What Was and What is Now

by Roberta Himing, Gold Coast, Australia

Having arrived in this world during WW2 I entered a time of sombreness, duty and doubt about the future – that was my environment. By the time the war ended I and my two siblings were fed on a belief system that children were to be seen and not heard, sit up straight, don’t chew with your mouth open, you will think what I tell you to think and be good or the bogey man will get you. Early school followed that pattern, and I soon learned that you could not trust anyone. Piano lessons assured that I would be isolated and disciplined.

The years passed, but even when quite small I sensed somewhere within me that I was beautiful – and later on this sense sent me on many a wayward path as I grew older seeking to be recognised, acknowledged and accepted. This seeking continued into the marriage, into bearing children while living in a coal dust filled town in Victoria, being a community volunteer/fundraiser etc.

We moved to a beautiful fruit growing area near the Murray River, when as a young mother of three teenagers, I experienced an ‘epiphany’ if you like, as I felt despair had me wailing to the winds “there’s got to be more than this” – “there’s got to be something else” – my despair rang loud and clear – the response was rapid to fill my emptiness, the void, my need. Something happened – I started channelling – didn’t quite know what it was – but the words were so what I needed to hear – someone/something was listening and I believed it. It seemed to be true – it seemed to be love. But what did I have to gauge the quality of what I was hearing? I had no marker at that time.

Years later we moved further north to the most easterly point where I discovered the word Reiki – didn’t know what it was at first – but believed it must have been what I was looking for – this thing that I needed to fill the emptiness within. Met similar folk who constellated to my emptiness and we were all doing the spiritual new age thing together – all together in our non-connected-ness.

For nearly ten years I dabbled in all of those modalities, published a channelled book and still wondered why ‘I was not getting it’ – that void, that separateness would not leave me.

Then just into the year 2000 I had the opportunity to meet with Serge Benhayon – the  knowingness that I had actually felt true love while sitting in that room – he didn’t say much – let me do most of the talking. But it was the ‘feeling’ that this short time had been profound and life changing for me. I felt ‘met’ without words as such being verbalised. It was a deep knowing from within that had no explanation. It just felt true.

I didn’t quite see the connection with my feeling of loss and my behaviour patterns at first – and continued on with learning about Aura Soma at a ‘healing’ centre – even though I mentioned what I was doing, Serge never said “you’d better not continue to do that” – and over the 12 years that I have known Serge Benhayon he has never ever said to me “don’t do that” – “do this” etc. – it has always been an unfolding of my own developing awareness of what was more appropriate for my body, and who I truly am – a slow unfolding admittedly and I still have a way to develop while learning that there is a choice in all that I do.

However, my life as it is now is awesome and amazing and I offer such appreciation and love to Serge Benhayon, all his family, the practitioners, the Clinic and Universal Medicine as the vehicle of the presentations, workshops, studies, etc. During this year of 2012 I have felt younger and more vitality than I experienced during my 40’s and 50’s. During those  earlier years I did not understand the connection between all the headaches, bloating, sinusitis, obesity, lethargy and the food that I was taking into my body. With the Universal Medicine presentations I have attended there has been much clarity given to the effects of gluten and dairy on my body – it all makes such sense. When I think of the times that I deliberately took prescribed anti-histamine tablets to enable me to drink alcohol so my face  and eyes wouldn’t swell up – just to fit in – to be seen to be doing the same as everyone else – totally ridiculous!

There now is the awareness of more joy in my life, relationships in general are becoming more open and natural, sleep patterns are way more healthy and healing. The practice of the gentle breath meditation is dissolving my anxiety levels, developing awareness of the benefits of being self loving and endeavouring to diminish complexities makes for more harmonious everyday living – living life now in simplicity to the best of my ability.

