Getting Honest about Alcohol

by Julie G., United States

For many years I had what I felt was a strange and challenging relationship with alcohol. I first started drinking as a teenager, when I went to parties at friends’ houses. The first time I drank, the rush was so new to me and felt so ‘freeing’, that I overdid it and got sick. I have been thin all my life, and it never really took much to overdo it, no matter what I drank. One would think that would help me put a stop to drinking ever again, but it didn’t. The feeling I had of being ‘comfortable in my own skin’, to open up and not be shy, seemed to be worth enough that I came back to alcohol again and again all through college and beyond. I had a lot of fun, and I also overdid it a lot and got physically sick and hung over a lot. 

As an adult, when I first got married, I kept drinking socially with my husband, mostly only on weekends, and mostly beer. I drank because I had convinced myself that I liked the taste of beer and it just seemed like the thing to do (i.e., if you go to a bar or a restaurant, you drink). I would watch others drink socially and seem to stay sober, but I would get buzzed so easily.

Eventually, I started to notice that when I drank, I didn’t feel like ME. It felt like some other energy was working through my body. I could feel the moment the alcohol was affecting me. It started as a tingling feeling in my legs and arms and everything around me seemed somehow brighter (i.e., lights, colors). Then there was a bit of numbing, sort of like things were softening, and I felt duller, less aware of what was going on. I started to feel like I was poisoning my body and imagined that I could feel the poison working through my veins. I didn’t stop drinking completely, but it became less and less and I would rarely finish a full glass at a meal. The more I would see the effects of alcohol on the people around me, the less I wanted any part of it.

Then, a few years ago I went to a friend’s birthday party in which we spent the night going to various clubs. Other people were buying me drinks and I ended up becoming very drunk… and very sick the next morning. I hadn’t been that sick since college and decided after that experience that I would never drink again. During this same time, my husband was reading one of Serge Benhayon’s purple books and would read excerpts to me. That was my first introduction to Universal Medicine. What he was reading to me felt so true – and surprisingly, so familiar.

About five months later and after reading the book myself, we attended Universal Medicine courses in the UK. I really felt like I had come home, like I was finding the truth, some of which I could feel I already knew, although at the time I didn’t know how I knew. One of the many things that we talked about in the courses was eating and alcohol. It was a confirmation for me to be presented with the possibility that drinking alcohol truly does prevent me from feeling the true ME, and that there was something I was seeking every time I drank – both self-acceptance and the approval of others. Although I had already stopped drinking by this time, I felt that it may not have taken much convincing to have a glass of wine at a celebration or work event on occasion. Learning the truth about what happens in the body when alcohol is ingested was all I needed to make the commitment to never drink again, and now there is no part of me that would choose to drink alcohol no matter what other people are doing around me.

The beautiful thing is that no-one told me not to drink. I was just presented with the impact alcohol has on the body and supported to reflect on why I needed it, and it was my choice to stop altogether. The only attention, reward or recognition I received from stopping was from me: from the relief and tenderness I felt for myself for making a choice out of a desire to care for me.

718 thoughts on “Getting Honest about Alcohol

  1. Great title, ‘getting honest about alcohol’ is something very few people want to do, because if they did they would begin to feel how it really is a poison to the body and affects us much more than we are willing to admit.

  2. No one told me to stop drinking either but, in the end, it was my body that spoke loudly. Not that I drank much but when I did I really didn’t enjoy it that much and also got myself into some uncomfortable situations at times. Crazy really when I considered myself a fairly intelligent person, but that intelligence didn’t count for much once the alcohol kicked in and I began to lose the real me.

  3. If we had more insight into the effects of alcohol not just on our physical health, but the impact on our relationships and the correlation it has with the instance of domestic violence and other crimes. I doubt we would want to support the use of it on any level. Yet, we are raised in communities that see it as a right of passage, something to embrace once you turn 18. It is our coping mechanism, to take the edge off life.

  4. If we had more insight into the effects of alcohol, not just on our physical health, but the impact on our relationships and the correlation it has with the instance of domestic violence and other crimes. I doubt we would want to support the use of it on any level. Yet, we are raised in communities that see it as a right of passage, something to embrace once you turn 18. It is our coping mechanism, to take the edge off life.

  5. Because alcohol is so normalised in society it is convenient to consider it to be okay but there is nothing okay about the harm that it does both to the individual and to society.

  6. As with everything, we can not truly assess the impact our behaviours have on our body until we free ourselves from them first.

  7. I know for me and most of my friends the 1st sips of alcohol were disgusting but to fit in I hardened up and made myself like it. It is very similar to things which I do in life which I know do not support me. At first I feel the effects then I harden up and push through and override that initial dis-taste and numb myself to it so much so that I can at times say I enjoy it. It is fascinating how I can apply it to so many areas of life.

  8. Great to get honest and real and open about what is truly going on and what we are actually choosing for ourselves. It can be raw but in that rawness we are empowered to make true change.

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