Getting Honest about Alcohol

by Julie G., United States

For many years I had what I felt was a strange and challenging relationship with alcohol. I first started drinking as a teenager, when I went to parties at friends’ houses. The first time I drank, the rush was so new to me and felt so ‘freeing’, that I overdid it and got sick. I have been thin all my life, and it never really took much to overdo it, no matter what I drank. One would think that would help me put a stop to drinking ever again, but it didn’t. The feeling I had of being ‘comfortable in my own skin’, to open up and not be shy, seemed to be worth enough that I came back to alcohol again and again all through college and beyond. I had a lot of fun, and I also overdid it a lot and got physically sick and hung over a lot. 

As an adult, when I first got married, I kept drinking socially with my husband, mostly only on weekends, and mostly beer. I drank because I had convinced myself that I liked the taste of beer and it just seemed like the thing to do (i.e., if you go to a bar or a restaurant, you drink). I would watch others drink socially and seem to stay sober, but I would get buzzed so easily.

Eventually, I started to notice that when I drank, I didn’t feel like ME. It felt like some other energy was working through my body. I could feel the moment the alcohol was affecting me. It started as a tingling feeling in my legs and arms and everything around me seemed somehow brighter (i.e., lights, colors). Then there was a bit of numbing, sort of like things were softening, and I felt duller, less aware of what was going on. I started to feel like I was poisoning my body and imagined that I could feel the poison working through my veins. I didn’t stop drinking completely, but it became less and less and I would rarely finish a full glass at a meal. The more I would see the effects of alcohol on the people around me, the less I wanted any part of it.

Then, a few years ago I went to a friend’s birthday party in which we spent the night going to various clubs. Other people were buying me drinks and I ended up becoming very drunk… and very sick the next morning. I hadn’t been that sick since college and decided after that experience that I would never drink again. During this same time, my husband was reading one of Serge Benhayon’s purple books and would read excerpts to me. That was my first introduction to Universal Medicine. What he was reading to me felt so true – and surprisingly, so familiar.

About five months later and after reading the book myself, we attended Universal Medicine courses in the UK. I really felt like I had come home, like I was finding the truth, some of which I could feel I already knew, although at the time I didn’t know how I knew. One of the many things that we talked about in the courses was eating and alcohol. It was a confirmation for me to be presented with the possibility that drinking alcohol truly does prevent me from feeling the true ME, and that there was something I was seeking every time I drank – both self-acceptance and the approval of others. Although I had already stopped drinking by this time, I felt that it may not have taken much convincing to have a glass of wine at a celebration or work event on occasion. Learning the truth about what happens in the body when alcohol is ingested was all I needed to make the commitment to never drink again, and now there is no part of me that would choose to drink alcohol no matter what other people are doing around me.

The beautiful thing is that no-one told me not to drink. I was just presented with the impact alcohol has on the body and supported to reflect on why I needed it, and it was my choice to stop altogether. The only attention, reward or recognition I received from stopping was from me: from the relief and tenderness I felt for myself for making a choice out of a desire to care for me.

736 thoughts on “Getting Honest about Alcohol

  1. It’s great how you listened to your body and what you felt and experienced with alcohol rather than staying with it because it seemed like ‘the thing to do’.

  2. As a society, we really do need to get honest about alcohol. We only need to look at the ill effects it has on our health as well as our behaviour to know that it is not good for us.

  3. I used to hate waking up and not fully remembering what happened the night before, even on a night of only a few drinks I would wake up knowing that it wasn’t me, and it didn’t feel great to honouring of myself at all.

  4. ‘I started to notice that when I drank, I didn’t feel like ME.’ What a great realisation to start with, anything that takes us away from that sense of our essence – why do we choose that? It’s similar with sugar, drugs, TV, food that makes us fall asleep etc etc Choosing to live in a way where we can still feel that essence we are – that’s the way to go.

  5. When I reflect back on my drinking days I can appreciate the irony that it never entered my head that I didn’t have to drink alcohol despite all the hangovers that I experienced.

  6. I know when I was in the thick of it, loving alcohol and all that it gave me the taste sensations, the bliss, the blurry happy check moments, the fact that it didn’t agree and my body was saying no its a poison still didn’t stop me from saying no. I wasn’t until I attended the healing modalities of Universal Medicine, did I start to realise the levels of hurts that I had buried deeply within that I was trying to numb out. It made complete sense why I continued what I knew wasn’t working. So dealing with the hurts, healing them and letting them go got me to a place where I simply didn’t want to abuse myself any longer. Now over 10 years not drinking I feel a million dollars and look 10 years younger!

  7. If alcohol is an ‘acquired taste’ in the sense that very few people like it first try, then what exactly are we acquiring a taste for? No child would like any alcoholic beverage on first sip and therefore would not take another sip. Yet we as adults do. Does this mean that the young child is accessing a far greater intelligence that the adult in this instance has abandoned?