I have not personally read any of the mis-informed articles written by the journalists, nor listened to any of the sensationalised televised innuendos or lies as meted out by the hosts of those various shows that I have been informed about – I have not felt the need to do so – Love Just Is.

by Roberta Himing

Update: Since writing this blog Roberta Himing has come to inform herself widely regarding the newspaper articles and in particular the continued lies that appear and false allegations that appear online. “Inspiringly those initial words stand – ‘Love Just Is’ – and Universal Medicine stands testament to this, having not wavered in the face of the ill treatment of the press and of cyberbullies, however, at the same time there is a responsibility we all have in speaking out against the extremes of cyberabuse that is being increasingly normalised in our current society.”

As of August 2015 and 3 years after those first erroneous reports were published Roberta Himing continues to see Universal Medicine deal with the lies and innuendos, the untruths and the visciousness, with absolute grace and a consistency of care for people that has never faltered. In 2013 Roberta Himing received Esoteric Connective Tissue Therapy through Universal Medicine an experience that would support her to transform her understanding and relationship with constant pain. You can read about Roberta Himing’s experience here.

245 thoughts on “What Was and What is Now

  1. There is indeed more to life than what appears on the surface – much, much more. In fact an unfathomable amount of more!!! Hence the tension we feel calling us back. As you have clearly shared when we start to connect to and be open to, the more we have to discern who or what is offering it. More love, truth, joy, harmony and stillness is always available and offered by heaven…. as is more illusion, harms and all this that is not love is available and offered by the astral. It all comes down to which energy and source we choose.

  2. Developing the awareness of the benefits of being self-loving has no limits. The more I make a conscious decision to focus on making loving choices, the more I can feel a slow and steady foundation building – a connection to who I truly am that relies less and less on anything from the outside.

  3. You describe your life so poetically, how you unfolded the misguided voices was very profound, realising that you had not yet developed a true maker of quality in your daily life made it difficult to know what is leading you where but you found your way home. Your experience and appreciation of finding that marker within yourself with the support of Universal Medicine is beautiful.

  4. Isn’t it beautiful when we meet someone such as Serge Benhayon who doesn’t try to fix things but instead, in a graceful and non-imposing manner allows us to unfold in our own way and in our own time.

  5. ‘There has to be more’ / ‘there has to be another way to live’ Thank God for Serge Benhayon who tirelessly presents the answers and understanding to this call. A way that doesn’t demand we follow but remains ever open and supportive should we choose to take the steps and do the unveiling ourselves.

  6. When we do ask for the truth it will be revealed “- the response was rapid to fill my emptiness, the void, my need.” Truth is not to be scared of but to be embraced in all its Glory revealing and exposing what is not true.

  7. “I felt ‘met’ without words as such being verbalised.” I remember my first meeting with Serge and I had some questions. One of the them was very personal and I held it back from asking. Serge knew and said you don’t have to ask any questions if you do not want too. This response was different to any experience I had before with a sear. He knew. He felt me. He connected to me. I was understood. My hurt was honored and I was honored for the sensitive tender man I was. The energy in our connection I could not deny. And it is still there stronger than ever ..

  8. It’s interesting to reflect back truly, on forays into the spiritual new age, and whether they truly brought any sense of a real and lived connection – to oneself, and to one’s place in the life that we lead. I remember dabbling in reiki, in aura soma a little (never did a course), crystals and more Roberta. I remember reading books that were channelled, and even thinking that someone who channelled another supposedly ‘higher being’ was somehow ‘further ahead’ than myself along the spiritual path.
    Reflecting back also, I see nothing but emptiness in every last skerrick of these forays. They hooked me into currents of energy and thought patterns that took me into further withdrawal from the actual living of my life, and the claiming of a lived relationship with who I am and engagement with the world.
    They tantalised with ‘energetic experiences’ that confirmed yes, that there was definitely ‘more’ than our physical reality – yet was I truly discerning that there were different types or sources of energy? One truly founded in His Love, and one feigning to be so, but actually very and deliberately harmful – designed to hold back our true light and the power of actually embodying it.
    There is so much awaiting the one who has not dealt with the desolation within – to take him or her further away from themselves. It’s harm and ugliness needs to be seen – but won’t be (seen), until we ourselves choose to heal that which has left us feeling such a void within. As your story attests to Roberta, this healing is well and truly possible – what’s occurred for you is amazing and to be celebrated deeply.

