol scared me. I would have huge blanks of what happened and it was terrifying. Not until I felt that in my body did I have a marker to say ‘hey this is not OK’ – it had to be felt by me, And now I don’t even consider it.

  18. I had very similar experiences and feelings when I drank alcohol as well. As I was reading I was feeling how this was also similar for me when I drank coffee. I could feel the moment when the caffeine kicked in and basically took me out of my body, I quite literally experienced a high. What’s different now is that how I feel is worth way more that the temporary high of alcohol, coffee or whatever or medication of choice is. But in everything it comes back to how we are with ourselves and what we are willing to see and feel in each moment.

  19. Your relationship with alcohol closely mirrors my own. I was always aware that alcohol changed me but up until my 30s I had felt this was a good thing as my level of self love was very low. When I began to value myself and recognise my sensitivity and sweetness it felt horrible to squash it with alcohol. This made it very easy to stop consuming it and to stop it from consuming me.

  20. I had a similar experience Julie, when hearing the whole truth presented about why we drink alcohol, what happens when we do, and the true impact it has on the body, it felt a natural choice and very freeing and empowering to decide not to drink it anymore and to start caring about what I was choosing for myself.

  21. What I felt while reading this and reflecting on when I used to drink alcohol, was that even before I started to drink I didn’t feel like me. I felt or rather knew I was not connecting to the real me and instead being a certain way to fit in. ‘Eventually, I started to notice that when I drank, I didn’t feel like ME.’ However, through knowing Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine I am feeling more of the true me moment by moment .. no alcohol needed.

  22. Drinking alcohol is a form of self-abuse though many are not yet ready to accept this fact. The evidence is clear and fully available for those open to seeing it.

    1. I read that alcohol is now linked by scientific evidence to 7 different cancers – for something considered so normal it’s a very dangerous substance to ingest.

  23. Although I had already been reading Serge Benhayon’s books and felt the deep familiarity and knowingness of what he presented about ‘The Way it Is’. It was my partner Julie G. who truly inspired me to stop drinking alcohol through her own determination to not allow the poison that alcohol is to her body, and knowing how much it was also a devastating poison to our relationship. There is no amount of alcohol that can numb our hurts enough to make them go away. Only an honest openness and surrender to our true inner self and commitment to heal with self-love can do that. It is a wonderful thing to know that I will never go to alcohol or drugs again in this life, or any one thereafter thanks to my wife and Serge Benhayon. This comment was written with permission from my partner Julie Goodhart.

    1. Thank you Michael, we often see an expression of love in a relationship being a gift, flowers or saying the words “I love you”, but what a gift you gave Julie by sharing Serge’s book and what a gift Julie gave to you by increasing her love for herself to let go of alcohol. Julie’s self love was able to inspire that same love in you. It’s beautiful how love works.

  24. I can relate to this story as my relationship with alcohol was much the same, as was my decision to give it away. One of the many things I have been inspired to explore through the presentations of Universal Medicine is my relationship with my body. It is very beautiful to feel and be guided by the truth our bodies, and furthermore to trust the messages that it sends us, as ultimately this relationship is what supports us to live the vitality of who we really are.

  25. Having the truth of something explained as an objective reality, such as alcohol is a poison, can greatly help one to choose and live that truth when so much of society appears to communicate and/or condone an un-Truth.

  26. “The only attention, reward or recognition I received from stopping [alcohol] was from me: from the relief and tenderness I felt for myself for making a choice out of a desire to care for me.” The greatest recognition there is, is the appreciation of oneself.

  27. Alcohol is devastating to our being, one of the greatest poisons we can allow into ourselves. It is not the physical drink of alcohol as such, but the energetic ramifications that occur from drinking it, that we are deliberately choosing to be ignorant about as a society, much to our collective demise.

  28. When we feel our bodies and the truth of who we are, we begin to see old behaviours and habits melt away. It is in the movements and how we live each day that we can build more love and live in a way that not only supports us but holds us to deepen our relationship with self even more.

  29. I agree that although I was never told what to do in regard to drinking, I was informed in great detail of the impact both physically and energetically, that alcohol has on the body and from that point onward, I knew that no matter the circumstance, I would never drink. Although I did push the envelope a couple of times and managed to feel the truth of what Serge was presenting. I don’t actually enjoy the feeling of being out of control, I want to be me, not trade myself over for any old lost spirit to jump inside and have a ride.

