I have learned in my recent journeys, despite 25 years of spiritual searching, that the true book of wisdom I sought was in fact inside me all along. Back then I had no awareness that there were indeed two different energies that I could choose to align with – one being truly Divine (the soul consciousness) and the other from the Astral plane (the spiritual consciousness), so from my chosen ignorance I played and cavorted heartily with that energy that took me even further away from my Soul.
It was about twenty five years ago when I was feeling very sad and hollow inside – and unbeknownst to me without true connection to myself, the true me – that I soon allowed an energy in to fill the empty space within me.
Back then I had wrung my hands in despair, feeling bereft of anything truly meaningful. I was living in a magnificent home in the country, had an amazing family and all I could possibly want on a physical level, yet there was such an emptiness and sadness I could not explain. The feeling was of worthlessness – what was the point of my existence? “There has to be something else!!” I cried to the heavens.
It started innocuously with a series of coincidences. I was suddenly aware of ‘other things’: hearing a clairvoyant on the radio, fascinating interviews on the television with people who ‘spoke’ to aliens and dead people, those who were able to ‘see’ personal details and medical conditions and those who had conversations with God.
These all caused an emotional reaction in me – “I can do that” I thought. At that time I found it to be exciting, thrilling, and invited in me an emotive response that there actually was ‘something else’ out there. Little did I know I was embarking on a spiritual journey that was going to take me even further away from the true me — my soul.
I met many folk who like me, didn’t realise that there were two different energies to choose from: the spirit which is the separated aspect of the soul, or the soul which is our true connection to God – and so came from ignorance or emptiness too. I was attending ‘lightworkers’ conferences, learning many spiritual new-age modalities, became what they call a reiki master, dabbled in most of what was on offer from the spiritual consciousness, and was sought after on a small scale to lead in guided meditations, speaking to dead relatives for bereaved folk, channelling the ‘masters’ at an across the country destination with the air-fare paid for by others, and even produced a book that I laboured over – a book of ‘loving words’, or so it seemed at the time. It was all so stimulating – I was being drawn in seductively and was hooked.
There was always another modality to try – “maybe this one has the real truth,” I thought. Even though all these modalities entranced me and excited me I had a deeper knowing that there was still ‘something else’ that I was missing. Somehow I knew I still hadn’t found that piece of the puzzle that had thus far eluded me, but at that time the illusion had me in its grip.
It’s interesting to note that I was constantly working with my mind – not ‘feeling’ from within or listening to my true antenna, my body.
As time passed there was a new/different healer in town – “you must meet this guy – he’s really cool” my fellow new-age followers would say. Interestingly, my human spirit was resistant – “Why do I need to meet this guy? After all I’ve just channelled and produced a book of loving words.”
For several weeks the resistance was strong, questioning why I ought to go and listen to him. The belief in ‘signs’ was important in the spiritual new age movement, so when a white van passed me at a round-a-bout with the one word written in huge letters diagonally up the side of the van ‘S E R G E’, it seemed this was a sign so I made an appointment to introduce myself to Serge Benhayon.
That was when my life began to turn around; slowly at first because of how far away from true love and my heart centre I had travelled in the previous 8-9 years. Something happened that day. I wasn’t sure what it was.
I made a decision to seek within a little more honestly.
I was in a mild state of bewilderment… for the first time in so long I felt something that I had not felt maybe ever before in this lifetime, and that was that I was ‘met’.
At that point I had the awareness that indeed I had been dabbling in the darker energies – not of true Light or Love at all. What was I to do – how many people had I harmed along the way?
Instead of just going “Whoops!!! I was mistaken,” I descended into remorse and regret, afraid and ashamed to face anyone. My trust in myself dissolved, my trust in all that I thought I knew collapsed – I reacted and hid for quite some time seeing only the shame of having been so gullible, so open to deceit, with the fear of being deceived again still raw.
Why do we tend to look outside of ourselves when we believe we are in such a place of desolation? Why do we believe that someone/something out there knows more than each one of us knows intrinsically deep inside? Why do we not choose to look within to where all is known in every cell of our body?
However, the sun did shine again and the trust has returned now as I write these words. Through listening to my body and the innate love that lies within, I can acknowledge that I was inspired by the love that Serge Benhayon has for all humanity, and by Universal Medicine as being the vehicle or means by which this True Love is now made manifest.
How could I have believed through all my spiritual searching that at any level I was being en-light-ened when the body grew heavier and heavier, leaving me 20 kilos overweight? It is indeed revealing when we return to our true book of loving words and the wisdom within, that book being our body; after all, it is the marker of truth for each one of us.
By Roberta, Gold Coast, Australia
The Truth about Universal Medicine 
We are not taught the basic fundamentals of life and this statement is the foundation to set all the others upon
“…that there were indeed two different energies that I could choose to align with – one being truly Divine (the soul consciousness) and the other from the Astral plane (the spiritual consciousness)”
And as you correctly say Roberta
“…from my chosen ignorance I played and cavorted heartily with that energy that took me even further away from my Soul.”
We all do this in our chosen ignorance, We are much grander than we are currently choosing to be because we like the life we have made for ourselves, otherwise we would change it and we haven’t for thousands of years.
The spiritual path tells you that you are special, an anointed one, and that’s what our spirit wants to hear. I agree – it is a seduction that many have fallen for.
Great sharing Roberta, and yes like you thank God for the truly inspirational teachings and presentations by serge Benhayon, they have been monumentally life changing.
The glamour of the spiritual world can be so strong. Many people are aware that life is much more than the physical flesh we show ourselves in, so they open up to the possibility that we have a spirit – as is the common understanding of the being that resides within. So what happens is that if we are not truly looking for the answer, we get seduced by the majestic “coincidences” that can happen – a feather falling from the sky at complete random, the right word appears on a billboard, or a car passing by. We are more aware of our emotions, other people’s emotions and so on. The spiritual world is full of things that bring relief and make us feel blissful – a trap that can keep us locked in a level of awareness that may be a tiny bit stronger than people who may not be interested in the spiritual world, but at a greater distance from our soul – true and real being we want to get to know.
We get seduced because there is something in the seduction that we like, something strokes our sides and we like it, we like the idea or the concept of something. So when we find ourselves in the turmoil of it all, it is worth examining if there was any aspect of it all that we enjoyed.
We can do many things thinking we are on the right track, that’s why having people who live with integrity is so important. Because when we see one of these people we get a reality check and an opportunity to consider whether what we are doing is really okay or not.
As a teenager I was seduced by anything that was more than the mundane, depressed state of those I saw around me and myself. The idea of astral travelling was wow! I look back and am so appreciating I didn’t go for this.
I had the opportunity recently to revisit a lot of what I ran away from as a teenager and I’m finding the waters tricky, but guidable when I choose my Soul at the helm.
Thank you Roberta, I always appreciate reading this, there is so little written about the spiritual New Age and the realities of spirit and soul, and where the New Age energy is truly sourced from. The truth of any one thing is always in the Livingness and the outcome, how do we truly feel and does it bring about a vital and healthy body? Do we feel joyful and loving, or is it bliss? Are we committed to life or checked out? For many people the New Age delivers something that feels better than how they felt prior but it doesn’t mean it’s the energetic truth, having soulful people in the world reflecting the soul’s way in human life is so vital because it provides a new marker to what’s possible and exposes what is not true.
Attending my first presentation by Serge Benhayon my body told me I had found truth.
‘I reacted and hid for quite some time seeing only the shame of having been so gullible, so open to deceit, with the fear of being deceived again still raw.’ We can be so hard on ourselves – I have felt this too but once we can really feel what the truth is there is no going back. Learning to bring in some allowing and understanding of ourselves with the new awareness is really important if we are to keep learning and growing.
The spirit will have us searching high and low for the answer to all its woes while never revealing itself to be the architect of them. Meanwhile the Soul awaits the spirit’s return to the body of love it/we first separated from, never once imposing or demanding anything of us.
Being seduced by the world and all that is out there is an amazing distraction to our own truth, love and connection to God within us and our inner heart.The communication through our body speaks from our inner stillness within.
It is a great reminder that when we feel empty and sad in an overwhelming way with no visible reason in physical life, it is about going deeper within ourselves, and not about going out to find something to fill it because that will never be sustainable.
When I was young I was hooked on anything and anybody who presented there was more to life than the drudgery I saw around me in the 9-5 eat, sleep, work, repeat. I loved the excitement and buzz of the spirit and the astral plane in the alternative lifestyle. But then I couldn’t ignore it had a very dark,seedy side to it, and now I’m admitting the astral plane has its hand in nearly every pie on earth unless what is there is from the Divine.
So every aspect of life, the spiritual new age and the checked out drudgery, is all part of this underbelly of complete lovelessness that robs our energy to keep it going. And I keep feeding it whenever I get emotional or react or check out to TV or numb with food. But it’s great to realise the extent to which the world is run by this scheme to keep the astral plane going, and the Divine out. Knowing this, at least then, I have a choice as to what I want to align to.
It’s interesting that we are so adament to to find the answers we seek outside us – in books, quotes, or other people even. And I like your suggestion that there is actually a book inside us of everything we need to know that can be our primary source of information about who we are and how to be in the world.
If we read a passage in a book or hear someone speak and it is of the absolute truth, then this truth will be felt within the body and never ever coming from outside it.
Roberta, I love how you describe listening to your body as your true antenna that you feel and receive everything though.
You make such a great point here about being seduced, this is such a great word because it describes how one is when they are not seeing the whole of what is going on, until afterwards when we realise that we have in fact been duped. Which goes to show the manipulations and coercions of some of the new age spiritual practises, that promise so much yet deliver nought.
You mention the shame of realising we have been hoodwinked for so long. That makes so much sense and shame can be so debilitating, but I am realising we are the only ones who can take the step forward to choose not to be hoodwinked again. It is through our movement and our commitment and dedication to that movement that makes the difference in our awareness. We may get hoodwinked again, but it won’t be for long because the honesty of the body will let us know.
There is such despair in not knowing who we are and in that despair we are open to manipulation and to being hooked to find an answer. They sound true, they sound like they make sense, but there is always a hook. It was only when I felt from my body the difference between the spirit and the soul that I could feel the distinct difference.
The clarity and understanding with which Serge Benhayon presents on energy and the different sources of energy available made and still makes so much sense to me, it truly resonated in a way no other presenter that I’d met had.
Reading this reminded me of how excited I was by people I met who spoke about spiritual stuff – at last I wasn’t alone in knowing there was more than the 9-5 drudgery I saw in people each day. But then I noticed how these people I met weren’t all present and this unnerved me. I also felt a deep despair that I would never connect to the more I knew had to exist because nothing made sense or had meaning. Meeting Serge Benhayon I knew then that what he presented was the real deal. No airy fairy, just true integrity. Now it’s about me living from the truth I know within in all aspects of my daily life – so I can do the 9-5 but that it is never a drag or a chore. Still much to work on but the purpose and meaning is definitely there!
I have noticed that in many of the spiritual offerings around today, there is a notion being offered that the truth one seeks is inside of you, and many teachings, books and courses will offer to connect you with that place. So, it is in our current times that one must be especially astutely aware and discerning for what quality those teachings are in, and with what quality the person is presenting them in. Because only by this factor – astute discernment – are we actually able to see what is going to deliver us to the doors of our inner-heart and by contrast, what will only lead us further and further away from it – despite their shiny promises.
Our body is indeed our true book of wisdom. Like you, Roberta, I look back at how I was before meeting Serge Benhayon, Universal Medicine and The Way of The Livingness, and wonder how I could have ever believed I was on the ‘right path’ when my body was increasingly becoming more over-weight and unhealthy? Yet at the same time I can, as the apparent ‘healing changes’ I was achieving for others with kinesiology, was so seductive that I chose to be blind and in denial as to what was happening to my body and personal way of lifestyle. It was through Serge Benhayon’s loving presentation of Truth and my willingness that I was able to see the complete contradiction in my life and the illusion under which I was living.
The returning to who we truly are by not looking outwards but by simply connecting and knowing who we are is the only thing we will ever need. The wisdom and knowing is always available to connect to, it simply is a matter of surrendering to the energy that is of love and light, not saying yes to the astral fog that takes us away from out truth. Every nano second we have this choice to be made.
So true Natalie that it is a constant choice.
And that is precisely the trick of the human etheric spirit – it will never let you know that there is another source of energy to align to until it has exhausted its stint in the gamut of creation (life on Earth as we have created it). Whereas the Soul is always completely transparent and when we connect to this aspect of us we know in no uncertain terms, all that tempts us from the other side of the equation.
This realisation has been extraordinary. The soul is transparent, there is no hook, no magic, just logic, responsibility and accountability.
I find it super interesting that “enlightenment” led you to be 20 kilos overweight, that must have actually felt incredibly heavy and not “light-ened” at all. One of the biggest things I’ve learnt from Universal Medicine is my body is the one part of me that never lies, and this has been a super useful tool when navigating through life – I know if I’m tired or if I’m putting on weight or something hurts or I feel heavy then there’s something I need to address immediately.
Two energies to choose from. One panders to our every whim, it gives us what we want and encourages us to seek stimulation and experiences, this energy needs a constant source of fuel because underneath is an emptiness that needs filling. We are confirmed as individuals. Then there is another energy that does not offer tantalising experiences but offers a sense of the grandness we are all from and the fact that that sense is always inside us. It is not going to chase us but there will be a tension reminding us of who we are that will call us back any time we allow the stillness to feel.
In our continual search for answers we are seduced by the spiritual new age, and each time we are disappointed and we push on in our continued search, until such time as we come across Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine who know the answers and live by them, and continually share and inspire us all.
There are so many paths to sway us from the one leading back to our inner truth, our sense of ourselves and of integrity. Everything in this world is made to not only be an obstacle but a very clever delineation leading us further and further away. Everything but the inner heart, for it cannot be swayed.
Having awareness of the different energies at play and what they can do and why gives a much clearer understanding of life. Allowing the body to be our marker and being centred in our hearts rather than our heads, actually feeling the quality of the body and working with it to deepen our relationship with it’s intelligence changes everything. Great to read this again, thank you Roberta.
I too was one of many who “cavorted heartily with that energy that took me even further away from my Soul.” But as I look back now I see that no matter how far I strayed my Soul was waiting patiently for me to return and would every now and then remind me of the truth that lay within. Like you, it was Serge Benhayon who offered me the key to return to my Soul and to me, and without hesitation I took it with both hands.
I love love love the fact that we all have this in-built, indestructible, radar/antenna for the truth. The deep knowing that we belong to God, to our Soul’s, to the Universe. And no matter how sidetracked/sideswiped we become, it is always there, patiently eternally waiting to guide us back home.
Remorse and regret is such a trap. It makes us look like we care about the mistakes we have made, but we are actually indulging further, resisting to turn around to make a choice from a different energy.
Great point Elizabeth, if we introduced the truth about the 2 energies life would be very different for many people and I am sure illness and disease would not escalate so much, and our relationships would be more loving and true.
Wow Roberta what a turnaround, this is such a powerful and healing blog to read. I spent years on the spiritual path and it really does take you further away from love and truth and keeps you in a constant spin chasing something outside of yourself, when in truth there is this enormous love within us all waiting for us to connect to it.
Even when it’s presented with the truth our spirit will take this and twist it to keep playing its games. This is why we all need the honesty of the body, to bring us back to the actual facts.
Beautifully and wisely said Joseph for the honesty and wisdom of our body is integral to discerning what is fact and what is indeed fiction.
The Spiritual merry-go.-round is a profound offense to our divine particles.
Nuts isn’t it, we spend years upon years searching for the ‘answers’ to life out side of us. Reading hundreds of books, going to presentations by different people, doing courses, travelling the world in pursuit of knowledge, only to eventually find that all the wisdom we need lays within.
ha ha yes truly nuts! I find that is part of the shame that hampers the surrendering to who we are and to stop the constant searching. It has to be too simple because otherwise all the headless chook running around we have been doing was a waste of time….um yes…
Our body really is an amazing antenna, giving us the opportunity to sense and tune in with the energetic quality behind anything and everything. It may be a sense we’re not used to using but is one that we never truly lose and can re-kindle our connection with and awareness of…
I agree – and antenna is the perfect word for how sensitive our bodies are to the energy around us, they can tune in to the most minute vibration and know instantly which way to direct us.
When I was told about Serge, it was highlighted that the way he lives makes him different from other presenters because he talks his walk. That triggered something in me, a disbelief – how do you know how he lives? Have you lived with him? – We can dismiss the word “livingness”, but it has a very strong meaning. When said, it can make us realise that the way we are living our life may not be it and we can either have a beautiful realisation or a huge reaction because we don’t want to be challenged.
A great expose of a spiritual journey outside of ones self, thank you Roberta.
A few years back I started to engage with recreational drugs, just to see what they were like – or that’s what I told myself at the time. However, reflecting on that now I can see that what I was searching for indeed was “enlightenment”, I thought that these drugs will bring some sort of a god, a guru or some kind of colourful communication from the Universe to tell me the secrets of life. Since coming across Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon, I have found that the communication from the universe is in the simplest of things, such as the birds that fly above me as I walk, the flowers that greet me and the small realisations I get in every moment I am together with myself.
The spiritual new age holds so many bells and whistles to seduce and entice us. All of them suiting our wayward spirit in some way. Along comes truth and the spirit has a tanty, as the soul says yes, and the fire is ignited.
The seduction of bright lights parading as though they are the true light. When we’re lost, that false light can seem so wonderful. Yet it is so far from the truth of who we are.
This article really does show the power of simply meeting a person for who they are, no matter what the reaction may be, no matter how far away they may run or hide. It is always and forever worth it to give to every person a moment of being met. And what strikes me now, is how this does not have to be reserved for the treatment room, or indeed for Serge Benhayon, although is a master at it. But we can all apply this to our lives in the areas that we each live and work.
I keep feeling how fortunate I am to have met Serge Benhayon and to skip ‘train tracks’ from the false Spiritual/New Age train to be on board the true Soul train.
So glad to have hopped off the wrong train!
Beautiful, Roberta. I can relate well to what you share having believed I was on the path of love and light through kinesiology and other New Age spiritual activities when in fact I was going ever further away from Light and Love. “How could I have believed through all my spiritual searching that at any level I was being en-light-ened when the body grew heavier and heavier, leaving me 20 kilos overweight?” – is a great way of encapsulating this.
I wouldn’t even be able to count the vast number of life changing teachings I have been blessed with via Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine – but the difference between spirit and Soul has to be right up there in the top 5. The first audio in spirit Unimedpedia: http://www.unimedliving.com/unimedpedia/word-index/unimedpedia-spirit.html gives a great intro as does all of Unimedpedia.
The difference between spirit and Soul cannot be emphasised enough in bringing understanding of the difference between the healing modalities of the New Age Spiritual movement and those that Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine present and how these bring true healing rather than the illusion of such by the others.
Self-honesty is an essential ingredient of the path of evolution.
Love your opening paragraph and YES we all have volumes of wisdom within – best book we could ever read!
I know the seduction of the spiritual so well having fallen under its ‘spell’ many times during my 30’s and 40’s. But I also know that the only reason I was able to be so easily seduced is that I was searching for something to fill the emptiness within me, the only problem was that what I was filling it with was not the whole truth but a tantalising version of it. It took meeting Serge Benhayon to wake me up to the fact that what I had been searching for, for such a long time, had been waiting inside me all along, and with that realisation my life began to change in the most amazing ways.
As it is the spirit that has separated from the love and light of the Soul, it is the spirit that is the fragment, the isolated ‘piece’ of the otherwise stupendous whole that is the Soul. So there is a certain irony that many of us can relate to when we feel there is a ‘missing piece’ to life – that missing piece is us! Or rather, it is the whole we miss due to the fact we have fragmented from it.
Sometimes it takes us to have “everything” to realise it is not about all those sorts of things and that we ARE and already were everything.
I went from Christianity to the Spiritual New Age. At first I was taken into trying this modality and that but none ever giving me what I was looking for, so I left it all and was a spiritual destitute for a period of time. Then along came Serge into my life, I had come home, I had found what I had been looking for – my innermost essence, my search over at last.
It is quite amazing how little is known about the most basic aspects of energy. Once the veil is lifted this will feel like a dark age.
There were so many of us seduced by the tantalising offerings of the spiritual new age, mainly because we were living with an emptiness from the choices we had been making in our lives and simply wanted to be given the answers to the questions that were overflowing from us. Unfortunately, most, including me, accepted what we were offered without question and ended up more empty and more lost than we originally were, such were the lies that we were being fed and eagerly took into our lives.
The seeking of selfishness is no accident but is something we go for because it seems to stop us missing love. Anything to take the hurt away it seems – but Roberta you make it so clear these false answers hurt and harm us way more, cementing the reasons we have to be sad.
I got really caught up in New Age spirituality in a similar way Roberta, yet after years of it I had to say that my life still didn’t work, I still couldn’t explain the misery and emptiness inside, and after years of searching and finding temporary relief, if not distraction, I was in a much worse place by the end of it all. This is because I felt such a lack of trust and almost like giving up. I came to realise that nothing I did, read, or attended had worked for me. When I found out about Serge I had a very strong pull to travel interstate to meet him, but I had also decided that this was the last stop because I could not bear another thing that lacked substance and did not work. I’m talking about decades of exploring and searching before attending Universal Medicine workshops. That was 2012 and since that time I have not looked back, the healing, care and support provided by Serge and his work has allowed me to completely change my life. Serge Benhayon is absolutely the real deal.
I’ve come to recognise my body as a true marker or antenna as you say (love that analogy!) for discerning if something really sits true with me or not. It’s something that I’m continually learning with and fine tuning but I can honestly say that listening to my whole body brings me back to a sense of harmony that I know to be true and from that I have a marker to correspond with all else in life.
Today when i read a line such as “I have learned in my recent journeys, despite 25 years of spiritual searching, that the true book of wisdom I sought was in fact inside me all along.” I am like, of course that makes sense. But reverse back pre meeting Serge and I would have thought that was crazy, how would I, the person that was deeply discontented with life have the answers. Fast forward to a number of years of healing the various hurts and issues that I have had and in clarity, I know the truth was and is not only inside me and has been all along but is equally inside everyone else.
You are exactly right!
Within us all lies a restlessness that reminds us constantly of the fact that we are so much more. There comes a point in everyone’s journey where this restlessness can no longer be covered by our every day life, activities, emotions and distractions and the search begins. On this path of return we will find a plethora of seducers that tell they are it, to look no further. But in the end, however long or short the journey, all will find their way back to the truth of who they are.
Wow Roberta this brings shivers down my spine when I once embarked on similar journeys with spiritual gurus. But at the back of my mind there was always something missing or niggling at me, I always felt an imposter.
It was only when I met Serge Benhayon did this niggle stop niggling at me and through his presentations I know I have it all, its just hidden with ideals, beliefs and cultural influences. I’m learning its equally within me and no other person knows anymore than me.
I love the true book being the body – the marker of all truth. That’s a book I’m absolutely willing to read and listen to.
It is very seductive when somebody says; “I have all the answers” and especially so when they can back this up to some degree. However, this claim always seems to disappear under closer scrutiny except when the answer is “you have all the answers yourself as well – already!”.
It is becoming clear to me, a great marker in my body that anything that stimulates and excites me I am not coming from love. I have left my body placing everything on that which is outside of me and worse thinking that it is greater than the stillness within even if it temporarily. Living in stimulation also exposes the self as when I am living in the connection to myself I am at one with the universe and there cannot be anything but the stillness and connection to everything and everyone. I am expansive and there is no more small, contracted individual self.
the true book of wisdom I sought was in fact inside me all along.” The Ageless Wisdom presented by Serge Benhayon can be read as absolute truth within our body.
Not knowing is a responsibility but being love is also a responsibility. So in the process of not knowing are we still able to hold ourselves in love? Responsibility is very cool.
Wow Roberta, how often or much do we ‘think’ we have it? The many different flavours offering us any range of extent of delights, identifications and pleasures. It’s all the same coming from the one source of separation.
‘IT’ was ‘IT’ when I was presented with the truth that there are 2 x different sources to establish life from, that brought ‘IT’ truth home. I still dabble in the ‘delight’ of its me who is thinking – when what comes to me is not mine to own – so I have a choice what I will own. The more and more I let what love is inside, that is not for me but for every man that walks this earth, the more I appreciate myself and where I truly come from.
Love your point about the body and how it seemed to have no place in any of your seeking as All was coming from the mind. It seems all we are searching for is a true and deep connection with our body without taking any honesty or willingness to be real and true with our choices in life.
It’s a bit of a dead giveaway – if the body isn’t on board, quite possibly you’re on the wrong train.
Interesting Roberta that the whole spiritual journey started with a cry to something outside yourself. Makes sense it went that way as the true answers to our dilemmas lie within.
What I find so very amazing is the lengths we will go to not feel our bodies and take many different avenues, cobbled paths, mountains etc to negate our natural universal intelligence of who we are and the wisdom we hold. This just highlights how truly powerful we are and how beautiful it is to return to the inner wisdom we bestow. What we learn on our journey back, also shows us the path of our return and much more to appreciate on where we have come from. A very inspiring blog Roberta thank you.
A very honest blog. Similar to my own story, except I didn’t go into regret, I just said; ‘Oops’ and got on with unraveling the spiritual life that I had built up. Perhaps that is something to do with the fact that even while I was working with the astral energy I always felt that something was still amiss, and I kept searching until I found Universal Medicine and the way home to myself. Now I search no more.
Your response to realising all the New Age modalities were not ‘IT’ was almost identical to mine Rebecca, as the more I would engage in each modality (of which there are thousands), the more I would feel like there was part of the puzzle missing, like it had some truth, but never the WHOLE TRUTH. Only through Universal Medicine did all those missing puzzle pieces fit together to make the most amazing picture ever… the image of the Truth being inside of us all the time, made from the love we already are. The other thing I remember from going down that spiritual path was just how much everyone in that culture would say that there are all these multiple paths to the Truth, and the ways to get there seemed to be multiplying every day, with more and more modalities being offered, but none that were as simple and yet profound as what is offered by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, which I can feel in my whole body is the way forward for me, and ultimately everyone.
Making mistakes can feel grueling and shameful but they’re not who we are.
Roberta I too allowed myself to be seduced by the spiritual new age – and what a seductive path it is! Your description of it is perfect. Your reference to the state of your body at this time is important too. So many of the spiritual teachers and gurus I met, if not all, were far from healthy and vital. While I knew on some level this was less than ideal, and was reflecting their inner reality, I overrode my concerns and continued to go with glamour rather than truth.
Oh boy as I relate to the feelings of excitement and stimulation as I too embarked on a spiritual journey do I thank God and myself that I got myself out of it; that I listened to the feelings that were constantly communicating with me ‘this is not it… there is more’.
A very powerfully honest blog Roberta thank you. The pride we bump up against when faced with the truth can be a source of devastating stubbornness, in that we keep on with what we know deep down is not true with a doggedness that digs at us deep. Thankfully in your case you not only let go of this pride, but also didn’t lose yourself in the flagellation of what you were once part of. Universal Medicine and the modalities offered are like no other when it comes to restoring yourself from such wayward ventures into the spiritual new age.
It is clear that you no longer judge your actions or indulge in remorse for decisions made in the past and this is absolutely incredible and inspiring.
Roberta its amazing to see how we can be seduced by something that sounds right and in that we can override the niggles of what deep down we feel is not true. The seduction of the spiritual can seem so close to truth until you add the factor of quality of energy, then in my experiences its black and white.
I guess the first and foremost book we write for all to read is our body and how it looks and feels. People around us will feel and read our body and know exactly what is going on for us in life.
Knowing the difference between our Soul and spirit as presented by Serge Benhayon makes so much sense and is truly empowering, helping us to have a much deeper understanding of ourselves and our true path of evolution.
An amazing and deeply honest sharing Roberta, I too spent endless hours and time and money on spiritual searching. What a blessing is has been to meet Serge Benhayon and to understand the truth of the 2 energies and how this plays out in life, one energy leading you closer to love and your Soul and the other taking you further away from truth and our inner wisdom.
I had been deeply pondering the difference between Spirit and Soul and how these play out in our lives and after life when I came upon Universal Medicine. To then be able to explore what the Ancient Wisdom Teachings conveys in a very practical and down to earth approach as presented by Serge Benhayon is indeed a blessing. I, too, find myself following the dictates of my spirit however becoming more aware of when and how this happens I am able to make choices that align me back to a soulful way. I so appreciate the support that I am given on this path.
A spiritual path is a journey that only leads you further away from your essence in the name of marching towards it.
When on that ‘Spiritual Path’ it is so enticing, it is like a drug. Although the ‘high’ never lasts one always craves more and so one returns to get another ‘hit’.
Very true jstewart51, I can recall many years of spiritual searching with always the lure of ‘this will be it’ like a carrot on a stick. It wasn’t until I met Serge Benhayon and began having session with Sacred Esoteric Healing that I realised I no longer had that feeling that something was still missing. It was the beginning of feeling a deep ease and contentment within me, which only leaves me when I choose to disconnect from my essence.
Thank you Roberta for this honest sharing of your Journey from the Spiritual New Age to the truth of The Way of The Livingness as presented by Serge Benhayon. I was sent on a wild goose chase through my searching until I too came to the truth of the Ancient Wisdom..
Reading this reminds me of an incident that happened shortly before I was to go to my first ever Universal Medicine presentation. I too had completely given myself over to my own spiritual searching. To the degree that I fell down my front stairs and into the garden. In that moment though, I knew that I was being ‘pushed’ by an energy/force to not attend the presentation. Somehow in this knowing, I also knew the importance of attending, so I did.
We have allowed ourselves to be programmed so that we look for anything and everything outside of us and not ever within. If what we are looking for were not within, it would privilege some over others and that is not how it works. We all equally have access to our inner-most.
This is a great point Gabriele as God loves all equally.
How absolutely beautiful is it to know that we have the book of wisdom within us?. All we have to do is access it.
‘What was the point of my existence?’ I remember feeling this, feeling that there had to be more and literally feeling what was the point of me being here. Now, I have none of those feelings as my life has purpose and I have an understanding of the bigger picture and what I bring is of equal importance to what another brings.