  9. The difference I have experienced with Serge Benhayon, from every practitioner and presenter I had met before him, is that here was a man who didn’t seek to ‘hook’ or ‘tantalise’ whatsoever. He offered no ‘quick fix’, no escape and no masking of that which we must truly face, in order to reclaim ourselves back in the power of who we truly are. He held back nought in exposing that which was not true, and in delivering all that is.
    And, he walked his talk… Living and breathing his commitment to all and the All – humbleness and power in one, with no need to be put on a pedestal, for the love that he lives holds all as equally capable of living and embodying the same.
    This is NOT the way of the new age. The new age puts forth its teachers and so-called ‘healers’ as ‘more’ than you – as holding something you don’t have, but that you need… as such, it prays upon our emptiness, our lack of self-claiming, and our void of true and known worth within.
    I also knew I had met the real deal in Serge Benhayon, Roberta. Having spent many years constantly learning and seeing through many imposters, my discernment levels were high, and to this day, I am nought but deeply inspired by him and his ceaseless commitment to living the way of the soul, here on this earth.

    1. So beautiful Victoria what you share here about Serge Benhayon – your deep respect and appreciation for him and all that he brings is deeply felt – thank you.

  10. So cool Roberta. The modalities and overall philosophy presented by those who represent Universal Medicine has definitely been life changing for me. I no longer view my life as something I have to get through, or that it has to be a struggle if I want any rewards or that there is anything to prove. Nothing is asked of you other than to just be yourself and I say that lightly – it indeed feels like a HUGE ask, but the reality is that it is us who have walked away from that in the first place, so really we’re just being asked to return to ourselves and we are lovingly supported in doing that.

  11. Well said Roberta, I too was hooked in by my own lack of self worth and emptiness, believing I needed to be fixed by practitioners that believed they needed to be fixed, as well. As I know now, the energy in which I sought healing or looking for more, is the same energy I received back. Much to appreciate when we see through the avenues that are void of truth and re-connect to who we truly are… that for me too was Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine.

  12. Roberta, you are not alone in experiencing the struggle of your physical symptoms courtesy of what you were choosing to eat as in the fast-paced world that we live in today we are not taught to be reflective nor as transparent and aware of just how interrelated the ripple effect of all that we do affects how both we and others feel.

  13. At the moment when we have the epiphany “there has to be more to life than this” is when we need to be super discerning, but that is when we are often quite vulnerable and will take on any old thing that seems to offer a filling of the void.

  14. I loved reading this. It’s such a common theme running through many of the blogs from the Students of Unimed, myself included, that the desperate search for ‘something else’ came to a halt we met Serge Benhayon and reconnected to the Ancient Wisdom we all hold within.

  15. That internal calling ‘There has to be more to life than this’ is answered when you attend presentations of Universal Medicine and are reintroduced to the Ageless Wisdom that has been telling us the truth that it is in the way we choose to live that will open our awareness to the truth of love and purpose.

  16. We can think we have answers or have found something that “helps” but at the end of the day, if our body is telling us a different story, then perhaps the answers we have found aren’t actually answering all the questions.Universal Medicine is the kind of thing you know is absolutely true, its not something you know because you like what its about or because you think the books Serge writes are relatable. Its just true and every move Serge makes confirms a feeling you have in your cells.

  17. There is more to life than what we can see and/or touch. When going into the world of that immaterial part of life I haven’t known of anyone other than Serge Benhayon to explain the other part of life as clearly and confidently as one may do if they were to explain any part of our physical world.

  18. Thank you Roberta for an inspiring life story, in your continual search for truth, and the amazing connection that was offered by Serge Benhayon by just being in his presence, feeling the true love that lives within us all, so profound.