  30. That’s interesting that you found your first sip of alcohol freeing, I remember my first taste and feeling myself go fuzzy and knowing something was very wrong. I also remember my last sip and knowing I’d never drink again, truthfully it scared me the feeling of immediately loosing control and it scared me how different my friends were and knowing that probably happened to me too.

  31. I will never drink alcohol again, just like I did get very sick and had terrible hangovers but I repeated this ill pattern time after time, I did not love myself enough to say stop this is enough. Reading the books of Serge Benhayon, doing the Gentle Breath Meditation and eventually meeting Serge Benhayon and attending courses of Universal Medicine has changed my life and made me aware of ‘why would I not want to be here, why would I poison my body, why would I join?. Starting to love myself more and feeling who I truly am was the end of drinking alcohol and other unhealthy patterns and at the same time the beginning of loving myself, loving life, loving people.

  32. Alcohol reflects that the way we live is not working…for if we felt amazing the last thing we would want would be to alter or numb that.

  33. “The beautiful thing is that no-one told me not to drink” – me neither Maree, i can’t even remember the time when i took my last alcoholic drink… because it wasn’t a focused mantra as in “today i’m stopping drinking” [like i used to do during Lent and stop eating chocolate for example], .. it happened completely naturally one day as if i lost any taste for it; that to have any alcohol even in food would be something surreal or bizarre. To drink wouldn’t even feature in my mind or thoughts (and this is when i used to binge drink Friday nights to celebrate the end of the working week). What I do know is that this change happened after I attended a Universal Medicine level 2 course where we spoke about energetic integrity in healing and this responsibility in relation to what comes through our own body towards another’s body.. and maybe on a deep cellular level my body called me back into remembrance of this healing truth, and how come no longer drinking alcohol was never a big deal, or any effort. The body is amazing its knowing.

  34. I stopped drinking for the same reasons and in the same way. I noticed I didn’t feel like me when I drank, even from the first mouthful. I would feel the intense tingling, buzzing and other-worldliness that felt like a warning to stop.

  35. It is fascinating the way we can so easily enjoin others in their indulgences and ill behaviours in order to feel accepted and that we belong, this is such an illusion as it destroys and poisons our bodies and the only way that we will feel complete is when we embrace and care for our bodies with the love that we deserve.

    1. Yes we have fallen for such a compromised version of oneness which today is to enjoin others in misery really…not the true oneness we are from at all which is joyful, magnificent and heavenly.

  36. All of what you share Julie is similar to my own experience of drinking alcohol… and if back then I was to know what I know today having ceased drinking because of the effects, then I would never have started in the first place.. the trouble is, is that when I first started drinking I already knew it was awful, my body told me, but I was not strong in myself to withstand the social/peer pressure. The more you know yourself, who you truly are and are supported in this by those around you.. the less damage you end up doing to yourself.

  37. I recognise so much of my own experience in what you share here Julie, I ‘taught’ myself to drink so I could fit in with my friends, but I really never handled it very well and I hated how I felt the next day, but I kept with it for a number of years because that’s what my friends and social circle did. To be clear, no one forced me to drink, but I decided the only way I could be with people was to drink with them … when I came to my early thirties, I naturally began to drink less and eventually one evening some friends bought me a drink and suddenly a light bulb went off and the thought was there, ‘but you don’t like this’, and I remembered how I’d trained myself to do it, to overcome the taste (lots of mixers) and in that moment I just stopped and I’ve never drunk since. And yes at times it’s been awkward socially, but the more I was clear about how I felt in me the easier it became. The understanding I got when I came across Universal Medicine brought another layer to it, for me to see how in fact you don’t feel yourself when you drink (something I’d always felt) and it was great to have this confirmed and to know how this works energetically, that you’re not you when you drink alcohol, that you’ve opened a door wide for other energies to enter you, so you are no longer yourself … this was the missing piece in my understanding.

  38. Our bodies are vessels for the divine so it makes no sense that we choose to ingest anything that will poison the essence of what we are made of, and it is only until we realise this fact that we can stop the self-abuse and start to honour and care for our bodies the way that we truly deserve.

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