  8. When we begin to reconnect to the quality of our essence, the love we are within it becomes very clear how abusive if feels to poison our body with alcohol and reject the divinity of our being.

  9. We all feel and register the effects that alcohol has on our bodies- question is, why we are ignoring them? There must be a another reason why we drink! As so called intelligent human beings, why would you otherwise do something, that causes you pain in the body after consuming? What kind of “fun” are you looking for, when you are actually abusing your body with it?

  10. Quitting behaviours that are unhealthy and destructive work only by your own choice and through a reflection from another who has not the same issue and does not have any investment or reaction that you are
    changing whatsoever. That is the simple science of inspiration.

  11. “Getting Honest about Alcohol” – when we get honest about alcohol being a poison, we also get honest about all the other types of poison there is in the world as well.

    1. Well said Zofia – there are many forms of poison that we allow to enter our bodies. The more we are open to the truth of what our bodies are reflecting to us, the more we can be honest about what we are choosing, why and where our choices are coming from.

  12. It is only ourselves that can stop drinking alcohol. We have to make that choice to get honest and heal the relationship that we have with alcohol – why we need it in our lives as no-body else can do this for us.

  13. Alcohol is such a trap yet it is not actually the alcohol, it is the way we are brought up and what we are lead to believe is the way we have to live our lives, even when we know its not true, and clocked it at the first sip of alcohol how disgusting it was. But at the end of the day we are the ones that choose it and until such time you realise it’s not how you want to live your life, and it is more destructive and harmful than you realised, that you consider there is another way, that you can actually say no to it.

  14. The day I stopped using alcohol was the day I woke up, feeling the effects of the alcohol in my body after only one glass of wine the night before and decided that that feeling was not worth it. When we become more aware of our delicate and sensitive bodies we will find that even the smallest amount of alcohol has a negative effect on or bodies and thus on how we feel.

  15. I have always been puzzled by our general relationship with alcohol. We (ab)use it and feel bad the next day and as we wake up many will have uttered the words ‘never again’, only to be drinking too much very soon if not the same day! I remember this myself as a teenager and in my early twenties. It shows that it is not all that pleasurable as we would like to make ourselves believe, and that it is time to get more honest about what other reasons we may have, whether in our conscious or subconscious, for choosing a consumption that simply is very unhealthy for us.

  16. If it was only alcohol we were lying about that would be manageable yet the fact is we have woven deceit into everything. It’s time we went cold turkey with our internal corruption and let the truth out of the bottle.

  17. Great title, ‘getting honest about alcohol’ is something very few people want to do, because if they did they would begin to feel how it really is a poison to the body and affects us much more than we are willing to admit.

  18. No one told me to stop drinking either but, in the end, it was my body that spoke loudly. Not that I drank much but when I did I really didn’t enjoy it that much and also got myself into some uncomfortable situations at times. Crazy really when I considered myself a fairly intelligent person, but that intelligence didn’t count for much once the alcohol kicked in and I began to lose the real me.

    1. This is the thing, people who drink don´t want to be themselves in that moment. It is the best medication to escape the ME. Taking the edge out of life. The moment I honestly wanted to work on my issues I did not need to drink anymore. I never missed it since then, as what I gained through reconnecting to me is much more worth, than these short moments, where you felt enlightened by alcohol.

  19. If we had more insight into the effects of alcohol not just on our physical health, but the impact on our relationships and the correlation it has with the instance of domestic violence and other crimes. I doubt we would want to support the use of it on any level. Yet, we are raised in communities that see it as a right of passage, something to embrace once you turn 18. It is our coping mechanism, to take the edge off life.

  20. If we had more insight into the effects of alcohol, not just on our physical health, but the impact on our relationships and the correlation it has with the instance of domestic violence and other crimes. I doubt we would want to support the use of it on any level. Yet, we are raised in communities that see it as a right of passage, something to embrace once you turn 18. It is our coping mechanism, to take the edge off life.

  21. Because alcohol is so normalised in society it is convenient to consider it to be okay but there is nothing okay about the harm that it does both to the individual and to society.

  22. As with everything, we can not truly assess the impact our behaviours have on our body until we free ourselves from them first.

  23. I know for me and most of my friends the 1st sips of alcohol were disgusting but to fit in I hardened up and made myself like it. It is very similar to things which I do in life which I know do not support me. At first I feel the effects then I harden up and push through and override that initial dis-taste and numb myself to it so much so that I can at times say I enjoy it. It is fascinating how I can apply it to so many areas of life.

  24. Great to get honest and real and open about what is truly going on and what we are actually choosing for ourselves. It can be raw but in that rawness we are empowered to make true change.

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