  19. Thank you for sharing Roberta. I can recall the many ‘trips’ I got sucked into in the past when searching for the elusive missing ingredient which by the way was my connection to self. It was Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine that presented that we need to discern everything as energy first as to whether it is harming or healing because everything is energy and therefore everything is because of energy. This can be clearly felt in the body and in the end if we come back to our body we find that the body never lies and can be the true marker of what energy we have chosen to be in at any given time.

  20. To those that say to themselves “there has to be more”, we can share with them that they are absolutely right and if they want to feel into it, Serge Benhayon will help them to open that door.

  21. I remember having ‘there must be more’ thoughts and feelings. These came at all different points in my life and from all different angles. It could have been low point but also high points, there was no consistency to when they came, they just came. It was like the opening to see when something wasn’t as it seemed, similar to get a secure job and when you haven’t got that you think that when you do everything will be fine. You get the job and then the feeling is still there and so you have something else ready to go to chase next ‘thing’ that will answer the question only to find that’s not it either. Some things can take days and others years but you still keep coming back to the question ‘there must be more’. Since Universal Medicine I haven’t had that question come up, it doesn’t supply the answers but more made the road clearer so I could follow the path I already could see.

  22. You highlight a great point in your update Roberta, Universal Medicine has been attacked and had many false allegations thrown at them for over 5 years now by the Media and some detractors keen on destroying this amazing healing organisation and Serge Benhayon’s reputation. But not once has Serge Benhayon or Universal Medicine faltered in their dedication or commitment to truly supporting and caring for everyone equally throughout this whole process. To me this speaks volumes of the strong integrity and immense love that Serge Benhayon lives on a daily basis and continues to inspire so many people with.

  23. It’s interesting how most spiritual modalities leave you aching and seeking for more – it’s a bit like you’re thirsty and you can never get enough water in your glass – and while we are seeking in this way we can never settle, where as the approach from the soul leaves you knowing you were born with a full glass and that glass always remains full no matter what happens to you.

  24. You are so right It is both crazy and ridiculous the things that we do to override the body! ‘I deliberately took prescribed anti-histamine tablets to enable me to drink alcohol so my face and eyes wouldn’t swell up – just to fit in – to be seen to be doing the same as everyone else – totally ridiculous!’ There is no judgement here as I know I have done similar things in the past but your honesty here made me see what we do more clearly. We put so much effort into overriding our body or fitting in with people if we put even half the amount of effort we do with this into truly reconnecting to ourselves and our Soul the world would be a completely different place. I love the testimony you have given regarding Serge it is so true .. his love, lived love, depth of care, tenderness, non imposing way, and genuine love of people helps us to see a different way without any words being spoken. pure gold. And yes he never ever ever has told anyone what to do or not do. The journalists that write all the lies about him would do good to take a leaf from his book so to speak.

  25. Roberta I had many forays also into the new age spirituality and although it seemed helpful and harmless at the time I can tell you that it was in fact for me very harmful. I am currently aware of this because my body now has to heal every step I made, and the closer I get to my soul, the more that comes up to be reviewed, felt and discerned. The more my body shows me the true harm of the new age and what it did to me personally the more I realise it’s just another way we are led away from ourselves and from our soul, from our inner qualities, and the from equality we each hold via our connection to our innermost heart. One of the draw cards of the new age is energy, yet though this appeals to the fact we know there is more than the physical, it does not look at the quality of energy which is vital to know, because what source of energy is it we are experiencing – spirit or soul? Without this discernment we can be deeply harmed by the energy of spirit, as the only healing and true restoration comes from the energy of our soul. In the work of Universal Medicine the discernment between spirit and soul is very up front, and they are the only organisation I know of that takes this level of energetic responsibility.

  26. We do have a responsibility to speak up against the extremes of cyber abuse… we have a responsibility to speak up against everything that is not true in our lives. Changes are taking place in areas of our lives but we have to ask ourselves as to whether the changes truly supports us, all of us or does it further deepen the mayhem we are living in.

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