I too Roberta, went seeking through the Spiritual New Age movement, though only for a short time, don’t you just love it when the magic of God appeared on the van to call you to visit Serge. Even though you were heavily into the movement being open to signs was a doorway for the Heir-achy to call you back home.
This sounds like a very humbling experience for you and you have come out the other side so eloquent and well spoken. I watched my mother go through the spiritual new age faze when I was young but interestingly, like you, although she was involved, she new that there was something missing, something that didn’t quite add up. When we came across Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon everything made sense because the difference between the two energies had been very practically laid out. I am no saint and I often still dabble in the harmful energy, I dabble for comfort and entertainment but at least I know now what is going on and how harmful it is, at least I am no longer ignorant to my surrounds.
Very much appreciating your honest recounting here Roberta. How tempting it can be to say ‘yes’ to the spiritual arrogance offered by the new age… to say ‘yes’ to a belief that the Kingdom of God does NOT live within and we must pull in, if not wilfully invite in, other energies to enter – to express through us with all of their false ‘spiritual might’.
And what a great renunciation it is, to recognise that none of this has been ‘it’, and that it is our reconnection to the true Kingdom and the light of the Soul that has awaited us all along… No ‘rah-rah’, no recognition, no falsity… only the absoluteness and purity of Love.
I spent my own years dallying in new age philosophies and teachings, and every one without fail, confirmed the false belief stated above – ever asking that you seek outside of yourself to ‘be more’ and ‘connect to more’. What a trap for the sensitive being, who in truth, simply needs to be held in love that he or she may heal those yet-harboured hurts which stand in the way of reuniting with the Soul once more.
I so adore the honesty in which students of The Way of the Livingness, as presented by Serge Benayon, now choose to live their lives in, and then express to the world. It is so refreshing.
Spiritual seeking can take us off course for lifetimes and is, in my experience symptomatic of discontent (tension) without a true impulse to seek truth. When we truly seek… we find, and whatever else we seek, we find.
There is a part of us that knows that the ‘meaning of life’ is found deep within us, thus why we set out on a search that will take us everywhere and anywhere other than back to the truth that lays within. Therefore it is not a case of us needing to seek truth and going in search for it, but more so a case of us being willing to return to it.
One of the greatest realisations I have ever had was the fact that what we seek, we find. When I thought I was ‘searching for truth’ by finding new things to tantalise my spirit, all the while thinking I was advancing myself, I was not truly seeking truth at all, but relief from the underlying misery I wasn’t prepared to get honest enough about to access the truth. Once I began that search in earnest, asking from a place much deeper and open to the actual truth, I found it very quickly, or more correctly, it found me. I have never looked back, and nor have I ever missed the fact that when we seek… truly… we find.
It feels to me as if you are missing some appreciation in that you were able to admit so whole heartedly that you had been duped! So many would rather shoot the messenger than admit that they are on the wrong path, especially when we are so invested in what we do. To put your hands up in the air and go whoops I was on the wrong track is very courageous.
It was the greatest point of my life to meet and be met by Serge Benhayon for in that meeting I met myself – my true self that I had been so deeply missing. When we are offered the reflection of true connection we can choose to take it or run away as it exposes all that is not true and the error of past choices. As we then start to live as our true selves we offer that same reflection to others and also keep deepening our own connection – it is such a beautiful way to live. Yes there are indeed great riches and volumes within.
In disconnection to our inner-hearts where we can discern truth from what is not, we are at the mercy of ideals and beliefs that guarantee nothing more than glamour -often at the expense of our bodies and not to mention the many lifetimes it will take us to clear such grime from our souls.
I heard people saying that the spiritual journey is actually a delay of finding that the truth is actually already inside and with your story I can really see why. You felt there had to be more but the spiritual new age is so enticing and looking like it is it that we can get lost in the illusion of it without realising.
Roberta, you say, “I too was seduced” which does indeed show the setup that’s there to stop us finding our true purpose in life. However, ultimately we are responsible for the choices we have made and once we discern the harm hidden in seemingly benign choices we can make only those choices that stem from love and harmony and serve to reflect that to the world.
Living in the comfort of the ‘magnificent home in the country’ and having everything you want still does not fill the emptiness we feel from not connecting to ourselves and having no true purpose in life. We can seek outside ourselves for years adding another flavor to our lives until we start to see that any new pursuit is just a new flavor of the one thing which is a distraction from committing to what we are here to bring.
In my experience spiritual searches allow us to ‘seek truth’ under conditions, allowing us to be manipulated as we don’t want to use our full awareness. Putting truth (or true love) above everything seems to be a minimum requirement not to get caught.
It is amazing how the mind can convince us if we are doing something right when we can completely ignore the messages from the body, in my experience, it was as if there was no connection between them at all–which is actually spot on, as there is no connection happening with myself. With connection, there is no right or wrong, it is only if there is love or lovelessness.
I agree – people in my experience much of the time remember receiving a warning message from their body before things went badly wrong and remember overriding that message.
Very true Christoph, I know this for myself but also countless others I’ve seen in a consulting context who report that in retrospect there were warning signs that things were not right. Inevitably these were ignored until such time as a more severe condition became apparent.
The seduction of surface successes will never still the knowingness within that is aware there is more to the game of life than what we see.
So many of us have been caught in the excitement of the new age Roberta! It seemed to be an exciting time but not fulfilling, instead a smoke screen to take us further off track from the truth. When Serge Benhayon
came along the truth was revealed and all made sense.
The true antenna is the body and not the mind The mind plays a big in spiritual and mental healing techniques but it is never true, from this the body stays empty.
In my experience the Spiritual New Age provided some sort of relief for the empty feeling I had inside. But it never quelled it and it needed to be fed constantly. Whilst the talk was all about energy it did not come close to giving any understanding of the multidimensional beings that we are and our responsibility we have. Those two things alone have changed everything and I know that any emptiness I am feeling is because I am not living my multidimensionality and walking with responsibility – neither of which is an external gift, they are two things I carry within and have a choice to walk in.
It’s interesting that if we let ourselves hear truth and really feel it, we can then react to it so much that we start to doubt truth, the very thing that we felt to be true in the first place. Once the reaction passes, for pass it will. whether in hours days, months, years or lifetimes, we come to understand that truth is something we know and feel from within so we have no need to fear being hoodwinked by illusion again if we dedicate ourselves to living in connection to what is inside us.
We are so incredibly vast and connected to so much more than we can see. If we try and reduce ourselves into simply functioning as humans without the awareness of that vastness, emptiness prevails.
Serge Benhayon’s teachings of the difference between spirit and soul have been 100% fundamental in bringing understanding to the truth of energy, consiousness and Will. What I wanted to stay totally unfathomable 10 years or so ago has been uncovered, presented, re-presented, and re-presented again and again, until finally the penny drops and the pieces come together. Once it is known, there is a true choice that can be made.
Roberta it is a very powerful experience you have shared, thank you for your honesty. I was also heavily caught up in spirituality and at the end of it all, after years and years of exploring I was just as empty, miserable and unhappy as I’d been at the beginning. It was all a distraction and a desperation to feel better. Your line really stood out for me “I’ve just channelled and produced a book of loving words” as it highlights to me how the New Age is built upon “love” being out there to the point it must be channelled from another source, instead of that source actually being inside of ourselves and the essence of who we are. It’s interesting how the New Age/spirituality is cleverly constructed to avoid all truths, including all that we truly are as souls with an equal connection to God. It could be said that spirit-uality is a clear example of a consciousness created by the spirit which purposefully excludes the soul and its grand truth.
Your path is a familiar one and trodden by many. When we have been seeking answers in all the tantalizing modalities that are available it is a bit confronting and no where near as glamorous to realise they are within us all along.
Thank you Roberta. It is not easy to face the fact that we have been deceived and that we allowed it to occur through not dealing with our pain and emptiness. Thank heavens for Serge Benhayon who has introduced the importance of connecting with the divine spark within us, which leaves no room for disconnection, emptiness or hurts. This is what has changed my life.
It’s interesting how you use the word “seduced” when you describe your relationship to spiritual searching, it gives away it’s true intention and origin by it’s seduction and attempts to hook you in, whereas the truth simply allows you to be and to choose it whenever you’re ready – quite a stark difference.
Very telling when you describe your reaction to the discovery of the new age offerings as an “emotive response” – emotive it is indeed and can’t but be; it is the filling of a need that will align with and further ingrain the emptiness that is felt on the inside. True answers there are none in the new age, only delay tactics and entertainment.
That feeling of “there has to be something else”, “this can’t be it” is so eye opening if we allow it to come through.
I love the clarity we have when we look back at our previous endeavours seeking what was missing from our lives. When we look at life from the inside out there is much more clarity and understanding than when we seek life from outside first, and fall for beliefs rather than what we know to be true or not.
I was thinking about the two energies this morning and how to explain it so it doesn’t sound bonkers! Someone recently refuted this and said there was just the absence of love if something was not loving, but on pondering this I realised that is not possible as all is energy so there is never the absence of energy it is either the energy of love or not and everything plays out from there.
What you have shared is huge. There can be no void. If we are not filling the moment with love we are actively filling it with something else. And a very significant question leads on from that: when we are not walking with the fullness of the love that we are, what are we inviting in?
Yes, exactly Golnaz. In not walking and living in and with ‘the fullness of the love that we are’, energies other than love must fill ‘this space’. We think ourselves to be ‘prey’ to such energy, but in truth, it is we who have said yes to it crossing our threshold in the first place.
That’s a very simple explanation because if something is not love then it must be something else. It either is or it isn’t.
The spirits pride can seem like a powerful force – but it is nothing compared to the light and love of our inner-heart. Learning to focus and be with everything that is rather than stew on everything that is not that love has been a huge lesson for me.
It’s interesting how obvious it appears as a false path when looking back and having connected back to the truth within us. This just goes to show how deceptive and powerful glamour and illusion really are.
The continual journey to seek answers from the outside only prolongs the truth from permeating our every cell and reverberating out through our bodies. When we begin to listen to the copious amounts of wisdom available within we begin to uncover the truth and honesty of life and love and that is truly monumental in terms of healing our past experiences and patterns that we have held onto for long periods of time.
I used to think I was less than those who claimed to be able to read energy and do healing and stuff like that that was beyond the physical realm, and it was very easy to give my power away. I can now feel how I had already stepped away from my power well before I encountered and experimented with anything outwardly by not claiming what was inside me.
You paint the picture so clearly Roberta of what the new age is, the excitement, the next thing and always the seeking, and yet while I can clearly see that now, I didn’t want to be honest about it when I was in it – I knew deep down something was not true, but I continued until I came across Universal Medicine and met something completely different, that did not try and fix me or make me better but in fact asked me to go within and be myself. It’s changed my whole life and approach, and brought me back to a realness and a depth of connection in myself, it’s brought me back to me.
Seduced, such a perfect word to describe the way I was tantalised by spirituality and the spiritual paths I too walked down. The offerings of bliss and along with that the arrogance were all part of the package.
Thank you Roberta this is a great sharing on the importance of knowing the difference between the two energies – Soul or Spirit. I wish I knew the truth of this before I spent countless years and energy in the Spiritual New Age movement as well. If the truth about Soul and Spirit was taught at school at a young age how empowered we would feel knowing we always have a choice as to which energy we align to.
Knowing the truth about our spirit and Soul is truly liberating, it gives us a clearer choice of what energy we choose to have running through us and it is a clarity that is very needed.
Roberta such honesty I love it, it is very refreshing and certainly what we need more of. There are so many ‘new age’ therapies out there but just how true are they? If we do not at first understand and feel the truth of energy ‘one being truly Divine (the soul consciousness) and the other from the Astral plane (the spiritual consciousness)’ for a start, then everything is baseless. When I first met Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine it was like my body came alight it knew that what was being presented was the truth, there was no arguing and no way my mind or doubt could get in the way. It was very matter of fact. You also raise a great point why is it that when we are so down or desolate we continually look outside ourselves for the answer, in fact we don’t even have to be down and desolate! It seems a given that at the moment the majority of us look outside of ourselves for answers not within. i would argue that if we were truly deeply connected with ourselves and the innate love within there would be no room for feeling down and desolate in the first place. So it seems this really is a bit of a dilemma at the moment, that here we are in the 21st century apparently evolved with faster and flashier technology being produced every second yet we still do not know how to connect with the incredible love and wisdom we all hold within!!! All I can say is thank goodness for Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine for through their living, teaching, presenting and what constantly and consistently reflect to all is that there is another way of living and being, and the tide of exhaustion, misery, depression, desolation, disregard, abuse, feeling lost and much more is slowly turning back around to one of true love and connection.
I love this line Roberta “How could I have believed through all my spiritual searching that at any level I was being en-light-ened when the body grew heavier and heavier, leaving me 20 kilos overweight?” Our bodies show us everything we could ever need to know, how could the truth leave you overweight and getting heavier and heavier? It doesn’t make sense. A true way of living supports and nourishes the body in every possible way.
Thank you Roberta for sharing your story, I could relate to the New Age searching always trying out and getting hooked into another modality but never feeling met. Not until Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon came into my life did my searching end, and my life, living from within began and now continues to unfold.
It’s like a well kept secret that there are two energies, ‘spirit which is the separated aspect of the soul, or the soul which is our true connection to God.’ It’s only when we see the difference can we see the deception we are fed to take us on a spiritual journey away from ourselves, rather than our connection to our Soul which is the true connection to our essence and who we are in truth.
I just love the part where you were waiting for a sign and a white van passed you “at a round-a-bout with the one word written in huge letters diagonally up the side of the van ‘S E R G E’” – the masters were making sure you got this message loud and clear.
“Instead of just going “Whoops!!! I was mistaken,” I descended into remorse and regret, afraid and ashamed to face anyone.” – we can create a lot of complication for ourselves by heaping heavy judgement on our past actions or choices rather than simply being fully honest with ourselves and then allowing ourselves to move on from that with a different quality of choice.
So true – often our reaction to our mistakes is worse and does more damage than the actual mistake itself! What if it was ok to make mistakes and we only had to make a different choice?
I love the idea that’s there’s a book of wisdom inside us, sometimes recently I feel like I’m consulting the encyclopaedia of the universe – which literally blows me away.
I could relate to the tantilisation with anything energetic in my earlier life. I also felt my spirit’s ears prick at the chance to be special, to be able to manipulate energy. The crazy thing with the spirit is that it is we who are being manipulated and finding things to identify us or make us seem special takes us further away from the oneness of our soul that we all share.
‘It’s interesting to note that I was constantly working with my mind – not ‘feeling’ from within or listening to my true antenna, my body.’ We can put so much effort into working things through in our mind, looking outside ourselves for confirmation or recognition we are doing ‘ok’ This is an exhausting way to live and yet one that most of us use to get by – no wonder exhaustion in our societies is at an epidemic level. To bring a deeper awareness to the messages our body is constantly telling us all the time and responding to them is a great starting point and I have found that journey well worth taking.
It’s funny yet it’s not, that many of the modalities that work with light or energies are not questioned as to what energy they are actually working with. It’s like not paying any form of attention to what fuel you use in your car, you just fill it up with whatever. The body gives us the grace to discern if the energy is true or not but it will still keep on serving us until it cannot no longer due to the fuel not being true.
“……despite 25 years of spiritual searching, that the true book of wisdom I sought was in fact inside me all along. Back then I had no awareness that there were indeed two different energies that I could choose to align with.” I too was seduced by spiritual course, books and workshops – but found no truth in them – so kept on searching. It was always ‘the next one will be the one’…. Not until I came to Universal Medicine did I know in my body that I had come home to myself – and to truth. Serge Benhayon is a world teacher -presenting pure gold One day the world will know this.
Being in our body is definitely the marker of all truth, as presented by Serge Benhayon. I used to numb myself or not even stay in my body so that I didn’t even feel my body – I didn’t want to hear truth. Since becoming a student of Universal Medicine, this has changed. I now love receiving my body’s messages – they are now very clear to me.
I love this line Roberta – ”How could I have believed through all my spiritual searching that at any level I was being en-light-ened when the body grew heavier and heavier, leaving me 20 kilos overweight?” This is why I love the teaching from Serge Benhayon that the body is the ultimate marker of truth, it simply cannot lie, you can think you’re doing amazingly in your head, but if your body is heavy, sluggish and overweight – where is the joy and the success in that?
I really like this blog, I have been avoiding it, for I don’t want to feel how heavily I have been involved in the spiritual pursuits, the false light, not the light of my Soul, in this life and past lifetimes. It’s interesting as I react a lot to people who are reading spiritual books, but really I cannot judge, which I do big time, I freak out, can be arrogant, dismissive and react, ( then what in truth am I reflecting of the Ancient Wisdom and The Way of The Livingness – certainly not love) as this is where I started off in this lifetime, going down the yoga, reiki spiritual new age track, and here I am now, having felt and found the absolute truth in Serge Benhayon, The Ancient Wisdom and Universal Medicine.
There is a marketplace of answers (a lucrative one just to make sure) to the statement: there has to be something else. We approach them wanting them to be the answer. That is why we are easy to seduce. What do they bring to our lives? Hope. We fall victim of our hope. Do they really confirm us in our grandness? How is our body? Is it truly at home? Is it 100% saying yes to what is being offered to us? Is it a surrendered body the one saying yes? These are important questions to consider once you are in that marketplace.
What you have expressed here Roberta is so important and to me is so true when you say that what we are searching for lies within;
“Through listening to my body and the innate love that lies within, I can acknowledge that I was inspired by the love that Serge Benhayon has for all humanity”.
We are indeed blessed to be inspired by Serge Benhayon and the teachings of Universal Medicine.
Roberta what you’ve shared is so important… “Somehow I knew I still hadn’t found that piece of the puzzle that had thus far eluded me, but at that time the illusion had me in its grip.”
I was caught up in the spiritual new age too, with the tell-tale sign that it was not ‘it’ being the fact I was still forever searching. I would never have said I didn’t already ‘have it’ until I actually found ‘it’ – also as a result of one meeting with Serge Benhayon. Everything in my life began to change from that point onwards. Even then it was only in retrospect, a couple of years later, that I realised I had stopped searching and had no further interest in anything outside my own connection to the love I could feel inside me.
It is easy to say that we just need to look inside for the answers but it is true nevertheless, we first have to learn to look inside again and understand what we find there. If we knew how to do it we probably wouldn´t look outside for the answers, hence the process of undoing what keeps us from knowing, and step by step returning back to what we once left behind and miss since.
Sometimes we need to be exposed to the “what is not” before we can truly feel the truth of the “what is” . This was my experience as well, Roberta. Now I am saying yes to the energy that is loving and simplicity itself and my life has changed so much.
I can relate to your story Roberta, and to the endless exhausting search for something, the answer, the longing that would take me from one spiritual quest to another always leaving me with more to look for, more of a gaping hole. The answers we are all searching for are within, which is as you have expressed, accessed when we look within with a bit more honesty…. what is revealed is then the answers we’ve been looking for all along.
The beauty of our connection is that in truth it is always there patiently waiting for us to stop and see that we hold the key to everything we need. There is no perfection in our roads of returning to our bodies connection, because we are all on a journey of discovery and learning which is forever shifting and changing.
“all I could possibly want on a physical level, yet there was such an emptiness and sadness I could not explain.” I can relate to this as I also felt this sadness and went on a spiritual journey for sometime but I think I ended up more sad and definitely more disillusioned at the end of that journey. When you connect to the light of the soul and learn to live in connection with your soul, there is no emptiness – only the occasional sadness when you realise the times you chose spirit over soul. But that sadness can be felt and let go and return to the holding of the soul.
Beautiful article that exposes the spiritual search leading us away from us while selling us salvation, answers, meaning, love but never delivering it so that it is embodied and thus confirmed by the body as of its true making. The proof of truth is not in the pudding but definitely in the body.
Do we feel vital and joined up? Do we feel a warmth all over our body? Do we cherish our every last cell? For what I have found is that there is constant seeking in life, which is never satisfied that is missing this gorgeous connection in me. Although the spiritual books and pursuits you mention Roberta have dropped away this is still a process I have to watch out for. For this empty coldness that used to be ‘ok’ or ‘normal’ is no longer fooling me that this is true.
I have heard it touted that money is the root of all evil. In fact the root of all evil is the misinterpretation and misuse of words. For in mixing our meanings and definitions, we lose the truth in our actions and can easily cover our lies with what we say.
In my so-called spiritual seeking, I had the might of arrogance to look down on most of things as ‘fluffy’, thinking I was being discerning only to fall for the ones with more devastating, imposing force to match my own – even when I could feel something was off, I was attracted by intensity and willing to give my power away, and there seemed like no end to that ‘seeking’. So glad I somehow found a way out of that trap.
Roberta, thankyou for sharing so openly and honestly. I also was enthralled by the spiritual New Age, but after many years and much spent money, I found myself back where I originally started – feeling empty and lost with no true answers. By that stage I could add that I had been significantly altered, and not in a good way, by the many spiritual healing and alternative healing modalities I relied on. When I met Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon it was my last stop on my journey of searching for the truth, I just felt I could not go through another thing that was possibly based on more enthralling information that would ultimately lead me no where. However, within 5 minutes of hearing Serge speak I knew I was listening to the truth, and to a true gentle man. Since that time my life has changed in so many ways for the better, my health and wellbeing has improved across the board, as have my relationships and working life thanks to Universal Medicine. What I appreciate about Serge’s work is that it’s simple and practical, and it discerns (rightly so) the difference between spirit and soul. If I could swap every spiritual, New Age and alternative modality for more time with Universal Medicine I would.
Many of us have been hooked in to the Spiritual New Age by its teachings and/or healing techniques. It’s almost like we get on a merry go round that keeps on taking us for a ride until we begin to realise what it is all about. Awesome that you have come through to feel the way you do now, shedding all that extra weight on the way.
“I made a decision to seek within a little more honestly.”…it is quite humbling when you choose to do this as can ‘pull the rug’ so to speak on the lies you have been standing upon.
It’s only since my introduction to Universal Medicine have I been made aware of the two different energies that can be aligned to.
Love your blog Roberta, so similar to my story…same, same just some details different. I too was over weight, this alone was a dead give away and the fact I was depressed for the 10 years I was involved in the spiritual new age movement and hardly worked….interesting that I thought this was all okay!!!!
Yes it is remarkable Roberta, how we can discover something revealing about our behaviour and then this gets used to further beat up ourselves. “Oh how awful I have been for not loving me – how bad of me!” – this circularity just perpetuates the very same attitude and approach it looks to call out. This is the nature of the spirit in us, that it will use words and any diversionary props to avoid us simply loving us. This is why as you show Roberta, energy and our body is a crucial component of anything true we come to know.
This open sharing has given me many insights into the inner world of spiritual new age.
Thank You.
So lovely and inspirational to read Roberta; so wonderful that you appreciate the sun shining again due to you taking responsibility to listening to your body and the innate love and wisdom that lies within;
“However, the sun did shine again and the trust has returned now as I write these words”, thank you.
It is funny that we talk about Spiritual search as something of value when the Spirit only searches for new ways to keep us in creation.
I think that regret after finding out what energies we have been playing with and how we have expanded those in other people’s bodies is one of the aches I remember from my early days as well. When you have felt the lightness of the connection to soul, everything else stands out. We dull that connection so heavily that it feels disconnected, but in fact the soul waits patiently for the reconnection, gently pulling us back with a constant tension.
“I had a deeper knowing that there was still ‘something else’ that I was missing.” So many of us share this constant awareness that ‘something’ was missing. On my first meeting with Serge Benhayon I knew I had found the key to finding the lost piece of the jigsaw – me.
Not so long ago, I attended a mind body spirit fair for work, and I was really stunned at the energy around the place. There was a lot of people searching desperately un-discerningly for something. I could see how some of the people running the stalls took advantage of this, there were fortune tellers there, and card readers that I could hear being quite imposing in what they advised and recommended, this whole thing was quite an eye opener for me as I could really directly feel the harm and added devastation it was causing.
“Instead of just going “Whoops!!! I was mistaken,” I descended into remorse and regret, afraid and ashamed to face anyone.” Which is the same energy that has us taking the spiritual instead of the soulful path. The spirit loves the struggle because it creates a delay to us coming back to our soul and truly serving.
Learning the difference between Spirit and Soul is a re-awakening to the truth of everything – no wonder something the temporal world, and the spiritual new age work so hard to ensure this truth is buried, dismissed, obfuscated and bastardised.
It really is amazing when we feel the undeniable wisdom shared from our bodies, instead of reverting to the knowledge from our heads. Our bodies are the true markers of wisdom and when we are open and aware of the wonder we all hold, amazing transformations can occur.
Discovering the reality of there being two energies from which to choose to live life was an outright game changer for me too Roberta… and knowing how to choose the one that is truly loving was also pivotal. Prior to that I would think I was choosing love when in fact I was far from it. The teachings and presentations of Universal Medicine are enlightening and exposing of the way things really are… and with this understanding, it is possible to make sense of life in all it’s complication and intricacy.
It’s remarkable that after 25 years of searching you found a place where you could rest and become aware of the falsity of everything that came before, transform your life and start again with a deep knowing of truth and of finding what you had been seeking all along… yourself.
Great blog Roberta, it just goes to show how simply being met has such an impact on a person. It’s like we have the moment of truly meeting ourselves. No searching afield needed, its all there under our own nose, by simply connecting within.
“How could I have believed through all my spiritual searching that at any level I was being en-light-ened when the body grew heavier and heavier, leaving me 20 kilos overweight?” such a real and practical question that if we answer honestly for ourselves, will be the start of true healing. It doesn’t need to be extra weight – it can be the opposite where we are wasting away, ill-health of some kind, aches, pains, dis-eases – they all offer us a reflection of the truth of how we are living if we but open our heart’s ears to listen.
Roberta thank you so much for your honest blog. Your openness helped me to get a deeper understanding why people chose to be on their spiritual path. It made it very obvious for me that being spiritual can become an addiction – therefore you blog is gold – it can shake this people to stopp this unhealthy path.
It’s astounding how many of us hold on to extra body mass and feel comfortable and get encouraged to stay that way imbibing and eating substances that keep us numb to our true feelings. I love how frank you are in this blog and share your realisation of the two different energies that can run us, spiritual or soulful and your choosing to align to the soul when the attraction of the spirit has been so strong.
It is not that Serge Benhayon “taught” that there were two types of energy, and that people then “learned” the fact. He simply presented it as a possibility for people to consider. And sure enough, in time, if you are open to trialing what he has to say by looking at the way you live, you can feel the fact. Prana has a certain quality of heat to it – prickly, like static on a television set. Prana can also feel cold, empty, but also make you feel driven. In fact it has a thousand different flavours, which is why at first it is hard to discern – equally because it is an energy source we are used to running on. Fire, on the other hand, has a different quality of warmth. It is more an all encompassing emanation, a particular warmth that invites your body to surrender. Of course, the the difference between the two cannot be felt by the mind. It can only be felt through the body, and if truth be known, it is only when the body is in the state of fire that it can feel the fact of both. So, thus the esoteric way – thus the focus on the relationship with food, with looking after the body, with taking care of oneself, with renouncing the ways of the world so to speak – all of it designed to assist one to develop a body that can actually feel the fact of fire.
‘I have learned in my recent journeys, despite 25 years of spiritual searching, that the true book of wisdom I sought was in fact inside me all along.’ This book never leaves us, we can open it whenever we are ready to do so, ready to build a relationship with ourselves, a relationship with God.
Gorgeous Roberta ‘It is indeed revealing when we return to our true book of loving words and the wisdom within, that book being our body; after all, it is the marker of truth for each one of us.’ And with every book open and read and enjoyed in full we are a living library. 😉
“Why do we believe that someone/something out there knows more than each one of us knows intrinsically deep inside?” Great question, and one well worth considering.
I do not doubt the authenticity of people who have participated in channeling spirits etc – at least with regard to the fact I understand they are authentically channelling something. I have had first had experience with a weegie board when I was younger. The experience was real. The problem is that because it is so mysterious, and we cannot see what we are dealing with, we either discount it as a skeptic would, and decry it as not being real, or just as dangerously in my opinion, we give such spirits/forces more credence than we should. I did not go down the spiritual new age path as some have, and I do not judge those that have. I understand. There is a world of energy beyond that of physicality, and it makes sense to be drawn to it. However, the question that always prevented me from “believing” in the predictions of clairvoyants etc – even though in many cases I found them to be quite accurate – was one question. And that is – what are we playing with here, and what are these energies or spirits we call in and give our power away to? What is their purpose? And until such time as I could discern as such, I would not give them the time of day. To me this is super important. If you want to play in the world of energy, then know what you are dealing with, and until you can be sure you know beyond mere faith or hope, my advice would be to treat such things with a huge grain of salt, and whilst it is good to be open, it is equally important to be energetically discerning.
Amazing how much energy we put into searching outside of ourselves for the answers when they are there in our bodies waiting to be read all along.
Spiritual teachings offer you somewhere to go, something to get, which distracts you from the truth that is within us all along. We only get hooked by it if we say Yes to playing the game because our need for love and recognition creates an opening for the astral energy to enter. Once we are full of ourselves there is no room for anything but love and no door for any not-love to enter.
Roberta, I too was seduced and got caught in the illusion of spiritual teachings. As you say, I was “hooked” and I allowed the astral energy to run me. I knew something was not right because I got very drained and depressed until I started putting into practice the simple techniques suggested by Serge Benhayon. When I first met him, I felt seen and met as an equal and I connected to a strength within which I had forgotten. I realized also that “the true book of wisdom I sought was in fact inside me all along”.
Thank you Roberta for openly sharing your journey. I can so relate to many things in your journey, especially that the more I aligned to the astral energy the heavier I got. I have become much lighter as my relationship with the divine energy evolves.- thanks to Serge Benhayon presenting this to me.
In my spiritual searches I often came back to thinking I was not doing enough, not committed enough or not intelligent enough to progress and this was why I sunk to a deep emptiness at times. To get out of this horrible mind set and false searching has only been possible with the support of Universal Medicine, because I would have never settled for the rat race reality of life being enough and would have continued to follow my inner knowing there was more.
