I was constantly running away from life and society and had spent ten years traveling on and off, often finding myself in some really dodgy and unsafe situations. On numerous occasions I found myself sleeping rough on a beach and I actually lived in a cave where I survived on mountain water and food found growing nearby. When I did go back into society to work it was easy for me to numb myself from what I was feeling with alcohol, sugar and caffeine.
I viewed society as the enemy. I saw it as an uncaring, heartless, cold place and wanted as little part of it as I could get away with.
This was a magical turning point in my life where I was given a very honest but loving reflection on how I had been living and how there was so much more to life than the daily struggle I was finding myself in.
I was going in a ‘one way’ direction which consisted of continually repeating patterns of behaviour that were unhealthy, unhelpful, unloving and harming to both myself and others. But after meeting Serge Benhayon I changed my life completely. Through his loving reflection I realised the harm I was causing to myself and the harm I was causing to society by not being fully committed to life.
Since attending Universal Medicine presentations and receiving Esoteric healing sessions, I have learnt how to honour myself and to commit back to life.
I had been travelling on and off for ten years, flitting from job to job, house to house, relationship to relationship, but since coming to the Esoteric work and The Way of The Livingness, I realised it was time to grow up and face the maturity and responsibility I had been running away from.
I have now been in regular full time work for over four years, and in the last year I’ve been working as a manager for a successful business.
I realise now if I want to truly change things around me, I need to be a part of it and then in time change it from the inside… not running away or turning a blind eye, or using distractions such as travelling, sugar, alcohol or caffeine.
I had always seen humanity’s sufferings as too big to comprehend and would get lost in the overwhelming feeling that I needed to do something to help in some way. When this seemed impossible it was easy to give up and use something to distract myself.
Now I allow myself to see and feel what is happening around me in society, but no longer feel hopeless and small within this.
We often feel we are too small and insignificant to change anything and have our say, yet this is a mass illusion most of us have fallen for. We choose to be unaware of how each and every single one of us is so important and can, in effect, have a great impact on all those around us, and the world as a whole.
I am now taking responsibility and claim my part in society. I work hard, commit to life and to people and I no longer run away.
None of which would have been possible if it was not for Serge Benhayon and the truth he presents.