by Roberta Himing, Gold Coast, Australia
Having arrived in this world during WW2 I entered a time of sombreness, duty and doubt about the future – that was my environment. By the time the war ended I and my two siblings were fed on a belief system that children were to be seen and not heard, sit up straight, don’t chew with your mouth open, you will think what I tell you to think and be good or the bogey man will get you. Early school followed that pattern, and I soon learned that you could not trust anyone. Piano lessons assured that I would be isolated and disciplined.
The years passed, but even when quite small I sensed somewhere within me that I was beautiful – and later on this sense sent me on many a wayward path as I grew older seeking to be recognised, acknowledged and accepted. This seeking continued into the marriage, into bearing children while living in a coal dust filled town in Victoria, being a community volunteer/fundraiser etc.
We moved to a beautiful fruit growing area near the Murray River, when as a young mother of three teenagers, I experienced an ‘epiphany’ if you like, as I felt despair had me wailing to the winds “there’s got to be more than this” – “there’s got to be something else” – my despair rang loud and clear – the response was rapid to fill my emptiness, the void, my need. Something happened – I started channelling – didn’t quite know what it was – but the words were so what I needed to hear – someone/something was listening and I believed it. It seemed to be true – it seemed to be love. But what did I have to gauge the quality of what I was hearing? I had no marker at that time.
Years later we moved further north to the most easterly point where I discovered the word Reiki – didn’t know what it was at first – but believed it must have been what I was looking for – this thing that I needed to fill the emptiness within. Met similar folk who constellated to my emptiness and we were all doing the spiritual new age thing together – all together in our non-connected-ness.
For nearly ten years I dabbled in all of those modalities, published a channelled book and still wondered why ‘I was not getting it’ – that void, that separateness would not leave me.
Then just into the year 2000 I had the opportunity to meet with Serge Benhayon – the knowingness that I had actually felt true love while sitting in that room – he didn’t say much – let me do most of the talking. But it was the ‘feeling’ that this short time had been profound and life changing for me. I felt ‘met’ without words as such being verbalised. It was a deep knowing from within that had no explanation. It just felt true.
I didn’t quite see the connection with my feeling of loss and my behaviour patterns at first – and continued on with learning about Aura Soma at a ‘healing’ centre – even though I mentioned what I was doing, Serge never said “you’d better not continue to do that” – and over the 12 years that I have known Serge Benhayon he has never ever said to me “don’t do that” – “do this” etc. – it has always been an unfolding of my own developing awareness of what was more appropriate for my body, and who I truly am – a slow unfolding admittedly and I still have a way to develop while learning that there is a choice in all that I do.
However, my life as it is now is awesome and amazing and I offer such appreciation and love to Serge Benhayon, all his family, the practitioners, the Clinic and Universal Medicine as the vehicle of the presentations, workshops, studies, etc. During this year of 2012 I have felt younger and more vitality than I experienced during my 40’s and 50’s. During those earlier years I did not understand the connection between all the headaches, bloating, sinusitis, obesity, lethargy and the food that I was taking into my body. With the Universal Medicine presentations I have attended there has been much clarity given to the effects of gluten and dairy on my body – it all makes such sense. When I think of the times that I deliberately took prescribed anti-histamine tablets to enable me to drink alcohol so my face and eyes wouldn’t swell up – just to fit in – to be seen to be doing the same as everyone else – totally ridiculous!
There now is the awareness of more joy in my life, relationships in general are becoming more open and natural, sleep patterns are way more healthy and healing. The practice of the gentle breath meditation is dissolving my anxiety levels, developing awareness of the benefits of being self loving and endeavouring to diminish complexities makes for more harmonious everyday living – living life now in simplicity to the best of my ability.
I have not personally read any of the mis-informed articles written by the journalists, nor listened to any of the sensationalised televised innuendos or lies as meted out by the hosts of those various shows that I have been informed about – I have not felt the need to do so – Love Just Is.
by Roberta Himing
Update: Since writing this blog Roberta Himing has come to inform herself widely regarding the newspaper articles and in particular the continued lies that appear and false allegations that appear online. “Inspiringly those initial words stand – ‘Love Just Is’ – and Universal Medicine stands testament to this, having not wavered in the face of the ill treatment of the press and of cyberbullies, however, at the same time there is a responsibility we all have in speaking out against the extremes of cyberabuse that is being increasingly normalised in our current society.”
As of August 2015 and 3 years after those first erroneous reports were published Roberta Himing continues to see Universal Medicine deal with the lies and innuendos, the untruths and the visciousness, with absolute grace and a consistency of care for people that has never faltered. In 2013 Roberta Himing received Esoteric Connective Tissue Therapy through Universal Medicine an experience that would support her to transform her understanding and relationship with constant pain. You can read about Roberta Himing’s experience here.