There is no doubting Serge Benhayons resolve in living and presenting truth
Thank you Roberta, for such an honest article and for your willingness to know what is truth and what is not.
Your description Roberta reminds me of when we search for our reading glasses, only after much exasperation to realise they are sitting on our head. Just like the glasses, our body and its feeling wisdom is with us in it all, just waiting patiently for us to stop frantically rummaging around the room.
“so from my chosen ignorance I played and cavorted heartily with that energy that took me even further away from my Soul.” The step towards responsibility is understanding that we make a choice as to what energy we align to because deep down we do know. I love that you’ve highlighted that it was a choice Roberta and one that we all have to either align to our Soul or our spirit.
The thing about the spiritual new age movement is that it does not teach or encourage you to discern energy sources. This is actually a very natural thing to do, as any child does it right from the start of life and if you talk with them about energetic qualities, they can tell you some fundamental truths that bring everything back in to perspective. But unfortunately we are rarely spoken with in this way and so that ability is buried or forgotten and we can begin to accept life for how it is presented to us, not realising that the ability to discern energy and to always see the source it is coming from is actually an essential key to life that was never lost.
Agree Shami what Serge Benhayon presents on the 2 sources of energy is absolute gold and was certainly a missing key in my life.
Roberta, you have asked some hugely important questions when you ask why we look outside ourselves when we have problems, rather than within. It goes to show how far away we have gradually moved to from understanding and trusting that we do have a lot of wisdom inside ourselves. I also found it hard to set aside the hurt around how often I had been duped in the past with various spiritualist ideas and to embrace what Universal Medicine offers, but I also recognised that there was something here that did feel true and it was just my mind fighting what I was being shown. Bit by bit I have been learning to embrace who I am and to trust that I do have untapped depths of wisdom to guide me through life.
It is a huge thing to recognize when we have been fooled and yes it is easy to descend into shape and remorsefulness. But such emotions only stem from the fact of our pride and investment in what we have created. If we were truly humble there would be no place for shame or regret for in humbleness we allow ourselves to see the greater picture of all things.
Sign me up Roberta for the group of retired Reiki Masters and spiritual searchers. The fact of there being two types of energy we can draw from is central to the presentations of Universal Medicine and central to the fact that there is a universal medicine and that is to become aware of the energy we choose.
I so love that Joel – ‘Sign me up for the group of retired reiki masters…’ – one has to laugh now at the ridiculousness of that scenario. For some sobering reason immediately springs to mind the current situation of a consciousness that encourages a developing insidious indoctrination/belief or further separation via suicide bombers, supposed martyrs and terrorists – a bit scary when one realizes that this is the same energy or consciousness that I allowed myself to believe was connected to God and His/Her all embracing Love. In humility I so appreciate that I chose to explore the fact of there being two energies that we can in any moment choose to align with, and they being the Soul or the spirit. This awareness has only come about as a result of my listening to my inner heart instead of looking outside of myself for the answers, subsequently meeting The World Teacher of Love and Wisdom Serge Benhayon, becoming a student of The Way of The Livingness and attending the heartfull presentations of Universal Medicine. What would the world be like if all the sons of God chose to be connected to their inner hearts – to their Soul, to the Fiery Consciousness.
I too got lost on the way to the truth Roberta. There is so much I have to thank Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon for. Thank you for your sharing,
How lucky are we all who have met and been met by Serge Benhayon.
Serge Benhayon offers something deeply supportive to humanity, he offers that everything energy and everything is then, because of energy, I stopped and pondered this and like the difference in the spirt and soul (as you mentioned) I saw clearly that I got to chose which energy I lived with. It is empowering beyond words to have this presented. And nothing strange about it, we all have felt our inner bodies when we go into a rage or indignation that something comes into our bodies that is a rush, an energy, it is not just emotion, we can feel how it can take us over. And yet we have the power to chose what we express, this is fundamental to how we can live life together, with responsibility.
I hadn’t heard this before, “I met many folk who like me, didn’t realise that there were two different energies to choose from: the spirit which is the separated aspect of the soul,” I can feel now through observation that my inner life’s essence, my soul expresses very differently from my spirt. Through paying attention for the last few years I can feel the difference, heavy or light, dark or light, dark or expansive, self or the all. I am choosing the All, my soul more and it feels naturally harmonious.
I loved the fact that you saw SERGE written across a van Roberta, your Soul was not going to let you miss this.
Yes it shows we are constantly given signs
“There has to be something else!!” the prominence of spiritual pursuits and self-help books today indicates to me that we actually deeply know the way we currently live is not ‘it’. Yet no presenter, that I know of has defined the existence of these two energies and our ability to feel this in the body like Serge Benhayon. Universal Medicine and The Way of The Livingness undress the spirit’s game, which has us seeking high and low for what we actually already have and know.
Our body is definitely our true antenna that senses and feels all. This is a realisation that we all must make and accept as true and we all need to go way beyond both analogue and digital on this!
Suse yes our body is a true antenna that senses and feels all
Just like you Roberta we all have that same book of wisdom within us equally that we can access anytime we choose. And with that ‘book being our body’ all we have to do is simply stop, appreciate and read the wisdom from our own bodies.
Yep, all we have to do is choose to listen! Much needed advise for me to take on board!
“It was about twenty five years ago when I was feeling very sad and hollow inside – and unbeknownst to me without true connection to myself, the true me – that I soon allowed an energy in to fill the empty space within me.”
I can relate to feeling this hollow pit of emptiness Roberta and trying to fill it with anything, everything and anyone to no avail. It’s an enormous blessing to have Serge Benhayon present with us at this time showing us that only the way to fill this emptiness is to cease looking outside ourselves and reconnect to that innermost part of ourselves and embrace the love that we are.
Thank you Roberta for sharing so honestly your journey out from the darkness of the spirit, and into the light of the soul, claiming the body as your true book of loving words, so beautifully said.
“Why do we not choose to look within to where all is known in every cell of our body?” Great question Roberta, it seems to be the last place we look! How awesome it is now that we know we don’t have to go very far for all of the answers we seek 🙂
Our body as a true book of loving words, I love that. And this book has many pages, with each page telling us something to listen to, or not, that is our choice.
I too over the years experimented or looked outside of myself rather, into the world of New-Age healing – It sometimes would give me a quick-fix and at other times, like with my experience with Reiki left me feeling uncomfortable and violated in some way.
What I deeply appreciate is the inner-knowing that once I was re-introduced to truth and the ancient wisdom of the Esoteric from Universal Medicine, and the integrity from which they present it was crystal clear that this truly is the way, leaving no space for anything less.
It takes a lot of honesty and courage to admit we have been fooled, sometimes over and over and always feeling ‘this is not it’ but at the same time thinking “oh perhaps it is just me” or ” this is better than nothing because there surely is something more to life than what is offered in the mainstream”. There is so much more in this blog and one I will return to often. The fact that we have been thinking instead of feeling and trying to work things out mentally, is a huge awareness. I was lost in this for a long time, in a very heady and superior ‘spiritual path’. Feeling was subjugated as being weak, fanciful and inferior. The truth to behold thanks to guidance from Universal Medicine, is that feeling is an amazing universal language and love is more powerful than thought in an infinitesimal way.
Our bodies are the best and most clear marker of how something ‘feels’ for us and yet we so often approach life from our head…”It’s interesting to note that I was constantly working with my mind – not ‘feeling’ from within or listening to my true antenna, my body.” Connecting with what the body shares and feels builds a deep wisdom and understanding, I can feel it developing within me and I have observed it and been inspired through seeing it being expressed by others.
Just imagine if every child was given one lesson in their early years, and that lesson was that all the answers they will ever need are all within and that searching outside of themselves will only take them further away from who they truly are. The world would be such a different place to live as humanity would be able to feel the truth of themselves and of all those around them, and true brotherhood would be the only way to live.
There was always another modality to try – “maybe this one has the real truth,” I thought.
I also tried modality after modality and got trapped in finding the next thing they all seemed similar in the end. Until I came across the teachings of Universal Medicine, it literally stopped me in my tracks and asked me to consider things I had never taken responsibility for.
I can relate to the bubble of bliss it is very easy to fall for. If it looks good and creates a distraction bringing relief it must be good, right? I have learnt that distraction is not healing or dealing with the issues.
A bit like the illusion of happy many things can make us happy but that doesn’t necessarily mean that they are good for us either – like an addict getting a fix of something they are temporarily happy to get a hit but it doesn’t bring true healing or joy. Or someone achieving an award or good grades they feel happy because of an accomplishment but it doesn’t take them closer to who they are.
Yes, I can relate to this searching Nicole. I didn’t last long with any modality because the novelty quickly wore off as I could see that there was a duplicity in what was being taught and how things were panning out in real life. Taking responsibility for myself was something I thought I already did but once I started to attend Universal Medicine I found that there was so much more to responsibility than what I had imagined. What is presented through Universal Medicine feels very true to me in every sense and over time I am finding that my foundation is steadily building and strengthening. My relationship with myself and others is more on track now than ever before in my life.
Great point that you make here – One of the greatest things I felt for time and time again was wanting more for others than I was prepared to live for myself – it just does not work, and holding onto that belief meant I was willing to give my power away to those who were not living what they were preaching as well because that supported my comfort.
For me the Gentle Breath Meditation, the simplicity of this meditation and learning about the difference between our spirt and our soul has been the wake up call after hiding myself in the New Age world where there was always something new to distract myself with. The Gentle Breath Meditation brought back the connection with my body and I am forever grateful for Serge Benhayon bringing this wisdom back to humanity.
Your words ring true for me also Annelies, having learned the Gentle Breath Meditation as presented by Serge Benhayon was for me like opening the door to my heart – revealing in the stillness the simplicity of reconnecting with one’s well of wisdom within.
Roberta thank you for sharing so openly about your spiritual searching. I wasted many years in the Spiritual New Age trying many different modalities, going to many workshops and I was addicted to seeing clairvoyants – I was in a desperate search for answers. Meeting Serge Benhayon was a turning point in my life as well, everything he said made complete sense, the true love and support he offered was like nothing I had experienced in my life. The search was over because finally I had found the truth – to reconnect to my inner heart where all the answers lie.
What is so permanent here is that nothing can be given to us – it is all for us to feel and accept within us – that makes us feel complete. I recognize this feeling very strongly of never feeling enough, also if you seemingly had everything you could think of. Until I met Serge Benhayon and his whole family , I realised I had just about everything in my life – simply because I had found something back again – that is me! Yes, just me and feeling the connection to myself and so to people – was that feeling of being enough in this world. No magazine can beat that. Only my heart can. I have learned how to be in connection with myself by the Gentle Breath Meditation, Esoteric Healing , Esoteric Yoga and many healing sessions by Esoteric Professional Practioners.
Thank you for sharing this Roberta, an inspiring unfoldment to the true self. And the title is very poignant – ‘Spiritual Searching – I Too was Seduced’ – says it all really. Great food for thought for us.
I agree Jenny, the title does say it all. I’ve definitely had moments where I have been seduced by the spiritual new age, for at first it appears to answer all those questions about who you are and what your purpose is here. It doesn’t take long to realise that none of what is being fed to you is not true when you experience what truth actually feels like. 2 very different things.
I have definitely had these moments / periods also Elodie, but in the end, I realised I only had to be honest and feel my own body to see and hear the real truth.
Thanks Roberta for highlighting how harmfull the new age spiritual arena is, as not only do these modalities fail to resolve any issues they take you further away from your soul
Thank you Joe for your comment and yes, I agree with you, as I ultimately discovered the further I dallied within the arena of the Spiritual New Age some years ago now, I still have a clear memory of how endless and fruitless was the time spent trying to fill that space, allowing the absorption of those modalities of enticing and varying kinds that offered promises of this and that – but all the while as I dallied there, the hurts and the emotional issues were being buried further into other parts of me, supposedly giving an apparent impression of ‘healing’ as sometimes the symptoms seemed to vanish – aah ha! but the truth is, as I discovered, that what was occurring truly, was that the ‘hurts and issues’ could only be revealed, addressed, cleared and perhaps healed by the choice to connect with my inner heart, that still place within where we may reconnect to the Ageless Wisdom Teachings as shared by Serge Benhayon at Universal Medicine.
It is quite remarkable to read the comments Linda, and I feel the loving energy that is held within the expressions reminding me just how far we have all come as we have traversed our various paths constantly and consistently unfolding the truth of who we are truly within. I have to almost pinch myself at times to confirm that yes, we are here, having chosen to be here at this time when the World Teacher, Serge Benhayon is offering humanity a true direction – that is, back to reconnecting with Soul.
Roberta I too have been inspired by Serge Benhayon to honour, respect my body and listen to its wisdom. It is a very restful place to be, quite different from the spin, anxiety and promises I pursued in my New Age Spiritual. I understand now that I was so driven because I knew there was more to life, I knew there was a depth of wisdom within me.
The book of loving words is most definitely within our loving hearts and lived in this body and as you say Roberta it is key if we want to deliver the truth that we understand and feel what is passing through us all the time. Thank God for Serge Benhayon who has stood up and delivered what we have all been waiting for. We always have a choice and knowing the difference between prana and fire has unravelled a lot of the mysteries in life and humbled any desire for recognition that has been the driving force and addiction for lifetimes!
“There was always another modality to try – maybe this one has the real truth,” This sentence says it all. While we are still searching we have not found the truth but when we met Serge Benhayon we knew we are hearing the truth and the nagging searching for something ‘more’ from outside of us was over. Serge Benhayon inspires us to feel within to find love and who we truly are.
I agree Mary, and to repeat your words “Serge Benhayon inspires us to feel within to find love and who we truly are.” – and that’s it in a nutshell really.
In the past we were thrilled to find that there was more to life than we could see. That seemed enough but it was not. That there was far, far more than that, more than just ghosts and astral planes, chakras and magical healings, by far more responsibility to discern what the truth of these energies were, doesn’t occur to many, but it should. In the world we can’t see, there are those 2 energies to choose from, the one that connects us to our soul, love, and the one that takes us away from it, just as there is in the world we can see, and we can feel both in our bodies.
I loved reading your expose Roberta. Serge Benhayon presents this so clearly and the lovely thing is that we know these things within us. This is our knowledge from our hearts. I thank God and feel so blessed to be where I am today. We don’t need to beat ourselves up over past mistakes, we need to extend that love to ourselves and come back to the truth of our connection with love, with our soul. That’s all the excitement we need.
Amanda, yes, indeed, as you say all any of us really need is that re-connection with ourselves from that still place within, and to repeat your words “That’s all the excitement we need.”. Love it.
Roberta I went through giving my power away to the New Age movement, read hundreds of books with all different ways of becoming enlightened but like you still felt empty. I can relate to your comment “Why do we believe that someone/something out there knows
m ore than each one,out and a feeling of this is it, I have come home at last!
Roslyn, I just had to smile on reading your words of having “….read hundreds of books…” – had me thinking back to that time – and yes, bookshelves full of self-help/new-age and whatever else indicated that the answer was in that book. Interesting isn’t it when we recall and reflect on those empty times of searching outside of ourselves – when in an instant Serge Benhayon had reminded me that all that I was seeking was truly held within – and what I was seeking was a reconnection to my divine love – no need for hundreds of new-age style books, for now it seems that the depth of the Ageless Wisdom, if I feel to read about it, is in a handfull of purple cover books, 8 so far, that deepen and confirm that which is known somewhere deep within each one of us. How glorious.
Thank you Roberta, yes it is a big pill to swallow when we have the understanding of the actual harm we cause to others and ourselves when we get caught up in the spiritual journey which keeps us totally disconnected from the true essence of who we are. Thank goodness for Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon for showing us and living the way we can come back to our soul.
I agree Francisco – certainly a ‘bitter pill’ – but I am learning that it is neither helpful or healing to wander back into the ‘what-if’s’, and the ‘if onlys’ that might have been if I had chosen to unfold me 50 years earlier – however, the returning journey has now re-commenced and maybe next time around I will choose more wisely and listen from within sooner rather than later.
Thank you for sharing your huge awakening Roberta. It is very powerful and your honesty and sweetness is palpable.
Suzanne I appreciate your comment, and I agree I did feel it to be a ‘huge awakening’ for me at that time, but from my since interraction with other students who have felt to share intimate backgrounds before ‘finding’ Universal Medicine, my story pales as far as the difficulties and hurdles of life that many of the students have experienced before their ah ha moment – quite humbling really.
I shake my head in astonishment when I look back at all the modalities I invested in and have to be very careful not to give myself a hard time which I’ve realised can be an indulgence in itself and one I have to be very aware of. I say brava for you Roberta – that you knew you’d found the truth when it finally presented itself in Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine.
Deborah, thank you for your comment and the word that stood out for me was ‘indulgence’ . Aah yes! That so reminds me of the responsibility we have to see and feel the deeper point of the exercise if we do choose to descend into a behaviour of ‘self flaggelation’ (beating up oneself) – and there you have presented it in a word ‘indulgence’. Awesome isn’t it – there is a learning for us in every moment – indeed it seems we are forever a student.
Thank you Roberta for this brilliantly honest account of how easy it is to be hooked in by what is not of our innate knowing. It is beautiful that what you also reveal here is that that innate knowing never leaves us no matter how ‘far out’ we may find ourselves from our true connection to God.
Yes, I have found that to be true Giselle, that “innate knowing never leaves us no matter how ‘far out’ we may find ourselves from our true connection to God.” I have also found that as I have re-developed trust, trust in myself and my connection to God that the majesty of all the wonders of the universe may be shown to me and known to me as I expand my awareness that even as I walk I walk amongst the field of God’s Love in the very space that surrounds us. How remarkable it is to know we are forever a student.
Gorgeous Roberta, yes truly remarkable it is to feel ourselves as the forever student we are, and equal in this with each and every one of our brothers and sisters – the warmth of Brotherhood.
A fabulous piece of writing Roberta as I and many have fallen for the new age modalities out there. For me, I got myself into rebirthing, reiki, tantra, singing bowls and yoga, and all they ever provided was temporary relief and bury my stuff deeper. I was not aware of this until I attended courses by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, and all that stuff that got buried started to come up for clearing….. Thank goodness I found Universal Medicine which brought me also back to reconnecting with my body and my soul.
You hit the nail on the head here Jacqmcfadden04 when you say “…all they ever provided was temporary relief….” when you were referring to the various illusionary new-age modalities that many of us ‘tried’ while seeking from emptiness. I do remember this, the relief, but this relief was short lived and so on the merry-go-round of seeking more of that relief we jumped right back on that unicorn horse on the carousel to recklessly go around for another ride. I always knew there was ‘something else’ back then, but that elusive missing link so to speak I did not discover until I met Serge Benhayon and began attending the Universal Medicine presentations – no more ‘relief’ just truth – and it felt amazing. It seems we all have the ability to recognize true Truth and Love from deep within for that is where we come from, and I thank God for that.
Roberta these words are heaven sent ‘…when we return to our true book of loving words and the wisdom within, that book being our body; after all, it is the marker of truth for each one of us.’
Thank you Lee for your comment – yes, it is all very simple really isn’t it, if we but give ourselves permission to feel. It seems that we actually do always have a choice.
And that is the clue, ‘if we give ourselves permission to ‘feel’, everything starts to change in our life, as we start listening to what we feel and from that we slowly build trust, trust in the fact that we have all we ever need inside of us.
A great account of a journey taken by so many to a destination that was never understood or expected. I too entered the spiritual wilderness, to wander about, entranced by false lights that led nowhere other than further into the dark. False gurus who lived “eccentric” lives, using their eccentricity as a foil to get away with exploiting trust. Sexual impropriety, financial exploitation all presented as way of development. I had seen it all, but knew not how to get out.
That was until I met a Sacred Esoteric Healer. A true light was ignited inside me, the path I had sought was illuminated, within where it had always been.
Rachel, thank you for your comment and I love your words when referring to meeting a mutual friend, a Sacred Esoteric Healer. “A true light was ignited inside me, the path I had sought was illuminated, within where it had always been.” I could feel the depth of a loving and healing truth revealed as I read your words.
My sentiments exactly dentistryinharmony, and also my experience; ‘That was until I met a Sacred Esoteric Healer. A true light was ignited inside me, the path I had sought was illuminated, within where it had always been’.
Beautiful expressed Rachel and yes there is nothing more divine than the feeling of our true essence being reignited back to who we truly are.
This path feels true. The steps we take along it are solid and strong.
Roberta, this was my journey too..”There was always another modality to try – “maybe this one has the real truth,” I thought. Even though all these modalities entranced me and excited me I had a deeper knowing that there was still ‘something else’ that I was missing.” I was also lost in the Spiritual path-not realising there were two energies-prana and fire. This was such a great revelation to me when I finally realised it. This was the dawning of the Truth and the true way forward for me.
Thank you Irena for your comment, and yes I agree with your words expressed – indeed a great revelation when the ‘penny drops’ so to speak and one gets it – ‘it’ being that little piece of the puzzle that seemingly has been so elusive for quite some time. I thank God for Serge Benhayon, and the presentations at Universal Medicine that showed the possibility of there being another way – the way of Truth, and ‘The Way It Is’ (Purple Book No. 1).
What a truly fascinating story and I loved the sign of Serge Benhayon’s name up the side of the van that couldn’t be ignored. It is interesting however how we tend to look for and follow signs from the outside and yet ignore our own body when it is telling us something is not true. It is inspiring that you walked away from the identity and income you had created through your spiritual adventures and humbly returned to the truth, listening to your body and the innate love within. A gorgeous turnaround.
Thank you Samantha, – yes, that’s it in a nutshell isn’t it – ‘litening to your body and the innate love within.” – I wonder what it is that makes one choose to ‘not’ listen to, but to over-ride what you know that the body is trying to impart to you – what a force that must be. But how awesome it is when we remember that when we are connected to our truth, to that spark within, that that ‘force’ has no such power over what we know in our inner heart to be so, thus I found the importance of understanding the difference between the two energies that are there for us to choose to align to – the energy of the Soul consciousness or the energy of the mind via the Astral consciousness. Simple really – but as I have found along the way, not always easy.
It is such a simple yet oh so powerful point you highlight Roberta in what energy do we choose. Firstly, though, we need to know that there are 2 energies to choose from.
Last month I read an amazing book to a 10 year old boy, the back cover read;
“And the old man tells his grandson that there is a battle raging inside him, inside all of us, a terrible battle between two wolves. One wolf is bad– pride, jealousy, greed. The other wolf is good- kindness, hope, truth. The child asks “who will win?” The grandfather says simply, the one you feed”
Thanks Shirl, I have heard that quotation before, but could not remember how the preceding words led to the punch line – “the one you feed”. It’s very apt of course and brings ones awareness to which energy source are we supporting or aligning to – the energy source of the human spirit or our divine soul. One wonders why it would appear there is such a difficulty with that – why is not the world a glorious example of divine love – indeed why is it that any one of us are not consistently that – a glorious example of divine love. Back to the drawing board made up of choices I guess.
I can so relate to what you are sharing with us Roberta. I was also searching my entire life and I’m so grateful, that today I know now, that I don’t have to look outside myself. Everything what I need is inside me, I just have to listen to my body / soul. Wonderful.
Isn’t it awesome Alexander 1207 – that the search is over, no more looking outside of ourselves for the answers – and to repeat your words “Everything what I need is inside me, I just have to listen to my body/soul. ” One wonders at times, indeed ‘what took me so long’ – but maybe this time around I had to wait until I listened a little more closely and chose to meet the bearer of The Ageless Wisdom, Serge Benhayon, and begin opening up my connection to the divine within as a result of this first meeting and thence attending the presentations of Universal Medicine.
Knowing that there are two energies and that there is Spirit and Soul has opened up other worlds for me, it was like stepping out into the light and slowly getting a grasp of the world, life as such and all that happens in the world.
I agree Esther, just being offered that simple little piece of wisdom at a time when I had not even considered that there was a difference in ‘energy’ or the importance of being offered the whole story, not just a portion of the truth. I found it to be a valuable thing to be aware of, understood and explored and was indeed life changing for me – but the interesting thing I noticed within myself, is that it was a truth that I knew intrinsically once reminded – it didn’t feel like a ‘new’ piece of information – it was just that I had forgotten to be aware of the fact of there being the energy of the human spirit and the energy of our divine connection, that is soul energy. One wonders why this simple truth is not even touched upon in the first years of education in our schools. I thank God for this basic fact being shared with us through the presentations of Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon.
Hi Roberta, loved your story and as many have commented many can relate as do I with a slightly different story but in truth it really doesn’t matter what path we went down before we heard this life changing revelation that you expressed here so beautifully: “there were two different energies to choose from: the spirit which is the separated aspect of the soul, or the soul which is our true connection to God“. And then all there is to do is to be committed to making that choice on a moment to moment basis.
I agree Kathleen with the words in your last sentence “And then all there is to do is to be committed to making that choice on a moment to moment basis.” – and that is the trick I feel, developing the awareness and knowing one does actually have a choice to make a different choice. How absolutely freeing from the shackles of past beliefs that I have heard uttered on more than one occasion “but I didn’t/don’t have a choice”. This may have been a belief in the past, but as a result of being a student of the Way of The Livingness I am learning one always has a choice – either serving the human spirit, or aligning with our divine aspect, the soul – it’s a no-brainer really, isn’t it.
Yes Roberta as you say, “either serving the human spirit, or aligning with our divine aspect, the soul – it’s a no-brainer really, isn’t it”. It is a no-brainer indeed. In fact a great place to start making better choices is just a matter of listening to what our body is telling us rather than our brain is dictating as our body will never lie. An example being when it is tired we feel it. We can always choose to override this tiredness with sugar and caffeine but that will always be a choice that is coming from our head.
Thank you for your sharing your story, Roberta. I love reading about how those who used to be heavily into the spiritual seeking had dropped all their knowledge and techniques accumulated as well as their status that came with it to ground themselves on the true path of return. And there’s no coercion involved in this change of direction, it was simply done by someone reflecting the truth. It’s truly remarkable.
That’s true Fumiyo, that is exactly as you descibe “there’s no coercion involved in this change of direction, it was simply done by someone reflecting the truth.”. It seems to me that the word ‘reflecting’ is a very power-full word and there comes with that word a sense of great responsibility in understanding truly what ‘reflecting the truth’ means to us all.
Roberta, I had similar experiences as yourself. Heading for the spiritual new age. For me it was very addictive, going from one modality to another, building a collection of modalities that I could practice, for just in case. But there was no discernment in this whatsoever. I operated under the assumption that it’s associated with an alternative lifestyle, so it must be good, or if someone has a particular ability I need to study with them. One of the key markers for me that this is not a healing path was that I was sending myself broke and or poor through the arrogance of being attached to these modalities and the ideal of doing good, my health wasn’t great either, but the money was the stand out. It’s funny how we don’t look at the obvious things in our life to see if something is true for us or not.
Hi Jennifer, thank you for your comment – I found my eyes drawn to your use of the word ‘addictive’ – and yes, I now see that it is true, for without true discernment or any modicum of inner awareness about the choices being made back then the modalities of the spiritual new age I can say now were indeed ‘addictive’. I thank God that my eyes were opened, or rather that the eyes of my inner heart finally overrode the illusion that my human eyes and mind had me believing back then and thus followed my inner-tuition and made an appointment to meet Serge Benhayon – it was a point my life completely opened up to Truth and Love, then followed my choice to attend my first presentation of Universal Medicine at a workshop where I learned the difference between spirit and soul.
The unfolding of the developing awareness showed me how amazing we all intrinsically are within – no further need to seek for glitz or glamour outside of ourselves at all.
Shame and guilt is a dark path. One that leaves very few exit routes. Thats why the understanding of spirit and soul is so important as the choices made aren’t specified to the abuse delivered but the choice made to align to something other that what we/you are. A deeper understand of the choice made may be more beneficial than that of beaten one’s self up, which from personal experiences goes no where fast.
I agree with your words Luke that “….beating one’s self up, which from personal experiences goes no where fast.” and I learned of that little gem the hard way, by allowing myself to wallow in remorse, guilt and regret for quite a time following the light-bulb moment when I finally discovered that I had been duped, by allowing my ignorance of the fact of there being actually two energies that one could choose to align with – Soul or spirit.
As you say “understanding of spirit and soul is so important” – and one wonders at the huge force of illusion that endeavours to have that piece of truth held from the general populace – but no more, we are now informed, we are re-membering that we do know these things within.
Shame and guilt is a dark path. One that leaves very from exist routes. Thats why the understanding of spirit and soul is so important as the choices made aren’t specified to the abused delivered but the choice made to align to something other that what we/you are. A deeper understand of the choice made may be more beneficial than that of beaten one’s self up, which from personal experiences gets us no where.
Thank you Roberta for sharing your return to you – truly inspiring. In all the years I spent in search for the truth I too was seduced by spiritual practices and beliefs. However, regardless of my lacking awareness at that time I always had a sense deep down that I would know if something was the absolute truth. It just took some time to come to it especially after for settling for the ‘near enough’. At that time I was not aware that what was actually guiding me was the feeling in my body. This has been an empowering realisation. That even when we are not aware of it, or truly listening our bodies, they are constantly reflecting the truth to us. I have learned and continue to learn, how when we begin to pay attention to our bodies and realise that all we are and need is within and we can begin to make choices that honor the love and truth that we are within.
Carole as I was reading your comment I had this feeling flood my body that no matter what we have unwittingly allowed ourselves to be seduced or influenced by, the overriding feeling is that we have been lovingly held by the deepest profound energy guiding and calling us to return to the magnetic pull of the soul to Love and find our way back to the overall path of the Divine Plan – and the feeling I get is that at some level we have an understanding that even though the road may be strewn with boulders of challenges and difficult experiences there is a knowingness somehow that all is known and that divine plan that we have assigned to and aligned with long ago is held within. Interesting to notice that we both have completed the comment with the word ‘within’.
It’s a great point to make- when we don’t know who we are we can be culled into anything and not realise the harm we are doing to ourselves.
Yes Emily, I have learned to recognize the responsibility we have to not just float along in an ignorant fashion, like a piece of flotsam on the overflow of a flooded creek, but to know we have the choice to develop awareness about all things that are there to take hold and influence us in one way or another – for the possibility of all our actions may at some point affect all else in our universe.
Hello Roberta, even though the spiritual new age was initially chosen, within you is a deep love and care for humanity. Many bounce along the periphery of spiritual new age, indulging in the culture, but you had a real desire to support others, you were dedicated. Many have been tricked, seduced or pulled into the ‘alternative’ lifestyles of which there are many, but there is only one true choice, and that is re-connecting with truth, with soul… With God.
Matthew, you are so right, about those that may choose to indulge in the culture of the new age modalities, but the interesting thing that I have learned along the way is that we must be very aware of the energy that is behind whatever it is that is ‘attracting’ or ‘inspiring’ one – and unfortunately, though my intention was to serve, at that time I was ignorant of the fact of there being two energies from which to choose to align with – hence, the lessons learned and still am learning. What I am learning now, is that whatever you create, that is in a piece of art, music or producing a book, or whatever it is – if that choice has not come from a position of being clear as to which energy one is aligned with at that time of ‘creation’ – it seems it will always hold that unclear energy, thus always reflecting something that is not in cinque with our innerheart, where true inspiration resides.
I had not spent as many years looking as you, Roberta, for that ‘something else’ that was missing from me that I need to be more, from outside of me. I, like you found Serge Benhayon, it was the coming home for me. To find out that this was not something I lost and had to re-find, it was just something I had turned my back on and forgot where I had put it inside of me.
That’s it – isn’t it sjmatsonuk, and I had to smile – yes, indeed. “…this was not something I lost and had to re-find, it was just something I had turned my back on and forgot where I had put it…..” – I love that.
I have had a similar journey Roberta and really appreciate your sharing here. Especially emphasising what a huge influence we allow our mind to have over us rather than simply feeling from the body
Thank you for your comment elainearthey, and your words “…what a huge infuence we allow our mind to have over us…” is so very revealing. I have found the further along we develop our innate awareness of where we truly fit in the world or what is our purpose here in this life the more we connect the dots and discover that when only being influenced by the mind that this choice may be fraught with diminished thinking. I have discovered that for all of those years where I had no idea(or rather I had obviously chosen to forget) of there being only two energies to choose to align with in any given moment, and believing I only had the mind to rely on dismissed the wisdom of reaching into the innermost where the primary choice may be made. Yes, we have seemingly misunderstood that the mind can be fed information from the astral plane and not necessarily contain the truth of the matter at hand.
Hi Roberta, I can relate to so much of what you have written – have spent ten years looking at new age modalities – none of which were ‘it’, there was always a missing piece, ‘me’. It was Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine presentations that brought truth and I knew this was the ‘it’ which allowed me to re-connect back to me.
That made me smile Judy – “there was always a missing piece, ‘me’.”!! That’s it isn’t it – I feel the question being indeed ‘where was the heart of me in all of that outside seeking?’
I feel that could be the responsible question to ask of oneself, do I go with what I think, or do I actually choose the loving alternative and go with what I feel.
It’s great to re-read this piece Roberta as it is a great reminder that we do indeed have the greatest wisdom within. We need look no further than the beating of our own inner heart to know that the love we seek comes from within and not with out.
That is so true Jade, and repeating your words “…that we do indeed have the greatest wisdom within.” One wonders why that truth is not more widely known and felt, why it is not encouraged to be expounded as a natural truth in any and every corner of education and the business world, indeed in our every day life.
Thanks Roberta, and as we learn to understand the wisdom that we have deep within, the trust can return, because as we learn to trust ourselves we are able to open up to others and then they may find it easier to open up and trust again… it was through Serge Benhayon and his absolute consistency and steadiness of love, that allowed the me to learn trust once more.
Yes Annie, I feel what you are saying about ‘trust’ . Over time I have discovered that it was necessary for me to move from what was a belief that I did not trust some ‘thing’ over there, some energy, some situation – some thing that was outside of me,however, when I connected the dots and realized it was ‘me’ that I did not trust it provided a whole new platform of understanding and opportunity for me to look within and unravel where that lack of trust was hiding and clear it. I have found it to be true that all is known deep within.
One of the biggest, if not THE biggest insight is that our body accurately reflects our spiritual state of being. Everything about spirituality negates or hardens the body and steers us away from this simple insight.
Once we realise that our body is the true reflection it only becomes a matter of time for us to find our way to truth, love and joy.
Thank you Christoph for your comment – yes, when I look back and can see now by reflecting on how my body did react exactly as you say – “..spirituality negates or hardens the body and steers us away from this simple insight.” Indeed, it is a simple insight to feel how the body is responding to the behaviours of spiritual healing that I was then involved in, but there is the confirmation of that statement, spiritual healing I found actually prevented me from ‘truly feeling’ and dulled the natural insight that there was indeed a connection with that involvement and the bloating, the water retention, the lethargy and weight gain. What a gift from God it truly was when I finally met Serge Benhayon and began attending the presentations of Universal Medicine and discovered the truth about there being two energies that we can choose to align with – i.e. the spirit(that is behind new-age and spiritual healing modalities) and Soul – reconnecting us with the natural wisdom and divine aspect within us all.
Well said Christoph” Everything about spirituality negates or hardens the body and steers us away from this simple insight.” our true connection with our bodies and the honouring of the true nature of our being is our way to truth.
We know there is something missing, hence the elusive search and the tantalising spiritual quest, one that I certainly embarked on. This venture also took me further away from all that I was looking for, until I came across Universal Medicine. It was only then that I actually knew what I was looking for and it was right here all along. My body is like a homing device for love and truth and I need look no further…
So true Sara – I love how you express ” “My body is like a homing device for love and truth and I need look no further…” – and that is what I have discovered – if only I had listened to or taken notice of that ‘homing device’ and felt from within rather than seeking outside of me all those years ago. I have found that the “if only” must be replaced with taking responsibility and feeling the truth of there always being a choice.
Thank you Mary, yes, that was my experience – that foray of the spiritual journey that took me further away from my truth – and yes, like religious institutions, sport institutions etc. the potential is certainly there to have one actually lose touch and forget completely who we are and why we are here.
The thing with True Love and True Truth that I have observed during the presentations I have attended by Universal Medicine is the level of self-responsiblity and thus integrity for all that True Love pulls us up to live all of the time. Amazing how much our spirit inside us resists this!
Thank you Joshua, and that is my experience as you say “Amazing how much our spirit inside us resists this!” – and I am finding that my human spirit digs its proverbial heels in even harder presently, with a resistance that appears to be very determined to not embrace true loving changes. I am also finding that it is apparent that one must be ‘relentless’ in lovingly always choosing to come back to the gentle breath and the stillness of the inner to off-set the practice of the human spirit (who unfortunately from our own choosing) has for millennia been given free reign and allowed to be in charge and in control of the human mind.
A Livingness of choosing Love in every moment, to the best of our ability of course 🙂
How could I have believed through all my spiritual searching that at any level I was being en-light-ened when the body grew heavier and heavier, leaving me 20 kilos overweight? – I too followed the spiritual path, Roberta, and ended up more overweight and even more miserable. Nowadays I am much lighter, both in weight and in mood!
An interesting point I also found Natalie – the extra 20+ kgs. that seemed to just accumulate the longer I stayed in that energy of the spiritual modality consciousness. It’s really quite laughable I find when one sees that the more one dabbles in that false ‘light’ the ‘heavier’ one seems to become – must be all that extra unneccessary baggage. Springs to mind how funny it would be if we had to pay for this type of ‘additional unnecessary baggage’ at the air-port before boarding a plane – that could be the thread of a cartoon strip – ‘twould be hilarious I feel, seeing one take of the cartoon showing such passengers being taken to a de-briefing room for some gentle breath exercises to light-en the load before re-connecting with their flight.
Beautiful Roberta, we know it all deep with in our bodies, but we often choose to not go there because of how much it has hurt for not going there for a long time.
Yes Benkt, we now know, or rather, we now have remembered that “we know it all deep with in our bodies,…” and I found at that time of realization that I chose to feel so bad about the situation that I went into overwhelm, but now knowing I could have chosen to not do that but just say “oops! I certainly stuffed that up! or to put it more politely oops! I made a mistake” and just get on with it. It seems the opportunities to evolve are being continuousy shown to us. I constanly appreciate the choice I made to meet Serge Benhayon and to attend the Universal Medicine presentations.
I too felt remorse for being allowed to be manipulated and deceived. The harm I caused myself and others. I too didn’t know the two types of energies that we can allow through us. I too have experienced my body shedding excess kilos.There is a light at the end of this tunnel thanks to Serge Benhayon for showing the way.
Thank you for your comment Concetta – yes, in some sort of strange way it feels slightly supportive knowing that I, you, we were not the only ones who were ‘hooked’ by the glamour and illusion of the spiritual new age. One would almost have the feeling that we were all linked in some way for so many to be attracted by this falsity, however it feels like we really were deeply longing to be one unified in brotherhood – it’s just that the decision made was to turn left so to speak, instead of turning right – always a choice. It seems to confirm my feeling that we are truly more than just responsible for ourselves, for it feels to me as though all of our thoughts, decisions and choices actually ultimately affect everybody else as well. PHew!! that’s a very big piece of responsibility to swallow easily.
I’ve often heard about the the spiritual new age, only to fob it off and not not take any notice of how big it is and the sheer volume of people who have, and are being hooked into the modalities that as mentioned in the blog by Roberta, take you further away from truly knowing who you are
I found this to be so true Jaime, when you make reference to the spiritual new age modalities “take you further away from truly knowing who you are”. It seems that there is even a greater and growing belief system around these modalities being able to tell you what happened in the past, what is going to happen in the future, etc. etc. etc., and the growing curiosity of that part of us which is not within the inner heart, but in the human brain seems to be of exploding proportions. One has to wonder has this disconnectedness from one’s true self have anything to do with the growing mental illness statistics.
Hi Roberta, this is a great account of how the spiritual new age or anything else ‘out there’ is not what we are truly looking for, and will never completely fill that space that is the connection with our soul. Thank you for sharing.
Hi Melissa – yes, I agree with your words that anything outside of ourselves ..will never completely fill that space that is the connection with our soul.” Thankfully, we remembered that sooner rather than later – one wonders where we would be at if we had not chosen to re-connect with our inner selves as has been presented to us as a possibility by Serge Benhayon at the presentations of Universal Medicine.
Well said Melissa, the spiritual new age keeps one in separation to their being so it is easier to abuse and disregard the body, Honouring our connection with our bodies and hearts is definitely the only way forward.
Very beautiful Roberta, it is crazy indeed, the spiritual and new age movement is as I feel constantly searching for something new, it never fills what we miss, the only thing as you said is in our own bodies and the true connection with the soul.
Thank you Benkt – and yes, I agree with your words “the spiritual and new age movement is as I feel constantly searching for something new…” – and at that time I found that was what was so addictive – yet another modality to try out, so many choices of the one ill energy whereas the Ageless Wisdom is just that – Ageless, and it is there within each one of us – how absolutely awesome and unifying when we come to that awareness.
What an awesome turning point to discover that there are two energies to choose from in everything we do, say and think and that the true answers are to be found within. And it is thanks to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine that this knowledge is so freely and easily available to all.
Thanks Gabriele for your comment and yes, that is exactly what I felt was true when I attended the presentations of Universal Medicine and meeting Serge Benhayon that there are two energies one chan choose to align with – why did I not know of that before I wonder. Imagine that, only two – either choosing to align with the energy of the human spirit and outside of ourselves or our deeper place within, our soul connection. It seems to me that if this awareness was known and felt by all those of us who chose to play in the field of the spiritual new age those years ago, and seeking outside of ourselves for answers, coloured also by our ignorance, and maybe a touch of arrogance – there is the distinct possibility that we would not have chosen the wayward path that took us further away from our connection to stillnesss within, our soul. But, as I discovered it is never too late to say “oops – I was mistaken”.
It is so clever of our spirit to not let us know there are 2 forms of energy – one that keeps us seeking for the next thing and keeps us individual, the other brings us back to a steady knowing of ourselves and our connection with all. We innately know about energy but in our ignorance of which energy we are receiving, we swallow anything that allows us to play with energy. I am one of the many who fell for this too, but like you, once I met Serge Benhayon I had a marker of soul and truth and couldn’t claim ignorance any longer.
That is so true Fiona – once we are reminded that there are two energies that we can choose to align with, and ignorance is no longer an excuse – why would one choose the way of harm over healing – it wouldn’t make sense at all. I love your words “once I met Serge Benhayon I had a marker of soul and truth and couldn’t claim ignorance any longer.” Beautiful!.
Beautiful Fiona, you have it in a nutshell, and the realisation that there was always a part of us that knew what was true deep inside is sometimes difficult to admit because we have allowed so much of what is not true to carry on. So we have just cruised in a lesser way because it the other seemed to big to tackle, or too uncomfortable to face what we have been playing in. Through Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, I was reminded of just what I do know, and it has been a process of unfolding and learning the extent of our chosen ignorance ever since.
Thanks Annie, I agree with you and I too found “Through Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, I was reminded of just what I do know…”
To be totally honest and admit that we have been fooled is awesome and then to reach a place of accepting our ill-choices is profound. I too have dabbled in the spiritual new age going from one course to another and what amazed me was my arrogance. I, like Roberta thought I knew it all! Thankfully, I met Serge Benhayon, came back down to earth and was offered another way. The search was over.
“I agree Caroline and to repeat your words “To be totally honest and admit that we have been fooled is awesome and then to reach a place of accepting our ill-choices is profound.” I found my own reactions oscillated from being quite remorseful and shattered at the thought that I had been so naive to have been so sucked in, arrogant I daresay, believing that I had at that hollow stage communing with God to absolute humility at the gift I had eventually been offered in meeting Serge Benhayon to bring me to truth. Yes, “the search was over.”
Truly loving and inspiring words here Roberta – and a great expose on how the spiritual new age takes one further from the true light and love that resides within us all equally so.
So true Gemma “…how the spiritual new age takes one further from the true light and love that resides within us all equally so.” – and even though I became aware of that truth a few years ago now, there are ones that I have known for a couple of decades that were playing in that field of un-truth alongside myself, that even though the evidence is there now as to my well-ness and inner health they still choose to not see nor feel the difference between soul and spirit. Aaah! I find that at times quite un-understandable, that is quite the opposite of ‘understandable’ but the gift of allowance must step forth and simply allow others to make their own choices.
What you say Roberta makes me wonder if we are truly ‘unaware’ of the energetic facts of life, or whether we are simply choosing to hide from the truth? Because as you so beautifully say when we get real and connect to our bodies, its like this wisdom has always been there. Thank you for connecting this way and sharing this excerpt from the book of you.
You make a great point Joseph. I feel that it is our pride that gets in the way of us choosing to be ‘aware’ – that allows us to carry on with things that don’t feel true. Society has its rules and expectations – that we are all ‘ok’, ‘successful’, ‘happy’. I remember always feeling that something was missing, that things weren’t quite right – but rather than express that or even fully admit that to myself, I carried on pretending that everything was ok. Through the support of Universal Medicine I was able to deeply connect with myself and get honest about what I was feeling.
Brooke, on reading your comment the word that flared out for me to take notice of was ‘pride’ – yes, I hadn’t thought of that before when you say “I feel that it is our pride that gets in the way of us choosing to be ‘aware’ ….” and that makes sense to me, the pride of the human spirit is such that it seems it simply doesn’t want to be exposed and to be found out that ‘it’ is definitely not the beholder of the intimate truth of us – I feel in fact it had been a belief(unbeknownst to myself back then) that it held the only key to our evolution – but like many have discovered, I also found that that belief was a lie – perhaps a pride-full lie of the human spirit part of us.
Thank you Joseph, I love your reference to ‘ sharing this excerpt from the book of you” – wow, that made me smile, I hadn’t quite seen that before, and seeing the end of a chapter presenting an opportunity to lovingly move on to Truth, without holding on to blame, shame or guilt is the opportunity in the next chapter, where a commitment to life, learning and remembering once again who we truly are, while exploring the playground of The Way of the Livingness as shown to us by Serge Benhayon and the presentations of Universal Medicine.
Joseph, of course you have brought to light a finer point behind ‘choices’ in your comment relating to the expression of being “unaware of the energetic facts of life of whether we are simply choosing to hide from the truth?” – and I am finding as I develop a deeper awareness your words make total sense and the realization is surely that the ‘unawareness’ was indeed a choice to hide from the truth. Thanks Joseph.
Great story Roberta!
How revealing is that, that you became 20 kgs over weight but thought you were enlightened… There are many spiritual new age people who don’t even consider their bodies but consider themselves enlightened but I have always wanted to listen to someone who reflects physically that what they are living works in a true way and Serge Benhayon, without a doubt is a person who lives that true way.
I agree Ariel, being aware of someone like Serge Benhayon who touches the deepest part of the truth of us can only remind us that that is who we truly are – and we do not need to be on endless journeys through the spiritual new age, religious institutions of old or any other addiction to ‘find ourselves’ – as Serge has reminded us we only have to be still and re-connect with that divine part of us within.
It is amazing how one could spend a lifetime searching through mainstream religions and the spiritual new age and actually still be left feeling empty. Serge Benhayon does show clearly with his lived way that the answers reside within, just as was quoted by Jesus “the Kingdom of God lies within you”. I now know what this means and there is much deeper for me to go, but now I am going inward, not searching outside of myself for the answers.
“Our body after all, is the marker of truth for each one of us”. Thank you Roberta for an honest account of what happens to many of us in search of the elusive something that will make us complete, happy or fulfilled. I too was lost before coming to the work of Universal Medicine.
Thank you Patricia for your comment. To repeat your words “in search of the elusive something …” are key to what was that dilemma for me – always searching/seeking outside of myself – and never even considering that what I was seeking was within close by all the time – if only I had allowed myself to listen quietly, in connection to my body and not to have bought into the glamour of the bright coloured lights of visions, and the wow of the illusionary evidence of being a supposed psychic. I thank God for the gift of having met Serge Benhayon, and the subsequent presentations of Universal Medicine.
I dabbled for a few years in the spiritual new age and one of the things that never made sense was how they used the word soul and spirit in the same context or somehow inextricable interwove them within the text to cause confusion. Was this a trick?
Thank you Roberta. Before I came to the work of Universal Medicine I was always so hard on myself, especially if I made a ‘mistake’; it’s really exposing of how little love I had for myself, therefore all others. Over the years this has been beginning to change and it’s really changed my life. Thank you Universal Medicine for bringing the truth we all know to the world, in a very real and digestible form.
That spiritual new age stuff never hooked me- I tried it out but never stayed with it for long. Different to when I met Serge- I was so astonished of the simplicity he was presenting and the energy of what he was sharing. Since then I am taking everything in that is presented and I can´t imagine a life without Universal Medicine- not because I am emotionally attached, no, but because I don´t want to miss the biggest support in my life to become the true me.
I always believed that in order to grow spiritually I had to suffer greatly before achieving a lighter state. So I worked and worked on myself, with some awareness growing , yes, but not the break free bliss result I had hoped for to relieve me from my suffering! It is so tempting to keep on searching and give power to someone/something outside of you.
This is not anymore the case, as I know find all the wisdom inside of me. Doesn’t mean I never ‘suffer’ anymore, but that is my own choice………
I always believed that in order to grow spiritually I had to suffer greatly before achieving a lighter state. So I worked and worked on myself, with some awareness growing , yes, but not the break free bliss result I had hoped for to relieve me from my suffering! It is so tempting to keep on searching and give power to someone/something outside of you.
This is not anymore the case, as I know find all the wisdom inside of me. Doesn’t mean I don’t ‘suffer’ anymore, but that is my own choice………
A lovely and powerful story, Roberta. I especially love your simple and true summary: “there were two different energies to choose from: the spirit which is the separated aspect of the soul, or the soul which is our true connection to God“. Hooray for waking up to true choice!
Roberta thank you for sharing your story. Having been involved in the New Age for a few years, saw people channelling etc. but no satisfaction was gained on the real truths of life. Certainly no mention of Soul versus Spirit and what that entails, and commitment to being love in everything we do in Life.
What an amazing story you have Roberta and to share so openly where you have come from and the vast contrast between the energy of the soul or that of the spirit. You have clearly given us very real and practical examples of each for us to know the difference between spiritual searching or soulful being. Thank you.
Having material wealth, yet feeling that there is more. This is not unknown to myself, and to so many people I talk with. This feeling confirms that we do already know that there are two different kinds of energy, one energy gives us a path where we end up not feeling so great and are left still seeking for that missing something. The other energy returns us to our selves, where nothing is greater or needed more than the depths of self love and love for others that is felt within.
I did not get caught up in the new age movement. Instead I got caught up in life. I sold myself to the ideals and beliefs that are imposed on us by society. I was the provider, the husband and father, the good employee, all in a way that was acceptable to the world. I thought I was on the right track. When my marriage broke down I began to look for something different. But I was looking for a different version of the same thing. I was lost as much as someone in the new age movement. I met someone who introduced me to Universal Medicine; slowly I “knew” this was different, it felt right. The honesty and truth that I could feel in the people I met was something I had not experienced previously. For most of my life I was looking for the answers/solutions that would make my life better, in all the wrong places. Everything I need I already have. Thank you Roberta for reminding me of my continuing journey.
Roberta, Many of us have dabbled in the “spiritual” new age on our journey back to who we truly are. Behind all of the dabbling has been the search for “something” and it feels so great to know I am “here” now. The “dabble” has helped me clearly differentiate between soul and spirit, and this has been a life changer for me.
Roberta, that was deeply honest. Thank you for sharing how far you have come, which is a true credit to you.
“It’s interesting to note that I was constantly working with my mind – not ‘feeling’ from within or listening to my true antenna, my body.” You’ve nailed it right there Roberta.
Hi Roberta, there is no shame in having fallen for the spiritual new age. The fact is that all spiritual trappings are based on an element of truth and that is why we fall for them. The problem is that because we have been devoid for so long of true connection, we mistake them for the whole truth, rather than seeing them as the bastardised fragment of truth that they are.
The fact is that most of humanity is deeply missing true connection. True religion has been bastardised, and for those who know this, but also know there is more to life, it is natural that they seek elsewhere. This is a natural consequence when we have forgotten for so long who we truly are, and this was the trappings of the spiritual new age. Having said that, it is important that we recognise the spiritual side of ourselves. It is just that we need to recognise that this is not our highest way of being either, even though feels “amazing” once you first recognise it, especially in comparison to the physicality of being human. This is the awareness that Universal Medicine has reawakened us to, that we are not just spiritual but Soul-full beings in our innermost (or esoteric) essence, and this is something that can be easily felt once we are open to the fact, and work on creating a body that is responsive again to the fact that we can feel energy. For the energy of the Soul and the energy of the spirit are distinctly different, and once we learn to feel the difference, we can never be fooled again by the empty trappings of the spiritual new age.
This is such a great comment Adam and sums the whole thing up beautifully.
So true Adam and so clearly expressed “This is the awareness that Universal Medicine has reawakened us to, that we are not just spiritual but Soul-full beings in our innermost (or esoteric) essence, and this is something that can be easily felt once we are open to the fact, and work on creating a body that is responsive again to the fact that we can feel energy.For the energy of the Soul and the energy of the spirit are distinctly different, and once we learn to feel the difference, we can never be fooled again by the empty trappings of the spiritual new age.” This was well worth repeating as this is the core of the work that we need to do on ourselves.
Wow Roberta what an awesome blog.
When I first met Serge Benhayon I was very disillusioned with the New Age Movement but I was still allowing myself to be hooked by some of it’s modalities and was well entrenched in many of it’s ways. It was my knowing that what I had found up until then was not the Absolute Truth – especially about the chakras and the distinction between Spirit and Soul that brought me to my first Heart Chakra, or Livingness, workshop. That was nearly 10 years ago. Since then it has been lovely to see friends and clients also align to these teachings and to share with each other continually with more honesty, openness and equality. I am able to embrace the Absolute Truth more and more and able to feel the Truth about the chakras and nadis and feel the distinction between Spirit and Soul – all a work in progress. I had known everything was inside me before but I had not known the absolutenesss of this nor been able to truly embody it and live it. I am constantly inspired by Serge Benhayon and everything he and his family have shared with us to date.
“the true book of wisdom I sought was in fact inside me all along” So so true Rosie! Can you imagine how many wars would have been avoided if we all new this to be true.
Ah Roberta I can relate so much to what you have written. I feel the reason why I and so many others have spent lifetimes burrowing down the wrong burrows is because most of what we are currently engaged with comes from Astral energy, whose sole purpose is to keep us from our soul. The Astral energy entices us from young and then once we’re ensnared it just plays with us. It comes in so many different guises, it is a trickster and manipulator of the highest order. It doesn’t matter is it’s spirituality, sport, fashion, as long as we are ‘looking the other way’ then it has had ‘it’s way’. But as you have done we need to stop and look within and there awaiting for us all is the glory of Heaven x
Thank you for your comment Alexis – yes, I feel it to be true also – that the astral energy entices us and ensnares us depending on choice of distraction from why we are truly here – and there appears to be many choices of distraction. What I had to learn still was that it was fine for me to uncover and reveal my own distraction, but then develop the wisdom to allow others to discover in their own time and rhythm their own specific way they themselves were choosing to cover up or dull their emptiness, pain or bewilderment, without my feeling, with this fresh awareness of truth, that one has to alert others to the ‘error of their ways’ so to speak. I found this imposition on to others not to be a very palatable recipe, but the “glory of Heaven” awaits all.
Indeed, as you say Roberta, ‘why do we not choose to look within to where all is known in every cell of our body’? The journey to the Soul via the Spirit is a difficult one. I spent many years on ‘the spiritual path’ hoping that this was ‘it’, yet knowing that it was the wrong path. Nothing was changing in my life, in fact, my health was deteriorating and the dramas in my life were escalating. If I hadn’t accepted an invitation to attend one of Serge Benhayon’s presentations and felt that what was being presented made sense, I would be still be ‘being seduced’ by yet another guru of the ‘spiritual movement’.
This is a very honest and powerful question that I am certain would resonate for many.
‘Why do we tend to look outside of ourselves when we believe we are in such a place of desolation?”
I too a long time ago, so it feels…. looked outside of me in my place of deep disillusionment of life and the world. But then I also met Serge Benhayon and felt simply met…in feeling truly met for me, I felt me and that there is so much more inside of me…Oh My God – I have hit the JackPOT of Gold – ME…and since then I have been developing my connection to me – to SOUL! I no more seek outside of me, why would I? The search has stopped, finito….life has begun in the true sense. I live me in my body in the world in joy and love….and the confidence to deal with whatever challenges I am faced with in life.
I read your blog again as I felt it is so relevant to what is happening int he world. Not the spiritual seekers, but the seeking in generally. The drive to seek on the outside to fulfill the emptiness on the inside is so strong that we accept any kind of distraction or entertainment as a valid replacement. I never felt I was seeking something, but when I first met Serge Benhayon I realized how simple life is and that I was adding on any kind of complication to it constantly.
The beauty of the teachings of Universal Medicine is that it is all known wisdom and it is all about re-connecting to who we truly are and not trying to become someone bigger than we are. We are all there is!!
How exhausting is that search outside of ourselves for something that we know is missing and how amazing to realise that the missing part is our self. I had little regard for my body when I was on my “new age” search and like you Roberta, the weight piled on. I would sit in sweat lodges for hours stressing my body with extreme heat, or try extreme diets or fasts or long meditations but it only led me further from the truth. No wonder I overate most of the time not wanting to feel what was really going on. Thanks to being inspired by Serge Benhayon I am now able to connect with the truth inside myself and there is no more running around out there searching for the next big thing.
I can genuinely relate to that experience of feeling that there is more to life and thinking that I have found it in spiritual pursuits. I remember a heightened, almost excited, or exhilarated sensation in my body when I thought that I had discovered the answers in a book or an organisation. This is nothing like the many works of Universal Medicine, where I have felt just the simplicity of me for who I am and an equality with everyone else. This, by contrast, is a steady, robust, humble, and precious feeling in my body.
Roberta the questions posed in your blog really struck a chord with me. It is true why do we search outside ourselves for the answers when we have everything we need within. I sometimes feel for me it is a lack of trust from within myself that stops me at times. Thank you for the loving reminder.
Roberta, love your analogy of the body being the book – every ‘page’ tells a story. What I got from your post is that it doesn’t matter how far we’ve got into the book, that we always have the choice to go back and re-read the pages we may have missed. That this ‘going back’ even to the very very beginning is no failure but is instead a great lesson in humbleness, and in this true advancement.
I agree it does need humbleness, a beautiful feeling, which allows us to just be as delicate and precious as we are. There is nothing to defend, to justify or to fight for.
It’s been said that the truth is out there but it seems that the untruth is equally so but what is truly true never leaves us.
Roberta, I know the spiritual searching you speak of very well, and the spirits hunger is insatiable. It is such a joy to re-connect with our soulful being and no longer feel the need to search; it is a true homecoming.
Thank you Victoria for your comment and I agree with your words “the spirits hunger is insatiable” – my goodness isn’t that the truth – it actually was quite exhausting when I recall that time, but now, thanks to Serge Benhayon and the presentations of Universal Medicine I am no longer seeking nor exhausted from that search to fill the void.
Beautifully said Victoria.
Thank you for sharing this Roberta. It is amazing that so many of us are “searching” and the spiritual new age keeps you searching as it never quite adds up or feels right. And then along comes Serge Benhayon and says look with in – you are already all that you need and suddenly everything makes sense. Thank you Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine.
It is remarkable how we keep trying so many modalities from the spiritual new age buffet, even though inside we know this still isn’t it. Meeting Serge Benhayon is like nothing else. You know there is something different – you are being ‘met’ or seen and valued for who you truly are. You know the search is over as the answers were there within you all along.
Thank you Roberta for sharing your story. I love how you refer to our body as the book of truth!
Hi Roberta, I remember when I first heard that there are two types of energy, it was life changing and also made so much sense as well, it certainly stopped me in my tracks. As i had to honestly admit that after 15 years of playing with energy I never really stopped to discern the quality of the energy, myself and my responsibility in the way I lived and how it affected that quality.
Hi Nicole, thank you for your comment and I felt to respond to your words “I remember when I first heard that there are two types of energy” – you know, these are quite profound words and I know for a fact that it was indeed these words that literally turned the life of a dear friend of octogenarian years upside down – or rather the right way up after years of being adamant that my diminishing view of the truth of the New Age Modalities were misplaced.
It was a recorded interview long ago that I chose to send to my friend that these specific words that Serge Benhayon expressed in an interview at a popular Northern Rivers Radio Station on the East Coast that caused her to feel a 500 watt globe to ignite – and so the true light within began to shine brightly as a result of the power of the true expression of Love.
What a great addition to your amazing blog – they are indeed profound words – life changing for many.
Yes Nicole, this was how it was for many of us. We delved in energy as part of the New Age Movement, without ever discerning the quality of the energy we were ‘playing’ with. In retrospect this was harming of self and others. It was not until meeting Serge Benhayon and listening to his presentations that I truly started to understand energy and the responsibility we all carry in the way we live and how we affect the quality of energy, not just for self but for all others.
It’s great that you are now able to look back and feel the affects the Spiritual New Age was having on your body, eventhough at the time it was filling an emptiness within you. I love how you describe refering “..to the true book of loving words and the wisdom within, that book being our body…” The body being the marker of truth for each one of us. Thanks for the beautiful sharing Roberta.
An inspiring article, true honesty.
I feel the true support this article offers to others that have walked a similar path in life. Awesome that you have shared so openly with us Roberta.
Thank you Greg for your comment. I feel to add something here that I have become more aware of in my own behaviour pattern as the unfolding continues in regards to your words “others that have walked a similar path” – and that is the developing awareness of the beauty of accepting and allowing others who either may presently be locked into what were my previous belief systems, or who are presently locked into the belief system that e.g. ‘we are born, we work hard, we pay taxes, we die’- allowing them the grace of being exactly where they are without thinking there is a need to have them change their views.Through the presentations of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine I have found it is more truly loving to allow all to traverse their unfolding at their own pace.
Hi Roberta and thank you for your blog. It seems so many of us including myself were enticed by the New Age Movement to fill up that empty hole as you said. Many books and meditation groups, talks and healing groups later I was introduced to Serge Benhayon by a friend , my marriage and health had broken down but it took a couple of years for me to regularly attend his presentations. It didn’t take long after that for me to realise this man represented the Truth, something I had been searching for all of my life and although I have been holding myself back in so many ways I feel this year has started in a more positive forward motion.
Thank you Roslyn for your comment and yes there have been many of us who did come from the empty space of not recognizing our connection with our Soul and I have found the expressions of everyone in response to my blog along the way so very supportive, like a warm hug. Your words “It didn’t take long after that for me to realize this man (Serge Benhayon) represented the Truth, something I had been searching for all of my life-” just expresses it simply and that was exactly how I felt on meeting Serge and subsequently attending the presentations of Universal Medicine. I have discovered there is no pain when true Love is evident – just joy.
‘…the true book of wisdom within, that book being our body…..’ I can relate to how incessant the seeking beyond ourselves and outside of ourselves can be. When all the while the truth was waiting patiently within me, and my body at the ready to share all of the wisdom that it offers. All that was needed was the willingness to develop a relationship with my inner self, or even just a willingness to be open to the possibility of this on the days when the former felt too difficult. And the more I am able to ignore the relentless noise and distraction that is designed to take us away from the truth of our inner path, the more and more wisdom is available to me and to all.
Thank you for your coment Stevie – the words that stood out for me were “”All that was needed was the willingness to develop a relationship with my inner self..” and when you feel into these words you know they are true – it’s that simple.
“Why do we tend to look outside of ourselves when we believe we are in such a place of desolation? Why do we believe that someone/something out there knows more than each one of us knows intrinsically deep inside? Why do we not choose to look within to where all is known in every cell of our body?” These are great questions to ask ourselves indeed!
What is inspiring Roberta is your honesty about how you were attached to the stimulation of all the ‘new age’ modalities and ideals, yet your body was 20kg overweight, clearly telling you what you were doing was not working for you. I totally agree with you, the marker of truth is the body.
“It’s interesting to note that I was constantly working with my mind – not ‘feeling’ from within or listening to my true antenna, my body”.
I found that most of these new age modalities do just that, keep you thinking you are in a true healing path purely from a mental place and allowing the arrogance to kick in, where you can defend you are in the right track. Thank you for sharing how powerful it is when we choose to tune in to our bodies and tap into the immense wisdom and love within us all.
I can very much relate to your story Roberta. Serge Benhayon was the first person I had met in my life who truly met me and in my first session had such a beholding love. I too saw the ill ways of my spiritual choices that was leading me down a very arrogant path thinking I knew it all…until of course the body was showing me it wasn’t it! It has been a very humbling path back to me, my heart, my soul…I am so very glad that I am returning to the truth of who I am.
Thank you Roberta, I to was on a spiritual journey for the greater part of my life.
Its is interesting that we do seek outside of ourselves when we are desperate for more in life, and how that prevents any true discernment of what spiritual path we get involved in, and what energy is behind it all.
Thank you Thomas – and I found your words “when we are desperate for more in life, and how that prevents any true discernment” – to be so in my own past experience. I thank deeply Serge Benhayon for sharing with us some time ago, and continues to do so, that there are two energies that we can choose to align with – either the Astral/pranic/spirit or Fiery/divine/soul. It seems to me that is where my responsibility lay – having then chosen to listen to my human spirit that operates from head, whereas with discernment the choice of energy could have been the true energy of my soul, that loving and still place within where true Love dwells. I thank God I know the difference now.
Serge Benhayon was the first stranger for me too, who saw the real me on first contact. I look forward to a world where we are all that for each other.
Wouldn’t that be an awesome healing for the world Suzanne everyone just reflecting the love that we all intrinsically are deep within.
Great sharing- I too went down the new age trap for over 15 yrs- searching for the answers of life and presence of God. I was deeply lost, and my health spiralling downwards, despite ticking the boxes in life.
What a blessing when I finally met Serge Benhayon – I felt truly met for the first time in my life, felt an equal; his words resonated deeply with me as truth. He was the first presenter that made everyone aware that there are 2 different type of energies we can align to – astral/spirit or soul, and everything from then on is because of it.
What a huge difference that made to my life thereafter. A home coming to my soul!
I am forever grateful and appreciative of the teachings and esoteric healing modalities that Serge has make available to humanity so that we can all return together to truth.
I agree with you Loretta and I also am forever grateful and appreciative of the presentations of Universal Medicine and the esoteric healing modalities that Serge Benhayon has shared with us all. It appears and it is true that there is a wealth of richness beyond compare within each one of us – if only we would check in with our inner self and not settle for less while looking outside of ourselves for the answers to our deep longing.
Well said Loretta, I too walked a spiritual path that really just led me round in circles, always returning to the same spot and the same issues, until I attended a Universal Medicine workshop. The energetic education is the key difference and being shown how to feel the difference between astral/spirit and soul energy is critical. It has brought about huge change in my life and I am continually inspired by the relentless love that Serge has for everyone, the whole of humanity, so that we can “all return together to truth”.
I also went on a spiritual new age journey for a couple of years. It does come with that excitement and insatiable desire to keep you looking for more and more. And then when we become aware of soul it feels like a gentle, patient friend with open arms. No enthral, just pure love. I too am so glad that I met Serge Benhayon and he in turn truly MET me.
Karen – I love the way you expressed “And then when we become aware of soul it feels like a gentle, patient friend with open arms” – that is so true – just feels like ‘coming home’. It was also a realisation I found that there were no bells and whistles, no blazing euphoric colours or imposing images – just a gentle feeling of re-connection to warmth and true Love – and the greatest thing I found was that we actually recognise that as Truth – we just know it.
Beautifully expressed, Roberta. I fell too into the spiritual new age trap. And, what a trap!… There was always something missing. What joy it was to find that what true home is. I am forever grateful to Serge Benhayon for supporting me in finding what it truly means to live from our inner-heart and connect to the wisdom and intelligence that are in it.
I can imagine how exhausting it is to be on a new-age spiritual quest. I never realised that it could be so harmful. I loved the part about the white van with ‘SERGE’ on it. So beautiful to read that you then went to see Serge Benhayon. Amazing!
‘It is indeed revealing when we return to our true book of loving words and the wisdom within, that book being our body; after all, it is the marker of truth for each one of us.’ This is a great reminder for me, to really take note and listen to my body continuously. I have listened in the past and made some loving choices but I know I haven’t been doing this on a daily bases. Thank you Roberta, very honest and inspiring.
Yes it is exhausting being on the New Age merry-go-round. When I moved to Byron Bay, for 3 years I dabbled in many workshops, healers etc & at the end of those 3 years I was absolutely exhausted. I had been hearing about Serge Benhayon over those 3 years on 3 different occasions from 3 different people. But because it wasn’t delivered to me with ‘bells & whistles’ it didn’t peak my interest much. But back then (10 years ago) I had a belief that if you heard about a book for the 3rd time from someone, it was a sign to buy it, so when the 3rd person I met had told me about Serge Benhayon I thought I had better go and check out who this person was. I walked in skeptical as I do not trust easily. I could not deny the amazing love that I felt & it was from here that my life changed. It was very clear to me why Serge Benhayon was here and it was no accident that we met when we did. I had been asking for truth…and here it was before me reflecting back that the truth has always been inside of me.
I agree Marika – I also found it exhausting at that time being on that merry-go-round. Upon my developing awareness as a result of my attending the presentations of Universal Medicine I now find it so interesting that like several others who have commented and perhaps had had similar experiences, that on discovering that there are indeed two, but only two different energies that we can ultimtely choose to align with – one being the astral/human spirit/pranic and the other fiery consciousness/divine/soul that one now can see from hindsight, what energy it was indeed that was the driving force behind the choices made at that time. To quote your words “I had been asking for truth… and here it was before me reflecting back that the truth has always been inside of me.” Isn’t that awesome.
Amazing change!
It is quite tricky how we can be deviated from our own inner true knowing. I recognise that people often look for quick answers – fascinated by a spiritual new age arrogance – but we need to look for true connection to our selves and to our inner wisdom.
A big key is when we are inspired by someone who really meets us with true love and with the message that you can connect to your own essence, finding your way from your heart.
You are not alone Roberta. I also fell for the trappings of the Spiritual New Age, and all along felt that there was something missing. I had a LOT of questions and they simply were not being answered. Like you say ‘there is always another modality’ and how true that was for me as well. Yes there has been some deep pain on the road back to being able to listen to my body, but thanks to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, I have been fully supported along the way without a shadow of judgement. The actual tools to get back to the love that we are. Truth found.
Thank you for your comment Joanne – and yes, even knowing that I am not alone as ‘the only one’ who from that point of seeking for answers outside of myself dissolves the projected thought from who knows that I was to be found to be ‘guilty’ as charged – having strayed as a result of my then emptiness. Your words “thanks to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, I have been fully supported along the way without a shadow of judgment” are very important I feel, especially ‘without a shadow of judgement’ – for indeed that is the case I have found, that never has Serge projected in any way what to do or how to do it, but always lovingly presented the fact of the possibility of there being another way.
Hi Roberta ,most of us have walked away from reality turning our backs on truth and the myriad of new age techniques are cleverly designed to offer us that escape. To choose reality and feel the joy of living in my body with truth there as plain as day , life is simply magical.
Thank you Paul for your comment – and I agree with your words “new age techniques are cleverly designed to offer us that escape”. It is interesting when I focus on that word ‘escape’ for that word is used so often in so many forms of advertizing I have found, including one form of entertainment that I am famililar with known as ‘Cruising’. I have a better understanding now why some folk, including some very near and dear to me live only for ‘cruising’. With the additional awareness brought to my attention through my attending Universal Medicine presentations with Serge Benhayon I can now see the responsibility that we have in not settling for less, not settling for ‘escape’ but accepting the responsibiity of knowing we are enough, we are in fact divine, but we are just remembering that that is so, thus we do not really have to be looking outside of ourselves for fulfilment at all, not through supposed new age modalities, cruising or any other thing that takes one away from their true selves.
What a journey for you Roberta and one so many of us have been on, only to find that we didn’t need to go anywhere, it was always within ourselves. The search was over after finding Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine because for me it was like coming home to the truth of what I already knew and just connecting back to that
Thanks Deidre, yes, ” the search was over after finding Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine” – the recognition of truth in my inner heart was instant. The experience at the recent Health Wellbeing & Soul Expo on the Gold Coast recently indicated that there are many who are now in that situation as I was myself about 13 years ago – still seeking from a position of emptiness and looking for answers outside in lieu of feeling it within. It was indeed a gift to be there and to offer the possibility of there being another way.
Yes, it seems to be really difficult to consider, let alone accept, that the body is the key tool and indicator in anything to do with spiritualness, soulfulness, godliness.
Roberta, me too! I was on a spiritual feeding frenzy, like a desperate junkie searching for the next high. When I read Serge Benhayon’s first book, my immediate response was ‘oh yeah, nothing new, I know all that’. Sheer arrogance. But the more I read and the more that I heard Serge present, the more I could sense that while, yes, we DO all know such wisdom (for it is carried in our bodies, even if we are not listening to them), we don’t ‘know it all’ with our minds as I had been led to believe. True wisdom resides in the soul and is felt in the body first before it goes into thought. Realising this left me with the rather simple revelation that: ‘our soul knows all, our spirit is a know-it-all’. Search over. I can simply get back to being me. Thank you for sharing your journey home.
Hi Liane, I love how you encapsulate the arrogance of the spirit so well with this “‘our soul knows all, our spirit is a know-it-all’.” I too felt I knew it all when I first heard of Serge Benhayon and after freely giving my power away to so many others did not want to give it away again. Yet I found Serge was not in the taking of anyone’s power so the initial resistance was coming from my ‘know-it-all spirit’ that craves to be seen as ‘knowing all’ without taking any true responsibility.
Very cool to hear your story Roberta before Universal Medicine. I have also observed that there are a lot of spiritual channellers that are not so healthy in their body, like you have shared was the case for you.
Thank you Jane – yes, as you say “what I was searching for was already inside of me”. How simple and uncomplicated it truly is. In addition I have found as a result of time as a Practitioner at the Health Harmony and Soul Expo these past few days and spending a little time in conversation with some of the other exhibitors/presenters I realize more the necessity to not impose this wealth we are unfolding on others, but to simply be and to be the inspiration.
It is very interesting to me that we can drift so far from ourselves but at the first hearing of Serge Benhayon, we all resonate.
The search for many still continues – workshop after workshop, book after book, some spending thousands or even hundreds of thousands to find the real deal, something that will help bring sense to the nagging feeling of not knowing who they are. For many others the search has ended and with Universal Medicine a new way forward has begun. The new way needs no other way for within a short period of time and with simple techniques like the Gentle Breath Meditation, the path of connecting to self, and daily deepening of that connection is found.
Thanks Roberta, it is amazing what we cling on to under the belief (in my case) that “I know this isn’t it, but it’s better than nothing!” In my case it was a spiritual group I told myself I needed and yet I felt empty, overweight, and used Yoga to channel my neediness to be acknowledged by others as a Yoga teacher. It was remarkable for how long after meeting Serge Benhayon and attending Universal medicine events, that I still held onto the belief that it couldn’t be this simple – there had to be more to finding myself – more clever words, study and investment in someone who knew more than me and could ‘teach’ me. Serge has never presented in this way. It is disarming and very healing to feel, yes I am equal to all others.
I still sit with such enormous gratitude that I met Serge Benhayon and that I finally found the true truth of this world. For 6 years my body has kept confirming the truth in which he presents. It’s just too cool and amazing.
Like Sandra, your blog has a lot of similarities for me too Roberta, the lure of the different spiritual modalities, all with their versions of what love and truth are. I also found that there was always something that didn’t feel right. Finding out about Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon felt right to the deepest part of me. Even though it was hugely uncomfortable to go to events initially, the truth was always there and I could feel it.
Mark, The spiritual modalities had me too – When the Celestine Prophecy came out – I thought WOW there is another way – another consideration – it too fizzled out and was replaced by my ongoing self deceit & harm.
The truth with Esoteric Medicine and the reflection in my body when being connected to my soul has shown me connection to me and god. I had rejected any notion of god many years ago. I still get some anxiety (my pesky spirit) before events but once at them or joined with others the nurturing and love is awesome. Self love as a primary step and learning to discern what is harming or healing is incredibly powerful. Returning to soul full energy is awesome – feeling truth is something that is very confirming.
Thank you Roberta for your blog, it reminds me of the spiritual path I wasted so much time and money on, and ended up feeling more empty. The experience in my life when I met Serge Benhayon was very different to anything I had previously done. What Serge so consistently and lovingly presents really works, as I began to truly connect to myself and bring more love and appreciation to myself, I too could feel the wisdom I had within was always there.
Unlike you Roberta, I never went the New Age path. It never attracted me. I filled my life with knowledge and I fell into the wish of ‘becoming someone’ in regard to it. Different ways to filling up the feeling of emptiness. While you felt that the guru was not it, in my case it was more difficult since we are talking about intellectuals you admire and follow. In your case it was about the modalities you learned along the way that you ended up discarding. In my case it was about feeling into the narrowness of what was presented and going bigger and bigger (in a wrong path though). With what Serge presents, playfully I started developing my own ways to go big based on the body and without the need of becoming someone since I surrendered to the fact that I am already am.
Wow Roberta, your blog made me laugh out loud at the similarities between your experience and my own. I got caught up in the spiritual new age too, believing that I had found the answer to my prayers. Nothing lasted of course because whatever I dabbled in never “felt right”, there was always something missing. When I eventually found Universal Medicine I realised what that something was, a true way to re-connect to my Soul and for the first time truly feeling being met, by love.
Thank you Roberta our connection to the soul is such a long way from the astral / spiritual way of existence that I also sort.
It is to our absolute detriment that we mistake the various spiritual systems, and spiritual new age groups etc., as having the answers to the questions which we feel within ourselves – ‘Is there something more?’; ‘why am I here?’, ‘do I in fact have great potential that I am not tapping into?’ For these questions do come from a true feeling within us, but in seeming to answer our questions, such spiritual groups/systems actually take us further away from the true answers.
We access truth from within ourselves, as we all have the love and truth of God living within us.
This is so true Conor, it is interesting that it much easier to give our power away to something outside of our self than it is to ” access truth from within ourselves,” as this demands for us to take total responsible for choice of energy feeding us every thought and deed..
Yes, I too joined the club. I started doing yoga 15 years ago, and it did awaken me to the possibility that their was more to life. But after spending a year at a yoga center doing extensive yoga, I got sick. What was going on? With support from Serge Benhayon and the Esoteric Practitioners I realised that I was not truly listening to my body, I was still overriding my body, [a deeply entrenched pattern in my life]. What I needed was extensive rest and self-care. Thank you Serge for supporting me in my path back to me.
I too was seduced. Thank you for your honesty, I also have gone through that path, and now might have been seduced by different expressions of the same energy. It is attractive and hooking. I like it when you say we have a choice, once we realize where we have been to just say oops! and move on. Not indulge in the reaction cause that way we prolong the harm. We are blessed to have found a true path.
I can relate to your article Roberta as I was brought up within a spiritualist family. My grandfather was a trance medium and I was taken along to join a spiritualist circle by the age of 14 (my choice), with my father and I was heavily involved off and on for most of my life, until I renounced every spiritual modality I was involved with prior to finding Serge two years later.
Great article Roberta. thank you for sharing this.
One of the many differences that I notice with Universal Medicine is the complete lack of merchandising, no sweatshirt, hats or bags, no sign for our cars, not even a badge with ‘I love Serge’ on it.
Supposing we and the way we live are the merchandise, the light in our smiling eyes telling the world that not only do we love Serge, but them too….and ourselves.
You know reading the fact that you reacted and felt shameful and hid is actually very common. What is so touching and is that you came out of it! Love is always saying “I am here”. It’s just down to us to make the choice to return to Love and say “Whoops” and come back when we’ve gone off course.
Thank you Roberta, thank you for sharing something that I have experienced equally. I too was in search of something else and went into different modalities and none of them were complete and a lot of them were taking me further away from the truth. It’s only when I first met Serge Benhayon at a Heart chakra workshop that I could feel for the first time that what was presented felt right as it was already within me. Yes we all have the answer in us, but the beautiful thing is how Serge was guiding me to look at it and experience it with very simple exercises and in a very simple way and it all started to make sense.
Awesome Roberta. I relate well to what you share as I always felt left short with all the spiritual new age modalities I had tried before finding Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine. Then the searching stopped as what is presented here is the truth of it.
One of the joys to me of Universal Medicine is just that..the joy that I experience in the reflection offered by others and increasingly in me. Not that it’s a Polly-Anna view of life, far from it, there is a real call to be responsible to deal with our hurts and the ‘less attractive’ sides of who we are and what we have done, but in that there is no drama…acknowledge and move on with the glory that we are.
Great blog thanks for sharing.
This is great to read, to see the journey and feel the pain we harm ourselves with in this quest to find what is true in this world. As you so beautifully explain, it is a book we all possess and have the capacity to read – our own bodies.
I love the image of being in us being in our own back pocket – our own connection to ourselves and God is right there all the time. No journey, no searching, just simple and accessible.
Beautifully and simply written Simon, ‘our own connection to ourselves and God is right there all the time. No journey, no searching, just simple and accessible.’
Like many others, I spent some years travelling down the spiritual path losing myself in amongst all the doctrine, scriptures, gurus and meetings. The thing that feels important to share about it was how each and every one of these alternatives takes a small piece of truth and then fleshes out all the other parts with its own agenda. For me the bit of truth is what pulled me in, but then it is all the mumbo jumbo that does the damage. The difference with Universal Medicine is that it builds truth upon truth, and so no matter how far you go with it there is always that solid foundation, and of course the presence of God in both the big picture, as well as the minutiae of daily life.
Hi Simon. I can relate to what you point out here, being drawn to the bit of truth within whatever therapy, philosophy, or ‘teacher’. It is like everyone wanting to uncover true truth and healing, finding a seed, but then bastardising it with a whole lot of ego or individualism etc. And yes, Universal Medicine has a totally different formula that breaks this pattern and actually brings everything always back to truth, back to the body, and back to God. Thank you Roberta for exposing the untruth that you had aligned to and sharing your process back into the shining Sun.
Thank you Roberta for sharing your very informative journey and I really appreciate your comment about expressing truth more fearlessly each day. I am also finding it is about trusting my self and what I feel in my body simply instead of listening to my head and being afraid as infact I really knew it was not true.
Thanks to Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon I too have learnt about the fact of there being 2 energies one being Devine from the soul and one from the Astral spiritual consciousness. Knowing we have this choice is really changing my life and now I feel amazing.
Roberta I absolutely love your last sentence — ‘It is indeed revealing when we return to our true book of loving words and the wisdom within, that book being our body; after all, it is the marker of truth for each one of us.’ I have been listening to my book and yes it is the book of all wisdom that I am claiming to be my truth. So deeply powerful and self empowering!
I like many others have been searching for Truth through various modalities that were very seductive to the mind. None of them explained about the two kinds of energies and I felt that Truth had to be simpler than these complicated modalities. With the invaluable help of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine I found that Truth and life’s answers were in me all along. Thank you Roberta for sharing your wonderful story.
Yes our own books of wisdom are much easier to take with us than any book written by someone else!
Your story is very inspiring for the honesty and humbleness displayed to let go of your spiritual identity.
Roberta, your wonderful story demonstrates how, so many of us have been searching for life’s answers but simply looking in the wrong places or in the wrong direction. How perfect then, that we should contain the book of answers actually within ourselves!
“I made a decision to seek within a little more honestly.” Awesome Roberta once we truly make a commitment to know truth then real healing can start to happen until then we are just fooling ourselves.
Timely and beautifully inspiring comment Samantha. Thank you
While I was never drawn to any new age spiritual journey, my alternative would be sport or alcohol, trying to find answers through achievement or drowning myself in a stupor of drink, or perhaps losing myself in music It is great to become aware of their being no solution in the recognition or distraction of them. I can feel the helpless never-ending cycle in trudging through life that way and am glad to have been presented a different way of living.
Hi Stephen, I appreciate your comment, and especially your words “it is great to become aware of there being no solution in recognitition or distraction” – which I’m finding currently is relevant as a loved relative of mine cannot fathom why I am not exuding appreciation or gratitude for the years spent in uncovering unknown but genetically connected relatives via the activity of sleuth like searching out a family tree – yet another example of a devious way of the spirit to keep us from truly connecting with our very Self.
It is interesting how we are almost programmed to go into shame, burying ourselves from our mistakes rather than just going “whoops”. I work with kids and it starts very early, at about 4 or 5 a shut down to getting things ‘wrong’ making ‘mistakes’ instead of having a much more loving way with ourselves. By going to shame, we hold on to and invest in what we have done instead of with grace going ‘whoops I wasn’t connected – thats all I just need to reconnect’.
I saw it yesterday in school , where a 6 year old didn’t want to try a new word – when reading with me – in case she got it wrong. We talked about it being ok to make mistakes, but I was shocked to realise how early this manifests, though on reflection it began early with me too, and probably many of us. “By going to shame, we hold on to and invest in what we have done instead of with grace going ‘whoops I wasn’t connected – that’s all – I just need to reconnect”. Absolutely – note to self here too. No more investment in getting things “right”; true – yes, but not right.
Vanessa your comment about ‘Whoops’ reminded me that when little ones learning to walk fall down, we often say ‘Whoops’. What we don’t say is, ‘Stay down there on the ground and never ever get up again, because you clearly can’t walk.’
It feels as though my mind attempts to say that to me though, instead of my just acknowledging that I wasn’t connected and connect back to myself. Thank you
‘Stay down there on the ground and never ever get up again, because you clearly can’t walk.’ That is a super context to show how ridiculous and pointless putting ourselves down or beating ourselves up is whenever we make a mistake or choose poorly in our lives.
I have been having a similar conversation with my 3 year old grand daughter about mistakes, which she doesn’t like to make. We are saying lots of “Oops” and “whoops a daisy” which she finds very funny! How else are we to learn if we don’t have a go and make mistakes? Watching her little baby brother learning to sit upright shows her how easy it is to continually be falling over and picking oneself back up again without remorse. How often did we have this shown to us as little children too, but somewhere along the way we/I took on board that I should be paying for my sins. Ouch. It’s been so good to let go of that one, yet my mind still tries to sabotage me – if I choose to let it.
Great point Vanessa. We can simply say ‘whoops’ and carry on… What a great lesson to learn, and one that can save so much time and pain.
I like many others here spent a lot of time searching and being distracted by what was outside myself. It was like an endless merry go round…going nowhere I now realise. At the time I was trapped in the energy and arrogance, thinking I was on my way to finding the answer…what an illusion. After being blessed to find Serge Benhayon I now know that it is about me being responsible, that it is about coming back to me, the real me inside.
I spent a number of years going to yoga classes on a regular basis, sometimes 3 or even 4 times a week, hoping that if I was committed enough I would find the ‘more to life’ element that I felt I was missing. On a physical level I was hoping I would eliminate the knots and tension in my back but it never I did. In fact the opposite is true the painful yoga positions started to cause me back pain and chest pains, goodness knows what damage I was doing. I am immensely thankful that when I stumbled across Universal Medicine I stopped and listened and took on board what was being presented as otherwise I would still be caught up in my fruitless search for something else and causing more harm to my body.
Awesome to read your blog Roberta, I remember when I was searching also and not knowing that there were two types of energy that we can align with. I went on my merry way and put my toes into a few things but each time I went there none of it felt true. I gave up and deepened my numbing with even more drugs and alcohol. I stopped looking. Then I was suggested to come along and meet Serge Benhayon – I didn’t think twice about it and was there ready and willing to check him out. The moment I walked in the door I knew I was in a room where the truth was being lived and till this day I still know deeply even more so that that truth is in me as well. Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon are constant reflections of the Love that we are and the Truth that we hold.
Great blog, we really have to feel and honour what our bodies are communicating to us.
Roberta this is a great blog. I love how you write that our body is our best reference book, it’s true our bodies have so so much to say and to teach us, if we stop and listen rather than always look externally for the answer.
Hi Meg, I appreciate your comment and I agree with your words “it’s true our bodies have so so much to say and to teach us”. I am finding this more and more as we come around again and again, full circle from where we started 12 months previously. I am now learning to truly appreciate the body and the wisdom that is held in each and every cell – highlighting perhaps where I have been less than loving in this and other lives.
I love how I now appreciate what my body is telling me and that my body constantly reminds me of what I need to change.
Meg, it is so true how easily we override our body and not listen to what it’s saying, but try and find a solution as quickly as possibly just to keep functioning. But if we truly just stopped to listen, how powerful the messages would be in letting us know what is truly going on. Our body does let us know, if we only stop to listen. I have used this override for so long, only in the last few years has this changed for me, but it is still work in progress.
Well said Meg and Roberta, I agree Amita ‘Our body does know’, we know, we just have to take the time to listen to it and slowly the more we do, as I have found, the more obvious the messages become, sure I can still override them but at least know I have the conscious choice whether or not I choose to listen to my body or not!
I too searched everywhere for a ‘Saviour’,… eventually to find he/she is with me all the time in every cell of my body.
Hi Wendy – I love your reference to searching for a ‘Saviour’ – and my memories as a child at Sunday School and Church (Protestant) had me believing in a ‘Saviour’ out there in the wild blue yonder that was quite unreachable who would perhaps save us if we were good. How the yearning for that unreachable thing just melted as the many years have since passed, and having now re- found another way – the Way of the Livingness – just connecting with that still place that is inside us all.
I too spent time dabbling in the spiritual game of looking outside myself for something to fill that emptiness I could feel, and at times I thought I had found something great but it was only short-lived and never truly filled that emptiness. It wasn’t until I stopped looking outside of myself and sought the connection with my soul that the true answers were there.
Hi Mick – I agree with your words about the emptiness that was seemingly filled momentarily by spiritual modalities was definitely “short-lived”. How truly awesome it is to feel that there is indeed another way – with the knowingness of there being a difference between Soul and the human spirit everything just fell into place so to speak – listening to the body – connecting with the still place within – it’s all so simple really – makes so much sense.
I can completely relate with you, as I had also dabbled in spiritual ways for many years.
What you have written about the Soul and the Spirit is very clear. I know this to be true as well but this is currently not widely known. I had a similar story to you in that in my ‘search’ for truth I walked further and further away from myself. Through teachings and courses presented by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine I can thankfully say I am no longer ‘searching’ but know that Love and Truth reside within every single one of us and this can be felt more and more depending on the choices that we make every day in our lives. As you say when you were looking for ‘something else’ “It’s interesting to note that I was constantly working with my mind – not ‘feeling’ from within or listening to my true antenna, my body.”
Hi Vicky – I too now see that at that time it was always “constantly working with my mind” –
and dare I say, a truly heart-less mind – and now I can see the grand illusion that was playing to satisfy my mind. What a blessing to be reminded that all that we are ‘searching for’ is held within each one of us, without exception and we only have to stop and feel – not ‘think’.
A heart-less mind. That’s it exactly. The mind is so celebrated in our culture, what we know, what we can achieve, not who we are. I am spending time with my grand children for a few weeks. My 7 month old grandson is all heart, his beaming smile and the depth of his eyes says it all. No mind in there as yet. He just is, his gorgeous self.
Yes Vicky, everything seems to tell us that we need to look “out there” for truth when all along it is inside each of us waiting for us to connect to it. For me the issue is a lifetime being ruled by my head and not allowing myself that connection to my heart. Thanks to God, Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, I now am aware of where to find truth.
Thank you Shirley-Ann – I agree – it brings a smile to my face, just feeling how simple it is – not always ‘easy’ – but simple indeed.
I agree Roberta, Serge was at first resisted from what others have said. When I did attend a Serge Benhayon – Universal Medicine work shop every thing about Medicine and Serge Benhayon made sense. My existence through an Everyday Livingness has totally bought a joy to every aspect of my life.
Hi Greg – I also now find that my life as I endeavour to live it to the best of my ability brings a light-ness and more joy to every aspect of my life too, while developing my awareness around how I approach even the smaller things in life – I am finding that this is certainly the way for me – the Way of the Livingness.
‘Why do we believe that someone/something out there knows more than each one of us knows intrinsically deep inside? Why do we not choose to look within to where all is known in every cell of our body?’ Great questions, Roberta and well worth pondering on for anyone considering embarking on any new modality.
Hi Cathy – and yes, “well worth pondering on for anyone considering embarking on any new modality”. Could it have been possible that all those years ago if I had had the opportunity to read such a blog and the awesome comments in response that all that time, money, energy, etc. etc.( including loss of Self) may have been more wisely spent.
What a gift my life is now – I appreciate deeply the presentations of Serge Benhayon – and the fact that I am learning more and more, that the body is the marker of all truth.
So true Cathy. These would have been great questions as I was embarking and even during the many teachings and modalities I spent years studying. Every single one sold the idea that they had the answers. Then I came across Universal Medicine, and I was reminded that the answers are deep within me, and was supported in regaining my trust and appreciation of myself and my knowing.
Yes, great questions. I know that I used to want the answers from someone/something else and constantly looked outside of me to attain some great pearls of wisdom. How dis-empowering this is. We have it all within us all along.
Absolutely Rebecca, the wisdom inside has always been there and always will be. For me personally, I am learning to reconnect to this part of me that I have ignored for so long.
For me, the question(s) that come up from these questions are: why didn’t I ask this before embarking on what was, in the end, a fruitless and harmful path? what made me think that the spiritual path was the ‘right one’? — was it the exoticness of ‘energy healing’? the seeming ‘ancient’-ness of it all? was it because I thought, “surely they knew what they were doing back then, much more than we do now?” was it because no one else around me was asking these questions either? The answer for me is yes to all of these.
But the deeper question for me is, “was I prepared to step forth, claim truth and be different from everyone else around me?” and my answer is that at that time in my life, no I was not. All of my spiritual quests were all about being a part of something, wanting to belong, and the spiritual life fed directly into this need.
There is a feeling of being special in practising things like reiki and channeling. You may be the only one that you know of who can do it, or you meet others who are of the same ilk and suddenly it’s like you have membership to an exclusive club – one that outsiders look in on with envy and need, and those on the inside feel like they are making a difference in the world. But in the end both sides felt to me like being on a merry-go-round — trying to keep the empty feeling inside at bay.
It is a perfect system, to falsely support anyone that knows deep inside that there is something more to life, providing part-truths to keep one enticed and yet still searching for the whole truth for ourselves – not supporting the fact that if we stop and feel, the truth is within us all along.
I so agree Naren. “What made me think that the spiritual path was the right one?” The arrogance of considering myself special – yet I was constantly looking outside of myself for more – another course, another book. I never questioned this. Yet since discovering Universal Medicine and learning about the two energies that we can choose from, now I know the answers are deep inside me – and have been all along. I never stopped to truly feel, so lost myself along the way. What a perfect set-up.
Hi Naren -Thank you for your beauty-full comment – I can relate to many of your words including ‘being part of something, wanting to belong’ – and then, after meeting Serge Benhayon and recognizing the ‘whoops-I was mistaken’ of my past ways, “was I prepared to step forth, claim truth and be different from everyone else around me” ? At that time the ‘need to be accepted’ was being challenged by now feeling the Truth of the presentations at Universal Medicine. As you say, all we need to do really is to stop and feel – and feel the Truth has been there within us the whole time.
Thank you Naren, you say “there is a feeling of being special in practising things like Reiki and channeling”. I too have fallen into that trap! I too thought I was special and THOUGHT I was making a difference. When I came across Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine I realised the huge arrogance of this belief. I realised that I was searching for the Truth and it was inside me all along!
Indeed for myself, it was that I wanted to be given the answer, the fix and the solution in one. I didn’t want to have to peer too closely inside. However what Universal Medicine has presented constantly is that we already have everything inside. Completely different from anything else I have ever come across.
Yes for me too, very wise words.
Lovely to read your blog Roberta and feel the appreciation at finding Universal Medicine after years of feeling lost.
Thank you Rebecca – ‘appreciation’ is big on my awareness radar – and learning each day to be more aware of the tiniest incidents of nature and to appreciate the possibility of a reflection in that. The presentations by Serge Benhayon through Universal Medicine have been the ‘tool-kit’ if you will for me to dip into to once again, to remind myself of the deep appreciation I feel, and am learning to express that more.
I love what you wrote Roberta, about trusting yourself. This is huge and something that is unfolding for me personally as I express truth more fearlessly each day.
Hi Julie – I appreciate your comment about expressing truth more fearlessly each day.
Amazing isn’t it – why there appears to be such a ‘fear’ around expressing truth.
I am learning daily to be more aware of when I am just ‘being’ me – connecting to truth and allowing and accepting that not everyone will necessarily be open to seeing or feeling Truth.
You wrote something that resonates with me Julie – fear. I too felt fear when expressing truthfully and it is very much work in progress as my development unfolds and my connection to who I really am deepens.
“Why do we tend to look outside of ourselves when we believe we are in such a place of desolation? Why do we believe that someone/something out there knows more than each one of us knows intrinsically deep inside?”
One word. Responsibility.
Who wants to take it? Who wants to admit they were wrong?… for a long, long time.
Thank you Roberta for choosing honesty as your light.
Thank you Andy I agree with you ‘ taking responsibility’ says it in a nutshell, and yes whoops! I call it out “I was mistaken – I was wrong – for a very very long time – much longer than this life I am sure”.
I agree Mary with your words “I’m much more grounded and in touch with my self” –
life feels more real to me now that I have a clearer understanding of the illusion of how life seems to be dealt out.
Thanks for sharing Andy.
Thanks for sharing, Andy. Indeed, Responsibility – are we truly willing to stand up and admit we were wrong? Are we willing to admit we knew the answers all along? It was not until Universal Medicine that I was able to start to take proper responsibility for my life, start to make choices that I knew were supportive of me and start to see how unloving and disregarding many of the choices I made and was making were.
Great point Andy, responsibity is a word the sprit runs away from, when we do start to take true responsibility in our lives we are choosing to connect once again to our soul. And what true joy this brings!
I appreciate your comment Shirley-Ann and I agree with you and echo your words “I am so thankful to now be able to discern between different energies” – I find my true education commenced when Serge Benhayon showed me that I had a choice to align with spirit or Soul.
Well said, Shirley-Ann and Roberta. I, too am – “so thankful to now be able discern between different energies’. It is still a work in progress and getting clearer all the time.
Yes, Shirley-Ann and Roberta – learning to feel the difference between the energies of spirit and Soul has been life changing for me. I’m so grateful to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine for so clearly bringing the wisdom of this to us, showing us how to re-connect to us and in turn begin to discern the difference between spirit and Soul. Without this we are lost as history clearly shows us!
I completely resonate with your comment Shirley-Ann and everyone. Starting to tell the energies apart helps make sense of so much in life. And allows clearer choice in life.
Everyone would benefit so much if this was taught and discussed more readily everywhere. Everyone should be able to know of and feel the energies apart. I would recommend that it is part of our education from when we are young.
Hi Ariana, I appreciate your comment. It makes me smile now to recognize just how arrogant the spirit can be – I agree, “the simplicity of living gently” is definitely the way to live.
Hi Roberta, thank you so much for writing this blog for us all; I can very much relate to what you have written. From being caught up for years in the spiritual and new age pursuits, and various modalities, to finally, after having given up, finding the true truth, meeting Serge Benhayon. In the 10 years that I know him, as well as Universal Medicine with all it’s amazing true practitioners, there has been a constant and consistent outpouring of deep love to me, as well as to all of humanity – if we choose to be aware of it or not. What a revelation to become aware that there is 2 different energies that fuel our every move; and we all need to make that choice. Thank you Roberta for sharing your path with us.
Hi Esther, I appreciate your words in comment – yes, as you say, “there has been a constant and consistent outouring of deep love” this has been my experience also since meeting Serge Benhayon and coming to know the true practitioners of this way of living-ness. What a joy it is now at this stage of my life to experience this reflection of True Love as we learn to connect with that still place within.
Thank you Roberta for this healing and inspiring blog, every time I re-read it there is another sentence which just calls me – rather like reading it for the first time, every time I see it.
This morning – “There was always another modality to try – “maybe this one has the real truth,” I thought. Even though all these modalities entranced me and excited me I had a deeper knowing that there was still ‘something else’ that I was missing. Somehow I knew I still hadn’t found that piece of the puzzle that had thus far eluded me, but at that time the illusion had me in its grip”.
From Spiritual healing, colour therapy, listening to clairvoyants and several others in-between, right up to my final previous therapy of Jin ShinJyutsu, where I really thought I had at last found the ‘real truth’ until I began to experience illness after some years of practice.
Since re-training with Universal Medicine and having understanding of the two different types of energy, so much more has been revealed from inside myself and I know my former work was actually just ‘scratching the surface and fixing’ ailments, not bringing the true healing that I am experiencing now for myself.
I appreciate your comment Stephanie – your words are inspiring. I had to smile when I read “thought I had at last found the ‘real truth’!” – oh, the arrogance of the spirit. Why or why is it not taught really early in life that there are two different energies we can choose to align to – one being the spirit that will take us on a never-ending foray, or Soul.
This is the key out of the imprisonment: to know, feel and understand the difference between the energy of the spirit and the energy of the Soul. Nothing before Universal Medicine has presented this, in my experience, and as much as we think we know, without this clarity we can be very easily fooled.
I agree why is it not taught from young that we have two energies too choose from, the controlling crazy spirit or Soul. I am sure if we were given the choice at a young age we would all choose our Soul as we all know the familiar feeling of that unconditional love.
Stephanie, for me the sentence that called me today, well in fact it sang to me, was ‘However, the sun did shine again and the trust has returned now’. I have had that feeling many times, as I again recommit to coming back to me, to truth.
My sentence today was ‘working with my mind, not feeling’. And I realised that, in all my earlier searching, there was an initial mind-generated excitement, that at last I had found what it was all about. Then, I would begin to feel elements that weren’t quite right. When I first heard Serge Benhayon speak, there was no excitement, but a deep knowing that came from my very bones. In the years since I have questioned and tested myself, and there are no elements that feel not quite right. This is real, complete, for all of my life.
Yes the trust returning is something i acknowledged and appreciated this morning. I felt that God’s love had never went anywhere and will always be there, no matter what. It’s just my choice whether to re-connect and feel and be aware of it, or not.
Love this – “It’s just my choice whether to re-connect and feel and be aware of it, or not.” Connecting back to the true me. Self-responsibility is key for me too. Feeling what is true, rather than being “seduced” into spiritual searching.
I can so relate to your comment Stephanie. All these modalities excite the mind without addressing the true questions and give solutions without giving real answers.
Completely agree, they excite the mind only, they do not give true real solutions.
Thank you Stephanie. Roberta’s blog reminded me of the first time I met Serge Benhayon. Although I had already left the role, I was invited by the College of Pyschic Studies in London to assist on a workshop. I was sent a letter, a special invitation to assist on Serge’s first Heart Chakra workshop in London. I had never heard of him before but as soon as I read the workshop description I knew I had to be there. Like you Stephanie, I have been a restless seeker: ,followed Indian gurus, spiritual teachers, psychics, clairvoyants, practised NLP, Tai Chi, yoga too many besides to mention. By the time i met Serge I was lost and disillusioned, nothing had brought me any closer to myself.. As soon as I heard Serge speak, i knew he was different, the real deal. It felt familiar. It was a homecoming, It would take time before I understood and began to embody the true essence of Serge’s teaching. I learned I was responsible for changes I sought in my life. The concept of self responsibility was huge for me and freeing-I had always looked outward to others for answers. What a revelation to learn the importance connecting to our hearts first (feeling) and live our lives from the inside out.
Yes, the spiritual searching and looking outside for the answers to my questions took me further away from myself also. I like Connor’s comment too “We access truth from within ourselves, as we all have the love and truth of God living within us.” So true.
Lovely words Stephanie, and so true.
If only we were educated from a young age that there are two energies to choose from, children are so open and honest and I’m sure it would make sense to them. Just imagine what the world look like then!
I had the same feeling Stephanie, that there had to be something more, something different. Even though I tried many different new age techniques, yoga classes, clairvoyants, healers, workshops, self-help books etc…I never fully lost myself in any of them as there was always something that I could feel that just wasn’t right…hard to put in words, but it was most certainly felt. Time & observation have been invaluable in allowing me to see what is before me…and 10 years on I can say without a doubt that I trust Serge Benhayon & Universal Medicine…the consistency and dedication to true love and service an inspiration.
Thank you Shirley-Ann for your comment. I love how you express “That my mind only serves under the governance of my inner heart” – that feels so beauty-full.
Hi Susan, I appreciate your comment. How truly beauty-full it is when we know we can feel Truth – and that was what I felt when I first sat with Serge Benhayon at the Universal Medicine Clinic.
How absolutely beauty-full Ryan – I can feel the loving connection of knowing Truth.
Roberta it’s just such a wonderful feeling to finally “get it”. I too spent years giving myself away to this or that in the spiritual industry and like you never felt satisfied. I spent loads of money, and wasted a lot of time but ultimately it never “worked”. I was still sad and empty and so ultimately each thing I tried that failed just made me feel worse than before! The fact that Serge Benhayon teaches self responsibility, gives every person on this planet the power to turn their lives around – it’s so simple! No need to rely on anyone other than yourself…. Perfect!
I appreciate your comment Rachael – yes, I agree “such a wonderful feeing to finally ‘get it'” – and learning also to appreciate me for just being me and no longer ‘trying’ to find the answers outside of myself – it’s all within – as you say, ‘so simple’!
I am with you there Rachel and Roberta, the endless moving from one thing to another searching has come to an end and it is a relief. The answers were there all along – inside.
I agree Rachael, it is such a wonderful feeling when you finally “get it”. I can relate to your story of spiritual searching, it feels so amazing to not have to search and look outside of myself anymore.
I very much appreciate your article and the fact that you have written about the two different energies – vital information as it profoundly affects all of our lives. I too had been aware for a long time that something was fundamentally not right. And studying psychology, looking at religion or dabbling in new age groups, teachings and modalities had not offered any real answers. I had progressively become very angry and bitter with the world and had shut down my expression.
When I met Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine everything finally started to fit together and make sense. I started to understand about the different ways the Spirit and the Soul impulse life and the two types of energies. And for the first time I was shown ways of feeling the difference for myself. It was amazing and is becoming more and more so everyday. It has also been very supportive having real life examples of people dedicated to living Soul impulsed lives, such as Serge Benhayon and his family. I will never again be fooled by deceptive seduction of spirituality.
Thank you Golnaz for your comment – I agree “When I met Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine everything finally started to fit together and make sense”.
Roberta. Thank you for sharing your incrediable journey. I have searched for years to get to know the real me, always feeling unsure, and when feeling sure, I would begin again to doubt. It has taken so long to now stop doubting, and to go with what I feel right inside of me.
Thank you Mike – I appreciate your comment. I can relate to your words “It has taken so long to now stop doubting, and to go with what I feel right inside of me”. I have found that by becoming more aware of which of the two energies that I am in and at any moment aligning to, may still have the potential of taking me down the path of self doubt or not.
Thank you Roberta for such a powerful blog to expose the spirit. I have been spiritual for most of this life (and many others by the feel of it!)
I have taken so much away from the blog and will continue to learn and grow.
Thank you.
This blog and all the comments shows how many people have been searching and still are for some Truth and meaning to their lives. I too, have searched outside myself for answers for years. It’s so obvious when we can feel the wisdom inside the body and know the answers are there. Thank you Roberta.
Hi Gill – Thank you for your comment. I agree – “we can feel the wisdom inside the body and know the answers are there” – beauty-fully expressed Gill.
Thank you Roberta, for sharing your journey with us. I can relate to what you wrote. I have been searching to fill up the emptiness inside myself as well and tried all kind of modalities from Reiki to Biodanza, from shaking to all sorts of healing and predicting the future. All these modalities claimed to be for the body, but were very mental. Nothing felt true or fulfilling inside me until I got my first Esoteric Healing session and I met Serge Benhayon. Now my body is the basis and I can allow my sensitivity and tenderness to show me the wisdom that is inside.
Thank you Monika for your comment – I love how you express “Now my body is the basis and I can allow my sensitivity and tenderness to show me the wisdom that is inside”.
I am still learning more about true Self-Love, Self Nurturing, Delicateness and Tenderness – quite a journey from being used to a ‘doing’ energy in the past. I feel your word ‘sensitivity’ strikes a chord here.
At about 10 years old I remember learning that people could lie to themselves (be in “denial”) and I thought “How horrible! How can they know what is real then?”
…and many years later, to my horror, I caught myself doing it too…
…But I want the Truth! So I started asking for Truth.
I know it is the way out of this mess that we’re all in!
The presentations of Universal Medicine and the many students who are working hard on getting more honest about what is and isn’t working in their lives (and why) has helped me come out of much of my amnesia.
I know honesty leads to Truth and Truth leads to being more responsible in every way.
Now I feel that the Truth is all around me and inside me all the time,
I just need to want to see it!
I no longer blindly search looking for things that might fix me… I am healing myself.
Hi Jo – I appreciate your comment – I agree with your words “I know honesty leads to Truth and Truth leads to being more responsible in every way”.
I am learning I cannot be responsible for anybody else’s choices that they may make, but I can only be responsible for my choices – I am finding this learning quite freeing – showing me that I can allow things to be, just the way they are and accepting that it is not my responsibility to find a solution to make things ‘better’ out there.
Just a quick perusal of the comments so far have shown how so many people have gone down this same path. It points to an obvious deep knowing within us all that there is something more to life than what we think, but by and large we settle for the ‘quest’ for something ‘out there’ instead of stopping and looking within to find that what we have been looking for has always been with us. A lovely journey, Roberta. Thank you.
Thank you Naren for your comment – and I agree, it seems “so many people have gone down this same path” – looking outside of ourselves for that piece that we knew was missing. The shame of having been so naive has been truly dissolved – I wasn’t the only silly billy who was ‘seduced’ by the glamour and the illusion – how glorious it is that we now know there is another way – living our way, looking within and not outside of ourselves.
Yes Naren, I was looking for something more from life. I had no idea there were 2 sources of energy from which I chose, as not one spiritual course or teacher had ever mentioned that before….shows how much they knew about energy! Now I can feel for myself when I am off, and make new choices. Yet I used to give my power away to those who I thought knew better than myself. With Universal Medicine we are encouraged to feel for ourselves what is true and act accordingly. All equal in brotherhood.
Thank you Roberta for sharing your story which is not too dissimilar from my own. My biggest learning has been to consult from within, my own love and wisdom. Universal Medicine has never asked me to be anything other that who I was and so from doing spiritual workshops which had me running around naked in a Teepee and jumping into freezing cold dams during Winter, Serge Benhayon has brought such a grounded, common sense approach to my life. From there I could develop true love, support and care for myself!
Hi Donna, thank you for your beauty-full words in comment. I had to laugh – that was one thing I never got to experience was the naked thing and the Teepee (though I do have friends that did choose that experience). I agree with your words “Serge Benhayon has brought such a gounded, common sense approach” – how uncomplicated it is really.
In my time I have attended so many ‘ism’ and ‘ology’ workshops and courses. One of my gauges was name badges – everything from a roll of sticky labels and a felt tip pen through to printed logo’d creations in polythene holders, with a variety of ways of spelling my name. Sometimes there was a hierarchy to the badges, how many times you had attended, how much you had paid and where you were allowed to sit. It was always interesting to note the badges that the ‘officials’ wore .
How different when I attended my first Universal Medicine event – a 2 hour talk. Not a badge is sight, yet it seemed to me that everyone was known, no special seating, as a first timer I was made as welcome as everyone else.
At my second event Serge Benhayon came up to me, used my name and talked to me about the workshop, I felt as though I had a VIP pass.
Through the subsequent years I have realised that Universal Medicine offers everyone VIP passes, Serge Benhayon presents that everyone is equal and he and his team most certainly deliver that.
…and it’s my choice whether I accept the VIP status for me, and everyone else, equally or not.
Kathie – thank you for your comment and your expression of your own experience.
It’s so interesting that you used the term that there was a ‘hierarchy’ to the badges – that really makes you smile doesn’t it. I guess there probably are no badges in Heaven.
Wow thank you Roberta, I too have spent years searching high and low wasting time and energy, like you I am now rediscovering that the true book of wisdom has been inside all along.
Thank you Samantha for your comment – not only wasting time and physical energy, but the dollars as well – oh! the energy that was wasted there. What a blessing that I am learning that it is never too late to find that there indeed is another way – by looking within and listening to the body – how simple is that.
Thankyou Roberta for sharing, very much appreciated.
Hi Jade – I appreciate your comment – it’s been quite a journey in itself – the sharing that is.
Having walked the same steps as you Roberta, it’s beautiful to feel how you were given a True Sign with the letters S E R G E on the van to guide you to deeper understanding. It shows we are always being supported.
Hi Michael – thank you for your comment – yes indeed I agree that we are always being supported – I am still learning to feel the intricacies of something shared when nature suddenly presents an offering – e.g. a feather at your feet, a dragon-fly or maybe a lady-bird beetle on the balcony at 22 stories up.
All this is so familiar Roberta, and especially the feeling of having been a fool to be so duped in this way. I searched here, there and everywhere, and similar to you, taught workshops and performed self-created solo theatre, taking what I thought was my truth out into the world. So many people appreciated what I expressed, and now I know how damaging it all was. Added to that I wasn’t living it, it was part of the search. Now I know that I don’t have to DO anything, just live the true me in connection with my soul. Still the false foundations I built for myself come up to be revealed and felt, and then I feel a fool all over again. It takes a while for me to stop going down into the despair you mention, but more and more quickly I can turn that around to an appreciation of the fact that I have felt it, and can build a new foundation, and that it is a necessary part of my return to myself.
Thank you Joan for your beauty-full expression – it feels like there are perhaps more than a few that could say they see a mirror-ing of past beliefs and behaviours – what Grace it is that we have chosen to recognize that those behaviours and beliefs were never who we truly are within.
It is obvious when you look at the world and all its problems that we must have more than one energy at play and that there must be a choice that we can make between the two energies – we can either heal and harm each other and ourselves with each choice of energy we align too in every moment. It makes total sense but unfortunately most of the new age healing industry does not accept this as a truth. But the body is a marker of all truth and many so called ‘healers’ can be exposed to be less than what they claim to be by looking at the state and condition of their bodies. To truly heal means to realise that we do indeed have it all already inside us and we just need to stop and be honest and connect to our inner most as Roberta so beautifully explained.
Thank you Andrew, yes it is so obvious that there must be more than energy at play and yet for some reason, mankind is preferring to be blind to this for the time being, but it also feels obvious that this must and will change.
Hi Doug , I agree with your comment about “mankind preferring to be blind” – I feel it is now possible and it is time for mankind to see there is another way.
Hi Andrew – I agree with your words “when you look at the world and all its’ problems that we must have more than one energy at play” – that has also at times occurred to me.
It was indeed my experience that “so-called ‘healers’ can be exposed to be less than what they claim, by looking at the state and condition of their bodies”. I had often wondered about that myself at times.
Roberta, there is a deep sense of returning within your blog. Its amazing. It feels as if you have “been around the houses” in search for answers outside of who you truly are and yet it has become clear that in the end if you approach everything from you and how you feel first then you already have it all. Its amazing also because I know and can relate to where you have been and know and can relate to where you are today. There is such a beauty in sharing…thank you.
Hi Phill – I appreciate your words in comment – I love the way you express “been around the houses” searching – – springs to mind “I’ve been everywhere man!!” – and I’m learning to smile more, feel the simplicity and the joy of life more on my return. Thank you.
It could have been me writing this blog. I appeared to have everything physically too, yet,
‘there was such an emptiness and sadness I could not explain. The feeling was of worthlessness – what was the point of my existence? “There has to be something else’. Yes, this started me searching every spiritual modality, including training and then practising acupuncture for 10 years. I always knew there was something missing and not true, and eventually renounced acupuncture as not being it. Not until it had made me very ill from absorbing my patient’s illnesses.
I was blessed at about the same time to meet Serge Benhayon and attend a workshop, and I felt immediately yes this I can really relate to, finally this makes sense.
Hi Lorraine – I appreciate your comment. It’s awesome isn’t it when we finally are aware that we can choose to see and feel true Truth, True Love – that’s all there is really.
Thank you Roberta, an inspirational sharing. I can relate to all you have written and chose to walk a very similar path until I met serge Benhayon, which thank goodness I did as I was getting sicker with the modalities I was practising, and something was not feeling right about the energy I was working with. It still amazes me that the one piece of information that is missing from all new age modalities is that there are two sources of energies at play throughout life which influence every choice that is made.
Thank you Julie for your comment and I agree with your awareness of there being a lack of ‘the one piece of information that is missing from all new age modalities is that there are two sources of energies at play throughout life which influence every choice that is made”. With such an industry I wonder why this important and pertinant piece of information was not brought to our awareness during all those modality trainings that were on offer back then during my delusionary years of bettering myself. How glorious it is to be totally free of all that illusion the way I am learning to live my life now.
Discerning the difference between the energy of the Spirit and the energy from the Soul is the key to freedom from the spiritual and new age seeking. Without the awareness that there is a difference we get stuck in the illusion that what we are doing in the spiritual seeking is bringing us closer to God, when in truth it takes us further away.
Hi Shevon, Thank you and I agree with your comment and your words “Without the awareness that there is a difference we get stuck in the illusion” – the word that is key for me there is ‘awareness’. I am learning to deepen my awareness, and am experiencing more joy in my life as a result.
It really is discerning the difference between the energy of the Spirit and the energy from the Soul that is the key.
Beautifully and simply put Shevon – I appreciate your comment.
Well said Shevon, that’s it in a nutshell.
I can relate to searching and being involved with different spiritual modalities, but I knew instantly when I heard Serge Benhayon talk that I had found truth. Thank you Roberta.
I appreciate your comment Julie – I recall the first time I met Serge Benhayon so very clearly – but back then I didn’t know the difference between Soul and Spirit. However, it took less than a split second to realize that this consultation was something else, and I knew and recognized True Love in that instance.
I too, went on a merry-go-round trying many of the different new age modalities that were on offer. What I discovered was, that my life appeared to improve for a day or so, and then when my emptyness surfaced again, I was back searching for the next New Age fad that would enthrall me. Thankfully, this exhausting way of living, is well and truly behind me now. This is as a result of becoming aware, through the Ageless Wisdom, of the true book of wisdom that lives within me.
Hi Elizabeth – thank you for your beauty-full expression – and I too thank God and to quote you, “this exhausting way of living is well and truly behind me now. This is as a result of becoming aware, through the Ageless Wisdom, of the true book of wisdom that lives within me”… I couldn’t have put it more simply – that’s it in a nutshell.
This is a great article Roberta, you bring to light significant aspects. I love how you highlight ‘the seduction and the hooking’ of the spiritual new age movement, as you say, there is always something new to try, keeping us on and on the merry go round of looking outside of ourselves for answers, thank you
Very well said Jacky; ‘there is always something new to try, keeping us on and on the merry go round of looking outside of ourselves for answers’.
Thank you for your comment Jacky – I like your reference to ‘keeping us on an on the merry go round of looking outside of ourselves for answers”. On reflection it was like there was ‘no getting off’ – just ‘continual motion’ – no true wisdom to tap into or connect with – amazing how the human spirit had such an overwhelming influence during those few years. Thankfully, I am now learning to ponder, contemplate, and do the gentle breath meditation to bring harmony and stillness to my life.
Great blog what an amazing journey.
Thank you for your comment Graham – ‘amazing’ indeed – more amazing now as I come to learn to love myself more for who I truly am.
I enjoyed reading your blog Roberta and the subtle humor you have used to describe your spiritual journey. I too was involved strongly in all sorts of Spirituality, including gurus.
As my life was dominated by a very strong given up energy and misery I was looking for a anything that would make me feel better out there.
During that time, I developed a strong arrogance thinking I was so much further in my personal development than all the normal people who were not interested in spirituality.
Little did i know at the time. It just shows how disconnected I have lived most of my life and also during that phase of many years of spirituality.
Hi Janina, – I appreciate your words and they made me smile – especially “I developed a strong arrogance thinking I was so much further in my personal development” – oh man!
The web of spiritual pride – I managed to see it in others but not in myself. I didn’t feel ‘better than’ – just closer to God – can you see the humour in that little belief. However, I am learning to have more compassion for myself and my ‘mistakes’ the more I come to connect with my true self.
I love the journey, Roberta. Interestingly I used to keep on saying that I’d never been looking for anything and if it hadn’t been for Serge Benhayon I would have just carried on as I was – UNTIL I realised that I’d been doing exactly the same as everyone else who had been searching the spiritual modalities EXCEPT that what I was doing was immersing myself in work at all costs. In truth we do anything to avoid admitting the love that is within us and do our best to ignore what our bodies are truly saying – as you so beautifully express.
I appreciate your words Michael – I agree, the thing we chose to use to keep us from ourselves would appear to come in many colours and flavours (sport/work/new age endeavaours etc) – and to use your words “In truth we do anything to avoid admitting the love that is within us and do our best to ignore what our bodies are truly saying”.
An amazing blog Roberta. Although I have not had a direct experience of new-age therapies, what you have described sounds very similar to how kids my age use alcohol, drugs and sex; always searching for ‘more’ to life, even though what they are doing is so obviously harming their bodies and actually taking them further away from ‘the wisdom within’.
Thank you Susie for your comment. I agree with you there is quite a similarity – in a nutshell as a result of the energy. I was giving my own innate power over to an energy that was not Love. How beauty-full it is to feel that ignorance lifted and replaced by the knowing that we have a choice – to choose Soul or Spirit.
Well said Susie, this is a really good point about how we can apply what Roberta has presented, to the way people approach a huge range of things to try and feel the ‘something else’.
Yes Rebecca I too noticed that not only the so called New Age teachers and gurus I found didn’t look well, their ‘followers’ weren’t particularly cheerful either or fun to be around.
What a contrast to the wonderful shining eyes that grace the ‘after’ shots of students in the before and after photo diary and the joy of student gatherings. For me, Serge’s presentations, based on the way he lives, are truly universal – wherever we are globally, physically, in our life cycle, the choice to return to the Love from which we come is there.
Now that is a practice which I feel is worth practising.
I love this blog, thank you Roberta, the body is definitely the marker of truth for me, for sure. Your journey is so similar to many of us, searching for years and getting so stuck. No more!
I agree Gill, my body is also a great marker of truth for me.
Yes I agree Gill so many of us have been on similar journeys all looking for something that we all ready have. Each time I found something, a book, a healing person, I would feel this could be it, and then a year or 2 later I would begin to see that something was not quite right, there were a few cracks appearing in what was being offered or presented.
Alison – your words are also familiar to me from back then – “that something was not quite right”. But from the very first time I attended Universal Medicine and a presentation by Serge Benhayon, everything that was presented made sense to me – it was like a knowing from within.
Thank you Gill for your comment – I agree with you – the body speaks very loudly if we but have the ears to listen… and to repeat your words “searching for years and getting so stuck”. How freeing it is to become ‘unstuck’ from those belief systems.
Wow Roberta, thank you for sharing your experience so openly and honestly. I too have been tricked by what my mind wanted to hear at the expense of my body. The teachings from Universal Medicine are supporting me in listening and trusting in my inner wisdom again – my body. Thank you.
Thank you Priscila for your expression – “I too have been tricked by what my mind wanted to hear” – it’s so interesting isn’t it when we remember that the mind ‘has a mind of its’ own’ so to speak – and it doesn’t appear to be aligned with the true love that resides within each one of us – as you say “listening and trusting in my inner wisdom again – my body”.
Dear Roberta, It is very telling that ONE time of listening to Serge speak could reach through all the former untrue things you had taken in and help you get your bearings on “the True book of Love” inside you.
My path has been VERY similar to yours.
Love will always be the last one standing.
Thank you Jo for your comment – yes, awesome isn’t it to reflect on, after all that time wasted searching outside of myself to be brought to a point where the Light was swtiched on in an instant. I agree with your words “Love will always be the last one standing.””
Thank you Roberta for sharing. Even though I didn’t go on a spiritual search I can relate to this as I did try a few different modalities thinking this would be the answer to what I was missing in my life. Thanks to Serge and Universal Medicine I to have connected back to myself and found the answer was always there.
Hi Sandhya, thank you for your comment. I agree with your words “Thanks to Serge and Universal Medicine I too have connected back to myself and found the answer was always there.”
On reading your blog this time I felt the connection to your opening sentence including the words ‘the true book of wisdom I sought was in fact inside me all along’. When we realise this it makes such sense of life and all that we have lived. For so long I have ignored this deep inner pull and over ridden this feeling as it did not follow the ‘normal’ pattern of life as reflected to me by the world. This has kept me so far removed from the reality of life and I have allowed my head to dictate the way I am in the world. It feels so joy-full to have connected to the true me and my inner heart.
Thats a great point Sue, those words (‘the true book of wisdom I sought was in fact inside me all along’) sum up everything – as you say the more we/I release this the more sense life makes.
I too find those words ring in my heart “the true book of wisdom I sought was in fact inside me all along”, and as I have connected to this feeling I have been able to have a greater understanding as my life unfolds.
I agree with you David, Sue’s words “the more we/I release the more sense life makes”.
Good morning Sue Teresa – I appreciate your expression – I too tried to live by ‘the normal’ pattern of life just to be ‘accepted’, to ‘fit in’ – even to the extent of taking anti-histamines before drinking alcohol – (the alcohol affected me badly) just to be seen to be ‘fitting in’ – ‘one of the group’ etc. With my developing awareness though, thank God, I am learning now to see through the illusion of this being ‘normal’. As you say – “it feels so joy-full to have connected to the true me and my inner heart”.
My sentiments exactly! I was tricked and seduced by external offerings. Thank goodness for Serge Benhayon showing me exactly what was at play.
Hi Roberta, I too followed a similar path further away from my soul which included reiki and self-help books.
Hi Natalie, thank you for your comment – I appreciate you expressing your past experience of “followed a similar path further away from my soul – reiki and self-help books” – it feels to me quite freeing when I call out that non-loving energy and see it for what it truly is – the word ‘imposter’ springs to mind. I have found as I return to my connection with my Soul that the Way of the Livingness is now my Way.
Roberta, thank you for your article. I too had been down the spiritual path, meditation and psychic route mostly which lead me to become more and more isolated, tired and I feel contributed to my health problems. I was not aware of the two different energies, soul and spiritual until I came across Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayons presentations from which I have made huge transformational changes to my life. For me, as Tim says, it is a way of life, it is real and the truth.
Hi Ruth, yes, I agree it is so simple really isn’t it? To repeat your words “it is a way of life, it is real and the truth”.
To add to your words “I made myself quite ill from the spiritual new age stuff” – my ‘ill-ness’ was to be stacking on the weight – As you say “Serge Benhayon was the first person to explain to me and many others about the difference in the two energies and what was truly going on”. I find now I look at life each day through different eyes and enjoy truly the glory that each day brings.
I just read your comment Ruth and it just confirmed to me that Yes I became more and more isolated and drained to the point where I could not shift my exhaustion. No modality in all those years of being a ‘spiritual junkie’ (as my husband phrased it) did anyone ever tell me the clear and distinct difference between the soul and the spirit. I was so lost and totally sold out to anything that would give me temporary relief that I stopped caring about my feelings and my body was like it was not connected.
I am so thankful for finding the truth of who I really am through the wisdom and teachings of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine.
What I know with absolute certainty is that this outfit is the first in the world that I know of who delivers nothing but Truth.
Hi Bina, I love how you expressed “What I know with absolute certainty is that this outfit is the first in the world that I know of who delivers nothing but Truth” – I have wondered in the past – what took me so long?
Yes indeed, Bina. Many of us have been casualties of the spiritual new age circuit, and our bodies and our wallets have paid a high price. The ‘Before and After‘ project has helped me reflect on and appreciate how lost I also was, how uncomfortable I felt in my own body, and how much sadness there was behind the arrogant front that I put up. It is also a celebration of how we can return to ourselves, once we become aware that we have been owned by these false truths.
That is an incredible sharing Ruth.
Thank you Roberta for sharing, I admire your courage to be so honest about the choices you have made.
Hi Shami – I appreciate your comment. I will not deny I had to wait quite a while to ‘come clean’ as they say – I found dealing with shame, remorse and guilt quite confronting energies to learn to heal. One interesting point that was revealed is that it is never the Divine energy that causes one to descend into shame, remorse and guilt – and there are only two energies that there are for us to align with – I have found it so liberating to know that I can actually choose whether to descend into the spiral of those astral/pranic energies or not.
Thank you Roberta for sharing your ‘coming clean’ – I found dealing with the shame, remorse and guilt very confronting and the re-building of the inner confidence took time. It is so good to understand the two energies now and the choice ‘to descend into the spiral of those astral/pranic energies or not’.
Beautiful Roberta, thank you for sharing. I remember in my twenties innately knowing life was all about love and repeatedly sharing this with one of my boyfriends. After having seen Serge Benhayon present a number of times I now know and feel the depth and truth to this. It is awesome to reflect upon that feeling that there is more, there is something else.
Thank you for your comment Sacha – you reminded me with your words of “knowing life was all about love” – I always knew there had to be a way to bring Love back into life’s equation – and Serge Benhayon through the vehicle of Universal Medicine has shown us all that there is a way – The Way of the Livingness. Isn’t it beautiful.
I so relate to your blog Roberta. I did various different modalities in the Spiritual New Age in a desperate attempt to find something which made sense and was true, but it never worked – there was always a part of me that knew even while I was in it that, that particular thing wasn’t it. I was crystal clear that I wanted to be and live in the world and when I came across Universal Medicine I was struck by how ordinary and simple it was and initially I couldn’t quite believe but through experimentation in my own life I’ve learned that it is true, that the answers are inside me, and always were. So it’s really all about bringing that out into the world, something I continue to learn day by day.
Thank you Monica for your comment – I agree with your comment that life can be uncomplicated and ordinary – quite extraordinarily ordinary really – if we but choose to listen to the body and to the wisdom we all innately have within.
Roberta, I love how you have said here about the extraordinary ordinary. This just really resonates with me right now.
…’extraordinarily ordinary’ – I love it!
Thank you Roberta, for sharing, so simply, the difference between Soul & Spirit. I can totally relate to constantly looking for the next spiritual book or course and, once I came to the truth that I only had to look inside me, the guilt I felt over all those I had lead astray, and the lack of trust in myself of being able to discern the truth.
Hi Carmin, I thank you for your comment and appreciate your mention of ‘the guilt’ aspect of having strayed and allowed the wayward spirit to engage in ‘healings’ that were energetically harmfull. I recall a portion of a lyric I heard from Chris James some time ago – “learning to trust again – coming home again – now you can be all you are – oh there’s a world to see, all in your heart to feel – it’s time to ‘be’ again”.
Your blog has a lightness and clarity to it that I really appreciated. I can feel that you are now accepting of yourself and your old choices. Your quote, “right at the beginning is staying with me”…, that the true book of wisdom I sought was in fact inside me all along.” We all know it when we feel it. I am becoming reacquainted with my potential for love and wisdom and is not always ‘easy’ but it always feels very ‘true’. Thank you
Hi Samantha, I appreciate your loving expression. I also had some momentum to re-visit and clear before I could feel once again what ‘joy’ actually feels like. I have valued greatly the loving support of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine presentations too, as you noted to “re-acquaint with the potential for love and wisdom”.
Roberta this is a great blog. What rang true to me was that feeling of “There has to be something else.” These words repeated in my mind for years and years. The yearning to find the answer that was already there within. I didn’t choose the spiritual new age path, but like others medicated myself with food, travel and work which was just as harming and not who I really am.
I appreciate your comment – and yes, I remember that moment clearly as though it was yesterday – a pivotel point I guess in coming out of ‘numb-ness’ and just playing the game of life as I believed it to be before that moment. The true ‘something else’ eluded me for a while, but I now appreciate that I finally listened to the wisdom from within and I find life learning to be in the ‘livingness’ now such a joy.
I have also had the same feeling – of knowing there is more than just the physical. I, like you, didn’t choose new age – and choose work as medication. Something to hide behind! Its great to expose that and see how we can ‘use’ things to fill us up.
And all the while, all Serge Benhayon offers, no matter what our past, is acceptance.
There is much to learn from that!
Thank you for your comment about exposing other ways of ‘medicating’ ourselves to keep us in numb-ness or something to hide behind. I agree with you that ” Serge Benhayon offers, no matter what our past, is acceptance”.
Great to read your journey Roberta, I too was caught in the new age movement for many years trying to find that missing piece. I would often catch myself preaching about it. Now as a Student of The Livingness I am learning to share through my livingness and inspiration and no more preaching.
It is crazy really to think that we as a society can be allowed to get lost in something that is not only not true but also very harming for our bodies and those we work on, I have witnessed your sharing Amita and how your inspiration naturally assists another, which shows us how simply life truly is and how complicated we can make it.
Hi Amina, I appreciate your comment – I agree – ‘it is crazy’ to think that I did embark on that perilous path, little realizing I was choosing to give up my innate wisdom and soul-full power over to another force that ‘appeared’ to be wiser than I. How awesome it is that we now choose True Love – and it feels so natural.
Hi Amita – I appreciate your comment. It seems that many of us at some point were caught in that Soul-less trap. How beautiful life is now – knowing that we do have the wisdom within and are free to choose in every moment which energy we will align with.
Amita, I love your line, ‘learning to share through my livingness and inspiration and no more preaching.’ I’m starting to really appreciate how inspirational someone’s livingness is and, in the same way, that just being me is enough. I’m learning to give people space and let them be.
Karin, I align with your words “learning to give people space and let them be” –
this was not always the case for me – so beautifully freeing when the energy of judgement no longer has a hold.
I agree with you Karin, ‘learning to give people space and let them be’ becomes easier as I return to more and more of appreciating me being enough as I am.
I agree Rebecca – I have found right from early in life, that I did not appreciate being ‘preached’ at or to, from a pulpit in a church or from any other source. How liberating it is to know we are free to learn and express through the livingness of our every day.
Thank you Roberta for sharing your journey. I can relate so much to it having been a practicing kinesiologist for 15 years before meeting Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine. There is such a world of difference between the Spiritual and Soulful Path and you very clearly and simply express the difference between the two energies which is so important to distinguish.
Thank you for your comment. I agree “there is such a world of difference between the Spiritual and Soulful Path” – I have discovered on my way back that the Soul-full Path is so very natural, it all makes sense, it is simple – not complicated and never imposes.
Yes, beautifully natural and very simple.
Wow, an amazing sharing Roberta. It was great to read about your journey
Thank you Anna –
It’s been an awesome journey reading the loving and supportive comments in response.
I love the bit about the van Roberta, made me laugh! How true it is that when immersed in the spiritual new age we really get into coincidences but no one, not one person teaches that there are two different energies. One energy let’s you know there are two and allows you to choose and the other one doesn’t. What a perfect set up to keep us from ourselves and how difficult a path it can be to admit we have been had … Many times over!
The depth of appreciation I feel in myself for knowing the truth, the absolute truth was in fact being delivered by Serge Benhayon for us all, has given me access to a wisdom I have known within me all along. We do all know the truth about energy and can feel the difference!
Hi Suzanne – I appreciate your comment – and I agree with you – at no stage while dabbling in that foray at that time did I ever come across even the possibility that there were two energies we had the choice to align with. Indeed “what a perfect set-up”! How beautiful it is that I appreciated finally, that the ‘book of the heart’ is within and not out there, thus in that earlier ignorance, giving over my innate knowing to a force that is not True Love. Your last line sums it up really – “We do all know the truth about energy and can feel the difference”.
I would say I was fortunate in that I never found much appeal in new age spiritual stuff so didn’t get hooked into it that way. That was why I found Universal Medicine so refreshing in how normal and down to earth it all was, very much take it or leave it and completely non imposing.
I too was never drawn into the new age spiritual stuff, although I must confess I had a wee penchant for crystals, and I went once to a type of yoga where you had to pair off with someone and my mate tried in vain to raise my kundalini. No I wasn’t a searcher but I was fortunate that through my wife I found the most life changing, beautiful, not freaky, natural and loving way to live through the teachings of Universal medicine.
Thank you for your comment Kev – what grace it is to have remembered at last that we can feel the difference of the energies that are around us everywhere – and to have remembered that the wisdom we hold within will never take us away from who we truly are. As you say “life changing, beautiful, not freaky, but a natural and loving way to live”.
I second that Kev, I found Universal Medicine through my wife and I thank God that she decided to continue as her beliefs were very challenged at first and she nearly walked away. Because of Universsl Medicine and Serge Benhayon our lives are unrecognisable from where we were before and we both know that this is real, this is the Truth.
Very true Stephen, Universal Medicine is very refreshing indeed.
So true Universal Medicine is very refreshing, even though I was caught up in the new age stuff as I was in search of the next piece, when I first attend a workshop, I could feel there was something different. No preaching, just sharing from their livingness, and like you say very much take it or leave it, completely non imposing.
Absolutely Amita – a loving and common sense approach to life and living. So refreshing.
Thank you Stephen for your comment – I agree ‘fortunate’ not to have chosen that truly loveless path as I ultimately discovered. I appreciate also your words highlighting how the presentations that I also attended were just natural, made a lot of sense, and never imposing.
That’s my experience too – Serge Benhayon has always been very real and easy to relate to, and that was always the most appealing thing about the Universal Medicine presentations. It is about the life we lead now, and the only tool we need is a connection to how we are feeling in our bodies.
I appreciate your comment Simon. Your words remind me of the complexities that used to be my life’s experience before my Soul led me to meet Serge Benhayon – he shares with us all that truly living is simple really – not complicated at all.
Another ‘light bulb ‘moment Simon. It IS about the life we lead now, no guilt, blame or shame about the past. It feels like a load we have been carrying that we can now put down, and move on to a lighter, more gentle way of being.
Very true Stephen. It is refreshingly simple and has its feet firmly on the ground. I had got hooked into the Spiritual stuff and by contrast it was complex and fantastical and that’s the hook. Universal Medicine brought every thing back to the quality of my everyday choices and consequently, my life is now very simple, clean and straight forward and I love it. I no longer need to escape into a fantasy spiritual world, as I have learnt how to build a loving quality in each day, thanks to the common sense approach offered by Serge Benhayon and the Universal Medicine team.
Hi Rowena, your words in response to Stephen rang a chord “my life is now very simple, clean and straight forward and I love it” – and as a result of this new feeling I find it much easier to discard things from inside my house and surroundings, finding more ways of simplifying and de-cluttering, clearing items of nostalgia – I am more accepting that we actually need so little really.
Very true everything presented by Universal Medicine makes sense in the deepest most basic level. There is no fancy marketing or “rah rah” about it all, but oh boy does my heart sing whenever I attend a Universal Medicine workshops or receive Esoteric treatments. I love the fact that everything makes such wonderful sense and that there is an immense and genuine honouring and love for everyone, regardless of who they are and whether they are present or not. With all the championing of the complexities of life that is always getting more complicated, I never thought it was possible for my life to become simpler, my health improved and my relationships more loving. And yes all of this because of the common sense approach offered by Serge Benhayon and the Universal Medicine team that I chose to be inspired by.
Yes, deep inside I say “yes” to all the wisdom that is offered to me at Universal Medicine presentations, as if I knew it all along and I’m being re-membered. As you say no “rah rah” – just complete making sense of the whole.
I agree Stephen – I love how normal and down to earth Universal Medicine is and how what Serge Benhayon presents makes sense – not some far out airy fairy topic!
I agree James with how you expressed how normal and down to earth Universal Medicine presentations are – I have found there is a ‘knowing’ inside that it all makes sense – and somehow we are just remembering it again.
Yes I agree with you James Nicholson that Universal Medicine is down to earth. Being an ex spiritual addict I was into anything airy fairy and moved on to something else if I didn’t like it as there was so much. At one point I heard it was the fastest growing industry and my thousands of pounds on workshops, courses, collection of books, crystals, audio and anything new age was without a doubt feeding that industry.
I had totally lost myself and the drive to keep searching was leaving me more and more empty inside.
In 2005 I met Serge Benhayon and I knew he was the real deal but I was so caught up in spiritual new age that I felt disloyal and so held on for another year. However in 2006 the pull to go and learn about real Truth was strong so I followed what felt to me was the right path. I have never looked back and what is so inspiring was not once has Universal Medicine promoted or marketed a product, course of workshop.
It is great to hear and have seen in you over the years Bina how you have not looked back once you saw and committed to truth. The interesting thing is that it took you over a year to break the shackles of the spiritual new age which you had, like so many of us, got caught up in. It shows how even in the face of truth we can hang onto things, just in case, which are not good for us.
Totally spot on James. Normal, down to earth and very engaging in life and society.
Well said Ryan – I have found that also, right from the very first time I met Serge Benhayon there has never been any evidence of imposition, imposing a different view. For me it has been an opportunity to actually feel ‘there is another way”.
I agree completely Stephen. I never felt drawn in the direction of new age spiritual stuff either. Something always felt wrong about it although I had no idea of what that was. I was very resistant to Universal Medicine for a few years after finding it, jumping to the conclusion that it was similar in some way. But you nail the difference in your “how normal and down to earth it all was, very much take it or leave it and completely non imposing” comment.
Hi Doug – I appreciate your comment to Stephen and I agree with you – to use the same words quoted “how normal and down to earth it all was, very much take it or leave it and completely non imposing” describing the presentations of Universal Medicine. I appreciate deeply the gift of having met Serge Benhayon and the presentations of Universal Medicine.
So true Stephen; Universal Medicine is a first in that it simply asks you to look at yourself not ever forcing you do to anything but rather live from your body.
Thank you Stephen for your comment to Stephen – I agree with you – to quote you “Universal Medicine is a first in that it simply asks you to look at yourself not ever forcing you to do anything but rather live from your body”. I’m learning that the looking within and the revealing is ‘end-less’.
You are so right Stephen – Universal Medicine presents a very refreshing approach to life, and helps to make sense of the fact that there is another way of living which is more vital than how people are currently choosing to live all across the world.
A great blog from Roberta, highlighting how important it is to be aware of, which of the two energies we choose to align to, the one that comes from the spiritual consciousness or the one from the Soul consciousness. The latter one will take us closer to our Soul, the other, a lower vibrational energy, will take us further away from our Soul.
Thank you for your comment Elizabeth – I agree with your words ‘how important it is to be aware of which of the two energies we choose to align to’ – I wonder if at some point in the coming years whether this gem will be taught in the education system.
I agree Roberta, this is what should be taught in schools.
Roberta, I totally agree, how empowering it would be for children to be taught this “gem” from a young age.
It would be incredible for that to be taught in school.
Dear Roberta, I can totally relate to knowing there is something more than what I had in my day to day life. I went travelling and was on a beautiful beach in Australia- something I’d dreamed about all my life but when there I felt such a sense of loss and sadness that I knew then that whatever material wealth one had that wasn’t it.
Growing up I’d always felt excited when I listened to people or read things that were about spirits and anything other than what I saw in may day to day life thinking this would give me the answers that I was looking for. I wanted answers so I could address the emptiness I felt inside and feel there was a point, a purpose to my life.
I met people into the new-age movement but was so disappointed as I saw how many of them lived and it didn’t ring true. I met a few Zen Buddhist monks who were lovely and so went down that route for a while instead.
But then I met Serge Benhayon and like you said, for the first time I felt ‘met.’ I felt the great love he has for all humanity which has never wavered at any point in the time that I have known him. I’d like to say that from the point of being met that I stopped looking outside of myself for answers but that’s taken a little time as I resisted honouring my body and the connection I have with the love that I am.
So I still resist being the love that I am in full. This be as it may, I cannot doubt the love that I am each day. I listen to my body more and more and feel how it loves to be moved in a more tender way. I am becoming more aware if I have aligned to energy that is yukky and know I can choose to align to love again whenever I choose. My life is filled with grace and love that is totally different from my days of despair. I am starting to trust that I am held with love in every moment and this is wonderful.
Thank you Karin for your beautiful expression of your experience – and I feel your words “I resisted honouring my body and the connection I have with the love that I am”.
I too, now feel more and more the grace of just ‘being’ me, letting go of the harmful energy of self-doubt and learning to trust again. Life is truly beautiful is it not.
Hi Roberta. yes, life is truly beautiful. Thank you. I am beginning to really appreciate this and know this is just the beginning of my appreciation of each day. I wake up and look forward to my day and what opportunities it will bring.
Thank you Mary for your comment to Karin – Your words were like a mirror to me, showing me how far I have come, yet the inner work and acceptance of the love that is reflected is to still be fully embraced. Your words “learning to trust oneself again and not give my power away to people who I assume know more than me or are somehow ‘better’ than me because they are more educated than me”‘ rang clearly in my ears – which energy I wonder is at play here – it can’t be the divine energy, so in those instances I must have chosen/allowed the astral/pranic energy to feed me my thoughts.
Isn’t it awesome that we are now becoming more aware that we have a choice which energy to align with.
Your blog Roberta was like reading about myself and my journey to find something I was looking for which took me into spiritual work – having no idea there were two energies to choose from – until I met Serge Benhayon. That was a light bulb moment for me and from then on I felt met by truth and love. No more need in me to go searching outside of myself.
Hi Lorraine – I appreciate your comment – that is so true isn’t it? To quote you “No more need in me to go searching outside of myelf”. The thing I am finding is that the unfolding from within is becoming more and more revealing – truly end-less.
Thank you for sharing Karin.
I agree Mary, trust is also a big issue for me, whether it is trust in myself or others. I am learning to trust myself more and just because someone has more knowledge than me it doesn’t mean they have more to offer than me. By seeing others as equal it gives me permission to express the real me.
The power that we have to start to make changes in our lives, by making simple choices inspired by nothing more than what is felt, is so profound. As you say, Karin, it is just about choosing love again and again. No matter how many times we don’t choose it, it never goes anywhere and we can just choose it again.
Beautifully said Naren, love doesn’t go away it’s just there for us always as that’s who we are!! We can’t escape being gorgeous, loving beings – no matter how much we try!
I had a crazy thought the other day which went something along the lines of I wouldn’t be allowed back to love because I had just so obviously choose what wasn’t love. But then I felt that, actually love doesn’t judge. Love always welcomes me back and will always do so – whatever my trust issues are that it won’t be there for me.
As I came back to re-read this blog, I found I resonated and totally agree with what you have said Karin and Mary and ask myself ‘why do I resist being the love that I know I am?’ and ‘learning to trust oneself again and not give my power away to people who I assume know more than me’ – oh yes, that is ringing bells! A work in progress but now I know I will not give up on myself, thanks to Serge Benhayon and the courses offered by Universal Medicine. They have been totally life changing for me.
Thank you Roberta for such a powerful and profound blog. I could say ‘ditto’ to a lot of this and my blog is on this site called “From spiritual addiction to simple truth”.
I can so relate to what you say about not having the awareness that there are two different energies that you can choose to align to and one is the spirit. I too was lost and desperate for finding the truth and I thought it was out there. I was addicted to new age spiritual modalities, courses, books and any workshop. I had plenty of ‘knowledge’ so I ran my own workshops and had quite a following in UK and Germany.
However, I was always ill after any of my own workshops and I recall asking my assistant to find me a course anywhere in the world that would grab me and hold my interest as I was getting bored. I wanted a phd in spirituality as things that I was coming across left me empty and void of any true meaning.
At this time a colleague who once promoted my work said check out Serge Benhayon. That was 2005 and at first I did not like him as he was too ordinary and had no “rah rah” factor. How wrong I was as I walked away then for some reason, yet I felt very pulled to go back in 2006 and attend Universal Medicine courses and workshops.
To be given the tools to no longer race around and feel empty everyday has really been life changing and like those commenting on this blog, I am a Student of The Livingness and share with humanity how it is possible to live a real true life on earth.
“…to live a real true life on Earth” – I love this, Bina. Before when I was totally addicted to mind-body-spirit, it was so fake! I moulded myself to each new thing in an attempt to fit in and feel like I’d found myself. Now, through looking only inside and listening only to my own self ie my body, my heart and not my head, I can safely say I feel more myself each day and that’s pretty cool!
Thank you Roberta. I too was a spiritual seeker, everything from Reiki to colour healing and many others. I no longer practise any of that as it was a merry go round going nowhere.
I am very grateful to have found Universal Medicine, and now be a student of the Livingness, and to discover that what I was searching for is within me and has always been there waiting for me to connect to.
A merry go round going nowhere – I love that Sue; we search and search and are attracted by all manner of alluring things, and yet as you say, go no where, that is until we stop, and are still.
Yes it’s true, like you said, when you go to a workshop presented by Serge Benhayon you get ‘met’.
Well said Rhiannon – that captures my experience of Universal Medicine.
It just goes to show how the most unassuming of signs can turn out to be the most life changing moment. I had to smile at the way you describe noticing the van on a roundabout with S E R G E written up the side. The feeling of being ‘met’ resonating deeply inside is something I can relate to and something that at first when presented with such love, I just could not fathom – no matter how much I tried to figure out what it was. All I had to do was ask the question to my body, it would have given me the answer instantly.
Roberta this is a fantastic sharing. When you talk about there being two different energies in life, Divine and astral, I can feel how that changed your life completely. What a revelation!
“I have learned in my recent journeys, despite 25 years of spiritual searching, that the true book of wisdom I sought was in fact inside me all along”. YES! This is my story too Roberta – thankyou for sharing. I had no idea there were 2 sources of energy to choose from, until I came to Universal Medicine. I used to live consistently in my head, constantly seeking the next “thing” that would “make me feel better”. My spiritual seeking was all about myself. I was duped – or more honestly – chose to be duped. Inspired, like yourself, by the consistent love I have felt and witnessed by Serge Benhayon and his family, (without judgement), I saw there was another way to live.
I now feel for myself what I do, eat etc and know now that how I behave affects everyone else. My health and well being have also improved dramatically and I look 10 years younger than I did 10 years ago! I have regained my enthusiasm for life.
Great blog Roberta. I have never been into any of these ‘new age modalities’ but my wife was and hearing your story reminded me so much of how she used to be. Always searching for ‘something’ but never quite finding ‘it’. Going from one modality to the next in the hope that she would find Truth. I, on the other hand, was too numb to even realise that there could possibly be another way to live. Since being introduced to Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon our lives have completely changed for the better and for me I know this is not just another modality but ‘a way of life’. This is real and it is the Truth.
Thank you Roberta for your sharing, I too can relate to your story as I searched for truth and wondered why my life hadn’t really changed. Now after 3 years of looking within and listening to my body I know that my life has changed and the real difference was the understanding that there are two energies to choose from as you say–my soul or my spirit. I am inspired by Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon’s sharing of the Ageless Wisdom which I can feel in my inner-heart and deeply know I have been searching for all my life.
I always knew there was a truth and like most people went searching for it. I was one for buying books and skimming through them. Each time there’d be a small part in that book that seemed like gold but I never ‘practised’ what it was advocating. There was always a part of me that would not go there.
For a short time I dabbled with reiki, but mostly out of curiosity to see what my friend was teaching. Best thing was that she was the person who introduced me to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine. I knew next to nothing about Serge, but innately knew he was the real thing the first time I ever met him.
I haven’t looked back since then and now know what I was searching for was that deep connection with myself. I was ‘searching for Love in all the wrong places’ only to be shown it was there inside me waiting for me ‘ to wake up to myself’. Funny how we have these phrases in the English language acting as signposts, but most of us seem to overlook the true guidance they can provide us about life.
Thank you Roberta. Spiritual seeking is very addictive. Even through coming to Universal Medicine and the enormous benefits I have received and conditions I’ve healed by listening to my body, I have watched myself step away and retreat into my mind where there is no connection with our body and what we feel within. For you the signal was becoming overweight, for me the signal is always losing weight. Either way a bodily wake up call always wakes us up! What I can say is this: the support by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine practitioners is never ending. They won’t chase you but when we turn and say “Whoops. I made a mistake. I need help to come back to me”, they are so there – ready to support us to come back to what we know is true inside.
Great blog Roberta describing how the New Age hooks you in. I too spent many years searching outside myself. Until I was introduced to Universal Medicine I too had never heard a discussion on the difference between soul and spirit. Once I did its truth struck a deep cord within me. It was a knowingness that I knew to be true.
Wow Roberta such an honest account of looking outside of yourself and the deep searching that never filled the emptiness within as it was simply all about the choice of energy which we did not have awareness of before Serge Benhayon presented this for us all to see.
Thank you for sharing your journey and all it exposes and that we have everything within us if we connect to ourselves inside. The endless searching outside of ourselves can then end as I am finding too, finding the place of knowing, of contentment and joy with myself and realising that I have come home to the place I belong.
This is a great article Roberta and it really exposes how we can be very caught in thinking that the spiritual new age is what we are seeking. I too was caught in this for a while and can say that my body got very ill during which is when I put a stop to it. Thank you Roberta for detailing your experience it gives us much insight.
Thanks Roberta for sharing your story, I really like how you explain about the two energies that are there to choose from without watering it down. You just said it how it is, no beating around the bush.
So true Kev. Simply and clearly presented.
I was very interested by your description of how you were ‘hooked’ by spiritual based practices, and the thrill of sensing that there was more out there. I too remember that ‘thrill’ and the ’emotive response’. The great thing about listening instead to the wisdom of our bodies is the total absence of ‘thrill’ and any sense of being hooked. Instead we can find solidness, certainty and inner stillness, to name a few qualities.
Thank you for sharing Roberta – I too was tantalised by the new age movement – I loved the energy aspect, the knowing there is more to life then just the physical, however, it left soo many areas of my life untouched and it all felt too airy fairy with no real substance underlying it. It was only when I met Serge Benhayon, that I knew he was the real deal and what he was presenting was truth. Serge has never tried to be anything other than himself, he has never tried to impress me, or think of himself as above me or anyone else – which is quite remarkable and extremely different to the new age presenters I had met before who would have an air of arrogance, a feeling of ‘I’m better than you’ and someone I should look up to.
Been there too James, and you are so right, it didn’t feel real, and at some spiritual fairs, I met people who I felt I could never trust, so it didn’t feel right either. Spirit led me to do things that I hadn’t thought possible for me, but that did’nt feel right either, it was a bit like trespassing, going where one shouldn’t. When I first heard Serge Benhayon present……. now THAT was real, THAT was right and true, and I felt it deeply in every bone in my body.
So true James. For me also it left so many areas of my life untouched. Serge Behayon presents that everything we do has an energetic imprint, all of our behaviours and thoughts. This is not a hat that can be donned as and when we feel to. Life is an ever deepening connection to soul. Serge Benhayon presents practical ways to live a soulful life in all that we do. So simple and beautifully inspiring.
I will AnneMarie well said. Serge Benhayon simply presents extremely practical way to live a soulful life, there is no escaping off to a cave, no running away from society rather fully engaging with the community, with work and with everyone you meet.
Thank you Roberta for this great blog! I remember similar feelings of emptiness and trying/learning many different modalities to get ‘relief’ from my suffering. I also could feel true love was eluding me and there was a desperation to find it. To learn to re-connect to my body and to live from that connection has blown the lid off all the other modalities I tried and exposed them as not truly healing. This is so freeing for I no longer have to search everywhere else for answers – for they are all within me.
This is such an important point you make Roberta. The spiritual new age has vast followers seeking enlightenment but completely ignorant of the choice in energies and the massive harm they are doing to themselves and others. I was also caught up in this spiritual search. Looking back I can feel the huge arrogance I was in as I thought I knew what life was about. I felt superior to others who were ‘unaware’ yet I never stopped to consider why I kept searching. Why I was always looking for the next book, CD or course that would save me. What a blessing it has been to eventually meet Serge Benhayon, a man who so clearly shows us the difference between Soul and spirit – Fire and prana. A man who embodies True Love for all of humanity. Truly inspiring! Life for me feels so much more real now, and there’s is no more relentless searching. I love it when you say “the true book of wisdom I sought was in fact inside me all along” So true and beautifully expressed.
I also got hooked by the ideal, Roberta, that there was something ‘out there’ that would make my life better, that I thought would fill that empty black hole within me. Something that was ‘natural’ and used the word ‘spirit’ was something that I thought was the only was way forward and something I thought quite adamantly couldn’t be argued with.
It wasn’t until I also met Serge Benhayon some years ago, that I understood for the first time in my life that there was/is a difference between the ‘soul’ and the ‘spirit’, as he so clearly explained: one being truly Divine (the soul consciousness) and the other from the Astral plane (the spiritual consciousness). I too had chosen to fully align to the spiritual plane and totally denied what had been inside me all my life, but had spent most of my life looking for elsewhere…
I love the clarity you bring when explaining about the spirit and soul – it feels so much easier to embrace the whole when we have clarity. Although I was not so heavily committed to the ‘new age’ I still became distracted and deceived by various alternative ways to find my way back to God. It was only when I reached a point of desperation that I finally began to re-connect to a path that was being presented to me by Universal Medicine – a path that brought me face to face with myself and that of God within me. That was a true blessing.
Wow Roberta, what a great blog. I specially enjoyed when you made a decision to seek within a little more honest. Thank you for sharing your story.
Great point Roberta that we all can feel there is something more to life than just the day to day existence and so often we spend an enormous amount of time, energy and expense looking for the ‘answers’ outside of ourselves rather than trusting our own inner wisdom, especially the natural wisdom of the body, which always tells the truth about what is really going on in our lives.
I never went into the new age spirituality, I did briefly but it didn’t take hold, but my firm belief that there were other forces at work in the universe was a deep knowing. I did however get caught solidly in my mind under the guise of psychotherapy, years and years of it and training to become one. I too was 3 stone heavier, smoking, drinking whilst a successful psychotherapist – what could the quality of my presence have been truly?
I met Serge Benhayon and after doing the gentle breath meditation knew that this was something I wanted to explore more, then through Sacred Esoteric Healing sessions and courses the feeling of connecting to my soul is with no doubt the most wonderful way to live bar none.
Thank you Roberta for sharing your story, like many I too was embroiled in the New age Movement, exploring all sorts of different modalities, even training as a ‘Spiritual healer’. I used to attend Mind Body Spirit Festivals offering hands-on-healing, oblivious to the imposition and harm I was in-truth offering. Later I attended as a presenter, offering talks on personal development topics, convinced I was inspiring and ‘helping’ people to improve their lives, but my own life was miserable, so I was not living what I was presenting. In 2005, having tried macrobiotics, shiatsu, healing, rebirthing, inner child therapy, and trained as a counsellor, I was introduced to Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon, and it felt like I was coming home. Instead of the hard, deep breathing of rebirthing we learned about the Gentle Breath Meditation; instead of the emotional empathy of counselling, I learned about the impact emotions have on our general health and wellbeing and to listen with true compassion; instead of the imposition and harm of spiritual healing, I have learned about Sacred Esoteric healing based on our inner-most feelings and our connection to all of humanity. I have learned that everything that happens in my life is a reflection of my choices and now understand how much I am creating my own reality. My awareness of the energy in everything is increasing as I develop my body as the ‘Antenna of Truth’. It has been and is an amazing journey back to my inner-heart and the connection to my soul.
Thank you for sharing Roberta, there are many things I thought offered the answer to my discontentment of life but one after the other they didn’t deliver. It was only after hearing the presentations of Serge Benhayon that I knew I had found something that inspired me to feel at home with myself and from there did not need to seek any longer.
Roberta i absolutely agree the body knows whats best. And more so, nothing Serge presents is new to us, because our body and our soul already knows it to be true
Thank you Greg for your comment – and yes, it was a “Soul-less trap” as you expresssed – Soul-less indeed. Back then I did not know the difference between Soul and the Spirit –
as I have found there are some who still carry the belief there is only one energy that influences our every moment’s choices and behaviours. It is awesome to feel/know that I do have the choice as to which energy, Soul or Spirit, (Divine or Astral) I can align with in every moment.
Hi Roberta, the one common thread that I found in all the ‘spiritual’ modalities I encountered was that they do not mention any other form of energy. They do not discuss the differences between spirit and soul and of course they won’t since that would expose the energy of spirit not being the fullness of love that the soul is. I dabbled in many too, but would question why something didn’t feel complete until I met Serge Benhayon and knew this was ‘it’ here was someone who spoke the truth. Thank you for this blog which reminded me of where I have been but also to appreciate the love I and all of humanity come from and can connect to if we choose it.
I can also relate to trying many different spiritual modalities but none of them stood the test of time, as the emptiness always came back and I realised that I was compelled to search further. Then I found Universal Medicine and for the last 8 years have stopped searching and now feel this is it for the rest of my life.
So many people find themselves, at some point in their lives, no matter what their worldly possessions or position, questioning their existence and purpose, and nothing in life tells us that maybe, when we start to feel this way, when me want to find ourselves, going out and traveling on a journey, wether physical, emotional or spiritual, is not the answer, and that journeying within, and asking yourself – the person who knows you best, who you are and why you are here, may actually give you the answer you are seeking. But instead, everything in life tells you all your problems will be solved by this, that or the other, and that you can’t do anything for your self, except go along with it all. So what is for me so amazing about Serge Benhayon, is you find him, expecting him to do it for you, fix you and make it better, and all he does is give you the tools, to save yourself. Its not only empowering, but it really works. Thank you Roberta for sharing.
Beautiful Roberta, a common journey for many of us. I can remember the day of reckoning too, when I felt the true harm in everything I had invested my identity and life in. Thank you for sharing and for taking that huge step forward, away from all your previous investments into the real You. A true inspiration, thank you.
Roberta thank you for describing something that had not occurred to me. I had also been looking for something outside of me for years. Looking for what was missing took me a long way from the little castle I had built with my walls around myself. I was on my own little crusade, fully armoured and rode off into the sunset to search for what was missing and continued to get even further from the real me. Then I meet the guy from Australia, Serge Benhayon, 9 years ago and my quest for truth ended and found that what I had been searching for all those years was me.
Thank you Roberta for this honest account. I too got lost in spiritual practices for a considerable time. What we all have in common is that we always knew it was not true love, and it confirms that every single one of us does in fact know the difference inside us between spirit and soul. The variable is simply how long it takes us to listen to that inner knowing.
I relate to all you say Roberta as your outward searching sounds very familiar. On meeting Serge Benhayon I also found the search ended as I was presented with the truth that all I require is inside of me and through the simplicity of the Gentle Breath meditation, access to the wealth of wisdom inside is easily connected to.
Roberta this is a powerful story. It takes a lot of courage to admit that we have been fooled. I remember being excited by the spiritual new age, but I knew something was not right. Having come home to my Soul and claiming this more and more I now feel uncomfortable reading your words about spirituality. This shows me how far I have come.
Thank you Rebecca for your comment – I agree, I did also have an inkling ‘something was not right’ while trying all those different spirit based new age modalities, but had no idea back then really that with each one I ventured into I was taking myself further and further away from my Soul. Yes, the discomfort and remorse was very great at the time when I realized how wayward I had been. Thank God Serge Benhayon was brought into my life to show me that there is another way.
A great article Roberta. I too remember so clearly saying to myself “There has to be more to life than this”. I was 15 and felt very guilty as on the surface I had everything most people in the world would wish for, lovely home, 2 parents who did everything for their children, a brother and a sister, good friends, no family money worries and YET I knew something important was missing. I lived in this vacuum for a very long time without really looking for the answer. I started to find the answer when 40 years later I met and listened to Serge Benhayon talking about energy. There is more to life and I had found the key.
Yes Mary, I too experienced that knowing that ‘something important was missing’ briefly and yet I didn’t stop to feel if there was an answer, but just carried on as before in the same relentless way. I only stopped when I was forced to by my body leading the way. I then took myself on a detour with spiritually led modalities which I always imagined were going to be the answer – which they were in the short term – but in the long term they failed. I finally found the truth when I felt inspired to go to an Universal Medicine workshop – and this has been something that has just kept slowly building a foundation on which to expand my life into something far greater and grander. I have found that ‘something important’ within and by connecting to my essence – and life is wonder-full!
I appreciate your comment Mary – and I agree – listening to Serge Benhayon talking about energy was the ‘aha’ moment for me – specifically talking about there being two different energies that we can choose to align to – I was never aware of that while doing the new age modality thing.
Roberta, thank you so much for your honesty and for sharing this. The allure of the spiritual new age is all the comfort on offer from the astral plane satiating the desire that needs to know we are not alone, without taking any of the responsibility for the feelings of emptiness we have. It is a path many of us are caught by. The blessing of Serge Benhayon is that in living from the soul he was/is able to present the truth so that others can make the choice as to which energy to align to too. When we align to the soul there is no copping out of our responsibilities. We are shown lovingly over time what our unloving choices have been and why, but in our connection, get to build new foundations on self love and self worth instead of covering up our emptiness. Before we know it our self perception changes and we are on firm ground once more forever deepening the awareness of our choices.
Thank you Michelle for your comment – I could re-quote your comment in entirety it is so beauty-full and pertinent. There are a few different words that can be offered to describe what I thought the spirit was looking for to fill that thought of emptiness and I find your word “allure” quite descriptive. Amazing isn’t it when we discover that the Soul is never ‘hoodwinked’ – I have learned that Soul is only Love and Love is who we truly are in the innermost part of our being.
Hi Roberta, in a desperate attempt to understand myself and the world I started to seek new age modalities and the spiritual side of life in my early thirties. Thank fully it wasn’t for very long and I wasn’t totally convinced by it but it was something that tantalised nevertheless. Now I know it is nothing compared to who we truly are, thanks to Universal Medicine.
Good morning and thank you for your comment. At that time I too found the new age modalities ‘tantalised’ me – but since, thankfully I have learned by listening to the presentations of Universal Medicine that that ‘tantalizing’ was all part of the illusionary game that we had engaged in. I discovered the Soul does not seek to be ‘tantalized’ – only our spirit does this.
Roberta, what you shared touched a chord with me. I had been searching for that illusive ‘IT’ that would make me happy but for me it was in the form of success and lifestyle under the belief that ‘having it all’ would make me feel fulfilled and content. Then when I did ‘have it all’ I realised I was miserable and lonely – thankfully it was at this time that I happened to hear of Serge Benhayon and seeing him enable me to change my life around to one where I am more successful than I could have ever dreamt and am full of love and joy too.
Good morning Rachel – I appreciate your comment about ‘searching for that illusive IT’ –
apart from anything else I found that ‘searching’ quite exhausting at the time. But now, after meeting Serge Benhayon I am learning more and more that truly living is very simple really.
The simplicity of that ‘aha’ moment, when you realised that meeting Serge was the first time in your life you had been truly ‘met’ is exquisite, and one so many people have now shared. What follows that moment are our choices and taking responsibility for them, however uncomfortable and lengthy we choose to make that be. What always remains is the support and inspiration, by reflection, of lives lived with openness, purpose, love and integrity. It is a forever commitment but one that means many of us are waking each day with a connection to ourselves and life that is truly joyful and sweet.
Good morning Matilda – I appreciate your words in your comment. I especially love “What always remains is the support and inspiration, by reflection, of lives lived with openness, purpose, love and integrity.” – you cannot help but feel the warm glow within while reading these words.
Hi Roberta,
Thank you for your blog and I would love to read more blogs about your experience. I too have experienced the constant seeking and devouring of spiritual and new age books, courses and modalities. It is such an insatiable merry-go-round and ten years of it left me exhausted, stressed and quite closed down from the rest of the world. I have also seen how this affects others and their health as well. So true, if all of the spiritual new age stuff was truly heaven sent wouldn’t we feel it in our body?
I can truly say that I feel so much healthier, vital, clear and light now days through dropping the spiritual pursuits and learning to listen once again to my inner heart.
Thank you Serge Benhayon.
Hi Rebecca – thank you for your comment – indeed in a way it did seem like an “insatiable merry-go-round”. At the time I wondered why I seemed to be the only one that I knew of that was seeing apparitions – visions that seemed so real, that had me weak at the knees, but yet at the same time confused because they didn’t make sense and didn’t feel true. I thank God that confusion is no longer – and I also feel now since I have been learning to listen to my body, to my inner heart and being able to connect with the harmony and stillness within, that life is truly glorious – even though discovering this truth has for me been quite late in life, my body feels more true than it did ten or twenty or even thirty years ago.
Oh yes Roberta. There were so many of us who were chasing the answer outside of ourselves! Running from one guru or book to another, sure the next one would have the missing piece of the puzzle. What a relief it is to discover that the missing piece has been right there inside of us all along. Once we discover this, the searching is over and the unfolding begins. Thanks for sharing your story about finding your way home. PS I suspect that the white van with the letters SERGE on it, was not owned or driven by Serge Benhayon, the man who showed us the way to the missing piece of the puzzle. 😉
Thank you Gayle for your comment – I love your words “once we discover this, the searching is over and the unfoldinig begins” – so very true Gayle. In reference to the van – just as an aside – it was a furniture van, that is a ‘moving-(on)’ van – and there probably were other words of description and contact details etc. – but all I saw was “SERGE” – and no it was not driven by or owned by Serge Benhayon – but it was Serge and his ‘vehicle’ Universal Medicine that gave me the opportunity to be ‘moving on’ back home.
Don’t you love that?!
I can relate to having looked outside of myself for answers as to why life is the way it is and for a deeper meaning to it all and having now come to a place where I too know that “the true book of wisdom I sought was in fact inside me all along”. Thank you for sharing your story Roberta.
Hi Fiona, I appreciate your comment and reference to “the true book of wisdom I sought was in fact inside me all along” – reminds me of the pile of ‘self-help/development’ books that I once collected – which back then I discovered often contained a myriad of truly questionable suggestions on ‘bettering’ your self. ‘Bettering’ which part of my self I wondered. I find it now a mix of being a bit laughable and saddening all at the same time to suggest that I was seen as flawed, incomplete in some way and that I certainly didn’t measure up to what I believed was the world’s expectation of my contribution to society.
What a blessing, and I thank God that I eventually found I did not need to look outside of myself for answers – and that ‘the true book of wisdom I sought was in fact inside me all along’.
I really enjoyed yor blog, Roberta.
It intrigues me how we can seemingly have all the ‘good’ things in life – the loving family, a beautiful home, a healthy life-style etc, but still feel empty.
When looking for that ‘something else’ without being able to feel that there is two different paths we can chose from, we really can end up a long way from home.
It’s ironic that the very thing we are perusing is actually within us before we even start the journey. It’s just knowing where to start.
I have felt the same way, and can also share that Serge & Universal Medicine certainly is a great starting point.
I love that Angie “its ironic that the very thing we are pursuing is actually within us before we even start the journey”. Its like looking everywhere for your car keys only to find they were in your pocket all the time. However because we seek from feeling empty to fill the emptiness we often do travel the path of glittering lights and promises of eternal happiness and enlightenment which as Roberta beautifully points out in this blog just leave us feeling more lost and alone. By connecting to to what is within as presented by Universal Medicine we get to feel that we are full and already what we are seeking. The rest then is a case of developing and unfolding who we naturally are and healing the things we are not and our hurts which at times can be challenging but is most definitely worth it.
Thank you Angie for your comment – I find it intriguing also now, looking back, and how at one level I valued so much all those things that seemingly depicted a ‘happy family and stable/secure position in life’, being ‘recognized’ for the specific input into local community affairs etc. – the truth is that was all so hollow and truly meaningless, really loveless in fact and that was shown to be so when I finally chose a moment to look deeper within. As you say “it’s just knowinig where to start”. I agree with your words “that Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine certainly is a great starting point”.
Thank you Angie for your expression and I agree with your words “It’s ironic that the very thing we are perusing is actually within us before we even start the journey”.
I agree Roberta I too was caught in the Soul-less trap of the new age movement for many years and would preach about it. Now as a Student of The Livingness I am learning to share through example with no preaching.
Beautiful Greg, I love what you have shared here.
Thank you Shami – I agree.
I know what you mean Greg, I had a spiritual arrogance that I somehow knew more than others, and I wanted friends to enjoy what I had found in my spiritual pursuits, thinking this was the answer to what I had been looking for and trying to get them to see what I could ‘see’. What I did question during these 4 or 5 years, was that I was doing all these spiritual things to try and look after myself and yet I seemed to feel and look more unwell than my friends who were not following the new age movement, but that did not stop me. I still carried on pouring money into looking for the right spiritual journey that would give me what I was looking for, but none of them delivered anything of truth because I was looking outside of me for the answers.
Thank you Alison for your comment in reply to Greg – I can relate to those words you used ‘spiritual arrogance’ – I was witness and aware of ‘leaders’ of various ilks of my then spiritual journey displaying quite often what was then referred to as “spiritual pride” – cutting down their ‘followers’ making them feel sometimes as ‘less-than’. I didn’t like what I saw – but for some reason (was not connected to my inner) I didn’t have the where-with-all to say “that is not okay”, but maybe moved on to try a different modality.
Absolutely Alison, until the divine truth of Universal Medicine, I looked very sick indeed.
Roberta, I so love the way you were alerted to the new healer in town, and then were sent a white van with SERGE on it! You were in fact only a breath away from your glorious truth and you heeded the message.
I can so relate to all you have said. I too was not aware that there were two energies you could align to and that whatever was in your body, so you would express. I was running a big meditation and healing centre, part of a world-wide organisation, whose philosophy was supposedly the Ancient Wisdom and sounded so true, for example, ‘the intellectual mind is cold, we need to operate from the mind in the heart. It was all only a hair’s-breath away from the true truth but was not it. It is one horrible moment to realise what you have been deceived by!
Thank you for your awesome sharing.
Thank you Lindy for your comment – yes – I love how you expressed the experience as being “only a hair’s-breath away from the true truth – but was not it”. I can feel that clearly now – the ‘truth’ is not made so by just containing a modicum of ‘true truth’, and I feel now what is on offer cannot be classed as being partly true, it either is or it is not. Your mention of “whose philosophy was supposedly the Ancient Wisdom” makes me remember being asked by someone once long ago when speaking (not from truth) of the ‘Ancient Wisdom’ – the seriously presented question to me at that time was – “which ancient wisdom are we talking about”?
How simple, unadulterated and freeing is it for me now knowing to the depth of my being that there is only the “Ageless Wisdom” and I cannot be confused by what is not True Love.
Roberta I can so relate to being a spiritual seeker that actually left me as spiritual destitude. After 19 years of this seeking, I too was left with a body that was very overweight, full of ill health, lacking in energy and struggling to get thru each day.
After connecting with the fact of the difference between the energy of my spirit and the energy of my soul that was shared by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, my life has completley changed. This was a defining moment for me and it made complete sense why I was still going round in circles. Since committing to connect to my soul, my health and well being has improved dramatically, I have lost over 25kg without going on a diet and I choose to care and nurture myself each day as I now feel this honours my body and enables me to live more from my soul and heart connection. The difference between our spirit and our souls is the key message that every spiritual seekers needs to deeply understand as a true way forward.
Hi Sharon, thank you for your comment. To quote you “spiritual destitute” sums up that experience so aptly for me, believing at that time that ‘I was nothing’ and those spiritual new age style modalities would at least give me ‘hope – hope that I could fit in somewhere’.
I wondered at times why it took me more than 8 years to actually feel the ridiculousness of that belief. However, the beauty-full thing is I have learned to listen to my body more closely and can now feel the joy of being ‘lighter’- was that really an extra 25 kgs. of unnecessary baggage I was carrying around with me back then.
“The difference between our spirit and our souls is the key message that every spiritual seekers needs to deeply understand as a true way forward.”
Yes Sharon, this is so true. I still at times find myself unravelling the ‘ick’ from my involvement in the New Age. What made it very hooking for me is that some experiences I had were an absolute confirmation of other dimensions and there being so much more to life than what we see. Through it though I eroded my own true nature, becoming very disregarding at times and very arrogant feeling that I knew more than others as we were gifted with a ‘higher knowledge’. Thank fully, there were still ups and downs so I walked away from it all declaring that I just wanted ‘to live’ when I then came across Serge Benhayon and the gentle breath which I knew in all my being to be the truth I had been searching for my whole life.
I thank you for your reply to Sharon, and yes, I can appreciate your words “some experiences I had were an absolute confirmation of other dimensions etc.” – that was also a hook for myself at that time, but thankfully, my then learning the gentle breath meditation and feeling how easy that was, so naturally led to connecting with the stillness within. Life is so awesome isn’t it.
Hearing Serge Benhayon present that in each and every moment we have the choice of either aligning with the Divine energy of our Soul OR the wayward energy of the spirit was a life changing moment for me too. It made immediate sense of how normally loving people could change in a split second to be ‘not themselves’ and be acting ‘out of character.’ So obvious when it is pointed out to you, yet I hadn’t been taught this while I was young and trying to make sense of the world….. or older and still trying to make sense of it all…. until I met Serge.
Good morning Judith – thank you for your comment – I like the phrase you used ‘wayward energy of the spirit” – for some reason it makes me think of a time as a child when I had just one opportunity of learning to ice skate – one foot heading in one direction and the other streaming into another direction – but eventually ending up ‘home’ so to speak.
Sharon, I totally relate to your comment to this honest and inspiring blog by Roberta. I threw the scales away and stopped ‘serial dieting’ after my first attendance at a presentation by Serge Benhayon and my body has responded in a way I would never have thought possible – no dieting and excess protective weight just melting away in response to the different choices I chose to make from then onwards.
Hi Stephanie, thank you for your comment to Sharron – I can appreciate your words re ‘serial dieting’ – I tried them all at that time – none worked long-term for me. But as I learned to trust that innate wisdom within, listening to the body, practising the gentle breath meditation, I am finding the weight is still just dissolving away gently as I shed the energy of what is not love from my body.
Wow Roberta, a great blog sharing your many years of spiritual searching – which not for want of trying, still left you searching for truth. I can relate to your experience, and although I didn’t explore this to the extent or in the areas you did (such as talking to the dead etc. or leading meditations), I was nonetheless caught up for many years in the same spiritual search, always feeling that no matter what I tried to fill the emptiness I felt inside and the feeling that there had to be more, that the modalities I tried, at best, only provided temporary relief. Without fail, although I ‘thought’ I was becoming more aware, I continued to feel the same feelings of emptiness. Although in retrospect I can see the signs were always clearly there in my body, at the time I did not have this awareness, and hence would move onto the ‘next’ thing in an attempt that it would bring me relief from the discomfort I felt (inwardly and outwardly). As in your experience, it was only when I was introduced to the fact that there are indeed 2 energies to align to, that I became aware that the one I had been aligning to was not the Divine I thought it was. Once I began to connect back to my body – the marker of all truth – I found that the truth had in fact been right there in my body all the time. It was never outside of myself and is why all the seeking in the world for truth outside, left me wanting and dissastisfied. As I began to take more care of myself and listen to my body, I realised that all the answers are right there within, and that my body is speaking loudly all the time, calling me back to truth. I too have been, and continue to be, deeply inspired by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine who reflect this truth and who inspire me to connect on a daily basis to the truth within my body.
Thank you Angela for your comment. I feel the sense of ‘fullness’ in your loving and supportive expression. It was very evident for myself also back then, during those days of seeking a deeper meaning to my existence – that I was searching indeed everywhere out there, not being in touch with my body and in that ignorance not being aware of the calling from within – where all I am, where all is known – was just waiting for me to listen and ‘connect the dots’.